Well, here’s my sign…I came on RUclips to see if anyone has a recent video on the topic so I could give myself permission. Time to grab a snack now. (And making note to work on all of these that apply) Thanks, Becky!
@@gabrielaleszynska895 I feel you! I’ve definitely done that. Right now, I’m kind of at a place where I KNOW if I’m thinking about food, it’s mental hunger and needs to be managed by EATING, it’s just giving myself the permission to do it that gets me stuck searching for external sources to justify it. I know eventually it all has to come from ME, and it’s not up to anyone else to make sure I recover, but thankfully there are channels and resources out there that can help when we do still need that extra outside validation and reality check. Not ideal long term, but if it helps us get established on a better path until we can do it all for/by ourselves, I think RUclips and videos like this are super helpful. Looking forward to the day where I’m better able to create my own content from a place of solid recovery/recovered, to pay it forward. Gotta do the work myself first, though! (Obviously, when if we spend hours and hours watching and don’t take action, that’s a problem in itself (I think most of us have probably been there at some point), but if videos like this help you recognize when you need to take action, and encourage you to do it, rock the heck on!)
Just found your channel. So helpful. Sometimes I am surprised by how... tricky eating disorders can be. Another thing I thought of while you were sharing these ideas is if I don't think the food I am eating is delicious/awesome I feel like it isn't worth eating. And I either stop or feel immense guilt. As a life long high level soccer player, I gave up sports for 2 years (besides walking my dogs) to relearn how to eat without the compensation of sport. As I've returned to sport, I find that all the struggles return because I am hungrier, afraid of the increased hunger, then afraid to gain more weight, wanting a certain physique, and so on. I've noticed that overcoming and Ed seems to happen in layers. I'll feel more confident in one area of recovery and then realize I am quite weak in another. But this list was really helpful. I'm glad I found this channel. Thank you.
Yes me too, just today I am at a work conference and the lunch was not well cooked and we had to eat standing up, I felt guilty after eating. It felt like it wasn’t worth eating, a waste of food. Of course that was the ED talking in my head.
I agree with you about overcoming one thing then you realize you are still weak in another. I'm better with having food freedom but I'm combating the negative thoughts often.
This is so scary to think about!! I know it has to be done. I know I won't recover from anorexia without listening to mental hunger. I know that even though I'm not starving like I used to, not listening to mental hunger is still restriction. But it's so paralyzing just the thought... ugh
It's so worth it 😁 it won't feel like that but the further away you get from the Ed I promise you won't regret it.. I know I don't. I can't honestly believe now I settled but I know my worth now and I love myself way too much to tolerate anything lesser. Fear is a liar. You're worth it ❤️
Very good and importnat video- thank you! I try to eat more and honour my mental hunger which is not easy to follow- I don't feel physically hungry or I don't think straight about food... My sign is: when I think about my biggest wish, the first thought in my head is 'to eat everything I want in the amounts I want and not feel physically full to eat even more...'.That's sounds stupid and sad- I am a young person and my 'biggest wish' is about... food...🥺😩 Hugs, xx
I feel like I’m recovery. However I’m not feeling full anymore which scares me? And the water retention is really bad. My period is back! I’m just tired and feeling way to heavy for being so short. I want to be able to walk without pain. Anyone else?? Becky the rituals are so real lol!!! Omgosh 😂🤦🏻♀️
@@beckyfreestone9908 what I meant is that I eat a lot and still don’t feel full like I used to in the beginning. Trust me I eat a lot! I’m very uncomfortable at this point. Hard to move. How can this be healthy?
Hmm. 10 months in recovery, 4 months all in. Thought I was getting close to full recovery (thoughts becoming less, food becoming easy, and not gaining anymore weight) though everything you listed is something I do. Not sure now where I lie in recovery or if I do need to eat more food.
so as someone actively in recovery, something I wonder about is... if someone who never had an ED did any of those behaviors would we consider those bad? Like maybe they are just an anxious person? or maybe they plan their day to make sure they eat enough? I wonder if you would consider those habits in other people as disordered eating...
Thank you for this video!! I've been in recovery now for 8 months and even some of things you said still have me thinking that I'm not eating enough. Do we eat even when our stomach is full but we still want to eat something? Thanks for answering my question!
it feels so hard .. im still so scared of gaining fat ( i have weighing moments and body composition tests 2-3 months apart from each other ) ..... it also feels like i want to distract myself from eating ( hobbys ) .. i cant focus on stuff bc there is food in my heaf 24/7 .. i have been giving my extreme hunger all that it wants lately and my ed tells me i would be happier when i would be a bit less weight ( probs not even gained a BIT , but i FEEL fatter ) or that i want to lose fat and be happier bc of that .
what does someone do if they cannot get food into their stomach because it does not work, slow emptying forces me to have to wait 6-7 hours sometimes longer after a reg. size meal, it is extreme torture, like, unless you go thru it, you could never understand being hungry but unable to fit food into the stomach.
