Yeah I’m not even gonna try and keep my cool. I absolutely squealed when I saw you commented. This is legit better than the day I graduated from Uni or proposed to my fiancé 🥲 Thankyou for the comment brother 💙
Is playing the game fr gonna help w it? I can't even play it cuz I'm too damn scared to swim to find Sulphur cuz sum made a noise when I was looking last time and I can't even repair my shi cuz of it
@@ChachaSteak- i have thallosophobia to the max to the point i’m still extremely scared to go anywhere near the sea monsters, but at the end of the day ik if i give up i’m a pussy so i just keep pushing through
I dont have a fear of the ocean but after playing subnautica I just get confused as to why people fear the ocean. My playthrough is easily summarised as me categorising what's a cutie and what's an asshole. The most I got scared was when I underestimated the proximity of a reaper for me to turn my head and get a lil spook when he was in smooching distance. Being an Aussie raised on a beach probably helps with the whole thalassophobia thing.
@@TackyKnackyI play the game cause I’m obsessed with aquatic life I scan everything and I scanned all the creatures just to learn how they work and learn about their ecosystems even whist having thatassophobia
Hey, Butch? I'm really concerned about your neck, speaking as someone who is 50+, spends all day in front of computers, and suffered horrible neck pain from bulging discs and bone spurs until they fused my C6/C7 vertebrae about a decade ago. I notice you keep bending over your desk, look up "text neck" It puts horrible force strain on it! Up your ergonomic game: Consider a 2nd or 3rd monitor, with an adjustable mount, so you can look up and straight ahead at your primary monitor. If you're still squinting, have your peepers checked: It might be time for readers, or contacts if you've online vanity issues 😉. Perhaps a bigger monitor or screen? Set a silent timer to remember to stretch: You're going to be editing parts out anyway, right? Your neck will thank you, trust me!
the devs knew to place the reaper at the shortest point from the life pod just to fuck with people and i think they intentionally code that one specifically to be far more agressive just so that everyone will encounter it where as most other reapers you have to go so much closer to it in order to have an incident.
Yup. Captain Mandibles (my nickname for that one specifically) has eaten legit EVERYONE who played through this game blind. On my first run I DID have the thought to try and enter the Aurora from the front of the ship bc it had blown apart, but I wanted to travel from the back and around the far side of the ship to do a **full circle of it** before entering. I also didn't realize that the roars were from a creature; I thought it was ambiance due to the scale of the crash site. You can guess how that went. 😂
I KNEW that that one had to be on something he always ate my sub without fail. Now I've considered absolutely destroying him with a stasis rifle and gas pods, though now he's a friend.
1:39:38 Butch getting mortified by a Sea Treader walking in front of an anchor pod is a very innocent kind of hilarious because he doesn't know they're as harmlessly docile as a Reefback at this point, so all he sees is this three-legged monstrosity walking menacingly in the distance.
@@ButchX3i remember watching you when you first started the subnautica series and youve already overcome so much, you went from not wanting to go in the water to killing reapers and exploring
He went from being so afraid of water to conquering a planet filled entirely with it, this was an epic adventure, by far the best subnautica series I have ever seen, and that is saying a lot, keep up the effort and good videos!
You should watch Sethorven’s subnautica series if you haven’t already. It’s kinda the same but his humor is a bit stale. Still loved watching that series though
damn, someone with REAL thalassophobia playing this game? i didn't expect to see that, big respect to you for going through with it. i was just expecting another memey title and some funny spooked guy but this looked like real torture
The early moments where you're just paralyzed with fear resonated with me on an emotional level. This game is just so good at inflicting that fear, and then helping overcome it in such an organic way. Love the editing btw
This is so true. I'm amazed how this game manage to instill fear to us even without the classic horror features like jump scares or ghosts. Its just the pure open-ocean makes you tremble.
I had almost no problem with Subnautica-I was mostly scared of being unable to deal with enemies, but that was it-but I suffer from OCD and the seeing him experience severe anxiety/discomfort but manage to pull through anyway is inspiring. I feel overwhelming anxiety and tension in my everyday life that I wish I feel like I could push through like that. There were so many moments I felt a swell of pride watching him manage to face his fears.
I’ve never seen someone play this game with such an abject fear of the water. Nor have I ever seen such a cinematic fight against the reaper. That was truly one of the most epic fights I’ve ever seen. And to get sick of all the weapons and just fight it with a gun and a knife, is just awesome
My particular fear is fear of Underwater Suspension. If I can’t see anything above, and I can’t see below, I flip out. So I tend to, when playing, actually stay low enough to see the ocean floor, but close enough to a sense of safety (a base, land, or the surfsce)
Yeah i feel that. I went snorkeling once and they dropped us off via boat directly over an area with a ship sunk at the bottom. Made the terrible decision of looking down and almost had a panic attack. Pitch blackness with random metal structures reaching up at me. Never a-fucking-gain. (Apparently sunken ships are not as rare as you think)That plus the coral we went to see was dying. Bleached white mostly with only a few fish. Not worth the trauma.
The fact that you had an eclipse occur right as the sunbeam began it’s landing sequence is absolutely insane - I remember when I experienced my first (and only witnessed) eclipse. Despite having played for a hundred hours already and surpassed my virtual thalassaphopia, the moment I saw that moon pass in front of the sun I dove straight into the water and took a long long nap on my Cyclopes cause I was having none of it - big ups for being braver at 5 hours than I was at 120
What a video. Not only was it a great Mashup of your Subnautica journey but your narration is so good, this captivated me from beginning to end. Wonderful work Butch
i bought subnautica about two years ago on a whim because i have thalassaphobia myself and wanted to try overcoming it through exposure therapy. i wish so badly that i could experience this game for the first time again. i had so much fun, even though i was horrified 90% of the time. the atmosphere, the story, the environment, it's so incredible. 10/10 game, no notes.
I was actually cheering you on when you overcame your fears and battled a goddamn Reaper. Like, I'm not even close to as fearful of the ocean as you are, and I wouldn't dare try to do what you did lol. Congratulations 👏
Hi, I'm from Russia, I don't understand English well, but I can see how much emotion you put into this walkthrough. I'm glad that you finished the walkthrough of this game. I can't convey all the emotions from your walkthrough even in my language, but in general - it's one of the most exciting walkthroughs of games I've watched.
I am really, really proud of how you were able to make it to the end of this game. You were able to keep going further and facing your fears and that was quite an accomplishment. Great video!
and fun fact the Real entrance to the aurora technically does have a Reaper Leviathan, but they are way down there where they cant really detect you unless they swim up very close
This was great 😂 I was scared of the friendly reefback leviathans too! They're just too big!! 40:45 This is such an accurate description of Subnautica hahaha
Just finished watching this and oh my gosh, what an absolute trip. It was really powerful watching someone tackle their fears head-on and succeed! It really goes to show just how much we can accomplish if we put our minds to it. This was phenomenal, thank you!
