that one with the little boy is honestly so scary how someone so young could be going thru these kids of situations, when it probably isnt even their fault…
I went through this when i was 10 it was fucking traumatising,and the worse thing is that while I scratched judged myself I was S/A’d by my fucking cousin who was a sibling to me due to the fact I was an isolated child for 9 years.
Even as a kid, I’ve always felt obligated to make my parents proud. But my definition of “proud” i guess is just their approval, their wanting of me. I used to just tell my parents my day was good, but I really would get bullied non-stop, but i couldn’t tell them that. How could I? My parents used to have to ask my friend’s parents how my days went because i told them nothing. As i got older, it got better, because they sent me to therapy. Well now i’m out of therapy, my relationship is at its worst with my parents, i have anxiety, i have an ed, and i self harm. But do they know that? Does anyone know? Probably only one person, but i couldn’t tell anyone else. I have such bad trust issues, i take all jokes about my appearance very very seriously, and i get made fun of for being “stupid”. Thanks for reading, this vent helped a ton.
1:07 I relate to this so much…. My favorite person ghosted me and at first, I just felt like half of me had been ripped away. It was quiet but so loud, I feel stupid for not realizing she hated me all along. Tears wouldn’t flow until they did.
I was bullied alot I've been damaged ever since I was only four I didn't understand why I still don't understand why why I was left alone like an broken TV unwanted like a germ it stuck with me Evan tho I'm in a different school I feel like when a argument happens between my new friends it's because of me I start it the teacher ends it I feel like because I'm different when I was at my old school when I wanted attention it turned into a argument when ever I'm upset I hide it by smiling saying I'm fine don't worry when I'm not ok people say I'm buterfull when sometimes I know their just being passive aggressive that's Mt story
My 2 Favorite people ghosted me and replaced me all bc i was boring and now im cutting myself and at school im being forced into a relationship. Hes touching me on my waist and legs without my consent and hate it so fucking much.
Growing up, I was bullied throughout elementary without even realizing it, and had a lot of fake friends and friends who just disappeared suddenly in my life. Not only that, but in fifth grade, my knee was chronically damaged, and now I limp constantly. My friend was stabbed in seventh grade during lunch and was in the hospital for a few weeks. My dad was starting to get snappier, and my depression was at an all-time high, and I began self harming. After that, though, I stopped because I was yelled at, and then we skipped to high school. My Freshman year I was part of an awful situation where the teacher was badly assaulted and our school provided exactly 0 therapy and let us only stay for 1 single day in the library then said we were fine. And then, in my sophomore year, one of my friends was almost kidnapped, and I was also almost kidnapped in the same incident. I heard someone screaming but I couldn't help them. I don't feel numb, though. I feel like I'm underwater but also very aware of everything. I smile and laugh, and not once has anyoje seen through my mask. I feel alone. I have very close online friends and irl friends whom I rarely see anymore. I wish the pain would stop already.
3:26 im so glad theres other people that are like this. i thought i was just weird, distant or 'isolating' myself even though i knew damn well that wasnt the case. Same with 4:48 !
Quick vent: Tw starving Im on my period and couldnt bring myself to eat my dinner, my parents thought i was starving myself again because i was put in hospital for it. Theyve been yelling at me forcing me to eat even when i felt like i was going to throw up because of my cramps in the first place
i hope you feel better now! if this continues you could try telling your parents about how its because of the cramps and maybe you could start using birth control/the pill since itll get rid of your period? hope your feeling better!
@@ommie_ It will?! Tbh I don't have my period but my mother stayed home from school cuz thats how bad her cramps was, my sister sometimes cry on the bathroom floor from it, so I am not excited
@@Little-paws-jr2fu a bit i think, i’d recommend looking into it more as there’s lots of ways, i think surgery is one of the ways that works the best but i’m not sure you would wanna do that
I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list: *pin? dont have to 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity and lastly, 101: me :) Copy and put it in another video :D
I don’t know if I’m meant to vent but I’m going to anyway The other day I was venting to my “best friend” and I was telling her how my parents had divorced and my dad was struggling to find a job and I opened up to her about how I might be getting a step dad, who is some random dude that I don’t even know, and I even talked to her about the death of one of my childhood best friend that had happened a few years ago and I was trying not to cry, but I was telling her because I am the type of person who hides everything and doesn’t open up to anyone and that’s why therapists don’t work with me, so I was finally feeling comfortable enough to open up to someone for the first time in years and I had just told her about everything I was going through and I told her about my feelings, and she didn’t even look up from her phone all she said was “yeah, same.” Her life is completely fine, it hurts that I finally thought I was ready to tell someone about my feelings and she didn’t even care. Sometimes I feel it’s easier to be alone.
Though it may seem she has a perfect life, she may not. But she had no fucking right to ignore you and just go "yeah same" when she most definitely was not in the same situation
'I'm not sad, i've got a loving mom, and a funny dad, i've got nice food.. Im -not- lonely.. I have everything.. So why does it feel like i can't do *Anything* ?
Whatever youre going through, i can promise, it will be okay. Everything will work out how its meant to, and you will come out the other side. You are strong, and youve got this. No matter how bad it gets, you have to hang in there; for us. Im so proud of you
@@Little-paws-jr2fu I can assure you, it's not.. that is only a road block between what you are now and what you will be in the future, or what impacts you can make on our world, big or small. You'll find that path eventually..
My crush had mental health issues and I confessed that I loved them they stared blank at my I hug them and they stared crying and telling my that horrible life..
The person I love has had a really traumatic past dealing with SA and SH and a bunch of other shit- to top it off, she's aeroaise so I don't know how she'll react if I ever tell her that I love her
Every now and then I’ll find myself here and finding out over and over i have a bad life and then realize it’s 4am again and i should not trust myself again and again but it’s all true
I just wanna say that both of those can be true. In general you should try to not trust any thoughts you have past like 9-10pm cause a lot of that is fatigue tapping into your emotions, but at the same time it's ok you acknowledge the bad things that happened to you. If anything, the fact you acknowledge it is a step towards fully comprehending it (I'm a very similar way and my therapist has slowly been acclimating me outside that mindset). It takes time to heal and grow past the bad things that happened to you in all aspects, but as long as you keep pushing forward and take the breaks and pitfalls you need to some days, you're doing vastly better than you'd even realize. There's a lot of people out there who need to grow and change yet refuse to do so, so by comparison the fact you're making progress and keep moving forward says volumes about how far you've progressed. You and I both got this, even if you and I never interact past this point.
The only thing keeping me here is the idea of hurting my family. I have short periods of happiness. I don't ever feel satisfaction anymore. I can't keep anything up with hobbies. I just rot in my bed for free time. My favorite person is uncomfortable being in the same room with me. Can't take anything seriously. Unable to defend myself in an argument. I;m so bored. I can't even imagine myself getting past 21. I don't even have a reason to be like this. I'm just so fucking disgusted with myself.
Quick vent: I feel like im the cause of everything that ruined my family and I also feel like i just woke up in a child body and people just see me as a child that doesn't know better, because alot of people who i know never actually know what i feel or want.
Is 10 considered a young age? At the of 10 I was forced to act like an adult with my parents constantly yelling, drinking, and smoking. I raised my self and have just been like living in constant fear that my parents will yell at me for simple things like getting a high B or getting to a point they use physical touch. I have been hit, kicked, and many others that I feel I and many others shouldn’t have to bear dealing with, so they can enjoy their childhood. I have not sense healed from this as it hasn’t even been a full two years and it keeps on getting worse, I don’t know how much more I can take.
