@maro dodie made a video before where she revealed that she hid a song in her videos by singing little pieces of the song in parts of a bunch of videos. If you look for "dodie hidden song" I'm sure you'll find it :)
@@doddlevloggle unnatural maybe a little, but so...longed for? Idk how to explain it. But watching this gave me loft bed chit chat vibes circa 20..18? 17? I dunno man, time n stuff, nostalgia n shit. Love you!
@@AmandolinJay I feel that lol the need of 2015 is when little 8th grade me found dodie making vedas and rocker hair tutorials and repeating all the songs and covers of hers wishing for an ep or album!!!! I love love love Dodie's growth, and it's so odd, just turned 18 and thinking about how close I am to the age she was when I started watching her. Okay I'm rambling lol okayyy
Me literally sitting here having a meltdown and seeing dodie has a new video. I turned it on and eventually my brain just starts to focus on something else.
I saw a snail get trampled on in front of the university library on a rainy day. I wanted to save it but the lunch rush came and the students weren't aware. I was so sad that day. :(
I don't understand how you guys can do that. Like, I don't have a running monologue. That seems like a super power to me. Idk, I don't understand that. Like I can have a conversation in my head with myself. But then I come back to it and change something. I've edited this comment a few times just to add on to it. Also, I can't see the apple in my head which kinda sucks but not really if that makes any since
Hearing her talk about how she thinks about her problems and how shes dealing with them was really therapeutic and made me feel a lot less alone. I already knew this was true but we’re all just huge messes. She really made it a lot clearer to me than anyone ever has that its okay to be a mess and that your doing better than you think.
hey dodie my mother got her gallbladder removed 3 years ago. she had a small scar on her tummy but its gone now. she was very afraid as well but she had stones in there and she said the surgery is worth the removal of that pain :) thought I'd past that information to you I hope you consider it love you!!
Same with my step dad. In terrible pain then the doctors realized something was wrong with the gallbladder. It's way better to get the surgery, even if you have to watch your diet, it's only for a few months
I had my gallbladder removed around 4 months ago. 100% worth it, the pain was unbearable before. Hasn't happened since. I have four little scars but I don't mind in the least. I'm also eating all the same stuff as before, I don't have any sensitivity to fats or anything after the surgery, so don't worry, you might not have to change your diet at all. :)
Me (not a doctor): "Sounds like the gallbladder." Dodie 1,5 min later: "I have a lump on my gallbladder." Me: Holy shit! Am I Dr House? Dodie: "If you have a running monologue you can probably write down everything it's saying." My inner voice: "Nah, I'm a fast talker and Ellen writes way too slowly for that."
3:43 Dodie, you lied to us. You said over 2 years ago you weren’t hiding any more lyrics in your videos, and yet that is _definitely_ the beginning of Special Girl.
I have a running monologue, how strange that people don’t now I’m confused. I like have conversations with myself in my head. I’m pretty sure people with running monologue people are the ones who can be hypnotised easier cause it’s easier to shut it off
i have both but would say running monologue is default I sometimes picture the words like subtitles or both I can also make sometimes imagine my thoughts are louder I also have ptsd so have flashbacks and stuff like that
you’re so aware of the internet now, it makes me sad.. it’s clear that you’ve been hurt by it and I just hope it never happens again, I wish you the best, dodie amazing to see you back here
As someone who has an internal monologue, trust me it doesn't help you with speech. I'm always saying something and having to stop sentences to change a word that isn't good enough. Similarly, even though I can construct sentences in my head, in writing I scribble a lot of words out because, as I'm writing them, I come up up with a better one.
saammmeee!! for me it was mainly when i was in school at the same time as being dyspraxic(shit hand eye coordination) so i had awweeful hand writing, i had to have someone write stuff for me in exams. like i would have to verbally say every word and bit of punctuation. and dyslexia didnt help aha
people who think in coherent sentences: wow im hungry, im going to make a burger versus me, a person who doesnt think in coherent sentences: mm b o r g o r
I've had my gallbladder removed. My pain would come every 6 months like you said and then it kept coming more and more and sooner and sooner and I pulled the trigger and they kind of removed it in the middle of an attack as an emergency. I've had no such pains at all since. Some people report weight loss, but anyone I know that has had it removed has reported the opposite, including myself. Def look into digestive enzymes and pre/probiotics for afterwards and I promise you'll be fine! AND PAIN FREE!
It was the same for me. I put it off for years because it was infrequent and I hate doctors and didn't want to have surgery, but then it started happening more and more often. To the point where it was happening multiple times a week and I just couldn't sleep any more for the fear that it'd start hurting. So I finally decided to get the surgery. Not gonna lie, it was scary and not a fun experience, and then for a week afterwards I could barely get out of bed and move from the pain. But since it healed up I haven't had that searing pain that would keep me up at nights. The only side effect is sometimes I do have digestive issues. But even so, the only thing I regret is not doing it sooner.
I had my attacks every month for 6 months and only when I got pancreatitis did it get removed. The GP couldn't diagnose it for months! The keyhole was completely fine and the only pain after was some random shoulder pains that are from being blown up! Also not having stomach muscles. No other pain whatsoever!
getting mine removed was the best decision i’ve ever made! i personally woke up and was almost pain free, but i’m sure it was different for everyone. with it removed there’s only a few foods i can’t eat. ham and fried foods are the only ones that seem to bother me.
I don’t know why but listening to Dodie talk about what’s on her mind is so relaxing to me (especially tonight cause my anxiety is PEAKED tonight!) nice to see you tonight Dodie! ☺️
I sorta thought "idk like cats and gallbladders and stuff" was some kind of weird song title like "i have a hole in my tooth and the dentist is shut" lol
AND the fact that some people legitimately DO NOT have an internal dialogue like you're speaking about near the end of this video is absolutely mind blowing. I just assumed everyone did.
Yeah, that blew my mind too when she posted about it on Twitter the other day. I always assumed everyone had that because I can't imagine not thinking that way.
I assumed the complete opposite to you! Very occasionally I have the internal monologue maybe once a month but I don't like it, it's too formal in my mind but it does make it easier to talk to people.
Another one, kinda similar, is that i just recently realized that most people can imagine things and 'see' the picture when they close their eyes! I see absolutely nothing, for example if you are asked to imagine an apple most people can 'see' the apple, i physically can't imagine one at all!
@@sophielouise2284 That is honestly so unreal to me. I can perfectly see it in detail color adn everything, and I'm constantly talking to myself in my head. How crazy.
"The Noise is a man unfiltered and without a filter a man is just chaos walking" The thoughts thing makes me think of a book trilogy called Chaos Walking by Patrick Ness they're brilliant (would recommend) and there's this thing called the Noise which is basically people's thoughts. But like you said thoughts don't tend to be one coherent sentence so the Noise is made up of images of memories or ideas or imaginings and there's also colour in it to reflect the mood of people and layers of sentences all at once. It has a kind of physical presence so it can change shape and be used as a weapon which is explored later on it the books. Its all layers and layers of things so most of it gets lost especially in whole towns and villages the sound of people's thoughts are overwhelming and unbearable. Its hard to describe but I would recommend a look at the books if you haven't all ready.
Firstly I think we could talk for hours. I digress.. KEYHOLE SURGERY: It's a surgical miracle. So much less invasive than regular surgery. Its very rare that you'll have to stay in hospital for longer than one night after having it and you won't be in immediate pain. They'll give you plenty of pain relief and the pain you will have (which will be easy compared to what you've experienced) will be when you move or poop (nobody tells you how hard pooping is after abdominal surgery - THEN you may need those laxatives). The worst part for me personally was coming round from anaesthetic, which only lasts a few hours anyway and affects people in different ways. INTERNAL MONOLOGUE: I read an article the other day about the majority of people being able to think in their heads in full sentences but a small percentage aren't able to do this at all. Found it very fascinating. Apparently most people aren't aware that the other kind exist and when they meet and realise this both are in awe. I need to sit and chat to someone who can't think in full sentences and work out how they make lists or get anything done in their life?!?
