I'm taking a break
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- Опубликовано: 2 авг 2024
- i'll be back soon, don't worry.
i was scared to make this video so i kept pushing it off, but i knew i had to at some point. this is the best decision for me right now, so i can focus on healing. thank you to all my lil doodles who have supported me, i know you guys will respect my decision and be waiting for me with open arms & love when i come back. i'm always grateful and i love you all very much.
i will occasionally pop in on instagram & twitter :) you can follow me there:
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i'll be back soon. love you guys
AmandaRachLee we love u too ❤️
Love youuu
AmandaRachLee take a good break :) we'll be here when you come back🥺💞
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I love you i will always support you and you deserve a break
When Amanda said:
“When you are alone with your thoughts it is a very very dangerous thing.”
I felt that
Right here in the club of "I talk so ugly to myself sometimes"
Agree
Yup
It's tru
It's true and can be quite scary.
The people who disliked just had too many tears in their eyes to see the buttons clearly.
Pompom Pomeranian i never thought the number of unlike in RUclips is so important untill i watch this video and see your comment....
yes
Yaaaaas girl
No LMAO I wasn't crying I just disliked it
@@astrida111 That is because you do not have enough neurons to appreciate the work and dedication that @AmandaRachLee puts in his videos that is called being ignorant
As a mental health professional, I applaud your courage in speaking out about mental health issues, and sharing your personal story. This helps reduce the stigma surrounding depression and anxiety and will surely help empower others to take action for their own well-being. Enjoy your well-deserved sabbatical, and let the light come in and show you the way to the next leg of your journey. Thank you for all the fun and inspiring videos-you helped me to shape my own Bullet Journaling and creativity in the last few years. I look forward to hearing about your growth and change, should you decide to share it!
Amen
Exactly! The mom in me just wanted to scream hearing her story...she started crying...I started crying. Anxiety, depression, the perfection bug is real.
Same here OurLittleAcre...in fact I ranted, but then deleted it. But very well put Laura, my daughter had some things happen to her when she was younger (just turned 20). She started seeing a psychologist. After that some more things happened and she ...well, I can't say hit rock bottom...but she was lower than she had ever been. I tear up typing this because I so easily could have been one of those mothers of a child of suicide. One day she walked down a trail that lead to the river wanting to end it all, but thinking of her counseling, left, went to the hospital and told someone she wanted to kill herself. Through that experience she allowed me to be more a part of counseling, of which a contract was made with the Dr, her and I. She will express herself more about her feelings. Her moods are set through 1-10 and all I have to say is 'what is your number right now' and she will tell me, whether a good day or a bad day.
I can't stress enough to you Amanda or anyone here, if you feel like something is going on and you're having trouble. Go to a counselor. If money is a problem, some insurances pay 100%. My daughter was home from college and I was sitting in a chair and she came over, sat on my lap to show me something on her phone. My son come home after being at a funeral with his girlfriend who's classmate had committed suicide. He was talking about how upset his girlfriend was and how he couldn't hardly hear the pastor speak over the sobbing of the mother of this child. I hugged my baby in my lap a little harder and, of course, sobbing told her how much I love her and how happy I was that she was so brave to seek help when she did. Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.
Amanda you may not have gotten to this point, but you take care of you. And don't plan a month, take more if you have to, getting healthy doesn't usually go by a schedule. You are a great talent and seem to be such a great lady the way you hold yourself and speak. I actually write down your ideas so when I start a new month and need an idea i can just look on my list and go...hmmm...Amanda has 'this' on June 20something...haha. See you when you feel good...have a wonderful little RUclips vacation!
@@karriegress5969 😢
You said "I should try harder to..." so many times... girl, if there's one thing you DON'T need to do id to work harder... rest, Amanda, we will be here, waiting for you. You are an amazing artist and a hard worker. I admire you.
thank you ❤️
The only thing Amanda needs to try harder to do is take care of herself ❤️❤️ we are here for you Amanda!
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Guys who wants to join in our group about amanda👍
girl creativity is like the seasons, cant be expected to bloom all year - need to rest and let the creativity flow again 💓💓💓💓
That's a beautiful way to put it Jay
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This comment is the best comment
Jay Palfrey you’re right
Jay Palfrey love that
Breaks are so healthy and good for everyone, you deserve this! When you come back, don’t sweat the comments. The negative ones are coming from someone in their own negative headspace and taking it out on you (unfortunately), it’s more about them than you, and like you said, you can’t please everyone-and that’s ok! Your first planner is amazing by the way, we can tell you put a lot of love into it and I personally love to see when RUclipsrs put effort into products when it is so easy to just go low quality. But you did right by your lil doodles. Now go enjoy your break!
Sea Lemon 💖💖
Tysm! I also love your channel!
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Sea Lemon love your channel!!
I always feel almost sad when RUclipsrs have to ''explain'' that they are taking a break - Like obviously it is great that they take the time to tell their viewers that they will not upoload for a while, but they do not ''owe'' us anything. Ugh - Gosh did I make this negative? Mental health is so important and you absolutely deserve a break
I feel the same way.
I follow several people and sometimes they just disappear. Being told a vacation is coming is "nice" but not (shouldn't be) an obligation.
