There are a lot of people having a hard time. I'm one of them that's why I made my channel. It's funny how easy it is to help and support each other . The power of your click could save someone. Great Content!
I had the same issue and had to learn to start making peace with my past trauma . I had a similar childhood. Anger is a natural reaction to injustice... but it can eat at you... like a cancer. But we are taught it’s wrong to make us easy to manage so people don’t have to be accountable. You’re not crazy. There are also legitimate reasons to be triggered like you said and it’s hard for people to deal with it. Therapy helps.
Bro..,,You reading my mind? It's like our stories are similar, I was bullied from 5th grade until 8th when I finally got the courage to defend myself. I have gone to therapy as well and have fixed somethings. I want to thank you for these videos and being my friend. Love ya bro. I'm here if ya EVER need me. I'd say I'm one who self depreciated often,with jokes and sly little remarks....I seem to still do it just not as much as I've gotten more confident as I've gotten older.
Crazy how if you sit and listen to someone's testimony being unbiased and keep an open mind, you find out how much you are alike, and have went through and are going through the same things! GREAT SPEEKDOM!
I got bullied when I was 12 years old. And I’ve learned to ignore and overcome it. When I found out I had autism. I wasn’t happy about it and got pissed off. I hated what I am. But as the years go by. I’ve slowly accepted it who I am and love myself. I’m here for you if want to talk. Love you man!
This was really an eye opener for me. My wife has been amazing and patient with me but she's always suggested that I go seek counseling for my 'cynicism' and generally negative outlook. After hearing your story I realize that perhaps I too am dealing with self-hatred. Thank you for opening up about this and every other speakdom where you shine light on mental or emotional issues/trauma. Love your channels. Much love from a fellow Hispanic-american. 🇵🇷
Sorry about the long venting I'm about to do, but I feel like this speaks to me the most. The main problem with me is that I worry more about other people than I do for myself. I absolutely *hate* myself, and when I say hate, that's literally an understatement. I have very low self-esteem, I feel so upset but I don't want other people knowing that. I guess this makes me a hypocrite, but I hate it when other people worry about me. I'd rather have people have a good time than worry about me. But the more I ignore myself, the more the self hatred gets worse. I just want to see other people cheerful and happy, it brings me satisfaction. But I can't be satisfied when I'm not satisfied with myself. I think this really helped me. Great video as always man. I don't know if you realize it, but we all appreciate you lots. ❤️
Great video, man. I feel you. As a society, I think we're starting to warm up to the importance of mental health. Videos like this are important as we come to this greater awareness. - Josh
I have also been realising the importance of self-love lately. Thanks for putting me back on track! P.S. counselling isn't just for those rainy days. If you can afford it, definitely go there during good times as well. At the very least, your counsellor gets a glimpse of what a good day looks like for you and can help work towards it when the time comes.
Thank you Geekdom. I related so much to this, in fact im writing a testimony on how i am overcoming self hatred. And your so rightx i didnt realize it either until i did 2 years if counseling at my college and through my friends. Now, I am defeatijg this and loving myself. your speakdoms are a blessing, never stop doing them!
Dude, you just helped me figure out what's wrong with me. The last 3 years I've been bad or underachieved at things I poor my heart and soul into, I also was and to certain extent still am made fun of. I have really bad anger issues that I've tried to control but outbursts keep popping up where I almost drop on the floor in tears over nothing. This actually happened only a few hours before I wrote this. I felt/feel terrible about it, and I hope to God that I'll be able to fix it. THANK YOU.
I 100% understand what you're saying. I've been going through something very similar over the past few years. I was bullied badly too growing up mostly because I had no self confidence and was an easy target, and I was abused at home by both my parents which is why I had no self confidence to begin with. I've been studying NPD and BPD over the past 4 years, and it sounds like you really understand them. Dude your channels on youtube are awesome! Your Geekdom101 was the first channel I'd go to after each new episode of DB Super.
Bro these videos are good for everyone to watch, even if they have never felt this way before. It will help them be more understanding of some people who have these issues. Keep these up because they are all ways a good listen 👍
I have values higher than my feelings, they might be described as objectives. Thanks to this I appreciate my self-hatred, it allows me to be more productive, because it allows me to force my most hated person, myself, into working without caring about their feelings. It's a cycle to me. I get into a bad state, I hate myself more, the hate fuels me to improve, then I improve, hate myself less, work less and then get worse up to the point when my self-hate peaks, then my condition improves again... So I value my self-hatred. The more I hate myself, the closer I will be to my personal goals. I might be a workaholic, but I can't see any other way to fix what I need to fix.
This is so inspiring bro it's crazy how my story kinda relates to yours I'm really sorry about your parents man I lost my dad in 2017 and I just lost my grandpa this past Sunday, these speakdom videos are honestly amazing these have helped me so much especially your mourning speakdom. Thanks for doing this man, it helps me really feel better about some of the things I have been struggling with these past years. Thank you so much dude. Have a good rest of the day!
For the longest time I had Hatred for myself and TBH I didn't wanted to live anymore but I kept hearing to speakdoms and they helped me so much Thanks Danny for helping
Facing Fear is the best way to over come it. I read the Undefeated Mind and it had some really good stories from a Doctor that studied psychology. From his experiences and others the best way to cope with things is to not avoid them and let them happen. It builds strength and character. I've done some similar things to in my life and it often takes me realizing that I'm not putting in enough work or I'm not facing the problem dead on and just avoiding it all together. Good speakdom. Thanks Geekdom.
