Navigating all of this while being in the public eye must have been a whole new level of painful and difficult, and I’m so so sorry you had to go through that experience. There is absolutely nothing exploitative about talking through your story if it’s helping you heal and move forward❤️ Sending lots of love to all of you❤❤❤
Here's the thing, Micaela. So many babies do not survive and we don't talk about it enough. I never realised how many people had lost a child until I lost one. It is a deeply private thing, but it's not exploitative. It helps people feel less alone - and I hope it helps you, too.
Don't ever feel bad for not uploading, you don't owe us anything! A lot of people (including me) enjoyed your content, but at the end of the day, your life is yours to live. You went through something most of us cannot even try to understand. Take your time to process/deal with everything and only do what you want to do. Wish you nothing but the best! (from a German living in China, and I guess many other people as well!)
Can we all take a moment to remember all of the babies that don’t have the chance to grow up. And also all of the mothers and fathers, sisters, brothers, grandparents, extended family and friends who grieve them. Never forgotten yet never spoken about enough as it is so hard. Wishing you. Your partner and both of your babies all the best. You have been a wonderful mother since the moment you were pregnant sith your first and remember not to push yourself❤
Don't ever feel like you're burdening others with your pain. This is your space, you're allowed to grief in your space. I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you can slowly work through all the pain and resolve them. And that you can feel joy doing what you love.
Please be gentle with yourself. Making this video is so damn hard, you should be so proud of yourself for being so open about something so raw and painful. It is not trauma-dumping, you are being very sensitive to others, and this was done beautifully, so don't worry and try not to overthink. Now you have updated your followers, now you can move forward with your channel. You've done it! So proud of you!
Hello Micaela. You don't know me, but 3 years ago when I was first taking an interest in learning Japanese and going to Japan (especially Fukouka!) I found your channel. Now 3 years later I am an English teacher and fluent in Japanese. You had a profound impact on me, and many others, so thank you for that. To see such tragedy befall you truly breaks my heart and I found myself crying during this video. I don't mean to make this about myself, but I just wanted to express that people care about you, and no one judges you for taking time for yourself and being frank about what happened, there is nothing exploitive about it, it shows respect. Your daughter is safe in God's memory. You are very brave, and I send you nothing but good wishes from here on. どうもありがとうございました ❣
ミカエラがシェアしてくれる事で少しでもやりたいことがもっとやれるようになったり、心が癒されたり進んでいけるなら、ポジティブなことだけじゃなくてもいいし、視聴者のみんなはコメントで心はそばにいるよと伝えられるし愛を送れるからね。 ミカエラとミカエラの周りの人が心穏やかにいられるように祈ってます。 きっと何年経っても悲しい、涙が出ることは変わらないと思うけどそれでも良いし、泣いてもいいし、笑ってもいいからね。LOVEよ❤ I will send all my love to you!
My best friend just gave birth on February 14th and had an extremely difficult labor. She was in active labor for over 72 hours and her baby was minutes away from being stillborn, as she was born not breathing and there was blood clot in the umbilical cord that almost killed the baby. They’ve had a very rough few days, and my friend is still dealing with health issues, but both are alive and healthy and I am BEYOND thankful for that. From my own 3rd person perspective, the experience was terrifying and it could have ended with the baby not making it. With that said, I could never comprehend the amount of grief you’ve endured and you are so brave for sharing this story. I’ve followed your channel for about ten years now and I’m so happy your life is in a good place now ❤
My boyfriend died 17 months ago and I'm just starting to feel better, normal. I have triggers. Music is hard, but easy to shut off, unless I'm in the grocery store. You're lucky, you have something to occupy yourself. I'm bored out of my mind. My income got cut in half and I have no friends or family to do things with. Hard not to feel bad in general. I wish you the best of luck. Congratulations on your bundle of joy. Honor your first every year, but never let it get in the way of loving everyone else.
Never feel guilty for sharing the struggles you have been through. I hate the term trauma dump, you don’t owe anyone anything and should never have to apologize for going through hard times. My cousin had a stillborn and it devastated her mentally. She was never the same. Everyone handles loss differently, it is what makes us human. It is easy to overthink things, it is easy to shame ourselves, never feel guilty for having feelings.
it's not exploitative and its not trauma dumping, if anything it's important to be shared as i know a lot of women who go through this often feel alone. we can be bombarded with so many positive pregnancy stories/birth stories/vlogs online. like its obviously exiting to share these things but just like with everything else on social media where often only highlights are shown i think its more than ok to have a little push back and share things online that arent neccesarily positive like loss and sadness and all those things cause that real and thats life. i personally havent gone through this specifically but i'm sure there are mothers that watch this and are so grateful that you opened up because it means they're not alone and can relate. its so important! so thank you for sharing and you're very brave xx
Never once did your story seem exploitative… We don’t talk about grief enough. When you share your story, you’re also keeping her memory alive. We love you, and both of your girls have the best mother ♥️
I’ve followed you for years. Your videos excited me about visiting Fukuoka and Kyushu. Your Instagram has bought tears to my eyes - both sad and happy. The one thing I know without ever having met you is that you would never exploit your situation. I can’t pretend to know what you’ve been through but I often send warm thoughts your way. I look forward to what you create in your own time. ❤
And I hope that you, like me, have had a chance to explore the city and region for yourself. I've fallen in love with it and am glad that I can soon return to this lovely place that I got to know through Micaela's videos.
I am so sorry for your loss. Last year my brother and sister-in-law lost their newborn baby boy three weeks before his due date which was set for December 25th. We were all devastated by this. Lots of crying, hugs and giving my brother and sister-in-law the space and respect they needed. Prayers to you and your family.
I'm so sorry your 1st little girl died. I lost a baby last year and so I feel for you deeply and can appreciate just how difficult it was to make this video. I'm so glad you were blessed with a 2nd child too. In my experience, even though it never erases the loss of your older baby, it is like a balm for a painful wound and helps to heal. I cuddled my 3 month old watching your video and trying not to cry along with you while you told your story. Thank you for telling it - it reminds me of my loss but also to cherish my own girls even when the baby wakes up 5x in the night.