I think in feelings, so no full sentences for me! I wonder how someone can do that? Like as I am typing I don't think out the word beforehand, it feels like my fingers are on autopilot with maybe a very slight loading of words. (:
I also really want to have a conversation with someone with internal monologue! Like, before I typed that out, I thought about how I should word it and what I should say, so I also find it fascinating that others don't experience that !
@@stormiesnazz4698 I thought people just had emotion, images and little bursts of words. I can keep a monologue but only if Im trying. Otherwise its a circus...with music playing ofc
Absolutely fascinating replies guys. I ask people all the time if they have an internal monologue since reading an article about it in hope that I find someone who doesn't. Apparently it's rarer to find people who don't x
@@marblegray I imagine when you read (not out loud) you think the words your reading? That's what an internal monologue is for me. I can see and hear the words I'm saying in my head. If I was writing an essay I would stop to think of a sentence in my head first and then write it. My fingers also typo in a bit of an autocorrect format too but my head reads it as it type hah x
No no no no no no no Dodie running monologue brain is HELL for communication. It's like, constantly second guessing your phrasing for anything and being concerned you're just bullshitting up a storm and trying to make the monologue more interesting whenever something comes up in your mind. It's a lot of having exactly the right words for something and then saying them out loud and nobody understands because they haven't been writing a series of essays on it during every subway ride or bathroom break of their life or whatever, so you have to painstakingly go back on each word and try to find out what did or didn't make sense and basically I think we're all kind of screwed somehow. It does make writing a bit easier though- even with the constant second guessing.
my heart literally aches, i have never connected so deeply with another mind before, i wish i could spill my head out to you because i know you would also be feeling the same pain, every time i watch your videos it brings me to tears solely because i walk away feeling tinest bit of comfort knowing i am really not alone :(
i have a running inner monologue but i also have other parts of me that are arguing in full sentences and calling myself out for thinking stupid shit and there is music interrupting me and oh also HELLA intrusive thoughts and bad thoughts that interrupt the hell out of me and derail everything so i wouldnt say speaking is easier for me lol because it sounds like a fucking scrambled radio station in here
I FEEL thissss. It's constant and mean and I overthink what I am saying to people so a lot of the time I don't speak at all because I'm so aware of all the possible reactions to the smallest of words
I agree, also racing thoughts and stuff are a mess with this cause you cannot stop thinking. When I go to bed and try to sleep it's: ''okay stop thinking, time to sleep. sleep, sleep... so for tomorrow remember all of these things very important, i wonder what weather it will be and what we're gonna do, no! I will focus on today and for today there is only sleep and tomorrow I'll worry about then'' and then it goes on repeat, really jealous of people who can meditate and don't have this monologe.
i actually always thought that everybody had thoughts in the form of a monologue because i always forget to do something unless i think it hih basically saying it to myself, so like if i were sleepy or hungry i would tell myself to have nap sometime or i would start talking to myself in a way that resembles an auctioneer. also i think it might be an element that comes from tendencies to overthink but i dunno, i think i had always just spoken to myself even as a kid. and one time i got curious and asked my friend how she thought and said she just SAW one single word representing her thought.
This is so interesting. I think in concepts, the occasional word, and feelings like dodie and i always thought Jimminy cricket was such a strange character like he talked every moral dilemma out... like dodie i kinda assumed it was artistic licence. Monologuing thoughts just sounds so different
you know what's weird? I asked one of my friends if he had a voice inside his head while reading and he said no. Do people NOT HAVE INNER VOICES??? i'm so confused i thought everyone did ;-;
I was rewatching this video now that her debut album came out, and i realised that she has been putting hints of the songs of the album in this video haha
about the inner monologue- I mean perhaps it’s easier to analyse my thoughts but like.. that then leads to A LOT of overthinking and then getting stuck in my own head lol
When you’re having a breakdown, full blown tears streaming down your face and dodie posts a video as simplistic as this one and you instantly calm down and feel like you can breathe again. Wow.
So I have aphantasia, which means I can't see things in my head or "mind's eye" at all. I think in a constant inner monologue, like stream of consciousness bullshit that I for sure wish I could turn off. It blew my mind that people think in the abstract. Sometimes I will have the feeling that I just had an idea, like a complete epiphany moment, but if I dont say it verbally in my head it will literally disappear and I cannot for the life of me bring it back. So it's not so much that mind reading would be abstract for me, but more like there would be no beginning or end to the thought because my brain just keeps going.
So interesting! I'm interested to know how you deal with emotions/or things that you have to come to terms with - Do you get a sense of dread or excitement?
@@WesEgan oh man, I always assumed I dealt with those things in the same way as everybody else. I absolutely feel dread or excitement and everything in between, but it is entirely felt through senses, and emotions. I'd say, usually, my emotions have no words attached, it is just the clenching of hands and crying and anything else I might do. If my emotions are a result of something I sense, I might have some thoughts to accompany things, like I'm angry about an injustice or I'm watching a sad movie. For things that I need to come to terms with, I would describe it as an actual court room in my head. It is just a constant stream of thoughts, sometimes conflicting, that oftentimes lead to an eventual conclusion, if possible. It's hard to describe when you cant imagine it, in the usual sense, but I hope that answered your questions!
@@Cookie_Comment yeah, it's really weird to think that there are different ways to imagine! I cannot watch youtube videos or listen to music without repeating the things the video or music is saying, otherwise I'll start thinking of something else entirely subconsciously, and I'll lose track of what's really happening. Honestly, thinking in abstract images sounds much preferable, but I suppose we all want what we cant have!
i’m so confused. i thought everybody had running and coherent sentences as there thoughts? I always have like monologues in my head. I cannot picture having like no coherent sentences if that makes sense
ahhh! that's the weird thing!!! like i can't fathom at all people thinking in full fricking sentences. if i force myself, yea, i can, but i guess i would describe my normal everyday thoughts to be like a multimedia collage? a collage of words and concepts and feelings and ideas and pictures and colors. and i think another part of this difference is that some people have an actual voice in their head???? i could not imagine that at all, crazy man haha
katrina omg that’s wild!! I can’t imagine not just talking to myself in my mind. That’s awesome tho I love the phrase multimedia collage. I usually see pictures and hear my thoughts while talking about them
Jane Bartell same except I have just Ideas too like usually my thoughts come in words but quite often they’re also just kind of feelings?? like I get the idea of the thought but it isn’t in words. and a lot of the time I get both of them at the same time
mine is exactly like dodie's, its like i dont try to make things happen in my brain. I CAN form words if i focus on them, but it's usually just things happening, it's not a thought in the form of the word, more of just a sense or an urge
Yeah, it's like I hear these coherent sentences in my mind, yet I somehow manage to stumble or sabotage myself before the words actually leave my lips.
Holy crap, listening to the beginning of the video, I was SCREAMING: "GALLBLADER STONEEEEE, DODIEEEEE". Dude, don't worry. I have the same thing, it's terrible, but it's a VERY VERY common and safe procedure to remove it. It's the second most common operation, after appendicitis. You. Will. Be. Great!
Oh, and HAVE THE OPERATION ASAP. You do not want to let this get to the point where you need to have it removed in an emergency. It sucks. Have it while it is safe and relatively painless. Get well, kween!
dodie! I wanted to let you know your songs mean a lot, I was going through a funny patch with a friend at a camp. I found out we were very different people & not knowing how to dealing with it, I distanced myself from her. It ended up hurting a lot. On the way home on the bus I listened to your song 'arms unfolding' on repeat, every word seemed to completly hit with my situation. It talked about trust lost, walls being built and lastly opening your heart up after being hurt. I listened to your lyrics, and I ended up talking to my friend and explaining how I was feeling. Your songs are quite something ❤️ also I know the internet is a bit whacked but we've missed you!!!
