sorry } killua&gon
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- Опубликовано: 10 фев 2021
- It's not the vid that I was livestreaming a few days ago, but rather one that I just dished out today because I felt like it. Venting yea & also this is my 20th HxH video! Yay.
Not gonna lie, I did let a few tears out while editing this. Sometimes life just gives you flashbacks and you wonder why you got treated the way you were. You ever hated someone so much that you can't distinguish it properly? Like, not knowing if it's true hate or if it's just incredibly bitter love? I sometimes wake up to bad dreams regarding my past relationship. Where I would just watch two people (my ex and his gf) being happy with each other. knowing that I've been replaced. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't happy enough. I've been too negative, too depressed and demanded too much affection and validation. As someone who told me he accepts me for the way I am - with my mental illness - I felt incredibly defeated when he used my mental illness as a reasoning to why he cheated on me.
Sometimes you just look into the mirror and wonder what's wrong with you. Why people can't stand you. What is this about you that makes you so despicable? How people can have so little respect for you, that they betray your trust just like that? --- In a way, I kinda relate to the song. Before a relationship would become serious, I would always run away from it. I've started to feel incredibly sorry for the person that wants to date me. Well, I still do. All of the things that happened are just proof that I can't be loved - at least not romantically... Anyways end of vent HAHA
I will link the artists pages as usual when I collected them all. So please keep this video somewhere to check out the artists pages!
Song: Halsey - Sorry
Footage: Hunter x Hunter
Artists:
0:00 - 0:03 || - 00:07 - 0:12 || 0:20 - 0:23 || 0:26 - 0:30 || 0:43 - 0:45 || 0:49 - 0:56 || 1:00 - 1:06 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/851453
0:04 - 0:07 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/22486042
0:14 - 0:15 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/489866
0:15 (2) || merumugis.tumblr.com/post/152... (sadly the deleted their pixiv acc D:)
0:16 || I don't think I'll be able to find the source.. but I will try
0:17 || 0:19 || 0:23 - 0:25 || 0:30 - 0:35 || 0:57 - 0:59 || 1:06 - 1:13 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/3499635
0:18 || Sady can't find the source either
0:40 - 0:43 || The source is also gone.. Acc doesn't exist anymore..
0:45 || Can't find it either .. This is making me sad
1:13 - 1:19 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/2257967
0:46 - 0:49 || www.pixiv.net/en/users/453776... 
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Wooooow amazing your channel is amazing 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼❤
And your edits about killugon the best .
I really look up to your videos and you, you're so talented and brave✨✨its so smooth and the mixture of colours is what I really like!! I hope everything gets better for you and your family, you really don't deserve this. Please be safe and it'll be okay❤️
Shut up omg so cute aaaa ;;;
Thank you so much!! I appreciate this so much and I'm sure my mom would too
@@Shuraane88 we all loveeeee youuu okayyy don't forget thatttttt or we'll get angryyy😤😤we all need you and to be happiee❤️❤️
Man. This broke me. I'm crying.
u just keep getting better and better
That's a very pog little quickie bro
seriusly teach how to do this wonders thingss... but i understand sometimes you cant teach this because it come from inside you
If you have a specific request on certain effects I'd make a video about it or show you how to do it on livestream!
But thank you a lot for your support ♥
aaa so coool
Beautiful 🥺🇧🇷
Your killugon edits are always so lit omg. I adore your edits reaallyyy. Keep it up !!
I’m really sorry for what you’re going through right now. That vent of yours in the video description, I actually am feeling the exact same way to a T. I became friends with someone online a couple years ago and we eventually became really close friends, and then one day he just stopped talking to me, he’s completely ignored me now for the past year and a half. And I know that he’s not dead or anything like that, his tumblr blog is still completely active. And I’ve been trying to just move on without him, but I’m still struggling with the exact same kinds of feelings that you described, of feeling like I was ‘too much’ for him because of my mental health issues, and that it’s my fault that he left. And it’s also so hard to move on without any closure on the situation, especially when we shared so much with each other and we were working on projects together and I really don’t want to drop those projects just because he doesn’t wanna work with me anymore. I wanna confront him about this, give him an ultimatum of either work with me to finish this project, or I’ll finish the rest of it myself. But he hasn’t responded to any of my attempts to talk to him since the day he ghosted me. And to add insult to injury, I had told him in the past that I was insecure because other friends have abandoned me in the past, and he promised that he would never do that. So old friend, if you’re seeing this, I just want you to know that just based on the fact alone that you intentionally broke your promise, that was a really shitty thing you did. You really fucked up my insecurities and my already low self-esteem when you did that, and now I’m constantly paranoid that any of my other few friends will do the same thing to me too. Are you happy now?
