I feel this mans pain!!My mom died during covid of a heart attack. She had 0 health issues as well.Never even smoked or drank. It's hard losing loved ones.
Thanks man, thats my whole intention. All I want is to help just one person gain some hope and drive to kick this drug and all drugs if they want to. Peace and love my friend
@@tytythefly I have been on subs for 13 years and for many years used them as a bridge for when I didn't have any dope. I am down to .5mg once a day from 24mg a day at my highest dose. Thanks again. Your vids are very relatable.
I lost my brother to issues related to his opiate addiction just before Christmas 2020. Your ability to reflect on what that is like for the family is so accurate. The questions it leaves us with can be crippling. The what if’s are never ending because it’s just so senseless, and you are left trying to piece together how you could have saved them. I came across your videos because I am currently wanting to undergo the process of quitting Suboxone. I am so grateful that I had it as a resource in my recovery but it’s become an issue that causes more negatives than positives in my life and I know I don’t need it anymore and haven’t for a long time. I am so ready to move on. You are a great inspiration!
This means a lot! Thank you! I couldn’t imagine putting my family through my death. I was at the same place you are… subs just weren’t doing it for me anymore. The whole ordeal I was so sick of, the doctor, the always thinking about it come dose time, the constant need to have it to make myself feel ‘normal’, the numbness of all my emotions, less drive in life over all, just everything! It was a burden. I know you can do it. Don’t be afraid to check into a detox/rehab if your financials allow it. It’s not a sign of weakness to do that. Those two things Made it possible for me to quit, gave me about 45 days of ‘checking out’ from the world. No responsibility, no chores, no tasks to do, all I had to do was goto those damn groups, learn about sobriety and ride out the feeling of discomfort, surrounded by others who we’re struggling. That was a huge help. Here I am 6 months later and I’ve already started a business of my own and enjoying life more than I ever have. It’s a blessing, it’s a fucking miracle! I was the worst of addicits, I couldn’t go a day without altering my mind. I pray for you Persephone! All my best and if you need help reach out
@@tytythefly Thankyou, I feel you on all of that! Especially the emotional numbness. I still have not processed losing my brother. Him and I began using together in our early 20’s and I got on subs and was able to stay sober and start a family and he continued down the path of active addiction and it took his life. Not being able to sit and feel that loss has been the worst experience. The subs just don’t allow me to feel it, they block all of it and I need to feel that grief. I hate being numb to it along with everything else. I also used to be really creative and artistic and I have lost all of my motivation for that and the other things that used to make me intensely happy. I just can’t stand the dullness anymore and my two small children are starting to notice when I have to dose and I can’t talk for 20 minutes every morning, and I hate that. I am going to take my time, I know it will probably be at least a year of tapering but I am okay with that as long as I am making progress. It’s going to be hard to jump off being a mom and having responsibilities but my husband will help as much as he can and I think my kids are the ultimate motivators. Plus, they can help keep me busy. I’m really enjoying your content and I look forward to more videos from you. I am happy your mom is okay, what a warrior! And what a testimony to your sobriety that you were able to sit in that fear and discomfort and not fall off track. That’s amazing.
Its encouraging to see you doing so well. It gives us hope and something to strive for. There's nothing in life like our mothers. I'm saddened to hear about your mom. You're staying clean at this time is a testament to your determination and conviction. Great to see you again. ✌
I’m doing well, but I’m no perfect or near it. I guess you can say I’m living life with a purpose now. Which is a great feeling, know I’m positively contributing to my community and being of service. It’s great
My mom was my best friend, no underlying conditions, and then out of nowhere she died from Covid a couple years ago. I was super close with her. That was what got me to figure out a way out of Suboxone/Gabapentin. I could have only wished I’d been sober when it happened. But that’s exactly what changed me spiritually and got me to fix my life. I’m 29, I didn’t have much time with her, but she was my everything, so I absolutely no how you feel. I hate that this happened to you man, I know how hard this is, it’s the worst thing I ever went through. I know it’s been a year since this happened, but I know it never really gets easier, just easier to stomach as you go. I hope you’re doing alright these days, though, I feel for you.
@@tytythefly Thank god for that. Your channel is awesome I love the stories. And never forget you're helping a lot of people whether you know it or not
Thank you Andrew! She’s in rehab and is getting so much better every day! She’s a miracle and is going to survive this nightmare. God is good. I struggle with God, but after this experience and the amount of pea you by my family, friends, strangers, and myself… I’ve come to believe in God again. Not trying to get all holy on you, but this was a straight miracle.
