You’ve got a whole lot to catch up on, Vanessa. These are definitely songs you gotta check out: Sick Boi, Tale of Jenny & Screech(full including Violet’s Tale), Chalk Outlines(live), How To Be Me(live), Genesis, Power, Illest Of Our Time, The Hunger, Animal Flow.
Only Ren could write a bop about a painful subject and then break us by the end. He's elite: rapper, singer, guitar player, performance artist. I can't wait to see you react to more of his music (I mean art).
I enjoy that it sounds upbeat. I think it mirrors how a lot of people hide their mental struggles. Happy on the outside, wanting to end it on the inside.
Yup; hits a bit too close to home. But here I am listening again lol. Mad respect for Ren calling it out by name and not shying away from the taboo. Kudos to both of ya on this 🤘
I love the way this song reaches all of us! It is raw, emotionally charged and needs to be heard by all! Ren is such a sweet soul and so brave to share his personal experience with us! Loved your reaction and you will love your Ren journey❤
every time i hear the last part of the song it hits deep. That guilt and grief is not something that goes away easily. A long time ago I had a failed attempt, i have anxiety and depression and when i was younger it felt like too much. I never told anybody about that, then quite a few years later my best friend had a successful attempt, he was going through a lot of the same stuff i went through. I still feel like if i had been open maybe when he was feeling the way he was he would have came to me to talk and would still be here. That was 12 almost 13 years ago and it is still there buried deep it is just numbed now. This is why i am open about my experiences now, I can't bring back my friend but I have listened to some people that were going through it that are still with us today.
Great job reacting to this song! I feel the same way every time I listen to it. The first half is very catchy despite the topic, and the second half makes me feel for everyone who goes through being the ones left behind to sort through their emotions.
Made me cry too. This hit home. I have been thinking about or trying to decide whether or not to show this song to my son who lost his best friend to s........ 2years ago but I don't want to make him sad tho. Love your reactions😊
You could tell him about what it is about and ask him if he wants to watch it with you. It might open him up to taking about it, especially if you are receptive. And it gives him the opportunity to make an informed decision about watching it.
@@rosspierkowski6161 great reply. I know when I listened I released some buried trauma that I was holding onto. Crying is so much a part of that and when you can hold that space for another without needing to talk or explain, that's when the magic of healing happens, even if just a little bit 🙏
The perfect and beautiful reaction given the subject, to this most powerful song. Your words will mean a lot to many and your gentle and respectful approach was heart warming. If you really want to change the dynamics you should listen to Bongo Bong by the band Ren is in The Big Push!! Chalk Outlines with Chinchilla is a truly stunning performance , honestly the list goes on and on. ( Love the format of your screen , you in the circle at the bottom, it makes the artists performance very more impressive. Thanks
[Chorus] Oh I, oh I, oh I've Fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side Suicide, suicide, suicide Oh I, oh I, oh I'm Treading on the tracks in the night-time It never really felt like the right time Suicide, suicide, suicide [Verse 1] I'm so fucking lonely beneath this Narcissistic, can't keep a secret Miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit Some say troubled, but some say sadistic Bruises, my brother, one time or the other My skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber Bruises, my sister, skin pop the blister Dig deep, resist the feeling when it hits you [Chorus] Oh I, oh I, oh I've Fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side Suicide, suicide, suicide Oh I, oh I, oh I'm Treading on the tracks in the night-time It never really felt like the right time Suicide, suicide, suicide [Sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi I feel like it's not me, it's the world that's sick [Verse 2] I'm so fucking washed up and seasick Masochistic kid with a split lip Six feet deep, I can't eat, I'm nervous Won't stay down 'cause my body purges Useless, my mother, can't keep in my supper Skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour Truth is my father, you choose your karma Draw for the sword then drive through the armour [Chorus] Oh I, oh I, oh I've Fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side Suicide, suicide, suicide Oh I, oh I, oh I'm Treading on the tracks in the night-time It never really felt like the right time Suicide, suicide, suicide [Post-Chorus] Suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide, suicide, suicide [Outro] It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts? I see the world through Fibonacci Sequences and Double Dutch I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job I locked my youth inside a trunk inside a pick-up truck Then dumped the whole thing over that same bridge the night you jumped I think about that sometimes, vividly What it felt like to look down and see tranquility One sudden movement in a world of possibility Only one movement to expose our fragility I fucking miss you, and I miss myself I miss thinking that we're indestructible as well I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back With Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin' lads I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap I never even call 'em up, the distance is my plaster cast The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too But I still can’t find the anger, all I find is missing you Man, I miss you, with all my rhymes I picture running five minutes quicker, I'm right on time I picture pulling you back over the edge and then we're crying And holding you, my brother, and telling you that it's fine That’s not the way that I worked, 'cause I was late like a jerk There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse I hope you're listening, I love you, man, I miss you absurd Fuck
Very emotional. There was a hint of Ren's "Sick Boi" at 2 mins in when you said "like that" with a smile. Would love to see your reaction to that one Vanessa 🙂 Have a wonderful day! Gango!