I relate to a lot of these but I'm just so scared my stomach constantly feels pregnant now because of the weight gain and the bloating. Somedays I'll have over 5 bars a day along with all my full meals and snacks too. I down 5k calories everyday and have gained more weight than my pre-ed. Ugh my life feels like its over.I'm never happy I'm so miserable at school because of how fat I feel and how much I feel like I need to eat. I have nobody, i lost all close relationships because my ed and lost desire to be social. help.
Hey Becky! My problem is that I suffer from anorexia b/p type... So I am very triggered to purge if I allow myself to eat as much as I want🙄 Because then I‘ll binge to the point where I am in physical pain and feel like my stomach is about to explode. At this point I don’t even care about the thousands of consumed calories anymore but rather this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach that reminds me so much of my binge/purge activities. I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to restrict myself but I don’t want to go over the top either:(
I have been in recovery for 5 months and all I am eating is sweets/chocolate. I have gained a lot of weight. I rarely crave real food and it is kind of scary because I don't know how to eat like a normal person again. Please help! 🥺
Me too!! Your so not alone! My weight gain is up a lot to. Are you also suffering with water retention? As far as what your eating? Just eat what your craving it won’t last forever. I now eat a variety of foods. But yes mostly sweets yes!!. Recovery isn’t easy! But your not alone! Praying we can both recover and be free!!!🙏🏼♥️🦋🌸
@@dancingpixie74sb Yes, unfortunately I do suffer from water retention. I hope this won't last any longer.. Thanks for writing! Wish you all luck in your journey as well 🥰
You shouldn’t be aspiring to eat like a normal person. You’re trying to make amends with the deprivation you’ve put your body through! It’ll want only sweets for a while and it’ll eventually level out.
@@beckyfreestone9908 thanks a lot for your reply 💖 I know I should only listen to my body and trust the process. It is just relieving to hear these words from a person who have been through all of this.
Well, here’s my sign…I came on RUclips to see if anyone has a recent video on the topic so I could give myself permission. Time to grab a snack now. (And making note to work on all of these that apply) Thanks, Becky!
Very often I do the same! I spend hours on YT watching videos about mental hunger to 'check' if I am really hungry.... 😬
@@gabrielaleszynska895 I feel you! I’ve definitely done that. Right now, I’m kind of at a place where I KNOW if I’m thinking about food, it’s mental hunger and needs to be managed by EATING, it’s just giving myself the permission to do it that gets me stuck searching for external sources to justify it. I know eventually it all has to come from ME, and it’s not up to anyone else to make sure I recover, but thankfully there are channels and resources out there that can help when we do still need that extra outside validation and reality check.
Not ideal long term, but if it helps us get established on a better path until we can do it all for/by ourselves, I think RUclips and videos like this are super helpful. Looking forward to the day where I’m better able to create my own content from a place of solid recovery/recovered, to pay it forward. Gotta do the work myself first, though!
(Obviously, when if we spend hours and hours watching and don’t take action, that’s a problem in itself (I think most of us have probably been there at some point), but if videos like this help you recognize when you need to take action, and encourage you to do it, rock the heck on!)
I genuinely thought I’ve been eating enough…but pretty much relate to every single point you discuss here. Hmm.
Thanks for the reality check.
Just found your channel. So helpful. Sometimes I am surprised by how... tricky eating disorders can be. Another thing I thought of while you were sharing these ideas is if I don't think the food I am eating is delicious/awesome I feel like it isn't worth eating. And I either stop or feel immense guilt. As a life long high level soccer player, I gave up sports for 2 years (besides walking my dogs) to relearn how to eat without the compensation of sport. As I've returned to sport, I find that all the struggles return because I am hungrier, afraid of the increased hunger, then afraid to gain more weight, wanting a certain physique, and so on. I've noticed that overcoming and Ed seems to happen in layers. I'll feel more confident in one area of recovery and then realize I am quite weak in another. But this list was really helpful. I'm glad I found this channel. Thank you.
Welcome! I’m glad you found it too!☺️
Yes me too, just today I am at a work conference and the lunch was not well cooked and we had to eat standing up, I felt guilty after eating. It felt like it wasn’t worth eating, a waste of food. Of course that was the ED talking in my head.
I agree with you about overcoming one thing then you realize you are still weak in another. I'm better with having food freedom but I'm combating the negative thoughts often.
This is so scary to think about!! I know it has to be done. I know I won't recover from anorexia without listening to mental hunger. I know that even though I'm not starving like I used to, not listening to mental hunger is still restriction. But it's so paralyzing just the thought... ugh
It's so worth it 😁 it won't feel like that but the further away you get from the Ed I promise you won't regret it.. I know I don't. I can't honestly believe now I settled but I know my worth now and I love myself way too much to tolerate anything lesser. Fear is a liar. You're worth it ❤️
@@Mizzielollypop well done!!