I understand what you are saying 100 percent. I'm an active duty submariner and have been in for about 9 years at this point. I've been dealing with a lot of similiar issues I've been trying to figure out with mental health regarding depression, anxiety and self-hatred. Just started the process seeking help and I really hope it works out.
Wow geekdom your amazing for talking about this at the right time and moment when I and so many others needed to hear this. From me and many ppl struggling here....thank you......thank you 👏👏👏👍🙏 :)
Hey Geekdom, thank you for sharing this. As a person who was bullied, and a person who came from poor beginnings, I really appreciate your post. It makes me feel less lonely. I was very aggressive to people who were trying to tease me. I would yell and scream and threaten to physically fight. I ended up doing martial arts and self-improvement to get better. It takes courage to admit this and share this. Your words are going to help somebody in a very positive way. Thank you.
I’m glad you made this video. I did a lot of things wrong and lost a lot of people. I’ve been working on my self a lot, but old habits get me sometimes.
Thank you for having these Speekdoms on your channel because they really help me with life and I'm really appreciative of that. Please keep it up because I genuinely deep down love your Speekdoms because it not only feels like your having a heart to heart talk, but also mentoring us. Showing us that there is more in life than meets the eye. Anyways all I'm saying is Thank you very much. 🤘
I can relate on so many levels to this Geekdom and if it's OK, I'll message you on your page because I can relate to alot of what you mentioned in the video and on top of that, to add to the issues was I discovered that all the issues I have with depression, anxiety, self hatred, etc, is not only a result of being high functioning autistic and didn't know about it until 2016 and was diagnosed in 2017.
Thank you so much, I’m 20 and am going though this rn despite my recent breakthrough with a little success. Something I will work on for sure you’re words jumpstarted my journey to getting better god bless.
This was such a real video. I’ve had similar issue too. I have some social anxiety disorder but I’ve been getting better using some cognitive behavioral therapy from the social anxiety institute online. It’s a little expensive but it’s helped. Thanks for making this video dude. Life really is a journey.
Unrelated but, what about those of us who isolate ourselves but want to engage with others but when we do, we’re reminded on why we don’t. There’s a longing for a connection, but it never seems to work out in that opportune time.
Geekdom. It sounds like your on the cusp of discovering Spiritual Awakening. I highly recommend doing research on this subject. It will shift your consciousness past the ego and heal you from the past and help you create the life you want. When you get to a certain level then you will attract high vibe relationships with people. I hope for the best for you. Your a good person. You can tap into the Devine power that is in you. YOU CAN DO IT!!! PS:. The ego is what self sabatages our dreams. It sabatages the abilities to manifest our prayers. Working on the subconscious part of the brain is a main component to unlocking our full potential to manifest what we really want or need. Rewiring the brain spiritually is important. The holy book says, stuff like "As a man thinks, so is he", "look inward there lies the kingdom of God". We have the answers inside of us, we just have to seek it. "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened". There is too much to say in one post. I believe that Spiritual Awaking and being born again go hand in hand. The bible correlates soo much with the process of Awakening into a higher states of consciousness. It think your on the right track. I think you have a higher purpose/calling in life to help yourself and just as important, service to others. More soo than doing just Anime/manga reviews/Movie reviews. Close your eyes, take a couple deep breaths and imagine the best version of yourself, and ask those questions to your Higher/True Self and the Creator/Source energy. If that's what you want. Alright good luck Bro. Peace!!!
Thank you for making this video, it really has caused me to look deep into myself and reflect. I think it’s clear you made a lot of progress with yourself, and I respect you for that and for sharing this with others.
There's this storyline of the incredible hulk that separated Bruce Banner from the Hulk, separated bodies, and it showed what happens to Bruce when his anger can't be lashed out effectively, without the ability to become Hulk, he basically turns into a horrible person, pushes the love of his life away, and then turns into basically a villain desperately trying to become Hulk again by doing gamma experiments on animals on an island. And it's actually Hulk with some "help" from Doctor Doom that actually had to fix the situation with Hulk having to sacrifice himself killing him together with Bruce in a blast, being the hero while Bruce always deemed him a curse, but Bruce was the problem all along. More often than not Hulk just wants peace. Of course they ended up fused again cause comics and everything but I always have found that it was a beautiful story on how Bruce is affected by his childhood traumas and how the whole Hulk mithos isn't black and white
I know how you feel, except I have known I have self-hatred. It's not something I had to uncover, but it's something I don't know how to deal with it. You're right that counselors are not cheap, and I'm not confident that they're really effective. I hear about people who start counseling and never stop... and also never get to the bottom of their problems and work through them. It sounds like it should be effective, but I am skeptical.
Bro I've never done this this shit, but I've been bullied too my entire life, last month I broke one of my coworkers jaws with one punch, I just done know anymore
@Not So Moody ''you guys'' great way to describe Suicidal and Depressed people and ''trying to be'' that was a heartfelt video, im glad he got through that shit gives me some hope that I might get back up and get through the shit ive got going on now
Yea I was big into self sabotaging because I felt like I didn't deserve it, or from the constant stories I would tell myself. If you can't go to a therapist, I recommend getting a journal and just writing down things like why does X keep happening to me, or why didn't this work,and as you write, see everything from a third person perspective so you can see how you are at fault for some of the things(if you are). Then you can start changing your ways going forward.
