georgia smith She said in another video that she made up this story. It's not an actual story, and that she wanted to write about suicide without being offensive and that saying a story is the best way to do that and show all the emotions she wants listeners to feel when hearing this beautiful piece.
georgia smith i don't feel anything, but it's because i have a problem with empathy i forgot the term, but judging by your comment, i think she did great
@Uni- Tato but I've never came across a video of hers that has any ads, just because I'm questioning something doesn't mean I'm not a fan, I'm just asking how she watched an ad from her because I haven't. I wasn't really intending on offending anyone, sorry if I have.
my best friend died of suicide in January. ..she was going threw such a hard time. I felt like I was the only one on her side and I still feel like I wasn't enough help. I saw here a few hours before they found her, I didn't think she would end it that quick. I lost my friend now I'm trying to help others around because I know how much it hurts to loose someone that hasn't even been threw life yet. your poem was amazing and u totally agree with you!
"Why do we never realise our mistakes? Why do we only learn when it’s too late? Local news will report this incident as just another case, come up with excuses like he wasn’t mentally sane or how kids are so easily influenced these days Give it a few days and you won’t even remember his name, Just another statistic - and so many people go the exact same way, This is the world we live, It’s such a cruel world, it’s such a shame."
Wow guys look at us. Screaming at earth “I’m not gonna live with you. You’re an ugly, disgusting, horrible place. I don’t care what you think I’m leaving. Goodbye.” If you think suicide is an escape then you just told earth “I don’t care about you.” What have we done? Answer that before you leave earth to die
@@threestyleslkr But you just think the same thing you said, except, think you're struggling and pleading for help silently.. Its hard to think in that perspective you said when it seems like nothing matters anymore. See when you're suicidal or want to kill yourself, sometimes it's too hard to think about the people you'll hurt or how selfish you seem...
It might not help but it ends the pain for the people who cant take it anymore,it mostly starts in school and one mistake can change the whole life to an big run of death without knowing it...-
It hurts. I scream, I express myself, but no one will listen, they hear me. But we don't listen to me. Because what who cares, a little girl to the black ideas. After all it is only a little girl. She just wants to make the interesting, she was acting. And little by little, I get lost, I'm confused, and everything seems so big. I want someone to help me, because I'm fed up. And everyone cares. Why? It is society that make us what we are. People think that the words do not hurt. It's true. They kill. Gnaw you on the inside, consumes you. You feel like you can't breathe more. As if his words were blades that you chopped off the skin. Leaving. Always. A scar.You want you escaped. Because it is difficult. And that you can't, this thing that eats you. Pump you the air.And the day you decided to end, we finally take you seriously. But it's too late.
My friend killed himself when we were 14. He was one of the brightest souls I knew. Losing him so early on is such a heart shattering experience, sending you into such a mood of depression. I lost my friend 4 years ago, he's turning 18 in November. It still hurts
My mom calls me selfish for feeling this way that if I actually cared about other people maybe if I put effort into being less selfish then maybe I'll be happy. But the funny thing is I'm trying my bets to stay alive and survive so that the people who love me won't have to be sad won't have to struggle with me gone. I never want to bring a child into this world because this is living hell, I'd never want to watch someone go through this world if they didn't already have to. And my mom said that was fine because I shouldn't bring a child into this world because it will end of just like me selfish. I've actually started accepting it like maybe I am I mean I have a good life (many surgeries, constant pain and agony eveytime I walk) I have a good family (had a small house growing up lived with my cousins who's father died of acholism and now I'm older I have to deal with my mother everyday) have a good body (despise every inch of it) I'm not completely handicapped ( I might as well be) and I have a good group of people around me, the only people I care about and she's gonna take that away from me too. Honestly I don't care at this point all I ever want to do is die like so many people who want to live are dying in this world and I have the "privilege" of living and I somehow can't die because either I don't have a gun I hate pills or I can't tie a noose so there's that. And my mom has seen my scars and doesn't give a crap doesn't take me to a theripist or anything instead she wonders why I'm depressed and try's to homeschool me because it's not like that's where I did all my cutting in the darkness of my room. But no I don't care about anyone but myself yeah me and this living hell im going through
What's selfish is making us feel bad for feeling this way, like it's a choice. Like honestly, don't you think I've tried to stay alive! No matter what I try, I'm still like this. And I need help......
every time I get the post notification for another slam poetry, I prepare myself to face reality. these videos, this art that you do. makes me face reality. you're right. it's a cruel world. I guess we all just have to try our best to get by. you're truly amazing
Your words are amazing. I just found your channel and I feel like I have said each and every word. I've repeated all these thoughts in my head and been alone and angry because I know I'm not alone but the social construct of our world discourages us from talking about this stuff. Thank you for talking about the things that are real and doing it so beautifully
We just stood there, in shock as we looked down, so many questions running through our head, wondering if we had just done something, anything, then maybe things could’ve turned out different.
