Great to go back and see Jess and the boys in the early days. If anyone doubts DID simply watch Jess, Jamie, Ed, Ollie in this video and then watch them again now in 2018.. no one can put on those accents and mannerisms for that long.
@@chloev9667 Hey... I stumbled across this comment looking for the original video of this (I'm the girl with agoraphobia) and I just wanted to say you can be her again. Or even a better version of her. I did - and I'm still with Jake! Sending all my love, Bex x
i am really surprised about the amount of people on here who don't believe that mental illness exist or believe that these people are just crying for attention. one of the criteria for diagnosis is impairment which means a person feels that this illness is stopping them from living a complete life to their satisfaction. Its sad to see stigma reign supreme on here. This is exactly why this video is needed.
I dont think the bipolar girl's family handled her condition very well - saying it's weird, misunderstanding the condition, and saying they wish she didn't have it doesnt help.
@@PutinsMommyNeverHuggedHim I am currently learning nervous system regulation from a woman called Irene Lyon, who is on RUclips . She explains the biology of the states of bipolar, as well as how trauma effects brain chemistry and regulation, and teach how they can be regulated. She has expanded my opinion to what it is now. I am currently looking for a source to show you, where she mentions this.
Lol I was like “that’s definitely a young boy!” 😆 Got a laugh from that, because kids are awesomely fun! Love that Jess (& alters??? Not sure what the polite term is here) as well as the others were so open about their lives, there’s a lot of stigma for mental illness and sometimes you want so, so badly to just snap your fingers and be NORMAL. That the things that leave you paralyzed but most people manage just fine...weren’t such a challenge for you. It can be really hard to explain to friends and loved ones too, because they just don’t understand how comparatively simple things aren’t simple or easy for you. And sometimes you don’t know understand either. For added fun lol. Still, it’s videos like these that normalize mental health...I have adhd, anxiety, and a tinge of ocd traits that act up when I’m stressed. There are a lot of daily adult tasks that I find insanely difficult because focus/motivation/attention is difficult. For example, I hate bills. Not because of the money, but because it relies on deadlines. And my spirit animal may not be Ollie, but it IS the white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland. So that’s can be an issue. Tl;dr: Ollie is awesome! Love that Jess & the other people featured opened up b/c it helps normalize mental health. Oh and having a mental illness can really suck...you sometimes wish you could just be NORMAL and not have those problems.
It sucks that Jess will have the hardest time seeking treatment because people don't believe in it, and actually unifying the alters can take decades to do.
That why I give a shit about doctors and so on. You'll don't go to see a doc out of a glim of fun. You want help and they treat you like a piece of shit!
I had a collage professor that was teaching psychology and he refused to talk about DID because he said in all his years as a psychologist he never met anyone with true DID.....dumby didn't realize he had been teaching someone with it for months 😒
This documentary might have saved me. It helped me understand that my mood wasn't normal. Got the diagnosis of Depression and Generalised anxiety disorder. I'm way better than I was but I still have my lows. No matter what everyone is going through, please keep doors open. We all need someone during those low times
I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder after struggling with anorexia and anxiety since I was 12 and I once met the loveliest girl while in the eating disorder unit of a hospital, her name was Willow and she had DID. When I met her I found her quite strange but we became best friends anyway, her personalities were much different from Jess's but equally unique and it and when she killed herself, all I wanted to do was go back to her old room in that hospital and look at the wall where we scratched our names. Willow and Lilo friends for life in a heart is what we engraved into the wall. Not a day goes by where I don't miss her and her personalities.
Dear Jess, Ed, Jake, Jamie and Ollie, I decided to go back to some of your earlier videos that I haven't seen and this one, THIS ONE is the true representation of how far you all have come. I am so proud of you for not letting the stigmas keep you hidden from the world. I have learnt so much watching you. I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year with BPD, which in itself is so so difficult to adjust too. I hope my boyfriend will stick by me the way Gaz sticks with you. You both inspire and show that there is hope for the rest of us. Jess, you have come so far. I can only hope that it can be the same for me. Stay as amazing as you are. Lots of Love, Tarryn
In the past, I have only ever enjoyed professional documentaries about anything psychology-related. However, this film reveals some of the greatest insights to mental illnesses that I have ever seen. As somebody who struggles with anxiety and depression, it feels so wonderful to know that other people feel this way too. To see people go through your hardships, have the intrusive thoughts that plague you, to witness honest emotion and the individual behind the mask... It really helps you put things in perspective. When dealing with mental illnesses, it's hard to feel like you aren't isolated and alone, but this film really helps affirm the fact that I am not the only one struggling. There are so many people out there dealing with your demons, and it's not so difficult to comprehend when you are able to witness the illnesses firsthand.
Hi Kaeleen, I don’t have DID (yet) but I do have the others except for BPD and I’m ADHD. I totally feel for you and everyone else and I’d love to be your friend. -Kelly (host) The Broken Heart System
I absolutely love Jess upon seeing this documentary, the way she is so proactive on bringing awareness to people is inspiring, and I also love how her partner loves and understands her alters so well!
I'm currently recovering from depression, and am finally starting to feel better each day. When Bex was talking about how she was put on the waiting list, I completely understand how hopeless she felt. When I went to a doctor to seek help, I was told that yes, I did have depression, and that I would be put on the waiting list for a free, public psychologist, which could be up to two months. The exact same day, after my appointment, I ran from home and sat on the cliff I had imagined throwing myself off of so many times. I remember sitting on this rock, crying so hard because I thought that because I'd finally accepted that I needed help, that things would start getting easier to cope with straight away. To realise I wasn't sick enough, or I wasn't struggling enough to be helped made me feel worthless. I didn't know how to convey how distraught I was every single day. I think the wait for help in terms of mental health is so frustrating, because it makes you feel worse when you're told that you will get help, but not YET. Not now when you feel like you really need it. I know when I went to the doctors, I only went because I felt like there was no way of me coping on my own anymore, and to be told that I'd have to keep coping for another 2 months scared the shit out of me.
+Imayc 2 months is a long time to wait for anyone in distress. I completely understand. I hope things are going well for you now. I have my BPD, DID, PTSD, Anxiety and Agoraphobia diagnosis. That was a few years ago. The psychiatrist who I had has retired and no replacement was given. My Family doctor referred me in November of 2016 to DBT program that doesn't allow for outside Mental Health practitioners and I am still waiting on the 2 -2 1/2 year waiting list. That is here in Ontario Canada. They do have a crisis center that will take you when you may be a danger to yourself or others, but that is only for 5 days. It's so very frustrating when you are told you are sick but unlike any other illnesses, your treatment can take forever. Hang in there! things will get better and there is always hope. I actually purchased a DBT skills training manual from Amazon and am working through the exercises on my own for now. Blessings to all of those who suffer... remember you never have to suffer in silence.
JESS YOU'RE SO BRAVE not just to go public with your disorder but use the opportunity to educate a huge room full of people on it, you're so inspirational
Thanks so much Jess for uploading, this is my absolute favourite documentary ever because it tells things from our perspective. So glad to find this here on RUclips!!! Hope you're doing well xx
absolutely fantastic doc, i suffer with anxiety and panic attacks and eveyone of you guys should be majorly proud of yourselfs. thank you for the share
This was the best documentary ever! I mean, I'm a big fan of documentaries of all kind but this one was awesome! I'm not diagnosticed but I'm practically sure I have social anxiety and depression... I actually cried a bit seeing all these people facing some things I had to face too and...yeah this was really great. Thanks for giving me the link of this video on tumblr. I couldn't find it and I really wanted to see it. ^^ I wish you and your alters the best for the future!
