Thank you thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. You are beautiful and perfect and everything is right and you are exactly where you need to be. Just being in this world can be so hard sometimes and everything you said feels like exactly where I am. The only thing I know for certain is that on the other side of these hard days are so so many beautiful days and without all these feelings life wouldn't be nearly as fulfilling. I'm sending all the love to you, thank you for everything you do
i am !!! overwhelmed !! by all these comments !! i'm gonna get around to responding to some tonight, but please know i've read every single one and i am bursting, you are all so kind and lovely and wonderful, and also so capable! we're gonna do this, whatever it is !!
you're the first person to ever be able to describe what I feel in such an easy and calm way, I am literally gonna show this to my friends so that they can understand me better, thank you, thank you, thank you.
I feel you at a soul level... I just moved as well (I'm a youtuber and actress too!) and everything is really really tough. But I don't believe in wrong choices, I think everything happens because we need to experience it. Even all those thoughts and confusion and pain... We need this to grow and get where we're suppose to get. You're not alone ♡ we're in this together.
cheyenne, you were so honest and open in this video and my heart genuinely hurts for you and i'm so sorry that you're feeling this way and gosh i wish there was something that i could do for you but i am sending you all the love and support and good vibes and positivity that i possibly can. your desire to make art that affects people is so amazing and awe-inspiring. you are a force of nature, and fog always passes, and there will be brighter and happier days on the horizon. thank you for opening yourself up which is an incredibly difficult thing to do ;; ily cheyenne, and i am eternally wishing the best for you ♡ ♡ ♡
I randomly clicked on one of your bullet journal vids as I often find them quite grounding. All that organization talk makes my heart feel good. I fell in love with your calm and steady voice so I investigated your channel further and ended up on this video. Oh how your words touched me. And then you started talking about SKAM and I got chills. SKAM has effected me in such a huge way and especially that Sonja speech. Minute by minute. It's what I hold on to when the days are really tough. One small task at a time. Get dressed. Drink some water. Eat something yummy. Move my body. I'm sorry you're struggling right now. I'm wishing you clarity and love for yourself through this time. Du er ikke alene. XO
I recently followed you when I came across your bullet journal videos. I thought your spreads were so beautiful and inspiring. They made me buy a journal for myself. It's made me begin writing down my feelings, rather than leaving them stuck inside my brain. On the topic of Seattle, I love suggesting to people to visit here because it's so beautiful. I live about 45 minutes south of downtown Seattle. I've never been very fond of the city, it was always too big for me. I recently took a trip to Columbus, Ohio with my best friends & instantly fell in love. Similar to what happened to you with Seattle I think. It was the right size & seems like it'll be perfect for me. I've decided to move there early next year but I'm currently going through a foggy time as well & I'm very unmotivated to get a job. I know I'll get it done, but getting there seems impossible. My anxiety is very similar to yours in the way it manifests itself. If you ever need someone to talk to about it or Seattle or anything really, I'm open to talk. I'm not sure if this is odd since you have quite a few followers but still, if you need to, I'm here.
I always feel like your outros (from the 'I love you' on) are you talking to yourself. That those are the words you need to hear. From some external figure. So that is what you tell us. And it's all very genuine and authentic and I know you really really mean it
You speak about this in a way that is so raw and so beautiful. Some of the things you said in this video really struck something within me. "I'm so desperate to be anything but myself right now." "I just wish that existing didn't feel like such a chore." "Build a wall around each day" "Make peace with discomfort" "You are more capable than you think you are" I'm at a time of uncertainty in my life and I think that I needed to see this video just as much as you needed to make it. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us
First of all, thank you for posting this. It's so vulnerable and personal and so goddamn RELATABLE. It's nice in a way to know that I'm not alone in my struggles. Second of all, SKAM!! I'm was so excited when you brought it up, that show is wonderful
I needed 13:01 - 13:58 so much right now. And you have no idea how meaningful it is coming from you Cheyenne. You are an absolute wonder and I have never been so honored to have encountered such a beautiful soul that reminds me much of my own. Stay strong and stay wonderful ♡
that message at the end really hit me, i need to be way more open minded so thank you for helping me recognise that more. i really hope you figure things out and you know who really honestly deserves the world? you do. i love you, and i wish you all the best !! ❤️
I love watching these older videos. They’re so honest and real and beautiful. I love seeing people talk about things that I can connect with so deeply. It’s very comforting to me
I am in love with your constant authenticity. When I watch your videos, I feel like I am talking with an old friend. I can relate to this in so many ways. Thank you for being so honest and so you
Girl I know it doesn't feel like it but you are doing everything fine. Don't worry about the future cause no matter which paths you take you will end up happy. And you'll be so gratefull for everything your doing or trying to do right now. My motto is sortof whenever your doing what feels right at the moment, or you think that feels right at the moment you'll end up somewhere you will be proud and happy ♡. Love yourself I do and I love you.
omg im living this moment right now right rhis second. its nice to relate to someone. its overwhelming...your in oh shit mode, feel the feelings push past and say it outloud or put it on paper. just get it out so you can move on to the next step problem solve. mind map it and sometimes many problwms can have many solutions that will lead you on many paths. nothing will work out exactly how you plan it so you you tackle it one step at a time day by day hour by hour. youll be ok, you have friends and support right here ;)
Relatable. Totally relatable. Also, hearing you speak gave me a little bit of inspiration to just do things that will make me feel happy or rather joyful. Living does feel like a chore a lot of the time and the pressure to become "someone" is exhausting. I hope we all find peace in this journey because most of us feel as you do. You're not alone. Take care of yourself and thanks for sharing. xx
Hi. I'm watching this in the library at college, waiting for my next class. I'm about to cry, right here next to bookshelf row 55.I feel all of these things and it's so scary. I'm gonna cry with you. I think you're doing okay now, because you started your business and you're achieving your dreams. You seem happy. I know I'll get there, too. Thank you for taking the time to be vulnerable. We can all relate, and right now, I'm looking up to you.
This is exactly how I feel also. My anxiety manifests in exhaustion and feeling burnt out and I find myself preferring home and Netflix with my cats. The creative drive comes and goes but never stays. The feeling of stuck and complacency happens but you can break through just like I am trying to do. I believe in you!
I'm so much older than you are, but age does not automatically bring wisdom. Each day has to be lived in it's own way, and there are days and seasons that just suck. But.....there are days and seasons that bring such peace and joy. I have been following you on You Tube and Instagram for awhile now, and you constantly amaze me with your openness, your talent, your deep love for life. That type of all-in love brings great joy, but it can also bring great sorrow and depression. Sensitive people live life differently than others, and I know that you will find your way, Cheyenne. You are building your foundation in these hard days...trust yourself and follow your instincts and know that there are a bunch of people out here who will probably never actually meet you but who are rooting for you every day. ❤️
holy shit, you're in my head. "desperately want to be anything by myself." exactly where I paused to write this comment because you've just explained everything so far exactly how I feel and that one sentence was like, fucking hell, yea, that's it. I think that so often, I want to be anyone but myself. It makes me have shiny object syndrome bad, where I'm jumping from one thing to another in the hopes of a quick fix, being so excited and inspired, then when it doesn't work out, I'm completely defeated. I'm so impressed that you were able to be honest like this on youtube, this gives me a lot of hope. I start YT channel a while ago and I was doing well! but my own anxiety/self hate won and I stopped. It's ridiculous how our mind works sometimes.
By god did this video make me weep like a baby. I really relate to your feelings of uncertainty. Like you, I too question my own interests and goals and my dedication to them and end up talking myself into a spiral of feeling like nothing will ever work out. I don't know what I want either and the pain is so tangible it feels like it chokes. I'm sorry you're struggling along but I'm glad you have good people around you. There's no real words of comfort I can offer so I just hope we, and everyone else feeling the same as us, can find some kind of peace soon. Good luck my friend. This video was great.
