Yo guys! I'm doing everything independently and it helps support my music if you download or stream the track :) you can find the song here! 🤘 Happy Christmas smarturl.it/HowToBeMe
As someone who struggles with mental health issues and was recently discharged from the hospital for a suicide attempt; Thank you, the semicolon project is one of the most beautiful things this world has and I appreciate you and all you do to spread that. I've never loved a song this much
Im glad ur attempt failed because life is too precious and suicide is permanent and i truly believe if u take life one day at a time and keep reaching out when u struggle, eventually u will find peace! I know how hard and hopeless life can be but reach for the little sparks of light and hold onto them tight……..you deserve life.
I dont have any mental health issues. But my lows are rough when i get overwhelmed. I hope youre doing better. And keep fighting ; you'll find freedom from the demons soon.
My daughter recently left due to mental illness and left her 6 year old daughter with me. It was like she was talking to me through this song. She loves flowers…she has told me about the floor breathing and she can’t walk across it. I was mad. I still didn’t understand how could she leave her daughter? I’m not mad anymore. It’s like she was telling me. Why didn’t I hear her? Why did it take this song for me to understand? Thank you. You helped me see and you helped me change my heart.
It's always better to understand later than to not understand at all, thank you for taking in your granddaughter ❤ i hope your daughter gets better somehow ❤️🍀
Oh, I am so sorry, sometimes the things that we need that we don’t even know. You didn’t know how to help her but somehow the light got through to you and now you know and you can change and that is a very good and growing experience for you. I hope you are also OK. . I came across the song out of chance..when I was typing “how to be me” in the Google search bar. People are struggling. I’m sorry for you. I hope your daughter is safe.❤
I’m crying at the library after most undergrad students have finished their exams, I deferred mines because I was at the mental hospital. The lyrics about a quick decision in the middle of the night got to me because all my serious attempts happened in the middle of the night. Then I’d be at the hospital the next day, then in the psych unit a few days later. The semicolon is a message to continue. Follow through with treatment, even if a lot of it is waiting alone and in pain. Learning one day at a time to make friends, find a circle I feel safe and accepted in. Working for a degree even if I can’t see myself having one in the current moment. It just matters I take one step at a time in the direction of a life worth living. Because I deserve a fulfilling life. To everyone thinking of ending things and when the thoughts are intense: - STOP (stop, take a step back, observe what’s around you, and proceed in a careful manner) and drop everything you’re doing, any objects you are holding and take a few breaths, inhale 5 seconds and exhale 7 seconds. - Tell yourself “I want to feel better, not d!e or s..h or use” - Splash cold water on your face/ put your face in a bowl of cold water/put an ice pack on your face, hold for 15 to 30 seconds and repeat (slows everything down and resets the present moment) - Video call or walk to a friend/family member and look them in the eye, say “can you help me get out of my head” (eye contact is a pain reliever). If there isn’t anyone, call a hotline and say “can you help me get out of my head” Repeat with me “I am worthy of feeling better” “The feeling will pass soon. I just need to make it through this moment” “I am enough. I am not a bad person” “It’s okay to feel the way I do. It makes sense to feel the way I am feeling right now” “May I be healthy, may I be loved, may I have a fulfilling life”
This is a beautiful message you left for everyone. I had to learn on my own and looked people in the eyes. They still didn't see me. I had to make a decision to go ahead forward on my own, cutting out all family even. It was hard but I learned to set boundaries with people and move quit to cut them out if they serve no purpose. God is bringing humans that love me for me, no judgemental and I am in a way better place. Good luck to all I'm 4.5 months sober from alcohol. ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience and reading your comment here really helped me understand a little bit more about how I’m not the only one that feels like this again thank you ❤🌖🌔🌎🌍🌏🪐💫🌈🧁🍦🍫🥤🍹🏩💒🏞️🌅🛤️🛣️
last year 1nd semester of my honors degree i deferred last 2 exams then the stress was too much. got hooked on H just a little smoke to feel better get through the stress.. then injection to feel more m. then to feel normal and not the crippling sickness it doesn't let you go, doesn't let u stop and live like normal. 2yrs of running watching my friends graduate 1nd move on, im in my room day and night trying to get clean, now i feel i dont have the power that just to delete myself is all i can do i don't have fight to get back to where i was.. i give anything to be the old me. dont want to be here anymore, im 37 this degree was a huge achievement 4 my family everyone proud, my kids my family all believed in me.. i went down that road willing coz i was stressed and wanted to escape. thanks 4 yr st9ry
Verse 1: Ren] I don't feel safe in this bed There are voices in my head I've been talking to the dead And the fear baptised me My kingdom turned to dust And I watched all my riches rust Have I lost the Midas' touch? Or do sad eyes blind me? [Chorus: both] Over and over we go Over the hills and the valleys below Oh, and it follows me, follows me home And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me [Verse 2: Ren, both] I don't feel safe in these halls There are bruises on the walls There are bodies in the floors And they breathe so loudly I wish I could move Get up and walk right out this tomb Do our saviours die too soon? For my sins surround me [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both] Over and over we go (Over and over we go) Over the hills and the valleys below (Over the hills and the valleys below) Oh, and it follows me, follows me home (Follows me, follows me) And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me Hallelujah Where is my god, where are you? Hallelujah Nothing is pulling me through Hallelujah When I don't know how to be Hallelujah I forgot how to be me [Outro: Ren] When he gave up the fight A quick decision late in the night That stayed with me for all of my life I miss you so
It’s so refreshing to hear legitimately authentic music. Particularly, music that gives voice to the often voiceless who face mental health challenges. Bravo.