+Alysée D You can't be pretty sure of anything, it's silly to even try to diagnose yourself with things that you haven't studied at a psychiatrists level. If you're concerned discuss with your GP.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us Jess, Ed, Jamie, Ollie and Gaz. I can see how much this would help another. It’s made me realise that a childhood friend probably had this. We used to call it “channeling” and thought it was ghosts who didn’t know they were ghosts. I had my doubts when she did it, but the level of commitment and acting was either beyond Oscar level. Or she really was a channeling medium. Sadly we didn’t remain friends, and she won’t speak to me as an adult either. She was very very troubled and difficult to be friends with, but I didn’t break away from her, it was her from me 😢
I've been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, BUT I think like many experts that it doesn't really even exist as it's described in the books. In my case, I have imaginary people living inside my head and I spend most of my days in imaginary worlds or thinking from someone else's perspective (managing my job and social life at the same time), but I still don't really think I'm any of those persons. That would make a normal life impossible and the diagnose to be far more serious than DID. I grew up in a violent home and formed the habit of imaginary persons very early on. Took a long time before through therapy I realized that people living inside my head are really me. I had split my personality so that I thought I'm not good at something, but my imaginary person is. Or wished I was like some of my imaginary people. They're all me, but I find it really hard to understand that. It's also hard to describe my personality, I'm all kinds of things (like all of us) but I don't like to think about myself, only those other people inside my head who are far better in everything...though they're just as good as I'm in reality. Anyway, I can control my behavior and I don't think it can be seen from the outside. I know who is thinking in the moment I'm living in (usually it's several days / person), but I don't change my voice or anything that would seem "crazy". Only real problem is that one of the personalities is really depressed, suicidal and gets panic attacks...been meditating to block that side away, it's scary. No-one reads this but wrote anyway.
Immu Ör I'm not a professional by any means, but DID is incredibly multifaceted, and as long as one or more alternate personalities to yours comes forward, then clinically you do have DID (of course theres a couple other points to the criteria, but what you describe does sound like DID to me.) Dissociation comes in many forms and I'm positive that the world of psychology doesn't have them all pinned down and figured out yet, and thankfully it's documentaries like this and other kinds of awareness campaigns that move the research forward, so maybe you could achieve a diagnosis more specific to you one day. ☺️
Immu Ör just like manic, depressive, and anxiety symptoms differ from person to person, so can dissociative symptoms. your DID may not affect you the same way as the girl in in the video, but you may very well still have DID.
Hello! I know that this comment is old but I thought I would chime in. So I have been diagnosed with DID for about 2 and a half years. I understand that you don't feel like any of these "other people", because that is how I feel, but do you ever lose time? I sometimes lose huge chunks of time completely because I was not in reality, I was inside of my head, if that makes sense. Are you ever not active in your physical body? And what do you mean when you say you know who is thinking? I would love to chat about it with you if you would ever like too. If you don't lose time but your sense of self changes, like you can feel a different alter, that is a sign of DDNOS, rather than DID.
This was interesting, but as a man with a psychotic disorder, I felt kind of un represented. The documentary did a good job of following Jess, Bex, Tillie, and Kiera but it kind of glossed over the two men that actually got interviewed. Each was only shown once and there was no opportunity to see how they dealt with their illnesses over time. It also felt like parts of this film may perpetuate the stereotype that individuals with mental illness are mainly young, white females with low self esteem and mood problems. I think the people shown demonstrated strength, but it kind of gave a false impression of homogeny among individuals with mental illness. I really liked the questions that were asked throughout the clip and would have loved to hear people who answered them but were not prominently featured expand on their answers. While not perfect, this video is informative and interesting. Thank you for posting.
Seems like all of it is taking place in the UK, so it's not as diverse as USA would be. I'm currently living in the UK and other nationalities seem to keep to themselves (or, coming from me, ourselves).
Thursday I agree. There was more than they could handle in one documentary, they took on too much. It really should've been a docu-series. This was great, however a series would've given each person in this sufficient time to represent their illness.
God, around 11:30 really got to me... I just felt so identified because I was so fun and bubbly and happy when I first got together with my boyfriend and its been about a year since I got diagnosed with depression now, although he says he thinks I changed into being depressed pretty much as soon as we got together... so about 6 years ago now... So when Bex said "I just wanna be that person again, I just wanna be her, and I don't know how"... Damn, that really hit home.
You ma'am, Miss Jess..... are my new super hero. And over night have become one of my new favorite youtubers. You overcame something astonishingly traumatic, endured troubling times and have now finished university. I needed to see this so hard right now. You are so amazing. Thank you.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I just discovered this documentary. I've suffered from Major Depression Disorder since I was seven years old, on top of my ADHD. I've fallen into a depressive state again and this documentary... It makes me feel less alone.
All the individuals in this documentary are amazing, I've watched it a couple of times now. I suffer from anxiety and I also experience extreme highs and lows, where I can feel amazing and then in the next instance want to disappear. The candidness of everyone in the documentary is so refreshing, and I hope that it helps others to be more understanding of mental health conditions. I've overheard how some people with mental health conditions are talked about, and I fear the assumptions that people readily make about others when they do not know them at all, due to a label or diagnosis. Hopefully programmes like this are helping to challenge these assumptions in society.
The long term partners must be absolute saints/warriors too. I tried it once, can't say its something I'd willing try again. I just ended up in the most awful place trying to manage my own shit and be there. I think some people can handle it, some people can't but don't leave because its the 'right thing to do'. Some know they can't and walk out because it does no one any good to stay in that situation, only to find themselves chastised by people who've never been there. Others want to stay but get pushed out or shut out. Mental Health can ruin relationships and futures. The amount of times I'd desperately hoped for help or a solution that never came for someone else. I honestly teared up several times watching this. One thing that for some reason hit home was the way the girl with blue hair said "I'm sorry" at the party. Just her intonation and everything it just reminded me far too much of someone else; I think my stomach fell through the floor. I wish yo guys all the best 2 years on. But am also curious to see a follow up documentary and show their personal progress, and progress in the system, or lack of... Thanks for sharing this.
ex gf suffers anxiety,ptsd,BPD and depression alcoholism and addiction with other issues,and in all honesty i would happily go back,she wasnt a bad person though. i guess dating people with said issues it helps to be idk more open to the conditions and the side affects of them(not saying you're close minded but idk be more accepting sort of open,not meaning take shit though either) although dating someone with mental health,likelihood is both sides will have their own issues. although ino someone one day will give you shit for you though about not being willing to go there.which tbh i can understand why you have that view :) and i am just about to watch this,i will probably cry so dw about the tearing up part haha :P
Yeah, its a difficult one and tbh I think it depends on the circumstances. My mental health wasn't great anyway at that point due to some situation things, only I hadn't really let myself accept that at the time.And the two of us together, it was was getting unmanageable. I'd stress her out and I'd be anxious about her all the time. I think it depends as well if the other person is still somehow managing to give you the affection and what you need out of the relationship, for both parties, because at the end of the day thats what it comes down too which is I guess what you mean. For example, if you are an extremely socialable person but your partner has really bad anxiety, you either have to be okay with them regularly dropping out on you last minute and things like that. And not wanting to do really basic things. And if you can do that long term then that it will work. I always feel like though that just results in you being pushed in two different direction and you end up unrealisng making both parties do things that arent them. I personally wouldn't have been able to long term, I love gigs, being sociable, having new experiences and travelling and I need those things to be happy. But it would be the idea of hell for my ex. If we did what would suit her, I'd be miserable, and if she tried to the things I like she'd have to psych her self up so much it would stress her out too much. I think we both knew that too which sucked.You get me? I think you do from what you've said anyway. I know it might sound selfish to some extent but sometimes you just aren't right for the other person. I did the 3am suicide phone calls, self harm, the doctors appointment, sitting with her so she could work at uni around strangers, she wouldn't sleep if i was next to her either. She tried to help me too with self harm when I was struggling to cope. But it wasn't healthy for either of us - we both felt like we weren't good enough. I don't regret being there 24/7. But I wouldn't do it again by choice, atm theres no way I could cope at all. Maybe if I was in a better place myself. But the mere mention of some of these things makes my stomach drop through the floor a little still. I help people by listening and referring them and explaining my experiences, but I don't think I could be a full time support mechanism again. I hope that makes more sense?
