Also the girl on the second batch with the black full length pant and white shirt. The way her hands move and the elegance when she moved forward just...mind blown.
when you told the girls “you’re all heathers” that rly hit. i know hearing that from you and having a teacher like you in general means so much to those girls
L J it’s basically a girl that everybody thinks is absolutely perfect and wants to be like - it isn’t really realistic because every girl should be a ‘heather’ like Luna said
You should do a follow along dance class on RUclips (streching, exercises and a choreography) because I really like your aura as a person on RUclips and I'm super interested in taking a dance class from you! Also your style is so amazing!You rock! I suggest to do more ''Style'' or some ''Aesthetics'' videos! You inspire! Keep up the good job!
Your students are so advanced...high kicks/great leaps etc.. You are a great teacher! Thanks for all you share. Being authentic helps everyone! God bless!
Seeing you teach the younger generation of future women makes me tear up. I would’ve loved to have a dance teacher like you when I was a kid! Dance class is such a safe space.
i know exactly how they feel i did a whole summer intensive dancing for 5 hours in a mask pls dont complain about wearing a mask in the Starbucks drive through
you should do a “how i became a dance teacher” video because i want to teach dance and wish i had more advice on what i need to do to get there :) love you🧡
I'm not a dance teacher but a gymnastics teacher. When I first thought about doing the training to become a teacher, I spoke about it with my trainer and she adviced me to look up the dates of courses on the web page of my country's gymnast association. I could sign in online. The training was split in two: one practical part plus exam and one theoretical with an exam. I guess it's similar for dancers or maybe ask your teacher
@@proserpina4448 It is somewhat similar. A lot of ballet teachers take the Royal Academy of Dance Exam to get certified. I don't think that you are required to take it though.
Honestly my favorite videos of yours are the really casual ones where you film yourself going through your usual days! I've actually been binge watching your old vlogs, they just make me so happy! xx
luna i can’t thank you enough for giving me so much confidence in ballet!! you motivate me to work harder and i love you so much :) also where are your fuzzy pink shorts from in the beginning? they look so comfy!
Would love to see a video where you prepare a class! Like choosing music, a routine, how to actually teach something.. would be so cool. Also, currently chilling in my pink merch :)
@@acedcoffee6934 hello lgbt community :P First hint was literally the iced coffee (same tho), love the iced coffee obsession the entire alphabet mafia has lmfao
Love these dance teacher videos, as a teacher myself it’s nice to have someone in the same phase of life doing what I do! Also totally related when you were speaking to your students about being expressive through their masks, the struggle for expressive faces is real.
Your students are so lucky to have you! As someone who works with dancers on balance when it comes to nutrition and having a healthy body image, I appreciate how open you are about some of the struggles dancers can face. When I was younger, I wish my dance teachers talked to us about mental and physical health in a positive way.
I feel like I'm in such a similar situation mentally. Family issues + pressure to perform (I'm a violinist) + Pandemic really mess with ones happiness. Still working on gaining more mental stability and searching for ways to alleviate the anguish. Thank you for being honest about the way you feel, but also don't feel pressured to tell us everything. You have a right to privacy and don't owe us anything. You're already sharing so much love and affection with your videos as they are. Thanks for being such a light!
Ahhhh I'm so early!! Luna if you're reading this, I just want you to know you got me through by far the hardest, most depressed point in my life, and I am so grateful for you. I absolutely hated my body and didn't know how or if I was ever going to change my mindset. This year I am doing a contemporary solo called "Body Love" to help me recover and heal after this past year of my struggle with body dysmorphia and eating habits. I just want to thank you Luna because even though you probably won't even see this or know who I am, I think you deserve to know how much you helped me and everyone else.
if these dancers who are exercising and probably sweating like crazy and are out of breath (even without the masks) can wear their masks properly, SO CAN YOU.
Your whole life is so sweet. I love that you’re teaching these girls and can be the highlight of their day. Keep making videos like this! I loved it :) also I feel u on the mental health girl. It’s not easy rn. I cry so much... can’t wait till this is all over. Your videos make so many of happy! Xoxoxo keep bein u.
