What Really Happened with u/YAYVIDEOGAMES?
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- Опубликовано: 21 фев 2019
- In 2010, a Reddit user by the name of YAYVIDEOGAMES shook the Internet with a very ominous outburst that left Redditors completely dumbfounded. Since then, the mystery has simply faded into obscure Internet history without ever really being investigated. Tonight, we’re going to take a deeper look into what exactly it was that happened, and what some possible explanations could be.
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The original thread: www.reddit.com/r/gaming/comme...
SoLegitHS's Findings: / i_solved_the_mystery
The YAYVIDEOGAMES Subreddit: / yayvideogames
NotSureHowBigYouAre: / notsurehowbigyouare
NoSubstanceHere: / nosubstancehere
VinylRecord: / vinylrecord
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Video music:
-CO.AG: / @co.agmusic
-Kevin MacLeod: incompetech.com/
-Shepard’s Tone: • Dark Shepard Tone
End credits: Black Heat - Ross Bugden 
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the guy who replied "wat" obviously deleted his account because he was getting spammed so much
Alot of people delete reddit accs so they dont get doxxed anyway so i wouldnt count on it.
ohhhhh ye makes sense
Hayden K when a comment with subsequent replies shows a [deleted] account, it just means the comment was deleted, not the account. The account may have been deleted too, but more likely just the comment
@@goodkisser8591 the account was also deleted
@@goodkisser8591 if the comment was deleted, it wouldn't show a comment. It'd say something like "comment has been deleted by ____". The deleted over the username means the user deleted the account, but the comments stay there
My opinion of YAYVIDEOGAMES went from “wow what an annoying guy” to “wow what a creepy guy” to “wow poor guy.”
@@IsraelCountryCube wat
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@@hellicure He's saying that he hopes the guy might have passed away, as that would be better than suffering like the guy being discussed is/was. Not for selfish or nefarious reasons, but more because he feels bad for yayvideogames.
@@AleksiSilfver hmm yes i thank thy.. But for real tho i knew what he meant but still thank you!
I stayed at the second one.
"I'm on vinyl" could have been a cryptic way to say that he was stuck in a loop
maybe it was
That’s cretics thinking shiii
wat? does that even mean
or he was just a nut and thought he was making le epic funni hipster jokes bruh
I think it's just a joke. I ran in hipster circles and the "you probably haven't heard it i have it on vinyl" is the lead in. The reply is "*I'm* on vinyl".
I'd have preferred that he was just another troll on the internet. So sad he committed suicide and had such a hard life.
Yeah I get you. The 3 stages of this video:
1. Wtf is going on?
2. Laughing.
3. Feeling sad af and guilty for laughing.
One of those ones where you're better off not knowing. Although I suppose it's important to know. This was a real person, not just some meme. R.I.P.
He committed suicide when? Please post the time
@@mr.knowitall5019 according to a friend of Lyndon (as was his name), they lost him in 2015
@@MinatheRaichu Timeline even checks out since he posted last in 2015.
@@vigilanterorschach2600 I hope that they're doing well in whatever afterlife they're in, if there is one.
Zelda is a character from Stephen King's book "Pet Semetary" who is bed ridden from a chronic illnesses...
Fr? This comment didnt get enough attention...
@@sebawuba8533 oh yeah! I remember that from the movie- she had no spine.
Wat?
@@buckteeth3810 She had a spine, it was just horribly disfigured
@@thomasroberts3959 Spinal meningitis they called it
It all started with the guy who simply asked "wat"
wat?
wat?
wat?
Top 10 words that started a war.
wat?
As someone who also suffers from chronic pain, Lyndon has my deepest sympathies. May he rest in merciful, painless peace.
Take care
I hope you can cope with it and live a happy life, bests wishes 💙
@@metalhotdogg That's very kind of you, thank you. 💙
@Daryl Brown what
another chronic pain sufferer here, i can't imagine how much pain he must've been in. chronic fatigue is a horrible thing, especially paired with the obvious issues he was suffering with in his mind.
i feel like this video staying up is disrespect towards the dead, that's just a thought, though.
This guy was suffering and his Jehovah's Witness mother made things even worse. Cults suck the life out of you and your family. The doctor prescribing the wrong medications was probably the tipping point. I feel so bad for this guy.
jehovahs witnesses aren't in a cult, its just that everyone in the damn religion are so determined to spread "the good news" that they make it seem like one. my grandma is apart of that and its hell everyday just living with her
The thing is, im currently in jW
And idk wtf they were studying or if he was in a fake version of the religion bc we dont teach about demons going around earth and haunting people, and idk any mother or person in jw who would say that
@@starrybean7256 i asked my grandma about it (she's a jw) and she says that demons are real and that if it was true then she doesn't see the problem with telling him.
Im a christian and im really ashamed how people abuse this religion.
Wat
Imagine a world where that guy never said
"wat?"
I mean, it would just be this world but no video about him
OBAMA PRISM
@@someonesgenericfish0 and if there is no video about him...no one will watch this video and what will the people who watch the video were doing?...maybe one of them were searching a cure of cancer and found it...who knows...
@@nazmio5483 bruh
@@nazmio5483 are you serious? Please tell me you aren't.
random guy: Wat?
YAYVIDEOGAMES: *starts summoning the dead*
HAHAHA
I’m dead😂
@@Yung_clump he summoned ya
Awaken, my masters!
@@hubb8049 AYAYAYAYAYAY
RIP, Lyndon Watchel. I wish things have been easier for you.
How you know that is name is Lyndon ?
@@di-riso his friend made an ama
@@vikalekado you have the link?
