Linda, I must be totally honest with you. Six months ago, deeply insecure and surrounded by ED, I did click on your video only because of a clickbait looking for next 'wight loss tips'. You actually did trick me into watching it, and thank God! because it changed my mindset forever and started my recovery. At that time I thought to myself (or I should rather say my ED suggested that thought).. 'No wonder she looks like that if she eats like that'. Then very slowly, video by video, I've realised how much I'm missing out. How much freedom you have. Imagine how I treated myself if I criticised you so badly in my mind. How deep I was in my ED. Perceiving wrong, not only myself, but also people around... I am really glad I have changed, thanks to you. Since very long time today I've enjoyed delicious ramen without counting, guilt and restricting afterwards. I know you make people understand. Keep doing that, spreading awareness, love, self compassion. And thank you
Completely agree with every word you said. Linda has changed my toxic mindset about food & fitness and helped me with my ED and body dysmorphia. I couldn't be more grateful.
I never had an eating disorder, but I am a cancer survivor. During my treatment I lost all my weight, all my muscle, started to hate food because of the way it made me feel due to the chemo. you helped me realize that im fully capable of gaining muscle back, and im allowed to not eat healthy all the time. When I started coming back from the hardest parts of treatment, I convinced myself that I would ruin my health if I had a cookie, if I had a bag of microwave popcorn. when in reality, none of that is true. your videos are helping me to return to that strong, happy, carb loving girl that I was before. youre helping me to remember the thrill of working out. I truly cannot thank you enough Linda.
The ending comment, “to all the Chinese parents who called me strong, thank you. Because I am strong & strong is beautiful”. A real tear-jerker! Thank you for spreading your light on this platform✨✨
“words can’t even describe how hard recovery is” it’s. so. damn. hard. especially when no one has a single clue what ur going through. hearing the comments people make about what ur eating and having to remind urself they don’t know what you went through. watching everyone not eat lunch and talk and how they never eat. it’s truly the hardest thing i’ve ever experienced and each time i relapse my mental health and binging/obsession w food and calories gets worse. i wish i never experienced this.
You and Linda are literally the ones who helped me recover from an ed and build back my relationship with food! Love you two so much, you don’t know how grateful I am for you guys, your content changes lives!
Linda, holy fuck, I’ve cried for 22 minutes straight. You are such a light for so many people in such dark times. You have a whole galaxy that’s shining so hard inside ofyou and is teaching others to make their lil cosmos shine as well. And that’s so impressive. Thank you for the words I didn’t know I needed so deeply. Love you from Italy
As a Chinese born and raised chubby child and stumbled her way into adulthood riddled with eating disorder and body dysmorphia, you represent so many of us, thank you for making this video Linda!
I got goosebumps while heard your story. Honestly i feel that in different case. Eating disorder and body dysmorphia haunted me for the past 3 years. I really wanted to go out of it. But every time I try, I make plan, I fail it a bit, and then I ruined it all, and repeat. This got me realized that I don't listen to myself. I'll try to find a way to reach my goal which is to lived my life. The ending made me cry. Thanks for sharing this, sis❤
there was a line someone said ages ago and still holds a special place in my heart it says: if everyone, every single bloody person on the face of this planet, ate the same, exercised the same, we would still look different. And that quote still to this day gave me a whole different perspective to body image than the media could ever do. You do you Linda! x
The only RUclipsr who can give me chills with her editing! Honestly im glad you mentioned the part about how hard you work on your video because WE CAN DEFINITELY TELL !! The editing and storytelling of all your videos are all soooo impressive, from the effect you use, to the font and the music EVERYTHING is always so beautiful and i truly love it
I relate so much to the "too tired to live" feeling. I remember having a strict schedule like that too and repeating it everyday to maintain a sense of control. Same with feeling so cold all the time and wearing layers. Losing hair too. Recovery is hard. My lowest weight was 86 lbs, and now I'm back up to 105. I'm still working on it and I struggle sometimes, but I am also falling in love with life again. I look forward to meals, and I have a much healthier diet. I still have hard days and relapse slightly, but I've been pretty good about making sure I feed myself a proper amount of food and not overexercising because it's not worth ruining my own life and relationships with others.
I’m over here shedding tears because a lot of what you have mentioned I also felt as a kid as well. But I am so so so happy you found the courage and strength to open up about everything you’ve been feeling and dealing with. 💖 You are truly an amazing and inspirational. And you will always deserve to be loved and we as the community you built will always be here to support you! I hope you can move forward loving yourself, loving body, and really enjoying life Linda!❤️
I’m 37 and I’ve always struggled with my body image, growing up in the 90s/early 2000s when heroin chic skinny was the standard, and Xtina and Britney were considered “fat” until they reach skeletal status…it’s been a long journey for me to be ok with a belly, big boobs, and thighs that touch. I just hope I can teach my daughter that she’s more than her body and not spend her whole life chasing the perfect body, and just be in love with HER perfect body. I don’t want her to not love herself until she’s 37.
Damn! That's so sad... I thought life would get better as you get older/wiser🤦🏽♀💔 imagine being in your 70s and still struggling with food, that's not a good life
Honestly I found Linda due to her clickbait videos/ titles and when I clicked I was indeed met with a strong and sweet girl who explained to me why I shouldn’t restrict nor over exercise to be “pretty” and honestly thank you for that 💜
Thanks so much for sharing your story. I'm grateful for RUclips because we have voices like yours sharing stories like these to help young impressionable people.
linda!! when you said, "no wonder i've never been truly happy with myself, because i've never let myself be." - that really resonated with me. you're a shining light!
i remember clicking on her videos years ago because of the clickbait thinking it would be my way to get skinnier, i'm so glad that the actual content was not about losing weight and getting thinner, definitely saved me from myself :):):):):):)
This was such an inspiring story. The struggle is real for second generation immigrants to feel at home anywhere but I'm so glad you've been able to embrace yours
I cried watching this in the Subway. I‘ve been struggling with an ED for the past 10 years and just 22 minutes ago I didn‘t really want to recover (because weight gain seems like the enemy). Thank you so much ❤
i'm crying so hard, picturing sweet baby 7 year old linda not feeling good enough in today's society makes me want to give her the biggest hug. i'm so proud of you and how far you've come! love you always, linda ❤️
maybe u won't see it, but this makes me cry. I've been struggling in eating disorder for a long time and that one person that brought my life back is YOU. despite my parent does not understand all these and all the struggles I've been throughout my whole life. i couldn't thank you much more for all the things i have actually gained back. i found ur youtube channel at oct 2020 and i can't believe I've watched every single of ur video and found my confidence, happiness, and all that. U actually saved lots of ppl's life and i don't even know how to thank you back. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING U'VE DONE
"I'll never have this version of myself so let me slow down and be with her " -someone That's something Linda said and got me thinking everything I want to starve myself to loose weight faster, for my birthday party that coming up. But then I get reminded of Linda and if she was my friend she would comfort me and talk to me and say "you're not gonna die if you eat that, you'll just feel happy". Linda's messages alwyas bring me joy. So thank you for that Linda.❤️ 🥲💖
Im Taiwanese- spent the last 21 years if my life being called 壯 and hating the word more than anything. Literally started crying when you said ppl call us “strong” and how messed up it is. I didn’t necessarily grow up in an environment where no one looked like me, but I relate to the consistent paralyzing fear and shame of not being enough in my community. Thank you for sharing your story, and I’m so proud of baby you (and baby me) for growing up beautiful and loving and STRONG inside and out despite all that has happened! You are a diamond in this world :) 加油！
I just read Linda’s Instagram stories today and only one thing I would like her to do is read her comments on this videos. So sorry people throw hate on internet it’s very harsh. She is literally so inspiring, living the life she always wanted to and we as audience are no one to throw hate for this beautiful human being. I am so glad I watched your videos and saved myself from toxic diet culture and I hope all the 15 to 20 year old girls learn something from your videos , cause we are never thought to appreciate our body enough . Thank you Linda from bottom of my heart.