You create such a welcoming and supportive environment. Just seeing them all laugh when you tell them they're all Heathers to the girls clapping lily when she was doing well showing emotions. You're doing something so special by breaking the cycle of girls growing up being told by their dance teachers to hate their bodies and I cannot express how much I love you for it. Genuinely, you're amazing. Thank you
imagine having luna as a dance teacher omlll! I've been a dancer for the past 10 years and I've never had a teacher like her, she seems so down to earth and funnnn
luna luna luna. i can´t describe how much i love your videos. you´re literally the sweetest and most inspiring person ever. i´m so proud of you and you deserve the best!! love from denmark
Luna I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling. Family issues are always so incredibly hard, but we all love you and will always stand with you. I hope you find the right therapist and medication soon. Love you 💗💗💗
People like Luna inspire me a lot, ive been dancing since I was 3. I remember there was one teacher helper (which is a student who helps the teacher with younger classes) and ever since then, I knew I wanted to do the same thing. People like Luna make me think that my dream may actually be a reality in the near future! I’m now 12 and I’m fortunate to be able to do my first year of student teaching! Unfortunately where I live COVID has been bad so I haven’t been able to dance and teach in around 4 months! Watching lunas videos (even ones not reacted to dance) help me hold on to hope! So thank you. Anyway I hope everyone is having an amazing day or had an amazing day! Stay safe, stay healthy, and hopefully soon we will be able to get back to our normal lives! Xx love from Australia❤️❤️
It's so lovely to see you thriving even in weird times and doing so well! I've followed you for years and we're the same age and I love watching your stuff, I get so excited when you post new things! It's also so nice to see someone with the same body type as me doing this sort of thing and promoting such a positive image. Love you Luna!!
Oh girl, you're not alone! Even though you know nearly none of us, we keep your back and try to do what we can do to support you. Love you and your dance (teacher) videos! Stay the way you are and do anything in your own time, you don't owe anything to us! ♥
You are my literal fav youtubster, And have been since two years. :) I love you so much, you’re an amazing dancer and I really look up to you. The thing I love about your channel is that you are honest. Keep your head up Luna, you inspire me, and a lot of other girls. Greets from belgium! ❤️
I love your channel so much! Thank you for still opening up about your mental health - just hearing that you’re not alone is helpful. I’m currently considering going on medication. I’m an ice dancer so I’d love to see some stretching videos or maybe a dance routine that we can learn 💙
AWHHHHH LUNA WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! THE LAST PART OF THE VIDEO MADE ME CRYㅠㅠ hope you’re staying healthy and it’s okay not to be a 100 percent happy everyday, we all have our bad days and that’s normal! sending over lots of love from Korea, your my inspiration in life so keep it up
Glad I came across your video, I coach baseball and its great seeing how others teach what they love during these crazy times. I can tell you're a great teacher by the way you are with your students, they need and are lucky to have someone with great qualities like you in their lives. Keep up the great work.
Thx so much for the mental health talk at the end. I have bad anxiety especially with quarantine and all that stuff and sometimes I feel like I’m the only one who’s going through it. 💕💕
luna you’re so inspiring... i really want to become a dance teacher and choreographer someday so these types of videos are just amazing, but every video from you is
I'd love to see more ballet/dance related videos from you! It was absolutely amazing to watch you dance and teach the girls, the dance seemed so beautiful, yet quite complex. Do you consider doing ballet professionally anytime in the future?
Ilysm!💖 can u plz film a vid of ur workout and diet and another vid of u teaching ballet techniques ur students are so lucky to have u their teachers i wish u were my ballet reacher ✨💖
I love vlogs like this! 🙌🏼 What do you think about making a video with a warm up/ work out for dancers? It could be kinda cool 😎 And of course there is never something like too much dance content haha
I would love more dance videos. That is how I found you! Bingeing pointe videos even though I have never done it. I want to be more confident in my dance for musical theatre and you really help me realise I can do it! Thank you xx also cute mask!
