Damn I just wanted to say thanks for your video(s)! I got diagnosed with cyclothymia recently, more mild but there are definitely some similarities. It's actually inspiring to witness your process in it and how you have new realizations, also about what misconceptions about life you have :)
Thanks for your comment and for sharing your experience as well. I know how difficult and life-interrupting cyclothymia can be. Im really sorry you have to deal with that. I'm glad you got something out of watching and would be curious if you've experienced any similar realizations or misconceptions you've experienced through your journey with this. I wish you all the healing possible!
Thank you so much for your honesty. I can feel how genuine you are. Your vulnerability and transparency is inspiring. Thank you for educating us too! ♥️
I came here,for support. As a Rapid Cycler,I think I told you) last time.....I will forever suffer breakthrough symptoms. I've spent most of the day after days on a high, now very low....RIVERS WAVES OF TEARS... Started by being frustrated by being on looking for Adias joggers online I couldn't find......Sometimes I don't know wtf ....my brain goes into a snapsnosysis .....unsure is of my grammar as I'm unwell....But my spelling is high level, & I'm a good writer I love to try poems / poetry when possible. I get what you mean when you mentioned at one point family distance,my younger brother completely has disowned me calling me crazy" & abusive" & many more lovely heartwarming adjectives to warm ones bipolar soul! 😂😂😂🤔🤷♀️😰😰😰Ok,listen I tend to go two ways w these things ........first I get manic & defensive ! & fire off back. Then feel quilty & depressed as we ( he's normal" wtf that is!) no one is) are both stubborn being Canadian & 1/2 British ppl.The fam fight has been going on for MONTHS .....MOST PAINFUL PART?? MY BIRTHDAY IS JULY 20 special birthday milestone ....MADE IT TO 60! SURVIVED & ALIVE HE AS FAR AS IM HEARING THOUGH HE LIVES 3 hr drive always) NEVER WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN" ANOTHER MILESTONE JULY 25 HIS BIRTHDAY he will be 50 sure won't want me around!! It's sim not just the birthdays though they are nice bc our parents of course passed yrs ago. Sad we're not even getting on for that! I've always been a big hearted giving person animal lover love my rock music love fashion too love crystals & jewellery find it healing. Perhaps instead of our mall, I should go back to our lovely crystal / sorta Boho hippie but run by great nice peeps.check their website. Stuff is $$ buy it sure is lovely & cheers me up. I've a friend, but he's a professional that's all I can say he's a lovely person ....but he's very married. But he's agreed to be phone friend when possible. Best man ever we clicked perfect. That's all I can say bc of privacy reasons.Am in love? Yes. How long ? Years I've known. But I know the diff between right / wrong never break up anyone's marriage! I'm not Christian but NO!! I'm used to bad boys that treated me like shit like no Birthday nor Xmas gifts. Even abuse,both kinds. Sadly ,latter kind I couldn't report bc if I did my fam would be killed! I've survived also a huge fire a ectopic pregnancy........many many yrs of drug abuse ( all) & drink illicit Darkness days & the darkess nights. I've tried to end my feeling like I was posssed by Satan ( the RCBP) many many times not just tablets cutting too No, This isn't written for a pity party. It's more a WARNING FOR ANYONE ESP RAPID CYCLING ..........PLEASE TAKE THIS ILLNESS SERIOUS it's no JOKE not LIKE SOME MOVIE ITS THIS DARK DEMONS IN YOUR MIND IM NOT TRYING TO SCARE YOU WELL MAYBE) TO NOT USE DOPE ON TOP OF THIS MENTAL JUNGLE LISTEN MY PSYCH GAVE ME THE HIGHEST LEVEL COMLIMENT! HE ASKED IF WE COULD RECORD OUR SKPE SESSIONS. WHEN I ASKED WHY? HIS ANSWER STOPPED ME FLAT BC IVE NEVER MET, IVE TRAVELLED ALL OVER THE WORLD WORKING W BIPOLAR PATIENTS MET SOMEONE SO SELF AWARE KNEW HER COPING SKILLS WHAT THE RULES WERE" MOST OF ALL HOW ARTICULATE YOU DESCRIBE YOUR BP EPISODES : I'd say for ex. Mania....it's coming with a symbolic Lightning Crash! Thunder! Giant balls of hail! FIRE BURNING IN THE GATES OF HELL I FEEL LIKE I NEED A EXCORCISM! Then after no running around like I'm zapped on speed I crash....BLAH. Da blues. I'm sleepy. No energy. Cannot even pee No interest in my beloved normal things not even much for kitty though she attempts to nurse me as a kitten though she's a full adult. I hate my life. Breathing is an effort. Depression sucks When I'm most vulnerable( also I get w that time usually comes my PTSD) Ok. Excuse exceptionally lengthy post! Your a angel Writing is my healing grace this is a safe spot & your so right. It's always ok to cry sending Love 💔⭐️⭐️⭐️😂😂😂😂😂🤔😰😰😰🔮🔮❤️😭❤️❤️❤️😉😉😉😉😉😉 FYI so happy your well! ROCKSTAR!!! .
