I still remember the first time I watched this movie. It was actually the most real documentary I had seen of addiction at that time. I came across it on here. I always wondered what happened to all of the people in the film. Thank you so much for posting this 🖤
@@traceyh415. Of course Tracey. You've done so much amazing work for your fellow human beings. I want to thank you for that as well. Your works means so much!
I am almost 4 years clean! I come back to this documentary every once in a while. And I think today is the first day that I was able to watch it without feeling that triggering, gut sinking feeling. I am so happy to see you still clean and i follow alice on instagram!
Thank you for the update. I would watch this documentary while in active addiction and could relate. I have a year and some change now and relate to this on a whole different level now. Sad to hear some didn't make it, very happy to hear that you and a few others did.
Thank you 🙏🏾 for your contribution to the film and helping raise awareness about the issues people dealing with substance abuse face. I truly feel addiction is not a crime - but more an illness. I hope you continue to have a happy healthy life.
Hello from London, England... Ive watched the documentary and follow your channel... Nice to see you're doing well, but so sad that so many of the people in the film didn't make it!
@@traceyh415. Tracy, I actually travelled down the West Coast of the United States at around April/May 2000... After working in BC Canada from September 1999... I arrived in Vancouver from the U.K and the drug problem was quite serious... As I traveled down the West Coast, from Vancouver to Seattle and then onto San Francisco and finally L.A, it was clear that many of the cities I visited had a massive Heroin addiction problem... I recall speaking to someone about it who responded that this tends to happen in Post Cities... Although I was not really well informed, I could see that there was a serious issue with Heroin addiction down the West Coast: loads of needles on the streets etc etc... I only watched Black Tar Heroin around 10 years ago and now follow you on RUclips... It's great to see you came out of your addiction alive, but I guess you now carry a torch for those you lost.... Keep safe and well!
Even tho the only recent pic of Jessica was 2016, I'm so happy that they are still alive. Congrats Tracey on 25 years! That's amazing. Can u send positive vibes my way? I'm currently addicted to IV Dilaudid and meth. I want to get sober and stay sober
Hey Tracy, thank you for posting this. My name is Jake and I am actually featured in this film. My mother is Michele, the one who had Oreo babysit her son. I am the son. I’d love to connect with you!
@@traceyh415. She did for many years. Only within the last few years has she moved back to Oregon, where I have lived since moving in with my grandma at about 6 years old.
Watched it today Tracey. Wonderful to see you’re doing well. I’m from the UK where heroin isnt as popular as it is the states, but I imagine watching the prescription pill + fentanyl crisis unfold over the past 2 decades must have been hard to watch/stomach in modern America? Just absolutely tragic. Fuck the Sacklers & fuck fentanyl Best wishes Tom
I remember your boyfriend Ben. I recall thinking that you two both seemed so smart and articulate. Ben had beautiful eyes and lashes, i remember that too! :) So happy you're doing well!
I saw "Jessica" circa 2010 in the TL. I put the name in quotes because he/she doesnt identify as Jessica no more. Shes been on hotmone therapy and looks alot different.
Thanks for update, I'm not from USA but i related to it as i ws In addiction over 7yrs back. I just come off methadone an it ws hard for a month, no energy, hard sleeping, couldn't eat an ws depressed. I've known countess people who hav passed, miracle I'm still here as i used on my own alot. I long story short : tried unaliving myslef with big hit an went to a pitch black void, i didn't hav a body, couldn't see nothing but it felt so huge I couldn't comprehend it, heard an old friend's voice who unalived herself then came Back. 2 week's later I took it all in an stopped using, i thought I wanted to go but it scared the crap outa me. Probly told you already, trust me it ws real, being conscious still is a very scary realisation!
I have such a weird story from when I first saw this doc. It was one of the most if not the most forward and fly on the wall for this style of content that I've ever seen. When I paired the situation with what we were watching I noticed I was being groomed into participating as the documentary playing was loud enough that it felt like it was a character irl. Haven't seen that girl since and I no longer watch these types of documentaries as I don't want to gaslight myself into that as an option for myself. You're a rockstar girliee
i was actually thinking about that about a year ago, i came across the doc. again and i was like: i wonder if any of them are still alive, and i kinda figured some of the ones who did initially survive are gone, isnt Alice still a dancer / model? i could have sworn she, became a dancer or such? sorry memory is fuzzy. sad ben died, but at least yall made amends, that i hope gives you some peace. congrats, keep on keepin' on.
I'm from the Bay area. I used to watch this movie all the time. I used to wander around SF in the middle of the night n sht too. Horrible life to live. I hated it. I feel like it really is evil and the whole lifestyle is evil. I finally decided to change my life and now I have god in my life. I used to hate the idea of a higher power but I get it now. Being born again changes your soul and you realize that isn't the way god wants you to live. I will never touch that shit again. I'm in my 30s im wayyy too old to be running around like that. Thanks for shining the light on addiction.