I live in a Spanish-speaking country but I will try to do my best saying these words in English, yesterday I saw your video from a year and a half ago talking about your insecurity with your body and I felt so identified that I cried with you, but thanks to you You let me know that I am not alone and that I will go through that difficult time sooner or later. really thank you very much I admire you a lot and you are very brave! (sorry if I touched on a sensitive topic I needed to say so)
you're a great teacher to these kids ❤️ I think this pandemic is testing everybody's limits more than ever...it is a hard, scary and confusing situation but we're all in this together ❤️ sending you lots of love from France ❤️
luna it made me so sad to think that you aren't feeling your best!!! we all adore you, you have the best aura and energy!!! i hope everything falls into its place and you feel better
i would love to see you do an in depth video on your mental health journey so far just going from start to finish and talk about why you see a therapist and what you might get medication for. i just think in general people need to talk more about the "recovery" process of mental illnesses and bad mental health. i didn't know much about it until i was dealing with it and that sucked. i would find that so interesting and i don't think you need to be recovering as you said to do that video. you can always do another update video. of course it should be when you feel comfortable talking about it and if you would feel better doing that when you're in a better place that totally makes sense. also no pressure lol. thank you for talking about mental health and making people feel less alone! i love your videos!
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being able to say that u were here to watch luna transform from student to a teacher is a big flex
Lyla Jasmine fancy seeing you here :)
Bethany Gamble HAHA i love that
i wassss!!!
wow this is so true
oooo another flex is watching Lucky grow up haha!
now, the girl on the lilac sweatpants? she dances like an angel, i'm-
LITERALLY if someone finds her instagram please tell me fr
Margaret ! her name is paige, i go to that studio and her insta is @paige__ noel
don’t forget it’s tow underscores
OH MY WORD you are the absolute sweetest!!! Thank you so much!!
Paige Noel love this for u paige
Also the girl on the second batch with the black full length pant and white shirt. The way her hands move and the elegance when she moved forward just...mind blown.
when you told the girls “you’re all heathers” that rly hit. i know hearing that from you and having a teacher like you in general means so much to those girls
What is a "heather"? The opposite of a "Karen"?
L J hahahaha it’s a reference to a song by Conan grey called heather
L J it’s basically a girl that everybody thinks is absolutely perfect and wants to be like - it isn’t really realistic because every girl should be a ‘heather’ like Luna said
@@emiliegreentree4592 @Jillian Roeper thanks!
Can we just like also applaud her for letting the students just wear the sports bra’s 👏🏼👏🏼
You should do a follow along dance class on RUclips (streching, exercises and a choreography) because I really like your aura as a person on RUclips and I'm super interested in taking a dance class from you! Also your style is so amazing!You rock! I suggest to do more ''Style'' or some ''Aesthetics'' videos! You inspire! Keep up the good job!
A follow along dance class would be super fun!
YESSSSS!!! That would be amazing
OMG YESS, Iove ballet but can't really do it so some of her lyrical classes would be so fun
PLEASE ❤️🙌🏻
Yesss
Your students are so advanced...high kicks/great leaps etc.. You are a great teacher! Thanks for all you share. Being authentic helps everyone! God bless!
I would kill to have luna teach me for just one lesson😂
I totally agree! I wish she could teach me too
omg yes, lets do a subscribers class w luna
Lígia Santoro Hatschbach YES that would be awesome
Lígia Santoro Hatschbach yes yes yes!!!!! It would be on zoom so anyone from anywhere could come and it could be just can hour or so
Ballet tho
the girl in lilac sweats was sooo good!!
I can tell that she doesn't only do contemporary and that she also is really good in ballet.
The girl in purple joggers is amazing!!
you’re so productive... couldn’t be me lol
MOOD AND SAME
Big mood and thanks for admitting it first lol
Yes I'm not either, but just remember that you don't have to be productive all the time, it's okay to chill too xoxo
Seeing you teach the younger generation of future women makes me tear up. I would’ve loved to have a dance teacher like you when I was a kid! Dance class is such a safe space.
Right I have such great memories from dance I definitely want to put my kids in one day
if these girls can dance in a mask y'all can wear one to the grocery store
In my ballet studio we have to wear masks
100%👏
i know exactly how they feel i did a whole summer intensive dancing for 5 hours in a mask pls dont complain about wearing a mask in the Starbucks drive through
frrrrr
Your not supposed to its a hazard the government said so
‘remember you guys are all heathers’🥺 love watching you teach and seeing how you are with all the girls, you’re such a good role model x
you should do a “how i became a dance teacher” video because i want to teach dance and wish i had more advice on what i need to do to get there :) love you🧡
Yes same !
