Ren x Chinchilla - How To Be Me (Lyric Video)

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  • Опубликовано: 10 дек 2024

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  • @RenMakesMusic
    @RenMakesMusic  5 лет назад +3397

    Yo guys! I'm doing everything independently and it helps support my music if you download or stream the track :) you can find the song here! 🤘 Happy Christmas smarturl.it/HowToBeMe

    • @aidangoddard6307
      @aidangoddard6307 5 лет назад +33

      Love from Australia ren xx

    • @josuevargas5029
      @josuevargas5029 5 лет назад +16

      Love from Colombia, Ren xx

    • @dragonplay7104
      @dragonplay7104 5 лет назад +7

      Очень круто

    • @jordangarberg7744
      @jordangarberg7744 5 лет назад +9

      Much love from Canada! You are insanely talented! I will support your art anyway i can! Cheers mate! Happy holidays!

    • @vitorf2918
      @vitorf2918 5 лет назад +7

      Love from Brasil!

  • @dizzyspellss
    @dizzyspellss 5 лет назад +5985

    As someone who struggles with mental health issues and was recently discharged from the hospital for a suicide attempt; Thank you, the semicolon project is one of the most beautiful things this world has and I appreciate you and all you do to spread that. I've never loved a song this much

    • @rafapatatyn1570
      @rafapatatyn1570 5 лет назад +109

      Good luck with your health mate :) "It's alright" by Ren and The Big Push always lifts my spirit

    • @Sofia-wk1jp
      @Sofia-wk1jp 4 года назад +29

      stay strong❤♥️

    • @krissy8045
      @krissy8045 4 года назад +80

      Im glad ur attempt failed because life is too precious and suicide is permanent and i truly believe if u take life one day at a time and keep reaching out when u struggle, eventually u will find peace! I know how hard and hopeless life can be but reach for the little sparks of light and hold onto them tight……..you deserve life.

    • @Theratlord342
      @Theratlord342 4 года назад +29

      I dont have any mental health issues. But my lows are rough when i get overwhelmed. I hope youre doing better. And keep fighting ; you'll find freedom from the demons soon.

    • @Theratlord342
      @Theratlord342 4 года назад +17

      @@krissy8045 you have a beautiful soul amd heart. You also remimber to reach for the sparks of light to.

  • @fiqahsha
    @fiqahsha 5 лет назад +2894

    Glad to find such hidden gem through RUclips's recommendation

    • @notjamesbond4179
      @notjamesbond4179 4 года назад +2

      Me too

    • @aym3387
      @aym3387 4 года назад +1

      Lol same

    • @quackgirl7140
      @quackgirl7140 4 года назад +4

      im thankful you can reply to comments, and im thankful for that random person who wasnt talking to me because i have a new favorite musical artist

    • @ivanovannamaria6677
      @ivanovannamaria6677 3 года назад +4

      Me too 🤣 this is the most amazing song RUclips ever recomended and I simply can't put my finger on what's so mesmerising about it... but I'm obsessed

    • @maximizerboy
      @maximizerboy 3 года назад +4

      Luigi Capitalism

  • @YigithanYigit
    @YigithanYigit 5 лет назад +2582

    [Verse 1: Ren]
    I don't feel safe in this bed
    There are voices in my head
    I've been talking to the dead
    And the fear baptised me
    My kingdom turned to dust
    And I watched all my riches rust
    Have I lost the Midas' touch?
    Or do sad eyes blind me?
    [Chorus: both]
    Over and over we go
    Over the hills and the valleys bellow
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    [Verse 2: Ren, both]
    I don't feel safe in the halls
    There are bruises on the walls
    There are bodies in the floors
    And they breathe so loudly
    I wish I could move
    Get up and walk right out this tomb
    Do our saviours die too soon?
    For my sins surround me
    [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
    Over and over we go
    (Over and over we go)
    Over the hills and the valleys below
    (Over the hills and the valleys below)
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    (Follows me, follows me)
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    Halleluja
    Where is my god, where are you?
    Halleluja
    Nothing is pulling me through
    Halleluja
    When I don't know how to be
    Halleluja
    I forgot how to be me
    [Outro: Ren]
    When he gave up the fight
    A quick decision late in the night
    That stayed with me for all of my life
    I miss you so

    • @lalpuma
      @lalpuma 5 лет назад +23

      Gracias!!!!!!!

    • @alexgeorge5989
      @alexgeorge5989 5 лет назад +83

      It's an lyrics video, i do not understand why would we need this.

    • @PedroHenrique-te5vm
      @PedroHenrique-te5vm 5 лет назад +174

      @@alexgeorge5989 The lyrics appears exactly in the moment that they sing. If someone is trying to learn it is better to have something like this.

    • @sorrowsmiles13
      @sorrowsmiles13 5 лет назад +13

      Thank you

    • @Bianca_222
      @Bianca_222 4 года назад +19

      @@alexgeorge5989 is more easy read this than the video

  • @k8marlowe
    @k8marlowe Год назад +454

    It’s so refreshing to hear legitimately authentic music. Particularly, music that gives voice to the often voiceless who face mental health challenges. Bravo.

    • @theNoirwendigo
      @theNoirwendigo Год назад +6

      I just like the beat and tempo

    • @salonez91
      @salonez91 10 месяцев назад +2

      We all face mental challenges. Some people are simply stronger. Some face bigger challenge. Some have support. Some dont. Some have character for a challenge and some get swallowed. My point is ... challenges are inevitable how we deal with them is the key.

