fun fact this song has a happy ending because i started writing the song when i was in a really bad place (circa 2021), recovered mostly, but then i got an s/o when i needed to write the last chorus’s lyrics and i forgot how experience/invoke sadness lmaooo thanks ya galbi!! seriously though, it gets better. it might be an awesome medication that takes half of your symptoms away, it might be an amazing person who makes you feel loved and complete and fulfilled, etc. ❤❤❤ keep going. i believe in you :)
Dude. I am literally in that same situation, I recently got an s/o who’s invokes SO much happiness it’s been hard to write angst. I’m so happy for you, they sound great! :D
“It may take a medication that takes half your memory.” As someone who has epilepsy and takes medication that makes me really calm. I can relate in a sense.
I'm normally the type of person who never feels like the "it gets better" sentiments apply to me, like I'll absolutely say it to others an mean it, but feel like it's hollow words when it's towards myself. But by the time I got to your "keep going. It gets better", I legit had tears welling up in my eyes. Maybe it's because I look up to you, or because you've also been through so much, but... thank you. I appreciate you, your sentiment of it getting better, and all that you do. I hope you only have happy days ahead of you.
“not a robot or a doll, i’m not anything at all, i’m just an entity, finding out the way to go” as someone with identity issues, seeing themselves as sort of just… a thing that exists without any real reason, this hits hard. reading the rest of the comments, i hope someday we can all be like the last chorus
also, “freedom dripping from the sink” is such a good line in context. the freedom is coming in small drops, but since she’s on fire, she needs all of it at once to escape. god i love rip songs they make my organs wanna rearrange /pos
@@malthemalevolentonethank you for explaining that “freedom dripping from the sink” line, it sounded meaningful to me but i had no idea what it actually meant- /gen
I dunno if it was intentional but i really like the fact her silhouette is textured with crumpled blank paper that has been straightened again. Very fitting for a person who was traumatized and has a lack of identity trying to recover :D👍
Today I was in a clinic and they were giving me 16 injections in each hand which hurt a lot but I felt much better because they let me listen to your music, RIP, so your music helped me deal with the pain. The injections were to reduce my hyperhidrosis by the way.
Holy frick I feel you,, im scared to do this treatment myself because ive heard around doctors that its not permanent and a year or so later youll have to repeat:-((( aghh goodluck tho hopefully it helps
My sister says she believes that this song is about someone who went through something bad or traumatic, and is now recovering. I really like that. It’s a message that healing takes time, even when it seems hopeless, you _can_ get better.
my bones have been rearranged in such a way that i can be accurately compared to a human jigsaw puzzle thank you riproducer for yet another skin shifting concoction of sound to listen to on loop for a minimum of 5 days every other week
This made me think of a child who was always made to be what other people wanted them to be but never got the opportunity to explore their own identity up until adulthood or until they got the courage to advocate for themself and express how much they wanted to be able to be their own person rather just then a combination of other people's expectations for them. The lyrics that say things like "Am I big or am I small? Am I anything at all?" plus the overall child-like appearance of the drawn character all makes me think of a child who needs their parents approval and therefore just lets their parents decide who they are/should be/have to be as a person rather then letting them be their own person. The end of the song seems to signify the child finally standing up for themself and finding out who they really are and realizing that they don't need to make their parents proud to be someone.
Me too, RIP. Me too. I'm still stuck at the beginning of the song, and working past that takes so much effort and is so exhausting. If you - the person reading this - is there as well, keep at it. You'd need a lot of help, but you can do it. There's no harm in accepting any, and anyone who tells you they made it purely by themself is a liar. If you're at the end of the song, great work. I'm proud of you for getting that far, and I hope you stay there.
I'm at the end of the song! It's hard, it hurts, but you are strong and you can make it through the storm. Keep going. No matter how small the steps, keep taking them. One day you'll see clear skies.
I'm cheering for you!! Not sure this will help, but if you can find people who support you on RUclips comments, there will be a lot of people believing in you that you actually know irl, so keep going, you can do it! Hope this makes you and everyone else on the same "journey" feel better somehow
Honestly I have had to go through trauma by myself due to The Bad Virus (trademark lmao) and lack of self esteem issues afterwards which led to me being physically unable to speak to anyone about it, but I have recovered now and have found those people who understand me. I hope that you recover as well!! 🤍
Why are people mad about Kasane Teto's race here when she is an instrument that can be interpreted as any race? (I am assuming all vocaloids and utaluloids and any other loids go by the same rules as Hatsune Miku.)
Skin pigment is arbitrary to begin with. Pixels, even more so. This shade of brown? It tells a story, and it hits less-secure people somewhere they live, but try to avoid.
@@E4439Qv5 true the vocaloids and utaus are raceless ageless sexless instruments and I'm glad they exist so everyone can have their hcs and projections freely which means none of the characters are Japanese unless we HC it (unless it's racist or n@zi or toxic Jehovah's Witness crap since that's bad)
Am I the only one who’s noticed that this is essentially the polar opposite of Corrosion? Like both involve the singer going through something terrible, yet they cope completely opposite to each other. The singer in Corrosion becomes twisted and cruel, taking their pain out on others, but Teto focuses more on trying to navigate herself, and she’s slowly letting herself heal from what happened to her. It’s just so poetic that RIP’s first and latest song parallel each other so much.
As someone with BPD this song hits hard. Sometimes I feel like im always stuck in that first half of the song-to those struggling right now, it gets better, even with the ups and downs of life. 💜
Man as someone from an abusive family, this... Really captures how you feel when no one will listen. You scream your throat raw proverbially, but people just dismiss you. You're a rowdy kid, you don't know what you're talking about, they just want the best for you. You absolutely feel like someone trapped in a burning house, chained to the wall while salvation drips just out of reach and no one will come. But you also heal, eventually. You get out, somehow. You make friends, connections, and rebuild yourself from the wreckage that is you, and someone might even find your scars beautiful and a testament to the life you lived and survived. My husband was also from an abusive family, and together... Together we're managing to heal just a little.
@@E4439Qv5 Two months late, but I'm glad it meant so much. I've been going through a rough patch, so rereading this and seeing it touched people... Helped.
Two things: I like how their art style changes a bit with every video, and yet, you can still tell it's R.I.P. Also I started crying on the first listen not even halfway through. I can already tell this song is gonna mean so much to me.
Lyrics: In the city of the dead, I lay stuck inside my bed, The house burns down around me. The language of the lost pouring from their open mouths Nobody can hear a thing. Suddenly I'm breathing in the smoke, Surrounded by the bodies. As I'm tugging on my chains, I'll be swallowed by the flames Freedom dripping from the sink. I don't need forgiveness. I just wanna talk, and for you to listen. I know I'd only raise the suspicion of my cause My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart Am I a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all? Maybe a soul like me doesn't even need to know. Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity oh so very long ago. Software update, reinstall, scary things I can't recall Making the best of it never even knowing why On my knees, I try to crawl, fire breaking in the walls Calling for somebody knowing I'll get no reply. As I woke up from the dream, I had lost all self-esteem The burning home had cowed me I thought that I was safe, now I'll never be the same Tossed aside for making a scene. Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy? Yes, it made me who I am, but I'll never understand Why it had to happen to me? Temperament or sickness? Holler all you want! No one ever listens! If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause Would you have noticed it at all? If I'm a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all? Maybe a thing like me doesn't yet deserve to know. Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity oh so very long ago. Ones and zeros, true or false, Reset system to default Faking the rest of it, but I can't remember why On my knees, I try to crawl, fire-charred collapsing walls Crying out for somebody. There is no one to reply. (Music Instrumental) Not robot, not a doll, I'm not anything at all I'm just an entity, finding out the way to go But these fingers and these palms full of love despite the scars They show indisputably I have so much more to grow Oh, I can change, I can evolve I can get up when I fall I'll live contentedly I don't need a reason why. Standing tall and standing strong, I have found where I belong In the arms of somebody There is no more need to cry.
You have no idea how surprised I was to see such an upbeat song here! It sounds to me that the singer suffered some sort of tragedy-perhaps her family died in a fire or something of the sort-which her feeling lost and not sure of who she is. Throughout the song, she seems to be coming to terms with what happened, letting her heal from what had left her hurt for so long. Once again, you’ve absolutely outdone yourself RIP! ALSO IRAQI TETO SUPREMACY
first listen - sounds like someone escaping from a traumatic situation finally getting a chance to explore their identity and figure out who they are second listen - ok same as the first listen but now I get the specific feeling that this might be somebody who developed a dissociative disorder or some other identity disturbance as a result of a traumatic life, and now that they're out they're desperately trying to figure out who they are, before realizing that the nitty gritty specifics of their identity don't matter and they can just live their life and be whoever they are, a being who is growing and changing with every moment. anyway I'm gonna be listening to this on loop for the next week thanks for the banger
I kind of got the D.I.D aspect on first listen. I figured it's that I have a character with the disorder and I put alot of time into researching to write his character so listening to this song reminded me of him. Glad to see we're on the same page somewhat
For me it isn't that deep. On my first listen it's about a robot with the memory and thoughts of a little girl who died in a house fire. So somehow she was uploaded to a robot, but with the complications of that can't remember everything, but also has a sort of developing separate identity as "the robot" (whose job is to be a copy of someone else), but ultimately understands fully that it is not really that dead girl. 😅 But like 1/3 of the wah through it sounded kind of like it was about someone who lost their identity to the entertainment industry molding her into whatever character she needed to become. Until the robot lore kicked in.