@@hazer3248 it's a pinned post in r/yayvideogames
@@lzwithanLThis all proves nothing. The facebook, the story, nothing proves that Luke person actual knew yvg. And how come no one thought that it is just a bot learning? It was years ago so it wouldn't be sophisticated but bots start out with normal posts and then start of speaking nothing, well back in the day they did.
it's kinda creepy that a person can get so much information about someone just like this
Welcome to the internet
@@alunatic4989 bo burnham…
@@myaaaxchavez yep lmao
They only could because he left a million clues for them to find
@@BMoney8600 and Chris chan too
Imagine saying something so whack you get a youtube deepdive
AshKetchum442 *wat?*
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@Siddhartha RC ubisoft
I wonder if he knows that hes semi-famous. Lol.
@@mothbulb He is dead, check out the subreddit and the top post.
Citing a reddit post is like "u/iwaspersonallyselectedtosmackdatass was able to find who the muderer was by some skillfully done geolocation."
lmao
Brilliant
Underrated comment
@@tomokokurokiirl okay
@@tomokokurokiirl he was being sarcastic. Way to ruin it
I explored a bit of u/NotSureHowBigYouAre and in one of his comments he had recommended the movie “Death of Mr. Lazeresque” It’s a Romanian film about this dude with an illness that nobody takes seriously throught the movie and he is calling the ambulance and pleading at the hospital for someone to attend to his distress until he succumbs to his illness and passes away. I really get Lyndon’s pain and in the words “I find the movie funny” and I sooo get it. He experiences it happening to him and therefore finds the movie amusing and it’s pretty cool that he felt that way
Wow....that's just a really...horrible fucking fate
Your crying out for help in a way you can, and everyone is assuming your just trolling your typing random shit, not knowing what you actually mean
No matter how loud you scream or cry for help, no one will understand you, your in constant insufferable pain and people might be laughing at you for it.
I'd honestly rather die rather than have than happen to me
@@entransnake yes welcome to the life of CFS patients. our illness is still psychologized, albiet SIGNIFICANTLY less than it was just 10 years ago. but still.. when you have a disease thats too complex for doctors to figure out, its more comfortable for them to treat u like a complete joke. ive had so many traumatic experiences w doctors and this disease. most patients who are deep into it like me.. we dont see doctors anymore because all it does is exasperate symptoms and theres nothing they can do to help us anyways. but it takes people a long time before they know that to be the truth
@camilovazquez8156 damn man, I feel for you deeply. I can’t imagine, but just thinking about how you must be feeling sends shivers down my spine. I’m always reminded of what David Foster Wallace(an author who killed himself) said about suicide:
A person who tries to kill himself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”
In essence one from the ground can make speculations and feel giddy at their “knowledgeable” conclusions, but it’s only the person in that situation who knows what it feels like. But I hope you do better, be brave and a better time will come.
He didn't find it funny simply because it was like his life. The film was in fact a "black" comedy movie. It's supposed to be tragic yet funny.
For anybody wondering, his name was Lyndon, and in 2015 he took his own life. His best mate has made an AMA post on /r/yayvideogames offering more information about his illnesses, and what caused him to make the decision he made in the end
I feel like a fkn detective trying to solve the case but then I realized im watching a video of someone who put all the pieces together already lol.
Sadcr lol same we fake detectives 😞
What really amazing is not the story
How can he manage to find all these source? It really need some critical skills . If I have a chance I want to learn from him man
ChocoChip T260g Multiple research.
Fkn
Im almost like a detective. Well, no but there are detectives waisting their time bc of me. Actually im a career criminal and theres a crimewave of mine that they are trying to solve. I feel so smart seeing that they arent even close. 😇 And even better knowing that they are late to actually but me on a trial.
What if you wanted to go to heaven
but god said
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but god said
I'd walk myself straight to hell
This made me laugh harder than it should have
The internet has destroyed my sense of humour to the point that this is the shit I find funny.
@@katsukibakugan9490 same
I know this is an old video but I can provide some personal insight to what happened here. he said he was taking gabapentin and pregabalin (lyrica), and he wanted to stop taking them. The withdrawals of these medications can be extremely intense, the symptoms are very similar to alcohol withdrawal, and in severe cases pregabalin withdrawal can cause delirium and hallucinations.
I’ve been prescribed lyrica before, I took it for about 2 years and I stopped taking it 6 months ago cold turkey, which is very unsafe as it results in worse withdrawal symptoms. I’d had hallucinations a few times during this time, and I still have symptoms to this day. Which match the symptoms he describes, worsened pain, delirium, restless leg syndrome, insomnia, etc...
If he already was in a fragile mental state, the lyrica withdrawal could have easily pushed him over the edge. Lyrica is often prescribed for chronic fatigue syndrome, CFS and Lyrica withdrawal have similarities between whats going on in the brain. They both cause a state of increased glutamate, calcium and oxidative stress in the brain, all this could have easily combined to cause an extreme mental breakdown. Anti-psychotic’s pharmacology wouldn’t have helped these symptoms at all.
Ugh, thank you. No offense to Nexpo but his videos more often than not attracts a younger, nay, a juvenile audience. I wanted to know what ACTUALLY happened scientifically and psychologically speaking but the next 20 comments are about a detractor not even related to the video topic.
Thank you though, truly.
i’ve experienced restless leg syndrome and it’s enough to drive you insane. it can happen anywhere, not just in your legs, and i had it in my whole body. it’s enough to want to break your arm or leg or neck to make it stop. i believe i’ve dealt with CFS too due to trauma and those two things almost made me un alive myself. i was also on lyrica too, and i was abusing it, but that was long ago.