  • @violetevergarden0123
    @violetevergarden0123 Год назад +185

    I’m crying at the library after most undergrad students have finished their exams, I deferred mines because I was at the mental hospital. The lyrics about a quick decision in the middle of the night got to me because all my serious attempts happened in the middle of the night. Then I’d be at the hospital the next day, then in the psych unit a few days later. The semicolon is a message to continue. Follow through with treatment, even if a lot of it is waiting alone and in pain. Learning one day at a time to make friends, find a circle I feel safe and accepted in. Working for a degree even if I can’t see myself having one in the current moment. It just matters I take one step at a time in the direction of a life worth living. Because I deserve a fulfilling life.
    To everyone thinking of ending things and when the thoughts are intense:
    - STOP (stop, take a step back, observe what’s around you, and proceed in a careful manner) and drop everything you’re doing, any objects you are holding and take a few breaths, inhale 5 seconds and exhale 7 seconds.
    - Tell yourself “I want to feel better, not d!e or s..h or use”
    - Splash cold water on your face/ put your face in a bowl of cold water/put an ice pack on your face, hold for 15 to 30 seconds and repeat (slows everything down and resets the present moment)
    - Video call or walk to a friend/family member and look them in the eye, say “can you help me get out of my head” (eye contact is a pain reliever). If there isn’t anyone, call a hotline and say “can you help me get out of my head”
    Repeat with me
    “I am worthy of feeling better”
    “The feeling will pass soon. I just need to make it through this moment”
    “I am enough. I am not a bad person”
    “It’s okay to feel the way I do. It makes sense to feel the way I am feeling right now”
    “May I be healthy, may I be loved, may I have a fulfilling life”

    • @ayantikadas5035
      @ayantikadas5035 Год назад +11

      I LOVE YOU BRO 😭😭😭🍀🍀 HERE'S A VIRTUALLY HUGGG THANKK YOU FOR GOING STRONG AND THANK YOU SO MUCH WRITING THIS COMMENT!!

    • @NaTashaBailey111
      @NaTashaBailey111 Год назад +10

      This is a beautiful message you left for everyone. I had to learn on my own and looked people in the eyes. They still didn't see me. I had to make a decision to go ahead forward on my own, cutting out all family even. It was hard but I learned to set boundaries with people and move quit to cut them out if they serve no purpose. God is bringing humans that love me for me, no judgemental and I am in a way better place. Good luck to all I'm 4.5 months sober from alcohol. ❤

    • @stellawall38
      @stellawall38 11 месяцев назад +4

      Thank you for sharing your experience and reading your comment here really helped me understand a little bit more about how I’m not the only one that feels like this again thank you ❤🌖🌔🌎🌍🌏🪐💫🌈🧁🍦🍫🥤🍹🏩💒🏞️🌅🛤️🛣️

    • @KatsFurBabys
      @KatsFurBabys 10 месяцев назад +3

      last year 1nd semester of my honors degree i deferred last 2 exams then the stress was too much. got hooked on H just a little smoke to feel better get through the stress.. then injection to feel more m. then to feel normal and not the crippling sickness it doesn't let you go, doesn't let u stop and live like normal. 2yrs of running watching my friends graduate 1nd move on, im in my room day and night trying to get clean, now i feel i dont have the power that just to delete myself is all i can do i don't have fight to get back to where i was.. i give anything to be the old me. dont want to be here anymore, im 37 this degree was a huge achievement 4 my family everyone proud, my kids my family all believed in me.. i went down that road willing coz i was stressed and wanted to escape. thanks 4 yr st9ry

    • @NEVAEHLAGRANDEURandjeramiah
      @NEVAEHLAGRANDEURandjeramiah 9 месяцев назад +4

      Love this!!! I teach DBT in a mental health facility every day but still struggle to apply it to my life. Thank you for putting it here ❤

  • @anissabakerr
    @anissabakerr 4 года назад +4412

    "I forgot how to be me" that spoke to me

    • @anouaraitouaaziz6513
      @anouaraitouaaziz6513 4 года назад +34

      so true I don't remember the last time I was actually me

    • @thegamaerxz7428
      @thegamaerxz7428 4 года назад +6

      anouar aitouaaziz does anyone

    • @zfl.03
      @zfl.03 4 года назад

      same to me

    • @ernestlam5632
      @ernestlam5632 4 года назад +3

      Same, I just ended therapy 2 days bc it wasn't working.

    • @KJOB
      @KJOB 4 года назад +9

      When they said "ooOooOooOOOoo" i felt that

  • @scuffsy298
    @scuffsy298 4 года назад +2129

    Me: This is gonna be a good song
    Me through the tears : yeah i was right

    • @urmum8977
      @urmum8977 4 года назад +8

      same dude,,, same

    • @tobiasgruetter146
      @tobiasgruetter146 3 года назад +6

      Dude me too right now
      I was not expecting that i will cry in my bed right now...

    • @hanna6548
      @hanna6548 Год назад +1

      do you still listen to it?

    • @scuffsy298
      @scuffsy298 Год назад +3

      @@hanna6548 yuuuuup and it still breaks my heart

    • @tiffanycorbin9316
      @tiffanycorbin9316 Год назад

      same!

  • @lindarichterova225
    @lindarichterova225 4 года назад +211

    Verse 1: Ren]
    I don't feel safe in this bed
    There are voices in my head
    I've been talking to the dead
    And the fear baptised me
    My kingdom turned to dust
    And I watched all my riches rust
    Have I lost the Midas' touch?
    Or do sad eyes blind me?
    [Chorus: both]
    Over and over we go
    Over the hills and the valleys below
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    [Verse 2: Ren, both]
    I don't feel safe in these halls
    There are bruises on the walls
    There are bodies in the floors
    And they breathe so loudly
    I wish I could move
    Get up and walk right out this tomb
    Do our saviours die too soon?
    For my sins surround me
    [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
    Over and over we go
    (Over and over we go)
    Over the hills and the valleys below
    (Over the hills and the valleys below)
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    (Follows me, follows me)
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    Hallelujah
    Where is my god, where are you?
    Hallelujah
    Nothing is pulling me through
    Hallelujah
    When I don't know how to be
    Hallelujah
    I forgot how to be me
    [Outro: Ren]
    When he gave up the fight
    A quick decision late in the night
    That stayed with me for all of my life
    I miss you so

  • @PotatoesInmilk
    @PotatoesInmilk 9 месяцев назад +239

    My daughter recently left due to mental illness and left her 6 year old daughter with me. It was like she was talking to me through this song. She loves flowers…she has told me about the floor breathing and she can’t walk across it. I was mad. I still didn’t understand how could she leave her daughter? I’m not mad anymore. It’s like she was telling me. Why didn’t I hear her? Why did it take this song for me to understand? Thank you. You helped me see and you helped me change my heart.