Yes, this may be an income avenue, but employees and entrepreneurs can have vacations.
I think a beautiful doodle on her account saying "Taking an over due vacation to recharge. Videos on hold."
That's it.
Don't need to go through the stress of even reliving all this hatefulness she's dealt with. I wanted to just bring her home, and hide her from the world.
I think you nailed it with this comment. Its always nice to see subscribers that dont act entitled to the content just because they "support a RUclipsr" and guilt trip them by saying they're ungrateful. Making videos as great as hers is hard work and she deserves a healthy, balanced work/home life.
I totally agree. Besides what you've mentioned, making this kind of video has no difference than going through the harms again since they are describing it in detail.
Damn, why was 2019 so hard on so many people. It feels like we all struggled a lot
Solina587 oh yes for me it was the worst year of my life since I lost someone I loved on the last day of December
truth. 2019 was a struggle for real.
True for everyone :(
But thank god i helped myself :/
Yeah.. It was a really though and sad year.. It almost feels like 2019 was.. Full of sadness and drama and just negativity :( I aswell struggled a lot in 2019
...but hey guys :D we are all a big community so let's support each other aswell as we support Amanda :3 we are all amazing human beings so wish you all a positive and happy 2020❤️
2019 was definitely a struggle. I noticed that too for many people.
I remember Michelle Phan took a break for alike reasons and now that’s she’s back, she’s better than ever. Amanda take as much time that you need!
Peach Cakes 🧁 I agree
My counsellor reminds me of the three B's when I'm struggling (which is often)
Balance
Boundaries and
Bitching to someone when you need to.
Take care, you deserve a break. We love you
Being a RUclipsr is just like any other job: sometimes you need to take some sick days...and sometimes you need to take some mental health days. If you need a break, TAKE A BREAK! At the end of the day, just take care of you.
Amanda: I'm taking a break...
Me: •́ ‿ ,•̀
But don't worry! We KNOW you aren't a robot - you have emotions, you feel tired and it's not our place to make you work for our entertainment... ♥️
I came across your channel about 2 to 3 months ago, and have really enjoyed watching all your videos. You have obviously been working really hard, and should not feel guilty about needing to take some much needed time out to look after yourself. I look forward to you coming back reinvigorated and ready to tackle life full on again. And, please ignore the haters...usually people with nothing better to do than to try be controversial - small minds with small thoughts. There is a difference between constructive criticism and just plain being nasty. Because seriously, if someone doesn’t like your channel, then they don’t have to watch it....so to then make pointless derogatory remarks - well that is just unnecessary meanness. Anyway didn’t mean to get caught up in a tirade against trolls. Just wanted to thank you for your candor and let you know that there are people out here wishing you well.
When her voice started cracking i was about to drop everything, fly to Canada and give her a big hug🥺
Me tooooo 😔😭😭😭😭😭
Same here.
There is nothing wrong with taking a "sabbatical". you've done this for 7 years without a day off. So do you girl. we love your content.
You don’t have to care about others who don’t care about you.
A person making a negative comment will forget about it seconds after hitting the Send button. But you who reads the comment will remember it for days.
So is it worth it to think too much into the negative comment?
I don’t even have a single second to read negative unconstructive criticism.
A lot of pressure is perceived pressure. When you make art, some people will like it, some people don’t. But who cares? The person who made the nasty comment surely does not.
It just breaks my heart that people would say those awful things about your art. I LOVE your themes and setups, my bujo is literally just recreations of your themes. GIRL YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!
Ashley Chynel I agree with you 😀😃😄😁😍🥰😘💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
The first time I went to my doctor to talk about my mental health, I did so much of what you just did in this video. Justifying and 'I know it must sound like...' and etc. And my doctor was like, "Let me tell you something I noticed while you were talking. With every word that comes out of your mouth you're worrying about what I'm thinking of you or whether I'm taking you seriously. That's a sign for me that we need to take this seriously."
So that's what I'm gonna tell you now. Every impulse to justify yourself or imagine how we must be seeing you is just another thing your brain is doing because it's not well right now. You're important all on your own, and you deserve to take time and take a break and get whatever help you need. Don't rush. Another lesson from my doctor: "If you're still panicking about when you should go back to work, it's too soon to go back to work." Obviously we're all here because we love your videos, but if you decide never to come back to this, that's fine too. You're a whole ass human and you deserve love and respect.
Excellent, well stated post!
Yes! All of this is what I was coming here to say! If you feel like coming back would be tough, and you'd need to really psych yourself up to do it, then it's not yet time. When you're overflowing with ideas to show us, and can't wait to share your rediscovered enthusiasm for journalling etc... THAT's the time to come back.
And all that second guessing people, worrying what they might be thinking... So very familiar to me! Somewhere on my Pinterest, amongst all your doodles and spreads, I also have some MH pins that you might find useful, so I'll pop back in a sec with a couple of links.