no i completely understand your view point and like you said it does depend also on cicumstances and so fort,and if mentally you aint all there so to speak at the current time its alot harder to cope with someone who has mental health issues and i really hope that if you have been judged on needing to leave you didn't take it so badly as you need to look after yourself first. i should have mentioned the ex and me where Long distance but i dealt with her self hate of her body,the mood swings,the depression,and her recovery and relapse,hell i am the reason she was put into the position twice to get the help she needed to be back on the road to recovery at current,she has anxiety and she is sorta reserved,she likes smaller groups of people,although at current i think she hardly talks to anyone(an issue i tried also sorting from 3500 miles away). This is i guess with me suffering from depression and yeah it gets bad enough its worriful to my mum i may be Bipolar but i can sorta control it better than i did 4 years ago atleast.but i think with that,being near suicidal in the past and being abit more reserved myself in the fact i hate large groups and prefer a smaller closer circle of friends all that sort of helps me with her.that and dealing with everyones mental health that i came across that needed the health for years.its no easy at all,the hurt you get from watching them suffer sucks and in no way is a full time support mechanism easy or something anyone really aspires to be,and you can't be judged for it not being something you are willing to do.you sacrifice a shit tonne of sleep,mental capacity and normally sink heart into it. and I've helped people for years,i listen,try and understand,refer ti past experiances,or try use a curious mind and think of possible other issues,i normally try talk people through and find the route problem or find other issues connected to a current issue,i normally know if someones lying to so :P. what matters is you've helped people in the past,and sound like you still do. theres a quote from a video i watched motivational video and it sorta goes like this " if at the end of you life(seemed more in a suicidal aspect than natural) and you save someones life,was all the pain worth it,is life worth living. and i think for situations like this thats a good quote,not to say you need to suffer all your life but to think that even if you give up,dont ever help again,when you're naturally at deaths door,you know you helped atleast one person,thats all that matters,you saved one life :).
Yeah, maybe thats true. I dunno I've been punishing myself for not being strong enough but it is what it is. Distance is hard on anybody, but at least in some sense that way you have your own space and time. Kinda. Idk. Its nice to have a good conversation about these topics online, as alot of my friends haven't been there in any way - which I'm thankful for, but at the same time it makes it difficult to explain things. I think you are right. But also because unfortunately you can't save everyone and its ultimately down to how well they can handle their illness, what professional help they can get and and how severe it gets. :/
the friends that stopped talking to you Jess are stupid uneducated on your condition and not worth having as friend's anyway, you are above them hun. a TRUE friend will try to find out more about your condition and support you , those are the friend's worth keeping around :D
I was one of the cast members on this documentary :) it was an absolute pleasure working with firecracker films they where absolutely lovely people and I honestly felt extremely sympathetic for the other cast members it’s been 9 years now but I will never forget watching this! ❤️
I seriously hope they do another like this- there are so many more disorders that deserve to be talked about and shown from a real persons perspective.
THANK you for this. I am fascinated with mental health issues and challenges and I want to be an advocate and support for those who have various issues and be a voice for those who can't speak. I want to educate myself. I struggle with some anxiety but I manage it the best I can. You inspire me! Thank you for educating everyone about your DID. You're amazing!
It's absolutely tragic how BBC manages to ruin all its programmes with excessively loud music and muffled, low-volume dialogue. This is an important subject, interestingly filmed, but it's almost unwatchable. Not to mention that quite a lot of the music is horrifically inappropriate for the subject matter. I mean, isn't the point that it is possible to come back from there?... Such a pity!
It's a subjective thing - the benefit of having energized modern music is that it appeals to the younger generation - many of whom near to hear these issues and address them in their own lives.
I just want to say something.. this documentary has an amazing soundtrack.. I recognized over 5 songs that I listen to on a daily basis.. British documentaries rock.. literally..
Fanatic documentary! The boy that was reading the side effects had me cracking up with his reaction to cancer being on there 😂 and the stuff about DID was really interesting.
I've just watched this again after watching it a while ago. The things you said in this documentary really hit home this time, Jess. Not telling anyone when starting university is definitely the main one - I suffer from quite severe anxiety, and I've just started university. I also told myself I wasn't going to tell anyone about my anxiety, and I would be 'normal'; I would be the person I know that I really am, inside. Because I am a completely different person without anxiety - bubbly, happy, confident, and outgoing. With anxiety, I appear to be shy, not confident, not sociable, and unhappy. But now that I'm a month into university life, my anxiety has been gradually getting worse, and even though I don't want to, I think I now have to admit that I cant just pretend it's not there; I can't keep hiding it from people; and that it's a part of who I am. Also - Bangor University!! Another thing we have in common! :D I hope you're doing well, and are facing less stigma around your DID. Keep smiling!x
I only just recently got officially diagnosed as DID, November last year. After having a psychiatrist who refused to acknowledge that DID is real. It is scary dealing with it and I still struggle. I am tempted to document my journey on youtube but not sure if I should...
+TheWillowDove do it! but you'll have to prepare yourself for hate comments, as you know many people like your psychiatrist don't believe DID is real and might accuse you of lying. if you think those kind of comments might get to you, please don't do it. but if you don't mind, it'd be great to have more youtube videos on DID!
+TheWillowDove It would be great to raise awareness as people aren't really aware of DID yet but it's ultimately your decision :) good luck whatever you do x
I have started posting vids on RUclips (different subject) it's more about suffering abuse as a child by a parent with Malignant Narcissistic Personality Disorder with Psychotic (AntiSocial) traits. it's is very cathartic (and terrifying) to tell your story but it does help you integrate past, present (and all that you're learning now and applying) and future - I'm a verbal processor so it helps me to talk it out, even if it's to the camera. you will find that people will connect with you and you'll "meet" (virtually speaking) people who understand you on a level that most cant, wont, dont, whatever. it's incredibly validating and cathartic. even more so I think that therapy sometimes. anyway- just wanted to encourage you. you can always set your channel up so that you have to approve comments before they are posted (troll prevention) but you do have to realize that what you're putting out there is now out there for the ENTIRE WORLD to see. but you'll also be amazed at the people from far away places that you really connected with that you otherwise would never know about... have a great day and take good care of your SELF.
I love that they included the Social Anxiety. It's very misunderstood and not seen as a real problem. I have never seen a doctor for my social anxiety, but I have very real horrible moments where it effects my life and keeps me from doing things and being who I want to be. I can relate to the girl.
empxth You can have both at the same time. For many the two switch on and off, I restrict my food and will try to stay below a certain amount that ends up being less than a normal meal in a day, or just coffee and water. But if I eat much more than that, or break down and eat something I don't want in my body I will purge either through exercise or puking, laxatives, depending on the situation.
I'm so glad you put this on RUclips! I'm glad they featured someone with bipolar I and bipolar II, because I think most people don't even know that those both exist and are quite different from each other and from schizophrenia and DID. This was such a good watch!
This documentary gives me hope to be able to want stop taking my medication one day, but also leaves me with an utter sense of comfort with taking my medication and not want to stop taking them. 😕
Each to their own opinion, tbh i find it actually so sweet how much love and adoration that Jess's partner has for her, the way he talks about her, shouldn't be and isn't any different than any other people. It's admirable :)
I can relate to many of the people on this documentary, I have been diagnosed with so many different things by many different doctors such as Borderline personality, Anxiety disorders, Depression and paranoid. There is not much support in where i live for people with mental illness. The docs just give you meds and more meds. I showed this docu to my friends and now they understand a bit more of what i go through everyday.
Thank you for sharing that very powerful 1.5 hour experience. I watched the whole thing and intend on sharing this with my nursing class. We are in week two of mental health and the more I learn about the subject, the more I want to become a mental health nurse practitioner :)
you have a DID? do you want to talk? I am really curious about this disorder but I don't anyone with one. if you want to talk, which hopefully you want too. email me. abigaelada24@gmail.com pretty please?
Just know that there are those of us out there that have compassion for you and people like you. I grieve for you all, it's not fair and it's not nice what you have to endure. I have a "mysterious illness" that is drug resistant, and numerous professionals during the past 19yrs cannot peg down. I can empathize with experiences of stigma, rejection, injustice, persecution, the self-regenerating chaotic vortex I live in perpetually . . . But it is not Forever. There is something new for us when our time comes to move into our next life.
