A state of mind, dealing with homesickness, loneliness, depression and anxiety with wild camping.
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- Опубликовано: 10 июл 2013
- EDIT... I filmed this 7 years ago, three years after the death of my amazing wife. Whilst I was not depressive nor anxious as such. I did suffer terrible homesickness which was very debilitating. These days I'm happy to get out lol but still miss that company. and still stick to areas I know well. thankfully I can stay out longer now.
The story of my late wife is now on Blogger....
A chatty video edited out of my UL Dartmoor camp.
I get that funny feeling the night before, and when I wake up, and it's not all that pleasant, I could certainly do without it. What I am pleased with is that it goes as the day progresses, it just "spoils" the start of the day.
It is also one reason I try to camp not a million miles from the car. Having said that, I'm a hiker / camper. Parking the car, walking 100 feet and pitching doesn't appeal. I prefer to enjoy the day hiking (or half day!) then pitching.
One day, I'll try two nights alone. But I don't think it will be that soon.
Yes, I'm really lucky to have such fabulous subscribers, a truly inspirational group.
Thanks for kind words. Mostly I make it up as I go :-)
Hi Les, I'll indeed keep filming, it's just one of the joys.
I shot this straight after arriving before I set up bivy and was quite cheery in myself by then but saying this has been on my mind, so I thought why not. I nearly kept it in UL film but thought no just delete it. Then today thought upload as a stand aloneI feel by the comments on other vids I'm inspiring people so thought this worthwhile publishing. Sort of if I can anyone can :-)
Always a pleasureto have you watch and comment.
Thanks for kind comment :)
Chad, we gotta do that one day, definitely :-) Hell, Mississippi isn't that far away lol! I used to visit the USA for the fun of it with my folks back in the day.
Its probably similar "feelings" we get for different reasons. But I certainly had your feeling whenever Sue and I were apart. I did two solo walks when she visited her folks alone and it was miserable. She coped without me much better than I ever did without her. Thanks for watching and commenting. See ya!
Hi tony, excellent weather, great location and a nice video. Thanks for sharing. Rob
A very personal video, thanks for sharing Tony. I can relate to the home sickness, I tend to get home sick when the weather is bad or I'm having a tough moment while out on a trip
Thanks Matt :)
Its good to share.
Tony, thanks for taking the time to make this video. Things are a bit different, but I can definitely relate to feeling homesick when out and not with loved ones...
As for hiking with others... if I am ever in your neighborhood, we definitely gotta hike together! :)
Your videos are great Tony, full of honesty, pathos and humanity.
That's without even mentioning your walking, camping, gear reviews, hints and tips (intentional or otherwise re spot something incidental in the background and think ahhh thats how you do it or whatever) and the gear lists too, invaluable to people wether just starting out or even more experienced folk (always good to compare with others etc)
Keep doing what you are doing, seems there is a great community here!
THanks Dean, yes, the weather especially alone makes a massive difference. I try to be brave and say rain and wind fine but there is no enjoyment, esp alone I'm sure, and makes it tough. It was one reason I stopped early last hike. Then the sun came out :-)
Thanks Ben, good to know you guys are out there.
Tony, I've felt like you have before...pretty normal. Many obvious reasons to feel funny in the Outdoors by yourself, but then nature and time get us over the hump.
Spot on David :-) Good luck to you and yours. Glad you both enjoy the videos.
Tony, Really enjoyed this video, thanks for letting us get to know you better.
A fascinating read indeed, thanks Richard.
Excellent reply, thanks, yes, roaming Dartmoor feels as close to home as its possible, especially alone, so for now, that's where I'll roam, matters not where, jut getting out in the wilds. Don't worry about water! There's a ton of it on Dartmoor and its quite safe. Treat with any method you prefer. If you're out for a week, something more than just a poncho not a bad idea ;-)
Yeah high winds and rain sometimes removes some of the enjoyment factor. If I'm on a multiple day hike then I suppose you have to roll with the punches and carry on... If it's just a single night out from home I'd much rather it be a more relaxed affair especially now days when my walks/camps are often alone. Good weather enhances any situation :-) thanks again for sharing this video, all the best.
I added info to my description. It felt odd when the trip with Chris ended. Great company.
Hi Tony. I'm sure I ave seen your videos before and I cant understand why i have not subscribed to your channel before this? This is a very thought provoking video and for me it made me think about things personal to me. Thanks for sharing this and all the very best to you. Take care my friend.
Sinclair.
Being alone means destination and route to it is up to me. Getting it right is neat, getting it wrong, a lesson. I never got tired of learning & always went back for more. So far, I always got home again! Finding an entirely agreeable companion is not impossible but perhaps rare & I'm wary of irritants so any companion is rare! I'm also aware of journeys better for sharing. You'll know that one. We live & learn by experience. If one suffers, the rest suffer, so I reckon we have to make all good!
Yes very personal account of how you feel when out alone. Judging by the comments i would say many can relate and its probably good to know that us humans aren't all that different. Maybe some are better at hiding it than others. Well done for having the courage to share with us Tony! All the best, Matt
hiya, probably wait but see. For now Bess has me, Gizzy and my folks. I'd like to get a border collie. but again need to see. Thanks for your very kind
message, means a lot :)
Yes the videos do help. Funnily by the afternoon I generally feel fine these days :) It's the morning. And I hate getting up early lol!
It's the primary reason I check forecast to at least generally aim for good weather. Temperature not an issue as much more wind and rain.
Thanks Don, I felt it was important at the time, even though I was chilled out by then, and felt despite my original deletion it deserved a video alone, Sue would have said as usual my thinking was sound and wise in my decision. If that makes sense.
That is for taking time to watch and comment.
