@@catvlyst Alcohol is strong stuff, Weed in a young mind is strong stuff too. You did too much too young, LSD & Molly?? Mind altering substances - Well done, you blew it!! And I'm only @ 01:38 into your Vid. Stick with medio weed for a few years - learn how to appreciate your time, moderate & regulate is key, learn how to do without 6-8 weeks at a time, you can get well again but you need a few years of semi sobriety at the least - Diet is crucial. Feck!! the video goes on to @02:38 I can't take anymore You either tried to drive yourself mad and/or destroy your life and you've nearly succeeded - Why?.
I know someone who done mdma before alcohol hahaha no idea how that happens. The normal trajectory is alcohol, weed then either MDMA or mushrooms / LSD.
This is a great video, I remember Mac Miller saying "doing drugs is a war with boredom" and often found that true when I had issues with alcohol in life. Best wishes in the future
Yeah i am doing this exact thing with alcohol when i'm working away from home. Sitting in the house we rented just drinking and listening to music, i say to myself "why don't i just go out for a walk, explore the new area?" then i think what is the point there is almost a pub on every corner of the damn town or city i end up in and it's just a vicious cycle of seeing alcohol everywhere. It's bloody torture, i need to have the willpower to just stop but it is so damn hard.
Boredom is overcome pretty early when one begins to meditate. I've meditated for over five years now and I think it gives me a greater appreciation of drugs.
Your life is not ruined. Your still alive you still have life yet to live. Make better choices have a better life. I made a lot of bad choices as well early in life. Now I'm 50 I'm a successful business owner.
Yeah, I'm 32 and I will be sober for 6 years in January of next year. And yeah it ruined my life. Just like his. It's over. I have been working for the same company for 5 years and it's a dead end job. There's no way out. The lies they tell you in rehab lol. They tell you everything you want to hear about how your life isn't over and everything will work out and it don't. 5 and a half years in, and I'm the only one left who is sober out of the group of guys who went through the year long treatment center with. Honestly I have no idea why I haven't at least started drinking again because my life is definitely over. No joy. Women don't help. Getting Jacked doesn't help. Those things definitely make it easier, but there is still a gaping hole. If you don't get the right start in life it's over people. Idk how or why I am still sober, but I have this thing in my mind that won't let me even have a drink. I go to no meetings because there crap and people just cry about their screwed up lives. Church is dumb and there is nothing but contradictions and gossip in them. I have no idea why I am writing this lol because it sure as hell isn't gonna help. My point is, yes his life and mine are both over and it's fucked.
@@zachmiller3835 Waahhhh wahhh wahhhh, cry cry cry baby. Pickup your life and stop pitying yourself, no one can make a change in your life but yourself, be a man and find something worth living for. You don't need to sit in the same job or position and bitch about your life, take action and shut up. There is people in this world who actually have nothing, in war torn countries.
This actually entered my recommended feed. I struggled with other addictions that weren't drugs, and any form of dependency just completely ruins you as a person. I'm really happy to see that you've become sober and I hope that people see this video and it inspires them to stay on the right path. Keep on goin man, congrats for getting over this.
had a similar problem, last work I had was in 2016. (coudn't work do to psychosis from drug use).Couldn't leave the house for years... Was only able to get a good treatment now in 2023 and I'm much better, it's really a struggle.. I'm clean from illicit drugs but still drink alcohol on the weekends. I'm 30 years old now still live with my mom, btw people have similar issues from all over the world... I'm from Brazil.... Peace out brother and take care.
Thank you for sharing, I've had similar issues and this really made me feel less alone in my struggles. I will get sick now for days at a time.. I feel like the hardest part about sobriety is actually finding something that is worth it enough to give up the things you know aren't serving you such as drugs. I wish you all the best.
I can relate to this unfurtunately but be thankful you are still there living some life that's how i get trough it. Literally from the same substances i also didn't like drugs like heroin. started ordering everything for good prices when i was 15 and it was so easy to get a hold off and find good suppliers. I even took stuff that was fake like pressed bars. I experimented a lot with everything but also never injected drugs. Still i got addicted to many of them. K, psychedleics, uppers, downers, weed, opioids, alcohol I'm thankful to still breathe. I hope you do good now. Im 23 and i already lost everything twice. Ive been struggling with my health and mental issues when i was underage. Now i'm doing a lot better but still working my way up, Good video respect you got balls for telling your story!
Hey man thank you for sharing and I congratulate you on your sobriety:) I’ve been addicted to weed personally and i feel it has fucked my mind, I can only imagine what you’re going through. But dude keep pushing you’re doing great and all heals with time ♥️
Same. Started in high school and was chasing after every drug I was able to get my hands on and drinking blackout every chance I had. I will never be mentally/psychology the same again. Had instances of psychosis/severe paranoia that never reversed. I still slip into delusions where I think someone is trying to get me.. sick and tired of this man lol. 29 now and won’t even touch the junk now even with a 10 foot pole. Not even weed which I used to love so much. Now when I smoke it I am just paranoid for the life of me. Stay stafe
Today is my first day sober in a while. Its crazy how relatable your story is. Got psychosis from weed as well and thought i would stop there. Only got worse sadly. Didnt sleep at all today but im trying to make it trough the day with only my benzo taper
great video. Love the honesty and frankness with which you approach the subject. I'm glad I never got hooked on drugs early in life-it can really mess you up. My dad experimented later in life with weed and he said that it brought on his psychosis and bipolar disorder. Hope you can continue to live a healthy and happy life free from all that turmoil, my friend
I'm a recovering drug addict (8 months clean from oxycodone which was my biggest problem, 1 month clean from benzos). I've had a suicide attempt at the beginning of 2024, my depression is nearly gone thankfully to meds but unfortunely I still have those episodes of really bad cravings but I know that they'll pass The best advice I would give to addicts is: find a new hobby, start exercising. I wish you the best man and don't give up!