For me it is 2018, and to every person who was featured in this documentary weather or not their conditioned was discussed, I do sincerely hope that they are in good places. And I do have to say was very well produced, and great job and a big handclap to everyone who worked on it :)
I have 7 mental illnesses so it's very hard to deal with.. People's mental illnesses are real. They aren't fake illnesses they aren't over reacting. What these people and I feel are real. It's a hard thing to deal with and sometimes you just want to give up.
Brilliant documentary! As someone who has battled depression/anxiety/social phobia for almost 30 years; I have this to add: Don't think of medication as a bad thing. It often allows you to be able to process what it is that's going on and is a huge aid to therapy. I fought against medication for YEARS and it almost ended my life. I would think "I'm doing ok now, so I can come off my meds" then I would end up suicidal and almost succeeded in killing myself 3 times. I have since come to the realisation that, for me, medication is necessary in order to save my life. You wouldn't tell a diabetic to stop taking their insulin because they're doing ok. It is a life threatening illness and needs to be treated as such. Congratulations to everyone who participated for putting a face to the disorders and helping to eliminate some of the stigma attached ♥
I have anxiety problems. I never did anything about them because I thought that everyone would just think I'm making it up for attention or something like that. But when I began studying it became really hard to hide the panicking and hiding from things. My mum was the one who pushed me to see a doctor. He's just put me on medication. And everytime I see him I tell him I'm not really much better he just gives me more. It's so hard to just 'be'. And I know it sounds stupid because it's not as bad as what other people go through but it's just so stupid and I wish I could just switch it all off and start again.
Kudo's to all of you for speaking out and raising awareness. It took a lot of courage and I'm completely in awe of you all. Chin up and stay strong. My favourite word right now is perseverance!! There is light at the end of the tunnel. Everything gets better with time. Sometimes time is the only cure. Hang in there!
Coming back to this 12 years and a Dissociative Dissorder Unspecified/Psychosis with hallucinations, PTSD, ADHD, sedataphobia (fear of silence) diagnosis later, it's comforting. It reminds me I'm not alone.
This was so incredible and so inspiring! More people need to watch this to understand! I have just taken the plunge to seek counselling after 3 years of suffering with social anxiety. Only problem is..... there's an 8-9 month waiting list. At least I'm on the list though!
Thank you for sharing this remarkable documentary about these individuals lives. I usually play on my computer or phone when I am watching TV but this particular documentary captured my attention so intently that I didn't touch a single electronic device! Thank you again for educating people! ^_^
A very useful film, to hopefully raise awareness of mental health disorders, and to try and get the commissioning groups of county councils in the UK, to shop raiding or cutting the mental health budgets, and plough back resources, to where they are needed. I have an autism spectrum condition (high functioning), and have had this since birth. Since 2005, I haven't been myself mentally, and have had at least 2 mental health breakdowns, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and have also self harmed. This happened initially because of not being able to cope in the mainstream work environment, which at the time was the local NHS Acute Trust, hospital in Worcester. My autistic problems also haven't helped. I will now watch the film and gain some insights into what other people are going through.
i would like to express my humble and sincere gratitude to Jess and every one of the very brave young people that put this brilliant movie together. I thoroughly enjoyed watching it, and I think you guys and girls are awesome! I wish all of you only the very best of everything. Now and always. One can never learn enough about mental illness. Insight is key. 22 years ago I was diagnosed as Bipolar II. My 22 year old son was diagnosed the same at 15. Now my 12 year old son has been prescribed mood stabilisers as he too is battling depression and mood swings. People sometimes criticise me as if this is a choice! Please don't judge unless you've been there. I personally would 'let go' of this illness in a second if I had the option. Mental illness is a bitch that me and my sons could've done SO much better without. But I have accepted that medication, in conjunction with psychotherapy, is sometimes necessary (temporarily or permanently) to alleviate crippling mental illness symptoms. Make use of whatever help is available to you, and live your best life!
I have severe anxiety/depression..mental health is like your mind fighting with your body..your body is the victim within your own head..my panic attacks come regularly and are to the point where medication doesn't help much and I have to be hospitalized and sedated in order to calm down..it's worse now that I'm pregnant and I fear everyday that my child will suffer like I have.
All of you are doing the best you can as I am may God bless you all be proud I’m proud of all of you just for doing the documentary love and prayers to all from Canada 🇨🇦
i just wanted to say that i found it wonderful to gain an inisght into difficult lives like this. it made me think about alot of things i never thought about and i wish everybody that is suffering from mental illness alot of strenght and happiness in their future
I have had depression for 30yrs. 7yrs ago I went through a trauma for 4 years. I now have agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder also claustrophobia .....most of the time I'm in bed. Even when I get up I can only do one job a day at home. Can't remember the feeling of happy.
watched this on abc2 last night. Changed alot about me and what I knew even though I was supportive of all this. How to go about seeing, treating or just knowing in general that this is real in many homes and how they deal with it. Inspiring and the fight continues. Good luck all. Awesomely done.
This is amazing ! This need to go viral ! People need to see this, to understand ! Even tho I'm aware of a lot of mental illness and I'm suffering from ones I learned a lot ! For exemple about DID ! Anyway, whoa well done.
Great to go back and see Jess and the boys in the early days. If anyone doubts DID simply watch Jess, Jamie, Ed, Ollie in this video and then watch them again now in 2018.. no one can put on those accents and mannerisms for that long.
"I just want to be that person again. I just want to be her. But I don't know how."
I know this feeling.
I've the exact same issues as this lady, and that hit hard. I've often felt like that towards my husband, that he deserves the person I was
@@chloev9667 Hey... I stumbled across this comment looking for the original video of this (I'm the girl with agoraphobia) and I just wanted to say you can be her again. Or even a better version of her. I did - and I'm still with Jake! Sending all my love, Bex x
The real me has gone forever.
@@jaynestag95 she’s still in there ❤
i am really surprised about the amount of people on here who don't believe that mental illness exist or believe that these people are just crying for attention. one of the criteria for diagnosis is impairment which means a person feels that this illness is stopping them from living a complete life to their satisfaction. Its sad to see stigma reign supreme on here. This is exactly why this video is needed.
agree
I dont think the bipolar girl's family handled her condition very well - saying it's weird, misunderstanding the condition, and saying they wish she didn't have it doesnt help.
seems they caused that illness in her
@@justme8841 it’s brain chemistry. upbringing can’t cause it
@@PutinsMommyNeverHuggedHim Actually, the most common cause of brain chemistry dysregulation is trauma caused by upbringing.
@@tinypixiekitten7806 actually, you’re wrong.
@@PutinsMommyNeverHuggedHim I am currently learning nervous system regulation from a woman called Irene Lyon, who is on RUclips . She explains the biology of the states of bipolar, as well as how trauma effects brain chemistry and regulation, and teach how they can be regulated. She has expanded my opinion to what it is now. I am currently looking for a source to show you, where she mentions this.
"I want to be the first boy dinosaur!" Ollie is my spirit animal...
Lol I was like “that’s definitely a young boy!” 😆 Got a laugh from that, because kids are awesomely fun!
Love that Jess (& alters??? Not sure what the polite term is here) as well as the others were so open about their lives, there’s a lot of stigma for mental illness and sometimes you want so, so badly to just snap your fingers and be NORMAL. That the things that leave you paralyzed but most people manage just fine...weren’t such a challenge for you. It can be really hard to explain to friends and loved ones too, because they just don’t understand how comparatively simple things aren’t simple or easy for you. And sometimes you don’t know understand either. For added fun lol.
Still, it’s videos like these that normalize mental health...I have adhd, anxiety, and a tinge of ocd traits that act up when I’m stressed. There are a lot of daily adult tasks that I find insanely difficult because focus/motivation/attention is difficult. For example, I hate bills. Not because of the money, but because it relies on deadlines. And my spirit animal may not be Ollie, but it IS the white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland. So that’s can be an issue.