"a being who is growing and changing with every moment" your perspective on this song actually made me rethink my over obsession with the nitty gritty details of who i am- thanks for that :')
OH one more observation - i really enjoy how the cheery sound of the music and teto’s sweet little smile reads as ironic at first, but then by the last chorus it’s genuine happiness :’)
Thank you so much. As someone BPD, autistic, and ADHD besides of the usual depression anxiety thing who just messed up real bad just minutes ago, this keeps me going. I am healing, but it's okay if I hurt in the way of healing completely. Healing hugs, everyone.
theory, idk The smoke is the abuser/user/maniuplaters words telling her what she's done wring when it's the maniuplater/abusers fault The fire is them changing the girl (teto/daemon) into their own image.. like: making them do stuff they don't want to, believing false things Daemon doesn't belive she's human at all due to what she's going through!! She jhst believes she is either a robot (being used) or a doll (a ragdoll) The house is her safe place.. or what used to be.. the abuser had made jt her own hell (hence her talking abt a fire) The language of the lost are people he/she (abuser ) had maniuplated and changed, telling daemon to not trust him/her! Daemon doesn't wanna belive anymore that she's human or a robot, nor a doll ("maybe a THING like me"") In the middle of the sing when there's music you can hear what seems like screams! Maybe the abuser hurting her, or her hurting her self?? At the ending The maniuplater had had enough of people exposing him/her! After being arrested (maniuplater) for his acts and stuff he did to people! Daemon found a new family.. (or S/O idk) And she felt as she belonged.. No more worry ""There is no more need to cry"" My English isn't good I'm japanese still learning english so I'm sorry if it's bad
can we talk about "yes it made me who i am, but i'll never understand why it had to happen to me" and "i thought that i was safe, now i'll never be the same" as someone who went through lifechanging traumatic events from a young age and raised in an enviroment supposed to be a safe space but was absolutely torn apart at the seams by people who were supposed to care for me, it hits way too close too home
On my first listen it's about a robot with the memory and thoughts of a little girl who died in a house fire. So somehow she was uploaded to a robot, but with the complications of that can't remember everything, but also has a sort of developing separate identity as "the robot" (whose job is to be a copy of someone else), but ultimately understands fully that it is not really that dead girl. 😅 But like 1/3 of the wah through it sounded kind of like it was about someone who lost her identity to the entertainment industry molding her into whatever character she needed to become. Until the robot lore kicked in.
"Why it had to happen to me? Temperament or sickness? 'Holler all you want, no one ever listens'" BRO, AS SOMEONE WITH BPD ASIDE ADHD AND THE USUAL DEPRESSION/ANXIETY THING THIS IS SO FREAKING RELATABLE, I JUST KEEP COMING BACK TO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN JSJDKXKF it helps so much tho❤
People keep commenting shit along the lines of "why is she black?" LIKE WHY CANT YOU JUST PAY ATTENTION TO THE AMAZING ART STYLE!?!? And i cant even get started on the song itself! I have no words to express how much i love this song, its definitely my current favorite. Amazing job 👍
as a person with DID, i heavily relate to this song. Especially with "Not robot nor a doll, I'm not anything at all; I'm just an entity finding out the way to go." because i can never really tell if someone else if fronting, but i know in some aspect it is still me. I also know that the younger me ran out the door as soon as it was mentally open ("Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity oh so very long ago.") as i was still struggling with who i was, i believe i delved myself into schoolwork as a cause of that. The key factor i believe that really ties in the DID part really is; "Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy? Yes it made me who I am, But I'll never understand; Why it had to happen to me." because we can't understand why it was us who had to go through that, why we had to be the ones to learn that lesson when we really should have been just left alone (Especially if it was a person/type of demographic triggering the dissociation and stress) Again this is just my experience with dealing with my own trauma and DID, I can see this is as something for any Dissociative disorder that deals with the topics in the song! :D
@@genie0561 very much agreed! As a fellow system I was thinking the same thing :) hopefully this isn’t too off from what you originally wrote about (I can’t view while I’m typing and my memory isn’t the best, so I apologize) but there is a lot of accepting uncertainty in this song. It’s really comforting, in a way. And the “why did it have to happen to me” is so real as well. And as a fictive heavy system, this certainly also applies to certain alters with traumatic experiences and not really knowing where to go from that. I’m so glad I’m not alone in tying this to DID /gen
Dissociative arson!! Hell yeah let’s go 🔥🔥🔥 I feel the simple nightdress adds to the whole lost identity thing. And her eyes being closed the whole time. Nice little touches!! It’s the journey I’m going on. I have found who I love, I have started the healing path. I still don’t understand why it happened to me, but that’s okay. My palms can love as I learn to touch again.
I personally see this song as an interpretation of Teto’s “experience” as a vocal synth. She starts off in a metaphorical burning building and I think that represents low self esteem and mental health burning, especially with the direct line about self esteem. Throughout the song Teto questions her identity in a melancholy way, and I find this especially clear in the line “do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy?” Because she’s questioning if she’s meant to be a copy. I think this ties into the history of Teto since she was originally made to be a fake Vocaloid, copying to deceive people for an April fools prank. As a character this is reflected by her low self esteem, and how the fandom has deemed them as truly the wannabe Vocaloid of all time. But throughout the last chorus the tone shifts to being okay with being different from the status quo, and not knowing who or what she’s meant to be, simply staying as whatever entity they are is okay, and I think this shows her growth of being a synthv voicebank. Take this with a grain of salt, I am a massive nerd and this could easily be me pushing Vocaloid lore onto a song about self esteem and impostor syndrome, but I feel like this kind of narrative fits the history of Kasane Teto and how I see her character. Please forgive any typos I accidentally deleted this whole thing twice and I am not doing this again
OH MY GOD /pos !!!!!!! AUGHHH THIS IS!! SO COMFORTING!!! I don't wanna sound ?? venty??? but this reminds me of me when I finally left my abuser in October and Recovering💪💪 this is such a big comfort I hope you know that...God /vvpos
hey that’s kinda funny I am also here and lamenting on my past especially my abuser who I originally cut contact with in October and this song is also a huge comfort for me hope your recovery goes well 🫂
i once again, bear witness to a masterpiece. this reminds me of my childhood, getting out of my home when my dad died. he was very abusive and had me underneath his thumb so i really didn't have a personality until my teenage years. i still struggle with understanding my emotions and feeling like im worthy of being treated like a person, i absolutely love the childlike music box type melody. youve outdone yourself, this is amazing.
My pet bearded dragon passed a few hours prior to this premiere, and I just wanted to say thank you, thank you for posting this song. it made me feel a lot happier since this loss has impacted me a lot already, your music motivates me to keep going through all the hard times, so thank you so much
Its interesting how in the first part shes filled with the pink and the background is black as if the bad things are happening around her but in the second part shes the black one and the background is pink as if shes not in the (black) bad place but her trauma is still with her
this song genuinely hits hard due to my own trauma the first chorus especially, because sometimes i ask to no one in my head, "am i anything to anyone?"
I have memory issues because of a year rotten with trauma, and the first part of this song (especially the “making the best of it, never even knowing why” and “I lost my identity oh so very long ago~” parts) really speaks to me I am doing a lot better from where I was there which is good, I’m learning who this new me is, who my people are and how to get through this hurricane called life. The last verse speaks to who I am, or am becoming now.
this song is so relatable.. i feel like i just got to the second half of the song (positive part), as in i think im slowly gaining more happiness again. i guess thats a good sign, right?? anyways, this song made me smile at the end. also, a side note if anyone is reading this i guess. thanks for reading??? i think the reason i got more positive recently is probably cus i was thinking about philosophical stuff and things in my life; how bad traits arent the whole thing that makes you yourself. (aka that i finally realized i do have good traits among my bad traits)
Really enjoyed this one, love the depressing songs but this one with a happy ending spoke to me a lot, really great work and beautiful melody! OSDD system, a certain headmate of ours really loves your songs, and this one spoke to them a lot due to the message of getting better despite feeling like you’ve lost who you were. Again, really loved this one we’ve listened to it like 4 times in a row now lol!
FINALLY! I've been waiting to translate this because of how cool it sounded :D Latin▼ in urbe mortuorum. Intus infixus iaceo in lectulo meo. Circumdederunt me domus. Lingua damnatorum. Effuso ore patente. Nemo aliquid audire potest. Subito in fumo spiro. Cingitur corporibus. Ut in catenis involvo, flammis absorbebor. Libertas a labello stillans. Venia non opus est. Ego iustus volo loqui et pro te audire. Tantum scio me causae suspicionem movere. Meus ardet, palpitant ad cordis pulsum. Sumne ego... Robot an pupa? Num quidvis sum? Forsitan anima similis mei etiam scire non opus est. Sum magnus, an parvus sum? Hunni super, alta stabant? Perdidi identitatem meam. Oh, ita pridem. Software renovatio, restituo. Terreant quae meminisse nequeo. Optima facienda est. Numquam etiam cur. In genua procumbens, conor repere. Ignis in muris erumpens. Clamantem ad aliquem, sciens nihil impetraturum. Sicut expergefactus sum e somno. Ego omnem existimationem perdidi. Ardens domus me persuaserat. Salvum me esse putabam. Nunc eu ipsum nulla. Jactari pro scena. Scio qui me esse simulo? Cuius exemplum sum? Ita me fecit qui sum. At ego numquam intellexi. Quare id mihi acciderat. Animi vel morbi? Omnia vis holl! Nemo umquam audit. Utinam suspicionem causae posuissem. Visne omnino animadverti? Si sum... Robot vel pupa? Num quidvis sum? Forsitan aliquid simile mihi nondum scire mereatur. Sum magnus, an parvus sum? Hunni super, alta stabant? Perdidi identitatem meam. Oh, ita pridem. Ones et zeros. Verum an falsum est? Reset ratio ad defaltam. Reliquum est amicum. Sed cur non memini. In genua mea reptare conor. Ambustis igni- bus, ruere muris. Clamare aliquem. Nemo est qui respondeat. Non... robot neque doll. Curabitur non aliquam nulla. Non sum ens. explorato itinere. sed hi digiti, hae palmae. Plena amoris obstante cicatrices. Indubitanter ostendunt, eo magis crescere. Oh, mutare possum! evolvere possum. Non possum surgere cum ceciderit. Contente vivam. Non opus est causa quare. Statura eminens et fortis stans. Inveni ubi pertineo. In armis alicujus. Nihil amplius flere opus est.