@10:31 one of the most relatable. The one with the little boy disturbingly reminded me of myself when I couldn't sleep as a child... Why did relate to these when I was young? I don't know..-
0:19 to 0:28 Honestly how I was treated with my last relationship, they lost feelings and were just going to keep it from me than I found out and I called them out..worst mistake all they said was “yep I did lose feelings.” Than gave me the coldest look I’ve very seen I honestly went home crying and didn’t speak the rest of the day really
I feel horrible. My eating disorder is getting worse, and i keep eating and pickin g at my lips and fingers to the point they're scarred. sometimes i think about killing myself and how simple it would be
When i was younger, my dad yelled all the time, and i always spaced out and when he asked if i heard him I always said yes, then he would ask me what he said and i would freeze. I can’t remember my childhood lol. I remember in 1-3rd grade my teacher was worried abt me because i always stuttered and froze up whenever they asked me a question, honestly, it was probably some sort of defense mechanism i brought up in case they yelled at me- (I can’t handle it anymore when adults yell at me, so when they do i freeze up and speak clearly, because if i stutter then they’ll yell more. Or maybe i just dont respond for an hour and make my mom worried that im having a f*cking seizure-) I’m hating 2024 so far 🤭
5:31. I’m able to be who I am with my bff and when I get home I have to make a complete personality change so my parents won’t find out what I have done. 5:51. When I was younger my mom would always give me and my older brother spankings, I would always be first to get it but then my mom would still yell at me of what I’ve done and say like ‘What’s wrong with you?!’ And I never had the courage to say out loud Everything, even today she never gives me spankings but would always still yell that, she never knew what I struggled with and hell what I even liked! I struggled with depression even when she was doing that, I had even done SH, of course my mom didn’t figure it out, and still doesn’t
My friend committed in the school bathroom 2weeks ago and I was the one that found her. If I had been there 2min earlier she would’ve still been here. Idk man, just kinda traumatic to find your friend of 5yrs in the bathroom covered in blood and dead.
i just showed my friend a drawing i was so proud of, and he replied with "oh." and showed me something of his. i just had to be so nice to him because he already self harms and i'm scared to make it worse. i don't know if i'm in the wrong but i feel like i'm a bad person when i try to make myself the victim. i don't know what to do.
That is NOT your fault, it’s completely valid that you feel like that. However, he might not realise he hurt you, and that’s not his fault, but it’s not yours either. Make sure to care for your feelings, and maybe let him know that it hurt you
My mom one time was yelling at me a few months ago and said to tell her why I missed school I tried to tell her why and all that came out of my mouth was “i-“ and then she kept on yelling at me to stop crying and tell her then when I tried telling her she said I was makeing up lies and rased her hand to hit me and I literally just felt nothing and cried in a corner by my desk after she called me a “ useless child” and said “ that’s right cry like a little cry baby” and said she wished I lived with my grandma and hit me and after she said she was sorry she denied saying all that, I just said ok and went outside for a while, my mom denies all the trauma she caused me, examples: when I was 5-6 she sat me in a chair and wrapped a belt around my arms and around the chair it was a tall chair and there was a few tacks on the floor and she did that because I was misbehaving do when I got off the chair I stepped on one and she didn’t care , when I was like 8 my stepdad almost broke my finger and she said it didn’t happen what happened was we went geo cashing and I hit my sister and then I was looking out the car window with my finger curled and in my mouth (I was biteing my finger for some reason)and my stepdad snaked me in the back of my head and my head hit the window along with my hand and that caused me to smash my finger and no one really cared about it so I just sat there crying, I think a year or two ago I was sitting in a chair and my brother unscrewed a nail and it fell apart with me in it I hit my jaw on my bar counter and hurt my head and my arm hitting the floor and my mom LAUGHED a little and asked if I was ok I said no then she looks back at her phone but then two minutes later my little sister got hit with a pillow by my little brother (he didn’t hit her hard) and she started crying and my mom rushed out of her room and went to make sure she was ok…when the chair I was in BROKE and I got hurt she was just sitting on her bed and yelled to ask if I was ok but when my sister got lightly hit with a pillow she rushed up I confronted her about it but of course she “dIdInT dO tHaT”, when I was 9 I had a kidney infection and my mom waited 9 days to bring me to the hospital she literally had my grandma take me from my cousins house bc I was crying on my cousins bed while she comforted me but when my brothers ear started hurting (he’s the youngest and only boy btw) she went to the hospital immediately??? One time she went through my phone and I think she read my ai chats and I was just like venting to an ai about being to scared to come out as trans and my stepdad was/is transphobic and after my mom went through my phone he was saying how he would except me and my siblings no matter what and one time I was telling my mom that once again someone thought I was a boy at school because my hair was cut short and she said “you keep talking about that and and I want to know, do you want to be a boy?” I said no bc yk…I was scared to tell her? Someone plz tell me if my mom is a bad mom or I’m mentally abused 🥲👍 (Sorry abt the trauma dump)
It's insane how in one year I went from the gifted child, in honors classes, popular, happy. To the quiet kid, with mental issues. Getting involved with police 4 times in one year, all relating to suicide. Realizing that it wasn't normal and he Sexually assaulted me at such. A. Young. Age. AND NO ONE BELIEVES ME. NO ONE. HE LIES ABOUT IT. HE BLAMES IT ON HIS ADHD. Being a vaping addict and cure struggling with it. Losing someone that was so important to me that I took for granted my entire life. AND HER LAST WORDS TO ME "h have a happy, happy, happy __th Birthday" HOW COULD SHE LEAVE ME BEHIND LIKE THAT. losing so many friends and still feeling trapped. And I can't bring myself to cry again at therapy. I love my therapist but I hate crying infront of people. At the end of the day it's just her job.
once life gets good it just crashes down to people saying things,school gets worse,many mental breakdowns,and losing friends because my friend got sent to a mental hospital and i miss them because we watch music and play games my other friends even my boyfriend leaves me out of everything and talk shit about me in group chats that i see
Has anyone else ever had this one friend that flirts with u then stops just to get someone else for a bet bc they 2 other people like that person and he didn’t get her so he went back to flirting with u then u realize that ur a back up if smth doesn’t work out then he starts flirting with u and ur sister while in the same room but ur other friend tells him to go back to flirting with u when ur all hanging out because he was bothering ur other friend. But you like them because eventually their flirting worked but you will never tell them bc u know why he is flirting with you to keep his “streak” going and you believe thats the only reason he will date you.
hey. how's your day been? Im sorry.. I know it hurts. its okay to cry, my friend. Let it all out. You didnt deserve any of this, but its just how the world works out sometimes. I may not know what your going through, but i promise that you will get out the other side and that it WILL be okay. I know its tough; but you are so, so so strong. Please hang in there; for me. For us.
