I am so sorry for the pain and insanity you have had to endure. A similar situation was experienced by Jordan Peterson (Canadian psychologist, author, and speaker) when he attempted to get off the benzodiazepine he had been taking for depression. Like you, he was told to decrease the dosage too quickly. When his symptoms continued and became even more intense (caused akathisia - inability to remain physically still which is linked to antipsychotic medications) his doctor told him, "See your need these drugs, you must stay on them." No doctor in the USA was willing to ween these drugs from his body. Finally, his family took him to Russia. There, doctors put him in a drug induced coma as the akathisia and other withdrawal symptoms would have killed him. His recovery was almost immediate. The akathisia disappeared, his memory returned, and most of his cognitive functions came back on line. Praise God. I myself have taken antidepressants for 30 years. My withdrawal recovery has been a nightmare (I am doing it alone as I no longer trust doctors). I've heard withdrawal may take up to three years, I am 63. Most days, I want to give up. Thank you for sharing that the little soul inside you was still alive and could one day be released from prison.
For people who naturally have depression, we can suffer every day the same things you suffered on and coming off the medications just in our daily lives. The only reason i am here is because my daughter literally saved my life on multiple occasions calling ambulances when she found me unconscious after suicide attempts. If she didnt exist i would have gone years ago. Sometimes , I've only been living for her, which im not always sure im strong enough to do. I don't have relationships and currently dont work. I wonder why im here most of the time, but cant take my life as i know how devastated my daughter would be for the rest of her life. Shes 28 now and doesnt live at home
The beautiful innocence against the might of the unconscious ❤
Totally agree because you are a mirror to my own experience heart and soul ❤❤❤
Sending love 💕
I am so sorry for the pain and insanity you have had to endure. A similar situation was experienced by Jordan Peterson (Canadian psychologist, author, and speaker) when he attempted to get off the benzodiazepine he had been taking for depression. Like you, he was told to decrease the dosage too quickly. When his symptoms continued and became even more intense (caused akathisia - inability to remain physically still which is linked to antipsychotic medications) his doctor told him, "See your need these drugs, you must stay on them." No doctor in the USA was willing to ween these drugs from his body. Finally, his family took him to Russia. There, doctors put him in a drug induced coma as the akathisia and other withdrawal symptoms would have killed him. His recovery was almost immediate. The akathisia disappeared, his memory returned, and most of his cognitive functions came back on line. Praise God. I myself have taken antidepressants for 30 years. My withdrawal recovery has been a nightmare (I am doing it alone as I no longer trust doctors). I've heard withdrawal may take up to three years, I am 63. Most days, I want to give up. Thank you for sharing that the little soul inside you was still alive and could one day be released from prison.
I’m sorry you are suffering.
Keep going. ❤️
For people who naturally have depression, we can suffer every day the same things you suffered on and coming off the medications just in our daily lives.
The only reason i am here is because my daughter literally saved my life on multiple occasions calling ambulances when she found me unconscious after suicide attempts.
If she didnt exist i would have gone years ago. Sometimes , I've only been living for her, which im not always sure im strong enough to do.
I don't have relationships and currently dont work. I wonder why im here most of the time, but cant take my life as i know how devastated my daughter would be for the rest of her life. Shes 28 now and doesnt live at home
Keep going. You are needed here.
Sending love ❤️