Praise God that your mom didn’t pass! You’re a true miracle, ty for the encouragement! I’m 3 weeks off a Suboxone 6mg cold turkey. Tapering has lingering issues too and I was just sick and tired of bondage! Its hellish but I’m not giving up!
It's insane to think you were down to 2mgs and STILL had horrible withdrawal. I've been on Suboxone 14 years. Currently on 12mgs. 41 years old and feeling pretty hopeless. After watching you my plan Is to get down to a low enough dose and then hit up detox and treatment.
fw ur vids dude watched a few really helped for right now on subs feeling hopeless I'm 21 n see no way out I gotta see u stay sober or Ima feel mad hopeless fr please don't go back
Thanks a lot for the update the depression is a bitch it will slowly get better over time you just haft to give your mind time to get back to the new normal don’t give up your doing great man
We definitely got something from the video brother .... from Macon georgia....had 30 milligram oxy pill mill doctors all over the place .....escaped to alabama and relapsed now I'm on bupenephrine and tapering off but I just can't get off yet I have an wife and kid who depend on me so I have to go to work an no way I'm doing outside work while going through that shight urmmmhrmmm .....
Keep up the good work fam! Keep making these videos. You’re helping so many people and it may not feel like it but you’re making a huge difference. I’m pissed to hear what happened with your mother. Sounds like it could’ve been prevented.
It's encouraging to see you go above 160 days and still staying off that shit while loosing your mom. Not easy but good job pushing through it. I'm 95 days off the subs myself. Been an opiod addict for 12 years. 4 years on oxys, 4 years on methadone then switch to suboxone for 4 years. I didn't sleep for shit my first 40 days but started to get better after that. You're right if you made it this far it would be totally selfish to use. Besides life a lot easier without it anyways, even facing life on life's terms. Anyways hope you upload another video soon on your update
Jeeze man. This one got me... ow.. your story is so close to mine, it's weird. I dont know what I'd do if I lost my mom where I'm at in life. I would be destroyed.
Ah man, I think I'm still dealing with the depression, but therapy, staying active (gym, walking, getting outside), surrounding myself with positive people, doing things I enjoy, and stuff like making these videos and helping others boosts my mood and makes me kind of get out of myself. The energy level increase started to go up around day 60 when I could finally get a decent night sleep. Going to the gym REALLY helped my energy come back quicker. I still don't think I'm 100% though. There's still a lingering 'un-motivated' type feeling on some days. Some days I just am exhausted, some days I have really good energy. After 6 years of subs they fucked my brain and body up pretty bad. I would highly suggest getting blood work done and checking your testosterone levels. Subs WRECK your test levels. When testosterone is low in males it causes depression, anxiety, and low energy levels. Once I got on TRT my energy levels and depression improved tremendously. Get blood work, go to an endocrinologist or TRT clinic and get on Testosterone so you can feel like a man again. If you don't do that, it will probably take a good 6 months to a year before youre back to a baseline testosterone level. Let me know if you need help with this. All the best bro
@@tytythefly thanks man. I was on it for 8 years. I’m going to the gym daily, drinking water and taking hella supplements. I have an appointment with a new doctor this week to get some testing done and get some testosterone. Thank you for the advice. Some light at the end of the tunnel.
Sorry to hear the news. I've only watched a few of your videos. I've always crashed in the past after deaths but I'm nearly of bupe down to half mg. I'm so over the drug scene and feeling weak mentally. I want to feel the pain and anger I'm over feeling numb and disconnected. Anyways thanks for your videos and my condolences to your mother. I can see your a strong person and these scars are hard fought. Proud of you brother
Tyler , sorry to hear of this rough patch. I couldn’t imagine. Thanks for all your videos. I’m on day 5 of this sub WD. Shit sucks , man. Been on it for 10 years. If u ever feel up to it. Like to talk to you. I’m from Fort Lauderdale , Davie, Hollywood area. Now living in central fla. . Never fails every time I’ve been on sub WD, 6-7 days feeling like shit for acute, and watching RUclips videos. Ok bro, keep on fighting the good fight. Thx again
Damn man, sorry about your mom :(. My mom passed way 2 weeks after I quit using stims. Do happy I was able to quit before she died. I'm going back and forward with pills and Suboxone for the past year, I cant wait until all my surgeries are done and I can quit again. Glad your keeping sober and keeping active/working out 😃
You should sue man, that's not right that they didn't notice or treat her for her issues. Really sorry you lost her :( Stay strong n sober man. I lost my mom to a very similar situation.