hey man, I relate to your situation a lot bro. we both had the exact same experience, starting with molly and tabs and weed then progressing into dw drugs and stuff because of an intense curiosity about them, i tried almost every single drug possible (100+) but benzos ruined my life man. much love bro
True. Benzos have by far had the worst impact on me of the 50+ different drugs i've tried. Got horribly dependent for 1 year, no other drug came close to the high I thought I was getting from benzos. The withdrawal was hell, even after a year long taper it took 2 years to feel mostly normal. I don't think i will ever feel the same.
I experienced similar when I was 16, many years ago. Your mind never goes back to how it was sadly., its something you learn to live with though. Its something you will have to live with until you die. I took too much LSD MDMA at same time had bad trip then always after that I had anxiety and panix attacks, this was after having phsycosis for around 4 months. This is what people do not warn you about when your taking drugs. Its not about dying or short term effects , it can literally spoil your whole life.
Thanks for sharing your story on here and the self awareness that led you here, it's a hard journey but recognising that your mind is better in it's natural state than on drugs is a huge positive step. I spent a few years doing the same, not with as many episodes. Having children helped as well to clean myself up, haven't had alcohol in 3 years. Even caffeine these days is too much to handle and I spend my time meditating, eating right, exercising and trying to reach those levels so many believe are promised by drugs naturally. Heaven can not be taken by force.
Im sixteen and have had multiple marijuana and other drug induced psychotic episodes now im smoking weed less, staying away from the dangerous stuff and trying to quit nic I have the same look in my eyes as you do psychosis isnt easy for anyone hope you heal
Life could be a whole lot worse bro just be grateful with what you have. Just think of the fun times you had with the drugs and move on with your life.
drugs/hedonism in general is a black hole and kinda boring when u think about it, you're doing nothing but just sitting around taking a drug. what is interesting is making cool shit happen in this world we were put in rather than in ur head.
@@metalmaniac1105 no one who did something amazing did it on percs unless they're a braindead rapper. Elon, Einstein, Bill Gates, people who did shit in the real world were all sober (mostly).
@@cykablyat9333nonsense. For starters, alcohol and caffeine are all drugs, almost certain used by countless of people, and your view on this, as is the view expressed in the video, is very myopic. Paul Erdős even allegedly took amphetamines all the time. Steve Jobs. Countless upon countless of others who used drugs. You don’t just dump LSD and heroin into the same category. It’s the exact same mistake being done for years and years and years.
@@metalmaniac1105 no. a lot of cool things exist cause people sat down and made it a reality day after day for years. if drugs helped they're the cherry on the cake, not the cake.
@cykablyat9333 the problem with addiction is it takes your sobriety. The key I've found is experiencing altered states of mind whilst being happy and comfortable sober. Sure, I could be sober always and that would be better but i just get such a kick from feeling different. Drugs + deppression = addiction Drugs + happiness = moderation
I know that I had a problem (even though I thought it was just hurting me financially) as soon as I quit I had appetite and sleep issues. For me it was just a shortcut to doing nothing because I can be lazy even sober.
being mentally damaged from drugs is crazy I can't even drink coffee or energy drinks anymore. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind, I smoked weed everyday from 15 - 19, 27 now😳
I feel you dude I smoked from 15-17 then started meth and luckily I was only using it for 2 months but I’m sure that damaged my brain. I’m almost 19 now and I’m never doing drugs again
@@gaara2447 when you are young it is. It is more addictive and more damaging to your brain when it isn’t fully developed and you’re more susceptible to other addictions. That goes for nicotine as well. I probably never would’ve tried meth or any other drugs if I didn’t try weed. It kinda opens a door in your brain that can’t be shut and then you just wanna get high on whatever. I’m sure not everyone is like that but that’s my experience
Yeah, you are still young and it's better you get it out of your system now than later like some of us. Now you can move forward with your life, maybe build a family. Life is hard, but there are rewards in life you just have to condition your mind to enjoy life not drugs.
ketamine is a disassociative.. I've seen people dabble with Ketamine and it changed them forever - they are what describe as 'dullards'. when at one time they were vibrant in life.
Don't regret all the fun memories you experienced by experimenting thou. They taught you many lessons . You are a warrior to go though it all and survive. I indulged my over a decade, like a slave to the rave. Life is better now thou.
It's in their nature to never blame themselves for their chronic drug usage. Blame the dealers, blame the drugs, blame the "inner city", blame your mom and dad, blame the dealer's race, blame the dealer's ancestors, go to war with a nation, but never blame the one in the mirror snorting. Master victims, manipulators, and gas lighters. Don't let the shiny hair and eyes fool you. The only "neurotransmitters" fried were the ones that would've allowed him to master politics and emboozlement.
OK, speaking as an addict with plenty of experience, why is it whenever I get clean I still struggle and feel lost.It started off as fun at first but over the years it's turned into my only way to deal with everyday life and reality but when you take the D's away all the problems of life and reality are still there but they feel even worse and harder to deal with. D's are used by most people to elevate the struggles we have with life and ultimately ourselves.