At the age of just 4 his mother told him he was a mistake said that if she had it her way, he wouldn’t be here today she resented him, despised him, blamed him for everything couldn’t even look him in the eyes without being filled with rage she would tell him that he was the reason his dad walked out that from the day she knew she was pregnant everything changed she went from being madly in love, getting high, drunk every night to juggling two jobs and struggling to pay rent now she’ a single mum with no future and course he’s the one to blame and she reminded him of this fact every single day. By aged 11 he’d seen it all - drug addiction, violence, sexual abuse, he tried to shut it all out as best as he could, but no matter how hard he’d try, it was no good cos you see the problems kept growing, and just when he thought he’d seen enough - he’d entered high school under the false impression that this would be his fresh start, a chance to finally be himself, who knew kids could be so cruel They’d beat him, shamed him, spat in his food. Mocked him, chased him, but somehow he’d make it through. He was no longer living at this point, just struggling to survive, but with no one to turn to what else could he do? Wasn’t long till the teachers labelled him a problem child, said he was disruptive, an inconvenience, that if he didn’t settle down he’d be kicked out. didn’t even try to understand him, he wanted to push it all out but how? he couldn’t fight it anymore, he’d put up with it for too long He no longer cared, he was getting angry now Problems at school, the streets, at home, where the fuck was he supposed to go? By this point his emotions took over, he was angry, violent, abusive - he’d completely lost control, He was done caring about anything, he didn’t give a shit anymore. By age 16 he was walking in his father’s footsteps, lost and consumed by self hate, took drugs to block out the thoughts in his head, anything to numb the pain, desperately wanting to get away, escape to a better place, a place where he could call home, a place where he felt safe, safe to face another day but that doesn’t happen in the real world, see there is no light at the end of the tunnel, not for people in this place. Cos you see he wasn’t a bad kid, he was just scared. Left to fight this world on his own, desperately wanting someone to care. Wasn’t long till he gave in to it, he’d became someone he hates No longer wanted to fight it anymore, he’d accepted it, this was his fate. And just like that he ended it. No words, no note Didn’t even make it to his 18th birthday. Sad thing is, given the chance he could’ve been great but none of that matters now cos it’s too late, he can no longer be saved, brought back from the grave to live another day We live in a world where young kids turn to suicide as an escape A way to finally feel free, because living has become their biggest source of pain Why do we never realise our mistakes? Why do we only learn when it’s too late? Local news will report this incident as just another case, come up with excuses like he wasn’t mentally sane or how kids are so easily influenced these days Give it a few days and you won’t even remember his name, Just another statistic - and so many people go the exact same way, This is the world we live, its such a cruel world its such a shame
What you say is totally true, I have been through something like that, and I'm still fighting to get better. That's why I know you must have lived something really hard to say such true things about suicide. Most people don't even try to understand, they say that suicide is madness, but they don't realize how painful it can be to live, or even just to breathe. Thank you so much for telling the truth to the world.
I want Taz to be my friend because she is so encouraging for everyone’s problems. Thanks Taz for your poems they are the best,usually I just lie in my bed and listen to your voice doing this and your bringing out your true self I love it. Love your vids Taz! Stay strong everyone don’t do this!! . This is my favourite poem. You’ve helped me and maybe other people you are a life saver. I used to watch your other vids all the time and I’m like she’s so happy all the time how is she so happy? Then I found these poems. Taz you keep doing what you doing and we all are here for you when you have problems.
This made me emotional and made me feel so sorrowful, i feel so guilty, i just wish these things didn’t have to exist, i want to apologise for all the people who have been hurt this bad, I’m sorry you have to go through this, depression is something everyone has i guess we just have to TRY keep living.
This is so powerful... like wow thank you for no being afraid to speak for others that can't express themselves. You're truly amazing. This made me cry
This is absoloutely amazing 😍😭 People always think that people who are suicidal are just "mentally unstable" they do not know that they have been fighting for so long and are just begging for a realise which they feel is suicide. It is not "bad influence" from video games but from theyre own surroundings and friends and family. When will ppl learn
the first video i've seen of yours and you instantly became an Idol I love poetry aswell as singing both help me express my feelings to my surrundings; they help me deal with my Emotions
OmFg!!... I'm a poet, and I couldn't have written something so simple, honest, and close to home. No lie, this poem is my life... Thank you so much for posting this! It'll lead me to comfortable tears, every time I am down. It'll lead me joy the day I shall go...
