Collin, if you ever need to talk, then TALK. We will listen, some may judge, but most will just listen. If that doesn't work talk to Otis, he will listen and will not judge.
I hope the joy you both bring to me and your 100s of viewers, helps to bring joy to your mind. Take care and continue to both enjoy your amazing life adventures 🙂
Wow. I lost good friend few years back. Never ever expected it. I learned it could happen to any one. Some one suggested Ottis could help. I'm no expert but that seems like a really good idea.
It's wonderful to see so many caring people in our Foxes Afloat Community. We see two genuinely nice guy's, Colin & Shaun, & we've taken them to our heart's. So many trauma's going on in this world, that it's so lovely that we have compassion for each other, as we follow Foxes Afloat, & their adventures. Yes, it is a Foxes Afloat Community.
Holy crap, that title turned my blood to ice and brought tears to my eyes. Colin, I think I speak for you entire audience when I say that we wish we could do more than just say we care. Even if that's it, know that you have people who love you, all over the world, even if you've never met us.
Colin, I can empathize. I got fed up with myself and suicide seemed not just an easy way out but even an attractive solution. I survived a massive drugs overdose. Notice I did not say fortunately because I eventually woke up with maybe more problems than before and I still have severe bouts of depression. If I tell you I like hearing from you about your travels (and problems), and if I tell you I find Shaun a real tonic with his infectious laughter, and that Otis is a great pooch, then maybe you will realize how important and needed you are to so many people. Stick around mate, we all need you. As always to all. xxx
Sometimes you just can't TALK. Write yourself letters. I did that when I was on the brink (laid off, my children would be better off without me (with life insurance money), pity party, I am not good enough for anyone). Not something that can be conveyed to ANYONE. I am glad you hung around again, Colin. You are an amazing videographer. Connecting with high earth is extremely beneficial. Virtual hugs from Florida!
You will never know how many people you may have helped talking so simply and honestly about your mental health. Would love to hear how those closest to you cope during those times. Take care and talk anytime, you have many friends out here you will never meet. But we are here.
I know that loving and caring about a person can't carry them through the dark valleys they walk. I can't comprehend that darkness. Just know that you are cared for by many and loved greatly by Shaun and family. You would be a huge loss to many of us. You have touched more lives and don't realize the care that there is for you. Stay safe.
I just wanted to thank you for your honesty and to tell you it has given me some peace in a way. My brother took his life 18 months ago. And all that time I have been berating myself for failing him. Why did he leave me why didn't he let me help. If only.. your honesty has made me realise he didn't leave me he left the pain and agony he felt. He didn't reach for me because he was overwhelmed. I will always miss him but maybe now I can start to live with his choice. Maybe also I can offer you something too. There is a third choice in the burning building: take the fireman's hand or jump into his net. Don't be scared to take the hands held out to you. They belong to the people who love you and they are strong. You won't pull them into your agony , they will just hold on to you until you find your way back. This world is a wonderful place but better for you in it. Long may silver fox cruise the cut with her wonderful honest caring crew. And thank you.
I'm so sorry to hear about your brother and that he felt so desperate to be at peace. I'm 100% sure you didn't fail him and that he didn't want you to hurt either. 💜
Have lived with anxiety, panic attacks, feeling I am different, 'not in a good way' for just over 60years now. During that time I have felt that I have let myself and others down by not being 'normal'. Have thought more than once, it would be better for the people I let down due to my fears, if I wasn't here. Then I managed to push the thoughts into the cupboard at the back of my mind and lock the door. Then all is well again until the next time something opens the bloody door again. Love your honesty and always love your vlogs, brightens my day. Lovely just lovely. Thank you and best wishes
We will listen Colin. Pardon the pun,but you have a literal boatload of people who will be there for you. Every Friday you let us into your life teach us some interesting history, make laugh, make us cry, and allow us to travel to places some of us will never be fortunate to see. Please reach out.
@@FoxesAfloat when you shared the manchester episode and shared how much support there is for LGBTq+ people there and everywhere, i literally cried SOOO much, tears of joy, tears of pain, tears of living a life in denial. Honestly that episode was one of the handful of things that helped me finally accept and be open about my sexuality and I finally came out to a friend in real life, toward the end of pride month. It also helped me accept I dont fit the stereotypical gender binary, and now I am growing more than ever and exploring my gender identity. Your videos have brought me so so so much joy and happiness! its helped me accept myself. and seeing y'alls amazing relationship has helped me accept my own bisexuality! What I am trying to say is... THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart! Love you!
Oh my dear, as someone who suffers with PTSD and Suicidal ideation, along with anxiety, I could not have put in to words what I feel in that moment the way you have. It is hard to talk to people who don't understand that trapped feeling.. I am happy you were able to dig out of that hole and are still here. Much love and support from Minnesota
Dear Colin, wow, I just felt part of my heart would be lost had you left us…. I cried while hearing your words and it was good to hear you also say you want to live. You are such a light in our world! Thank you so much for the explanation of how you felt and the analogy of the bldg on fire, that helps so much to understand it. I have no expertise or words to help but want to send love and light and let you know I, like so many others, am so glad you’re here. It makes me wonder if the energy of the city is also too much…. It’s too much for me sometimes and I don’t have issues as you. You love the outdoors and nature so much… it soothes and feeds your soul clearly. Shaun and Otis love you so much and although I understand love isn’t enough at times I’m hopeful it’s a thread to hold on to when needed. 💕💜💕
I have been there too Colin and got through it. As you say you can have plenty of people around you but unless you have been there it’s very hard for them to really understand how someone really feels and what they are going through. It’s good to talk to others that have had similar experiences of dark times and how they have got through them and spot the signs early on to avoid falling backwards again. Stay strong and enjoy your life.