    • @alexandraalexandra1593
      @alexandraalexandra1593 5 месяцев назад +5

      You’re very strong!Keep going!Sending much love!🫶🏼

    • @breakTheSilence437
      @breakTheSilence437 5 месяцев назад +2

      Everything will be fine❤️
      Take care ! 🌼🌸🌷🌻

    • @cindyvingerhoed5228
      @cindyvingerhoed5228 4 месяца назад +6

      It's always better to understand later than to not understand at all, thank you for taking in your granddaughter ❤ i hope your daughter gets better somehow ❤️🍀

    • @John-xq4xb
      @John-xq4xb 3 месяца назад +1

      Oh, I am so sorry, sometimes the things that we need that we don’t even know. You didn’t know how to help her but somehow the light got through to you and now you know and you can change and that is a very good and growing experience for you. I hope you are also OK. .
      I came across the song out of chance..when I was typing “how to be me” in the Google search bar.
      People are struggling.
      I’m sorry for you.
      I hope your daughter is safe.❤

    • @Val-ul9gn
      @Val-ul9gn 3 месяца назад +1

      😭❤️🙏🏼 keep that open mind . Sending love . Praying for courage

  • @firewalker1236
    @firewalker1236 Год назад +309

    I listen to this song a lot and every time I do it breaks me! My 17yr old son passed away suddenly and unexpectedly and I found him the following morning. The old me died that day too and it is never coming back. I love your music Ren, not only are you a talented musician and lyricist but you have a gift for reaching into people's souls and connecting with them. Much love and respect to you

    • @liamfinnegan2314
      @liamfinnegan2314 Год назад +12

      Im terribly sorry to hear that it must've been so hard to go through that as a parent that must be so rough having to lose one of the closest things to you. I hope you never have to lose anything close to you again if you ever do come to this video im here to listen to your problems if you need to vent i hope you take care and best of luck with your physical and mental health

    • @zoomby4380
      @zoomby4380 Год назад +8

      You so brave to face this life hurt...hurt to your vision of who your son could have been as an adult. You are so full of grace....bless you and your family. ❤❤❤

    • @TheLilmisskrystal
      @TheLilmisskrystal Год назад +5

      I’m so sorry for your loss sending love and strength to you 🫶🏼

    • @firewalker1236
      @firewalker1236 Год назад +4

      @@liamfinnegan2314 thanks for the kind words. Much appreciated

    • @firewalker1236
      @firewalker1236 Год назад +4

      @@zoomby4380 thanks for the comment. Hardest thing I have ever had to do

  • @saymontang4840
    @saymontang4840 5 лет назад +1622

    I almost never respond on videos.. But fml this song is amazing. You are getting better and better with every new song you drop. I really wish your voice will not only keep on reaching out to the ears of the people whom you have reached out to already.. But for the whole world te hear and recognize the art you create.
    Much love from Amsterdam. Looking forward to visit one of your concerts one day..

    • @buddysmits4824
      @buddysmits4824 5 лет назад +5

      fijne feestdagen!

    • @IrishAirlines
      @IrishAirlines 5 лет назад +7

      Amsterdam ❤️. But couldn’t agree, hopefully one day! This is pure art.

    • @Koepex
      @Koepex 5 лет назад +2

      Lets take the train to brittain then.

    • @SandraQwer
      @SandraQwer 4 года назад +2

      Kon het niet beter zeggen🙏🏻

    • @rubywalsh5992
      @rubywalsh5992 3 года назад +1

      🤙👌👍⭐🏠

  • @baakir5430
    @baakir5430 3 года назад +494

    "Where is my god, where are you?"
    This part hit home. Hard. I was raised a muslim and even tho i don't believe in it anymore it's still basically my whole culture. When everyone around me consoles to god and pray in hardships, telling me that my depression will be cured if i turn to god or that I'm depressed because i'm away from god, i think that's why it hit like it did. Where's my god? Where's the one i confide in? Where's my peace? Where's that thing that will magically make all the pain worth it, you know?

    • @user-ld5vi4rd4l
      @user-ld5vi4rd4l 3 года назад +34

      I am a muslim too and ı am about to got drowned in my questions I just want you to know that you are not the only one who feels like this you are not alone

    • @baakir5430
      @baakir5430 3 года назад +16

      @@user-ld5vi4rd4l thank you❤ means a lot.
      Wish you easier days:)

    • @user-ld5vi4rd4l
      @user-ld5vi4rd4l 3 года назад +10

      Thanks wish you some peaceful ones :)

    • @user-ld5vi4rd4l
      @user-ld5vi4rd4l 3 года назад +17

      Btw if you need someone to talk to I could always be that person sometimes its much easier to talk with a total stranger

    • @soozana
      @soozana 3 года назад +26

      I am a Muslim too but I am bi and my religion don't support that and I feel like nobody who's near me will ever love for loving who I love

  • @jillianjones257
    @jillianjones257 3 года назад +209

    My daughter recently made some attempts on her life...very quiet like when no one knew... This song has new meaning since we've started her healing process

    • @Alastor7115.
      @Alastor7115. Год назад +16

      I truly hope she's doing better now 🤍

  • @noacohen7943
    @noacohen7943 4 года назад +263

    Chords (ukulele):
    A C#m
    A C#m
    A C#m
    F#m
    These are the chords, just play it by your ear. And personally, I adore this song so much. Ren and Chinchilla did it big time.