Tw: vent,su1cideual thought,SH,toxicity,kinda abuse,young age,kinda ED?,and body image issues. So..im 11 just for knowing…my parents are so strict about my clothes,grades,ethics, attitude,everything in my life seriously..and my mom is veryy abusive,she slaps/hit me with her hands or kicks me with her feet or hit me with a slippers everytime i do something wrong,right now im sick and yesterday i wasnt waking up from my nap and i had homeworks to do so she started to kick and hit me on my arms and back and on my thighs too and say toxic words to me and i was only half asleep and i was very sick and i felt even more worse bcs she destroyed me mentaly and physically in that time,even now bcs of that my thighs hurts me from back bcs of how much she hitted me on,also she pulled my hair multiple times,im no sleeping enough for a 2 weeks a half,i wake up at 6AM and then go to school,then i come back and eat,and ofc while eating i feel like panicking bcs i ate at school but my food wasn’t enough and i didnt want to eat cuz i feel fat…then i take a nap for 2. Or 3 hours and wake up and stay studying until 5 or 5:15AM and sleep and wake up at 6AM agin to go to my school,even though im in 6th grade wich its primary school in my country (6th grsde is the final grade of the primary school) but out homeworks and subjects are so hard and allot,teachers trearing us like we are some kind of robots,giving us more than 2 tests in a one day to do…getting a wired mentally anf physical panic attacks during classes in school,while being sick,i feel like i cant breath and i see very blurry and i cant control where my eyes looks at and my body starts to move randomly out of my control,having a cold hands and feets even tho i dont have Anemia at all,i feel like my eyes are burning me and sp havey,overthinking during all the day and not getting a rest,almsot feeling insane,cant take our a single tear of my eyes,giving up easily and feeling helpless and hopless,wishing to die everyday but i dont want to at the same time,i started slef harming by using a metal with sharp edges drawing compas and scratch my the end of where my venis are showing until the middle of my forearms..getting online bullying,got harrased a year ago by my cousin that he is only a one month older than me by touching my thighs from the back multiple times,then i reported on him to his mom and my mom and our grandma and they said “no its okay sweetie he didnt mean it” and i told his dad and his dad said “eat sh1t” to me…it all started when i was 4…i started getting bullied for being fatter and taller than the other kids,i got my first insecurity that time,i got depressed when i was 6 and a deep depression when i was 7….im thinking of su1c1d1ng since im 7-8….my first hit by my mom was when i was 2 and i was really traumatized when that happend even tho she only slapped me that time just for crying after her bathing me…my dad only hitted me 2 times in my whole life…and theyre both in this year…also i get bullied from my whole family…i got stared at by stranger group of teenage boys and they looked around 17-20 and i was wearing a long orange t-shirt with a black jeans that is wide from down (my but and half of my thighs were coverd) :(…now its 3:16AM and i still havent slept yet…i feel not real,i dont feel real anymore..im really addicted to internet that even i get a dark deep toughts like “why did allah (god) created us” and other stuff…even tho the answers all are in the holy quran (muslims holy book)…and these toughts are dragging me away from my religion even tho im a religious person (but i dont wear hijab)…i feel so usless and im so sick of my school grades….being an older sister is bery tireing…being a second parent,the victim of the troubles,getting blamed for the parents fights and saying im the reason of these fights…I remember when i was 9 turning 10 my parents had a huge fight wich made my dad leave the home for a whole 6-8 months and meeting me and my younger sister everyweek on Friday…and my parents blamed me for it,just bcs i wanted somthing from my mom and she hitted me for yelling at her and my dad got very angry and started fighting with her for hitting me…and my sister also my sister started blaming me…also my sister is so toxic sometimes…she always calls me fat or a cow when we fight bcs she knows i dont like anyone talking abt my body bcd im too sensitve abt that ;(…and i have 2 bestfriends,S and D…D is S’s younger sister (theyrrr both girls) and i had to left them bcs i chnaged school and they were only my comfort….i have there snaps but theri mom takes their phones away in study time….im so tired but i have to go now and continue my studies and homework (im a slow writer and slow understanding)…currently now its 3:26AM…bye
This is terrible, I hope you know that you can call child protective services or tell someone at school if it gets too bad. I know it's scary but you can get through this, you can't change the past, so keep looking forward. I know it feels like no one is there for you but I care about you, even if I don't know you. Please don't commit, I hope you are feeling a little better by now and that you have someone in your life that you can trust, and I'm always here if you need to talk (I'm a 13 yr old girl, not trying to be creepy in any way!)
That one song that goes "Things aren't really all that bad! I got a nice mom❤ and I got a cool dad😎 I just stay in my room to long and *kinda sad music* " That song is me, and I don't like it
The first one is relatable I want to ask for comfort but instead it just leads to them talking about how they are feeling just as bad/worse Like I know they need comfort But I do too Yet why do I feel guilty? This has happened every damn time And actual comfort from friends doesn’t feel like anything anymore, I feel burnt out, I have for years I’m being yelled at because I have trouble remembering things, I most likely have adhd, but my mom doesn’t think so even though I’m practically a walking example of it, I don’t even see her as a mother anymore, just someone I have to obey or I’ll be punished. I say that I forgot, but she says “No you didn’t, you’re just lazy” And it hurts, and I can’t cry or she’ll judge me. I have almost no motivation, and the concerning part is that this started when I was 10.
Hi :) This is my first time actually venting on a video but today I was at a restaurant with my friends and this little kid who was abt 6 came ups to us and slapped my butt and kept trying to do it he was younger then me by 7 years and it made me very uncomfortable and he didn't listen when me and my friends told him to stop then I tried running away from him and he grabbed my shorts right underneath my no no square and it made me so uncomfortable I cried, one of my friends told him to stop again and pushed him, the kid didn't stop and kept trying to touch me in inappropriate places, the worst thing is i came up to my table where my parents where well my dad and step mum and I was crying and they completely ignored me crying. And the kid was def old enough to not touch people in the way he did and especially if someone tells u if they don't like it
how do I know who I am? I don’t know my favourite colour, or what I want to be, or what I like listening to, or what my favourite style of clothing is, or what my best and worst quality is. I just don’t know anything about myself other than I hate loud noises, I prefer nature over a lot of things and I hate cities. That’s like it as far as I know. I’m struggling so much it’s like a thousand people inside of me arguing all the time.
that first one is too fucking real i went upstairs crying to my parents bc i zoned out and when i snapped out of it i had bløød all over my arm. i cleaned it up and tried making sum to hide it, but when i went up there crying at 3 am, it turned into thwm looking through my phone and finding some private shit out ive been hiding and grounding me and yelling at me. i was geounded for a month or so…….i just wanted help……now its worse bc of that situation.
!!Warning: Underneath this is me venting, if you aren’t comfortable with this don’t read!! I’ve kind of lost interest in a lot of things, motivation is certainly lacking for me. And the only blame are my old friends. I’m convinced I have some mental disorder, but I’m not saying that I 100% do, but I show signs. The reason my old friends are to blame, is any time I started a conversation about something like that, they shut me up. I couldn’t talk to them about horses, warriors (the wild cat book series), or anything for that matter. I just had to mirror and mimic what they said. It wasn’t right, I didn’t feel right, my favourite colour is yellow, not blue; specifically a pastel yellow. The worst thing is that they didn’t realise how much it was harming me. They didn’t realise that my self control was the only thing holding me back from damaging *myself*. Let me move on to something else. I’m so scared that I’m underweight, or my heart rate isn’t regular, and or normal. This is because of a special thing called ✨anxiety✨ which is both an emotion and a mental illness. I have the mental illness because I’ve been anxious since November and I doubt an emotion can hide under several others, a mental illness is there, but I hide it- or try to, I know I’ll be an anxious person when I’m older. I’m getting an ESSA (emotional support stuffed animal) dog for my own comfort because nobody else understands why I’m so focused on my heart. I have such lovely teachers, especially my English (for literacy I speak English, English in my school is writing) Teacher and my Social Subjects Teacher, they are both very nice people and have let me stand out of class before when I need it. My friends are highly supportive of me, they help me out when needed but I’m used to handling my mental health by myself. And wait- no this anxiety started in 2021, it took me 6 months to get over. But it’s back and I don’t think it’s going away. It’s here to stay that’s for sure. (More At 100 Likes)
I’m unsure. You could simply ask them. Unless they’re a little uptight / rude, you could ask your school councillor if they would tell your parents for you. ❤
The furst one hurt me really badly but it was so true, most if the tine i go venting to a friend in usual really bad sense i like to keep to my self so if i go venting to someone its pretty bad, but sense i feel really sad i can snap really easley and cause arguments over small stuff.... I whish i was never born.... Or at least born with better qualitys....