I love how optimistic u are about the medicine working as a 49 year old woman I wish I could say that medicine has helped me through my bipolar but unfortunately that isn’t the case sometimes I wish I could just find that right dose of whatever but for some it doesn’t always work for the better with that being said I do believe that therapy and having a support system of people who love u in spite of the mental illness is the number one factor in living a healthy normal life cause what is normal anyways I have yet to find anyone who is completely normal if they seem normal it’s usually because they don’t have emotions or lack empathy and to me I’d rather be the way I am the no be normal I would t have learned nearly as much about myself or the world anyways sorry for the run on sentences I have issues with it’s punctuation in comment sections lol keep being u and dont let anyone tell u that u are not worthy of your normal life whatever that is to u and spread the love cause it will heal the world one day
This is such a beautiful comment. "I have yet to find anyone who is completely normal," so true. Empathy, empathy will heal the world. I'm sorry that you haven't found medication that works but am so happy that you have therapy and support systems. 🤍
Good on you. I have videos that I can’t bring myself to put up. They would be extremely educational and supportive. But I just can’t bring myself to post them
I completely understand that, sharing isn’t the right choice for everyone. But if you do decide to, I know it would help a lot of people. Whatever is your process/is right for you in your life is great and you don’t owe publishing to anyone!
I'm in the middle of my thesis as well and also in the middle of my treatment for BD 2. What a coincidence. Great to see it worked out for you then!! Greetings from Germany :)
Oh geez, sending you my thoughts and support. It was NOT easy but I got through it and you can too. Trying to get on a regular sleep schedule is the most helpful thing to focus on with blue light glasses in the afternoon and melatonin gummies. You'll figure it out, you got this! Cool that you're all the way from Germany!
Thanks for sharing some of your personal story. How did the thesis land up going? I’m sure, successfully. Hope you’ve been keeping well and that 2021 is a great one for you. Onward and upward 🖤
I too suffer from bipolar 2. I was wondering what meds are working for you? I’m still trying to find something that works I was on seroquel but I gained so much weight I had to go off it. 😩
I'm sorry you have it too. I am on an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer. At the end of the day, every body is so different that really only a doctor can help figure it out. I hope you find your right solution!
Can they sim lower the dose or if your on something else ? Just be honest about how you feel w your Dr I'm sure you'll work something out. Then lowered dose you can maybe work on portion control? I don't know throwing ideas out there worked for me way ago I've always been thin until one antipsychotic shit I'm not sure which I put on 40 lbs you don't mean to Body is really hungry!!! Once I actually realized that,I demanded off that Med try another. My Dr fourtunately for me agreed. I,am a vegetarian who eats eggs & occasionally some fish Terrayaki Salmon home coked w bunch veggies & big fat sweet potato is yumm But, I'm not eating that bc my ass from orgot to dethaw it Typical Distracted MATES!!!!🤔💃💃💃💃😺😺😺😺😺😺😺😂😂😉😉😉😉😉⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Byeeee Besties!!!!
I have a family history of it, so that helped. I had been doing talk therapy for a while and my therapist recommended I see a psychiatrist. That made me remember the family history and then I got the formal diagnosis.
So glad you found medication that helped. Hope you are still ok 2 years later xx
you remind me of who i want to be and the kind of people i want to meet. your experience gives me a new brand of hope, thank you.
Please share more video about your experience with bipolar 2, it helped me!
I will! I am so glad they help people, I may just have to do another update. I am so glad it helped. ❤️
Damn I just wanted to say thanks for your video(s)! I got diagnosed with cyclothymia recently, more mild but there are definitely some similarities. It's actually inspiring to witness your process in it and how you have new realizations, also about what misconceptions about life you have :)
Thanks for your comment and for sharing your experience as well. I know how difficult and life-interrupting cyclothymia can be. Im really sorry you have to deal with that. I'm glad you got something out of watching and would be curious if you've experienced any similar realizations or misconceptions you've experienced through your journey with this. I wish you all the healing possible!