  • @felixgoss2259
    @felixgoss2259 5 лет назад +318

    This could be a soundtrack for something

  • @shantanubondre2004
    @shantanubondre2004 2 года назад +174

    How can Ren remain so underrated all these years astounds me.
    These songs are gold.
    The subscriber count is too low for that.

    • @graceydez6199
      @graceydez6199 Год назад +6

      6 months after you posted this, its finally happening for Ren. 😊❤🎉

    • @shantanubondre2004
      @shantanubondre2004 Год назад +4

      @@graceydez6199 Seriously!? That's awesome! Gotta check it out. Thanks for telling me.

    • @oldblack15
      @oldblack15 Год назад +3

      And bigger.... buy an album he's number 2 atm

  • @williechase1
    @williechase1 10 месяцев назад +25

    Dude you have the ability to make anyone break down and cry. And it’s a good thing. Needed this one bro

  • @DonGerico
    @DonGerico Год назад +142

    Bloody amazing song. I hope you have good success in 2023 Ren, you deserve it.

  • @myaccount54
    @myaccount54 10 месяцев назад +8

    this song reminds me of how it is to be in an abusive relationship and how you can't leave it, and it follows you everywhere alongside with losing everyone around you and how alone it makes you feel, making you suicidal.
    Absolutely love this song, explains how I feel 💓

  • @alexisschmeler3152
    @alexisschmeler3152 5 лет назад +223

    Best gift

  • @Tompanyu
    @Tompanyu 5 лет назад +138

    besides the fact that this song is absolutely beautiful this lyrics video and the effort that was put into this.. i don’t even know what to say i am just very happy about it all

  • @notdeadyetbaby9147
    @notdeadyetbaby9147 4 года назад +351

    *"Where is my god, where are you?"*
    That spoke to me

    • @Alyssa-kj9cy
      @Alyssa-kj9cy 4 года назад +13

      He's right there and always will be.

    • @Emeand33
      @Emeand33 4 года назад +3

      Answer: he’s not. It sucks bc, wouldn’t everyone want to have a god beside them to reassure them that everything is gonna be okay? But there will be no god there and you’ll simply have to trust yourself

    • @poorquality587
      @poorquality587 4 года назад +1

      Different kinds of religions exist out there, heck, you can even join an occult, but I don't recommend the occult stuff, heard too much gore and horrors at that one so lmao. Anyways, you choose what you believe in, but with so many religions, there are so many contradictions. Making a sense out of everything they say will only tire your brain out, I'm an agnostic raised by both of my parents that are catholic. They've taken these sessions with the witnesses of Jehovah, and in my opinion, some most well known religions offers reassurance through the dark pit mystery if hell does exist, because if it does, so does heaven.
      Mhmm... This comment probably won't make any sense for now, but I hope that you'll realize sooner or later what I'm trying to say lmao.

    • @veeeef
      @veeeef 4 года назад +13

      You do realise you can't just run to God when you're sad? And run to the world when you're happy? And then say where God is

    • @Mika-dq6xr
      @Mika-dq6xr 4 года назад

      @@veeeef true...

  • @cyprianpirog
    @cyprianpirog 3 года назад +83

    Never thought luigi would show me such a great artist.

  • @naomiprie9020
    @naomiprie9020 2 года назад +614

    I have Borderline Personality Disorder and this song made me decide to have the semicolon tattoed on my wrist, over my selfharm scars. I listen to this song everyday and I wanted to sing it on Superstar Romania (where I was a semi-finalist), but the producers said it was too depressing. I will definitely sing it on a big stage someday!

  • @queburn6272
    @queburn6272 5 лет назад +87

    Jesus Christ Ren I swear to God you're the most underrated musician EVER

  • @captainalan9702
    @captainalan9702 5 лет назад +127

    Honestly tho, this is one of the most unique songs i've heard.

  • @nirshekel6611
    @nirshekel6611 5 лет назад +187

    Love you

    • @RenMakesMusic
      @RenMakesMusic  5 лет назад +38

    • @Emstown
      @Emstown 5 лет назад +8

      @@RenMakesMusic Thanks for posting on Christmas! Love your music and I think you are extremely talented 👍

  • @karenjames4345
    @karenjames4345 Год назад +4

    You are really an amazing and very talented artist who is able to speak deeply what many people feel and are not able to put into words. Finding you and your music was like finding a gem. My God your talented. Please keep on writing and releasing your music. Thank you!

  • @Bunny-mk4mj
    @Bunny-mk4mj 2 года назад +9

    I cant stop coming back to this song again and again...here I am again

  • @Taguto13
    @Taguto13 4 года назад +18

    I don't know why or how, but this song moves so deep in me, in the broken essence that everyone hides, it really encourages me to seek help, nothing has ever defined me it as well as I feel almost every moment.

