I get bad grades, I don't have friends, I am weird, can't talk clearly, I can't keep up a conversation, I am shy, I am lonely. This is me, overwhelmed with depression.
I am 20, almost 21 & I relate to this poem as well. I've felt like this forever as long as I could remember. I find it easier to smile all day & cry myself to sleep. I don't like pity, I like comfort & that is why I run to my closest friend & to my oldest sister because they understand me, or at least attempt to. It feels good to talk it out & cry to someone who gives us comfort not to someone who gives is pity.
i was not a nobody, i was not popular. i was not dumb, i was not the smartest. i was not hideous, i was not beautiful. i was not sad, i was not happy. *i was depressed.*
Hey before you dismiss this. Please read. I have had countless arguments with my sister, her telling me that depression is a choice and I need to remember what I am getting up for every morning. It kills me that a person closest to me believes I am happy seeking some sort of attention through my sadness I tried to explain to her that depression is being lonely and lost and what was your happiest place to go to. nothing is the same anymore. The world means nothing. you described depression beautifully and some people believe that spoken word is a way of glamorising and trending depression but it is not. so many people still dont believe that depression is an illness such as the flu. The word needs to be heard.
i totally agree with you. i mean, they say it's a choice and stuff. well, if it is, then I would'nt be like this. itis not freaking good. And guess what, I am trying to choose to be happy. I AM TRYING SO HARD. harder than I try to pass my subjects at school. trying to be better for my parents sake. harder than I try to stay alive. but shit just always happen and you're back to zero. being empty, being lonely and sad. to the chains of anxiety. that someday, all your dreams, the last remaining dreans you have, will still be a failure. that you are never ever gonna see and experience that because you'll eventually give up. they say try to see the things that are still there. that there are still MORE into life. but the thing us, most of the time I just don't want to be in, experience and see that MORE into life. because living nakes me want to stab my neck with a knife. i try my best to explain this. but all they say when they see my scars is tgat I am selfish. that I don't think about the people who loves me. but I just want to be in control. i want to ease the pain in the inside. it's just that, when it is too much in the inside, you just have this urge to feel better and that's when you try to release it on the outside. they say it's just the mood swings, it's the pms. do you have PMS all the fucking time?! they tell me these things, trying to shallow things up, but it's not shallow. it's killing me from deepest part of me. they try to tell me it's easy to recover, to overcome this, to choose to be happy, to stop harming myself. I'm telling you, if it's easy then I would've been okay since. i would've been better than I am now. I would've been happy. but it's not easy to win. to win from the voices. from the thoughts. from anxiety. from the fear. I am weak and tgey are strong. I am trying to be strong but they are stronger. i just feel it's useless. i just feel that if trying to make things better is an error then i think it'd be better to take the shortcut right? they say it's nonsense, but when you just don't see the end or even the dot of light from this darkness, then it would be the best resort.
I have depression, anxiety and possibly epilepsy, I'm not saying this to get attention. My mother says I don't have depression, but I have anxiety, she ignores what doctors say. Most likely because it doesn't fit her expectations for me and my sister. My sister is bisexual and my mother said 'oh she's not in her right mind' and 'she's straight she's just going through a phase. I know my sister better than my mom and it's not just a phase and if it is, I don't know what to do. I'm bisexual and I know that's me, but I don't tell my mom, let her think I'm straight because she'll only say that I love wrong. I cut myself and I try to stop but the taunting and teasing from one of my brothers, my other brother never home, my sister away at college, there's nobody to stand up for me. My dad is self employed, but he is busy finishing college and my mom is too busy with work to notice. I can't ever sleep, I barely eat, and I can't get a single thing done in school. My depression and anxiety holds me back too much. But the thinks that really hurts is things like 'get over it', or 'depression is a choice'. If depression were a choice or something that could be remedied in a first aid kit, don't you think I would've been happy again long ago? Or never depressed in the first place?
when you said "I create a character, she's perfect she's invicible" got me teared up because thats my problem too. showing the public that im invicible while the fact is actually im so very fragile. it sucks.
I am the exact same way. Everyone thinks that I am this girl that has no problems, that has no worries, but it is the opposite. I don't let my friends know cause the family that does know I have depression judges me by it. So I don't tell my friends or anyone that doesn't already know cause I am so afraid that they will do the same. Everyone thinks that I am this perfect girl but I'm not.
I losssst it when you said the man who just got fired. I was supposed to hear this. nobody there knew, they thought I was obnoxiously too nice they got me fired. they didn't know it took me over a year to build the courage to submit applications, go to interviews, and to have a job as a cashier even tho it went directly against my mental illness, I played a character that I was fine and I did a really good job, they didn't know before that, I had barely left my house in 2 years, that a few months prior to getting the job, that I was raped , that I had just put my child molester in jail, and Now I'm back to the very beginning ,no high school diploma, no job, no more strength, no more tears, no want to live. but I'm still here, and my hearts broken so many times, I feel like my heart is hanging on by a thread, a thread that can tear if I hear something I can't handle, if I'm pushed down any further, I feel like I'm physically going to die from the pain my heart goes through and has gone through the past 20 years of my life.
+J Jay its nice to know I'm not the only man out here feeling this way. that's good you have a friend who wants to help, that's always a blessing . I've been doing this on my own with no support from other than family for 2 years now, its lonely as fuck. I don't talk to anybody anymore, the only time I hang out with someone is when I go outside to smoke and someone asks for a cigarette or for some weed. I hope the tides change for people like us 👌
The part about submitting applications really got to me. I remember when My parents called me lazy and entitled for months because I kept saying that I was trying to get a job, but never got one. I had filled out applications but never responded once called in for an interview and never followed up with the employers. It took me 6 months before I finally followed up with an employer.
I know this comment is a year old, but I really hope you arw doing better now, or at least still hanging in there. Im on a close thread to getting fired too, so it is relatable for me as well.
"People ask me: 'Why are you always so sad? I tell them I don't know... I don't know. What I do know is that I wake up everymorning feeling like absolutely shit." True...😞😭
"I'm afraid that I'll be judged for something I can not control." That is exactly how I feel, the whole poem describes my life! 😞 I hope someday it will be better, I never stop believing this!
My mother, she has depression. I thought she would understand what I was going through but she refuses to believe I have depression. She caught me trying to hang myself and told me it was for attention. She says that I'm too young to have depression. I'm turning15 and you can never be too young to have depression or any mental illness. This was amazing and thank you so much for making this amazing poem and spending time on it. Whenever I'm feeling like no one understands I listen to this. And I want to thank you for this
It's been years since i have been here... but this still hits the same. No, i feel like it even hits worse now than it did back when i was still a teenager.
This description is spot on, I've never felt so understood. My family life is great, I have good friends, I have no reason to feel this way, but it helps so much to know that I'm not the only one in this situation. Thank you so much! I just wish I had have seen this sooner.