We all face mental challenges. Some people are simply stronger. Some face bigger challenge. Some have support. Some dont. Some have character for a challenge and some get swallowed. My point is ... challenges are inevitable how we deal with them is the key.
I listen to this song a lot and every time I do it breaks me! My 17yr old son passed away suddenly and unexpectedly and I found him the following morning. The old me died that day too and it is never coming back. I love your music Ren, not only are you a talented musician and lyricist but you have a gift for reaching into people's souls and connecting with them. Much love and respect to you
Im terribly sorry to hear that it must've been so hard to go through that as a parent that must be so rough having to lose one of the closest things to you. I hope you never have to lose anything close to you again if you ever do come to this video im here to listen to your problems if you need to vent i hope you take care and best of luck with your physical and mental health
You so brave to face this life hurt...hurt to your vision of who your son could have been as an adult. You are so full of grace....bless you and your family. ❤❤❤
My daughter recently made some attempts on her life...very quiet like when no one knew... This song has new meaning since we've started her healing process
I almost never respond on videos.. But fml this song is amazing. You are getting better and better with every new song you drop. I really wish your voice will not only keep on reaching out to the ears of the people whom you have reached out to already.. But for the whole world te hear and recognize the art you create. Much love from Amsterdam. Looking forward to visit one of your concerts one day..
"Where is my god, where are you?" This part hit home. Hard. I was raised a muslim and even tho i don't believe in it anymore it's still basically my whole culture. When everyone around me consoles to god and pray in hardships, telling me that my depression will be cured if i turn to god or that I'm depressed because i'm away from god, i think that's why it hit like it did. Where's my god? Where's the one i confide in? Where's my peace? Where's that thing that will magically make all the pain worth it, you know?
I am a muslim too and ı am about to got drowned in my questions I just want you to know that you are not the only one who feels like this you are not alone
this song reminds me of how it is to be in an abusive relationship and how you can't leave it, and it follows you everywhere alongside with losing everyone around you and how alone it makes you feel, making you suicidal. Absolutely love this song, explains how I feel 💓
i love that interpretation even though it’s so sad, i’ve been in abusive relationships and as soon as i read what you said i realized how true it is although i never could have thought of it myself. hope you’re doing okay ❤
[Verse 1: Ren] I don't feel safe in this bed There are voices in my head I've been talking to the dead And the fear baptised me My kingdom turned to dust And I watched all my riches rust Have I lost the Midas' touch? Or do sad eyes blind me? [Chorus: both] Over and over we go Over the hills and the valleys bellow Oh, and it follows me, follows me home And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me [Verse 2: Ren, both] I don't feel safe in the halls There are bruises on the walls There are bodies in the floors And they breathe so loudly I wish I could move Get up and walk right out this tomb Do our saviours die too soon? For my sins surround me [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both] Over and over we go (Over and over we go) Over the hills and the valleys below (Over the hills and the valleys below) Oh, and it follows me, follows me home (Follows me, follows me) And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me Halleluja Where is my god, where are you? Halleluja Nothing is pulling me through Halleluja When I don't know how to be Halleluja I forgot how to be me [Outro: Ren] When he gave up the fight A quick decision late in the night That stayed with me for all of my life I miss you so
besides the fact that this song is absolutely beautiful this lyrics video and the effort that was put into this.. i don’t even know what to say i am just very happy about it all
This song describes me perfectly. I’m 13 years old and I’ve delt with incredibly severe anxiety and OCD since I was 8 years old. It got much worse recently two of my best friends and I got into an argument where they screamed at me, and gave me trauma. I rethought every conversation we have ever had to make sure I haven’t done something wrong. It drove me completely insane and made it so I was sad all the time and nothing could cheer me up. I felt like I fell into a pit, but my body was still up on the ground. The first time I saw their faces I had an anxiety attack. Sometimes worrying about doing things wrong made me feel like I was the worst human on this earth. Thank you for this song Ren. ❤❤❤ know that you are appreciated.
This song always hit me hard. I was in a severe car wreck about 12 years ago where one of my injuries was a severe concussion/ head trauma. Ever since then I have struggled with mental health and have told many people that I haven't been the same since then. This song perfectly described a feeling I hadn't found the right words to express. Also, after hearing the last verse in Suicide, the last bit of this song hits me different. Dont know for sure if they are both about the same event but it seems like it.
All depressing relations to this song aside, this is BEAUTIFULLY Written, performed and “animated”! everything about it gives off this feeling of lost and desperation while also feeling familiar, perfectly nailing the feeling of grief Over losing a friend after the crying is done. I love it!! And how you included the semi colon? Spectacular!! I’ll definitely be listening to more of your amazing content!!
@@Toisty They just mean, its sad how many people are struggling with their mental health, and so many people are still alive because of his music, its bittersweet that he doesn't know how many people are still alive because of him. He's still alive don't worry
I think he probably does, Hannah. I don't think you can put out what he does and not recognise how many of us there are. We all think we're alone in our struggles, which we are on many levels, but Ren opens the curtains and we see our fellow audience members. It's a beautiful thing to know that, whilst we will never meet all our sisters and brothers under the skin, they are there nonetheless. ;
I fucking love this song! I am imagining like when i am on the bus coming home thinking about my things, tired of life and this epic song playing, love it.
I don't know why or how, but this song moves so deep in me, in the broken essence that everyone hides, it really encourages me to seek help, nothing has ever defined me it as well as I feel almost every moment.