Nighat Parveen i can also write a message to someone and put on a happy mask the point here is iam tired I experience mental abuse and physical abuse at home iam overweight because at age of 7 i was eating my sorrows away and what kind of sorrows would you have at age of 7 my parents were fighting alot I remember crying every night to sleep I remember being blamed for everything and iam still till now my parents make fun of me telling me I shouldn’t watch RUclips all day well the reason i do it is because I don’t want to live real life real life is torture they tell me that i wont be even able to finish high school but i study as much as i can but when i try to remember my brain is filled with all the terrible things i have witnessed anxiety some depression at age of 12 when i was going to school something bad happened i don’t want talk about it lets say i ended in hospital and that is when everyone cared about me guess what after two weeks iam back to nobody the thing that happened to me while i was going to school made me have ptsd increased anxiety and full on depression and iam 13 now i still have ptsd and anxiety the depression has lightened but i dont know what to do like my parents said iam a failure they blame me for everything i just wish to have at least a peaceful moment no worries no ptsd no anxiety no abuse
I lost my cousin a few months ago from suicide. I wasn't that close to him to be honest but I was just so confused and surprised by the news that it started to consume me. All I could think about was suicide and of course, how this all could have been my fault. I thought to my self, "Is it a crime for me to be happy when so many others can't be, no matter how hard they try?" I have pulled my self back since, I don't think about it as much anymore... but I have most mostly felt awful simply since so many people feel they need to escape. Our society tells us that it is okay to shut others out, leave them behind, ignore their problems and tell them, "Just be happy". Taz, I always love your work. Thank you for helping me understand what this is like
I applaud you for being able to read your poems out loud because I would've broken down & not been able to finish. I've grown to accept that my hands speak louder than my voice.
I've never been through so much suicidal thoughts in the past and I found ur channel and it makes me forget about everything and somehow I feel like ur telling me something through ur poems and I cry everytime thankfully somebody stopped and helped me ♡
Im watching you for a few weeks now and this is my favourite video on RUclips. there is so much truth and so many emotions in this video. every time i watch it, i basically have to cry so hard i cant breath. your words are unbelieveable moving. thank you.
This brought me to tears... I'm kept in a little bubble where I am protected from the outside world... what am I to face when I'm an adult? And even scarier... how long do I have left in that protective bubble? I feel like I don't have enough time left
Emotions are filling my head... Dreams while I'm sleeping in bed... Love when my dreams are dead... Freedom when I should be sad but I'm happy instead...
I remember feeling like that when I was a kid. Parents always fighting. Felt like they never wanted us, like we were a mistake. They would leave us alone to take care of the younger siblings, but they forgot that we where also kids nearly 10 years old. Me and my brother had to grow faster than the other kids and had responsibilities to feed and watch over ourselves and our other siblings. Year after year nothing changed but got worse. My parents anger towards each other changed towards us, a little mistake or a slip up and they would yell at us and told us something a kid should never hear from there parents. I slowly grew numb from the verbal/physical abuse. It took a toll on my mental health. Depression, self loathing, timid and shy and suicide thoughts from time to time. Of course it took years until I was in college to slowly realize that it was not my fault for any of it. We came to the U.S poor, my parents took there anger and frustration on us and they were to young to take care of anyone
I am absolutely blown by the amount of talent u have, like in which part of ur brain are these thoughts generated? U really are one of a kind and so far have become my favourite 💛
Hey Taz, this is incredibly well written and moving, I'm assuming that this is the poem you were talking about in some of your vlogs recently. The way that you told the story of the boy was so beautiful and the video itself is so amazing because we can really see how much this subject matters to you and how you are moved by it. Keep doing what you're doing and thank you for constantly inspiring me.
I lost a mother and brother, and then 2 of my dear friends to suicide, I live with depression and daily thoughts of suicide, I don't remember a day without crying, this video really touched me,
20 seconds in and i had to stop. triggered way too many memories but i'm sure this was a good video. and if you're struggling with this, please, remember that you're more than this
I have 7 friends who i have lost to suicide. I myself attempted and failed. I was listening to poems while driving and i had to pull over because my tears got to much for me to see. None of my friends ever saw there 18 birthday. Hell 3 didn't even get to see their 17 birthday. This is so true it speaks about the trauma, the hidden life behind the reason
"we live in a world where young kids turn to suicide as an escape ,to finally feel free because living has become the biggest source of pain " this made me cry ik how this feels. you are amazing I love your work
In life right now, it's hard for me and my other friend, everything that has trapped me and that gave me suicidal thoughts destroyed and departed me from one of my closest most special friends that I loved so dearly. If you are having things like this just just know that whether you are a boy or a girl you are worth it and beautiful beyond your dreams inside and outside.