I like to think that when someone is healing is like how moon and sun rises and sets Or like a foggy twilight to a clear path in the morning. Friends and loved ones will fade away like the hope we had as children People who we used to admire will burn and die out like a star. Sometimes I think we are connected to the earth somehow, Like whenever the earth is in pain we feel the pain in someway. But, I guess there’s no point of trying to ‘fix’ it ‘The infection’ has already started to feed off the ‘host’ Soon the ‘host’ will die and ‘the infection’ will die with it Since ‘the infection’ doesn’t spread to other ‘hosts’. … I hope I’ll never see the day when that happens.
Honestly i feel like i like this boy in my class but i tell myself "no! I hate him!" Or "he likes someone else! And he probably thinks im ugly!" Even tho we get shipped and i gave him a note for an Activity and i didn't realize we had to share it and stuff but i know his old crush and i feel like he still likes her. Im to scared to admit that i like him but im not sure of my feelings for him actual. I care for him, I really do, but i have trouble showing my emotions, and im afraid to get humiliated in front of my whole class or the whole school, and i feel like the boy i like thinks im ugly or annoying. I just want a hug or someone to care for me tbh.
Today i find out it, my mom is scared of me, its probably because she saw how destructive i can be, i have send a few person to hospital at a very young age and do "travesures" with the animals that we're around me because of fun, back then i received help for angers issues now im much calm but when i pick up her cat she yelled at me to let her go, is eyes were filled with fear, i feel like a monster i don't want to hurt anybody but still have the tough of doing it, im a danger for everyone but can do anything about it i promise to keep myself alive. Why? I remember how she could leave me alone day's, even if she go to check me 10 or 20 minutes after hours i still could feel alone, my brother didn't wanted to be in the house neither so he disappeared hours too, i was so angry that i almost k*lled is cat a few times but i started crying and feeling worse. I know it, or im a sociopath or a monster.
The person I love has had a really traumatic past dealing with SA and SH and a bunch of other shit- to top it off, she's aeroaise so I don't know how she'll react if I ever tell her that I love her
ANYWAYS. i spent so much effort and time on them. i exhausted myself, to the point that i hated them. both of them. it's insane how similar they seem once you really get to know both of them. i was lied to. they spread rumors about me, and talked shit about me. they called me weird and annoying. sorry for getting comfortable i guess. sorry for trying to be myself. sorry i messed up /once/ for something trivial. i gave both of them too many chances, and they took that an ran. they took advantage of me.
Why do i do these things why do i starve abuse cut burn myself? I just want to feel loved happiness i just want a hug... please... Im deleting this later...
“It’s not sustainable to cut yourself until you fall asleep” yeah and it’s not sustainable for me to only want to live because of my birds either. I would have killed myself if I didn’t have my birds, they kept me alive. No therapy, medication, and venting will ever help. My birds are the only thing worth living for.
The first time I cut myself, my mom found out and got me a therapist. I haven''t done it again since then but I've wanted to a lot. But my mom doesn't know that I've been starving myself. It's not really on purpose. I want to eat but every time I see food, I just want to throw up. I've tried forcing myself to eat but last time I tried, I almost started crying and had to throw the food away without finishing it.
i sh and no one cares to notice i cry in my room every day and night and no one cares to notice im lonely in school and no one cares to notice my parents shout at me and emotionally abuse me and they dont care to notice what they are doing my parents tell me my deteriorating mental health is not bad enough compared to their problems everyone just pretends to like me for fun but im not stupid idk what to do anymore
Yall, I think I'm a sadist. Genuinely. I don't feel sympathy for those people in the tiktoks. Honestly, I don't feel anything. I simply laugh it off. I am really messed up.
Definitely a big overshare but whatever (Trauma dump) VERY BIG TW When i was 8 or so i was extremely suicidal and had insane anxiety and panic attacks no ine belived me tho, one time i was going to sleep in the same room with my older sister and she pretended to fall asleep (when i was that age i was scared when ppl were sleeping idk why) so i started crying and grabing her arm and stuff begging her to wake up in that moment i couldnt control my body and was saying out loud how i was gonna go to the kitchen and stab myself if she didnt wake up in time (sounds like guilt tripping but it almost happend) i felt myself almost moving towards the kitchen i was terrified she then "woke up" and i calmed down Anyways thats kinda js a trauma dump so yea
that one with the little boy is honestly so scary how someone so young could be going thru these kids of situations, when it probably isnt even their fault…
I went through this when i was 10 it was fucking traumatising,and the worse thing is that while I scratched judged myself I was S/A’d by my fucking cousin who was a sibling to me due to the fact I was an isolated child for 9 years.
@@crazy_paws1 im so sorry. i hope that in your life in heaven youll be comfortable and safe and forget about those things.
@@mkrocks24 thank you,I wish no one experiences the same thing I went through as a kid and still now,
Time stamp?
@@Preppycatsfrfr 0:45
Don’t you hate how everyone thinks SH is just cutting yourself? It’s also burning, starving, scratching, etc. it can even be mental. It’s still SH.
I scratch and starve myself and I'm 10 but I can't recognize myself in the mirror all I know is that I'm ugly
@@Trixxieis_cool I really hope you’re ok. And if not, you will be
@@Trixxieis_coolif that is you in your PFP, I just want to tell you that you are beautiful. I'm not kidding
@@Trixxieis_cool if you're under 13 please don't share your age online, keep yourself safe from the creeps of the internet :3
It can also be, not self cleansing, like showers, brushing teeth etc.
"oh look a video thats long its been a while ya-y-...."
"GODDAMMIT NOT THE NO COPYRIGHT CRUELTY FREE MUSIC ;-;"
LITERALLY
I hate it so much
Cruelty free... 😭
TWO FUCKING ROYALTY FREE SHITTY SONGS WERE LAYERED OVER ONE ANOTHER. FUCKING HELL I JUST WANT TO FUCKING CRY
Even as a kid, I’ve always felt obligated to make my parents proud. But my definition of “proud” i guess is just their approval, their wanting of me. I used to just tell my parents my day was good, but I really would get bullied non-stop, but i couldn’t tell them that. How could I? My parents used to have to ask my friend’s parents how my days went because i told them nothing. As i got older, it got better, because they sent me to therapy. Well now i’m out of therapy, my relationship is at its worst with my parents, i have anxiety, i have an ed, and i self harm. But do they know that? Does anyone know? Probably only one person, but i couldn’t tell anyone else. I have such bad trust issues, i take all jokes about my appearance very very seriously, and i get made fun of for being “stupid”. Thanks for reading, this vent helped a ton.
1:07 I relate to this so much…. My favorite person ghosted me and at first, I just felt like half of me had been ripped away. It was quiet but so loud, I feel stupid for not realizing she hated me all along. Tears wouldn’t flow until they did.
are you okay...? im here for you
When even strangers hugging you is more comfortable then when any of your family members hug you
Please talk, write about your problems, people will always listen to you and support you, I will listen to you. I love everyone💗
I was bullied alot I've been damaged ever since I was only four I didn't understand why I still don't understand why why I was left alone like an broken TV unwanted like a germ it stuck with me Evan tho I'm in a different school I feel like when a argument happens between my new friends it's because of me I start it the teacher ends it I feel like because I'm different when I was at my old school when I wanted attention it turned into a argument when ever I'm upset I hide it by smiling saying I'm fine don't worry when I'm not ok people say I'm buterfull when sometimes I know their just being passive aggressive that's Mt story
bro. no one even cares.
My 2 Favorite people ghosted me and replaced me all bc i was boring and now im cutting myself and at school im being forced into a relationship. Hes touching me on my waist and legs without my consent and hate it so fucking much.