Otis “perched” on Shawn’s shoulder is a nice touch. Colin, you have no idea how glad I am that you made it through your difficult time. You are loved by far more people than you can imagine and the world would be a sadder place without you. Please reach out when you feel like that. Even if it feels impossible you’re a strong human and can do it.
Colin, Sorry to hear that you were having another deep depression, glad to hear you’re feeling better again. Many, many people are supportive of you (and Shaun and Otis). You bring so much joy to many of us through your videos. As well, your honest discussions help to bring some understanding of people who suffer with similar issues. I am truly very appreciative of this insight. It means more to me than I could ever explain. I am so thankful that you are here to continue to spread your message and to share in the wonderful videos. Wishing you, Shaun and Otis all the best!
Dear Colin. Thank you for your honest account of the ravages of depression. I suffer as well. And, I continue to fight that black dog - and, stare it down. There is no need to defeat the depression. It exists. But, I let the black dog pass, watch its path, and try to steer clear when it tries to grab me into its maw. One day at a time. Much love to you and Sean. Thank you for the love you share to all of us who follow and subscribe.
Hey guys I’m a 19 year old from Leeds, honestly you guys have created the most amazing peace full space in my head as I suffer from depression since I was 17-18 I struggled with things you help me find my space and and my zone love you both so much and I can’t wait to get my own boat stay safe you funky boaters Collin and Shaun you make me so happy you need to talk we, us, I am here for you whenever
The world’s a better place for having the both of you in it, you share this wonderful journey with, like most of us, the ups and downs of life but of course on this world forum of RUclips which is testament to your honesty and the way you do life. “Wow” factor as always with your photography Colin. The placement of your camera while walking to the castle, the drone footage was marvellous. Also, a new noticeable inclusion of extra “Otis” shots which really enhances your vlogs and our happiness in seeing more of him...take care🤗
Collin, so many people who bring joy to others are troubled themselves. I am so thankful that you were able to get past this rough spot on the path of your life and that you are still here with us! The world would miss your laugh and smile and, right now, we all need all the help, smiles and laughter we can get!
Tony, you have an excellent point there, "so many people who bring joy to others are troubled themselves." and another one immediately following it, "I am so thankful that you were able to get past this rough spot on the path of your life and that you are still here with us!"
Onward & upwards springs to mind. Sharing your feelings was a great thing to do & shows you have strength too, with loving support from Shawn as well as 114K family members. 🥰
Thank you for talking about mental health, Colin. I’ve been in that very dark place, the pain is overwhelming. So very glad you got through it, you are so valued and appreciated!
Boys, I've loved all the vids you have produced. I'm an Army veteran with mental health ill heath. Don't be ashamed, don't be fearful. No one is ashamed of a broken leg..........Issuing some love. x
Colin... there are no words that can be expressed to describe your experience & what you are going through! It does sadden me that someone so wonderful as you has to go through what you & not be able to control events! You two must have shed 100's of tears as I can't imagine Shawn without you. I hope Shawn was part of the reason you are still with us... We will hope that each time you encounter this dark space, that you find something... anything... that will pull you back from the precipice & keep you from going over...We can love you infinitely & without condition and yet still not be in control... Love you guys & thanks for sharing the canals with us!!!!!
You took the words right out of my mouth, Kathlique. I know it seems impossible to think of others when you are in that dark and lonely place but I beg of you to think of your loved ones. They do not want to be in the world without you. I lost my dad to suicide when I was 21. It is still pain full everyday. You and Shawn brighten our lives. Keep shining bright! Luv and Hugzs!
Collin - my twin brother had depression all of his life. He could never explain why, it just was. It was difficult for me to understand his depression. All I could do was to be there for him. Glad to hear that you made through yours safely. Best regards, Jerry
I am glad to hear that you are able to express your feeling on a public forum. The face of mental health is for the most part hidden by the weight of embarrassment, and the lack of acceptance by the community. Unfortunately the amount of time and money given to this type of health care is affected by the same perceptions, bringing out into the public will help show that there is not only a need for mental health care, but also it is not to be feared. Thank you for your willingness to be counted and I do hope that by doing so you are benefiting from this exposure and release of feelings.
These two give me hope I can have a good life. I am 14, autistic and gay living with a homophobic family so no chance of coming out. Can't wait until i am 18.
Oh Colin, one very small consolation at times of extreme despair might be the absolute joy you bring to goofballs like myself who laugh along with you and Shaun and enjoy the hell out of vicariously cruising the canals of the UK. One day I hope to get my hubby over the Pond to visit. Love to you, Shaun and Otis!
God love you Colin 💚 i saved someone from suicide 3 years ago - i still to this day don’t understand why he tried to do it , I’ve tried to understand , i really have , but what you said about a burning building made a lot of sense to me now - thank you 💚 Beautiful scenery as usual, and i shouted TRAAAAAIIIIIN with you 😂😂 … much love to you Colin 🥰 to you both 🥰😘
Struggling with mental health is exhausting. Like yourself I find when I have an episode it does eventually get better I just ride it out until I come to the other side. No rhyme or reason why it comes and goes like it does. Wish you long life and happiness and the strength to keep on going. Thanks for sharing I can relate. Love your videos the scenery and greenery really soothing…
Firstly: I'm so grateful you felt able to talk to us about how you were feeling. You can always talk to us. I'm so glad and grateful that you're in this world and that you're vlogging. We love watching every week. Secondly: I assume that "to have a skinful" would have come from when alcohol was carried in pouches which would have been made back then from animal skins. I'm not 100% certain but it seems the logical explanation.