I never got psychosis but I used to smoke weed a lot and I loved it but then it started making me really paranoid and anxious, the exact same thing happened to me with coke.
I have a friend that, a lot like you, started out casually and it developed into an addiction. The biggest difference is he uses religion to cope with his addition, stating weed is made by god and that drugs are the gateway to heaven without actually dying. He’s past his party years and can’t hold a job and lost his marriage due to the drugs. All he does anymore is live in his old families house and smokes vapes and weed pens and talk about his twisted religious views. When he’s not doing that, his brother is supplying him with LSD, Shrooms, or some random pill that I’m sure is worse than the above. He deadass can’t go more than an hour without some mind altering substance in his lungs. We were driving to McDonalds in my newly bought car when I caught him sneaking a smoke cause the McDonalds was 15 minutes away. I lost it, and yelled at him, telling him his addiction is ruining his life and he needs to sober up. I don’t come across as very intimidating so he laughed it off but then I could tell he had a bit of realization right after. Unfortunately, it didn’t seem to be enough, as he still smokes like crazy and refuses to believe logic that smoking IS bad for you! I don’t know what to do anymore except just stop talking to him. Sorry if my comment came across as a rant, but it’s super refreshing to see someone get out of that life. I hope my friend has the same ending as you and becomes a cool person. 🙂
just crusing by... from the other side of the world... drugs can not ruin your life. maybe you can think that. but in the end it was you. but... i do not think that your life is ruined... kinda sad you would think that. you look young and pretty healthy and you want to change. thats a ggod starting point. wish you all the best :)
@@MILLIONDOLLARPOVERTY I have no history of psychosis/schizophrenia in my family which is the disturbing thing. On my mom’s side there was a little alcoholism, but my mom wasn’t herself. It was weed that pushed me over the edge more than anything believe or not. I never imagined it would happen, but since then I have had psychotic reactions to all kinds of drugs.
@@catvlyst wow this really is making me rethink my weed habit. i have a similar family situation. i know how hard it is to quit. i feel like i become an angry, asshole version of myself when i try to stop, or i just replace it with drinking.
you're like my older brother he started at 12 years old and now he thinks he's a god but no one likes him - it's called psychosis , suffers from major delusion.. at least you admit it, my brother who's almost 60 will never see himself he is gone , and the worst part, his psychosis is extremely evil.
It is disturbing how strongly psychosis can make you believe in your delusions. You genuinely think things that aren’t true or real at all and some people never come out of it unfortunately
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The problem is that as you get older, the short term effects become less and less and the long term consequences more apparent. In high school I could have a binge and recover fast. Now at almost thirty, recovery time can take weeks from one night of use.
I resonate so much with this story. I'm about the same age as you are and have spent about the last 4 years living in Medellin, Colombia. My first years here I fell heavily into opioids, ketamine, cocaine, benzos, and alcohol. At this point I'm done with all of that because it's just not worth it. Never been to the psych ward, but have had plenty of health scares as a result of that drug use. Like you said, fun when you're younger and then it quickly turns into a monkey on your back.
First step is to recognise that. Next is to take responsibility and act accordingly. Don't waste the precious gift of being human. We've evolved millions of years from an amoeba to get to this point ...
I’m no scientist but I can contest to the fact that marijuana will not cause psychosis and could only make you symptomatic if you have a genetic predisposition. Loved the video though! Good luck man.
@@joeygarton7758 since I have no family history of psychosis, it is really strange to me that it happened. I certainly believe it would not have emerged if I didn’t use marijuana daily for over a year. Maybe the predisposition was there, but it likely never would have surfaced without the drug use.
this is what happens when you are raised in a very strict or traumatic household, or your autistic and have sensory seeking tendencies.. weed def wont make you curious about other drugs, its your brain escaping trauma and thrill... but you def dont get psychosis from cannabis.. you just dont.. anxiety is induced by certain terps/cannabanoids.. if you arent good at handling anxiety try a different terp profile. i got addicted to opiates without cannabis.. 3x rehab drop out before i got clean, now im 10 years removed from any type of opiate/chemical.
weed definitely doesnt make me want to use opiates, or anything else. and the "psychosis" from shrooms? lmao thats called a trip.. if its not for you its not for you
I didn't think that psychosis could be caused by cannabis alone either, but I've been seeing a lot of similar stories lately. People without a history of psychotic disorders losing it from a certain strain or whatever. It's difficult to say for sure really. I have been diagnosed with Asperger's and have trauma from being sent away in high school, so that makes sense for sure.
You’re using the blank term “drug” in the same way it’s been done for years. I feel for your pain and I particularly understand your weed story… but ending up consuming a stimulant and a depressant at the same time…? That’s brutal. You’re lumping very different substances into the same group. And as always with this mentality, plenty of other harmful drugs like alcohol are often left unmentioned here. I wish you the best. You may have a particular predisposition towards psychosis.
It’s meant to point out, when you’re young and think you’re invincible, it can escalate to a bad place very quickly, and when you are chemically altered and don’t fully understand what you’re doing, it’s even worse
Glory to America 🤠🤠🤠By the way brother, is there any chance I could get contacts where to get good coke in Columbia? (I want that pure which cause heart attack, no joke)?
Thats an argument, but also depends on a persons living situation and depression. I've been addicted to substances for quite a long time but it was the addictive mentallity taking over. Doing better for a long time but i can not work enough on myself.