Growing up, I was bullied throughout elementary without even realizing it, and had a lot of fake friends and friends who just disappeared suddenly in my life. Not only that, but in fifth grade, my knee was chronically damaged, and now I limp constantly. My friend was stabbed in seventh grade during lunch and was in the hospital for a few weeks. My dad was starting to get snappier, and my depression was at an all-time high, and I began self harming. After that, though, I stopped because I was yelled at, and then we skipped to high school. My Freshman year I was part of an awful situation where the teacher was badly assaulted and our school provided exactly 0 therapy and let us only stay for 1 single day in the library then said we were fine. And then, in my sophomore year, one of my friends was almost kidnapped, and I was also almost kidnapped in the same incident. I heard someone screaming but I couldn't help them. I don't feel numb, though. I feel like I'm underwater but also very aware of everything. I smile and laugh, and not once has anyoje seen through my mask. I feel alone. I have very close online friends and irl friends whom I rarely see anymore. I wish the pain would stop already.
Thank you for uploading these videos for us❤
Thank you for talking about it, it really raises the motivation to make new videos for you💗
@catiktok-od2cu Yeah, no problem 😁
3:26 im so glad theres other people that are like this. i thought i was just weird, distant or 'isolating' myself even though i knew damn well that wasnt the case.
Same with 4:48 !
Quick vent: Tw starving
Im on my period and couldnt bring myself to eat my dinner, my parents thought i was starving myself again because i was put in hospital for it. Theyve been yelling at me forcing me to eat even when i felt like i was going to throw up because of my cramps in the first place
i hope you feel better now! if this continues you could try telling your parents about how its because of the cramps and maybe you could start using birth control/the pill since itll get rid of your period? hope your feeling better!
@@ommie_ It will?! Tbh I don't have my period but my mother stayed home from school cuz thats how bad her cramps was, my sister sometimes cry on the bathroom floor from it, so I am not excited
@@Little-paws-jr2fu a bit i think, i’d recommend looking into it more as there’s lots of ways, i think surgery is one of the ways that works the best but i’m not sure you would wanna do that
@@ommie_ Yeah but like my mom could have used something like that lol
I'm so sorry if anyone had to go through something similar to these things. No one should have to go through it.
I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list: *pin? dont have to
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. hugging things
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things
80. trying to learn a new culture
81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
82. you weren't born to entertain people
83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
84. arguing with 8 year old kids
85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
86. new technologies
87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
89. cringing at old things you've said and done
90. money
91. random shower thoughts
92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
94. that weird funky smell from new items
95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
97. feeling happy for other people
98. cute animals
99. flowers
100. laughing at your own stupidity
and lastly, 101: me :)
Copy and put it in another video :D
I don’t know if I’m meant to vent but I’m going to anyway
The other day I was venting to my “best friend” and I was telling her how my parents had divorced and my dad was struggling to find a job and I opened up to her about how I might be getting a step dad, who is some random dude that I don’t even know, and I even talked to her about the death of one of my childhood best friend that had happened a few years ago and I was trying not to cry, but I was telling her because I am the type of person who hides everything and doesn’t open up to anyone and that’s why therapists don’t work with me, so I was finally feeling comfortable enough to open up to someone for the first time in years and I had just told her about everything I was going through and I told her about my feelings, and she didn’t even look up from her phone all she said was “yeah, same.” Her life is completely fine, it hurts that I finally thought I was ready to tell someone about my feelings and she didn’t even care.
Sometimes I feel it’s easier to be alone.
Though it may seem she has a perfect life, she may not. But she had no fucking right to ignore you and just go "yeah same" when she most definitely was not in the same situation
3:48 this reminds me of the time my mom said she regrets having me cause I’m just a freak with anger issues
I’m crying rn
11:38 STAWP WITH THE BASIC NON VENT TIK TOKS AHHHHHHH
I love dogs…(this isn’t just about a dog)
i relapsed tonight. my shoulders are fucking killing me now and i can’t sleep.
Heya, I know you commented this 5 months ago but I hope you’re doing better, if no one has told you this but I love you and I am proud ❤
'I'm not sad, i've got a loving mom, and a funny dad, i've got nice food.. Im -not- lonely.. I have everything.. So why does it feel like i can't do *Anything* ?
Whatever youre going through, i can promise, it will be okay. Everything will work out how its meant to, and you will come out the other side. You are strong, and youve got this. No matter how bad it gets, you have to hang in there; for us. Im so proud of you
What if what meant to be for me is sadness and pain for way too long ..
@@Little-paws-jr2fu I can assure you, it's not.. that is only a road block between what you are now and what you will be in the future, or what impacts you can make on our world, big or small. You'll find that path eventually..
@@luhvrk4rl I hope so
My crush had mental health issues and I confessed that I loved them they stared blank at my I hug them and they stared crying and telling my that horrible life..
The person I love has had a really traumatic past dealing with SA and SH and a bunch of other shit- to top it off, she's aeroaise so I don't know how she'll react if I ever tell her that I love her
0:30 it’s so relatable honestly 😭🙏
FRRRRR
seeing happy families dont remind me of mine. we all fight its like we dont even love eachother anymore.
8:38 is basically me
Every now and then I’ll find myself here and finding out over and over i have a bad life and then realize it’s 4am again and i should not trust myself again and again but it’s all true
I just wanna say that both of those can be true. In general you should try to not trust any thoughts you have past like 9-10pm cause a lot of that is fatigue tapping into your emotions, but at the same time it's ok you acknowledge the bad things that happened to you. If anything, the fact you acknowledge it is a step towards fully comprehending it (I'm a very similar way and my therapist has slowly been acclimating me outside that mindset). It takes time to heal and grow past the bad things that happened to you in all aspects, but as long as you keep pushing forward and take the breaks and pitfalls you need to some days, you're doing vastly better than you'd even realize. There's a lot of people out there who need to grow and change yet refuse to do so, so by comparison the fact you're making progress and keep moving forward says volumes about how far you've progressed. You and I both got this, even if you and I never interact past this point.
The little boy was me at nine, i had watched my mom lose half her blood from a seizure amd nobody at school cared... Hell, it just encouraged them.
The only thing keeping me here is the idea of hurting my family. I have short periods of happiness. I don't ever feel satisfaction anymore. I can't keep anything up with hobbies. I just rot in my bed for free time. My favorite person is uncomfortable being in the same room with me. Can't take anything seriously. Unable to defend myself in an argument. I;m so bored. I can't even imagine myself getting past 21. I don't even have a reason to be like this. I'm just so fucking disgusted with myself.
0:44 sometimes I hate that I am that little girl
Quick vent:
I feel like im the cause of everything that ruined my family and I also feel like i just woke up in a child body and people just see me as a child that doesn't know better, because alot of people who i know never actually know what i feel or want.
Have you ever got everything except an apology. Then you get called selfish for wanting an apology.
i cried through almost all of these because i went/am going through the same thing
Is 10 considered a young age? At the of 10 I was forced to act like an adult with my parents constantly yelling, drinking, and smoking. I raised my self and have just been like living in constant fear that my parents will yell at me for simple things like getting a high B or getting to a point they use physical touch. I have been hit, kicked, and many others that I feel I and many others shouldn’t have to bear dealing with, so they can enjoy their childhood. I have not sense healed from this as it hasn’t even been a full two years and it keeps on getting worse, I don’t know how much more I can take.
@10:31 one of the most relatable.
The one with the little boy disturbingly reminded me of myself when I couldn't sleep as a child... Why did relate to these when I was young? I don't know..-
i relate to alot of these and it scares me how much i relate to them
0:00 the house wen ever my dad is at home:
1:38 why is it wen ever this song comes on the music in my head phones change from left to right 😭😭😭😭
Ho's everyone ???