I'm alone on most of my adventures and there are times when I wish I could beam myself back home, but I'm always glad I went. C. G. Jung's theory of opposites applies to love, and the greater one loves, the greater the loss. It took me five years to come to grips with the loss of my son, so give yourself some time. Bess's cancer came as a shock so you have suffered some major blows, but getting out for your hikes are great therapy. I wish I had more comforting advice. Sincerely, Ossie
talking to yourself! lol! done that, then see someone looking at you! more around Cheddar as not as remote.
I'm darn sure I'm not alone. :-)
I rarely sleep quickly first night out - too excited! I catch up on correspondence instead. You video. It's all contact with something important. Don't blame the weather - it's always appropriate. If your clothes isn't, that's not the weathers fault! There's a good lesson in that... Be prepared so you can carry on happily? I love fog - it reminds me that as long as I know where I am, I'm able to get to where I want to go, even if I can't see it yet.
Just a lovely and honest account
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You have good memories brother..written in stone❤️
Back in the day
Thankfully to a large degree can get out more now do occasionally get twangs
Funny how current woe is me videos are very popular 🤣 I even did one long before they were a thing 😅
Its a long old history of times past
And yup I had ten wonderful years prior to messing around on RUclips having fun 😀 in fact as you probably worked out RUclips and having fun keep me insane lol
The thing is Tony, 'home' represents security/safety/familiarity etc so it's only natural that for some of the time we miss being there. Of course that feeling can be compounded when confronted with the fact that you are out in the open and committed to it possibly until morning comes so that may let the fear creep in a bit. I find distraction techniques helpful. I.e. pottering around camp, reading, Twitter or cooking are helpful. For you making your videos help I suppose. :)
Psychology in solitude. Fascinating. Worthy of research. You have reasons for your awareness. Others too, clearly. I suspect you'll never be "alone" up there. Take comfort that all with you, wish you well. I've seen enough people convey emotion not to be surprised nor confused by it happening as they can be, given the space for it to occur. I believe the process to be beneficial - healing. Some I've taken along for that reason became good friends. Mumbo-jumbo? Not to those who have known it. 8)
Home is where the 'heart' is Tony.. If you're heart is happiest on the moor... that's where you should roam! I have 2 weeks to go ...and the I'll be on Dartmoor for the week .from Okehampton to Iveybridge...a bit worried about water! as the the heat is up at the moment.. I wish I'd got a tarpe like yours now! rather than the Banshee200 .... on well!
Hang in there buddy!
Hello Tony, I understand your thoughts and words. Keep making your videos they are always a pleasure to watch, I'll pm you sometime, Chin up mate.......Les.
Woke to some wonderful comments here. The moors do call me I must admit and am keen to get back out there. What you say is exactly what Sue used to say. I think she found some of the going tough, and often said why not go by myself or someone else, I had to point it was her company I relished not another's or solo, she always when ggetting back to the car said she was glad she did it! Same here now :-)
Thanks dave, seldom get lonely, but saying that I know what you mean, if that makes sense lol! Take care yourself :-)
Must admit its less fun, esp alone, being battered by wind and rain, for me, personally. Having said that I was fine in the freezing wind! I could see, I think bring able to see helps, me.
A very personal video. It sounds like you like to have a companion that's close to you. Being from home, it keeps the home sick feeling at bay, if you know what I mean. Without those that have been with you, you start to feel lost and lonely as the little things you would do aren't there to be done. Bess and the food packet for example. Unfortunately time is the only healer
Yes exactly
Things didn't go quite as planned as my wife now is not interested in this and unfortunately suffers poor mental health so I'm happy to get out longer for rest lol I'd have preferred walking female company lol but such is life lol
When with Sue back in the day I was never home sick as home was where we put our heads. Those early camps were difficult and we in the area of not camping with Bess.
@@TonyHobbs I suppose it does give the opportunity to get away for a few days. I go out solo and as I've never had the company, I never miss it. I suppose you can look at home like that. I was spending 95% of my time in mine so felt like a snail in its shell. Bess then was your companion when out walking or camping and without her there, left a hole for the loneliness to creep in which unfortunately brings the rest. You still put on a brave face and kept it up for a little while as I've noticed Lassie is popping up soon
I usually take day or two to sleep properly on at trip but I think that party excitement her than home sickness.
The thing about love, be of human or dog is you have to pay a price however' its better to have enjoyed the
Love and to pay the price, than not to have loved at all. I am lucky to have the love of both a girlfriend of 7 years and a beagle of much lesser time, neither of whom I can imagine being without. Stay strong and live live there is plenty of us out here on your side and altho distant, feel attached to you through your vids. Stay safe and keep up the videos, we
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That's a shame about Bess Tony ... hope yer well mate ... take it easy ....
But of course travelling with the folks was easy, dad once left me in Amsterdam alone, early 90s, I was on next flight, two days later, they were booked up! The odd thing was I visited the Ziderzee (spelt wrong sorry) in loan car and it was sort of OK, by the time I got on flight I was feeling more chilled so may have survived the last day lol but was glad to be home. That was before I knew Sue. When i knew Sue it was her I missed not my folks lol! The brain is a complex thing.
I'd probably feel the same if away elsewhere alone. But as you say at least we get over it :)
Going by the comments I'm definitely not alone. No pun intended ;-)
I know where you are coming from on that. (I was always being told when i was by myself, I always appeared if i was in company. Whatever that means....lol)
RUclips maybe messing about? I'm sure they somehow delete subs. Your name rings a bell. Hope you're able to catch up, probably quite a few here since you last looked. Thank you for the kind words, best wishes to you too.
as in I'm sure others feel the same but quite rightly meant the other way too, no way am I alone out there, Someone is looking out for me. no question about that :)
'Rather' than......
What bloody swearing ;-)