I'm not a dance teacher but a gymnastics teacher. When I first thought about doing the training to become a teacher, I spoke about it with my trainer and she adviced me to look up the dates of courses on the web page of my country's gymnast association. I could sign in online. The training was split in two: one practical part plus exam and one theoretical with an exam.
I guess it's similar for dancers or maybe ask your teacher
@@proserpina4448 It is somewhat similar. A lot of ballet teachers take the Royal Academy of Dance Exam to get certified. I don't think that you are required to take it though.
I really like the girl in the purple sweat pants
the choreography was so beautiful with the emotion of the music
The girl from the older class in the grey sweatpants thooo.. just incredible 🙏🏻😍
Honestly my favorite videos of yours are the really casual ones where you film yourself going through your usual days! I've actually been binge watching your old vlogs, they just make me so happy! xx
i would much prefer an outdoor class tbh, there’s fresh air and idk it seems better
I love how positive you are towards your students! I’m sure it makes a massive impact on them
luna i can’t thank you enough for giving me so much confidence in ballet!! you motivate me to work harder and i love you so much :) also where are your fuzzy pink shorts from in the beginning? they look so comfy!
not me pausing my zoom lecture to watch luna
Lunaa can you do a tutorial on the heather choreography??
I’ve been searching for somebody in the comments to ask for a tutorial 😆
@@sofaith8964 ughh I wish she came across my comment :( ahahah
Bea Aller seriously!!! I need a tutorial so badddd!
AN OUTSIDE STUDIO?!?! that's so cool
Would love to see a video where you prepare a class! Like choosing music, a routine, how to actually teach something.. would be so cool.
Also, currently chilling in my pink merch :)
ahhhhh ikr
quick little hack- if you very want iced coffee with frothy milk, just hold down the red button and it will turn blue which means its cold.
I read iced coffee and I'm like alright here I am lol
@@acedcoffee6934 hello lgbt community :P First hint was literally the iced coffee (same tho), love the iced coffee obsession the entire alphabet mafia has lmfao
the biggest issue with brandy Melville isn't the "one size fits all" policy, its the lack of diversity and fast fashion
that girl with the purple jogging pants is really good
Love these dance teacher videos, as a teacher myself it’s nice to have someone in the same phase of life doing what I do! Also totally related when you were speaking to your students about being expressive through their masks, the struggle for expressive faces is real.
Your students are so lucky to have you! As someone who works with dancers on balance when it comes to nutrition and having a healthy body image, I appreciate how open you are about some of the struggles dancers can face. When I was younger, I wish my dance teachers talked to us about mental and physical health in a positive way.
I feel like I'm in such a similar situation mentally. Family issues + pressure to perform (I'm a violinist) + Pandemic really mess with ones happiness. Still working on gaining more mental stability and searching for ways to alleviate the anguish. Thank you for being honest about the way you feel, but also don't feel pressured to tell us everything. You have a right to privacy and don't owe us anything. You're already sharing so much love and affection with your videos as they are. Thanks for being such a light!
9:23 dancing to heather i love it
Ahhhh I'm so early!! Luna if you're reading this, I just want you to know you got me through by far the hardest, most depressed point in my life, and I am so grateful for you. I absolutely hated my body and didn't know how or if I was ever going to change my mindset. This year I am doing a contemporary solo called "Body Love" to help me recover and heal after this past year of my struggle with body dysmorphia and eating habits. I just want to thank you Luna because even though you probably won't even see this or know who I am, I think you deserve to know how much you helped me and everyone else.
god bless! 💗
the girl in the lilac sweat pants and the onew with like the sports bra or croptop with the black and white shorts did amazing
if these dancers who are exercising and probably sweating like crazy and are out of breath (even without the masks) can wear their masks properly, SO CAN YOU.
Right?! I am an equestrian and I ride in a mask and I am SWEATING so people can wear a damn mask.
Well said👍
thank you!! i’m a dancer and i have dance from 10- 6 all while wearing a mask- so others can wear them !
some people have a legit reason they can't wear a mask... you do know that right?
@@annikaericksen3938 of course, but if you are going to wear one, wear it right!!