“Don’t mess with that stuff” Me; ok Also me; *dies due to an infected appendix and doesn’t get it removed* Edit; oh, Dodie. I have the running monologue, and boy, is converting feelings into words difficult. Speaking is also hard, I have never spoken a sentence without stuttering.
@@geekjokes8458 same I'll go on a million different tangents as a new thought pops up. It's basically like a sentence in my head, but it can be interrupted with other wordsq/ideas/sentences
does anyone else feel like they have music or a song playing in the back of ur mind while u go about with stuff, and if it's interrupted or you forget the tune you can't quite think straight until you find it again?
!! you can get cats who have never been outside! like housebound cats! i can’t remember the word but a lot of shelters i’ve been to have cats who are happier just being inside!!
“There’s no other step of like translating your feelings into words” oh, yes, there is! I have an internal monologue but i usually think in english, and since i’m hungarian, and i live in hungary, ppl would find it sooo strange if i’d speak in english to them, and sometimes (when i’m feeling really shit and i have automatic thoughts) it’s near impossible to translate the english and get hungarian words out, so i just end up not speaking at those times :/
Man I relate so hard. My education was primarily in english and I'm also better at it than my first language.This leads me to not being able to properly communicate with family members who don't speak english, either cuz some things you just can't translate into bangla (my country's language) or I just don't know the words in bangla. I literally need google translate sometimes to talk to my mother lol.
I have no garden for my cat, and I have indoor plants. My cat is a very happy boy 🌻 You can train cats to not eat your plants or if they can't resist, have a room for plants that are bad for them that they can't go in. Also giving them a plant of their own makes them less likely to eat yours. The only thing is that the cats need lots of things to climb/scratch on and perch from, and a variety of different toys for stimulation. My cat prefers indoor living, especially if I'm home a lot. Lots of love Dodie 💕
My thoughts: To be, or not to be: that is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep; No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep; To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come Me speaking: I, um, yeah that um was very interesting ha
Dodie is such a wholesome person. She makes me want to create stuff, I don’t know what specifically but she makes me want to be creative and have fun with it 💛
Yess I feel this too!!💛 I adore her so much i dont understand how shes real, but it's strange cause part of what makes her so amazing is her genuineness....
having a running monologue is a blessing and a curse. you can talk super fast and know what you're saying but also invasive thoughts that just pop in and you're like ' now, why did i think a thing like that"
Dodie talking to her camera is how I talk to myself all the time. Also when she said, "it has a name," I thought she gave the thing on her gallbladder a name. I mean that's what I would do.
Wait me too? About both, I sit up at like 2am and talk to myself as she is to her camera, like I recap things and explain things as if someone is listening, things like that.
Same, I've done it ever since I was like 5 years old. I guess it helps me sort out my thoughts making my internal monologue into an external monologue as it were.
The orchestra when if faded in literally made me start to well up with tears.. it’s already SO LOVELY and I’m VERY excited!!! Also, I wonder if the thoughts thing has to do with trauma or derealisation? Because you were describing how complex and out of order and random (it’s hardly a good way to describe it) but I feel the same, except.. more colour. Like there will be splashes of colour with the song that’s stuck in my head mixing with the colours of my feelings and fears, and meshing with ideas. It’s all very jumbled and I do wonder if trauma has anything to do with it. Just a thought, but I love the update, I’m proud of you for setting boundaries around sharing your life online. Best of luck with whatever you choose for your gallbladder. And I send my love for when you get around to filming that video, it sounds frightening and yet exciting! :) I look forward to whatever you create and do. Love you dodes Cheers~
I think the same way, all random and jumbled. I perfectly understood the way Dodie was explaining it. But I don't think I've ever faced big trauma before. It might just be a way that some people think, you know?
@@moisesange that's insane! @Celia Drewes same, I feel like my mind is always a jumbled mess of random music and thoughts, although I've never experienced anything that traumatic. Dodie described it well.
LeisChips very true, I just said that because I personally have trauma/PTSD and derealisation, and think in a similar way to dodie. So I theorised that it could possibly be linked to that. I wasn’t trying to state that that was the only explanation, it was just a thought :)
Your description of your thoughts, as all over the place as it is, is the MOST ACCURATE description of what goes on in my head i've heard yet. No internal monologue, like your average super-villain describing his master plan (muhahahaha), just images and cravings, and memories and urges, etc. And music in the background, of course. The idea of loss of consciousness for me causes immense anxiety as well. And change, although I am learning to deal with that with the help of medication. Love your "squeezy pump" description of gall bladder- made me chuckle.
i have a constant running monologue in my head but at the same time i have pictures and vivid noises and physical and emotional feelings. earlier today i was having separation anxiety from my parrot and i could physically feel me touching his feathers and the little pin feathers coming through. at the same time i was picturing this abstract painting i saw earlier and how I’d re-create it in a different medium for a project and my inner monologue was describing it. at the same same time i could hear a song stuck in my head and could picture how it sounded and associate colors with each note. my mind is an ever running wheel and it doesn’t SHUT UP
I literally had my gallbladder removed in August and am so familiar with the pain you described at the beginning. The term "writhing" fits perfectly. 10/10 worst thing I have ever experienced. Also, I had the same question about the belly bloating, and it does go away. And I do feel loads better.
Yes, having a monologue makes it easier to put my feelings into words but when I dont have the words I just freak out because if I dont have words I have nothing No way of thinking is better, its jus the way out brains work
In response to: Where does the AIR GO? I've had a laparoscopy for endo, and they also inflate you for that (dunno if it's exactly the same but I assume so). Basically they suck most of it back out at the end, but there's often a bit leftover. It's a gas your body can process so it will eventually go into your bloodstream and like leave your body as waste. However, what can happen just after surgery is that the bubble of air sits under your diaphragm and irritates it so you get referred nerve pain in your shoulder (bodies are WEIRD). But if you get up and move around the bubble of gas disperses into smaller, easier to process bubbles, and the pain goes away.
1) The hospital re-enactment stuff was entertaining, thank you for the ages it took ha 2) 'Mine doesn't!' is a mental illness mood. Exactly the tone my friend and I have when we're going back and forth about our various brain ailments ^^; 3) The whole 'are thoughts words' thing has always bothered me because you know how these kinds of things are spectra? I must be dead centre on this one, lmao. Some of my thoughts are nebulous memories and feelings like you thought the default was, while others are linear and sentence-y, like I'm literally talking to myself or seeing the relevant words. (And yes, the latter does help - especially when I need to describe complex feelings, because sometimes the right word appears on gut instinct, even when logic isn't quite there yet.) 4) I also have a song in my head almost all the time. It's like permanent background radio. It's not like an earworm, because it isn't annoying or distracting - it's just a common background function of my brain. 5) That music sounds so so good.
I love Dodie so much Like She is idk how to describe it Familiar? Like not only can I relate and see parts of me in her personality, but I’ve been watching her videos forever and it’s really comforting to see her face or hear her voice. Is that odd? Idk, I just really appreciate her and everything she does. I love you Dodie!!!
i love this messy vlogs! it feels so human also, I cannot see the apple ive never been able to imagine images and never thought that was even possible until last year, my mind is always full of sentences and sounds, but never images sometimes it really sucks, I can't visualize my loved ones faces, as a visual artist, can't visualize my drawings before making them, so i would finish an idea and realise it doesn't really work since I know people are able to imagine I've been getting kinda better, I think maybe? idk just writing as I thought, because that's and advantage of thinking sentences ;)
This is actually called aphantasia, I have it to, so I can’t visualize what I want to draw either but I’ve noticed that’s it’s made studying realism a lot easier
But can you draw an apple and then look at it, close your eyes and imagine it? Maybe even spin it and imagine what it looks like from other sides. I think memory and imagination are connected. I can go back to memories and transform the scene, change the events and characters in my mind. Also when I imagine an apple, it must be based on an apple I've seen before or on a collective idea of apples. It must be harder with faces, because I heard that our brain can't imagine new faces, and the ones that we see in our dreams belong to people we met or briefly saw passing by. I find this topic of imagination, dreams, and memory very interesting. Also I'm talking to myself but have never visualized a monologue before I say it.
yuranival At least for me when I close my eyes it’s dark and all I can do is think of descriptive aspects of something what color was it what shape, how did the memory or thing make me feel. Unless I’m dreaming everything is black.