When I was a little younger I listened to your music, I felt like the first part of this song. That was so many years ago. I am now 16 years old. I got my first job, have pretty much overcome my social anxiety, I found out I am autistic, I set boundaries now , I am no longer bitter and negative, and now I don’t dislike myself not one bit when before I couldn’t even look in the mirror. Listening to this song completely describes how much I have evolved and how I have let go of all that negativity I used to hold onto. I haven’t listened to you in so many years and this song was the perfect thing to come back to. Thank you for making the music that helped me cope when I was in such a horrible place in life, I’m so thankful and happy to be better now. I now hold infinite love in my heart and a spark of positivity and peace that will never run out. I wish everyone reading this a beautiful healing journey 🤍💿
IM GONNA CRY THIS SONG IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED!! I'm not gonna trauma dump (I do that enough as is), but after going through my childhood, I didn't even know who I was and was looking for an answer for my pain... but i don't need an answer, I just need to live despite it all. Thank you R.I.P!!!
You know its a RIP song when its got very well put, often fast, lyrics and a freaking BANGER instrumental after 2 sections and before the final one Thank u for the food fhfhhf
It's been 6 days since the song was released and I like to think that between Miss Miseryguts and this song, this is the aftermath, living in a world of self destruction only to eventually find peace in finding someone who reciprocates love. (The ribbons also tie in because both videos have heart shaped bows on teto and the character in Miss Miseryguts) And I think it's very sweet that even in pain, there's always hope. And I hope everyone can find that, whether it be with someone else, a partner, a family member, a pet, or even a small thing you cherish.
I resonate with this song so hard it brought me to tears at the end. I know that being trans isn't the point of the song but having to be one identity that wasnt truly me for so long made me feel like I wasn't even anyone. I'm finally being myself, and to hear that reflected so mirrored and clear just hit me in the heart.
I discovered this song through tiktok and I can't get it out of my head the melody, the lyrics everything just makes me so invested in it! Amazing song! Definitely sticking around to hear more of your sound!
Y’know when your listening to R.I.P’s songs, usually they don’t really have good/happy meanings (example: chronic wasted disease) but this just made me fricking happy (and cry a lil) anyway ILY TETO AND RIP BOTH OF YOU DONT DIE ON US
I don't know what it is, but this song hits me in the same emotional spot as "Song of the eared robot". They are very different songs obviously, but they tickle my soul in the same way. Now excuse me while I'll listen to this forever
Lyrics for anyone who needs it ❤️ In the city of the dead I lay stuck inside my bed The house burns down around me The language of the lost Pouring from their open mouths Nobody can hear a thing Suddenly, I'm breathing in the smoke Surrounded by the bodies As I’m tugging on my chains I’ll be swallowed by the flames Freedom dripping from the sink I don’t need forgiveness I just wanna talk and for you to listen I know I’d only raise the suspicion of my cause My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart Am I a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all? Maybe a soul like me Doesn’t even need to know Am I big, or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity Oh so very long ago Software update, reinstall Scary things I can’t recall Making the best of it Never even knowing why On my knees, I try to crawl Fire breaking in the walls Calling out for somebody Knowing I'll get no reply As I woke up from the dream I had lost all self-esteem The burning home had cowed me I thought that I was safe now I’ll never be the same Tossed aside for making a scene Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy? Yes, it made me who I am But I'll never understand Why it had to happen to me Temperament or sickness? Holler all you want! No one ever listens If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause Would you have noticed it at all? If I’m a robot or a doll Am I anything at all? Maybe a thing like me Doesn’t yet deserve to know Am I big, or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity Oh so very long ago Ones and zeros True or false? Reset system to default Faking the rest of it But I can’t remember why On my knees, I try to crawl Fire-charred collapsing walls Crying out for somebody There is no one to reply Not robot nor a doll I’m not anything at all I’m just an entity Finding out the way to go But these fingers and these palms Full of love despite the scars They show indisputably I have so much more to grow Oh, I can change I can evolve I can get up when I fall I’ll live contentedly I don’t need a reason why Standing tall and standing strong I have found where I belong In the arms of somebody There is no more need to cry
as some how drastically changes personality like a short off a coping mechanism this hits hard, I have lost the count off how many times I just have become a totally different person overnight because of some crisis that made me think that I I'm annoying or my attitudes are strange and people must think I'm weird
I think im gonna cry, this song is super sweet and it reminds me of me and my husband. Not to give out to information but my husband and i both have backgrounds with trauma but we've been trying to work through things together. I don't know where id be without him Edit April 15: no matter how much i listen to this song it manages to send me to the verge of tears. I don't think ive ever had a song do invoke tears before. RIP if you do read this i wish nothing but the best for you and carbon!
This sounds like someone who went through a parent’s divorce and not understanding what happened and getting the bad end of the deal until realizing they were never the problem.
As someone who is severely mentally ill and has insane identity issues because of it, this song resonates with me deeply and speaks to me, in the language of the lost. I love this song and i am so glad it exists.
The composition is stable and consistent, and shows some talent that a lot of indie composers lack. Throughout the entire song, I was waiting for a moment where the melody would fall apart or disappoint me in some way, but it never does.
this song perfectly captures the feeling of growing after trauma and flourishing despite your past. i doubt you'll read this riproducer, but your music has never failed to fit perfectly with whatever stage of my life is happening atm, it's simply gold- T^T keep up the amazing music, and i can't wait to see what you release next!!
This song really hits hard to me as someone who struggled so hard with their sense of identity, I don't have an identity I could really call my own from following what other people want for so long but now I'm slowly trying to get better and even if my identity right now is still a mess, it's not built from what others want (: I'm not good at English or just words in general, sorry if this sounds confusing or negative, I genuinely really love your work !! ^_^
I honestly love this song so much I even sung it at my school graduation and all the teachers were TOUCHED Rip you’re so good at making song relatable!!
this song came out at such a good time for me. i was relating so hard to the lyrics after coming out of an abusive relationship and the total curveball of ”i can get better” is exactly what i needed to hear after that when i just expected another song i could listen to and mourn past events. the timing of this coming out when I needed to hear it most is genuinely insane. thank you, rip
I wanted to write this comment, cause I've been a fan for a long time, and this is an amazing song. I've listened to some of your songs. they are absolutely OUTSTANDING. this song personally makes me so happy. it really reminds me of the times I was treated badly, and my confidence was shattered. I felt like it was all my fault. Now, 2024, I feel like myself again. I've worked so hard to get here, and I'm glad I did. "I can change, I can evolve, I can get up when I fall," really resonates with me. Reminds me that I can do this, even when it's hard. Thank you, R.I.Producer. I know I'm just a random person on the internet, but I wanted to thank you for this beautiful song
my dear beloved 70yo aunt has officially been introduced to the concept of vocal synths via this song. she liked it a lot, listened to it more than once when i sent her the link! described it as “exactly the lesson i remember learning in my twenties”. official auntie stamp of approval 😎
another banger to correlate my system to 💥 💥 💥 [we legit named our system after fruiting bodies and tbh all of rip's music hits right in the cdd feels]
WE BREAKING DOWN WITH THIS ONE BOYS 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️ (i have found this song at an extremely vulnerable point in my life and now this song will be one that permanently alters my being and will be crucial for my development)
in the city of the dead i lay stuck inside my bed the house burns down around me the language of the lost pouring from their open mouths nobody can hear a thing suddenly, i’m breathing in the smoke surrounded by the bodies as i’m tugging on my chains i’ll be swallowed by the flames freedom dripping from the sink i don’t need forgiveness i just wanna talk and for you to listen i know i’d only raise the suspicion of my cause my burns, they throb to the beat of your heart am i a robot or a doll? am i anything at all? maybe a soul like me doesn’t even need to know am i big, or am i small? hunching over, standing tall? i lost my identity oh so very long ago software update, reinstall scary things i can’t recall making the best of it never even knowing why on my knees, i try to crawl fire breaking in the walls calling out for somebody knowing i’ll get no reply as i woke up from the dream i had lost all self-esteem the burning home had cowed me i thought that i was safe now i’ll never be the same tossed aside for making a scene do i know who i pretend to be? of whom am i a copy? yes, it made me who i am but i’ll never understand why it had to happen to me temperament or sickness? holler all you want! no one ever listens if only i had raised my suspicion of the cause would you have noticed it at all? if i’m a robot or a doll am i anything at all? maybe a thing like me doesn’t yet deserve to know am i big, or am i small? hunching over, standing tall i lost my identity oh so very long ago ones and zeros true or false? reset system to default faking the rest of it but i can’t remember why on my knees, i try to crawl fire-charred collapsing walls crying out for somebody there is no one to reply not robot nor a doll i’m not anything at all i’m just an entity finding out the way to go but these fingers and these palms full of love despite the scars they show indisputably i have so much more to grow oh, i can change i can evolve i can get up when i fall i’ll live contentedly i don’t need a reason why standing tall and standing strong i have found where i belong in the arms of somebody there is no more need to cry
lyrics for myself - in the city of the dead i lay stuck inside my bed the house burns down around me the language of the lost pouring from their open mouths nobody can hear a thing suddenly, i’m breathing in the smoke surrounded by the bodies as i’m tugging on the chains i’ll be swallowed by the flames freedom dripping from the sink i don’t need forgiveness i just wanna talk and for you to listen i know i’d only raise the suspicion of my cause my burns, they throb to the beat of your heart am i a robot or a doll? am i anything at all? maybe a soul like me doesn’t even need to know am i big or am i small? hunching over, standing tall? i lost my identity oh so very long ago software update, reinstall scary things i can’t recall making the best of it never even knowing why on my knees, i try to crawl fire breaking in the walls calling out for somebody knowing i’ll get no reply as i woke up from the dream i had lost all self-esteem the burning home had cowed me i thought that i was safe now i’ll never be the safe tossed aside for making a scene do i know who i pretend to be? of whom am i a copy? yes, it made me who i am but i’ll never understand why it had to happen to me temperament or sickness? holler all you want! no one ever listens if only i had raised my suspicion of the cause would you have noticed it at all? if i’m a robot or a doll am i anything at all? maybe a thing like me doesn’t yet deserve to know am i big or am i small? hunching over, standing tall? i lost my identity oh so very long ago ones and zeros, true or false? reset system to default faking the rest of it but i can’t remember why on my knees, i try to crawl fire-charred collapsing walls crying out for somebody there is no one to reply - not robot nor a doll i’m not anything at all i’m just an entity finding out the way to go but these fingers and these palms full of love despite the scars they show indisputably i have so much more to grow oh, i can change, i can evolve i can get up when i fall i’ll live contentedly i don’t need a reason why standing tall and standing strong i have found where i belong in the arms of somebody there is no more need to cry
Love how this song has quite a deep meaning. I judge purely by how I understood the song, if anything! I think it's about finding your reason to live, yourself and not giving up on trying to find yourself and reason to live, because life always has meaning, even if you think it doesn't. It worth trying, even if you'll need to wait for years to find it.
