A psychiatrist ruined my life. I was sectioned and forced to take abilify last easter and my health and appearance has never been the same since. His farcical basis was that he was 'concerned' I was trying to treat my depression and anxiety holistically. When I ended up hospitalised with a severe allergic reaction to the abilify 11 days later he was only concerned about covering his own back. I haven't had to take the meds since which is a coded admission they almost killed me, but I do have to live with ruptured kidneys and testicular cancer which is being covered up. Not to mention the label of having been sectioned, simply for refusing to take medication based on the potential side effects. Psychiatry is a criminal cartel that must be stopped.
Let's be real, no one respects white coats. They think they're so big and bad. They're actually garbage and the court of public opinion is about to put them where they belong. In the trash. Total losers. They know nothing.
I am glad you listened. I was told the same, but sadly I believed the Drs because they after all are Drs, right? BIG MISTAKE on my part. Keep listening to yourself & stay away from these drugs, far, far, far, far, far away from them.
Thanks for this. A friend of mine just took his own life. He was a nurse. He had done a lot of research and left a note saying that after a lifetime of antidepressants he felt that his Central Nervous System was destroyed. He felt that he would never sleep again. He felt like he couldn't feel anything at all. He wanted anyone who knew him to become an advocate against these drugs. I always have been, and now even more so. I'm very sad about my friend. I'm happy that you have survived this. These drugs are evil. I think you aren't one in thousands, I would guess you are one in tens of millions.
I was forced into a psychiatric treatment. My child was taken away by my ex husband and I was forced into the treatment by a state. The drugs that they made me take and injection made me suicidal and I am thinking about ending it all.
@@beataannanowak659 You are loved... find a way to stay here. That is our main job as living beings...To stay alive as long as possible, if at all possible. Beyond that, to find even the slightest bit of peace and happiness in the tiniest things. Just that your heart beats..just that you're breathing.. here..now.. Just those things shows that you are loved and life is trying to stay alive through you. So stay..Please..against all the pain, loneliness, and horrors of reality...do it for your kid..🙏I am praying for you. As a fellow human brother.. I have tears in my eyes writing this.
I hear you about the God thing. Benzo withdrawal creates the scariest kind of fear one can ever imagine. It is the depths of hopelessness. I like to say, "You don't know suffering until you have been through benzo withdrawal!"
+MORCOPOLO0817 Amen and thanks to you and all of us helping to warn people of the dangers of benzos as well as other psychotropic drugs. I've been on clonazepam since 1987 and never until 2009 received my first warning about its addictiveness and how it can actually make panic disorder WORSE when taken long-term. Since then, two NPs and a pharmacist have confirmed that to me.
I send you my very best hope and support for you're healing. We can truly fully heal. Be as patient as you possibly can and practice the highest form of self care that you are able. I am two years from this video now and absolutely thriving in my life. Thanks for watching.
+gr8pyramid Good luck on your recovery. I know it is hard and sometimes no words can seem to comfort you. But it is best to be around loved ones and to let them know what you are going through.
I'm have just watched this video because of my intense research of these types of drugs. My new doctor just mentioned that the Clonazepam I have been taking for 10 yrs. (since the death of my first husband) shouldn't be taken for so long. BUT she was all about putting me on some kind of anti-depressant. I am weaning myself from this Benz now, any advise on how?
so sad, too bad! good Lord, I hate f-ing shrinks. You should be weened off very VERY slowly from any benzo or SUE their f-ing ass off! true story. two years ago it was : do no harm to your patient. take care of pain and anxiety. now it is 'there's an epidemic and health providers will not cover Dr's malpractice insurance if they write what they think best. very sad and aggresise
It is with great regret that I let you all know Rebecca left us in a very personal way Sunday morning. Her passing is devastating for me but she choose to live her life full of Joy without Benzo's then as a zombie with them. I am honored that she was my wife
spoketybacon Where the fuck is she Now ,you ask???.SHE IS DEAD !!!She hung herself !!!How cool do you feel NOW buddy..She killed herself from this shit so don't go thinking she abandoned ship from responding on RUclips from laziness or some bullshit like that.Please enlighten me ,you dumb,insensitive douche .I would love a reply back..b/c your response to this video makes you one of the cool kids I wanna have ignorant conversations with..I would love to hear your response Now ,Fucktard...
Same for me. My memory is severely impaired now to the extent I can't remember things that happened a few hours or days ago,. Learning memory function is really messed up, as is executive function and problem solving. I went from being a high achiever high IQ person, to a person who has brain fog most days and can't even do basic mental tasks that require any degree of mental focus. Benzos are drugs that literally do and can turn healthy intelligent people into vegetables and mentally retarded for want of a better term.
Many psychiatrists are addicted as well. They constantly need more money. They just can't live without pulling in more and more money, and do so at anyone else's expense.
I was a psychotropic guinne pig for the majority of the time after my diagnosis. Benzodiazepines destroyed my life. My addiction almost killed me. Thank you for being here!
I was misdiagnosed with depression and anxiety 7 years ago and given kolonapin and Zoloft. I was miserable so I tapered far to quickly. It took 6 years to feel better. I was finally diagnosed with low testosterone and treated for it with testosterone replacement therapy. I finally feel like my old self again. Healing from phych meds is possible but it can take a long time. Get a full hormone panel done before ever taking any drug.
I'm not glad that you suffered... But I'm vreally glad to hear this from a non "junkie". Most people treated me like some kind of junkie addict when I went through it, and nobody could wrap their mind around a non-addict suburban housewife being physically dependent on prescribed medication and having withdrawals, and really struggling. My family even disowned me because of it. My husband was and currently is the only one who understood at all.
I want to add... After the acute withdrawals were over I never looked back. I never ever took another Benzo again, after the physical dependence was broken I had no desire for them. And now I am so so so careful to research every single medication my new doctor suggests.
L'appel DuVide I can totally relate to you. I am going through this right now. Even had my 4yr old daughter taken away from me for thinking I was being treated correctly for my depression and ptsd.. She just turned 9... Still trying to get off of the meds..benzos are in my repertoire of drugs. Have been called an addict and fought with Drs and been told I have frontal lobe damage for them to keep me on drugs.... since I am 19.. I am 39. Totally sick. Miss my baby girl who isn't a baby any more. Sad story.
This could be my story. Thank you for sharing your feelings of loss. I do have children and feel a terrible loss for the years I parented, in a legally prescribed never abused haze on benzos. I grieve for those 6 years, and now I'm in a brutal taper. You speak eloquently. I wish you healing.
i have a simular story to you. been overprescibred too many drugs, and my life became a living hell. im glad you are speaking out about this, we need more people to tell the truth about phychiatry. it is absolutely ugly!
I should mention that Rebecca took her own life in April 2017, at her home in Juneau Alaska after a promising but long struggle. I can understand why she did that since I have faced a similar struggle for nearly 5 years as a result of taking benzos and antidepressants for years, then stopping too quickly. Some would say it was return of her anxiety/depression, a typical opinion of a common psychiatrist. But the crucial factor was likely the rx drugs and the further damage from stopping quickly. It can take more than a year to safely taper off these drugs. It can take far more than 5 years to recover if you don't taper slowly. My condition after stopping the poisons quickly is far more serious and very different than when I was taking them (and before starting them). Real experts are sounding alarms about the nerve damage from psych chemicals, and about pharma deception, financial dominance, and information control.
tedd blackk so sorry to hear she passed. I can’t imagine living in Alaska in winter. It’s Feb right now and the lack of light this winter has made the seasonal issue that much more intense. I wonder of living in a place with more sunlight and warmth year round would have helped her. If I don’t go south next winter, I won’t make it. Rest In Peace, and thank you.
I can't believe she is gone.From reading all the comments and her responses it sounded like she was off all meds and thriving.She had stated several times she was the happiest she has ever been just one year ago.2 years after posting this video.Wow..I'm so sorry..I am so curious if anyone had talked with her in her last days to know what was going on that let up to her deciding to take it into her own hands.She must of really been hurting..I'm glad you are safe and back home in heaven ..xx
As far as psychiatrists are concerned everyone is mentally ill in some degree, shape, or form. Don't let them suck you into believing you're abnormal and need "fixing" We all have issues, psychiatrists don't help, they switch your issue out with one they can profit from.
You're a smart and courageous woman because you got free of these (legal) drugs. It is unbelievably difficult. I know because I had a similar experience. It took me 12 years before to decide to stop them. Thank you so much for adding your experience to the other ones on the web so that the thruth will emerge and people will stop taking them. I am convinced that you will help many people who search for some inspiration and courage too. I don’t trust doctors anymore. At least most of them because they are taught by the pharmaceutical industry which finance most of the programs in the universities.
Thank you for this. I am experiencing this now. It has been 5 months since my last dose of Klonopin. It is a living hell. Because of you and the community of benzo withdrawal survivors, I know I can make it.
How long were you on it? I was taking it as a addict for about a year. when i hopped off I had seized out so many times they had to put me in a coma. it took me about three months to smile again. I would not be doing nearly as good If I didn't find the therapeutic value in magic mushrooms.
I like his approaches. Very abresive yet caring to a degree. How kind he is is to be witnessed by meeting him. Psychiatric poisons that not even sea critters like.
Your story is all too common. Thank you for sharing. I was prescribed prozac for sleep problems I had during a stressful time in my undergrad. I was on for 5 months, until I developed a tremor in my left hand. After I discontinued prozac for 6 months my libido disappeared and I developed total erectile dysfunction at the age of 22. It has been 4.5 years now and neither the tremor or the sexual dysfunction (PSSD) have resolved. Both of these issues have had a huge impact on my life and I was not informed when I prescribed the drugs of these risks in any way.