Vent here if needed
0:19 to 0:28
Honestly how I was treated with my last relationship, they lost feelings and were just going to keep it from me than I found out and I called them out..worst mistake all they said was “yep I did lose feelings.” Than gave me the coldest look I’ve very seen I honestly went home crying and didn’t speak the rest of the day really
I feel horrible. My eating disorder is getting worse, and i keep eating and pickin g at my lips and fingers to the point they're scarred. sometimes i think about killing myself and how simple it would be
When i was younger, my dad yelled all the time, and i always spaced out and when he asked if i heard him I always said yes, then he would ask me what he said and i would freeze. I can’t remember my childhood lol. I remember in 1-3rd grade my teacher was worried abt me because i always stuttered and froze up whenever they asked me a question, honestly, it was probably some sort of defense mechanism i brought up in case they yelled at me- (I can’t handle it anymore when adults yell at me, so when they do i freeze up and speak clearly, because if i stutter then they’ll yell more. Or maybe i just dont respond for an hour and make my mom worried that im having a f*cking seizure-) I’m hating 2024 so far 🤭
5:31. I’m able to be who I am with my bff and when I get home I have to make a complete personality change so my parents won’t find out what I have done. 5:51. When I was younger my mom would always give me and my older brother spankings, I would always be first to get it but then my mom would still yell at me of what I’ve done and say like ‘What’s wrong with you?!’ And I never had the courage to say out loud Everything, even today she never gives me spankings but would always still yell that, she never knew what I struggled with and hell what I even liked! I struggled with depression even when she was doing that, I had even done SH, of course my mom didn’t figure it out, and still doesn’t
My friend committed in the school bathroom 2weeks ago and I was the one that found her. If I had been there 2min earlier she would’ve still been here. Idk man, just kinda traumatic to find your friend of 5yrs in the bathroom covered in blood and dead.
I feel like basing an oc based off my emotions, also I have to stop watching this stuff eminently bc I started crying again bc of (untitled) reason…
But if you have any ideas I’m free for offers and if you want me to make a little base for you people I can, it might be able to detract myself.
When i used to sh they were very light cuts, barely any blood came out, now i wanna do it again. But deeper this time.
I was the little girl in the office, let’s just say that never ended.
I didn't realize how much I adjust to other people until I was by myself. It's feels numb when I'm alone. 8:38
i just showed my friend a drawing i was so proud of, and he replied with "oh." and showed me something of his. i just had to be so nice to him because he already self harms and i'm scared to make it worse. i don't know if i'm in the wrong but i feel like i'm a bad person when i try to make myself the victim. i don't know what to do.
That is NOT your fault, it’s completely valid that you feel like that. However, he might not realise he hurt you, and that’s not his fault, but it’s not yours either. Make sure to care for your feelings, and maybe let him know that it hurt you
same.. only it's my best friend who I'm in love with
Everyone venting in the comments:
Me: “BRO WHATS UP WITH LIKE 19:23’S MUSIC??? 😭😭😭😭😭”
My mom one time was yelling at me a few months ago and said to tell her why I missed school I tried to tell her why and all that came out of my mouth was “i-“ and then she kept on yelling at me to stop crying and tell her then when I tried telling her she said I was makeing up lies and rased her hand to hit me and I literally just felt nothing and cried in a corner by my desk after she called me a “ useless child” and said “ that’s right cry like a little cry baby” and said she wished I lived with my grandma and hit me and after she said she was sorry she denied saying all that, I just said ok and went outside for a while, my mom denies all the trauma she caused me, examples: when I was 5-6 she sat me in a chair and wrapped a belt around my arms and around the chair it was a tall chair and there was a few tacks on the floor and she did that because I was misbehaving do when I got off the chair I stepped on one and she didn’t care , when I was like 8 my stepdad almost broke my finger and she said it didn’t happen what happened was we went geo cashing and I hit my sister and then I was looking out the car window with my finger curled and in my mouth (I was biteing my finger for some reason)and my stepdad snaked me in the back of my head and my head hit the window along with my hand and that caused me to smash my finger and no one really cared about it so I just sat there crying, I think a year or two ago I was sitting in a chair and my brother unscrewed a nail and it fell apart with me in it I hit my jaw on my bar counter and hurt my head and my arm hitting the floor and my mom LAUGHED a little and asked if I was ok I said no then she looks back at her phone but then two minutes later my little sister got hit with a pillow by my little brother (he didn’t hit her hard) and she started crying and my mom rushed out of her room and went to make sure she was ok…when the chair I was in BROKE and I got hurt she was just sitting on her bed and yelled to ask if I was ok but when my sister got lightly hit with a pillow she rushed up I confronted her about it but of course she “dIdInT dO tHaT”, when I was 9 I had a kidney infection and my mom waited 9 days to bring me to the hospital she literally had my grandma take me from my cousins house bc I was crying on my cousins bed while she comforted me but when my brothers ear started hurting (he’s the youngest and only boy btw) she went to the hospital immediately??? One time she went through my phone and I think she read my ai chats and I was just like venting to an ai about being to scared to come out as trans and my stepdad was/is transphobic and after my mom went through my phone he was saying how he would except me and my siblings no matter what and one time I was telling my mom that once again someone thought I was a boy at school because my hair was cut short and she said “you keep talking about that and and I want to know, do you want to be a boy?” I said no bc yk…I was scared to tell her? Someone plz tell me if my mom is a bad mom or I’m mentally abused 🥲👍
(Sorry abt the trauma dump)
Music is basically my escape
It's insane how in one year I went from the gifted child, in honors classes, popular, happy. To the quiet kid, with mental issues. Getting involved with police 4 times in one year, all relating to suicide. Realizing that it wasn't normal and he Sexually assaulted me at such. A. Young. Age. AND NO ONE BELIEVES ME. NO ONE. HE LIES ABOUT IT. HE BLAMES IT ON HIS ADHD. Being a vaping addict and cure struggling with it. Losing someone that was so important to me that I took for granted my entire life. AND HER LAST WORDS TO ME "h have a happy, happy, happy __th Birthday" HOW COULD SHE LEAVE ME BEHIND LIKE THAT. losing so many friends and still feeling trapped. And I can't bring myself to cry again at therapy. I love my therapist but I hate crying infront of people. At the end of the day it's just her job.
11:27 realest thing I’ve ever seen.
lol it’s literally 3:33 am when I say this but I’m just num I don’t do drugs or anything but I just feel num :3
once life gets good it just crashes down to people saying things,school gets worse,many mental breakdowns,and losing friends because my friend got sent to a mental hospital and i miss them because we watch music and play games my other friends even my boyfriend leaves me out of everything and talk shit about me in group chats that i see
Has anyone else ever had this one friend that flirts with u then stops just to get someone else for a bet bc they 2 other people like that person and he didn’t get her so he went back to flirting with u then u realize that ur a back up if smth doesn’t work out then he starts flirting with u and ur sister while in the same room but ur other friend tells him to go back to flirting with u when ur all hanging out because he was bothering ur other friend. But you like them because eventually their flirting worked but you will never tell them bc u know why he is flirting with you to keep his “streak” going and you believe thats the only reason he will date you.
hey. how's your day been?
Im sorry.. I know it hurts. its okay to cry, my friend. Let it all out. You didnt deserve any of this, but its just how the world works out sometimes.
I may not know what your going through, but i promise that you will get out the other side and that it WILL be okay. I know its tough; but you are so, so so strong. Please hang in there; for me. For us.
thinking of something real bad every night😆
i hope i was ok what the hell
Time stamps that i relate too -x
8:38
11:33
15:08
16:23
16:38
thats it ❤❤
I wanna do it again but I've been clean for 1 month and even promised myself that I would change..