I tried doing this with Paxil and, while I did not experience any delirium or hallucinations, I can attest to horrible side effects from it. I had very frequent thoughts of wishing I was dead, never to the point of suicide, but they were very frequent. On top of that, I started to feel like I had a very bad flu. I ended up just having to get back on my meds.
I can confirm that going cold turkey on ANY medication influencing your brain chemistry is a bad idea… >.<
I‘m back on now, and luckily had no psychotic episodes because of it. But you cannot rely on luck to save your ass every time.
(What happened: I ended up in a massive rut due to issues and didn’t manage to leave the house for months. That includes going to the docs for prescriptions. Big oof.)
This just serves as a reminder that you never know what someone is going through, no matter your limited perception of them. RIP, Lyndon.
"This story starts way back in 2010."
W-way back? In 2010?
Oh my god why is time going by so fast
How old are you? Jw
@@jmoney1139 Nineteen, which probably makes my statement seem pretty silly, but I have a lot of old memories (going back as far as 2003) that I reflect on and think about a lot. Plus, for the past 3ish years time has seemingly accelerated to an incredible speed, which stresses me out to an irrational degree.
@@IronDeath79 The older you get the faster time goes by, it's just like that don't worry
Solemn Ascetic nah, I feel you man. I’m 24 now and I can definitely understand/relate
Don't worry dude I'm on the exact same boat
"Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye always on drm."
Love him or hate him he spitting straight facts.
The guy killed himself in 2015 his friend did an AMA on r/yayvideogames
@@mio7452 wat
Mio Hietanen a quick look at that sub would have made this video a lot shorter lol
Mio Hietanen holy shit. He did ._.
Bars
after learning about this person, and learning about the result, and what happened to him, i found an archive of all the outbursts he had, and i went to a recent one just saying "ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye always on drm
", and i gave him a hugz award.
i know he won't see it but i feel really bad for him, so i felt like that was the least i could do, even if it meant nothing in the end.
sauce?
@@Qourie wat
>i gave him a hugz award
god you're such a redditor
That’s so sweet
Oh wow an entire emoji
Poor dude, according to one of his mates AMA he committed suicide. Rest in peace Lyndon Watchel
"Zelda is the princess"
He knows the truth
@FatMemeBoy Oof... Just read another post saying that a friend if u/ yayvideogames committed suicide in 2015. I do not know if this is all true. Just reading your comment i cringed.
@@seanceknowles2911 oh shit
@@seanceknowles2911 Gentlemen, we got 'em
Praise him
@@polnajeff indeed fellow toon link
Hey girls
Did you know that uh...
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CGTS 457 HOLY CRAP WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???
If you've ever known anyone close to you with schizophrenia or a similar psychosis, this is all too real. I could see it instantly, especially with the handwritten note, which I've seen enough of before: it isn't just a movie trope. Those other accounts he's talking to aren't "him". They are "other people". It's horrific to see it all laid out like this. He probably doesn't even remember having created those accounts, and when he's not having an episode and is back in his right mind, he would assume those accounts are other strange people (if you showed him the messages). This one was creepy for me in a different way. I hope the dude is ok, I feel so bad for him. It's such a horrific and debilitating disease.
He's gone, unfortunately. His friend made an AMA and stated that he took his own life in 2015. I only wish things had been easier for him, he truly didn't seem to deserve the hand he had been dealt.
I know these videos are meant to be creepy, but watching them has become a huge comfort thing for me (however crazy that may sound). He explains everything nicely so that no one gets confused, and the way he speaks is just soothing. I always feel safe watching these videos because he is the one presenting the information.
nah, i do as well. nexpo and similar channels are relaxing to listen to while gaming for me
Yes :) they gen feel very calming in a weird sort of way
if i was taking 1.2g of codeine a day i'd be bye bye never on drm
Lmfaoooooo for real
Damn.. That's more codeine than rappers drink
You mean Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye always on DRM?
Well I’m guessing you’ve never done it
Brain was fried on drm
"I had this joke on vinyl" is honestly pretty funny
Alot of his comments were really hilarious if you actually read them... 23:23 was fucking hilarious he was going off on someone for some reason
Agreed hahaha
@@demonjmh weed legalization im guessing. Bro absolutely flamed him lmao
*BEFORE.*
I Have These Comments On Vinyl
If you go to r/YayVideoGames, his best friend confirmed that his name was Lyndon, and stated that Lyndon took his own life in 2015. It’s a tragic story, but at least this mystery is solved, and this guy is at peace now and no longer suffering through immense pain and psychosis. :/
@Jack Ross excuse me? I didn’t even look at any other comments before making mine. I simply typed out what information I knew, just like you probably did. if two people both relay information from a single source it’s going to look the same. it’s not like you said anything original.
as someone who has a myriad of mental and physical health issues, I remember when I had one of my worst attacks I got really obsessed with patterns and repetition. Stayed in my room for two days counting every object I saw over and over and over again until my voice was gone. It's horrible, it's like being stuck in the back of your body, and if it was anything like what Lyndon went through I wish him the best rest he could ever get now that he's passed. It's torture and I can understand why he decided to go, but suicide isn't the only answer. Wish he could've gotten more help.
Poor dude who just wanted some good recommendations for TES:IV mods
It all started with Oblivion...
Here I've been cruising the internet for years looking for TESIV mod suggestions because it's my favorite game and never hear about this until just now, and hear it started on a thread asking for Oblivion mod recommendations... Crazy shit, man.
He became Pelagius the mad
instead he got 4000 notifs from an insane man
At least he became meme. Sort of....
RIP Lyndon Watchel/ YAYVIDEOGAMES.
