5 years ago, when I was 19, I used a service where I wrote future (well, right now it would be present) me an e-mail. A big chunk of that letter to myself was about the girl I was - and to be quite honest still am - madly in love with. We had known each other since we were 12 and became closer and closer over the years. What started as a very important friendship to both of us developed into love for me at least after she left the school and city when we were 16. It suddenly hit me that I really, really loved her. Over the next 2 years we met a few times whenever she stayed here at her dad's. She then returned for good to study here and it was almost like back when we were goofing around after school a few years prior. However, I couldn't bring myself to confess my love to her. It hurt, it really hurt but I did not want to lose the friendship that became one of the most important anchors in my life. At the start of 2018, we still wrote daily. Fast forward to October/November and we were barely keeping contact. That was probably my fault but I kept telling me that her integrated degree program (I guess that's what you call it in english) was just too hard and that's why we were seeing each other and talking less and less. Losing her broke me for a time. I fell into a very bad downward spiral during which I also wrote that letter to myself. In it, I swore to myself that I will tell her what I wrote down here in an abridged version. Which I did, about 2 weeks ago. We saw each other for the first time in 5 years and reminisced. In the end I told her everything. It was a great evening I thought. Told her that via a text aswell and hoped to meet her again for a coffee or something. Guess she does not feel the same way as the message is still read and unanswered. It does hurt a lot but in a different way than it did the first time losing her. I think I'll be okay. I'm on Tiny Moving Parts - Dakota writing this and started crying a lot. That song really hits the nail on the head for me. Fuck. "I have never been so scared and sad at the same time I finally will figure out what life truly means when it's all been left behind I did not know what steps to take after graduating high school I never knew Much of anything" "If I feel this cold still buried in my throat, I guess I'll survive 'Cause it's sad that time turns its back on us, like a wood chipper eating up the lumber It turns into dust and floats in the air To prove what we have lost" If anyone is still reading this, thanks for letting me get this off my chest. And thanks to you, N. for the great friendship we had. I sincerely hope you're doing better than I am right now. But don't worry, I'll be better. I know it.
I deeply relate to this. Just take your time to process things. It took me 5 years to be friend again with her (my once best friend) after I confess my feeling. Yet, it still not the same as before. Stay strong brother
Old guy here. I’m happily married with kids. I can relate to all of this, as I’ve been there, but we had bands like orchid, pg99 to soothe the pain. WERE ALL GONNA MAKE IT, KINGS.
Hey guys, I finally decided to move on today, I took her stuff back to her apartment. All the dogs came rushing towards me so excited to see their dad, they almost knocked me down. I tried not to cry as I left her clothes by the door but we said our goodbyes in peace with hopeful hearts knowing we can still see each other as friends. I’m quite grateful to have learned the things I have and gained the memories with you. All those cold nights by the beach smoking blunts, drinking ourselves stupid and laughing at everything. But it’s about time I make those same memories with someone else. With love as always. ❤
I had ordered pizza for delivery. The driver didn’t bring packets of red pepper. But ultimately, I can’t say for sure that I had mentioned it initially, so how can I fairly put the blame on him? Still, it hurts and I have no control over that. Whatever the case, pizza delivery guy, if you ever read this, just know that in my heart of hearts, I hope you and I can figure it out. #neverforget #buyonegetonefree
8 year relationship down the drain and going through kidney failure due to a stupid genetic disease. This year is tough guys. Hope everyone else is good though ❤️
i dont wanna think about her anymore. We met two years ago and were best friends. She inspired me. She made me feel like I was worth something. She got me into heavy music, she got me into rockclimbing, she got me into alternative fashion. I still remember the way her eyes squinted when I'd finish a hard route or show her a hard rock song I discovered, only for her to have been familiar with it anymore. I loved her. I wanted to confess to her. I wish I could. I remember our every touch, I remember butterflies fluttering in my stomach at every hello, at every laugh, and at every goodbye. I asked my mom for advice on how to handle the situation, but she never understood. She didn't like her. Didn't like that I was attracted to her. She hated that I wasn't straight, and she didn't care at how she lived rent free in my mind. Now she tells me she loves me, and that she would love me no matter what, but her affection only evokes disgust and pain inside of me. I lash out at her, and I hate myself for ir. She thinks I forgave her because I said I did. I know I'm an asshole, but it still hurts. Having to pretend that this person I would have given anything to be with was just an edgy rebellious phase when it really wasn't. I decided that on my last day before moving overseas, I'd tell her. That we'd figure something out together. I was ready for anything-- hell, if I saw her this very instance, and she told me she wanted to run away with me, I'd do it without batting an eye. That day I planned to tell her, we got into an argument. It was over something trivial, something that, if it happened any other day, we would have had forgotten it by tomorrow. But there was no tomorrow: she ran out the door, leaving me there, praying that this wouldn't be the end of us. We ended up talking some 6 months later. Over text. Briefly. She was dry and I didn't know what to say to her. Things weren't the same. I don't blame her-- I disappeared into another country, and we never figured out a way to talk. My appearance was just as sudden as my departure. I lost my faith after that. My mom was right-- if God is real, he must hate gays. Ever since then, I've been seeking out love: I've developed crushed on anyone whose given me the least form of affection. I can't stop myself from chasing that high she gave me. I know its a shitty habit: all I've gotten out of it was dating someone who used me, someone who I never actually loved, and overall being too delusional about dating. And the worst part is, I don't know if I'll ever be able to stop searching for someone who made me feel like her. As much as I've sought out a new partner, I don't think I've ever looked at a girl (or guy) the way I looked at her. All the butterflies inside me died. Now I'm crushing on a friend that doesn't like me back. Probably. I know its another one of those crushes that I get from someone just being nice to me, but I can't stop. They're the only thing keeping me alive at this point. As much as I am an asshole, and as much as I may lust over other people, and even though I will probably never see you again. I still love *you* A.S. -- From some stranger in your memories, M.S.
i hope you find that lover, or someone that loves you for you. it's okay to crave for attention, it's okay to not feel unloved, what's not okay is beating yourself over it. instead you attack it straight on, start seeing over the water. things can change for the good, it sure does take a damn long while, don't know how much longer we can be patient for it, but it's there. we just have to reach for it. you are loved for who you are, now i'm not religious but i'm for sure as hell certain he said 'love thy neighbor', he loves everyone no matter what. you chase that girl of your dreams, who knows, maybe you'll get a second chance. just never give up, the world is full of surprises that's good or bad. but that's what makes us alive, doesn't it? feeling hurt. or feeling so happy over getting a stupid stuffed animal from a claw machine. *feeling* makes us alive, and even though it hurts sometimes, i'm glad i can feel at all. those butterflies aren't in your stomach because they've found their way out, they're surrounding you in beauty. you're beautiful, and i hope some woman finds that beauty and gently allow the butterfly onto their finger. good luck stranger!
Hey man, fellow misunderstood loser white guy from Australia. Letting you know you do have friends who listen to this. Me and everyone else who has listened to this. Merry Christmas x
for those of you looking for something that will resonate with you for the rest of all time, camping in alaska please be nice album. You wont regret it
5 years ago, I was a raging cocaine addict for roughly 3 years, and ruined my life by getting arrested with a small amount; I thought it was over and tried to take my life 3 times in the span of an hour, i had lost everything and saw no end. Here I am 5 years later; major props to my father, and Im a few years clean. Just hit one year at my job and got a raise and promotion yesterday. I graduate as a software engineer in less than 2 years. Life sucks, but the moments like this make it worth it, we can do anything. WE GOT THIS SHIT MY DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LFGGGGG!!!!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING!!!!