Dude you think you had it bad I was born with a disability and I was bullied mercilessly And there was times I wanted to kill my self But dragon ball z saved my life True story
I can really relate to this. I hate myself and my life, I’m not good at taking compliments, I have a lot of anger issues, and I’ve got a tendency to hold a grudge.
Great video bro I have borderline personality disorder bi polar and extreme anxiety disorder its ups and downs I use meditation, healthy eating and exercising to keep healthy mentally. I'm sure this video will help a lot of people
I'm glad you've been going to counseling and taking care of yourself. If you don't mind, can you tell us how you became homeless? If it's too much to answer, I understand.
How do you know if you have a narcissistic disorder? You said that you try to celebrate your accomplishments but feel unworthy. I feel like that in a sense. I want to celebrate what accomplishments I have but I don’t feel like I’ve really done anything. Do I have a disorder?
I can see a number of things here that I can see in myself. Bullied in school due to being big, glasses, bad teeth, at one point I was even the stinky kid (mostly because I had PE in the first period but refused to shower with a bunch of other guys). Grew up with parents that are still fairly religious, but as a kid we would host church in our house a couple of times a week. This religion is also very dogmatic, and there were just a lot of things that I just wasn't allowed to do, so we could stay in the churches good leanings. For a large part of my life I would be constantly pushed into a career that I hated to do, and the people that I would have to work with. But then basically treated (sometimes being told straight out) that I would always need family to take care of me. Being living with mom and dad, with my sister, brother, and so on. It effects you, really bad, to the point when I finally got a room mate I had to cut off my entire family for a long while so I could just work on me (of which they called selfish). When every other part of my life was helping my family whenever or however I could, to the point that is why I kept having problems with finding my feet. In all, feeling like I kept being used by family and it was looked down on anytime I wanted to do something for me. It was when I decided to let them back in my life where things changed with them on treating me like a child (except for my sister). Even after listing my many accomplishments in another of your videos, this same feeling still hits. Right now I am staring at the book that I am wanting to write, sitting around 30k words done, and have between 60k - 90k before the first draft is done. But the feeling of not being good enough, or deserving enough keeps stopping me where I just find ways to avoid doing it. P.S. stop hating on your parents so much with smoking and trying to hide it. This is coming from a smoker that has kids, and I've tried to quit so many damn times, and I don't want my kids to see me doing it. Where I do feel hatred for not being able to quit, and I am sure that the same thing was true for your parents, it is a very hard thing to do. What stops me most there is that I know that I get a really nasty nico rage, where I have no control on saying things that would really hurt my kids. I do have another date and things worked out for around that date to be able to give it my all to quit once and for all. Basically I'll be going on vacation with the family out of the country for about two weeks, come back alone (as the wife and kids will be there for three more weeks). Making it so that I don't have to worry about being overly mean and hurtful to those that mean the most to me.
I don’t have this problem, at least I think I don’t, but you talked about a few things im okay sharing with you and anyone scrolling through. I was bullied as well after I moved to my current home town when i was in 1st grade. (I was well liked at my other school before I moved.) But it didn’t make me hate myself, it just made me sad I wasn’t cool enough and all throughout my school life and still to this day as an adult, i try to find a cool badass group that i can fit in and click with. Hang out, do silly stupid shit together, go on adventures and whatnot. Still haven’t found a group of cool people like that yet. But all I ever wanted since my first day in a new school is liked, accepted, and be seen as a cool person that my peers will value and respect. And with literally every kid in school bullying you relentlessly and playing gaslight tricks on teachers and principal to get out of punishment (thus making me get in school suspension a lot and my school district thinking im a problem child when that wasn’t true, thus cutting away a lot of opportunities I could of experienced) it forced me into an introvert lifestyle but im naturally an extrovert and just want to be fun and out going with people but I couldn’t. Now as an adult, im an ambivert. A mix of both due to several factors. I did use to cut myself and tried to kill myself but that was due to a side effect of a medication i was put on that I shouldn’t have been put on. Sadly, my uncle was on that same medication and due to his ptsd from doing search and rescue work at ground zero a day after the infamous terror attack happened for the next 3 or so months of clean up and body-bagging, in early 2004 he commented suicide. And weirdly enough i was the last to know the truth. Not till summer of 2013. So i deal with a bit of survivor’s guilt. Its not as bad now but it still sucks. And finally, as far as trust goes, I naturally don’t trust anyone for a long while, especially with men due to my trust issues ive developed from past relationships and one friendship. Its not that i hate you, im just scared to trust cuz I don’t wanna get hurt again. Ive been through enough and more hurt is the last thing i ever need. But when I feel ready, I will let you know. Its gonna take a hella bit of time, so having big patience is important. But I will always be skiddish.
I hear you bro.. the purpose of a true psychologist is to help you discover different deeper & hidden aspects of yourself.. but the true goal is to Know Thy Self.. Knowledge of Self, fr, then true control of self & your deep emotional field.. I'm doing this personal work myself now.. dig?.. I'm my own psychologist but I also have my support team of people smarter & wiser than me & that truly helps me with true guidance & insight to get through my day to days.. ... No bro.. there is no pill for self hatred or loathing.. the only real cure for that is true knowledge of yourself, who you are. Where you come from (Afro-Cubano) & what is your own uniqueness & drive in this life.. the work is always being present in the now & consciously controlling your emotional & engery field the best ways possible for you.. changing thinking & changing behaviors is the true "pill", dig?.. the insanity of repeating bad habits & hating life cause you think you some kind of victim is indeed narcissistic idiotic thinking.. feel me?.. yeah narcissism is weird.. lol. . don't nobody owe you nothing. . You owe yourself!.. you can't control shit in this lifetime.. you can only control yourself... word is life. .