Then it is a chemical imbalance in your brain, it can be cured by a simple visit to the doctors, just with any illness, we seek help medically, it is not a magic fix but it is curable.
I go in and out of depression constantly. 3 months of depression, 1 month of recovery. The problem is that because I was only 11 when it first started, I don't remember what it's like to not struggle. The depression has become normative and the month of happiness is always clouded by the knowledge that the depression WILL come back.
Are you sure it's really just depression? For me, it also started when I was 11 years old. I was in therapy ever since because of my depression, and yes, it helped, I was able to get to know and love myself after many years, but.. the depression always came back. And I never understood why. 6 months ago, while being in a mental hospital for the 3rd time, I finally got my real diagnosis: I'm bipolar. That's why it always came back. That's why I was able to "recover" again and again, but would always fall into the deep black hole of depression after some weeks or months. No one, not even I, saw my (hypo)manic episodes, since everything just though "Oh, she's finally doing better, good for her". It took the doctors 10 years, until they finally where able to tell me what's wrong with me. Maybe.. it's the same for you. Look up bipolar disorder, or maybe cyclothymia. Maybe you'll recognise some of the symptoms. If so, please go see a doctor and tell him about it. Maybe you've been diagnosed wrong, like me. But no matter what, I wish you the best of luck on your way to recovery.
I been listening to this since I was 15. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. As years got on it is now bpd. And this speaks volumes for me. I cry at how no one understands me on a daily. This is something that has saved me. Also so has all your spoken word poetry. Your voice has always been amazing. You're amazing.
Hey. So, I've been struggling from depression for awhile now. My dad never understood, he always thought it was just drama, and I just want attention. For a long time, I was feeling much better. But all the sudden, I feel like I've been getting worse again. I found your videos a couple weeks ago and I relate to them so much. You're so strong and beautiful. And you've helped me a lot. I love you! Thank you for this! It's great to know there are people that really understand what I feel.
I am surrounded by friends who are depressed, they sink into their own void and I sink into mine. We all just, accept that. You fall into depression but you don't think you do, until your friends say you do. Because that's how things are clarified as true, right? If somebody says you're fat, then it's true right? Wrong. If you're depressed you believe it, you accept it, it's like you're accepting yourself and that's what you try to do every single day because nobody else will. At first, it's deniable, but eventually it's not. Sometimes you run into people who think you're just creating drama on purpose and they purposely act depressed just to mock us, they insult people like us. People with a so called "mental issue" who need serious help because nobody trusts them. Nobody believes in them. And that's the problem, if you try to help us you're saying that were indeed messed up and it just makes our self conscious think that everybody who you knew now thinks of you as the freak with a problem. And that's how the world can be, an endless void of helplessness.
when she said "when people ask why im sad i say id dont know'" that hit hard.. if cried for no reason and ive been asked why but all you can say is i don't know they never believe you're telling the truth but you really don't know why you just cry to let it out to express what you feel to show your pain even when you don't mean to.
OMG! When you said society tells you to do yoga I actually jumped up. That's what I've been told on multiple occasions while struggling with depression and neurosis by a variety of people.. God damnit how ridiculous is that. It's like someone saying: A: Hi, I have Cancer B: You sould try yoga. .... Amazing video
I am an on of off switch. I can be depressed for weeks but then the next week or two I will be the happiness and energetic person you have ever seen. Is this normal? I don't even know why I flip. is every one like this they just don't say it? is there something off about me? idk do you
I feel the same way all the time...everyone tells me im not depressed but, how can you know if you dont feel what i feel? Youre not the only one who feels like that
Look up Bipolar Disorder. I have it and it sounds exactly how you describe. One moment you're so happy you could scream with pleasure, and then BAM! the switch is hit and you want nothing more than to sit in the corner and cry and wonder why you even exist
That sounds a lot like Dysthymia. It's what I was diagnosed with almost 2 years ago. It makes you switch between happy and sad but on the sad days it's just as hard as any other depression
I have never watched a video that explained what depression is like so incredibly well. It was beautiful and for once, I feel understood and just a little bit less alone because someone finally gets every part of it.
Incredible. Yet again, you've managed to pinpoint exactly how people with depression or other mental health problems feel on a day to day basis. Beautifully written too.
My live goes like this too , everything fine outside but inside I don't know, So true words ,I have no words to show my gratitude to the personality exactly like me
I have depression and anxiety and it feels like nobody understands what's going on in my head. I bottle everything up and pretend to be happy when I'm not. This video explains exactly what I feel, so thank you
Every morning I pray to die.. I'm too sad to live but not brave enough to end my life. I used to believe in God but I don't anymore. If he was out there and cared about me, he would've taken me by now. I feel like my life is a punishment I don't deserve. Depression sucks.
I know i'm late but maybe God has some plans for you.. I believe in God and I'm so sad to hear something like this because I can feel Him and I always talk to Him about everything and I just know He's listening... When I'm in church I feel all that positive energy and i just can't stop smiling, in church I feel like I can touch Him and I feel Him. I just do... Anyway... I believe that He has some plans for you i believe that He needs you for something that you dont understand... I believe that you can love Him again... I believe that you just need to open in front of Him. He'll listen... I can promise you that. Just be brave and believe. There is still good in this world.
Everyday South African Church Doctor. Or Just Me! You & me both. 😔 I still hope & have faith that there's a God out there but so many doubts because of all this pain.
No matter how many depression poems are out there in RUclips, I have never found one I could really relate to, until now. I know depression has many aspects and that any of us perceives this eternal hell inside his head in its own way. But this one's perfect for me. It suits me so much I could literally be the author of the poem I am listening to right now. Thank you for sharing your experience because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. This poem describes very accurately what my life is (I still don't know if I am depressed, I never got a diagnosis and everyone keeps telling me it's just a phase. I don't know how to handle this anymore) .
I feel the same People say to me, you have such caring friends, a beautiful family! But it's not that I'm not grateful Of course I am, but it's that I don't deserve them They deserve someone who doesn't stay in bed crying instead of going to school I don't want to disappoint the people I love but I can't help how I feel
I wish more could hear your "Spoken Word Poetry".Has an 11 years old with a dad currently dealing with depression your poetry could not be more relatable.Thank you for speaking the truth.💛
I relate to the part where you said everything is perfect on paper but inside you are falling apart. I too have everything. I have food, water, a roof over my head, a caring family but I just can't bring myself to feel motivated or inspired. I just go through life doing the bare minimum to survive and carry forward and it makes me miserable. This poem expressed that so beautifully. Thank you Taz.