Lyrics!!!!!! In the city of the dead I lay stuck inside my bed The house burns down around me The language of the lost Pouring from their open mouths Nobody can hear a thing Suddenly, I'm breathing in the smoke Surrounded by the bodies As I’m tugging on my chains I’ll be swallowed by the flames Freedom dripping from the sink I don’t need forgiveness I just wanna talk and for you to listen I know I’d only raise the suspicion of my cause My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart Am I a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all? Maybe a soul like me Doesn’t even need to know Am I big, or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity Oh so very long ago Software update, reinstall Scary things I can’t recall Making the best of it Never even knowing why On my knees, I try to crawl Fire breaking in the walls Calling out for somebody Knowing I'll get no reply As I woke up from the dream I had lost all self-esteem The burning home had cowed me I thought that I was safe now I’ll never be the same Tossed aside for making a scene Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy? Yes, it made me who I am But I'll never understand Why it had to happen to me Temperament or sickness? Holler all you want! No one ever listens If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause Would you have noticed it at all? If I’m a robot or a doll Am I anything at all? Maybe a thing like me Doesn’t yet deserve to know Am I big, or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity Oh so very long ago Ones and zeros True or false? Reset system to default Faking the rest of it But I can’t remember why On my knees, I try to crawl Fire-charred collapsing walls Crying out for somebody There is no one to reply Not robot nor a doll I’m not anything at all I’m just an entity Finding out the way to go But these fingers and these palms Full of love despite the scars They show indisputably I have so much more to grow Oh, I can change I can evolve I can get up when I fall I’ll live contentedly I don’t need a reason why Standing tall and standing strong I have found where I belong In the arms of somebody There is no more need to cry
Man i love reading peoples analyses here, it makes me feel like i'm both being torn apart and also seen for who i actually am because of that. Thanks for the new song for people like me to relate to!
fun fact this song has a happy ending because i started writing the song when i was in a really bad place (circa 2021), recovered mostly, but then i got an s/o when i needed to write the last chorus’s lyrics and i forgot how experience/invoke sadness lmaooo
thanks ya galbi!!
seriously though, it gets better. it might be an awesome medication that takes half of your symptoms away, it might be an amazing person who makes you feel loved and complete and fulfilled, etc. ❤❤❤ keep going. i believe in you :)
Thanks rip, your music honestly saved me ❤
Dude. I am literally in that same situation, I recently got an s/o who’s invokes SO much happiness it’s been hard to write angst. I’m so happy for you, they sound great! :D
Ohh so this song is like a collab between your past self and your present self . thats actually pretty cool
“It may take a medication that takes half your memory.” As someone who has epilepsy and takes medication that makes me really calm. I can relate in a sense.
I'm normally the type of person who never feels like the "it gets better" sentiments apply to me, like I'll absolutely say it to others an mean it, but feel like it's hollow words when it's towards myself. But by the time I got to your "keep going. It gets better", I legit had tears welling up in my eyes. Maybe it's because I look up to you, or because you've also been through so much, but... thank you. I appreciate you, your sentiment of it getting better, and all that you do. I hope you only have happy days ahead of you.
“not a robot or a doll, i’m not anything at all, i’m just an entity, finding out the way to go” as someone with identity issues, seeing themselves as sort of just… a thing that exists without any real reason, this hits hard. reading the rest of the comments, i hope someday we can all be like the last chorus
also, “freedom dripping from the sink” is such a good line in context. the freedom is coming in small drops, but since she’s on fire, she needs all of it at once to escape. god i love rip songs they make my organs wanna rearrange /pos
@@malthemalevolentonethank you for explaining that “freedom dripping from the sink” line, it sounded meaningful to me but i had no idea what it actually meant- /gen
Technically we're all just entities that exist in a space with shared awareness of each other. So don't take this experience too seriously lel
so true i love this song this is me
Huh, new perspective to add to the list of things for future OCs, thanks for sharing :D
I dunno if it was intentional but i really like the fact her silhouette is textured with crumpled blank paper that has been straightened again. Very fitting for a person who was traumatized and has a lack of identity trying to recover :D👍
that’s such a lovely interpretation of it
I love this man 🤩
oh thanks for sharing this cool little detail
Wait are they actually a man? (Sorry I did not know🥲)@@nuggs5509
Today I was in a clinic and they were giving me 16 injections in each hand which hurt a lot but I felt much better because they let me listen to your music, RIP, so your music helped me deal with the pain. The injections were to reduce my hyperhidrosis by the way.
true, RIP be doing that tho
it hurted a lot,but sure are u best now
Holy frick I feel you,, im scared to do this treatment myself because ive heard around doctors that its not permanent and a year or so later youll have to repeat:-((( aghh goodluck tho hopefully it helps
@@ComicOme I have to do it every 6 months. I can't get rid of hyperhidrosis permanently, but the injections can reduce it
@@5tUp1dF4Gg0t quick question but how well does it do with the reducing? If have experience as of now of course
0:24 smoke inhalation isn’t good for you Teto you should probably get an inhaler
HELP WHAT
LMAO
I breathed in smoke and I’m just grand 🙃🪿 (this is a joke if u breathe in smoke see a doctor at least)
Real
Lmao without context this funny as hell
My sister says she believes that this song is about someone who went through something bad or traumatic, and is now recovering. I really like that. It’s a message that healing takes time, even when it seems hopeless, you _can_ get better.
😊
According to the artist, that seems to be true!
Isn't this teto?
@@TH3_INFID3L yes?
The fact that there’s a character like that in the fandom im in😭
my bones have been rearranged in such a way that i can be accurately compared to a human jigsaw puzzle thank you riproducer for yet another skin shifting concoction of sound to listen to on loop for a minimum of 5 days every other week
respectfully how does the english vocaloid fandom come up with these elaborate compliments-
@@sketchingchan we just have access to that kinda arcane magic from the 5th century
@@sketchingchan autism
@@sketchingchan i may not be super into the vocaloid fandom but what i can tell you is this is a very normal compliment on tumblr
@@sketchingchan sorry
This made me think of a child who was always made to be what other people wanted them to be but never got the opportunity to explore their own identity up until adulthood or until they got the courage to advocate for themself and express how much they wanted to be able to be their own person rather just then a combination of other people's expectations for them.
The lyrics that say things like "Am I big or am I small? Am I anything at all?" plus the overall child-like appearance of the drawn character all makes me think of a child who needs their parents approval and therefore just lets their parents decide who they are/should be/have to be as a person rather then letting them be their own person. The end of the song seems to signify the child finally standing up for themself and finding out who they really are and realizing that they don't need to make their parents proud to be someone.
This is legit.
Oh wow! You just described me⭐️
You just described my entire life 😭
another song to attach to an oc this is so good i feel my brain melting
REALLLLL
no because i legit have an iraqi oc that’s immortal stop
me too 😭
...
Sounds like I owe it to myself to visit Basra someday.
SAME
I LOVE TETO'S VOICE IN THIS, its NOT OVERPOWERING AND VERY CALM.
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT THIS WAS TETO-
Why are u yelling at me…😞 (not but seriously this song is fire)
@@TGS1203
**stage whispers** _(IT'S NOT ALWAYS SHOUTING...)_
@@E4439Qv5 *Whispers back* I was joking..
