Requiem for a Dream Explained | Classic Explained Episode 10
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- Опубликовано: 6 авг 2021
- Thank you for voting! Requiem for a Dream Explained / Requiem for a Dream Movie Explained / Requiem for a Dream Ending Explained is Episode 10 in the Classic Explained series. It was my first time watching this and it was incredible, and super heartbreaking, so here is my analysis and explanation of the movie and the ending. Hope you like it! Requiem for a Dream starring Jared Leto, Jennifer Connelly, Marlon Wayans, and Ellen Burstyn, directed by Darren Aronofsky is a 2000 psychological thriller drama movie. Tune into this Lucas Blue Explained to find out the meaning of Requiem for a Dream. Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. I would love to discuss!
This is a spoiler-filled Requiem for a Dream Explained video by Lucas Blue.
Let me know your thoughts about Requiem for a Dream or any of your favorite psychological thriller drama films in the comments below. I love hearing the opinions!
Outro Song: Let Go
Listen here: smarturl.it/sonorouspletgo
Director: Darren Aronofsky
Cast: Jared Leto - Jennifer Connelly - Marlon Wayans - Ellen Burstyn 
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I hope you enjoy and thank you for voting! Which other movies would you like to see analyzed, and what were your thoughts/theories around Requiem for a Dream? I would love to discuss!!
I relate so much to Sara. Ive lost something that was never really there. I was told I had to love my family no matter what. That my feelings spawned by trauma or unnecessary. Im done lying to myself and the consequences of speaking out is isolation.
you should do trainspotting
Great job on the video BUT you forgot the VJ (VIDEO JOCKEY) character Tappy in the movie and his addiction to his TV game show and the sound of his own voice.... fyi. "WE GOT A WINNER!"
Nice work, Thanks!
A requiem is also a piece of music played at a funeral mass. So it could also be like a funeral for their dreams.
That's an excellent point! The movie is very much the death/destruction of their potential. Thank you so much for watching!!
Or death for a dream 😥
When I originally looked up, "Requiem For a Dream" way back in 2006, what came up was, "Death of a Dream".
Requiem translated to, "Death Of". Interestingly enough, I cannot find that anywhere, lately.
I'll never forget reading it and realizing the title of the movie meant, "Death of a dream".
No shit, Sherlock. That´s why it´s called a requiem/Totengesang
@@Marauder1981 ok Sherlock, didn’t have to be a dick about. I was telling for other people who didn’t know.
As a recovering addict , I have always loved this movie. I watch it every time I think of relapsing to remind myself that it’s not worth it. It’s such a dark yet beautiful film , it shows how easily happiness is found yet how easily and tragically it can be lost.
Man.. i feel the same way dude..
Battled addiction over 10 years.. but ive been clean for 3 now. I watch this movie once a year or so, and other movies/documentaries with similar subject matter. Helps me cope with shit, gotta take it one day at a time, its the best we can do bro ❤
hope you're still clean and doing good, I'm proud of you
The non-high characters seeming one-dimensional is actually genious. High people interact with sober people and remember such interactions in a more rigid and methodical way. They just are trying to be normal and focusing on not seeming high as fuck during their interactions with sober people. So that's why they think of sober people as one dimensional because they are always on guard and taking things as surface level as possible to keep it simple to act sober. It's brilliant, really, to depict this in the way he does.
Underrated explanation.
wow you truly hit nail on the head here.
When I first watched this movie when I was 17 I was already into my own drug addiction and it kinda rained on my parade. Shit got bad after that. My mom is strung out on amphetamines (from a Dr) and my grandma has Alzheimer's as a direct result of benzo and alcohol abuse. I basically lived this movie, jail, pimping my gf, almost getting shot, etc.
I'm 4 years clean now and I watched the movie again today and got physically ill. Glad I made it thru everything but being able to say "my life is like requiem for a dream" is wack
Damn I'm sorry to hear!!!
ME TOO.
I hope you are staying strong. Forgive yourself, forgive your family. That will be a key to unlock the door to walk out of addiction and keep that door shut locked once you pass through. Keep strong. Keep your head up!
You did something not many can do. Be proud of yourself. So happy to hear you got out of that life! Keep it up! ❤
That cool !