    • @M_A_B1388
      @M_A_B1388 14 дней назад

      سعی کردم پنهانش کنم ولی همه دیدنش ای بابا 😮‍💨😖

  • @evergreenivy9912
    @evergreenivy9912 5 лет назад +43

    These lyrics hit so hard I don’t know how to breath.
    *put it in my playlist*

  • @saaarie7629
    @saaarie7629 2 года назад +48

    I don't feel safe in this bed
    There are voices in my head
    I've been talking to the dead
    And the fear baptised me
    My kingdom turned to dust
    And I watched all my riches rust
    Have I lost the Midas' touch?
    Or do sad eyes blind me?
    Over and over we go
    Over the hills and the valleys bellow
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    I don't feel safe in the halls
    There are bruises on the walls
    There are bodies in the floors
    And they breathe so loudly
    I wish I could move
    Get up and walk right out this tomb
    Do our saviours die too soon?
    For my sins surround me
    Over and over we go
    (Over and over we go)
    Over the hills and the valleys below
    (Over the hills and the valleys below)
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    (Follows me, follows me)
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    Halleluja
    Where is my God, where are you?
    Halleluja
    Nothing is pulling me through
    Halleluja
    When I don't know how to be
    Halleluja
    I forgot how to be me
    When he gave up the fight
    A quick decision late in the night
    That stayed with me for all of my life
    I miss you so

  • @brandonbuckles826
    @brandonbuckles826 2 месяца назад +1

    I feel like I've come upon a gold mine in your music and videos. Your performances are a genuine treat in a world of washed out entertainment and skin-deep meaning.

  • @romanparkersdad
    @romanparkersdad Месяц назад +1

    I love these two making music together.

  • @ANDRES-rb9mq
    @ANDRES-rb9mq 4 года назад +54

    I fucking love this song! I am imagining like when i am on the bus coming home thinking about my things, tired of life and this epic song playing, love it.

  • @crypticchaos9770
    @crypticchaos9770 4 года назад +50

    All depressing relations to this song aside, this is BEAUTIFULLY Written, performed and “animated”! everything about it gives off this feeling of lost and desperation while also feeling familiar, perfectly nailing the feeling of grief Over losing a friend after the crying is done. I love it!! And how you included the semi colon? Spectacular!! I’ll definitely be listening to more of your amazing content!!

  • @nickregner5384
    @nickregner5384 4 года назад +221

    1. I think this song must go viral!
    2. I must have the chords. This song is amazing!

    • @AzizJb
      @AzizJb 4 года назад +18

      The chords are :
      A / C#m then F#m

    • @eduh3173
      @eduh3173 4 года назад +13

      @@AzizJb There's also an E in the Halleluja part

    • @milbruh6671
      @milbruh6671 3 года назад +8

      I guess both of your wishes came true lol

  • @AlmostNerdF
    @AlmostNerdF 3 года назад +60

    I've been struggling to deal with my mental health alot over the last little while, so this song speaks to me alot.
    I love the line, "I forgot how to be me" because it's really how it feels
    Thank you, for this song it means alot to me.

  • @SpicyPisces220
    @SpicyPisces220 Год назад +11

    This song describes me perfectly. I’m 13 years old and I’ve delt with incredibly severe anxiety and OCD since I was 8 years old. It got much worse recently two of my best friends and I got into an argument where they screamed at me, and gave me trauma. I rethought every conversation we have ever had to make sure I haven’t done something wrong. It drove me completely insane and made it so I was sad all the time and nothing could cheer me up. I felt like I fell into a pit, but my body was still up on the ground. The first time I saw their faces I had an anxiety attack. Sometimes worrying about doing things wrong made me feel like I was the worst human on this earth. Thank you for this song Ren. ❤❤❤ know that you are appreciated.

    • @niemalsmehrdiegleiche
      @niemalsmehrdiegleiche 3 месяца назад

      It's ok to be wrong, act stupid and make mistakes. And you will find your people.

    • @karenbartholomew7691
      @karenbartholomew7691 3 месяца назад

      Your strong❤

    • @M_A_B1388
      @M_A_B1388 14 дней назад

      دوستان آره خودشه آه اونا همیشه منو کوبیدن بعدم مردم
      میگن محکمم آه بهترم حداقل

  • @n0xn0x_
    @n0xn0x_ 5 лет назад +62

    *I'm so glad this was in my recommendation.*
    What a beautiful and touching song, the sound it's so unique. 💖

  • @hannahkostenberger5781
    @hannahkostenberger5781 2 года назад +128

    It's almost a little sad, that he'll never know, how many of us are still here, because of his music.

    • @Toisty
      @Toisty 2 года назад +1

      Is ten dead or smth?

    • @iambutterpuppy1143
      @iambutterpuppy1143 2 года назад +10

      @@Toisty They just mean, its sad how many people are struggling with their mental health, and so many people are still alive because of his music, its bittersweet that he doesn't know how many people are still alive because of him. He's still alive don't worry

    • @Toisty
      @Toisty 2 года назад +9

      @@iambutterpuppy1143 aww that’s cute also I’m glad he’s still here that man is a musical genius

    • @romilly99
      @romilly99 Год назад +1

      I think he probably does, Hannah. I don't think you can put out what he does and not recognise how many of us there are. We all think we're alone in our struggles, which we are on many levels, but Ren opens the curtains and we see our fellow audience members. It's a beautiful thing to know that, whilst we will never meet all our sisters and brothers under the skin, they are there nonetheless. ;

    • @e_puffin
      @e_puffin Год назад +3

      man why do you have to say it like that? I thought he died. It scared me for a bit

  • @MarianaG2407
    @MarianaG2407 5 лет назад +7

    A true shared journey. This is what music is about! The freedom for you to express everything and anything and you have truly dominated that understanding. Thank you for sharing your story Ren.

  • @eloisecarcini1280
    @eloisecarcini1280 10 месяцев назад +3

    Thank you! This sounds majestic...I was just crying, and this made me cry even harder and I think that's what I needed. This ugliness of mine I don't want others to discover it and music like this is something that I can lean on. Ahhh, I hope that life gets better and that my desire to live it also gets better instead of it feeling suffocating and me carrying this bitterness and resentment. I hope to be bright once again and that I can become my own savior...

  • @anxietysock
    @anxietysock 2 года назад +3

    The vibes this song gives me are the best. The hopelessness the sadness of losing a loved one.