Answer: he’s not. It sucks bc, wouldn’t everyone want to have a god beside them to reassure them that everything is gonna be okay? But there will be no god there and you’ll simply have to trust yourself
Different kinds of religions exist out there, heck, you can even join an occult, but I don't recommend the occult stuff, heard too much gore and horrors at that one so lmao. Anyways, you choose what you believe in, but with so many religions, there are so many contradictions. Making a sense out of everything they say will only tire your brain out, I'm an agnostic raised by both of my parents that are catholic. They've taken these sessions with the witnesses of Jehovah, and in my opinion, some most well known religions offers reassurance through the dark pit mystery if hell does exist, because if it does, so does heaven. Mhmm... This comment probably won't make any sense for now, but I hope that you'll realize sooner or later what I'm trying to say lmao.
I have the semicolon tattooed on me. And I don't know how long it's been since I've been able to relate fully to a song. The melody between you 2 is amazing. I've never been able to hear the word suffocates me in the way you did and it successfully worked. I just found you tonight and so far, I'm not disappointed. Great job. Will continue to listen. Thank you for making music towards mental illness.
I've been struggling to deal with my mental health alot over the last little while, so this song speaks to me alot. I love the line, "I forgot how to be me" because it's really how it feels Thank you, for this song it means alot to me.
A true shared journey. This is what music is about! The freedom for you to express everything and anything and you have truly dominated that understanding. Thank you for sharing your story Ren.
Chords (ukulele): A C#m A C#m A C#m F#m These are the chords, just play it by your ear. And personally, I adore this song so much. Ren and Chinchilla did it big time.
I feel like I've come upon a gold mine in your music and videos. Your performances are a genuine treat in a world of washed out entertainment and skin-deep meaning.
Thank you! This sounds majestic...I was just crying, and this made me cry even harder and I think that's what I needed. This ugliness of mine I don't want others to discover it and music like this is something that I can lean on. Ahhh, I hope that life gets better and that my desire to live it also gets better instead of it feeling suffocating and me carrying this bitterness and resentment. I hope to be bright once again and that I can become my own savior...
This song hits different, it feels like a cry for help but a confession. The vocals *chefs kiss, Chinchilla lowkey reminds me of Sia and the harmonizing. This is GOLD
I have Borderline Personality Disorder and this song made me decide to have the semicolon tattoed on my wrist, over my selfharm scars. I listen to this song everyday and I wanted to sing it on Superstar Romania (where I was a semi-finalist), but the producers said it was too depressing. I will definitely sing it on a big stage someday!
You are really an amazing and very talented artist who is able to speak deeply what many people feel and are not able to put into words. Finding you and your music was like finding a gem. My God your talented. Please keep on writing and releasing your music. Thank you!
Love this! I agree, Ren your friend that you lost must be so proud of you! You have brought so much beauty to such horrible circumstances & feelings! Thank you for putting so many of our feelings into this beautiful melody 🎶 ❤
Two weeks ago I almost lost my mother to suicide, I love her with all my heart and I feel like I have taken her for granted. A single mom with four kids, fighting to find education and a job when everyone seems to be pushing her back. She's my best friend and hearing this song makes me cry my eyes out. I found her unconscious on the floor, yelling her name and calling 911 to try and save her, luckily she survived and I'm so glad she's still here. I now struggle with panic attacks and ptsd every day, but that doesn't matter, as long as I still have my mom ❤ I love you so much mom, never forget 😭❤️❤️
Fresh off the funny farm and this song was recommended to me by a beautiful young soul while inpatient. Had to share with my therapist because its better than trying to explain how i feel to him. My kingdom has turned to dust unfortunately, and im not confident that i will make it out this time. Thank you for giving me words when I cant anymore.
I don't feel safe in this bed There are voices in my head I've been talking to the dead And the fear baptised me My kingdom turned to dust And I watched all my riches rust Have I lost the Midas' touch? Or do sad eyes blind me? Over and over we go Over the hills and the valleys bellow Oh, and it follows me, follows me home And it suffocates me, hmmm Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me I don't feel safe in the halls There are bruises on the walls There are bodies in the floors And they breathe so loudly I wish I could move Get up and walk right out this tomb Do our saviours die too soon? For my sins surround me Over and over we go (Over and over we go) Over the hills and the valleys below (Over the hills and the valleys below) Oh, and it follows me, follows me home (Follows me, follows me) And it suffocates me, hmmm Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me Halleluja Where is my God, where are you? Halleluja Nothing is pulling me through Halleluja When I don't know how to be Halleluja I forgot how to be me When he gave up the fight A quick decision late in the night That stayed with me for all of my life I miss you so
"I can't breathe, oh I can't breathe. All I know is I forgot how to be me"... Ren, sir, to say that speaks to me is the world's biggest understatement. It Screams to me, through me.
I never post a comment on songs but this one spoke to me in so many levels as somebody who feels like a former shadow of myself I cried a lot listening to it thank u for the amazing song xx
Aicha Raji some people have trouble with lyric videos where you can’t see the whole line because of like reading disability’s and stuff so these comments help
I'm autistic I learn much faster through text because speech can be difficult to understand that and the text on screen in weird if you can read it well good for you but for someone like me I much prefer cleaner text like this
I've listened to this song over and over over for months. Absolutely beautiful and amazing. There voices go so well together. It sounds like they were made for this song.