Sorry, I didn’t mean to go on a big rant like that. Tl;dr I totally get what you are going through with that, and I hope that one day you can be happy again without him because you deserve so much better. We both do. 😊❤️
Hey no worries it's totally fine to let your feelings out! I'm honestly really glad that someone also relates 💖
I've started to not trust people when they say "I won't leave you"... Actually, I barely trust people really. I think people not keeping their words are the worst. Especially if it's something as important as this. If you aren't sure whether you can keep your word or not, why the fuck promise it? The amount of disrespect is absolutely crazy. Ignoring you, leaving you all alone with yourself after promising you that he wouldn't do the things he did. Hits incredibly home. My ex said he would never cheat - that it's absolutely against his morals. Yet he was too much of a damn coward to tell me what he's done on vacation, so I found it out via social media. My mental health during that time was crazy low. I thought about killing myself every damn day & he knew that. Yet still chose to do what he did.
It's unbelievable. We both have abandonment issues, trust issues and we open up to one person about everything & that person does everything that we are scared of. The sheer amount of disrespect is unbelievable. People like this make me so mad.. Don't promise something if you aren't sure whether you can keep it
I'm incredibly sorry that you also have to go through this.. It hurts a lot. It really does. But I hope I could somehow help! Best luck to you and if you wanna talk a bit more feel free to drop your discord 💖 Thank you
@@Shuraane88 Thanks, I'm afraid I don't have discord, but I do have a tumblr account! :)
@@GracefullyAutistic Let me know
please back we need your lovely vids
So amazing
this is great^^
I'm crying..................
I cried,I am all in my feels rn,it’s so good,i Hope your ok,then u need to talk I am here💗✨🙌🏻💍
I'm so glad that the feelings I put in my videos reaches people ;; Lov u & I hope you have a wonderful day
hi i am french but i absolutely wanted to tell you that i really like your content thank you so much 💗✨🌸🌠
Thank you!! I really love and appreciate these comments
I hope you are having a good day 😘💖
@@Shuraane88 yess, thank youu and you ? ^^ it makes me happy that you answered me 😸💗💫🌸☺️
Tus vídeos son hermosos puro talento😆😘
Gracias ♥
Ah....... hablas español !!!:)
Beautiful edit!! But ouch T___T
I remember you! I can't believe you are following me for so long
@@Shuraane88 Aww of course! I've always enjoyed your work
I just wanna go back to the good old days (｡•́︿•̀｡)(｡•́︿•̀｡) i miss it too much
Your videos helped me to feel at least a little better when I had some hard days. It's the same with the last live stream you've made. I was kind of sad and you improved my mood, so now I'm very sorry to hear what you're going through. I've never experienced a situation when someone was cheating on me (because I never had a boyfriend lol), but I can imagine how you can feel.
I don't know if I am much of a help saying this, but remember that there are people who love your work. The way you convey your feelings and emotions into videos which you are editing is something amazing ♥
Also, I fell in love with every song you chose to put in your edits, love your music taste.
Sorry if some sentences sound weird, but English isn't my first language.
Thank you and I hope things will get better for you ♥
I'm so so glad to be able to make people feel better on bad days!! That means a whole lot, really. I'm also happy that you've enjoyed my stream! Definitely makes me wanna do one again in the next days hehe.. I'm so happy that you guys enjoy my work so much. It really, really means a lot of me. I know I saw this all the time, but it really does man. To be able to reach people with my feelings was always a dream of mine & now here I am, doing just that.
And thank u I have more songs that I wanna edit to hehe
Also don't worry, my English is also not my native language :D:D I'm actually from Germany
@@Shuraane88 If I have any free time, I will probably watch the next stream you will make!
Oh, so you're from Germany? To me, your accent was so good that I thought English was your native language haha :p
@@wokluski What a compliment! Thank you hehe
I sure hope you will also tune in the next time
Me veo en la obligación de hacer un fan fic de esto 😔👊💔 Hermosooo
I had to use google translate for this, but it seems you want to make a FanFIc out of this? I would totally read it!
It'd also be really nice if you linked the video (bcz I have my paypal attached in the description and I'd really appreciate it if it can get more exposure)
And thank you so much, I'm glad to be able to inspire you!