Sara girl, I know you aren’t looking for sympathy but it’s all I can feel for you. Your life was flipped upside down. Trauma has taken you by storm and the way you are describing the last 6 years is so interesting and eye opening to life and time and growth. All I know is that this channel has been a hidden gem of mine for years and years now. I cried with you, I’ve laughed with you, I’ve taken notes in my journals from you. I’ve admired you from afar. For so long, impressed by your strength and resilience. Whatever you are going through I just pray it gets better for you. I want you to come out on the other end. I know that feeling of stuck. Maybe not in the same way as you. But I just want you to know you’re not alone. I’m sorry for the ways you are feeling. Shit is not easy for you. But you are so so beautiful and loved. If you ever have a meet and greet or any sort of business I am here to support. Whatever it may be.
I feel so stuck too, Sara. So I’ve just been taking it day by day, step by step. I celebrate small victories, even if it’s just getting out of bed. That prevents me from spiraling down a depressive rabbit hole. I think when we feel stuck and stagnant, it’s the universe telling us to slow down, and feel and process our emotions. Please don’t be hard on yourself ❤ It’s okay to be sad or have regrets. But it becomes dangerous when we try to force those emotions away. When I truly welcome the sadness and feel the emotion in my body, it tends to lessen in intensity. Sometimes you just need time, self-compassion, and the willingness to surrender. Also, I try to observe my thoughts and allow them to be, but not get attached to them. I will often have thoughts like “what’s the point?” or “I don’t have the energy to do this.” But I realized that these are just words in my head. I don’t have to listen to them or let them dictate my actions. For example, I can lift my hand even if I have the thought “I can’t lift my hand” (sorry for that weird example) 😂 When it comes to motivation, I find that letting go of what I “should” be doing and focusing on what I enjoy doing helps a lot. Anyways, I wish I could teleport myself and give you a big hug ❤ You are not alone, and this period of darkness will pass. It may just be time for you to shed some emotional baggage, process trauma, and heal. This is a lot easier said than done, but I’m rooting for you 🎉 I love all your videos, and they have helped me during my dark days. Sending you much love and warm wishes. May 2024 bring you new and wonderful opportunities and many happy memories❤ (P.S. I completely understand how difficult it is to get rid of your parents’ belongings, as they hold so many memories. Maybe just start with one item and see how you feel. You don’t have to get rid of everything all at once, as that may be too overwhelming. Then you can maybe pick a few items to keep permanently and slowly de clutter the rest. Change takes time, but each small step matters 😊)
Hi Sara. Biggest hugs, get off your arse. 😊 Kiddo you are who you are, we all move at different speeds, so if you want to kick into high gear, do it. You connect with us and I learn through your videos. I wish I could do more but I know it would be awkward. The mom in me just wants to support all you do., the friend in me just wants to move in and help you through it, the viewer part of me is always intrigued with the moments you go through. But kiddo I'm here, we're all here. Make up or no make up, cooking or no cooking, planting, art making, new endeavors, new realizations, moments you just sit and process what your going through We're here for all of it. You are somebody in my life. You're the longest you tuber I've watched and still watch. I'm here in NM just living and existing but will always look forward to the posts and watch them when I'm not busy with life. Thank you for being you. Big hugs.
I love this comment so much, although on the surface we're just anonymous strangers through an internet screen, behind it we're all real people who relate to your struggles Sara and wish we could help. We all need to support each other during these rough times, and your viewers will continue to support you along your journey no matter what
Hey, Sara! I hope you know that in the little community that you've created it has helped more people than you think. Whether you think your thoughts and "rambling" isn't RUclips materials, it truly is and this video alone has made me realize that I need to stop taking things for granted. In the video, you've mentioned a comparison to those with/without parents. I'm lucky to have both, but recently; my interactions with them have been low. It's weird. I was thinking about this for a couple of weeks, and honestly; stalling the push for me to move forward with improving much more a presence in their lives. Your thoughts on this has truly made me realize that I cannot be stuck as I'm pondering in hoping that it will get done by "itself" while in reality it's me that needs to start a path for that specific goal. When it came to you struggling to let go of things that is holding you back from moving forward, I felt that to my core. My advice for you is that it's not supposed to be easy getting rid of things that once held monumental moments during certain eras. I got rid of everything that was given to me from an individual and held it for four years. The thought of throwing it away felt horrible, but keeping those forbidden memories definitely made my space consistently gloomy and weary. Last year, I decided that those objects should not have a hold on me any longer than it has. I won't lie; when I threw it away memories did regenerate, but once it was all done - I felt if I got another chance at life. However, please be kind to yourself! Do it at small amounts if you're not ready to do them all at once. We're all rooting for you, and we will be here for you in any milestone you achieve from now going forward! Also, if RUclips isn't giving you the same vibes as before - take a break until you're ready to pick up the camera again. Friends of Sara K will understand 🤗 I know you said holidays are kind of weird to you, but I still wish you a happy and safe one as always! 💜✨
Hey Sara, have you ever thought of doing something like volunteering for Americorps, Fema corps, Peace corps or something of the like? It could be an interesting way to reset your life and leave the comfort of home for a little while without having to pay to do so (as in paying to move somewhere new, or go to school, or travel etc.). Usually it's a year or so long commitment and you get to travel all over the country helping people and meeting lots of new friends. I'm totally with you on feeling stuck, I feel like my life has been stagnant and i've just been going through the motions and not accomplishing much of anything since like 2018 and especially since 2020. I think i've just gotten too comfortable with being comfortable. I've been really considering doing a service year as a way to reset my life lately. I hope you find your reset for the new year whatever it may be, I'm always rooting for you
Grief is LoVe with no place to go 🥹 Not done watching but I’m so glad you still have them 🕯️ so that you remember me 🥹 Sara, my beautiful Sara! You are so far ahead of your time! It’s OK that you’ve hibernated for the last couple years I promise you that you’re gonna fly so high in your 30s! What you’ve been through is not Humaine because you needed strong other family members in your life… Like me, who would have taken you under my wing like a daughter! Paras, social relationships are more in our mind and heart than anything else. I always want to talk to you and I know what you think “how awkward… I have so much to say I don’t feel like small talk, we won’t be able to get to the point of anything. “. But lil grasshopper, let me guide the convo ☕️ 😉 I love that you escape into podcasts. Might come back but no matter what, iLy 💜🦋💜