If you didn't know, he committed suicide. I'm so sorry he had to go through so many terrible things.
His buddy also did a AMA on his subreddit and it reveal alot of stuff
He has left a legacy.
His name will never be forgotten.
@@tangyorange3274 i don't have reddit, could you please explain
@@TM450FI explain what ?
@@tangyorange3274 what they revealed maybe shortly
His description of the "demon" when he was 4 seems to fit the bill for a sleep paralysis incident. And I dunno if there's a worse thing you can do to someone dealing with sleep paralysis night terrors than tell them it's all real
🤫🛤
what was his/her illness?
Stories like this are either fiction, legitimately unnerving, or just sad. Still fascinating though.
Unfortunately this one falls into the latter. The user known as u/Yayvideogames committed suicide after a life long struggle with CFS.
@@EvanBear how do we know/sure
@@Alan-xg4yr alot of people from other reply sections have said that his father confirmed his death, check r/yayvideogames
@@Alan-xg4yr a staggering amount of CFS patients die of suicide. its actually horrifc. we need more awareness surrounding this disease/ invisible illnesses. theres a tag line going around (im not sure for how long but) called Millions Missing and its attributed how CFS patients literally dissapear from the world when the disease gets to a certain point
@@youwokeuplateWhat's CFS?
Me: "It's bedtime [1:24 a.m.] I think it's time to watch some Nexpo."
Me: *sees closet door cracked open*
Me: "but first, we're gonna close that."
I read ur comment slightly passed 1:24 a.m :D heh coincident at its best
My closet latch broke and I thought well imma jus die real quick
Holy shit. Just literally done that when I noticed it was open 5 mins into the video.
I am doing this too but instead of the closet door it's my bedroom door towards to dark hallway at 1 am
I feel better with my closet fully open so I don’t feel like something is watching me through the tiny openings
I heard he committed suicide. Poor boy, I can't imagine what he must have felt like.
Where did you get that? Also send the source to where you got it here.
@Jon Doe It is pretty common for suicidal people to percieve the act as a way to find peace, or something similar. The fact that he wished for peace that bad meant that he probably wasn't okay with the state he was in during his daily life, and wanted a way out.
The poetic nature he saw in suicide might have come from that. Generally, it was also stated by his friends that he was very interested in artistic topics so I wouldn't be surprised if he saw suicide in an artistic, metaphorical way.
When someone decides to commit suicide, it means they have already excluded every other option and are sure that would lead to the best outcome. But because of our biological nature as humans we are afraid of death, and pretty often we use meaning and ideas to "block out" that fear. I apologize if it isn't a good explanation, but what I mean is that in that situation because we are biologically terrified of suicide, but our brains have already decided that's the choice with the best outcome, we amplify existing ideas in our minds that would "excuse" the act so that we don't feel as afraid.
Sorry for the long comment, I'm also very passionate about the topic being that I struggle with it myself. Hope you have a good day :)
@@undyla-chan1675 you know you gotta add a tl;dr lol, anyways. I just don’t know how people can suffer this much, especially from a young age, he was so desperate to be free again, to be in peace, but he can’t find find it and that’s what scares me. I don’t know man wherever he is, I hope he’s doing good.
@@IlIlIllllllI Yeah, sorry about that, I'm not good at summarizing haha. But if heaven exists I hope he's doing well there.
Unfortunately trauma can really do some bad things to people. I'm also struggling with these kinds of thoughts so I can kind of sympathize with him by what I hear, but I imagine that for someone who's never had this problem it's pretty difficult because there's really nothing like it (in my experience). I remember I couldn't even wrap my head around it until a few years ago too
@@undyla-chan1675 well not trying to down anyone because most don't believe in God but in my religion he is probably in hell according to my religion since suicide is killing your temple and you can't ask for forgiveness after death but yeah all you can do is hope
The vinyl thing actually makes quite a lot of sense. Whether it was the man's actual intention or not, during the episodes he would essentially act like a broken record, repeating stuff over and over with some variation at times. It's kinda cool but really disturbing at the same time
Wow that’s crazy!! I am a ex JW, and I can affirm that that stuff happens. It’s so insane that it’s legal to do that to children’s mind. Took a lot of break through psychedelic experiences to get rid of the baggage and mind set it put me in.
Side note. I’ve just found your page NEXPO and you rock! Thank you for the really well thought out content
Congrats on getting out of the JWs!!!
ex mormon here, same shit with us, i had night terrors as a child where two shadow people would be in the corner of it while something was happening and i was told it was bc i let satan's followers in my room bc of an angry birds plush. crazy
@@em0fa1ry bruh moment
"Wat?" was the secret self destruct code
Oh no that's so bad, the boy killed himself
@@nightyboyo Oh No
UNATCO kill phrase
@@nightyboyo Oh no what the hell
Wat?
Only nexpo can make a picture of cheese puffs absolutely terrifying
@Minecraftcito 2 A
Yep
Insane Sky you're not wrong
1,500th like
@@katarinafrenchfry6825 holy shit I forgot I even wrote this... When tf did this get 1.5k lol
My heart breaks for this guy. I struggled with psychosis and was prescribed the wrong medication for it. That incoherent rambling, the frantic handwriting and fixation on one phrase… I know that all too well. Rest in peace, Lyndon.
Pretty sad, but sounds almost exactly like my life with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. Took 15 years of fighting to receive an accurate diagnosis, and huge mistrust of doctors along the way. No treatment, no cure, no hope, no research being done, nothing. Also no disability or financial assistance, so I have to drag my broken body through as much work as I can, then crawl up the steps to get to my bed on hands and knees.