Hi, Guys! Colin, on the morning I viewed this video, I had awakened with the same thoughts stream you experienced. I 100% agree when we're in this way, "talking to someone" seems pointless. We cannot see any hope on the horizon and, yes, it feels as if our family and friends would benefit from our absence. When you spoke these words, I began to weep. It was as if your words described precisely what I was feeling. All at once, I knew if you could hang on and ride it out, I could, too. The very next day, I felt so much better! It takes tremendous bravery to speak about this and know this: Your words may have saved lives. Kisses to you, Shaun, and Otis from Southern California. XOXO
Bless you Colin and Shaun, I've learnt over the years, 66 this week! Angels come in all flavours and backgrounds. So please stay here on earth as long as possible, there's more than enough in Heaven. ❤
Colin you are a brave man to fight through those overwhelming feelings to get to the other side where the sun shines again and sitting on top of hill on a castle wall brings you joy. Shaun, you are a brave man to take the journey with this lovely man who occasionally gets lost in his wilderness of darkness. I so admire you both and love that you return to us with a smile, wonderful historical stories and joyful silly jokes. I always love your outtakes that make me grin and sometimes laugh loudly out loud. I send you both much love and light. I am grateful for you both - Lucy
SO much I love about Foxes Afloat Shaun's laughter The wonderful history lessons The amazing wildlife photography Colin's openness about mental health Shaun's ability to love through difficult 'mental health' episodes. (It's not easy to be the one watching the suffering) The traaaiiiiins! The boats Adorable Otis The goofy humor The consistency in getting vlogs posted (it's NOT easy) I could go on & on but I'll just wrap it up with I love y'all. It's been a tough week for 2 people I love who suffer from ptsd & depression but you 2 brought me some perspective & some joy. Thank you!!
Poor little Moorhens. Oh, how desperate you must have felt Colin, thanks for sharing - its impossible to know how you felt but however terrible it must have been at the time just please, please, please remember that there is one thing that is special and it is this, you give us all so much, everyone that knows you, everyone that views your great vlogs, your humour, your knowledge, your enthusiasm, you give, just, "yourself". Remember - there are so many that love you to bits and love to look forward to another vlog. And its not "only" that - its all those things that haven't yet happened in your life that you must live for. Perhaps - how can I put it, perhaps we are only borrowing our life, we might bumble through life and rather like a maze of canals we spend our time taking another unforeseen turn and meeting different people, some who touch our senses more than others, some who you will touch and bring a sparkle even though you might not realise it, different experiences, like your "new" doglet Otis who popped into your life, what will the next ten, the next twenty or 30 years bring, well, many happy times and you must experience them all, you have been given your life by another hand and you must use it to the fullest. If another dark period envelopes you please notice that very tiny glow of light so far off, its not some daft bugger with a torch bringing you more ruddy work, its your life being touched by so many people that love you, that need you and you need to hold that in your sight and watch it grow into a sun soaked time of warmth and superness! In a dark time you just need to cry some and realise that there is so much more to do, people who life you might touch and bring them sparkling moments, and the one or two who flippin' well deserve to be pissed off and you are the one guy to piss 'em off! This is old Frank signing off, and I maintain that at my age there is no point in getting older if you can't be a complete nuisance to at least one person every day! So much to do and enjoy, keep on "bumbling" along young lad!! Smiley face here!!
You are needed. When things get hard, remember how much harder they would be, for the people who love us, if we were no longer there for them. It's easy to forget that we can connect to forces that strengthen us as well as the ones that push us down. I just discovered you two tonight, and I can imagine, Colin, that many people adore you. Their lives would be so much darker, without you in them. Keep finding the sources of light, please.
Colin, even in your darkest hours, you bring a light and a warmth to the world that no-one else can. At the centre of the black hole of your depression is an eternal sun that is a gift to us all.
Collin and Shaun you make my day .I love watching and listening to your videos.You are so in formative about everything.Mental health is something alot of people suffer from.Collin you keep on talking about what ever you want, there are lots of us that love hearing from you no matter what you have to say.I know listening to you talk has helped me .You two and Otis are AWESOME you make my day!!🤗🥰❤️
Honestly, watching you both every Friday is something I look forward to all week. I'm currently writing my Masters Dissertation and if I'm honest, I'm really struggling mentally with the pressures it brings. You two are a brief period of lightness for me every Friday, so thank you.
For the first time in a long time, someone said it right. I struggle every day. No Reem or ryme. Good family behind me. I'm a grandad 👍. I've done wars. Seen terrible things done terrible things , but it's not that. I just feel down sometimes. I'm not alone ❤️ thank you for sharing your pain. Happy Boating, 👍🍻🏴❤️❤️❤️
Even after over twenty five years together, I still have moments Of feeling like that. It has taken me a while to be able to allow someone to hug me as normally I can't handle being touched. You know you have the most beautiful partner in the world but sometimes the desolation gets so bad it feels no one understands. I eventually come back to the living. Then I'm alright again. I try not to think about the possibility of when it will happen. Knowing it will happen. You and Shawn have helped me so much to have something to grip on to, on the days when I'm home alone. My corgi also helps me through the blues and seems to know when I need attention. I know Kevin would agree with me when I say this. We love you both, and feel blessed to have found your channel.
Another great vlog , as for the deep depression and the " let's end it all " I know from personal experience on more than one occasion just how bad it is , you are not in control of your mind, your mind is in control of you and talking about it ( well ,in my case ) makes it worse , glad to see you got through it, stay strong Colin .