Growing up as a chubby kid, losing weight during teens, and gaining weight again in adulthood because of PCOS and lifestyle really taught me that society still does judge people based on looks/weight. I somehow believe I have body image issues and I never liked the way how my body looks. Nonetheless I am now slowly accepting who I am and I am regularly working out to feel strong, and not to look a certain way.
so proud of you for sharing, I really need this right now after struggling with my relationship with food since quarantine started. As a second-gen Chinese-American in a household that prioritizes "eating healthy", I can really relate to your struggles with both your identity and relationship with food. Seeing how your relationship with food has healed gives me the courage to confront my fears. sending lots of love 💖
Hey Linda, Your story is one that I needed to hear right now. I'm 16 and in high school and as I'm sure you know, high school isn't always the best because EVERYONE is trying to look their best and being the "prettiest" girl around. Honestly when I was younger, I didn't think high school would be like this. As a kid growing up, I never cared about weight, about how much calories is in something, what's the latest beauty standard or anything cause in my family we didn't really care about how other perceived how we looked and we would often eat a lot and I enjoyed that about my family. I loved sports and being active, eating and LAUGHING. But when I came to high school, the standard was so much different, tall, skinny girls was the beauty standard, everyone wanted to be friends with them, they were popular. Also the thing you said about not eating at lunch is SO true. I used to be the only girl in my friend group that would sit with a lunch box packed to the brim with favs, with my fav soda and they wouldn't have anything, like only WATER. And that made me feel so self conscious about myself. Cause I was the only short, slightly chubby one among them. Then Covid happened, I ate like nobody's business, didn't exercise and just spiralled out of control. Then school started and it was like I was the ONLY one that gained weight and looked .. different. I entered a phase in my life where I just didn't eat at all, I would cry , get angry at my mother for offering me food, I couldn't SLEEP but I was so tired, I exercised like crazy. Doing diets that would help me lose weight fast and just HATING that my fat thighs and cheeks wouldn't go away. I started wishing I was someone else , anyone else. Then one night, I came across a song called Epiphany by Jin of BTS and the words spoke to me, I just had a mental breakdown and that night my mother sat down with me and we talked the whole night about what I was feeling and what I was going through and how I carried inside of me. It was ... freeing in a sense cause here was the woman who gave birth to me, who lived longer than me and probably had to go through similar things like me and she accepted me. She didn't see my WEIGHT, she saw my WORTH. Her words to me was, "Why you worried about that? When you get old like me, your body wont look like that. You would have wasted your life on a body that is constantly changing instead of focusing on your happiness. Your happiness and your dignity is the things that will be with you when you are older. Not your body type. So don't worry about that. You are perfect because you are constantly changing and there is nothing more beautiful than change." Those words really gave me the strength that I needed to start accepting myself again and learning about myself again. Honestly like you said it isn't easy but it wasn't impossible. And your video just made me feel thankful because you reaffirmed my beliefs and I couldn't be happier. I'm so glad you exist. (Sorry this is SO long)
Wow I don’t even know what to say but I know I’m so proud of you for being so open about this. I know it couldn’t have been easy but your strength with only empower and inspire others. You’re incredible 🙏🏽💛
I don't know how to word this, but this video shed so much light on me. Making me acknowledge my own ED. Though getting validation from others is not right, the ex I dated when I was 15 tends to say I'm overweight, I need to lose it even though I was only 99lbs(45kg) while I was already am suffering from ED but hearing that made it worse, from skipping lunch I started to skip breakfast as well while binge eating at dinner because I was so hungry. It became even worse when I found out I gained 6lbs, I was scared that he would shame me even more so I tried everything to lose it before the yearly health check at the school and I did, I lost 6lbs in a WEEK but even after that I wasn't satisfied I continued to lose more and more. Until 1 year later he left me after 6 months of ghosting, devastated everyday went as a blur, I forgot how to live, I was either binge eating or starving my guts off while wanting to lose more weight getting more toned to make him regret leaving me. I then went through another relationship to another relationship, until my current bf, who was one of my best friends at the time had enough of me sulking over the ex who shamed me, he couldn't take me getting into anymore relationships for validations After we started dating which was in 2020 when covid was going strong, he full out forced me to eat, and if I didn't he would starve alongside me until I ate. Introducing the foods that had long left my life back, making me fall back in love with it again all the while trying to show me how beautiful I was in his eyes and let's just say I gained 20lbs in almost 2 years of dating him and I'm happier than before. Though I still struggle with food this this day, but I don't shy away anymore, I don't antagonise food as much. But I'm still quite self conscious because all of his female friends are all goddesses, tall, slim yet still curvaceous while I'm technically average in height, though my current weight for my height is less than ideal. However now I'm trying not to go back to my old ways, by starving and exercising while I'm starving, I'm trying to live a more healthier lifestyle in general, now I'm just hoping it works and I stay that way
I started watching you when RUclips randomly recommend your channel during lockdown and you were working out with your family and I fell in love. Your honesty your transparency and genuinely enjoying what you do travelling, food, working out & seeing how strong you’re becoming & your family supporting you but also not glamorising anything and being unapologetically you. It’s very hard to be so open especially online with so much criticism but you have inspired so many people just by being you. Without even realising, your voice has impacted so many. Thank you x
This is hands down the best video I've seen in my entire life. Having suffered from anorexia myself between the age of 15 to 17 I recognised myself in every single word you said. Thank you Linda, you're amazing.
I am 14, I grew up in a Chinese family too and I found this extremely relatable. When we moved overseas, my diet had changed, and soon after a few years I had put on some weight. I remember my mom would look at my butt and my waistline and my stretch marks and call me fat and overweight (I was 52 kg at 163cm, and the Chinese “beauty standard” was to be 45 - 49 kg at that height). She would try to put me on diets, and limit how much I eat each day. It has changed a bit now, my mom is making less of the harsh remarks and not limiting my diet as much. However, Linda was the one who truly made me feel more confident and help me during this time and taught me that my body is mine to love and it is okay to be “different to others”, because this is actually the real normal. Thank you Linda. Thank you so much.
I’m sobbing. I’ve never in my life felt like anybody has ever understood how I feel or think or why I am the way I am. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t enough for anybody let alone myself. I started high school and that’s when my body dysmorphia really started I was told I was to small too big too flat too pale too quite too loud too girly. I felt inferior to everyone around me I felt like I deserved those mean comments that I deserved to feel the way I did. I started emotional eating and then not eating and then anxiety took over my life. I couldn’t function my grades were slipping my weight was decreasing then increasing and I had the worst relationship with my family I was so consumed in the comments. I was so anxious and absolutely terrified to walk into the school building because I didn’t want people to be looking at me they weren’t but in my brain that’s what I was thinking that everyone was staring and judging. I change the way I did my hair the way I did my make up how I dressed how I walked the way I talked to fit in to be excepted so much so to the point that I didn’t know who I was anymore. And I still catch myself trying to limit food and telling myself I have to workout not because I want to I don’t wanna punish my body I don’t wanna punish myself but those comments those pictures run through my head those memories and it’s like I’m back there again. It’s crazy how one little comment could completely destroy the way that you see yourself and the way that you live your life. That’s what the past 4+ years have been like for me I was so consumed with what I looked like and how others saw me that I forgot to live. I have a hard time going out not not wearing make up or looking in the mirror and contorting my body wondering if the person that I’m talking to right now is looking at my insecurities and judging me whether they really want to be talking to me. But Linda is so open with us so honest so unbelievably relatable she is my safe place I’ve never felt understood but it’s like Linda understands me she doesn’t know me she hasn’t met me but she understands me she makes me feel heard she makes me feel valid and for that I don’t even have the words I can’t even thank her enough. I’m on the journey of teaching myself it’s OK to eat the cookie it’s OK not to do your hair you don’t have to have “eyebrows” to be pretty that I can work out to better myself without wanting to change myself you’re perfect just the way you are you are enough. Thank Linda for this video and all your videos they always open my eyes and touch my heart. I’m going to continue to try and tell myself that it’s OK to be me💕
You're so strong. I had the same experience too. It's hard, but we're so much stronger. I totally relate to Linda too. I forgot to live my life. What helps me is doing what I enjoy that I don't have time for these negative conceptions.