How are u
that was my first thought, especially with how eds and cfs seem to go hand in hand (at least, for me and my mother) and doctors are basically just like “good luck👍”
7.8/10 Too much Ubisoft goes Steamworks bye bye always on DRM
Heya man, got a jack and a wrench. Still need help with that flat?
Roach Dog Jr yup thanks dude
@@sillygooseygirl No problem chief. Make sure to get a new tire on the way back. Dont wanna ride on a doughnut for to long 👌
_too little_
somebody help me i have a flat tire melonexpo
as an Ubisoft employee, I can tell you for sure that we are not going steamworks.
Oh okay. Bye bye. Bte are you always on drm?
catplushies wat?
bye bye
Do you oft go work?
Bye bye
As someone with chronic pain and mental health issues, (currently watching this while suffering through horrible symptoms, even) my heart aches for this person and what he went through, especially knowing he committed suicide
Mental and physical health are ignored so staunchly by everyone, including professionals that are supposed to help, and his mother being so openly abusive makes me sick to my core. He deserved so much better
"OMG TRIANGLE SO HIPSTER CAN'T BREATHE" is actually really funny. idk why, but it is.
“Way back in 2010”
“Shit 2010 wasn’t that lo-“
Shit man 2010 was 9 years ago 😞
El tiempo vuela, compañero
Anakay sorry I don't speak taco
@@anakay1184 Si Si, uno dos tres hola amigo!
@@anakay1184
Wana ying yang cudu loseta
Thanos thanos thanos thanos
Remember in 2012 when theorists say the earth was gonna dir
1980: All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.
2010: Ubisoft goes Steamworks, bye bye. Always on DRM.
Thought exactly of the same thing.
Edit: I found out that unfortunately he committed suicide. I hope that he is finally at rest and that his family is at peace with his death. My condolences to those who knew, cherished, and loved him.
To me, I think he suffers from delirium. Delirium can show up in younger children, especially if they were unwell. The fevers he would frequently get as a child most likely inflicted a permanent state of delirium on his still-developing brain. The fact that he was overly medicated didn't help that either, since common pain relief medication and sleep medication are known to worsen Delirium, especially combined. It's possible that he has Mixed Delirium, since he shows signs of not only Hyperactive Delirium but also Hypoactive Delirium. Hallucinations, restlessness, agitation, seeming to be in a daze, rambling or nonsense speech, disorientation, and disturbed sleep habits, are all symptoms and signs of Mixed Delirium.
It seems to be a very severe case, and the chronic pain he's experiencing certainly doesn't help. There are treatments for Delirium, but unfortunately there is no solid way of treatment and it seems to only lessen the side effects of delirium.
So it seems like he often started up these repetition incidents when met with any sort of confrontation or something that could quickly become a confrontation. This is actually not uncommon among some people with metal illness and victims of child abuse. Basically confrontation is so upsetting of even terrifying that it can make things like this the only way you brain knows how to deal with the situation. Almost like having a meltdown or panic attack online.
Roses are red
Guess I’ll die
Ubisoft goes
Steamworks bye bye
mmmmmm, top teir shitposting. yumm
lmao in all seriousness he comitted suicide in 2015
@@tiffanyzhu9587 how do u know this information. And if it's real then ngl it makes a lot of sense
on his subreddit im pretty sure his friend or someone posted that he committed suicide in 2015
I have used
the uninstall button
for elder scrolls
oblivion
for which
you were probably
going to load
some mods for
Forgive me
Ubisoft goes dreamworks
bye bye
always on DRM
Plot twist: Nexpo created all these crazy accounts years ago so he could one day tell his own stories to get millions of subscribers
In the afterlife, yes
@@mojakhaha maybe r/cursedcomments?
Well yes swimmingly
*F....*
That would explain why he is the only one that only does these videos
as a chronically ill person with some mental health issues partially due to my religious background and home life, this hurts me so bad. may he rest in peace.
I searched this to rewatch it and the title even gave me goosebumps all over typing it. You truly instill fear in the most amazing way.
that "demon" he saw was definitely an episode of sleep paralysis
lullaby hey I have eds too! Type 3 for me. I used to have minor auditory hallucinations when I would get migraines. They have stopped since I started topiramate.
Madelyn Kyle because they’re created by your brain, yes
And sometimes they are real then what?
Sounds more like fever dreaming, to be honest.
If it was just sleep paralysis it wouldn't be a big deal.
poor [deleted] he got bamboozled with 400 replies!
Ghosty 4000 I’m pretty sure I might be wrong my ears are pretty bad
he was probably so scared of it and that’s the reason he deleted his account
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Hey bud I found your channel doing research for a project but I can't stop watching. This is some content.
I have a cousin who really struggled with severe autism by the time they were 30 so they were put into a special facility. He literally does this type of thing where he has 10 Reddit accounts and does very cryptic things like this. You can tell when they give him meds vs when they don’t because of the repetitions like this.
Alright, I was super creeped out... 14:10 _Until_ I read this exchange.
"'VINYL' IS NOT A PROPER NOUN AND THEREFORE DOES NOT QUALIFY FOR CAPITALIZATION. READ MORE HEMINGWAY AND GET THICKER-RIMMED GLASSES, PLEBE."
Every time reddit shows me something to scare me away, it shows me something that wants to make me come back.
I felt like I've seen you somewhere.