I am so so sorry to hear about your mom Tyler, almost the same incident happened to my mother-in-law two years ago, she went in for a small “day surgery and we all get the call to come in because she wasn’t going to make it. needless to say, we were completely shattered . But I would like to try to remind you, give yourself a little credit, you wanted to be off that stuff because you chose to be off of it, try to keep that at the front of your mind. and believe in your higher power, because I believe it made it possible for you to be there for your mother clean and sober when she passed. I’m so so sorry, but I can tell you she is more than happy that you were the way you were when she passed🥲 you and Brendan Novak are the ones that are helping me right now. I’ve been doing my taper for 2 1/2 weeks now and I’ve come down 8 mg.I know that this is the easy part of my taper, I’m gonna start going a little slower but I got more out of one of your videos about your a experience than I get from any doctor.I’d like to think you’ve given a lot more people Hope than you realize. You certainly give me hope bro.🥲❤️💪🏻🙏TY
I feel this mans pain!!My mom died during covid of a heart attack. She had 0 health issues as well.Never even smoked or drank. It's hard losing loved ones.
I'm so sorry. Wish I could give you a hug
I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm very close to my Mother as well. Thanks for all you do and well done on getting clean.
I’m very very sorry to hear about your Mom. I recently lost my Mom too. I can relate. I didn’t use either. It’s so hard.♥️
Be strong,u give me hope.
Tyler, I'm so proud of you bro. Your videos will help many people. You are blessed.
Thanks man, thats my whole intention. All I want is to help just one person gain some hope and drive to kick this drug and all drugs if they want to. Peace and love my friend
@@tytythefly I have been on subs for 13 years and for many years used them as a bridge for when I didn't have any dope. I am down to .5mg once a day from 24mg a day at my highest dose. Thanks again. Your vids are very relatable.
I lost my brother to issues related to his opiate addiction just before Christmas 2020. Your ability to reflect on what that is like for the family is so accurate. The questions it leaves us with can be crippling. The what if’s are never ending because it’s just so senseless, and you are left trying to piece together how you could have saved them. I came across your videos because I am currently wanting to undergo the process of quitting Suboxone. I am so grateful that I had it as a resource in my recovery but it’s become an issue that causes more negatives than positives in my life and I know I don’t need it anymore and haven’t for a long time. I am so ready to move on. You are a great inspiration!
This means a lot! Thank you! I couldn’t imagine putting my family through my death. I was at the same place you are… subs just weren’t doing it for me anymore. The whole ordeal I was so sick of, the doctor, the always thinking about it come dose time, the constant need to have it to make myself feel ‘normal’, the numbness of all my emotions, less drive in life over all, just everything! It was a burden. I know you can do it. Don’t be afraid to check into a detox/rehab if your financials allow it. It’s not a sign of weakness to do that. Those two things Made it possible for me to quit, gave me about 45 days of ‘checking out’ from the world. No responsibility, no chores, no tasks to do, all I had to do was goto those damn groups, learn about sobriety and ride out the feeling of discomfort, surrounded by others who we’re struggling. That was a huge help. Here I am 6 months later and I’ve already started a business of my own and enjoying life more than I ever have. It’s a blessing, it’s a fucking miracle! I was the worst of addicits, I couldn’t go a day without altering my mind. I pray for you Persephone! All my best and if you need help reach out
@@tytythefly
Thankyou, I feel you on all of that!
Especially the emotional numbness. I still have not processed losing my brother. Him and I began using together in our early 20’s and I got on subs and was able to stay sober and start a family and he continued down the path of active addiction and it took his life. Not being able to sit and feel that loss has been the worst experience. The subs just don’t allow me to feel it, they block all of it and I need to feel that grief. I hate being numb to it along with everything else. I also used to be really creative and artistic and I have lost all of my motivation for that and the other things that used to make me intensely happy. I just can’t stand the dullness anymore and my two small children are starting to notice when I have to dose and I can’t talk for 20 minutes every morning, and I hate that.