Tl;dr: Ollie is awesome! Love that Jess & the other people featured opened up b/c it helps normalize mental health. Oh and having a mental illness can really suck...you sometimes wish you could just be NORMAL and not have those problems.
It sucks that Jess will have the hardest time seeking treatment because people don't believe in it, and actually unifying the alters can take decades to do.
That why I give a shit about doctors and so on. You'll don't go to see a doc out of a glim of fun. You want help and they treat you like a piece of shit!
I had a collage professor that was teaching psychology and he refused to talk about DID because he said in all his years as a psychologist he never met anyone with true DID.....dumby didn't realize he had been teaching someone with it for months 😒
This documentary might have saved me. It helped me understand that my mood wasn't normal. Got the diagnosis of Depression and Generalised anxiety disorder. I'm way better than I was but I still have my lows. No matter what everyone is going through, please keep doors open. We all need someone during those low times
I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder after struggling with anorexia and anxiety since I was 12 and I once met the loveliest girl while in the eating disorder unit of a hospital, her name was Willow and she had DID. When I met her I found her quite strange but we became best friends anyway, her personalities were much different from Jess's but equally unique and it and when she killed herself, all I wanted to do was go back to her old room in that hospital and look at the wall where we scratched our names. Willow and Lilo friends for life in a heart is what we engraved into the wall. Not a day goes by where I don't miss her and her personalities.
Wtf I’m randomly watching and reading comments my name
Is willow
This is so lovely and sad, thank you for sharing.
RIP Willow 😢💙
Bbc is doing something right. Real people, real problems and all across the board. My fave documentary ever
Dear Jess, Ed, Jake, Jamie and Ollie, I decided to go back to some of your earlier videos that I haven't seen and this one, THIS ONE is the true representation of how far you all have come. I am so proud of you for not letting the stigmas keep you hidden from the world. I have learnt so much watching you. I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year with BPD, which in itself is so so difficult to adjust too. I hope my boyfriend will stick by me the way Gaz sticks with you. You both inspire and show that there is hope for the rest of us. Jess, you have come so far. I can only hope that it can be the same for me. Stay as amazing as you are. Lots of Love, Tarryn
In the past, I have only ever enjoyed professional documentaries about anything psychology-related. However, this film reveals some of the greatest insights to mental illnesses that I have ever seen. As somebody who struggles with anxiety and depression, it feels so wonderful to know that other people feel this way too. To see people go through your hardships, have the intrusive thoughts that plague you, to witness honest emotion and the individual behind the mask... It really helps you put things in perspective. When dealing with mental illnesses, it's hard to feel like you aren't isolated and alone, but this film really helps affirm the fact that I am not the only one struggling. There are so many people out there dealing with your demons, and it's not so difficult to comprehend when you are able to witness the illnesses firsthand.
I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1, PTSD, DID, BPD, anxiety, EDNOS and ADD. Severe childhood trauma. :( I felt for everyone.
I’m praying for you!!!!! ❤️ please reply so I know you’re doing well! ❤️
Hi Kaeleen, I don’t have DID (yet) but I do have the others except for BPD and I’m ADHD. I totally feel for you and everyone else and I’d love to be your friend. -Kelly (host) The Broken Heart System
to all the people, who took part - you're simply amazing!! thank you for sharing xxxx
I absolutely love Jess upon seeing this documentary, the way she is so proactive on bringing awareness to people is inspiring, and I also love how her partner loves and understands her alters so well!
I'm currently recovering from depression, and am finally starting to feel better each day. When Bex was talking about how she was put on the waiting list, I completely understand how hopeless she felt. When I went to a doctor to seek help, I was told that yes, I did have depression, and that I would be put on the waiting list for a free, public psychologist, which could be up to two months. The exact same day, after my appointment, I ran from home and sat on the cliff I had imagined throwing myself off of so many times. I remember sitting on this rock, crying so hard because I thought that because I'd finally accepted that I needed help, that things would start getting easier to cope with straight away. To realise I wasn't sick enough, or I wasn't struggling enough to be helped made me feel worthless. I didn't know how to convey how distraught I was every single day. I think the wait for help in terms of mental health is so frustrating, because it makes you feel worse when you're told that you will get help, but not YET. Not now when you feel like you really need it. I know when I went to the doctors, I only went because I felt like there was no way of me coping on my own anymore, and to be told that I'd have to keep coping for another 2 months scared the shit out of me.
+Imayc 2 months is a long time to wait for anyone in distress. I completely understand. I hope things are going well for you now. I have my BPD, DID, PTSD, Anxiety and Agoraphobia diagnosis. That was a few years ago. The psychiatrist who I had has retired and no replacement was given. My Family doctor referred me in November of 2016 to DBT program that doesn't allow for outside Mental Health practitioners and I am still waiting on the 2 -2 1/2 year waiting list. That is here in Ontario Canada. They do have a crisis center that will take you when you may be a danger to yourself or others, but that is only for 5 days. It's so very frustrating when you are told you are sick but unlike any other illnesses, your treatment can take forever. Hang in there! things will get better and there is always hope. I actually purchased a DBT skills training manual from Amazon and am working through the exercises on my own for now. Blessings to all of those who suffer... remember you never have to suffer in silence.
Say it louder for the people in the back can hear.
I wouldn't wish mental illness on my worst enemy.
Pearl Joslyn they aren't that bad
Riotiro
It depends which one, right?
@@Riotiro the fuck?
Pearl Joslyn
I wish I could show others what it’s like to live in my brain just for one day
me neither
JESS YOU'RE SO BRAVE not just to go public with your disorder but use the opportunity to educate a huge room full of people on it, you're so inspirational
I have borderline personality disorder and watching this is like a ball full of emotions
Thanks so much Jess for uploading, this is my absolute favourite documentary ever because it tells things from our perspective. So glad to find this here on RUclips!!! Hope you're doing well xx
Interesting documentary, but the music is really annoying.
We all need someone like Gaz
absolutely fantastic doc, i suffer with anxiety and panic attacks and eveyone of you guys should be majorly proud of yourselfs. thank you for the share
This was the best documentary ever! I mean, I'm a big fan of documentaries of all kind but this one was awesome!
I'm not diagnosticed but I'm practically sure I have social anxiety and depression... I actually cried a bit seeing all these people facing some things I had to face too and...yeah this was really great.
Thanks for giving me the link of this video on tumblr. I couldn't find it and I really wanted to see it. ^^
I wish you and your alters the best for the future!
+Alysée D You can't be pretty sure of anything, it's silly to even try to diagnose yourself with things that you haven't studied at a psychiatrists level.
If you're concerned discuss with your GP.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us Jess, Ed, Jamie, Ollie and Gaz. I can see how much this would help another. It’s made me realise that a childhood friend probably had this. We used to call it “channeling” and thought it was ghosts who didn’t know they were ghosts. I had my doubts when she did it, but the level of commitment and acting was either beyond Oscar level. Or she really was a channeling medium. Sadly we didn’t remain friends, and she won’t speak to me as an adult either. She was very very troubled and difficult to be friends with, but I didn’t break away from her, it was her from me 😢
I've been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, BUT I think like many experts that it doesn't really even exist as it's described in the books.
In my case, I have imaginary people living inside my head and I spend most of my days in imaginary worlds or thinking from someone else's perspective (managing my job and social life at the same time), but I still don't really think I'm any of those persons. That would make a normal life impossible and the diagnose to be far more serious than DID.
I grew up in a violent home and formed the habit of imaginary persons very early on. Took a long time before through therapy I realized that people living inside my head are really me. I had split my personality so that I thought I'm not good at something, but my imaginary person is. Or wished I was like some of my imaginary people.
They're all me, but I find it really hard to understand that. It's also hard to describe my personality, I'm all kinds of things (like all of us) but I don't like to think about myself, only those other people inside my head who are far better in everything...though they're just as good as I'm in reality.
Anyway, I can control my behavior and I don't think it can be seen from the outside. I know who is thinking in the moment I'm living in (usually it's several days / person), but I don't change my voice or anything that would seem "crazy". Only real problem is that one of the personalities is really depressed, suicidal and gets panic attacks...been meditating to block that side away, it's scary.