Somehow, she explained everything about me. I'm not joking, nor looking for attention, this is fact I'm never able to explain why I have depression. My mom is loving, my dad is always there to help, my siblings they're all so great. Then you see me, the supposed 'edgy 13 year old' that everyone sees as a kid looking for a reason to fit in with the world. My family isn't poor, I haven't suffered trauma or abuse, but depression is as effective on me as anyone else who actually has a reason to be suffering.
I knew I recognised your voice, I heard this about 2 years ago, before I'd even subscribed to your channel. The words of this describe how I feel and my life daily xxx
Taz, this poem was amazing. I've watched a lot of your other videos and this one is a complete different side of you. The video where you don't use social media for a week and end up in tears made me cry. Thank you for sharing this poem. You're truly an amazing person. :)
When people tell you tell you your mean or rude and start calling you names you try to change yourself because you believe what they said even when it's not true,
You are truly amazing! I've been sat here watching all your mental health poems and every single word is accurate, meaningful and you write it in such a beautiful way. Really helpful hearing my thoughts and feelings come out of someone else's mouth.
hi my name is valentina and I love depression poems or sad multifandom cause I sometimes feel like you said and I would love to write this poem and show it to my teacher I can hive you credit
I'm literally crying 😭. I love you Taz The stigma is real, atleast from where I come from, mental illness is a myth. We need people like you to spread the word. Have a great day Taz
yes, you can. I believe that you have the strength to keep going, I don't know your life, but I know that if you are going through something and you can stay strong for however long you have, then you are stronger than you think. you can keep going through whatever it is that's hurting/harming you. I believe in you because I believe that everyone can get better, or can get through whatever is happening to them.
Yes you can! At least you know you're not happy and you're not pretending that everything is fine. Admitting there is a problem is part of the solution, the other part is getting help. It is hard I know but you can get through it no matter how hard it is or can get, you WILL get through it! DON'T UNDERESTIMATE YOURSELF
I can relate to this partially, I haven't found amazing friends but I do have a great family . I have dropped my grades but got back up, because I also created a character . She's the one who nobody gets mad or annoyed at She's the one that has high grades compared to others( not bragging) She's the one who smiles and has the calm nature anybody can talk to She isn't perfect but I do try to be her. I do try to look pretty and I do try to maintain good grades It's just sometimes that "perfect "girl falls out of character It's just sometimes that the " perfect " girl cries, not from weaknesses but from how amazing that people these days can be so blind. It's the thought of why living when you're going to die anyways. ... But eventually , that girl will redeem herself again, and realize how strong she is Eventually she'll come back to her normal state and follow her third character Because her third character ... she is the strongest one through all characters i have made She is the character that realizes that the "evil" or "lunatic" people used to be soaring angels, but just got blinded by society She is the character that has the heart of true , glistening, gold , shining through her smile But right now I'm the first character, falling apart the night before the exams and drifting off to the deepest thoughts nobody will ever know. So the first character(me ) comes here. She saves herself here .And tries to understand the other people on this page that can't fight through I try to be the third character the most. And even if you call it bagging, I rather call it a must to be that Third Character. I hope anyone who has this hell, knows that it's okay. Breath and forget the past, smile. This state is temporary. I believe in you Please know that you are still you, don't kill, just heal. Yes, it's hard and Yes, it was never easy. But try to let go of something that holds you down. I might be depressed right now, and I do put on a mask. But remember these words " I believe in you" ' No matter how little you think about yourselves or no matter how many demons you want to lose to. " It's okay Sorry for the super long story Didn't mean to hit any emotional spots or brag about myself. Just trying to tell you my story. Have strenght in you and love you Taz
I can't tell you how much I identify with your words!! This was me all throughout high school. God... I love everything about your video. Your voice, your expressions, the visuals... but your words hit so deep home...
Why not go to the doctors? If your mum refuses to take you then just say you have a pain in your stomach or make something up, and when you are facing the doctor, tell them how you feel.
I am just looking back at the videos that you used to post when I first joined your channel. You are amazing and you make me and my friends so happy when we watch your videos. It’s amazing to see how far you have come and how many people you have inspired. Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘😘😘💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💕💝💝💝💝💝💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
This... This is just so compelling. So relatable for almost everyone... I'm struggled with severe depression for years... It's affected so much of my life. It's drawn away the love of my life. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful words.
I really hate when people think that young kids like 13 year olds cant develop depression. For some reason people think the younger the happier. You are not them. So therefor you can not assume ANYTHING. If they are telling you they are depressed listen to them and help them change. They have so much time ahead of them make them feel living is worth it. Please....
3 videos in and im in tears, bawling my eyes out. you are the realist, taz. thank you for these videos. your poetry speaks feeling and soul. it speaks heartache and realization. thank you for this. may god bless you .
Depression is something that it can't be explain... It's hard to put ur thoughts in order. Listening to your poems it's like cleaning my messed up mind.
Yeah well in order to sort your mind out is to seek help from professionals. My gf cut me out of her life due to her depression, no matter how supportive I was to her, she didn't want me in her life. It is sad as I know I made her happy.
This hits home so freaking hard. I've been feeling this way for over a year. I act fine. I show a smile that's so fake, even I believe it. That's until night falls and it all hits. The anxiety. The depression. And it's so hard to even figure out how to explain how I feel with words I can't even try to put together.
I absolutely love this. I have never had the right words to describe my feelings, and for the longest time people didn't believe me when I said I suffered from depression. This poem has unlocked a part of my brain that allows me to describe what I feel. It also showed me that there are other people out there suffering as well... thanks for putting this up :)
I want you to know that Jesus brings whole, deep, and joyous freedom. I used to self-harm, my friend. And I've found hearty healing in Him. He hears. He loves. He restores. Please ask him to make himself known. Peace, truth, and true joy will come!
my friend was a believer but that didn't save him. He prayed for help but still ended his own life at the age of 19. I'm glad if you feel like God has helped you but that's not how it is for everyone.
Wow, I'm sorry to hear that. That's absolutely horrible, and never, ever an easy thing to see someone go through. These are the tough things believers and non-believes alike have to grapple with - I've gone through a similar experience with a friend in high-school.. And it's so disheartening. So angering. And so confusing when Jesus said he heals and he frees. I don't know the whole of why things like this happen - I know that there's darkness. I know it's powerful, too. But I still believe that light can overcome. There's a saying, that goes - "The enemy might win several battles, but Jesus wins the war." That helps me put it into perspective sometimes. The best thing to do, in all the confusion and anger, is still to turn to God. Be angry at him, ask the tough questions, and give him space to respond. It's what he wants to do. Thanks for being honest, friend. While you don't have to agree with all'a this, I do hope its sparks a wee bit of hope, at the very least! Take care.