I just watched this today by myself and once the credits rolled I was just stunned. Watching it alone enhanced the experience but also made it scarier
I remember watching this movie in 5th grade of school in 2004. Organized by 10th grader sister for 10th graders, behind closed doors (because of pegi rating), during the week of addiction prevention theme in school. She thought it would be a good idea to let me watch too. I was terrified, but this movie has changed my life. I swore to myself to never try heavier than weed drugs, to not end up in addiction like film heroes.
Terrific movie, terrific soundtrack by clint mansel and played by kronos quartet, 10/10 movie about addiction.
Yeah after watching this, I had the same thoughts! I was like high schoolers should study this movie in English class. I think the students would be entertained, they would be able to study thematic storytelling, and they would be left with the impact of that ending which may help them abstain from drugs in the future. And yes, the movie is fantastic and the soundtrack is perfection! Thank you so much for watching!!
Thank you for posting the review!
Dude no 5th grader should be watching this, not even a 10th grader
@@22Hammy Definitely not a 5th grader but I think 10th is fine. This shit exists and it sucks. A lot of kids my age need to realize that fact. Seeing a movie like this would probably do that, at least for some of them. There's always gonna be ones who just don't give a shit or wouldn't take it seriously.
@@22Hammy May have been true well over 20 years ago but in this day and age, the younger you can teach them to be careful the better, 5th grade or not. Drugs and addiction do not discriminate.
I was probably just a few step away from being another Harry. Somehow saved myself.
To non-addict people it might seem like a movie, but for some it is the unescapable reality they are living. I hope everyone a better life!
Great movie, great analysis!
So happy to hear you’re doing better my friend, and thank you for your kind words and personal insights. All the best to you!
I work at a hospital and We were talking about drug seekers at work and I was telling my co workers how ppl expect opiates to numb physical pain but don’t realize it also numbs emotional pain. And getting that final “break” from emotional pain is often how addiction starts and thrives. I’ll never forget the first time I sno*ted h, it was like for the first time in 7 years I actually felt good and not constantly drowning in sadness and hopelessness. It was the ultimate break from cold reality. I used on and off for 6 years as a functioning “part time addict” before I finally threw in the towel 4 years ago and was just done. This is a brilliant analysis, thank you for this.
This is so touching to read, I'm always offering the research-related observations, but it's always so important to hear personal insights like yours, as I believe it elevates the conversation to a much deeper and impactful level. I'm so glad you shared this because someone may be reading it who really needed to. Thank you for your kind words and for your input, and I'm so happy to hear things are better for you! All the best!!
@@lucasblue20 this was a such a sweet genuine response thank you so much 😊
my whole interpretation about this was how drugs promise a way they can achieve their "dream" only for it to bring them farther away from it and get taken advantage of.
I always thought "requiem" meant an emptiness or a void where something should be, like in this case, a "dream." I felt this the strongest at the end of the movie when Harry wakes up and says Marion's name. The nurse tells him she'll be sent for, and she'll come, but the realization hits him that she won't, and it's suddenly like a nightmare he can't wake up from. It reminds me of the feeling you get when you have a dream of winning the lottery, but you somehow become aware of the dream while having it, and realize you can't take that good thing with you to reality when you wake up no matter how bad you want to.
But at the same time... When you have a nightmare, you get the biggest sigh of relief when you wake up and realize that it was all a dream. So I guess it goes both ways lol - having a good dream; and having a terrible nightmare.
@IdOnThAvEaUsE69 a good dream that turns into a nightmare.
Requiem for a dream is the first movie where it was physically hard to watch and sit through towards the end in a good way though. Truly a beautiful movie
You absolutely nailed the analysis and if you also recognize that each character ends up in a fetal position which I thought was interesting and symbolic
Thank you so much! And I didn’t catch that, I’m gonna look for that the next time around. I can already speculate on the many things it could mean, thank you so much for your input and for watching!!
I beleive the film and the music are the most iconic of a whole era, especially the music. Like the Godfather's music for the 70's, the Requiem for a dream is the same for the 00's.
This is one of those movies I always say that everyone should see at least once. One thing this movie does excellently, to me, is how it depicts the character’s casual drug use rapidly evolves in to full blown “sell your soul” addiction. The one thing this movie didn’t nail, in my opinion, was how quickly it portrayed the male characters would use their drugs. The ritual of preparation is almost as important as the actual using itself. Even in the throes of debilitating withdrawal while searching, finally having the “drug of choice” in their possession will alleviate some withdrawal symptoms almost immediately. Also, an addict doesn’t wait until they are sick to look for the drugs they know they are going to need to make it through the day, and sometimes will even save enough to curb sickness later so as to function normally day to day. The high functioning addict is a rare breed however.