I'm starting my first year of college in less than a week and I have never been so stressed and overwhelmed in my life. I related to this soo much and didn't know how much I needed to hear that I'm not alone! You are amazing and capable of anything you set your mind to, we can do this! Thank you thank you thank you
Cheyenne...every single time you post a video like this I am glued to the screen because it's crazy that there can be someone who is going through the exact same thing as me. And whose worries and fears are the same as mine. Heck, who pictures the same future. I'm not an actor, I'm a singer but I feel the same pressure to live with an all-consuming passion for your art. All of the hope you give to us, I know it will come back to you in a wonderful way!
You are such an amazing human being! Your videos are so honest and real and seeing how much you have grown makes my heart so happy. You're never alone and you have so many people here and everywhere backing you up and ready to be there for you if you need. You let people know that we are never alone in our struggles because everyone is struggling in some way. Thank you for being you. Because you are amazing!
That roller coaster feeling, of like being super inspired and then not at all; I've felt that too. It is tiring being tired and i'm sick of it too. Thanks so much for making this video. And being so raw and vulnerable. bc I've been feeling the same way. And its such a struggle. Sending you so much good vibes.
Thank you. Thank you for making this video. I've been feeling the EXACT same and I'm not just saying that the only difference is is that I need that hunger for music, I'm trying to get so far but my anxiety just keeps killing me, I've stopped going to family events because I just don't want to leave my room. But seeing you explain how you feel has reassured me that I'm not the only one. So thank you. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that an incredible opportunity is going to come up for you. Take care and best wishes. X
the thing you said about discomfort goes perfectly with a quote from the song chapter three by levi the poet, it goes "Time is a cruel lover, and she breaks her house apart at its bones. You know comfort is no good reason for standing still, and idle hands build nothing that you can call your own" i really appreciate this video because youre so honest and you're expressing so many things i also feel. i hope the fog in your head will pass soon and that youll be able to see things clearer. much love
As a fellow anxiety/depression sufferer I know this feeling so well. The like burst of energy and creative inspiration and everything being great and awesome and then in an instant everything being dumb and worthless and just feeling like not doing anything because its all too much. It sucks but it ends but I honestly with it were much easier to make it through the lows or just like easier to keep creating and making things when sad?? I just feel this entire video so much.
I can't even begin to express how much I relate to this. I moved to from New Mexico to Portland, OR thinking that it was the place to be to do what I want to do, and since, I've felt like you do. You're not alone in this. It gets better.
this is very very much how i am feeling at the moment. i feel super uninspired and unmotivated to do the things i intended to do with myself going into college yet i haven't done them yet and its super frustrating. thank you for opening up like this and making me feel like i am not alone in this mess of a world. i hope you find peace and comfort soon because your heart is so obviously pure. much love.
I truly hope you take to heart everything you said to us at the end. I'm in your corner and I want to see you succeed. The feelings you described are unfortunately very close to the feelings I often have. Simple things often seem impossible though I rationally know they are not. From the videos I've seen, that have been produced for this channel, you seem like a genuinely kind person who deserves endless love. I appreciate your work here and I hope that everything you want to accomplish in life will come true.
I've been looking for the words to describe exactly how I've been feeling for the past couple of weeks and you just hit the nail directly on the head. Thank you for this.
Watching this video was like watching someone speak my thoughts through a different body. I’m moving 1,000 miles away from home in a week and I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not a good idea but I’m still super excited. This video spoke to me on a really deep note. Thank you Cheyenne. For getting it
I can't even describe what your video means to me. It was like you described my life, my thoughts, my worries. I can't even properly write down what exactly I'm feeling right now. I just know that I needed it. I really needed to see you, to hear you and to cry with you. It was so important to me particularly to understand that there are people who can take your feelings seriously because they do understand you. I am so glad I found your channel because it is so close to my vision of life, it makes me happy. You make me happy! Thank you so much! Thank you for sharing your light with us, with me. Thank you for being you. You are an amazing person. You are the sun that gives everyone love and warmth. I want you to know that you make this world brighter! Thank you!P.S. I'm sorry for my mistakes, I'm so thrilled right now and I'm not sure if I can remember the grammar. Honestly, I'm not sure if I could describe everything even on my first language))))))
Thank you so much for showing us that it's okay to be vulnerable and feel things strongly and that talking about it helps. You have such a kind and soft and beautiful soul, sending you love and good energy!
This is exactly me. All of the anxiety and feelings you're describing sound so much like me. "I wish existing didn't feel like a chore a lot of the time" GAHHHH I feel this. You're so kind and beautiful and you feel things hard. It's so difficult to navigate the waves. But we'll weather the storm. ❤
I was pretty much sobbing throughout this whole thing because I completely relate. And I am so appreciative of how vulnerable you are in this video. Thank you so much, and even though we don't know each other personally, but I'm sending lots of love. All the things you say at the end - saying that right back at you. I hope you feel better soon.
You poor angel!!!! Please be happy, Cheyenne! You are literally the BEST fucking thing I have found on RUclips, you are the most beautiful soul I have encountered in AGES (albeit through a phone/laptop screen). Why is it that these horrible feelings are plaguing all of us twenty-somethings??? I battle with what you are talking about - feeling as if everything takes SO MUCH EFFORT - but obviously I will not pretend to know exactly what you are going through. I would like to say that I have gotten better at controlling my feelings and avoiding those times of anxiety, but it was a loooooong road to get to where I am (and I still have much room to improve). I hope you will find the same sort of solace I have been able to grasp by doing little things like doing a little something creative, or having my favorite meals, or creating a pretend alter ego in my mind to face my problems with a different attitude (sounds crazy, but you'd be surprised how well it sometimes works). Please continue to reach out to your RUclips family - we (or at least I) love you to death and are always here for you.
Every single one of your videos or posts or Instagram stories is art that makes people feel and it's all stories that people aren't telling. Coming from someone who feels all these same feelings you're describing, who's best friend is moving to the exact opposite end of the country, who feels like it is a struggle to motivate myself to do anything because my anxiety keeps me down, hearing you talk about this in such an accessible way is incredibly inspiring. It's like finally, someone didn't just say "everything is totally fine and you just need to get over it!" Just hearing someone else put words to these feelings helps me fight them. You are so so wonderful and you're still keeping on and I am so proud of you. You don't need to make any decisions right now and I hope you take those notes at the end of your video as notes to self. Stay strong ✨ you've got a whole community behind your back!
Oh my god, this was exactly where I was at emotionally a few years ago thinking about acting/career stuff/life paths. I know this video is a couple years old but I just discovered it today and just want to thank you for being so vulnerable and open and sharing all these feelings. I've been feeling a little discouraged and down lately but it was so lovely to watch this video and remember where I was a few years ago and how much different things are now. Things always change and our feelings are always shared by someone else. Sorry for this long rambling comment but this video really has meant a lot to me today.
i know this video is kinda 'old' but i feel exactly like this atm, i've been feeling like this for the past few months and i wanted to thank you for 1/ putting my feelings into words and 2/ all of your kind words, it really helps. it's also so heartwarming to see that the goals you were desperate of achieving two years ago, now represent your reality : you made it, and i'll take it as an example to have faith in myself and life in general. again, thank you so so much, and i wish you all the best ✨ xx
I'm sweating in this Seattle summer heat, too! Hang in there! When I go through spouts of my depression and anxiety, my husband tries to remind that he is always there to support me no matter the decision. And that there is no right or wrong decision unless it affects my physical well being. Like it is okay to not take a shower today or not talk to anyone. I have that right to do those things. While I do those things i have his support and that is somewhat always makes me feel okay. So, someone out there is supporting you always and that it is okay to have those feelings.