Thank you so much for your honesty. I can feel how genuine you are. Your vulnerability and transparency is inspiring. Thank you for educating us too! ♥️
Please keep making videos !! Your channel is so helpful. Its like seeing into myself.
Thank you! I was just thinking recently that it is about time for a check in so I will work on that 💕 wishing you all the best
Hey, I'm new to the club as well. Love watching these videos. Sounds very similar to my senior thesis situation lol. Hope you keep staying well. 🙏
I am so glad I am not the only one haha it all starts to make so much sense when you get the diagnosis. I am well and hope you are too!
I came here,for support. As a Rapid Cycler,I think I told you) last time.....I will forever suffer breakthrough symptoms. I've spent most of the day after days on a high, now very low....RIVERS WAVES OF TEARS...
Started by being frustrated by being on looking for Adias joggers online I couldn't find......Sometimes I don't know wtf ....my brain goes into a snapsnosysis .....unsure is of my grammar as I'm unwell....But my spelling is high level, & I'm a good writer I love to try poems / poetry when possible.
I get what you mean when you mentioned at one point family distance,my younger brother completely has disowned me calling me crazy" & abusive" & many more lovely heartwarming adjectives to warm ones bipolar soul! 😂😂😂🤔🤷♀️😰😰😰Ok,listen I tend to go two ways w these things ........first I get manic & defensive ! & fire off back.
Then feel quilty & depressed as we ( he's normal" wtf that is!) no one is) are both stubborn being Canadian & 1/2 British ppl.The fam fight has been going on for MONTHS .....MOST PAINFUL PART??
MY BIRTHDAY IS JULY 20 special birthday milestone ....MADE IT TO 60!
SURVIVED & ALIVE
HE AS FAR AS IM HEARING THOUGH HE LIVES 3 hr drive always) NEVER WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN"
ANOTHER MILESTONE JULY 25 HIS BIRTHDAY he will be 50 sure won't want me around!!
It's sim not just the birthdays though they are nice bc our parents of course passed yrs ago.
Sad we're not even getting on for that!
I've always been a big hearted giving person animal lover love my rock music love fashion too love crystals & jewellery find it healing.
Perhaps instead of our mall, I should go back to our lovely crystal / sorta Boho hippie but run by great nice peeps.check their website. Stuff is $$ buy it sure is lovely & cheers me up.
I've a friend, but he's a professional that's all I can say he's a lovely person ....but he's very married.
But he's agreed to be phone friend when possible. Best man ever we clicked perfect. That's all I can say bc of privacy reasons.Am in love? Yes. How long ? Years I've known. But I know the diff between right / wrong never break up anyone's marriage! I'm not Christian but NO!!
I'm used to bad boys that treated me like shit like no Birthday nor Xmas gifts.
Even abuse,both kinds.
Sadly ,latter kind I couldn't report bc if I did my fam would be killed!
I've survived also a huge fire a ectopic pregnancy........many many yrs of drug abuse ( all) & drink illicit
Darkness days & the darkess nights.
I've tried to end my feeling like I was posssed by Satan ( the RCBP) many many times not just tablets cutting too
No,
This isn't written for a pity party.
It's more a WARNING FOR ANYONE ESP RAPID CYCLING ..........PLEASE TAKE THIS ILLNESS SERIOUS
it's no JOKE not LIKE SOME MOVIE ITS THIS DARK DEMONS IN YOUR MIND
IM NOT TRYING TO SCARE YOU WELL MAYBE) TO NOT USE DOPE ON TOP OF THIS MENTAL JUNGLE
LISTEN MY PSYCH GAVE ME THE HIGHEST LEVEL COMLIMENT! HE ASKED IF WE COULD RECORD OUR SKPE SESSIONS. WHEN I ASKED WHY? HIS ANSWER STOPPED ME FLAT
BC IVE NEVER MET, IVE TRAVELLED ALL OVER THE WORLD WORKING W BIPOLAR PATIENTS
MET SOMEONE SO SELF AWARE KNEW HER COPING SKILLS WHAT THE RULES WERE" MOST OF ALL HOW ARTICULATE YOU DESCRIBE YOUR BP EPISODES : I'd say for ex. Mania....it's coming with a symbolic Lightning
Crash! Thunder!
Giant balls of hail! FIRE BURNING IN THE GATES OF HELL I FEEL LIKE I NEED A EXCORCISM!
Then after no running around like I'm zapped on speed I crash....BLAH.
Da blues.
I'm sleepy.
No energy.