I am going to take my time, I know it will probably be at least a year of tapering but I am okay with that as long as I am making progress. It’s going to be hard to jump off being a mom and having responsibilities but my husband will help as much as he can and I think my kids are the ultimate motivators. Plus, they can help keep me busy.
I’m really enjoying your content and I look forward to more videos from you. I am happy your mom is okay, what a warrior! And what a testimony to your sobriety that you were able to sit in that fear and discomfort and not fall off track. That’s amazing.
Momma here to stay, more to accomplish and more time with my babies.
I LOVE YOU! BLESSED!
You're a beautiful person..stay strong!
looks like youre driving thru boynton or lantana. been 4 years since i moved back to Minnesota from soflo. Hella relatable vid man.
Its encouraging to see you doing so well. It gives us hope and something to strive for. There's nothing in life like our mothers. I'm saddened to hear about your mom. You're staying clean at this time is a testament to your determination and conviction. Great to see you again. ✌
She's recovering, she's a miracle. Still in ICU, but she's fighting for her life!
I’m doing well, but I’m no perfect or near it. I guess you can say I’m living life with a purpose now. Which is a great feeling, know I’m positively contributing to my community and being of service. It’s great
My mom was my best friend, no underlying conditions, and then out of nowhere she died from Covid a couple years ago. I was super close with her. That was what got me to figure out a way out of Suboxone/Gabapentin. I could have only wished I’d been sober when it happened. But that’s exactly what changed me spiritually and got me to fix my life. I’m 29, I didn’t have much time with her, but she was my everything, so I absolutely no how you feel.
I hate that this happened to you man, I know how hard this is, it’s the worst thing I ever went through. I know it’s been a year since this happened, but I know it never really gets easier, just easier to stomach as you go. I hope you’re doing alright these days, though, I feel for you.
we only have 1 life so make the best of it. so sorry about your mom
She’s recovering! She’s amazing, it’s a battle but she is winning! Her health is starting to turn for the better. So grateful for her
@@tytythefly Thank god for that. Your channel is awesome I love the stories. And never forget you're helping a lot of people whether you know it or not
Tyler, I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. You and your family are in my prayers, God bless you.
Thank you Andrew! She’s in rehab and is getting so much better every day! She’s a miracle and is going to survive this nightmare. God is good. I struggle with God, but after this experience and the amount of pea you by my family, friends, strangers, and myself… I’ve come to believe in God again. Not trying to get all holy on you, but this was a straight miracle.
Praise God that your mom didn’t pass! You’re a true miracle, ty for the encouragement! I’m 3 weeks off a Suboxone 6mg cold turkey. Tapering has lingering issues too and I was just sick and tired of bondage! Its hellish but I’m not giving up!
How are you doing now? I'm 3 days off. I feel horrible but am trying to stay motivated!! Hope you are feeling good!
Proud of you brother . Thanks for the inspiration
It's insane to think you were down to 2mgs and STILL had horrible withdrawal. I've been on Suboxone 14 years. Currently on 12mgs. 41 years old and feeling pretty hopeless. After watching you my plan Is to get down to a low enough dose and then hit up detox and treatment.
fw ur vids dude watched a few really helped for right now on subs feeling hopeless I'm 21 n see no way out I gotta see u stay sober or Ima feel mad hopeless fr please don't go back
Happy your mom is going to recover! Good job with you!!
Thank you Sherri, shes a miracle! I'm still in disbelief! God is real and God is good
Thanks a lot for the update the depression is a bitch it will slowly get better over time you just haft to give your mind time to get back to the new normal don’t give up your doing great man
Thanks for the words Jacob, I'm persevering!
We definitely got something from the video brother .... from Macon georgia....had 30 milligram oxy pill mill doctors all over the place .....escaped to alabama and relapsed now I'm on bupenephrine and tapering off but I just can't get off yet I have an wife and kid who depend on me so I have to go to work an no way I'm doing outside work while going through that shight urmmmhrmmm .....
Keep up the good work fam! Keep making these videos. You’re helping so many people and it may not feel like it but you’re making a huge difference. I’m pissed to hear what happened with your mother. Sounds like it could’ve been prevented.