Wow, I didn't imagine you passed through all that. You're stronger than you know. Thanks for the video, it will help me a lot!!! I've been inspired by you, every time I think of skipping a meal I remember you. Thank you for all you've been doing. You're a magical human!!!
I'm so proud of you for how much self love you've found! I'm 6 years older than you and just relapsed in my eating disorder this month for the first time in 8 years. This video was exactly what I needed right now as I'm rededicating myself to recovery, strength in vulnerability, and self-love over perfection. The road isn't easy, but it's worth it. Sending so much love and positive energy your way, thank you for creating
Thank you SO MUCH LINDA. As I watched this video I was able to relate to you so well. Being Asian and loving food so much somehow made me hate my body. It was only until recently when I started therapy and went to a dietitian appointment when I figured out I wasn’t healthy. That’s when I found you. You helped my health, my relationships, my happiness and most of all my confidence. While there are still days I get mad at myself for eating just one more bite, there are now much less times to feel guilty for putting a single calorie into my body. I have so much more to learn but you have helped me so so so much and I can’t describe how much you’ve changed my life. Never stop inspiring and your videos are not just motivation to live a healthy lifestyle but also motivation to keep going and to live life! I love you SO MUCH!
as a colombian girl who was chubby n overweight her whole life till now learning to love myself Linda represented what i was going through as well im happy to find someone to feel the same and to make me learn to love myself and food and not to be scared of the scale thank you lots of love to you linda!🥰
i'm LITERALLY sobbing i can't stop crying didn't think that hearing my thoghts out loud would affect me this much. but knowing that someone actually knows how i feel and think feels great and i'm so proud of you Linda ily
hearing you talk about how you would hold your hand under the dyers at school reminds me of when my family was on a ski trip and i was sobbing because even through all of my layers i couldn’t move, couldn’t think i was so cold. i continued to cry at lunch over a salmon burger, fries, and protein bar, and cry even more because i didn’t have the strength to go down the mountain i had done so many times before because i just wasn’t. eating. precious memories man 🥲
I cried my eyes out hearing about what you were dealing with around that time of your life because it’s literally exactly the same as what I’m going through right now and it’s just SO hard, so though to let go, I’m losing myself and everyone around me, wanting to recover so bad but unable to let myself go… Thank you so much for sharing your whole story, you inspire us literally so much! Hope one day I can let go of these habits and recover for good ❤️
exactly, the feeling of "wanting to recover but cannot" is the WORST !!!!! i dont know either how i'll ever feel good seeing food or feel genuinely happy after eating something but i really want to, one day... i am losing everything to keep this one thing with me but i just cannot stop. its so hard, i know it is but know that you are doing so well and i am so proud of you... one day, you will feel that you do deserve food and you deserve to eat everything you want to without feeling guilty about it. please dont lose yourself, you are too precious to hurt your body... i love you 💗
@@archismitachaudhury3698 oh my god thank you so much for this you’re such a precious human being and i love you too 😭🫶💓 it’s a long journey but i truly believe things will turn out for the best!
Hi, Maria Luisa, just wanted to say: you're so brave for even writing this comment and for recognising what is not going as you wish. I hope to start my "recovery" soon too, but wanted to share that it already feels so much easier to speak up about this with your doctor and specialist. I haven't started anything yet, but boy, does it help to get it out of your head. It's no one's fault, just like other conditions, and even though eating disorders always carry an enormous amount of guilt, please just be aware that it's not coming from you but it's coming from IT. Sending you lots of strength ♥️ and hope you find people along the way who will support you 🤗
I am a 14 year old teen and was in the same stage as you I just didn’t know what is the goal of my life I just don’t want to wake up next day but when my parents start noticing me they made me feel different and started supporting me and now I am in my healing stage so proud of myself that I am starting to feel myself again! Lots of love
I’m so happy. As a chinese as well, I find so much solidarity watching this,, and that I’m not the only one who went through/is going through this same thing. And I feel like I can just enjoy my life now ☺️
Oh my god I'm literally crying. I'm definitely not at that point of self acceptance yet, one day hope to be there but I definitely appreciate you telling your story! Amazing!
I've found myself in your story (I'm writing this as a 45(!) yo European with two children, who is constantly learning from you...) It was very touching and inspiring. Thank you Linda! ❤️
The past few months I’ve been trying to recover from an ED. You are truly inspiring and I’m not exaggerating when I say this video has changed the way I think. It’s videos like this that make me remember that there are good people all around you if you just look for them. I’m literally crying as I write this; not because I’m sad but because I feel an overwhelming sense of relief. So from the bottom of my heart, Thank you❤
I started watching your videos without even realizing i had ED, i watched them while doing hours of treadmill and elliptical after skipping lunch. I remember the first time i cired watching one, because i realized what i was doing. It's now been while and i wouldn't say that I completey healed but i'm trying, and if i'm doing it it's because you helped me so much. I will forever be grateful to have watched that one firsti video. ly sm
i am so proud of you, never got to thank you for helping me going through recovery last year, i am super inspired by you. i’ve relapsed, and i hate it, but i believe one day i’ll fully accept myself too. you’re amazing, truly!
Hey Linda! I don't remember exactly how I ended up in your channel a couple of months ago but I stayed not because of your body, what you eat, how much you exercise. I stayed because I LOVED how you tell your stories. The editing, the script, the text, the shots, the music, everything. Your dedication shows and I'm not sure if you know how great of a producer/writer/director you are. And that's all you. Be really proud of that. I'm really sad to see all you have been through from such a young age and happy to see how much love your family has for you and how they've helped you. I would never guess you're only 21, and I can't even imagine how many great things you'll live and achieve. I hope you keep sharing and I would love to keep following in here. You're loved, you're strong, and you're beautiful. PS: I'm Brazilian and Linda means "gorgeous" in Portuguese. Even your name says how beautiful you are, in and out.
I teared up while watching this because despite being from a different culture, race, ethnicity, I related so much to things like sly comments, self punishment, a bad relationship with food and overall not living life due to feeling trapped in a world of unrealistic goals and beauty standards. I love your videos so much Linda and I wanted to thank you for making me smile and giving me motivation when I need it. I hope you and anyone else reading know your beautiful and amazing just the way you are. Have a good day/night!!
Lindaaaaaaa, you have no freaking idea how much you have played a role in my confidence in myself! I lost like all of my confidence in middle school because of all the negativity around me and my excessive need to people please, but ever since I saw your channel years ago, I've really been able to regain so much of that confidence back so now the negativity doesn't hurt so bad because I'm so much more secure in myself! Obviously I still cry when my mom gets disappointed in me or when my siblings call me ADD, but I can pretty much just pep talk myself and I'll remember that it's MY opinion of myself that matters, and only I know how hard I work 😊
"i'd put living on hold until i got the right body". this video is ten months old but found me when i needed it. i have been doing this and i need to stop. thank you for so quickly becoming such a massive inspiration and positive influence.
God, when you mentioned your confusion of different ideals from different countries made me so emotional. I've never been more tormented by my brain thinking I need to be super fit and toned OR either super slim. Then suddenly in my secondary school the curvy look came out and I fit in BUT was still told by my colleagues I would look a bit better skinnier in clothes because I'm white... I only got better mentally when I got older and didn't bother being in a big group of friends. More breathing space for my brain
Thank you so much. I found your channel this week and it has been such a light in my life! I went through a similar experience growing up, and I'm now a registered dietitian! But every day is a struggle to find balance, mostly mentally. Your videos have changed my mindset around food so much and I couldn't be more thankful. I'm blown away by how real you are and how vulnerable you're willing to be to help people. You're brave and I'm so thankful for you. Everything to do with body image is a chaotic mess. Health is what's important! Eating for health but also eating for happiness and finding that balance. You inspire me to live a more free life. 😊🦋❤️
I feel as though this video will be one to get me through all the bad days to come. I am so incredibly proud of the person you were, are and will be. You've gotten me through hell so many times, and I will never be able to thank you enough. You are so incredibly amazing for being you. Thank you for letting yourself be happy.
omggg your words made me cried bc all you told was a sort of a reflect of my own experience with my body: overweight child, want to fit in the beauty standards, eating disorder (anorexia), recovery, body dismorphia, trying now to love myself no matter how I look.. I can’t said I’m totally recovered but everyday I try more and more to not allowed anymore those things to make me feel bad about myself bc we are so much more than just a body and life is so short to waist all the time we have in complaining about things we can’t even control!! So thank you so much for this 🙏 You said so many things that I still try to deny to myself and thank to you I may will put even more effort to accept the person I am. Very grateful
This actually made me cry with relief. I am a 33-year-old woman who has, for most of her life, been caught up in a similar vicious mental cycle. Thank you for sharing! I feel so relieved and can’t wait to just eat without worrying about how much it is, how many calories the next meal might be worth, and not being so hyper focused on food, and instead just live life. Thank you so much Linda.