This was amazing. I clicked on this expecting to skip around and leave, but instead I wound up watching the entire thing without fast forwarding at all. Excellent work. I also have Thalassophobia, and your reactions echoed how this game makes me feel inside like no other
This is one of the best playthroughs I’ve seen on RUclips. The narrating and the highs and lows really made this video so good. I am excited to see more content. 👏👍
Truly a worthy video of being called a movie. Three and a half hours of engaging content, filled with laughs, horrors, and true, unfiltered, character development. I’m sorry the game caused you so much parasympathetic trauma, but seeing how you evolved over the video and watching in real(-ish) time as you conquered your tangible fear was a new experience that I feel blessed to have been able to journey on with you. I can’t wait to see future journeys as well.
I finally finished this whole movie and im buying subnautica right now. Lol (edit: damn, this made me cry multiple times during the 3 hours. The base monologue about home and everything. i love how you see the world and stuff. thank u for the 3 hours that were extreme.)
@@ButchX3 Im excited for below zero movie if you make one man. I love ur passion and absolutely everything. Below zero is a more boring one i would say but the story is kind of more complicated. So yeah patience is the key.
The part with the Ampeels attacking you while looking for Deep Shrooms felt straight out of a movie. In a good way, though. It felt like it was straight out a movie with a 17 billion dollar budget.
This was an epic journey....not just of a guy playing a great game but of a man fighting crippling fear to finally claim victory in the end. Well done.
I speak Spanish and even so I really liked your subnautica content, you made me remember my moments in subnautica and I identified with you and it made me very nostalgic and happy to see it in your videos.
My first time playing this game scared the crap out of me. Mostly because the anticipation. Now I'm playing again for the 5th time and have almost zero fear. Watching you STRUGGLE with this game really feels awesome. I find myself who is now immune to the horrors rooting for you overcoming your fear and achieving success.
As a newcomer to your content, the genuine pride that welled up 2:30:03 when you unflinchingly left the Prawn Suit to see if you'd survive it - what a journey! Congrats on facing your fears and experiencing this wonder with us!
Butch, looking at the Aurora: "So as the crow flies, it's less distance to the back than to the front, so that's the way I'm going to go." Me, with 200+ hours playing Subnautica: "That's the worst decision you can possibly make, Butch, no!"
My god this was a ride, an absolute roller coaster of emotion, a tale of countless defeat, of insurmountable odds, yet a story of overcoming and success. A treat to be sure.
This game's lore is so well made!! Even when you were 100% terrfied about the Sea Emperor, the moment you see her getting weak you aproach her and start to feel bad. When it happened to me I almost cried.
Finnaly i see someone thats actually scared just like i was when i played it the first time :D Great video, i really like the narrator voiceover and the fact that you did not do cuts that skipped half of the game but we can actually watch you progress, explore and see the emotions.Also, the fact that i can watch a grown man almost brown his underwear is great :D I have been looking for a video like this for a very very long time. SPOILERS: I never realized the energy core thingie is at 69m below the water level :D (nice). The fact that he spends more than a minute trying to get himself to get the lithium and it not even being lithium is quite humorical. The first sea emperor encounter is also quite humorical. In the DeGasi habitat, he gets so close to scanning that water filtration machine but he never does and its just like YOU ARE SO CLOSE PLEASE (oh i didnt know its mentioned by the director) OH MY GOD WHY ARE YOU GOING TO THE BACK WHY ARE YOU GOING IN NIGHT TIME OH MY GOD IAM SCARED SO MUCH I DONT WANNA WATCH THIS OH MY GOD OH GOD honestly imo the best case scenario is that he will just get eaten by a reaper and never go there ever again nice hes going to the nose and its day time OH NO HE IS THERE HE IS THERE RUN RUN RUN WHAT WHAT HAPPEND WHERE ARE YOU GOING NO DONT GO BEHIND THE SHIP OH MY GOD NO WHAT WHERE ARE YOU GOING WHY ARE YOU GOING INTO THE MORE AND MORE DANGEROUS PLACES NO NOOOOOO NOOOOO WHYY IS THERE A REAPER TAIL HOLY SWEET JESUS welp now i understand why its called the worst scare of your life i mean atleast you googled it now good job restarting from the save nice you got it jesus christ that was a ride i dont really think iam gonna update this too much anymore because i want to enjoy it and not pause all the time, but if something really insane happens i will update. yay prawn suit i just wrote like 20 more lines of text and i accidently F5'd. iam not gonna continue this but this is a great video, if anyone read this far i appreciate you, have a great rest of your day.
I really love this video-- this has a great hook at the beginning, you show your fear and how you slowly began to overcome it, and it keeps with my exact thoughts and feelings towards this game! Butch, you just gained a sub from me, mate! Haven't watched this all the way through yet, YT recommended this one to me and I intend to see it through, but I cannot wait for the next video you have planned. :3
I am really impressed with you managing to stick with this game despite your fear. I've seen a few people with thalassophobia try to play this game and just quit it almost immediately.
For those of you playing at the time youre watching, the mech suit when using the grappling arm and the grinding arm, can easily best a leviathan in combat... And the battle is epic. Youll be riding that thing like a bucking bronco across half the ocean while you grind its face off
Holy crap... I wrote this before watching his battle... Just as epic. Mabey even more because he used all three vehicles and every weapon at his disposal to do it.. that's was excellent
Congratulations, you have accomplished something that I thought was no longer possible to experience. After beating the game multiple times in various modes (which, granted, always took a long time), I kept going back and starting again. But an essential component of my favorite video game had died. I knew too much. I knew exactly where to go to find and build things, I knew what the various creatures were, their strengths and weaknesses. But a first play-through of the game is really special, because you know none of it. Fear of the unknown is what makes Subnautica a timeless (and terrifying) experience. But your narrative and reactions to the various parts of the game, even though I knew exactly what would happen at each moment, you helped me to remember a time when I didn’t have all those answers, and I could relive my first play-through by watching you through yours. Thank you for facing and conquering your fears, because it helped me remember the time I had to face and conquer mine.
Came across your series by accident yesterday and have fully binged the entirety of it in less than 48 hours. But wait.... there's more. A MOVIE? I've got my snacks ready and a comfy blanket -- three more delicious hours of the best entertainment I've come across in years. Well done Butch. You deserve all the success you've already received and more. You are a brilliant story teller and I can't wait to see what else you produce in the future. 🤩
incredible! i'm so grateful for all the effort you put into this movie and of course the entire series. i can't even put into words how much i love your videos butch, thank you for making my day!