I prefer overpowering and strong voices in songs so I can shout my voice out while singing
Me too, RIP. Me too. I'm still stuck at the beginning of the song, and working past that takes so much effort and is so exhausting. If you - the person reading this - is there as well, keep at it. You'd need a lot of help, but you can do it. There's no harm in accepting any, and anyone who tells you they made it purely by themself is a liar. If you're at the end of the song, great work. I'm proud of you for getting that far, and I hope you stay there.
I'm at the end of the song! It's hard, it hurts, but you are strong and you can make it through the storm. Keep going. No matter how small the steps, keep taking them. One day you'll see clear skies.
At first, I thought you were talking about making songs. But this is some good advice.
I'm cheering for you!! Not sure this will help, but if you can find people who support you on RUclips comments, there will be a lot of people believing in you that you actually know irl, so keep going, you can do it! Hope this makes you and everyone else on the same "journey" feel better somehow
Honestly I have had to go through trauma by myself due to The Bad Virus (trademark lmao) and lack of self esteem issues afterwards which led to me being physically unable to speak to anyone about it, but I have recovered now and have found those people who understand me.
I hope that you recover as well!! 🤍
Im in the beginning too, ik how it feels...
Why are people mad about Kasane Teto's race here when she is an instrument that can be interpreted as any race? (I am assuming all vocaloids and utaluloids and any other loids go by the same rules as Hatsune Miku.)
Fr also she is still Asian bc she is ment to be Iraqi and iraq is considered to be a western Asian county ( im actually Iraqi)
Skin pigment is arbitrary to begin with. Pixels, even more so.
This shade of brown? It tells a story, and it hits less-secure people somewhere they live, but try to avoid.
@@E4439Qv5 I support and respect multiracial Kasane Teto
@@SkylarThompson-mu1qs As do I.
Hers is a digital identity, not bound by race or creed.
@@E4439Qv5 true the vocaloids and utaus are raceless ageless sexless instruments and I'm glad they exist so everyone can have their hcs and projections freely which means none of the characters are Japanese unless we HC it (unless it's racist or n@zi or toxic Jehovah's Witness crap since that's bad)
Am I the only one who’s noticed that this is essentially the polar opposite of Corrosion? Like both involve the singer going through something terrible, yet they cope completely opposite to each other. The singer in Corrosion becomes twisted and cruel, taking their pain out on others, but Teto focuses more on trying to navigate herself, and she’s slowly letting herself heal from what happened to her. It’s just so poetic that RIP’s first and latest song parallel each other so much.
PLZ AFTER HEARING THE DEMO I CRAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS IN FULL RAGHHHH
Demo?
On ghosts channel there was a demo for the kasane teto album.
@@Ari-1169 oh i saw it on twitter, daemon & doll had an account there
Oh neat :D
As someone with BPD this song hits hard. Sometimes I feel like im always stuck in that first half of the song-to those struggling right now, it gets better, even with the ups and downs of life. 💜
@@puchonguitop I relate to this so much
Man as someone from an abusive family, this... Really captures how you feel when no one will listen. You scream your throat raw proverbially, but people just dismiss you. You're a rowdy kid, you don't know what you're talking about, they just want the best for you. You absolutely feel like someone trapped in a burning house, chained to the wall while salvation drips just out of reach and no one will come.
But you also heal, eventually. You get out, somehow. You make friends, connections, and rebuild yourself from the wreckage that is you, and someone might even find your scars beautiful and a testament to the life you lived and survived. My husband was also from an abusive family, and together... Together we're managing to heal just a little.
🙂
This means much to me.
Thank you for sharing.
@@E4439Qv5 Two months late, but I'm glad it meant so much. I've been going through a rough patch, so rereading this and seeing it touched people... Helped.
you put it into words exactly
what if nothing good happens to me and my parent will get what she wants, aka my death..
Omg this is getting so sad, traumatic, I hope your doing fine now..
Two things:
I like how their art style changes a bit with every video, and yet, you can still tell it's R.I.P.
Also I started crying on the first listen not even halfway through. I can already tell this song is gonna mean so much to me.
Lyrics:
In the city of the dead,
I lay stuck inside my bed,
The house burns down around me.
The language of the lost pouring from their open mouths
Nobody can hear a thing.
Suddenly I'm breathing in the smoke,
Surrounded by the bodies.
As I'm tugging on my chains, I'll be swallowed by the flames
Freedom dripping from the sink.
I don't need forgiveness.
I just wanna talk, and for you to listen.
I know I'd only raise the suspicion of my cause
My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart
Am I a robot or a doll?
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a soul like me doesn't even need to know.
Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity oh so very long ago.
Software update, reinstall, scary things I can't recall
Making the best of it never even knowing why
On my knees, I try to crawl, fire breaking in the walls
Calling for somebody knowing I'll get no reply.
As I woke up from the dream, I had lost all self-esteem
The burning home had cowed me
I thought that I was safe, now I'll never be the same
Tossed aside for making a scene.
Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy?
Yes, it made me who I am, but I'll never understand
Why it had to happen to me?
Temperament or sickness?
Holler all you want! No one ever listens!
If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause
Would you have noticed it at all?
If I'm a robot or a doll?
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a thing like me doesn't yet deserve to know.
Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity oh so very long ago.
Ones and zeros, true or false,
Reset system to default
Faking the rest of it, but I can't remember why
On my knees, I try to crawl, fire-charred collapsing walls
Crying out for somebody. There is no one to reply.
(Music Instrumental)
Not robot, not a doll, I'm not anything at all
I'm just an entity, finding out the way to go
But these fingers and these palms
full of love despite the scars
They show indisputably
I have so much more to grow
Oh, I can change, I can evolve
I can get up when I fall
I'll live contentedly
I don't need a reason why.
Standing tall and standing strong, I have found where I belong
In the arms of somebody
There is no more need to cry.
But the lyrics are literally in the video???
@@Goofy_Ahh_Ghost probs did it to let people have a way to see the entire lyrics
@@Goofy_Ahh_Ghost I think it’s easier to look on the full lyrics than the ones on the screen :D
TYSM
You have no idea how surprised I was to see such an upbeat song here! It sounds to me that the singer suffered some sort of tragedy-perhaps her family died in a fire or something of the sort-which her feeling lost and not sure of who she is. Throughout the song, she seems to be coming to terms with what happened, letting her heal from what had left her hurt for so long.
Once again, you’ve absolutely outdone yourself RIP!
ALSO IRAQI TETO SUPREMACY
We dealing with our personality disorders with this one 🔥🔥🔥
...
Um... who's "we" here?
@@E4439Qv5this is a vocaloid song comment section
@@moonlightnymph7975 yes. Thank you for highlighting the context.
...still doesn't answer the question, but ok.
@@E4439Qv5 theres also the copypasta "we getting out of the hood with this one" but yeah, most of RIPs songs are about real struggles
first listen - sounds like someone escaping from a traumatic situation finally getting a chance to explore their identity and figure out who they are
second listen - ok same as the first listen but now I get the specific feeling that this might be somebody who developed a dissociative disorder or some other identity disturbance as a result of a traumatic life, and now that they're out they're desperately trying to figure out who they are, before realizing that the nitty gritty specifics of their identity don't matter and they can just live their life and be whoever they are, a being who is growing and changing with every moment.
anyway I'm gonna be listening to this on loop for the next week thanks for the banger
Sameeee I’m already obsessed with it 🥲🥲👌👌
I kind of got the D.I.D aspect on first listen. I figured it's that I have a character with the disorder and I put alot of time into researching to write his character so listening to this song reminded me of him. Glad to see we're on the same page somewhat
For me it isn't that deep. On my first listen it's about a robot with the memory and thoughts of a little girl who died in a house fire. So somehow she was uploaded to a robot, but with the complications of that can't remember everything, but also has a sort of developing separate identity as "the robot" (whose job is to be a copy of someone else), but ultimately understands fully that it is not really that dead girl. 😅
But like 1/3 of the wah through it sounded kind of like it was about someone who lost their identity to the entertainment industry molding her into whatever character she needed to become. Until the robot lore kicked in.
"a being who is growing and changing with every moment"
your perspective on this song actually made me rethink my over obsession with the nitty gritty details of who i am-
thanks for that :')
@@leanloaf I'm so glad I was able to help!!
OH one more observation - i really enjoy how the cheery sound of the music and teto’s sweet little smile reads as ironic at first, but then by the last chorus it’s genuine happiness :’)
Thank you so much. As someone BPD, autistic, and ADHD besides of the usual depression anxiety thing who just messed up real bad just minutes ago, this keeps me going. I am healing, but it's okay if I hurt in the way of healing completely. Healing hugs, everyone.
theory, idk
The smoke is the abuser/user/maniuplaters words telling her what she's done wring when it's the maniuplater/abusers fault
The fire is them changing the girl (teto/daemon) into their own image.. like: making them do stuff they don't want to, believing false things
Daemon doesn't belive she's human at all due to what she's going through!! She jhst believes she is either a robot (being used) or a doll (a ragdoll)
The house is her safe place.. or what used to be.. the abuser had made jt her own hell (hence her talking abt a fire)
The language of the lost are people he/she (abuser ) had maniuplated and changed, telling daemon to not trust him/her!
Daemon doesn't wanna belive anymore that she's human or a robot, nor a doll ("maybe a THING like me"")
In the middle of the sing when there's music you can hear what seems like screams! Maybe the abuser hurting her, or her hurting her self??
At the ending
The maniuplater had had enough of people exposing him/her!
After being arrested (maniuplater) for his acts and stuff he did to people!
Daemon found a new family.. (or S/O idk)
And she felt as she belonged..