Thank you so much for opening up like this, literally crying as I can relate to so many pieces of your journey and hope to find the body acceptance that you have.
I am so happy that I found this channel. I am in soobing ovete here, because I needed to hear all of that to move forward in my very-very similar life. Thank you!
Thank you Linda for being like the long lost friend that I so needed back in primary and secondary school. Thank you for being there for us all now and for many more stronger days to come!!!
I went through the physical recovery for my eating disorder a few years ago, but still find myself falling back into similar thoughts I had all those years ago. Now, whenever that mindset feels like it's resurfacing, I just go to your channel and watch your most recent videos. Many people on social media have fuelled my destructive habits, but others like you have quite literally saved my life.
"Strength" I never knew a single word could hold so much power. Thank you for making us stronger by sharing your own story. I can only imagine how scary or nervous you must feel posting this video, you are incredibly brave and I only wish that your journey continues to allow beautiful things in your life to flourish.
linda, I honestly love you so much. Im also a first generation chinese american and I got out of ed hospitilization this year and seeing this video is so refreshing. Its so hard to find influencers and role models that look like me and have the same struggles as me, I honestly never knew that I would even find somebody like that; thank you for being such an amazing inspiritaiton. I have always felt so alone but you show me that im not. ILY
I just love your videos so much! You really helped me recover from my postpartum eating disorder. One year, marital separation and single parenting later and here you are again reminding me that I am strong and beautiful and my body does amazing things, I brought a whole human into the world. thanks for reminding me that I am not a number on the scale, I'm not a size in a clothing store. I'm a mother, a sister, an aunty, a friend. I am a queen and I deserve to be treated like one. Thank you for not giving up on yourself
I just want to say that I am also Chinese, growing up in the US and I’m currently 20. I am so surprised how similar my childhood story is to yours. The too big, the number deciding when I can eat, I hated being Asian, I did everything possible to be more ‘white’. It still affects me to this day and I still can’t accept who I am
I have never watched a RUclips video this unbelievably inspirational and truthful. I love your videos so much. You kind of saved me from my eating disorder about 2 years ago when I randomly clicked on one of your videos. Ever since then, I have been working out, getting stronger, eating whatever my heart tells me to, and living my best life free of restriction. You are amazing and thank you so much for being here.
It's insane how much our image of our own looks can differ from other's image of us. I've always thought you were sooo beautiful and even in your teenage pics you look stunning to me. It's so sad, how our body image can ruin our lives, when it's literally so wrong.
Damn near cried. Resonated with the eating disorder experience to a scary degree (except I'm still in it). Your experience seems too good to be true, sometimes. Your recovery and current life, I mean. This comment is all over the place because I'm emotional but appreciate you and your content a lot
I actually found you through clickbate, I was just SO curious how ice cream and cookies could be part of a diet. I am forever thankful, I've learned how to be strong enough to ignore all the voices that tell me to feel guilty over enjoying a cookie, and that exercise and food is something to be enjoyed, not something Im forced to do because im fat
when you mentioned playing basketball and not being able to run, it like hit me like a train. I was never small, but for most of my life I've been more muscular than everybody in my class. But in 6th grade, my depression and anxiety reached the highest peak ever, and coming from someone who remembers being anxious and sad since preschool that means a lot. And sometimes when i'd stand up my legs were to weak to carry me, or had tensed up so much that standing up was the most excruciating pain I've ever felt. My deepest fear is my legs being weak, having to be in a wheelchair, or feeling the pain I did. So now when I workout, it's too gain muscle while loosing weight, when I eat I don't stress eat like I used too, or diet excessively, I think about what will sustain me. Thanks for this video! Love u
You're beautiful or not beautiful , strong or not strong, healthy or not healthy, confident or not confident, fit or not fit. You are all of these on somedays or everyday. But you're you. Period! Inspiring and influential as ever! Love you so so much!!! Thank you for being there for so many of us!
Linda I was literally pouring out tears while watching this video , it reminds me my ed days as well. Glad both of us recovered ! You are an inspiration Linda hope to see more of your videos in the future ^^
From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for opening up bc I would have never realized the same habits I thought were healthy were actually hurting me. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me so much
I feel like we lived through the same experience 😢 Growing up half Taiwanese and half white, I always felt like an outsider. I think I finally accepted myself in high school. By then, I had met other biracial individuals and realized that I was never a mistake ❤
your one of the most inspirational people to me, i’ve had a bad relationship with food for as long as i can remember because of sports, cheer and the standards of being the smallest you can and looking like everyone else when i was 9 and even now. i work everyday to have a better relationship with food and it’s difficult but you inspire me to do my best and realizing there will always be bumps in the road but it does get better helps. i’ve been struggling lately but i just try to remember there’s others that have gone through this and get out of the mindset. i’m so glad i’ve stumbled on your videos again. i had a breakdown today because of comparing myself to others but i remember i’m the only me and i cant change the way my body will look because a lot of it is genetics and it’s me and i’m learning to love that.
Oh WELL, i am a german Chinese and 22 Years old and I also struggle so so much…but this always reminds me that I can unlearn things and behaviors. I can love myself. I can achieve my dreams and that I am loved. I deserve happiness and being free from my mind. And so do u Thank you Linda for being so so honest with us 😭💘💘💘
WHEN SHE SAID " I put living on hold until I got the right body " I FELT THAT.
Same, especially when you're also struggling with ED...
I’ve been doing that for the past 8 years…. When she said that I feel like I got slapped in the face
Know this from my experience …😔
same :(
That was my life since I was 13.I learned how to be ok with food at 46.Still a work in progress at 48.
Linda, I must be totally honest with you. Six months ago, deeply insecure and surrounded by ED, I did click on your video only because of a clickbait looking for next 'wight loss tips'. You actually did trick me into watching it, and thank God! because it changed my mindset forever and started my recovery. At that time I thought to myself (or I should rather say my ED suggested that thought).. 'No wonder she looks like that if she eats like that'. Then very slowly, video by video, I've realised how much I'm missing out. How much freedom you have. Imagine how I treated myself if I criticised you so badly in my mind. How deep I was in my ED. Perceiving wrong, not only myself, but also people around... I am really glad I have changed, thanks to you. Since very long time today I've enjoyed delicious ramen without counting, guilt and restricting afterwards. I know you make people understand. Keep doing that, spreading awareness, love, self compassion. And thank you
Completely agree with every word you said. Linda has changed my toxic mindset about food & fitness and helped me with my ED and body dysmorphia. I couldn't be more grateful.
that’s amazing!
That was literally me my ED made my life so miserable
You look beautiful no matter what you look like
Can you update me 🙃
How’s recovery? How long has it taken? Do you feel better?
I never had an eating disorder, but I am a cancer survivor. During my treatment I lost all my weight, all my muscle, started to hate food because of the way it made me feel due to the chemo. you helped me realize that im fully capable of gaining muscle back, and im allowed to not eat healthy all the time. When I started coming back from the hardest parts of treatment, I convinced myself that I would ruin my health if I had a cookie, if I had a bag of microwave popcorn. when in reality, none of that is true. your videos are helping me to return to that strong, happy, carb loving girl that I was before. youre helping me to remember the thrill of working out. I truly cannot thank you enough Linda.
The ending comment, “to all the Chinese parents who called me strong, thank you. Because I am strong & strong is beautiful”. A real tear-jerker!