The thing is, you don't need other people's permission for this stuff - if you need a break, then you take a break. If you want to change your schedule, then you change it. Those of us who appreciate and value your work will go with the flow. And the haters? Well, they will find an excuse to complain no matter what you do, so unfortunately any time or energy you give to trying to please them or get them on board is wasted. Instead, spend that time and energy on building yourself up 💜
Amanda, I’m not a very active follower of yours but I watched this entire video and I can honestly say I am so proud of you. It’s important to put yourself first and that’s exactly what you’re doing. I truly believe this break will be one of the best times for you. I wish you the best this world has to offer. Much love and peace. 💖
Love you ❤️ you deserve to enjoy your twenties and find who you are outside of this. Since we started the same time I feel you so hard, it’s been A THIRD OF OUR LIFE.
rest well Amanda 🌿
"As an artist it is my worst fear already for my work to not improve" - I felt that hard. Lots of love while you rest up
PLEASE, AMANDA, TAKE AS LONG AS YOU NEEEEEED. I know with a "planning" mind, you put a deadline of a month, but if you need a month, 6 months, a year to heal and live your life just as Amanda, JUST DO IT and DON'T feel guilty about it. You have given so much to the bullet journal community... so the least you can do is to take a rest and a GOOD rest. Don't feel pressure, don't feel guilty. For real. "we" will be fine. Don't worry for us~
I hope this break will be amazing, that you can discovered yourself and enjoy yourself and see the blessings of being you.
i am so so glad and proud of you for taking this step back, you needed it and you so deserve it. I've only started following you a few months back and have always been amazed by how consistent you are with your content - and they're so quality ones! I'm trying to grow my RUclips channel and I know how hard it is to be so consistent and have such quality content all the time. You've inspired me to start bullet journaling (my setup is pretty potato level compared to yours but oh well, it works for me so it's good!) So yea, have a GOOD GOOD break, can't wait to watch your next video (don't matter when, take longer than a month if you need!) about how the break has helped you. HAPPY RESTING!!!
Sending my love and support!!❤️❤️ I never comment on RUclips, but really wanna let you know how much I appreciate your channel. I discovered it in 2019 and this made me start bullet journal again. Your videos are interesting, informative and calming. When I’m so tired from studying or just in a bad mood in general, your videos are almost like a break and inspiration to me to really make me reflect what I’ve been doing and help me better with planning. Thank you for all the hard work and I’m really grateful and appreciate you’ve been sticking to it. You always bring calm and inspiration to me, so I hope you can still find and have that in your life❤️
Hey Lil doodles! How about creating our own February theme dedicated to Amanda? Let's show support and love to this beautiful artist ♡
Marisol Paws Aw I would have but I already started mine :(
Love this idea!
You should post it on social media with a hashtag like #WeLoveAmanda or something like that 🥺💖🤗
This is such a lovely idea!!! Let’s do this 💜💜💜
Love this idea💕
Next Vlog: February Bullet Journal inspired by AmandaRachLee💕
Proud of you!🙏🏽💕 I took a one month break and I’m refreshed and feeling so much better mentally✨
Hi natalie i love you can you do more school hacks pleaaaassseee luv ya byeee
Love u Natalie! 💗
Natalies Outlet I can understand you all and I’m 9 years old and I have 1 or 2 or even 3 dance classes every day and I love that you can see the stop mark in your self 🥰🥰😇
Hi Natalie! It's so cool to see your favorite RUclipsrs comment on your other favorite RUclipsrs videos! 😁
I never comment because commenting makes me anxious but I hope you’re doing well - you deserve to relax with how hard you’ve been working all these years! 💕
Welcome to the comment section 🍪
Thank you for sharing your amazing and inspiring art to us all, I have developed new skills and interests because of your channel. Congratulations on your planner! My partner almost got me one because I raved on about it and wanted one, but I already have one but will considering buying your 2021 planner if you publish it.
Take all the time you need for your self care and wellbeing. Always prioritise your own emotional, physical, psychological health, and sleep hygiene and rest because nothing else matters more than you. The people who choose to be in your life in a positive light will respect your well being with no questions or intrusions.
Rest hard and see you and your ever inspiring art and content when you return. :-) ~watching from Melbourne, Australia.
you didn’t have to explain yourself, just saying you would be going on a hiatus would have been enough, but thank you for always being personal and trusting us
Amanda: *starts tearing up* 😢
Me: on the edge of tearing up also (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
Plz rest well ur amazing we love u so much when u come back work smarter not harder plz u mean a lot to us we love u 💜💜💜💜💜💜
"You can't make everybody happy, you're not pizza"
I was just about to post the same quote! A drove past a sign that always puts up funny wisdom. lol
I hate pizza...
Uni'sSmallBuilds
Oof
I saw that quote at a pizza place
Barbara Cano wow.
Girl! You are the best! I did not realize you're so young and kicking butt! I'm 30 and struggling but, you have inspired me to pick up bullet journaling and remember how much I love to draw and doodle and just be creative. I love every single one of your videos and your artwork. You are so strong for posting this and I love you for it! You do you! Mental health is everything. I personally understand the feeling of being overwhelmed and taking on more that you realize you can chew. Take your time, take care, learn yourself and love yourself.
Hey Amanda, I really want you to know that you've inspired me to start my own bullet journal at the beginning of last year when I found your channel. Your videos mean a lot to me and have gotten me through some really rough patches in my life last year so thank you! You were also the one who introduced me to the world of bullet journalling and I can't be more grateful to you for that!