… and Sara, you’re already someone very special, you’re just in process of inventing her, take your time, it’s no fun once you figure it all out either 🤣😂🤣 so get to a good part of the journey, you’re in charge! Faith it til ya make it. 🥰😘🥰🫶🏼🦋
Starting from 32:27 it's totally me. It feels like I'm the only person who's stuck and everyone has been living life. My mom and dad were not present for me even when they were there, i only find my existence going to the market with my mom, but we were never close. She would always be talking about other people and she wouldn't like me talking about my life and myself at all so i just didn't. I wish i had a life better than this. With a career, boyfriend/partner, a family that loves me. But nope i am not any of that. It gets worse when i got ill or just overall stiffer and older. Because those times i couldn't depend on myself and i started wishing i had someone to be there for me. I was always the go-to person for people in my life because I'm "always there" - (no life alert, duh), but even if i had a life I'd welcome them. But they don't do the same for me. And so i just feel sad a lot. I don't know how my life has turned into this but depression took a toll on me after my dog died and my health got so bad afterwards. Only to realise i was alone but just with these so-called family members that only depend on me "being there" because i am somewhat "broken". I tried to get out of the depression but it hasn't worked for long because for some reason my body just hurts everywhere literally like the universe doesn't allow me to break out of it. I am not the lucky girl. I don't have the privileges. I was the best family member for my family because i helped them all set their lives on tracks but they don't do the same for me and even worse they would pick on me and mock me for not having a life while they have one (hello?? How do i have a life when my life is helping you get your life together??? you all was my life). So i had to go low to no contact and accept suddenly i have nothing and no one. I wish i had a best friend to talk to and hang out with but we drifted apart because my life sounds like a weird joke as they are living life and I have just been stuck. It's so triggering to see people married and have small kids already and what have i been doing? And i feel like i am expiring and i will never find the right person and i will never live the life i wanna live. And that kinda is true. I keep hoping i can find a better life way better than the one i feel i have lost and i wish to find proof that whatever i thought was good isn't actually good - because if it was good and i missed it then how do i make do with it? I feel like it has been robbed away from me despite how hard i tried to pick myself up. I wish i can live a completely different and better life that i no longer need to think that i missed out on anything. I wish i can find the "resolve" aka a reality where it just clicks and "This is it!! This is the life!!! Wow i wish i never believed i missed out on that because this is wayyy better" - you know??? I keep wishing I'd just figure it out. I have panic attacks and all these chronic fatigue and ailments like autoimmune issues that are big enough to severely limit me. All comes from being heartbroken. I used to be so hopeful. I'd wake up and make a change. I'd be the one who fixed all of the problems and lighten and brighten up everything. Depression caused by being neglected mistreated and constantly picked on eroded me from the inside out. Also, it is so much easier to recover when i was younger. It was like everyday was a new chance and new hope. but for a long time it hasn't been that way. I wish i can live like that again. I don't want to keep having my life wasted and broken down by people that i loved and supported now that they are all stronger than me because of my help. I feel like i threw weapons to the enemies believing i was saving my friends. I just wonder why everyone was my friend when they were underdogs but when they get stronger they become a bully to me and suddenly befriend whoever that they sought my help to fight at the beginning. I wish i could take all of my energy and life and hopes and years back. But i can't. I regret i helped those people just because i loved them and believed they were worth it but in reality they were just sociopathic and were just using me for my love for them while i thought i was building strong relationships. No i wasn't. Anyways. I could relate to your video so much. Just wanna write because i have been experiencing the same things, without pets and still being contacted by the bullies in my life. I wish i never become the saviour. This is something I never thought i would regret. But i do regret now. Everyday.
Hey Sara, it's awesome to see you moving forward! The future's wide open for you and you're still super young. Your crazy creative brain is gonna take you places, no doubt. You've got this. Best of luck
I switched careers after responding to an indeed email while I was working a job I was comfortable and miserable at. Sara the best advice I’ve gotten is you can show up one day for the new thing and if you don’t like it never show up again you can neither win nor lose if you don’t run the race. I’m now a home health aide and it’s the most rewarding fulfilling job I’ve ever had and I don’t understand why I didn’t get into caregiving sooner it comes so naturally I think I will get into nursing school. I can see you being an RBT too because I know you’re passionate about teaching or even being a teacher you can do anything you can be a cpr instructor (thinking of getting that myself lol) I know people will gravitate towards you you’re a people person in the best way!!! Wishing everyone the best year to come 🥰
It takes time to figure life out. The most important thing is to give yourself compassion and love. We are all doing our best, always. Nothing is right or wrong, you are exactly where you need to be in life. Everything is going as planned. Don't worry, the universe and your higher self has your back.💖
Weird family dynamics is my middle name.. it's sad, how you might be feeling stuck, but for me personally, whenever I feel stuck I search for your videos and they always calm me. It's weird how someone I don't know and never talked to can understand all of the pain I've experienced, and for me, and I think a lot of other people too, it's who you are to us. A friend who always understands and who always gives the best of advice and wisdom. You are a strong woman and you are a very positive influence in an age where even remotely normal content creators are hard to find. You might feel stuck but rest assured that your videos and just who you are, what you have shown and shared with us, have helped so many in times of struggle and in times of feeling like paper bags just floating in the wind. Life has a weird way of shaping us, and maybe all of these years of you sitting in one place was something you really needed to get over all of the hardship you've faced and emerge as an emotionally healed and stronger you. You taught me that also. Thank you. For everything
Hey Sara! I wish you all the best for 2024! Please don’t be hard on yourself! We are here for your journey! Thank you for all of your amazing videos, you inspire me in so many ways!
This video came at the weirdest timing. I feel the exact same way. I had this conversation LAST NIGHT. Feeling that if things hadn't happened the way they did with my parents, I'd be in a different position. I felt like I had so much potential as a child and everyone told me how mature/smart I was for my age and now I have nothing to show for it. This age is really tough and it's hard not to feel unaccomplished when other people our age own homes, and cars and have amazing careers.
That old nightstand is beautiful! Dont get rid of it ever!! And most importantly it was your mommas with her stuff in it. I wish i had something like that of mine.