Thank you for spreading your light on this platform✨✨
😭🥺 i cried and she is honestly a God given Gift❤️ thank you linda
“words can’t even describe how hard recovery is” it’s. so. damn. hard. especially when no one has a single clue what ur going through. hearing the comments people make about what ur eating and having to remind urself they don’t know what you went through. watching everyone not eat lunch and talk and how they never eat. it’s truly the hardest thing i’ve ever experienced and each time i relapse my mental health and binging/obsession w food and calories gets worse. i wish i never experienced this.
SO SO PROUD OF YOU!
Your my icon!!
❤️
You and Linda are literally the ones who helped me recover from an ed and build back my relationship with food! Love you two so much, you don’t know how grateful I am for you guys, your content changes lives!
So proud to both of you 😍
@@sihamsheikh4154 you're
Linda, holy fuck, I’ve cried for 22 minutes straight. You are such a light for so many people in such dark times. You have a whole galaxy that’s shining so hard inside ofyou and is teaching others to make their lil cosmos shine as well. And that’s so impressive. Thank you for the words I didn’t know I needed so deeply. Love you from Italy
As a Chinese born and raised chubby child and stumbled her way into adulthood riddled with eating disorder and body dysmorphia, you represent so many of us, thank you for making this video Linda!
Yes!!! I’m Chinese too! Thank you Linda this was so relatable
Genuine question: why are there many chinese mukbangers who are really skinny? How do they do that?
I got goosebumps while heard your story. Honestly i feel that in different case. Eating disorder and body dysmorphia haunted me for the past 3 years. I really wanted to go out of it. But every time I try, I make plan, I fail it a bit, and then I ruined it all, and repeat. This got me realized that I don't listen to myself. I'll try to find a way to reach my goal which is to lived my life. The ending made me cry. Thanks for sharing this, sis❤
God wanted me to tell you that you are not alone. You are known, you are here, and you are loved. Please, just know that you are loved.
God, I'm crying. I've been dealing with an eating disorder for most of my life and I always find comfort in your videos. Please, keep being you 💖
Yeeeahhh
Same😢
I’m so glad that you have opened up about these topics. It helps a lot of people including me 🤍 So proud of you
I completely agree with you🤗🤗
there was a line someone said ages ago and still holds a special place in my heart it says: if everyone, every single bloody person on the face of this planet, ate the same, exercised the same, we would still look different.
And that quote still to this day gave me a whole different perspective to body image than the media could ever do. You do you Linda! x
The only RUclipsr who can give me chills with her editing! Honestly im glad you mentioned the part about how hard you work on your video because WE CAN DEFINITELY TELL !! The editing and storytelling of all your videos are all soooo impressive, from the effect you use, to the font and the music EVERYTHING is always so beautiful and i truly love it
YES
I relate so much to the "too tired to live" feeling. I remember having a strict schedule like that too and repeating it everyday to maintain a sense of control. Same with feeling so cold all the time and wearing layers. Losing hair too. Recovery is hard. My lowest weight was 86 lbs, and now I'm back up to 105. I'm still working on it and I struggle sometimes, but I am also falling in love with life again. I look forward to meals, and I have a much healthier diet. I still have hard days and relapse slightly, but I've been pretty good about making sure I feed myself a proper amount of food and not overexercising because it's not worth ruining my own life and relationships with others.
okay let's not comment our lowest weights.
@@jacklyndoyne8565they’re just sharing their story what’s wrong with that
I’m over here shedding tears because a lot of what you have mentioned I also felt as a kid as well. But I am so so so happy you found the courage and strength to open up about everything you’ve been feeling and dealing with. 💖 You are truly an amazing and inspirational. And you will always deserve to be loved and we as the community you built will always be here to support you! I hope you can move forward loving yourself, loving body, and really enjoying life Linda!❤️
I’m 37 and I’ve always struggled with my body image, growing up in the 90s/early 2000s when heroin chic skinny was the standard, and Xtina and Britney were considered “fat” until they reach skeletal status…it’s been a long journey for me to be ok with a belly, big boobs, and thighs that touch. I just hope I can teach my daughter that she’s more than her body and not spend her whole life chasing the perfect body, and just be in love with HER perfect body. I don’t want her to not love herself until she’s 37.
Damn! That's so sad... I thought life would get better as you get older/wiser🤦🏽♀💔 imagine being in your 70s and still struggling with food, that's not a good life
Honestly I found Linda due to her clickbait videos/ titles and when I clicked I was indeed met with a strong and sweet girl who explained to me why I shouldn’t restrict nor over exercise to be “pretty” and honestly thank you for that 💜
Thanks so much for sharing your story. I'm grateful for RUclips because we have voices like yours sharing stories like these to help young impressionable people.
linda!! when you said, "no wonder i've never been truly happy with myself, because i've never let myself be." - that really resonated with me. you're a shining light!
i remember clicking on her videos years ago because of the clickbait thinking it would be my way to get skinnier, i'm so glad that the actual content was not about losing weight and getting thinner, definitely saved me from myself :):):):):):)
This was such an inspiring story. The struggle is real for second generation immigrants to feel at home anywhere but I'm so glad you've been able to embrace yours
I cried watching this in the Subway. I‘ve been struggling with an ED for the past 10 years and just 22 minutes ago I didn‘t really want to recover (because weight gain seems like the enemy). Thank you so much ❤
i'm crying so hard, picturing sweet baby 7 year old linda not feeling good enough in today's society makes me want to give her the biggest hug. i'm so proud of you and how far you've come! love you always, linda ❤️
“I put living on hold until i get the right body ! “
This sentence hits me so hard
That I think i did experience it in a time of my life
maybe u won't see it, but this makes me cry.
I've been struggling in eating disorder for a long time and that one person that brought my life back is YOU. despite my parent does not understand all these and all the struggles I've been throughout my whole life. i couldn't thank you much more for all the things i have actually gained back. i found ur youtube channel at oct 2020 and i can't believe I've watched every single of ur video and found my confidence, happiness, and all that. U actually saved lots of ppl's life and i don't even know how to thank you back.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING U'VE DONE
put this into words better than i could’ve imaged❤️ ONLY LOVE FOR YOUR LINDA
"I'll never have this version of myself so let me slow down and be with her " -someone
That's something Linda said and got me thinking everything I want to starve myself to loose weight faster, for my birthday party that coming up. But then I get reminded of Linda and if she was my friend she would comfort me and talk to me and say "you're not gonna die if you eat that, you'll just feel happy". Linda's messages alwyas bring me joy. So thank you for that Linda.❤️ 🥲💖
Im Taiwanese- spent the last 21 years if my life being called 壯 and hating the word more than anything. Literally started crying when you said ppl call us “strong” and how messed up it is. I didn’t necessarily grow up in an environment where no one looked like me, but I relate to the consistent paralyzing fear and shame of not being enough in my community. Thank you for sharing your story, and I’m so proud of baby you (and baby me) for growing up beautiful and loving and STRONG inside and out despite all that has happened! You are a diamond in this world :) 加油！
I just read Linda’s Instagram stories today and only one thing I would like her to do is read her comments on this videos. So sorry people throw hate on internet it’s very harsh. She is literally so inspiring, living the life she always wanted to and we as audience are no one to throw hate for this beautiful human being. I am so glad I watched your videos and saved myself from toxic diet culture and I hope all the 15 to 20 year old girls learn something from your videos , cause we are never thought to appreciate our body enough . Thank you Linda from bottom of my heart.