Why 78 dislikes??? This made me cry, when I was 7 I had those thoughts I never did self harm though I am 2 years older now a lot more mature I have depression and anxiety and stomach aches I take 3 medicines for that, and I still am this young I have H Pylori the bacteria, but this was so beautiful and true. I love watching Taz's videos. Sometimes I feel like my mom won't understand me if I tell her, sometimes I cry when I feel like I am going to lose her and because I have Gastritis I just say my stomach hurts. My dad is overseas working for our family of 9 in total including my father I see him every 6 months. Life is hard but I remind myself keep going keep trying. Please understand I am not doing this for attention, read it if you want it's not for the attention.
This was honestly so stunning and beautiful! You are so talented and extremely real. You approach everything with caution but still make a point. I'm truely in awe of your talent 💕
you are so beautiful, i really hope that you get through your depression- you are so real and amazing it's so hard to think that such a beautiful human could be so sad 😞❤ i hope you feel better
You are so talented. Your words in your poems make me feel the emotion your speaking about. i cry listening to this poem every time. You are my inspiration as a writer. when people ask who's my favorite poet i say you.
I've always told myself giving up is to easy to be what life is meant for but I'm starting to wonder why I care about the rules if life doesnt care about me. Maybe I should end this perfidious game.
It really is a beautiful heart that you carry dear friend... cuz not everyone can feel other's pain.. It's said that the kindest of souls go through the most dreadful of pains.. I hope you live happy and a beautiful existence.. With love. Someone
Omg you have talent! Such a moving, strong emotional poem and you presented amazingly. Have you ever thought of being an actress? I. Hope you realize what an amazing person you are.
I love your spoken word. I can tell that you're a beautiful person inside and out. Keep sharing your spoken word so that you'll teach people 2 think. Words hurt, think about it! ( Tears )
I feel this way.been through theripey,medication,hospitals and they dont seem to know whats wrong so here i am still fighting waiting and holding on to some thing anything.
Hey Taz! Your poetry is heartfelt and so real. You should continue doing what you're doing. The point is that I'm a huge fan of your poetry and it's the reason why I put back the knife.
"He wasn't a bad kid... He was just scared"
People need to realize that
Marie Wiinholt looks at bart simpson aaaaaaaaa
That phrase complys with me
To think what this girl has peen through to put such emotion into this.
What we have all been through to feel these emotions.
So true. I cried while watching it and... I just can't describe how it made me feel
georgia smith She said in another video that she made up this story. It's not an actual story, and that she wanted to write about suicide without being offensive and that saying a story is the best way to do that and show all the emotions she wants listeners to feel when hearing this beautiful piece.
Miss Shouq still, you can't have put so much emotion into this without having felt this sadness before. She really does have so much talent
I know right?? She's so talented and I like her poems a lot!
georgia smith i don't feel anything, but it's because i have a problem with empathy i forgot the term, but judging by your comment, i think she did great
I never skip her ads she deserves the money
She doesn't have any ads....?
@Uni- Tato but I've never came across a video of hers that has any ads, just because I'm questioning something doesn't mean I'm not a fan, I'm just asking how she watched an ad from her because I haven't. I wasn't really intending on offending anyone, sorry if I have.
@Uni- Tato also you said "lol" which stands for "laughing out loud" so your laughing at someone for making a kind gesture?
@@pjmjjk7658 some people say it stands for "lots of love"
Winter Sky Vlogs lmao 😂 but she deserves the money
the world definitely needs more love
Definitely
Reyhan K. No, the people need TO GIVE more love. There's nothing wrong in the world... It's us.😔
i cried...
same....
Same here..
same....
same
same
my best friend died of suicide in January. ..she was going threw such a hard time. I felt like I was the only one on her side and I still feel like I wasn't enough help. I saw here a few hours before they found her, I didn't think she would end it that quick. I lost my friend now I'm trying to help others around because I know how much it hurts to loose someone that hasn't even been threw life yet. your poem was amazing and u totally agree with you!
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you're okay!!
This stopped me from killing myself.
+Stupidly Stupid That's amazing ..how are you doing ? (((: 🌹💕
+Jai Miranda I'm doing better thankyou. I havnt cut in months. And my smiles arnt as fake anymore. ☺️❤️
"Why do we never realise our mistakes? Why do we only learn when it’s too late?
Local news will report this incident as just another case,
come up with excuses like he wasn’t mentally sane or how kids are so easily influenced these days
Give it a few days and you won’t even remember his name,
Just another statistic - and so many people go the exact same way,
This is the world we live,
It’s such a cruel world, it’s such a shame."
Crystal Nguyen that’s so true I’m crying so much reading this...
I love the emotion you put in this.
Phan
wow this was what you were working on this whole time? I'm so impressed
love it, so much emotion, and so much realistic feelinga
i thought you were sarcastic🙈
+Saartjee XxX no no no, I was being 100% honest. I apologize if I seem to appear sarcastic.