"whatcha doing?" "moving on!!" 😅 i'm feeling pretty stuck in life as well. having family that doesn't feel like family is weird. life is weird. i still enjoy your content and bits you share of yours with us while we try to figure it out and stay afloat. you're doing great
Thankyou for sharing, 2019 was the start of my pause as well - this made me realize we are all connected or can relate to each other in a way, the best of luck to your new year❤
Keep the most sentimental items & photograph items that you want to remember and keep a photo album for your moms things and another for your dads things. ❤ I hadn’t seen your page in years, I believe since your dad passed. It’s nice seeing you even if we’re just strangers!
sending you so much love sara. still here after years of watching you. you are the only person i have notifications on for. i get so pessimistic about the world sometimes and you always bring me back to a state of hope. you remind me that there is still beauty in the world and its ok to not feel ok and its ok to be yourself and its ok to not understand why things happen but regardless, to keep on keeping on. you might not know thats the affect you have on others especially when the sadness creeps in but i assure you its true. big hugs from new england.
I am currently in a similar mindset of feeling incredibly stuck, I see life and people moving on around me but I’ve just been in a constant slump for years now. Let’s take back control of our lives together ❤️
thank you for sharing your journey 🧡 just got to take it day by day and remember the small things you do for yourself daily will add up!!!! You cleaning out your makeup is a great step to decluttering!! Decluttering is hard for me also so I know the struggle. and omg I totally relate to the speed thing when speaking!! I've gotten that before many times I feel like I've slowed down my speaking compared to before, but at the beginning sometimes i would feel like im losing my train of thought if i slowed down LOL.
Dear Sara, I have recently been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes and since then life has been pretty hard. I understand you completely and your videos helped me a lot during stressful situations. I kinda feel your friend and I want you to know that you are very intelligent, artistic and inspiring. I think you will find your own path, because you are super strong. Keep going ❤
Dr. Seuss "You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest. Except when you don't. Because, sometimes, you won't. I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you. You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch. You'll come down from the Lurch with and unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump. And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done." Oh, the Places You'll Go!
I never comment on videos lol but ive been watching you for years and have always related to you and feel like you feel a lot of the same things that i do. Especially with this video i totally understand exactly what youre going through. I still have both of my parents but i feel totally lost in life. I used to have moments where i felt inspired and excited about waking up and starting new projects and trying new things. But for so many years now i just feel so tired all the time, i just want to feel comfort whether its eating comfort food or just watching movies, sitting on the couch in a blanket watching videos all day. I feel like the time passes by so slow but so fast at the same time. There are moments that i can pick myself back up and start working out again, start being healthier, try to get back into my old hobbies i used to do, but i feel like i always get pushed back down again and again and again. Sometimes i just get so tired of being pushed back down i just feel like whats the point i just feel like i dont have the energy to try. And even though i feel like god has been there for me through so many of my worst moments in life, i feel angry at god sometimes. I wish the world didnt have to be like this i wish we didnt have to work to live and worry about credit scores and taxes and bullshit. I wish i could just feel happy and motivated easily and not have to force and drag myself to do the smallest things everyday. I wish people cared about me as much as i care about them, i wish people werent so selfish and fucked up and ruin everything for everybody. I even gave up on having friends because it seems like most of the time i get left behind or betrayed, or just not treated or cared about the same way i care about them. I try not to let all these negative thoughts take over but its a never ending battle. Im still trying to find my purpose in life and figure out what i want to do, but it feels like i have no passion for anything. I wish i had a mentor or someone to push me or to just tell me what to do, give me a list of things to accomplish. I ask god for help all the time but maybe its just a journey i have to figure out on my own. Your videos at least give me some comfort that im not alone in how i feel. I feel like im wasting my youth all the time and i feel like i should be doing so much more with my life but its just so hard. Youre not alone either sara! We will figure things out one day, hopefully all the love i have poured into people and things will come back to me one day and it wont be for nothing. At least my animals and my boyfriend love me unconditionally, just focusing on the things im grateful for helps. Thank you for making these videos because you help a lot of people and thats one thing that you shouldnt feel any regrets about.
Girlie I have so much sympathy for what you are going through. It was as if you described my life to a tee😔 Everything from the greif to the survival/freeze mode to the wierd family dynamics to the loss of motivation and numbness😕 so sorry that you feel stuck and sad now, it made me emotional because I relate so hard😔❤️🩹 sending you lots of love and good energy❤️ you are not alone♥️ inshaAllah we will come out on the other side , stronger, when we are ready. My best friend was depressed for 2 years and wouldn't leave his bed, but he made it through and started making beautiful art again. I never knew he experienced that when I met him, because at that time he was out on the other side♥️ Dont doubt yourself, ive watched many of your vids and I believe you are really smart and your mind seems so strong, you are kapable, depression just takes time, and it hurts. Its like a broken leg, you wouldnt be mad at yourself for not being able to run with it, I want to remind you that mental pain is just as valid. We are unwell and trying to heal from a sickness, without even giving ourselves any room to exist in the state we are in. Idk I'm rambleing and youve probably heard it all before. but Jim Carry said if you are depressed you need deep rest, and I'm trying to hold on to that, but I also know that when deep sadness washes over me I struggle to see the light in life. A friend told me she has no doubt I will figure my shit out and become me again, and she believes that deep down I know it too, and therefore I can alllow myself to procrastinate doing it, just like I procrastinate everything I know I will eventually do, especially difficult stuff. Big aha moment for me. I try to accept that God has a plan and we cannot claim that the plan we thought our lives would follow is better than Gods plan. Trust the process and all that, idk I rly hope we will make art again. I haven't painted in years but I love to paint, I'm scared I've lost all passion but maybe its not the case maybe its a symptom of depression and maybe I identify too much with these thoughts that are all symptoms coming from a chemical unbalance? Idk like being on a drug except instead of making everything okay it makes everything terrible. Idk if that's how it works, but yeah sorry for the mad rant, thank you for being you and I hope you find a way to be loving, gentle and patient with yourself during these hard times❤️🩹
I’ve been here since the very very beginning of your journey and I can relate to what you’re experiencing on so many levels. Your strength is inspiring! I am a bit older and felt(still feel) stuck as well and my dad’s passing last year kind of slowed everything down even more which is devastating but that’s ok. This year I am trying hard to fight for my life and my goals. The desire to move on is so strong!! Wish you all the best
Hi Sara, I lost my mum 3 years ago and I was in survival mode for the first 2 years. But honestly clearing out and doing those hard things to let go will make you feel better after. I promise you will go from survival to creation mode. Also early in the morning, do something very physical to get into your body and this will boost your energy. You remind me of me....I love your truth and authenticity. Keep being you ❤
Start writing down all the items you attach memories too so you can get rid of the physical items but still remember. We're all going through hard things - the mind can be a cage and worse then any other torture. One day at a time. You're healing, Sara. Give yourself time and allow yourself to let go of the weight. I know the feeling of no motivation because of pain and sadness. That's been my life the last 2 months. Push through the pain. Push through and feel it all ❤❤❤
You are definitely depressed. And you definitely have to refresh your life and spring the house. That alone will keep You stuck in the past and it’s not healthy. I’d suggest to start working out , it’s great for your mental and definitely declutter your place.❤
Ok,maybe an unpopular opinion but that drawer that's your moms.... you should keep it as it is. when you're having a day you can just sit there and open the drawers and feel it all and the close em all and go back to your life..but to have them there.. i think i would like that. just my opinion.