Growing up as a chubby kid, losing weight during teens, and gaining weight again in adulthood because of PCOS and lifestyle really taught me that society still does judge people based on looks/weight. I somehow believe I have body image issues and I never liked the way how my body looks. Nonetheless I am now slowly accepting who I am and I am regularly working out to feel strong, and not to look a certain way.
so proud of you for sharing, I really need this right now after struggling with my relationship with food since quarantine started. As a second-gen Chinese-American in a household that prioritizes "eating healthy", I can really relate to your struggles with both your identity and relationship with food. Seeing how your relationship with food has healed gives me the courage to confront my fears. sending lots of love 💖
Hey Linda,
Your story is one that I needed to hear right now. I'm 16 and in high school and as I'm sure you know, high school isn't always the best because EVERYONE is trying to look their best and being the "prettiest" girl around. Honestly when I was younger, I didn't think high school would be like this. As a kid growing up, I never cared about weight, about how much calories is in something, what's the latest beauty standard or anything cause in my family we didn't really care about how other perceived how we looked and we would often eat a lot and I enjoyed that about my family. I loved sports and being active, eating and LAUGHING. But when I came to high school, the standard was so much different, tall, skinny girls was the beauty standard, everyone wanted to be friends with them, they were popular. Also the thing you said about not eating at lunch is SO true. I used to be the only girl in my friend group that would sit with a lunch box packed to the brim with favs, with my fav soda and they wouldn't have anything, like only WATER. And that made me feel so self conscious about myself. Cause I was the only short, slightly chubby one among them. Then Covid happened, I ate like nobody's business, didn't exercise and just spiralled out of control. Then school started and it was like I was the ONLY one that gained weight and looked .. different. I entered a phase in my life where I just didn't eat at all, I would cry , get angry at my mother for offering me food, I couldn't SLEEP but I was so tired, I exercised like crazy. Doing diets that would help me lose weight fast and just HATING that my fat thighs and cheeks wouldn't go away. I started wishing I was someone else , anyone else. Then one night, I came across a song called Epiphany by Jin of BTS and the words spoke to me, I just had a mental breakdown and that night my mother sat down with me and we talked the whole night about what I was feeling and what I was going through and how I carried inside of me. It was ... freeing in a sense cause here was the woman who gave birth to me, who lived longer than me and probably had to go through similar things like me and she accepted me. She didn't see my WEIGHT, she saw my WORTH. Her words to me was, "Why you worried about that? When you get old like me, your body wont look like that. You would have wasted your life on a body that is constantly changing instead of focusing on your happiness. Your happiness and your dignity is the things that will be with you when you are older. Not your body type. So don't worry about that. You are perfect because you are constantly changing and there is nothing more beautiful than change." Those words really gave me the strength that I needed to start accepting myself again and learning about myself again. Honestly like you said it isn't easy but it wasn't impossible. And your video just made me feel thankful because you reaffirmed my beliefs and I couldn't be happier. I'm so glad you exist.
(Sorry this is SO long)
Wow I don’t even know what to say but I know I’m so proud of you for being so open about this. I know it couldn’t have been easy but your strength with only empower and inspire others. You’re incredible 🙏🏽💛
I don't know how to word this, but this video shed so much light on me. Making me acknowledge my own ED. Though getting validation from others is not right, the ex I dated when I was 15 tends to say I'm overweight, I need to lose it even though I was only 99lbs(45kg) while I was already am suffering from ED but hearing that made it worse, from skipping lunch I started to skip breakfast as well while binge eating at dinner because I was so hungry. It became even worse when I found out I gained 6lbs, I was scared that he would shame me even more so I tried everything to lose it before the yearly health check at the school and I did, I lost 6lbs in a WEEK but even after that I wasn't satisfied I continued to lose more and more. Until 1 year later he left me after 6 months of ghosting, devastated everyday went as a blur, I forgot how to live, I was either binge eating or starving my guts off while wanting to lose more weight getting more toned to make him regret leaving me. I then went through another relationship to another relationship, until my current bf, who was one of my best friends at the time had enough of me sulking over the ex who shamed me, he couldn't take me getting into anymore relationships for validations
After we started dating which was in 2020 when covid was going strong, he full out forced me to eat, and if I didn't he would starve alongside me until I ate. Introducing the foods that had long left my life back, making me fall back in love with it again all the while trying to show me how beautiful I was in his eyes and let's just say I gained 20lbs in almost 2 years of dating him and I'm happier than before. Though I still struggle with food this this day, but I don't shy away anymore, I don't antagonise food as much. But I'm still quite self conscious because all of his female friends are all goddesses, tall, slim yet still curvaceous while I'm technically average in height, though my current weight for my height is less than ideal. However now I'm trying not to go back to my old ways, by starving and exercising while I'm starving, I'm trying to live a more healthier lifestyle in general, now I'm just hoping it works and I stay that way
Your ex was a bastard
I’m always stunned by how young yet wise you are, even inspiring someone my age
I started watching you when RUclips randomly recommend your channel during lockdown and you were working out with your family and I fell in love. Your honesty your transparency and genuinely enjoying what you do travelling, food, working out & seeing how strong you’re becoming & your family supporting you but also not glamorising anything and being unapologetically you. It’s very hard to be so open especially online with so much criticism but you have inspired so many people just by being you. Without even realising, your voice has impacted so many. Thank you x
This is hands down the best video I've seen in my entire life. Having suffered from anorexia myself between the age of 15 to 17 I recognised myself in every single word you said. Thank you Linda, you're amazing.
I am 14, I grew up in a Chinese family too and I found this extremely relatable. When we moved overseas, my diet had changed, and soon after a few years I had put on some weight. I remember my mom would look at my butt and my waistline and my stretch marks and call me fat and overweight (I was 52 kg at 163cm, and the Chinese “beauty standard” was to be 45 - 49 kg at that height). She would try to put me on diets, and limit how much I eat each day. It has changed a bit now, my mom is making less of the harsh remarks and not limiting my diet as much. However, Linda was the one who truly made me feel more confident and help me during this time and taught me that my body is mine to love and it is okay to be “different to others”, because this is actually the real normal. Thank you Linda. Thank you so much.
I’m sobbing. I’ve never in my life felt like anybody has ever understood how I feel or think or why I am the way I am. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t enough for anybody let alone myself. I started high school and that’s when my body dysmorphia really started I was told I was to small too big too flat too pale too quite too loud too girly. I felt inferior to everyone around me I felt like I deserved those mean comments that I deserved to feel the way I did. I started emotional eating and then not eating and then anxiety took over my life. I couldn’t function my grades were slipping my weight was decreasing then increasing and I had the worst relationship with my family I was so consumed in the comments. I was so anxious and absolutely terrified to walk into the school building because I didn’t want people to be looking at me they weren’t but in my brain that’s what I was thinking that everyone was staring and judging. I change the way I did my hair the way I did my make up how I dressed how I walked the way I talked to fit in to be excepted so much so to the point that I didn’t know who I was anymore. And I still catch myself trying to limit food and telling myself I have to workout not because I want to I don’t wanna punish my body I don’t wanna punish myself but those comments those pictures run through my head those memories and it’s like I’m back there again. It’s crazy how one little comment could completely destroy the way that you see yourself and the way that you live your life. That’s what the past 4+ years have been like for me I was so consumed with what I looked like and how others saw me that I forgot to live. I have a hard time going out not not wearing make up or looking in the mirror and contorting my body wondering if the person that I’m talking to right now is looking at my insecurities and judging me whether they really want to be talking to me. But Linda is so open with us so honest so unbelievably relatable she is my safe place I’ve never felt understood but it’s like Linda understands me she doesn’t know me she hasn’t met me but she understands me she makes me feel heard she makes me feel valid and for that I don’t even have the words I can’t even thank her enough. I’m on the journey of teaching myself it’s OK to eat the cookie it’s OK not to do your hair you don’t have to have “eyebrows” to be pretty that I can work out to better myself without wanting to change myself you’re perfect just the way you are you are enough. Thank Linda for this video and all your videos they always open my eyes and touch my heart. I’m going to continue to try and tell myself that it’s OK to be me💕
Keep going girl, I know we don't know each other, but I want to send you love and strength
You are smart and beautiful love! Don't let anyone make you believe that you are NOT (I mean never ever ever ever).
You're so strong. I had the same experience too. It's hard, but we're so much stronger. I totally relate to Linda too. I forgot to live my life. What helps me is doing what I enjoy that I don't have time for these negative conceptions.
Words can hurt so much
❤
Wow, I didn't imagine you passed through all that. You're stronger than you know. Thanks for the video, it will help me a lot!!! I've been inspired by you, every time I think of skipping a meal I remember you. Thank you for all you've been doing. You're a magical human!!!