This comment is really good , I grew up with addicts and tried many things, I remember this guy who was on speed he would spend long time to prepare a line for him and others also I knew a guy that would go literally across entity line in Bosnia to acquire drugs but he wouldn't wait for withdrawal to begin instead as he wokes up he would go gather money and went there to buy it.
watched this movie after my first time in rehab. stayed with me. now years later, after another rehab stint, this analysis came up. made me cry. definately the best film on the horrors of addiction and your insight is amazing
I think you broke down everything perfectly. I could've never thought that the split screen and the boardwalk scene meant something. I finally watched the film after avoiding it for a long time. It was what I expected it to be and had a strong message.
I’m so glad you finally got to see this, it’s one of my favourite films. And thank you so much for your kind words, I’m really glad you enjoyed! I can’t exactly remember what I said about the split-screens and boardwalk, but this movie pierced me, so I feel like it all really connected with me. Thank you again so much for watching!!
Also at 12:24 you say Marion just wanting to get another injection. Marion only sniffs heroin it’s Harry and Tyrone that shoot. That’s why whenever there’s a montage you can see 2 montage of shooting up, and one montage of sniffing. She only sniffs.
I noticed that too!!
Watched this film when i was 15 and i wish this had enough of an impact that i never tried heroin but failed myself on that one. Glad it never got so bad i lost an arm.
Thank you for helping people to track the meaning and symbolism of great, and/or obscure, and/or misunderstood, important films like this one. As for myself, having lived with a genius addict for 7 years, I have no desire or need to see this film, as much as I admire Aranofsky's work. I've lived inside that world, and lived through my own personal struggle in healing from being a part of it. I know it inside out, not simply because I lived through it, and don't assume, reader, I mean anything that simplistic. It's because I took the time during and afterwards, with support, to agonizingly pull it apart, piece by piece, within myself as an intimate and codependent, to understand what drove me into it, that I can say what I say. For many who've been there, and from what I've seen of this film, many in recovery as well as on the peripheries, who can benefit deeply from Aranofsky's essay on addiction.
Just watched this film for the first time and quite a ride! I struggle with drug addiction myself and this film has definitely made me rethink! I am also by myself so much so can totally relate to these characters trying to fill their loneliness
You alright man?
This is my favorite movie and this is my favorite analysis of it I’ve ever seen. So great we’ll done
This videos deserves more views, amazing analysis of this movie!!
This means so much to me, thank you!! I’ll keep creating!!
Great chill analysis. The algorithm is working its magic.
Such an awesome analysis. Like how you focused on the theme of solitude. Movie makes me want to phone home more often.
Yeah I believe good friends and family are the best thing to keep you on the right path in every sense, it’s always good to call. Thank you so much for watching! And I’m so happy you enjoyed!!
the analysis was great. huge tnx
This is an important movie and I wish it had more publicity at the time. Your review of this film is exceptional. Well done.
I totally agree, luckily it has stood the test of time and can be discussed on platforms like this today. And so glad to hear you enjoyed the video, thank you so much!
Just watched this movie for the first time today and was thrilled to see you have an analysis video on it. Watched it immediately. Brilliant once again!
Thank you so much! Super glad you got to see the film because it's easily one of my favorites, and so happy to hear the video was worth it as well, thank you again!!
Great Analysis like always!
Love your voice and love the content! ❤️ I haven't seen this movie, and this is the closest I will ever get to watching it. I can watch the conjuring or insidious movies alone in a dark room at 3am, but this kind of emotional movies scare me more. Haha.
Keep up the great work, Lucas Blue! ❤️
Thank you so much! And yes!! This movie is 20 times scarier than supernatural/slasher horror films for me too. Like you said, the tragedy and reality of it is terrifying. But thank you again, I’m so glad you enjoy, this means so much!!
Your analysis of Requiem for a Dream was amazing. Thank you. Well done.
Thank you so much! So glad you enjoyed!!
Just found your channel. Some of the best film analysis content on RUclips. Subscribed
Man that was a deep dive into some very dificult material... You have earned yourself a subscriber
Excellent overview! My psych final is going to be about this movie and you pointed out some really cool stuff that I haven't noticed yet.