This is heartbreaking. I've been following you for ~8 years. I'm glad you shared this with us and can feel like it's an important step in moving forward. (I finally moved to Japan just last week after following you for so long, so thank you for all that you've done since you've started posting)
I've always admired how you both handled this, especially with all the complexities of doing so in public. I'm almost twice your age, but will never be faced with such grief or loss. The fact you two have done so publicly, despite how difficult that must have been, will help others facing their own challenges.
Oh my gosh, I was just thinking about you the other day and hoping all was going well. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you owe no one an explanation. You went through something most people try to forget, and yet here you are doing your best to move forward. Making this video was a huge hurtle for you, and I, like probably a lot of viewers, are proud of you for taking this leap. You did something I don't think I could ever do. I'm so happy for you and your progress, and I hope this brings you some comfort. Please continue doing what you do best. Being an awesome mother and making great RUclips content! Love you lots! ❤️
Please don’t have any negative feelings about this. You handled this sad situation with grace and I am in awe of your resilience. Please know that we are rooting for you to heal and are looking forward to your content in the future. You NEVER have to feel ashamed about taking a break when you need it. Sending love to you and your family, especially your sweet angel in heaven ❤
Oh Micaela, that’s so much. There are no words adequate to respond to the loss you have endured. I’m so very sorry. Sending you love and wishing you comfort and peace.
Every so often I like to check and see if you’ve posted anything new. Today I did and my heart goes out to you, Micaela. I can’t imaging how hard that must have been. You’re so incredibly strong just to get through that experience. I’m really glad your second daughter is doing well. I’m sure you are a fantastic Mother! I started watching your videos with my daughter when she was about three I think. That’d be 12 years or so now. I just had my second daughter last month and I’ll make sure to show her all your videos someday too. Life can be really difficult, just don’t forget you’ve touched a lot of people’s lives on here and we love you for it! I still haven’t made it to Japan. Because, life, but when I finally do I’ve got a list of things to see and do thanks to you!
I follow you on Twitter and Instagram and saw your story about your 1st daughter and I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't owe us an explanation. Its difficult to share a personal moment such as this. We all deal with grief differently. And some people need to grieve privately until they are ready. And it will always be ok to cry. It's nice to see that your family is doing well. Your second daughter's so adorable! I hope to see more videos from you if and when you feel you're ready to come back. I miss your channel.
I've been following your journey on social media, and it's so incredibly heartbreaking. But at the same time, it's so great that your second child is healthy, and also that you were able to make this video, and slowly work on coming to terms with the grief. I hope you can get to do the work you want to do again, and I think I speak for many viewers when I say we'll always support you and your channel however we can. Well wishes to your family, and always remember to take care of yourself. ❤
I can't truly understand the grief you and your partner had to endure, but I just know that celebrating, discussing, grieving, and meditating on the life that was lost will move you both forward on your journey. Thank you for sharing, I am sure there are so many that feel less alone because of you. And I am SO looking forward to your past and future videos. Keep shining bright, you've got this ❤️
Micaela, we don't want you to ever feel any pressure as if you owe us an explanation or a life update. Truly you owe us absolutely nothing. We are simply here to watch the life you share - in however depth and detail you desire to share with us. And we wish you nothing but the best. Much love and comfort. May God be close to you, heal your heart, and bless you with His perfect peace.
Just seeing this now but I've followed your journey on Instagram. I had just had my second child when you were finding out about your first daughter's health issues and I was so heartbroken for you. I was hormonal, holding my baby and basically sobbing every update because it felt so real for me just having gone through pregnancy and birth again. I held my breath for your second pregnancy and I was overjoyed when all went well. It has been strange being so invested in someone else's experience. Maybe I'm just empathetic af 😅 But your transparency and your realness will help SO many. No one understands the vulnerability of pregnancy and birth until they experience it themselves. Then to have to deal with the trauma of losing your child, I just can't imagine. Thank you for being so real, so raw, and so vulnerable. I wish you nothing but healing and joy.
I’ve been watching your RUclips videos since the start, and I was dead set on moving to Japan. We’re about the same age, both Canadian and I used your videos as inspiration. Studied the language but life happened and met my wife, started a career. We were expecting our first baby and had clothes ready and everything, but my wife had a miscarriage. People told us to get over it, but they don’t know what it’s like. I couldn’t imagine going through what you did. We now have two kids in grade school and I’m planning on studying Japanese again and hopefully visit one day. It’s been years but I still think about our little shooting star 🌠. Wishing you and your family the best ❤
I felt so close to you when you shared your heart. It takes a brave heart to share your inner feelings like this. I’m sorry here about your loss. It’s good that you shared and I hope it helped you to get heal little bit. ❤
You're stronger than me. I was so angry over the pandemic I stopped making content. Your videos were so helpful. Your honesty and genuine love for Japan showed in your videos. I'm sorry for your loss. You keep on demonstrating why I appreciate you.
This is the first video I've ever seen of you and I just can't imagine what you've been going through. Life is such a rollercoaster sometimes. Hope you and your family are doing well.
Hi Micaela, sorry you had to go through this but realize that your current daughter has two souls and your previous daughter lives on in her, which means that she will be twice as strong in life. You don't know me because I usually stay in the background but I almost go back to day 1, Micaela, Kim Dao, Taylor R, Bee, Sharla .. I will always support you guys. Lots of love…
i haven't been on this channel in years. i think last time i saw a video was when she just got her driver's license or something. i also remember her talking about her japanese ex-bf who left for tokyo or something. life sure changes as time goes by..