@@ashl2558 interesting. I mean it stays black for me too, but I can still imagine things and scenes. It's almost like traveling mentally to another layer. Closing eyes isn't necessary, but it helps shutting off visual channel to concentrate on imagination. Same as we sometimes close our eyes to remember something or focus on the sound. It's cool that we all think and imagine differently though 😌
Bile is an emulsifier, so it mixes the fat up, and makes it easier for the enzymes to break it down (I believe) I also just checked with my dad (who’s a doctor) wtf happens with the air, and they just pump it out through the the keyholes
Some does hang around sometimes though. Put that on top of swelling and you could be asked if you're pregnant for about a week after. I know, I've been there haha
dodie, ur like, a cartoon character, your face and the way your mouth and eyebrows move when you talk is so endearing and cartoonish and its briliant. Its probably the glasses and the way you animatedly move about but its really cool . Its raining, thats nice.
I had my gallbladder removed a couple of months ago. Best thing that could ever happen. No more painnnn! Best of luck ❤️ (btw, I was terrified as well but it was completely worth it)
Wow, so many already noticed the Special Girl lyrics! And don’t forget about the strings at the end of Sorry, they’re in the video as well (10:10). I really think like 95% of the album were done at the beginning of 2020 and the pandemic forced her to delay everything.
yeah she talked about it before. i think she said that the only things she did after the lockdown was record cool girl and finish recording hate myself
“you blew me up like a big balloon” the prophecy...
Far too soon
AAH IM LAUGHIN SO MUCH
Oh mY-
how did i get here-,,
NO 😯
when you said you said “it has a name” i thought you meant the lump and i want expecting you to name it nancy or jane or something
Same omg
LMAO plz name my lump
@@doddlevloggle Jodie, the lump of dodie? (bad lump ò,o)
You know I need to say Lumpy mcLumpface now, right? right
doddlevloggle her name is drizella after the ugly stepsister in cinderella bc she is causing you PROBLEMS
The lyrics, "You blow me up like a big balloon" just got real.
Omg this comment deserves more likes xD
@@forgetmenot277 nope I said "blow" instead of "blew" I deserve nothing.
d-delete it right now
@@PineappleZach666 shhh there is this nice feature called edit comment noone has to know 🤫😅
My shame shall stay.
dodie: please don't listen to advice i gave when i was 20
me: has been following her advice since i was 13
You an me both! Also you're pretty btw
Dodie is like, aesthetically pleasing to the eye even though she has that “messy” look
i have never related to anything more in my life!
leaving the likes at #269
Ice SPADESSS I left it at 369
dodie: talking about something serious but then kinda sings something
me: squints shes doing it again
*suspicious*
3:43
also 3:32
and also 8:21!
YES
dodie on gas and air: this is not something i can put online
also dodie: *puts it online*
i missed hearing you talk dodie it’s so calming
Agreed
I bought her audiobook,when I already bought the regular, just to listen to her voice
bro big time
I was the 800th like
3:42 when you realise she's singing 'special girl' and none of us knew yet
yes i was looking for this comment abahaha
3:31
Is she...
DOROTHY CLARK ARE YOU DOING IT AGAIN???
omg thats what i thought hahahahah
YES SHE DOES IT AGAIN AT 3:43
That damn sneaky bean
I came to the comments just to find this!!
@maro dodie made a video before where she revealed that she hid a song in her videos by singing little pieces of the song in parts of a bunch of videos. If you look for "dodie hidden song" I'm sure you'll find it :)
maybe it's just me but it feels so weird seeing Dodie back again on RUclips, almost feels unnatural haha
Same tbh
@@doddlevloggle unnatural maybe a little, but so...longed for? Idk how to explain it. But watching this gave me loft bed chit chat vibes circa 20..18? 17? I dunno man, time n stuff, nostalgia n shit. Love you!
@@AmandolinJay I feel that lol the need of 2015 is when little 8th grade me found dodie making vedas and rocker hair tutorials and repeating all the songs and covers of hers wishing for an ep or album!!!! I love love love Dodie's growth, and it's so odd, just turned 18 and thinking about how close I am to the age she was when I started watching her. Okay I'm rambling lol okayyy
@@AmandolinJay yeah same!
maybe that's why I watched this on 1AM, as soon as I got to RUclips
Dodie: “Please don’t listen to anything I say.”
Me: B-but. You helped my escape a panic attack.
Truebluedah how exactly did she do that?
Me literally sitting here having a meltdown and seeing dodie has a new video. I turned it on and eventually my brain just starts to focus on something else.
Kim m. Probably because she has a very calming atmosphere!!
Kim m. She has an asmr video that helped me with some severe anxiety
Truebluedah I like her asmr videos as well! ♥️
having a body is such a hassle why can’t i just be a snail on the pavement on a rainy day
I saw a snail get trampled on in front of the university library on a rainy day. I wanted to save it but the lunch rush came and the students weren't aware.
I was so sad that day. :(
Elle oh no :( i’m really sorry you had to witness that
@@kaylynpratt6814 yes but hopefully the snail is at peace.
Existence is difficult but we all had purpose.
You don't want that. You seriously don't want that. Maybe read Uzumaki?
i want to be a brain floating in a vat with a robo body i can tap into when i want to do stuff
Dodie: Running monologue...
Me: wait... doesn't everyone have that.
Amber that’s exactly what I did😂
No I'm like Dodie.... It's just a random mess of words and stuff
I have about 30 running monologues, 20 songs and 3 musicals running through my head at once.
I don't understand how you guys can do that. Like, I don't have a running monologue. That seems like a super power to me. Idk, I don't understand that. Like I can have a conversation in my head with myself. But then I come back to it and change something. I've edited this comment a few times just to add on to it. Also, I can't see the apple in my head which kinda sucks but not really if that makes any since
Mostly...
Hearing her talk about how she thinks about her problems and how shes dealing with them was really therapeutic and made me feel a lot less alone. I already knew this was true but we’re all just huge messes. She really made it a lot clearer to me than anyone ever has that its okay to be a mess and that your doing better than you think.
hey dodie my mother got her gallbladder removed 3 years ago. she had a small scar on her tummy but its gone now. she was very afraid as well but she had stones in there and she said the surgery is worth the removal of that pain :) thought I'd past that information to you I hope you consider it love you!!
Same with my step dad. In terrible pain then the doctors realized something was wrong with the gallbladder. It's way better to get the surgery, even if you have to watch your diet, it's only for a few months
My grandad had to get his gallbladder removed at *74* and he had to get the surgery and he’s doing a lot better now that its out :)
I had my gallbladder removed around 4 months ago. 100% worth it, the pain was unbearable before. Hasn't happened since. I have four little scars but I don't mind in the least. I'm also eating all the same stuff as before, I don't have any sensitivity to fats or anything after the surgery, so don't worry, you might not have to change your diet at all. :)
my mum got hers removed too !! it’s definitely worth it, i hated seeing her in so much pain and she’s all good now :)
Yeah my mum had the exact same experience!! Defo not as scary once it’s over but I guess that probs isn’t too helpful
Dodie: “sO much”
Me: *flashbacks to arms unfolding hidden message*
First thing i thought
She does the same thing at 3:43 with ‘it’s not my fault’.
yes!!!
Me toooo
“please don’t listen to what i say”
me, spending years following her advice and being shaped into who i am today: oops
Me (not a doctor): "Sounds like the gallbladder."
Dodie 1,5 min later: "I have a lump on my gallbladder."
Me: Holy shit! Am I Dr House?
Dodie: "If you have a running monologue you can probably write down everything it's saying."
My inner voice: "Nah, I'm a fast talker and Ellen writes way too slowly for that."