Tw: vent,su1cideual thought,SH,toxicity,kinda abuse,young age,kinda ED?,and body image issues.
So..im 11 just for knowing…my parents are so strict about my clothes,grades,ethics, attitude,everything in my life seriously..and my mom is veryy abusive,she slaps/hit me with her hands or kicks me with her feet or hit me with a slippers everytime i do something wrong,right now im sick and yesterday i wasnt waking up from my nap and i had homeworks to do so she started to kick and hit me on my arms and back and on my thighs too and say toxic words to me and i was only half asleep and i was very sick and i felt even more worse bcs she destroyed me mentaly and physically in that time,even now bcs of that my thighs hurts me from back bcs of how much she hitted me on,also she pulled my hair multiple times,im no sleeping enough for a 2 weeks a half,i wake up at 6AM and then go to school,then i come back and eat,and ofc while eating i feel like panicking bcs i ate at school but my food wasn’t enough and i didnt want to eat cuz i feel fat…then i take a nap for 2. Or 3 hours and wake up and stay studying until 5 or 5:15AM and sleep and wake up at 6AM agin to go to my school,even though im in 6th grade wich its primary school in my country (6th grsde is the final grade of the primary school) but out homeworks and subjects are so hard and allot,teachers trearing us like we are some kind of robots,giving us more than 2 tests in a one day to do…getting a wired mentally anf physical panic attacks during classes in school,while being sick,i feel like i cant breath and i see very blurry and i cant control where my eyes looks at and my body starts to move randomly out of my control,having a cold hands and feets even tho i dont have Anemia at all,i feel like my eyes are burning me and sp havey,overthinking during all the day and not getting a rest,almsot feeling insane,cant take our a single tear of my eyes,giving up easily and feeling helpless and hopless,wishing to die everyday but i dont want to at the same time,i started slef harming by using a metal with sharp edges drawing compas and scratch my the end of where my venis are showing until the middle of my forearms..getting online bullying,got harrased a year ago by my cousin that he is only a one month older than me by touching my thighs from the back multiple times,then i reported on him to his mom and my mom and our grandma and they said “no its okay sweetie he didnt mean it” and i told his dad and his dad said “eat sh1t” to me…it all started when i was 4…i started getting bullied for being fatter and taller than the other kids,i got my first insecurity that time,i got depressed when i was 6 and a deep depression when i was 7….im thinking of su1c1d1ng since im 7-8….my first hit by my mom was when i was 2 and i was really traumatized when that happend even tho she only slapped me that time just for crying after her bathing me…my dad only hitted me 2 times in my whole life…and theyre both in this year…also i get bullied from my whole family…i got stared at by stranger group of teenage boys and they looked around 17-20 and i was wearing a long orange t-shirt with a black jeans that is wide from down (my but and half of my thighs were coverd) :(…now its 3:16AM and i still havent slept yet…i feel not real,i dont feel real anymore..im really addicted to internet that even i get a dark deep toughts like “why did allah (god) created us” and other stuff…even tho the answers all are in the holy quran (muslims holy book)…and these toughts are dragging me away from my religion even tho im a religious person (but i dont wear hijab)…i feel so usless and im so sick of my school grades….being an older sister is bery tireing…being a second parent,the victim of the troubles,getting blamed for the parents fights and saying im the reason of these fights…I remember when i was 9 turning 10 my parents had a huge fight wich made my dad leave the home for a whole 6-8 months and meeting me and my younger sister everyweek on Friday…and my parents blamed me for it,just bcs i wanted somthing from my mom and she hitted me for yelling at her and my dad got very angry and started fighting with her for hitting me…and my sister also my sister started blaming me…also my sister is so toxic sometimes…she always calls me fat or a cow when we fight bcs she knows i dont like anyone talking abt my body bcd im too sensitve abt that ;(…and i have 2 bestfriends,S and D…D is S’s younger sister (theyrrr both girls) and i had to left them bcs i chnaged school and they were only my comfort….i have there snaps but theri mom takes their phones away in study time….im so tired but i have to go now and continue my studies and homework (im a slow writer and slow understanding)…currently now its 3:26AM…bye
This is terrible, I hope you know that you can call child protective services or tell someone at school if it gets too bad. I know it's scary but you can get through this, you can't change the past, so keep looking forward. I know it feels like no one is there for you but I care about you, even if I don't know you. Please don't commit, I hope you are feeling a little better by now and that you have someone in your life that you can trust, and I'm always here if you need to talk (I'm a 13 yr old girl, not trying to be creepy in any way!)
@@ssensefullCosplayz thx
@@user-Mari_321 Thats good! Every country should have these services! Just remember there is always someone you can talk to if you need help!
That one song that goes
"Things aren't really all that bad! I got a nice mom❤ and I got a cool dad😎 I just stay in my room to long and *kinda sad music* "
That song is me, and I don't like it
The first one is relatable
I want to ask for comfort but instead it just leads to them talking about how they are feeling just as bad/worse
Like I know they need comfort
But I do too
Yet why do I feel guilty?
This has happened every damn time
And actual comfort from friends doesn’t feel like anything anymore, I feel burnt out, I have for years
I’m being yelled at because I have trouble remembering things, I most likely have adhd, but my mom doesn’t think so even though I’m practically a walking example of it, I don’t even see her as a mother anymore, just someone I have to obey or I’ll be punished.
I say that I forgot, but she says “No you didn’t, you’re just lazy”
And it hurts, and I can’t cry or she’ll judge me.
I have almost no motivation, and the concerning part is that this started when I was 10.
Hi :)
This is my first time actually venting on a video but today I was at a restaurant with my friends and this little kid who was abt 6 came ups to us and slapped my butt and kept trying to do it he was younger then me by 7 years and it made me very uncomfortable and he didn't listen when me and my friends told him to stop then I tried running away from him and he grabbed my shorts right underneath my no no square and it made me so uncomfortable I cried, one of my friends told him to stop again and pushed him, the kid didn't stop and kept trying to touch me in inappropriate places, the worst thing is i came up to my table where my parents where well my dad and step mum and I was crying and they completely ignored me crying. And the kid was def old enough to not touch people in the way he did and especially if someone tells u if they don't like it
Anyone else run their hands over sh as a way to stim because your hand goes "hehe I like the bumps :3"
how do I know who I am? I don’t know my favourite colour, or what I want to be, or what I like listening to, or what my favourite style of clothing is, or what my best and worst quality is. I just don’t know anything about myself other than I hate loud noises, I prefer nature over a lot of things and I hate cities. That’s like it as far as I know. I’m struggling so much it’s like a thousand people inside of me arguing all the time.
that first one is too fucking real i went upstairs crying to my parents bc i zoned out and when i snapped out of it i had bløød all over my arm. i cleaned it up and tried making sum to hide it, but when i went up there crying at 3 am, it turned into thwm looking through my phone and finding some private shit out ive been hiding and grounding me and yelling at me. i was geounded for a month or so…….i just wanted help……now its worse bc of that situation.
!!Warning: Underneath this is me venting, if you aren’t comfortable with this don’t read!!
I’ve kind of lost interest in a lot of things, motivation is certainly lacking for me. And the only blame are my old friends. I’m convinced I have some mental disorder, but I’m not saying that I 100% do, but I show signs. The reason my old friends are to blame, is any time I started a conversation about something like that, they shut me up. I couldn’t talk to them about horses, warriors (the wild cat book series), or anything for that matter. I just had to mirror and mimic what they said. It wasn’t right, I didn’t feel right, my favourite colour is yellow, not blue; specifically a pastel yellow. The worst thing is that they didn’t realise how much it was harming me. They didn’t realise that my self control was the only thing holding me back from damaging *myself*.