It sounds incredibly, incredibly difficult what you went, and are continually to go through. Though tough, it sounds like you are processing the events and slowly but surely, able to have hope and enjoy things in life again. Sometimes you will be thrown back into the sadness, but I have no doubt you will be able to come back out of it again. I think you're doing an amazing job of continually to honour your first daughter whilst also honouring yourself and your other immediate family members. You're an inspiration, Micaela. Don't forget to be kind to yourself and take all the time you need. Your audience will always be here even if you decide to take a 10yr break! That's the beauty of the subscribe and notification system!! Sending much love ❤️
I saw this pop up with a trigger warning my heart sank . I cried listening to you share the heartbreak of losing your baby girl . I’m just a random follower but I want you to know you’re not alone and you absolutely weren’t being exploitive . Woman feel isolated in these situations . This reminds us we aren’t the only ones . Wish I could give you a hug . Xo
I personally believe youtubers don't OWE their viewers anything. But I thank you for sharing, which I feel you decide how much you are comfortable with. Then it's for us to choose if we are capable of bearing the weight of that info. We can click off, you are in it. I hope you are or did take the measures necessary for you to be mentally healthy. Lots of love.
So sorry for your loss. That's something I can't even imagine. Not sure I even have the right words for this. Only thing I can say is that we all grieve in our own way. But also congratulations on your second child. Very happy for you in that regard.
sending so much love to you and the whole family Micaela. deeply appreciate you sharing this and everything you have shown of your life and experiences with all its dimensions. a continuous supply of hugs and much love is being sent for whenever you need it from this fan in canada.
My deepest condolences. This is so sad! Beyond words. The ray of light is that you can see your wonderful second daughter grow up every day. You are so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story.
I can’t imagine how hard this must have been for you, but thank you for sharing it. I know many people don’t know what Trisomy 13 is, and many have gone through grief but felt so alone. Your video helps many people know they’re not alone in what they felt and are feeling.
I just came across this video and your channel. Michaela, I just want to say I’m truly sorry for all the pain you have gone through. I’m truly sorry for your loss. Stay strong, and it’s okay to lean and get support from your friends, family and even your subscribers. This is your space, and take the time to heal in the way you feel most comfortable, and cherish moments with your daughter, loved ones, and remember to cherish yourself too.
Micaela, it's not exploitive or trauma dumping or any of that ❤ We all missed your presence on here and we're all here for you during ups, downs, or anything in between! I'm so sorry you had to go through the loss, but it's so good to hear you're doing better. I hope that continues and you are able to heal and not carry so much on your shoulders. ❤❤❤ And I really have to make it a stern point, your pain and experiences are not a burden, you're not a burden, please don't feel like you are. ❤ I'm looking forward to your new videos once you get back in to the motion of things. ☺❤
Been following you for years Micaela You are very brave to share this experience Please take your time to slow down and sending you all the love from my whole family 💘💘
My Dear Sister, I just found this video, I am sorry about your loss and we may never know why these things happens. Our Creator knows best. May God Almighty Guide us to the Straight Path and Forgive all our Sins. ☝🏼
My heart breaks for you. This is the first video of yours that I’ve seen. Please be kind to yourself, I wish I could give you a massive hug. Sending you love and healing.
You have my love, Micaela. You have all of my love. Healing isn't linear and you owe nothing to anyone. I'm so proud of you for pushing past your anxiety and coming back to this space. I'm so glad you're ready to go on adventures again and your life has a perfect little bright spot in it. And she is. She's perfect. ❤️ I just want you to know, I look forward to sharing your joy with you.
I cannot imagine how hard it must have been for you, but I can tell you that I can 100% relate to how you described your feeling of being blocked and having to "wrap it up" in order to move forward. I have experienced the exact same feeling from a different trauma of losing someone and I want to let you know that I am very thankful that you put yourself out there and validate other people's feelings that way. Thank you for helping me to move on, as well! lots of love to you
I understand trying to navigate that fine line between trauma dumping and sharing your story and you’re not trauma dumping. I can’t imagine the pain that you both and your families went through and the loss. What you show now of your family life on Insta is beautiful to me it feels like you continue to honour her memory. I’m glad you’re getting back into travel vlogging because you’ve always had a unique perspective and a respect of every day mundane life and unusual locations that many do not.
Micaela san, Thank you for sharing your painful yet awe-inspiring story - edifying for any careful viewers. What a beautiful mother you are! May healing continue its work in you. I had the honor of meeting you in Aya sometime ago. Peace, Love. Cheers!
I’m so sorry you have to carry this pain; infant lost is much more common that people know and I understand the reasons people don’t want to talk/listen about it… it’s painful and nobody knows what to say or do it’s just an overall horrible thing to go through but sometimes talking it’s the best way to heal… this will always be painful but knowing that you aren’t alone; that there’s people out there that understand your pain and can support you is so comforting. I hope that your heart can heal 🙏🏻
Recently started watching Japanese RUclipsr content and checked out your channel for the first time in a while. So shocked and sorry to hear what happened and hoping you are doing well ❤ you did the right thing talking about it. Many other people experience this but unfortunately there seems to be some sort of aversion in society to acknowledging and talking about it. Someone else will see this and know they’re not alone ❤❤❤
Hello first time watcher here. Found you through recommended. First off,I couldn't even begin to imagine how you must've felt losing a child moments after they were born. You are one strong woman. Secondly, you shouldn't feel like you are being being exploitive. Seeing the replies and how supportive they are, it's clear that you've a build a fanbase and community of shared interest. While most of us can't feel the pain you've felt, maybe by watching this video it can help us move from our problems too. You should be proud posting this video. Sharing yourself at your most vulnerable is not an easy task. Lastly I wish your family all the luck in the world! 🙏
I hope that finally filming this and sharing it will give you a small sense of closure. As a fellow Mam you have all the support and love I can offer. Seeing you start to travel and work again (especially with Eevie) has been so wonderful and I hope this year and the next and all that come will bring you all more happy and fun memories together. You know where I am if you ever need to talk 💕💕
It's very sad to come across a beautiful channel like yours this way but I'm glad I found it. And I'm so sorry this happened to you. Wish you all the joy and please take your time to heal. ❤️
I’m so sorry you and your partner went through this. You don’t owe anyone anything and it’s not exploitive whatsoever to share something that has impacted your lives so deeply. ❤
Oh no I'm so sorry that happened! I started crying with you when you said it but please don't feel bad. Just let us support you and know that your story could help others in ways you might not know. You're right, grief is weird sometimes and it sounds like you also needed to do this for yourself in order to move on. Congratulations on your 2nd daughter and I'm glad your family can be happy again despite working through this horrible situation.