Dude, this is awesome! I watched a few of your first subnatuca videos and now it is in a movie. You are a very VERY underrated content creator. This definitely deserves a like. :)
To Sir Captain Butch, Elite Professional Subnautica Player. I’m in awe of how you push yourself confronting your fears, and it is an enormous inspiration. A part of entertainment is when the hero overcomes adversity. You face adversity AND your subconscious response to great effect. To see how you have gone from the first opening of the top hatch on lifepod 5 to piloting the Cyclops while visually standing in the ocean, gives me a great feeling of pride on your behalf. I have recently taken inspiration from your adventures into the oceans of 4546B, and challenged myself both with spiders and ladders. It still costs me a lot of laundry, but if you can fight it, then so can I. I mean, it’s not like you have to take up diving, or I have to keep spiders for pets. I just need to control my own response to uncomfortable situations. I actually managed to evict a spider this week, all by myself. It took two cups of coffee to put myself back together, but I did it! I love the format, it’s very insightful to hear your thinking, you narrate at a very comfortable speed, and (being from Norway) I love hearing a proper British dialect. For all my anxieties, I am quite an Anglophile… Your partner in phobiafighting
Incredible video! Your reactions and thoughts perfectly described what it really is like to play this game. Your thalassophobia is the most severe I've seen anyone have but that made it all the more amazing to watch you overcome those fears. This video was so thrilling to watch from beginning to end and reminded me why I love this game so much. Looking forward to more great thigs from you!
Damn, mad respect for getting through this, man. Found your channel as I was randomly looking for some Subnautica stuff and now I'm watching on the edge of my seat!
As a dude who loves the ocean and subnautica, even I will admit that fear of the unseen, unknown, and the anticipation that comes with it is probably something they had in mind when making subnautica. Because that game is absolutely stuffed with “WTF?!” moments. But I’ll tell ya one thing… for such a dangerous and often hostile alien world, it’s quite beautiful 🪸
I also have thalassophobia and the first time I got out of that pod and saw nothing but open water all around, I had a panic attack and hid in the pod for about ten minutes trying to work up the nerve to get out into the water. "Give me a minute" yeah bud, I felt that XD
Climbing out into dark water at night for the first time and instantly scrambling back into the pod like NOPE NOPE NOPE, also me lol. Apparently this wasn't meant to be a horror game but I've never been more terrified playing a game in my life.
I couldn’t complete my personal playthrough of subnautica because it was genuinely the most afraid I’ve ever been playing a video game, but I think you’ve inspired me to give it another try all these years later. Your bravery in the face of terror is really something.
"Its a shorter distance to the back then it is the front....... so im going that way first *points at the back of the Aurora*" i literally face palmed so hard i think i have a headache. If you have ever played subnautica you know why that is the dumbest idea EVER TO DO.
I've seen some folks get the heebie-jeebies from thalassophobia, but yours is definitely on the strongest end of the scale. Seriously: great job conquering your fears and building your resilience to finish this game! It won't translate to real life or anything, but you've made a great video out of it, so that counts for something.
I'm so glad i found your channel. The first tiktok i saw of you playing subnautica i thought you were some idiot just faking it but i saw another video on my fyp and decided to give you a chance. And now your one of my favourite youtubers to watch at the moment
you will probably never see this comment but this video is a masterpiece ! thank you for taking your time to share your experience, we really feel your emotion (particularly when you built your first home) subnautica is the kind of game you can only experience 1 in this way ! i am glad you discovered this video game masterpiece
Since i can think i love all the weirdness of the Ocean and in general everything that lives there I have a deep love for Squid. Im obsessed with Life in Water. I live at the Sea BUT. I am also scared of it. I can't swim in deep Waters. Where i live, the is NOTHING that could hurt me other than the Water itself or what. But since i also love the Vastness of Space .. Seeing you tackle that is so intense. Hats of to you. I struggle with different Phobias and am on the spektrum. So i understand these hard emotional reactions and i know our Nervous System really good myself and how our Body reacts to Thoughs. Really well done. I haven't finished Subnautica btw :D
I can't describe how much I love this entire experience of you playing subnautica. At first, I was intrigued by how someone with such a strong fear of the ocean could even play the game. I myself felt scared venturing into some deeper, extensive areas and I doubted if I could finish the game too. And then I saw you being scared even in the safe shallows in the beginning. In parts I thought it was entertaining seeing you being so scared at places I knew for certain was safe, but it reminded me of when I first started the game, the time when I jumped at any sudden sound or movement. Then the video just made me feel so touched and happy, seeing how you continue conquer your fear and eventually actually succeeded in finishing the game. I really don't know how you did it, but you did! The whole vid just reminds me of my first experience of subnautica. I haven't felt like that for a long time since I have already finished the game for four times and know pretty much everything about it. It just brings me back so much good and bad memories of this game. Thank you so much! Props to you for being so brave and overcoming it all. Will definitely watch the whole subnautica playlist by you later on.
soo... did the game lesen your phobia or is it still in the same intensity? you went from a guy who cant even look at the water, to being almost 2000 meters deep
Why does nine out of ten people claim to have a mental health condition when streaming this game... Not even one in a thousand people actually have thalassophobia. Barely over one in a hundred have ANY phobia! ( Edit for clarification; You seem to be a plausible exception, which is good! I mean either that or you're an actor worthy of an Oscar )
Fascinating to see the exposure therapy work in real time. Phobias are irrational, like he said, but you can teach your brain that the things you're afraid of won't hurt you through repeated neutral experiences. Over time, the subconscious mind will recognise that personal safety hasn't been compromised despite the intense emotional reaction, so whatever is causing that reaction must not be that bad. Plus, there's something to be said about how much energy is required for the brain to maintain intense emotions for long periods of time, so without major changes to stimulate the fear, you'll gradually become desensitised. And exhausted.
the best two months have passed from the beginning of the series to the end, i'm so glad that i could follow the series, butch keep it up and don't give up on your dream, i'm very excited to see below zero
2:18:00 bruh I don't think you understand how cringe this was, you gotta stop laying embellished drama on to your scripts so thick. It doesn't make them more interesting or entertaining, just makes them goofy, but the bad kind of goofy because there's no hint of irony or joking in how you present it. No, you fiddling around with a reaper for 2+ hours is not the stuff of legends, chill out with the epic monologue spiel you're trying a bit too desperately to go for.