Did you disassociate as a child? i did. whenever i was with the family who were abusive i would disassociate and be there i body only, my mind in whatever starwars or LOTR other world i could escape to inside .... so when i started drinking every day at age 14 it was also to disassociate ,i simply wanted to check into a different reality . This is why i ask if you disassociated as a child. When i drank every day from 14-18 and would make up in my own vomit every saturday and sunday morning my parents knew what was going on and they never said to me "do you have a problem?" ,...... narcissistic parents are the cause of most drug use. what i have noticed over 50 years is that people that didn't have narcisstic parents generally don't use drugs
My first dissociative episode was at 19. That was when my brain had finally had enough of the drugs and pent up trauma. Being sent to a wilderness program at 16 kind of set it off I think. I dealt a lot with anxiety in high school, but more complicated mental problems surfaced around 19 after I'd dealt with the wilderness camp and started using drugs
@@catvlyst pent up trauma caused it all for me, as a child i was totally shut down by narcissitic parents, the mother was the tyrant, so any dissent was shut down, i developed tourettes , it comes from not being allowed to have any say, .... anxiety same way at school, that was why i drank every day from 14-18, then pot every day ..... Stefan Molyneux had so much good info about finding oneself after narcissistic family abuse , but they cancelled him off youtube so he is on Rumble now
@@catvlyst worst drug i ever took was Lorazapam AKA Ativan , evil stuff, i only took a half dose twice and it made me full on self-delete mode, googling methods and locations and times of trains .... that was the stuff Chris Cornell was on when he died and used to doubt he would have done it but after that experience the tiniest amount of Ativan did that to me and in 50 years i had NEVER considered self-deletion . never ever go near Ativan
Wtf kind of reaction is this? He’s just telling his story. He’s not the first person in human history to experience significant consequences from hard drug use.
His original choice to try them, sure. But we are all humans. We make mistakes. And he’s sharing a story about how drugs directly and indirectly changed his life for the worse, in the hopes that it prevents others from making the same poor choice.
"i started off you know just lsd and molly" XDDDDD bro you skipped a few steps
Everyone knows you have to smoke crack before trying lucy and molly!!!! who does this guy think he is??
@@RJ-oi9fh bro what? I’m talking about vaping which is usually a gateway drug but ok
Lol well I started with weed and alcohol in high school, I just started talking about what happened once I went to college
@@catvlyst Alcohol is strong stuff, Weed in a young mind is strong stuff too.
You did too much too young, LSD & Molly?? Mind altering substances - Well done, you blew it!! And I'm only @ 01:38 into your Vid.
Stick with medio weed for a few years - learn how to appreciate your time, moderate & regulate is key, learn how to do without 6-8 weeks at a time, you can get well again but you need a few years of semi sobriety at the least - Diet is crucial.
Feck!! the video goes on to @02:38 I can't take anymore
You either tried to drive yourself mad and/or destroy your life and you've nearly succeeded - Why?.
I know someone who done mdma before alcohol hahaha no idea how that happens. The normal trajectory is alcohol, weed then either MDMA or mushrooms / LSD.
This is a great video, I remember Mac Miller saying "doing drugs is a war with boredom" and often found that true when I had issues with alcohol in life. Best wishes in the future
Yeah i am doing this exact thing with alcohol when i'm working away from home. Sitting in the house we rented just drinking and listening to music, i say to myself "why don't i just go out for a walk, explore the new area?" then i think what is the point there is almost a pub on every corner of the damn town or city i end up in and it's just a vicious cycle of seeing alcohol everywhere. It's bloody torture, i need to have the willpower to just stop but it is so damn hard.
@@leesaunders9102 that is so fucking true, i hate that shit. it is hard to quit but worth it long term i'd say
You're absolutely eight about the war with boredom concept. I just made a video about that today.
@@catvlyst another great video, i like your channel and insight
Boredom is overcome pretty early when one begins to meditate.
I've meditated for over five years now and I think it gives me a greater appreciation of drugs.
Your life is not ruined. Your still alive you still have life yet to live. Make better choices have a better life. I made a lot of bad choices as well early in life. Now I'm 50 I'm a successful business owner.
Yeah I agree, he is still young.
Yeah, I'm 32 and I will be sober for 6 years in January of next year. And yeah it ruined my life. Just like his. It's over. I have been working for the same company for 5 years and it's a dead end job. There's no way out. The lies they tell you in rehab lol. They tell you everything you want to hear about how your life isn't over and everything will work out and it don't. 5 and a half years in, and I'm the only one left who is sober out of the group of guys who went through the year long treatment center with. Honestly I have no idea why I haven't at least started drinking again because my life is definitely over. No joy. Women don't help. Getting Jacked doesn't help. Those things definitely make it easier, but there is still a gaping hole. If you don't get the right start in life it's over people. Idk how or why I am still sober, but I have this thing in my mind that won't let me even have a drink. I go to no meetings because there crap and people just cry about their screwed up lives. Church is dumb and there is nothing but contradictions and gossip in them. I have no idea why I am writing this lol because it sure as hell isn't gonna help. My point is, yes his life and mine are both over and it's fucked.
@@zachmiller3835 Waahhhh wahhh wahhhh, cry cry cry baby. Pickup your life and stop pitying yourself, no one can make a change in your life but yourself, be a man and find something worth living for. You don't need to sit in the same job or position and bitch about your life, take action and shut up. There is people in this world who actually have nothing, in war torn countries.
@@zachmiller3835 31 and can relate even tho im not sober.
@@zachmiller3835that's intense. Have you considered looks maxing through plastic surgery?