I'm so proud of you for how much self love you've found! I'm 6 years older than you and just relapsed in my eating disorder this month for the first time in 8 years. This video was exactly what I needed right now as I'm rededicating myself to recovery, strength in vulnerability, and self-love over perfection. The road isn't easy, but it's worth it. Sending so much love and positive energy your way, thank you for creating
Thank you SO MUCH LINDA. As I watched this video I was able to relate to you so well. Being Asian and loving food so much somehow made me hate my body. It was only until recently when I started therapy and went to a dietitian appointment when I figured out I wasn’t healthy. That’s when I found you. You helped my health, my relationships, my happiness and most of all my confidence. While there are still days I get mad at myself for eating just one more bite, there are now much less times to feel guilty for putting a single calorie into my body. I have so much more to learn but you have helped me so so so much and I can’t describe how much you’ve changed my life. Never stop inspiring and your videos are not just motivation to live a healthy lifestyle but also motivation to keep going and to live life! I love you SO MUCH!
as a colombian girl who was chubby n overweight her whole life till now learning to love myself Linda represented what i was going through as well im happy to find someone to feel the same and to make me learn to love myself and food and not to be scared of the scale thank you lots of love to you linda!🥰
i'm LITERALLY sobbing i can't stop crying didn't think that hearing my thoghts out loud would affect me this much. but knowing that someone actually knows how i feel and think feels great and i'm so proud of you Linda ily
hearing you talk about how you would hold your hand under the dyers at school reminds me of when my family was on a ski trip and i was sobbing because even through all of my layers i couldn’t move, couldn’t think i was so cold. i continued to cry at lunch over a salmon burger, fries, and protein bar, and cry even more because i didn’t have the strength to go down the mountain i had done so many times before because i just wasn’t. eating. precious memories man 🥲
THIS IS ACTUALLY ONE OF THE BEST VIDEOS I'VE SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. Love you so much Linda!!
I cried my eyes out hearing about what you were dealing with around that time of your life because it’s literally exactly the same as what I’m going through right now and it’s just SO hard, so though to let go, I’m losing myself and everyone around me, wanting to recover so bad but unable to let myself go… Thank you so much for sharing your whole story, you inspire us literally so much! Hope one day I can let go of these habits and recover for good ❤️
wishing you all the best, strength and health💕
exactly, the feeling of "wanting to recover but cannot" is the WORST !!!!! i dont know either how i'll ever feel good seeing food or feel genuinely happy after eating something but i really want to, one day... i am losing everything to keep this one thing with me but i just cannot stop. its so hard, i know it is but know that you are doing so well and i am so proud of you... one day, you will feel that you do deserve food and you deserve to eat everything you want to without feeling guilty about it. please dont lose yourself, you are too precious to hurt your body... i love you 💗
@@HannahMarieee thank you so much I really appreciate it 🥺❤️
@@archismitachaudhury3698 oh my god thank you so much for this you’re such a precious human being and i love you too 😭🫶💓 it’s a long journey but i truly believe things will turn out for the best!
Hi, Maria Luisa, just wanted to say: you're so brave for even writing this comment and for recognising what is not going as you wish.
I hope to start my "recovery" soon too, but wanted to share that it already feels so much easier to speak up about this with your doctor and specialist. I haven't started anything yet, but boy, does it help to get it out of your head.
It's no one's fault, just like other conditions, and even though eating disorders always carry an enormous amount of guilt, please just be aware that it's not coming from you but it's coming from IT.
Sending you lots of strength ♥️ and hope you find people along the way who will support you 🤗
I am a 14 year old teen and was in the same stage as you I just didn’t know what is the goal of my life I just don’t want to wake up next day but when my parents start noticing me they made me feel different and started supporting me and now I am in my healing stage so proud of myself that I am starting to feel myself again! Lots of love
I’m so happy. As a chinese as well, I find so much solidarity watching this,, and that I’m not the only one who went through/is going through this same thing. And I feel like I can just enjoy my life now ☺️
HOW COULD I SEE MY SELF ON YOUUU. FEEL SO BLESSED I'VE FINALLY HAD THROUGH THIS FASE. KEEP GOING ON GUYSS!!!!!
Oh my god I'm literally crying. I'm definitely not at that point of self acceptance yet, one day hope to be there but I definitely appreciate you telling your story! Amazing!
you’re beautiful nikki 💕
@@HannahMarieee aww, thank you 😊❤
I've found myself in your story (I'm writing this as a 45(!) yo European with two children, who is constantly learning from you...) It was very touching and inspiring. Thank you Linda! ❤️
The past few months I’ve been trying to recover from an ED. You are truly inspiring and I’m not exaggerating when I say this video has changed the way I think. It’s videos like this that make me remember that there are good people all around you if you just look for them. I’m literally crying as I write this; not because I’m sad but because I feel an overwhelming sense of relief. So from the bottom of my heart, Thank you❤
I started watching your videos without even realizing i had ED, i watched them while doing hours of treadmill and elliptical after skipping lunch. I remember the first time i cired watching one, because i realized what i was doing. It's now been while and i wouldn't say that I completey healed but i'm trying, and if i'm doing it it's because you helped me so much. I will forever be grateful to have watched that one firsti video. ly sm
i am so proud of you, never got to thank you for helping me going through recovery last year, i am super inspired by you. i’ve relapsed, and i hate it, but i believe one day i’ll fully accept myself too. you’re amazing, truly!
Hey Linda!
I don't remember exactly how I ended up in your channel a couple of months ago but I stayed not because of your body, what you eat, how much you exercise. I stayed because I LOVED how you tell your stories. The editing, the script, the text, the shots, the music, everything. Your dedication shows and I'm not sure if you know how great of a producer/writer/director you are. And that's all you. Be really proud of that.
I'm really sad to see all you have been through from such a young age and happy to see how much love your family has for you and how they've helped you. I would never guess you're only 21, and I can't even imagine how many great things you'll live and achieve. I hope you keep sharing and I would love to keep following in here.
You're loved, you're strong, and you're beautiful.
PS: I'm Brazilian and Linda means "gorgeous" in Portuguese. Even your name says how beautiful you are, in and out.
I'm so glad your mum forced the doctor to do that blood test. Just because you "looked healthy" doesn't mean you were. Well done mum :).
I teared up while watching this because despite being from a different culture, race, ethnicity, I related so much to things like sly comments, self punishment, a bad relationship with food and overall not living life due to feeling trapped in a world of unrealistic goals and beauty standards. I love your videos so much Linda and I wanted to thank you for making me smile and giving me motivation when I need it. I hope you and anyone else reading know your beautiful and amazing just the way you are. Have a good day/night!!
Lindaaaaaaa, you have no freaking idea how much you have played a role in my confidence in myself! I lost like all of my confidence in middle school because of all the negativity around me and my excessive need to people please, but ever since I saw your channel years ago, I've really been able to regain so much of that confidence back so now the negativity doesn't hurt so bad because I'm so much more secure in myself! Obviously I still cry when my mom gets disappointed in me or when my siblings call me ADD, but I can pretty much just pep talk myself and I'll remember that it's MY opinion of myself that matters, and only I know how hard I work 😊
YOUR STORYTELLING IS SO BEAUTIFUL ❤️
Thank you for bringing truth to RUclips and bringing people together to recognize their value over their body.
"i'd put living on hold until i got the right body". this video is ten months old but found me when i needed it. i have been doing this and i need to stop. thank you for so quickly becoming such a massive inspiration and positive influence.
God, when you mentioned your confusion of different ideals from different countries made me so emotional. I've never been more tormented by my brain thinking I need to be super fit and toned OR either super slim. Then suddenly in my secondary school the curvy look came out and I fit in BUT was still told by my colleagues I would look a bit better skinnier in clothes because I'm white... I only got better mentally when I got older and didn't bother being in a big group of friends. More breathing space for my brain
the clickbate part made me cry tbh .. because I did start clicking on your videos for triggering sht but u are my comfort youtuber now 🥺 ily
Feeling scared of gaining wait but also scared of dying is one of the most intense things a person can feel.