'This can be addictive'...my doc said 'After awhile, some people think they need it'...these are not strong warnings...how 'bout, 'This is a gateway to hell for an alarming number of people'
I so appreciate your story regarding being first on psychiatric drugs then benzos. I had the same experience, however started at a young age, 15 with all of the meds and been on meds for many, many, years. I'm now into my final and I know it's my final quest or I can't think of a good word but it's time for me to get off all of it. I got off one but was still on others. God is good and spiritual faith does wonders and has helped me through my entire life with so much and I totally get it when you lose that connection. That you are no longer "just surviving" but living is so good to hear and also that you have a supportive husband and found a connection with other people who I think you met with in person is something I need as well. I'm so happy that you have a chance at life. God Bless You!
I was put on Xanax and then klonopin. I noticed that it did take my anxiety away, but I also over time I realized I didn’t feel joy in anything. I was becoming more depressed, emotionally numb. I’d look at a beautiful sunset and just feel nothing and I knew something was very wrong. Now the withdrawals I’m going through.., so dark so depressed beyond anything I’ve ever felt. I could go on but you summed it up in your video. I’m scared I will never be the same.
Thank you for this... I've been weaning since October.. I've managed to get off of 4, damn near killed me via stroke, and currently still having issues from the damage they caused. The Benzos (been on them 8 yrs) are the hardest for sure because I don't sleep without it..at all..and that causes the depression to get BAD. One day at a time! I cannot wait to be FREE
Klaus S We have THC receptors in our brains. Weed is a good relaxant. It may not be ideal (still a substance) but provided you're not one who suffers paranoia from it, it will lift your gloom and also put you to sleep. My sister has a licence to grow her own for medical purposes cos she's got a fractured vertebrae. She says it's a great way to sleep pain free. I wish you freedom n wellness. Be blessed.
I'm so sorry for what you've been through. It's horrifying. I may well lose my marriage and had I never been put on benzos, I am certain things would be different. They turned me into someone I had never been and someone I've not been since. I can only pray our stories save the people who are considering taking a benzo or who currently take a benzo.
Cassie Skye : you are all negligent and pretty damned rotten to those of us who've been taking benzodiazepines for anxiolisis for years, and your pathetic stories have law enforcement calling OUR medicine narcotics, and irresponsible doctors fearing ANY prescription for them! You have nobody to blame for your poor decisions in life but yourself! You can't handle truth, and should stop whining about stupid shit that nobody cares about! Benzodiazepines are good medications, and if you acted badly while taking them, it's nobody's fault but your own!
Peter, you sound like a troll or an apologist for big pharma. Benzos have no legitimate use, except perhaps as anesthetics - in which case they should be dispensed only to knock someone out for surgery. You have no need to have benzos in your possession, Peter, unless you are an addict.
Thank you for your voice. I'm fighting for person who doesn't have voice because of the drugs. Those are E. V. I. L!!! Somebody should pay a huge price for ruin so many lives and taken so many away
I thank you for having the courage to tell your story sadly its all to common story these days... I only wish that 1 day these drugs wont be used anymore they are simply not fit for human consumption nor are they safe you only have to look at the huge amount of side effects and reactions they can cause. But im happy to hear you now have your life back many others haven't been so fortunate.
+cameron E Thank you and I agree with you. I made this video 2 years ago and I am the happiest, healthiest and most productive I have ever been in my life. I am DEEPLY grateful.
But, from other comments above, it *looks* *like* you took your own life recently....????.... If so, I'm saddened, and hope your surviving husband sees these words of support from me....
I could listen to you forever. You have no doubt helped many people. You mentioned a strong and loving soul, your husband, but clearly the same applies to you, manifold. Thank you.x
This video makes me cry. I took clonzapam low dose for 6 months,only drug I ever took and weaned off. I hear you dear , am being forced to take meds by my psychiatrist and gp and work. I was told you have to take them for life or we don't pay you if you ever are off work for anxiety. I recently told them i won't . Even if I was denied a billion dollars as take home pay, I would rather be homeless than ever put anything for mental health in my mouth again. Am seeing a psychologist and we are doing intense therapy.
The key is to taper off very slowly; low dose C for 6 months is enough to be a huge problem if stopped quickly (even at just .5mg/day). Proper taper can be several months to over a year. About 40pct of people are more vulnerable to bad effects for genetic reasons. You might tell your doctors about the Ashton Manual.
You're right. These benzos are like nuclear bombs. The real dangers are not at all emphasized. The doctor who prescribed mine did not at all describe the side effects or long term dangers, or withdrawal issues. The emergency relief they provided was appreciated. But they really need to be very carefully administered.
It's very refreshing to hear your story. I feel I am in the back-end of my withdrawal but it is still very present in my life. I used to be such a people person but now I can barely make eye contact with my own family. The fact that you are out of that darkness gives me hope that I will be too - hopefully sooner than later. Anyways, I really appreciate you sharing your story.
I know how hard it is and am so sorry you are struggling. It really feels endless and all-compassing. I am the healthiest and most productive I have ever been in my life now and I hope that encourages you. It used to be a triumph just to walk to the end of my driveway and get the mail. Now I have my own business, lift weights, walk 4 miles most days, sing in a choir, socialize, go to church and generally enjoy my life. I still have my struggles because life is hard but I am living my life. You will get there even when it doesn't feel like it, you will.
umbietoo how long total until you felt normal again?and how many milagrams of benzo where you on a day?and for how long where you on the benzodiazepines?
+Michael Caprino I did a reasonable search on Klonopin and Luvox in 2010 and only found that they had some toxicity issues. Mentioned that to doc, and he had no particular reaction. I think we used info and studies funded by pharma directly or indirectly. My symptoms remained high due to not increasing doses. He closed practice years later, without a referral, and made no mention of the risk of stopping. Now two years of ruin; no real progress.
+Ted Blac yea luckily I havn't become addicted to benzos but taking antipsychotics have caused me all kinds of problems, the problem with doctors Iv'e seen is they give out these drugs like sweeties they can be real idiots when it comes to our health.
Since Rebecca is no longer here, I hope those who post will use more self-restraint. Some say it was return of anxiety/depression, a typical opinion of a psychiatrist. The crucial factor was likely rx drugs and stopping quickly. I know from my own experience that this damage can easily cause suicide, with an intense drive to end things that can last 4 years and counting. My condition after stopping the poisons too quickly is much more serious and much different than when I was taking them and *before starting* them. Experts are sounding alarms about the toxic effects of psych chemicals, against the pharma system of deception, money & information dominance. (eg, british authorities now do not approve continuous use of benzos for more than 4 weeks) Even before my ruin from stopping quickly, my rx drugs impaired my judgment for 20 years, with life-changing harm. Some people have little choice but to trust pill doctors, but explore the credible options. (If Rebecca had discovered cbt long ago, then she might have made it.)
I tried hard after watching your video last August. I got off my antidepressant, but the anxiety and panic attacks came back. I went back on. I hope one day I can come off it. It sounds like you had it so much more worse than me. Rest In Peace Rebecca. Know that you have really inspired me and hopefully many others!
Developed gynecomastia from taking Risperdal and Invega. I was dropped fromt he class action lawsuit because I took the medication as an adult. I had to have a bilateral mastectomy because of it, and am now permanently disfigured and am in physical and mental pain now. I was never warned about any of these long-term side effects, not by the mental health center. Psychiatry has destroyed my life. I no longer take their drugs, BTW, but now live with the long-term effects and destruction of my life.
I'm so happy i finally decided to go off of my drugs. I probably lost a good 7+ years of myself to theese drugs. I am so happy that you got control of your own life and decided to live real!!! God bless and keep up the good work😊
I also take Clonazepam and have been on them for quite a few years, I dread the day I decide to detox from them! I do have a medical condition though, so maybe I am best staying on them! What dosage were you on ? I am on 2x 2mg Twice Daily, so 8mg daily! My psychiatrist Did tell me that it would take me a good Year at least to wean myself off them completely 😣
I just got off the Fentanyl patch June 28 and now I have to start on the syc meds. I know it will probably take the same amount of time. Slowly I'm getting my life.back and hope to live life again. Thanks for the positive feedback it means a lot to me.😎
Beautiful truth, thanks so much for adding it to the collective voice that is crying out about the damage done to countless lives because of psych drugs. I'm really glad you had the strength and determination to overcome this very real human tragedy that is playing out all over the world. Thank you for your courage to share your story. Your video is very well done.
Thank you for making this video. I am 6 months in to the suffering through. Suffering the toxins of 11 years of SSRI’s and benzos I am lucky that I have my extremely supportive bf too. Thank you again
they the Psychiatrists may seem they care about you but they are extremely under educated as to the dangers of the drugs they prescribed. We are all victims of the system as we grow being told to do what the good doctor says. I feel for you as I lived the same experience. I lost 12 years of my life using these drugs, totally drug free and have my life back. God bless you for your story.
Bless your heart. I'm going thru the same .I started cutting back a week ago. I been suffering from depression and panic attacks going on 25 years and to be honest I just don't know how much more I can take.The pic you see of me was taken on a real good day ! I'm happy for you now that you are feeling better.best of luck to you . Scott
You are going to get through this!!! I KNOW you can do it because I did and I was an utter wreck. I totally have my life back, make my own money (Paid for big car repairs on my own debit card!), joined a community choir and am singing again after a 20 year hiatus, cooking new foods, garening, sewing and in general am thriving and excited about life. It is nothing short of miraculous. If I can do it you can too. Life is still hard and challenging because that is life but I am coping and functional. When you are able and only then because I know how overwhelming it can all be, I HIGHLY recommend DBT as therapy. It is everything I was always looking for after talk therapy left me feeling like screaming, "Now what?!?!" Right now you must practice the highest form of self care that you can. Cut any BS relationships, cut out any junk food, alcohol and caffeine and do all you can to distract yourself. Audiobooks were a huge help to me even when I wasn't able to comprehend the words. Netflix TV series were helpful too. Go super slowly as you cut the drug and never cut more than 10% of your current dose no matter what a doctor says. Google liquid titration if you are unfamiliar with that as it is the safest and slowest way that causes the least trauma to the body. Hold until you are stable before you cut again. Keep a journal of what you eat and how you are cutting the drug so you can look for patterns. Ditch any time table you may have for getting off the drug and really listen to your body. I wish you the very best.