This actually entered my recommended feed. I struggled with other addictions that weren't drugs, and any form of dependency just completely ruins you as a person. I'm really happy to see that you've become sober and I hope that people see this video and it inspires them to stay on the right path.
Keep on goin man, congrats for getting over this.
had a similar problem, last work I had was in 2016. (coudn't work do to psychosis from drug use).Couldn't leave the house for years... Was only able to get a good treatment now in 2023 and I'm much better, it's really a struggle.. I'm clean from illicit drugs but still drink alcohol on the weekends. I'm 30 years old now still live with my mom, btw people have similar issues from all over the world... I'm from Brazil.... Peace out brother and take care.
Thank you for sharing, I've had similar issues and this really made me feel less alone in my struggles. I will get sick now for days at a time.. I feel like the hardest part about sobriety is actually finding something that is worth it enough to give up the things you know aren't serving you such as drugs. I wish you all the best.
I can relate to this unfurtunately but be thankful you are still there living some life that's how i get trough it. Literally from the same substances i also didn't like drugs like heroin.
started ordering everything for good prices when i was 15 and it was so easy to get a hold off and find good suppliers.
I even took stuff that was fake like pressed bars. I experimented a lot with everything but also never injected drugs. Still i got addicted to many of them. K, psychedleics, uppers, downers, weed, opioids, alcohol
I'm thankful to still breathe. I hope you do good now. Im 23 and i already lost everything twice. Ive been struggling with my health and mental issues when i was underage. Now i'm doing a lot better but still working my way up, Good video respect you got balls for telling your story!
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I enjoyed listening, and I'm glad you're in a better position now.
I agree, I have learned alot from this video, thank you
Hey man thank you for sharing and I congratulate you on your sobriety:)
I’ve been addicted to weed personally and i feel it has fucked my mind, I can only imagine what you’re going through. But dude keep pushing you’re doing great and all heals with time ♥️
Same. Started in high school and was chasing after every drug I was able to get my hands on and drinking blackout every chance I had. I will never be mentally/psychology the same again. Had instances of psychosis/severe paranoia that never reversed. I still slip into delusions where I think someone is trying to get me.. sick and tired of this man lol. 29 now and won’t even touch the junk now even with a 10 foot pole. Not even weed which I used to love so much. Now when I smoke it I am just paranoid for the life of me. Stay stafe
Thanks for sharing man that pretty helpful
Today is my first day sober in a while. Its crazy how relatable your story is. Got psychosis from weed as well and thought i would stop there. Only got worse sadly. Didnt sleep at all today but im trying to make it trough the day with only my benzo taper
great video. Love the honesty and frankness with which you approach the subject. I'm glad I never got hooked on drugs early in life-it can really mess you up. My dad experimented later in life with weed and he said that it brought on his psychosis and bipolar disorder. Hope you can continue to live a healthy and happy life free from all that turmoil, my friend
the slips from starting drugs is much easier than making the change to stop doing drugs
I'm a recovering drug addict (8 months clean from oxycodone which was my biggest problem, 1 month clean from benzos).
I've had a suicide attempt at the beginning of 2024, my depression is nearly gone thankfully to meds but unfortunely I still have those episodes of really bad cravings but I know that they'll pass
The best advice I would give to addicts is: find a new hobby, start exercising.
I wish you the best man and don't give up!
hey man, I relate to your situation a lot bro. we both had the exact same experience, starting with molly and tabs and weed then progressing into dw drugs and stuff because of an intense curiosity about them, i tried almost every single drug possible (100+) but benzos ruined my life man. much love bro
True. Benzos have by far had the worst impact on me of the 50+ different drugs i've tried. Got horribly dependent for 1 year, no other drug came close to the high I thought I was getting from benzos. The withdrawal was hell, even after a year long taper it took 2 years to feel mostly normal. I don't think i will ever feel the same.
I experienced similar when I was 16, many years ago. Your mind never goes back to how it was sadly., its something you learn to live with though. Its something you will have to live with until you die. I took too much LSD MDMA at same time had bad trip then always after that I had anxiety and panix attacks, this was after having phsycosis for around 4 months. This is what people do not warn you about when your taking drugs. Its not about dying or short term effects , it can literally spoil your whole life.
How life ruined my drugs
Thanks for sharing your story on here and the self awareness that led you here, it's a hard journey but recognising that your mind is better in it's natural state than on drugs is a huge positive step. I spent a few years doing the same, not with as many episodes. Having children helped as well to clean myself up, haven't had alcohol in 3 years. Even caffeine these days is too much to handle and I spend my time meditating, eating right, exercising and trying to reach those levels so many believe are promised by drugs naturally. Heaven can not be taken by force.
sounds like me. thankfully i woke up after i had a seizure from coke and am now set to be stationed in hawaii via us army
be careful out there bud. people still like to "party" in the army
Im sixteen and have had multiple marijuana and other drug induced psychotic episodes now im smoking weed less, staying away from the dangerous stuff and trying to quit nic I have the same look in my eyes as you do psychosis isnt easy for anyone hope you heal
Life could be a whole lot worse bro just be grateful with what you have. Just think of the fun times you had with the drugs and move on with your life.
drugs/hedonism in general is a black hole and kinda boring when u think about it, you're doing nothing but just sitting around taking a drug. what is interesting is making cool shit happen in this world we were put in rather than in ur head.
Alot of the cool things in the world exist beacuse of drugs
@@metalmaniac1105 no one who did something amazing did it on percs unless they're a braindead rapper. Elon, Einstein, Bill Gates, people who did shit in the real world were all sober (mostly).