I think it takes both courage and strength to recognise that you need a break and taking a short hiatus to heal. Again, thank you for making this video to explain things to us when you didn't have to. I hope things get better for you soon and know that we'll always be here to welcome you back with open arms and plenty of positivity! ✨💕
You deserve the chance to rest and recharge, Amanda ❤️ I’m so glad you’re taking this time for yourself!
Literally only just discovered your channel and have watched 3 of your videos (this, the vertical filming setup, 1 mill + a little scroll ofc). Despite not being a RUclipsr and having the exact same pressures you have, I just wanted to say that I relate to you SO much and think your videos (those I’ve seen + scroll) and what you do are so beautiful. I feel inspired by what you’re saying, love your aesthetic and really appreciate your work! ❤️❤️ Artists change and evolve with time and the net is such a minefield but I think what you do is so so courageous and inspiring, it’s something I aspire to, and I hope you’re continuing to focus on the amazing work and inspiration you create (and on Amanda) and not that shitty 1%! You exude drive and positivity and competence across the screen, thank you for adding beauty to my world and hope 1 year on your break was super helpful and you’re back to kicking goals and concentrating on what brings you the most joy and fulfilment. Sending you so much love from Italy!! ❤️❤️
I just discovered your channel yesterday. I subscribed immediately! I hope you'll have a wonderful break. While I wait for your return, I'll enjoy watching the content that's already out there. It makes me happy to watch your videos. Everything you do is beautiful! Have the best time being Amanda:)
It’s very sad that unfortunately people on the internet can be that cruel :( it’s not nice, so well done for putting yourself on the internet and being raw about it. If people don’t have anything nice to say they shouldn’t say it.
Your bullet journal videos have helped me with my bullet journal and helped me when I have had mental health slips. Your allowed to have a break, a holiday and recharge your batteries.
Sending love and happiness ❤️❤️
Carolina Sanchez - Ignacio I agree with everything you just said 1000%! I also plan to start bullet journaling in the future..... I just need a journal first..... for now... I'm typing down my issues.... like today I didn't go to school because I wasn't feeling good😭 and for some reason I feel kinda bad and somewhat guilty😑😢😢
Kpop and Kawaii bless you hun. If you are not well you are not well you should not feel guilty about it. Most important is that you feel better, everything else can wait.
As for the bullet journal, I started mine on my computer and it was very good until I had the courage to get one. Always thought you had to make it fancy and stuff, I just needed it to be practical for me and what I needed it. So take you time :)
I am sending all my love and support to you, I hope you are well soon ❤️❤️❤️
Insta child Thank you.....we appreciate you too😘😗😘
Carolina Sanchez - Ignacio Thank you~😘 and thanks for the bullet journal tips!❤️❤️ and sending my love to you
Insta child It does.... But I'm glad she said something instead of keeping it to herself..... especially if she lives alone and being in a dark place......
I feel like this kind of burnout is happening with a lot of RUclipsrs recently. So many of us have mental health issues, and we have jobs that give us weekends, vacation time, sick days, etc. We have jobs that don’t involve people constantly sending us hateful comments. So for the people who have RUclips channels, who work on this stuff 24/7, and then have to deal with all of the criticism and negativity... it’s got to be so much more difficult.
You (and all of the RUclipsrs going through this stuff) need to realize that you need time off like the rest of us. Also, remember that internet bullies have nothing better to do than to hide behind a keyboard and pretend that they are important. And stop putting so much pressure on yourself! I know all of this is easier said than done (I often give advice that I don’t even take myself), but maybe your time off will help.
Enjoy your well-deserved break!
OLTLYRFan I noticed the same thing among people who have RUclips as a career. Especially those that have been doing it for awhile.
Good point also about the constant/frequent criticism vs most other jobs. They should have a a support system in place for content creators.
If they don’t already.
Not only RUclips :'( I feel young people in general...
No, RUclipsrs have a big audience and they talk about so it seems it happens more to them. However, it happens to a lot of students / 20-35 year olds these days, but don't have the audience or feel like they can't talk about it..
“So many of us have mental health issues“
Speak for yourself
@@1NOTTOOOLD haha IKR!
So I just found your channel today. I’m going through some rough stuff and my anxiety has been super high but you’re videos helped me chill out. They’re so relaxing! I hope you have a really good break and heal! Anxiety is the worst! Sending love ❤️
hey amanda really enjoyed watching this, amazed by your vulnerability. i noticed a lot in the video whenever you were talking about your feelings or thoughts you would dismiss them as “stupid” or “sounds silly” but they are SO totally valid. absolutely nothing you said was stupid, and just like you said, it DOES feel so good to talk about them out loud. this is one of the very reasons therapy has made such a positive and transformative impact on my own life. maybe something to think about :) you are doing great, and so wise and mature to honor your mental and emotional health. you’ve created a great career on youtube, please remember to invest and take care of yourself. sending lots of love ♥️
I dont comment on your channel much but truly, you’re such a beautiful, kind, bright artist with so much skill. I’m a burnt out college student but I put on your videos while I study and you give me a lot of motivation- so thank you! I understand how negative comments can affect you because things ive experienced in the past still affect my mental health to this day but you dont have to please or justify yourself to *anyone*. This is your channel and you’re trying your absolute best (which sooo many people are grateful for). Please know that the many fans who truly love you want you to feel fulfilled and happy with your own work. Enjoy your break 💖💛💙 Go forward doing things for you!