Hi Tracey, I knew you'd make it out of that struggle from the very first time I watched the movie, specially when u talked about wanting to have a baby out of that lifestyle. How did it go, Did you ever get married? Any kids? Blessings and hats off from Costa Rica
Have you ever knew people that had health problems from the needle? Cause lately ive been addicted for almost 8 years and now my health has been feeling like its failing, my chests and head hurt every day that i can't take it anymore, watching you in this movie makes me wanna go sober but its so hard,
Only asking all these people I see addicted act like they are okay and from my experience, being addicted that long is causing pain, and not withdrawal pain
Teresa as well, do you know if she ever got clean? she was pretty far gone, she also had a lot of skin deterioration from muscling it, i knew far too many people as well who had got wrapped up in drugs and other addiction and it destroyed them, as well as hurt those around them, so awesome to keep seeing you, a true success story, who is also helping others, i wish there were more.
what happened to Lars? and Jennifer, you know the one who had the skin lesions because she muscled it so much due to burned out veins, is she still around or did she die as well?
@@traceyh415. ah well, to be fair there was quite a few just in the group alone that was filmed, plus the many others that were in the area, i wish we had folks up in the kensington area in PA to actively help, that area is bad , i mean, its beyond words.
How the hell did you end up getting out of the scene and going to University if you have a criminal record. Everyone I have ever known was unable to get a job, house or education with a rap sheet. I'm guessing you had supportive family with money or structure to help?
I went through numerous ex offenders programs that assisted me with jobs and going back to college. I also lived in sober living run by the Salvation Army for 4 years which is a REALLY long time
Omg so elated to hear Jessica is still alive and well, I was rly concerned after she revealed having aids bc she seemed so lost at that point i wasn’t even sure whether she had much time left atp. ❤🎉
I always go back and watch this documentary once a month. I still struggle to this day. On and off. You give me hope, Tracy.
I hope you are doing well
I still remember the first time I watched this movie. It was actually the most real documentary I had seen of addiction at that time. I came across it on here. I always wondered what happened to all of the people in the film. Thank you so much for posting this 🖤
Thanks for watching
@@traceyh415. Of course Tracey. You've done so much amazing work for your fellow human beings. I want to thank you for that as well. Your works means so much!
Thanks for taking the time to answer the question 🙂
Thanks for watching
I am almost 4 years clean! I come back to this documentary every once in a while. And I think today is the first day that I was able to watch it without feeling that triggering, gut sinking feeling. I am so happy to see you still clean and i follow alice on instagram!
Wonderful!
Thank you for the update. I would watch this documentary while in active addiction and could relate. I have a year and some change now and relate to this on a whole different level now. Sad to hear some didn't make it, very happy to hear that you and a few others did.
Thank you 🙏🏾 for your contribution to the film and helping raise awareness about the issues people dealing with substance abuse face. I truly feel addiction is not a crime - but more an illness. I hope you continue to have a happy healthy life.
Thank you. I really appreciate you stopping by
Thanks for the update! I am so happy that most of the people are doing ok now. I am actually surprised about Jessica. kudos!!!
I haven’t heard anything about them in awhile
Hello from London, England... Ive watched the documentary and follow your channel... Nice to see you're doing well, but so sad that so many of the people in the film didn't make it!
I am also very sad to have lost so many friends and lovers
@@traceyh415. Tracy, I actually travelled down the West Coast of the United States at around April/May 2000... After working in BC Canada from September 1999... I arrived in Vancouver from the U.K and the drug problem was quite serious...
As I traveled down the West Coast, from Vancouver to Seattle and then onto San Francisco and finally L.A, it was clear that many of the cities I visited had a massive Heroin addiction problem... I recall speaking to someone about it who responded that this tends to happen in Post Cities... Although I was not really well informed, I could see that there was a serious issue with Heroin addiction down the West Coast: loads of needles on the streets etc etc... I only watched Black Tar Heroin around 10 years ago and now follow you on RUclips...
It's great to see you came out of your addiction alive, but I guess you now carry a torch for those you lost....
Keep safe and well!
Thank you so much Tracy! I’m so happy for you. This documentary was my favorite along with “Brian on the Blvd”.
I haven’t heard of that one
Even tho the only recent pic of Jessica was 2016, I'm so happy that they are still alive. Congrats Tracey on 25 years! That's amazing. Can u send positive vibes my way? I'm currently addicted to IV Dilaudid and meth. I want to get sober and stay sober
You can do it!
Hey Tracy, thank you for posting this. My name is Jake and I am actually featured in this film. My mother is Michele, the one who had Oreo babysit her son. I am the son. I’d love to connect with you!
Does your mom still live in MN?
@@traceyh415. She did for many years. Only within the last few years has she moved back to Oregon, where I have lived since moving in with my grandma at about 6 years old.
Watched it today Tracey. Wonderful to see you’re doing well. I’m from the UK where heroin isnt as popular as it is the states, but I imagine watching the prescription pill + fentanyl crisis unfold over the past 2 decades must have been hard to watch/stomach in modern America? Just absolutely tragic. Fuck the Sacklers & fuck fentanyl
Best wishes
Tom
We are very behind in terms of options for folks for addiction
I remember your boyfriend Ben. I recall thinking that you two both seemed so smart and articulate.