Your feelings are so valid and appreciated. Remember that art can be made anywhere, and there are more people than you know that want to make the same things as you. Make art wherever you are ❤️
This video is, 3 years after you’ve posted it, seriously helping me in a situation I’m currently in. I keep feeling like my dream career of being a theme park designer may not be right for me, at least not in the capacity that I always imagined it. And it’s region locked. But I have also recently had the largest realization that it’s time for me to leave my hometown of Orlando and set foot and grow new roots in a home making art of my own somewhere else. So while I save up for that, I’m going to focus on my business, taking things one step at a time, navigating mental health and dysphoria, and not losing sight of my end goal. Thank you for posting this and for making such happy art and for allowing me to cry with you this morning. I really needed it! Stay safe & take care. -Em
I love you too, Cheyenne. This video was so relatable, I felt like this was me two/three months ago. Actally I feel like this periodically, but discovering your channel and seeing your videos actually helped me out of it. I started journaling after seeing your first flip-through, up to that point bullet journals always looked too serious and task-oriented for me to pick up the habit. I really appreciate you and you deserve the best. ♥
this really helped me today, I'm also dealing with a lot, brainwise, and simply seeing someone else go through similar things is helpful. you're beautiful and strong and I am too. we're going to survive and prosper.
This video was like sitting down with an old friend. Still so relevant three years later with everything going on right now. I just started bawling my eyes out because I have these exact thoughts myself. I’ve loved seeing how you’ve grown these last few years! Takk, Alt er love 💗
I feel so much of this. Like, you put words to so many things swirling around in my brain. I wish we could sit and have an actual chat over tea because you are such a lovely, genuine person I never tire of listening to.
Chey, do you realize how much you have evolved since this video? If it weren't for Seatle you wouldn't have met Connor for instance. This video shows perfectly that everything is temporary. Everything passes. Always. You just have to keep going forward and never ever give up on yourself.
This was so relatable. Listening to you made this first lonely weekend back at college much better, and I guess it gave me an ounce of relief knowing that someone out there feels the same way about their life. Thank you, and I wish you the best! I hope you retrieve your inspiration and motivation because you're amazing!
I just stumbled upon your video and I cannot describe how many things I felt while watching it. Thank you. Thank you for just sitting down and making a honest video and creating some real content in this shit show RUclips has turned into. So many of us 20-somethings are dealing with the same fogginess and lack of motivation and the way you describe it and speak your mind is truly amazing. It's not like the same old "be positive and work hard" sunshine and happiness bullshit that everyone's portraying, it's REAL. Thank you.
You remind me so much of myself. I have just recently found you and this video taught me something very powerful and I thank you for that. My mantra at the moment is 'everything's gonna be okay/fine'. You are going to be just fine, honey. I look at you and see your light. Even right now, you're stressed and confused and uncomfortable but you glow anyway. That's something. You are a very beautiful human being, beyond your outward beauty you have this sparkle about you. The way you think and talk and what you say. You will get through this. I love you too. Have a wonderful day.
I don't usually comment on videos, but I had to let you know like many others in the comments: you are not alone with this doubt and a brain that makes tiny things look like big foggy clouds. I had a really bad week so far, didn't know what I am doing with my life, thought I might slip back into a depressive episode. And it helped me so much to see your video and know that I'm not the only one who struggles with these kinds of thoughts. I haven't found a solution yet so I don't know how to help you to keep going. I can only let you know that you're not alone with this. And that I am very thankful that you are here and creating the content that you do.
Every word you said describes everything that I feel right at this moment in my life, I feel aimless and lost, like I'll never truly be content with any decision I make I know thou that I will be ok and that these feeling will pass it's just getting to that point that is so hard, it's funny how your mind tricks you into thinking there's no way things can change or that you can never be who you've been working so hard to be, that's a lie. I try to take each moment as it is making a conscious decision to do so again and again (most of the time at least) so thank you for being so honest and making this video it really helps to know that I'm not the only one that feels this way.
Your video was exactly what I needed, You are so sweet. I felt like I was talking to a friend, like my friend was talking to me and saying that I am okay and that I'm loved by someone. Thank you so much. I've been struggling with loving myself the past year I guess. And your video helps me a lot. You are so pure, thank you for that
THANK YOU so so much for being so open and vulnerable. Your such a beautiful person with a heart of gold. Hearing that your feeling confused and lost makes me feel not so alone. It's exam time at school and I'm not academic so I'm struggling so much and I'm starting to feel like its never going to end. Hearing you share your thoughts made me feel like their is hope and happiness at the end of all of this.Hearing you say that I am worth it, that i can get through it and that I'm loved honestly made me get a little teary. I really needed to hear that. Thank you. I love you so much. Thank you. I love you. ❤️
This video literally describe what I am going though in actually words. Thank you for being vulnerable and amazing! I thought I was the only one that felt stuck in a fog/ funk.
my eyes are welled with beautiful tears, what an inspiration you are ! such a gentle soul. your ability to articulate your feelings and relate them to a total stranger (me) is astonishing. thank you for existing, and creating, and for posting this. you're amazing dude, xx.
I can completely relate to how you're feeling, you are so amazing for being so open about how you are feeling. Follow your heart and do what you want to do, filter out the idea of trying to be what you think that others want you to be. You have so many beautiful and unique qualities and eventually, you will reach the other side and feel fulfilled with what you are doing
I know this video is a few months old but I just stumbled upon it and felt the need to comment because I feel this SOOOOOO fucking hard. Every last bit of it. We're the same age and in very similar chapters of our lives with very similar ambitions and feelings and frustrations (maybe because our anxiety seems to manifest in incredibly similar ways), and this just really resonated with me and made me feel a lot less shitty and alone, so thank you for that. Being 23 is so hard and shitty and stressful and full of seemingly insurmountable pressure and I sure as hell don't have it figured out but I'm glad I'm not the only person dragging myself through it. You seem focused and inspired and content in your current vlogs which makes me so happy to see. I hope that is a sign that things have picked up for you
I feel you so much on your thoughts in this video. My best friend just moved and all my other friends have just moved too. I feel so alone and just left behind and stuck in this place. So when you said something along the lines of "i have friends who are far away, but i still have them" that really hit me hard. It kind of was a wake up call, i can't sit here being depressed because i feel alone, because i know i'm not. Just because my friends are far doesn't mean that they aren't my friends and they are always there for me, and this distance wont change that. Also the point where you said everything is temporary, nothing stays the same. It's such a comforting feeling that, this, this right now, won't be the same forever. I'll get out of it and my life will continue to go on. I gotta keep going and making the best of where i'm at. So thank you for this video, and for helping me out a bit, and just sharing your heart. It helps me realize that i'm not alone, and you're right i am loved, and i love you too. you have a friend in me.
Hello, just wanted to say I relate so much to this! You are right on point when you say to take it minute by minute. One thing that comforts me is to know that moments never last. The current moment won't feel like the next or the past! Sending lots of love to you! Thank you for sharing!
I just saw this ... I am getting 44 in some days and I am at this state you talk about since a while now and I am so tired and then I see how you did work it out and look at you now ...still I feel today that I didn’t accomplished anything till today ... anxious 😟 me works it over and I am going to therapy but those days ... doing Art always helped me but I feel like I can’t nothing... thank you for speaking about this idk why I didn’t see this till now it means also I am never alone dealing w it ✨💖
You're not alone. Like you have said the 20s are not as easy because we're all aimlessly wandering trying to find our paths. Everyone has their own struggle, and the way that you feel it's okay. Thank you for sharing because lately that feeling of not being good at things has consumed me as well. Don't sell yourself short because you are doing things already that many people wouldn't have the courage to do ❤️ thank you Cheyenne.
Thank you for being so open, laying your soul out for all of us to see. I really relate to what you're going through and it helps knowing I'm not alone. You're an angel and a source of sunshine and light.
I relate to this in so many ways, and I'm so sorry that this is what you're experiencing. You're wonderful and I appreciate you creating words to express the feelings you're having and being so vulnerable.
