What about when you keep gaining and gaining and you’ve honored the extreme hunger and hunger has normalized and your not weighing yourself and working through all the thoughts and garbage and have a good level of acceptance and you’re STILL gaining weight and you’ve bought so many clothes and you can’t afford to buy anymore clothes and you wonder well maybe recovery lies because at some point shouldn’t I STOP GAINING?! At some point, it’s not fear. It’s just plain rage because how much more pound does my body need to gain? My goodness. I’m past 200lbs. Well past it. I don’t understand and I’m really struggling like I cannot keep gaining. I cannot buy anymore clothes. I’ve been so positive about it. I’m not fearful. I just can’t keep dealing with this anymore.
i think turning off all talk about fitness and outfit is very beneficial - you realy need to have to find your self-worth beyond all this shit. i had this anorexia talk myself but with time the voice disapeared. today i woke up with a "mister bad guy" melody in my head.
Thank you, that is exactly my point right now...
What about when you keep gaining and gaining and you’ve honored the extreme hunger and hunger has normalized and your not weighing yourself and working through all the thoughts and garbage and have a good level of acceptance and you’re STILL gaining weight and you’ve bought so many clothes and you can’t afford to buy anymore clothes and you wonder well maybe recovery lies because at some point shouldn’t I STOP GAINING?! At some point, it’s not fear. It’s just plain rage because how much more pound does my body need to gain? My goodness. I’m past 200lbs. Well past it. I don’t understand and I’m really struggling like I cannot keep gaining. I cannot buy anymore clothes. I’ve been so positive about it. I’m not fearful. I just can’t keep dealing with this anymore.
i think turning off all talk about fitness and outfit is very beneficial - you realy need to have to find your self-worth beyond all this shit. i had this anorexia talk myself but with time the voice disapeared. today i woke up with a "mister bad guy" melody in my head.
When you say you work through it and you get past it, do you think or suggest therapy for this? How did you work though it?