2019 was a trying year for sure. I feel what you're going through. I went through a very difficult time towards the end of 2019 as well where I had friends (or so I thought were friends) turn their back on me and say not so nice things about me behind my back. Also, had a career change as well.
Just know that 2020 will be an amazing year - a year of self discovery, of hope, of growth. This break is well deserved, as you have given us your all for so many years. You are an amazing person!
Your bullet/monthly bujo setup vids has been my inspiration to start my own bujo. Im so happy, inspired & amazed by your unique ideas. Im a new fan and just started to watch you last November. Its sad to hear and watch this but i know you deserve every good things in the world. Have a wonderful break. You deserve it love. Mwaaa ♡
Thank you so so much for sharing all your videos. They are amazing and so are you. I think it is also amazing how you are able to create so many beautiful things; I truly and sincerely admire you. I also want to thank you for introducing me to bullet journaling: it has made my life a lot easier, and planning has helped me relax and feel better too. I hope you can take a break for as long as you need to and that you can fully rest. I hope you can concentrate on just you and what you want to do and nothing else. Thank you so much for everything (sending lots of love and virtual hugs).
You deserve a break. If you are successful, sometimes people tend to be lonely up there. This is a phase, you'll get through this. Try to do something that'll make you grounded again.
Miss ma’am you can take all the time you need we love tou
It’s okay Amanda,
We will support you no matter what and we will still love you. ❤️❤️❤️
It’s important to break sometimes and we understand, please do what’s best for you!!
Aww i just found your channel.. I'm so sorry you're dealing w mental health issues, but am happy that you're doing what you need to do for you. I've struggled w mental health issues my whole life, so I completely understand. I wish you the best, and look forward to seeing more videos from you in the future 💜
Haters: *Attacks Amanda*
Me: ╰(‵□′)╯
*am ready to throw hands*
I always have to remind myself of something my dad always says, “I can’t tell you how to succeed but I can tell you how to fail-try to please everyone.” I’m so sorry about all the negativity and I thought your planner was beautiful. Take all the time you need. Blessings on you!
2019 was so rough. I ended up going to seek help from a professional. Working on your personal mental health is so incredibly important. Take care of yourself!!
Me too! Wishing you all the best
oh my goodness amanda! please take as long as you need! just rest and relax! you are so talented and amazing i rlly look up to you when it comes to art and bullet journaling and having such a great mindset in life! i love all your bullet journal spreads and just everything you do! love you!
I love your videos ever since. I feel it is so natural (and inevitably) that a person who grown so big, like you will have those feelings and fears. And at that point its important, even essential to get a proffesional mental support. Bcs it can be so over whelming. It is so much pressure and expectations and bad comments to deal with (I know many YT'bers who simply block people with nasty comments). Its important to anyone who under pressure. Not mention someone who has so many followers. Thank you for everything you put online and sharing from your talent and your positive vibe. I think you inspired many people along the way.
Just for you to know: I started Bullet Journalling because of you❤️
I’ll miss you so much but I promise I’ll be here waiting for you to come back🙏
Hope you put your life all together as soon as possible! Big kisses from 🇵🇹
I am so sorry that you had to deal with all of this. I guess this was a really hard decision for you, but everyone needs a break sometimes and it is important to listen to your body. My year was definitely not the best either but your videos and the bullet journaling helped me to get through a really difficult time, so I just wanted to say thank you for that . It has been an amazing journey and I am excited to see where it's going next. I wish you all the best, take your time and do what you need. You are amazing and you don't have to prove it to anyone!
Take the time you need and we will be here waiting for you💖
I’ve struggled through most of my life with my mental health, it took me years and much pain to learn that it needs to be a priority, but I’m so glad you learned that sooner, and we want to see you happy and healthy over anything else. We love you and look forward for when you feel ready and mentally healthy enough to return. I honestly think all of the lil doodles would prefer you be happy and never upload again than to be struggling and providing content. (And I just want to throw out that your community is overwhelmingly positive because it’s a reflection of you, creators attract viewers with similar attitudes and the positivity and happiness you spread attracts mostly those type of people towards your channel) 💜
So much love to you! I've looked up to you so much as a fellow 21-year-old artist and I've loved growing up with you over the past few years :) so freakin good of you to take a break honestly, everyone needs that work-life balance and I'm so happy you're finding yours! So important to look after yourself
Heeyyyyy
Omg I just saw the title 😭😭
If it is for mental health and just taking a internet detox and also we know you work extremely hard. ❤❤then thats totally ok. then pls pls dont worry abuot us. We will miss u but we will be lookung forward to seeing your beautiful face when you are thinking about returning ❤❤❤❤
2019 was a roller coaster for most people, and that includes me. Thoughts when alone kicked in so bad specially when you’re living in Japan.... Anywwy.