This was such a calming yet moving video to end my day with. Your little direct pep talk at the end made me tear up, I needed to hear that. I'm wishing you the very best
today is my first day of my last year of high school. & today i decided to watch this video. and i'm so glad i did. the effect your voice and your words have on me is mind blowing, you're so inspirational. i needed this. it's a really scary thing to feel like you're stumbling through every day not knowing if tomorrow is going to be better or worse. but today, you made my day better. you made me feel less alone. you made a story that has never been told and that i want to listen to. a story that inspires me to tell my own. i hope you know how important that is to me. the amount of love i have for your channel and what you do and your spirit and you willingness to be vulnerable is overflowing my heart today. thank you for doing this. i relate to you in ways that i can't even understand. so again just thank you.
Thank you so much for your honesty! So many people, including me, know the feelings you described and yet we hear so little about mental health struggles in our education und growing up. So I'm really deeply grateful for people like you, that are open and help to create a society in which we support each other und there is no more shame about sometimes struggling with life.
you deserve the world and then some. i know exactly how you're feeling. i've been applying to college over the past few weeks & it has been so heavy on my brain. i cannot stop thinking about the future. but thank you so much for the reminder to just take things in small bits. i hope we both find what we're looking for and one day we can both run and jump and dance and sing in a place where we are happy and comfortable and engulfed in what we love. but for now, we take things one day at a time. sending good thoughts your way cheyenne!! xx
When I watch your videos I feel like I’m watching a different version of myself. Thank you for sharing. Future You is because you persevered through these hard parts. You’re beautiful and strong and inspiring. It’s so amazing watching this video seeing how you’re living the dreams that you had before. Keep being awesome! Much love ❤️
Thank you for being so genuine and vulnerable. In facing similar situations currently, it was so encouraging to hear how you combat difficulties that arise. From everything you've said, I know you're going to be just fine because you know how to find the beauty in situations and things when it seems like hope is lost. Trust in yourself and your abilities, because you are so wonderfully talented in everything you do x
I haven't watched a video in a long time that resonated with me so much as this one. Thank you for being so honest about your emotions, because it makes me feel a little bit better knowing I'm not the only person out there feeling that way. You're so wise and deserve the best. :)
Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. Your voice is so calming. This reminded me to take it easy and enjoy the process instead of waiting for the final result. As you said, every moment is an opportunity for growth. Take care of yourself!
I needed to hear this. Every piece of advice on this channel is comfort on the stormiest of moods. I've been having a shit fit lately so basically a miserable time, but getting back into the swing of things especially believing in myself and the universe has been hard... but I'm getting there. Sending you good vibrations
You and you're videos make me feel like someone else in this world is where i'm at in life and mentally and that makes me feel so good ! And capable ! Thank you !
sometimes you need to take a different path to realize what you want and where you need to go next. some things might seem hard and as you mentioned, just impossible to get through. you're capable of so much and i hope that you find the love, inspiration, and motivation to get u through all of this. sending happy thoughts xx
Thank you for this video, I really need to do the same of taking things a minute at a time or a second at a time, Stress and anxiety overwhelms me and does the same where it just makes me tired and I can't get anything done. I hope you find the strength in your friends and the people who surround you to keep going and find your perfect niche in the world! sending you all the love and support!
hey cheyenne. i miss your videos and i really hope you're doing better. you deserve so many good things and i hope you're getting them. i had an awful anxiety/depression attack this past week and your videos just helped me calm through them. ever since i found your channel, you have been a light that i really needed and i hate saying this usually but you've made me feel less alone. thank you. i'm at a place in my life right now where im stuck and lost and you've given me a bit of hope and i know we can power through this. i don't know where you stand in your beliefs in God but i am a firm believer that He will see us through these hard times (i hope i don't sound too preachy). you're strong and beautiful and i hope september treated you amazingly and that october will bring more light into your life.
"The fog in my head THRIVES off of lack of direction, and purpose and motivation" .... YESSSSS... SOOOO much THIS :-( I feel that too... I feel like I can't keep up with my goals...
cheyenne, you are not alone. every word you said in this is a thought i've had in my own head. your life will be as beautiful and fulfilling as you want it to be. it all just takes time. your future will only better when you work to make the present better now. you can overcome all of this. i wish you the best of luck.
oh cheyenne! just look at how many people are here for you, even if they've never met you. i have felt EVERY SINGLE FEELING you're going through. i want to be a musician, i want to make, draw, journal, create and inspire and just live a life of art, and whenever i look at myself and where i am and how old i am i just freak out because i'm not where i want to be, and there are so many people who are *that one step ahead*, and it kills me. please enjoy seattle, please love love love seattle, because i moved from idyllic scotland to london, the hub of music in the uk, but this city is huge and claustrophobic and so, so expensive, and every anxiety i've ever had has crept up on me while living here. enjoy the beautiful green-ness of seattle, enjoy the quietness, enjoy the open air and enjoy the pace of it. you have a beautiful face and a beautiful place to live and an audience here who will applaud and listen to everything you do. much love.
feeling so many of these feels right now, particularly hating being bad at things. oh my gosh. I'm 20 and have had three driving lessons in my life because I HATE the fact that I'm not already a perfect driver and it's so irrational yet so overwhelming and oh man everything really is a lot.. but just as you said to us, you're so, so capable of greatness and deserving of all the wonderful things you can already acknowledge you have and more. and can I just say, it takes so much courage and maturity to even be living alone in the first place, let alone moving across the country away from those you love, and staying, if that's what you choose to do, will likely be huge for your growth and could lead to opportunities you dont even know you want yet. or, you could choose to move to new york and find growth in the discomfort you feel there. it may be a hard choice to make but I honestly believe there's good waiting for you regardless of which road you take. I hope choosing that path becomes a little easier for you and the fog starts to clear. we should both follow your friend seth's example and just take things as they are and as they come. wishing you the best cheyenne xx
You are such a sweet person, I'm truly sorry that you are going through all this heartache to find a solid path, but like you said nothing is permanent and change should be welcomed, so drink a lot of tea and that you time sweets, I'm sure you'll be fine cause you are great! ❤️
All of this is how I feel right now. I'm about to enter my final, and fifth, year of undergrad and I have to figure out what I'm doing next. I want to act as well, and I'm afraid of choosing a place that I won't thrive in for grad school. But my therapist was really helpful. I would tell her that my soul broke out in hives every time I thought about moving to New York. And sometimes it still does. And I'm sorry if yours does too. But I truly believe that opportunities are less about where you are, and more about who you surround yourself with. There might be an artist commune or a group of filmmakers in your area. There may be workshops for new plays through local universities and their grad programs looking for actors, and that could lead to something. I get the fog too, and you aren't alone. I'm sorry if this was rambly. But you're lovely, and your channel and instagram make me feel like I'm not alone. And I'm deeply grateful for that.
Thank you so much for your words. I have been watching your current videos so much and I am so inspired to create and share my art and process. But I have been in a very depressed funk since this last December and I can't shake it. I feel as though I've lost my touch with what I love and where I live, I cant even call a home because of how much discomfort it brings me. Seeing you now and going back and seeing where you come from.. I have hope for me as a life. Windows are what I wish for since I only have one.. but I know now it will get better I need to take it one second at a time. Thank you so much again for sharing this
I'm so in love with you. Like... the YOU you show in your videos. The raw reality that you present is so touching and I can see and feel myself in your footsteps. Don't ever feel alone in your thoughts because I and many others are on somewhat the same road to the dream future, tripping over obstacles again and again and again. Sometimes I feel like just giving up, but seeing people like you who inspire me, and knowing that even YOU have these days of doom... it only makes me want to reach out and say: WE WILL GET THERE... together, somehow, some day. WE. WILL.
Thank you thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. You are beautiful and perfect and everything is right and you are exactly where you need to be. Just being in this world can be so hard sometimes and everything you said feels like exactly where I am. The only thing I know for certain is that on the other side of these hard days are so so many beautiful days and without all these feelings life wouldn't be nearly as fulfilling. I'm sending all the love to you, thank you for everything you do
Jordan Clark Jordyn! You are so wonderful and encouraging
Jordan Clark love your channel! and how you are so supportive to other youtubers! 💓
i am !!! overwhelmed !! by all these comments !! i'm gonna get around to responding to some tonight, but please know i've read every single one and i am bursting, you are all so kind and lovely and wonderful, and also so capable! we're gonna do this, whatever it is !!