Aye, the kids a bit special like. Anyone who can make a 52 year old jaded Geordie like rap music suddenly is a special talent indeed. Everything he performs makes you stop, take and breath and think, the worlds a better place for it too!
You bet this bloke is talented.Been watching him for years.His growth in the busking days with the BIG PUSH and now performing his own stuff.Amazingly talented human ,REN
Been enjoying your Ren reactions. There was a call back to his song "Sick Boi" tucked in there you made a comment on. Might be a good next view for you!
yeah i agree this is really talent! for sho! he likes to be real a lot some people really dont like that. yeah i prefer these type of lyrics and songs over certain songs for SHO
Great sensative reaction! This hit me in a very personal way as Hi Ren did.. Believe me at age 65 I have PPMS which I was diagnosed with at 61 but did go through mental issues in my 30's. As bad as physical issues are mental issues are much more painful because you have little or no control of your mind, very scary stuff. I really relate to Ren because he is going down a similar path with his early mental issues and Lyme and like MS there is really no complete cure its comes down to doing your best to manage it. Also like me he doesn't look at it as a disability but at it as a challenge and opportunity to express yourself in a positive manor and let people know you can deal with it in a creative, artistic way. I wonder if the woman in the video is Chinchilla. I this this is the best AI video I have seen!
Maybe others are doing it and I just don't know about it, but you're the only reaction channel I found that do some editing, don't speak over the song or briefly, lower the music if so and stop/play the song again off screen. It's so much better and very satisfying/calming not to have superimposed layers and not to "lose" anything from the song AND your reactions. Thanks for that extra work :) (also, full screen for the video, full volume for the sound, you're in the corner, many do it the other way around ^^". Maybe because of the copyright issues, but still better your way, hope you'll be able to keep doing so :).
Hello there! Thank you… I appreciate that.. I like to make my videos more about the music itself and even if I’m not reacting to music and doing other reactions/videos I enjoy editing it since it’s my passion. Thank you for noticing that and appreciating it as I appreciate you !!! Have a wonderful day 😊
The part where you were like "ooh I liked thst" is from his video "sick boi" it's a great video. I'd highly recommend you do the tale of "Jenny and screech full" though first. It's 13 min and a trilogy of 3 songs in one video that tell a story.
Imist have had 5 friends/people I know unlive themselves by the age of 20. I dont think my 2 sons have siffered that experience and I hope they never will. Though geowing up in a mining town in South Wales is so much harder than where I am now. God bless you Ren, and all who read this. ❤
If a song about suicide doesn't hit like a sledgehammer, it hasn't done its job. People don't stand at the edge, staring down into the abyss, unless they've been broken. It goes against every instinct to even contemplate stepping off, and yet, something broke them. There are no words for how valuable genuine, heartfelt reactions are. Thank you. I know that my comment is a bit disjointed, I currently lack the ability to tie things together coherently. The only reason I am still here to write this comment is because of a couple good friends who truly understood that when I was reaching out for help, it was literally life or death serious. When I reached out, they listened. While they couldn't understand how it was that I could be as capable as I am in many areas and still have areas I couldn't handle, the type of things where the normal response is "just do X", they were willing to hear that it was the truth, and that I truly needed help. They were willing to listen and take what I said seriously, and work with me to develop a crisis plan where I was welcome any time if I needed somewhere safe where I could take a break.
There a few Ren songs that will make you cry, just keep the tissues nearby. And there are Ren songs that will make you think and then there are some that you can't stop laughing! He really pulls you in to his music and music makes us feel! That's why we all love Ren! Just a heads up, Ren announced yesterday, July 13, that he will be dropping a new song, Murderer, on July 19 (someone correct me if my math is off!) And then Money Game part 3 is coming in August so my suggestion to you is for you to react to Money Game parts 1 and 2 soon so you can be caught up when he drops Money Game part 3! Just trying to be helpful. Also, if you need a Ren song that's him flexing and not really touching on any heavy stuff, I would go watch either What You Want (his homage to the Beastie Boys) or Losing It (Fisher Retake). It's prob nice to break up some of the heavier stuff with some of the lighter stuff so you don't overload, especially since you picked 3 Artists that you've been reacting to that all talk about very real, very important and sometimes very heavy topics that not a lot of other artists are talking about. Great job and just so you know, every single reaction I've seen to this just about left the reactor in tears or needing to take a minute. We all did. I'm so glad I found your reactions. I like your vibe and your positivity! I still have a few of your music reaction videos to catch up on but I'm along for the ride!