Ben had beautiful eyes and lashes, i remember that too! :)
So happy you're doing well!
Hey, Tracey! One of my favorite docs.
Hi 👋
@@traceyh415. Are you familiar with the HBO doc, "Life of Crime"?
I saw "Jessica" circa 2010 in the TL. I put the name in quotes because he/she doesnt identify as Jessica no more. Shes been on hotmone therapy and looks alot different.
Yes their name is Danny
Thanks for update, I'm not from USA but i related to it as i ws In addiction over 7yrs back. I just come off methadone an it ws hard for a month, no energy, hard sleeping, couldn't eat an ws depressed. I've known countess people who hav passed, miracle I'm still here as i used on my own alot. I long story short : tried unaliving myslef with big hit an went to a pitch black void, i didn't hav a body, couldn't see nothing but it felt so huge I couldn't comprehend it, heard an old friend's voice who unalived herself then came Back. 2 week's later I took it all in an stopped using, i thought I wanted to go but it scared the crap outa me. Probly told you already, trust me it ws real, being conscious still is a very scary realisation!
Wow
Like #100! Thank you for the update, Tracey.
Like 101. 🥳👍
I have such a weird story from when I first saw this doc. It was one of the most if not the most forward and fly on the wall for this style of content that I've ever seen. When I paired the situation with what we were watching I noticed I was being groomed into participating as the documentary playing was loud enough that it felt like it was a character irl. Haven't seen that girl since and I no longer watch these types of documentaries as I don't want to gaslight myself into that as an option for myself. You're a rockstar girliee
Great to see Oreo doing good.
Yes indeed
i was actually thinking about that about a year ago, i came across the doc. again and i was like: i wonder if any of them are still alive, and i kinda figured some of the ones who did initially survive are gone, isnt Alice still a dancer / model? i could have sworn she, became a dancer or such? sorry memory is fuzzy. sad ben died, but at least yall made amends, that i hope gives you some peace. congrats, keep on keepin' on.
you guys should meet up for a 25-year follow-up even if only on zoom. You Tracey, Alice, Oreo, and "Jessica."
hell yeah, she should do a podcast or group live stream in youtube !
I'm from the Bay area. I used to watch this movie all the time. I used to wander around SF in the middle of the night n sht too. Horrible life to live. I hated it. I feel like it really is evil and the whole lifestyle is evil. I finally decided to change my life and now I have god in my life. I used to hate the idea of a higher power but I get it now. Being born again changes your soul and you realize that isn't the way god wants you to live. I will never touch that shit again. I'm in my 30s im wayyy too old to be running around like that. Thanks for shining the light on addiction.
Good for you for getting yourself together
Hi Tracey, I knew you'd make it out of that struggle from the very first time I watched the movie, specially when u talked about wanting to have a baby out of that lifestyle.
How did it go, Did you ever get married? Any kids?
Blessings and hats off from Costa Rica
I’m married w three kids
Have you ever knew people that had health problems from the needle? Cause lately ive been addicted for almost 8 years and now my health has been feeling like its failing, my chests and head hurt every day that i can't take it anymore, watching you in this movie makes me wanna go sober but its so hard,
Only asking all these people I see addicted act like they are okay and from my experience, being addicted that long is causing pain, and not withdrawal pain
❤
Teresa as well, do you know if she ever got clean? she was pretty far gone, she also had a lot of skin deterioration from muscling it, i knew far too many people as well who had got wrapped up in drugs and other addiction and it destroyed them, as well as hurt those around them, so awesome to keep seeing you, a true success story, who is also helping others, i wish there were more.
I don’t know. It’s been 26 years since I’ve seen her
@@traceyh415. oh okay, well i do hope if she is still alive she is doing better.
Teresa was gnarly!! That was truly shocking to see.
what happened to Lars? and Jennifer, you know the one who had the skin lesions because she muscled it so much due to burned out veins, is she still around or did she die as well?
I don’t know
@@traceyh415. ah well, to be fair there was quite a few just in the group alone that was filmed, plus the many others that were in the area, i wish we had folks up in the kensington area in PA to actively help, that area is bad , i mean, its beyond words.
I was wondering about them too.
🙏👁
For christmas i’d like to give Nike socks and Adidas shoes.
How the hell did you end up getting out of the scene and going to University if you have a criminal record. Everyone I have ever known was unable to get a job, house or education with a rap sheet. I'm guessing you had supportive family with money or structure to help?
I went through numerous ex offenders programs that assisted me with jobs and going back to college. I also lived in sober living run by the Salvation Army for 4 years which is a REALLY long time
In 25 years I've never had a friend or even heard of someone get that help. You were lucky. Well done.
Nice to see you.
Omg so elated to hear Jessica is still alive and well, I was rly concerned after she revealed having aids bc she seemed so lost at that point i wasn’t even sure whether she had much time left atp. ❤🎉
Once anti retrovirals came out, it gave a lot of folks with HIV a real chance at survival