I was just wondering when your next upload would be. Here in Canada we’re not having a cold winter it’s actually kinda scary because the mountain snow caps are melting meaning we eventually won’t have water. Anyways that’s what’s on my mind.
Hi Sara K :) I watched a video of yours 6 years ago titled “••” in which you were grieving the loss of your dad and reflecting. I think I watched the video after that as well titled “mites”. Anyway, let me get to the point! I havent watched you since then, or followed up, at all.. which is why I found it odd that you suddenly popped into my mind before going to bed.. I remembered your name and looked you up on RUclips and I was pleased to have found your channel! I’m glad you’re still posting and sharing your thoughts😊 What compelled me to write this comment on this video is, when you said “I feel like all of us just need to somehow create a conscious thats protective, is looking out for us(...) somwhere to grab that umpf” and I know what i’m about to say might throw you off, or you might just dismiss this comment straight away.. but I think what you’re looking for is God.. no I know.. And more specifically you’re looking for Allah. Bold statement i know.. but i wouldnt have typed this down after so many years of not having watched you, if i wasnt sure that Allah put *you* in my mind for a reason. I hope this comment finds you well. I would like to end with a verse from the Quran which is the direct words of God.. Lord of all worlds “Indeed, with every hardship is ease” (94:6)
BRO when i tell you i have beef with my sister's partner, (incoming long comment) nah he did something like extra disrespectful and I haven't spoken to him since that incident. It's hard to reach out now but I still want to because I'm still confused af!! Like damn, shawty never tried either, which is his choice. It's been strange definitely, also some of my close family aren't talking because of our family business, and I'm in the middle cause I talk to both cousins. Lord who knows if they'll talk during christmas, I think the only thing that's keeping them in contact is my cousin's baby. She sends baby pictures in our group snapchat and that's the only thing they bond over at this point. ANYWAY, I hope you don't feel alone because we have a great community here to experience life with YOU. I feel similar to you, of holding onto things I don't need anymore, and it's becoming more apparent during this time of the year. It's interesting hearing you talk, you can talk about ANYTHING and i'll listen. In a way I feel bad because I have both my parents and I've been feeling stuck. I have been trying to move out but they don't think I'm ready which I kinda agree with. It just seemed like a great opportunity to get my shit together but they were telling me I can do that here with them and not worry about paying rent. I just need to finish the MArie Kondo method UGHHHH!!
Okay im gonna be that christian person that always mentions God but i cannot bear to hear you sara talk about being sad without at least trying to help. First off i wanna say a bit about how much Jesus has saved me. I used to be depressed and angry all day long for years. I had thoughts of killing myself, i was isolated and i smoked weed all day to keep the pain away. I had a horrible relationship with my mother. And each day felt like a struggle. I went to mental health hospitals and even to jail. My life was a mess. One night i cried out to God and he completely saved me. He showed how loving he is and how big and strong and amazing. He showed me the bible and he told me he was and is and always will be with me. He told me he loved me. The reason im telling you this is because if you cry out to Jesus he will answer. He will be your friend, he will your light. I will pray for you sara. You are very unique young woman and ive always enjoyed your personality. I pray that God will be merciful towards you and that his spirit covers all your pain. If you just call his name he will answer and i can assure you it will be the best moment of your life when you see just how loving God is.
Im glad you realize your stuck. I haven't watched you in about 1.5 years and I was shocked that nothing has changed with you. You are right, it has been years now, you are older, you need to move on with your life. Moving on doesn't mean you are forgetting your parents. You have your own future and happiness to make. Your parents wouldn't want to see you like this still. Maybe sell the house, get something smaller, it's just you and start over. One cannot live for the future if you're still chosing to live in the past. I'm not sure if you have even worked or are working or have been living off of their insurance. I have faith in you, you can do it, now you just need this same faith in yourself. I am in kidney failure, im terminally ill...but i cant let it get to me. I need to stand up and fight this, just like yourself. But...you are not ill, please dont take life for granted. You are stronger then you think.
Girl, you're great! Just so raw and real.
Lovely greetings from Berlin, Germany ;)
Sara girl, I know you aren’t looking for sympathy but it’s all I can feel for you. Your life was flipped upside down. Trauma has taken you by storm and the way you are describing the last 6 years is so interesting and eye opening to life and time and growth. All I know is that this channel has been a hidden gem of mine for years and years now. I cried with you, I’ve laughed with you, I’ve taken notes in my journals from you. I’ve admired you from afar. For so long, impressed by your strength and resilience. Whatever you are going through I just pray it gets better for you. I want you to come out on the other end. I know that feeling of stuck. Maybe not in the same way as you. But I just want you to know you’re not alone. I’m sorry for the ways you are feeling. Shit is not easy for you. But you are so so beautiful and loved. If you ever have a meet and greet or any sort of business I am here to support. Whatever it may be.