No more worry
""There is no more need to cry""
My English isn't good I'm japanese still learning english so I'm sorry if it's bad
can we talk about "yes it made me who i am, but i'll never understand why it had to happen to me" and "i thought that i was safe, now i'll never be the same" as someone who went through lifechanging traumatic events from a young age and raised in an enviroment supposed to be a safe space but was absolutely torn apart at the seams by people who were supposed to care for me, it hits way too close too home
Yeah... I can relate
On my first listen it's about a robot with the memory and thoughts of a little girl who died in a house fire. So somehow she was uploaded to a robot, but with the complications of that can't remember everything, but also has a sort of developing separate identity as "the robot" (whose job is to be a copy of someone else), but ultimately understands fully that it is not really that dead girl. 😅
But like 1/3 of the wah through it sounded kind of like it was about someone who lost her identity to the entertainment industry molding her into whatever character she needed to become. Until the robot lore kicked in.
It's legit.
as someone who attaches this song to their OC who is four people's minds uploaded into one robot, i fully support this theory 👍
"Why it had to happen to me? Temperament or sickness? 'Holler all you want, no one ever listens'" BRO, AS SOMEONE WITH BPD ASIDE ADHD AND THE USUAL DEPRESSION/ANXIETY THING THIS IS SO FREAKING RELATABLE, I JUST KEEP COMING BACK TO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN JSJDKXKF it helps so much tho❤
People keep commenting shit along the lines of "why is she black?" LIKE WHY CANT YOU JUST PAY ATTENTION TO THE AMAZING ART STYLE!?!? And i cant even get started on the song itself! I have no words to express how much i love this song, its definitely my current favorite. Amazing job 👍
she looks good in chocolate tone tho :P
This is so dissociation coded. No idea if DID in particular, but dissociative CPTSD for sure
as a person with DID, i heavily relate to this song. Especially with "Not robot nor a doll, I'm not anything at all; I'm just an entity finding out the way to go." because i can never really tell if someone else if fronting, but i know in some aspect it is still me.
I also know that the younger me ran out the door as soon as it was mentally open ("Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity oh so very long ago.") as i was still struggling with who i was, i believe i delved myself into schoolwork as a cause of that. The key factor i believe that really ties in the DID part really is; "Do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy? Yes it made me who I am, But I'll never understand; Why it had to happen to me." because we can't understand why it was us who had to go through that, why we had to be the ones to learn that lesson when we really should have been just left alone (Especially if it was a person/type of demographic triggering the dissociation and stress)
Again this is just my experience with dealing with my own trauma and DID, I can see this is as something for any Dissociative disorder that deals with the topics in the song! :D
@genie0561 totally get that, thank you for sharing.
@@genie0561 very much agreed! As a fellow system I was thinking the same thing :) hopefully this isn’t too off from what you originally wrote about (I can’t view while I’m typing and my memory isn’t the best, so I apologize) but there is a lot of accepting uncertainty in this song. It’s really comforting, in a way. And the “why did it have to happen to me” is so real as well.
And as a fictive heavy system, this certainly also applies to certain alters with traumatic experiences and not really knowing where to go from that.
I’m so glad I’m not alone in tying this to DID /gen
I personally see lots of impostor syndrome imagery, but I can see lots of dissociative identity disorder imagery too
Dissociative arson!! Hell yeah let’s go 🔥🔥🔥
I feel the simple nightdress adds to the whole lost identity thing. And her eyes being closed the whole time. Nice little touches!!
It’s the journey I’m going on. I have found who I love, I have started the healing path. I still don’t understand why it happened to me, but that’s okay. My palms can love as I learn to touch again.
I personally see this song as an interpretation of Teto’s “experience” as a vocal synth. She starts off in a metaphorical burning building and I think that represents low self esteem and mental health burning, especially with the direct line about self esteem. Throughout the song Teto questions her identity in a melancholy way, and I find this especially clear in the line “do I know who I pretend to be? Of whom am I a copy?” Because she’s questioning if she’s meant to be a copy. I think this ties into the history of Teto since she was originally made to be a fake Vocaloid, copying to deceive people for an April fools prank. As a character this is reflected by her low self esteem, and how the fandom has deemed them as truly the wannabe Vocaloid of all time. But throughout the last chorus the tone shifts to being okay with being different from the status quo, and not knowing who or what she’s meant to be, simply staying as whatever entity they are is okay, and I think this shows her growth of being a synthv voicebank. Take this with a grain of salt, I am a massive nerd and this could easily be me pushing Vocaloid lore onto a song about self esteem and impostor syndrome, but I feel like this kind of narrative fits the history of Kasane Teto and how I see her character.
Please forgive any typos I accidentally deleted this whole thing twice and I am not doing this again
@@GOURDDD …THAT IS BEAUTIFUL🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
Honestly I feel the same way. Sorry you had to retype 🫡
“Temperament or sickness, holler all you want, no one ever listens”
Dang-
See y'all in 6 years
bet :3
See ya 🫡
NO!!
Bai :D
@@Frozen_pawz I’ll prolly be back lol
OH MY GOD /pos !!!!!!! AUGHHH THIS IS!! SO COMFORTING!!! I don't wanna sound ?? venty??? but this reminds me of me when I finally left my abuser in October and Recovering💪💪 this is such a big comfort I hope you know that...God /vvpos
hey that’s kinda funny I am also here and lamenting on my past especially my abuser who I originally cut contact with in October and this song is also a huge comfort for me
hope your recovery goes well 🫂
WE MAKING IT OUT OF THE FIRE WITH THIS ONE 🔥🔥‼️‼️
update: I finished the song and now I’m crying
@@xeno-primeare you okay???
@@Sqwirrel_Bonez probably happy tears... I hope
Iraqi teto!! She's funny!!!! Silly!!!!!!! I love her so much
😭
IRAQI HELP
@@mop4yyHow do I help?
where did the iraqi thing come from? i dont wanna be disrespectful but did rip say it? is it something obvious that i missed?
@@ntnb_.they’re a member so it might’ve been mentioned in a member exclusive event or server
i once again, bear witness to a masterpiece. this reminds me of my childhood, getting out of my home when my dad died. he was very abusive and had me underneath his thumb so i really didn't have a personality until my teenage years. i still struggle with understanding my emotions and feeling like im worthy of being treated like a person, i absolutely love the childlike music box type melody. youve outdone yourself, this is amazing.
@@_m30w_ awwww I’m sorry for you
By the way you are not alone
My pet bearded dragon passed a few hours prior to this premiere, and I just wanted to say thank you, thank you for posting this song. it made me feel a lot happier since this loss has impacted me a lot already, your music motivates me to keep going through all the hard times, so thank you so much
It's really harsh to lose a pet... I just know it got to Heaven with an owner as nice as you ^-^ I hope this comment helps ^-^
Its interesting how in the first part shes filled with the pink and the background is black as if the bad things are happening around her but in the second part shes the black one and the background is pink as if shes not in the (black) bad place but her trauma is still with her
this song genuinely hits hard due to my own trauma
the first chorus especially, because sometimes i ask to no one in my head, "am i anything to anyone?"
WHEN I SEE TETO I KNOW IT'S GONNA ALWAYS BE GOOD
I have memory issues because of a year rotten with trauma, and the first part of this song (especially the “making the best of it, never even knowing why” and “I lost my identity oh so very long ago~” parts) really speaks to me
I am doing a lot better from where I was there which is good, I’m learning who this new me is, who my people are and how to get through this hurricane called life. The last verse speaks to who I am, or am becoming now.
this song is so relatable..
i feel like i just got to the second half of the song (positive part), as in i think im slowly gaining more happiness again. i guess thats a good sign, right?? anyways, this song made me smile at the end.
also, a side note if anyone is reading this i guess. thanks for reading??? i think the reason i got more positive recently is probably cus i was thinking about philosophical stuff and things in my life; how bad traits arent the whole thing that makes you yourself. (aka that i finally realized i do have good traits among my bad traits)
Really enjoyed this one, love the depressing songs but this one with a happy ending spoke to me a lot, really great work and beautiful melody! OSDD system, a certain headmate of ours really loves your songs, and this one spoke to them a lot due to the message of getting better despite feeling like you’ve lost who you were. Again, really loved this one we’ve listened to it like 4 times in a row now lol!
FINALLY! I've been waiting to translate this because of how cool it sounded :D
Latin▼
in urbe mortuorum.
Intus infixus iaceo in lectulo meo.
Circumdederunt me domus.
Lingua damnatorum.
Effuso ore patente.
Nemo aliquid audire potest.
Subito in fumo spiro.
Cingitur corporibus.
Ut in catenis involvo, flammis absorbebor.
Libertas a labello stillans.
Venia non opus est.
Ego iustus volo loqui et pro te audire.
Tantum scio me causae suspicionem movere.
Meus ardet, palpitant ad cordis pulsum.
Sumne ego...
Robot an pupa?
Num quidvis sum?
Forsitan anima similis mei etiam scire non opus est.
Sum magnus, an parvus sum?
Hunni super, alta stabant?
Perdidi identitatem meam.
Oh, ita pridem.
Software renovatio, restituo.
Terreant quae meminisse nequeo.
Optima facienda est.
Numquam etiam cur.
In genua procumbens, conor repere.
Ignis in muris erumpens.
Clamantem ad aliquem, sciens nihil impetraturum.
Sicut expergefactus sum e somno.
Ego omnem existimationem perdidi.
Ardens domus me persuaserat.
Salvum me esse putabam.
Nunc eu ipsum nulla.
Jactari pro scena.
Scio qui me esse simulo?
Cuius exemplum sum?
Ita me fecit qui sum.
At ego numquam intellexi.