  • @donaldduck8295
    @donaldduck8295 5 лет назад +15

    your voices harmonize soo good and this song is perfect, i'm really glad i found your music Ren!

  • @andrewellington9503
    @andrewellington9503 10 месяцев назад +3

    This song always hit me hard. I was in a severe car wreck about 12 years ago where one of my injuries was a severe concussion/ head trauma. Ever since then I have struggled with mental health and have told many people that I haven't been the same since then. This song perfectly described a feeling I hadn't found the right words to express.
    Also, after hearing the last verse in Suicide, the last bit of this song hits me different. Dont know for sure if they are both about the same event but it seems like it.

  • @brechtjelenferink
    @brechtjelenferink 4 года назад +618

    Sounds like he's singing about someone that killed his self from the last sentence of the song

    • @stramashbeatbox2798
      @stramashbeatbox2798 4 года назад +55

      In his song Depression he says "I don't wanna talk about my dead friend". I'm pretty sure his friend killed himself when they were young

    • @brechtjelenferink
      @brechtjelenferink 4 года назад +4

      @@stramashbeatbox2798 wauw I didn't know that 😪

    • @jacintahaynes1555
      @jacintahaynes1555 4 года назад +8

      Freakily interesting.
      P. S. I got so scared that I commented because I have never seen this song before. We just have the same profile pic😂

    • @sarav1262
      @sarav1262 4 года назад +1

      @@stramashbeatbox2798 I was thinking about this too

    • @BELA6681
      @BELA6681 4 года назад +4

      Actually, I think it means he misses himself, since he days he forgot how to be himself

  • @mirellappds
    @mirellappds 3 года назад +13

    I just got goosebumps from this. It's so deep, meaningful, I can't explain what i felt, it's like I'm looking to my brain out of myself.

  • @briannasharp3882
    @briannasharp3882 2 года назад +23

    I have the semicolon tattooed on me. And I don't know how long it's been since I've been able to relate fully to a song. The melody between you 2 is amazing. I've never been able to hear the word suffocates me in the way you did and it successfully worked. I just found you tonight and so far, I'm not disappointed. Great job. Will continue to listen. Thank you for making music towards mental illness.

  • @curtiswalshmusic
    @curtiswalshmusic 5 лет назад +15

    love how diverse you are mate . not enough artists out there step outside they're comfort zones . mad respect ✊ hope you hit 2020 like a tone of bricks 😎

  • @haydo3398
    @haydo3398 5 лет назад +56

    best christmas gift i couldve asked for hands down

  • @colleenmullen3168
    @colleenmullen3168 2 года назад +37

    Fresh off the funny farm and this song was recommended to me by a beautiful young soul while inpatient.
    Had to share with my therapist because its better than trying to explain how i feel to him.
    My kingdom has turned to dust unfortunately, and im not confident that i will make it out this time.
    Thank you for giving me words when I cant anymore.

  • @aicharaji8270
    @aicharaji8270 4 года назад +374

    Someone: * comments the lyrics of the song in a lyrics video *
    Me: I'm confusion.

    • @queenofcookie3265
      @queenofcookie3265 4 года назад +64

      Aicha Raji some people have trouble with lyric videos where you can’t see the whole line because of like reading disability’s and stuff so these comments help

    • @queenofcookie3265
      @queenofcookie3265 4 года назад +24

      I hope that kind of clears up your confusion I suck at explaining

    • @AF3NI
      @AF3NI 4 года назад +36

      Some people like to read on their own while listening instead of waiting for every sentence. It's easier to understand the lyric for some people

    • @theeguy9022
      @theeguy9022 4 года назад +27

      I'm autistic I learn much faster through text because speech can be difficult to understand that and the text on screen in weird if you can read it well good for you but for someone like me I much prefer cleaner text like this

  • @bochapman1058
    @bochapman1058 Год назад +4

    The hardest part is getting your loved ones to understand and still love you.

  • @wiktoriawisniewska8176
    @wiktoriawisniewska8176 5 лет назад +13

    [Verse 1: Ren]
    I don't feel safe in this bed
    There are voices in my head
    I've been talking to the dead
    And the fear baptised me
    My kingdom turned to dust
    And I watched all my riches rust
    Have I lost the Midas' touch?
    Or do sad eyes blind me?
    [Chorus: both]
    Over and over we go
    Over the hills and the valleys bellow
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    [Verse 2: Ren, both]
    I don't feel safe in the halls
    There are bruises on the walls
    There are bodies in the floors
    And they breathe so loudly
    I wish I could move
    Get up and walk right out this tomb
    Do our saviours die too soon?
    For my sins surround me
    [Chorus: Ren, Chinchilla, both]
    Over and over we go
    (Over and over we go)
    Over the hills and the valleys below
    (Over the hills and the valleys below)
    Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
    (Follows me, follows me)
    And it suffocates me, hmmm
    [Post-Chorus: both, Chinchilla]
    Oh, I can't breath
    I said oh, I can't breath
    All I know is I forgot how to be me
    Halleluja
    Where is my god, where are you?
    Halleluja
    Nothing is pulling me through
    Halleluja
    When I don't know how to be
    Halleluja
    I forgot how to be me
    [Outro: Ren]
    When he gave up the fight
    A quick decision late in the night
    That stayed with me for all of my life
    I miss you so

  • @rosekat1102
    @rosekat1102 3 года назад +16

    This song really means a lot to me and helped me understand my feelings when i was depressed.

  • @trishapatel9251
    @trishapatel9251 3 года назад +9

    This song hits different, it feels like a cry for help but a confession. The vocals *chefs kiss, Chinchilla lowkey reminds me of Sia and the harmonizing. This is GOLD

  • @shi7212
    @shi7212 2 года назад +4

    I've listened to this song over and over over for months. Absolutely beautiful and amazing. There voices go so well together. It sounds like they were made for this song.