My therapist introduced me to bullet journal as part of my healing while I was struggling with my mental health.
I searched on it on YT and the very first video I watched was yours.
You somehow saved me from my mental struggle becuase you inspire me to make my bullet journal colorful and remind myself that I’m okay to be myself on my journal.
Taking a break is very essential. Doesnt have to be a month, it can be 2 months or a year. when u feel like going back we will welcome you with open arms.
I only just discovered your channel last year and instantly loved it. I got your journal for Christmas and couldn't be happier with it. Take from someone who also suffers from mental health issues, it sucks and it's not just something you can will yourself through. Dispite how it may feel like you should be able to. You have a lot of videos on RUclips and I haven't even watched them all yet. If we need our Amanda fix we can always go backwards until you're ready to come back. Take your time, don't rush It, and spend time focusing on you.
I just started bullet journalling last year. Though I don't always recreate your set up but they always inspire me and give me ideas on themes that fit my mood and taste. You are amazing and I hope I can say to not mind haters but it's not that easy. Take your time. Take a rest and everyone will wait for your return. Love you 😘
Try to get out of your apartment too while you’re gone. It’s so important and it gives you perspective. Be social please and have a lot of fun!
Garrett Spillane yes! As someone who’s struggled with depression, sometimes you don’t realize how bad you need to get off the internet, leave the house, and be around people until you actually do it!
So happy that you're taking some time for you, Amanda ♥️ Forever inspired by what you do, both as a viewer and creator, and am even more inspired to see you put yourself first so that you can continue doing amazing things.
I love this!!! My favorite creators supporting each other!! Yesss we need more of this in 2020 🥰
Queens supporting queens
I'm so happy to have found you and that you're back from break! 💜 You're gorgeous. Your apartment is stunning. I'm 100% jealous of your stationary collection. Your plan with me's are awesome! Not every setup is for everyone and people don't need to be shitty if one month doesn't call to them; absolutely nobody signs up for that. 💕
Hi,Amanda.I to follow your videos about a few months ago,and it’s always been great when I was watching your videos . You have inspired me to do boju for 2020.And I really like you for the first time I saw you because I like drawing and all that crafty stuff myself and the first time I saw you I’m like o this youtuber is the best one I’ll ever meet .So if you need a break, just do it !I'm apparently sick right now and watching your videos,so please,if you’re not feeling well or your tired, just go take a break for one week , one month or even one year , as long as you need .I believe your doodles are always going to be here for you waiting for you to comeback
Amanda,
I wanted to give you some advice as a person recovering from anxiety.
On your break, go out and find your people. Find a community. A safe space where you can talk to people and normalize your feelings or empathize with others to help your own anxiety. Search your local stationary shops for events or pick up a new hobby and hang out with the people there. Or start with the friends you have and find a place where you can feel safe and okay to be all of you, anxious or not. Then, when you head back into your new reconstructed work schedule, you have at least one comfortable spot where work and the comments and the burnout cannot follow. And you can be at peace during those moments.
I hope this helps. Get lots of good rest, make a self care spread, and take your time. We will all be waiting with love and compassion when you are ready to come back. :)
I wholeheartedly second this suggestion. Building some time into my routine where I can just be myself with people who truly understand what it's like to struggle with their mental health has been absolutely essential for me. Here in the UK, we have a charity called Mind, and I've been a member of one of their support groups for 3 years now. There is something so powerful about opening up and sharing how you are feeling, and having that validated by others who have shared those feelings, thought patterns, etc.
amanda! i’m so happy you are helping yourself, it’s very important, we love you and we can wait as long as you need to get back to you 💓. when i showed up early to your insta post and you responded to my comment it literally made my day and you also told me happy birthday on a livestream and i went back and screen recorded it and i will never forget those moments of extreme joy you provided me. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE 💓🥰
Your amazing! Your setups are not amazing, there mind blowing, and beatiful! Those small people should not be the ones to stop you from your passion, I love your setups, because of you I love stationary and bujo. I want to thank you for everything.. have a great calming break! Amanda.
Sending you my love and support! 💕
Honestly... I had been wondering when you were going to take a break. I've been noticing you need it. Take all the time you need! Selfcare is so important!
I just recently started bullet journaling and watching you always inspires me. I love all of your content and even though I’ll miss it I want to see content you are proud ofッ I wish you the best of luck with “plain old” Amanda and I’m sending you so much love
I can relate so much, I’m also an artist and negative comments can make me so insecure because I’m also a people pleaser. Periodically I feel the need to take a break it’s healthy and you take control of yourself and your thoughts, I feel that I grow as an artist when I put everything back in perspective. I’ll miss your videos, but I’m sure you’ll come back stronger. It’s sad when life makes you loose joy in art I’m really scared when I feel that happening to me... just do what you love at your own pace just for the joy of it. Good luck 💕
So so much love to you, Amanda! Your channel is a gift and an inspiration. I’m not an artist by any stretch of the imagination, and I’ve been inspired to create and bullet journal because of you. I’ve been encouraged and empowered to try things and develops skills I never would have if not for you. You and your talents are such a blessing. I will be praying for your time of respite. ❤️
amanda, you were the person i came across on youtube who made my start my first bullet journal. i have been bullet journaling for more than 3 years now, and you’re the person i always refer to first for ideas and inspiration, because what you do with your designs are always so unique and interesting 😍 so many others doing bullet journaling also say they take inspiration from you, which just shows how respected you are among the community!