To me the music being so catchy and not happy, but distracting and "head bopping" good while the lyrics are so deep, sad and hard hitting is just a perfect representation of depression. The lyrics are how you feel inside while the music is that smile you try to put on for the rest of the world, trying desperately to make sure everyone is all good while wishing secretly someone will hear, will notice that you are really screaming for help.
His song "freckled angels"(freckled angels is also the name of the album so if you check it out makesureits the song, not just a song from the album) is also about the same friend who jumped off the bridge.
This song is kinda how it goes for many. Kinda fun life then things get odd and then a friend just is gone and we are so self invested we miss whats happening. And sadly when you see it sometimes we can't stop it. The best we can do is try and be the light for other's.
My favorite ren songs are Genesis and Dominoes. Dominoes has a very strong message thats worth shouting out into the world. I would go further and make everyone when they hit 12 y/o listen to Dominoes
Buckle up!!! Ren has more layers than an onion! More Bars than a prison! Think if Eminem, Shakespeare, Bob Marley, and Jimi Hendrix had a Baby... That's Ren!!! Suggest Losing it, Chaulk Outlines, Crutch, Life Is Funny, Hold On, Love Music trilogy, Bittersweet Symphony, What you Want and Fire, etc.... (Cannot find a bad track! Very few are the same style/genre!) Of Course... Jenny and Screech Tales (Full version!) Are a Must!!!
Ren's heavy breathing at the transition represents him being out of breath from running as fast as he could to the bridge where Joe was. He got a call saying Joe was was there and he was thinking about jumping. Ren lived was closest to the bridge so he got dressed ran there as fast as he could and calling Joe the whole time and it's phone would ring alot and go to voicemail so he thought he still okay. When Ren got there he didn't see Joe anywhere so he called his phone and immediately it said, " this phone is no longer in service" and you only get that message when a phone has been broken or submerged in water and no longer working. So Ren was two minutes too late 😢 RIP JOE Hughes, my family, friends, brothers and sisters I served with and everyone else in the world lost to suicide. I've been on that ledge too many times but because of my stubbornness and witnessing first hand how devastating it is to the family and friends of those lost is the reason I'm still here. Can't say I'm not jealous of those who left because their pain and suffering is no more. But I'll still stay here and try my best to make the best out of that's left of my existence.
Yeah it hit us hard..my beautiful talented son commit suicide 2 year ago..can,t express the pain..must stay strong for his twin sis ter..don,t want to loose her..she must love life again..Ren say it straight..
I was afraid to click. I wasn't sure I was ready for the heart squeeze. My concern for my own comfort is an insult to the pain. The pain in life doesn't care if I am ready. It doesn't hurt if you don't love. Love all the way and let it hurt knowing it comes from love.
Thank you. I wanna die because I’m not the man I know I can be. My mind makes me feel like I won’t ever be anything. Going away won’t hurt .but I hope some one wouldn’t want that I just don’t know who
Really good despite the topic. Excellent because of the topic. He speaks the taboo with such authenticity that it has helped so many people start discussing what they have been afraid to acknowledge. And it is beautiful and painful and terrible and priceless. He's not talking about suicide. He is bringing us along to experience his experience. That's why it grabs our hearts and squeezes the tears from our faces.
@@DandelionCollab I miss spoke. what I meant was that most songs about suicide, depression, tragedy etc. are not songs that have a catchy beat or melody that I feel like I can groove to while doing an activity. But this song not only has a great message it also sends a great vibe. I lost many of friends and loved ones to suicide and I will never intentionally try to down play or look past the harsh reality or the subject.
@@junedye4226 I did not think you were downplaying it. It just triggered what I thought would be a clever phrase. Great vibe, Great message, Great human. Love you.
Some have guessed that this "skin counterfit silicone rubber" may refer to what happens from the meds he was put on. You get a real buzz from some meds and they leave you numb.