We live in a world where people turn to suicide as an escape
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well yeah that’s the point
suicide is kinda like
“i want out”
Wow guys look at us. Screaming at earth “I’m not gonna live with you. You’re an ugly, disgusting, horrible place. I don’t care what you think I’m leaving. Goodbye.” If you think suicide is an escape then you just told earth “I don’t care about you.” What have we done? Answer that before you leave earth to die
An escape out of this hell hole
@@threestyleslkr But you just think the same thing you said, except, think you're struggling and pleading for help silently.. Its hard to think in that perspective you said when it seems like nothing matters anymore. See when you're suicidal or want to kill yourself, sometimes it's too hard to think about the people you'll hurt or how selfish you seem...
The sad thing about suicide is does not end the pain it passes on the pain.😞
Naomi Beckles good quotes right there
That is so true, I agree.
It might not help but it ends the pain for the people who cant take it anymore,it mostly starts in school and one mistake can change the whole life to an big run of death without knowing it...-
Your poems speak so much truth
It hurts.
I scream, I express myself, but no one will listen, they hear me. But we don't listen to me. Because what who cares, a little girl to the black ideas.
After all it is only a little girl.
She just wants to make the interesting, she was acting.
And little by little, I get lost, I'm confused, and everything seems so big.
I want someone to help me, because I'm fed up.
And everyone cares.
Why?
It is society that make us what we are.
People think that the words do not hurt.
It's true.
They kill.
Gnaw you on the inside, consumes you.
You feel like you can't breathe more.
As if his words were blades that you chopped off the skin.
Leaving.
Always.
A scar.You want you escaped.
Because it is difficult.
And that you can't, this thing that eats you.
Pump you the air.And the day you decided to end, we finally take you seriously.
But it's too late.
Mena Wood seriously SO deep 😭
Milla wow
Wow ....
Amazing. Well said
Yeah it does hurt
this is so so moving
velvetgeorgia your so gorgeous
My friend killed himself when we were 14. He was one of the brightest souls I knew. Losing him so early on is such a heart shattering experience, sending you into such a mood of depression. I lost my friend 4 years ago, he's turning 18 in November. It still hurts
My mom calls me selfish for feeling this way that if I actually cared about other people maybe if I put effort into being less selfish then maybe I'll be happy. But the funny thing is I'm trying my bets to stay alive and survive so that the people who love me won't have to be sad won't have to struggle with me gone. I never want to bring a child into this world because this is living hell, I'd never want to watch someone go through this world if they didn't already have to. And my mom said that was fine because I shouldn't bring a child into this world because it will end of just like me selfish. I've actually started accepting it like maybe I am I mean I have a good life (many surgeries, constant pain and agony eveytime I walk) I have a good family (had a small house growing up lived with my cousins who's father died of acholism and now I'm older I have to deal with my mother everyday) have a good body (despise every inch of it) I'm not completely handicapped ( I might as well be) and I have a good group of people around me, the only people I care about and she's gonna take that away from me too. Honestly I don't care at this point all I ever want to do is die like so many people who want to live are dying in this world and I have the "privilege" of living and I somehow can't die because either I don't have a gun I hate pills or I can't tie a noose so there's that. And my mom has seen my scars and doesn't give a crap doesn't take me to a theripist or anything instead she wonders why I'm depressed and try's to homeschool me because it's not like that's where I did all my cutting in the darkness of my room. But no I don't care about anyone but myself yeah me and this living hell im going through
love
What's selfish is making us feel bad for feeling this way, like it's a choice. Like honestly, don't you think I've tried to stay alive! No matter what I try, I'm still like this. And I need help......
Even you started crying :(
23 Seconds and I'm crying already. Wow
I'm crying... Your poems are beautiful!
every time I get the post notification for another slam poetry, I prepare myself to face reality. these videos, this art that you do. makes me face reality. you're right. it's a cruel world. I guess we all just have to try our best to get by. you're truly amazing
Your words are amazing. I just found your channel and I feel like I have said each and every word. I've repeated all these thoughts in my head and been alone and angry because I know I'm not alone but the social construct of our world discourages us from talking about this stuff. Thank you for talking about the things that are real and doing it so beautifully
Sooo powerful!!! You never know what others are going through unless you are willing to ask and listen... really listen! Thank you for sharing this!
This gave me chills.... It's so powerfull...
Society: be yourself! Never change!
Society: not like.. That
We just stood there, in shock as we looked down,
so many questions running through our head,
wondering if we had just done something, anything, then maybe things could’ve turned out different.