if anything, after i started following your work, i learnt from you that bullet journaling is not about fulfilling expectations, but about letting your creativity flow and creating something that is satisfying to yourself. and i cannot thank you enough for that 🙏🏼
everyone knows that as your area and scope of influence increases, the number of people who criticize your work also increases. haters have nothing better to do other than be jealous of your success and impose their own inflated expectations on you, when they themselves cannot even fulfill a thousandth of what you’re bringing to the table. we know how hard it must have been to decide to share your personal struggles on this with us, and we thank you for being honest and real, and also respect you for being so mature and strong 🙇🏻♀️ it’s just sad how toxic the internet can be to young, talented and genuine people like yourself..but we will support you all the way 💪🏼
please don’t feel sorry or bad for deciding to take a break. as much as we will miss you, self care and self love is pretty much the most important thing to keep your mind healthy, so take as much time off as you need. we’ll keep you in our prayers, and we love and cherish you very much. please take care ❤️
Me: starts my first BuJo
Amanda: takes break
We understand everything, take your time💞
♥U
Анна Емшанова literally me🤡🤡🤡
Same but she deserves it (prob feel the same as you)
Me tooo. My 1st bujo 2020
Анна Емшанова my*
@@LuvieIrene thanks💞
I just recently discovered your channel whilst watching vlogs. I really liked the way you documented your trips (aesthetic, styling etc) but the thing that really stood out, for me, was your personality.
So full of positive energy and could just tell that you’re a genuinely wholesome person that I think I might find myself watching more of your videos.
I do hope that you heal during this break and come back fully rejuvenated for your fans, and most importantly, yourself.
Fan from Australia ❤️
I understand you so well I wish I could explain myself like that in the stuff that make me suffer internally I’m glad you are recognizing these things inside of you and kind of listening and paying attention to yourself by taking this little break and allow yourself to breathe is so SO important ♥️✨ I hope you can continue to find balance in the struggles you are faced with. If it helps when you start feeling down always remember all the things you’ve achieved with your hard work and how far you’ve come 💜
You know what girl? Take all the time that you need, take a month off, or two, or a whole year, or however long you feel you need so that you can be happy. Take a vacation and do something relaxing, I wish you the best 😊
i'm only ten minutes in the video and i almost started crying. i recognise so much of what you're saying.. i'm 21 aswell and i've been struggling with exhaustion and panic attacks for nearly 5 years. in my 2,5 years of university i've felt the best i've been in a while but also the worst. even though i should be happy and i mostly am, i push myself way too hard and it brings me down a lot.
just try to remember that no one should expect anything of you and that your mental health always comes first. as hard as that is sometimes, it's the most important and only thing we can do. so take good care of yourself, and know that i and many others love you so much.
So sorry you feel this. I started watching your videos about a month ago, and I find them so calming and therapeutic to watch. I turned to bullet journalling as a bit of an escape because 2019 was a really hard year mentally and I needed a creative outlet to organise thoughts/life etc.... If you are interested in self-care books I recommend The Self-Care Revolution by Suzy Reading and The Four Pillar Plan by Dr Rangan Chattergee. The first is a little .... floaty? Not sure what the word is but I enjoyed it anyway. The second is very practical and includes a lot of science around why we should be doing certain things for self care. Positive Psychology is also something that saved me last year and I'm currently undertaking CBT which I cannot tell you how amazing and practical that is! Good luck and take whatever time you need.
I am so sorry this has been a difficult time for you! You do make amazing videos. I am new to bullet journaling and have recently found yours so helpful! I am so sad that you have had such horrible reactions from a few. Know that you are an amazing, lovely person with out doing all these things! I am praying that you have are able to have space and time to know this at a deeper level and discover more about who you are! Blessings upon blessings!
It's not even surprising that I'm crying seeing her like this. We love her so much. We love you lady♥
You can take any time you need, darling!
Everyone needs a break every once in a
While. I know how hard you work! So taking a break is crucial.