...and 2 months later you launched your patreon, your etsy shop AND your portfolio!!!! I am so proud of you.
Her "i love you" is so real. I just want her to be happy.
you're the first person to ever be able to describe what I feel in such an easy and calm way, I am literally gonna show this to my friends so that they can understand me better, thank you, thank you, thank you.
I feel you at a soul level... I just moved as well (I'm a youtuber and actress too!) and everything is really really tough.
But I don't believe in wrong choices, I think everything happens because we need to experience it. Even all those thoughts and confusion and pain... We need this to grow and get where we're suppose to get.
You're not alone ♡ we're in this together.
cheyenne, you were so honest and open in this video and my heart genuinely hurts for you and i'm so sorry that you're feeling this way and gosh i wish there was something that i could do for you but i am sending you all the love and support and good vibes and positivity that i possibly can. your desire to make art that affects people is so amazing and awe-inspiring. you are a force of nature, and fog always passes, and there will be brighter and happier days on the horizon. thank you for opening yourself up which is an incredibly difficult thing to do ;; ily cheyenne, and i am eternally wishing the best for you ♡ ♡ ♡
I randomly clicked on one of your bullet journal vids as I often find them quite grounding. All that organization talk makes my heart feel good. I fell in love with your calm and steady voice so I investigated your channel further and ended up on this video. Oh how your words touched me. And then you started talking about SKAM and I got chills. SKAM has effected me in such a huge way and especially that Sonja speech. Minute by minute. It's what I hold on to when the days are really tough. One small task at a time. Get dressed. Drink some water. Eat something yummy. Move my body. I'm sorry you're struggling right now. I'm wishing you clarity and love for yourself through this time. Du er ikke alene. XO
I recently followed you when I came across your bullet journal videos. I thought your spreads were so beautiful and inspiring. They made me buy a journal for myself. It's made me begin writing down my feelings, rather than leaving them stuck inside my brain. On the topic of Seattle, I love suggesting to people to visit here because it's so beautiful. I live about 45 minutes south of downtown Seattle. I've never been very fond of the city, it was always too big for me. I recently took a trip to Columbus, Ohio with my best friends & instantly fell in love. Similar to what happened to you with Seattle I think. It was the right size & seems like it'll be perfect for me. I've decided to move there early next year but I'm currently going through a foggy time as well & I'm very unmotivated to get a job. I know I'll get it done, but getting there seems impossible. My anxiety is very similar to yours in the way it manifests itself. If you ever need someone to talk to about it or Seattle or anything really, I'm open to talk. I'm not sure if this is odd since you have quite a few followers but still, if you need to, I'm here.
I always feel like your outros (from the 'I love you' on) are you talking to yourself. That those are the words you need to hear. From some external figure. So that is what you tell us. And it's all very genuine and authentic and I know you really really mean it
You speak about this in a way that is so raw and so beautiful. Some of the things you said in this video really struck something within me.
"I'm so desperate to be anything but myself right now."
"I just wish that existing didn't feel like such a chore."
"Build a wall around each day"
"Make peace with discomfort"
"You are more capable than you think you are"
I'm at a time of uncertainty in my life and I think that I needed to see this video just as much as you needed to make it.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us
First of all, thank you for posting this. It's so vulnerable and personal and so goddamn RELATABLE. It's nice in a way to know that I'm not alone in my struggles. Second of all, SKAM!! I'm was so excited when you brought it up, that show is wonderful
its comforting to see and listen to someone talk about the same things i feel. I hope you find your way
I needed 13:01 - 13:58 so much right now. And you have no idea how meaningful it is coming from you Cheyenne. You are an absolute wonder and I have never been so honored to have encountered such a beautiful soul that reminds me much of my own. Stay strong and stay wonderful ♡
that message at the end really hit me, i need to be way more open minded so thank you for helping me recognise that more. i really hope you figure things out and you know who really honestly deserves the world? you do. i love you, and i wish you all the best !! ❤️
I love watching these older videos. They’re so honest and real and beautiful. I love seeing people talk about things that I can connect with so deeply. It’s very comforting to me
I am in love with your constant authenticity. When I watch your videos, I feel like I am talking with an old friend. I can relate to this in so many ways. Thank you for being so honest and so you
Girl I know it doesn't feel like it but you are doing everything fine. Don't worry about the future cause no matter which paths you take you will end up happy. And you'll be so gratefull for everything your doing or trying to do right now. My motto is sortof whenever your doing what feels right at the moment, or you think that feels right at the moment you'll end up somewhere you will be proud and happy ♡. Love yourself I do and I love you.
omg im living this moment right now right rhis second. its nice to relate to someone. its overwhelming...your in oh shit mode, feel the feelings push past and say it outloud or put it on paper. just get it out so you can move on to the next step problem solve. mind map it and sometimes many problwms can have many solutions that will lead you on many paths. nothing will work out exactly how you plan it so you you tackle it one step at a time day by day hour by hour. youll be ok, you have friends and support right here ;)
Relatable. Totally relatable. Also, hearing you speak gave me a little bit of inspiration to just do things that will make me feel happy or rather joyful. Living does feel like a chore a lot of the time and the pressure to become "someone" is exhausting. I hope we all find peace in this journey because most of us feel as you do. You're not alone. Take care of yourself and thanks for sharing. xx
Hi. I'm watching this in the library at college, waiting for my next class. I'm about to cry, right here next to bookshelf row 55.I feel all of these things and it's so scary. I'm gonna cry with you. I think you're doing okay now, because you started your business and you're achieving your dreams. You seem happy. I know I'll get there, too. Thank you for taking the time to be vulnerable. We can all relate, and right now, I'm looking up to you.
This is exactly how I feel also. My anxiety manifests in exhaustion and feeling burnt out and I find myself preferring home and Netflix with my cats. The creative drive comes and goes but never stays. The feeling of stuck and complacency happens but you can break through just like I am trying to do. I believe in you!
I'm so much older than you are, but age does not automatically bring wisdom. Each day has to be lived in it's own way, and there are days and seasons that just suck. But.....there are days and seasons that bring such peace and joy. I have been following you on You Tube and Instagram for awhile now, and you constantly amaze me with your openness, your talent, your deep love for life. That type of all-in love brings great joy, but it can also bring great sorrow and depression. Sensitive people live life differently than others, and I know that you will find your way, Cheyenne. You are building your foundation in these hard days...trust yourself and follow your instincts and know that there are a bunch of people out here who will probably never actually meet you but who are rooting for you every day. ❤️
holy shit, you're in my head. "desperately want to be anything by myself." exactly where I paused to write this comment because you've just explained everything so far exactly how I feel and that one sentence was like, fucking hell, yea, that's it. I think that so often, I want to be anyone but myself. It makes me have shiny object syndrome bad, where I'm jumping from one thing to another in the hopes of a quick fix, being so excited and inspired, then when it doesn't work out, I'm completely defeated. I'm so impressed that you were able to be honest like this on youtube, this gives me a lot of hope. I start YT channel a while ago and I was doing well! but my own anxiety/self hate won and I stopped. It's ridiculous how our mind works sometimes.
By god did this video make me weep like a baby. I really relate to your feelings of uncertainty. Like you, I too question my own interests and goals and my dedication to them and end up talking myself into a spiral of feeling like nothing will ever work out. I don't know what I want either and the pain is so tangible it feels like it chokes. I'm sorry you're struggling along but I'm glad you have good people around you. There's no real words of comfort I can offer so I just hope we, and everyone else feeling the same as us, can find some kind of peace soon. Good luck my friend. This video was great.
I'm starting my first year of college in less than a week and I have never been so stressed and overwhelmed in my life. I related to this soo much and didn't know how much I needed to hear that I'm not alone! You are amazing and capable of anything you set your mind to, we can do this! Thank you thank you thank you
I feel the same way at the moment. It totally sucks, but at the same time it is helpful to know others are feeling these same thoughts and feelings.