  • @-AGM83-
    @-AGM83- Год назад +3

    40 years old, and I can't believe how much this relates to me............fking amazing. Love from Australia.

  • @TheUltraVolt
    @TheUltraVolt 5 лет назад +25

    I'm so glad I stumbled upon your music. Every song I heard from you speaks to me so much. I'm looking forward to hearing much more from you, don't ever change Ren you sexy specimen. You're an inspiration

  • @sydneydunne6629
    @sydneydunne6629 5 лет назад +24

    Your voices are incredible

  • @TheLatinosk8er
    @TheLatinosk8er 5 лет назад +3956

    Could totally see this in an episode of the Witcher

    • @judemartynski1556
      @judemartynski1556 5 лет назад +18

      John Martinez OMG yes!!!

    • @williampatrone2582
      @williampatrone2582 5 лет назад +123

      I could totally see this in an episode of Lucifer also!

    • @yo-wr4jr
      @yo-wr4jr 4 года назад +3

      Tru

    • @pjoksan2661
      @pjoksan2661 4 года назад +22

      lol you read my mind wtf are you a witch?

    • @Mylovefantage
      @Mylovefantage 4 года назад +29

      also Chilling adventures of sabrina! anyone?

  • @SharissaUlmer
    @SharissaUlmer Год назад +2

    I absolutely adore this song. And thank you Ren and Chinchilla for making it and sounding so beautiful blending togwther

  • @AnthonyRay
    @AnthonyRay Год назад +2

    LETS GOOO

  • @monkeymorgan
    @monkeymorgan Год назад +16

    I tattooed a semi colon on myself to remind me to keep going, no matter what, thank you for helping me to remember I am not the only one that feels this way. Thank you, you inspire an old lady who lives in the USA, and I was able to share your art with my son! A Fam of Fans ❤🤗

  • @lewisswain1146
    @lewisswain1146 5 лет назад +7

    Outdoes himself every time, my first time listening to chinchilla but she’s incredible too wow

  • @cameronlane3567
    @cameronlane3567 10 месяцев назад +139

    Suicide doesn't stop the pain.. it just passes it on to someone who loves you
    Edit: to all the people who keep basically claiming "you don't know how it feels" I have lived with suicidal thoughts and depression on a daily basis since I was 6-7 and the thought I'd pass on this horrible pain to the people I love and that love me is the only reason I've kept living for 30 years going. So what right do you all have to criticize and scorn someone who actually tries to find something to live for and to try to find joy in this messed up world while also trying to help others? For your information, the most extremely selfish people are the people who only could ever care about themselves and get upset and criticize others when asked about the consequences their actions causes others. If you can't figure out someone or something to be alive for go seek therapy or call the suicide hotline please. I'm sorry some of you can't find happiness and on top of it try to claim people are horrible because they try to give you some advice from their life experiences of dealing with suicidal thoughts

    • @priscilladucharm-ferster2795
      @priscilladucharm-ferster2795 9 месяцев назад +3

      Yes. I'm 53. My life was never happy after my cousin who was like my brother to his life at age 25..I was 24. There's a heaviness in the heart and the mind that lingers.

    • @priscilladucharm-ferster2795
      @priscilladucharm-ferster2795 9 месяцев назад +1

      Not to mention the thought of what is on that other side of our last breath of we haven't accepted our Savior. Even if we have.. Hopelessness is from the enemy

    • @Carl_Is_Tired
      @Carl_Is_Tired 7 месяцев назад +8

      But what about the one that is suffering, it isn't fair to be forced by guilt to keep living just because someone else will be sad to see you go. If someone close to me did end it, yes I'll be sad, but I'd accept that they choose what they wanted. Because it's not my choice to say that they should live, it's theirs.

    • @chaosrio1
      @chaosrio1 6 месяцев назад +2

      Not really, when you have no one then it just stops, easy

    • @priscilladucharm-ferster2795
      @priscilladucharm-ferster2795 6 месяцев назад

      You two do not know for certain what is on the other side. To take your own life is one less body satan has to follow, one less soul to persuade

  • @user-dw5vz9wq3y
    @user-dw5vz9wq3y Год назад +21

    I never post a comment on songs but this one spoke to me in so many levels as somebody who feels like a former shadow of myself I cried a lot listening to it thank u for the amazing song xx

  • @adambreitman819
    @adambreitman819 3 года назад +4

    The lines where in the end about when he gives up the fight late at the night just hits you strong

  • @taliajansen8103
    @taliajansen8103 4 года назад +22

    This is the single most amazing thing to come up on my recommendations omg

  • @abentley911
    @abentley911 5 лет назад +37

    There's only 1 Ren..... Awsome as always merry Christmas all ..nice 1 for this on Christmas bro

    • @RenMakesMusic
      @RenMakesMusic  5 лет назад +4

      Happy Christmas man!!

    • @MsAdina28
      @MsAdina28 5 лет назад +1

      Amazing voice and talent . Everybody should know you . I will share on social media .

  • @AltEflixz
    @AltEflixz 4 месяца назад +3

    Two weeks ago I almost lost my mother to suicide, I love her with all my heart and I feel like I have taken her for granted. A single mom with four kids, fighting to find education and a job when everyone seems to be pushing her back. She's my best friend and hearing this song makes me cry my eyes out. I found her unconscious on the floor, yelling her name and calling 911 to try and save her, luckily she survived and I'm so glad she's still here. I now struggle with panic attacks and ptsd every day, but that doesn't matter, as long as I still have my mom ❤ I love you so much mom, never forget 😭❤️❤️

    • @TheEWGman
      @TheEWGman 4 месяца назад +1

      I am always here for you, I love you darling ❣❣❣❤💖

  • @tmc6904
    @tmc6904 Год назад +2

    Inhale-exhale-repeat. Thank you for sharing your feelings within these melodious sessions.

