I relate to you so much man... for me its like my mind is working against me... and i drown in my own negative thoughts.... and the worst part is nobody understands
When I’m outside I power through the anxiety symptoms like the breathlessness and chest pains, when I mentioned about going to the pub with my parents I forgot to say I stayed there for over an hour. I don’t give into the horrible sensations because I know that would be allowing the anxiety to win. I really appreciate all the comments and messages, they make me feel less alone although I don’t think this came across in the video so I just wanted to say thank you here. I’m going to try to reply to all the comments/messages asap 💙
Hey man, I also am on Mirtazapine. 15 mg for me and Cipramil, unfortunately SSRIs can make you feel numb. even though it can be effective in preventing panic attacks/severe anxiety. I would definetly find another medication if it doesn't work for you. Also Autism can't really be cured/treated even with antipsychotics, I know because i've tried, some symptoms can be treated nd managed but as a whole it will always be there. Mental Health is not as spectacular as you think. Just accept the parts of you that are different, and keep working on yourself eventually you will change and learn to manage your emotions.
@@vince2300 hey, the numbness is from the constant derealisation and depersonalisation which I had before meds. If anything Mirtazapine has helped me feel less numb and eat better. Yeah it sucks that we’re stuck with a challenging brain aha but you’re right, just got to keep working until i start to cope better again.
Really good to see you back with us. I am pleased you are having some wins. I think you are doing good. I hope you continue to experience goodness. Take care of yourself 😊
Really glad you are back to sharing yourself and your recovery journey. Just take it one day at a time. You are getting stronger and healthier day by day !
That's fantastic you went out with your parents for an hour. Well done Rhy! I just wanted to say also that at your age you could reverse osteoporosis. Your bones don't stop growing until about age 25. I had osteoporosis at age 22. My Dr said that if I got to a healthy weight it would take 10 years for my bones to become in normal range. This distressed me so much when I had the dexa scan results but after a while it also gave me more determination. I got my weight to a healthy range (which was very hard as through starvation the stomach shrank and wasn't used to having so much, but it DID get better) I safely lifted weights at a healthy weight three times a week and ate 4 portions of dairy each day. After a year my bones came back to normal range. 2 years after that I had another scan and my bone density had increased even more. I hope this helps. Keep being kind to yourself. You've been through alot and it is tough but it really CAN get better. As your body feels better you might find in time your symptoms also improve (even if it's just a little). But it takes time. It is ok to be you (routines) that is part of autism and that is ok if it helps you. Going out there (pub) was a brave thing to do. Well done. Take care.
Thank you so much for sharing. It does give me hope and makes me feel less alone, you’re the first person I’ve spoken to who is similar to me with regards to eating/bones. I did read about the whole bones still growing until mid twenties thing, my main concern is getting enough calories in to gain enough weight to actually grow them by 25. But it is so reassuring to know it’s still a possibility 💙
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 It really is possible. I were in a refeeding hospital at my worst. I completely understand the stomach struggles. With autism we can't help but zone in on physical symptoms which makes it hard to let go and trust our bodies to take care of it. I were put on solid food 4 times a day and it was uncomfortable and often I felt my last meal hadn't digested by the time the next meal came but over time after about a year my stomach had adapted and returned to normal. The digestive system is like a muscle, it needs stimulation (food). When at a very low weight the muscles and electrical activity in the digestive system aren't used to stimulating and processing regular food intake. I used to get so worried about digestion and bowel movements and just wanted to feel comfortable. Now everything works great but it does take time. You are on the right track. The path wasn't progress all the way for me either but I got there and you will too. Be kind to yourself, you are doing your best and you will get to a good place. It's not the speed that matters but the direction. Take care my friend.
Hey, I’m sorry things are rough for you too :( 30mg of Mirtazapine, 400mg Magnesium, 1500 iu Vitamin D is my current routine which keeps me panic attack free.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 awesome man, i know all about panic attacks... i recently found out that caffeine can induce panic attacks for me.. after so many years of drinking coffee. I also recently started taking magnesium l-threonate which apparently breaches the blood brain barrier... so it goes directly into your brain, its helping me alot. I'm also on 30mg of mirtazapine like you.
@Ohkeh640 I've been on mirtazapine for a year and 3 months now. I reduced it to 15mg because it numbs my emotions and my sense of humour is dulled quite a bit. For me personally the weight gain wasn't a big issue. Like if I let myself go and stopped caring, the weight gain would happen faster than it would had I never been on it, but it wasn't really an issue. Im a skinny, very physically active person though.... but there are craving for refined carbs on mirt, I can't deny that. For someone who is already prone to weight gain, I can see this being a deal breaker.
I know I’m always offering advice and I hope it isn’t annoying you in any way but please try and get hold of mk677. It will help you build a bit of muscle but one of the side effects that would most benefit you is the massive appetite increase you get from it. It would definitely benefit someone with poor appetite. Believe me it’s not a mild effect. You can literally eat a horse and it’s jockey. Give it a try.👍
I relate to you so much man... for me its like my mind is working against me... and i drown in my own negative thoughts.... and the worst part is nobody understands
When I’m outside I power through the anxiety symptoms like the breathlessness and chest pains, when I mentioned about going to the pub with my parents I forgot to say I stayed there for over an hour. I don’t give into the horrible sensations because I know that would be allowing the anxiety to win.