At the age of just 4 his mother told him he was a mistake
said that if she had it her way, he wouldn’t be here today
she resented him, despised him, blamed him for everything
couldn’t even look him in the eyes without being filled with rage
she would tell him that he was the reason his dad walked out
that from the day she knew she was pregnant everything changed
she went from being madly in love, getting high, drunk every night
to juggling two jobs and struggling to pay rent
now she’ a single mum with no future and course he’s the one to blame
and she reminded him of this fact every single day.
By aged 11 he’d seen it all - drug addiction, violence, sexual abuse,
he tried to shut it all out as best as he could, but no matter how hard he’d try, it was no good
cos you see the problems kept growing, and just when he thought he’d seen enough -
he’d entered high school
under the false impression that this would be his fresh start, a chance to finally be himself, who knew kids could be so cruel
They’d beat him, shamed him, spat in his food.
Mocked him, chased him, but somehow he’d make it through.
He was no longer living at this point, just struggling to survive,
but with no one to turn to what else could he do?
Wasn’t long till the teachers labelled him a problem child,
said he was disruptive, an inconvenience, that if he didn’t settle down he’d be kicked out.
didn’t even try to understand him, he wanted to push it all out but how?
he couldn’t fight it anymore, he’d put up with it for too long
He no longer cared, he was getting angry now
Problems at school, the streets, at home,
where the fuck was he supposed to go?
By this point his emotions took over,
he was angry, violent, abusive - he’d completely lost control,
He was done caring about anything, he didn’t give a shit anymore.
By age 16 he was walking in his father’s footsteps,
lost and consumed by self hate,
took drugs to block out the thoughts in his head, anything to numb the pain,
desperately wanting to get away, escape to a better place,
a place where he could call home, a place where he felt safe,
safe to face another day but that doesn’t happen in the real world, see there is no light at the end of the tunnel,
not for people in this place.
Cos you see he wasn’t a bad kid, he was just scared.
Left to fight this world on his own,
desperately wanting someone to care.
Wasn’t long till he gave in to it, he’d became someone he hates
No longer wanted to fight it anymore,
he’d accepted it, this was his fate.
And just like that he ended it.
No words, no note
Didn’t even make it to his 18th birthday.
Sad thing is, given the chance he could’ve been great
but none of that matters now cos it’s too late,
he can no longer be saved,
brought back from the grave to live another day
We live in a world where young kids turn to suicide as an escape
A way to finally feel free, because living has become their biggest source of pain
Why do we never realise our mistakes? Why do we only learn when it’s too late?
Local news will report this incident as just another case,
come up with excuses like he wasn’t mentally sane or how kids are so easily influenced these days
Give it a few days and you won’t even remember his name,
Just another statistic - and so many people go the exact same way,
This is the world we live,
its such a cruel world its such a shame
Living has become my nightmare
What you say is totally true, I have been through something like that, and I'm still fighting to get better. That's why I know you must have lived something really hard to say such true things about suicide. Most people don't even try to understand, they say that suicide is madness, but they don't realize how painful it can be to live, or even just to breathe.
Thank you so much for telling the truth to the world.
Two years later and i still come back to your poetry to listen and to cry when I’m not doing okay... i rly love your words Taz xx
“ a place where he could go home” that hit me so hard. 💔
Such raw emotion and a powerful message that lots of people need to hear!
I want Taz to be my friend because she is so encouraging for everyone’s problems. Thanks Taz for your poems they are the best,usually I just lie in my bed and listen to your voice doing this and your bringing out your true self I love it. Love your vids Taz! Stay strong everyone don’t do this!! . This is my favourite poem. You’ve helped me and maybe other people you are a life saver. I used to watch your other vids all the time and I’m like she’s so happy all the time how is she so happy? Then I found these poems. Taz you keep doing what you doing and we all are here for you when you have problems.
This spoken word poem was defiantly worth the wait, you are so amazing. I love you!
That was so emotional.
this was beautiful. I am crying so much right now
almost 1,000 likes & 0 dislikes. that's really hard to do. well done, this is beautiful.
This made me emotional and made me feel so sorrowful, i feel so guilty, i just wish these things didn’t have to exist, i want to apologise for all the people who have been hurt this bad, I’m sorry you have to go through this, depression is something everyone has i guess we just have to TRY keep living.
This is so powerful... like wow thank you for no being afraid to speak for others that can't express themselves. You're truly amazing. This made me cry
This is absoloutely amazing 😍😭
People always think that people who are suicidal are just "mentally unstable" they do not know that they have been fighting for so long and are just begging for a realise which they feel is suicide. It is not "bad influence" from video games but from theyre own surroundings and friends and family. When will ppl learn
This is the first time I've cried watching a spoken word poem. Like, I fully cried...
the first video i've seen of yours and you instantly became an Idol
I love poetry aswell as singing
both help me express my feelings to my surrundings; they help me deal with my Emotions
Wow...