I tattooed a semi colon on myself to remind me to keep going, no matter what, thank you for helping me to remember I am not the only one that feels this way. Thank you, you inspire an old lady who lives in the USA, and I was able to share your art with my son! A Fam of Fans ❤🤗
love how diverse you are mate . not enough artists out there step outside they're comfort zones . mad respect ✊ hope you hit 2020 like a tone of bricks 😎
Bit late to the party but I Really appreciate the way the end the chorus goes with "how to be me" and ren follows up with his own verse which is fresh through the whole song
I'm so glad I stumbled upon your music. Every song I heard from you speaks to me so much. I'm looking forward to hearing much more from you, don't ever change Ren you sexy specimen. You're an inspiration
10/10REN10/10 speaking to all those who live a life with extras - often unwanted, intrusive, heart wrenching extras. Ren = comfort and understanding 10/10
Hauntingly beautiful…pure magic. Your music should be mainstream…soo many of us relate when we stumble upon it…i can only imagine what it would do for the masses…thank you for your vulnerability and window into your soul…❤
When people say your music is refreshing it's not bullshit, you don't jus bring music to our ears but that essence a lot of us are missing in our lives.
Young man you have a talent for touching my heart! Thank you Ren for the truths you sing of! Your wisdom seems to be Way Beyond your years! I'm a writer and I know it's not easy to expose oneself. For this I thank you again!
[Verse 1: Ren] I don't feel safe in this bed There are voices in my head I've been talking to the dead And the fear baptised me My kingdom turned to dust And I watched all my riches rust Have I lost the Midas' touch? Or do sad eyes blind me? [Chorus: both] Over and over we go Over the hills and the valleys bellow Oh, and it follows me, follows me home And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me [Verse 2: Ren, both] I don't feel safe in the halls There are bruises on the walls There are bodies in the floors And they breathe so loudly I wish I could move Get up and walk right out this tomb Do our saviours die too soon? For my sins surround me [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both] Over and over we go (Over and over we go) Over the hills and the valleys below (Over the hills and the valleys below) Oh, and it follows me, follows me home (Follows me, follows me) And it suffocates me, hmmm [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla] Oh, I can't breath I said oh, I can't breath All I know is I forgot how to be me Halleluja Where is my god, where are you? Halleluja Nothing is pulling me through Halleluja When I don't know how to be Halleluja I forgot how to be me [Outro: Ren] When he gave up the fight A quick decision late in the night That stayed with me for all of my life I miss you so
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Yo guys! I'm doing everything independently and it helps support my music if you download or stream the track :) you can find the song here! 🤘 Happy Christmas smarturl.it/HowToBeMe
Love from Australia ren xx
Love from Colombia, Ren xx
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Much love from Canada! You are insanely talented! I will support your art anyway i can! Cheers mate! Happy holidays!
Love from Brasil!
As someone who struggles with mental health issues and was recently discharged from the hospital for a suicide attempt; Thank you, the semicolon project is one of the most beautiful things this world has and I appreciate you and all you do to spread that. I've never loved a song this much
Good luck with your health mate :) "It's alright" by Ren and The Big Push always lifts my spirit
stay strong❤♥️
Im glad ur attempt failed because life is too precious and suicide is permanent and i truly believe if u take life one day at a time and keep reaching out when u struggle, eventually u will find peace! I know how hard and hopeless life can be but reach for the little sparks of light and hold onto them tight……..you deserve life.
I dont have any mental health issues. But my lows are rough when i get overwhelmed. I hope youre doing better. And keep fighting ; you'll find freedom from the demons soon.
@@krissy8045 you have a beautiful soul amd heart. You also remimber to reach for the sparks of light to.
"I forgot how to be me" that spoke to me
so true I don't remember the last time I was actually me
anouar aitouaaziz does anyone
same to me
Same, I just ended therapy 2 days bc it wasn't working.
When they said "ooOooOooOOOoo" i felt that
Glad to find such hidden gem through RUclips's recommendation
Me too
Lol same
im thankful you can reply to comments, and im thankful for that random person who wasnt talking to me because i have a new favorite musical artist
Me too 🤣 this is the most amazing song RUclips ever recomended and I simply can't put my finger on what's so mesmerising about it... but I'm obsessed
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My daughter recently left due to mental illness and left her 6 year old daughter with me. It was like she was talking to me through this song. She loves flowers…she has told me about the floor breathing and she can’t walk across it. I was mad. I still didn’t understand how could she leave her daughter? I’m not mad anymore. It’s like she was telling me. Why didn’t I hear her? Why did it take this song for me to understand? Thank you. You helped me see and you helped me change my heart.
You’re very strong!Keep going!Sending much love!🫶🏼
Everything will be fine❤️
Take care ! 🌼🌸🌷🌻
It's always better to understand later than to not understand at all, thank you for taking in your granddaughter ❤ i hope your daughter gets better somehow ❤️🍀
Oh, I am so sorry, sometimes the things that we need that we don’t even know. You didn’t know how to help her but somehow the light got through to you and now you know and you can change and that is a very good and growing experience for you. I hope you are also OK. .
I came across the song out of chance..when I was typing “how to be me” in the Google search bar.
People are struggling.
I’m sorry for you.
I hope your daughter is safe.❤
😭❤️🙏🏼 keep that open mind . Sending love . Praying for courage
I’m crying at the library after most undergrad students have finished their exams, I deferred mines because I was at the mental hospital. The lyrics about a quick decision in the middle of the night got to me because all my serious attempts happened in the middle of the night. Then I’d be at the hospital the next day, then in the psych unit a few days later. The semicolon is a message to continue. Follow through with treatment, even if a lot of it is waiting alone and in pain. Learning one day at a time to make friends, find a circle I feel safe and accepted in. Working for a degree even if I can’t see myself having one in the current moment. It just matters I take one step at a time in the direction of a life worth living. Because I deserve a fulfilling life.