Honestly, I have followed you on all platforms so I’ve known about this for a while.. but maybe sharing a bit more would make you feel better. This isn’t about is. Your page is about you and your happiness. Those who love and support you will be here for all of it. I’m grateful you are opening up and talking about it. I hope you can potentially use this to help you recover more and learn more about yourself in the process. I do think your travel videos are beautiful and inspiring. But I miss a lot of the more personal side of your page. I joined your followers maybe 2015, and I’ve watched all of the older ones. I hope you feel comfortable sharing more someday, if it helps you heal more. 🖤 Sending love and healing vibes.
I’ve been following you maybe 10 years already, you became like a family member time to time I come back and check how are you . I’m so so sorry for your loss. You be kind to yourself please . I’m sending you my deepest condolences.
Glad to see you again on YT, Michaela san! First I thought and am afraid of that this video might be a goodbye message from Canada. Soon I understand why you did not upload videos for a long time. The hardship you experienced in the COVID 19 years is obviously quite difficult and nerve-wracking to go through. The paper says that the probability of your first daughter being able to survive for a year is 10% or less. It's not your fault at all. I just wish you do not blame yourself too much. Glad to know on the other hand that you and your husband are blessed with the second daughter soon from the god. I just wish you and your new family members another peaceful life both mentally and physically in Kyushu again.
How courageous you are to be back again and told about your story. Please be a good mother. I hope you will keep making good videos., which I'm always looking forward to seeing. Please be GENKI!
Fairly recently I wondered "hmm...where are some of these youtubers I enjoyed now?" And I have looked up your instagram. Even if you were not going through such rough time you didn't owe us anything. More than anything, taking your time in taking care of yourself comes first. I can't even beginning to imagine how difficult it has been to deal with as someone who is yet to start a family, but my heart out goes out to you and your partner.
Brave video. You've faced some heartbreaking, unimaginable trauma there. It's good to see you're beginning to heal. Thank you for sharing and all the best ❤️
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Navigating all of this while being in the public eye must have been a whole new level of painful and difficult, and I’m so so sorry you had to go through that experience. There is absolutely nothing exploitative about talking through your story if it’s helping you heal and move forward❤️ Sending lots of love to all of you❤❤❤
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Here's the thing, Micaela. So many babies do not survive and we don't talk about it enough. I never realised how many people had lost a child until I lost one. It is a deeply private thing, but it's not exploitative. It helps people feel less alone - and I hope it helps you, too.
I'm so sorry :( You should talk about it if it helps you.
Don't ever feel bad for not uploading, you don't owe us anything! A lot of people (including me) enjoyed your content, but at the end of the day, your life is yours to live. You went through something most of us cannot even try to understand. Take your time to process/deal with everything and only do what you want to do. Wish you nothing but the best! (from a German living in China, and I guess many other people as well!)
Can we all take a moment to remember all of the babies that don’t have the chance to grow up. And also all of the mothers and fathers, sisters, brothers, grandparents, extended family and friends who grieve them. Never forgotten yet never spoken about enough as it is so hard.
Wishing you. Your partner and both of your babies all the best. You have been a wonderful mother since the moment you were pregnant sith your first and remember not to push yourself❤
It was not exploitative, it was brave and honest ❤
Don't ever feel like you're burdening others with your pain. This is your space, you're allowed to grief in your space. I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you can slowly work through all the pain and resolve them. And that you can feel joy doing what you love.
話すのもとても辛いことだったと思いますが、話してくださってありがとうございます。
Please be gentle with yourself. Making this video is so damn hard, you should be so proud of yourself for being so open about something so raw and painful. It is not trauma-dumping, you are being very sensitive to others, and this was done beautifully, so don't worry and try not to overthink. Now you have updated your followers, now you can move forward with your channel. You've done it! So proud of you!
ミカエラさん。
辛いことがあったんですね。
福岡の柴犬との生活を楽しみによく動画を観ていました。（私も福岡県民）
少しずつ落ち着いてからでいいと思います。
動画ありがとうございました。
おかえりミカエラ！
時々ミカエラを思い出してはチャンネルを覗きに行って、動画が更新されてるからチェックしていたよ
久々の動画でミカエラの姿を見れて嬉しい反面、耐え難い経験をしていたこと、自分のことのように胸が苦しくなりました
でも、ミカエラが第二子と共に今はお家にいること、ミカエラの今が確認できただけで私たち視聴者は充分うれしいです😌
ミカエラが今まで残してくれたたくさんのビデオがあるから私たちは大丈夫よ！
大事な家族と自分を優先に、好きな時にRUclipsに動画を投稿してね
そうか、動画投稿が長い間無かったからどうしちゃったんだろうと思っていたけど、そういうことだったんだね。長女を亡くしてしまったのは本当につらい体験だったと思う。でも次女が無事に健康に生育してみたいで良かった。これからはまた楽しい動画を順調に作れるといいね。
Hello Micaela. You don't know me, but 3 years ago when I was first taking an interest in learning Japanese and going to Japan (especially Fukouka!) I found your channel. Now 3 years later I am an English teacher and fluent in Japanese. You had a profound impact on me, and many others, so thank you for that. To see such tragedy befall you truly breaks my heart and I found myself crying during this video. I don't mean to make this about myself, but I just wanted to express that people care about you, and no one judges you for taking time for yourself and being frank about what happened, there is nothing exploitive about it, it shows respect. Your daughter is safe in God's memory. You are very brave, and I send you nothing but good wishes from here on. どうもありがとうございました ❣
ミカエラさんの人柄に私達は惹かれているよ。酷く悲しいことは起こるし、気持ちも何年経っても変わらず悲しいままですよね。暫くは、仕方なく生きていくしか無いんだよね。ただ言えることは、貴方が悲しい時には私達も悲しいってことだよ。
ミカエラがシェアしてくれる事で少しでもやりたいことがもっとやれるようになったり、心が癒されたり進んでいけるなら、ポジティブなことだけじゃなくてもいいし、視聴者のみんなはコメントで心はそばにいるよと伝えられるし愛を送れるからね。
ミカエラとミカエラの周りの人が心穏やかにいられるように祈ってます。
きっと何年経っても悲しい、涙が出ることは変わらないと思うけどそれでも良いし、泣いてもいいし、笑ってもいいからね。LOVEよ❤
I will send all my love to you!