You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story. It is SO NEEDED. I too have a similar story but I'm not able to video it yet. The part where you talked about how the drugs/withdrawal stole your faith so resonated with me. In the depths of acute withdrawal I would sob to my family and really felt like God must've abandoned me. I knew it wasn't true but that darkness is relentless. I am so very happy to hear you say that you are not just surviving anymore. It's a perfect way to describe life off of these drugs. It's a really good way to describe life ON them as well because it IS BLEAK:( I could go on but you are so encouraging. You are helping so many more people than you even realize. Praise God for healing you. Hope this message finds you well!
Hi Rachel! Thank you for taking the time to watch my video and leave a note. I am doing great. It's been about 6 months since I made the video and I have my own business, making my own money and for once can contribute. My husband was always so kind but it feels great to be paying my own way. I sing in a choir, go to church again and do lots of cooking with new recipes and foods. I would definitely say I'm still healing. It's a long process. This is the most functional and productive I have been in 20 years so it's pretty amazing. I am deeply grateful for the compassion and gratitude I have. I'm glad my video can encourage others. Blessings to you on your journey.
I've been through it too! I swear I thought I was going to start crying when she shares her story. Honest, I could feel the pain! Good luck peace be with you! Thanks for sharing!🤗
What an amazing strength inner you have. I can't thank you enough for sharing your heart and soul in such a public way. I understand what you have gone thru and still are! Shame on Big pharma for actually creating a bigger problem especially for people who are already fragile and suffering. Dr's are taught to prescribe and many are only trying to help, I agree with the others here who say "let the Dr go on these drugs and experience their debilitating effects" It would certainly change their perspective...
Thank You for your TRUTH! my heart aches for what you needlessly had to suffer through.. Praise God you found out the drugs were making you sick...We live in a very sad demonic world where the enemy deceptively works to destroy mankind in so many different ways even the Doctors who prescribed these meds are being deceived...May the truth continue to be revealed about the dangers of these demonic medications..God Bless you dear child You are very BRAVE and STRONG and a BEAUTIFUL human
Dan Harakis only to a point. His bout Love, then good food. it’s not gmo and adulterated. Good medicine is hard to find and pricey....just what they want
I took lorazepam for 19 days and c/t went in to withdrawals not knowing what was happening to me. I'm still suffering after 7 months I wish I would never takin this nasty drug.
I was on it from 2006 until 2013, given to me after having gone 16 days without sleep from Ambien. My doctor and his family destroyed my life to cover up. I cannot believe these pharmaceuticals have not been shut down but they are running a money racket with Wall Street, the doctors and the government (FDA and the States.) Yes, my biggest mistake was to "ask my doctor." Yet people keep being told to ask them. sigh....Thank you for sharing.
@@jonfred9675 There is genetic variation in sensitivity. For some 3 weeks with CT is enough for lasting injury. New guidelines say limit use to 2 to 4 weeks (if possible). The common defense is that it's the originial symptoms returning; so stay on it.
OMG this sounds exactly like MY life!!! SO SIMILAR!!!! Such a loss for us both. Trust of doctors, trust of medical profession....and not listening to my inner voice that told me from the very beginning that something was wrong. At 34 I was disabled by all of this, and ended up on disability. At 49, only now, am I realizing everything you have just said here. FIFTEEN years, years I thought should be the best of my life, the prime of life....gone. I have a plan to get off Disability, and am currently down to only one medication...after weaning carefully. I could go on and on...but I fee like I am listening to my own story as you speak...I'm a bit overwhelmed by what you say, but I am very thankful you said it. - Love K
Thank you so much for having the courage to share these important truths. I've had a very similar experience to your own & stopping psychiatric meds was the best decision I ever made.
My cold turkey went 8 weeks -12 weeks ! The first 2 weeks were HELL ! Not recommended, I’m bull headed and ex military, ex medical professional and pretty strong. I wanted these drugs OUT of my body ASAP when a friend showed me Dr Breggin’s videos on youtube and how these drugs are SO BAD for you and damage your brain. God carried me thru the withdrawal. I had every symptom except hallucinations. I had no help. I was alone, my husband was in other room and abusive. I ended up leaving him 3 months later :)
My wife is going through this right now. Thank you for this video. It gives me faith that she will come out of it. I will never ever take advice from a doctor again without investigating it. My wife has been off the benzos for 4 solid months and she is totally detached from reality. I am taking care of her the best that I can and praying that God will eventually heal her. Happy to see that you are healing. Thanks again.
It appears that she stopped too quickly; they must be stopped very slowly depending on dose and duration of use. Now at 4 months off restarting can have serious negative results, even reverse effects. Also, if she has a medical procedure she should request "no benzos" since this can aggravate her condition. It's important to avoid foods that aggravate her symptoms since that means the neurons are not yet defended from high glutamate content. What seems to be detachment from reality can actually be reality that does not ring true for those not going through it; doctors in particular are skeptical because their common drug info sources don't mention this. Don't expect her to recover soon; it can take years, and it's gruesome; nearly unbearable. It's neurological injury that has physical and psychological symptoms. How can this hell be imposed by doctors ? They rely on pharma info.
@@tedd_blackk . Tapering did not cause the problem. The meds did. My wife was totally messed up while taking the drug as directed. Her doctor dismissed the ton of symptoms that she was having and suggested that she up the dosages. We said no. Though she is still having problems 2/3 of the symptoms have disappeared without the drugs. She was sleeping 2-3 hours a night on the drugs and sleep aids(natural or otherwise) had no effect. She now sleeps like a baby without anything at all. She was eating next to nothing during use of the meds, lost a lot of weight(went from 140 down to 95 lbs) and now that she is off them she eats normally. Doctors are clueless when it comes to psych meds. They are totally guessing and destroying lives in the process.
Amen!!! To all you said! Please, all of us who have been harmed, let’s get together and get reparation! Let’s get justice for those harmed and get these companies to listen and be responsible with their drugs. Somehow...let’s do this so that others don’t suffer.
Where were you God, when both myself and millions of your other supposed children cried out begging for mercy? Suffering is the great equalizer..it eventually shows many "The real truth"..maybe this had to happen to some of us? RIP.. You had a beautiful ♥ heart and truly deserve the best life imaginable in the next dimension.
Thank you for the information you have shared about your life struggles with psychiatric drugs. These medications are handed out like candy's with very little to no research whatsoever. They may tell you about a few side effects but they never reveal how difficult and horrible withdrawal of these drugs truly are. They are basically slow barbaric forms of poison . Love and talking to others that really care about you would probably be more beneficial than any of these drugs combined. Glad to see you're feeling better . God bless.
I lived through this as well, my journey has gone on for YEARS an bc I didn't know what was going on that it WD bc of the benzos and was WD, I lived in a state of cold turkey WD for four years and now am suffering the aftermath, in a type of extended sickness bc of this- my journey from hell started in 08 - much love to you and thank you so much
Thank you for this video. I went through the same. Being put on psych drugs, being told I need it, and trying to come off as soon as I could going through many months of withdrawal. During all this time I learned what true living hell is. All the problems I initially visited the psychiatrist with in hindsight seem like a nice ride on a blue unicorn on a green field under the rainbow. The lies the psychiatric professionals collectively communicated in defense of the drugs during all the months of my taking and coming off the drugs made me truly understand how society works, how people work. As a descendant of holocaust survivors, I now understand how the holocaust happened.
I started taking benzo, antidepressants, antipsychotics... everything! I was told the same thing. I was 22 years old when it happened. I’m now 30 and have been off all of my medications for 5 months. I feel so much better! They ruined my life during that period of time. I did what my doctors said. I’m just getting my life back. The best thing is to have support from loved ones and working through it. I never thought I would but I did. Anyone who is feeling like the drugs are making you worse. Talk to your doctor and tapper off. Just like what she said. It takes time but you will emerge from the fog.
can i tapper of both clonazepam (0.5 mg) & vortioxetin (10mg) have been using for 3 weeks only.. I don't want to stay on these pills which cannot give me relef rather more I'll feeling.. Please advice me n ur support needed 🙏 iam eagerly waiting for ur reply, I don't want to regret in future help meme. .
Many thanks for making this video. I have been in the same situation and it's been 1 week that I have tapered off. I can see it is not just me going through this darkness and loss. Glad you have made it.
Hold on... Its going to be better. Realize its because of those substances... Surround Yourself with people that treat with love rather than medication. Seek friendship. Maybe dog? Looks like its easier for dogs to love than humans. Bad time will pass. Try to eat healthy especially on brekfest eat a lot
4 years out and still in hell. I'm not religious, but could always feel a connection to something greater than myself. I remember walking in the park with the wind blowing and hearing birds chirp and thinking how beautiful and amazing it all was. Now I have no connection to any of that. It's all just darkness, no connection to nature or other human beings. After enduring this for 4 years I find it extremely difficult to relate to anyone anymore. If there is a God he could've designed a better more resilient biological system than our human bodies. No human or any living being should have to endure something like this. We're all only here such a short time, it's maddening. I'm just over life in general. If i were to get a life threatening diagnosis at this point I wouldn't be able to fight. I have no fight left. I put myself to sleep at night by contemplating suicide. It brings me relief. I wouldn't do it, but it definitely helps to think about it.
you are very strong and courageous to post this. videos like this are extremely important for those who are experiencing the nightmare of anxiety/depression treatment through pharmaceuticals. thank you:)
Corlesis I'm not sure but it was announced in one of my benzo support groups and I assume it's because she couldn't take the protracted withdrawal anymore.
***** facebook...Paul Chomiak He's very public you can Google him he's in two or three of the same support groups as me I don't remember which one's one it is benzo recovery the other one is benzo recovery are rated for those of us who want to share dirty jokes or drop the F-bomb as much as we want without getting kicked out LOL
The drugs also destroyed my life. I burst into tears watching this because I know exactly what you mean. The drugs gave me the most horrifying, obsessive intrusive thoughts that I never had before the drugs or since quitting them. But I tried to take my own life to get away from the psychiatric poisoning hell. Now 3 years clean from psych drugs, I am so thankful I survived but the drugs destroyed everything I ever worked or lived for, destroyed all of my relationships and I lost my life savings. I am left alone and can barely feel anything. I have permanent physical damage from the drugs too.