+Brayan Vee And some people are! She is merely stating what worked for her and showed others a side of recovery. She never said everyone had to recover this way! Be nice
this is the strongest poem that i can relate to the most. i’m sad. but i have a good family, friends, good grades, etc. and i don’t even i understand why i’m so sad and i can’t even talk to my parents about this. the only person i can talk to is my best friend bc she is going through the same thing.❤️
I sit next to this boy in math class, my teacher called me negative and he said "Ms but i thought she was depressed" and I just stared at him and he said "You always seem so depressed like everything you say is so depressing" the last thing I said to him before he said that was "I feel happy now"
Good for you, and how dare that teacher call you out like that!!! They have no business discussing this, your emotional state, in a classroom setting...with other students in the class to hear it too. I'd switch to another teacher/class. But good for you for switching this up to HAPPY :))
Ahhh... sorry to hear that but, no problem then! You need the class, not other people's approval. Get your education, +beyond-my-thoughts, and no need to be concerned with "the nonsense" that people tend to do..(like diagnose others as if they are qualified - so unnecessary!) Now that you've given the statement, "I feel happy now", hopefully that will send happy vibes! WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST! :))
some people just know when you are lying.... I have tried to lie to my friends avout being happy 1 of them found out and is helping me. when people say I am fine sometimes they mean it. sometimes they don't. he knew that you weren't actually happy
I cried at this video,I wish I can just show this to everybody I knew but they would still not understand I've been going through depression and social anxiety for about 2 years now and it awful every word she said came from the heart
OH MY GOSH THIS IS PERFECT... I have been looking for a spoken word or anything really that explains what depression feels like... it's so hard for people without it to understand... THIS IS BEAUTIFUL please keep writing!
im 10 and this basically describes my life in 2:44 mins and seconds i can't seem to find something that makes me happy im to shy to admit anything, ive never asked for help with my emotions, even how much i try i cant find a reason for anything i live for other people and i wake up knowing im going to cry in the inside and not shout for help, i just stay to my self and i cant find a reason ive put up a barer so people dont see the real me, ive tried to point out im not okay without saying it but nobody finds out, ive cut and never have found a reason to live, and i only live for my love.
I've been creating this character for years, and I'm afraid to let this character go. Afraid to be ashamed of myself, afraid of losing control. Yet again, I tend to slip away all the time.
I recently discovered your channel and I've absolutely fallen in love with it and with you!!! You are literally one of the most real RUclipsrs!!!!! Plz never ever change, you're perfect! I know what depression is like and I'm so proud that you've made it this far! Keep going strong!♥️
This really hit me hard. I was depressed for so long. I felt exactly this way. Whatever I tried, I couldn't fix it. It was a burden on my shoulders that I couldn't bare. I tried to end it all, but something stopped me every time. I just couldn't escape. Now I'm happy. One day, I just woke up, and I felt so much better. I wasn't completely sure why, but I felt so great. It had been so long since I felt that way that I didn't recognize it was a feeling of happiness. For any of you out there struggling with depression; You'll get through it some day. Your life is precious and you are so so so worth it. It gets better. You were granted with this one life. Life is so worth living. So live it. Stay strong
I have never known if I had depression, anxiety, or what, I just knew that sometimes I have longer periods of not feeling alright. Crying a lot for no reason, being too emotional, or not feeling anything. Or being angry. When I was a child I cried a lot, got bullied a lot, so in high school I played a role who wasn't me. This poem made me realize that I have depression since I was like 6... 20 years of ignorance.
This made me cry, it made me realize that this whole time, this whole time I've been pushing away the fact that I'm depressed...... I'm depressed. I realize that now, and I don't know what to do to fix it
Thank you so much for making these videos. I've been struggling for years, but could never bring my self to tell anyone, and when I tried I never had the words. You have the words though. Every word of your poetry rings eerily true with how I feel. Now that I've shown a friend these poems he understands why I am the way I am, and I'm so thankful because I have somebody to lean on now somebody who I can honestly say "I'm not fine" to. Thank you!
I'm so relieved that there is someone out there that actually knows what depression is like. Thank you for this.
I know...
of course anyone who suffers from it knows what it's like lol it was an amazing video and she really got the message across
Billions of people in the world and you'd doubt that someone didn't actually know?
Sophiaxo right this is beautiful 💕❤️
its like i just understand this all
I get bad grades, I don't have friends, I am weird, can't talk clearly, I can't keep up a conversation, I am shy, I am lonely. This is me, overwhelmed with depression.
exactly.
I feel you I know it feels horrible...
same...
keep ur head up. god bless u!!! x
OMG you just summed up my life in one comment
Depression feels like you're in a dream constantly running away from your own shadow. You'll only escape when you confront the darkness.
Xquavius Ellison this is exactly how I feel ....
I can't escape it forever but sometimes I find the balance and that's where I found it my way out even if it just for a dat
I agree with you
“I create this character, and she is perfect”
My life
Shy Guy same
Shy Guy same here
me like 100% there are other people around
@@turnip954 same here i have to be happy so i dont let anything show
I Am 16 Years Old And You Said My Entire Life In One Poem
exactly. I'm 15 and the poem explained my life...
+Maize Ame I am 17 and I hate how you guys are a timeline of my life :( I don't remember anything but this I fucking hate it we don't deserve this.
14 and same
Same here, I turned 15, and this poem describes it perfectly
I am 20, almost 21 & I relate to this poem as well. I've felt like this forever as long as I could remember. I find it easier to smile all day & cry myself to sleep. I don't like pity, I like comfort & that is why I run to my closest friend & to my oldest sister because they understand me, or at least attempt to. It feels good to talk it out & cry to someone who gives us comfort not to someone who gives is pity.
i was not a nobody, i was not popular.
i was not dumb, i was not the smartest.
i was not hideous, i was not beautiful.
i was not sad, i was not happy.
*i was depressed.*
Depression...
I see a beatiful pearson inside you ur great
And it’s so hard for some people to understand...
*was*
Hey before you dismiss this. Please read. I have had countless arguments with my sister, her telling me that depression is a choice and I need to remember what I am getting up for every morning. It kills me that a person closest to me believes I am happy seeking some sort of attention through my sadness I tried to explain to her that depression is being lonely and lost and what was your happiest place to go to. nothing is the same anymore. The world means nothing. you described depression beautifully and some people believe that spoken word is a way of glamorising and trending depression but it is not. so many people still dont believe that depression is an illness such as the flu. The word needs to be heard.