My best friend just gave birth on February 14th and had an extremely difficult labor. She was in active labor for over 72 hours and her baby was minutes away from being stillborn, as she was born not breathing and there was blood clot in the umbilical cord that almost killed the baby. They’ve had a very rough few days, and my friend is still dealing with health issues, but both are alive and healthy and I am BEYOND thankful for that.
From my own 3rd person perspective, the experience was terrifying and it could have ended with the baby not making it. With that said, I could never comprehend the amount of grief you’ve endured and you are so brave for sharing this story.
I’ve followed your channel for about ten years now and I’m so happy your life is in a good place now ❤
You're a good friend, she's lucky to have you.
自分はこの動画で知りましたが結婚していないですし子供もいないですが心の整理となぜ動画を更新をされてなかったか、良く頑張って喋られましたね。
今後、応援していこうと思いました。
ウチの場合は３番目の子供が生まれてくることが出来なかったので、状況は違いますが家族に与えた影響の大きさ、心理的な衝撃は理解できます。
子供は本当に人生で最高の贈り物で、これ以上ない幸せを与えてくれる存在です。
いつか人生を終えた後に、天に召された赤ちゃんに会った時にたくさん楽しい思い出話をしてあげてください。
その為にも今の家族でたくさん楽しい思い出を作っていってください。
話を聞いていて私も当時のことを思い出し涙が止まりませんでした。
ご冥福を祈ります。
ミカエラさんの動画は自分が大学に入る直前（2012年頃）から見させてもらっています。久しぶりにアップデートの動画があってまた見させてもらいましたが本当にびっくりしました。実は今自分も妻がおり、妊娠9ヶ月目を迎えております。これまで大ごともなく順調にきているのでおそらくこのまま無事出産を迎えるのだろうと当たり前に考えていました。このタイミングでミカエラさんのライフアップデートの動画を見て悲しいご経験を経て今立ち直っているミカエラさんを拝見し、感謝の気持ちでいっぱいです。僕は夫として自分の妻を死ぬ気でサポートしようと改めて決心しました。そして出産は最後まで何が起こるかわからない、そうであるからこそ悲しいことが起きた時のことをしっかり頭に想定して準備をすることも自分の役割だなぁと今では思っています。あと2ヶ月しないぐらいで予定日を迎えますが、最後の最後まで妻の身体と心のサポートを徹底します！ミカエラさん、これからもずっと応援しています！
前回のコメントから4ヶ月が経ちましたが、妻が無事女の子を出産しまして、今は生後11週目となりました。今こうして母子共に健康的に生活できているのは本当に奇跡だなと、毎日実感しながら生きています。こんな風に思えるのもミカエラさんのこの動画に出会えたおかげです。改めて本当にありがとうございます！
My boyfriend died 17 months ago and I'm just starting to feel better, normal. I have triggers. Music is hard, but easy to shut off, unless I'm in the grocery store. You're lucky, you have something to occupy yourself. I'm bored out of my mind. My income got cut in half and I have no friends or family to do things with. Hard not to feel bad in general. I wish you the best of luck. Congratulations on your bundle of joy. Honor your first every year, but never let it get in the way of loving everyone else.
Never feel guilty for sharing the struggles you have been through. I hate the term trauma dump, you don’t owe anyone anything and should never have to apologize for going through hard times. My cousin had a stillborn and it devastated her mentally. She was never the same. Everyone handles loss differently, it is what makes us human. It is easy to overthink things, it is easy to shame ourselves, never feel guilty for having feelings.
つらく悲しいことがあったのはtwitterで見かけました。
産まれてくる前の宣告に、かける言葉も見つかりませんでした。
年月が過ぎているとは言え、よくぞその一歩を踏み出しましたね。
新たに授かった生命と共に歩むその姿を、きっとそばで見守ってくれるでしょう。
この二年間、いろいろと大変だったようですね。悲しいことがあったようですが、今のミカエラさんのお顔は、以前のお顔に比べて、穏やかで優しい母の顔になっていると感じました。安心しました。
it's not exploitative and its not trauma dumping, if anything it's important to be shared as i know a lot of women who go through this often feel alone. we can be bombarded with so many positive pregnancy stories/birth stories/vlogs online. like its obviously exiting to share these things but just like with everything else on social media where often only highlights are shown i think its more than ok to have a little push back and share things online that arent neccesarily positive like loss and sadness and all those things cause that real and thats life. i personally havent gone through this specifically but i'm sure there are mothers that watch this and are so grateful that you opened up because it means they're not alone and can relate. its so important! so thank you for sharing and you're very brave xx
ミカエラさんおかえりなさい！
ミカエラさんのペースで、また素敵な動画を楽しみにしていますね✨
Never once did your story seem exploitative… We don’t talk about grief enough. When you share your story, you’re also keeping her memory alive. We love you, and both of your girls have the best mother ♥️
ミカエラさんお話ししてくださってありがとうございました🙏辛いことでしたね。時間は短くてもお2人の娘さんは幸せだと思いますよ。ゆっくりミカエラさんのペースでRUclipsと向き合って下さいね。
ミカエラさん大好きです🫶❤️
これからも応援し続けます❤
I’ve followed you for years. Your videos excited me about visiting Fukuoka and Kyushu. Your Instagram has bought tears to my eyes - both sad and happy. The one thing I know without ever having met you is that you would never exploit your situation. I can’t pretend to know what you’ve been through but I often send warm thoughts your way. I look forward to what you create in your own time. ❤
And I hope that you, like me, have had a chance to explore the city and region for yourself. I've fallen in love with it and am glad that I can soon return to this lovely place that I got to know through Micaela's videos.