"....Insanity of repeating bad habits & hating life because you think you're some kind of victim is indeed a narcassic idiotic thinking" what does that mean??
So pretty much going to a therapist or psychologist or whatever person can help you with your problem & learning about yourself & discovering ways to change how you think & behave is the treatment you need to get out of this problem if I'm understanding correctly about your comment there
@@maganhassan2627 no you don't really understand. .. but if a psychiatrist works for you, go for it... but nobody will "save" you from yourself but yourself. & that's real.. if you make a conscious decision to go see a therapist, then that's 'your' choice in the aid of what?. truly helping Yourself or your own sanity.. dig?.. But an average quack is just gonna take your money & tell you bullshit.. a true teacher or somebody who knows better & truly cares about you are the best guides in this life.. average psychiatrists aren't that.. they're quacks & drug dealers who deal out (a.k.a. prescribe) psyche meds to poor saps with low self esteem & other mental health issues.. dig?.. someone with true knowledge of self has raised themselves up & can give the tools for others to raise themselves up the same.. dig it?.. always remember things ain't what they seem either sweetie.. you'll never know how much substance something holds until you explore it deeper.. feel me?.. .... oh & somebody whose clinical or is really mentally sick like that does need some real deal supervision.. no doubt on that.. that's a whole another animal from this point ^ here.. & I got to be honest too, even the right light or guide from a true teacher can help the deranged man too.. that's real.. not lab rat testing, but true caring & inner teaching.. dig?.. Also look into Jungian Psychology.. I've personally studied some of Jung's stuff.. that's a good source to learn about higher psychology & true, realistic inner enlightenment.. no question. .
@@selfelevation7 I understand we need to do the work for helping ourselves but if you see someone they are just there to guide you & you can decide whether or not it worked for you & if that failed then you can seek other help
@@maganhassan2627 the greatest book is yourself.. you have to explore & learn yourself fully & truly.. in this life, one must possess true knowledge of self, then true innerstanding & understanding blossoms.. no doubt
What personality type are you? Are you INTJ or ISTJ etc? It matters because the people you’ve had relationships with could have a “clash” with your personality in regards to theirs. Some just personalities connect well with others, others are just repelling.
I become craving for coffee for a few years, then I realize because it reduce stress, and that mean I'm using coffee as drugs substitute, which mean I'm one step from becoming junkies
Hello folks, professional's in the mental Health field, use the Diagnostic Statistical Manual as a guide for diagnosing clients. Here is the Requirements for NPD: NPD is defined as comprising a pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), a constant need for admiration, and a lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by the presence of at least 5 of the following 9 criteria: A grandiose sense of self-importance A preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love A belief that he or she is special and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people or institutions A need for excessive admiration A sense of entitlement Interpersonally exploitive behavior A lack of empathy Envy of others or a belief that others are envious of him or her A demonstration of arrogant and haughty behaviors or attitudes
Is it expensive to seek help? I've always been skeptical of the idea, but the topic of this video sounds all too familiar and I know I have severe problems.
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There are a lot of people having a hard time. I'm one of them that's why I made my channel. It's funny how easy it is to help and support each other . The power of your click could save someone. Great Content!
Your speakdoms are deeply relatable never stop doing them
Geekdom really is a good guy or atleast he’s trying to be, no one asked for this video but he thought you guys needed it
He's a treasure to our community
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Something i've been dealing with for a long time....
I had the same issue and had to learn to start making peace with my past trauma . I had a similar childhood.
Anger is a natural reaction to injustice... but it can eat at you... like a cancer.
But we are taught it’s wrong to make us easy to manage so people don’t have to be accountable.
You’re not crazy. There are also legitimate reasons to be triggered like you said and it’s hard for people to deal with it.
Therapy helps.
Bro..,,You reading my mind? It's like our stories are similar, I was bullied from 5th grade until 8th when I finally got the courage to defend myself. I have gone to therapy as well and have fixed somethings. I want to thank you for these videos and being my friend. Love ya bro. I'm here if ya EVER need me. I'd say I'm one who self depreciated often,with jokes and sly little remarks....I seem to still do it just not as much as I've gotten more confident as I've gotten older.
Crazy how if you sit and listen to someone's testimony being unbiased and keep an open mind, you find out how much you are alike, and have went through and are going through the same things!
GREAT SPEEKDOM!
I got bullied when I was 12 years old. And I’ve learned to ignore and overcome it. When I found out I had autism. I wasn’t happy about it and got pissed off. I hated what I am. But as the years go by. I’ve slowly accepted it who I am and love myself. I’m here for you if want to talk. Love you man!
I’ve struggled with self hatred for years and still do to this day. Thank you for making this video.
You know, I'm going through some stuff on self-hatred, and I decided to re-listen to this pod.