To everyone thinking of ending things and when the thoughts are intense:
- STOP (stop, take a step back, observe what’s around you, and proceed in a careful manner) and drop everything you’re doing, any objects you are holding and take a few breaths, inhale 5 seconds and exhale 7 seconds.
- Tell yourself “I want to feel better, not d!e or s..h or use”
- Splash cold water on your face/ put your face in a bowl of cold water/put an ice pack on your face, hold for 15 to 30 seconds and repeat (slows everything down and resets the present moment)
- Video call or walk to a friend/family member and look them in the eye, say “can you help me get out of my head” (eye contact is a pain reliever). If there isn’t anyone, call a hotline and say “can you help me get out of my head”
Repeat with me
“I am worthy of feeling better”
“The feeling will pass soon. I just need to make it through this moment”
“I am enough. I am not a bad person”
“It’s okay to feel the way I do. It makes sense to feel the way I am feeling right now”
“May I be healthy, may I be loved, may I have a fulfilling life”
I LOVE YOU BRO 😭😭😭🍀🍀 HERE'S A VIRTUALLY HUGGG THANKK YOU FOR GOING STRONG AND THANK YOU SO MUCH WRITING THIS COMMENT!!
This is a beautiful message you left for everyone. I had to learn on my own and looked people in the eyes. They still didn't see me. I had to make a decision to go ahead forward on my own, cutting out all family even. It was hard but I learned to set boundaries with people and move quit to cut them out if they serve no purpose. God is bringing humans that love me for me, no judgemental and I am in a way better place. Good luck to all I'm 4.5 months sober from alcohol. ❤
Thank you for sharing your experience and reading your comment here really helped me understand a little bit more about how I’m not the only one that feels like this again thank you ❤🌖🌔🌎🌍🌏🪐💫🌈🧁🍦🍫🥤🍹🏩💒🏞️🌅🛤️🛣️
last year 1nd semester of my honors degree i deferred last 2 exams then the stress was too much. got hooked on H just a little smoke to feel better get through the stress.. then injection to feel more m. then to feel normal and not the crippling sickness it doesn't let you go, doesn't let u stop and live like normal. 2yrs of running watching my friends graduate 1nd move on, im in my room day and night trying to get clean, now i feel i dont have the power that just to delete myself is all i can do i don't have fight to get back to where i was.. i give anything to be the old me. dont want to be here anymore, im 37 this degree was a huge achievement 4 my family everyone proud, my kids my family all believed in me.. i went down that road willing coz i was stressed and wanted to escape. thanks 4 yr st9ry
Love this!!! I teach DBT in a mental health facility every day but still struggle to apply it to my life. Thank you for putting it here ❤
Me: This is gonna be a good song
Me through the tears : yeah i was right
same dude,,, same
Dude me too right now
I was not expecting that i will cry in my bed right now...
do you still listen to it?
@@hanna6548 yuuuuup and it still breaks my heart
same!
Verse 1: Ren]
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?
[Chorus: both]
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys below
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
[Verse 2: Ren, both]
I don't feel safe in these halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me
[Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Hallelujah
Where is my god, where are you?
Hallelujah
Nothing is pulling me through
Hallelujah
When I don't know how to be
Hallelujah
I forgot how to be me
[Outro: Ren]
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so
It’s so refreshing to hear legitimately authentic music. Particularly, music that gives voice to the often voiceless who face mental health challenges. Bravo.
I just like the beat and tempo
We all face mental challenges. Some people are simply stronger. Some face bigger challenge. Some have support. Some dont. Some have character for a challenge and some get swallowed. My point is ... challenges are inevitable how we deal with them is the key.
I listen to this song a lot and every time I do it breaks me! My 17yr old son passed away suddenly and unexpectedly and I found him the following morning. The old me died that day too and it is never coming back. I love your music Ren, not only are you a talented musician and lyricist but you have a gift for reaching into people's souls and connecting with them. Much love and respect to you
Im terribly sorry to hear that it must've been so hard to go through that as a parent that must be so rough having to lose one of the closest things to you. I hope you never have to lose anything close to you again if you ever do come to this video im here to listen to your problems if you need to vent i hope you take care and best of luck with your physical and mental health
You so brave to face this life hurt...hurt to your vision of who your son could have been as an adult. You are so full of grace....bless you and your family. ❤❤❤
I’m so sorry for your loss sending love and strength to you 🫶🏼
@@liamfinnegan2314 thanks for the kind words. Much appreciated
@@zoomby4380 thanks for the comment. Hardest thing I have ever had to do
My daughter recently made some attempts on her life...very quiet like when no one knew... This song has new meaning since we've started her healing process
I truly hope she's doing better now 🤍
I almost never respond on videos.. But fml this song is amazing. You are getting better and better with every new song you drop. I really wish your voice will not only keep on reaching out to the ears of the people whom you have reached out to already.. But for the whole world te hear and recognize the art you create.
Much love from Amsterdam. Looking forward to visit one of your concerts one day..
fijne feestdagen!
Amsterdam ❤️. But couldn’t agree, hopefully one day! This is pure art.
Lets take the train to brittain then.
Kon het niet beter zeggen🙏🏻
🤙👌👍⭐🏠
"Where is my god, where are you?"