I love your style as much as your content and delivery xxx
Very good and importnat video- thank you! I try to eat more and honour my mental hunger which is not easy to follow- I don't feel physically hungry or I don't think straight about food... My sign is: when I think about my biggest wish, the first thought in my head is 'to eat everything I want in the amounts I want and not feel physically full to eat even more...'.That's sounds stupid and sad- I am a young person and my 'biggest wish' is about... food...🥺😩
Hugs, xx
Make your biggest wish come true, eat all the food you want.
this is so helpful - thank you!
How do I relate to EVERYTHING you just said??!!! thank you for your amazing channel
This is perfectly timed, thank you Becky.
I feel like I’m recovery. However I’m not feeling full anymore which scares me? And the water retention is really bad. My period is back! I’m just tired and feeling way to heavy for being so short. I want to be able to walk without pain. Anyone else?? Becky the rituals are so real lol!!! Omgosh 😂🤦🏻♀️
Eat more food I’d you’re not feeling full anymore!
@@beckyfreestone9908 what I meant is that I eat a lot and still don’t feel full like I used to in the beginning. Trust me I eat a lot! I’m very uncomfortable at this point. Hard to move. How can this be healthy?
Hmm. 10 months in recovery, 4 months all in. Thought I was getting close to full recovery (thoughts becoming less, food becoming easy, and not gaining anymore weight) though everything you listed is something I do. Not sure now where I lie in recovery or if I do need to eat more food.
Then you need to be really honest about your mental hunger and respond fully. If there is zero restriction going on then you just need more time!
so as someone actively in recovery, something I wonder about is... if someone who never had an ED did any of those behaviors would we consider those bad? Like maybe they are just an anxious person? or maybe they plan their day to make sure they eat enough? I wonder if you would consider those habits in other people as disordered eating...
Thank you for this video!! I've been in recovery now for 8 months and even some of things you said still have me thinking that I'm not eating enough. Do we eat even when our stomach is full but we still want to eat something? Thanks for answering my question!
it feels so hard .. im still so scared of gaining fat ( i have weighing moments and body composition tests 2-3 months apart from each other ) ..... it also feels like i want to distract myself from eating ( hobbys ) .. i cant focus on stuff bc there is food in my heaf 24/7 .. i have been giving my extreme hunger all that it wants lately and my ed tells me i would be happier when i would be a bit less weight ( probs not even gained a BIT , but i FEEL fatter ) or that i want to lose fat and be happier bc of that .
But this year i'll make it, made the mistake to not rewiring my thoughts now i'll do this
what does someone do if they cannot get food into their stomach because it does not work, slow emptying forces me to have to wait 6-7 hours sometimes longer after a reg. size meal, it is extreme torture, like, unless you go thru it, you could never understand being hungry but unable to fit food into the stomach.
I relate to a lot of these but I'm just so scared my stomach constantly feels pregnant now because of the weight gain and the bloating. Somedays I'll have over 5 bars a day along with all my full meals and snacks too. I down 5k calories everyday and have gained more weight than my pre-ed. Ugh my life feels like its over.I'm never happy I'm so miserable at school because of how fat I feel and how much I feel like I need to eat. I have nobody, i lost all close relationships because my ed and lost desire to be social. help.
Hey Becky! My problem is that I suffer from anorexia b/p type... So I am very triggered to purge if I allow myself to eat as much as I want🙄 Because then I‘ll binge to the point where I am in physical pain and feel like my stomach is about to explode. At this point I don’t even care about the thousands of consumed calories anymore but rather this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach that reminds me so much of my binge/purge activities.
I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to restrict myself but I don’t want to go over the top either:(
Just bc you’re triggered to purge doesn’t mean you have to. Stop the cycle. Eat a lot of food and keep it down.👊🏼
I have been in recovery for 5 months and all I am eating is sweets/chocolate. I have gained a lot of weight. I rarely crave real food and it is kind of scary because I don't know how to eat like a normal person again. Please help! 🥺
Me too!! Your so not alone! My weight gain is up a lot to. Are you also suffering with water retention? As far as what your eating? Just eat what your craving it won’t last forever. I now eat a variety of foods. But yes mostly sweets yes!!. Recovery isn’t easy! But your not alone! Praying we can both recover and be free!!!🙏🏼♥️🦋🌸
@@dancingpixie74sb Yes, unfortunately I do suffer from water retention. I hope this won't last any longer..
Thanks for writing! Wish you all luck in your journey as well 🥰
You shouldn’t be aspiring to eat like a normal person. You’re trying to make amends with the deprivation you’ve put your body through! It’ll want only sweets for a while and it’ll eventually level out.
@@beckyfreestone9908 thanks a lot for your reply 💖 I know I should only listen to my body and trust the process. It is just relieving to hear these words from a person who have been through all of this.
😢😢😢😢😢 horror
En: heel langzaam eten? Sucking on a cookie. Eating super slow
@beckyfreestone9908 thank you for your videos its so validating