My abusive relationship with a narcissistic man lasted 3 years He only hit me once a year But he threatened all the time if I tell anyone he would come back and.... Me and my kids It was safer knowing where he was Until we started renting out rooms of our house to other men One happened to be my cousin and I felt safe enough to make him leave I still had to get a mutual friend to tell him to stay away from me and I had to tell his parents to actually break that bond I told my parents first and my dad took me to the cops and they could not do anything I didn't have a mark on me anymore I've been avoiding talking to a lawyer about putting our house in my name I avoid, distract run away and do something else I think it's stressing me out and causing me to be grouchy too I don't want myself to break down again trying to deal with it My mom is helping me with this and I told her that I'm avoiding it because I can't deal with it She's going to make an appointment and take me I need the support or I won't do it I can actually see me being PTSD So at least I know it's happening and can deal with my feelings better as they come 💞
When I tried going through criminal injury compensation about this I was drinking every time going over any of it After I got rejected because of lack of proof I had a break down... They didn't believe me I went down hill for a few years I was in physical and emotional pain and used pain killers so I could work Even street ones when I had no dr When I got a Dr I was able to have pain meds Becoming more and more addicted to numbing the pain I eventually worked with my Dr to get clean and sober and then get testing done to see if it was addiction or brain injury They said I had a frontal lobe injury very early by looking at my brain This injury I told them probably happened when I was born I was pulled with forceps at birth to save me and my mom they agreed and I was able to get disability benefits It felt good to be believed everything that happened to me PTSD from early abuse too
Our brain heals and we learn no matter how broken we are But sometimes our way to cope is not healthy either like narcissistic traits They help us survive but still not right ;)
My abusive relationship with a narcissistic man lasted 3 years
He only hit me once a year
But he threatened all the time if I tell anyone he would come back and.... Me and my kids
It was safer knowing where he was
Until we started renting out rooms of our house to other men
One happened to be my cousin and I felt safe enough to make him leave
I still had to get a mutual friend to tell him to stay away from me and I had to tell his parents to actually break that bond
I told my parents first and my dad took me to the cops and they could not do anything I didn't have a mark on me anymore
I've been avoiding talking to a lawyer about putting our house in my name
I avoid, distract run away and do something else
I think it's stressing me out and causing me to be grouchy too
I don't want myself to break down again trying to deal with it
My mom is helping me with this and I told her that I'm avoiding it because I can't deal with it
She's going to make an appointment and take me
I need the support or I won't do it
I can actually see me being PTSD
So at least I know it's happening and can deal with my feelings better as they come 💞
When I tried going through criminal injury compensation about this I was drinking every time going over any of it
After I got rejected because of lack of proof I had a break down... They didn't believe me
I went down hill for a few years I was in physical and emotional pain and used pain killers so I could work
Even street ones when I had no dr
When I got a Dr I was able to have pain meds
Becoming more and more addicted to numbing the pain
I eventually worked with my Dr to get clean and sober and then get testing done to see if it was addiction or brain injury
They said I had a frontal lobe injury very early by looking at my brain
This injury I told them probably happened when I was born
I was pulled with forceps at birth to save me and my mom they agreed and I was able to get disability benefits
It felt good to be believed everything that happened to me
PTSD from early abuse too
Our brain heals and we learn no matter how broken we are But sometimes our way to cope is not healthy either like narcissistic traits
They help us survive but still not right ;)