Somewhere on the comments page of the Suicide video Ren wrote this but it wasn’t pinned so it can get lost in the comments. This is beautiful and relevant to the song and everyone should read it. Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
so the way he did the song was very calculated(the 2nd part wasnt suppose to be for this song but it fit) by putting that word in a melodic track with a good tempo is trying to normalize talking about it and not let is fall into the taboo words that go into the abyss. sui is looked down upon in our culture in several different ways. its just a word that is connected to someones feelings that no one actually knows whats going on with that person, people wanna blame the person because he made others feel bad and dont care about what his feels are and how bad could they be. all the thoughts that come with it will have a large chunk of society will look down upon in friendships and the bigger thing situation.....guys who are emotional and are oopen about it, if a woman sees a guy cry in a situation they are clueless about.....it makes it nearly impossible to find relationships unless the person u date is part of the really bad mental health..... im 36 male who most likely never have a relationship or let alone marrige......i had a ex gf who we were still close in a weird way.....we both agreed at age 30 if we both werent married we would get married, shes the only girl in a relationship ive been in understood it but that didnt happen because when i was 27 i found out she died and no one would tell me why when i tried to contact a couple people i knew in her fmaily and friend. im borderline disabled due to the level of my mentall health problems have bi polar 1 with psychosis, generalized anixety disorder, nightmare disorder. i cant live alone without a family or close frriend who needs to be there in dangerious times. due to my nightmare disorder i literally live 2 lives at once as i started vivid dreams/nightmares as soon as i fall asleep when a normal person dream patttern u reach rem sleep which is aorund 1hour 30- 2 hours when u really get full sleep . there is 1 medication for it and it essentially works for for about 50% and trhe other 50% it does nothing which im part of that. the best thats there is gabapentin which still causes me to dream that way but it relaxes the nerves in the brain and body so instead of my boidy under full stress during sleep its reelxed and my dreams make it feel like i have a 2nd life......its stressful but its better than living in vivid nightmares
Joe Hughes, jumped from the Menai Bridge. He dedicated his first album, Freckled Angels to Joe & a couple songs have referenced him as well. Ren added the last part about Joe after he had an interview with Knox Hill. Ren thought it felt incomplete Ren being late. He wasn't late in the since that there was a time Ren was supposed to be there. Joe was sending out goodbye call/messages (this was at like 3am). Ren rushed out the door and made it to the bridge minutes after Joe's last moments.... So, yes this is true. Joe was one of Ren's best friends. I think Joe is part of the reason Ren is here with us today. Ren saw what Joe's passing did to him and those around him and couldn't do that to his friends... The song with Ren and Chinchilla - "How To Be Me" was also a tribute to Joe. That entire song was written from Joe's perspective except the last last where Ren says "I miss you".
" I don't have somebody close in my life that has struggled with that" Thing is you may not know about it. Listen to your friends, to your family, to your acquaintances www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/warning-signs-of-suicide
Thank you for clearing that up… I meant somebody who has went through with it.. but you’re absolutely right.. we never know what someone is going through. Thank you for sharing
Did this song hit you like a wall of bricks too? 🧱
Absolutely 💯. Great reaction❤
@@Singlespeedjo thank you so much ☺️
Yes it did- I've lost many in my life including my Father- Much love to you and thank you for being REAL.
Yep I have cried watching 500 reacts of this so far RIP Joe😢
Yes. It did.
You’ve got a whole lot to catch up on, Vanessa. These are definitely songs you gotta check out: Sick Boi, Tale of Jenny & Screech(full including Violet’s Tale), Chalk Outlines(live), How To Be Me(live), Genesis, Power, Illest Of Our Time, The Hunger, Animal Flow.
She definitely needs to hear Sick Boi!
All of the above and his live busking stuff with the big push and sam tompkins. ;) awsome reaction!
Only Ren could write a bop about a painful subject and then break us by the end. He's elite: rapper, singer, guitar player, performance artist. I can't wait to see you react to more of his music (I mean art).
I enjoy that it sounds upbeat. I think it mirrors how a lot of people hide their mental struggles. Happy on the outside, wanting to end it on the inside.
Yup; hits a bit too close to home. But here I am listening again lol. Mad respect for Ren calling it out by name and not shying away from the taboo. Kudos to both of ya on this 🤘
He gets all the kudos 👏🏼
Ren tells the truth about sensitive subjects. The song is very emotional and beautiful. RIP Joe.
Beautiful reaction, thank you. Please do more Ren reactions there is so much to discover and you wont be disappointed.
You got Ren'd in the feels!
I love the way this song reaches all of us! It is raw, emotionally charged and needs to be heard by all! Ren is such a sweet soul and so brave to share his personal experience with us! Loved your reaction and you will love your Ren journey❤
every time i hear the last part of the song it hits deep. That guilt and grief is not something that goes away easily. A long time ago I had a failed attempt, i have anxiety and depression and when i was younger it felt like too much. I never told anybody about that, then quite a few years later my best friend had a successful attempt, he was going through a lot of the same stuff i went through. I still feel like if i had been open maybe when he was feeling the way he was he would have came to me to talk and would still be here. That was 12 almost 13 years ago and it is still there buried deep it is just numbed now. This is why i am open about my experiences now, I can't bring back my friend but I have listened to some people that were going through it that are still with us today.