3:43 Dodie, you lied to us. You said over 2 years ago you weren’t hiding any more lyrics in your videos, and yet that is _definitely_ the beginning of Special Girl.
tell me why “cut me open right now, blow me up like a balloon” would actually be a good song lyric?
"you blew me up like a big balloon far too soon"
I have a running monologue, how strange that people don’t now I’m confused. I like have conversations with myself in my head. I’m pretty sure people with running monologue people are the ones who can be hypnotised easier cause it’s easier to shut it off
Wow yeah that makes sense maybe that's why I like meditation so much , I can just switch it off
i have both but would say running monologue is default I sometimes picture the words like subtitles or both I can also make sometimes imagine my thoughts are louder I also have ptsd so have flashbacks and stuff like that
YES, I have this too, my head voices never stop
I have the monologue on and off. It really pisses me off sometimes because I know what it's going to say but the words come so slowly.
I have an internal monologue and I think that because of it I have no brain to mouth filter when I’m talking slekdkskdm
you’re so aware of the internet now, it makes me sad.. it’s clear that you’ve been hurt by it and I just hope it never happens again, I wish you the best, dodie
amazing to see you back here
E N D T H E I N T E R N E T
As someone who has an internal monologue, trust me it doesn't help you with speech. I'm always saying something and having to stop sentences to change a word that isn't good enough. Similarly, even though I can construct sentences in my head, in writing I scribble a lot of words out because, as I'm writing them, I come up up with a better one.
This is me!
saammmeee!! for me it was mainly when i was in school at the same time as being dyspraxic(shit hand eye coordination) so i had awweeful hand writing, i had to have someone write stuff for me in exams. like i would have to verbally say every word and bit of punctuation. and dyslexia didnt help aha
Idk I find I'm very articulate and can word things well. But writing I'm exactly the same!
people who think in coherent sentences: wow im hungry, im going to make a burger versus me, a person who doesnt think in coherent sentences: mm b o r g o r
DJCIDJCKDJCKXICJKDCIKDICJXJ that's absolutely how I function and why I suck at communication
I've had my gallbladder removed. My pain would come every 6 months like you said and then it kept coming more and more and sooner and sooner and I pulled the trigger and they kind of removed it in the middle of an attack as an emergency. I've had no such pains at all since. Some people report weight loss, but anyone I know that has had it removed has reported the opposite, including myself.
Def look into digestive enzymes and pre/probiotics for afterwards and I promise you'll be fine! AND PAIN FREE!
It was the same for me. I put it off for years because it was infrequent and I hate doctors and didn't want to have surgery, but then it started happening more and more often. To the point where it was happening multiple times a week and I just couldn't sleep any more for the fear that it'd start hurting. So I finally decided to get the surgery. Not gonna lie, it was scary and not a fun experience, and then for a week afterwards I could barely get out of bed and move from the pain. But since it healed up I haven't had that searing pain that would keep me up at nights. The only side effect is sometimes I do have digestive issues. But even so, the only thing I regret is not doing it sooner.
I’m getting mines out soon, I can’t wait to not suffer with the pains😭
I had my attacks every month for 6 months and only when I got pancreatitis did it get removed. The GP couldn't diagnose it for months! The keyhole was completely fine and the only pain after was some random shoulder pains that are from being blown up! Also not having stomach muscles. No other pain whatsoever!
@@getalifelauren You'll do great. It is scary and a little discomfort afterwards but it is sooooo worth it!
getting mine removed was the best decision i’ve ever made! i personally woke up and was almost pain free, but i’m sure it was different for everyone. with it removed there’s only a few foods i can’t eat. ham and fried foods are the only ones that seem to bother me.
I don’t know why but listening to Dodie talk about what’s on her mind is so relaxing to me (especially tonight cause my anxiety is PEAKED tonight!) nice to see you tonight Dodie! ☺️
I get the same effect from watching/listening to Dodie!
I hope you're anxiety has calmed down ❤ good vibes sent your way xx
Yes for me too!! She is so calming and just easy to watch. I'm sorry about your anxiety though I do hope that eases
Same, found this so soothing to watch and listen too. Hope your feeling better.
Haha wasn’t expecting all this love from the comments. Thank you so much guys, yeah it’s calmed down a bit thank you for the messages 🥰🥰
I sorta thought "idk like cats and gallbladders and stuff" was some kind of weird song title like "i have a hole in my tooth and the dentist is shut" lol
"I have been itching for big change"
That statement didn't age well lol
I read that at the same time she said it😂 that was wack
The "It's not my fault" is from Special Girl and Before the Line!! ❤️
this is actually the one from
special girl! the notes are slightly different in before the line
@@JeremyM Yep you're right!
she is singing some stuff here, i feel like she's hiding another song..
melmo was literally looking for this 😂
😳😑😑😑
YES i thought the same thing
I noticed the same thing
she made us have trust issues lol
AND the fact that some people legitimately DO NOT have an internal dialogue like you're speaking about near the end of this video is absolutely mind blowing. I just assumed everyone did.
Yeah, that blew my mind too when she posted about it on Twitter the other day. I always assumed everyone had that because I can't imagine not thinking that way.
I assumed the complete opposite to you! Very occasionally I have the internal monologue maybe once a month but I don't like it, it's too formal in my mind but it does make it easier to talk to people.
Another one, kinda similar, is that i just recently realized that most people can imagine things and 'see' the picture when they close their eyes! I see absolutely nothing, for example if you are asked to imagine an apple most people can 'see' the apple, i physically can't imagine one at all!
@@sophielouise2284 That is honestly so unreal to me. I can perfectly see it in detail color adn everything, and I'm constantly talking to myself in my head. How crazy.
@@cassandralyne Yeah its so crazy, i can only 'see' things when im dreaming, but not when im conscious!
Dodie talking about life and inner thoughts:
Me: *HER PLANTS*
"The Noise is a man unfiltered and without a filter a man is just chaos walking"
The thoughts thing makes me think of a book trilogy called Chaos Walking by Patrick Ness they're brilliant (would recommend) and there's this thing called the Noise which is basically people's thoughts. But like you said thoughts don't tend to be one coherent sentence so the Noise is made up of images of memories or ideas or imaginings and there's also colour in it to reflect the mood of people and layers of sentences all at once. It has a kind of physical presence so it can change shape and be used as a weapon which is explored later on it the books. Its all layers and layers of things so most of it gets lost especially in whole towns and villages the sound of people's thoughts are overwhelming and unbearable.
Its hard to describe but I would recommend a look at the books if you haven't all ready.
Ah yes I love those books.
we had to read the knife of never letting go in english & i love it
Yes!!! Chaos Walking has to be one of my most cherished series.
I love them so much and am afraid for the movie adaption.
omg they are my favourite books ever :)))
2:11 That is one attractive doctor
me: *has a panic attack*
dodie music: *gives me a warm hug and tells me everything’s gonna be okay*
DAN
CRAFTASTIC DIY PHIL
it’ll all make sense again
Firstly I think we could talk for hours. I digress..
KEYHOLE SURGERY: It's a surgical miracle. So much less invasive than regular surgery. Its very rare that you'll have to stay in hospital for longer than one night after having it and you won't be in immediate pain. They'll give you plenty of pain relief and the pain you will have (which will be easy compared to what you've experienced) will be when you move or poop (nobody tells you how hard pooping is after abdominal surgery - THEN you may need those laxatives). The worst part for me personally was coming round from anaesthetic, which only lasts a few hours anyway and affects people in different ways.
INTERNAL MONOLOGUE: I read an article the other day about the majority of people being able to think in their heads in full sentences but a small percentage aren't able to do this at all. Found it very fascinating. Apparently most people aren't aware that the other kind exist and when they meet and realise this both are in awe. I need to sit and chat to someone who can't think in full sentences and work out how they make lists or get anything done in their life?!?