This part hit home. Hard. I was raised a muslim and even tho i don't believe in it anymore it's still basically my whole culture. When everyone around me consoles to god and pray in hardships, telling me that my depression will be cured if i turn to god or that I'm depressed because i'm away from god, i think that's why it hit like it did. Where's my god? Where's the one i confide in? Where's my peace? Where's that thing that will magically make all the pain worth it, you know?
I am a muslim too and ı am about to got drowned in my questions I just want you to know that you are not the only one who feels like this you are not alone
@@user-ld5vi4rd4l thank you❤ means a lot.
Wish you easier days:)
Thanks wish you some peaceful ones :)
Btw if you need someone to talk to I could always be that person sometimes its much easier to talk with a total stranger
I am a Muslim too but I am bi and my religion don't support that and I feel like nobody who's near me will ever love for loving who I love
How can Ren remain so underrated all these years astounds me.
These songs are gold.
The subscriber count is too low for that.
6 months after you posted this, its finally happening for Ren. 😊❤🎉
@@graceydez6199 Seriously!? That's awesome! Gotta check it out. Thanks for telling me.
And bigger.... buy an album he's number 2 atm
this song reminds me of how it is to be in an abusive relationship and how you can't leave it, and it follows you everywhere alongside with losing everyone around you and how alone it makes you feel, making you suicidal.
Absolutely love this song, explains how I feel 💓
i love that interpretation even though it’s so sad, i’ve been in abusive relationships and as soon as i read what you said i realized how true it is although i never could have thought of it myself. hope you’re doing okay ❤
[Verse 1: Ren]
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?
[Chorus: both]
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys bellow
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
[Verse 2: Ren, both]
I don't feel safe in the halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me
[Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Halleluja
Where is my god, where are you?
Halleluja
Nothing is pulling me through
Halleluja
When I don't know how to be
Halleluja
I forgot how to be me
[Outro: Ren]
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so
Gracias!!!!!!!
It's an lyrics video, i do not understand why would we need this.
@@alexgeorge5989 The lyrics appears exactly in the moment that they sing. If someone is trying to learn it is better to have something like this.
Thank you
@@alexgeorge5989 is more easy read this than the video
Dude you have the ability to make anyone break down and cry. And it’s a good thing. Needed this one bro
besides the fact that this song is absolutely beautiful this lyrics video and the effort that was put into this.. i don’t even know what to say i am just very happy about it all
Bloody amazing song. I hope you have good success in 2023 Ren, you deserve it.
Aussie
@@dylanbrooking5125brit
Never thought luigi would show me such a great artist.
HOLY SHIT SAME
Same bro
Saying same its just not enogh here XD
Heck yeah. To wait i just got a notif from habie bye.
Jesus Christ Ren I swear to God you're the most underrated musician EVER
This could be a soundtrack for something
I'm feeling this on the Witcher show yk
Should***
Best gift
Yeessd
Happy Christmas guys!
This song describes me perfectly. I’m 13 years old and I’ve delt with incredibly severe anxiety and OCD since I was 8 years old. It got much worse recently two of my best friends and I got into an argument where they screamed at me, and gave me trauma. I rethought every conversation we have ever had to make sure I haven’t done something wrong. It drove me completely insane and made it so I was sad all the time and nothing could cheer me up. I felt like I fell into a pit, but my body was still up on the ground. The first time I saw their faces I had an anxiety attack. Sometimes worrying about doing things wrong made me feel like I was the worst human on this earth. Thank you for this song Ren. ❤❤❤ know that you are appreciated.
It's ok to be wrong, act stupid and make mistakes. And you will find your people.
Your strong❤
دوستان آره خودشه آه اونا همیشه منو کوبیدن بعدم مردم
میگن محکمم آه بهترم حداقل
This song always hit me hard. I was in a severe car wreck about 12 years ago where one of my injuries was a severe concussion/ head trauma. Ever since then I have struggled with mental health and have told many people that I haven't been the same since then. This song perfectly described a feeling I hadn't found the right words to express.
Also, after hearing the last verse in Suicide, the last bit of this song hits me different. Dont know for sure if they are both about the same event but it seems like it.
Honestly tho, this is one of the most unique songs i've heard.
These lyrics hit so hard I don’t know how to breath.
*put it in my playlist*
All depressing relations to this song aside, this is BEAUTIFULLY Written, performed and “animated”! everything about it gives off this feeling of lost and desperation while also feeling familiar, perfectly nailing the feeling of grief Over losing a friend after the crying is done. I love it!! And how you included the semi colon? Spectacular!! I’ll definitely be listening to more of your amazing content!!
It's almost a little sad, that he'll never know, how many of us are still here, because of his music.
Is ten dead or smth?
@@Toisty They just mean, its sad how many people are struggling with their mental health, and so many people are still alive because of his music, its bittersweet that he doesn't know how many people are still alive because of him. He's still alive don't worry
@@iambutterpuppy1143 aww that’s cute also I’m glad he’s still here that man is a musical genius
I think he probably does, Hannah. I don't think you can put out what he does and not recognise how many of us there are. We all think we're alone in our struggles, which we are on many levels, but Ren opens the curtains and we see our fellow audience members. It's a beautiful thing to know that, whilst we will never meet all our sisters and brothers under the skin, they are there nonetheless. ;
man why do you have to say it like that? I thought he died. It scared me for a bit
I fucking love this song! I am imagining like when i am on the bus coming home thinking about my things, tired of life and this epic song playing, love it.
I don't know why or how, but this song moves so deep in me, in the broken essence that everyone hides, it really encourages me to seek help, nothing has ever defined me it as well as I feel almost every moment.