I loved her so much, but we weren't good for each other mentally. I didn't leave because I didn't love her, I left because she was bipolar (or BPD) and was hurting me emotionally. As much as I adored seeing her giggle at her favorite movie, playing video games together, splashing each other in the bath and kissing and adoring her, she needed help I could not offer. She's moved on, but I'm here, crying and missing her so much. Life feels so unfair sometimes. Keep your head up my dudes.
In the same situation man. We still text but shes starting to drift away, moving on right in front of me. I love her and im happy for her, i just wish i didn’t feel like this.
She doesn’t feel the same. She never did. She’s said so. She has a boyfriend now. We were never even together. I want to stop thinking about her. I want to stop being in love with her. Why can’t I?
Listening to this comp, I thought it would make me reminisce about my exes. Instead the lyrics reminded me of my school friends, about the things they talked about and did. How they excluded me. Excluded me from their hangouts and group chat, then talk about it right in front of me. I was friends with that group from elementary school all the way to 10th grade, before I just stopped trying to hangout with them. Just to see if they would reach out, of course they didn’t. That’s when the depression really started, I always had dark thoughts but when I stopped hanging out with them. It went from “would anyone care if I died?” To actively thinking of ways to die. No one ever really noticed because I’ve always been good at hiding my feelings. Luckily I met some new friends in 11th grade, those thoughts were still there, just quieter. Don’t know why but they treated me like the leader of the group and I made sure not to let there be another case of me. I remember one of them getting picked on by a different group he was trying to hangout with. He always smiled, but when it dropped. It was like an instinct to jump in. I’ve always been quiet and offstandish, so this was uncomfortable for me but I handled it well. All I did was act like a smartass, didn’t make it awkward, got the attention off him, and they went to talk about other stuff. I miss them, haven’t talked to them since a little after high school. Even started making social media accounts to stay in touch with them. Too bad I don’t know how to reach out to people, but I at least get to see that they’re doing well. One of the people from my old group even reached out to me, talking to him it seems he’s as lonely now as I was and still am. I want to talk with him but I also don’t, like I feel like this is karma but he was the nicest one to do. He’s one of two that actually invited me out kinda, even though I can count the amount of times on one hand. Wow this turned into a rant but it’s nice to get this off my chest :)
oh man. these comments are some of the most comforting things I've ever read. I broke up with my ex almost 2 years ago now, we had a relationship/not relationship thing going for a while after that until she slept with my best friend at the time. the slow landslide into losing the two most important people in my life is the hardest thing I've ever experienced. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget them despite all the hurt they gave me. I still feel like it was my fault. I'm doing a lot better now and finally got pushed into therapy. it took another relationship that I ended up not being ready for to get there. I know you'll never see this, but I'm sorry Lo. you might've been the right person but I was there at the wrong time. thanks for reading this
Funny like a year ago I found this video, it introduced me to the genre, and truly ignited this deep love for midwest emo within me. I was incredibly depressed, really lost in the idea of being a nobody. One year later, and I've experienced so much, true friendship, and love, I broke up with that person since, lost those friends, and I feel lost in the idea of being a nobody again. I've come full circle, today I wake up to see this at the top of my reccomended, maybe this is a sign for me to get back up and rebuild. Love you guys. wish me luck on my journey
It's a bitter sweet feeling to hear these songs and not feel them in the same way I did when I was young. Im a happier person now but sometimes I miss the gut wrenching feeling these used to invoke.
On the bright side it's good you're in such a happy place it's hard to relate! Also this will always be here for the next time you're going through something
There’s something about your first love tbh, something about how she looks at you when you’re sitting across the room, or when she just knows that your elongating for her warmth to hold you. We will be okay. Hang in there and I miss her too. 🥺♥️
@@allieg9406 Hurts even worse cuz I had a first love but never experienced that with her other than a few fleeting moments. Real doomer shit lol. Basically I ran away our whole relationship if you can even call it that took place through a phone. Still my biggest regret was not staying with her when I had te chance and missing out on what’s real. Here I am years later still miserable hoping someday maybe we’ll get another chance and do thing right. But probably not.
@@secluded7772 carry on king, after years it's better to live your best life and stay open for new oportunities, I know how nostalgia feels, but trust me... Knowing a new charming person, who is as excited as you to know each other in a deeper way, create new memories, that feels even better
You don’t belong in this comment section. You smell like a typical “nice guy” who thinks that being a doormat will get a woman interested in you. Come back when you’ve had an actual relationship like an adult. That girl never liked you in the first place and had no intention on pursuing anything romantic. She used you like the tool that you are.
It's alright to cry my guy... washes away the mud little by little... one day again you'll shine. And taste again life's Skittles. And that's alright my guy.... we all be alright
i’m not really sad or missing anyone. im just some random girl who fell in love w this genre a few weeks ago. but to anyone who IS, nothing is permanent (figuratively) and things get better.
you didn’t lose any time, everything you have done up until now has made who you are today, and will continue to be the building blocks for the future you
When I was 15 this amazing girl came into my life, she was part of of our friend group but very quickly we developed a stronger bond between us. I will always remember those days of highschool riding our bikes around, staying out late, camping and having adventures. After a few months of spending most days together I summed up the courage to ask her out and she said yes, although I quickly realised she may have said that out of pity or because she didn't want to hurt my feelings as she seemed distant. I was okay with that because as long as she was willing to give it a try there was a chance but after about 2 months she gave up, I was young and didn't know how to act but I took it very hard, I had had this bond with her for what felt like years and now it was gone and the friend group split. The hardest part was getting no closure, she told me she needed to be alone as she was struggling in her own life and I accepted that but very soon after she began to go out with other boys and got a boyfriend. I felt like nothing, I felt like she never liked me and threw me into the wind like an old leaf while she was going out living life. That was the lowest point of my life but soon I began to appreciate life again, I devoted myself to sport, work and school and began to enjoy my existence again, I joined the gym and worked out until I had developed a pretty good physique and even started a small business. I connected with friends and began to excel in school, life was going good, she never crossed my mind. She had moved away across the country and I was living my life to the fullest, going to parties, doing the things I loved, becoming great at the skills I practiced and spending time with my close knit friend group. Things would change though, last October school finished and a string of terrible things would happen to all of us, people passed away, friendships were broken and relationships came crashing down, through all of this I stuck with my now few close broken friends, one of whom had rekindled an old friendship with the girl I mentioned earlier. How strange fate is now that she had come back into my life. Just last week we organized a road trip with my best friend, our close friend and the girl I mentioned earlier, I thought it would be fun and it was... it was too good, I remembered how amazing she was, her smile, her eyes and after spending a week straight together doing the most romantic things I could feel the bond coming back, maybe it had never left. I thought I hated her, she was the reason I felt so much pain right? I am 19 now, everything I have worked for over the past 4 years; my business, my gym goals, my sport, was all because of her, and now i would throw it away in an instant. I feel like I have lost everything, like the world has come crashing down and here she is. So what the fuck am i supposed to do now, I think i feel tears welling up in my eyes.
We started as friends, then sleepovers, to make out and sex, to moving into his house, helping each other emotionally, to getting kicked out and finding out he got his ex girlfriend pregnant. But told me he needed the room for his grandma…
Some people are more than people, they’re life lessons. I’m sure you learned how to avoid dead weight like him, I hope you can find color in the world soon. God Bless 💜
Cowboy Hat Jack says stay strong, also does anyone else just love looking at these kind of pictures in Midwest emo mix tapes. Something about them feels so nostalgic to my hometown. Love yall.