Sounds like you’re pretty annoyed at this. I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you to watch those monologues. Maybe go watch a Roblox video to chill out? Perhaps some Fortnite? Thoughts and prayers at this difficult time 🙏
@@ButchX3 Yup, as I suspected. Quite fragile when exposed to the slightest bit of criticism. You sound insufferable in your videos trying to present themselves as profound and engaging and insufferable in your comments when someone says as much. Better fix that attitude and learn to take it on the nose when people call you out for being obnoxious or you'll never manage being a youtuber full time my dudeski. Better yet, try your hand at tiktok shorts instead of youtube. You know, something that requires staggeringly less talent and self-awareness to get views? That seems more your speed :)
@@ButchX3I know I'm four months late to the party, and I usually don't bother with replying to old comments, but I'll make an exception this time. Just in case you see this, Butch, just know that your Subnautica series is *literally* the best one I have seen here on RUclips, even better than Jack's, and I'm not just saying this to make you feel better - I geniunely mean it. Jack's is still the second best, but something about how geniune and open you were about your feelings during this series was wonderful to watch. Combine this with top-tier editing, enjoyable, creative narration, some thoughtful philosophical monologue (and, admittedly, some "sadistically" hilarious reactions to the ocean XD), and you get a masterpiece that's without any doubt worth *every single subscriber* and like you've gotten because of it. I'm glad you replied to mr spamification's insult with sarcasm, implying that you couldn't care less, but it still felt important for me to say this. I have a phobia as well: cynophobia, the phobia of dogs. Due to a ton of exposure therpay and some other stuff I've mostly managed to overcome it by now, but it will never *truly* go away. When I was little, my reaction to even *seeing* a dog - no matter how small or how far away it was - was about the same as your reaction to being attacked by a Reaper for the first time, so I *geniunely* understood how you felt during your playthrough. And I have to say: it takes *MUCH* more courage than you think to express such feelings on the internet as openly as you did, where ignorant bullies like mr spamification are free to project their own hatred and frustrations onto you. Again, it's reassuring that you don't seem to care, but I know from personal experience how easily (and how discreetly) social pressure / bullying can hurt. It never hurts much in the moment: the bad words are simply stashed into your brain where they linger, seemingly harmless, slowly accumulating over time with each insult. And when something happens that destabilizes your psyche, *that's* when you remember every insult, critique and personal attack (like mr spamification's example here) you've ever heard, and they instantly start to outweigh all the positives. *This* is why I felt the need to say this. To give you something positive to focus on when the weight of all the critizism starts to feel too much to bear. In those moments, it's important to try to remember that for every comment like mr spamification's here, there are *at least* two (and almost certainly much, *much* more) encouraging, positive comments, left by people who geniunely enjoy watching your videos, enjoy listening to what you have to say and *geniunely* care about your wellbeing and happines. There's a REASON *you* have *tens of thousands* of subscribers, not mr spamification and all the rest like them. Always remember that, Captain Butch. :)
Really love the narrator voiceover :) Great video!
Yeah I’m not even gonna try and keep my cool. I absolutely squealed when I saw you commented. This is legit better than the day I graduated from Uni or proposed to my fiancé 🥲 Thankyou for the comment brother 💙
And people say Endgame is the greatest crossover...😅
OH F IT'S YOU! It surprises me that your comment didn't got so much attention. It's a pleasure to message you!
@@ButchX3its not even an sceary game some is sceary (ghost lavation)
I say nothing now i now what talasfhobia is
Common misconception: We enjoy watching you be afraid, but we also enjoy watching you overcome that fear much more :)
Noo, I came here just for the fear and pain.
(a joke)
@@dragon1011dk im mean hes kinda a baby at the start.
Is playing the game fr gonna help w it? I can't even play it cuz I'm too damn scared to swim to find Sulphur cuz sum made a noise when I was looking last time and I can't even repair my shi cuz of it
@@ChachaSteak-Familiarity brings comfort.
@@ChachaSteak- i have thallosophobia to the max to the point i’m still extremely scared to go anywhere near the sea monsters, but at the end of the day ik if i give up i’m a pussy so i just keep pushing through
I feel like Butch’s playthrough is exactly if the survivor of the Aurora crash feared open water.
Look at that Mohawk - he knew he'd be swimming at some point.
I'm a cave diver and always had trouble imagining what thalassophobia feels like. You managed to make me understand.
Same here! It’s quite surreal finally having some sort of understanding of how people with thalassophobia feel
I dont have a fear of the ocean but after playing subnautica I just get confused as to why people fear the ocean. My playthrough is easily summarised as me categorising what's a cutie and what's an asshole. The most I got scared was when I underestimated the proximity of a reaper for me to turn my head and get a lil spook when he was in smooching distance. Being an Aussie raised on a beach probably helps with the whole thalassophobia thing.
@@TackyKnackyI play the game cause I’m obsessed with aquatic life I scan everything and I scanned all the creatures just to learn how they work and learn about their ecosystems even whist having thatassophobia
When I learned one thing about cave diving, then it is to never ever go cave diving XD
looking down and seeing a dark abyss below you, not knowing what could be down there...........
famous last words “it’s a shorter distance to the back of the aurora than the front so that’s the direction i’ll go”
Famous last words "the last time I went this deep I had your mom over for dinner"
Y’all better have paid the entrance fee of 1 like AND told your mum about it…… Good, here’s your ticket 🎟️
60 people waiting… Ik it’s 3 minutes until premier but damn Butch I think u can now say u made it 🤣
It has been a great series! Though if we put every single tear together, Butch would probably be scared of it and call it an ocean
My mum loves ur vids
butch can I be yours? are you single?
Hey, Butch? I'm really concerned about your neck, speaking as someone who is 50+, spends all day in front of computers, and suffered horrible neck pain from bulging discs and bone spurs until they fused my C6/C7 vertebrae about a decade ago.
I notice you keep bending over your desk, look up "text neck" It puts horrible force strain on it!
Up your ergonomic game: Consider a 2nd or 3rd monitor, with an adjustable mount, so you can look up and straight ahead at your primary monitor.
If you're still squinting, have your peepers checked: It might be time for readers, or contacts if you've online vanity issues 😉. Perhaps a bigger monitor or screen?
Set a silent timer to remember to stretch: You're going to be editing parts out anyway, right?
Your neck will thank you, trust me!
the devs knew to place the reaper at the shortest point from the life pod just to fuck with people and i think they intentionally code that one specifically to be far more agressive just so that everyone will encounter it where as most other reapers you have to go so much closer to it in order to have an incident.
Yup. Captain Mandibles (my nickname for that one specifically) has eaten legit EVERYONE who played through this game blind.
On my first run I DID have the thought to try and enter the Aurora from the front of the ship bc it had blown apart, but I wanted to travel from the back and around the far side of the ship to do a **full circle of it** before entering. I also didn't realize that the roars were from a creature; I thought it was ambiance due to the scale of the crash site.