Cannot even pee
No interest in my beloved normal things not even much for kitty though she attempts to nurse me as a kitten though she's a full adult.
I hate my life.
Breathing is an effort.
Depression sucks
When I'm most vulnerable( also I get w that time usually comes my PTSD)
Ok.
Excuse exceptionally lengthy post!
Your a angel
Writing is my healing grace this is a safe spot & your so right.
It's always ok to cry sending
Love 💔⭐️⭐️⭐️😂😂😂😂😂🤔😰😰😰🔮🔮❤️😭❤️❤️❤️😉😉😉😉😉😉 FYI so happy your well! ROCKSTAR!!!
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Thank you for sharing your experience and being vulnerable - it’s bad-A 😉 and helps the rest of us 💛
You seem to be someone really interesting, I hope you keep going with the channel
Thank you so much! The support means a lot and I will definitely keep going
I love how optimistic u are about the medicine working as a 49 year old woman I wish I could say that medicine has helped me through my bipolar but unfortunately that isn’t the case sometimes I wish I could just find that right dose of whatever but for some it doesn’t always work for the better with that being said I do believe that therapy and having a support system of people who love u in spite of the mental illness is the number one factor in living a healthy normal life cause what is normal anyways I have yet to find anyone who is completely normal if they seem normal it’s usually because they don’t have emotions or lack empathy and to me I’d rather be the way I am the no be normal I would t have learned nearly as much about myself or the world anyways sorry for the run on sentences I have issues with it’s punctuation in comment sections lol keep being u and dont let anyone tell u that u are not worthy of your normal life whatever that is to u and spread the love cause it will heal the world one day
This is such a beautiful comment. "I have yet to find anyone who is completely normal," so true. Empathy, empathy will heal the world. I'm sorry that you haven't found medication that works but am so happy that you have therapy and support systems. 🤍
Good on you. I have videos that I can’t bring myself to put up. They would be extremely educational and supportive. But I just can’t bring myself to post them
I completely understand that, sharing isn’t the right choice for everyone. But if you do decide to, I know it would help a lot of people. Whatever is your process/is right for you in your life is great and you don’t owe publishing to anyone!
I'm in the middle of my thesis as well and also in the middle of my treatment for BD 2. What a coincidence. Great to see it worked out for you then!! Greetings from Germany :)
Oh geez, sending you my thoughts and support. It was NOT easy but I got through it and you can too. Trying to get on a regular sleep schedule is the most helpful thing to focus on with blue light glasses in the afternoon and melatonin gummies. You'll figure it out, you got this! Cool that you're all the way from Germany!
Right there with you.
Thanks for sharing some of your personal story. How did the thesis land up going? I’m sure, successfully. Hope you’ve been keeping well and that 2021 is a great one for you. Onward and upward 🖤
Thank you so much :') Got the thesis passed and graduated the honors college! I hope 2021 is great for you too.
@@SophieMurrayVideos Awesome to hear! Congratulations! Thank you for the wishes. All the best and keep well 🙂
Thanks for sharing🙏🏽
Thanks for listening 💚
I love you😘
What types of meds do you take?
I take an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer
I too suffer from bipolar 2. I was wondering what meds are working for you? I’m still trying to find something that works I was on seroquel but I gained so much weight I had to go off it. 😩
I'm sorry you have it too. I am on an antidepressant and a mood stabilizer. At the end of the day, every body is so different that really only a doctor can help figure it out. I hope you find your right solution!
@@SophieMurrayVideos true!!
Can they sim lower the dose or if your on something else ? Just be honest about how you feel w your Dr I'm sure you'll work something out. Then lowered dose you can maybe work on portion control? I don't know throwing ideas out there worked for me way ago
I've always been thin until one antipsychotic shit I'm not sure which I put on 40 lbs you don't mean to
Body is really hungry!!!
Once I actually realized that,I demanded off that Med try another.
My Dr fourtunately for me agreed.
I,am a vegetarian who eats eggs & occasionally some fish
Terrayaki Salmon home coked w bunch veggies & big fat sweet potato is yumm
But, I'm not eating that bc my ass from orgot to dethaw it
Typical
Distracted MATES!!!!🤔💃💃💃💃😺😺😺😺😺😺😺😂😂😉😉😉😉😉⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Byeeee Besties!!!!
How did you understand that you are bipolar?
I have a family history of it, so that helped. I had been doing talk therapy for a while and my therapist recommended I see a psychiatrist. That made me remember the family history and then I got the formal diagnosis.
@@SophieMurrayVideos thank you!