Thank you for sharing your story💜 I'm so so sorry for all you've had to go through:( I'm so glad you are doing better!! I know this is from a few years ago but hope things are still good:) these drugs almost killed me literally this year caused not only more mental issues but serious physical issues I've never had before! Including a breathing dysfunction I want to eventually make a vid too I think it's great you shared your story you deserve to be heard! Sharing can also help out so much thanks again! You are strong!!!
I'm a complete mess. My parents are both dead and my depression/anxiety/grief was so bad I wanted to disapear. My mom was bipolar/schizoaffective and died when I was 35. Been on meds since 1986 cuz I had severe OCD. I'm 48 and I'm a complete mess - after seeing this I feel no hope ever :( :( Paxil brought my sanity back and K-pin prevented me from offing myself. Both parents went into hospice and died on drugs anyway cuz they both had incurable cancer. Everything will kill me in the end :(
If you feel the medicine offers you true help and hope then that is different from me. I gained nothing and lost the majority of myself and life. I cannot speak for anyone else and will never make blanket statements about drugs which has cost me friends in that community and that is fine. I am not militant in my views. If they help you and truly give you more and higher quality of life then that is a positive. Certainly there are places in life for drugs. The overall over medication of America I do find apalling. No doctor ever supported me in asking questions of the drugs to see if they were the cause of my issues and tvey were. No doctor directed me to DBT or other skill based therapy and that revolutionized my life. All I encountered for years and over multiple disciplines was an ever ready prescription pad and I think that is a huge problem. I am grateful to be free though o suffered even more painfully getting here. Never cold turkey stop a drug. Sadly doctors seem to have zero clue how to safely help you off of them. Never cut 10% of your current dose. It will always be worth it to play it safe and go slowly. Many people do it too fast and suffer beyond what they might have. Others feel great at first and then it hits and a doctor will use that misery as proof you needed the drug not as a latent form of withdrawal. Hang in there. I know life can be incredibly hard. Try to find helpful support and meaning for your days.
Thank you for sharing your story. I was going off my medications three times, last time I made a big mistake going too fast off Effexor 75 mg, and i ended up isolated at home on my own for 4 months, had a difficulty communicating and going out of home. Now I'm feeling slightly better, but still not functioning properly. I hope its the last time i was taking meds, and i never will take it again.
I have suffered most of my life with OCD/anxiety, then major depression. I have been on a total of 12 medications so far, and only ativan worked, but I stopped taking it. Even klonopin didnt work. I remember taking like 5-6 medications at once. It was tough. I had to tough it out for so long. I felt like all these drugs were just a big pharma placebo since nothing seemed to work for me. I had to always fight hard on my own. I do think these drugs are over-prescribed these days. Even though I always get sidetracked and can never do anything, one doctor recommended stimulants, adderall for me, but I refused to take it. I feel like it will do more harm than good. Same with Tylenol 2, I had been prescribed it but never filled the prescription. Even now I wish I could say its easy. I try to cope with it, but 7 years with severe ocd has taken a large toll on me, with all these thoughts and anxiety constantly repeating in my head. I keep feeling like im loosing myself and so desperate to kill myself, but never do it. Its hard when your family is never there, and doesnt support you. I'm sorry these medications and life has been rough with you. I do think sometimes they can be a big help, but I dont think they should be prescribed to like everyone these days. Them and painkillers are used too often.
I commend this woman for having the courage to share her story. It has inspired me to share mine. Due to not wanting to put myself out there by doing a video (as I work for a very reputable drug free company). Here is the "short" version of my story: I have beat hard drug addiction, addiction to alcohol, Marijuana, and prescription medication. My wake-up call came when I went on an all night binge on coke. I spent all my money for gas n food for the next 3 weeks and sped home from a friends place at 115mph the entire time, while coming down. I went straight back to my other "friends" place and continued my binge throughout the night. That morning, broke and coming down HARD, I had a revelation. I cried as I prayed for my life. I went through my entire address list in my phone and deleted EVERY single contact that gave me access to drugs. That (what seemed like at the time) "small" thorough action, without a doubt saved my life. Never once did I look back, nor touch hard drugs again. That was at the mere age of 23yrs old. This April it will mark 10 years since that dreadful day. Another interesting fact was that NONE of those people, those "friends" that I deleted, didn't even try contacting me what so ever since that day. It just proves that those people were NEVER my "friends". Anyone who hesitates a so called friendship like that, may be taking those precious moments that may actually end up saving their life. I was fortunate enough to get a second chance. Too often, many don't, so TAKE IT... Your life is in YOUR control, no one else's,... so TAKE IT!!! The last habit (and yes it IS possible to get addicted to pot!) I kicked cold turkey in the summer of 2011. It was 100% mental and ironically enough VERY easy to kick. As a chronic pain patient, I had to make a choice. My health or my pleasures. I chose my health. My wake up call came when I ultimately tried to out smart my pain management doctor. That dumb, selfish choice almost cost me the relief from daily, unimaginable severe daily pain. I end up making it through the ordeal through the 'skin if my teeth'. Life is hard. Never expect it to be easy. Sometimes you gotta fight through every day and push yourself to your limit to survive, but in the end, it is worth it. I hope that my story can inspire or help even one person out there. Sometimes you gotta be a little selfish and put yourself first. I leave with just one thought: If you can't take care of yourself and LOVE yourself, who will? and how can you take care of and love others, if you don't take care of and love yourself? The answer is simple: You can't.
Benzos are extremely addictive. Withdrawal from benzos is a nightmare. I've had to withdraw from opiates and benzos. They're both about the same. Panic and fear for weeks along with loss of appetite and lethargy. I have anxiety disorder and my psychiatrist won't prescribe me benzos which work well for it.
That was very moving. You really captured this experience in words. I'm so glad you survived this & are rebuilding your life. W/o these drugs it will be amazing!
A psychiatrist ruined my life. I was sectioned and forced to take abilify last easter and my health and appearance has never been the same since. His farcical basis was that he was 'concerned' I was trying to treat my depression and anxiety holistically. When I ended up hospitalised with a severe allergic reaction to the abilify 11 days later he was only concerned about covering his own back. I haven't had to take the meds since which is a coded admission they almost killed me, but I do have to live with ruptured kidneys and testicular cancer which is being covered up. Not to mention the label of having been sectioned, simply for refusing to take medication based on the potential side effects. Psychiatry is a criminal cartel that must be stopped.
Psychiatrists need to suffer the same losses as their patients.
Let's be real, no one respects white coats. They think they're so big and bad. They're actually garbage and the court of public opinion is about to put them where they belong. In the trash.
Total losers. They know nothing.
after my psychiatrist told me "the usual treatment is drugs forever" I was like oh hell naw and haven't been back.
I am glad you listened. I was told the same, but sadly I believed the Drs because they after all are Drs, right? BIG MISTAKE on my part. Keep listening to yourself & stay away from these drugs, far, far, far, far, far away from them.
Amen to that. They are dangerous.
it's a lie... or they teach them propaganda from the industry....
Dr. MEHTA ALSO DABBLES IN E.C.T...a Terrible person and a grossly incompetent so-called physician! STAY AWAY FROM THAT EVIL MAN!
blackcat good for you!!!
Thanks for this. A friend of mine just took his own life. He was a nurse. He had done a lot of research and left a note saying that after a lifetime of antidepressants he felt that his Central Nervous System was destroyed. He felt that he would never sleep again. He felt like he couldn't feel anything at all. He wanted anyone who knew him to become an advocate against these drugs. I always have been, and now even more so. I'm very sad about my friend. I'm happy that you have survived this. These drugs are evil. I think you aren't one in thousands, I would guess you are one in tens of millions.
jeddyjesus hey unfortunately she committed suicide about a year ago her anxiety came back
@@buffygordon4206 You mean the woman in this video?
I was forced into a psychiatric treatment. My child was taken away by my ex husband and I was forced into the treatment by a state. The drugs that they made me take and injection made me suicidal and I am thinking about ending it all.
@@beataannanowak659 You are loved... find a way to stay here. That is our main job as living beings...To stay alive as long as possible, if at all possible. Beyond that, to find even the slightest bit of peace and happiness in the tiniest things. Just that your heart beats..just that you're breathing.. here..now.. Just those things shows that you are loved and life is trying to stay alive through you. So stay..Please..against all the pain, loneliness, and horrors of reality...do it for your kid..🙏I am praying for you. As a fellow human brother.. I have tears in my eyes writing this.
@@jalanG10 Thank you for your kind words. I don't feel loved or liked and at the present moment I don't even love or like myself.
I hear you about the God thing. Benzo withdrawal creates the scariest kind of fear one can ever imagine. It is the depths of hopelessness. I like to say, "You don't know suffering until you have been through benzo withdrawal!"
+MORCOPOLO0817 Amen and thanks to you and all of us helping to warn people of the dangers of benzos as well as other psychotropic drugs. I've been on clonazepam since 1987 and never until 2009 received my first warning about its addictiveness and how it can actually make panic disorder WORSE when taken long-term. Since then, two NPs and a pharmacist have confirmed that to me.
I send you my very best hope and support for you're healing. We can truly fully heal. Be as patient as you possibly can and practice the highest form of self care that you are able. I am two years from this video now and absolutely thriving in my life. Thanks for watching.
+gr8pyramid Good luck on your recovery. I know it is hard and sometimes no words can seem to comfort you. But it is best to be around loved ones and to let them know what you are going through.