سعی کردم پنهانش کنم ولی همه دیدنش ای بابا 😮💨😖
*"Where is my god, where are you?"*
That spoke to me
He's right there and always will be.
Answer: he’s not. It sucks bc, wouldn’t everyone want to have a god beside them to reassure them that everything is gonna be okay? But there will be no god there and you’ll simply have to trust yourself
Different kinds of religions exist out there, heck, you can even join an occult, but I don't recommend the occult stuff, heard too much gore and horrors at that one so lmao. Anyways, you choose what you believe in, but with so many religions, there are so many contradictions. Making a sense out of everything they say will only tire your brain out, I'm an agnostic raised by both of my parents that are catholic. They've taken these sessions with the witnesses of Jehovah, and in my opinion, some most well known religions offers reassurance through the dark pit mystery if hell does exist, because if it does, so does heaven.
Mhmm... This comment probably won't make any sense for now, but I hope that you'll realize sooner or later what I'm trying to say lmao.
You do realise you can't just run to God when you're sad? And run to the world when you're happy? And then say where God is
@@veeeef true...
I cant stop coming back to this song again and again...here I am again
The vibes this song gives me are the best. The hopelessness the sadness of losing a loved one.
The hardest part is getting your loved ones to understand and still love you.
I have the semicolon tattooed on me. And I don't know how long it's been since I've been able to relate fully to a song. The melody between you 2 is amazing. I've never been able to hear the word suffocates me in the way you did and it successfully worked. I just found you tonight and so far, I'm not disappointed. Great job. Will continue to listen. Thank you for making music towards mental illness.
*I'm so glad this was in my recommendation.*
What a beautiful and touching song, the sound it's so unique. 💖
I love these two making music together.
I've been struggling to deal with my mental health alot over the last little while, so this song speaks to me alot.
I love the line, "I forgot how to be me" because it's really how it feels
Thank you, for this song it means alot to me.
Love you
❤
@@RenMakesMusic Thanks for posting on Christmas! Love your music and I think you are extremely talented 👍
A true shared journey. This is what music is about! The freedom for you to express everything and anything and you have truly dominated that understanding. Thank you for sharing your story Ren.
Chords (ukulele):
A C#m
A C#m
A C#m
F#m
These are the chords, just play it by your ear. And personally, I adore this song so much. Ren and Chinchilla did it big time.
This means B Minor?
Do You know for the guitar?
@alexandraardnaxela4593 it's the same!
I feel like I've come upon a gold mine in your music and videos. Your performances are a genuine treat in a world of washed out entertainment and skin-deep meaning.
LETS GOOO
Thank you! This sounds majestic...I was just crying, and this made me cry even harder and I think that's what I needed. This ugliness of mine I don't want others to discover it and music like this is something that I can lean on. Ahhh, I hope that life gets better and that my desire to live it also gets better instead of it feeling suffocating and me carrying this bitterness and resentment. I hope to be bright once again and that I can become my own savior...
This song hits different, it feels like a cry for help but a confession. The vocals *chefs kiss, Chinchilla lowkey reminds me of Sia and the harmonizing. This is GOLD
I have Borderline Personality Disorder and this song made me decide to have the semicolon tattoed on my wrist, over my selfharm scars. I listen to this song everyday and I wanted to sing it on Superstar Romania (where I was a semi-finalist), but the producers said it was too depressing. I will definitely sing it on a big stage someday!
you ll have to do it
Stay strong
Me too stay strong hope you sing it one day x
Those producers are what's wrong with the world. ❤ Sing your truth xoxo
Yes queen.... get it on the big stage
Chinchillas voice is amazing and calming
I just got goosebumps from this. It's so deep, meaningful, I can't explain what i felt, it's like I'm looking to my brain out of myself.
1. I think this song must go viral!
2. I must have the chords. This song is amazing!
The chords are :
A / C#m then F#m
@@AzizJb There's also an E in the Halleluja part
I guess both of your wishes came true lol
You are really an amazing and very talented artist who is able to speak deeply what many people feel and are not able to put into words. Finding you and your music was like finding a gem. My God your talented. Please keep on writing and releasing your music. Thank you!
I hope that you're writting this cause you get through this and you haven't feel it no more. You made perfection, Ren
This outro breaks my heart.
He must be so proud of you, Ren.
Love this! I agree, Ren your friend that you lost must be so proud of you! You have brought so much beauty to such horrible circumstances & feelings! Thank you for putting so many of our feelings into this beautiful melody 🎶 ❤
Two weeks ago I almost lost my mother to suicide, I love her with all my heart and I feel like I have taken her for granted. A single mom with four kids, fighting to find education and a job when everyone seems to be pushing her back. She's my best friend and hearing this song makes me cry my eyes out. I found her unconscious on the floor, yelling her name and calling 911 to try and save her, luckily she survived and I'm so glad she's still here. I now struggle with panic attacks and ptsd every day, but that doesn't matter, as long as I still have my mom ❤ I love you so much mom, never forget 😭❤️❤️
I am always here for you, I love you darling ❣❣❣❤💖
your voices harmonize soo good and this song is perfect, i'm really glad i found your music Ren!
Fresh off the funny farm and this song was recommended to me by a beautiful young soul while inpatient.
Had to share with my therapist because its better than trying to explain how i feel to him.
My kingdom has turned to dust unfortunately, and im not confident that i will make it out this time.
Thank you for giving me words when I cant anymore.
How are you doing?
Are you still with us Colleen? I hope so.
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys bellow
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
I don't feel safe in the halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Halleluja
Where is my God, where are you?