Quare id mihi acciderat.
Animi vel morbi?
Omnia vis holl!
Nemo umquam audit.
Utinam suspicionem causae posuissem.
Visne omnino animadverti?
Si sum...
Robot vel pupa?
Num quidvis sum?
Forsitan aliquid simile mihi nondum scire mereatur.
Sum magnus, an parvus sum?
Hunni super, alta stabant?
Perdidi identitatem meam.
Oh, ita pridem.
Ones et zeros.
Verum an falsum est?
Reset ratio ad defaltam.
Reliquum est amicum.
Sed cur non memini.
In genua mea reptare conor.
Ambustis igni- bus, ruere muris.
Clamare aliquem.
Nemo est qui respondeat.
Non...
robot neque doll.
Curabitur non aliquam nulla.
Non sum ens.
explorato itinere.
sed hi digiti, hae palmae.
Plena amoris obstante cicatrices.
Indubitanter ostendunt, eo magis crescere.
Oh, mutare possum!
evolvere possum.
Non possum surgere cum ceciderit.
Contente vivam.
Non opus est causa quare.
Statura eminens et fortis stans.
Inveni ubi pertineo.
In armis alicujus.
Nihil amplius flere opus est.
LATIN TRANSLATION OH MY GOB !! this looks so yummy eats
@@furina-slash-focalors Nyyyyooooo! Not my translationnnn TvT
Oh my god we need a Latin cover of this beautiful song
@@Alteviler I would if I could, but I don't know how to use vocaloid T^T
Cool :0
03:37 And now, everyone listening to this song is sad :D
No
@@Melancholy_Star_Bunny wdym it is sad!
When I was a little younger I listened to your music, I felt like the first part of this song. That was so many years ago. I am now 16 years old. I got my first job, have pretty much overcome my social anxiety, I found out I am autistic, I set boundaries now , I am no longer bitter and negative, and now I don’t dislike myself not one bit when before I couldn’t even look in the mirror. Listening to this song completely describes how much I have evolved and how I have let go of all that negativity I used to hold onto. I haven’t listened to you in so many years and this song was the perfect thing to come back to. Thank you for making the music that helped me cope when I was in such a horrible place in life, I’m so thankful and happy to be better now. I now hold infinite love in my heart and a spark of positivity and peace that will never run out. I wish everyone reading this a beautiful healing journey 🤍💿
IM GONNA CRY THIS SONG IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED!! I'm not gonna trauma dump (I do that enough as is), but after going through my childhood, I didn't even know who I was and was looking for an answer for my pain... but i don't need an answer, I just need to live despite it all. Thank you R.I.P!!!
You know its a RIP song when its got very well put, often fast, lyrics and a freaking BANGER instrumental after 2 sections and before the final one
Thank u for the food fhfhhf
That moment when your favorite music artist releases a new song the day before your birthday:
for me it's the day after my birthday lol
@@jesterpiesvoca I don’t know which hurts more 😂
Well that means Vane is releasing a song on your birthday.
@@Ari-1169 Oh, sick!
For me it's also releasing before my birthday
1:41 personal timestamp !?
DOORSTOPPER PFP?!
@@MoonianPlayz oerhaps…..
@@kirbyenthusiastnumber2 nah bruh
@@kirbyenthusiastnumber2 doorstopper...
It's been 6 days since the song was released and I like to think that between Miss Miseryguts and this song, this is the aftermath, living in a world of self destruction only to eventually find peace in finding someone who reciprocates love.
(The ribbons also tie in because both videos have heart shaped bows on teto and the character in Miss Miseryguts)
And I think it's very sweet that even in pain, there's always hope. And I hope everyone can find that, whether it be with someone else, a partner, a family member, a pet, or even a small thing you cherish.
I resonate with this song so hard it brought me to tears at the end. I know that being trans isn't the point of the song but having to be one identity that wasnt truly me for so long made me feel like I wasn't even anyone. I'm finally being myself, and to hear that reflected so mirrored and clear just hit me in the heart.
To anyone or everyone who's going through something bad, or went through it before, this is a sign that things will get better. There is hope. ❤
I'm currently still in the beginning of the song. I feel hopeless, I feel lost, but this song helps me feel better. Thank you, RIP.
I discovered this song through tiktok and I can't get it out of my head the melody, the lyrics everything just makes me so invested in it! Amazing song! Definitely sticking around to hear more of your sound!
Hey ros mo!
Woah me too
ROS, WHY ARE YOU HERE??? I LIKE UR VIDS SO MUCH AND THEN YOU SHOW UP ON MY FAV SONG
Y’know when your listening to R.I.P’s songs, usually they don’t really have good/happy meanings (example: chronic wasted disease) but this just made me fricking happy (and cry a lil) anyway ILY TETO AND RIP BOTH OF YOU DONT DIE ON US
Matching!!! (I cry every time I hear it, because I'm a big crybaby)
BROWN TETO ENJOYERS WE WON
SHES BLA-
*-HAJ!*
She is Ikea Shark!
@@E4439Qv5 yay!!
@@screamingbadger1942 shes Iraqi
I don't know what it is, but this song hits me in the same emotional spot as "Song of the eared robot". They are very different songs obviously, but they tickle my soul in the same way. Now excuse me while I'll listen to this forever
No excuses needed; same boat.
Lyrics for anyone who needs it ❤️
In the city of the dead
I lay stuck inside my bed
The house burns down around me
The language of the lost
Pouring from their open mouths
Nobody can hear a thing
Suddenly, I'm breathing in the smoke
Surrounded by the bodies
As I’m tugging on my chains
I’ll be swallowed by the flames
Freedom dripping from the sink
I don’t need forgiveness
I just wanna talk and for you to listen
I know I’d only raise the suspicion of my cause
My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart
Am I a robot or a doll?
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a soul like me
Doesn’t even need to know
Am I big, or am I small?
Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity
Oh so very long ago
Software update, reinstall
Scary things I can’t recall
Making the best of it
Never even knowing why
On my knees, I try to crawl
Fire breaking in the walls
Calling out for somebody
Knowing I'll get no reply
As I woke up from the dream
I had lost all self-esteem
The burning home had cowed me
I thought that I was safe
now I’ll never be the same
Tossed aside for making a scene
Do I know who I pretend to be?
Of whom am I a copy?
Yes, it made me who I am
But I'll never understand
Why it had to happen to me
Temperament or sickness?
Holler all you want! No one ever listens
If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause
Would you have noticed it at all?
If I’m a robot or a doll
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a thing like me
Doesn’t yet deserve to know
Am I big, or am I small?
Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity
Oh so very long ago
Ones and zeros
True or false?
Reset system to default
Faking the rest of it
But I can’t remember why
On my knees, I try to crawl
Fire-charred collapsing walls
Crying out for somebody
There is no one to reply
Not robot nor a doll
I’m not anything at all
I’m just an entity
Finding out the way to go
But these fingers and these palms
Full of love despite the scars
They show indisputably
I have so much more to grow
Oh, I can change
I can evolve
I can get up when I fall
I’ll live contentedly
I don’t need a reason why
Standing tall and standing strong
I have found where I belong
In the arms of somebody
There is no more need to cry
as some how drastically changes personality like a short off a coping mechanism this hits hard, I have lost the count off how many times I just have become a totally different person overnight because of some crisis that made me think that I I'm annoying or my attitudes are strange and people must think I'm weird
WE’RE BURNING THE HOUSE DOWN WITH THIS ONE!!!!
🔊🔊🔊🔊🔥🔥🔥🔥
neurodivergents around the globe are rejoicing
(...and quietly adopting Teto)
(Loudly screaming at their abusers)
@@melaniem322(yes)
I love this comment so much 😭
@@foxtrotin5 This is so true
2:04 this hits hard
Oh this is hands down your best vocal melody and lyrics (in my opinion). Your song definitely stood out to me on the album. SERIOUSLY well done!
I think im gonna cry, this song is super sweet and it reminds me of me and my husband. Not to give out to information but my husband and i both have backgrounds with trauma but we've been trying to work through things together. I don't know where id be without him
Edit April 15: no matter how much i listen to this song it manages to send me to the verge of tears. I don't think ive ever had a song do invoke tears before. RIP if you do read this i wish nothing but the best for you and carbon!
This sounds like someone who went through a parent’s divorce and not understanding what happened and getting the bad end of the deal until realizing they were never the problem.
As someone who is severely mentally ill and has insane identity issues because of it, this song resonates with me deeply and speaks to me, in the language of the lost. I love this song and i am so glad it exists.
What type of emotion have i unlocked from this song
self-acceptance?
The composition is stable and consistent, and shows some talent that a lot of indie composers lack. Throughout the entire song, I was waiting for a moment where the melody would fall apart or disappoint me in some way, but it never does.
IRAQI TETO!!!!!!!!! this song was so pretty and so happy at the end?????? gonna eat it?????? thanks for this absolute banger, rip!!!!!!!!!
Frr!!!
This song simultaneously makes me want to hug those hurting and feel like I'm being hugged. It's great!
host has yet another comfort song. thank you for the juice as always holy heck
this song perfectly captures the feeling of growing after trauma and flourishing despite your past. i doubt you'll read this riproducer, but your music has never failed to fit perfectly with whatever stage of my life is happening atm, it's simply gold- T^T
keep up the amazing music, and i can't wait to see what you release next!!