Stay strong ❤ thank you for sharing.
Great reaction! Please dive deeper into Ren's work. The man is special.
Bless you Great Great reaction thank you.
Every time I hear this I tear up. Such courage to put this out there.
Thanks for the honest and heartfelt reaction Vanessa. All the best from the UK
Great reaction my friend love and respect from the UK 👍 RIp Joe 🙏
UK ❤❤
This song makes me cry every time, great reaction ❤️
Thank you for this beautiful reaction. You get it!
Great job reacting to this song! I feel the same way every time I listen to it. The first half is very catchy despite the topic, and the second half makes me feel for everyone who goes through being the ones left behind to sort through their emotions.
Everything he writes connects us to each other.
Wonderful reaction video to an amazing artist on such a deep topic. Thanks
Thank you so much Jason!
Awesome song, and awesome reaction. Keep doing what you do!
Made me cry too. This hit home. I have been thinking about or trying to decide whether or not to show this song to my son who lost his best friend to s........ 2years ago but I don't want to make him sad tho. Love your reactions😊
You could tell him about what it is about and ask him if he wants to watch it with you. It might open him up to taking about it, especially if you are receptive. And it gives him the opportunity to make an informed decision about watching it.
@@rosspierkowski6161 great reply. I know when I listened I released some buried trauma that I was holding onto. Crying is so much a part of that and when you can hold that space for another without needing to talk or explain, that's when the magic of healing happens, even if just a little bit 🙏
This song is real powerful love the video Vanessa stay motivated dream big 1 mill on the way Queen
The perfect and beautiful reaction given the subject, to this most powerful song. Your words will mean a lot to many and your gentle and respectful approach was heart warming. If you really want to change the dynamics you should listen to Bongo Bong by the band Ren is in The Big Push!! Chalk Outlines with Chinchilla is a truly stunning performance , honestly the list goes on and on. ( Love the format of your screen , you in the circle at the bottom, it makes the artists performance very more impressive. Thanks
thank you for reacting to this powerful song Ren is my favourite artist ever ❤❤
as a suicide survivor, this hits hard 😭
You had me at "that's talent"
[Chorus]
Oh I, oh I, oh I've
Fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Oh I, oh I, oh I'm
Treading on the tracks in the night-time
It never really felt like the right time
Suicide, suicide, suicide
[Verse 1]
I'm so fucking lonely beneath this
Narcissistic, can't keep a secret
Miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit
Some say troubled, but some say sadistic
Bruises, my brother, one time or the other
My skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber
Bruises, my sister, skin pop the blister
Dig deep, resist the feeling when it hits you
[Chorus]
Oh I, oh I, oh I've
Fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Oh I, oh I, oh I'm
Treading on the tracks in the night-time
It never really felt like the right time
Suicide, suicide, suicide
[Sample]
Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi
I feel like it's not me, it's the world that's sick
[Verse 2]
I'm so fucking washed up and seasick
Masochistic kid with a split lip
Six feet deep, I can't eat, I'm nervous
Won't stay down 'cause my body purges
Useless, my mother, can't keep in my supper
Skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour
Truth is my father, you choose your karma
Draw for the sword then drive through the armour
[Chorus]
Oh I, oh I, oh I've
Fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Oh I, oh I, oh I'm
Treading on the tracks in the night-time
It never really felt like the right time
Suicide, suicide, suicide
[Post-Chorus]
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide, suicide, suicide
[Outro]
It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut
Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup
You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts?
I see the world through Fibonacci Sequences and Double Dutch
I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not
I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job
I locked my youth inside a trunk inside a pick-up truck
Then dumped the whole thing over that same bridge the night you jumped
I think about that sometimes, vividly
What it felt like to look down and see tranquility
One sudden movement in a world of possibility
Only one movement to expose our fragility
I fucking miss you, and I miss myself
I miss thinking that we're indestructible as well
I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back
With Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin' lads
I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap
I never even call 'em up, the distance is my plaster cast
The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too
But I still can’t find the anger, all I find is missing you
Man, I miss you, with all my rhymes
I picture running five minutes quicker, I'm right on time
I picture pulling you back over the edge and then we're crying
And holding you, my brother, and telling you that it's fine
That’s not the way that I worked, 'cause I was late like a jerk
There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt
Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse
I hope you're listening, I love you, man, I miss you absurd
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Very emotional. There was a hint of Ren's "Sick Boi" at 2 mins in when you said "like that" with a smile. Would love to see your reaction to that one Vanessa 🙂 Have a wonderful day! Gango!
What a great reaction! Keep up the good work!
Thank you Ern! 😊
more ren please, thanks
This song is a ninja punch. You don’t see it coming and leaves tears in your eyes.