Cheyenne...every single time you post a video like this I am glued to the screen because it's crazy that there can be someone who is going through the exact same thing as me. And whose worries and fears are the same as mine. Heck, who pictures the same future. I'm not an actor, I'm a singer but I feel the same pressure to live with an all-consuming passion for your art. All of the hope you give to us, I know it will come back to you in a wonderful way!
You are such an amazing human being! Your videos are so honest and real and seeing how much you have grown makes my heart so happy. You're never alone and you have so many people here and everywhere backing you up and ready to be there for you if you need. You let people know that we are never alone in our struggles because everyone is struggling in some way. Thank you for being you. Because you are amazing!
That roller coaster feeling, of like being super inspired and then not at all; I've felt that too. It is tiring being tired and i'm sick of it too. Thanks so much for making this video. And being so raw and vulnerable. bc I've been feeling the same way. And its such a struggle. Sending you so much good vibes.
Thank you. Thank you for making this video. I've been feeling the EXACT same and I'm not just saying that the only difference is is that I need that hunger for music, I'm trying to get so far but my anxiety just keeps killing me, I've stopped going to family events because I just don't want to leave my room. But seeing you explain how you feel has reassured me that I'm not the only one. So thank you. Everything happens for a reason and I believe that an incredible opportunity is going to come up for you. Take care and best wishes. X
the thing you said about discomfort goes perfectly with a quote from the song chapter three by levi the poet, it goes "Time is a cruel lover, and she breaks her house apart at its bones. You know comfort is no good reason for standing still, and idle hands build nothing that you can call your own"
i really appreciate this video because youre so honest and you're expressing so many things i also feel. i hope the fog in your head will pass soon and that youll be able to see things clearer. much love
As a fellow anxiety/depression sufferer I know this feeling so well. The like burst of energy and creative inspiration and everything being great and awesome and then in an instant everything being dumb and worthless and just feeling like not doing anything because its all too much. It sucks but it ends but I honestly with it were much easier to make it through the lows or just like easier to keep creating and making things when sad?? I just feel this entire video so much.
I can't even begin to express how much I relate to this. I moved to from New Mexico to Portland, OR thinking that it was the place to be to do what I want to do, and since, I've felt like you do. You're not alone in this. It gets better.
this is very very much how i am feeling at the moment. i feel super uninspired and unmotivated to do the things i intended to do with myself going into college yet i haven't done them yet and its super frustrating. thank you for opening up like this and making me feel like i am not alone in this mess of a world. i hope you find peace and comfort soon because your heart is so obviously pure. much love.
I truly hope you take to heart everything you said to us at the end. I'm in your corner and I want to see you succeed. The feelings you described are unfortunately very close to the feelings I often have. Simple things often seem impossible though I rationally know they are not. From the videos I've seen, that have been produced for this channel, you seem like a genuinely kind person who deserves endless love. I appreciate your work here and I hope that everything you want to accomplish in life will come true.
I've been looking for the words to describe exactly how I've been feeling for the past couple of weeks and you just hit the nail directly on the head. Thank you for this.
Watching this video was like watching someone speak my thoughts through a different body. I’m moving 1,000 miles away from home in a week and I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not a good idea but I’m still super excited. This video spoke to me on a really deep note. Thank you Cheyenne. For getting it
I can't even describe what your video means to me. It was like you described my life, my thoughts, my worries. I can't even properly write down what exactly I'm feeling right now. I just know that I needed it. I really needed to see you, to hear you and to cry with you. It was so important to me particularly to understand that there are people who can take your feelings seriously because they do understand you.
I am so glad I found your channel because it is so close to my vision of life, it makes me happy. You make me happy! Thank you so much! Thank you for sharing your light with us, with me. Thank you for being you. You are an amazing person. You are the sun that gives everyone love and warmth. I want you to know that you make this world brighter! Thank you!P.S. I'm sorry for my mistakes, I'm so thrilled right now and I'm not sure if I can remember the grammar. Honestly, I'm not sure if I could describe everything even on my first language))))))
Thank you so much for showing us that it's okay to be vulnerable and feel things strongly and that talking about it helps. You have such a kind and soft and beautiful soul, sending you love and good energy!
This is exactly me. All of the anxiety and feelings you're describing sound so much like me. "I wish existing didn't feel like a chore a lot of the time" GAHHHH I feel this. You're so kind and beautiful and you feel things hard. It's so difficult to navigate the waves. But we'll weather the storm. ❤
I was pretty much sobbing throughout this whole thing because I completely relate. And I am so appreciative of how vulnerable you are in this video. Thank you so much, and even though we don't know each other personally, but I'm sending lots of love. All the things you say at the end - saying that right back at you. I hope you feel better soon.
your words are like poetry. so that's some beautiful, meaningful art you could focus on - making your thoughts into poems.
You poor angel!!!! Please be happy, Cheyenne! You are literally the BEST fucking thing I have found on RUclips, you are the most beautiful soul I have encountered in AGES (albeit through a phone/laptop screen). Why is it that these horrible feelings are plaguing all of us twenty-somethings??? I battle with what you are talking about - feeling as if everything takes SO MUCH EFFORT - but obviously I will not pretend to know exactly what you are going through. I would like to say that I have gotten better at controlling my feelings and avoiding those times of anxiety, but it was a loooooong road to get to where I am (and I still have much room to improve). I hope you will find the same sort of solace I have been able to grasp by doing little things like doing a little something creative, or having my favorite meals, or creating a pretend alter ego in my mind to face my problems with a different attitude (sounds crazy, but you'd be surprised how well it sometimes works). Please continue to reach out to your RUclips family - we (or at least I) love you to death and are always here for you.
Every single one of your videos or posts or Instagram stories is art that makes people feel and it's all stories that people aren't telling. Coming from someone who feels all these same feelings you're describing, who's best friend is moving to the exact opposite end of the country, who feels like it is a struggle to motivate myself to do anything because my anxiety keeps me down, hearing you talk about this in such an accessible way is incredibly inspiring. It's like finally, someone didn't just say "everything is totally fine and you just need to get over it!" Just hearing someone else put words to these feelings helps me fight them. You are so so wonderful and you're still keeping on and I am so proud of you. You don't need to make any decisions right now and I hope you take those notes at the end of your video as notes to self. Stay strong ✨ you've got a whole community behind your back!
Oh my god, this was exactly where I was at emotionally a few years ago thinking about acting/career stuff/life paths. I know this video is a couple years old but I just discovered it today and just want to thank you for being so vulnerable and open and sharing all these feelings. I've been feeling a little discouraged and down lately but it was so lovely to watch this video and remember where I was a few years ago and how much different things are now. Things always change and our feelings are always shared by someone else. Sorry for this long rambling comment but this video really has meant a lot to me today.
i know this video is kinda 'old' but i feel exactly like this atm, i've been feeling like this for the past few months and i wanted to thank you for 1/ putting my feelings into words and 2/ all of your kind words, it really helps. it's also so heartwarming to see that the goals you were desperate of achieving two years ago, now represent your reality : you made it, and i'll take it as an example to have faith in myself and life in general. again, thank you so so much, and i wish you all the best ✨ xx
I'm sweating in this Seattle summer heat, too! Hang in there! When I go through spouts of my depression and anxiety, my husband tries to remind that he is always there to support me no matter the decision. And that there is no right or wrong decision unless it affects my physical well being. Like it is okay to not take a shower today or not talk to anyone. I have that right to do those things. While I do those things i have his support and that is somewhat always makes me feel okay. So, someone out there is supporting you always and that it is okay to have those feelings.