This song really hits hard to me as someone who struggled so hard with their sense of identity, I don't have an identity I could really call my own from following what other people want for so long but now I'm slowly trying to get better and even if my identity right now is still a mess, it's not built from what others want (:
I'm not good at English or just words in general, sorry if this sounds confusing or negative, I genuinely really love your work !! ^_^
0:56 THE BEST ONE IS HEREE
@@_.Scaramouche._ me too
OH MY GOD IT"S MY FIRST TIME BEING AROUND FOR THE PREMIERE OF A SONG OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD EEEEEEE✨✨✨✨✨✨❤❤❤❤❤❤
"I'll live contentedly; *I don't need a reason why"*
I honestly love this song so much I even sung it at my school graduation and all the teachers were TOUCHED Rip you’re so good at making song relatable!!
this song came out at such a good time for me. i was relating so hard to the lyrics after coming out of an abusive relationship and the total curveball of ”i can get better” is exactly what i needed to hear after that when i just expected another song i could listen to and mourn past events. the timing of this coming out when I needed to hear it most is genuinely insane. thank you, rip
"I lost my identity" relates
I wanted to write this comment, cause I've been a fan for a long time, and this is an amazing song.
I've listened to some of your songs. they are absolutely OUTSTANDING. this song personally makes me so happy.
it really reminds me of the times I was treated badly, and my confidence was shattered. I felt like it was all my fault. Now, 2024, I feel like myself again. I've worked so hard to get here, and I'm glad I did.
"I can change, I can evolve, I can get up when I fall," really resonates with me. Reminds me that I can do this, even when it's hard.
Thank you, R.I.Producer. I know I'm just a random person on the internet, but I wanted to thank you for this beautiful song
my dear beloved 70yo aunt has officially been introduced to the concept of vocal synths via this song. she liked it a lot, listened to it more than once when i sent her the link! described it as “exactly the lesson i remember learning in my twenties”. official auntie stamp of approval 😎
YEAAAA
i love how at peace teto looks at the end compaired to the crumpled figure at the beginning. it fits so well with the song
OHHHH I TEARED UP Teto as a whole means so much to me and hearing her deliver such a relatable song is just... gosh ♡
Wonderful work
2:03 the part where that one animation meme starts :>
@@Ohbajookieland THERES AN ANIMATION MEME?
@@sillyzkid yea🤑
another banger to correlate my system to 💥 💥 💥 [we legit named our system after fruiting bodies and tbh all of rip's music hits right in the cdd feels]
WE BREAKING DOWN WITH THIS ONE BOYS 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️ (i have found this song at an extremely vulnerable point in my life and now this song will be one that permanently alters my being and will be crucial for my development)
Cant say how much i love and how much of a comfort this song is 😭😭✨✨✨😁😁
in the city of the dead
i lay stuck inside my bed
the house burns down around me
the language of the lost
pouring from their open mouths
nobody can hear a thing
suddenly, i’m breathing in the smoke
surrounded by the bodies
as i’m tugging on my chains
i’ll be swallowed by the flames
freedom dripping from the sink
i don’t need forgiveness
i just wanna talk and for you to listen
i know i’d only raise the suspicion of my cause
my burns, they throb to the beat of your heart
am i a robot or a doll?
am i anything at all?
maybe a soul like me
doesn’t even need to know
am i big, or am i small?
hunching over, standing tall?
i lost my identity
oh so very long ago
software update, reinstall
scary things i can’t recall
making the best of it
never even knowing why
on my knees, i try to crawl
fire breaking in the walls
calling out for somebody
knowing i’ll get no reply
as i woke up from the dream
i had lost all self-esteem
the burning home had cowed me
i thought that i was safe
now i’ll never be the same
tossed aside for making a scene
do i know who i pretend to be?
of whom am i a copy?
yes, it made me who i am
but i’ll never understand
why it had to happen to me
temperament or sickness?
holler all you want! no one ever listens
if only i had raised my suspicion of the cause
would you have noticed it at all?
if i’m a robot or a doll
am i anything at all?
maybe a thing like me
doesn’t yet deserve to know
am i big, or am i small?
hunching over, standing tall
i lost my identity
oh so very long ago
ones and zeros
true or false?
reset system to default
faking the rest of it
but i can’t remember why
on my knees, i try to crawl
fire-charred collapsing walls
crying out for somebody
there is no one to reply
not robot nor a doll
i’m not anything at all
i’m just an entity
finding out the way to go
but these fingers and these palms
full of love despite the scars
they show indisputably
i have so much more to grow
oh, i can change
i can evolve
i can get up when i fall
i’ll live contentedly
i don’t need a reason why
standing tall and standing strong
i have found where i belong
in the arms of somebody
there is no more need to cry
lyrics for myself
-
in the city of the dead
i lay stuck inside my bed
the house burns down around me
the language of the lost
pouring from their open mouths
nobody can hear a thing
suddenly, i’m breathing in the smoke
surrounded by the bodies
as i’m tugging on the chains
i’ll be swallowed by the flames
freedom dripping from the sink
i don’t need forgiveness
i just wanna talk
and for you to listen
i know i’d only raise
the suspicion of my cause
my burns, they throb
to the beat of your heart
am i a
robot or a doll?
am i anything at all?
maybe a soul like me
doesn’t even need to know
am i big or am i small?
hunching over, standing tall?
i lost my identity oh so very long ago
software update, reinstall
scary things i can’t recall
making the best of it
never even knowing why
on my knees, i try to crawl
fire breaking in the walls
calling out for somebody
knowing i’ll get no reply
as i woke up from the dream
i had lost all self-esteem
the burning home had cowed me
i thought that i was safe
now i’ll never be the safe
tossed aside for making a scene
do i know who i pretend to be?
of whom am i a copy?
yes, it made me who i am
but i’ll never understand
why it had to happen to me
temperament or sickness?
holler all you want!
no one ever listens
if only i had raised
my suspicion of the cause
would you have noticed it at all?
if i’m a
robot or a doll
am i anything at all?
maybe a thing like me
doesn’t yet deserve to know
am i big or am i small?
hunching over, standing tall?
i lost my identity
oh so very long ago
ones and zeros, true or false?
reset system to default
faking the rest of it
but i can’t remember why
on my knees, i try to crawl
fire-charred collapsing walls
crying out for somebody
there is no one to reply
-
not robot nor a doll
i’m not anything at all
i’m just an entity
finding out the way to go
but these fingers and these palms
full of love despite the scars
they show indisputably
i have so much more to grow
oh, i can change, i can evolve
i can get up when i fall
i’ll live contentedly
i don’t need a reason why
standing tall and standing strong
i have found where i belong
in the arms of somebody
there is no more need to cry
Based pfp you are just like me, also thank you for the lyrics it’s the service every comment section needs
@@CreativeDogeDogyooo another autism creature pfp !!!
@@moonlightnymph7975 Youre just like me! just less sad!!!
Love how this song has quite a deep meaning. I judge purely by how I understood the song, if anything!
I think it's about finding your reason to live, yourself and not giving up on trying to find yourself and reason to live, because life always has meaning, even if you think it doesn't. It worth trying, even if you'll need to wait for years to find it.
A vocaloid song like this with a sweet ending is something you don’t see everyday
I love it
Está canción trae un sentimiento familiar, sigue así RIP!! eres una persona muy increíble
ひたすら切実で泣けてくるな
Lyrics!!!!!!
In the city of the dead
I lay stuck inside my bed
The house burns down around me
The language of the lost
Pouring from their open mouths
Nobody can hear a thing
Suddenly, I'm breathing in the smoke
Surrounded by the bodies
As I’m tugging on my chains
I’ll be swallowed by the flames
Freedom dripping from the sink
I don’t need forgiveness
I just wanna talk and for you to listen
I know I’d only raise the suspicion of my cause
My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart
Am I a robot or a doll?
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a soul like me
Doesn’t even need to know
Am I big, or am I small?
Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity
Oh so very long ago
Software update, reinstall
Scary things I can’t recall
Making the best of it
Never even knowing why
On my knees, I try to crawl
Fire breaking in the walls
Calling out for somebody
Knowing I'll get no reply
As I woke up from the dream
I had lost all self-esteem
The burning home had cowed me
I thought that I was safe
now I’ll never be the same
Tossed aside for making a scene
Do I know who I pretend to be?
Of whom am I a copy?
Yes, it made me who I am
But I'll never understand
Why it had to happen to me
Temperament or sickness?
Holler all you want! No one ever listens
If only I had raised my suspicion of the cause
Would you have noticed it at all?
If I’m a robot or a doll
Am I anything at all?
Maybe a thing like me
Doesn’t yet deserve to know
Am I big, or am I small?
Hunching over, standing tall?
I lost my identity
Oh so very long ago
Ones and zeros
True or false?
Reset system to default
Faking the rest of it
But I can’t remember why
On my knees, I try to crawl
Fire-charred collapsing walls
Crying out for somebody
There is no one to reply
Not robot nor a doll
I’m not anything at all
I’m just an entity
Finding out the way to go
But these fingers and these palms
Full of love despite the scars
They show indisputably
I have so much more to grow
Oh, I can change
I can evolve
I can get up when I fall
I’ll live contentedly
I don’t need a reason why
Standing tall and standing strong
I have found where I belong
In the arms of somebody
There is no more need to cry
i saw the prev on the daemon doll stream and now i can't wait
Man i love reading peoples analyses here, it makes me feel like i'm both being torn apart and also seen for who i actually am because of that. Thanks for the new song for people like me to relate to!
Agreed; this is an excellent space to practice self-reflection while Echo sings.
the instrumental reminds me of old fnaf songs 😭😭 i love this so mf much omfg
YESS ABSOLUTELY
Immediately got the vibe of a dissociative disorder (dunno if that’s me projecting my own but goDDAMN THIS IS GOOD)