"A Skinfull" Is from the bota bag . A container made from goat skin that usually held wine . Dear Colin , so happy your still here w us . The world would be a much sadder , less funny , place without you. Your way with words and your sense of humor is a treat for an old okie .✌🏼💚☕
Colin, it's very much OK to talk about... whatever you want to talk about... your sincerity overflows and it's great that you have both Shaun and RUclips to help you express yourself. Your videos make my life MUCH better, so please keep them up. All best - Peter xxx
Well done both - Colin for speaking out and Shaun for supporting. Been there too, Colin .... mine proved to be chemical imbalance and some pills sorted me, it was a very dark time and all my memories of that time are dark, as if it were winter Whilst in the darkness Colin, do try to keep talking about it and also try to remember (difficult I know, but) you’ve come through the other side of the tunnel before and discovered life was still worth hanging on to - were here for Shaun also, if he needs to unload a bit --- love and hugs xo
I understand your dark days more than I'd like to. You are loved, both of you. I learn so much about history from you. Love the places you visit. You are my eyes and window to the world. Just know you are not alone, I am with you in spirit. You keep me lifted up. 💞
As someone who has struggled with depression all my life, I can say that the effort to stay in the game is made better by having such wonderful folks like you and Shaun in the world. Thank you for all you do 🤗
This is my selfish tiny bit angry comment. All this talk makes me think of Anthony Bourdain. He was my hero. He took me places I'll maybe never get to see and told me things and introduced me to amazing people and a bit about how to navigate the world outside of my bubble. You two do that as well. Every Friday at 4 we get a little bit of adventure and learning and some dirty jokes and bad puns. Bourdain gave up. It got to him. I haven't been able to watch a moment of him since. We al love you and Shaun and Otis and Dillon and the Silver Fox and this lovely thing you've created. Make the thing that comes to your head first be, "Don't quit now- there's magic left to do."
Colin, I admire you for being so courageous in sharing your experiences with us. I lost an older brother to suicide, and I've had my own struggles. The more people share these things, the more of us know that we're not alone, our depression and anxiety are lying to us, and that it really will get better. It's a journey worth the taking. Please keep right on talking with us. Giant squeezy hug coming your way from Boulder! One for Shaun too. The two of you warm my heart and make me smile!
Collin, Thankyou for your honest sharing. Right now, there are many people feeling hopeless as the world seems so crazy, but for those who experience brain chemical depression, it’s a double whammy. You are taking the stigma away from it, and someone will listen to your words and know they are not alone in their experience. Blessings for you and Sean and Otis...love your vlogs!
I was so sorry to hear about your recent rough time but I am SO GLAD that you got past it. Feel free to talk to the collective "us" any time you need to. Another great vlog and again so nice to see you both so happy. Take care of yourself and each other.
Colin, You were open and honest about how you felt and that took courage to share. I have a lot of time and respect for you! The recording footage is very professional and Otis is a "Star". Colin is a good guy and you all make a great team. The content is brilliant and educational. You have had over 83,000 views and your comments on mental health and sharing are so true, and those words resonate with a lot of us out there. I am so glad your still with us and you make a difference. Talking is good, and the comment about Otis listening is so unconditional. The walks are good for you. Thanks again for sharing and stay safe and healthy. All the best Mike.
You’re a lovely couple, you really are. Collin, I know that feeling you had, that place you were in. Talk to us, talk to anyone but ultimately always look after your mental health first. Everything good will follow.
Hi Colin and Shaun, I am just so captivated by your videos and lifestyle. I marvel at your courage to leave everything behind and embrace a big change that you embarked on and are living today. I am nearly half way through your videos but playing them randomly. Stumbled upon this one today. Colin, your courage to be open about your struggles is very commendable. Makes me feel proud of you. I am currently going through a difficult time in my life and your videos are a soothing and a calming experience to make me feel comfortable and in peace.. Thank you so much for being there for us. Soon enough I will become a patreon to give it back. Thank you for the amazing content, clever film-making, wonderful narrative and the historical and geographical twist along the journey. You hand picked music is very symphonic and in tune with everything that you show us as well. Having had a partner(with autism in the family) for 5 years from Littleborough(Rochdale Canal) near Manchester and Yorkshire, made me fall also fall in love with the canals of the North and the boats. That's how I found you here on YT. I literally know that area inside out but you were still able to add more to my knowledge. I will be waiting for you "chaps" to make your way into that canal and also show us a bit of "Hebden Bridge" through your eyes. Thank you once again for all the love, enthusiasm and joy you give us. This was my way of talking to you and it certainly helped me. You are never alone. Hope this feedback helps you back.
So glad i found your channel when i need cheering up your channel is the first port of call.My heart goes out to you when you hit that dark place both me and my bf have been there and still struggle with it. You are both awesome ppl love the chemistry you have with each other love Ottis xx
Thank you for putting into words how that feels. Especially the analogy of the fire and jumping out the window, very insightful, very nice, I understand. I've been dealing with PTSD, depression, and suicidal thoughts since the war in 1990. I really feel what you're saying. I understand. And by the way keep putting out the great videos. 👍😁
Shaun and Colin your are the best double act on RUclips...the laughter and humour makes me laugh or giggle...but you are not afraid to talk about Mental health as it...admire you for talking about your struggles...hope that you are feeling stronger....have a good week guys and Ottis
Collin and Shawn thank you so much for all of your vlogs and for the insight into how you feel. I have two nephews on the Autism Spectrum and I am trying to become more aware and sensitive. I’m hoping to be a safe person for them the way Shawn is for you. Also Otis is cuteness overload, what an expressive little guy. Thank you both and safe travels
It was great to meet all three of you today when we were cycling along the towpath from Fradley Junction. Thank you for being so lovely and having a quick chat to us after we disturbed your peace! It made our day(week!) to see you both, we look forward to your vlogs. Thank for opening up in this video, Colin, it’s particularly close to home at the moment. Promoting awareness for men’s mental health is so important and you are doing a great job of it. You have been a real inspiration to my husband who has been struggling for a while now but watching the pair of you( and Otis, of course!) on your adventures helps him escape for a while. We hope you are completely back to yourself soon and thanks for being you, take care, Love Em and Terry xxxx
Thank you for that bit on depression. It was a good explanation. It is hard to describe and you did a pretty good job of it. The worst is having a panic attack during that kind of mindframe. The only times I almost killed myself was then. Took all my concentration to not. Even had a knife in my hand a few times. I'm much better these days because I'm learning how to control the anxiety better and the depression a bit too. Everyone puts it on the depressed/anxious person to reach out but you feel like shit and super low and it can be really hard to even want to talk, even if you feel a little worthy to share. It's why I tell people if they really want to help suicidal/depressed people, check in occasionally. Help us get out of our headspace or give us a hug. Develop trust and communication and figure out what they need and help them with that.