I feel so stuck too, Sara. So I’ve just been taking it day by day, step by step. I celebrate small victories, even if it’s just getting out of bed. That prevents me from spiraling down a depressive rabbit hole. I think when we feel stuck and stagnant, it’s the universe telling us to slow down, and feel and process our emotions. Please don’t be hard on yourself ❤ It’s okay to be sad or have regrets. But it becomes dangerous when we try to force those emotions away. When I truly welcome the sadness and feel the emotion in my body, it tends to lessen in intensity. Sometimes you just need time, self-compassion, and the willingness to surrender. Also, I try to observe my thoughts and allow them to be, but not get attached to them. I will often have thoughts like “what’s the point?” or “I don’t have the energy to do this.” But I realized that these are just words in my head. I don’t have to listen to them or let them dictate my actions. For example, I can lift my hand even if I have the thought “I can’t lift my hand” (sorry for that weird example) 😂 When it comes to motivation, I find that letting go of what I “should” be doing and focusing on what I enjoy doing helps a lot. Anyways, I wish I could teleport myself and give you a big hug ❤ You are not alone, and this period of darkness will pass. It may just be time for you to shed some emotional baggage, process trauma, and heal. This is a lot easier said than done, but I’m rooting for you 🎉 I love all your videos, and they have helped me during my dark days. Sending you much love and warm wishes. May 2024 bring you new and wonderful opportunities and many happy memories❤ (P.S. I completely understand how difficult it is to get rid of your parents’ belongings, as they hold so many memories. Maybe just start with one item and see how you feel. You don’t have to get rid of everything all at once, as that may be too overwhelming. Then you can maybe pick a few items to keep permanently and slowly de clutter the rest. Change takes time, but each small step matters 😊)
Another outstanding video Sara. It’s so reassuring to hear someone else feel the same way you do.
Hi Sara. Biggest hugs, get off your arse. 😊 Kiddo you are who you are, we all move at different speeds, so if you want to kick into high gear, do it. You connect with us and I learn through your videos. I wish I could do more but I know it would be awkward. The mom in me just wants to support all you do., the friend in me just wants to move in and help you through it, the viewer part of me is always intrigued with the moments you go through. But kiddo I'm here, we're all here. Make up or no make up, cooking or no cooking, planting, art making, new endeavors, new realizations, moments you just sit and process what your going through We're here for all of it. You are somebody in my life. You're the longest you tuber I've watched and still watch. I'm here in NM just living and existing but will always look forward to the posts and watch them when I'm not busy with life. Thank you for being you. Big hugs.
Couldn't have said it better myself. You rock, Sara K, keep being you and never let anyone harsh your mellow!!
I love this comment so much, although on the surface we're just anonymous strangers through an internet screen, behind it we're all real people who relate to your struggles Sara and wish we could help. We all need to support each other during these rough times, and your viewers will continue to support you along your journey no matter what
Wow this comment.
Also here in NM just living and vibing, and also have been watching Sara K since I gained awareness 😂
Hey, Sara! I hope you know that in the little community that you've created it has helped more people than you think. Whether you think your thoughts and "rambling" isn't RUclips materials, it truly is and this video alone has made me realize that I need to stop taking things for granted. In the video, you've mentioned a comparison to those with/without parents. I'm lucky to have both, but recently; my interactions with them have been low. It's weird. I was thinking about this for a couple of weeks, and honestly; stalling the push for me to move forward with improving much more a presence in their lives. Your thoughts on this has truly made me realize that I cannot be stuck as I'm pondering in hoping that it will get done by "itself" while in reality it's me that needs to start a path for that specific goal. When it came to you struggling to let go of things that is holding you back from moving forward, I felt that to my core. My advice for you is that it's not supposed to be easy getting rid of things that once held monumental moments during certain eras. I got rid of everything that was given to me from an individual and held it for four years. The thought of throwing it away felt horrible, but keeping those forbidden memories definitely made my space consistently gloomy and weary. Last year, I decided that those objects should not have a hold on me any longer than it has. I won't lie; when I threw it away memories did regenerate, but once it was all done - I felt if I got another chance at life. However, please be kind to yourself! Do it at small amounts if you're not ready to do them all at once. We're all rooting for you, and we will be here for you in any milestone you achieve from now going forward! Also, if RUclips isn't giving you the same vibes as before - take a break until you're ready to pick up the camera again. Friends of Sara K will understand 🤗 I know you said holidays are kind of weird to you, but I still wish you a happy and safe one as always! 💜✨
Hey Sara, have you ever thought of doing something like volunteering for Americorps, Fema corps, Peace corps or something of the like? It could be an interesting way to reset your life and leave the comfort of home for a little while without having to pay to do so (as in paying to move somewhere new, or go to school, or travel etc.). Usually it's a year or so long commitment and you get to travel all over the country helping people and meeting lots of new friends. I'm totally with you on feeling stuck, I feel like my life has been stagnant and i've just been going through the motions and not accomplishing much of anything since like 2018 and especially since 2020. I think i've just gotten too comfortable with being comfortable. I've been really considering doing a service year as a way to reset my life lately. I hope you find your reset for the new year whatever it may be, I'm always rooting for you
Another year thankful for all your uploads! Have an amazing holiday season🫶🏻
Grief is LoVe with no place to go 🥹 Not done watching but I’m so glad you still have them 🕯️ so that you remember me 🥹 Sara, my beautiful Sara! You are so far ahead of your time! It’s OK that you’ve hibernated for the last couple years I promise you that you’re gonna fly so high in your 30s! What you’ve been through is not Humaine because you needed strong other family members in your life… Like me, who would have taken you under my wing like a daughter! Paras, social relationships are more in our mind and heart than anything else. I always want to talk to you and I know what you think “how awkward… I have so much to say I don’t feel like small talk, we won’t be able to get to the point of anything. “. But lil grasshopper, let me guide the convo ☕️ 😉 I love that you escape into podcasts. Might come back but no matter what, iLy 💜🦋💜
… and Sara, you’re already someone very special, you’re just in process of inventing her, take your time, it’s no fun once you figure it all out either 🤣😂🤣 so get to a good part of the journey, you’re in charge! Faith it til ya make it. 🥰😘🥰🫶🏼🦋
we appreciate you sharing your journey with us, the ups and downs and everything in between
I love how real your vlogs are - sending you lots of love 🩵🩵
Starting from 32:27 it's totally me. It feels like I'm the only person who's stuck and everyone has been living life. My mom and dad were not present for me even when they were there, i only find my existence going to the market with my mom, but we were never close. She would always be talking about other people and she wouldn't like me talking about my life and myself at all so i just didn't.