This was really an eye opener for me. My wife has been amazing and patient with me but she's always suggested that I go seek counseling for my 'cynicism' and generally negative outlook. After hearing your story I realize that perhaps I too am dealing with self-hatred. Thank you for opening up about this and every other speakdom where you shine light on mental or emotional issues/trauma. Love your channels. Much love from a fellow Hispanic-american. 🇵🇷
Sorry about the long venting I'm about to do, but I feel like this speaks to me the most. The main problem with me is that I worry more about other people than I do for myself. I absolutely *hate* myself, and when I say hate, that's literally an understatement. I have very low self-esteem, I feel so upset but I don't want other people knowing that. I guess this makes me a hypocrite, but I hate it when other people worry about me. I'd rather have people have a good time than worry about me. But the more I ignore myself, the more the self hatred gets worse. I just want to see other people cheerful and happy, it brings me satisfaction. But I can't be satisfied when I'm not satisfied with myself. I think this really helped me. Great video as always man. I don't know if you realize it, but we all appreciate you lots. ❤️
Hope your better bro your not alone 🤙🫡
This has become one of my favorite series on YT
Great video, man. I feel you. As a society, I think we're starting to warm up to the importance of mental health. Videos like this are important as we come to this greater awareness. - Josh
I feel you on hating being called a liar
god I hate being called a liar, I never lie to anyone
A truly good friend is someone who tells you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear.
More people should watch these speakdoms keep making these they’re very motivative
I have also been realising the importance of self-love lately. Thanks for putting me back on track!
P.S. counselling isn't just for those rainy days. If you can afford it, definitely go there during good times as well. At the very least, your counsellor gets a glimpse of what a good day looks like for you and can help work towards it when the time comes.
This is it Geekdom this is my speakdom. Thank you I really appreciate this one.
I can relate completely...I truly can 😔
Thank you Geekdom. I related so much to this, in fact im writing a testimony on how i am overcoming self hatred. And your so rightx i didnt realize it either until i did 2 years if counseling at my college and through my friends. Now, I am defeatijg this and loving myself. your speakdoms are a blessing, never stop doing them!
I respect you Geekdom. To make this short, I respect you for sharing this and sharing your experiences. As well as trying to do some good out there.
Dude, you just helped me figure out what's wrong with me. The last 3 years I've been bad or underachieved at things I poor my heart and soul into, I also was and to certain extent still am made fun of. I have really bad anger issues that I've tried to control but outbursts keep popping up where I almost drop on the floor in tears over nothing. This actually happened only a few hours before I wrote this. I felt/feel terrible about it, and I hope to God that I'll be able to fix it. THANK YOU.
Hey geekdom, I live in Ocala just right next to Tampa, keep up the good work, these videos and your main channel are great
I 100% understand what you're saying. I've been going through something very similar over the past few years. I was bullied badly too growing up mostly because I had no self confidence and was an easy target, and I was abused at home by both my parents which is why I had no self confidence to begin with. I've been studying NPD and BPD over the past 4 years, and it sounds like you really understand them.
Dude your channels on youtube are awesome! Your Geekdom101 was the first channel I'd go to after each new episode of DB Super.
Bro these videos are good for everyone to watch, even if they have never felt this way before. It will help them be more understanding of some people who have these issues. Keep these up because they are all ways a good listen 👍
Great job being brave enough to be vulnerable. Very respectable.
For going live with this one, respect.
I have values higher than my feelings, they might be described as objectives. Thanks to this I appreciate my self-hatred, it allows me to be more productive, because it allows me to force my most hated person, myself, into working without caring about their feelings.
It's a cycle to me. I get into a bad state, I hate myself more, the hate fuels me to improve, then I improve, hate myself less, work less and then get worse up to the point when my self-hate peaks, then my condition improves again...
So I value my self-hatred. The more I hate myself, the closer I will be to my personal goals.
I might be a workaholic, but I can't see any other way to fix what I need to fix.
My only problem with this video is that it isn't longer. Needed this
This was well needed , thanks geekdom.
This may have actually shed some more light on what went wrong in my last relationship. Thanks dude.
This is so inspiring bro it's crazy how my story kinda relates to yours I'm really sorry about your parents man I lost my dad in 2017 and I just lost my grandpa this past Sunday, these speakdom videos are honestly amazing these have helped me so much especially your mourning speakdom. Thanks for doing this man, it helps me really feel better about some of the things I have been struggling with these past years. Thank you so much dude. Have a good rest of the day!
For the longest time I had Hatred for myself and TBH I didn't wanted to live anymore but I kept hearing to speakdoms and they helped me so much
Thanks Danny for helping
thank for the vid geekdom now that i watch this vid i feel better i didn't relise i had self-hatred
We have all been there at some point in our lives.
Facing Fear is the best way to over come it. I read the Undefeated Mind and it had some really good stories from a Doctor that studied psychology. From his experiences and others the best way to cope with things is to not avoid them and let them happen. It builds strength and character. I've done some similar things to in my life and it often takes me realizing that I'm not putting in enough work or I'm not facing the problem dead on and just avoiding it all together. Good speakdom. Thanks Geekdom.
I understand what you are saying 100 percent. I'm an active duty submariner and have been in for about 9 years at this point. I've been dealing with a lot of similiar issues I've been trying to figure out with mental health regarding depression, anxiety and self-hatred. Just started the process seeking help and I really hope it works out.