You can guess how that went. 😂
I KNEW that that one had to be on something he always ate my sub without fail. Now I've considered absolutely destroying him with a stasis rifle and gas pods, though now he's a friend.
Sammy just wants to hug you...... With his teeth.
How the fook is he a friend o_O@@Streetcleanergaming
Surprised I haven’t encountered one and completed the game.
1:39:38 Butch getting mortified by a Sea Treader walking in front of an anchor pod is a very innocent kind of hilarious because he doesn't know they're as harmlessly docile as a Reefback at this point, so all he sees is this three-legged monstrosity walking menacingly in the distance.
"Home is where you shit with the most comfort" 33:46 Immediate subscription lol
Your narration seems like it's like an actual movie, so glad I found you
Im glad youre here Nunny 💙
@@ButchX3i remember watching you when you first started the subnautica series and youve already overcome so much, you went from not wanting to go in the water to killing reapers and exploring
@@ButchX3you’re lucky you didn’t see the void 😂
I love how the narrator sounds brave and calm, and then it cuts to real time commentary, such a contrast.
The fact that the seamoths basically protected you by pushing you away from the reaper, and sacrificed her own life is just insane
Get down mr.president!
He went from being so afraid of water to conquering a planet filled entirely with it, this was an epic adventure, by far the best subnautica series I have ever seen, and that is saying a lot, keep up the effort and good videos!
Thank you for watching!
This is what i call Character Development Xd
You should watch Sethorven’s subnautica series if you haven’t already. It’s kinda the same but his humor is a bit stale. Still loved watching that series though
damn, someone with REAL thalassophobia playing this game? i didn't expect to see that, big respect to you for going through with it. i was just expecting another memey title and some funny spooked guy but this looked like real torture
Thank you for checking it out mate! Super glad you enjoyed it 🙏
The early moments where you're just paralyzed with fear resonated with me on an emotional level. This game is just so good at inflicting that fear, and then helping overcome it in such an organic way. Love the editing btw
This is so true. I'm amazed how this game manage to instill fear to us even without the classic horror features like jump scares or ghosts. Its just the pure open-ocean makes you tremble.
@@mistchivamistoso4656you just perfectly described terror
I had almost no problem with Subnautica-I was mostly scared of being unable to deal with enemies, but that was it-but I suffer from OCD and the seeing him experience severe anxiety/discomfort but manage to pull through anyway is inspiring. I feel overwhelming anxiety and tension in my everyday life that I wish I feel like I could push through like that. There were so many moments I felt a swell of pride watching him manage to face his fears.
Popcorn 🍿 1 like per bag
I’ll take some popcorn please
May i please have some?
daddy lorax wishes for some popcorn
@@Daddy_Lorax_42069 wtf
I made my own sorry 😅
I’ve never seen someone play this game with such an abject fear of the water. Nor have I ever seen such a cinematic fight against the reaper. That was truly one of the most epic fights I’ve ever seen. And to get sick of all the weapons and just fight it with a gun and a knife, is just awesome
My particular fear is fear of Underwater Suspension. If I can’t see anything above, and I can’t see below, I flip out. So I tend to, when playing, actually stay low enough to see the ocean floor, but close enough to a sense of safety (a base, land, or the surfsce)
Yeah i feel that. I went snorkeling once and they dropped us off via boat directly over an area with a ship sunk at the bottom. Made the terrible decision of looking down and almost had a panic attack. Pitch blackness with random metal structures reaching up at me. Never a-fucking-gain. (Apparently sunken ships are not as rare as you think)That plus the coral we went to see was dying. Bleached white mostly with only a few fish. Not worth the trauma.
SAMEEEEE the ground makes me feel so safe
@@vannyblutea Full, agree. Unless the caves are pitch black. Then it’s the same as being in open water for me
@@NoLifeButMyOwn Well, hello nightmare fuel!
@@NoLifeButMyOwnJesus, just imagining that is absolutely horrifying
The fact that you had an eclipse occur right as the sunbeam began it’s landing sequence is absolutely insane - I remember when I experienced my first (and only witnessed) eclipse. Despite having played for a hundred hours already and surpassed my virtual thalassaphopia, the moment I saw that moon pass in front of the sun I dove straight into the water and took a long long nap on my Cyclopes cause I was having none of it - big ups for being braver at 5 hours than I was at 120
the eclipse is once every day actually. Maybe you have mistaken them for nighttime?
What a video. Not only was it a great Mashup of your Subnautica journey but your narration is so good, this captivated me from beginning to end. Wonderful work Butch
I really do appreciate the kind words Pimpin! Thanks for watching 🙌
It doesn’t matter how many times I’ve played Subnautica, the Warper Radio Message still gives me goosebumps every time I hear it!!
i bought subnautica about two years ago on a whim because i have thalassaphobia myself and wanted to try overcoming it through exposure therapy. i wish so badly that i could experience this game for the first time again. i had so much fun, even though i was horrified 90% of the time. the atmosphere, the story, the environment, it's so incredible. 10/10 game, no notes.
I was actually cheering you on when you overcame your fears and battled a goddamn Reaper.
Like, I'm not even close to as fearful of the ocean as you are, and I wouldn't dare try to do what you did lol. Congratulations 👏
Thanks for checking out the video! 🙏
Bro was fighting demons.
We don't need a Subnautica live action, Butch is the crash survivor
Hi, I'm from Russia, I don't understand English well, but I can see how much emotion you put into this walkthrough. I'm glad that you finished the walkthrough of this game. I can't convey all the emotions from your walkthrough even in my language, but in general - it's one of the most exciting walkthroughs of games I've watched.
Thank you so much for watching! I really appreciate. I’m glad you enjoyed the video 💙
I am really, really proud of how you were able to make it to the end of this game. You were able to keep going further and facing your fears and that was quite an accomplishment. Great video!
I absolutely loved the series im just dissapointed you didnt go into the ecological dead zone
Ill make it up to you some day....
@@ButchX3trust me you don't want to. Its literally a never-ending void of darkness and water
@@Maddjocksand the ghosts
@@djimperium149 I wanted to keep that a secret so he would more scared when he sees one
I'm suprised he didn't landed there by accident, I think we all did at some point 😂
You deserve at least 250 000 subscribers with those editing skills man
It’s insane! This playthrough and movie are some of the highest quality videos I’ve ever seen for a playthrough.
Watching this late at night is dangerous, butchs voice is so soothing I fell asleep
Hold up brb just making an asmr story telling video
Haha I just did the same!
also i know im late on this. but a fun fact about the reaper's, if you hear them roar that means they see you. :D
and fun fact the Real entrance to the aurora technically does have a Reaper Leviathan, but they are way down there where they cant really detect you unless they swim up very close
This was great 😂 I was scared of the friendly reefback leviathans too! They're just too big!!