I'm so sorry these past couple of weeks have been so difficult for you, Colin. I'm also sure this was also really hard for you Shaun. Love to you both! Hang in there and thank you for your honesty. Depression is such a terrible illness. My daughter and husband both struggle with it and I'm amazed by the strength and resilience it takes sometimes to make it from day to day.
Cheers lads, for an amazing show. I ALWAYS, enjoy your vlog, but today, it was simply amazing. Full of sun, fun and chat. However, I for one, was happy to hear you discuss your mental health. Don't ever think we couldn't listen to you, when you want to talk. There are a lot of things I'm NOT good at, but listening, is not one of them, so talk lad, if it helps, talk to your hearts content!!
So sorry to hear about your recent struggle. It's very refreshing to hear a man talk so open, honest and transparent about depression and suicidal ideations. It's so difficult when brain fog, anxiety and distorted thinking reduces your ability to think rationally. You can't see the woods from the trees. Episodic depression can come outta nowhere and it's crippling. The Samaritans here in Ireland are a great resource too. Thinking of you mate. X
Thank you for trusting us with your struggle, always remember we care! Talk anytime you need, we will always listen. Thanks for the the Otis shots, he has grown into a handsome dog with lovely blond locks. I especially enjoyed the castle footage more special trips like that will benefit us all.
Life without you would be sadder, Colin, the pair of you bring a simple pleasure in times of stress. I appreciate that in the depths of depression, the appreciation of strangers is meaningless but when you are feeling chipper, you will know thousands do think about you in a positive way and that's not something most of us can say
Thank you so much for your eloquent honesty. So many people have the same struggle but are incapable of expressing it in a way that others can understand. Sending love your way.
Hi Guys! Shout out from St. Paul, Minnesota (U.S.) I'm a retired senior citizen. I was diagnosed with depression in my early twenties. So I've been wrestling with it a long time. It does indeed get better. Colin, I'm glad to see you are vlogging as a way to cope and understand it. Hopefully it helps you as much as it will help others who watch and hear your words. My best to you both and of course Otis!
Colin, it breaks my heart to know depression took you to such a terrible, dark place. Thank God you were able to "claw your way back out". As someone else has said, the world is definitely a better place with you (and Shaun) in it. Remember that! Sending love and hugs & big cuddle for Otis. ❤🐶❤
You are just so precious to so many people. Such an energy in you Colin, such talent and skill. I have felt this kind of despondency and the recent struggle happened early spring. Thankfully it has lifted. You and Shaun have been a bit of brightness and wit on a Friday night.
When seeing this video, and listening to Colin speak of suicidal thoughts, I can feel an ache in my center. I have been medicated for depression for years, and I remember the feelings without meds. For me it’s a chemical imbalance….and if you can get on the other side of that……wait it out, meds, sleep…wait…. It has always passed. There is love, and people and dogs and sunshine just waiting around the corner. I would hate to turn on this channel and find a world without you and Shaun. Take special care.
Thank you for taking the time to talk about your thoughts Colin. Having been in situations similar many times and masking how you feel is incredibly painful, but talking to and hearing from people who are in the same mindset as you is a great way of helping to find that spark to slowly come out of a dark place. Brought a tear to my eye but makes you realise that no matter how isolated you feel, you are not on your own. You two, Dilon, Otis and your videos over the last couple years have brought so much joy to people and for that we say thank you. Take care and know that everyone watching is here you for!
Cheers for having a chat Collin, it's always a delight to hear from both you and Shaun. And we're always here for a chat when you need it. Look after yourself, enjoy the summer on the water, and thank you for pushing through everything and providing us with this content.
There is an Irish guy who has just walked the entire country and blogged his journey. Over the years he also walked the Camino, the PCT (west coast of America) and cycled through Africa, all these journeys after his parents died within months of each other. Along his walk in Ireland he spoke of his anxiety and why he takes the trips he does. He also talks to the camera like you do and feels better a few days later. Anxiety and depression is tough but if you can fight those thoughts and remind yourself that people love you ❤️😍👏💪😊😊
Thanks for being so open, Colin. Just to let you know that I met up with my old mate Ray Oakhill after 30 years. He used to have his own narrowboat and toured England. Turns out we both love watching Foxes Afloat. There's a lot of people out here that love your vlogs. Please keep them coming .
Hello lovely lads, wonderful video. My heart goes out to you with your experiences. I have worked in mental health services for over 30 years and I wish we could do more for more people. Your openness about your mental health is so important and priceless. So many people and particularly men are unable to talk, probably as there is little encouragement and support to do so. Your message is a game changer. If more men who were suffering felt more able to talk and share because brave people like you had enabled it, the world would be a better place. Research has shown men who have been able to share have been able to keep going, it gives a different path for those blokes who are told to 'man up' and the rest. You are changing the world , one vlog at a time! Foxes Afloat you are national treasure ❤️❤️
I love you guys and this channel. Colin, I'm a therapist and life coach now and nearly took my life many years ago in 2004. Depression can be overcome, but it's a very personal journey to unpicking all of the old unreleased emotions and conditioning the mind has got caught up in throughout life. If you ever need to reach out I speak with others for 30 minutes for free and I'd be more than happy to extend that for the happiness you both have brought me. Thank you for your authenticity, it's important to speak up, and speak out. All the very best 🧘♂️
Thank you so much for being so open and honest about your struggles. Please, always remember, you matter to each and every one of us and we'd be lost without you!