Wow geekdom your amazing for talking about this at the right time and moment when I and so many others needed to hear this. From me and many ppl struggling here....thank you......thank you 👏👏👏👍🙏
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Hey Danny thanks for doing these videos please never stop
Thank you Danny it's like you read my mind and uploaded this
Been waiting for this one since you announced 8t on Twitter
I can relate, I have self hatred. Shit sucks, but you gotta push through and see the light, even if it feels like there’s no light at all
Great Speakdom! I hope you can get through all your problems!
Hey Geekdom, thank you for sharing this. As a person who was bullied, and a person who came from poor beginnings, I really appreciate your post. It makes me feel less lonely. I was very aggressive to people who were trying to tease me. I would yell and scream and threaten to physically fight. I ended up doing martial arts and self-improvement to get better. It takes courage to admit this and share this. Your words are going to help somebody in a very positive way. Thank you.
I’m glad you made this video. I did a lot of things wrong and lost a lot of people. I’ve been working on my self a lot, but old habits get me sometimes.
Thanks for this video Geekdom. I really needed to hear this.
I had problems with my father too so your not the only one who had it bad brother
I feel you should get a brother hug
I realized I suffer with this as well. Bullying really fucks you up inside. I've ruined Soo many relationships like this. Thanks for video
Thank you for having these Speekdoms on your channel because they really help me with life and I'm really appreciative of that. Please keep it up because I genuinely deep down love your Speekdoms because it not only feels like your having a heart to heart talk, but also mentoring us. Showing us that there is more in life than meets the eye. Anyways all I'm saying is Thank you very much. 🤘
Thank you so much for making a video about this man, I really respect you for making videos like this.
I’ve never self harmed, but I’m very self deprecating. I put myself down all the time, and it really sucks.
Thanks for sharing homie. A lot of us can relate to this and your experience.
I can relate on so many levels to this Geekdom and if it's OK, I'll message you on your page because I can relate to alot of what you mentioned in the video and on top of that, to add to the issues was I discovered that all the issues I have with depression, anxiety, self hatred, etc, is not only a result of being high functioning autistic and didn't know about it until 2016 and was diagnosed in 2017.
Thank you so much, I’m 20 and am going though this rn despite my recent breakthrough with a little success. Something I will work on for sure you’re words jumpstarted my journey to getting better god bless.
Wolverine in general: I'm very good at what I do... But what I do, isn't very nice.
This was such a real video. I’ve had similar issue too. I have some social anxiety disorder but I’ve been getting better using some cognitive behavioral therapy from the social anxiety institute online. It’s a little expensive but it’s helped. Thanks for making this video dude. Life really is a journey.
Unrelated but, what about those of us who isolate ourselves but want to engage with others but when we do, we’re reminded on why we don’t. There’s a longing for a connection, but it never seems to work out in that opportune time.
Geekdom. It sounds like your on the cusp of discovering Spiritual Awakening. I highly recommend doing research on this subject. It will shift your consciousness past the ego and heal you from the past and help you create the life you want. When you get to a certain level then you will attract high vibe relationships with people. I hope for the best for you. Your a good person. You can tap into the Devine power that is in you. YOU CAN DO IT!!!
PS:. The ego is what self sabatages our dreams. It sabatages the abilities to manifest our prayers. Working on the subconscious part of the brain is a main component to unlocking our full potential to manifest what we really want or need. Rewiring the brain spiritually is important. The holy book says, stuff like "As a man thinks, so is he", "look inward there lies the kingdom of God". We have the answers inside of us, we just have to seek it. "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened". There is too much to say in one post. I believe that Spiritual Awaking and being born again go hand in hand. The bible correlates soo much with the process of Awakening into a higher states of consciousness. It think your on the right track. I think you have a higher purpose/calling in life to help yourself and just as important, service to others. More soo than doing just Anime/manga reviews/Movie reviews. Close your eyes, take a couple deep breaths and imagine the best version of yourself, and ask those questions to your Higher/True Self and the Creator/Source energy. If that's what you want. Alright good luck Bro. Peace!!!
Love your video bro in general, but these videos connect with me as I do struggle and I do appreciate the love and awareness support ☮
geekdom, i appreciate your talk on self hatred.
couldn't have dropped this topic at a better time
Thank you for making this video, it really has caused me to look deep into myself and reflect. I think it’s clear you made a lot of progress with yourself, and I respect you for that and for sharing this with others.
You really helped me today man
There's this storyline of the incredible hulk that separated Bruce Banner from the Hulk, separated bodies, and it showed what happens to Bruce when his anger can't be lashed out effectively, without the ability to become Hulk, he basically turns into a horrible person, pushes the love of his life away, and then turns into basically a villain desperately trying to become Hulk again by doing gamma experiments on animals on an island. And it's actually Hulk with some "help" from Doctor Doom that actually had to fix the situation with Hulk having to sacrifice himself killing him together with Bruce in a blast, being the hero while Bruce always deemed him a curse, but Bruce was the problem all along. More often than not Hulk just wants peace. Of course they ended up fused again cause comics and everything but I always have found that it was a beautiful story on how Bruce is affected by his childhood traumas and how the whole Hulk mithos isn't black and white
I know how you feel, except I have known I have self-hatred. It's not something I had to uncover, but it's something I don't know how to deal with it. You're right that counselors are not cheap, and I'm not confident that they're really effective. I hear about people who start counseling and never stop... and also never get to the bottom of their problems and work through them. It sounds like it should be effective, but I am skeptical.