この間ミカエラのインスタを見て、大変な時期を過ごしてたのが分かりました。ミカエラは何て言ったって日本人以外でもっとも有名なRUclipsrだと最初からの登録者の私は思うので無理をしないでアップしてくださいね
I am so sorry for your loss. Last year my brother and sister-in-law lost their newborn baby boy three weeks before his due date which was set for December 25th. We were all devastated by this. Lots of crying, hugs and giving my brother and sister-in-law the space and respect they needed. Prayers to you and your family.
I'm so sorry your 1st little girl died. I lost a baby last year and so I feel for you deeply and can appreciate just how difficult it was to make this video. I'm so glad you were blessed with a 2nd child too. In my experience, even though it never erases the loss of your older baby, it is like a balm for a painful wound and helps to heal. I cuddled my 3 month old watching your video and trying not to cry along with you while you told your story. Thank you for telling it - it reminds me of my loss but also to cherish my own girls even when the baby wakes up 5x in the night.
Just because I liked the video, doesn't mean I "like" the video. Thankyou for the update, I look forward to more videos from you.
This is heartbreaking. I've been following you for ~8 years. I'm glad you shared this with us and can feel like it's an important step in moving forward.
(I finally moved to Japan just last week after following you for so long, so thank you for all that you've done since you've started posting)
Congratulations on your move, what an exciting time it must be for you.
I've always admired how you both handled this, especially with all the complexities of doing so in public. I'm almost twice your age, but will never be faced with such grief or loss. The fact you two have done so publicly, despite how difficult that must have been, will help others facing their own challenges.
You are too strict for yourself!
Please enjoy your life more easily and be relaxed😊✨
日本を忘れないでね〜😊✨🧚🏻♂️
きっとこの世を去った赤ちゃんもミカエラさんの笑顔を願っているよ😌🌸
Oh my gosh, I was just thinking about you the other day and hoping all was going well. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you owe no one an explanation. You went through something most people try to forget, and yet here you are doing your best to move forward. Making this video was a huge hurtle for you, and I, like probably a lot of viewers, are proud of you for taking this leap. You did something I don't think I could ever do. I'm so happy for you and your progress, and I hope this brings you some comfort. Please continue doing what you do best. Being an awesome mother and making great RUclips content! Love you lots! ❤️
Please don’t have any negative feelings about this. You handled this sad situation with grace and I am in awe of your resilience. Please know that we are rooting for you to heal and are looking forward to your content in the future. You NEVER have to feel ashamed about taking a break when you need it. Sending love to you and your family, especially your sweet angel in heaven ❤
Oh Micaela, that’s so much. There are no words adequate to respond to the loss you have endured. I’m so very sorry. Sending you love and wishing you comfort and peace.
Every so often I like to check and see if you’ve posted anything new. Today I did and my heart goes out to you, Micaela. I can’t imaging how hard that must have been. You’re so incredibly strong just to get through that experience. I’m really glad your second daughter is doing well. I’m sure you are a fantastic Mother!
I started watching your videos with my daughter when she was about three I think. That’d be 12 years or so now. I just had my second daughter last month and I’ll make sure to show her all your videos someday too. Life can be really difficult, just don’t forget you’ve touched a lot of people’s lives on here and we love you for it!
I still haven’t made it to Japan. Because, life, but when I finally do I’ve got a list of things to see and do thanks to you!
I follow you on Twitter and Instagram and saw your story about your 1st daughter and I'm so sorry for your loss. You don't owe us an explanation. Its difficult to share a personal moment such as this. We all deal with grief differently. And some people need to grieve privately until they are ready. And it will always be ok to cry. It's nice to see that your family is doing well. Your second daughter's so adorable! I hope to see more videos from you if and when you feel you're ready to come back. I miss your channel.
I've been following your journey on social media, and it's so incredibly heartbreaking. But at the same time, it's so great that your second child is healthy, and also that you were able to make this video, and slowly work on coming to terms with the grief. I hope you can get to do the work you want to do again, and I think I speak for many viewers when I say we'll always support you and your channel however we can. Well wishes to your family, and always remember to take care of yourself. ❤
I can't truly understand the grief you and your partner had to endure, but I just know that celebrating, discussing, grieving, and meditating on the life that was lost will move you both forward on your journey. Thank you for sharing, I am sure there are so many that feel less alone because of you. And I am SO looking forward to your past and future videos. Keep shining bright, you've got this ❤️
Micaela, we don't want you to ever feel any pressure as if you owe us an explanation or a life update. Truly you owe us absolutely nothing. We are simply here to watch the life you share - in however depth and detail you desire to share with us. And we wish you nothing but the best. Much love and comfort. May God be close to you, heal your heart, and bless you with His perfect peace.
Big hugs, Micaela. I'm so glad to see you here! 💓 💕
つらかったね。乗り越えてミックと家族のハッピーな人生を祈ってるよ！ビデオがハッピーをつなげてくれると思うよ。
Just seeing this now but I've followed your journey on Instagram. I had just had my second child when you were finding out about your first daughter's health issues and I was so heartbroken for you. I was hormonal, holding my baby and basically sobbing every update because it felt so real for me just having gone through pregnancy and birth again. I held my breath for your second pregnancy and I was overjoyed when all went well. It has been strange being so invested in someone else's experience. Maybe I'm just empathetic af 😅 But your transparency and your realness will help SO many. No one understands the vulnerability of pregnancy and birth until they experience it themselves. Then to have to deal with the trauma of losing your child, I just can't imagine. Thank you for being so real, so raw, and so vulnerable. I wish you nothing but healing and joy.