Thank you so much. I found your channel this week and it has been such a light in my life! I went through a similar experience growing up, and I'm now a registered dietitian! But every day is a struggle to find balance, mostly mentally. Your videos have changed my mindset around food so much and I couldn't be more thankful. I'm blown away by how real you are and how vulnerable you're willing to be to help people. You're brave and I'm so thankful for you. Everything to do with body image is a chaotic mess. Health is what's important! Eating for health but also eating for happiness and finding that balance. You inspire me to live a more free life. 😊🦋❤️
The last part made me emotional T_T I'm so happy to have grown together with you on this journey! Your amazing Linda!
As someone who has struggled with ED during my teenage years, I literally cried during the whole video. Linda you are amazing!
I feel as though this video will be one to get me through all the bad days to come. I am so incredibly proud of the person you were, are and will be. You've gotten me through hell so many times, and I will never be able to thank you enough. You are so incredibly amazing for being you. Thank you for letting yourself be happy.
omggg your words made me cried bc all you told was a sort of a reflect of my own experience with my body: overweight child, want to fit in the beauty standards, eating disorder (anorexia), recovery, body dismorphia, trying now to love myself no matter how I look..
I can’t said I’m totally recovered but everyday I try more and more to not allowed anymore those things to make me feel bad about myself bc we are so much more than just a body and life is so short to waist all the time we have in complaining about things we can’t even control!!
So thank you so much for this 🙏
You said so many things that I still try to deny to myself and thank to you I may will put even more effort to accept the person I am.
Very grateful
Halfway through and I’m literally crying! So glad that your mama was a fierce advocate for you and to see just how far you’ve come 🤎
This actually made me cry with relief. I am a 33-year-old woman who has, for most of her life, been caught up in a similar vicious mental cycle. Thank you for sharing! I feel so relieved and can’t wait to just eat without worrying about how much it is, how many calories the next meal might be worth, and not being so hyper focused on food, and instead just live life. Thank you so much Linda.
Thank you so much for opening up like this, literally crying as I can relate to so many pieces of your journey and hope to find the body acceptance that you have.
absolutely gave me goosebumps and made me cry in the end. You have no idea how much you help people linda! Thank you for everything ❤️
Ended up crying, this video is all I needed right now
I am so happy that I found this channel. I am in soobing ovete here, because I needed to hear all of that to move forward in my very-very similar life. Thank you!
Thank you Linda for being like the long lost friend that I so needed back in primary and secondary school. Thank you for being there for us all now and for many more stronger days to come!!!
I went through the physical recovery for my eating disorder a few years ago, but still find myself falling back into similar thoughts I had all those years ago. Now, whenever that mindset feels like it's resurfacing, I just go to your channel and watch your most recent videos. Many people on social media have fuelled my destructive habits, but others like you have quite literally saved my life.
"Strength"
I never knew a single word could hold so much power. Thank you for making us stronger by sharing your own story. I can only imagine how scary or nervous you must feel posting this video, you are incredibly brave and I only wish that your journey continues to allow beautiful things in your life to flourish.
linda, I honestly love you so much. Im also a first generation chinese american and I got out of ed hospitilization this year and seeing this video is so refreshing. Its so hard to find influencers and role models that look like me and have the same struggles as me, I honestly never knew that I would even find somebody like that; thank you for being such an amazing inspiritaiton. I have always felt so alone but you show me that im not. ILY
That felt like a whole movie that had a really profound meaning.We are so proud of you Linda❤️❤️
I just love your videos so much! You really helped me recover from my postpartum eating disorder. One year, marital separation and single parenting later and here you are again reminding me that I am strong and beautiful and my body does amazing things, I brought a whole human into the world. thanks for reminding me that I am not a number on the scale, I'm not a size in a clothing store. I'm a mother, a sister, an aunty, a friend. I am a queen and I deserve to be treated like one. Thank you for not giving up on yourself
I just want to say that I am also Chinese, growing up in the US and I’m currently 20. I am so surprised how similar my childhood story is to yours. The too big, the number deciding when I can eat, I hated being Asian, I did everything possible to be more ‘white’. It still affects me to this day and I still can’t accept who I am
I have never watched a RUclips video this unbelievably inspirational and truthful. I love your videos so much. You kind of saved me from my eating disorder about 2 years ago when I randomly clicked on one of your videos. Ever since then, I have been working out, getting stronger, eating whatever my heart tells me to, and living my best life free of restriction. You are amazing and thank you so much for being here.
It's insane how much our image of our own looks can differ from other's image of us. I've always thought you were sooo beautiful and even in your teenage pics you look stunning to me. It's so sad, how our body image can ruin our lives, when it's literally so wrong.
Damn near cried. Resonated with the eating disorder experience to a scary degree (except I'm still in it). Your experience seems too good to be true, sometimes. Your recovery and current life, I mean. This comment is all over the place because I'm emotional but appreciate you and your content a lot
I actually found you through clickbate, I was just SO curious how ice cream and cookies could be part of a diet. I am forever thankful, I've learned how to be strong enough to ignore all the voices that tell me to feel guilty over enjoying a cookie, and that exercise and food is something to be enjoyed, not something Im forced to do because im fat
I’ve been struggling with my relationship with food for my entire life. I relate to your videos immensely & I am so proud of you! Keep pushing!
Literally cried a little, just want to say that you have helped me A LOT and that i'm super proud over you❤
When you said “food made me the happiest but I felt like I needed to stop eating it to be happy” I felt that.
The thing is: a lot of fitness influencer's probably hate their lives and are dealing with disordered eating too! We just see their best parts👀💔💔
when you mentioned playing basketball and not being able to run, it like hit me like a train. I was never small, but for most of my life I've been more muscular than everybody in my class. But in 6th grade, my depression and anxiety reached the highest peak ever, and coming from someone who remembers being anxious and sad since preschool that means a lot. And sometimes when i'd stand up my legs were to weak to carry me, or had tensed up so much that standing up was the most excruciating pain I've ever felt.
My deepest fear is my legs being weak, having to be in a wheelchair, or feeling the pain I did. So now when I workout, it's too gain muscle while loosing weight, when I eat I don't stress eat like I used too, or diet excessively, I think about what will sustain me.
Thanks for this video! Love u
So proud of you and your journey ♥️ been there and am on my journey of recovery! You have been a big part in my acceptance of my body ♥️
You're beautiful or not beautiful , strong or not strong, healthy or not healthy, confident or not confident, fit or not fit. You are all of these on somedays or everyday. But you're you. Period! Inspiring and influential as ever! Love you so so much!!! Thank you for being there for so many of us!
Linda I was literally pouring out tears while watching this video , it reminds me my ed days as well. Glad both of us recovered ! You are an inspiration Linda hope to see more of your videos in the future ^^
From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for opening up bc I would have never realized the same habits I thought were healthy were actually hurting me. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me so much
I feel like we lived through the same experience 😢 Growing up half Taiwanese and half white, I always felt like an outsider. I think I finally accepted myself in high school. By then, I had met other biracial individuals and realized that I was never a mistake ❤
your one of the most inspirational people to me, i’ve had a bad relationship with food for as long as i can remember because of sports, cheer and the standards of being the smallest you can and looking like everyone else when i was 9 and even now. i work everyday to have a better relationship with food and it’s difficult but you inspire me to do my best and realizing there will always be bumps in the road but it does get better helps. i’ve been struggling lately but i just try to remember there’s others that have gone through this and get out of the mindset. i’m so glad i’ve stumbled on your videos again. i had a breakdown today because of comparing myself to others but i remember i’m the only me and i cant change the way my body will look because a lot of it is genetics and it’s me and i’m learning to love that.
Thank you Linda for being open with us and growing with us a wonderful and inspiring individual we love you 🫶🏻🫶🏻❤️
Oh WELL, i am a german Chinese and 22 Years old and I also struggle so so much…but this always reminds me that I can unlearn things and behaviors. I can love myself. I can achieve my dreams and that I am loved.
I deserve happiness and being free from my mind.
And so do u
Thank you Linda for being so so honest with us 😭💘💘💘
This video is a nice reminder we all struggle in life base on our bodies. Thank you Linda 😊