Just got out of an 11 year relationship with my highschool sweet heart. 26 years young and I’m basically starting all over. I identified with “us” as a couple to where I lost myself. I felt like I was nothing without her in my life but I’m slowly getting out of that mentality. Feel I’m broken beyond repair for any future relationship but I know that’s a temporary feeling. Fuck…what id give to be back in high school. Bringing your skateboard to school the last day before summer break just so you could skate down the hall on your way out. Yep
I was in an 8 year relationship my man so I sort of understand. I’m 26 as well and met this girl when I just turned 19 and moved to Denver. Best days ever but things got rough and we drifted and now every memory hits hard. I hope you find light at the end of the tunnel.
I know 7 months is quite some time but I hope you doing good. My relationship ended 2 years ago, we were together for like 6 years so I can imagine the bond between you two. I'm better now but sometimes I still end up going on a journey through comments, like today, giving in for some melancholy, thinking how universal some feelings and vibes are. Much love!
And history repeats itself. I experienced exactly what has been said and just got out of a 4 1/2 year relationship with my high school gf. It was the hardest thing to accept and do but I did feel lost when she left to go back to her hometown from college and knew I needed to build self happiness on my own.
Dude!! Holy fuck, you're literally me!! Except for the high school sweethearts part. College sweethearts lol. 7 years. But my guy, you know we hit the 5 stair inside the school on the last day!!! While everybody else was at the lame ass sideshow recap whateverthefuck
Ending with Mineral is literally the cherry on top, so glad I got to see their last show in 2014 for their reunion tour at the Glasshouse in downtown Pomona. Almost cried seeing them live lol.
I had many great moments as a teenager at the Glasshouse. Good times. Glad I got to experience such a cool So Cal music scene growing up..from the Whiskey to Chain Reaction, to all the way out in Pomona at the Glasshouse. Awesome memories.
I hope you still experience the socal music scene recently. There's a lot of good so cal midwest emo bands going around atm. Bands like Aren't We Amphebians, Just Let Me Go, Collars, and Stereosity are the ones on top of my mind right now. Also Vs Self is pretty good but also skrams adjacent. @@EriktheRaids82D
This picture makes me think of being 17, looking out the window at 4:40am, feeling like you finally understand everyhting, wrapped in a warm blanket of nostaliga for the past, with a slight, cold sweat of anxiety and worry for the world ahead.
Pretty much found the words to articulate what I've been trying to say about these thumbnails. Is it just me or did things seem more vibrant or dull back then? I remember gorgeous purplish pink, softly colored evenings and early mornings just like this picture.
I'm a jazz pianist and i havent really listened to this music much, but GOD DAMN. its taking all my favorite parts of popular music and turning up the authenticity up to 10000%. I love it so much. the tunings, the basslines, the drumming, the samples, it's all so satisfying. Thanks for making this. I saved the playlist. It might be making me feel things... oh noooo
where'd you find my mixtape from 10 years ago? fuck i thought i hid that cringe good. anyway, i love the return of emo culture, just try staying alive guys, it gets worse before it gets better, but it really gets good
I almost want to start learning guitar just to play some of these. Heard from some people that emo music is normally not as many chords so I have hope I can accomplish it. It will always get better but it takes time. Can only accomplish so much in one day.
Don't miss her, but I feel like something inside me has changed after the fact, and I don't know if it was for the better. I don't really wanna think about her anymore.
Stay positive everyone, we’re all getting through this together. No matter how alone you feel, there’s always another person in a similar, if not the same, situation. Nothing but love to everyone 💚
this playlist has genuinely gotten me through a lot. i’m in a tough spot right now and i’m trying my best, look for the small things in life to keep you moving forward
The girl i loved and lived together for 3 years, left me 4 month ago. I know for sure i still have feelings for her. I wish i could just let it go like a "click". Still hurts and it's hard to stay sharp and cool, because we are still working together at the same job. It's hard to stay focused and my heart twists around every time i see her. Changing the job is not an option due to covid crisis, so yea, pretty rough. Oof and this is a valentines day. Happy day of loneliness everyone. Stay alive, cuz ur not alone in here.
He introduced me to midwest emo and we always listened to it together. I never thought that I'd be relating to the breakup songs now that he's moved on I think. Idk. I don't think I'll ever date anyone ever again after him. I loved and still do love him so much. He said he wanted to break up because he thinks I can find someone better than him, but I don't want anyone else. I don't want "better". I want him. Only him. I wonder if when he listens to his music and plays his guitar that he thinks about me. I wonder if there's still a chance to be with him again. I don't wanna give up, but I don't wanna keep trying if he just wants to move on. I can't even cry physically, so all I can do is cry with my heart. I miss him so much. I miss you so much Ashton. Fuck nevermind I'm crying
a few months ago i met her and i was the happiest ive been in a while she was my everything. I think it was june 21st she texted me a suicide plan and it’s dated a day after her birthday (9/23/24) it’s a few days away she got a new phone and hasn’t texted me in a month. since she lives 200 miles away i can’t see her. haven’t told my parents not even my therapist. i just want to hear her laugh again. i just want to feel like im loved. i just want her. i want her to read this because i don’t think she knew how much she meant to me but i don’t want to come across as desperate. anyway, how’s your day?
Life is constant struggle, but it is cyclical. Enjoy the ups as they come and be thankful for the downs that give them meaning. Everything happens for a reason
3:34am. I am missing my old lover from the past. My very first love from my youth. I'm about to reach my 30s now. I still remember how she smelled. I still remember how she smiles so beautifully to me. I was dumb to let her go because I was afraid of my own feelings - I'm afraid I might not be able to make her happy. Maybe I was immature back then. I was a jerk. We were able to talk a year ago after a very long time about things on what could have happened if we stayed together. A long relationship, maybe? But will it be a harmonious or toxic one? I told her I still have my feelings for her, but she's happy now with someone else. I hope she's doing great. If only I could turn back time, but that's how memories work to make one a better person. If you're reading this, Ching, I really hope you're doing great.
I feel you buddy. I know it well. They never really leave. You just keep moving forward but theirs nothing wrong with remembering the past when it was good
i used to get hurt so much by the thought of you, but i've definitely improved. i'm not saying that the feeling is entirely gone, but it's been reduced significantly. i hope you're happy now. a part of me wishes i could experience that all again, the feeling of someone truly understanding me. the feeling of a close friend, the one (and possibly only) time i made a "true" friend. it's all turned to shit for me after that eventful day, but i do hope that you're happy with whatever guy you replaced with me.
This music actually makes me feel happy, like in a good melancholic kind of way. It invokes a jaunty kind of sadness like you’d share with buddies after a rough week and now you’re together again, talking mad shit, throwing beer bottles against the curb, rocking out to the jams, telling the world to fuck off for the night. We’re done with your shit today, World. Tonight I’m hanging with Amber and Kevin, and we’re trying to have a good time
I left her, but my feelings are still strong for her. She hurt me, she never felt the same like i did. I dont know, if i bored her that fast or whatever else ... i have no answers. What an awful feeling. Im here and waiting for the pain to go away. I know it will be better. This is just life. We will be better.
I'm 17 and I love this genre of music. I'm not going through a break up or missing my ex. In fact, I haven't had like a romantic relationship for about a year and it doesn't seem like one is coming around the cormer. However, I am anxious about the future and what's in store for me(including if I'll find a wife and have a family). Listening to this music and seeing other's comments kind of help put my mind at ease. Thank you!