No-one reads this but wrote anyway.
Immu Ör I'm not a professional by any means, but DID is incredibly multifaceted, and as long as one or more alternate personalities to yours comes forward, then clinically you do have DID (of course theres a couple other points to the criteria, but what you describe does sound like DID to me.) Dissociation comes in many forms and I'm positive that the world of psychology doesn't have them all pinned down and figured out yet, and thankfully it's documentaries like this and other kinds of awareness campaigns that move the research forward, so maybe you could achieve a diagnosis more specific to you one day. ☺️
Immu Ör just like manic, depressive, and anxiety symptoms differ from person to person, so can dissociative symptoms. your DID may not affect you the same way as the girl in in the video, but you may very well still have DID.
It sounds like you have borderline personality disorder rather than DID
To me it part of it sounds like a maladaptive daydreaming, doesn't it? I'm not a doctor tho
Hello! I know that this comment is old but I thought I would chime in. So I have been diagnosed with DID for about 2 and a half years. I understand that you don't feel like any of these "other people", because that is how I feel, but do you ever lose time? I sometimes lose huge chunks of time completely because I was not in reality, I was inside of my head, if that makes sense. Are you ever not active in your physical body? And what do you mean when you say you know who is thinking? I would love to chat about it with you if you would ever like too. If you don't lose time but your sense of self changes, like you can feel a different alter, that is a sign of DDNOS, rather than DID.
This all just hits so close to home..
I aöways come back a few times to watch this again
This was interesting, but as a man with a psychotic disorder, I felt kind of un represented. The documentary did a good job of following Jess, Bex, Tillie, and Kiera but it kind of glossed over the two men that actually got interviewed. Each was only shown once and there was no opportunity to see how they dealt with their illnesses over time. It also felt like parts of this film may perpetuate the stereotype that individuals with mental illness are mainly young, white females with low self esteem and mood problems. I think the people shown demonstrated strength, but it kind of gave a false impression of homogeny among individuals with mental illness. I really liked the questions that were asked throughout the clip and would have loved to hear people who answered them but were not prominently featured expand on their answers. While not perfect, this video is informative and interesting. Thank you for posting.
Seems like all of it is taking place in the UK, so it's not as diverse as USA would be. I'm currently living in the UK and other nationalities seem to keep to themselves (or, coming from me, ourselves).
Thursday I agree. There was more than they could handle in one documentary, they took on too much. It really should've been a docu-series. This was great, however a series would've given each person in this sufficient time to represent their illness.
God, around 11:30 really got to me...
I just felt so identified because I was so fun and bubbly and happy when I first got together with my boyfriend and its been about a year since I got diagnosed with depression now, although he says he thinks I changed into being depressed pretty much as soon as we got together... so about 6 years ago now...
So when Bex said "I just wanna be that person again, I just wanna be her, and I don't know how"...
Damn, that really hit home.
Hope you're doing better now ♥️
You ma'am, Miss Jess..... are my new super hero. And over night have become one of my new favorite youtubers. You overcame something astonishingly traumatic, endured troubling times and have now finished university. I needed to see this so hard right now. You are so amazing. Thank you.
+Jabreel this is lovely 😭 thank you so much 🌸
"Cancer? Fook off" automatically love this guy
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I just discovered this documentary. I've suffered from Major Depression Disorder since I was seven years old, on top of my ADHD. I've fallen into a depressive state again and this documentary... It makes me feel less alone.
My mind can't comprehend a program that will stop help when someone is still struggling with their mental health (Tilly)
All the individuals in this documentary are amazing, I've watched it a couple of times now. I suffer from anxiety and I also experience extreme highs and lows, where I can feel amazing and then in the next instance want to disappear. The candidness of everyone in the documentary is so refreshing, and I hope that it helps others to be more understanding of mental health conditions. I've overheard how some people with mental health conditions are talked about, and I fear the assumptions that people readily make about others when they do not know them at all, due to a label or diagnosis. Hopefully programmes like this are helping to challenge these assumptions in society.
The long term partners must be absolute saints/warriors too.
I tried it once, can't say its something I'd willing try again. I just ended up in the most awful place trying to manage my own shit and be there. I think some people can handle it, some people can't but don't leave because its the 'right thing to do'. Some know they can't and walk out because it does no one any good to stay in that situation, only to find themselves chastised by people who've never been there. Others want to stay but get pushed out or shut out.
Mental Health can ruin relationships and futures. The amount of times I'd desperately hoped for help or a solution that never came for someone else. I honestly teared up several times watching this.
One thing that for some reason hit home was the way the girl with blue hair said "I'm sorry" at the party. Just her intonation and everything it just reminded me far too much of someone else; I think my stomach fell through the floor.
I wish yo guys all the best 2 years on.
But am also curious to see a follow up documentary and show their personal progress, and progress in the system, or lack of... Thanks for sharing this.
ex gf suffers anxiety,ptsd,BPD and depression alcoholism and addiction with other issues,and in all honesty i would happily go back,she wasnt a bad person though. i guess dating people with said issues it helps to be idk more open to the conditions and the side affects of them(not saying you're close minded but idk be more accepting sort of open,not meaning take shit though either) although dating someone with mental health,likelihood is both sides will have their own issues. although ino someone one day will give you shit for you though about not being willing to go there.which tbh i can understand why you have that view :) and i am just about to watch this,i will probably cry so dw about the tearing up part haha :P
Yeah, its a difficult one and tbh I think it depends on the circumstances. My mental health wasn't great anyway at that point due to some situation things, only I hadn't really let myself accept that at the time.And the two of us together, it was was getting unmanageable. I'd stress her out and I'd be anxious about her all the time.
I think it depends as well if the other person is still somehow managing to give you the affection and what you need out of the relationship, for both parties, because at the end of the day thats what it comes down too which is I guess what you mean. For example, if you are an extremely socialable person but your partner has really bad anxiety, you either have to be okay with them regularly dropping out on you last minute and things like that. And not wanting to do really basic things. And if you can do that long term then that it will work. I always feel like though that just results in you being pushed in two different direction and you end up unrealisng making both parties do things that arent them.
I personally wouldn't have been able to long term, I love gigs, being sociable, having new experiences and travelling and I need those things to be happy. But it would be the idea of hell for my ex. If we did what would suit her, I'd be miserable, and if she tried to the things I like she'd have to psych her self up so much it would stress her out too much. I think we both knew that too which sucked.You get me? I think you do from what you've said anyway.
I know it might sound selfish to some extent but sometimes you just aren't right for the other person. I did the 3am suicide phone calls, self harm, the doctors appointment, sitting with her so she could work at uni around strangers, she wouldn't sleep if i was next to her either. She tried to help me too with self harm when I was struggling to cope. But it wasn't healthy for either of us - we both felt like we weren't good enough.
I don't regret being there 24/7. But I wouldn't do it again by choice, atm theres no way I could cope at all. Maybe if I was in a better place myself. But the mere mention of some of these things makes my stomach drop through the floor a little still. I help people by listening and referring them and explaining my experiences, but I don't think I could be a full time support mechanism again. I hope that makes more sense?
no i completely understand your view point and like you said it does depend also on cicumstances and so fort,and if mentally you aint all there so to speak at the current time its alot harder to cope with someone who has mental health issues and i really hope that if you have been judged on needing to leave you didn't take it so badly as you need to look after yourself first. i should have mentioned the ex and me where Long distance but i dealt with her self hate of her body,the mood swings,the depression,and her recovery and relapse,hell i am the reason she was put into the position twice to get the help she needed to be back on the road to recovery at current,she has anxiety and she is sorta reserved,she likes smaller groups of people,although at current i think she hardly talks to anyone(an issue i tried also sorting from 3500 miles away). This is i guess with me suffering from depression and yeah it gets bad enough its worriful to my mum i may be Bipolar but i can sorta control it better than i did 4 years ago atleast.but i think with that,being near suicidal in the past and being abit more reserved myself in the fact i hate large groups and prefer a smaller closer circle of friends all that sort of helps me with her.that and dealing with everyones mental health that i came across that needed the health for years.its no easy at all,the hurt you get from watching them suffer sucks and in no way is a full time support mechanism easy or something anyone really aspires to be,and you can't be judged for it not being something you are willing to do.you sacrifice a shit tonne of sleep,mental capacity and normally sink heart into it. and I've helped people for years,i listen,try and understand,refer ti past experiances,or try use a curious mind and think of possible other issues,i normally try talk people through and find the route problem or find other issues connected to a current issue,i normally know if someones lying to so :P. what matters is you've helped people in the past,and sound like you still do. theres a quote from a video i watched motivational video and it sorta goes like this " if at the end of you life(seemed more in a suicidal aspect than natural) and you save someones life,was all the pain worth it,is life worth living. and i think for situations like this thats a good quote,not to say you need to suffer all your life but to think that even if you give up,dont ever help again,when you're naturally at deaths door,you know you helped atleast one person,thats all that matters,you saved one life :).