I’ve been watching your RUclips videos since the start, and I was dead set on moving to Japan. We’re about the same age, both Canadian and I used your videos as inspiration. Studied the language but life happened and met my wife, started a career. We were expecting our first baby and had clothes ready and everything, but my wife had a miscarriage. People told us to get over it, but they don’t know what it’s like. I couldn’t imagine going through what you did. We now have two kids in grade school and I’m planning on studying Japanese again and hopefully visit one day. It’s been years but I still think about our little shooting star 🌠. Wishing you and your family the best ❤
I felt so close to you when you shared your heart. It takes a brave heart to share your inner feelings like this. I’m sorry here about your loss. It’s good that you shared and I hope it helped you to get heal little bit. ❤
You're stronger than me. I was so angry over the pandemic I stopped making content. Your videos were so helpful. Your honesty and genuine love for Japan showed in your videos. I'm sorry for your loss. You keep on demonstrating why I appreciate you.
This is the first video I've ever seen of you and I just can't imagine what you've been going through. Life is such a rollercoaster sometimes. Hope you and your family are doing well.
Hi Micaela, sorry you had to go through this but realize that your current daughter has two souls and your previous daughter lives on in her, which means that she will be twice as strong in life. You don't know me because I usually stay in the background but I almost go back to day 1, Micaela, Kim Dao, Taylor R, Bee, Sharla .. I will always support you guys. Lots of love…
辛いことを打ち明けてくれて本当にありがとうございます。きっとあなたの動画を待っていたんだと思います。今後の動画投稿を、今までと同じように楽しみに待っています。
i haven't been on this channel in years. i think last time i saw a video was when she just got her driver's license or something. i also remember her talking about her japanese ex-bf who left for tokyo or something. life sure changes as time goes by..
It sounds incredibly, incredibly difficult what you went, and are continually to go through. Though tough, it sounds like you are processing the events and slowly but surely, able to have hope and enjoy things in life again. Sometimes you will be thrown back into the sadness, but I have no doubt you will be able to come back out of it again. I think you're doing an amazing job of continually to honour your first daughter whilst also honouring yourself and your other immediate family members. You're an inspiration, Micaela. Don't forget to be kind to yourself and take all the time you need. Your audience will always be here even if you decide to take a 10yr break! That's the beauty of the subscribe and notification system!! Sending much love ❤️
I saw this pop up with a trigger warning my heart sank . I cried listening to you share the heartbreak of losing your baby girl . I’m just a random follower but I want you to know you’re not alone and you absolutely weren’t being exploitive . Woman feel isolated in these situations . This reminds us we aren’t the only ones . Wish I could give you a hug . Xo
I personally believe youtubers don't OWE their viewers anything. But I thank you for sharing, which I feel you decide how much you are comfortable with. Then it's for us to choose if we are capable of bearing the weight of that info. We can click off, you are in it.
I hope you are or did take the measures necessary for you to be mentally healthy.
Lots of love.
So sorry for your loss. That's something I can't even imagine. Not sure I even have the right words for this. Only thing I can say is that we all grieve in our own way.
But also congratulations on your second child. Very happy for you in that regard.
What a tragic story…
I can see how you deeply devastated on your life.
本当に辛いことがありますね。ただただミカエラさんファミリーの幸せを祈ります。
sending so much love to you and the whole family Micaela. deeply appreciate you sharing this and everything you have shown of your life and experiences with all its dimensions.
a continuous supply of hugs and
much love is being sent for whenever you need it from this fan in canada.
今は深い深い悲しみの淵にいると思います。
でも次女ちゃんに長女ちゃんの分まで愛情を注いであげてください。
長女ちゃんもそう天国から願っていると思います😌
My deepest condolences. This is so sad! Beyond words. The ray of light is that you can see your wonderful second daughter grow up every day. You are so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story.
号泣しながら見ました。
インスタは追っていたので、元気そうで良かったと思ってましたが違いましたね。この出来事は生涯一生背負っていくことなんだと思いました。
話してくれて、ありがとうございます。この経験は想像を絶するのだと思います。私も子供が居ますが、無事にここに居ることは奇跡なんだと改めて実感しています。
I can’t imagine how hard this must have been for you, but thank you for sharing it. I know many people don’t know what Trisomy 13 is, and many have gone through grief but felt so alone. Your video helps many people know they’re not alone in what they felt and are feeling.
I’m so sorry. Words fall short only sending ❤🙏hugs
I just came across this video and your channel. Michaela, I just want to say I’m truly sorry for all the pain you have gone through. I’m truly sorry for your loss. Stay strong, and it’s okay to lean and get support from your friends, family and even your subscribers. This is your space, and take the time to heal in the way you feel most comfortable, and cherish moments with your daughter, loved ones, and remember to cherish yourself too.
Micaela, it's not exploitive or trauma dumping or any of that ❤ We all missed your presence on here and we're all here for you during ups, downs, or anything in between! I'm so sorry you had to go through the loss, but it's so good to hear you're doing better. I hope that continues and you are able to heal and not carry so much on your shoulders. ❤❤❤ And I really have to make it a stern point, your pain and experiences are not a burden, you're not a burden, please don't feel like you are. ❤ I'm looking forward to your new videos once you get back in to the motion of things. ☺❤
So happy to see you moving forward after what you went through. You’re strength is contagious ❤ nothing but love sent your way!!
久しぶりのビデオ投稿ありがとうございました。外国人youtuberの中でパイオニア的な貴方は、その何十本もの作品で好意的に日本を紹介してくれました。改めてご苦労様とお伝えしたいと思います。何が起きるかわからないこの世の中ですが、ゆっくり、心穏やかに子育て出来ますよう、お祈りしております。
There aren't words for how amazed I am by your resilience and bravery during all this. I hope u feel as strong as you really are.
Been following you for years Micaela
You are very brave to share this experience
Please take your time to slow down and sending you all the love from my whole family 💘💘
おかえりなさい！
she is smiling down on you every day i am sure. sending you peace and love and warmth in your family.
My Dear Sister, I just found this video, I am sorry about your loss and we may never know why these things happens. Our Creator knows best. May God Almighty Guide us to the Straight Path and Forgive all our Sins. ☝🏼
My heart breaks for you. This is the first video of yours that I’ve seen. Please be kind to yourself, I wish I could give you a massive hug. Sending you love and healing.