Colin - your searingly honest words on how you were feeling thoroughly shocked me and brought me to tears. All the beauty you showed us of Beeston Castle didn’t fully sink in at the time. I applaud your bravery and honesty and it is so important for people like me to be able to understand ...... later all I could think about was poor Caroline Flack who must have shared those same thoughts but sadly acted on them. You and Shaun have a relationship forged through tough times - the like of which I cannot imagine. When the two of you are laughing away together it’s so hard to imagine the dark times you face. You do SO much good by speaking out as you do and if I could, I’d just like to shake your hand. Beeston Castle has been added to my list of places to visit and when I do go and admire the beautiful views I will think of you. My love to you both and to Otis xx
After recently losing a brother in law to suicide and having suffered anxiety and depression since my early 20s, I've realised no matter how dark my thoughts go I will not let it beat me as the shear devastation he has left behind with his partner and family is something I never truly comprehended before. Love your videos they calm my mind and make me hopeful that one day I can cruise the cut in our own boat.
Your not alone! Suffer with depresion. During the lockdowns your vlogs have been a sort of escape for many of us who coudnt escape. Your helping people escape, showing the beautiful countryside. Lots of love and a hug for Ottis x
Thank you for not ending in your moment of lowness. We of the world would truly miss you, and your creativity of you channel. We all have moments at one level or so. Where we feel not worthy. And it can really bring us down. A good walk into the woods and be one with nature helps bring balanced back in our crying soul. And heals trouble thoughts to a clearer perspective. Take care my brother. Were here for you. And your great look what is in your backyard.. :-)
A very honest account of the mental health challenges……. A vlog from Sean’s perspective would be much appreciated. He must go through hell when his greatest love is feeling so low. What are his coping strategies? 💕
He does, and thank you for recognising that the partner and loved ones suffer too. Shaun isn't comfortable talking about his feelings on camera but we support each other the best we can 💜
Colin, what would Shaun do without you? and we would all miss you so please if you have any bad thoughts talk them through. Being serious now you two make me laugh and are a tonic and long may we enjoy you together. Big hugs x
Oh, Colin, thanks for making me cry 1st thing in a morning. Your description of depression as a burning building is the best I've ever heard. Sending virtual hugs to you both (and Otis)
A perfect combination of real struggles and the joys of a beautiful relationship. You both are amazing storytellers and I must applaud Sean for being such an amazing partner who laughs even on Colin's worst jokes! I wish Colin can find an answer to his "low periods", and I want to hug both him and Sean for standing beside him patiently. I'm sure it can be difficult for him, from my own personal experience. ❤️
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The world is a better place with you in it.
Thanks, Nicholas.
You said it!!!
Agree. I've never felt what you are feeling, but I can understand it. Thank you for sharing.
I agree, lovely guy. 👍👍
Collin, if you ever need to talk, then TALK. We will listen, some may judge, but most will just listen. If that doesn't work talk to Otis, he will listen and will not judge.
👍🏻🤯💜
@@FoxesAfloat Start a Discord channel. Very happy to come online on a voice chat and have a conversation. I am sure other are in the same boat
I hope the joy you both bring to me and your 100s of viewers, helps to bring joy to your mind. Take care and continue to both enjoy your amazing life adventures 🙂
Wow. I lost good friend few years back. Never ever expected it. I learned it could happen to any one. Some one suggested Ottis could help. I'm no expert but that seems like a really good idea.
It's wonderful to see so many caring people in our Foxes Afloat Community. We see two genuinely nice guy's, Colin & Shaun, & we've taken them to our heart's.
So many trauma's going on in this world, that it's so lovely that we have compassion for each other, as we follow Foxes Afloat, & their adventures.
Yes, it is a Foxes Afloat Community.
Holy crap, that title turned my blood to ice and brought tears to my eyes. Colin, I think I speak for you entire audience when I say that we wish we could do more than just say we care. Even if that's it, know that you have people who love you, all over the world, even if you've never met us.
Thank you 👍🏻🤯💜
OM617YOTA has said a Truth.
I second that. Colin (and Shaun), we care and we're here for you.
Though. I understand. Once upon a time for me, but I understand.
Me three.
What he said!
Once again Colin, thanks for being so open......
Colin, I can empathize. I got fed up with myself and suicide seemed not just an easy way out but even an attractive solution. I survived a massive drugs overdose. Notice I did not say fortunately because I eventually woke up with maybe more problems than before and I still have severe bouts of depression. If I tell you I like hearing from you about your travels (and problems), and if I tell you I find Shaun a real tonic with his infectious laughter, and that Otis is a great pooch, then maybe you will realize how important and needed you are to so many people. Stick around mate, we all need you.
As always to all. xxx
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
Sometimes you just can't TALK. Write yourself letters. I did that when I was on the brink (laid off, my children would be better off without me (with life insurance money), pity party, I am not good enough for anyone).
Not something that can be conveyed to ANYONE.
I am glad you hung around again, Colin. You are an amazing videographer.
Connecting with high earth is extremely beneficial.
Virtual hugs from Florida!
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
You will never know how many people you may have helped talking so simply and honestly about your mental health. Would love to hear how those closest to you cope during those times. Take care and talk anytime, you have many friends out here you will never meet. But we are here.
Thank you 👍🏻❤️
I know that loving and caring about a person can't carry them through the dark valleys they walk. I can't comprehend that darkness. Just know that you are cared for by many and loved greatly by Shaun and family. You would be a huge loss to many of us. You have touched more lives and don't realize the care that there is for you. Stay safe.
Thank you Kris👍🏻❤️
I just wanted to thank you for your honesty and to tell you it has given me some peace in a way. My brother took his life 18 months ago. And all that time I have been berating myself for failing him. Why did he leave me why didn't he let me help. If only.. your honesty has made me realise he didn't leave me he left the pain and agony he felt. He didn't reach for me because he was overwhelmed. I will always miss him but maybe now I can start to live with his choice. Maybe also I can offer you something too. There is a third choice in the burning building: take the fireman's hand or jump into his net. Don't be scared to take the hands held out to you. They belong to the people who love you and they are strong. You won't pull them into your agony , they will just hold on to you until you find your way back. This world is a wonderful place but better for you in it. Long may silver fox cruise the cut with her wonderful honest caring crew.