Yeah, maybe thats true. I dunno I've been punishing myself for not being strong enough but it is what it is.
Distance is hard on anybody, but at least in some sense that way you have your own space and time. Kinda. Idk.
Its nice to have a good conversation about these topics online, as alot of my friends haven't been there in any way - which I'm thankful for, but at the same time it makes it difficult to explain things.
I think you are right. But also because unfortunately you can't save everyone and its ultimately down to how well they can handle their illness, what professional help they can get and and how severe it gets. :/
Pissed at them for dragging her to the club
I'm so proud of you Jess and everyone else on this documentary! Amazing stuff!
Poor Jake! Thank you all for being so brave and helping to normalize mental health disorders. Sending you love and hoping you are all well!
Thank you, to everyone involved with this. I wish you all the very best of luck, strength and hope.
the friends that stopped talking to you Jess are stupid uneducated on your condition and not worth having as friend's anyway, you are above them hun. a TRUE friend will try to find out more about your condition and support you , those are the friend's worth keeping around :D
I was one of the cast members on this documentary :) it was an absolute pleasure working with firecracker films they where absolutely lovely people and I honestly felt extremely sympathetic for the other cast members it’s been 9 years now but I will never forget watching this! ❤️
I seriously hope they do another like this- there are so many more disorders that deserve to be talked about and shown from a real persons perspective.
THANK you for this. I am fascinated with mental health issues and challenges and I want to be an advocate and support for those who have various issues and be a voice for those who can't speak. I want to educate myself. I struggle with some anxiety but I manage it the best I can. You inspire me! Thank you for educating everyone about your DID. You're amazing!
It's absolutely tragic how BBC manages to ruin all its programmes with excessively loud music and muffled, low-volume dialogue. This is an important subject, interestingly filmed, but it's almost unwatchable. Not to mention that quite a lot of the music is horrifically inappropriate for the subject matter. I mean, isn't the point that it is possible to come back from there?... Such a pity!
it is awful, but the music taste is great.
You echoed my thoughts a year ago too, Morgaine!
I thought the music was great and added to the show.
It's a subjective thing - the benefit of having energized modern music is that it appeals to the younger generation - many of whom near to hear these issues and address them in their own lives.
I sat through the whole thing. Half of it was just LISTENING only as I was at the gym at the time. No issues here.
I saw the documentary yesterday in Danish television. You are all really amazing people!
Such a beautiful documentary. Thank you to Jess, Ed, Jamie, Ollie, Jake, and everyone else involved!
I just want to say something.. this documentary has an amazing soundtrack.. I recognized over 5 songs that I listen to on a daily basis.. British documentaries rock.. literally..
I don't like the way this was edited, jumping from one thing to another, it was really distracting.
Dilara Khatun it soothes my adhd brain 😂😂
@@kaylamartin9665 Same here
Too be far that is how most of our brains jump around anyway that live with these problems so it seemed fitting
that’s how it is living with some of these conditions.
@@gothboithick oh, I didn't know that. Learnt something new!
Kiera Rose! It's amazing to see where you are at today. I watch your channel every day. :D
Fanatic documentary! The boy that was reading the side effects had me cracking up with his reaction to cancer being on there 😂 and the stuff about DID was really interesting.
:D xx
I've just watched this again after watching it a while ago. The things you said in this documentary really hit home this time, Jess. Not telling anyone when starting university is definitely the main one - I suffer from quite severe anxiety, and I've just started university. I also told myself I wasn't going to tell anyone about my anxiety, and I would be 'normal'; I would be the person I know that I really am, inside. Because I am a completely different person without anxiety - bubbly, happy, confident, and outgoing. With anxiety, I appear to be shy, not confident, not sociable, and unhappy. But now that I'm a month into university life, my anxiety has been gradually getting worse, and even though I don't want to, I think I now have to admit that I cant just pretend it's not there; I can't keep hiding it from people; and that it's a part of who I am.
Also - Bangor University!! Another thing we have in common! :D I hope you're doing well, and are facing less stigma around your DID. Keep smiling!x
i find all of the people on this doc v brave for sharing their lifes.
I only just recently got officially diagnosed as DID, November last year. After having a psychiatrist who refused to acknowledge that DID is real. It is scary dealing with it and I still struggle. I am tempted to document my journey on youtube but not sure if I should...
+TheWillowDove go for it!
+TheWillowDove do it! but you'll have to prepare yourself for hate comments, as you know many people like your psychiatrist don't believe DID is real and might accuse you of lying. if you think those kind of comments might get to you, please don't do it. but if you don't mind, it'd be great to have more youtube videos on DID!
+TheWillowDove It would be great to raise awareness as people aren't really aware of DID yet but it's ultimately your decision :) good luck whatever you do x
I have started posting vids on RUclips (different subject) it's more about suffering abuse as a child by a parent with Malignant Narcissistic Personality Disorder with Psychotic (AntiSocial) traits. it's is very cathartic (and terrifying) to tell your story but it does help you integrate past, present (and all that you're learning now and applying) and future - I'm a verbal processor so it helps me to talk it out, even if it's to the camera. you will find that people will connect with you and you'll "meet" (virtually speaking) people who understand you on a level that most cant, wont, dont, whatever. it's incredibly validating and cathartic. even more so I think that therapy sometimes. anyway- just wanted to encourage you. you can always set your channel up so that you have to approve comments before they are posted (troll prevention) but you do have to realize that what you're putting out there is now out there for the ENTIRE WORLD to see. but you'll also be amazed at the people from far away places that you really connected with that you otherwise would never know about... have a great day and take good care of your SELF.
I love that they included the Social Anxiety. It's very misunderstood and not seen as a real problem. I have never seen a doctor for my social anxiety, but I have very real horrible moments where it effects my life and keeps me from doing things and being who I want to be. I can relate to the girl.
Just watching this. I think your presentation and asking the students to participate with the bells was brilliant.
this made me cry because I.can relate to the pain they are feeling. I have bulimia an anxiety and depression and I struggle everyday
+Lexi B i know what the struggle is like my dear, feel free to contact me to talk
+Lexi B i know this is 5 months old, but you can't have bulimia and anorexia at the same time. you should get a diagnosis and get help.
***** omg so sorry i totally misread it :D
empxth You can have both at the same time. For many the two switch on and off, I restrict my food and will try to stay below a certain amount that ends up being less than a normal meal in a day, or just coffee and water. But if I eat much more than that, or break down and eat something I don't want in my body I will purge either through exercise or puking, laxatives, depending on the situation.
I'm so glad you put this on RUclips! I'm glad they featured someone with bipolar I and bipolar II, because I think most people don't even know that those both exist and are quite different from each other and from schizophrenia and DID. This was such a good watch!
We had to watch this documentary for our 'Psychology Sociology Anthropology' class and I wasn't keen on the length but i really liked it!
Poor Tilly, the fact she heated her weight proves how much she needs the unit to help her and they just discarded her away
It is as important for people to see the illness behind the person as it is to see the person behind the illness!