+Charlotte Matthews I'm really sorry to hear that Charlotte, and I completely agree many people are ignorant to mental illness and the gravity of it.
i totally agree with you. i mean, they say it's a choice and stuff. well, if it is, then I would'nt be like this. itis not freaking good. And guess what, I am trying to choose to be happy. I AM TRYING SO HARD. harder than I try to pass my subjects at school. trying to be better for my parents sake. harder than I try to stay alive. but shit just always happen and you're back to zero. being empty, being lonely and sad. to the chains of anxiety. that someday, all your dreams, the last remaining dreans you have, will still be a failure. that you are never ever gonna see and experience that because you'll eventually give up. they say try to see the things that are still there. that there are still MORE into life. but the thing us, most of the time I just don't want to be in, experience and see that MORE into life. because living nakes me want to stab my neck with a knife. i try my best to explain this. but all they say when they see my scars is tgat I am selfish. that I don't think about the people who loves me. but I just want to be in control. i want to ease the pain in the inside. it's just that, when it is too much in the inside, you just have this urge to feel better and that's when you try to release it on the outside. they say it's just the mood swings, it's the pms. do you have PMS all the fucking time?! they tell me these things, trying to shallow things up, but it's not shallow. it's killing me from deepest part of me. they try to tell me it's easy to recover, to overcome this, to choose to be happy, to stop harming myself. I'm telling you, if it's easy then I would've been okay since. i would've been better than I am now. I would've been happy. but it's not easy to win. to win from the voices. from the thoughts. from anxiety. from the fear. I am weak and tgey are strong. I am trying to be strong but they are stronger. i just feel it's useless. i just feel that if trying to make things better is an error then i think it'd be better to take the shortcut right? they say it's nonsense, but when you just don't see the end or even the dot of light from this darkness, then it would be the best resort.
+zeph reyes someone who can explain it right
Didnt read lol
I have depression, anxiety and possibly epilepsy, I'm not saying this to get attention. My mother says I don't have depression, but I have anxiety, she ignores what doctors say. Most likely because it doesn't fit her expectations for me and my sister. My sister is bisexual and my mother said 'oh she's not in her right mind' and 'she's straight she's just going through a phase. I know my sister better than my mom and it's not just a phase and if it is, I don't know what to do. I'm bisexual and I know that's me, but I don't tell my mom, let her think I'm straight because she'll only say that I love wrong. I cut myself and I try to stop but the taunting and teasing from one of my brothers, my other brother never home, my sister away at college, there's nobody to stand up for me. My dad is self employed, but he is busy finishing college and my mom is too busy with work to notice. I can't ever sleep, I barely eat, and I can't get a single thing done in school. My depression and anxiety holds me back too much. But the thinks that really hurts is things like 'get over it', or 'depression is a choice'. If depression were a choice or something that could be remedied in a first aid kit, don't you think I would've been happy again long ago? Or never depressed in the first place?
The scene that she was standing infront of a window touching her arm.... 😭
when you said "I create a character, she's perfect she's invicible" got me teared up because thats my problem too. showing the public that im invicible while the fact is actually im so very fragile. it sucks.
I am the exact same way. Everyone thinks that I am this girl that has no problems, that has no worries, but it is the opposite. I don't let my friends know cause the family that does know I have depression judges me by it. So I don't tell my friends or anyone that doesn't already know cause I am so afraid that they will do the same. Everyone thinks that I am this perfect girl but I'm not.
I am the same
“Depression is the hell inside me” I couldn’t have said it better.
only the depressed understand the depressed.
Near true
i really needed this...thank you.
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Julyssa Damian your profile picture gives me life. Hello there fellow clique member 😜😊
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I losssst it when you said the man who just got fired. I was supposed to hear this. nobody there knew, they thought I was obnoxiously too nice they got me fired. they didn't know it took me over a year to build the courage to submit applications, go to interviews, and to have a job as a cashier even tho it went directly against my mental illness, I played a character that I was fine and I did a really good job, they didn't know before that, I had barely left my house in 2 years, that a few months prior to getting the job, that I was raped , that I had just put my child molester in jail, and Now I'm back to the very beginning ,no high school diploma, no job, no more strength, no more tears, no want to live. but I'm still here, and my hearts broken so many times, I feel like my heart is hanging on by a thread, a thread that can tear if I hear something I can't handle, if I'm pushed down any further, I feel like I'm physically going to die from the pain my heart goes through and has gone through the past 20 years of my life.
it will get better, you are stronger than you think you are.
stay strong and don't give up.
+J Jay its nice to know I'm not the only man out here feeling this way. that's good you have a friend who wants to help, that's always a blessing . I've been doing this on my own with no support from other than family for 2 years now, its lonely as fuck. I don't talk to anybody anymore, the only time I hang out with someone is when I go outside to smoke and someone asks for a cigarette or for some weed. I hope the tides change for people like us 👌
The part about submitting applications really got to me. I remember when My parents called me lazy and entitled for months because I kept saying that I was trying to get a job, but never got one. I had filled out applications but never responded once called in for an interview and never followed up with the employers. It took me 6 months before I finally followed up with an employer.
you have to be stronggg
I know this comment is a year old, but I really hope you arw doing better now, or at least still hanging in there. Im on a close thread to getting fired too, so it is relatable for me as well.
"People ask me: 'Why are you always so sad? I tell them I don't know... I don't know. What I do know is that I wake up everymorning feeling like absolutely shit." True...😞😭
I feel the same
"I'm afraid that I'll be judged for something I can not control."
That is exactly how I feel, the whole poem describes my life! 😞 I hope someday it will be better, I never stop believing this!
The fact that when she said and so I carry on living these two lives one for the public and one just for me later at night suits me the best
My mother, she has depression. I thought she would understand what I was going through but she refuses to believe I have depression. She caught me trying to hang myself and told me it was for attention. She says that I'm too young to have depression. I'm turning15 and you can never be too young to have depression or any mental illness. This was amazing and thank you so much for making this amazing poem and spending time on it. Whenever I'm feeling like no one understands I listen to this. And I want to thank you for this
Have you been to the doctors? What did he/she say? If not, why not?
That’s why my grandma says. “You’re too young to have anxiety and depression” Fuck off w/ that shit. Ur never too young.
It's been years since i have been here... but this still hits the same. No, i feel like it even hits worse now than it did back when i was still a teenager.
This description is spot on, I've never felt so understood. My family life is great, I have good friends, I have no reason to feel this way, but it helps so much to know that I'm not the only one in this situation. Thank you so much! I just wish I had have seen this sooner.
Then it is a chemical imbalance in your brain, it can be cured by a simple visit to the doctors, just with any illness, we seek help medically, it is not a magic fix but it is curable.
I go in and out of depression constantly. 3 months of depression, 1 month of recovery. The problem is that because I was only 11 when it first started, I don't remember what it's like to not struggle. The depression has become normative and the month of happiness is always clouded by the knowledge that the depression WILL come back.
Someone who understands me...
Are you sure it's really just depression?
For me, it also started when I was 11 years old. I was in therapy ever since because of my depression, and yes, it helped, I was able to get to know and love myself after many years, but.. the depression always came back. And I never understood why.
6 months ago, while being in a mental hospital for the 3rd time, I finally got my real diagnosis: I'm bipolar. That's why it always came back. That's why I was able to "recover" again and again, but would always fall into the deep black hole of depression after some weeks or months. No one, not even I, saw my (hypo)manic episodes, since everything just though "Oh, she's finally doing better, good for her".