Im 80% - 90% sure I have self hatred. I'll seek counseling to see if I have it for sure. Thank you.
Keep your chin up and keep walking m8 you got this don't let the negativity get yo you 😤 🙏.
I am in to it.
This is wrll rounded life right here..an dude big enough to talk bout it.
Bro I've never done this this shit, but I've been bullied too my entire life, last month I broke one of my coworkers jaws with one punch, I just done know anymore
@Not So Moody ''you guys'' great way to describe Suicidal and Depressed people and ''trying to be'' that was a heartfelt video, im glad he got through that shit gives me some hope that I might get back up and get through the shit ive got going on now
I love you so much. Thank you.
Yea I was big into self sabotaging because I felt like I didn't deserve it, or from the constant stories I would tell myself. If you can't go to a therapist, I recommend getting a journal and just writing down things like why does X keep happening to me, or why didn't this work,and as you write, see everything from a third person perspective so you can see how you are at fault for some of the things(if you are). Then you can start changing your ways going forward.
Dude you think you had it bad
I was born with a disability and I was bullied mercilessly
And there was times I wanted to kill my self
But dragon ball z saved my life
True story
Ultimate L I wasn’t playing it down
I was trying to say that I know the feeling I understand what his talking about
This is a video im looking thank you Geekdom so much for this. You’re my hero!!!
I can really relate to this. I hate myself and my life, I’m not good at taking compliments, I have a lot of anger issues, and I’ve got a tendency to hold a grudge.
Great video bro I have borderline personality disorder bi polar and extreme anxiety disorder its ups and downs I use meditation, healthy eating and exercising to keep healthy mentally. I'm sure this video will help a lot of people
I'm glad you've been going to counseling and taking care of yourself. If you don't mind, can you tell us how you became homeless? If it's too much to answer, I understand.
I can related in this as well I have a lot self hate for myself due to my inability of defending myself.
Hey geekdom thanks for making videos like this they always really help allot
shit yall, we aint alone, at least we got eachother and geekdom :)
How do you know if you have a narcissistic disorder? You said that you try to celebrate your accomplishments but feel unworthy. I feel like that in a sense. I want to celebrate what accomplishments I have but I don’t feel like I’ve really done anything. Do I have a disorder?
Much respect geekdom
I can see a number of things here that I can see in myself. Bullied in school due to being big, glasses, bad teeth, at one point I was even the stinky kid (mostly because I had PE in the first period but refused to shower with a bunch of other guys). Grew up with parents that are still fairly religious, but as a kid we would host church in our house a couple of times a week. This religion is also very dogmatic, and there were just a lot of things that I just wasn't allowed to do, so we could stay in the churches good leanings.
For a large part of my life I would be constantly pushed into a career that I hated to do, and the people that I would have to work with. But then basically treated (sometimes being told straight out) that I would always need family to take care of me. Being living with mom and dad, with my sister, brother, and so on. It effects you, really bad, to the point when I finally got a room mate I had to cut off my entire family for a long while so I could just work on me (of which they called selfish). When every other part of my life was helping my family whenever or however I could, to the point that is why I kept having problems with finding my feet. In all, feeling like I kept being used by family and it was looked down on anytime I wanted to do something for me. It was when I decided to let them back in my life where things changed with them on treating me like a child (except for my sister).
Even after listing my many accomplishments in another of your videos, this same feeling still hits. Right now I am staring at the book that I am wanting to write, sitting around 30k words done, and have between 60k - 90k before the first draft is done. But the feeling of not being good enough, or deserving enough keeps stopping me where I just find ways to avoid doing it.
P.S. stop hating on your parents so much with smoking and trying to hide it. This is coming from a smoker that has kids, and I've tried to quit so many damn times, and I don't want my kids to see me doing it. Where I do feel hatred for not being able to quit, and I am sure that the same thing was true for your parents, it is a very hard thing to do. What stops me most there is that I know that I get a really nasty nico rage, where I have no control on saying things that would really hurt my kids. I do have another date and things worked out for around that date to be able to give it my all to quit once and for all. Basically I'll be going on vacation with the family out of the country for about two weeks, come back alone (as the wife and kids will be there for three more weeks). Making it so that I don't have to worry about being overly mean and hurtful to those that mean the most to me.
Love you so much man st8 up respect for you brother also mad respect for being able to speak up on self hatred
This kinda hit home for me..
Opening up to your peeps like this doesn’t sound easy ,wish you the best!
I sympathize with you ! I can’t open up yet I’m not there yet lol
I don’t have this problem, at least I think I don’t, but you talked about a few things im okay sharing with you and anyone scrolling through.
I was bullied as well after I moved to my current home town when i was in 1st grade. (I was well liked at my other school before I moved.) But it didn’t make me hate myself, it just made me sad I wasn’t cool enough and all throughout my school life and still to this day as an adult, i try to find a cool badass group that i can fit in and click with. Hang out, do silly stupid shit together, go on adventures and whatnot. Still haven’t found a group of cool people like that yet. But all I ever wanted since my first day in a new school is liked, accepted, and be seen as a cool person that my peers will value and respect. And with literally every kid in school bullying you relentlessly and playing gaslight tricks on teachers and principal to get out of punishment (thus making me get in school suspension a lot and my school district thinking im a problem child when that wasn’t true, thus cutting away a lot of opportunities I could of experienced) it forced me into an introvert lifestyle but im naturally an extrovert and just want to be fun and out going with people but I couldn’t. Now as an adult, im an ambivert. A mix of both due to several factors.