The last time I watched this movie I was a teenager and all I took away from it was "Don't do drug n-kaaaaay." I definitely need to revisit this one.
Haha i know, this movie should be in the curriculum at every high school. It's quite the deterrent
Amazing analysis! You really gave me a whole different view
This is so great to hear, thank you so much!!
Thank you!! Most uploads purporting to be an analysis of (insert topic) are often little more than rants elevating, or denigrating aforementioned topic, your observations are truly analytical. Satisfying, too!
Your comment regarding Sara’s vanity -the inter-title text @9:45 - would have been appreciated by the novel’s author, Hubert Selby jr. IMHO
Wow thank you so much for this! It's so fulfilling to hear when my ideas are valued and appreciated, so this means so much to me! I'll keep this style of analysis coming, thank you again!!
Amazing video
Watched the movie last night and omg I was not ready for all of that it had me hooked
Great video man, the immense work you put into it shows
Thank you so much my friend, so glad you enjoyed. Many more to come!
saw this movie when I was 12 years old and honestly it shaped my outlook on drugs ever since.
Your analysis is very good, thanks.
Perfect movie.
Thank you! love this film so much too, so poignant and imaginative
I’m a addict survivor sober 4 years ❤️❤️ I’m now a speaker and advocate as my recovery was amazing thanks to everything and one around me. I died twice in hospital during the year of my life that I became sober. Death itself from what I’ve been through and seen through my own eyes isn’t like the ending of this film. So I don’t get as scared by the ending as my experience was very different. The things that do run through your mind are very very different, well were for me. But if I can I get people to try and have a look at this. It’s helped so many
Did you have to do "ass to ass"?
@@liveuser8527 what ?! If you’re trolling it’s pretty sad to do on a comment like that bro.
@@georginablackwell7122 im not trolling,,u willing also to become my loved and pregnant wife?
@@georginablackwell7122 100% serious..u become my wife?
Ignore the weirdo above. Congratulations on your sobriety Georgina, almost 5 years now 🫶🏼
I watched this movie recently for the first time and this was a very good analysis. thank you!
Totally my pleasure, thank you! And I hope you enjoyed the film!
this movie is so honest abt addiction. also basketball diaries. kind of makes me sick when i watch them. it makes me feel the pain like i dealt w it yesterday.
I was living in NYC when this movie came out , and I must say its the reality we face every single day. I left NYC as fast as I get there
Brilliant. One of the greatest movies ever Made. Props to Hubert Selby Jr. The author of the book.
Very fascinating that this video popped up. Was looking up Gabor Mate's work on addiction and trauma. Great video. Subscribed!
So glad you found it and enjoyed it, thank you! Plenty more to come!!
Requiem for a Dream is one of the best Horror movie films ever. Yes I said it. Horror movie. This is just very haunting no matter how many times you revisit it. There are no supernatural elements involved. There is no creature, or a deranged psycho with a knife chasing everyone around. Not even a jump scare. Addiction itself is the actual monster. It comes for everyone and ravages them. We see how all characters will find themselves in shithole they will never be able to climb out of.
9:13 the third rule of The Month of Fury can be found as an easter egg on the DVD
Great Video! I really think this is one of the best films to point out the "Good movies are not the same as happy movies" problem. Eery once in a while i get the question Did you enjoy the movie, and sometimes the anwser is no dispite the fact the movie is really good
Third rules is: No orgasms for a month
This movie makes me think so hard that for whom I am the most sorry for. Most frightening movie of all time which is way more realistic than any ghost movie. AS ALWAYS You nailed the analysis.
Yeah ik it’s so scary and saddening. The harsh realities of the real world today will always be the scariest things to me just like you’ve said. It’s tough to watch but the movie does a great job at using darkness to perfectly convey its meaningful message. And I’m so glad you enjoyed the analysis! Thank you so much for watching!!
This movie made me tremendously scared for my son. Even tho he’s 4 I want to show him this movie whenever he’s older so he can see the impact of drugs.
I watched the movie for the first time last night without doing any research about the movie. I did not expect it to be such a great movie.
that's a great analysis
great job buddy.
Thank you so much! It really means a lot to hear this, I’m so glad you enjoyed!!