I think it was a joke
@@vaniiler that's because they are everywhere lol
Nexpo should make a video about you next
Just Some Guy with a Mustache are you and Just Some Guy Without a Mustache the same person or do you know each other or smth
I like how the simple reply of “wat” basically sent a guy insane lol
CarSNn7 your not funny this was copied
Kdkdkkdkd Fdudifdiddyd your not funny this was copied
I mean, it’s not impossible to find similar comments especially in this context. Think about it, in this video a guy who said “wat” seemingly made somebody go insane, so it’s really not surprising to see multiple people comment about it.
Shxdowboy wat
Dude he committed suicide
This is one of my favorite pieces of lost/disturbing media. This video gets you invested into the incident and it explains everything so clearly and easily. Absolutely amazing and disturbing.
Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye, always on DRM.
i really hope this guy is okay and well today, his story makes me so sad
edit: i just read a comment that he committed suicide ...
rest in peace, what a tragedy, poor thing i wish i could have given him a huge hug
Oh wow, didn't expect a followup. This one was probably one of my favorite mysteries.
We all can hope he's living a happier life
right? unfortunate for the mystery's OP should all of this be accurate, but it is satisfying to have a plausible explanation outside of bots/spammy shitpost extraordinaires.
I like this one because of his copy pastes like the steamworks. I like the dude’s random picture too
I wasn't expecting to be crying but then i found out he killed himself. Poor boy, i know how much in pain u have to be to do such a decision and i hope he is finally at peace :(
Where did you find out
@@marianna3335 r/yayvideogames
Thanks Dr. Phil for letting me know.
Not only that but, He was suffering from a bacterial infection in his skull
@@scooble_ oh my god
I went to school with a girl who had mini strokes and seizures due to a brain injury. When she started puberty she became schizophrenic, suffered delusions and mania. They would bring her to study hall to read books and attempt to socialize her. Before they took her completely out of school at 16 she would write down the same 5-10 phrases on paper over and over. She wouldnt let the social worker take her papers and would get very upset if she was interrupted. These episodes would last hours sometimes and she would randomly snap out of it like nothing happened and be able to engage in a completely normal conversation. Really sad. Last i heard shes heavily sedated at a mental hospital somewhere in the mountains.
I just found your channel and I'm binge watching. Thank you for the addictive content!
It sounds more like he was regularly experiencing sleep paralysis. He mentioned a demon staring at him while sleeping and that he couldn't move. Sleep paralysis can be triggered by a lot of medical issues. I'm very confident this is what was happening.
Plus the person you trust the most at that age telling you that those are real, that have to fuck you up real
@@martinarbe1 Especially since it seems he had schizophrenia, which his mother may have believed was caused by demonic influence and hindered treatment.
Personally I think its more likely that it's a combination of schizophrenia and the chronic fatigue syndrome. I dont have it, but I can say from personal experience (a p bad case of idiopathic hypersomnia) that serious fatigue can make you see some crazy shit. I used to be practically followed by Panthers until I was put on meds. (Not for hallucinations, for the sleep disorder). Add that to constant, non-stop, intense pain and you'll get some pretty vivid hallucinations.
However, the reality shift isn't something I've heard of with CFS, therefore, schizophrenia. It's possible it's also bipolar disorder, or some sort of dissociative disorder. I sorta doubt bipolar disorder because it doesnt seem like he's cycling at all, nor does any of this seem like a manic/depressive episode. But a dissociative disorder could be it.
Todd can be a real bitch....
I don’t know why he’s still working here...
try telling someone who's experienced sleep paralysis that the demon isn't real.
they won't believe you.
it's real.
So what I take from this video is that Ubisoft goes Steamworks bye bye, always on DRM.
*Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye. Always on DRM*
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I made a pinned comment in 2017 calmly pointing out the historical inaccuracies in this clip. Today RUclips informed me they had a complaint and have deleted the comment for 'breaching community guidelines'. They didn't elaborate. The comment had tens of thousands of likes and hundreds of replies. This is very disappointing. It seems someone only wants one narrative to be heard. There was absolutely nothing hateful, racist, anti-semitic or anything like that. I would never post anything of that nature. So I can only assume my post was deleted because it offered a dissenting opinion that someone doesn't approve of. While I'm here, you may be interested to know a few things about the high view count, when most of my videos have far fewer. The vast majority have come from it being recommended by RUclips. It blew up in 2017 and went from 0 to 6.5 million in a few weeks. Then RUclips put an age restriction on it and the views dried up. Then in the last week or so it's taken off again and is now 9 million. Why are they recommending it to so many people? Finally, thousands of people keep asking what the name of the film is. Please look in the description, it's right there. It's a film called Habermann and there's a link to the full info.
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Nah, that's a crazy idea
I just feel really bad for that guy now. I suffer from chronic pain myself. It can truly be a living hell sometimes.
as someone who also suffers with chronic pain, can confirm this.
@@soontherewillbesnow I'm always sorry to hear that anyone else has to go through it. Hang in there.
I know I'm late to this, but this channel is an absolute gem. The kind of research and revelations you bring up, needless to say entertaining as hell! It is just something else for real.
For those wondering what the actual comment means, Ubisoft had a Digital Rights Management (DRM) scheme where the DRM had to be on all the time to validate you bought the copy legally. This was described as "always-on" DRM, and was hated by the gaming community because it meant you had to have a constant Internet connection, if it went down you couldn't play the game, even if it was single-player. Ubisoft then started using Steamworks, a DRM by Valve that was not always-on (although I believe they would go back to one that was, much to this guy's dismay I'm sure). Hence, "Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye, always on DRM". He could have cleaned up the grammar, but it's not a nonsensical statement. It feels like episode happened during the discussion of Oblivion, and due to the cocktail of drugs he was on, got some kind of immense satisfaction out of repeating this phrase over and over, whether it be typing it out or writing it down. Same with all the other repetitive actions, it was probably a joke or phrase that elicited positive feelings for some reason and he felt compelled to repeat it over and over.
hentropy Thank you for explaining that!