I'm have just watched this video because of my intense research of these types of drugs. My new doctor just mentioned that the Clonazepam I have been taking for 10 yrs. (since the death of my first husband) shouldn't be taken for so long. BUT she was all about putting me on some kind of anti-depressant. I am weaning myself from this Benz now, any advise on how?
so sad, too bad! good Lord, I hate f-ing shrinks. You should be weened off very VERY slowly from any benzo or SUE their f-ing ass off! true story. two years ago it was : do no harm to your patient. take care of pain and anxiety. now it is 'there's an epidemic and health providers will not cover Dr's malpractice insurance if they write what they think best. very sad and aggresise
It is with great regret that I let you all know Rebecca left us in a very personal way Sunday morning. Her passing is devastating for me but she choose to live her life full of Joy without Benzo's then as a zombie with them. I am honored that she was my wife
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can find peace.
Chris Gerondale sorry for you loss
Chris Gerondale I thought she had recovered from the benzos?
Chris Gerondale am sorry for your loss, I came across this video while researching benzos and mental health meds in general
She had. But after her recovery the anxiety returned.
yea these antipsychotics have messed me up, memory loss and problems thinking, suppressed appetite, less emotional...
and where the fuck are you know? You just dissappear? wtf?
less emotional would be a good thing for me right now, meds can make life more tolerable if you're a sensitive person
Michael Caprino benzoides are not anti psychotics. Pleasee confirm this someone.
spoketybacon Where the fuck is she Now ,you ask???.SHE IS DEAD !!!She hung herself !!!How cool do you feel NOW buddy..She killed herself from this shit so don't go thinking she abandoned ship from responding on RUclips from laziness or some bullshit like that.Please enlighten me ,you dumb,insensitive douche .I would love a reply back..b/c your response to this video makes you one of the cool kids I wanna have ignorant conversations with..I would love to hear your response Now ,Fucktard...
Same for me. My memory is severely impaired now to the extent I can't remember things that happened a few hours or days ago,. Learning memory function is really messed up, as is executive function and problem solving. I went from being a high achiever high IQ person, to a person who has brain fog most days and can't even do basic mental tasks that require any degree of mental focus. Benzos are drugs that literally do and can turn healthy intelligent people into vegetables and mentally retarded for want of a better term.
Many psychiatrists are addicted as well. They constantly need more money. They just can't live without pulling in more and more money, and do so at anyone else's expense.
I was a psychotropic guinne pig for the majority of the time after my diagnosis. Benzodiazepines destroyed my life. My addiction almost killed me. Thank you for being here!
I was misdiagnosed with depression and anxiety 7 years ago and given kolonapin and Zoloft. I was miserable so I tapered far to quickly. It took 6 years to feel better. I was finally diagnosed with low testosterone and treated for it with testosterone replacement therapy. I finally feel like my old self again. Healing from phych meds is possible but it can take a long time. Get a full hormone panel done before ever taking any drug.
And during. I am an endocrine mess because of psych drugs.
I'm not glad that you suffered... But I'm vreally glad to hear this from a non "junkie". Most people treated me like some kind of junkie addict when I went through it, and nobody could wrap their mind around a non-addict suburban housewife being physically dependent on prescribed medication and having withdrawals, and really struggling. My family even disowned me because of it. My husband was and currently is the only one who understood at all.
I want to add... After the acute withdrawals were over I never looked back. I never ever took another Benzo again, after the physical dependence was broken I had no desire for them. And now I am so so so careful to research every single medication my new doctor suggests.
L'appel DuVide
L'appel DuVide I can totally relate to you. I am going through this right now. Even had my 4yr old daughter taken away from me for thinking I was being treated correctly for my depression and ptsd.. She just turned 9... Still trying to get off of the meds..benzos are in my repertoire of drugs. Have been called an addict and fought with Drs and been told I have frontal lobe damage for them to keep me on drugs.... since I am 19.. I am 39. Totally sick. Miss my baby girl who isn't a baby any more. Sad story.
Miss Riley how long did it last for you?
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This could be my story. Thank you for sharing your feelings of loss. I do have children and feel a terrible loss for the years I parented, in a legally prescribed never abused haze on benzos. I grieve for those 6 years, and now I'm in a brutal taper. You speak eloquently. I wish you healing.
poor thing took her own life. rest in peace so sorry to your family. what a shame.
How do you know?
@@DeniseHurd-qm7idit's said in other comments....sad 😢
i have a simular story to you. been overprescibred too many drugs, and my life became a living hell. im glad you are speaking out about this, we need more people to tell the truth about phychiatry. it is absolutely ugly!
I should mention that Rebecca took her own life in April 2017,
at her home in Juneau Alaska after a promising but long struggle.
I can understand why she did that since I have faced a similar
struggle for nearly 5 years as a result of taking benzos and
antidepressants for years, then stopping too quickly.
Some would say it was return of her anxiety/depression, a typical
opinion of a common psychiatrist. But the crucial factor was likely
the rx drugs and the further damage from stopping quickly.
It can take more than a year to safely taper off these drugs.
It can take far more than 5 years to recover if you don't taper slowly.
My condition after stopping the poisons quickly is far more serious
and very different than when I was taking them (and before starting them).
Real experts are sounding alarms about the nerve damage from psych
chemicals, and about pharma deception, financial dominance, and
information control.
tedd blackk so sorry to hear she passed. I can’t imagine living in Alaska in winter. It’s Feb right now and the lack of light this winter has made the seasonal issue that much more intense. I wonder of living in a place with more sunlight and warmth year round would have helped her. If I don’t go south next winter, I won’t make it. Rest In Peace, and thank you.
Tedd blackk. May I asked what is your condition now?
I was cold turkeyed off 5 psych drugs. My life has been destroyed. There's nothing scarier than losing your mind...
Drugs are not the answer to ANYTHING - whether prescribed or not
I can't believe she is gone.From reading all the comments and her responses it sounded like she was off all meds and thriving.She had stated several times she was the happiest she has ever been just one year ago.2 years after posting this video.Wow..I'm so sorry..I am so curious if anyone had talked with her in her last days to know what was going on that let up to her deciding to take it into her own hands.She must of really been hurting..I'm glad you are safe and back home in heaven ..xx
Rest In Peace Rebecca. The earth lost an amazing person but heaven gained the sweetest angel. You will always be in our hearts.
What happened
Did she die,)?
@@ozziexd4845 how?
What's going on...? She passed away....? How come....?
@@dtseringdorje she took her own life.
As far as psychiatrists are concerned everyone is mentally ill in some degree, shape, or form. Don't let them suck you into believing you're abnormal and need "fixing"
We all have issues, psychiatrists don't help, they switch your issue out with one they can profit from.
Yep....
RIP! Another tragic ending to a beautiful young person.
Francesca G who passed away?was it the girl who made this video?
Barbara Hunsaker ..omg! Really she did?, rip!
Barbara Hunsaker seriously!!?? How do you know???
@@carolinabraidybird1929 her husband wrote here in the comments. After she got off these drugs her anxiety came back. Guess it was too much to handle😥
exploited fight That’s awful. RIP 😢
You're a smart and courageous woman because you got free of these (legal) drugs. It is unbelievably difficult. I know because I had a similar experience. It took me 12 years before to decide to stop them. Thank you so much for adding your experience to the other ones on the web so that the thruth will emerge and people will stop taking them.
I am convinced that you will help many people who search for some inspiration and courage too. I don’t trust doctors anymore. At least most of them because they are taught by the pharmaceutical industry which finance most of the programs in the universities.
If she was smart she wouldn't have believed a doctor.
Rest in peace. Shame on those doctors psychirists
Thank you for this. I am experiencing this now. It has been 5 months since my last dose of Klonopin. It is a living hell. Because of you and the community of benzo withdrawal survivors, I know I can make it.
Same
I went off in March
A brutal 2 week taper
Dickhead doctors don't know how to taper that's why we are so sick
How long were you on it? I was taking it as a addict for about a year. when i hopped off I had seized out so many times they had to put me in a coma. it took me about three months to smile again. I would not be doing nearly as good If I didn't find the therapeutic value in magic mushrooms.
Rest In Peace. I’m so sorry this happened to you.
Dr Breggin is on RUclips with some great videos about psychiatric drugs.
I like his approaches. Very abresive yet caring to a degree. How kind he is is to be witnessed by meeting him. Psychiatric poisons that not even sea critters like.
Your story is all too common. Thank you for sharing. I was prescribed prozac for sleep problems I had during a stressful time in my undergrad. I was on for 5 months, until I developed a tremor in my left hand. After I discontinued prozac for 6 months my libido disappeared and I developed total erectile dysfunction at the age of 22. It has been 4.5 years now and neither the tremor or the sexual dysfunction (PSSD) have resolved. Both of these issues have had a huge impact on my life and I was not informed when I prescribed the drugs of these risks in any way.
'This can be addictive'...my doc said 'After awhile, some people think they need it'...these are not strong warnings...how 'bout, 'This is a gateway to hell for an alarming number of people'
She's gone buddy..she commited suicide! Hang in there brother.. I watch your videos now and then for comfort.. thanks
R C wait who??
I so appreciate your story regarding being first on psychiatric drugs then benzos. I had the same experience, however started at a young age, 15 with all of the meds and been on meds for many, many, years. I'm now into my final and I know it's my final quest or I can't think of a good word but it's time for me to get off all of it. I got off one but was still on others. God is good and spiritual faith does wonders and has helped me through my entire life with so much and I totally get it when you lose that connection. That you are no longer "just surviving" but living is so good to hear and also that you have a supportive husband and found a connection with other people who I think you met with in person is something I need as well. I'm so happy that you have a chance at life. God Bless You!
I was put on Xanax and then klonopin. I noticed that it did take my anxiety away, but I also over time I realized I didn’t feel joy in anything. I was becoming more depressed, emotionally numb. I’d look at a beautiful sunset and just feel nothing and I knew something was very wrong. Now the withdrawals I’m going through.., so dark so depressed beyond anything I’ve ever felt. I could go on but you summed it up in your video. I’m scared I will never be the same.