I think in feelings, so no full sentences for me! I wonder how someone can do that? Like as I am typing I don't think out the word beforehand, it feels like my fingers are on autopilot with maybe a very slight loading of words. (:
I also really want to have a conversation with someone with internal monologue! Like, before I typed that out, I thought about how I should word it and what I should say, so I also find it fascinating that others don't experience that !
@@stormiesnazz4698 I thought people just had emotion, images and little bursts of words. I can keep a monologue but only if Im trying. Otherwise its a circus...with music playing ofc
Absolutely fascinating replies guys. I ask people all the time if they have an internal monologue since reading an article about it in hope that I find someone who doesn't. Apparently it's rarer to find people who don't x
@@marblegray I imagine when you read (not out loud) you think the words your reading? That's what an internal monologue is for me. I can see and hear the words I'm saying in my head. If I was writing an essay I would stop to think of a sentence in my head first and then write it. My fingers also typo in a bit of an autocorrect format too but my head reads it as it type hah x
dodie's voice has such a power over me, her talking can calm me down instantly (even though she's talking about scary body stuff).
No no no no no no no Dodie running monologue brain is HELL for communication. It's like, constantly second guessing your phrasing for anything and being concerned you're just bullshitting up a storm and trying to make the monologue more interesting whenever something comes up in your mind. It's a lot of having exactly the right words for something and then saying them out loud and nobody understands because they haven't been writing a series of essays on it during every subway ride or bathroom break of their life or whatever, so you have to painstakingly go back on each word and try to find out what did or didn't make sense and basically I think we're all kind of screwed somehow. It does make writing a bit easier though- even with the constant second guessing.
my heart literally aches, i have never connected so deeply with another mind before, i wish i could spill my head out to you because i know you would also be feeling the same pain, every time i watch your videos it brings me to tears solely because i walk away feeling tinest bit of comfort knowing i am really not alone :(
2:00 yo that’s a weirdass vape you got there
Ahhhhahahahahahahaa, this comment made my day
Your profile photo is literally a gay human saying drugs, this is perfect
i have a running inner monologue but i also have other parts of me that are arguing in full sentences and calling myself out for thinking stupid shit and there is music interrupting me and
oh also HELLA intrusive thoughts and bad thoughts that interrupt the hell out of me and derail everything
so i wouldnt say speaking is easier for me lol because it sounds like a fucking scrambled radio station in here
Rowan Laura yeppp me too! Scrambled radio station is exactly how I’d describe it when I’m not relaxed!
SAMEE
I FEEL thissss. It's constant and mean and I overthink what I am saying to people so a lot of the time I don't speak at all because I'm so aware of all the possible reactions to the smallest of words
I agree, also racing thoughts and stuff are a mess with this cause you cannot stop thinking. When I go to bed and try to sleep it's: ''okay stop thinking, time to sleep. sleep, sleep... so for tomorrow remember all of these things very important, i wonder what weather it will be and what we're gonna do, no! I will focus on today and for today there is only sleep and tomorrow I'll worry about then'' and then it goes on repeat, really jealous of people who can meditate and don't have this monologe.
SAME!!
i actually always thought that everybody had thoughts in the form of a monologue because i always forget to do something unless i think it hih basically saying it to myself, so like if i were sleepy or hungry i would tell myself to have nap sometime or i would start talking to myself in a way that resembles an auctioneer. also i think it might be an element that comes from tendencies to overthink but i dunno, i think i had always just spoken to myself even as a kid.
and one time i got curious and asked my friend how she thought and said she just SAW one single word representing her thought.
This is so interesting. I think in concepts, the occasional word, and feelings like dodie and i always thought Jimminy cricket was such a strange character like he talked every moral dilemma out... like dodie i kinda assumed it was artistic licence. Monologuing thoughts just sounds so different
Same it's like having a conversation with my self in my head. I'll have words but I'll will also have images, feelings, and memories too
you know what's weird? I asked one of my friends if he had a voice inside his head while reading and he said no. Do people NOT HAVE INNER VOICES??? i'm so confused i thought everyone did ;-;
Same I feel like my thoughts just repeat over and over and just overlap each other!
Cookilover 4ever same. i thought everyone thought like that
I was rewatching this video now that her debut album came out, and i realised that she has been putting hints of the songs of the album in this video haha
about the inner monologue- I mean perhaps it’s easier to analyse my thoughts but like.. that then leads to A LOT of overthinking and then getting stuck in my own head lol
"I was a mess, I still am I mess, please don't listen to anything I say".
same girl. same.
When you’re having a breakdown, full blown tears streaming down your face and dodie posts a video as simplistic as this one and you instantly calm down and feel like you can breathe again. Wow.
completely fucking same scenario mate, she's so calming.
Omg Dodie that notification almost gave me a heart attack
Same, I thought I was dreaming
Same
me too fam me too
So I have aphantasia, which means I can't see things in my head or "mind's eye" at all. I think in a constant inner monologue, like stream of consciousness bullshit that I for sure wish I could turn off. It blew my mind that people think in the abstract. Sometimes I will have the feeling that I just had an idea, like a complete epiphany moment, but if I dont say it verbally in my head it will literally disappear and I cannot for the life of me bring it back. So it's not so much that mind reading would be abstract for me, but more like there would be no beginning or end to the thought because my brain just keeps going.
So interesting! I'm interested to know how you deal with emotions/or things that you have to come to terms with - Do you get a sense of dread or excitement?
Woah that’s insane! I can find an image in my mind, but not being able to do that is interesting
@@WesEgan oh man, I always assumed I dealt with those things in the same way as everybody else. I absolutely feel dread or excitement and everything in between, but it is entirely felt through senses, and emotions. I'd say, usually, my emotions have no words attached, it is just the clenching of hands and crying and anything else I might do. If my emotions are a result of something I sense, I might have some thoughts to accompany things, like I'm angry about an injustice or I'm watching a sad movie. For things that I need to come to terms with, I would describe it as an actual court room in my head. It is just a constant stream of thoughts, sometimes conflicting, that oftentimes lead to an eventual conclusion, if possible. It's hard to describe when you cant imagine it, in the usual sense, but I hope that answered your questions!
@@Cookie_Comment yeah, it's really weird to think that there are different ways to imagine! I cannot watch youtube videos or listen to music without repeating the things the video or music is saying, otherwise I'll start thinking of something else entirely subconsciously, and I'll lose track of what's really happening. Honestly, thinking in abstract images sounds much preferable, but I suppose we all want what we cant have!
Rylee Jane Yeah, we are all just collages of the favorite parts of other people
I like how you call anesthesia "turning you off" like you're a robot lol
i’m so confused. i thought everybody had running and coherent sentences as there thoughts? I always have like monologues in my head. I cannot picture having like no coherent sentences if that makes sense
ahhh! that's the weird thing!!! like i can't fathom at all people thinking in full fricking sentences. if i force myself, yea, i can, but i guess i would describe my normal everyday thoughts to be like a multimedia collage? a collage of words and concepts and feelings and ideas and pictures and colors. and i think another part of this difference is that some people have an actual voice in their head???? i could not imagine that at all, crazy man haha
@@katrinaeloize I love the way you put it...multimedia collage lol. It's exactly what it feels like.
katrina omg that’s wild!! I can’t imagine not just talking to myself in my mind. That’s awesome tho I love the phrase multimedia collage. I usually see pictures and hear my thoughts while talking about them
Jane Bartell same except I have just Ideas too like usually my thoughts come in words but quite often they’re also just kind of feelings?? like I get the idea of the thought but it isn’t in words. and a lot of the time I get both of them at the same time
mine is exactly like dodie's, its like i dont try to make things happen in my brain. I CAN form words if i focus on them, but it's usually just things happening, it's not a thought in the form of the word, more of just a sense or an urge
When I read Twilight I had that same thought of "people don't think in full sentences" and then I realized that thought was a full sentence lol
i was here when you put up the “dear 25 year old me” video and now i’m 20 WOWWWW life moves fast
Wow! Fair play! I was nearly 20 when she posted it so hello ! Haha.