You have my love, Micaela. You have all of my love. Healing isn't linear and you owe nothing to anyone. I'm so proud of you for pushing past your anxiety and coming back to this space. I'm so glad you're ready to go on adventures again and your life has a perfect little bright spot in it. And she is. She's perfect. ❤️
I just want you to know, I look forward to sharing your joy with you.
I cannot imagine how hard it must have been for you, but I can tell you that I can 100% relate to how you described your feeling of being blocked and having to "wrap it up" in order to move forward. I have experienced the exact same feeling from a different trauma of losing someone and I want to let you know that I am very thankful that you put yourself out there and validate other people's feelings that way. Thank you for helping me to move on, as well! lots of love to you
I understand trying to navigate that fine line between trauma dumping and sharing your story and you’re not trauma dumping. I can’t imagine the pain that you both and your families went through and the loss. What you show now of your family life on Insta is beautiful to me it feels like you continue to honour her memory. I’m glad you’re getting back into travel vlogging because you’ve always had a unique perspective and a respect of every day mundane life and unusual locations that many do not.
Micaela san,
Thank you for sharing your painful yet awe-inspiring story - edifying for any careful viewers.
What a beautiful mother you are! May healing continue its work in you.
I had the honor of meeting you in Aya sometime ago.
Peace, Love. Cheers!
I’m so sorry you have to carry this pain; infant lost is much more common that people know and I understand the reasons people don’t want to talk/listen about it… it’s painful and nobody knows what to say or do it’s just an overall horrible thing to go through but sometimes talking it’s the best way to heal… this will always be painful but knowing that you aren’t alone; that there’s people out there that understand your pain and can support you is so comforting. I hope that your heart can heal 🙏🏻
Recently started watching Japanese RUclipsr content and checked out your channel for the first time in a while. So shocked and sorry to hear what happened and hoping you are doing well ❤ you did the right thing talking about it. Many other people experience this but unfortunately there seems to be some sort of aversion in society to acknowledging and talking about it. Someone else will see this and know they’re not alone ❤❤❤
Oh I'm so sorry Micaela. 😢❤
Hello first time watcher here. Found you through recommended. First off,I couldn't even begin to imagine how you must've felt losing a child moments after they were born. You are one strong woman. Secondly, you shouldn't feel like you are being being exploitive. Seeing the replies and how supportive they are, it's clear that you've a build a fanbase and community of shared interest. While most of us can't feel the pain you've felt, maybe by watching this video it can help us move from our problems too. You should be proud posting this video. Sharing yourself at your most vulnerable is not an easy task. Lastly I wish your family all the luck in the world! 🙏
I hope that finally filming this and sharing it will give you a small sense of closure.
As a fellow Mam you have all the support and love I can offer. Seeing you start to travel and work again (especially with Eevie) has been so wonderful and I hope this year and the next and all that come will bring you all more happy and fun memories together.
You know where I am if you ever need to talk 💕💕
It's very sad to come across a beautiful channel like yours this way but I'm glad I found it. And I'm so sorry this happened to you. Wish you all the joy and please take your time to heal. ❤️
We miss you! Thanks for sharing with us. Best wishes to you and your family💕
I’m so sorry you and your partner went through this. You don’t owe anyone anything and it’s not exploitive whatsoever to share something that has impacted your lives so deeply. ❤
Oh no I'm so sorry that happened! I started crying with you when you said it but please don't feel bad. Just let us support you and know that your story could help others in ways you might not know. You're right, grief is weird sometimes and it sounds like you also needed to do this for yourself in order to move on. Congratulations on your 2nd daughter and I'm glad your family can be happy again despite working through this horrible situation.
Thank you for sharing. I hope by sharing you are able to move forward like you want to do. I look forward to seeing more videos from you!
My absolute sincere condolences to you and your husband. Love from Mauritius.
Honestly, I have followed you on all platforms so I’ve known about this for a while.. but maybe sharing a bit more would make you feel better. This isn’t about is. Your page is about you and your happiness. Those who love and support you will be here for all of it. I’m grateful you are opening up and talking about it. I hope you can potentially use this to help you recover more and learn more about yourself in the process.
I do think your travel videos are beautiful and inspiring. But I miss a lot of the more personal side of your page. I joined your followers maybe 2015, and I’ve watched all of the older ones. I hope you feel comfortable sharing more someday, if it helps you heal more. 🖤
Sending love and healing vibes.
I’ve been following you maybe 10 years already, you became like a family member time to time I come back and check how are you . I’m so so sorry for your loss. You be kind to yourself please . I’m sending you my deepest condolences.
Glad to see you again on YT, Michaela san!
First I thought and am afraid of that this video might be a goodbye message from Canada. Soon I understand why you did not upload videos for a long time. The hardship you experienced in the COVID 19 years is obviously quite difficult and nerve-wracking to go through. The paper says that the probability of your first daughter being able to survive for a year is 10% or less. It's not your fault at all. I just wish you do not blame yourself too much.
Glad to know on the other hand that you and your husband are blessed with the second daughter soon from the god. I just wish you and your new family members another peaceful life both mentally and physically in Kyushu again.
あなたのペースであなたらしく。その姿を応援してます♪
話してくれてありがとう。
自分のことを1番に考えて無理しないでくださいね
How courageous you are to be back again and told about your story. Please be a good mother.
I hope you will keep making good videos., which I'm always looking forward to seeing. Please be GENKI!
Fairly recently I wondered "hmm...where are some of these youtubers I enjoyed now?" And I have looked up your instagram. Even if you were not going through such rough time you didn't owe us anything. More than anything, taking your time in taking care of yourself comes first.
I can't even beginning to imagine how difficult it has been to deal with as someone who is yet to start a family, but my heart out goes out to you and your partner.
Oh, Micaela. I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing with us. Been watching your videos for longer than I can remember.
Brave video. You've faced some heartbreaking, unimaginable trauma there. It's good to see you're beginning to heal. Thank you for sharing and all the best ❤️
Welcome back! Hope you will get to experience only joy in this new chapter