I am the same way
Thank you for this... I've been weaning since October.. I've managed to get off of 4, damn near killed me via stroke, and currently still having issues from the damage they caused. The Benzos (been on them 8 yrs) are the hardest for sure because I don't sleep without it..at all..and that causes the depression to get BAD. One day at a time! I cannot wait to be FREE
YOu definitely will be free. Hang in there.
I encourage you to keep clean and withdraw slow. My doc turned me off cold turkey and I have no idea how to survive!
Klaus S
We have THC receptors in our brains. Weed is a good relaxant. It may not be ideal (still a substance) but provided you're not one who suffers paranoia from it, it will lift your gloom and also put you to sleep. My sister has a licence to grow her own for medical purposes cos she's got a fractured vertebrae. She says it's a great way to sleep pain free. I wish you freedom n wellness. Be blessed.
THC is has been linked to psychosis, memory loss and movement disorders if used long-term. dont peddle that it is safe when it is not
NotAGamePlayer Summerlin How are you doing now? I don't sleep at all either.
I'm so sorry for what you've been through. It's horrifying. I may well lose my marriage and had I never been put on benzos, I am certain things would be different. They turned me into someone I had never been and someone I've not been since. I can only pray our stories save the people who are considering taking a benzo or who currently take a benzo.
Cassie Lindeberg as
Cassie Skye : you are all negligent and pretty damned rotten to those of us who've been taking benzodiazepines for anxiolisis for years, and your pathetic stories have law enforcement calling OUR medicine narcotics, and irresponsible doctors fearing ANY prescription for them! You have nobody to blame for your poor decisions in life but yourself! You can't handle truth, and should stop whining about stupid shit that nobody cares about! Benzodiazepines are good medications, and if you acted badly while taking them, it's nobody's fault but your own!
Peter, you sound like a troll or an apologist for big pharma. Benzos have no legitimate use, except perhaps as anesthetics - in which case they should be dispensed only to knock someone out for surgery. You have no need to have benzos in your possession, Peter, unless you are an addict.
Thank you for your voice. I'm fighting for person who doesn't have voice because of the drugs. Those are E. V. I. L!!! Somebody should pay a huge price for ruin so many lives and taken so many away
I thank you for having the courage to tell your story sadly its all to common story these days... I only wish that 1 day these drugs wont be used anymore they are simply not fit for human consumption nor are they safe you only have to look at the huge amount of side effects and reactions they can cause. But im happy to hear you now have your life back many others haven't been so fortunate.
+cameron E Thank you and I agree with you. I made this video 2 years ago and I am the happiest, healthiest and most productive I have ever been in my life. I am DEEPLY grateful.
what is your regimen now?
But, from other comments above, it *looks* *like* you took your own life recently....????.... If so, I'm saddened, and hope your surviving husband sees these words of support from me....
I could listen to you forever. You have no doubt helped many people. You mentioned a strong and loving soul, your husband, but clearly the same applies to you, manifold. Thank you.x
This is so well done. Thank you. You make me feel like it's possible to heal.
This video makes me cry. I took clonzapam low dose for 6 months,only drug I ever took and weaned off. I hear you dear , am being forced to take meds by my psychiatrist and gp and work. I was told you have to take them for life or we don't pay you if you ever are off work for anxiety. I recently told them i won't . Even if I was denied a billion dollars as take home pay, I would rather be homeless than ever put anything for mental health in my mouth again. Am seeing a psychologist and we are doing intense therapy.
The key is to taper off very slowly; low dose C for 6 months is enough to be a huge problem if stopped quickly (even at just .5mg/day). Proper taper can be several months to over a year. About 40pct of people are more vulnerable to bad effects for genetic reasons. You might tell your doctors about the Ashton Manual.
You're right. These benzos are like nuclear bombs. The real dangers are not at all emphasized. The doctor who prescribed mine did not at all describe the side effects or long term dangers, or withdrawal issues.
The emergency relief they provided was appreciated. But they really need to be very carefully administered.
It's very refreshing to hear your story. I feel I am in the back-end of my withdrawal but it is still very present in my life. I used to be such a people person but now I can barely make eye contact with my own family. The fact that you are out of that darkness gives me hope that I will be too - hopefully sooner than later. Anyways, I really appreciate you sharing your story.
I know how hard it is and am so sorry you are struggling. It really feels endless and all-compassing. I am the healthiest and most productive I have ever been in my life now and I hope that encourages you. It used to be a triumph just to walk to the end of my driveway and get the mail. Now I have my own business, lift weights, walk 4 miles most days, sing in a choir, socialize, go to church and generally enjoy my life. I still have my struggles because life is hard but I am living my life. You will get there even when it doesn't feel like it, you will.
umbietoo Thank you for your words of encouragement. It's great knowing how far you've come. Hoping that will be me!
umbietoo how long total until you felt normal again?and how many milagrams of benzo where you on a day?and for how long where you on the benzodiazepines?
the drug companies pay doctors to prescribe these dangerous drugs
yea it was through my own ignorance that I kept taking these toxic drugs......................
+Michael Caprino
I did a reasonable search on Klonopin and Luvox in 2010 and only found that
they had some toxicity issues. Mentioned that to doc, and he had no particular
reaction. I think we used info and studies funded by pharma directly or indirectly.
My symptoms remained high due to not increasing doses.
He closed practice years later, without a referral, and made no mention
of the risk of stopping. Now two years of ruin; no real progress.
+Ted Blac yea luckily I havn't become addicted to benzos but taking antipsychotics have caused me all kinds of problems, the problem with doctors Iv'e seen is they give out these drugs like sweeties they can be real idiots when it comes to our health.
What problems ?
Since Rebecca is no longer here, I hope those
who post will use more self-restraint.
Some say it was return of anxiety/depression, a typical opinion of
a psychiatrist. The crucial factor was likely rx drugs and stopping
quickly. I know from my own experience that this damage can
easily cause suicide, with an intense drive to end things that
can last 4 years and counting.
My condition after stopping the poisons too quickly is much
more serious and much different than when I was taking them
and *before starting* them.
Experts are sounding alarms about the toxic effects of psych
chemicals, against the pharma system of deception, money &
information dominance. (eg, british authorities now do not
approve continuous use of benzos for more than 4 weeks)
Even before my ruin from stopping quickly, my rx drugs impaired
my judgment for 20 years, with life-changing harm.
Some people have little choice but to trust pill doctors, but
explore the credible options. (If Rebecca had discovered cbt
long ago, then she might have made it.)
She died?
I tried hard after watching your video last August. I got off my antidepressant, but the anxiety and panic attacks came back. I went back on. I hope one day I can come off it. It sounds like you had it so much more worse than me. Rest In Peace Rebecca. Know that you have really inspired me and hopefully many others!
Developed gynecomastia from taking Risperdal and Invega. I was dropped fromt he class action lawsuit because I took the medication as an adult. I had to have a bilateral mastectomy because of it, and am now permanently disfigured and am in physical and mental pain now. I was never warned about any of these long-term side effects, not by the mental health center. Psychiatry has destroyed my life. I no longer take their drugs, BTW, but now live with the long-term effects and destruction of my life.
I'm so happy i finally decided to go off of my drugs. I probably lost a good 7+ years of myself to theese drugs. I am so happy that you got control of your own life and decided to live real!!! God bless and keep up the good work😊
took 2 years clonazepam was addictet and detoxed at home 12 WEEKS.Hardest time in my life.But i got it !!!!
Stefan Schäfer how did u detox?
I also take Clonazepam and have been on them for quite a few years, I dread the day I decide to detox from them! I do have a medical condition though, so maybe I am best staying on them! What dosage were you on ? I am on 2x 2mg Twice Daily, so 8mg daily! My psychiatrist Did tell me that it would take me a good Year at least to wean myself off them completely 😣
Stefan Schäfer nice job!
Zander Law nobody needs benzodiazepines! Nobody!
I am on clonazepam for last 12yrs cannot leave it for life time 0.5
I just got off the Fentanyl patch June 28 and now I have to start on the syc meds. I know it will probably take the same amount of time. Slowly I'm getting my life.back and hope to live life again. Thanks for the positive feedback it means a lot to me.😎
Thank you for this testimonial. It's a warning to us all to watch out for offers to go onto prescribed antidepressants.
Beautiful truth, thanks so much for adding it to the collective voice that is crying out about the damage done to countless lives because of psych drugs. I'm really glad you had the strength and determination to overcome this very real human tragedy that is playing out all over the world. Thank you for your courage to share your story. Your video is very well done.
thank you for being so brave to post this and share your story.
God yes benzo withdraw is the hardest thing someone will encounter. I had to go back on couldn't take it anymore.
+Trina Marie yea I almost got addicted after my doctor gave them out like sweets to me.
+Michael Caprino lucky bitch
Thank you for making this video. I am 6 months in to the suffering through. Suffering the toxins of 11 years of SSRI’s and benzos I am lucky that I have my extremely supportive bf too. Thank you again
they the Psychiatrists may seem they care about you but they are extremely under educated as to the dangers of the drugs they prescribed. We are all victims of the system as we grow being told to do what the good doctor says. I feel for you as I lived the same experience. I lost 12 years of my life using these drugs, totally drug free and have my life back. God bless you for your story.
Bless your heart. I'm going thru the same .I started cutting back a week ago. I been suffering from depression and panic attacks going on 25 years and to be honest I just don't know how much more I can take.The pic you see of me was taken on a real good day ! I'm happy for you now that you are feeling better.best of luck to you .
Scott
You are going to get through this!!! I KNOW you can do it because I did and I was an utter wreck. I totally have my life back, make my own money (Paid for big car repairs on my own debit card!), joined a community choir and am singing again after a 20 year hiatus, cooking new foods, garening, sewing and in general am thriving and excited about life. It is nothing short of miraculous. If I can do it you can too. Life is still hard and challenging because that is life but I am coping and functional. When you are able and only then because I know how overwhelming it can all be, I HIGHLY recommend DBT as therapy. It is everything I was always looking for after talk therapy left me feeling like screaming, "Now what?!?!" Right now you must practice the highest form of self care that you can. Cut any BS relationships, cut out any junk food, alcohol and caffeine and do all you can to distract yourself. Audiobooks were a huge help to me even when I wasn't able to comprehend the words. Netflix TV series were helpful too. Go super slowly as you cut the drug and never cut more than 10% of your current dose no matter what a doctor says. Google liquid titration if you are unfamiliar with that as it is the safest and slowest way that causes the least trauma to the body. Hold until you are stable before you cut again. Keep a journal of what you eat and how you are cutting the drug so you can look for patterns. Ditch any time table you may have for getting off the drug and really listen to your body. I wish you the very best.