Your whole life is so sweet. I love that you’re teaching these girls and can be the highlight of their day. Keep making videos like this! I loved it :) also I feel u on the mental health girl. It’s not easy rn. I cry so much... can’t wait till this is all over. Your videos make so many of happy! Xoxoxo keep bein u.
it is so cool to see your transition omg❤️
You create such a welcoming and supportive environment. Just seeing them all laugh when you tell them they're all Heathers to the girls clapping lily when she was doing well showing emotions. You're doing something so special by breaking the cycle of girls growing up being told by their dance teachers to hate their bodies and I cannot express how much I love you for it. Genuinely, you're amazing. Thank you
imagine having luna as a dance teacher omlll! I've been a dancer for the past 10 years and I've never had a teacher like her, she seems so down to earth and funnnn
luna luna luna. i can´t describe how much i love your videos. you´re literally the sweetest and most inspiring person ever. i´m so proud of you and you deserve the best!! love from denmark
Luna I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling. Family issues are always so incredibly hard, but we all love you and will always stand with you. I hope you find the right therapist and medication soon. Love you 💗💗💗
Luna dont you ever forget that we love you and we are here for you to support you , i love your videos and you are such a great person inside and out
People like Luna inspire me a lot, ive been dancing since I was 3. I remember there was one teacher helper (which is a student who helps the teacher with younger classes) and ever since then, I knew I wanted to do the same thing. People like Luna make me think that my dream may actually be a reality in the near future! I’m now 12 and I’m fortunate to be able to do my first year of student teaching! Unfortunately where I live COVID has been bad so I haven’t been able to dance and teach in around 4 months! Watching lunas videos (even ones not reacted to dance) help me hold on to hope! So thank you. Anyway I hope everyone is having an amazing day or had an amazing day! Stay safe, stay healthy, and hopefully soon we will be able to get back to our normal lives!
Xx love from Australia❤️❤️
It's so lovely to see you thriving even in weird times and doing so well! I've followed you for years and we're the same age and I love watching your stuff, I get so excited when you post new things! It's also so nice to see someone with the same body type as me doing this sort of thing and promoting such a positive image. Love you Luna!!
I'm earlyyyy love u luna and absolutely love the "day in my life" videos💕💕❤️
9:57 WE LOVE A SUPPORTIVE QUEEN 🥺😻
that class looked so fun and all your students and you danced absolutely beautifully
OMG LUNA - I loved that combo !! can you teach the second combo on zoom to the rest of the world? or or yt? It was sooo goood
Oh girl, you're not alone! Even though you know nearly none of us, we keep your back and try to do what we can do to support you. Love you and your dance (teacher) videos! Stay the way you are and do anything in your own time, you don't owe anything to us! ♥
You are my literal fav youtubster, And have been since two years. :) I love you so much, you’re an amazing dancer and I really look up to you. The thing I love about your channel is that you are honest. Keep your head up Luna, you inspire me, and a lot of other girls. Greets from belgium! ❤️
I wish you were my dance teacher! You’re so inspiring!
I love your channel so much!
Thank you for still opening up about your mental health - just hearing that you’re not alone is helpful. I’m currently considering going on medication.
I’m an ice dancer so I’d love to see some stretching videos or maybe a dance routine that we can learn 💙
AWHHHHH LUNA WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! THE LAST PART OF THE VIDEO MADE ME CRYㅠㅠ hope you’re staying healthy and it’s okay not to be a 100 percent happy everyday, we all have our bad days and that’s normal! sending over lots of love from Korea, your my inspiration in life so keep it up
Glad I came across your video, I coach baseball and its great seeing how others teach what they love during these crazy times. I can tell you're a great teacher by the way you are with your students, they need and are lucky to have someone with great qualities like you in their lives. Keep up the great work.
I love how you always express gratitude!! You can tell u were raised well💕
Thx so much for the mental health talk at the end. I have bad anxiety especially with quarantine and all that stuff and sometimes I feel like I’m the only one who’s going through it. 💕💕
i loved to see you teaching dance classes!!! hope you'll show us again
Hey Luna thanks for the amazing videos. I miss dancing so much but I’m scared to go back
You’re such an inspiration, really admire you Luna!
luna you’re so inspiring... i really want to become a dance teacher and choreographer someday so these types of videos are just amazing, but every video from you is
ready to see the luna montana version of dance moms
I have the worst day but seeing your videos make ir better not even because you seem super nice but because i love how you are so committed to dance
i’m a dancer so i’m obsessed with videos like this luna!
trader joes pumpkin stuff is such a vibe!! xxx
ballet is so beautiful, i could watch you teach and dance for hoursss✨
I'd love to see more ballet/dance related videos from you! It was absolutely amazing to watch you dance and teach the girls, the dance seemed so beautiful, yet quite complex. Do you consider doing ballet professionally anytime in the future?