I wish i had a life better than this. With a career, boyfriend/partner, a family that loves me. But nope i am not any of that. It gets worse when i got ill or just overall stiffer and older. Because those times i couldn't depend on myself and i started wishing i had someone to be there for me. I was always the go-to person for people in my life because I'm "always there" - (no life alert, duh), but even if i had a life I'd welcome them. But they don't do the same for me. And so i just feel sad a lot.
I don't know how my life has turned into this but depression took a toll on me after my dog died and my health got so bad afterwards. Only to realise i was alone but just with these so-called family members that only depend on me "being there" because i am somewhat "broken". I tried to get out of the depression but it hasn't worked for long because for some reason my body just hurts everywhere literally like the universe doesn't allow me to break out of it.
I am not the lucky girl. I don't have the privileges. I was the best family member for my family because i helped them all set their lives on tracks but they don't do the same for me and even worse they would pick on me and mock me for not having a life while they have one (hello?? How do i have a life when my life is helping you get your life together??? you all was my life). So i had to go low to no contact and accept suddenly i have nothing and no one.
I wish i had a best friend to talk to and hang out with but we drifted apart because my life sounds like a weird joke as they are living life and I have just been stuck. It's so triggering to see people married and have small kids already and what have i been doing? And i feel like i am expiring and i will never find the right person and i will never live the life i wanna live. And that kinda is true. I keep hoping i can find a better life way better than the one i feel i have lost and i wish to find proof that whatever i thought was good isn't actually good - because if it was good and i missed it then how do i make do with it? I feel like it has been robbed away from me despite how hard i tried to pick myself up. I wish i can live a completely different and better life that i no longer need to think that i missed out on anything. I wish i can find the "resolve" aka a reality where it just clicks and "This is it!! This is the life!!! Wow i wish i never believed i missed out on that because this is wayyy better" - you know???
I keep wishing I'd just figure it out. I have panic attacks and all these chronic fatigue and ailments like autoimmune issues that are big enough to severely limit me. All comes from being heartbroken. I used to be so hopeful. I'd wake up and make a change. I'd be the one who fixed all of the problems and lighten and brighten up everything.
Depression caused by being neglected mistreated and constantly picked on eroded me from the inside out. Also, it is so much easier to recover when i was younger. It was like everyday was a new chance and new hope. but for a long time it hasn't been that way. I wish i can live like that again. I don't want to keep having my life wasted and broken down by people that i loved and supported now that they are all stronger than me because of my help. I feel like i threw weapons to the enemies believing i was saving my friends. I just wonder why everyone was my friend when they were underdogs but when they get stronger they become a bully to me and suddenly befriend whoever that they sought my help to fight at the beginning. I wish i could take all of my energy and life and hopes and years back. But i can't. I regret i helped those people just because i loved them and believed they were worth it but in reality they were just sociopathic and were just using me for my love for them while i thought i was building strong relationships.
No i wasn't.
Anyways. I could relate to your video so much. Just wanna write because i have been experiencing the same things, without pets and still being contacted by the bullies in my life. I wish i never become the saviour. This is something I never thought i would regret. But i do regret now. Everyday.
would it be okay if I emailed you?
Hey Sara, it's awesome to see you moving forward! The future's wide open for you and you're still super young. Your crazy creative brain is gonna take you places, no doubt. You've got this. Best of luck
I switched careers after responding to an indeed email while I was working a job I was comfortable and miserable at. Sara the best advice I’ve gotten is you can show up one day for the new thing and if you don’t like it never show up again you can neither win nor lose if you don’t run the race. I’m now a home health aide and it’s the most rewarding fulfilling job I’ve ever had and I don’t understand why I didn’t get into caregiving sooner it comes so naturally I think I will get into nursing school. I can see you being an RBT too because I know you’re passionate about teaching or even being a teacher you can do anything you can be a cpr instructor (thinking of getting that myself lol) I know people will gravitate towards you you’re a people person in the best way!!! Wishing everyone the best year to come 🥰
You need to try and move forward, you don't need old stuff for you're memories. Just keep things that are really special. 😊
I always declutter because i feel so much lighter afterwards, but if you dont want something throw away maybe put in some big box(box of memories).
YES! I was going to give her the advice to use boxes.
It takes time to figure life out. The most important thing is to give yourself compassion and love. We are all doing our best, always.
Nothing is right or wrong, you are exactly where you need to be in life. Everything is going as planned. Don't worry, the universe and your higher self has your back.💖
Weird family dynamics is my middle name.. it's sad, how you might be feeling stuck, but for me personally, whenever I feel stuck I search for your videos and they always calm me. It's weird how someone I don't know and never talked to can understand all of the pain I've experienced, and for me, and I think a lot of other people too, it's who you are to us. A friend who always understands and who always gives the best of advice and wisdom. You are a strong woman and you are a very positive influence in an age where even remotely normal content creators are hard to find. You might feel stuck but rest assured that your videos and just who you are, what you have shown and shared with us, have helped so many in times of struggle and in times of feeling like paper bags just floating in the wind. Life has a weird way of shaping us, and maybe all of these years of you sitting in one place was something you really needed to get over all of the hardship you've faced and emerge as an emotionally healed and stronger you. You taught me that also. Thank you. For everything
Hey Sara! I wish you all the best for 2024! Please don’t be hard on yourself! We are here for your journey! Thank you for all of your amazing videos, you inspire me in so many ways!
This video came at the weirdest timing. I feel the exact same way. I had this conversation LAST NIGHT. Feeling that if things hadn't happened the way they did with my parents, I'd be in a different position. I felt like I had so much potential as a child and everyone told me how mature/smart I was for my age and now I have nothing to show for it. This age is really tough and it's hard not to feel unaccomplished when other people our age own homes, and cars and have amazing careers.
That old nightstand is beautiful! Dont get rid of it ever!! And most importantly it was your mommas with her stuff in it. I wish i had something like that of mine.
Maybe joining support groups or joining things in your community. Volunteer work? It could be very rewarding helping others.
"whatcha doing?" "moving on!!" 😅
i'm feeling pretty stuck in life as well. having family that doesn't feel like family is weird. life is weird. i still enjoy your content and bits you share of yours with us while we try to figure it out and stay afloat. you're doing great
Thankyou for sharing, 2019 was the start of my pause as well - this made me realize we are all connected or can relate to each other in a way, the best of luck to your new year❤
Keep the most sentimental items & photograph items that you want to remember and keep a photo album for your moms things and another for your dads things. ❤ I hadn’t seen your page in years, I believe since your dad passed. It’s nice seeing you even if we’re just strangers!
sending you so much love sara. still here after years of watching you. you are the only person i have notifications on for. i get so pessimistic about the world sometimes and you always bring me back to a state of hope. you remind me that there is still beauty in the world and its ok to not feel ok and its ok to be yourself and its ok to not understand why things happen but regardless, to keep on keeping on. you might not know thats the affect you have on others especially when the sadness creeps in but i assure you its true. big hugs from new england.