It took the doctors 10 years, until they finally where able to tell me what's wrong with me. Maybe.. it's the same for you. Look up bipolar disorder, or maybe cyclothymia. Maybe you'll recognise some of the symptoms. If so, please go see a doctor and tell him about it. Maybe you've been diagnosed wrong, like me.
But no matter what, I wish you the best of luck on your way to recovery.
I've always had it. I don't remember a childhood. I don't remember a time before it.
this is so moving and well preformed
Yes, it is
I agree with you. She's just so talented and such an inspiration
I been listening to this since I was 15. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. As years got on it is now bpd. And this speaks volumes for me. I cry at how no one understands me on a daily. This is something that has saved me. Also so has all your spoken word poetry. Your voice has always been amazing. You're amazing.
Hey.
So, I've been struggling from depression for awhile now.
My dad never understood, he always thought it was just drama, and I just want attention.
For a long time, I was feeling much better. But all the sudden, I feel like I've been getting worse again.
I found your videos a couple weeks ago and I relate to them so much.
You're so strong and beautiful. And you've helped me a lot.
I love you!
Thank you for this! It's great to know there are people that really understand what I feel.
"That's easier then admitting I have a problem and that's a problem"
That line got to me
I am surrounded by friends who are depressed, they sink into their own void and I sink into mine. We all just, accept that. You fall into depression but you don't think you do, until your friends say you do. Because that's how things are clarified as true, right? If somebody says you're fat, then it's true right? Wrong. If you're depressed you believe it, you accept it, it's like you're accepting yourself and that's what you try to do every single day because nobody else will. At first, it's deniable, but eventually it's not. Sometimes you run into people who think you're just creating drama on purpose and they purposely act depressed just to mock us, they insult people like us. People with a so called "mental issue" who need serious help because nobody trusts them. Nobody believes in them. And that's the problem, if you try to help us you're saying that were indeed messed up and it just makes our self conscious think that everybody who you knew now thinks of you as the freak with a problem. And that's how the world can be, an endless void of helplessness.
This made me cry. This really brought tears out of my eyes.
"i carry on living two lives, one for the public and one just for me late at night"
when she said "when people ask why im sad i say id dont know'" that hit hard.. if cried for no reason and ive been asked why but all you can say is i don't know they never believe you're telling the truth but you really don't know why you just cry to let it out to express what you feel to show your pain even when you don't mean to.
OMG! When you said society tells you to do yoga I actually jumped up. That's what I've been told on multiple occasions while struggling with depression and neurosis by a variety of people.. God damnit how ridiculous is that.
It's like someone saying:
A: Hi, I have Cancer
B: You sould try yoga.
....
Amazing video
people say that mental health is not abnormal anymore but im completely alienated in my home town
this was beautiful, you're beautiful, i loved this!
Samantha Wicks stop lying
dorothy bruno irrelevant.
so i carry on living these two lives one for the public and one just for me late at night
I am an on of off switch. I can be depressed for weeks but then the next week or two I will be the happiness and energetic person you have ever seen. Is this normal? I don't even know why I flip. is every one like this they just don't say it? is there something off about me? idk do you
I feel the same way all the time...everyone tells me im not depressed but, how can you know if you dont feel what i feel? Youre not the only one who feels like that
Look up Bipolar Disorder. I have it and it sounds exactly how you describe. One moment you're so happy you could scream with pleasure, and then BAM! the switch is hit and you want nothing more than to sit in the corner and cry and wonder why you even exist
Meghan Mihalik bpd
That sounds a lot like Dysthymia. It's what I was diagnosed with almost 2 years ago. It makes you switch between happy and sad but on the sad days it's just as hard as any other depression
Yeah, I've been feeling the same thing.
This is amazing and you have such a lovely voice and ur face is so beautiful!
I love this I listing to this all day everyday. Do u mind if I write this down to show people.?
Not at all :)
hi loved you poem . i was wondering if i can use it in a school presentation. all the credits will go to you.
The Voice of my thoughts
I love your honesty about it all. So commendable. So transparent of you.
I have never watched a video that explained what depression is like so incredibly well. It was beautiful and for once, I feel understood and just a little bit less alone because someone finally gets every part of it.
This hit me so hard. I'm crying.
Incredible. Yet again, you've managed to pinpoint exactly how people with depression or other mental health problems feel on a day to day basis. Beautifully written too.
My live goes like this too , everything fine outside but inside I don't know,
So true words ,I have no words to show my gratitude to the personality exactly like me
I have depression and anxiety and it feels like nobody understands what's going on in my head. I bottle everything up and pretend to be happy when I'm not. This video explains exactly what I feel, so thank you
Every morning I pray to die.. I'm too sad to live but not brave enough to end my life. I used to believe in God but I don't anymore. If he was out there and cared about me, he would've taken me by now. I feel like my life is a punishment I don't deserve. Depression sucks.
I know i'm late but maybe God has some plans for you..
I believe in God and I'm so sad to hear something like this because I can feel Him and I always talk to Him about everything and I just know He's listening... When I'm in church I feel all that positive energy and i just can't stop smiling, in church I feel like I can touch Him and I feel Him. I just do...
Anyway... I believe that He has some plans for you i believe that He needs you for something that you dont understand... I believe that you can love Him again... I believe that you just need to open in front of Him. He'll listen... I can promise you that.
Just be brave and believe. There is still good in this world.
Everyday South African Church Doctor. Or Just Me! You & me both. 😔 I still hope & have faith that there's a God out there but so many doubts because of all this pain.
that second sentence hit me so hard
"so i carry on living these two lives, one for the public and one just for me late at night" im not crying you are
Im speechless. This is amazing. Ive never related to something so much. Thank you
No matter how many depression poems are out there in RUclips, I have never found one I could really relate to, until now. I know depression has many aspects and that any of us perceives this eternal hell inside his head in its own way.
But this one's perfect for me. It suits me so much I could literally be the author of the poem I am listening to right now. Thank you for sharing your experience because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. This poem describes very accurately what my life is (I still don't know if I am depressed, I never got a diagnosis and everyone keeps telling me it's just a phase. I don't know how to handle this anymore) .
I feel the same
People say to me, you have such caring friends, a beautiful family! But it's not that I'm not grateful
Of course I am, but it's that I don't deserve them
They deserve someone who doesn't stay in bed crying instead of going to school
I don't want to disappoint the people I love but I can't help how I feel
I wish more could hear your "Spoken Word Poetry".Has an 11 years old with a dad currently dealing with depression your poetry could not be more relatable.Thank you for speaking the truth.💛
well my grades are slipping harder than a kid on a waterslide
I know this comment is like 3 years old, but this is relatable.