I really appreciate all the comments and messages, they make me feel less alone although I don’t think this came across in the video so I just wanted to say thank you here. I’m going to try to reply to all the comments/messages asap 💙
Your so strong Rhys you got this
Hey man, I also am on Mirtazapine. 15 mg for me and Cipramil, unfortunately SSRIs can make you feel numb. even though it can be effective in preventing panic attacks/severe anxiety.
I would definetly find another medication if it doesn't work for you.
Also Autism can't really be cured/treated even with antipsychotics, I know because i've tried, some symptoms can be treated nd managed but as a whole it will always be there.
Mental Health is not as spectacular as you think. Just accept the parts of you that are different, and keep working on yourself eventually you will change and learn to manage your emotions.
@@MartC751 cheers mate :)
@@vince2300 hey, the numbness is from the constant derealisation and depersonalisation which I had before meds. If anything Mirtazapine has helped me feel less numb and eat better.
Yeah it sucks that we’re stuck with a challenging brain aha but you’re right, just got to keep working until i start to cope better again.
I get many days like this Rhys. You will get back up again ❤
Really good to see you back with us. I am pleased you are having some wins. I think you are doing good. I hope you continue to experience goodness. Take care of yourself 😊
Thank you 💙
Really glad you are back to sharing yourself and your recovery journey.
Just take it one day at a time.
You are getting stronger and healthier day by day !
Cheers mate, thank you for being here :)
That's fantastic you went out with your parents for an hour. Well done Rhy! I just wanted to say also that at your age you could reverse osteoporosis. Your bones don't stop growing until about age 25. I had osteoporosis at age 22. My Dr said that if I got to a healthy weight it would take 10 years for my bones to become in normal range. This distressed me so much when I had the dexa scan results but after a while it also gave me more determination. I got my weight to a healthy range (which was very hard as through starvation the stomach shrank and wasn't used to having so much, but it DID get better) I safely lifted weights at a healthy weight three times a week and ate 4 portions of dairy each day. After a year my bones came back to normal range. 2 years after that I had another scan and my bone density had increased even more.
I hope this helps. Keep being kind to yourself. You've been through alot and it is tough but it really CAN get better. As your body feels better you might find in time your symptoms also improve (even if it's just a little). But it takes time.
It is ok to be you (routines) that is part of autism and that is ok if it helps you. Going out there (pub) was a brave thing to do. Well done.
Take care.
Thank you so much for sharing. It does give me hope and makes me feel less alone, you’re the first person I’ve spoken to who is similar to me with regards to eating/bones. I did read about the whole bones still growing until mid twenties thing, my main concern is getting enough calories in to gain enough weight to actually grow them by 25. But it is so reassuring to know it’s still a possibility 💙
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 It really is possible. I were in a refeeding hospital at my worst. I completely understand the stomach struggles. With autism we can't help but zone in on physical symptoms which makes it hard to let go and trust our bodies to take care of it. I were put on solid food 4 times a day and it was uncomfortable and often I felt my last meal hadn't digested by the time the next meal came but over time after about a year my stomach had adapted and returned to normal. The digestive system is like a muscle, it needs stimulation (food). When at a very low weight the muscles and electrical activity in the digestive system aren't used to stimulating and processing regular food intake. I used to get so worried about digestion and bowel movements and just wanted to feel comfortable. Now everything works great but it does take time. You are on the right track. The path wasn't progress all the way for me either but I got there and you will too. Be kind to yourself, you are doing your best and you will get to a good place. It's not the speed that matters but the direction. Take care my friend.
Hey man, sorry things are so rocky.
Im iust curious, what do you think has been the most helpful medications for you?
Hey, I’m sorry things are rough for you too :(
30mg of Mirtazapine, 400mg Magnesium, 1500 iu Vitamin D is my current routine which keeps me panic attack free.
@@rhysmentalhealth2521 awesome man, i know all about panic attacks... i recently found out that caffeine can induce panic attacks for me.. after so many years of drinking coffee.
I also recently started taking magnesium l-threonate which apparently breaches the blood brain barrier... so it goes directly into your brain, its helping me alot.
I'm also on 30mg of mirtazapine like you.
@@VictimOfFat3did you gain weight on the mirt? How long have you been on it
@Ohkeh640 I've been on mirtazapine for a year and 3 months now.
I reduced it to 15mg because it numbs my emotions and my sense of humour is dulled quite a bit.
For me personally the weight gain wasn't a big issue. Like if I let myself go and stopped caring, the weight gain would happen faster than it would had I never been on it, but it wasn't really an issue.
Im a skinny, very physically active person though.... but there are craving for refined carbs on mirt, I can't deny that.
For someone who is already prone to weight gain, I can see this being a deal breaker.
You might start to feel better when you start eating some nice tasty solid foods
I know I’m always offering advice and I hope it isn’t annoying you in any way but please try and get hold of mk677. It will help you build a bit of muscle but one of the side effects that would most benefit you is the massive appetite increase you get from it. It would definitely benefit someone with poor appetite. Believe me it’s not a mild effect. You can literally eat a horse and it’s jockey. Give it a try.👍