I am currently in a similar mindset of feeling incredibly stuck, I see life and people moving on around me but I’ve just been in a constant slump for years now. Let’s take back control of our lives together ❤️
I feel you, Let's move on together.
thank you for sharing your journey 🧡 just got to take it day by day and remember the small things you do for yourself daily will add up!!!! You cleaning out your makeup is a great step to decluttering!! Decluttering is hard for me also so I know the struggle.
and omg I totally relate to the speed thing when speaking!! I've gotten that before many times I feel like I've slowed down my speaking compared to before, but at the beginning sometimes i would feel like im losing my train of thought if i slowed down LOL.
Fr fr. Some serious alchemy being done. Sending love ♥️
Dear Sara, I have recently been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes and since then life has been pretty hard. I understand you completely and your videos helped me a lot during stressful situations. I kinda feel your friend and I want you to know that you are very intelligent, artistic and inspiring. I think you will find your own path, because you are super strong. Keep going ❤
Dr. Seuss "You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed. You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don't.
Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch.
You'll come down from the Lurch with and unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump.
And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done." Oh, the Places You'll Go!
I never comment on videos lol but ive been watching you for years and have always related to you and feel like you feel a lot of the same things that i do. Especially with this video i totally understand exactly what youre going through. I still have both of my parents but i feel totally lost in life. I used to have moments where i felt inspired and excited about waking up and starting new projects and trying new things. But for so many years now i just feel so tired all the time, i just want to feel comfort whether its eating comfort food or just watching movies, sitting on the couch in a blanket watching videos all day. I feel like the time passes by so slow but so fast at the same time. There are moments that i can pick myself back up and start working out again, start being healthier, try to get back into my old hobbies i used to do, but i feel like i always get pushed back down again and again and again. Sometimes i just get so tired of being pushed back down i just feel like whats the point i just feel like i dont have the energy to try. And even though i feel like god has been there for me through so many of my worst moments in life, i feel angry at god sometimes. I wish the world didnt have to be like this i wish we didnt have to work to live and worry about credit scores and taxes and bullshit. I wish i could just feel happy and motivated easily and not have to force and drag myself to do the smallest things everyday. I wish people cared about me as much as i care about them, i wish people werent so selfish and fucked up and ruin everything for everybody. I even gave up on having friends because it seems like most of the time i get left behind or betrayed, or just not treated or cared about the same way i care about them. I try not to let all these negative thoughts take over but its a never ending battle. Im still trying to find my purpose in life and figure out what i want to do, but it feels like i have no passion for anything. I wish i had a mentor or someone to push me or to just tell me what to do, give me a list of things to accomplish. I ask god for help all the time but maybe its just a journey i have to figure out on my own. Your videos at least give me some comfort that im not alone in how i feel. I feel like im wasting my youth all the time and i feel like i should be doing so much more with my life but its just so hard. Youre not alone either sara! We will figure things out one day, hopefully all the love i have poured into people and things will come back to me one day and it wont be for nothing. At least my animals and my boyfriend love me unconditionally, just focusing on the things im grateful for helps. Thank you for making these videos because you help a lot of people and thats one thing that you shouldnt feel any regrets about.
Girlie I have so much sympathy for what you are going through. It was as if you described my life to a tee😔 Everything from the greif to the survival/freeze mode to the wierd family dynamics to the loss of motivation and numbness😕 so sorry that you feel stuck and sad now, it made me emotional because I relate so hard😔❤️🩹 sending you lots of love and good energy❤️ you are not alone♥️ inshaAllah we will come out on the other side , stronger, when we are ready. My best friend was depressed for 2 years and wouldn't leave his bed, but he made it through and started making beautiful art again. I never knew he experienced that when I met him, because at that time he was out on the other side♥️ Dont doubt yourself, ive watched many of your vids and I believe you are really smart and your mind seems so strong, you are kapable, depression just takes time, and it hurts. Its like a broken leg, you wouldnt be mad at yourself for not being able to run with it, I want to remind you that mental pain is just as valid. We are unwell and trying to heal from a sickness, without even giving ourselves any room to exist in the state we are in. Idk I'm rambleing and youve probably heard it all before. but Jim Carry said if you are depressed you need deep rest, and I'm trying to hold on to that, but I also know that when deep sadness washes over me I struggle to see the light in life. A friend told me she has no doubt I will figure my shit out and become me again, and she believes that deep down I know it too, and therefore I can alllow myself to procrastinate doing it, just like I procrastinate everything I know I will eventually do, especially difficult stuff. Big aha moment for me. I try to accept that God has a plan and we cannot claim that the plan we thought our lives would follow is better than Gods plan. Trust the process and all that, idk I rly hope we will make art again. I haven't painted in years but I love to paint, I'm scared I've lost all passion but maybe its not the case maybe its a symptom of depression and maybe I identify too much with these thoughts that are all symptoms coming from a chemical unbalance? Idk like being on a drug except instead of making everything okay it makes everything terrible. Idk if that's how it works, but yeah sorry for the mad rant, thank you for being you and I hope you find a way to be loving, gentle and patient with yourself during these hard times❤️🩹
I’ve been here since the very very beginning of your journey and I can relate to what you’re experiencing on so many levels. Your strength is inspiring! I am a bit older and felt(still feel) stuck as well and my dad’s passing last year kind of slowed everything down even more which is devastating but that’s ok. This year I am trying hard to fight for my life and my goals. The desire to move on is so strong!! Wish you all the best
Hi Sara, I lost my mum 3 years ago and I was in survival mode for the first 2 years. But honestly clearing out and doing those hard things to let go will make you feel better after. I promise you will go from survival to creation mode. Also early in the morning, do something very physical to get into your body and this will boost your energy. You remind me of me....I love your truth and authenticity. Keep being you ❤
I use pliers a lot for stuck lids & such
Wrenches are even better crescent wrench a must
Adulting sucks !! It'll get better Sara
Does it?