Let me move on to something else.
I’m so scared that I’m underweight, or my heart rate isn’t regular, and or normal. This is because of a special thing called ✨anxiety✨ which is both an emotion and a mental illness. I have the mental illness because I’ve been anxious since November and I doubt an emotion can hide under several others, a mental illness is there, but I hide it- or try to, I know I’ll be an anxious person when I’m older. I’m getting an ESSA (emotional support stuffed animal) dog for my own comfort because nobody else understands why I’m so focused on my heart. I have such lovely teachers, especially my English (for literacy I speak English, English in my school is writing) Teacher and my Social Subjects Teacher, they are both very nice people and have let me stand out of class before when I need it. My friends are highly supportive of me, they help me out when needed but I’m used to handling my mental health by myself. And wait- no this anxiety started in 2021, it took me 6 months to get over. But it’s back and I don’t think it’s going away. It’s here to stay that’s for sure.
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whats the best way to cry again
miss it so much
2:25
The fact I could hear her crying when I saw that.
2:35 I hate this tik tok more than anything.
3:09 me last Wednesday getting an f on my test
does anyone know what song it is at 6:11 ??
does anybody know what song is 7:40? thank you :) love the video!!!
Let me see you do it
How do I tell my parents I want to go to therapy...?
I’m unsure. You could simply ask them. Unless they’re a little uptight / rude, you could ask your school councillor if they would tell your parents for you. ❤
The furst one hurt me really badly but it was so true, most if the tine i go venting to a friend in usual really bad sense i like to keep to my self so if i go venting to someone its pretty bad, but sense i feel really sad i can snap really easley and cause arguments over small stuff.... I whish i was never born.... Or at least born with better qualitys....
I like to think that when someone is healing is like how moon and sun rises and sets
Or like a foggy twilight to a clear path in the morning.
Friends and loved ones will fade away like the hope we had as children
People who we used to admire will burn and die out like a star.
Sometimes I think we are connected to the earth somehow,
Like whenever the earth is in pain we feel the pain in someway.
But, I guess there’s no point of trying to ‘fix’ it
‘The infection’ has already started to feed off the ‘host’
Soon the ‘host’ will die and ‘the infection’ will die with it
Since ‘the infection’ doesn’t spread to other ‘hosts’.
… I hope I’ll never see the day when that happens.
Honestly i feel like i like this boy in my class but i tell myself "no! I hate him!" Or "he likes someone else! And he probably thinks im ugly!" Even tho we get shipped and i gave him a note for an Activity and i didn't realize we had to share it and stuff but i know his old crush and i feel like he still likes her. Im to scared to admit that i like him but im not sure of my feelings for him actual. I care for him, I really do, but i have trouble showing my emotions, and im afraid to get humiliated in front of my whole class or the whole school, and i feel like the boy i like thinks im ugly or annoying. I just want a hug or someone to care for me tbh.
(P.S: i dont know if im venting rn but i really just wanna share my feelings)
I don’t have any advice rn, but I’m so sorry :( even if you decide to not act on it, don’t ignore your feelings, and maybe tell someone if you can!!
4:13 does anyone know the name of this song????????? Pls im abt to start tweaking 😔
when your card declines at therapy so they tell you about the time 20 people who you trusted left you
Today i find out it, my mom is scared of me, its probably because she saw how destructive i can be, i have send a few person to hospital at a very young age and do "travesures" with the animals that we're around me because of fun, back then i received help for angers issues now im much calm but when i pick up her cat she yelled at me to let her go, is eyes were filled with fear, i feel like a monster i don't want to hurt anybody but still have the tough of doing it, im a danger for everyone but can do anything about it i promise to keep myself alive. Why? I remember how she could leave me alone day's, even if she go to check me 10 or 20 minutes after hours i still could feel alone, my brother didn't wanted to be in the house neither so he disappeared hours too, i was so angry that i almost k*lled is cat a few times but i started crying and feeling worse. I know it, or im a sociopath or a monster.
1:42 what the song name?
1:56 why is this so real…
The person I love has had a really traumatic past dealing with SA and SH and a bunch of other shit- to top it off, she's aeroaise so I don't know how she'll react if I ever tell her that I love her
Aroace*?
THE MUSIC LASTS FOR SO LONG HELP 😭😭
ANYWAYS. i spent so much effort and time on them. i exhausted myself, to the point that i hated them. both of them. it's insane how similar they seem once you really get to know both of them. i was lied to. they spread rumors about me, and talked shit about me. they called me weird and annoying. sorry for getting comfortable i guess. sorry for trying to be myself. sorry i messed up /once/ for something trivial. i gave both of them too many chances, and they took that an ran. they took advantage of me.
Can’t relate
the first one is so true
Why do i do these things why do i starve abuse cut burn myself? I just want to feel loved happiness i just want a hug... please...
Im deleting this later...
8:39 IS FCKIONVG MEEEEEEEEEEEEE I WANT TO SCREAMMMMMMMMMM
I have some advice
Never diminish your own feelings and trauma because there is worse trauma. It’s seriously unhealthy
“It’s not sustainable to cut yourself until you fall asleep” yeah and it’s not sustainable for me to only want to live because of my birds either. I would have killed myself if I didn’t have my birds, they kept me alive. No therapy, medication, and venting will ever help. My birds are the only thing worth living for.
I know this is a serious video, but I’m just waiting for someone to be like “AcTuAlLy It’S 54 mInUtEs
🤓👆”
The first time I cut myself, my mom found out and got me a therapist. I haven''t done it again since then but I've wanted to a lot. But my mom doesn't know that I've been starving myself. It's not really on purpose. I want to eat but every time I see food, I just want to throw up. I've tried forcing myself to eat but last time I tried, I almost started crying and had to throw the food away without finishing it.
i sh and no one cares to notice
i cry in my room every day and night and no one cares to notice
im lonely in school and no one cares to notice
my parents shout at me and emotionally abuse me and they dont care to notice what they are doing
my parents tell me my deteriorating mental health is not bad enough compared to their problems
everyone just pretends to like me for fun but im not stupid
idk what to do anymore
Suicide is useless. You'll just get guilt-tripped.
OFF TOPIC BUT IM ONLY SEVENTEEN MINUTES IN AND THERES BEEN LIKE 4 MELANIE MARTINEZ SONGS
0:57
Yall, I think I'm a sadist. Genuinely. I don't feel sympathy for those people in the tiktoks. Honestly, I don't feel anything. I simply laugh it off. I am really messed up.
Literally me when my phone won’t charge
the emount of jack stauber tho(ik i cant spel)
I'm the 3rd role apparently 😋😋😋...
I don’t even know who I am anymore.
9:44
Definitely a big overshare but whatever (Trauma dump)
VERY BIG TW
When i was 8 or so i was extremely suicidal and had insane anxiety and panic attacks no ine belived me tho, one time i was going to sleep in the same room with my older sister and she pretended to fall asleep (when i was that age i was scared when ppl were sleeping idk why) so i started crying and grabing her arm and stuff begging her to wake up in that moment i couldnt control my body and was saying out loud how i was gonna go to the kitchen and stab myself if she didnt wake up in time (sounds like guilt tripping but it almost happend) i felt myself almost moving towards the kitchen i was terrified she then "woke up" and i calmed down
Anyways thats kinda js a trauma dump so yea
i relate to 2:51
I wish i was pretty when i cried
THE FIRST ONE THE FIRST ONE!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS MY MOM'S PROBLEM?????