This documentary gives me hope to be able to want stop taking my medication one day, but also leaves me with an utter sense of comfort with taking my medication and not want to stop taking them. 😕
Each to their own opinion, tbh i find it actually so sweet how much love and adoration that Jess's partner has for her, the way he talks about her, shouldn't be and isn't any different than any other people. It's admirable :)
I can relate to many of the people on this documentary, I have been diagnosed with so many different things by many different doctors such as Borderline personality, Anxiety disorders, Depression and paranoid. There is not much support in where i live for people with mental illness. The docs just give you meds and more meds. I showed this docu to my friends and now they understand a bit more of what i go through everyday.
Stacey Elizabeth Wilson.
The song at the start of jess’ bit is the knife heartbeats 💗
Thank you for sharing that very powerful 1.5 hour experience. I watched the whole thing and intend on sharing this with my nursing class. We are in week two of mental health and the more I learn about the subject, the more I want to become a mental health nurse practitioner :)
One thing I love about this is it has many different kinds of mental health issues☺️
I have DID and I love Jess's videos.
you have a DID? do you want to talk? I am really curious about this disorder but I don't anyone with one. if you want to talk, which hopefully you want too. email me. abigaelada24@gmail.com
pretty please?
I have paranoid schizophrenia I’m kinda gutted it wasn’t featured as it has the most stigma surrounding it
Just know that there are those of us out there that have compassion for you and people like you. I grieve for you all, it's not fair and it's not nice what you have to endure. I have a "mysterious illness" that is drug resistant, and numerous professionals during the past 19yrs cannot peg down. I can empathize with experiences of stigma, rejection, injustice, persecution, the self-regenerating chaotic vortex I live in perpetually . . . But it is not Forever. There is something new for us when our time comes to move into our next life.
For me it is 2018, and to every person who was featured in this documentary weather or not their conditioned was discussed, I do sincerely hope that they are in good places. And I do have to say was very well produced, and great job and a big handclap to everyone who worked on it :)
Amazing documentary! Showing mental illness in a very raw, naked and honest way. The way it really is for us who live with it
I have 7 mental illnesses so it's very hard to deal with.. People's mental illnesses are real. They aren't fake illnesses they aren't over reacting. What these people and I feel are real. It's a hard thing to deal with and sometimes you just want to give up.
+Alex Lesane Bieattth you is crazy.
+Letonqua Jackson why am I crazy to you?
Thank you for sharing this!
Brilliant documentary! As someone who has battled depression/anxiety/social phobia for almost 30 years; I have this to add: Don't think of medication as a bad thing. It often allows you to be able to process what it is that's going on and is a huge aid to therapy. I fought against medication for YEARS and it almost ended my life. I would think "I'm doing ok now, so I can come off my meds" then I would end up suicidal and almost succeeded in killing myself 3 times. I have since come to the realisation that, for me, medication is necessary in order to save my life. You wouldn't tell a diabetic to stop taking their insulin because they're doing ok. It is a life threatening illness and needs to be treated as such.
Congratulations to everyone who participated for putting a face to the disorders and helping to eliminate some of the stigma attached ♥
I have anxiety problems. I never did anything about them because I thought that everyone would just think I'm making it up for attention or something like that. But when I began studying it became really hard to hide the panicking and hiding from things. My mum was the one who pushed me to see a doctor. He's just put me on medication. And everytime I see him I tell him I'm not really much better he just gives me more. It's so hard to just 'be'. And I know it sounds stupid because it's not as bad as what other people go through but it's just so stupid and I wish I could just switch it all off and start again.
Kudo's to all of you for speaking out and raising awareness.
It took a lot of courage and I'm completely in awe of you all.
Chin up and stay strong. My favourite word right now is perseverance!!
There is light at the end of the tunnel.
Everything gets better with time. Sometimes time is the only cure. Hang in there!
BeLiinDaH everything gets better with time? absurd. so why do people ever get worse?
Such an amazing job!!!! Thank you!!!
Coming back to this 12 years and a Dissociative Dissorder Unspecified/Psychosis with hallucinations, PTSD, ADHD, sedataphobia (fear of silence) diagnosis later, it's comforting. It reminds me I'm not alone.
Gaz is so sweet, I wish I could marry him too lol. So wonderful to see such support.
This was so incredible and so inspiring! More people need to watch this to understand!
I have just taken the plunge to seek counselling after 3 years of suffering with social anxiety. Only problem is..... there's an 8-9 month waiting list. At least I'm on the list though!
Thank you for sharing this remarkable documentary about these individuals lives.
I usually play on my computer or phone when I am watching TV but this particular documentary captured my attention so intently that I didn't touch a single electronic device! Thank you again for educating people! ^_^
So brave. So beautiful.
Thank you.
Ollie’s laugh was so adorable
Jake wishing he had his own life tears me to shreds, it's too real, just imagine not having your own life
Yeah, it’s hard and it hurts. Your entire life has to become a group effort
A very useful film, to hopefully raise awareness of mental health disorders, and to try and get the commissioning groups of county councils in the UK, to shop raiding or cutting the mental health budgets, and plough back resources, to where they are needed. I have an autism spectrum condition (high functioning), and have had this since birth. Since 2005, I haven't been myself mentally, and have had at least 2 mental health breakdowns, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and have also self harmed. This happened initially because of not being able to cope in the mainstream work environment, which at the time was the local NHS Acute Trust, hospital in Worcester. My autistic problems also haven't helped. I will now watch the film and gain some insights into what other people are going through.
i would like to express my humble and sincere gratitude to Jess and every one of the very brave young people that put this brilliant movie together. I thoroughly enjoyed watching it, and I think you guys and girls are awesome! I wish all of you only the very best of everything. Now and always. One can never learn enough about mental illness. Insight is key. 22 years ago I was diagnosed as Bipolar II. My 22 year old son was diagnosed the same at 15. Now my 12 year old son has been prescribed mood stabilisers as he too is battling depression and mood swings. People sometimes criticise me as if this is a choice! Please don't judge unless you've been there. I personally would 'let go' of this illness in a second if I had the option. Mental illness is a bitch that me and my sons could've done SO much better without. But I have accepted that medication, in conjunction with psychotherapy, is sometimes necessary (temporarily or permanently) to alleviate crippling mental illness symptoms. Make use of whatever help is available to you, and live your best life!
I have severe anxiety/depression..mental health is like your mind fighting with your body..your body is the victim within your own head..my panic attacks come regularly and are to the point where medication doesn't help much and I have to be hospitalized and sedated in order to calm down..it's worse now that I'm pregnant and I fear everyday that my child will suffer like I have.
All of you are doing the best you can as I am may God bless you all be proud I’m proud of all of you just for doing the documentary love and prayers to all from Canada 🇨🇦
such strong individuals. very inspiring . x
i just wanted to say that i found it wonderful to gain an inisght into difficult lives like this. it made me think about alot of things i never thought about and i wish everybody that is suffering from mental illness alot of strenght and happiness in their future
Very brave of them to share their problems, it helped me to understand those illness' more. Thank you for uploading :)
loved the bits of ollie and gaz in this!!
I have had depression for 30yrs. 7yrs ago I went through a trauma for 4 years. I now have agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder also claustrophobia .....most of the time I'm in bed. Even when I get up I can only do one job a day at home. Can't remember the feeling of happy.
You're amazing for continuing through all that time. Things can always get better, stay strong ⭐
Fantastic doco well done, takes a lot to hold my concentration , good job :) I too think the sound track is meant to portray the mood and is perfect
watched this on abc2 last night. Changed alot about me and what I knew even though I was supportive of all this. How to go about seeing, treating or just knowing in general that this is real in many homes and how they deal with it. Inspiring and the fight continues. Good luck all. Awesomely done.
I relate so much to the part where they show all the meds they take
I’ve never understood the whole mental illness is all in your head thing... like no shit ?? and asthma is all in your lungs lol
Right? Lol like, where else would it be, in my toes?
they should do another one of these following people through lockdown
This is amazing ! This need to go viral ! People need to see this, to understand !
Even tho I'm aware of a lot of mental illness and I'm suffering from ones I learned a lot ! For exemple about DID !
Anyway, whoa well done.