Just finished this movie like 2 mins ago. It really hit personally to me for reasons I won't disclose but it hurt my heart to watch it and I appreciate your video on it so much. Thank you
Such a convincing analysis, you've gained a sub.
Wow thank you! I'm thrilled you felt this was convincing because I love this movie way too much. Thank you so much for watching, and feel free to send me suggestions of any movies you like (new or old)!
Brilliant analysis, thank you! ✊🏾
So glad you enjoyed, thank you so much!!
@@lucasblue20why wasn't there more "ass to ass" scene analysis?
Glad I saw this film when I was younger opened my eyes a bit
This movie and transpotting should be show in all high schools.
Amazing analysis!
Thank you so much!!
Great analysis! I'm not a big fan of Aronofsky as techniques and effects serve to get across quite simple messages but your break down is absolutely perfect.
Thank you so much! I can totally understand that even though I've only seen two of his movies. I feel like it works effectively here, but with Mother I can see how the 100's of symbols in that movie seem kind of unnecessary or overbearing for how simple the message is. But also Mother is one of my favorite movies to discuss because it's so polarizing. I gotta see more of his films though because I love his ambition even though it may not always work perfectly. But thank you so much for watching! So happy you enjoyed this one!!
Damn, this vid help me out alot for my upcoming assignment about this movie. Thanks 🙏
Haha anytime! Good luck!!
As a person with anxiety, this movie was so unsettling to watch. It got harder and harder as the movie went on, you could feel the uncomfortable feeling, guilt, innocence being taken, and the all around on the edge feel. Gosh they all played their part to the perfect detail
Dude amazing vid,
Thank you so much, my friend! Means so much!
at 36 after experiencing a lot of things, this movie is quite shocking.
I've always had a huge issue with escapism and i've always been that guy who tells people the hard truths(mostly just because that's how i see things) so anything that has to do with not facing the truth, to me is a HUGE problem.
I keep telling people how awful our civilizations have become that we do not treat our weak and needy at all, and leave them to a life of disparity.
these are really bad times and i really hope things get better.
Really good video. Interesting that you opted to go without a soundtrack to support your voiceover. I remained engaged without it, so well done.
Thank you so much! So glad you liked this one! And yeah the music throws me off every time I try it haha so I just leave it for the outro and intro. I think it’s because I want the channel to be as intimate and personal as possible. But I’m so glad the video stayed enjoyable! Thank you so much for this!!
such a good video fr !!!!
Thank you so much! So glad you liked it!!
Amazing work ❤
Thank you so much!!
Amazing video
Damn, I watch this movie every few years, it’s something that I instinctually recognized as beautiful, terrible, and deeply reflective the ways we all cope, on some level, with trauma, but you articulated all of the nuances much better than I ever could have. Thank you for this video Lucus
Earned a subscription.
Yesss thank you 🙏
Anytime! Thank you for watching!!
I love this movie it defiantly changed my outlook
This movie is so sad and tragic , you can only watch it once . The mom breaks my heart. Good movie though.
Good job man!
Thank you so much!!
Honestly as a recovering addict u can’t watch this if your not there yet mentally don’t make the mistake I did cuz it almost got mr almost .
This is a better review of this movie than the plethora out there eg. the Cinema Cartographer one, which I though was just rambling undergrad film student stuff.
More than about drug addiction, the story is about dreams being ruined and turning into nightmares. Each character has a dream
Tyrone wants to escape the Ghetto life
Harry wants to spend his life with Marion
Marion wanted to design clothes and be with Harry
Sara wanted to feel better about herself, and be admired.
Its because of these dreams that they even started messing with drugs in the first place. Tyrone and Harry start selling dope to have enough money to escape the Ghetto life, and start a clothing store for Marion. Sara wanted to lose weight. But in the end
Tyrone loses his freedom
Harry loses his arm and Marion
Marion lost her dignity and will probably OD to death
Sara lost her mind
just finished watching it and it is the best horror movie
and I thought people were joking when they said the ending was extremely tragic my god was that a ride
Best movie of all time...imo
Haven’t seen the whole movie but this is scaringly familiar.
Bravo. Except there is no food addiction, she was just enjoying the little pleasures of a relaxed life, like the box of chocolates every now and then. She got conned by doctors and sees food as a temptation but it wasn’t so.
I've just finished the book, and she is definitely addicted to food and the TV to begin with. It's all she thinks about and she talks to the fridge in her mind all day.