@@houndfin ikr? Hmm..
I relate to the part where you said everything is perfect on paper but inside you are falling apart. I too have everything. I have food, water, a roof over my head, a caring family but I just can't bring myself to feel motivated or inspired. I just go through life doing the bare minimum to survive and carry forward and it makes me miserable. This poem expressed that so beautifully. Thank you Taz.
Somehow, she explained everything about me. I'm not joking, nor looking for attention, this is fact I'm never able to explain why I have depression. My mom is loving, my dad is always there to help, my siblings they're all so great. Then you see me, the supposed 'edgy 13 year old' that everyone sees as a kid looking for a reason to fit in with the world. My family isn't poor, I haven't suffered trauma or abuse, but depression is as effective on me as anyone else who actually has a reason to be suffering.
I knew I recognised your voice, I heard this about 2 years ago, before I'd even subscribed to your channel. The words of this describe how I feel and my life daily xxx
Thank you for this message, Taz and for everyone else who is going through this including me, we are in this together.
Taz, this poem was amazing. I've watched a lot of your other videos and this one is a complete different side of you. The video where you don't use social media for a week and end up in tears made me cry. Thank you for sharing this poem. You're truly an amazing person. :)
When people tell you tell you your mean or rude and start calling you names you try to change yourself because you believe what they said even when it's not true,
You are truly amazing! I've been sat here watching all your mental health poems and every single word is accurate, meaningful and you write it in such a beautiful way. Really helpful hearing my thoughts and feelings come out of someone else's mouth.
hi my name is valentina and I love depression poems or sad multifandom cause I sometimes feel like you said and I would love to write this poem and show it to my teacher I can hive you credit
+Valentina Valencia Yes that's fine :)
Love how honest this is Taz
tears no words finally someone gets it
I'm literally crying 😭.
I love you Taz
The stigma is real, atleast from where I come from, mental illness is a myth. We need people like you to spread the word.
Have a great day Taz
i can't do this anymore.
yes, you can. I believe that you have the strength to keep going, I don't know your life, but I know that if you are going through something and you can stay strong for however long you have, then you are stronger than you think. you can keep going through whatever it is that's hurting/harming you. I believe in you because I believe that everyone can get better, or can get through whatever is happening to them.
thank you
:) your welcome
Yes you can! At least you know you're not happy and you're not pretending that everything is fine. Admitting there is a problem is part of the solution, the other part is getting help. It is hard I know but you can get through it no matter how hard it is or can get, you WILL get through it!
DON'T UNDERESTIMATE YOURSELF
I know Im just a stranger to you and probably living on the other side of the world from you but I meant every single word I said
As someone who suffered from depression for two years, this made me cry because its the absolute truth.
I can relate to this partially, I haven't found amazing friends but I do have a great family . I have dropped my grades but got back up, because I also created a character .
She's the one who nobody gets mad or annoyed at
She's the one that has high grades compared to others( not bragging)
She's the one who smiles and has the calm nature anybody can talk to
She isn't perfect but I do try to be her.
I do try to look pretty and I do try to maintain good grades
It's just sometimes that "perfect "girl falls out of character
It's just sometimes that the " perfect " girl cries, not from weaknesses
but from how amazing that people these days can be so blind. It's the thought of why living when you're going to die anyways.
...
But eventually , that girl will redeem herself again, and realize how strong she is
Eventually she'll come back to her normal state and follow her third character
Because her third character ...
she is the strongest one through all characters i have made
She is the character that realizes that the "evil" or "lunatic" people used to be soaring angels, but just got blinded by society
She is the character that has the heart of true , glistening, gold , shining through her smile
But right now I'm the first character, falling apart the night before the exams and drifting off to the deepest thoughts nobody will ever know.
So the first character(me ) comes here. She saves herself here .And tries to understand the other people on this page that can't fight through
I try to be the third character the most. And even if you call it bagging, I rather call it a must to be that Third Character.
I hope anyone who has this hell, knows that it's okay. Breath and forget the past, smile. This state is temporary. I believe in you
Please know that you are still you, don't kill, just heal. Yes, it's hard and Yes, it was never easy. But try to let go of something that holds you down. I might be depressed right now, and I do put on a mask. But remember these words
" I believe in you"
' No matter how little you think about yourselves or no matter how many demons you want to lose to. "
It's okay
Sorry for the super long story
Didn't mean to hit any emotional spots or brag about myself. Just trying to tell you my story. Have strenght in you and love you Taz
I can't tell you how much I identify with your words!! This was me all throughout high school. God... I love everything about your video. Your voice, your expressions, the visuals... but your words hit so deep home...
I'm only 12 and it explains my whole life
Jazmyn Revels I'm 13 and me too...I need help 😔
Amphibian. Axolotl I really need help to but when I try to say anything about it either I'm ignored or nagged just know you're not alone
Why not go to the doctors? If your mum refuses to take you then just say you have a pain in your stomach or make something up, and when you are facing the doctor, tell them how you feel.
Exactly the same as me!
I'm also 12..
I am just looking back at the videos that you used to post when I first joined your channel. You are amazing and you make me and my friends so happy when we watch your videos. It’s amazing to see how far you have come and how many people you have inspired. Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘😘😘💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💕💝💝💝💝💝💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
I told my friends i had depression and they posted it all over instagram and to this day they say "you dont have depression dont lie " 💔
Hey Cassi, I suggest get new friends because that's not what friends do.. message me if you want 😊 I'll be a shoulder xx
@@foxcurties1945 thanks so much i just dont wanna be alone at school
"I created this character and I live two lives" described how the depression is like. Love it :)
I'm depressed and i don't even know why and i can't sleep at night thinking what if this what if that and i'm tired
I am going through a particular bad phase right now and I just found this video. It is so good to know that I am not alone. Thank you!
This video should have went viral,
This... This is just so compelling. So relatable for almost everyone... I'm struggled with severe depression for years... It's affected so much of my life. It's drawn away the love of my life. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful words.
I really hate when people think that young kids like 13 year olds cant develop depression. For some reason people think the younger the happier. You are not them. So therefor you can not assume ANYTHING. If they are telling you they are depressed listen to them and help them change. They have so much time ahead of them make them feel living is worth it. Please....
3 videos in and im in tears, bawling my eyes out. you are the realist, taz. thank you for these videos. your poetry speaks feeling and soul. it speaks heartache and realization. thank you for this. may god bless you .
i cried. this is me.
Depression is something that it can't be explain... It's hard to put ur thoughts in order. Listening to your poems it's like cleaning my messed up mind.
Yeah well in order to sort your mind out is to seek help from professionals. My gf cut me out of her life due to her depression, no matter how supportive I was to her, she didn't want me in her life. It is sad as I know I made her happy.