I did use to cut myself and tried to kill myself but that was due to a side effect of a medication i was put on that I shouldn’t have been put on. Sadly, my uncle was on that same medication and due to his ptsd from doing search and rescue work at ground zero a day after the infamous terror attack happened for the next 3 or so months of clean up and body-bagging, in early 2004 he commented suicide. And weirdly enough i was the last to know the truth. Not till summer of 2013. So i deal with a bit of survivor’s guilt. Its not as bad now but it still sucks.
And finally, as far as trust goes, I naturally don’t trust anyone for a long while, especially with men due to my trust issues ive developed from past relationships and one friendship. Its not that i hate you, im just scared to trust cuz I don’t wanna get hurt again. Ive been through enough and more hurt is the last thing i ever need. But when I feel ready, I will let you know. Its gonna take a hella bit of time, so having big patience is important. But I will always be skiddish.
Love your video bro.
Thank you
It feels like a paradox in your brain sometimes
Realest vid on RUclips
I can relate
With hating
My body
I hear you bro.. the purpose of a true psychologist is to help you discover different deeper & hidden aspects of yourself.. but the true goal is to Know Thy Self.. Knowledge of Self, fr, then true control of self & your deep emotional field.. I'm doing this personal work myself now.. dig?.. I'm my own psychologist but I also have my support team of people smarter & wiser than me & that truly helps me with true guidance & insight to get through my day to days.. ...
No bro.. there is no pill for self hatred or loathing.. the only real cure for that is true knowledge of yourself, who you are. Where you come from (Afro-Cubano) & what is your own uniqueness & drive in this life.. the work is always being present in the now & consciously controlling your emotional & engery field the best ways possible for you.. changing thinking & changing behaviors is the true "pill", dig?.. the insanity of repeating bad habits & hating life cause you think you some kind of victim is indeed narcissistic idiotic thinking.. feel me?.. yeah narcissism is weird.. lol. .
don't nobody owe you nothing. . You owe yourself!.. you can't control shit in this lifetime.. you can only control yourself... word is life. .
"....Insanity of repeating bad habits & hating life because you think you're some kind of victim is indeed a narcassic idiotic thinking" what does that mean??
So pretty much going to a therapist or psychologist or whatever person can help you with your problem & learning about yourself & discovering ways to change how you think & behave is the treatment you need to get out of this problem if I'm understanding correctly about your comment there
@@maganhassan2627 no you don't really understand. .. but if a psychiatrist works for you, go for it... but nobody will "save" you from yourself but yourself. & that's real.. if you make a conscious decision to go see a therapist, then that's 'your' choice in the aid of what?. truly helping Yourself or your own sanity.. dig?..
But an average quack is just gonna take your money & tell you bullshit.. a true teacher or somebody who knows better & truly cares about you are the best guides in this life.. average psychiatrists aren't that.. they're quacks & drug dealers who deal out (a.k.a. prescribe) psyche meds to poor saps with low self esteem & other mental health issues.. dig?.. someone with true knowledge of self has raised themselves up & can give the tools for others to raise themselves up the same.. dig it?.. always remember things ain't what they seem either sweetie.. you'll never know how much substance something holds until you explore it deeper.. feel me?.. ....
oh & somebody whose clinical or is really mentally sick like that does need some real deal supervision.. no doubt on that.. that's a whole another animal from this point ^ here.. & I got to be honest too, even the right light or guide from a true teacher can help the deranged man too.. that's real.. not lab rat testing, but true caring & inner teaching.. dig?..
Also look into Jungian Psychology.. I've personally studied some of Jung's stuff.. that's a good source to learn about higher psychology & true, realistic inner enlightenment.. no question. .
@@selfelevation7 I understand we need to do the work for helping ourselves but if you see someone they are just there to guide you & you can decide whether or not it worked for you & if that failed then you can seek other help
@@maganhassan2627 the greatest book is yourself.. you have to explore & learn yourself fully & truly.. in this life, one must possess true knowledge of self, then true innerstanding & understanding blossoms.. no doubt
What personality type are you? Are you INTJ or ISTJ etc? It matters because the people you’ve had relationships with could have a “clash” with your personality in regards to theirs. Some just personalities connect well with others, others are just repelling.
I become craving for coffee for a few years, then I realize because it reduce stress, and that mean I'm using coffee as drugs substitute, which mean I'm one step from becoming junkies
Hello folks, professional's in the mental Health field, use the Diagnostic Statistical Manual as a guide for diagnosing clients. Here is the Requirements for NPD:
NPD is defined as comprising a pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), a constant need for admiration, and a lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by the presence of at least 5 of the following 9 criteria:
A grandiose sense of self-importance
A preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
A belief that he or she is special and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people or institutions
A need for excessive admiration
A sense of entitlement
Interpersonally exploitive behavior
A lack of empathy
Envy of others or a belief that others are envious of him or her
A demonstration of arrogant and haughty behaviors or attitudes
I got a lot of self hatred for plenty of reasons.
Is it expensive to seek help? I've always been skeptical of the idea, but the topic of this video sounds all too familiar and I know I have severe problems.
A lot of times
Sharing things is a solution to many problems
I know you wouldn't want to talk about this on YT but please try talking to your frnds
Geekdom I love u man