I LOVE ALL OF THESE SONGS I LOVE THEM I LOVE ALL OF THEM MY BEST FRINE DPUT ME ONTO MODERN BASEBALL IN HIGHSCHOOL AND COLLEGE CAME AROUND AND HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME IN NEARLY 2 YEARS NOW!
i loved them so much. they broke up with me because they were in love with my best friend, but lied and said "i was too anxious" which could also be part of it. i just wish i could have helped them more. they were going through a lot when we were together, and i tried so hard to comfort them. i did everything they asked and more. on valentines day when we were together i poured my heart out into a song and gifts for them and when i sent them the song recording i didnt even get a response. i wish i didnt love them like i do, but i just cant move on. its been months and it still stings like yesterday. they asked my best friend out only a week after we broke up, and luckily bsf said no. it doesnt stop them though, they keep pressuring my best friend and going against her boundaries. i just wish all of this was over already
This was in my youtubes recommendation, im from the Midwest and never heard of this genre, Tbh it wasn't my type of music, BUT i am so glad i gave it a chance, im saving this video to listen to again and again
i needed every second of this im so glad that this type of music lived on cause it has got me thru so many years of pain its so hard to hold on anymore and music like this helps so much
I was jamming with some new musician friends I made and after I sang an oasis tune they told me I have a Midwest Emo kinda voice. I didn't know wtf that meant, so here I am now 2 days later listening to this, and I fuckin love it!!! Good job guys 🤟🏻
4 year relationship that was really like i always dreamt about. 2 years in she fell in love with my best friend, only to tell me 7 days before christmas after we moved in together. Now im back in the shitty town i swore i would leave behind, without anyone.. this year is a real stinker
Stay strong fellas, dont make a permanent solution for a temporary problem
Thank you..
I love all of you,
From Australia 🇦🇺 ♥
Thanks for that comment
Fuck you and not knowing the pain I feel.
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midwest emo is one of the most raw true genres. It feels so real, so empathic, melancholic.. i love it with all my soul
You can only find this sort of pain and sadness in midwest emo or dsbm
has anyone told you that you may be depressed?
@@jackmasterofnonee Has anyone ever told you sadness and longing are natural emotions? Big Pharma at it again.
@@jackmasterofnonee well we’re not exactly here because we’re feeling great
midwest emo is unique and amazing artist as well it helps our daily life routine of sadness and depression..
It’s a weird place to be in when you don’t want her back but you still miss being with her
I feel you bro
Even though it’s been about three years and she’s engaged to someone else now, I feel like this here and there. Miss her.
stay strong my bois, we can do it
Yuuuuuup.
wild
5 years ago, when I was 19, I used a service where I wrote future (well, right now it would be present) me an e-mail. A big chunk of that letter to myself was about the girl I was - and to be quite honest still am - madly in love with. We had known each other since we were 12 and became closer and closer over the years. What started as a very important friendship to both of us developed into love for me at least after she left the school and city when we were 16. It suddenly hit me that I really, really loved her. Over the next 2 years we met a few times whenever she stayed here at her dad's. She then returned for good to study here and it was almost like back when we were goofing around after school a few years prior. However, I couldn't bring myself to confess my love to her. It hurt, it really hurt but I did not want to lose the friendship that became one of the most important anchors in my life. At the start of 2018, we still wrote daily. Fast forward to October/November and we were barely keeping contact. That was probably my fault but I kept telling me that her integrated degree program (I guess that's what you call it in english) was just too hard and that's why we were seeing each other and talking less and less. Losing her broke me for a time.
I fell into a very bad downward spiral during which I also wrote that letter to myself. In it, I swore to myself that I will tell her what I wrote down here in an abridged version. Which I did, about 2 weeks ago. We saw each other for the first time in 5 years and reminisced. In the end I told her everything. It was a great evening I thought. Told her that via a text aswell and hoped to meet her again for a coffee or something.
Guess she does not feel the same way as the message is still read and unanswered. It does hurt a lot but in a different way than it did the first time losing her. I think I'll be okay.
I'm on Tiny Moving Parts - Dakota writing this and started crying a lot. That song really hits the nail on the head for me. Fuck.
"I have never been so scared and sad at the same time
I finally will figure out what life truly means when it's all been left behind
I did not know what steps to take after graduating high school
I never knew
Much of anything"
"If I feel this cold still buried in my throat, I guess I'll survive
'Cause it's sad that time turns its back on us, like a wood chipper eating up the lumber
It turns into dust and floats in the air
To prove what we have lost"
If anyone is still reading this, thanks for letting me get this off my chest. And thanks to you, N. for the great friendship we had. I sincerely hope you're doing better than I am right now. But don't worry, I'll be better. I know it.
Thank you for sharing
@@Omele.t.t.e ❤
Keep moving forward. You’re growing stronger every passing moment. Don’t forget that
I deeply relate to this. Just take your time to process things. It took me 5 years to be friend again with her (my once best friend) after I confess my feeling. Yet, it still not the same as before. Stay strong brother
i love you man
If this is your first time listening to a midwest emo mix, welcome. There's no escape from here
I’m glad there’s no escape I’m fucking with this
hi! I decided to finally see what the heck it is after hearing everyone talk about it
I knew what i was getting into. I didn't care and I still don't. its ok.
No escape? I like the sound of that
drain gang
I want to be young again, do it all over again, even the pain
Armor for sleep - Awkward last words
I'm 33 and married now ; I still wish I could relate to some of the heartbreak music from when I was younger.
I'd go for just having the body of my youth. These joints crack when use them.
Amen
same buddy
Old guy here. I’m happily married with kids. I can relate to all of this, as I’ve been there, but we had bands like orchid, pg99 to soothe the pain. WERE ALL GONNA MAKE IT, KINGS.
yesss, and don't forgot saetia
God bless you, real chad
christ, i had completely forgotten about saetia@@6Goth6Broth6
not everyone makes it, unless youre refering to blue screening
I stopped believing.
Hey guys, I finally decided to move on today, I took her stuff back to her apartment. All the dogs came rushing towards me so excited to see their dad, they almost knocked me down. I tried not to cry as I left her clothes by the door but we said our goodbyes in peace with hopeful hearts knowing we can still see each other as friends.
I’m quite grateful to have learned the things I have and gained the memories with you. All those cold nights by the beach smoking blunts, drinking ourselves stupid and laughing at everything. But it’s about time I make those same memories with someone else.
With love as always.
❤
God as I wrote this down I see why these people made bands and made music.
Hope you're doing okay man
There's nothing more wholesome than the comment section of a midwest emo mixtape. Love you all, you're never alone
still convinced she was the love of my life
She was. There’s a timeline somewhere, in it you two are together
@@austins.2495 Ouuuuuuuch that’s gonna leave a mark
If she was she would still be here, I thought the same thing.
time heals all wounds
Me too man.
I had ordered pizza for delivery. The driver didn’t bring packets of red pepper. But ultimately, I can’t say for sure that I had mentioned it initially, so how can I fairly put the blame on him? Still, it hurts and I have no control over that. Whatever the case, pizza delivery guy, if you ever read this, just know that in my heart of hearts, I hope you and I can figure it out. #neverforget #buyonegetonefree
I spit out my drink reading this, thank you sir
@@kylegallagher9650 I’m glad you think my pain is funny #halfoffwings
Reminds me of SpongeBob's episode Pizza Delivery lol
@@doggish412r Krusty Kraaaaayyyyeeeeeaaaaahhhhhbbbbuh!
what a story
8 year relationship down the drain and going through kidney failure due to a stupid genetic disease. This year is tough guys. Hope everyone else is good though ❤️
hope things only go up for you from here on stranger
Sending love ❤
its not down the drain. u have the good memories and u grew as a person over time. hope ur kidney issue got resolved or at least things got better
agreed.