Keep the content going Vgomes.
Aye, the kids a bit special like. Anyone who can make a 52 year old jaded Geordie like rap music suddenly is a special talent indeed. Everything he performs makes you stop, take and breath and think, the worlds a better place for it too!
I'll say it again... he's On His OWN LEVEL!!! No One Compares to him!!!
This song hurts.
It is beautiful and painful and terrible and priceless.
You bet this bloke is talented.Been watching him for years.His growth in the busking days with the BIG PUSH and now performing his own stuff.Amazingly talented human ,REN
Been enjoying your Ren reactions. There was a call back to his song "Sick Boi" tucked in there you made a comment on. Might be a good next view for you!
Thank you for your honesty and the authentic reaction to Ren, your generation's Bard
Your mental health is never selfish - beautiful statement. So true. ❤
Thank you for agreeing Amanda… nice to hear others having the same perspective ❤️
@@vanessagomesI liked the way you worded it. Perfect!! 🎶🙌🏼
yeah i agree this is really talent! for sho! he likes to be real a lot some people really dont like that. yeah i prefer these type of lyrics and songs over certain songs for SHO
Great sensative reaction!
This hit me in a very personal way as Hi Ren did..
Believe me at age 65 I have PPMS which I was diagnosed with at 61 but did go through mental issues in my 30's.
As bad as physical issues are mental issues are much more painful because you have little or no control of your mind, very scary stuff.
I really relate to Ren because he is going down a similar path with his early mental issues and Lyme and like MS there is really no complete cure its comes down to doing your best to manage it.
Also like me he doesn't look at it as a disability but at it as a challenge and opportunity to express yourself in a positive manor and let people know you can deal with it in a creative, artistic way.
I wonder if the woman in the video is Chinchilla.
I this this is the best AI video I have seen!
Love that you push the volume forward…
It really jams..,,
Maybe others are doing it and I just don't know about it, but you're the only reaction channel I found that do some editing, don't speak over the song or briefly, lower the music if so and stop/play the song again off screen. It's so much better and very satisfying/calming not to have superimposed layers and not to "lose" anything from the song AND your reactions. Thanks for that extra work :) (also, full screen for the video, full volume for the sound, you're in the corner, many do it the other way around ^^". Maybe because of the copyright issues, but still better your way, hope you'll be able to keep doing so :).
Hello there! Thank you… I appreciate that.. I like to make my videos more about the music itself and even if I’m not reacting to music and doing other reactions/videos I enjoy editing it since it’s my passion. Thank you for noticing that and appreciating it as I appreciate you !!! Have a wonderful day 😊
Love the way way you do your reaction video's.
The part where you were like "ooh I liked thst" is from his video "sick boi" it's a great video.
I'd highly recommend you do the tale of "Jenny and screech full" though first. It's 13 min and a trilogy of 3 songs in one video that tell a story.
Imist have had 5 friends/people I know unlive themselves by the age of 20. I dont think my 2 sons have siffered that experience and I hope they never will. Though geowing up in a mining town in South Wales is so much harder than where I am now.
God bless you Ren, and all who read this. ❤
❤it! Raw emotions RENISIS!! GOOD SHOW❤ TOO ALL! UKLEE
Thank you, you are wonderful!
If a song about suicide doesn't hit like a sledgehammer, it hasn't done its job. People don't stand at the edge, staring down into the abyss, unless they've been broken. It goes against every instinct to even contemplate stepping off, and yet, something broke them.
There are no words for how valuable genuine, heartfelt reactions are. Thank you.
I know that my comment is a bit disjointed, I currently lack the ability to tie things together coherently.
The only reason I am still here to write this comment is because of a couple good friends who truly understood that when I was reaching out for help, it was literally life or death serious. When I reached out, they listened. While they couldn't understand how it was that I could be as capable as I am in many areas and still have areas I couldn't handle, the type of things where the normal response is "just do X", they were willing to hear that it was the truth, and that I truly needed help.
They were willing to listen and take what I said seriously, and work with me to develop a crisis plan where I was welcome any time if I needed somewhere safe where I could take a break.
there is a quote from a famous book "stranger in a strange land "we laugh because it hurts " Its natural
I’ve cried at every reactor… is A Ok?
My brother killed himself in 2016 and the end of this song completely broke me. I feel every word.
Sending love Mark ❤️
I am here for your ren ride. ❤️
There a few Ren songs that will make you cry, just keep the tissues nearby. And there are Ren songs that will make you think and then there are some that you can't stop laughing! He really pulls you in to his music and music makes us feel! That's why we all love Ren!