40:45 This is such an accurate description of Subnautica hahaha
hippity hoppity, BRO HOW TF ARE YOU SO CALM DURING THE PLAYTHROUGH? IT TOOK ME A WEEK TO LEAVE THE SHALLOWS!
I'm excited for your Below Zero playthrough, your content is phenomenal
I really appreciate the support!
below zero eh. could spend your time with better games.
@@warduxedon't be like that
@@warduxe Below zero was great, honestly imo better than the first. Whats bad about it?
@@mclaneolsen7875 everything really except for the optimizations and base building.
Just finished watching this and oh my gosh, what an absolute trip. It was really powerful watching someone tackle their fears head-on and succeed! It really goes to show just how much we can accomplish if we put our minds to it. This was phenomenal, thank you!
Thank you for watching!
I love watching him go through all five stages of grief everytime he sees a new creature (especially 2:48:22) XD
The feeling is like a stomach drop, mixed with adrenaline and the flight mindset, but when sitting down playing a video game, you can’t have that.
This was amazing. I clicked on this expecting to skip around and leave, but instead I wound up watching the entire thing without fast forwarding at all. Excellent work. I also have Thalassophobia, and your reactions echoed how this game makes me feel inside like no other
Thank you so much for watching the whole thing! I really appreciate it 🙏
This is one of the best playthroughs I’ve seen on RUclips. The narrating and the highs and lows really made this video so good. I am excited to see more content. 👏👍
Truly a worthy video of being called a movie. Three and a half hours of engaging content, filled with laughs, horrors, and true, unfiltered, character development.
I’m sorry the game caused you so much parasympathetic trauma, but seeing how you evolved over the video and watching in real(-ish) time as you conquered your tangible fear was a new experience that I feel blessed to have been able to journey on with you. I can’t wait to see future journeys as well.
I finally finished this whole movie and im buying subnautica right now. Lol (edit: damn, this made me cry multiple times during the 3 hours. The base monologue about home and everything. i love how you see the world and stuff. thank u for the 3 hours that were extreme.)
Dont forget to use code BUCTHX3 at check out for 0% off 🙂For real thought, thank you so much for watching!
@@ButchX3 Im excited for below zero movie if you make one man. I love ur passion and absolutely everything. Below zero is a more boring one i would say but the story is kind of more complicated. So yeah patience is the key.
@@ButchX3 Stop begging?
The part with the Ampeels attacking you while looking for Deep Shrooms felt straight out of a movie. In a good way, though. It felt like it was straight out a movie with a 17 billion dollar budget.
Damn I wish I was being given 17 billion to make these 😍 I appreciate the support mate 🙌
41:45 no you haven’t already done that you stopped at like 98%😂
thought this video was funny af until i realised this is like me playing a game filled with spiders
I think spiders are worse, honestly the way he reacts he doesn't seem to have a strong phobia
This was an epic journey....not just of a guy playing a great game but of a man fighting crippling fear to finally claim victory in the end.
Well done.
I speak Spanish and even so I really liked your subnautica content, you made me remember my moments in subnautica and I identified with you and it made me very nostalgic and happy to see it in your videos.
glad im not the only one who experienced subnautica like this
My first time playing this game scared the crap out of me. Mostly because the anticipation. Now I'm playing again for the 5th time and have almost zero fear.
Watching you STRUGGLE with this game really feels awesome. I find myself who is now immune to the horrors rooting for you overcoming your fear and achieving success.
As a newcomer to your content, the genuine pride that welled up 2:30:03 when you unflinchingly left the Prawn Suit to see if you'd survive it - what a journey! Congrats on facing your fears and experiencing this wonder with us!
watching this video with such a excitement though i watched the whole series 😂❤, your editing is everything!
Your support has been AMAZING through the whole series. I cant thank you enough!
Butch, looking at the Aurora: "So as the crow flies, it's less distance to the back than to the front, so that's the way I'm going to go."
Me, with 200+ hours playing Subnautica: "That's the worst decision you can possibly make, Butch, no!"
Feel like I’m in the cinema, but I’m not. I’m lying in my bed smiling thinking about watching this 42 hours in advance
My god this was a ride, an absolute roller coaster of emotion, a tale of countless defeat, of insurmountable odds, yet a story of overcoming and success.
A treat to be sure.
33:34 This whole monologue here was surprisingly wholesome. Thank you for that. It makes me feel a little bit more hopeful now.
This game's lore is so well made!! Even when you were 100% terrfied about the Sea Emperor, the moment you see her getting weak you aproach her and start to feel bad. When it happened to me I almost cried.
Him saying "this is a story" in that tone gave me flashbacks, if you know you know 😅
39:00 Scans water filtration to 99% but stops because of paper. :)
41:44 Starts scanning it again but stops himself because he thought he already did it LOL
@@RockStump I know right?
it was awesome seeing the birth of Phillippa once again, our trusty ally
great job butch, you're a pro
appreciate you mate 💙
I don’t know why but knowing someone else with thalassophobia made it so much funnier for me and all the time you were panicking I was with you😂
Finnaly i see someone thats actually scared just like i was when i played it the first time :D Great video, i really like the narrator voiceover and the fact that you did not do cuts that skipped half of the game but we can actually watch you progress, explore and see the emotions.Also, the fact that i can watch a grown man almost brown his underwear is great :D
I have been looking for a video like this for a very very long time.
SPOILERS:
I never realized the energy core thingie is at 69m below the water level :D (nice).
The fact that he spends more than a minute trying to get himself to get the lithium and it not even being lithium is quite humorical.
The first sea emperor encounter is also quite humorical.
In the DeGasi habitat, he gets so close to scanning that water filtration machine but he never does and its just like YOU ARE SO CLOSE PLEASE (oh i didnt know its mentioned by the director)
OH MY GOD WHY ARE YOU GOING TO THE BACK WHY ARE YOU GOING IN NIGHT TIME OH MY GOD IAM SCARED SO MUCH I DONT WANNA WATCH THIS OH MY GOD OH GOD
honestly imo the best case scenario is that he will just get eaten by a reaper and never go there ever again
nice hes going to the nose and its day time
OH NO HE IS THERE HE IS THERE RUN RUN RUN
WHAT WHAT HAPPEND
WHERE ARE YOU GOING NO DONT GO BEHIND THE SHIP OH MY GOD NO WHAT
WHERE ARE YOU GOING WHY ARE YOU GOING INTO THE MORE AND MORE DANGEROUS PLACES
NO NOOOOOO NOOOOO WHYY IS THERE A REAPER TAIL
HOLY SWEET JESUS
welp now i understand why its called the worst scare of your life
i mean atleast you googled it now
good job restarting from the save
nice you got it jesus christ that was a ride
i dont really think iam gonna update this too much anymore because i want to enjoy it and not pause all the time, but if something really insane happens i will update.
yay prawn suit
i just wrote like 20 more lines of text and i accidently F5'd. iam not gonna continue this but this is a great video, if anyone read this far i appreciate you, have a great rest of your day.