I hope that things go better 4 u pal
i dont wanna think about her anymore.
We met two years ago and were best friends. She inspired me. She made me feel like I was worth something. She got me into heavy music, she got me into rockclimbing, she got me into alternative fashion. I still remember the way her eyes squinted when I'd finish a hard route or show her a hard rock song I discovered, only for her to have been familiar with it anymore. I loved her. I wanted to confess to her. I wish I could. I remember our every touch, I remember butterflies fluttering in my stomach at every hello, at every laugh, and at every goodbye.
I asked my mom for advice on how to handle the situation, but she never understood. She didn't like her. Didn't like that I was attracted to her. She hated that I wasn't straight, and she didn't care at how she lived rent free in my mind. Now she tells me she loves me, and that she would love me no matter what, but her affection only evokes disgust and pain inside of me. I lash out at her, and I hate myself for ir. She thinks I forgave her because I said I did. I know I'm an asshole, but it still hurts. Having to pretend that this person I would have given anything to be with was just an edgy rebellious phase when it really wasn't.
I decided that on my last day before moving overseas, I'd tell her. That we'd figure something out together. I was ready for anything-- hell, if I saw her this very instance, and she told me she wanted to run away with me, I'd do it without batting an eye.
That day I planned to tell her, we got into an argument. It was over something trivial, something that, if it happened any other day, we would have had forgotten it by tomorrow. But there was no tomorrow: she ran out the door, leaving me there, praying that this wouldn't be the end of us.
We ended up talking some 6 months later. Over text. Briefly. She was dry and I didn't know what to say to her. Things weren't the same. I don't blame her-- I disappeared into another country, and we never figured out a way to talk. My appearance was just as sudden as my departure.
I lost my faith after that. My mom was right-- if God is real, he must hate gays.
Ever since then, I've been seeking out love: I've developed crushed on anyone whose given me the least form of affection. I can't stop myself from chasing that high she gave me. I know its a shitty habit: all I've gotten out of it was dating someone who used me, someone who I never actually loved, and overall being too delusional about dating. And the worst part is, I don't know if I'll ever be able to stop searching for someone who made me feel like her. As much as I've sought out a new partner, I don't think I've ever looked at a girl (or guy) the way I looked at her. All the butterflies inside me died.
Now I'm crushing on a friend that doesn't like me back. Probably. I know its another one of those crushes that I get from someone just being nice to me, but I can't stop.
They're the only thing keeping me alive at this point.
As much as I am an asshole, and as much as I may lust over other people, and even though I will probably never see you again.
I still love *you*
A.S.
-- From some stranger in your memories, M.S.
do you need a virtual hug?
@@kris_py maybe :')
i hope you find that lover, or someone that loves you for you. it's okay to crave for attention, it's okay to not feel unloved, what's not okay is beating yourself over it. instead you attack it straight on, start seeing over the water. things can change for the good, it sure does take a damn long while, don't know how much longer we can be patient for it, but it's there. we just have to reach for it. you are loved for who you are, now i'm not religious but i'm for sure as hell certain he said 'love thy neighbor', he loves everyone no matter what. you chase that girl of your dreams, who knows, maybe you'll get a second chance. just never give up, the world is full of surprises that's good or bad. but that's what makes us alive, doesn't it? feeling hurt. or feeling so happy over getting a stupid stuffed animal from a claw machine. *feeling* makes us alive, and even though it hurts sometimes, i'm glad i can feel at all. those butterflies aren't in your stomach because they've found their way out, they're surrounding you in beauty. you're beautiful, and i hope some woman finds that beauty and gently allow the butterfly onto their finger. good luck stranger!
i’m only alive in hopes that i can feel her again
Two beers in has been the opening song for everyone one of these compilation videos and I fucking love it !
It just really makes sense 😂
Midwest emo is still the most romantic breakup music ever and I love it
14 years passed. It's not that bad anymore. But it still kinda hurts sometimes. You never really forget.
don't try to forget. Not my saying, but 'don't cry because it ended, smile because it happened'.
moving on is not about forgetting those painful memories, but it's to find a healthy way to accept and live with the memories.
I’m a black dude from Maryland who fell in love with Midwest emo when I was a misunderstood loser. I wish I had friends who listen to this
Hey man, fellow misunderstood loser white guy from Australia. Letting you know you do have friends who listen to this. Me and everyone else who has listened to this. Merry Christmas x
You do buddy. We are all right here 🫡
i guarantee someone else is listening near you. Trouble is finding them, too.
me too
Hello fellow Black dude from Maryland. I’m late to the party but we’re definitely out there.
for those of you looking for something that will resonate with you for the rest of all time, camping in alaska please be nice album. You wont regret it
Everything you’re feeling is common, even though you’ve never felt so alone
I could probably catch a ride to your house, or borrow a bike to get back home :(
@@Pomp_adour she says 'you got a promise not to break, no matter how far you are bent'
So true. Whatever you're going through or thoughts you're having millions upon millions of people have also gone through it since time began
Very well used, except they aren't Midwestern, but that's besides the fact that they're the best band in this general genre of all time.
it gets better boys. whatever you're going through, remember that nothing is permanent
Except scars
Thanks. I should write it down and hang it on the fridge, it's too easy to forget.
Hope so bro, it doesn't seem to
😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
wtf is this video and why is it and the comments exactly what i need to see at this moment in time. this isn’t coincidence
I’m happy and sad to say I got to a better place in my life and these don’t hit as hard. Heartbreak ends y’all, you’ll move on and get through it.
You don't have to be hurting to enjoy these tunes. 🙊
i feel the same :)) it can really get better
thanks for the advice
I'm scared of heartbreak.
I wrote similar comment to one of the playlists like that two years ago. Look at me now, returned to where I once was, heartbroken.
i love the pictures for these mixes, they just seem so close to me. like they were taken just a few blocks away.
I love them too
American Football started it. then it became its own thing
I literally feel like I've lived here before but honestly all neighborhoods here look like this lol
I live in France so this is not something that feel close to me, but i love those kinds of typical american neighborhoods
they make me feel so much
tbh I’m not even sad I just love this genre 😎
me too
real
Same 😅
you're lucky as hell man. don't ever take that for granted
@@cutstring forgot I left this comment damn
I love how the pics for these emo mixtapes are always pretty much just my neighborhood during fall or winter
I was emo in 2006. It’s 2022 and I’m here. Turns out it’s not just a phase.
5 years ago, I was a raging cocaine addict for roughly 3 years, and ruined my life by getting arrested with a small amount; I thought it was over and tried to take my life 3 times in the span of an hour, i had lost everything and saw no end. Here I am 5 years later; major props to my father, and Im a few years clean. Just hit one year at my job and got a raise and promotion yesterday. I graduate as a software engineer in less than 2 years. Life sucks, but the moments like this make it worth it, we can do anything. WE GOT THIS SHIT MY DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LFGGGGG!!!!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING!!!!
That's fucking awesome bud, keep kicking ass my dude.
You got this shit!
Congratulations man
Congrats my fellow dev!