Just a heads up, Ren announced yesterday, July 13, that he will be dropping a new song, Murderer, on July 19 (someone correct me if my math is off!) And then Money Game part 3 is coming in August so my suggestion to you is for you to react to Money Game parts 1 and 2 soon so you can be caught up when he drops Money Game part 3! Just trying to be helpful.
Also, if you need a Ren song that's him flexing and not really touching on any heavy stuff, I would go watch either What You Want (his homage to the Beastie Boys) or Losing It (Fisher Retake). It's prob nice to break up some of the heavier stuff with some of the lighter stuff so you don't overload, especially since you picked 3 Artists that you've been reacting to that all talk about very real, very important and sometimes very heavy topics that not a lot of other artists are talking about.
Great job and just so you know, every single reaction I've seen to this just about left the reactor in tears or needing to take a minute. We all did.
I'm so glad I found your reactions. I like your vibe and your positivity! I still have a few of your music reaction videos to catch up on but I'm along for the ride!
To me the music being so catchy and not happy, but distracting and "head bopping" good while the lyrics are so deep, sad and hard hitting is just a perfect representation of depression. The lyrics are how you feel inside while the music is that smile you try to put on for the rest of the world, trying desperately to make sure everyone is all good while wishing secretly someone will hear, will notice that you are really screaming for help.
His song "freckled angels"(freckled angels is also the name of the album so if you check it out makesureits the song, not just a song from the album) is also about the same friend who jumped off the bridge.
This song is kinda how it goes for many. Kinda fun life then things get odd and then a friend just is gone and we are so self invested we miss whats happening. And sadly when you see it sometimes we can't stop it. The best we can do is try and be the light for other's.
My favorite ren songs are Genesis and Dominoes. Dominoes has a very strong message thats worth shouting out into the world. I would go further and make everyone when they hit 12 y/o listen to Dominoes
Buckle up!!! Ren has more layers than an onion! More Bars than a prison!
Think if Eminem, Shakespeare, Bob Marley, and Jimi Hendrix had a Baby... That's Ren!!!
Suggest Losing it, Chaulk Outlines, Crutch, Life Is Funny, Hold On, Love Music trilogy, Bittersweet Symphony, What you Want and Fire, etc.... (Cannot find a bad track! Very few are the same style/genre!)
Of Course... Jenny and Screech Tales (Full version!) Are a Must!!!
Great reaction
Great reaction your beautiful.
Thank you Rudy ❤
he is amazing....thanks
So much more to listen to
The more hear Rens story,where these songs are the more impressed you'll be.😎
Ren's heavy breathing at the transition represents him being out of breath from running as fast as he could to the bridge where Joe was. He got a call saying Joe was was there and he was thinking about jumping. Ren lived was closest to the bridge so he got dressed ran there as fast as he could and calling Joe the whole time and it's phone would ring alot and go to voicemail so he thought he still okay. When Ren got there he didn't see Joe anywhere so he called his phone and immediately it said, " this phone is no longer in service" and you only get that message when a phone has been broken or submerged in water and no longer working. So Ren was two minutes too late 😢
RIP JOE Hughes, my family, friends, brothers and sisters I served with and everyone else in the world lost to suicide. I've been on that ledge too many times but because of my stubbornness and witnessing first hand how devastating it is to the family and friends of those lost is the reason I'm still here. Can't say I'm not jealous of those who left because their pain and suffering is no more. But I'll still stay here and try my best to make the best out of that's left of my existence.
Yeah it hit us hard..my beautiful talented son commit suicide 2 year ago..can,t express the pain..must stay strong for his twin sis ter..don,t want to loose her..she must love life again..Ren say it straight..
I was afraid to click.
I wasn't sure I was ready for the heart squeeze.
My concern for my own comfort is an insult to the pain.
The pain in life doesn't care if I am ready.
It doesn't hurt if you don't love.
Love all the way and let it hurt knowing it comes from love.
Thank you. I wanna die because I’m not the man I know I can be. My mind makes me feel like I won’t ever be anything. Going away won’t hurt .but I hope some one wouldn’t want that I just don’t know who
Much ❤ to you my friend 😘
Thank you Kelly ❤❤❤😊
I agree 💯 % the song is really good despite the topic.
Really good despite the topic. Excellent because of the topic.
He speaks the taboo with such authenticity that it has helped so many people start discussing what they have been afraid to acknowledge. And it is beautiful and painful and terrible and priceless. He's not talking about suicide. He is bringing us along to experience his experience. That's why it grabs our hearts and squeezes the tears from our faces.
@@DandelionCollab I miss spoke. what I meant was that most songs about suicide, depression, tragedy etc. are not songs that have a catchy beat or melody that I feel like I can groove to while doing an activity. But this song not only has a great message it also sends a great vibe. I lost many of friends and loved ones to suicide and I will never intentionally try to down play or look past the harsh reality or the subject.