@@abbiealverez2960 indeed
@@abbiealverez2960it does when you learn to let go
Start writing down all the items you attach memories too so you can get rid of the physical items but still remember. We're all going through hard things - the mind can be a cage and worse then any other torture. One day at a time. You're healing, Sara. Give yourself time and allow yourself to let go of the weight. I know the feeling of no motivation because of pain and sadness. That's been my life the last 2 months. Push through the pain. Push through and feel it all ❤❤❤
I really enjoy your vlogs Sara. I hope you get out of this slump. - ABH
You are definitely depressed. And you definitely have to refresh your life and spring the house. That alone will keep
You stuck in the past and it’s not healthy. I’d suggest to start working out , it’s great for your mental and definitely declutter your place.❤
Happy Holidays Sara ❤️☺️
I won't miss 2023.
LMAOOO i love your videos I could listen to you talk all day
"DEPRESSED SOCRATES WITH ONE MASCARA" KILLLLED ME😂
I have a small family it is lonely and scary sometimes
Ok,maybe an unpopular opinion but that drawer that's your moms.... you should keep it as it is. when you're having a day you can just sit there and open the drawers and feel it all and the close em all and go back to your life..but to have them there.. i think i would like that. just my opinion.
I was just wondering when your next upload would be. Here in Canada we’re not having a cold winter it’s actually kinda scary because the mountain snow caps are melting meaning we eventually won’t have water. Anyways that’s what’s on my mind.
Hi Sara K :) I watched a video of yours 6 years ago titled “••” in which you were grieving the loss of your dad and reflecting. I think I watched the video after that as well titled “mites”. Anyway, let me get to the point! I havent watched you since then, or followed up, at all.. which is why I found it odd that you suddenly popped into my mind before going to bed.. I remembered your name and looked you up on RUclips and I was pleased to have found your channel! I’m glad you’re still posting and sharing your thoughts😊 What compelled me to write this comment on this video is, when you said “I feel like all of us just need to somehow create a conscious thats protective, is looking out for us(...) somwhere to grab that umpf” and I know what i’m about to say might throw you off, or you might just dismiss this comment straight away.. but I think what you’re looking for is God.. no I know.. And more specifically you’re looking for Allah. Bold statement i know.. but i wouldnt have typed this down after so many years of not having watched you, if i wasnt sure that Allah put *you* in my mind for a reason. I hope this comment finds you well. I would like to end with a verse from the Quran which is the direct words of God.. Lord of all worlds “Indeed, with every hardship is ease” (94:6)
BRO when i tell you i have beef with my sister's partner, (incoming long comment) nah he did something like extra disrespectful and I haven't spoken to him since that incident. It's hard to reach out now but I still want to because I'm still confused af!! Like damn, shawty never tried either, which is his choice. It's been strange definitely, also some of my close family aren't talking because of our family business, and I'm in the middle cause I talk to both cousins. Lord who knows if they'll talk during christmas, I think the only thing that's keeping them in contact is my cousin's baby. She sends baby pictures in our group snapchat and that's the only thing they bond over at this point. ANYWAY, I hope you don't feel alone because we have a great community here to experience life with YOU. I feel similar to you, of holding onto things I don't need anymore, and it's becoming more apparent during this time of the year. It's interesting hearing you talk, you can talk about ANYTHING and i'll listen. In a way I feel bad because I have both my parents and I've been feeling stuck. I have been trying to move out but they don't think I'm ready which I kinda agree with. It just seemed like a great opportunity to get my shit together but they were telling me I can do that here with them and not worry about paying rent. I just need to finish the MArie Kondo method UGHHHH!!
Goodbye 2023 I Won't Miss you.
Keep trying Sara ❤ Sending you lots of love ❤❤
Don’t get rid of your moms desk!!! Honestly if I were you I’d keep it forever for the memories. But yes the old makeup can go 💀
Lmao ur so funny sara!!! I'm sorry I freaking love ur videos. Ur so vulnerable yet funny . I get u girl!!! 1 mascara I can't stop laughing at that.
Sara, I know you love reading 😊
Please check Bert Hellinger.
Thank you so much for this video Sara
We were supposed to been become great friends. We're changing that this year
Hey chickadee how's it goin
Sara you’re my biggest fan… I’ll see you soon for new years with your dad in ur dreams
Okay im gonna be that christian person that always mentions God but i cannot bear to hear you sara talk about being sad without at least trying to help.
First off i wanna say a bit about how much Jesus has saved me. I used to be depressed and angry all day long for years. I had thoughts of killing myself, i was isolated and i smoked weed all day to keep the pain away. I had a horrible relationship with my mother. And each day felt like a struggle. I went to mental health hospitals and even to jail. My life was a mess.
One night i cried out to God and he completely saved me. He showed how loving he is and how big and strong and amazing. He showed me the bible and he told me he was and is and always will be with me. He told me he loved me.
The reason im telling you this is because if you cry out to Jesus he will answer. He will be your friend, he will your light. I will pray for you sara. You are very unique young woman and ive always enjoyed your personality. I pray that God will be merciful towards you and that his spirit covers all your pain. If you just call his name he will answer and i can assure you it will be the best moment of your life when you see just how loving God is.
Love your videos 💖
💕💕💕
Start a podcast??
I love you Sara ♥️
Love you❤
17:34 Whoahhhh!
4:39 good lord Sarah has lost her head! 😄🙏🏻💚🧡🩵💜 4:39 4:39
Im glad you realize your stuck. I haven't watched you in about 1.5 years and I was shocked that nothing has changed with you. You are right, it has been years now, you are older, you need to move on with your life. Moving on doesn't mean you are forgetting your parents. You have your own future and happiness to make. Your parents wouldn't want to see you like this still. Maybe sell the house, get something smaller, it's just you and start over. One cannot live for the future if you're still chosing to live in the past. I'm not sure if you have even worked or are working or have been living off of their insurance. I have faith in you, you can do it, now you just need this same faith in yourself. I am in kidney failure, im terminally ill...but i cant let it get to me. I need to stand up and fight this, just like yourself. But...you are not ill, please dont take life for granted. You are stronger then you think.
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With all due respect...you are a hoarder....you have lost so much, you want to hold on to what you use to have.....❤
Where are ur siblings...?