Hell yeah man
I'm two years clean off meth, totally feel you bro. It works if you work it. Congratulations man keep pushing
I loved her so much, but we weren't good for each other mentally. I didn't leave because I didn't love her, I left because she was bipolar (or BPD) and was hurting me emotionally. As much as I adored seeing her giggle at her favorite movie, playing video games together, splashing each other in the bath and kissing and adoring her, she needed help I could not offer. She's moved on, but I'm here, crying and missing her so much. Life feels so unfair sometimes. Keep your head up my dudes.
In the same situation man. We still text but shes starting to drift away, moving on right in front of me. I love her and im happy for her, i just wish i didn’t feel like this.
Yeah mate. Same ball park. Still wrappin my head around it. We got this tho
whole lotta kings here 💜
I hope you get better
Ha felt this hella hard.
She doesn’t feel the same. She never did. She’s said so. She has a boyfriend now. We were never even together. I want to stop thinking about her. I want to stop being in love with her.
Why can’t I?
Because she left her mark on you and now the ghost of what was is haunting you I know how you feel keep. Pushing
I love you man, keep that in mind. It will hurt, but it will not remain.
Your comment is old, but im going through something similar...and i love you, man, i understand exactly your pain
Listening to this comp, I thought it would make me reminisce about my exes. Instead the lyrics reminded me of my school friends, about the things they talked about and did. How they excluded me. Excluded me from their hangouts and group chat, then talk about it right in front of me. I was friends with that group from elementary school all the way to 10th grade, before I just stopped trying to hangout with them. Just to see if they would reach out, of course they didn’t. That’s when the depression really started, I always had dark thoughts but when I stopped hanging out with them. It went from “would anyone care if I died?” To actively thinking of ways to die. No one ever really noticed because I’ve always been good at hiding my feelings.
Luckily I met some new friends in 11th grade, those thoughts were still there, just quieter. Don’t know why but they treated me like the leader of the group and I made sure not to let there be another case of me. I remember one of them getting picked on by a different group he was trying to hangout with. He always smiled, but when it dropped. It was like an instinct to jump in. I’ve always been quiet and offstandish, so this was uncomfortable for me but I handled it well. All I did was act like a smartass, didn’t make it awkward, got the attention off him, and they went to talk about other stuff. I miss them, haven’t talked to them since a little after high school.
Even started making social media accounts to stay in touch with them. Too bad I don’t know how to reach out to people, but I at least get to see that they’re doing well. One of the people from my old group even reached out to me, talking to him it seems he’s as lonely now as I was and still am. I want to talk with him but I also don’t, like I feel like this is karma but he was the nicest one to do. He’s one of two that actually invited me out kinda, even though I can count the amount of times on one hand.
Wow this turned into a rant but it’s nice to get this off my chest :)
oh man. these comments are some of the most comforting things I've ever read. I broke up with my ex almost 2 years ago now, we had a relationship/not relationship thing going for a while after that until she slept with my best friend at the time. the slow landslide into losing the two most important people in my life is the hardest thing I've ever experienced. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget them despite all the hurt they gave me. I still feel like it was my fault.
I'm doing a lot better now and finally got pushed into therapy. it took another relationship that I ended up not being ready for to get there. I know you'll never see this, but I'm sorry Lo. you might've been the right person but I was there at the wrong time.
thanks for reading this
Stay strong
If you didn't want to think about her anymore then you wouldn't make a whole mixtape about it
Funny like a year ago I found this video, it introduced me to the genre, and truly ignited this deep love for midwest emo within me. I was incredibly depressed, really lost in the idea of being a nobody. One year later, and I've experienced so much, true friendship, and love, I broke up with that person since, lost those friends, and I feel lost in the idea of being a nobody again. I've come full circle, today I wake up to see this at the top of my reccomended, maybe this is a sign for me to get back up and rebuild. Love you guys. wish me luck on my journey
It’s weird how this is meant to be sad music but it makes me happy to listen to it, it’s such a hopeful sadness
Thoughts change but feelings stay the same
thanks bro (im a girl)
It's a bitter sweet feeling to hear these songs and not feel them in the same way I did when I was young. Im a happier person now but sometimes I miss the gut wrenching feeling these used to invoke.
you perfectly described something I feel all the time yet couldn't put into words
feeling remains it is now repressed
On the bright side it's good you're in such a happy place it's hard to relate! Also this will always be here for the next time you're going through something
holy... im still young but you just put something into words for me i haven't known how to explain for years
Wish I could not feel them. Feels like I'll be 50 and still hurting.
every song on here is in my spotify rewind. phenomenal video
SAME!
Could you kindly make a playlist with this songs on
What is your Spotify account name because I love your taste in music
Tried this method, well I still miss her.
I miss her and this feeling is never gonna go away
Like a fresh wound, it’ll take time to heal.
There’s something about your first love tbh, something about how she looks at you when you’re sitting across the room, or when she just knows that your elongating for her warmth to hold you.
We will be okay. Hang in there and I miss her too. 🥺♥️
Hope you're doing a bit better J. Time heals.
@@allieg9406 Hurts even worse cuz I had a first love but never experienced that with her other than a few fleeting moments. Real doomer shit lol. Basically I ran away our whole relationship if you can even call it that took place through a phone. Still my biggest regret was not staying with her when I had te chance and missing out on what’s real. Here I am years later still miserable hoping someday maybe we’ll get another chance and do thing right. But probably not.
@@secluded7772 carry on king, after years it's better to live your best life and stay open for new oportunities, I know how nostalgia feels, but trust me... Knowing a new charming person, who is as excited as you to know each other in a deeper way, create new memories, that feels even better
She cried in my arms about how he treated her, now she's back in his arms not even thinking about me.
Damn beaches
Literally happened to me except she had a baby he never wanted
You don’t belong in this comment section. You smell like a typical “nice guy” who thinks that being a doormat will get a woman interested in you. Come back when you’ve had an actual relationship like an adult. That girl never liked you in the first place and had no intention on pursuing anything romantic. She used you like the tool that you are.
Lmao. Now this is the epitome of women. The good guys get the shoulder to cry on, the bad boys got the … to ride on.
It's alright to cry my guy... washes away the mud little by little... one day again you'll shine. And taste again life's Skittles. And that's alright my guy.... we all be alright
well said
i’m not really sad or missing anyone. im just some random girl who fell in love w this genre a few weeks ago. but to anyone who IS, nothing is permanent (figuratively) and things get better.