Lobotomy type pills has hurt so many people. 😢
You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story. It is SO NEEDED. I too have a similar story but I'm not able to video it yet. The part where you talked about how the drugs/withdrawal stole your faith so resonated with me. In the depths of acute withdrawal I would sob to my family and really felt like God must've abandoned me. I knew it wasn't true but that darkness is relentless. I am so very happy to hear you say that you are not just surviving anymore. It's a perfect way to describe life off of these drugs. It's a really good way to describe life ON them as well because it IS BLEAK:( I could go on but you are so encouraging. You are helping so many more people than you even realize. Praise God for healing you. Hope this message finds you well!
Hi Rachel!
Thank you for taking the time to watch my video and leave a note. I am doing great. It's been about 6 months since I made the video and I have my own business, making my own money and for once can contribute. My husband was always so kind but it feels great to be paying my own way. I sing in a choir, go to church again and do lots of cooking with new recipes and foods. I would definitely say I'm still healing. It's a long process. This is the most functional and productive I have been in 20 years so it's pretty amazing. I am deeply grateful for the compassion and gratitude I have. I'm glad my video can encourage others. Blessings to you on your journey.
I am beyond pissed off about this womans death !!
Wow! Listening to the agony in your voice, and how these drugs can wipe you out, it's so wonderful you've gotten thru it.
I've been through it too! I swear I thought I was going to start crying when she shares her story. Honest, I could feel the pain! Good luck peace be with you! Thanks for sharing!🤗
Scott K
She commited suicide
What an amazing strength inner you have. I can't thank you enough for sharing your heart and soul in such a public way. I understand what you have gone thru and still are! Shame on Big pharma for actually creating a bigger problem especially for people who are already fragile and suffering. Dr's are taught to prescribe and many are only trying to help, I agree with the others here who say "let the Dr go on these drugs and experience their debilitating effects" It would certainly change their perspective...
I love you!! You have no idea how similar we are...thank you for sharing & for being strong enough to stand alone & tell your story.
Hal Schmidt..she died 2017!
Thank You for your TRUTH! my heart aches for what you needlessly had to suffer through.. Praise God you found out the drugs were making you sick...We live in a very sad demonic world where the enemy deceptively works to destroy mankind in so many different ways even the Doctors who prescribed these meds are being deceived...May the truth continue to be revealed about the dangers of these demonic medications..God Bless you dear child You are very BRAVE and STRONG and a BEAUTIFUL human
Fly High with the Angels, Rebecca xxxxxx. My deepest condolences Elle x
DESTROYED ME TOO, AND MILLIONS OF OTHERS! Oh, yes. It's shocking, isn't it? Beyond shocking, actually. It's ALL ABOUT MONEY.$$$
I love you, dear Rebecca. Thank you for sharing your story.
let our food be our medicine
If the diet is correct medicine is of no need! If the diet is incorrect medicine is of no use!!!
Dan Harakis only to a point. His bout Love, then good food. it’s not gmo and adulterated. Good medicine is hard to find and pricey....just what they want
I took lorazepam for 19 days and c/t went in to withdrawals not knowing what was happening to me. I'm still suffering after 7 months I wish I would never takin this nasty drug.
Melissa Mauricio How you doing?
agreed @Tromsat . after 3 weeks you are experiencing the anxiety that led you to be prescribed lorazepam in the first place
@@jonfred9675 Drug induced anxiety is 10 times worse than regular anxiety...
I was on it from 2006 until 2013, given to me after having gone 16 days without sleep from Ambien. My doctor and his family destroyed my life to cover up. I cannot believe these pharmaceuticals have not been shut down but they are running a money racket with Wall Street, the doctors and the government (FDA and the States.) Yes, my biggest mistake was to "ask my doctor." Yet people keep being told to ask them. sigh....Thank you for sharing.
@@jonfred9675 There is genetic variation in sensitivity.
For some 3 weeks with CT is enough for lasting injury.
New guidelines say limit use to 2 to 4 weeks (if possible).
The common defense is that it's the originial symptoms returning; so stay on it.
OMG this sounds exactly like MY life!!! SO SIMILAR!!!! Such a loss for us both. Trust of doctors, trust of medical profession....and not listening to my inner voice that told me from the very beginning that something was wrong. At 34 I was disabled by all of this, and ended up on disability. At 49, only now, am I realizing everything you have just said here. FIFTEEN years, years I thought should be the best of my life, the prime of life....gone. I have a plan to get off Disability, and am currently down to only one medication...after weaning carefully. I could go on and on...but I fee like I am listening to my own story as you speak...I'm a bit overwhelmed by what you say, but I am very thankful you said it. - Love K
RIP sweet Rebecca...you are missed
She passed away?????
61jooles what happened to her ???
Gina Bianchini I read she was murdered.
Read the comments
She commited suicide.
Her husband said she gave up
Thank you so much for having the courage to share these important truths. I've had a very similar experience to your own & stopping psychiatric meds was the best decision I ever made.
My cold turkey went 8 weeks -12 weeks ! The first 2 weeks were HELL ! Not recommended, I’m bull headed and ex military, ex medical professional and pretty strong. I wanted these drugs OUT of my body ASAP when a friend showed me Dr Breggin’s videos on youtube and how these drugs are SO BAD for you and damage your brain. God carried me thru the withdrawal. I had every symptom except hallucinations. I had no help. I was alone, my husband was in other room and abusive. I ended up leaving him 3 months later :)
Same I did it going thru a divorce
My wife is going through this right now. Thank you for this video. It gives me faith that she will come out of it. I will never ever take advice from a doctor again without investigating it. My wife has been off the benzos for 4 solid months and she is totally detached from reality. I am taking care of her the best that I can and praying that God will eventually heal her. Happy to see that you are healing. Thanks again.
It appears that she stopped too quickly; they must be stopped very slowly depending on dose and duration of use. Now at 4 months off restarting can have serious negative results, even reverse effects. Also, if she has a medical procedure she should request "no benzos" since this can aggravate her condition.
It's important to avoid foods that aggravate her symptoms since that means the neurons are not yet defended from high glutamate content. What seems to be detachment from reality can actually be reality that does not ring true for those not going through it; doctors in particular are skeptical because their common drug info sources don't mention this.
Don't expect her to recover soon; it can take years, and it's gruesome; nearly unbearable. It's neurological injury that has physical and psychological symptoms. How can this hell be imposed by doctors ? They rely on pharma info.
@@tedd_blackk . Tapering did not cause the problem. The meds did. My wife was totally messed up while taking the drug as directed. Her doctor dismissed the ton of symptoms that she was having and suggested that she up the dosages. We said no. Though she is still having problems 2/3 of the symptoms have disappeared without the drugs. She was sleeping 2-3 hours a night on the drugs and sleep aids(natural or otherwise) had no effect. She now sleeps like a baby without anything at all. She was eating next to nothing during use of the meds, lost a lot of weight(went from 140 down to 95 lbs) and now that she is off them she eats normally. Doctors are clueless when it comes to psych meds. They are totally guessing and destroying lives in the process.
CCHR.COM. is the last word on Psychiatriy and their abuse of humanity.
Amen!!! To all you said! Please, all of us who have been harmed, let’s get together and get reparation! Let’s get justice for those harmed and get these companies to listen and be responsible with their drugs. Somehow...let’s do this so that others don’t suffer.
Where were you God, when both myself and millions of your other supposed children cried out begging for mercy? Suffering is the great equalizer..it eventually shows many "The real truth"..maybe this had to happen to some of us? RIP.. You had a beautiful ♥ heart and truly deserve the best life imaginable in the next dimension.
Thank you for the information you have shared about your life struggles with psychiatric drugs. These medications are handed out like candy's with very little to no research whatsoever. They may tell you about a few side effects but they never reveal how difficult and horrible withdrawal of these drugs truly are. They are basically slow barbaric forms of poison .
Love and talking to others that really care about you would probably be more beneficial than any of these drugs combined. Glad to see you're feeling better . God bless.
I lived through this as well, my journey has gone on for YEARS an bc I didn't know what was going on that it WD bc of the benzos and was WD, I lived in a state of cold turkey WD for four years and now am suffering the aftermath, in a type of extended sickness bc of this- my journey from hell started in 08 - much love to you and thank you so much
Sarah Wolfrom how are you doing now?
Thank you for this video. I went through the same. Being put on psych drugs, being told I need it, and trying to come off as soon as I could going through many months of withdrawal. During all this time I learned what true living hell is. All the problems I initially visited the psychiatrist with in hindsight seem like a nice ride on a blue unicorn on a green field under the rainbow. The lies the psychiatric professionals collectively communicated in defense of the drugs during all the months of my taking and coming off the drugs made me truly understand how society works, how people work. As a descendant of holocaust survivors, I now understand how the holocaust happened.
I started taking benzo, antidepressants, antipsychotics... everything! I was told the same thing. I was 22 years old when it happened. I’m now 30 and have been off all of my medications for 5 months. I feel so much better! They ruined my life during that period of time. I did what my doctors said. I’m just getting my life back. The best thing is to have support from loved ones and working through it. I never thought I would but I did. Anyone who is feeling like the drugs are making you worse. Talk to your doctor and tapper off. Just like what she said. It takes time but you will emerge from the fog.
Elise Machuover did u feel fatigue like emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 106 days sober
can i tapper of both clonazepam (0.5 mg) & vortioxetin (10mg) have been using for 3 weeks only.. I don't want to stay on these pills which cannot give me relef rather more I'll feeling.. Please advice me n ur support needed 🙏 iam eagerly waiting for ur reply, I don't want to regret in future help meme. .