@Insta child ❤️❤️
Yes queen, you do you. Thank you so much for having the courage to be online and teaching us all to be better people. I literally just started watching your videos and to see this one from six days ago made me cry. I’ve been stir crazy before through cabin fever so I understand how being in your thoughts can affect you and you will get through this, you seem strong and extremely intelligent, just feel all your feelings and come back strong! I’m a newbie bujo and you are giving me great advice! #fuckthehaters
You are an amazing human being and I found your videos last year and you’ve inspired me as an artist and person. Mental health is so important and I know exactly how you feel, and I struggle with it a lot too, you are not alone. You are so brave for speaking about your experience and you are so amazing for being so honest and you continue to be an inspiration. People are brutal out there and haters are going to hate. It’s such a shame because you are so talented and they are just jealous and want to take you down. You are so smart and skilled and kind, I’m so sad you had to deal with all that negativity. No one deserves to be hated on, so ignore those haters the best you can. I think you’re awesome and amazing and you don’t know me but I’m like all your other doodlers and we love you. I will keep sending you positive living vibes and hope you heal and take all the time you need, your health mental and physical is important, do this for you, and as a result, your happiness is our happiness! =). Stay strong and amazing! ❤️❤️❤️
8:37 till 9:09 was really heart touching
Literally broke my heart 💔💔
Those people who broke amanda’s heart will suffer one day when they will face such a situation
Especially those negative comments during amanda’s first merchandise
We all know that how happy and super excited amanda was during her planner launch
And how could people just say like this
Always we will be there for you amanda
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
you have inspired me to start my own bullet journal this year and renewed my love of drawing and doodling. Get well soon, i also suffer from panic attacks so i can relate xx Greetings from Ireland x
I started bullet journaling about a year and a half ago because of you, your videos are so inspiring and had just recently sub to your channel. Take as long of a break as you need, the real fans and supporters will understand and not hate you for it. 2019 was a very odd / bad year for a lot of people. having to deal with trashy people is always the worst. Remember bad times are just times that are bad they won't last forever unless you let it so I like to keep pushing forward and stay positive during those times.
oh, you are just the sweetest. As a new subscriber and someone who just started their you tube journey, I appreciate this and wish you healing and encourage you to take as much time as you need.
I made a job of something I loved and failed to recognize when it began to feel un-fun. I ended up selling my business and felt so burnt out, that I still can't find the joy in it anymore. I wish I had taken a step back like you are doing to preserve the love for it.
Good for you!
after watching that i just wanted to reach though my screen to hug her...
I’ll miss you so much😭 I’m following you for over 4 years now and I know that you wouldn’t have done this, then it wasn’t really important. We are supporting you, no matter what you’re doing. Take care of your mental health ❤️
New to your channel and I feel for you tremendously. This was very brave to be this vulnerable and honest. Don’t apologize for how you feel. Yes, we may all think to rationalize our negative thoughts, but you sometimes get to the breaking point as you are a human and not a machine! Sending you a huge virtual hug. Try to not put so much pressure on yourself and try to connect back to your joy and passion of the art. Maybe disable comments for awhile or at least on your monthly set up videos?? Anyway, I’m on a totally different career path but can relate 100!! I think I needed to find you and hear this today. Thank you for sharing your heart and take your time! ❤️
As a Follower (a lil'doodle that doesn't know how to draw a straight line) I just want to say: LOVE YOU! Love all your work, your art. I always watch your videos thinking: "I would love to do a 10th of what she does - would be SOOOO Happy!" And I'm always waiting for the next video. But now I'm thinking: "Take your time, take all the time you need, and I will be here whenever (in a month or a year) you come back. And if you decide to post once a year I will be here to see it and like it. THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR LOVE AND YOUR ART - LOVE 💖💖💖
I love you so much Amanda! You always always have my support 💜 I'm proud of you for putting yourself first. Take care of yourself, rest, do what you need. You are such an amazing person and I know how hard and exhausting this can be. Sending you so much love 💕
Thank you for being so vulnerable. Self-care and self-reflection are so important! You need to take care of yourself first and foremost before you can do anything for others. Love you and everything you have done. I fully support you, your decision and choice. 💗
It makes me so sad that you’re feeling this way. Your channel has brought me, and so many others, so much joy! I hope that the time off allows you the space to figure things out and you can find some peace and happiness! 🌟❤️🌟
Amanda, thank you so much for your candid, heartfelt words. I've so enjoyed your channel and definitely will in the future (if that's best for YOU, Amanda :). You have truly inspired me in my new bullet journaling adventures. I'm 55 years old and I've so enjoyed your gifts/youthful energy that you bring to this community. Bullet journaling has given me so much peace in my life as a single mother. Keeps me more centered, and not so overwhelmed with life.
You are so precious, my dear. And you are in my 🙏's as you take this time, just for YOU.
Sending positive strength thru prayer and hugs💞,
Anna
2019 was tough on me too. The best thing I did was make a career change. Take as long as you need ❤️💜❤️💜❤️
Areli Norman Same here 👩🏽💻🌟
Being a perfectionist is one of my character defects, and it is exhausting.....putting so much pressure on yourself, Setting high expectations, and unattainable goals leads to not being perfect. I relate and I understand how being a people pleaser, on top of being a perfectionist, will literally cause a mental, physical, and emotional breakdown. Either you listen to your gut or your body will be do it for you. You have the world at your heals and have accomplished so much in your short time you have been here on earth, Your amazing, go rest,sleep, eat, and party🥰🥰🥰✌🏼❤️🌱
You are brave and beautiful to be so open and honest why you're taking a break. What a sweet soul you are! Hope you enjoy the break and don't feel rushed to return. Your channel has inspired me to have fun learning to doodle. Thank you!
amanda, this hurts to see you in this kind of pain but we are here to support you so take as long of a break as you need! i had a similar situation about a year ago where i just overworked my body with school and work and i ended up getting mono and it was my body's way of saying take a break or else we're just shutting down. it was scary and frustrating but afterwards its helped me learn to prioritize my health over what people expect of me. sending love, emma