@@cykablyat9333nonsense. For starters, alcohol and caffeine are all drugs, almost certain used by countless of people, and your view on this, as is the view expressed in the video, is very myopic. Paul Erdős even allegedly took amphetamines all the time. Steve Jobs. Countless upon countless of others who used drugs.
You don’t just dump LSD and heroin into the same category. It’s the exact same mistake being done for years and years and years.
@@metalmaniac1105 no. a lot of cool things exist cause people sat down and made it a reality day after day for years. if drugs helped they're the cherry on the cake, not the cake.
@cykablyat9333 the problem with addiction is it takes your sobriety.
The key I've found is experiencing altered states of mind whilst being happy and comfortable sober. Sure, I could be sober always and that would be better but i just get such a kick from feeling different. Drugs + deppression = addiction Drugs + happiness = moderation
Dude your videos are so cool. Thank you for sharing this experience. Drugs are absolutely insane.
@@samuelmcaleer9720 Glad you enjoy them
I know that I had a problem (even though I thought it was just hurting me financially) as soon as I quit I had appetite and sleep issues. For me it was just a shortcut to doing nothing because I can be lazy even sober.
bro we talked on facebook i did a beatmaking lesson with you trough facebook facecam and everything! i never knew... glad you recovered!
hope you are still making music
Thanks man, and yes I still put stuff on spotify every once and a while.
being mentally damaged from drugs is crazy I can't even drink coffee or energy drinks anymore. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind, I smoked weed everyday from 15 - 19, 27 now😳
Yup take good care of your brain and body vitamins lots of heathy food rest. It will get better.
I feel you dude I smoked from 15-17 then started meth and luckily I was only using it for 2 months but I’m sure that damaged my brain. I’m almost 19 now and I’m never doing drugs again
@@shwingler8871 is weed that bad?
@@gaara2447 when you are young it is. It is more addictive and more damaging to your brain when it isn’t fully developed and you’re more susceptible to other addictions. That goes for nicotine as well. I probably never would’ve tried meth or any other drugs if I didn’t try weed. It kinda opens a door in your brain that can’t be shut and then you just wanna get high on whatever. I’m sure not everyone is like that but that’s my experience
@@shwingler8871 dang thats why weed is banned
Great video and very vulnerable topic to speak on, I hope all continues to be well regarding sobriety
VERY well said, similar story in my case, somewhat managed to get my life on track
I bet some people have lived crappy lives who didn't do drugs at all.
I’ve been thinking of going back to pot or vices but thank you for reminding me where I was at
pot is the slipperiest slope
@@seftonwalker3978I can name many slippier slopes
im gonna use this for song sample
Make his voice skip like Max Headroom
link me when you finish lol
Yeah, you are still young and it's better you get it out of your system now than later like some of us. Now you can move forward with your life, maybe build a family. Life is hard, but there are rewards in life you just have to condition your mind to enjoy life not drugs.
Quitting nicotine now thank you
how are you doing now? hope ur better
ketamine is a disassociative.. I've seen people dabble with Ketamine and it changed them forever - they are what describe as 'dullards'. when at one time they were vibrant in life.
Don't regret all the fun memories you experienced by experimenting thou. They taught you many lessons . You are a warrior to go though it all and survive. I indulged my over a decade, like a slave to the rave. Life is better now thou.
Drugs aren't your problem, you are your problem...
It's in their nature to never blame themselves for their chronic drug usage. Blame the dealers, blame the drugs, blame the "inner city", blame your mom and dad, blame the dealer's race, blame the dealer's ancestors, go to war with a nation, but never blame the one in the mirror snorting.
Master victims, manipulators, and gas lighters. Don't let the shiny hair and eyes fool you. The only "neurotransmitters" fried were the ones that would've allowed him to master politics and emboozlement.
That is what addicts and people who dont know shit says. Not enough experience with drugs and life in general.
OK, speaking as an addict with plenty of experience, why is it whenever I get clean I still struggle and feel lost.It started off as fun at first but over the years it's turned into my only way to deal with everyday life and reality but when you take the D's away all the problems of life and reality are still there but they feel even worse and harder to deal with. D's are used by most people to elevate the struggles we have with life and ultimately ourselves.
@@420styletomatoes6 Life sucks, drugs make it suck less. More at 11.
@@joefer5360for the moment but they don’t in general maybe besides weed and some hallucinogenics but even those can fuck people up
I smoked a lot and got psychosis from weed, haven't been the same since either
I never got psychosis but I used to smoke weed a lot and I loved it but then it started making me really paranoid and anxious, the exact same thing happened to me with coke.
great video
I ended up in the psych on a bender I can’t imagine how how that would be in another country geez
can you buy percs over the counter in colombia
Ya right ya brain gets sick of the dam stuff I actually felt tired when supp to be high
I have a friend that, a lot like you, started out casually and it developed into an addiction. The biggest difference is he uses religion to cope with his addition, stating weed is made by god and that drugs are the gateway to heaven without actually dying. He’s past his party years and can’t hold a job and lost his marriage due to the drugs. All he does anymore is live in his old families house and smokes vapes and weed pens and talk about his twisted religious views. When he’s not doing that, his brother is supplying him with LSD, Shrooms, or some random pill that I’m sure is worse than the above. He deadass can’t go more than an hour without some mind altering substance in his lungs.