Clicked on a playlist - started to think about her immediately
you didn’t lose any time, everything you have done up until now has made who you are today, and will continue to be the building blocks for the future you
This is genuinely such an impactful thing to read in the comments; thank you
When I was 15 this amazing girl came into my life, she was part of of our friend group but very quickly we developed a stronger bond between us. I will always remember those days of highschool riding our bikes around, staying out late, camping and having adventures. After a few months of spending most days together I summed up the courage to ask her out and she said yes, although I quickly realised she may have said that out of pity or because she didn't want to hurt my feelings as she seemed distant. I was okay with that because as long as she was willing to give it a try there was a chance but after about 2 months she gave up, I was young and didn't know how to act but I took it very hard, I had had this bond with her for what felt like years and now it was gone and the friend group split. The hardest part was getting no closure, she told me she needed to be alone as she was struggling in her own life and I accepted that but very soon after she began to go out with other boys and got a boyfriend. I felt like nothing, I felt like she never liked me and threw me into the wind like an old leaf while she was going out living life. That was the lowest point of my life but soon I began to appreciate life again, I devoted myself to sport, work and school and began to enjoy my existence again, I joined the gym and worked out until I had developed a pretty good physique and even started a small business. I connected with friends and began to excel in school, life was going good, she never crossed my mind. She had moved away across the country and I was living my life to the fullest, going to parties, doing the things I loved, becoming great at the skills I practiced and spending time with my close knit friend group. Things would change though, last October school finished and a string of terrible things would happen to all of us, people passed away, friendships were broken and relationships came crashing down, through all of this I stuck with my now few close broken friends, one of whom had rekindled an old friendship with the girl I mentioned earlier. How strange fate is now that she had come back into my life. Just last week we organized a road trip with my best friend, our close friend and the girl I mentioned earlier, I thought it would be fun and it was... it was too good, I remembered how amazing she was, her smile, her eyes and after spending a week straight together doing the most romantic things I could feel the bond coming back, maybe it had never left. I thought I hated her, she was the reason I felt so much pain right? I am 19 now, everything I have worked for over the past 4 years; my business, my gym goals, my sport, was all because of her, and now i would throw it away in an instant. I feel like I have lost everything, like the world has come crashing down and here she is. So what the fuck am i supposed to do now, I think i feel tears welling up in my eyes.
I dont know man this is dangerous
We started as friends, then sleepovers, to make out and sex, to moving into his house, helping each other emotionally, to getting kicked out and finding out he got his ex girlfriend pregnant. But told me he needed the room for his grandma…
better to have loved than have never loved at all
What the fuuuu…
Some people are more than people, they’re life lessons. I’m sure you learned how to avoid dead weight like him, I hope you can find color in the world soon. God Bless 💜
That's really fucked. I think a discerningly amount of people are really fucked in the head
Plot twist-
Grandma is the nanny
we just broke up, then this. Just hits different. fuck.
Don’t worry I’m going through it the same time you are
Same brothers. Well be alright.
right here with yall
I'm sorry man
@@jmo5087 well definitively be alright in our own time.
better to have loved than have never loved at all, i'm so glad yall can even attract a partner
it will come man trust me
@@wsterx91 if it doesnt come in 35 years it never will, women shallow
@@coryleblanc if you are 35 without female attraction, you are the problem sorry to say.
@@PyroFeenix that's true, i never denied it
Just get some therapy, work on yourself, exercise, eat well, work hard, and avoid the shallow thots.
Cowboy Hat Jack says stay strong, also does anyone else just love looking at these kind of pictures in Midwest emo mix tapes. Something about them feels so nostalgic to my hometown. Love yall.
Just got out of an 11 year relationship with my highschool sweet heart. 26 years young and I’m basically starting all over. I identified with “us” as a couple to where I lost myself. I felt like I was nothing without her in my life but I’m slowly getting out of that mentality. Feel I’m broken beyond repair for any future relationship but I know that’s a temporary feeling. Fuck…what id give to be back in high school. Bringing your skateboard to school the last day before summer break just so you could skate down the hall on your way out. Yep
I was in an 8 year relationship my man so I sort of understand. I’m 26 as well and met this girl when I just turned 19 and moved to Denver. Best days ever but things got rough and we drifted and now every memory hits hard. I hope you find light at the end of the tunnel.
I know 7 months is quite some time but I hope you doing good. My relationship ended 2 years ago, we were together for like 6 years so I can imagine the bond between you two. I'm better now but sometimes I still end up going on a journey through comments, like today, giving in for some melancholy, thinking how universal some feelings and vibes are. Much love!
And history repeats itself. I experienced exactly what has been said and just got out of a 4 1/2 year relationship with my high school gf. It was the hardest thing to accept and do but I did feel lost when she left to go back to her hometown from college and knew I needed to build self happiness on my own.
Represent. 24 yo, ending my 6 years with my highschool love. Hurts beyond imagination.
Dude!! Holy fuck, you're literally me!! Except for the high school sweethearts part. College sweethearts lol. 7 years. But my guy, you know we hit the 5 stair inside the school on the last day!!! While everybody else was at the lame ass sideshow recap whateverthefuck
not a her, but a him. he was my best friend and i genuinely believe that we were soulmates. it's weird to admit that.
did you ever tell him?
was?
@@bluepenguin3686 i always wanted to tell him but i never had the chance to. part of me thinks it's too late now.
@@arthur_thomas Maybe it's too late. maybe it's not. You decide!
I do be missing her guys but i think it’s better to leave her alone. Don’t want to be a problem for her but i do still be dreaming about her
Ending with Mineral is literally the cherry on top, so glad I got to see their last show in 2014 for their reunion tour at the Glasshouse in downtown Pomona. Almost cried seeing them live lol.
>almost cried
>almost
Heartless bastard...
I had many great moments as a teenager at the Glasshouse. Good times. Glad I got to experience such a cool So Cal music scene growing up..from the Whiskey to Chain Reaction, to all the way out in Pomona at the Glasshouse. Awesome memories.
I hope you still experience the socal music scene recently. There's a lot of good so cal midwest emo bands going around atm. Bands like Aren't We Amphebians, Just Let Me Go, Collars, and Stereosity are the ones on top of my mind right now. Also Vs Self is pretty good but also skrams adjacent. @@EriktheRaids82D
This picture makes me think of being 17, looking out the window at 4:40am, feeling like you finally understand everyhting, wrapped in a warm blanket of nostaliga for the past, with a slight, cold sweat of anxiety and worry for the world ahead.
Pretty much found the words to articulate what I've been trying to say about these thumbnails. Is it just me or did things seem more vibrant or dull back then? I remember gorgeous purplish pink, softly colored evenings and early mornings just like this picture.
Same. Although these days it just make me feel like I woke up an hour early... fuck I hate my job...
@@BadMarriageKawagoe hope you find your way friend, took me a long time to find a good one.
Oof this one hits hard
I'm a jazz pianist and i havent really listened to this music much, but GOD DAMN. its taking all my favorite parts of popular music and turning up the authenticity up to 10000%. I love it so much. the tunings, the basslines, the drumming, the samples, it's all so satisfying. Thanks for making this. I saved the playlist. It might be making me feel things... oh noooo
Gonna get stoned and cry my fuckin eyes out to this
solid plan might steal it
@@joesephchadd4276 nah that's scary my name is Joseph too 😳 i hope u doin well out there m8
doing that right now lol
@@rickii2455 07:01 is my go to ✊🏼
where'd you find my mixtape from 10 years ago? fuck i thought i hid that cringe good.
anyway, i love the return of emo culture, just try staying alive guys, it gets worse before it gets better, but it really gets good
I almost want to start learning guitar just to play some of these. Heard from some people that emo music is normally not as many chords so I have hope I can accomplish it. It will always get better but it takes time. Can only accomplish so much in one day.
appreciate it :)
that's my secret, cap. i'm always thinking about her
Don't miss her, but I feel like something inside me has changed after the fact, and I don't know if it was for the better. I don't really wanna think about her anymore.
playlists with movie quotes as intros are top tier but hearing your irl audio just makes it all the more genuine. great job!
Stay positive everyone, we’re all getting through this together. No matter how alone you feel, there’s always another person in a similar, if not the same, situation. Nothing but love to everyone 💚
this playlist has genuinely gotten me through a lot. i’m in a tough spot right now and i’m trying my best, look for the small things in life to keep you moving forward
Came here because of memes making fun of midwest emo, but bro...I feel like this shit is some different kind of sad and I like it
Found out my ex cheated on me, need this music so bad rn...