I'm 30 seconds in and bawling
This hits home so freaking hard. I've been feeling this way for over a year. I act fine. I show a smile that's so fake, even I believe it. That's until night falls and it all hits. The anxiety. The depression. And it's so hard to even figure out how to explain how I feel with words I can't even try to put together.
This is so good 😭
This is a masterpiece honestly. I relate to it so much.
Taz can I please write down your poem and read it at school
Go for it buddy! :)
+ClickForTaz thank you I'll be sure to give you credit
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ClickForTaz you are so sweet! ❤️❤️❤️😊😊😊
I absolutely love this. I have never had the right words to describe my feelings, and for the longest time people didn't believe me when I said I suffered from depression. This poem has unlocked a part of my brain that allows me to describe what I feel. It also showed me that there are other people out there suffering as well... thanks for putting this up :)
god you're so pretty
I'm so glad there is someone that actually knows what depression it's like xx
I want you to know that Jesus brings whole, deep, and joyous freedom.
I used to self-harm, my friend. And I've found hearty healing in Him.
He hears. He loves. He restores. Please ask him to make himself known. Peace, truth, and true joy will come!
my friend was a believer but that didn't save him. He prayed for help but still ended his own life at the age of 19.
I'm glad if you feel like God has helped you but that's not how it is for everyone.
Wow, I'm sorry to hear that. That's absolutely horrible, and never, ever an easy thing to see someone go through.
These are the tough things believers and non-believes alike have to grapple with - I've gone through a similar experience with a friend in high-school.. And it's so disheartening. So angering. And so confusing when Jesus said he heals and he frees.
I don't know the whole of why things like this happen - I know that there's darkness. I know it's powerful, too. But I still believe that light can overcome.
There's a saying, that goes - "The enemy might win several battles, but Jesus wins the war." That helps me put it into perspective sometimes.
The best thing to do, in all the confusion and anger, is still to turn to God. Be angry at him, ask the tough questions, and give him space to respond. It's what he wants to do.
Thanks for being honest, friend. While you don't have to agree with all'a this, I do hope its sparks a wee bit of hope, at the very least!
Take care.
+Elise Arsenault I agree. That's the only way I got out of my selfharm.
And you can't just pray it away. You have to use God.
Some people aren't in christianity.. Dont be ignorant.
+Brayan Vee And some people are! She is merely stating what worked for her and showed others a side of recovery. She never said everyone had to recover this way! Be nice
this is the strongest poem that i can relate to the most. i’m sad. but i have a good family, friends, good grades, etc. and i don’t even i understand why i’m so sad and i can’t even talk to my parents about this. the only person i can talk to is my best friend bc she is going through the same thing.❤️
I sit next to this boy in math class, my teacher called me negative and he said "Ms but i thought she was depressed" and I just stared at him and he said "You always seem so depressed like everything you say is so depressing" the last thing I said to him before he said that was "I feel happy now"
Good for you, and how dare that teacher call you out like that!!! They have no business discussing this, your emotional state, in a classroom setting...with other students in the class to hear it too. I'd switch to another teacher/class. But good for you for switching this up to HAPPY :))
Ziz Zazzy i cant switch my classes i have pre ap and shes the only one who teaches it either way
Ahhh... sorry to hear that but, no problem then! You need the class, not other people's approval. Get your education, +beyond-my-thoughts, and no need to be concerned with "the nonsense" that people tend to do..(like diagnose others as if they are qualified - so unnecessary!) Now that you've given the statement, "I feel happy now", hopefully that will send happy vibes! WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST! :))
some people just know when you are lying.... I have tried to lie to my friends avout being happy 1 of them found out and is helping me. when people say I am fine sometimes they mean it. sometimes they don't. he knew that you weren't actually happy
The shots of you in silhouette are very powerful, this is really well done and well said.
We cut on our left arm not right :)
Daliss Diaz what if someone is a lefty
What arm is right to cut? Cutting yourself on any arm
I cried at this video,I wish I can just show this to everybody I knew but they would still not understand I've been going through depression and social anxiety for about 2 years now and it awful every word she said came from the heart
7 years now and this video is still my favourite I memorized it by heart ❤️
OH MY GOSH THIS IS PERFECT... I have been looking for a spoken word or anything really that explains what depression feels like... it's so hard for people without it to understand... THIS IS BEAUTIFUL please keep writing!
Her topics are so well driven and by the end of the video I’m just speechless and rethinking and realizing that this our reality
im 10 and this basically describes my life in 2:44 mins and seconds i can't seem to find something that makes me happy im to shy to admit anything, ive never asked for help with my emotions, even how much i try i cant find a reason for anything i live for other people and i wake up knowing im going to cry in the inside and not shout for help, i just stay to my self and i cant find a reason ive put up a barer so people dont see the real me, ive tried to point out im not okay without saying it but nobody finds out, ive cut and never have found a reason to live, and i only live for my love.
I am very glad and happy to know that I am not alone and that someone else in this world knows what I feel like
I've been creating this character for years, and I'm afraid to let this character go. Afraid to be ashamed of myself, afraid of losing control. Yet again, I tend to slip away all the time.
I recently discovered your channel and I've absolutely fallen in love with it and with you!!! You are literally one of the most real RUclipsrs!!!!! Plz never ever change, you're perfect!
I know what depression is like and I'm so proud that you've made it this far! Keep going strong!♥️
This really hit me hard. I was depressed for so long. I felt exactly this way. Whatever I tried, I couldn't fix it. It was a burden on my shoulders that I couldn't bare. I tried to end it all, but something stopped me every time. I just couldn't escape. Now I'm happy. One day, I just woke up, and I felt so much better. I wasn't completely sure why, but I felt so great. It had been so long since I felt that way that I didn't recognize it was a feeling of happiness. For any of you out there struggling with depression; You'll get through it some day. Your life is precious and you are so so so worth it. It gets better. You were granted with this one life. Life is so worth living. So live it. Stay strong
I have never known if I had depression, anxiety, or what, I just knew that sometimes I have longer periods of not feeling alright. Crying a lot for no reason, being too emotional, or not feeling anything. Or being angry. When I was a child I cried a lot, got bullied a lot, so in high school I played a role who wasn't me.
This poem made me realize that I have depression since I was like 6... 20 years of ignorance.
''Depression is the hell inside of me and it eats me up.'' That sentence has been in my mind for so long.
This made me cry, it made me realize that this whole time, this whole time I've been pushing away the fact that I'm depressed...... I'm depressed. I realize that now, and I don't know what to do to fix it
Thank you so much for making these videos. I've been struggling for years, but could never bring my self to tell anyone, and when I tried I never had the words. You have the words though. Every word of your poetry rings eerily true with how I feel. Now that I've shown a friend these poems he understands why I am the way I am, and I'm so thankful because I have somebody to lean on now somebody who I can honestly say "I'm not fine" to. Thank you!