Your feelings are so valid and appreciated. Remember that art can be made anywhere, and there are more people than you know that want to make the same things as you. Make art wherever you are ❤️
This video is, 3 years after you’ve posted it, seriously helping me in a situation I’m currently in. I keep feeling like my dream career of being a theme park designer may not be right for me, at least not in the capacity that I always imagined it. And it’s region locked. But I have also recently had the largest realization that it’s time for me to leave my hometown of Orlando and set foot and grow new roots in a home making art of my own somewhere else. So while I save up for that, I’m going to focus on my business, taking things one step at a time, navigating mental health and dysphoria, and not losing sight of my end goal. Thank you for posting this and for making such happy art and for allowing me to cry with you this morning. I really needed it! Stay safe & take care. -Em
I think that way all the time. I feel like I didn't do enough to make everyone around me happy and I feel like I failed in life as well.
I love you too, Cheyenne. This video was so relatable, I felt like this was me two/three months ago. Actally I feel like this periodically, but discovering your channel and seeing your videos actually helped me out of it. I started journaling after seeing your first flip-through, up to that point bullet journals always looked too serious and task-oriented for me to pick up the habit. I really appreciate you and you deserve the best. ♥
this really helped me today, I'm also dealing with a lot, brainwise, and simply seeing someone else go through similar things is helpful. you're beautiful and strong and I am too. we're going to survive and prosper.
This video was like sitting down with an old friend. Still so relevant three years later with everything going on right now. I just started bawling my eyes out because I have these exact thoughts myself. I’ve loved seeing how you’ve grown these last few years! Takk, Alt er love 💗
I feel so much of this. Like, you put words to so many things swirling around in my brain. I wish we could sit and have an actual chat over tea because you are such a lovely, genuine person I never tire of listening to.
Chey, do you realize how much you have evolved since this video? If it weren't for Seatle you wouldn't have met Connor for instance. This video shows perfectly that everything is temporary. Everything passes. Always. You just have to keep going forward and never ever give up on yourself.
Your videos are so calming and good to watch. This is exactly how I feel right now. Truly appreciate your content x
This was so relatable. Listening to you made this first lonely weekend back at college much better, and I guess it gave me an ounce of relief knowing that someone out there feels the same way about their life. Thank you, and I wish you the best! I hope you retrieve your inspiration and motivation because you're amazing!
I just stumbled upon your video and I cannot describe how many things I felt while watching it. Thank you. Thank you for just sitting down and making a honest video and creating some real content in this shit show RUclips has turned into. So many of us 20-somethings are dealing with the same fogginess and lack of motivation and the way you describe it and speak your mind is truly amazing. It's not like the same old "be positive and work hard" sunshine and happiness bullshit that everyone's portraying, it's REAL. Thank you.
You remind me so much of myself. I have just recently found you and this video taught me something very powerful and I thank you for that.
My mantra at the moment is 'everything's gonna be okay/fine'. You are going to be just fine, honey. I look at you and see your light. Even right now, you're stressed and confused and uncomfortable but you glow anyway. That's something. You are a very beautiful human being, beyond your outward beauty you have this sparkle about you. The way you think and talk and what you say. You will get through this. I love you too. Have a wonderful day.
I don't usually comment on videos, but I had to let you know like many others in the comments: you are not alone with this doubt and a brain that makes tiny things look like big foggy clouds. I had a really bad week so far, didn't know what I am doing with my life, thought I might slip back into a depressive episode. And it helped me so much to see your video and know that I'm not the only one who struggles with these kinds of thoughts. I haven't found a solution yet so I don't know how to help you to keep going. I can only let you know that you're not alone with this. And that I am very thankful that you are here and creating the content that you do.
Every word you said describes everything that I feel right at this moment in my life, I feel aimless and lost, like I'll never truly be content with any decision I make I know thou that I will be ok and that these feeling will pass it's just getting to that point that is so hard, it's funny how your mind tricks you into thinking there's no way things can change or that you can never be who you've been working so hard to be, that's a lie. I try to take each moment as it is making a conscious decision to do so again and again (most of the time at least) so thank you for being so honest and making this video it really helps to know that I'm not the only one that feels this way.
Your video was exactly what I needed, You are so sweet. I felt like I was talking to a friend, like my friend was talking to me and saying that I am okay and that I'm loved by someone. Thank you so much. I've been struggling with loving myself the past year I guess. And your video helps me a lot. You are so pure, thank you for that
this video made me cry bc its so real to me. thank u for this, and take comfort in knowing ur not alone. 💕
THANK YOU so so much for being so open and vulnerable. Your such a beautiful person with a heart of gold. Hearing that your feeling confused and lost makes me feel not so alone. It's exam time at school and I'm not academic so I'm struggling so much and I'm starting to feel like its never going to end. Hearing you share your thoughts made me feel like their is hope and happiness at the end of all of this.Hearing you say that I am worth it, that i can get through it and that I'm loved honestly made me get a little teary. I really needed to hear that. Thank you. I love you so much. Thank you. I love you. ❤️
This video literally describe what I am going though in actually words. Thank you for being vulnerable and amazing! I thought I was the only one that felt stuck in a fog/ funk.
my eyes are welled with beautiful tears, what an inspiration you are ! such a gentle soul. your ability to articulate your feelings and relate them to a total stranger (me) is astonishing. thank you for existing, and creating, and for posting this. you're amazing dude, xx.
I can completely relate to how you're feeling, you are so amazing for being so open about how you are feeling. Follow your heart and do what you want to do, filter out the idea of trying to be what you think that others want you to be. You have so many beautiful and unique qualities and eventually, you will reach the other side and feel fulfilled with what you are doing
I know this video is a few months old but I just stumbled upon it and felt the need to comment because I feel this SOOOOOO fucking hard. Every last bit of it. We're the same age and in very similar chapters of our lives with very similar ambitions and feelings and frustrations (maybe because our anxiety seems to manifest in incredibly similar ways), and this just really resonated with me and made me feel a lot less shitty and alone, so thank you for that. Being 23 is so hard and shitty and stressful and full of seemingly insurmountable pressure and I sure as hell don't have it figured out but I'm glad I'm not the only person dragging myself through it. You seem focused and inspired and content in your current vlogs which makes me so happy to see. I hope that is a sign that things have picked up for you
I feel you so much on your thoughts in this video. My best friend just moved and all my other friends have just moved too. I feel so alone and just left behind and stuck in this place. So when you said something along the lines of "i have friends who are far away, but i still have them" that really hit me hard. It kind of was a wake up call, i can't sit here being depressed because i feel alone, because i know i'm not. Just because my friends are far doesn't mean that they aren't my friends and they are always there for me, and this distance wont change that. Also the point where you said everything is temporary, nothing stays the same. It's such a comforting feeling that, this, this right now, won't be the same forever. I'll get out of it and my life will continue to go on. I gotta keep going and making the best of where i'm at. So thank you for this video, and for helping me out a bit, and just sharing your heart. It helps me realize that i'm not alone, and you're right i am loved, and i love you too. you have a friend in me.
Hello, just wanted to say I relate so much to this! You are right on point when you say to take it minute by minute. One thing that comforts me is to know that moments never last. The current moment won't feel like the next or the past! Sending lots of love to you! Thank you for sharing!
I just saw this ... I am getting 44 in some days and I am at this state you talk about since a while now and I am so tired and then I see how you did work it out and look at you now ...still I feel today that I didn’t accomplished anything till today ... anxious 😟 me works it over and I am going to therapy but those days ... doing Art always helped me but I feel like I can’t nothing... thank you for speaking about this idk why I didn’t see this till now it means also I am never alone dealing w it ✨💖
You're not alone. Like you have said the 20s are not as easy because we're all aimlessly wandering trying to find our paths. Everyone has their own struggle, and the way that you feel it's okay. Thank you for sharing because lately that feeling of not being good at things has consumed me as well. Don't sell yourself short because you are doing things already that many people wouldn't have the courage to do ❤️ thank you Cheyenne.
Thank you for being so open, laying your soul out for all of us to see. I really relate to what you're going through and it helps knowing I'm not alone. You're an angel and a source of sunshine and light.