@@khajababu1403 taper of real slowly PLEASE!!!
@@khajababu1403 No
Boy could you and I chat extensively. Unbelievable! I can relate on so many levels... its shocking. Congrats for telling your story... FACTS!
Alicia Gresham ..she passed after making this video!
I can totally relate, I am 18 months off benzos and still suffering, thanks for sharing
18 months is nothing if you had taken it for 15 plus years 😳🤔
Many thanks for making this video. I have been in the same situation and it's been 1 week that I have tapered off. I can see it is not just me going through this darkness and loss. Glad you have made it.
When she said she Lost her Faith...😭
Sheer bravery. You should be applauded for coming out. Nobody seems to want to admit the side effects of certain meds today
I am in my depth of withdrawl. And in agonizing pain in my muscles and have no desire to live.
Thank you Cherp. I appreciate the thought
Hold on... Its going to be better. Realize its because of those substances... Surround Yourself with people that treat with love rather than medication. Seek friendship. Maybe dog? Looks like its easier for dogs to love than humans. Bad time will pass. Try to eat healthy especially on brekfest eat a lot
Please stay strong you can and will get threw this don,t give up NEVER there is a beautiful life that awaits you fight hard
Take liquid vitamins. Buy the bottle by the quart. They work.
Not_your_typical_cat_person how are you now?
This is very sad. I am sorry for this person, husband and family.
Everybody power through it , Dont let them win , you CAN reclaim your life , do what you have to do for your self to get there.
4 years out and still in hell. I'm not religious, but could always feel a connection to something greater than myself. I remember walking in the park with the wind blowing and hearing birds chirp and thinking how beautiful and amazing it all was. Now I have no connection to any of that. It's all just darkness, no connection to nature or other human beings. After enduring this for 4 years I find it extremely difficult to relate to anyone anymore. If there is a God he could've designed a better more resilient biological system than our human bodies. No human or any living being should have to endure something like this. We're all only here such a short time, it's maddening. I'm just over life in general. If i were to get a life threatening diagnosis at this point I wouldn't be able to fight. I have no fight left. I put myself to sleep at night by contemplating suicide. It brings me relief. I wouldn't do it, but it definitely helps to think about it.
Everything you said you you went through I experienced it to. I to lost my faith in God and in everything. I couldnt see the light
I hope you have your faith back. If you did not get it back, please, by all means pray and ask for it back.
Thankyou for sharing your story. Im glad you are on the other side of this nightmare.
you are very strong and courageous to post this. videos like this are extremely important for those who are experiencing the nightmare of anxiety/depression treatment through pharmaceuticals. thank you:)
She gave a gift to others with this video.
She's gone now..bless her soul
Corlesis I'm not sure but it was announced in one of my benzo support groups and I assume it's because she couldn't take the protracted withdrawal anymore.
***** facebook...Paul Chomiak
He's very public you can Google him he's in two or three of the same support groups as me I don't remember which one's one it is benzo recovery the other one is benzo recovery are rated for those of us who want to share dirty jokes or drop the F-bomb as much as we want without getting kicked out LOL
Eileen Reeger but she said she was doing great and the most productive I. Her life?
Corlesis so sad and confused she said she was doing good.
The drugs also destroyed my life. I burst into tears watching this because I know exactly what you mean. The drugs gave me the most horrifying, obsessive intrusive thoughts that I never had before the drugs or since quitting them. But I tried to take my own life to get away from the psychiatric poisoning hell. Now 3 years clean from psych drugs, I am so thankful I survived but the drugs destroyed everything I ever worked or lived for, destroyed all of my relationships and I lost my life savings. I am left alone and can barely feel anything. I have permanent physical damage from the drugs too.
The physical neurological damage these drugs cause is most severe and concerning. The mental damage can be overcome.
Thank you for sharing your story. You are not alone.
Im with you 😘 Thank you so much for sharing. 💕😘🌷
Added: Dear Rebecca, I just found out - you passed away. 😢 RIP 😭
$$$ is all most doctors care of. I have similar experiences and feelings. I've lost about 5 years of my life.
Thank you for sharing your story💜 I'm so so sorry for all you've had to go through:( I'm so glad you are doing better!! I know this is from a few years ago but hope things are still good:) these drugs almost killed me literally this year caused not only more mental issues but serious physical issues I've never had before! Including a breathing dysfunction I want to eventually make a vid too I think it's great you shared your story you deserve to be heard! Sharing can also help out so much thanks again! You are strong!!!
I'm a complete mess. My parents are both dead and my depression/anxiety/grief was so bad I wanted to disapear. My mom was bipolar/schizoaffective and died when I was 35. Been on meds since 1986 cuz I had severe OCD. I'm 48 and I'm a complete mess - after seeing this I feel no hope ever :( :( Paxil brought my sanity back and K-pin prevented me from offing myself. Both parents went into hospice and died on drugs anyway cuz they both had incurable cancer. Everything will kill me in the end :(
If you feel the medicine offers you true help and hope then that is different from me. I gained nothing and lost the majority of myself and life. I cannot speak for anyone else and will never make blanket statements about drugs which has cost me friends in that community and that is fine. I am not militant in my views. If they help you and truly give you more and higher quality of life then that is a positive. Certainly there are places in life for drugs. The overall over medication of America I do find apalling. No doctor ever supported me in asking questions of the drugs to see if they were the cause of my issues and tvey were. No doctor directed me to DBT or other skill based therapy and that revolutionized my life. All I encountered for years and over multiple disciplines was an ever ready prescription pad and I think that is a huge problem. I am grateful to be free though o suffered even more painfully getting here. Never cold turkey stop a drug. Sadly doctors seem to have zero clue how to safely help you off of them. Never cut 10% of your current dose. It will always be worth it to play it safe and go slowly. Many people do it too fast and suffer beyond what they might have. Others feel great at first and then it hits and a doctor will use that misery as proof you needed the drug not as a latent form of withdrawal. Hang in there. I know life can be incredibly hard. Try to find helpful support and meaning for your days.
Thank you for sharing your story. I was going off my medications three times, last time I made a big mistake going too fast off Effexor 75 mg, and i ended up isolated at home on my own for 4 months, had a difficulty communicating and going out of home. Now I'm feeling slightly better, but still not functioning properly. I hope its the last time i was taking meds, and i never will take it again.
I have suffered most of my life with OCD/anxiety, then major depression. I have been on a total of 12 medications so far, and only ativan worked, but I stopped taking it. Even klonopin didnt work. I remember taking like 5-6 medications at once. It was tough. I had to tough it out for so long. I felt like all these drugs were just a big pharma placebo since nothing seemed to work for me. I had to always fight hard on my own. I do think these drugs are over-prescribed these days. Even though I always get sidetracked and can never do anything, one doctor recommended stimulants, adderall for me, but I refused to take it. I feel like it will do more harm than good. Same with Tylenol 2, I had been prescribed it but never filled the prescription. Even now I wish I could say its easy. I try to cope with it, but 7 years with severe ocd has taken a large toll on me, with all these thoughts and anxiety constantly repeating in my head. I keep feeling like im loosing myself and so desperate to kill myself, but never do it. Its hard when your family is never there, and doesnt support you. I'm sorry these medications and life has been rough with you. I do think sometimes they can be a big help, but I dont think they should be prescribed to like everyone these days. Them and painkillers are used too often.
I commend this woman for having the courage to share her story. It has inspired me to share mine. Due to not wanting to put myself out there by doing a video (as I work for a very reputable drug free company). Here is the "short" version of my story:
I have beat hard drug addiction, addiction to alcohol, Marijuana, and prescription medication. My wake-up call came when I went on an all night binge on coke. I spent all my money for gas n food for the next 3 weeks and sped home from a friends place at 115mph the entire time, while coming down. I went straight back to my other "friends" place and continued my binge throughout the night. That morning, broke and coming down HARD, I had a revelation. I cried as I prayed for my life. I went through my entire address list in my phone and deleted EVERY single contact that gave me access to drugs. That (what seemed like at the time) "small" thorough action, without a doubt saved my life. Never once did I look back, nor touch hard drugs again. That was at the mere age of 23yrs old. This April it will mark 10 years since that dreadful day. Another interesting fact was that NONE of those people, those "friends" that I deleted, didn't even try contacting me what so ever since that day. It just proves that those people were NEVER my "friends". Anyone who hesitates a so called friendship like that, may be taking those precious moments that may actually end up saving their life. I was fortunate enough to get a second chance. Too often, many don't, so TAKE IT... Your life is in YOUR control, no one else's,... so TAKE IT!!! The last habit (and yes it IS possible to get addicted to pot!) I kicked cold turkey in the summer of 2011. It was 100% mental and ironically enough VERY easy to kick. As a chronic pain patient, I had to make a choice. My health or my pleasures. I chose my health. My wake up call came when I ultimately tried to out smart my pain management doctor. That dumb, selfish choice almost cost me the relief from daily, unimaginable severe daily pain. I end up making it through the ordeal through the 'skin if my teeth'. Life is hard. Never expect it to be easy. Sometimes you gotta fight through every day and push yourself to your limit to survive, but in the end, it is worth it. I hope that my story can inspire or help even one person out there. Sometimes you gotta be a little selfish and put yourself first. I leave with just one thought: If you can't take care of yourself and LOVE yourself, who will? and how can you take care of and love others, if you don't take care of and love yourself? The answer is simple: You can't.
+Kristi Stevens so you got on pain killers and benzos to replace coke
Benzos are extremely addictive. Withdrawal from benzos is a nightmare. I've had to withdraw from opiates and benzos. They're both about the same. Panic and fear for weeks along with loss of appetite and lethargy.
I have anxiety disorder and my psychiatrist won't prescribe me benzos which work well for it.
That was very moving. You really captured this experience in words. I'm so glad you survived this & are rebuilding your life. W/o these drugs it will be amazing!