  • @BitStClair
    @BitStClair Год назад +2

    Ren as always thank you, thank you, thank you. As a person who's not dealing well with my mental health issues well at the moment. Doctor wants to give me more meds. Peace be with you sir. You are just awesome

  • @mirrinhamilton.-.5970
    @mirrinhamilton.-.5970 4 года назад +75

    i personally think that hes been so hurt by this person that has killed himself that hes got depression/anxiety maybe? and he feels like hes trapped in this place (also known as earth or reality) and he doesn't feel safe since this person left. hes just so hurt and he doesn't know how to be him

    • @Agame-sf8pm
      @Agame-sf8pm 4 года назад +4

      Mirrin Hamilton .-. Since I can’t hesrt comments like I can anywhere else here: ❤️

  • @raziellesanchez1819
    @raziellesanchez1819 5 лет назад +4

    I hope that you're writting this cause you get through this and you haven't feel it no more. You made perfection, Ren

  • @omererenbesli3999
    @omererenbesli3999 5 лет назад +10

    Ren, you and Sam are gonna be one of the greatest singers in the world just dont give up you guys are unbelievable love from Turkey !

  • @christinaoleary3138
    @christinaoleary3138 Год назад +3

    Hauntingly beautiful…pure magic. Your music should be mainstream…soo many of us relate when we stumble upon it…i can only imagine what it would do for the masses…thank you for your vulnerability and window into your soul…❤

  • @lila123soleil
    @lila123soleil Год назад +4

    Hello Ren, its such a beautiful art you express, its deep inside you and you know exactly how to go for it and tell the human misery, our sickness, even the society global sickness insanity, in the end we ask ourselves is that you who are sick or we all are....i would say your eyes are wide open and our wide shut...
    and yet a beautiful light comes from your song, connecting each of us, thank you Ren.

  • @v777aru
    @v777aru 4 года назад +155

    Stopping at 2:23
    My Thoughts:
    _Who's this guy dude_
    Left RUclips and Opened Spotify and listened to his Another Song _It's All right_ ( immediately followed on spotify and Rent was in my Playlist.)
    Came back to RUclips and Read that He's Independent Artist.
    _Wtf_
    _Subscribed_
    _Shared with all my Close Friends_
    Final Thoughts:
    _Star in Making

  • @stephane_hh
    @stephane_hh 5 лет назад +23

    I've just discovered this channel, I think I have a new favorite singer

  • @harrybarber7817
    @harrybarber7817 Год назад +12

    Bit late to the party but I Really appreciate the way the end the chorus goes with "how to be me" and ren follows up with his own verse which is fresh through the whole song

  • @nikkiroy3486
    @nikkiroy3486 11 месяцев назад +1

    You will know how much you have helped me I swear every word saved me in many ways through many songs that you and the person who led me to you ❤❤❤

  • @treesareacute2364
    @treesareacute2364 3 года назад +6

    This semicolon attracted me and I can't believe how great of a song I found. Amazing, thank you

  • @cosmicdebris5260
    @cosmicdebris5260 2 года назад +5

    Young man you have a talent for touching my heart! Thank you Ren for the truths you sing of! Your wisdom seems to be Way Beyond your years! I'm a writer and I know it's not easy to expose oneself. For this I thank you again!

  • @KB-eu5xi
    @KB-eu5xi 11 месяцев назад +3

    My sertraline isn’t cutting it today but Ren is so cathartic I know I’ll make it to another sunrise.

  • @BirdsInTheStorm
    @BirdsInTheStorm 4 года назад +3

    This outro breaks my heart.
    He must be so proud of you, Ren.

    • @NEVAEHLAGRANDEURandjeramiah
      @NEVAEHLAGRANDEURandjeramiah 9 месяцев назад +1

      Love this! I agree, Ren your friend that you lost must be so proud of you! You have brought so much beauty to such horrible circumstances & feelings! Thank you for putting so many of our feelings into this beautiful melody 🎶 ❤

  • @haven3911
    @haven3911 3 месяца назад +1

    I don’t think I was ever given the chance to learn how to be me, truly.

  • @RyanPoe-in9zg
    @RyanPoe-in9zg 5 месяцев назад

    I will always love the two of these people collaborating. It is magnificent

  • @minafuchs2978
    @minafuchs2978 4 года назад +6

    2:46 hits different

  • @chisholihchisho6226
    @chisholihchisho6226 2 года назад +15

    Accidentally played this when I was crying over some things
    And now it's on repeat .

  • @666deejayy666
    @666deejayy666 Год назад +6

    These vocals are a match made in the heavens above 👌

  • @scarman1998
    @scarman1998 Год назад +1

    I found your channel a few days ago, and I absolutely love your music. I can't remember being this touched by new music I found for a decade. I am so happy that you have come through the worst of your illness and are able to make all this, and I wish you a full recovery with all my heart.

  • @수미-q3u
    @수미-q3u 3 года назад +2

    When music reminds you that it's a story telling .. happy to find this

  • @pieceoftoast8614
    @pieceoftoast8614 5 лет назад +23

    Finally! I've noticed you've been hitting the billboards with this, well deserved Ren! 2020 will be your year brother 👍🏻

  • @Velvetcipher
    @Velvetcipher 3 года назад +3

    literal chills, so glad i found this

  • @MowbyThicck
    @MowbyThicck 3 года назад +3

    Just joined the other blessed 3.2 million people to have heard this, first time in my RUclips history I've commented on a video but my lord what a song!

  • @TAFKAJameson
    @TAFKAJameson Год назад +1

    Words can't describe how great this song and performance is. The live version is equally brilliant.

  • @sillesbrowne3561
    @sillesbrowne3561 2 года назад +2

    Yeah, I was hooked from the first 5 seconds. AMAZING.