We were driving to McDonalds in my newly bought car when I caught him sneaking a smoke cause the McDonalds was 15 minutes away. I lost it, and yelled at him, telling him his addiction is ruining his life and he needs to sober up. I don’t come across as very intimidating so he laughed it off but then I could tell he had a bit of realization right after. Unfortunately, it didn’t seem to be enough, as he still smokes like crazy and refuses to believe logic that smoking IS bad for you! I don’t know what to do anymore except just stop talking to him.
Sorry if my comment came across as a rant, but it’s super refreshing to see someone get out of that life. I hope my friend has the same ending as you and becomes a cool person. 🙂
where exactly were you shipping the drugs from? (for a friend, to tell him to stay away ofc)
Could you elaborate about that ‘something turning on in your mind’ When you first experienced psychosis?
I made another video on it called “what drug induced psychosis feels like”
incredible story, thanks for telling. crazy that an addict would travel to medellin lol
easiest way to quit drugs is moving to dubai. you cant find drugs there. this is the biggest issues, drugs are too easy to get.
just crusing by... from the other side of the world... drugs can not ruin your life. maybe you can think that. but in the end it was you. but... i do not think that your life is ruined... kinda sad you would think that. you look young and pretty healthy and you want to change. thats a ggod starting point. wish you all the best :)
Drugs can and Have ruined many peoples lives.
Take a drive down skid row kid, lol 💉 ⛺️
do u have any family history of psychosis/schizophrenia just curious, thank you for sharing your story bless your life its not over yet brother.
@@MILLIONDOLLARPOVERTY I have no history of psychosis/schizophrenia in my family which is the disturbing thing. On my mom’s side there was a little alcoholism, but my mom wasn’t herself. It was weed that pushed me over the edge more than anything believe or not. I never imagined it would happen, but since then I have had psychotic reactions to all kinds of drugs.
@@catvlyst wow this really is making me rethink my weed habit. i have a similar family situation. i know how hard it is to quit. i feel like i become an angry, asshole version of myself when i try to stop, or i just replace it with drinking.
I thought you were Chris Hardwick.
you're like my older brother he started at 12 years old and now he thinks he's a god but no one likes him - it's called psychosis , suffers from major delusion.. at least you admit it, my brother who's almost 60 will never see himself he is gone , and the worst part, his psychosis is extremely evil.
It is disturbing how strongly psychosis can make you believe in your delusions. You genuinely think things that aren’t true or real at all and some people never come out of it unfortunately
the best drug is a good game like online 1on1 or chess or whattever.
everyday there is getting better and progres and good energy
Your life isn't ruined, it's just a little derailed you can get back on track, you're not even 30 still very young.
i smoked weed once had a bad experience, would you recommend to try again and try LSD?
DO NOT TRY LSD
@@lukepriestley4208 why?
i enjoy lsd but setting is key
@@gaara2447do your research and make your choices, don't ask random strangers over the internet for opinions lol
how is 2CB? its one of the drugs im curious about
2-CB effects manifest as a mescaline/MDMA blend;safety profile is @ MDMA,less safe than mescaline;my biggest concern would be formulaic integrity,i.e. getting 2-cb & NOT getting 2-cb fly,or Bromo-Dragonfly 😢 especially!! All drugs mentioned are phenethylamines,the latter 3 of the 2-c family. 2-cb fly is more potent,longer lasting,with a heavier body load than 2-cb ,albeit,similarly psychedelic. Tripper to tripper,MDA is hard to beat as an oxytocic,psychedelic,stimulant ❤;Feeling like a dreamy,mescaline,OxyContin,cocaine milkshake!❤😊 Have fun,be safe😊😊 almost forgot;AVOID Bromo-Dragonfly!!!
My life was already ruined then drugs made them better and then it just stopped making it good, then i had to stop
The problem is that as you get older, the short term effects become less and less and the long term consequences more apparent. In high school I could have a binge and recover fast. Now at almost thirty, recovery time can take weeks from one night of use.
bro on all these drugs and still has perfect hair and good skin
It's about the damage on neurotransmitters in the brain
I resonate so much with this story. I'm about the same age as you are and have spent about the last 4 years living in Medellin, Colombia. My first years here I fell heavily into opioids, ketamine, cocaine, benzos, and alcohol. At this point I'm done with all of that because it's just not worth it. Never been to the psych ward, but have had plenty of health scares as a result of that drug use. Like you said, fun when you're younger and then it quickly turns into a monkey on your back.
My friend owed money for drugs & gangstas went to his house & bashed him when he was naked in the shower.
what do you mean they bashed him?
i’m 20 and my life is going down the drain, i know i’ll end up dying soon.
First step is to recognise that. Next is to take responsibility and act accordingly. Don't waste the precious gift of being human. We've evolved millions of years from an amoeba to get to this point ...
You’re still very young, plenty of time to turn it around man. I’m almost 30 now and wasted a lot of years, don’t repeat my mistake
loading up a fat bowl on my way to psychosis city lmaooo 😂
can relate soldier
thanks for sharing
Keep the faith
Great video.
I am a drug dealer primarily cocaine and crack cocaine, I have seen many people like you come and go over the years.
Nothing to be proud of
I’m no scientist but I can contest to the fact that marijuana will not cause psychosis and could only make you symptomatic if you have a genetic predisposition. Loved the video though! Good luck man.
@@joeygarton7758 since I have no family history of psychosis, it is really strange to me that it happened. I certainly believe it would not have emerged if I didn’t use marijuana daily for over a year. Maybe the predisposition was there, but it likely never would have surfaced without the drug use.