It's encouraging to see you go above 160 days and still staying off that shit while loosing your mom. Not easy but good job pushing through it. I'm 95 days off the subs myself. Been an opiod addict for 12 years. 4 years on oxys, 4 years on methadone then switch to suboxone for 4 years. I didn't sleep for shit my first 40 days but started to get better after that. You're right if you made it this far it would be totally selfish to use. Besides life a lot easier without it anyways, even facing life on life's terms. Anyways hope you upload another video soon on your update
You are awesome dude 🙏👍
Jeeze man. This one got me... ow.. your story is so close to mine, it's weird. I dont know what I'd do if I lost my mom where I'm at in life. I would be destroyed.
We all in this together my man.
Hey man, how you been doing? Anyway to keep in touch?
I have 25 days off sub. How long until the depression and energy levels got better for you?
Ah man, I think I'm still dealing with the depression, but therapy, staying active (gym, walking, getting outside), surrounding myself with positive people, doing things I enjoy, and stuff like making these videos and helping others boosts my mood and makes me kind of get out of myself. The energy level increase started to go up around day 60 when I could finally get a decent night sleep. Going to the gym REALLY helped my energy come back quicker. I still don't think I'm 100% though. There's still a lingering 'un-motivated' type feeling on some days. Some days I just am exhausted, some days I have really good energy. After 6 years of subs they fucked my brain and body up pretty bad. I would highly suggest getting blood work done and checking your testosterone levels. Subs WRECK your test levels. When testosterone is low in males it causes depression, anxiety, and low energy levels. Once I got on TRT my energy levels and depression improved tremendously. Get blood work, go to an endocrinologist or TRT clinic and get on Testosterone so you can feel like a man again. If you don't do that, it will probably take a good 6 months to a year before youre back to a baseline testosterone level. Let me know if you need help with this. All the best bro
@@tytythefly thanks man. I was on it for 8 years. I’m going to the gym daily, drinking water and taking hella supplements. I have an appointment with a new doctor this week to get some testing done and get some testosterone. Thank you for the advice. Some light at the end of the tunnel.
@@JoeBlow-cn8iz it gets better brother, I promise. Do this for you, chase excellence
Sorry to hear the news. I've only watched a few of your videos. I've always crashed in the past after deaths but I'm nearly of bupe down to half mg. I'm so over the drug scene and feeling weak mentally. I want to feel the pain and anger I'm over feeling numb and disconnected. Anyways thanks for your videos and my condolences to your mother. I can see your a strong person and these scars are hard fought.
Proud of you brother
Tyler , sorry to hear of this rough patch. I couldn’t imagine. Thanks for all your videos. I’m on day 5 of this sub WD. Shit sucks , man. Been on it for 10 years. If u ever feel up to it. Like to talk to you. I’m from Fort Lauderdale , Davie, Hollywood area. Now living in central fla. . Never fails every time I’ve been on sub WD, 6-7 days feeling like shit for acute, and watching RUclips videos. Ok bro, keep on fighting the good fight. Thx again
Damn man, sorry about your mom :(.
My mom passed way 2 weeks after I quit using stims. Do happy I was able to quit before she died.
I'm going back and forward with pills and Suboxone for the past year, I cant wait until all my surgeries are done and I can quit again.
Glad your keeping sober and keeping active/working out 😃
I had to rewatch the video... so your mum is going to pull through??
She's recovering! Miracles happen
You should sue man, that's not right that they didn't notice or treat her for her issues.
Really sorry you lost her :(
Stay strong n sober man. I lost my mom to a very similar situation.
How u doing man ?
I am so so sorry to hear about your mom Tyler, almost the same incident happened to my mother-in-law two years ago, she went in for a small “day surgery and we all get the call to come in because she wasn’t going to make it. needless to say, we were completely shattered . But I would like to try to remind you, give yourself a little credit, you wanted to be off that stuff because you chose to be off of it, try to keep that at the front of your mind. and believe in your higher power, because I believe it made it possible for you to be there for your mother clean and sober when she passed. I’m so so sorry, but I can tell you she is more than happy that you were the way you were when she passed🥲 you and Brendan Novak are the ones that are helping me right now. I’ve been doing my taper for 2 1/2 weeks now and I’ve come down 8 mg.I know that this is the easy part of my taper, I’m gonna start going a little slower but I got more out of one of your videos about your a experience than I get from any doctor.I’d like to think you’ve given a lot more people Hope than you realize. You certainly give me hope bro.🥲❤️💪🏻🙏TY