And thank you.
I'm so sorry to hear about your brother and that he felt so desperate to be at peace. I'm 100% sure you didn't fail him and that he didn't want you to hurt either. 💜
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Have lived with anxiety, panic attacks, feeling I am different, 'not in a good way' for just over 60years now. During that time I have felt that I have let myself and others down by not being 'normal'. Have thought more than once, it would be better for the people I let down due to my fears, if I wasn't here. Then I managed to push the thoughts into the cupboard at the back of my mind and lock the door. Then all is well again until the next time something opens the bloody door again. Love your honesty and always love your vlogs, brightens my day. Lovely just lovely. Thank you and best wishes
Thanks Martin 💜
We will listen Colin. Pardon the pun,but you have a literal boatload of people who will be there for you. Every Friday you let us into your life teach us some interesting history, make laugh, make us cry, and allow us to travel to places some of us will never be fortunate to see. Please reach out.
Thank you 👍🏻❤️
@@FoxesAfloat when you shared the manchester episode and shared how much support there is for LGBTq+ people there and everywhere, i literally cried SOOO much, tears of joy, tears of pain, tears of living a life in denial. Honestly that episode was one of the handful of things that helped me finally accept and be open about my sexuality and I finally came out to a friend in real life, toward the end of pride month. It also helped me accept I dont fit the stereotypical gender binary, and now I am growing more than ever and exploring my gender identity. Your videos have brought me so so so much joy and happiness! its helped me accept myself. and seeing y'alls amazing relationship has helped me accept my own bisexuality!
What I am trying to say is... THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart! Love you!
Just remember you have one of the best of listeners that a man can have Otis! he will listen to you and have unconditional love for you
Hehe. He does 🥰
Oh my dear, as someone who suffers with PTSD and Suicidal ideation, along with anxiety, I could not have put in to words what I feel in that moment the way you have. It is hard to talk to people who don't understand that trapped feeling.. I am happy you were able to dig out of that hole and are still here. Much love and support from Minnesota
Thanks so much, Tammy.
Dear Colin, wow, I just felt part of my heart would be lost had you left us…. I cried while hearing your words and it was good to hear you also say you want to live.
You are such a light in our world! Thank you so much for the explanation of how you felt and the analogy of the bldg on fire, that helps so much to understand it.
I have no expertise or words to help but want to send love and light and let you know I, like so many others, am so glad you’re here.
It makes me wonder if the energy of the city is also too much…. It’s too much for me sometimes and I don’t have issues as you. You love the outdoors and nature so much… it soothes and feeds your soul clearly.
Shaun and Otis love you so much and although I understand love isn’t enough at times I’m hopeful it’s a thread to hold on to when needed.
💕💜💕
Lovely words. Thanks, Heather 💜
I have been there too Colin and got through it. As you say you can have plenty of people around you but unless you have been there it’s very hard for them to really understand how someone really feels and what they are going through. It’s good to talk to others that have had similar experiences of dark times and how they have got through them and spot the signs early on to avoid falling backwards again. Stay strong and enjoy your life.
Otis “perched” on Shawn’s shoulder is a nice touch. Colin, you have no idea how glad I am that you made it through your difficult time. You are loved by far more people than you can imagine and the world would be a sadder place without you. Please reach out when you feel like that. Even if it feels impossible you’re a strong human and can do it.
Thank you 👍🏻❤️
Colin,
Sorry to hear that you were having another deep depression, glad to hear you’re feeling better again. Many, many people are supportive of you (and Shaun and Otis). You bring so much joy to many of us through your videos. As well, your honest discussions help to bring some understanding of people who suffer with similar issues. I am truly very appreciative of this insight. It means more to me than I could ever explain. I am so thankful that you are here to continue to spread your message and to share in the wonderful videos. Wishing you, Shaun and Otis all the best!
Thanks Mike 💜👍🏻
Dear Colin. Thank you for your honest account of the ravages of depression. I suffer as well. And, I continue to fight that black dog - and, stare it down. There is no need to defeat the depression. It exists. But, I let the black dog pass, watch its path, and try to steer clear when it tries to grab me into its maw. One day at a time. Much love to you and Sean. Thank you for the love you share to all of us who follow and subscribe.
Thank you 💜
Hey guys I’m a 19 year old from Leeds, honestly you guys have created the most amazing peace full space in my head as I suffer from depression since I was 17-18 I struggled with things you help me find my space and and my zone love you both so much and I can’t wait to get my own boat stay safe you funky boaters Collin and Shaun you make me so happy you need to talk we, us, I am here for you whenever
Hang in there Zach. And please do talk about it even if it's just to us. So far I've made it to 68 yrs.💙
Thanks, Zach. Love that name too 👍🏻
The world’s a better place for having the both of you in it, you share this wonderful journey with, like most of us, the ups and downs of life but of course on this world forum of RUclips which is testament to your honesty and the way you do life.
“Wow” factor as always with your photography Colin. The placement of your camera while walking to the castle, the drone footage was marvellous.
Also, a new noticeable inclusion of extra “Otis” shots which really enhances your vlogs and our happiness in seeing more of him...take care🤗
Thanks so much James! x
So true! They really lighten up my Friday. All 3 of them ;-)
Collin, so many people who bring joy to others are troubled themselves. I am so thankful that you were able to get past this rough spot on the path of your life and that you are still here with us! The world would miss your laugh and smile and, right now, we all need all the help, smiles and laughter we can get!
Thanks 💜👍🏻
Tony, you have an excellent point there, "so many people who bring joy to others are troubled themselves."
and another one immediately following it, "I am so thankful that you were able to get past this rough spot on the path of your life and that you are still here with us!"