I relate to this in so many ways, and I'm so sorry that this is what you're experiencing. You're wonderful and I appreciate you creating words to express the feelings you're having and being so vulnerable.
ugh, i felt this with my entire being
This was such a calming yet moving video to end my day with. Your little direct pep talk at the end made me tear up, I needed to hear that. I'm wishing you the very best
Love your wonderful somethings
today is my first day of my last year of high school. & today i decided to watch this video. and i'm so glad i did. the effect your voice and your words have on me is mind blowing, you're so inspirational. i needed this. it's a really scary thing to feel like you're stumbling through every day not knowing if tomorrow is going to be better or worse. but today, you made my day better. you made me feel less alone. you made a story that has never been told and that i want to listen to. a story that inspires me to tell my own. i hope you know how important that is to me. the amount of love i have for your channel and what you do and your spirit and you willingness to be vulnerable is overflowing my heart today. thank you for doing this. i relate to you in ways that i can't even understand. so again just thank you.
Thank you so much for your honesty! So many people, including me, know the feelings you described and yet we hear so little about mental health struggles in our education und growing up. So I'm really deeply grateful for people like you, that are open and help to create a society in which we support each other und there is no more shame about sometimes struggling with life.
you deserve the world and then some. i know exactly how you're feeling. i've been applying to college over the past few weeks & it has been so heavy on my brain. i cannot stop thinking about the future. but thank you so much for the reminder to just take things in small bits. i hope we both find what we're looking for and one day we can both run and jump and dance and sing in a place where we are happy and comfortable and engulfed in what we love. but for now, we take things one day at a time. sending good thoughts your way cheyenne!! xx
When I watch your videos I feel like I’m watching a different version of myself. Thank you for sharing. Future You is because you persevered through these hard parts. You’re beautiful and strong and inspiring. It’s so amazing watching this video seeing how you’re living the dreams that you had before. Keep being awesome! Much love ❤️
Thank you for being so genuine and vulnerable. In facing similar situations currently, it was so encouraging to hear how you combat difficulties that arise. From everything you've said, I know you're going to be just fine because you know how to find the beauty in situations and things when it seems like hope is lost. Trust in yourself and your abilities, because you are so wonderfully talented in everything you do x
saw this video 3 years ago because of cheyenne's bujo vids, 3 years later I feel completely like this.
it´s okay to sometimes feel like that , dont worry everything will be okay you are amazing, never forget it ! /this video came to my heart :)
I haven't watched a video in a long time that resonated with me so much as this one. Thank you for being so honest about your emotions, because it makes me feel a little bit better knowing I'm not the only person out there feeling that way. You're so wise and deserve the best. :)
Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. Your voice is so calming. This reminded me to take it easy and enjoy the process instead of waiting for the final result. As you said, every moment is an opportunity for growth. Take care of yourself!
I needed to hear this. Every piece of advice on this channel is comfort on the stormiest of moods. I've been having a shit fit lately so basically a miserable time, but getting back into the swing of things especially believing in myself and the universe has been hard... but I'm getting there. Sending you good vibrations
You and you're videos make me feel like someone else in this world is where i'm at in life and mentally and that makes me feel so good ! And capable ! Thank you !
sometimes you need to take a different path to realize what you want and where you need to go next. some things might seem hard and as you mentioned, just impossible to get through. you're capable of so much and i hope that you find the love, inspiration, and motivation to get u through all of this. sending happy thoughts xx
Thank you for this video, I really need to do the same of taking things a minute at a time or a second at a time, Stress and anxiety overwhelms me and does the same where it just makes me tired and I can't get anything done. I hope you find the strength in your friends and the people who surround you to keep going and find your perfect niche in the world! sending you all the love and support!
hey cheyenne.
i miss your videos and i really hope you're doing better. you deserve so many good things and i hope you're getting them. i had an awful anxiety/depression attack this past week and your videos just helped me calm through them. ever since i found your channel, you have been a light that i really needed and i hate saying this usually but you've made me feel less alone. thank you. i'm at a place in my life right now where im stuck and lost and you've given me a bit of hope and i know we can power through this. i don't know where you stand in your beliefs in God but i am a firm believer that He will see us through these hard times (i hope i don't sound too preachy). you're strong and beautiful and i hope september treated you amazingly and that october will bring more light into your life.
"The fog in my head THRIVES off of lack of direction, and purpose and motivation" .... YESSSSS... SOOOO much THIS :-( I feel that too... I feel like I can't keep up with my goals...
cheyenne, you are not alone. every word you said in this is a thought i've had in my own head. your life will be as beautiful and fulfilling as you want it to be. it all just takes time. your future will only better when you work to make the present better now. you can overcome all of this. i wish you the best of luck.
oh cheyenne! just look at how many people are here for you, even if they've never met you. i have felt EVERY SINGLE FEELING you're going through. i want to be a musician, i want to make, draw, journal, create and inspire and just live a life of art, and whenever i look at myself and where i am and how old i am i just freak out because i'm not where i want to be, and there are so many people who are *that one step ahead*, and it kills me. please enjoy seattle, please love love love seattle, because i moved from idyllic scotland to london, the hub of music in the uk, but this city is huge and claustrophobic and so, so expensive, and every anxiety i've ever had has crept up on me while living here. enjoy the beautiful green-ness of seattle, enjoy the quietness, enjoy the open air and enjoy the pace of it. you have a beautiful face and a beautiful place to live and an audience here who will applaud and listen to everything you do. much love.
feeling so many of these feels right now, particularly hating being bad at things. oh my gosh. I'm 20 and have had three driving lessons in my life because I HATE the fact that I'm not already a perfect driver and it's so irrational yet so overwhelming and oh man everything really is a lot.. but just as you said to us, you're so, so capable of greatness and deserving of all the wonderful things you can already acknowledge you have and more. and can I just say, it takes so much courage and maturity to even be living alone in the first place, let alone moving across the country away from those you love, and staying, if that's what you choose to do, will likely be huge for your growth and could lead to opportunities you dont even know you want yet. or, you could choose to move to new york and find growth in the discomfort you feel there. it may be a hard choice to make but I honestly believe there's good waiting for you regardless of which road you take. I hope choosing that path becomes a little easier for you and the fog starts to clear. we should both follow your friend seth's example and just take things as they are and as they come. wishing you the best cheyenne xx
You are such a sweet person, I'm truly sorry that you are going through all this heartache to find a solid path, but like you said nothing is permanent and change should be welcomed, so drink a lot of tea and that you time sweets, I'm sure you'll be fine cause you are great! ❤️
All of this is how I feel right now. I'm about to enter my final, and fifth, year of undergrad and I have to figure out what I'm doing next. I want to act as well, and I'm afraid of choosing a place that I won't thrive in for grad school. But my therapist was really helpful. I would tell her that my soul broke out in hives every time I thought about moving to New York. And sometimes it still does. And I'm sorry if yours does too. But I truly believe that opportunities are less about where you are, and more about who you surround yourself with. There might be an artist commune or a group of filmmakers in your area. There may be workshops for new plays through local universities and their grad programs looking for actors, and that could lead to something. I get the fog too, and you aren't alone. I'm sorry if this was rambly. But you're lovely, and your channel and instagram make me feel like I'm not alone. And I'm deeply grateful for that.
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Thank you so much for your words. I have been watching your current videos so much and I am so inspired to create and share my art and process. But I have been in a very depressed funk since this last December and I can't shake it. I feel as though I've lost my touch with what I love and where I live, I cant even call a home because of how much discomfort it brings me. Seeing you now and going back and seeing where you come from.. I have hope for me as a life. Windows are what I wish for since I only have one.. but I know now it will get better I need to take it one second at a time. Thank you so much again for sharing this
I'm so in love with you. Like... the YOU you show in your videos. The raw reality that you present is so touching and I can see and feel myself in your footsteps. Don't ever feel alone in your thoughts because I and many others are on somewhat the same road to the dream future, tripping over obstacles again and again and again. Sometimes I feel like just giving up, but seeing people like you who inspire me, and knowing that even YOU have these days of doom... it only makes me want to reach out and say: WE WILL GET THERE... together, somehow, some day. WE. WILL.
Khaenine preach.