Your so pretty!!! Your such a good dancer love you! 💗💗💗
Love you! We're all here for you for whatever it is you're going through❤❤❤
I absolutely love watching you teach
You are looking absolutely radiant lately!! You are rocking it girl 😘💜💙
Imagine having a teacher u look up to so much like I can just tell they all look up to u it’s amazing 💖💖💖🌈
she's literally the best teacher ever!!!!!!!!
Emily Joseph ur so luckyyyy
Sofia Altheyab ikr!!
Ilysm!💖 can u plz film a vid of ur workout and diet and another vid of u teaching ballet techniques ur students are so lucky to have u their teachers i wish u were my ballet reacher ✨💖
omg you should do a tutorial on that heather dance you did in the second class it looked so beautiful!!!
All of your students are really good and your choreography looks so good and fun😍😍
I love vlogs like this! 🙌🏼
What do you think about making a video with a warm up/ work out for dancers? It could be kinda cool 😎 And of course there is never something like too much dance content haha
Aw,the little girls dancing is so cute💞💞💞
I would love more dance videos. That is how I found you! Bingeing pointe videos even though I have never done it. I want to be more confident in my dance for musical theatre and you really help me realise I can do it! Thank you xx also cute mask!
You're honestly my favorite youtuber 💖
I hope your all happy, healthy, safe, and successful now and in your future ❤️😁💗
Thanks for your honesty. Take care.❤️❤️❤️
You are so beautiful, from the inside and outside. You‘re really inspiring Luna! Love your videos 🥰
woa the girl in the sweat pants- amazing!
Love watching you teach 🥰 u just seem so in ur element. Thank you for wearing a mask 😭
I love you sooo much, you are such an inspiration!
you are so talented and pretty, Luna!
All of the girls are absolutely beautiful!
more dance content! maybe like a dance bag essentials, favorite Leos/classwear, how to deal with anxiety and mental health issues as a dancer!!!!
loved the video!!!!!
You haaavveee to teach us that heather-dance! I love it soooo much. Please! I would literally die for that.
The girl in lilac like ik everyone’s been talking abt her but holy crap she dances like an angel
I live in a Spanish-speaking country but I will try to do my best saying these words in English, yesterday I saw your video from a year and a half ago talking about your insecurity with your body and I felt so identified that I cried with you, but thanks to you You let me know that I am not alone and that I will go through that difficult time sooner or later. really thank you very much I admire you a lot and you are very brave! (sorry if I touched on a sensitive topic I needed to say so)
I would love a dance workout video.... with everything going on I’m losing my dance workout motivation ❤️ love you!
I'm a huge fan of you .. I like to watch your videos specially when I feel low .. you motivate me.. thank you Luna
you're a great teacher to these kids ❤️ I think this pandemic is testing everybody's limits more than ever...it is a hard, scary and confusing situation but we're all in this together ❤️ sending you lots of love from France ❤️
video recommendation! virtual dance class where you teach a combo! I would love that sm tbh
such a nice video! love your energy💕
luna it made me so sad to think that you aren't feeling your best!!! we all adore you, you have the best aura and energy!!! i hope everything falls into its place and you feel better
i would love to see you do an in depth video on your mental health journey so far just going from start to finish and talk about why you see a therapist and what you might get medication for. i just think in general people need to talk more about the "recovery" process of mental illnesses and bad mental health. i didn't know much about it until i was dealing with it and that sucked. i would find that so interesting and i don't think you need to be recovering as you said to do that video. you can always do another update video. of course it should be when you feel comfortable talking about it and if you would feel better doing that when you're in a better place that totally makes sense. also no pressure lol. thank you for talking about mental health and making people feel less alone! i love your videos!
saying I love these is an understatement 💖💖
I love seeing you teach
I definitely understand the mental health stuff, I’ve been figuring out therapists and possibly meds and such it’s so hard