In the film it's more antagonistic/scary but in the book it stops talking after she starts the pills.
The is a great breakdown.
It’s my top 3 movie for sure
This movie wasn’t scary at all but this was definitely art 10/10 🔥 !!!
This was a movie my friends would watch while having some 🌳 and it it made me not want to watch it a second time.
I cried for about 30 minutes after watching this movie for the first time. Word to the wise: do not watch this while high and drunk 😅
I saw Requiem for a Dream for the first time on acid. It was pretty good.
Yet another excellent analysis. I never considered solitude being a thematic element to this movie but your analysis makes it seem obvious lol I bet you'd make a great film teacher.
To fellow subscribers: please consider voting for Pi as his next analysis if he puts it in a poll again. If you haven't seen it I promise it's something you'd want to hear his thoughts on. The whole film is like a surreal trip and it's just a really deep movie overall.
Indeed, voted for this one last week. In the same vein, and if you like this type of movies, consider Eraserhead by David Lynch
Pi will certainly be in the next poll since it was pretty much tied with The Lighthouse. The Tuesday after my Lighthouse video, I'll put that poll out. And I'm so glad you enjoyed the analysis, thank you so much! And that's funny, a friend of mine also recently said I should be a film professor later in life, but I don't know anything about making a movie haha maybe I could just teach the courses on thematic storytelling. I'll keep it in mind! Thank you so much for voting and watching!!
@N N I have to watch this! I've heard too many good things!!
@@lucasblue20 It's a weird one, but "in heaven everything is fine"😀 I'm never sure I like Lynch work or not, but he is so fascinating, his brain is in the five dimensional space, almost impossible to catch.
Haha ok sounds good. I’m hyped, I’ll let you know when I see it!!
This movie scared the hell out of me
The movie is about helplessness to be more specifically broad its about what the helpless do to stop being helpless.
Just found this. There is a hidden scene on the DVD with a continuation of the Month of Fury where he reveals rule 3.
What is it?
@@sammybam9190 No orgasm.
@@sammybam9190 pharma
This movie is the buzziest movie ive seen😮
Sex can be used as a weapon, to bribe, a drug to reach a high for less then a minute and that high can have devastating consequences.
I easily could have been one of these characters. Luckily, I recognized that I didn't need to and stopped my own substance addiction. I smoke weed but I know that I can't do anything harder ever again as I would end up on the streets.
Not being able to be honest with your parents is a doozy. If it was anything I related to this move the most was that.
I could never bring myself to watch this movie on my own. This video is the closest I can get.
It is great movie. But I have kind of strong stomach. If you are very big of an empath, watch it with someone or don't watch it at all.
crazy shooter mcgavin is the game show host
My dumbass got heavy into xtc use and the last time i did that shit i took 2 teslas (each having around 200-250 mg of MDA ) , i felt amazing , i was drinking my water as i was supposed too then when i went to the restroom to let the stream out as soon as i finished i collapsed on the bathroom floor and was unconscious for maybe 2-3 seconds before getting up , i brushed it off and really didn’t think much of it (i was rolling balls ) i waled to the kitchen and i lost consciousness again this time actually hitting my forehead otw down , i immediately stood up and understood what was happening, my sodium levels dropped significantly and im glad that i made that educated guess because as soon as i got up i ran to the kitchen ,filled a huge jar of water and threw about 5 spoons worth of salt and sat my ass down while i drank the salted water amd ate an orange . That day i realized that im not fucking superman . I googled the overdose limit for MDA and it was 400mg , i was way above that . My heart rate was all fucked up for the rest of the next day and i had to call in to work . Ecstasy in itself isn’t addictive but the feeling it gave you was just the best feeling i had ever felt but there is no way im touching that shit ever again .
XTC is 100% addictive man
I watched this movie extremely
⛽️💨 🌱 and it tripped me out not in a good way
Edit : Watching it completely clear headed brings on a whole different meaning
:( left me straighten depressed:(
If you suffer from depression anxiety or anything in between I recommend you DO NOT watch this movie. Extremely triggering. You will be left with feelings of dread and despair
With Sara she didn't know she was addicted
i just realized, something: in my last relationship, i was the co-addict, which got so stressfull to me, that i started to do drugs. five years later, my new boyfriend is the co-addict.