Glad all of you guys who are suicidal are still here 👏
OmFg!!... I'm a poet, and I couldn't have written something so simple, honest, and close to home. No lie, this poem is my life...
Thank you so much for posting this! It'll lead me to comfortable tears, every time I am down. It'll lead me joy the day I shall go...
It's like she's describing my past and it's kinda scary to hear what might be the future
Nighat Parveen i can also write a message to someone and put on a happy mask the point here is iam tired I experience mental abuse and physical abuse at home iam overweight because at age of 7 i was eating my sorrows away and what kind of sorrows would you have at age of 7 my parents were fighting alot I remember crying every night to sleep I remember being blamed for everything and iam still till now my parents make fun of me telling me I shouldn’t watch RUclips all day well the reason i do it is because I don’t want to live real life real life is torture they tell me that i wont be even able to finish high school but i study as much as i can but when i try to remember my brain is filled with all the terrible things i have witnessed anxiety some depression at age of 12 when i was going to school something bad happened i don’t want talk about it lets say i ended in hospital and that is when everyone cared about me guess what after two weeks iam back to nobody the thing that happened to me while i was going to school made me have ptsd increased anxiety and full on depression and iam 13 now i still have ptsd and anxiety the depression has lightened but i dont know what to do like my parents said iam a failure they blame me for everything i just wish to have at least a peaceful moment no worries no ptsd no anxiety no abuse
I lost my cousin a few months ago from suicide. I wasn't that close to him to be honest but I was just so confused and surprised by the news that it started to consume me. All I could think about was suicide and of course, how this all could have been my fault. I thought to my self, "Is it a crime for me to be happy when so many others can't be, no matter how hard they try?"
I have pulled my self back since, I don't think about it as much anymore... but I have most mostly felt awful simply since so many people feel they need to escape. Our society tells us that it is okay to shut others out, leave them behind, ignore their problems and tell them, "Just be happy".
Taz, I always love your work. Thank you for helping me understand what this is like
I applaud you for being able to read your poems out loud because I would've broken down & not been able to finish. I've grown to accept that my hands speak louder than my voice.
We need more people like this in the world who can influence people in a good way.
i had to watch this 3 times 1: how amaizing this is 2: lyrics is soo briliant 3: your eyes can tell everything
this is so sad. I can see that she was about to cry too😣😣💜💜
I feel like she knows the person she wrote about because there's so much raw emotion in this. This piece is beautiful and dark at the same time
I've never been through so much suicidal thoughts in the past and I found ur channel and it makes me forget about everything and somehow I feel like ur telling me something through ur poems and I cry everytime thankfully somebody stopped and helped me ♡
Im watching you for a few weeks now and this is my favourite video on RUclips. there is so much truth and so many emotions in this video. every time i watch it, i basically have to cry so hard i cant breath. your words are unbelieveable moving. thank you.
This brought me to tears... I'm kept in a little bubble where I am protected from the outside world... what am I to face when I'm an adult? And even scarier... how long do I have left in that protective bubble?
I feel like I don't have enough time left
Emotions are filling my head... Dreams while I'm sleeping in bed... Love when my dreams are dead... Freedom when I should be sad but I'm happy instead...
They way you put your emotions into these powerful words... Wow.
I remember feeling like that when I was a kid. Parents always fighting. Felt like they never wanted us, like we were a mistake. They would leave us alone to take care of the younger siblings, but they forgot that we where also kids nearly 10 years old. Me and my brother had to grow faster than the other kids and had responsibilities to feed and watch over ourselves and our other siblings. Year after year nothing changed but got worse. My parents anger towards each other changed towards us, a little mistake or a slip up and they would yell at us and told us something a kid should never hear from there parents. I slowly grew numb from the verbal/physical abuse. It took a toll on my mental health. Depression, self loathing, timid and shy and suicide thoughts from time to time. Of course it took years until I was in college to slowly realize that it was not my fault for any of it. We came to the U.S poor, my parents took there anger and frustration on us and they were to young to take care of anyone
When I found your channel I was depressed I mean I still am but you dug me out of my depression a lil bit so thank you so so much!!!😭😭😞
Saw this 6 years ago and still fell in love with it now. You're amazing.
I hope that you understand that you are helping a whole lot of people with your poetry. I also hope that you understand that you are amazing.