Missing him, we were never together, maybe that's why I can't get over it. What could've been if he wanted it enough.
The girl i loved and lived together for 3 years, left me 4 month ago. I know for sure i still have feelings for her. I wish i could just let it go like a "click". Still hurts and it's hard to stay sharp and cool, because we are still working together at the same job. It's hard to stay focused and my heart twists around every time i see her. Changing the job is not an option due to covid crisis, so yea, pretty rough. Oof and this is a valentines day. Happy day of loneliness everyone. Stay alive, cuz ur not alone in here.
Keep your head up..you got this 🧡
This style just brings me back to high school 2004-2007. Comforting.
Same
Damn, this is good music.
yup, they hit right in the feelzz
The little personal touches make this feel so... human? Real? I don't know but goddamn it's special.
He introduced me to midwest emo and we always listened to it together. I never thought that I'd be relating to the breakup songs now that he's moved on I think. Idk. I don't think I'll ever date anyone ever again after him. I loved and still do love him so much. He said he wanted to break up because he thinks I can find someone better than him, but I don't want anyone else. I don't want "better". I want him. Only him. I wonder if when he listens to his music and plays his guitar that he thinks about me. I wonder if there's still a chance to be with him again. I don't wanna give up, but I don't wanna keep trying if he just wants to move on.
I can't even cry physically, so all I can do is cry with my heart. I miss him so much. I miss you so much Ashton. Fuck nevermind I'm crying
a few months ago i met her and i was the happiest ive been in a while she was my everything. I think it was june 21st she texted me a suicide plan and it’s dated a day after her birthday (9/23/24) it’s a few days away she got a new phone and hasn’t texted me in a month. since she lives 200 miles away i can’t see her. haven’t told my parents not even my therapist. i just want to hear her laugh again. i just want to feel like im loved.
i just want her.
i want her to read this because i don’t think she knew how much she meant to me but i don’t want to come across as desperate. anyway, how’s your day?
Life is constant struggle, but it is cyclical. Enjoy the ups as they come and be thankful for the downs that give them meaning. Everything happens for a reason
Much love
The hardest part about her revealing she was trash, is that I cant want to be with her.
can't take the emo out of this girl //_-
well she just left so i’m here
3:34am. I am missing my old lover from the past. My very first love from my youth. I'm about to reach my 30s now.
I still remember how she smelled. I still remember how she smiles so beautifully to me. I was dumb to let her go because I was afraid of my own feelings - I'm afraid I might not be able to make her happy. Maybe I was immature back then. I was a jerk.
We were able to talk a year ago after a very long time about things on what could have happened if we stayed together. A long relationship, maybe? But will it be a harmonious or toxic one? I told her I still have my feelings for her, but she's happy now with someone else. I hope she's doing great.
If only I could turn back time, but that's how memories work to make one a better person.
If you're reading this, Ching, I really hope you're doing great.
I feel you buddy. I know it well. They never really leave. You just keep moving forward but theirs nothing wrong with remembering the past when it was good
God I Pray I see her again someday 🙏
What did she smell like? How did she smile? Were you dumb? Please fill me in. now
i used to get hurt so much by the thought of you, but i've definitely improved. i'm not saying that the feeling is entirely gone, but it's been reduced significantly. i hope you're happy now. a part of me wishes i could experience that all again, the feeling of someone truly understanding me. the feeling of a close friend, the one (and possibly only) time i made a "true" friend. it's all turned to shit for me after that eventful day, but i do hope that you're happy with whatever guy you replaced with me.
This music actually makes me feel happy, like in a good melancholic kind of way. It invokes a jaunty kind of sadness like you’d share with buddies after a rough week and now you’re together again, talking mad shit, throwing beer bottles against the curb, rocking out to the jams, telling the world to fuck off for the night.
We’re done with your shit today, World. Tonight I’m hanging with Amber and Kevin, and we’re trying to have a good time
From reading these comments it feels like I'm the only one who starts playing midwest emo when I'm not feeling like shit
my first comment was left march 30, 2022. it's now april 14, 2024. this mix has changed my life in so many ways.
I left her, but my feelings are still strong for her. She hurt me, she never felt the same like i did. I dont know, if i bored her that fast or whatever else ... i have no answers. What an awful feeling. Im here and waiting for the pain to go away. I know it will be better. This is just life. We will be better.
Its been 3 months since I lost her and it was all my fault…I didn’t listen…I should’ve talked to her first…I hurt her. 😖
Me too crazidoode
Me too.. mee too.
I'm 17 and I love this genre of music.
I'm not going through a break up or missing my ex. In fact, I haven't had like a romantic relationship for about a year and it doesn't seem like one is coming around the cormer.
However, I am anxious about the future and what's in store for me(including if I'll find a wife and have a family).
Listening to this music and seeing other's comments kind of help put my mind at ease. Thank you!
I LOVE ALL OF THESE SONGS I LOVE THEM I LOVE ALL OF THEM MY BEST FRINE DPUT ME ONTO MODERN BASEBALL IN HIGHSCHOOL AND COLLEGE CAME AROUND AND HE HASN'T TALKED TO ME IN NEARLY 2 YEARS NOW!
are you the one reaching out? Are you sure they haven't changed their number / account?
i loved them so much. they broke up with me because they were in love with my best friend, but lied and said "i was too anxious" which could also be part of it. i just wish i could have helped them more. they were going through a lot when we were together, and i tried so hard to comfort them. i did everything they asked and more. on valentines day when we were together i poured my heart out into a song and gifts for them and when i sent them the song recording i didnt even get a response. i wish i didnt love them like i do, but i just cant move on. its been months and it still stings like yesterday. they asked my best friend out only a week after we broke up, and luckily bsf said no. it doesnt stop them though, they keep pressuring my best friend and going against her boundaries. i just wish all of this was over already
Im an asshole and i dont wanna be
My wife is glad I moved on. Stay up Kings.
This comment section is the therapy none of us can afford but desperately need
One of those nights again. Glad that you made this playlist I think somehow someway it’s helped me out getting over her. Thanks
This was in my youtubes recommendation, im from the Midwest and never heard of this genre,
Tbh it wasn't my type of music, BUT i am so glad i gave it a chance, im saving this video to listen to again and again
She left me for another guy and now here I am a month later still fucked up over it
sorry that happened rafal if youre down for some Minecraft , lemme know
i needed every second of this im so glad that this type of music lived on cause it has got me thru so many years of pain its so hard to hold on anymore and music like this helps so much
This particular mixtape makes me feel so nostalgic and is one of the best ones i've heard, I cant express how much I love it
I was jamming with some new musician friends I made and after I sang an oasis tune they told me I have a Midwest Emo kinda voice. I didn't know wtf that meant, so here I am now 2 days later listening to this, and I fuckin love it!!! Good job guys 🤟🏻
When it hasn't been your year or even your decade but you're tired of moping around so you just go and seize the day.
Based trade-chad.
ahhh, two beers immediately
It’s okay to be sad homies.
Use your pain of their absence to build yourself up again and better than ever.
Maybe I'll buy a clarinet.
Holy shit the lyrics to the first song. God she broke me. Why is this so accurate
you'd really like the entire album then, pallet town is my favourite!
4 year relationship that was really like i always dreamt about. 2 years in she fell in love with my best friend, only to tell me 7 days before christmas after we moved in together. Now im back in the shitty town i swore i would leave behind, without anyone.. this year is a real stinker
me wondering if midwest emo is actually the genre im thinking of vs me knowing the first five songs within the first bar. what a genre