@@junedye4226 I did not think you were downplaying it. It just triggered what I thought would be a clever phrase.
Great vibe, Great message, Great human. Love you.
LESSS GOOO
Some have guessed that this "skin counterfit silicone rubber" may refer to what happens from the meds he was put on. You get a real buzz from some meds and they leave you numb.
Powerful.
Rip Joe 🙏
Made me cry
I think you need to react to a totally different side of Ren....his song called "Fire" ! It is a real rock vibe ! You will love it !
We all cried. No worrys
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Please tell me ya did his Jenjy and Screech trilogy... the Full version!?!?
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Edit: I laugh when I cry and cry when I laugh too. No apologies necessary (for me it's perfectly normal to others I look crazy ❤️)
RIP Joe ❤
Thank you.
Thank you for watching ❤️
I would put forwar chinchilla little girl gone song and video you will love it 😂
Just go down the rabbit hole...
Please do his Crutch video! It's a HI Ren level Masterpiece... with an Insanely Low view count!!!
REN (Hold ON) from 7 years ago, If you have not reacted to it Please Do, You can thank me later!
Somewhere on the comments page of the Suicide video Ren wrote this but it wasn’t pinned so it can get lost in the comments. This is beautiful and relevant to the song and everyone should read it.
Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write.
Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday.
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew.
Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
Thank you for sharing this comment with us.
For me the importsnt message is there Was Never a Right Time for Suicide.
so the way he did the song was very calculated(the 2nd part wasnt suppose to be for this song but it fit) by putting that word in a melodic track with a good tempo is trying to normalize talking about it and not let is fall into the taboo words that go into the abyss. sui is looked down upon in our culture in several different ways. its just a word that is connected to someones feelings that no one actually knows whats going on with that person, people wanna blame the person because he made others feel bad and dont care about what his feels are and how bad could they be. all the thoughts that come with it will have a large chunk of society will look down upon in friendships and the bigger thing situation.....guys who are emotional and are oopen about it, if a woman sees a guy cry in a situation they are clueless about.....it makes it nearly impossible to find relationships unless the person u date is part of the really bad mental health.....
im 36 male who most likely never have a relationship or let alone marrige......i had a ex gf who we were still close in a weird way.....we both agreed at age 30 if we both werent married we would get married, shes the only girl in a relationship ive been in understood it but that didnt happen because when i was 27 i found out she died and no one would tell me why when i tried to contact a couple people i knew in her fmaily and friend. im borderline disabled due to the level of my mentall health problems have bi polar 1 with psychosis, generalized anixety disorder, nightmare disorder. i cant live alone without a family or close frriend who needs to be there in dangerious times. due to my nightmare disorder i literally live 2 lives at once as i started vivid dreams/nightmares as soon as i fall asleep when a normal person dream patttern u reach rem sleep which is aorund 1hour 30- 2 hours when u really get full sleep . there is 1 medication for it and it essentially works for for about 50% and trhe other 50% it does nothing which im part of that. the best thats there is gabapentin which still causes me to dream that way but it relaxes the nerves in the brain and body so instead of my boidy under full stress during sleep its reelxed and my dreams make it feel like i have a 2nd life......its stressful but its better than living in vivid nightmares
Where's the clip for Joe ?
2:01 and 2:07 are clips from his song SIC BOI - ruclips.net/video/3Q6uCrpzbPY/видео.html
Love you my sister ❤️ stay strong and positive God bless
Only Ren can make such a Beautiful song about such an ugly topic!!!
Joe Hughes, jumped from the Menai Bridge. He dedicated his first album, Freckled Angels to Joe & a couple songs have referenced him as well.
Ren added the last part about Joe after he had an interview with Knox Hill. Ren thought it felt incomplete
Ren being late. He wasn't late in the since that there was a time Ren was supposed to be there. Joe was sending out goodbye call/messages (this was at like 3am). Ren rushed out the door and made it to the bridge minutes after Joe's last moments.... So, yes this is true. Joe was one of Ren's best friends. I think Joe is part of the reason Ren is here with us today. Ren saw what Joe's passing did to him and those around him and couldn't do that to his friends...
The song with Ren and Chinchilla - "How To Be Me" was also a tribute to Joe. That entire song was written from Joe's perspective except the last last where Ren says "I miss you".
" I don't have somebody close in my life that has struggled with that" Thing is you may not know about it. Listen to your friends, to your family, to your acquaintances www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/warning-signs-of-suicide
Thank you for clearing that up… I meant somebody who has went through with it.. but you’re absolutely right.. we never know what someone is going through. Thank you for sharing
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