I am absolutely blown by the amount of talent u have, like in which part of ur brain are these thoughts generated? U really are one of a kind and so far have become my favourite 💛
Hey Taz, this is incredibly well written and moving, I'm assuming that this is the poem you were talking about in some of your vlogs recently. The way that you told the story of the boy was so beautiful and the video itself is so amazing because we can really see how much this subject matters to you and how you are moved by it. Keep doing what you're doing and thank you for constantly inspiring me.
i love her spoken word poetry, and you can tell she's been through a lot
This reminds me of a friend I lost
Her spoken word gives me chills
I lost a mother and brother, and then 2 of my dear friends to suicide, I live with depression and daily thoughts of suicide, I don't remember a day without crying, this video really touched me,
20 seconds in and i had to stop. triggered way too many memories but i'm sure this was a good video. and if you're struggling with this, please, remember that you're more than this
I literally just cried my eyes because this might not be a true story but someone out there is going through something so similar
I have 7 friends who i have lost to suicide. I myself attempted and failed. I was listening to poems while driving and i had to pull over because my tears got to much for me to see. None of my friends ever saw there 18 birthday. Hell 3 didn't even get to see their 17 birthday. This is so true it speaks about the trauma, the hidden life behind the reason
"we live in a world where young kids turn to suicide as an escape ,to finally feel free because living has become the biggest source of pain "
this made me cry ik how this feels. you are amazing I love your work
this is heartbreaking .. and so true
your poems are so powerful. thank you, made me extremely emotional , even cried.
In life right now, it's hard for me and my other friend, everything that has trapped me and that gave me suicidal thoughts destroyed and departed me from one of my closest most special friends that I loved so dearly. If you are having things like this just just know that whether you are a boy or a girl you are worth it and beautiful beyond your dreams inside and outside.
U ARE SO TALENTED LOVE U SO MUCH THIS IS MIND BLOWING
“Because, you see there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Not for people in this place.” Woah. That hit hard.
Oh my god your so deep but honest your words cut like a knife that sparks passion
Sir Pitbull I love your profile pic really! so cute
My dad committed suicide Nov 30th 2009. I am so glad you're making videos like this to talk about it. You're very talented
I was really moved through this. Thank you.
Why 78 dislikes??? This made me cry, when I was 7 I had those thoughts I never did self harm though I am 2 years older now a lot more mature I have depression and anxiety and stomach aches I take 3 medicines for that, and I still am this young I have H Pylori the bacteria, but this was so beautiful and true. I love watching Taz's videos. Sometimes I feel like my mom won't understand me if I tell her, sometimes I cry when I feel like I am going to lose her and because I have Gastritis I just say my stomach hurts. My dad is overseas working for our family of 9 in total including my father I see him every 6 months. Life is hard but I remind myself keep going keep trying. Please understand I am not doing this for attention, read it if you want it's not for the attention.
This was honestly so stunning and beautiful! You are so talented and extremely real. You approach everything with caution but still make a point. I'm truely in awe of your talent 💕
Why do I watch these amazing people in the middle of the night when I need a flashlight to write the poem that is flowing in my head?
i've seen and listened to this before but it never gets old.
ive listened to this poem like 10 times it makes me feel i cant even explain it
you are so beautiful, i really hope that you get through your depression- you are so real and amazing it's so hard to think that such a beautiful human could be so sad 😞❤
i hope you feel better
You are so talented. Your words in your poems make me feel the emotion your speaking about. i cry listening to this poem every time. You are my inspiration as a writer. when people ask who's my favorite poet i say you.
No words can describe how amazing it is ❤️
I've always told myself giving up is to easy to be what life is meant for but I'm starting to wonder why I care about the rules if life doesnt care about me. Maybe I should end this perfidious game.
i love her so much . she writes so beautifully
This is so deep...amazing...this is the world we live in, it's a shame
It really is a beautiful heart that you carry dear friend... cuz not everyone can feel other's pain..
It's said that the kindest of souls go through the most dreadful of pains..
I hope you live happy and a beautiful existence..
With love.
Someone
You don't need to change yourself,
The world can change it's heart.
There's still hope in this world. There's heroes. We can be the change that we wish to see in the world. We can start with ourselves.
Speechless. So powerful. You are such an inspirational young lady.
Wow, so powerful! This is why I love poetry
Omg you have talent! Such a moving, strong emotional poem and you presented amazingly. Have you ever thought of being an actress? I. Hope you realize what an amazing person you are.
I love her so much every video I watch is pure art and is so well spoken and inspiring.
I love your spoken word. I can tell that you're a beautiful person inside and out. Keep sharing your spoken word so that you'll teach people 2 think. Words hurt, think about it! ( Tears )
I feel this way.been through theripey,medication,hospitals and they dont seem to know whats wrong so here i am still fighting waiting and holding on to some thing anything.
You got me right in the heart... i am balling my eyes out now. I absolutley love this poem!
I just noticed how her eyes sparkle with sadness as she's talking
Hey Taz! Your poetry is heartfelt and so real. You should continue doing what you're doing. The point is that I'm a huge fan of your poetry and it's the reason why I put back the knife.
This was so powerful,this made me cry. You are so amazing