I really love this video-- this has a great hook at the beginning, you show your fear and how you slowly began to overcome it, and it keeps with my exact thoughts and feelings towards this game! Butch, you just gained a sub from me, mate! Haven't watched this all the way through yet, YT recommended this one to me and I intend to see it through, but I cannot wait for the next video you have planned. :3
Really do appreciate the kind words and support Luke!!
The fight with the reaper leviathan was epic
I am really impressed with you managing to stick with this game despite your fear. I've seen a few people with thalassophobia try to play this game and just quit it almost immediately.
For those of you playing at the time youre watching, the mech suit when using the grappling arm and the grinding arm, can easily best a leviathan in combat... And the battle is epic. Youll be riding that thing like a bucking bronco across half the ocean while you grind its face off
Holy crap... I wrote this before watching his battle... Just as epic. Mabey even more because he used all three vehicles and every weapon at his disposal to do it.. that's was excellent
17:00 o'clock is best timing for me. Ill be there, captain. ☝️
Congratulations, you have accomplished something that I thought was no longer possible to experience. After beating the game multiple times in various modes (which, granted, always took a long time), I kept going back and starting again. But an essential component of my favorite video game had died. I knew too much. I knew exactly where to go to find and build things, I knew what the various creatures were, their strengths and weaknesses. But a first play-through of the game is really special, because you know none of it. Fear of the unknown is what makes Subnautica a timeless (and terrifying) experience. But your narrative and reactions to the various parts of the game, even though I knew exactly what would happen at each moment, you helped me to remember a time when I didn’t have all those answers, and I could relive my first play-through by watching you through yours. Thank you for facing and conquering your fears, because it helped me remember the time I had to face and conquer mine.
Came across your series by accident yesterday and have fully binged the entirety of it in less than 48 hours. But wait.... there's more. A MOVIE? I've got my snacks ready and a comfy blanket -- three more delicious hours of the best entertainment I've come across in years.
Well done Butch. You deserve all the success you've already received and more. You are a brilliant story teller and I can't wait to see what else you produce in the future. 🤩
"I'm glad I will be part of this beautiful world once I'm gone. Until then, there's always the view."
That freaking line, man.
incredible! i'm so grateful for all the effort you put into this movie and of course the entire series. i can't even put into words how much i love your videos butch, thank you for making my day!
Dude, this is awesome!
I watched a few of your first subnatuca videos and now it is in a movie. You are a very VERY underrated content creator. This definitely deserves a like. :)
i'm only 10 minutes in at time of posting this, but damn, you're really pushing through some deep fears here. proud of you man for making it through
Having watched the entire playthrough I still enjoyed this. Man, that Reaper battle was epic!
Thank you so much butch for uploading this when I am on an 8 hour car ride with nothing to do😊
To Sir Captain Butch, Elite Professional Subnautica Player.
I’m in awe of how you push yourself confronting your fears, and it is an enormous inspiration. A part of entertainment is when the hero overcomes adversity. You face adversity AND your subconscious response to great effect. To see how you have gone from the first opening of the top hatch on lifepod 5 to piloting the Cyclops while visually standing in the ocean, gives me a great feeling of pride on your behalf.
I have recently taken inspiration from your adventures into the oceans of 4546B, and challenged myself both with spiders and ladders. It still costs me a lot of laundry, but if you can fight it, then so can I. I mean, it’s not like you have to take up diving, or I have to keep spiders for pets. I just need to control my own response to uncomfortable situations. I actually managed to evict a spider this week, all by myself. It took two cups of coffee to put myself back together, but I did it!
I love the format, it’s very insightful to hear your thinking, you narrate at a very comfortable speed, and (being from Norway) I love hearing a proper British dialect. For all my anxieties, I am quite an Anglophile…
Your partner in phobiafighting
"Your Mum" lmfaoo he really wasnt lying when he said he will try his best to put this game into words
Incredible video! Your reactions and thoughts perfectly described what it really is like to play this game. Your thalassophobia is the most severe I've seen anyone have but that made it all the more amazing to watch you overcome those fears. This video was so thrilling to watch from beginning to end and reminded me why I love this game so much. Looking forward to more great thigs from you!
Damn, mad respect for getting through this, man. Found your channel as I was randomly looking for some Subnautica stuff and now I'm watching on the edge of my seat!
Before I played Subnautica, I never had a fear of the water, I went in exited and came out with Thalassophobia lmfao. I just can't explain it . . .
As a dude who loves the ocean and subnautica, even I will admit that fear of the unseen, unknown, and the anticipation that comes with it is probably something they had in mind when making subnautica. Because that game is absolutely stuffed with “WTF?!” moments. But I’ll tell ya one thing… for such a dangerous and often hostile alien world, it’s quite beautiful 🪸
I've been subscribed since Subnautica episode 2 or 3 and you quickly became my favourite on all of RUclips.
I am really looking forward to this.
Why does this make me emotional 🥲
Bro really takes 3hrs to say "i was scared but that's ok" lmfao collecting that yap tax
I also have thalassophobia and the first time I got out of that pod and saw nothing but open water all around, I had a panic attack and hid in the pod for about ten minutes trying to work up the nerve to get out into the water. "Give me a minute" yeah bud, I felt that XD
Climbing out into dark water at night for the first time and instantly scrambling back into the pod like NOPE NOPE NOPE, also me lol. Apparently this wasn't meant to be a horror game but I've never been more terrified playing a game in my life.
I couldn’t complete my personal playthrough of subnautica because it was genuinely the most afraid I’ve ever been playing a video game, but I think you’ve inspired me to give it another try all these years later. Your bravery in the face of terror is really something.
I’ve been waiting for this ever since you announced the movie can’t wait
"Its a shorter distance to the back then it is the front....... so im going that way first *points at the back of the Aurora*" i literally face palmed so hard i think i have a headache. If you have ever played subnautica you know why that is the dumbest idea EVER TO DO.
1:29:34 I fucking cant with the plant jumpscare 😂😂
I've seen some folks get the heebie-jeebies from thalassophobia, but yours is definitely on the strongest end of the scale. Seriously: great job conquering your fears and building your resilience to finish this game!