Oh my god the ending bit is the instrumental of “Sorry” :O I thought it sounded familiar!
3:43 “It’s not my fault” from Special Girl!!!
"It must be easy to talk for you"
Hon, I wish it were, but it doesnt translate well...
Also... half of my mind monologue is me screaming soooooo.
same lol
haha really? that sounds intense, personally my thoughts are a kind of quiet yet jumbled mess lol
Yep mine is majority shooting and whispers of "I dont know, but I should know, I'm supposed to know, but I've got nothing I'm blank ahhhhh"
Yeah, it's like I hear these coherent sentences in my mind, yet I somehow manage to stumble or sabotage myself before the words actually leave my lips.
Holy crap, listening to the beginning of the video, I was SCREAMING: "GALLBLADER STONEEEEE, DODIEEEEE".
Dude, don't worry. I have the same thing, it's terrible, but it's a VERY VERY common and safe procedure to remove it. It's the second most common operation, after appendicitis.
You. Will. Be. Great!
Oh, and HAVE THE OPERATION ASAP. You do not want to let this get to the point where you need to have it removed in an emergency. It sucks. Have it while it is safe and relatively painless.
Get well, kween!
3:31 when she sings “so much” I’m automatically like YES YES PLEASE RELEASE ANOTHER SECRET SONG IN YOUR VIDEOS
HOW MANY TIMES CAN I SAY IT I SWEAR IM NOT DOING IT AGAIN LOL
@@doddlevloggle reallllyyyy? :)
@@doddlevloggle u have given us trust issues
doddlevloggle but are you SURE??!!!?!?!?
and 8:21
When you said „it has a name“ I fully expected you to say George or something. :D
dodie! I wanted to let you know your songs mean a lot, I was going through a funny patch with a friend at a camp. I found out we were very different people & not knowing how to dealing with it, I distanced myself from her. It ended up hurting a lot. On the way home on the bus I listened to your song 'arms unfolding' on repeat, every word seemed to completly hit with my situation. It talked about trust lost, walls being built and lastly opening your heart up after being hurt. I listened to your lyrics, and I ended up talking to my friend and explaining how I was feeling. Your songs are quite something ❤️ also I know the internet is a bit whacked but we've missed you!!!
“Don’t mess with that stuff”
Me; ok
Also me; *dies due to an infected appendix and doesn’t get it removed*
Edit; oh, Dodie. I have the running monologue, and boy, is converting feelings into words difficult. Speaking is also hard, I have never spoken a sentence without stuttering.
For me its a monologue but its CERTAINLY not linear
I'm really shook right now, genuinely do people not think in like normal sentences in order? I need to look into this cause I'm so thrown.
@@LeeSwaggington its complicated. By "not linear" i mean it's not like a text, even if i think with words.
Yep same it’s like my mouth can’t keep up with my brain then I just stutter then say nothing
@@geekjokes8458 same I'll go on a million different tangents as a new thought pops up. It's basically like a sentence in my head, but it can be interrupted with other wordsq/ideas/sentences
you'd think hearing full sentences in my head would make it easier to talk but what it really means is i just never shut up
SAME and i go on tangents and i can never finish a story to its end without 5 detours first hhh
bigass mood lmao
Everything’s like “2 seconds ago” and it is an entirely new experience
does anyone else feel like they have music or a song playing in the back of ur mind while u go about with stuff, and if it's interrupted or you forget the tune you can't quite think straight until you find it again?
DODIE, about thoughts being all over the place: PLEASE read the knife of never letting go by Patrick Ness!!!! He does it in such an unusual messy way
Is it a book or is it somewhere on an app? I'm curious ^^
@@radioactivedreamer8238 its a book but it might be on audible or a library app somewhere!
I read it really recently and I thought of it while watching this too!
!! you can get cats who have never been outside! like housebound cats! i can’t remember the word but a lot of shelters i’ve been to have cats who are happier just being inside!!
“There’s no other step of like translating your feelings into words” oh, yes, there is! I have an internal monologue but i usually think in english, and since i’m hungarian, and i live in hungary, ppl would find it sooo strange if i’d speak in english to them, and sometimes (when i’m feeling really shit and i have automatic thoughts) it’s near impossible to translate the english and get hungarian words out, so i just end up not speaking at those times :/
Elizabet Király same ladette, i’m peruvian and they all speak spanish here but my monologue is always in english
Same i feel you
Woah so you are not English but your inner monologue is, that’s so crazy I’ve never thought of that
Man I relate so hard. My education was primarily in english and I'm also better at it than my first language.This leads me to not being able to properly communicate with family members who don't speak english, either cuz some things you just can't translate into bangla (my country's language) or I just don't know the words in bangla. I literally need google translate sometimes to talk to my mother lol.
Pontosan ezért angolul írok dalokat^^ as a proud hunglish native speaker 😊
"Out of practice" WELL ITS ABOUT TIME YOU GOT BACK IN PRACTICE YOU BEAN IVE MISSED YOU
I have no garden for my cat, and I have indoor plants. My cat is a very happy boy 🌻 You can train cats to not eat your plants or if they can't resist, have a room for plants that are bad for them that they can't go in. Also giving them a plant of their own makes them less likely to eat yours. The only thing is that the cats need lots of things to climb/scratch on and perch from, and a variety of different toys for stimulation. My cat prefers indoor living, especially if I'm home a lot.
Lots of love Dodie 💕
3:43 THIS IS FROM SPECIAL GIRL AHHHH!
My thoughts: To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
Me speaking: I, um, yeah that um was very interesting ha
Beautiful
Your mind just plagiarized Shakespeare 😂
same man
Fabiana Bracho same, my brain is very articulate but my mouth is not
Same tho
I really missed these types of videos where you feel like you’re having a nice chat with a friend at a sleepover
Dodie is such a wholesome person. She makes me want to create stuff, I don’t know what specifically but she makes me want to be creative and have fun with it 💛
Yess I feel this too!!💛 I adore her so much i dont understand how shes real, but it's strange cause part of what makes her so amazing is her genuineness....
WAit, YES, I yes me too
having a running monologue is a blessing and a curse. you can talk super fast and know what you're saying but also invasive thoughts that just pop in and you're like ' now, why did i think a thing like that"
3:34 DODIE IS THAT SPECIAL GIRL
Greatest video on the internet since “pasta is good life is SAD” 😆😆
Dodie talking to her camera is how I talk to myself all the time.
Also when she said, "it has a name," I thought she gave the thing on her gallbladder a name. I mean that's what I would do.
Same, I thought she’d named the lump 😂
same
Wait me too? About both, I sit up at like 2am and talk to myself as she is to her camera, like I recap things and explain things as if someone is listening, things like that.
Basically like a storytime vlog, or just saying thoughts out loud but really really in depth
Same, I've done it ever since I was like 5 years old. I guess it helps me sort out my thoughts making my internal monologue into an external monologue as it were.
The orchestra when if faded in literally made me start to well up with tears.. it’s already SO LOVELY and I’m VERY excited!!!
Also, I wonder if the thoughts thing has to do with trauma or derealisation? Because you were describing how complex and out of order and random (it’s hardly a good way to describe it) but I feel the same, except.. more colour.
Like there will be splashes of colour with the song that’s stuck in my head mixing with the colours of my feelings and fears, and meshing with ideas.
It’s all very jumbled and I do wonder if trauma has anything to do with it.
Just a thought, but I love the update, I’m proud of you for setting boundaries around sharing your life online.
Best of luck with whatever you choose for your gallbladder.
And I send my love for when you get around to filming that video, it sounds frightening and yet exciting! :)
I look forward to whatever you create and do.
Love you dodes
Cheers~
I think the same way, all random and jumbled. I perfectly understood the way Dodie was explaining it. But I don't think I've ever faced big trauma before. It might just be a way that some people think, you know?