Thanks
hentropy thank you!
I like your pfp
Thank you so much for explaining g that, I had no idea what it meant. I hope the person is ok now.
For those who aren't familiar, "Chronic fatigue" is a misleadingly benign name for the condition. Sufferers are essentially trapped inside their own bodies, unable to move or get up, barely walk across the room, have lost all will to do or enjoy anything, they're trapped in that state you're in when you just wake up and are too groggy to do anything. They're not 'depressed', they're not 'lazy', they're literally just incapable of doing anything they want to do as if there is a force holding the pause button on their lives. It's a really horrific way to live. Only marginally better than being a coma patient. Only some sufferers recover.
That's what the other poster meant by "How do i get out of this hole"
@Nexxol tf kind of question is that ?
@Nexxol its literally the same thing -_-
@Nexxol You are either a troll, or a minor.
@Eros Matthew Montallana also has the same vibe as “DePpReSsIoN iS jUsT iNsIdE yOuR hEaD”
@Nexxol Read the room goddamn
I am also an ExJW. I was shocked when that came up half way through the videos. I watch a ton of ExJW content, but wasn't really expecting that here. I never had psychotic episodes, but I remember what it's like to constantly be in fear of demons. They love to talk about what things demons like and they drive it into your head to avoid these things if you want to avoid demons, but they sometimes use intense fear tactics in doing so. I'm now an atheist and no longer believe in demons, but this and other mental scars I suffered as a Jehovah's Witness still stick with me. This religion. This CULT. Fucks with people mentally enough. I couldn't imagine how bad it fucks with someone with hallucinations.
It is so sad that some JWs been experiencing this, for myself I’ve always been told that we shouldn’t talk about the evil much instead only focus on the positive and good things! I truly hope the best for you and that you heal!
Dude. I've seen this video 4 times now and it never gets old. This Reddit user is quite the character. I love your videos!!! Keep up the good work! Much respect.
Update: YAYVIDEOGAMES (his real name is Lyndon) committed suicide a while back.
R.I.P.
Edit: Some people were asking what he was diagnosed with so instead of constantly replying to everyone individually, I’ll just say it here.
Lyndon struggled with chronic fatigue syndrome, he had a nasal congestion issue, and even a bacterial infection inside his skull. Which I believe led to him having depression. All of these were hard to manage for him- so I believe that is what made him do what he did
Edit 2: For all the people saying there is no proof and that it’s fake, it was confirmed on r/YayVideoGames that he died. His father posted pictures about it, and the mods confirmed it. The father posted about Lyndon’s death and discussed how it was very emotional for him. Please stop saying it’s fake - it’s outright insensitive and disrespectful
How do you know?
A. S. Lyndon’s friend confirmed it on reddit I think. And now people just know :P
Wait, really? Any sources?
Subawuba Reddit and RUclips. I don’t have any links to it though :P
@@sebawuba8533 its on r/yayvideogames
He unfortunately passed away in January 2015 from suicide. His name was Lyndon.
F the lesson is saying wat will cause someone to go mentally insane
@Reagan's America note taken. Do not name my kid Lyndon
@@therileyk1361 he didnt go insane, he was spamming as a joke luke said that on the reddit post.
@@pop-sn2mj No
Hyk
Is no-one gonna mention how the images the Yayvideogames guy linked related to some of his cdonditions? Restless legs etc
I went to r/hipsterjokes, it's weird looking through those old archived posts, with the 10y mark next to them. Like walking though a ghost town.
Somebody: Wat?
Yayvideogames: so you have choosen *SPAM*
XD
Underrated
Then he died
Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye, always on DRM
yayvideogames is dead
me: genuine thoughts on the video, anyone?
youtube comments: “ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye always on drm”
It’s sad because the person committed suicide in 2015 and he’s being remembered this way
@@MetaGiga I know, its kind of disgusting
@Mark Donald Nice bait. Look it up though. He was suffering from his mental illness for a long time already and while you’re ignorant to how this ‘helped him cope’, it was instead him going through one of his episodes. A while after this all blew over, he committed suicide. His irl name was Lyndon
You made him seem like his episode was of stupidity and a simple tantrum. And you aren’t the only one who’s considered suicide. The reason I said “Nice bait,” was because your comment was aggressive and it seemed to try to purposely begin a fight. I apologize
good thing it’s 2020 now ain’t it
So good had to see it twice I wish nexpo came out with content more often 😩😩
Nexpo: Lets throw it back a bit
Me: well, if you say so *starts twerking*
PLS LMAO
this is why i hate this generation lmao
It's crazy how much effort people will go to solve little obscure internet mysteries. It's admirable, in a way.
But always watch out for the Minotaur in the maze. 0_o
People want to explore the unknown.
@@PurpleCh4lk and the unknown loves explorers LOL
@@nmal777 Well said :p
Eva Parker Yeah I wish I could find out more abt u/istherelifeafterlyme
Now this?
This is movie material.
It's not a script for a horror film, nor a mystery film. It's not even a script for a documentary.
This is a new type of interesting.
Agreed
wat
Not horror, nor mystery, but a tragedy
@@yinyang1217 UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
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@@yinyang1217 UBISOFT GOES STEAMWORKS BYE BYE ALWAYS ON DRM
I actually live in an apartment in Melbourne. even though I left the world a few years before the reddit threads of the user, I've seen people like YAYVIDEOGAMES, since somebody in my late family had it. My uncle had to take care of them and it was horrifying to see them.