It won't translate to real life or anything, but you've made a great video out of it, so that counts for something.
This gon be PEAK BUTCY MY BOY
Cant wait, its gonna be fire🔥🔥🔥
Bro accidentally went through exposure therapy for thallasaphobia
I'm so glad i found your channel. The first tiktok i saw of you playing subnautica i thought you were some idiot just faking it but i saw another video on my fyp and decided to give you a chance. And now your one of my favourite youtubers to watch at the moment
This is gonna be fire 🔥
you will probably never see this comment but this video is a masterpiece ! thank you for taking your time to share your experience, we really feel your emotion (particularly when you built your first home) subnautica is the kind of game you can only experience 1 in this way ! i am glad you discovered this video game masterpiece
Since i can think i love all the weirdness of the Ocean and in general everything that lives there I have a deep love for Squid. Im obsessed with Life in Water. I live at the Sea BUT. I am also scared of it. I can't swim in deep Waters. Where i live, the is NOTHING that could hurt me other than the Water itself or what. But since i also love the Vastness of Space .. Seeing you tackle that is so intense. Hats of to you. I struggle with different Phobias and am on the spektrum. So i understand these hard emotional reactions and i know our Nervous System really good myself and how our Body reacts to Thoughs. Really well done. I haven't finished Subnautica btw :D
I can't describe how much I love this entire experience of you playing subnautica. At first, I was intrigued by how someone with such a strong fear of the ocean could even play the game. I myself felt scared venturing into some deeper, extensive areas and I doubted if I could finish the game too. And then I saw you being scared even in the safe shallows in the beginning. In parts I thought it was entertaining seeing you being so scared at places I knew for certain was safe, but it reminded me of when I first started the game, the time when I jumped at any sudden sound or movement. Then the video just made me feel so touched and happy, seeing how you continue conquer your fear and eventually actually succeeded in finishing the game. I really don't know how you did it, but you did! The whole vid just reminds me of my first experience of subnautica. I haven't felt like that for a long time since I have already finished the game for four times and know pretty much everything about it. It just brings me back so much good and bad memories of this game. Thank you so much! Props to you for being so brave and overcoming it all. Will definitely watch the whole subnautica playlist by you later on.
soo... did the game lesen your phobia or is it still in the same intensity?
you went from a guy who cant even look at the water, to being almost 2000 meters deep
Why does nine out of ten people claim to have a mental health condition when streaming this game... Not even one in a thousand people actually have thalassophobia. Barely over one in a hundred have ANY phobia! ( Edit for clarification; You seem to be a plausible exception, which is good! I mean either that or you're an actor worthy of an Oscar )
Fascinating to see the exposure therapy work in real time. Phobias are irrational, like he said, but you can teach your brain that the things you're afraid of won't hurt you through repeated neutral experiences. Over time, the subconscious mind will recognise that personal safety hasn't been compromised despite the intense emotional reaction, so whatever is causing that reaction must not be that bad. Plus, there's something to be said about how much energy is required for the brain to maintain intense emotions for long periods of time, so without major changes to stimulate the fear, you'll gradually become desensitised. And exhausted.
the best two months have passed from the beginning of the series to the end, i'm so glad that i could follow the series, butch keep it up and don't give up on your dream, i'm very excited to see below zero
2:18:00 bruh I don't think you understand how cringe this was, you gotta stop laying embellished drama on to your scripts so thick. It doesn't make them more interesting or entertaining, just makes them goofy, but the bad kind of goofy because there's no hint of irony or joking in how you present it. No, you fiddling around with a reaper for 2+ hours is not the stuff of legends, chill out with the epic monologue spiel you're trying a bit too desperately to go for.
Sounds like you’re pretty annoyed at this. I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you to watch those monologues. Maybe go watch a Roblox video to chill out? Perhaps some Fortnite? Thoughts and prayers at this difficult time 🙏
@@ButchX3 Yup, as I suspected. Quite fragile when exposed to the slightest bit of criticism. You sound insufferable in your videos trying to present themselves as profound and engaging and insufferable in your comments when someone says as much. Better fix that attitude and learn to take it on the nose when people call you out for being obnoxious or you'll never manage being a youtuber full time my dudeski.
Better yet, try your hand at tiktok shorts instead of youtube. You know, something that requires staggeringly less talent and self-awareness to get views? That seems more your speed :)
Really? Just enjoy the video. Or maybe just don't watch it if you hate it.
@@ButchX3I know I'm four months late to the party, and I usually don't bother with replying to old comments, but I'll make an exception this time. Just in case you see this, Butch, just know that your Subnautica series is *literally* the best one I have seen here on RUclips, even better than Jack's, and I'm not just saying this to make you feel better - I geniunely mean it. Jack's is still the second best, but something about how geniune and open you were about your feelings during this series was wonderful to watch. Combine this with top-tier editing, enjoyable, creative narration, some thoughtful philosophical monologue (and, admittedly, some "sadistically" hilarious reactions to the ocean XD), and you get a masterpiece that's without any doubt worth *every single subscriber* and like you've gotten because of it. I'm glad you replied to mr spamification's insult with sarcasm, implying that you couldn't care less, but it still felt important for me to say this. I have a phobia as well: cynophobia, the phobia of dogs. Due to a ton of exposure therpay and some other stuff I've mostly managed to overcome it by now, but it will never *truly* go away. When I was little, my reaction to even *seeing* a dog - no matter how small or how far away it was - was about the same as your reaction to being attacked by a Reaper for the first time, so I *geniunely* understood how you felt during your playthrough. And I have to say: it takes *MUCH* more courage than you think to express such feelings on the internet as openly as you did, where ignorant bullies like mr spamification are free to project their own hatred and frustrations onto you. Again, it's reassuring that you don't seem to care, but I know from personal experience how easily (and how discreetly) social pressure / bullying can hurt. It never hurts much in the moment: the bad words are simply stashed into your brain where they linger, seemingly harmless, slowly accumulating over time with each insult. And when something happens that destabilizes your psyche, *that's* when you remember every insult, critique and personal attack (like mr spamification's example here) you've ever heard, and they instantly start to outweigh all the positives. *This* is why I felt the need to say this. To give you something positive to focus on when the weight of all the critizism starts to feel too much to bear. In those moments, it's important to try to remember that for every comment like mr spamification's here, there are *at least* two (and almost certainly much, *much* more) encouraging, positive comments, left by people who geniunely enjoy watching your videos, enjoy listening to what you have to say and *geniunely* care about your wellbeing and happines. There's a REASON *you* have *tens of thousands* of subscribers, not mr spamification and all the rest like them. Always remember that, Captain Butch. :)
Womp womp