@@catvlystproly was a panic attack
this is what happens when you are raised in a very strict or traumatic household, or your autistic and have sensory seeking tendencies.. weed def wont make you curious about other drugs, its your brain escaping trauma and thrill... but you def dont get psychosis from cannabis.. you just dont.. anxiety is induced by certain terps/cannabanoids.. if you arent good at handling anxiety try a different terp profile. i got addicted to opiates without cannabis.. 3x rehab drop out before i got clean, now im 10 years removed from any type of opiate/chemical.
weed definitely doesnt make me want to use opiates, or anything else. and the "psychosis" from shrooms? lmao thats called a trip.. if its not for you its not for you
I didn't think that psychosis could be caused by cannabis alone either, but I've been seeing a lot of similar stories lately. People without a history of psychotic disorders losing it from a certain strain or whatever. It's difficult to say for sure really. I have been diagnosed with Asperger's and have trauma from being sent away in high school, so that makes sense for sure.
@@catvlystyes, it's possible to get psychosis from weed.
Drugs are bad…Mmkay
Hahaha 😂😂
You’re using the blank term “drug” in the same way it’s been done for years. I feel for your pain and I particularly understand your weed story… but ending up consuming a stimulant and a depressant at the same time…? That’s brutal. You’re lumping very different substances into the same group.
And as always with this mentality, plenty of other harmful drugs like alcohol are often left unmentioned here.
I wish you the best. You may have a particular predisposition towards psychosis.
yea but that is a perspective in a moment in your entire life.
Should have stuck to skating.
Reefer is no good
Take care of yourself.
blame urself not the drug.
It’s meant to point out, when you’re young and think you’re invincible, it can escalate to a bad place very quickly, and when you are chemically altered and don’t fully understand what you’re doing, it’s even worse
The drugs didn't ruin your life, you did.
If your 2nd amendment rights are intact. It's not ruined.
Nah bro drugs safed my Life
yeah your spelling shows
Drugs made my life great. 😊
How I ruined my own life with drugs is better.
surprise surprise drugs ruin your life, crazy how that works.
We're living in a simulation
Maybe you ruined your life. Now it’s time to take responsibility!
Glory to America 🤠🤠🤠By the way brother, is there any chance I could get contacts where to get good coke in Columbia? (I want that pure which cause heart attack, no joke)?
You don't look ruined bro, teeth and hair are all present, wtf are you complaining about
I’m talking about how drugs messed up my neurotransmitters.
You were greedy with your use. Addictive personality and drugs are bad combo
Thats an argument, but also depends on a persons living situation and depression. I've been addicted to substances for quite a long time but it was the addictive mentallity taking over.
Doing better for a long time but i can not work enough on myself.
Your sync to sound and words is way off
i hope you find god
LAME!
Is this guy serious?😅 this must be one of new age comedians😂
Haha funny video
Thanks for watching, not sure how funny it is but all can have their opinion
@@catvlyst Doing LSD in college mustve been cool tho bro , did u do alot of chicks?
@@catvlyst YO u bang alot of chicks in collkege bro>
Bruh
Did you disassociate as a child? i did. whenever i was with the family who were abusive i would disassociate and be there i body only, my mind in whatever starwars or LOTR other world i could escape to inside .... so when i started drinking every day at age 14 it was also to disassociate ,i simply wanted to check into a different reality . This is why i ask if you disassociated as a child. When i drank every day from 14-18 and would make up in my own vomit every saturday and sunday morning my parents knew what was going on and they never said to me "do you have a problem?" ,...... narcissistic parents are the cause of most drug use. what i have noticed over 50 years is that people that didn't have narcisstic parents generally don't use drugs
My first dissociative episode was at 19. That was when my brain had finally had enough of the drugs and pent up trauma. Being sent to a wilderness program at 16 kind of set it off I think. I dealt a lot with anxiety in high school, but more complicated mental problems surfaced around 19 after I'd dealt with the wilderness camp and started using drugs
@@catvlyst pent up trauma caused it all for me, as a child i was totally shut down by narcissitic parents, the mother was the tyrant, so any dissent was shut down, i developed tourettes , it comes from not being allowed to have any say, .... anxiety same way at school, that was why i drank every day from 14-18, then pot every day ..... Stefan Molyneux had so much good info about finding oneself after narcissistic family abuse , but they cancelled him off youtube so he is on Rumble now
@@catvlyst worst drug i ever took was Lorazapam AKA Ativan , evil stuff, i only took a half dose twice and it made me full on self-delete mode, googling methods and locations and times of trains .... that was the stuff Chris Cornell was on when he died and used to doubt he would have done it but after that experience the tiniest amount of Ativan did that to me and in 50 years i had NEVER considered self-deletion . never ever go near Ativan
Drugs and blonde 🧁 my downfall continues to this day 😢
why tf would you buy heroin ketamine and shit like that weed liquor acid shrooms should be enough for most
It's funny you act as if acid was better than ketamine
drugs did not ruin your life, you did.
Yes, although the drugs made me behave in ways I would not normally
Wtf kind of reaction is this? He’s just telling his story. He’s not the first person in human history to experience significant consequences from hard drug use.
His original choice to try them, sure. But we are all humans. We make mistakes. And he’s sharing a story about how drugs directly and indirectly changed his life for the worse, in the hopes that it prevents others from making the same poor choice.
Stay away from opioids/opiates.
That's ridiculous, better to just not speak on things you know nothing about.