They died a few years after mine. I'm sure my family misses them.
I think you handled this with an insane amount of respect. And i appreciate that. And i hope that guy is doing better...
It’s probably been mentioned, but isn’t it pretty ironic how “Ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye. Always on DRM.” Is a meme in the nexpo community now and one of the accounts involved was named
u/iwishiwasameme
Ok Boomer
Damn i should check out that guy's profile.
!remindme 10 hours
Oh wait
Nexpo is YAYVIDEOGAMES!!!!
Its all makes sence!
@@neskey sorry i was late here you go you should check his profile
Petition to replace all "BOTTOM TEXT" memes with "ubisoft goes steamworks bye bye always on drm"
Omg yes. I'm gonna do that
No
go for it my dude
:/
upvoted
5:18 "This is just like that guy who built a ton of secret tunnels in Minecraft and never told anyone about them" I kinda wanna know what this is referencing...
Herobrine
Nexpo is the one OP that always delivers. Thank you for the closure.
I feel bad for him. :( If this theory is 100% true, he didn't deserve this. I wish his parents got him actual help, or the doctor gave him the right medication. What's even scarier is that we don't know his whereabouts now. I hope he's okay
@@niarthunder8555 Unfortunately that's what I think happened, or suicide. Who knows
Honestly? I think it’d be best that he isn’t suffering through life anymore. I most certainly wouldn’t say I’m knowledgeable on the subject of mental health but, there’s only so much the modern world could’ve done to help him at this point.
@@jessemyers1971 i agree at the state he wasnt going to get help
@@jessemyers1971 Agreed. I know people with mental illness who almost killed themselves, but managed to get help in time. I don't blame him at all either, I just hope he's in a better place now
its because that the teachings of JW are super toxic, and borderline encourage neglect
>Nexpo Uploads
_Fine, I didn't need to sleep anyways._
get ya brother
>4chan arrows
can we take a moment to appreciate this godly work of subtitles
Oh my gosh it’s like the shinning when he repeatedly wrote on his type writer ‘all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy’ over and over again
My mother has CFS also known as ME (myalgic encephalomyelitis), or ME/CFS. It's as serious as YAYVIDEOGAMES makes it out to be, and much like YAYVIDEOGAMES, she's bedbound. Unfortunately, his case of medical misdiagnosis is not singular, or even rare in many cases. A lot of people suffering with this debilitating illness get told that they're making up their symptoms, and a lot of doctors don't really know how to deal with ME/CFS. My mom had a doctor scream in her face that she was lying, and that she and my (emotionally abusive) father were crazy. This video honestly makes my heart break, and if you can all just spend a minute to educate yourself, and maybe the person next to you, I would appreciate it, and I'm sure anyone with ME/CFS would appreciate it as well.
Unfortunately, there are a lot of misdiagnoses when it comes to anything with psychological side effects. Psychologists and psychiatrists get so used to people with delusions that they start believing they're always correct. Doctors are the professionals, but everyone should be safe and get a second opinion, especially when something feels wrong. I had to go through 4 cardiologists before they finally found what was wrong instead of throwing pills at me.
Wow, that's some pretty reprehensible behavior from that doctor. I've seen doctors lose their medical license for a lot less than that before (I used to do temp work at a state medical board.) You really should've tried to report him, that kind of shit is just unacceptable and they deserve to be held accountable for it.
spooder doodle Sad but true.
I’ve got ME/CFS too, and it ruined my life in the most literal sense. While most doctors have been relatively understanding, I have been told by multiple that it’s all in my head. Most often I find it’s friends and peers that are the toxic ones. But anyone who experiences some sort of invisible chronic pain knows that all pain is undeniably real. I have no shortage of empathy for what your mother is going through, and I hope she finds relief wherever she can.
@@subflooring7390 I have CFS too, ever since I copped a whopping dose of glandular fever during a volunteer trip in SE Asia, I was totally bed bound for over a year, and now it's been several years and I've never gotten back to where I was before, the hardest part of living like this is knowing that it's not something I'll just get over and get back to normal eventually - This is my life now. And it sucks. It's beyond depressing, and having such low functionality is awful, as well as being extremely hard to explain to people when you ultimately have to because you're always expected to do so so much more than you can, and even then it's never really enough because it's a struggle, and those things 'should' be easy, for anyone who doesn't have CFS. Even people who say they do understand don't really understand what it's like it, they still think you're playing it up or being lazy or not trying hard enough or that 'it must be nice' to 'not have to do anything' ugh, hard eyeroll on that one. Pain and fatigue are huge issues, so hard to deal with, so hard to live with, it's awful, but they get downplayed so much by everyone that it makes it even harder to live and exist with them than it would be just dealing with the issues alone and not the social stigma. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, ever.
My mother suffered a manic depressive episode which went on for several months until she had to be forced by a court to be hospitalized and put on a mood stabilizer. During this my mother in one night sent me over 300 texts with short variations on telling me everything is ok or fine etc. It was heart wrenching because I knew she needed help but we couldn't get her to go to the Dr. This seems very similar.
That honestly sounds really disturbing. Do you know why people with those conditions uncontrollably repeat actions? Wouldn't one feel the pain or the stiffness in your limbs from constantly writing something and would prompt one to stop?
Is she ok now?
@@Alex-lt9hl repetitive actions are often done for soothing reasons, such as pacing back and forth, taking deep breaths, counting, yk.
@@Alex-lt9hl like if you are working on a project you're well versed in for hours on end. it has this sickening calm feeling, i don't really have an a proper input on this tho, probably.
"And then it gets weird." oh NOW it gets weird????