@@certified_bug That just blows my mind. I've always thought in sentences and i would never have imagined any other posibility
@@moisesange that's insane! @Celia Drewes same, I feel like my mind is always a jumbled mess of random music and thoughts, although I've never experienced anything that traumatic. Dodie described it well.
I dont think it's due to trauma, different people have different ways they think :-)
LeisChips very true, I just said that because I personally have trauma/PTSD and derealisation, and think in a similar way to dodie. So I theorised that it could possibly be linked to that. I wasn’t trying to state that that was the only explanation, it was just a thought :)
Your description of your thoughts, as all over the place as it is, is the MOST ACCURATE description of what goes on in my head i've heard yet. No internal monologue, like your average super-villain describing his master plan (muhahahaha), just images and cravings, and memories and urges, etc. And music in the background, of course. The idea of loss of consciousness for me causes immense anxiety as well. And change, although I am learning to deal with that with the help of medication. Love your "squeezy pump" description of gall bladder- made me chuckle.
i have a constant running monologue in my head but at the same time i have pictures and vivid noises and physical and emotional feelings. earlier today i was having separation anxiety from my parrot and i could physically feel me touching his feathers and the little pin feathers coming through. at the same time i was picturing this abstract painting i saw earlier and how I’d re-create it in a different medium for a project and my inner monologue was describing it. at the same same time i could hear a song stuck in my head and could picture how it sounded and associate colors with each note. my mind is an ever running wheel and it doesn’t SHUT UP
I didn’t realize that nobody else has a “running monologue” of thoughts. Mine is 100% a running monologue at all times
me too dont worry
no like lots of people have the running monologue. Dodie doesn't have the monologue and she was surprised to find out that some people do
Julia S she will have an inner monologue, it’s just not running all the time . Mines not all the time it’s just kind of all over the place
Me too m8. Some people just have aphantasia
samantha maney whats that ?
When I heard the clapping and snapping I was suddenly transported back to 2016 😌
Dodie is soooo beautiful with glasses. Her eyes especially, like oh my god
Dodie is sooo beautiful
Dodie: "I'm itching for* big *change."
Later 2020: "there you go! 💁"
I literally had my gallbladder removed in August and am so familiar with the pain you described at the beginning. The term "writhing" fits perfectly. 10/10 worst thing I have ever experienced. Also, I had the same question about the belly bloating, and it does go away. And I do feel loads better.
dodie really looks like a goddess oh my goodness
Yes, having a monologue makes it easier to put my feelings into words but when I dont have the words I just freak out because if I dont have words I have nothing
No way of thinking is better, its jus the way out brains work
In response to: Where does the AIR GO?
I've had a laparoscopy for endo, and they also inflate you for that (dunno if it's exactly the same but I assume so). Basically they suck most of it back out at the end, but there's often a bit leftover. It's a gas your body can process so it will eventually go into your bloodstream and like leave your body as waste. However, what can happen just after surgery is that the bubble of air sits under your diaphragm and irritates it so you get referred nerve pain in your shoulder (bodies are WEIRD). But if you get up and move around the bubble of gas disperses into smaller, easier to process bubbles, and the pain goes away.
1) The hospital re-enactment stuff was entertaining, thank you for the ages it took ha
2) 'Mine doesn't!' is a mental illness mood. Exactly the tone my friend and I have when we're going back and forth about our various brain ailments ^^;
3) The whole 'are thoughts words' thing has always bothered me because you know how these kinds of things are spectra? I must be dead centre on this one, lmao. Some of my thoughts are nebulous memories and feelings like you thought the default was, while others are linear and sentence-y, like I'm literally talking to myself or seeing the relevant words. (And yes, the latter does help - especially when I need to describe complex feelings, because sometimes the right word appears on gut instinct, even when logic isn't quite there yet.)
4) I also have a song in my head almost all the time. It's like permanent background radio. It's not like an earworm, because it isn't annoying or distracting - it's just a common background function of my brain.
5) That music sounds so so good.
I love Dodie so much
Like
She is idk how to describe it
Familiar? Like not only can I relate and see parts of me in her personality, but I’ve been watching her videos forever and it’s really comforting to see her face or hear her voice.
Is that odd? Idk, I just really appreciate her and everything she does.
I love you Dodie!!!
i love this messy vlogs! it feels so human
also, I cannot see the apple
ive never been able to imagine images and never thought that was even possible until last year, my mind is always full of sentences and sounds, but never images
sometimes it really sucks, I can't visualize my loved ones faces, as a visual artist, can't visualize my drawings before making them, so i would finish an idea and realise it doesn't really work
since I know people are able to imagine I've been getting kinda better, I think maybe? idk just writing as I thought, because that's and advantage of thinking sentences ;)
I am your opposite, I think in pictures! Have to do like, a mental copy-paste thingy when i speak
This is actually called aphantasia, I have it to, so I can’t visualize what I want to draw either but I’ve noticed that’s it’s made studying realism a lot easier
But can you draw an apple and then look at it, close your eyes and imagine it? Maybe even spin it and imagine what it looks like from other sides.
I think memory and imagination are connected. I can go back to memories and transform the scene, change the events and characters in my mind. Also when I imagine an apple, it must be based on an apple I've seen before or on a collective idea of apples.
It must be harder with faces, because I heard that our brain can't imagine new faces, and the ones that we see in our dreams belong to people we met or briefly saw passing by. I find this topic of imagination, dreams, and memory very interesting. Also I'm talking to myself but have never visualized a monologue before I say it.
yuranival At least for me when I close my eyes it’s dark and all I can do is think of descriptive aspects of something what color was it what shape, how did the memory or thing make me feel. Unless I’m dreaming everything is black.
@@ashl2558 interesting. I mean it stays black for me too, but I can still imagine things and scenes. It's almost like traveling mentally to another layer. Closing eyes isn't necessary, but it helps shutting off visual channel to concentrate on imagination. Same as we sometimes close our eyes to remember something or focus on the sound.
It's cool that we all think and imagine differently though 😌
My running monologue is: *ohmygodeveryonehatesyouyou’renevergonnabelovedbecauseallyoudoismessupandlookyoucantevenloveyourselfdohowcouldanyoneelse*
I'm sorry you feel like this but I also hope you know that you're not alone with this! sending loads of love and strength
TimeTraveling Toaster aww thanks uwu
You’ve gotten through 100% of your hardest days, you can do this 💞 so proud you’re still here y’know?
Ah yes anxiety in thoughts, relatable
Bile is an emulsifier, so it mixes the fat up, and makes it easier for the enzymes to break it down (I believe)
I also just checked with my dad (who’s a doctor) wtf happens with the air, and they just pump it out through the the keyholes
Some does hang around sometimes though. Put that on top of swelling and you could be asked if you're pregnant for about a week after. I know, I've been there haha
It comes out your shoulders. I know it sounds weird but it do.
lovealwayskara yesssss every time I get a surgery/procedure like that I always feel like I got kicked in the back
dodie, ur like, a cartoon character, your face and the way your mouth and eyebrows move when you talk is so endearing and cartoonish and its briliant. Its probably the glasses and the way you animatedly move about but its really cool . Its raining, thats nice.
I really missed these types of videos, just talking. I’m very happy seeing and hearing you talk about real things.
I had my gallbladder removed a couple of months ago. Best thing that could ever happen. No more painnnn! Best of luck ❤️ (btw, I was terrified as well but it was completely worth it)
Dodie: dont take it out, it all works
Honey they wouldn't be taking it out if it was working fine!
Exactly
1) dodie in jeans OH MY GOD
2) Dodie’s skin OH MY GOD
3) OH MY GOD I needed dodie today
Idk why this video cracked me up so much but it did, just the way she worded things! Love it. Funny and strangely comforting.
Wow, so many already noticed the Special Girl lyrics! And don’t forget about the strings at the end of Sorry, they’re in the video as well (10:10). I really think like 95% of the album were done at the beginning of 2020 and the pandemic forced her to delay everything.
yeah she talked about it before. i think she said that the only things she did after the lockdown was record cool girl and finish recording hate myself