Halleluja
Nothing is pulling me through
Halleluja
When I don't know how to be
Halleluja
I forgot how to be me
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so
This song is my soul. I have said these words more times than possible to count over the past 5 yrs. How is that possible. 😢😢😢😢
this song is one of the few that made me calm down
best christmas gift i couldve asked for hands down
Happy Christmas!! ❤❤
My sertraline isn’t cutting it today but Ren is so cathartic I know I’ll make it to another sunrise.
40 years old, and I can't believe how much this relates to me............fking amazing. Love from Australia.
I don’t think I was ever given the chance to learn how to be me, truly.
"I can't breathe, oh I can't breathe. All I know is I forgot how to be me"... Ren, sir, to say that speaks to me is the world's biggest understatement. It Screams to me, through me.
The lines where in the end about when he gives up the fight late at the night just hits you strong
I never post a comment on songs but this one spoke to me in so many levels as somebody who feels like a former shadow of myself I cried a lot listening to it thank u for the amazing song xx
Outdoes himself every time, my first time listening to chinchilla but she’s incredible too wow
This song really means a lot to me and helped me understand my feelings when i was depressed.
Someone: * comments the lyrics of the song in a lyrics video *
Me: I'm confusion.
Aicha Raji some people have trouble with lyric videos where you can’t see the whole line because of like reading disability’s and stuff so these comments help
I hope that kind of clears up your confusion I suck at explaining
Some people like to read on their own while listening instead of waiting for every sentence. It's easier to understand the lyric for some people
I'm autistic I learn much faster through text because speech can be difficult to understand that and the text on screen in weird if you can read it well good for you but for someone like me I much prefer cleaner text like this
I've listened to this song over and over over for months. Absolutely beautiful and amazing. There voices go so well together. It sounds like they were made for this song.
2:46 hits different
I tattooed a semi colon on myself to remind me to keep going, no matter what, thank you for helping me to remember I am not the only one that feels this way. Thank you, you inspire an old lady who lives in the USA, and I was able to share your art with my son! A Fam of Fans ❤🤗
This song gives me literal chills. And it hurts cuz I was in a fire and my nerves are regenerating but it’s worth it every time.
Merry Christmas Ren!
There's only 1 Ren..... Awsome as always merry Christmas all ..nice 1 for this on Christmas bro
Happy Christmas man!!
Amazing voice and talent . Everybody should know you . I will share on social media .
love how diverse you are mate . not enough artists out there step outside they're comfort zones . mad respect ✊ hope you hit 2020 like a tone of bricks 😎
This is the single most amazing thing to come up on my recommendations omg
I absolutely adore this song. And thank you Ren and Chinchilla for making it and sounding so beautiful blending togwther
Bit late to the party but I Really appreciate the way the end the chorus goes with "how to be me" and ren follows up with his own verse which is fresh through the whole song
I'm so glad I stumbled upon your music. Every song I heard from you speaks to me so much. I'm looking forward to hearing much more from you, don't ever change Ren you sexy specimen. You're an inspiration
Ah thanks so much ❤❤❤
Your voices are incredible
I feel like Ren makes these from his heart
10/10REN10/10 speaking to all those who live a life with extras - often unwanted, intrusive, heart wrenching extras. Ren = comfort and understanding 10/10
Words can't describe how great this song and performance is. The live version is equally brilliant.
I've just discovered this channel, I think I have a new favorite singer
Ren, you and Sam are gonna be one of the greatest singers in the world just dont give up you guys are unbelievable love from Turkey !
Same -
Türkiye'de bir tek ben keşfettim sanıyordum...
@@yildirim1fatih sıra var kardeşim
Finally! I've noticed you've been hitting the billboards with this, well deserved Ren! 2020 will be your year brother 👍🏻
I had never looked up the lyrics calmly, but stopping to analyze, what a profound song...
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so...
Sounds like he's singing about someone that killed his self from the last sentence of the song
In his song Depression he says "I don't wanna talk about my dead friend". I'm pretty sure his friend killed himself when they were young
@@stramashbeatbox2798 wauw I didn't know that 😪
Freakily interesting.
P. S. I got so scared that I commented because I have never seen this song before. We just have the same profile pic😂
@@stramashbeatbox2798 I was thinking about this too
Actually, I think it means he misses himself, since he days he forgot how to be himself
Hauntingly beautiful…pure magic. Your music should be mainstream…soo many of us relate when we stumble upon it…i can only imagine what it would do for the masses…thank you for your vulnerability and window into your soul…❤
literal chills, so glad i found this
This song really spoke to me.
Hello ❤
When people say your music is refreshing it's not bullshit, you don't jus bring music to our ears but that essence a lot of us are missing in our lives.
As soon as the music started I knew I was gonna love this song.
Young man you have a talent for touching my heart! Thank you Ren for the truths you sing of! Your wisdom seems to be Way Beyond your years! I'm a writer and I know it's not easy to expose oneself. For this I thank you again!
[Verse 1: Ren]
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?
[Chorus: both]
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys bellow
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
[Verse 2: Ren, both]
I don't feel safe in the halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me
[Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm
[Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Halleluja
Where is my god, where are you?
Halleluja
Nothing is pulling me through
Halleluja
When I don't know how to be
Halleluja
I forgot how to be me
[Outro: Ren]
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so
I will always love the two of these people collaborating. It is magnificent
Lately I’ve begun to understand the saying “this house doesn’t feel like home” and this song just amplifies that
These vocals are a match made in the heavens above 👌