Onward & upwards springs to mind. Sharing your feelings was a great thing to do & shows you have strength too, with loving support from Shawn as well as 114K family members. 🥰
Yes! Thank you!
Thank you for talking about mental health, Colin. I’ve been in that very dark place, the pain is overwhelming. So very glad you got through it, you are so valued and appreciated!
Thanks Robin. 💜👍🏻
Boys, I've loved all the vids you have produced. I'm an Army veteran with mental health ill heath. Don't be ashamed, don't be fearful. No one is ashamed of a broken leg..........Issuing some love. x
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
Colin... there are no words that can be expressed to describe your experience & what you are going through! It does sadden me that someone so wonderful as you has to go through what you & not be able to control events! You two must have shed 100's of tears as I can't imagine Shawn without you. I hope Shawn was part of the reason you are still with us... We will hope that each time you encounter this dark space, that you find something... anything... that will pull you back from the precipice & keep you from going over...We can love you infinitely & without condition and yet still not be in control... Love you guys & thanks for sharing the canals with us!!!!!
He is, and thank you for recognising that the partner and loved ones suffer too. 💜
You took the words right out of my mouth, Kathlique. I know it seems impossible to think of others when you are in that dark and lonely place but I beg of you to think of your loved ones. They do not want to be in the world without you. I lost my dad to suicide when I was 21. It is still pain full everyday. You and Shawn brighten our lives. Keep shining bright! Luv and Hugzs!
Collin - my twin brother had depression all of his life. He could never explain why, it just was. It was difficult for me to understand his depression. All I could do was to be there for him. Glad to hear that you made through yours safely. Best regards, Jerry
Thanks Jerry 💜👍🏻
Thanks for sticking it out, Colin. You and Shaun (and of course Otis) are loved.❤
Thanks Cath! x
I am glad to hear that you are able to express your feeling on a public forum. The face of mental health is for the most part hidden by the weight of embarrassment, and the lack of acceptance by the community. Unfortunately the amount of time and money given to this type of health care is affected by the same perceptions, bringing out into the public will help show that there is not only a need for mental health care, but also it is not to be feared. Thank you for your willingness to be counted and I do hope that by doing so you are benefiting from this exposure and release of feelings.
Thanks for being able to understand. That means a lot 👍🏻❤️
Excellent comment and so true 👏👏👏👏
These two give me hope I can have a good life. I am 14, autistic and gay living with a homophobic family so no chance of coming out. Can't wait until i am 18.
I'm so sorry, Matt. Be strong. You've got an amazing life ahead of you! 💜
Oh Colin, one very small consolation at times of extreme despair might be the absolute joy you bring to goofballs like myself who laugh along with you and Shaun and enjoy the hell out of vicariously cruising the canals of the UK. One day I hope to get my hubby over the Pond to visit. Love to you, Shaun and Otis!
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
God love you Colin 💚 i saved someone from suicide 3 years ago - i still to this day don’t understand why he tried to do it , I’ve tried to understand , i really have , but what you said about a burning building made a lot of sense to me now - thank you 💚
Beautiful scenery as usual, and i shouted TRAAAAAIIIIIN with you 😂😂 … much love to you Colin 🥰 to you both 🥰😘
Thanks Lorraine 💜👍🏻
Struggling with mental health is exhausting. Like yourself I find when I have an episode it does eventually get better I just ride it out until I come to the other side. No rhyme or reason why it comes and goes like it does. Wish you long life and happiness and the strength to keep on going. Thanks for sharing I can relate. Love your videos the scenery and greenery really soothing…
Thanks so much. Sending you loads of spare strength for the next time it gets you 💜
Firstly: I'm so grateful you felt able to talk to us about how you were feeling. You can always talk to us. I'm so glad and grateful that you're in this world and that you're vlogging. We love watching every week.
Secondly: I assume that "to have a skinful" would have come from when alcohol was carried in pouches which would have been made back then from animal skins. I'm not 100% certain but it seems the logical explanation.
Thanks Helen 💜👍🏻
Hi, Guys! Colin, on the morning I viewed this video, I had awakened with the same thoughts stream you experienced. I 100% agree when we're in this way, "talking to someone" seems pointless. We cannot see any hope on the horizon and, yes, it feels as if our family and friends would benefit from our absence. When you spoke these words, I began to weep. It was as if your words described precisely what I was feeling. All at once, I knew if you could hang on and ride it out, I could, too. The very next day, I felt so much better! It takes tremendous bravery to speak about this and know this: Your words may have saved lives. Kisses to you, Shaun, and Otis from Southern California. XOXO
Thanks so much! I hope you're feeling a lot brighter 👍🏻💜
Bless you Colin and Shaun, I've learnt over the years, 66 this week! Angels come in all flavours and backgrounds. So please stay here on earth as long as possible, there's more than enough in Heaven. ❤
Wonderful!
Colin you are a brave man to fight through those overwhelming feelings to get to the other side where the sun shines again and sitting on top of hill on a castle wall brings you joy. Shaun, you are a brave man to take the journey with this lovely man who occasionally gets lost in his wilderness of darkness. I so admire you both and love that you return to us with a smile, wonderful historical stories and joyful silly jokes. I always love your outtakes that make me grin and sometimes laugh loudly out loud. I send you both much love and light. I am grateful for you both - Lucy
Thanks so much, Dee 💜
SO much I love about Foxes Afloat
Shaun's laughter
The wonderful history lessons
The amazing wildlife photography
Colin's openness about mental health
Shaun's ability to love through difficult 'mental health' episodes. (It's not easy to be the one watching the suffering)
The traaaiiiiins!
The boats
Adorable Otis
The goofy humor
The consistency in getting vlogs posted (it's NOT easy)
I could go on & on but I'll just wrap it up with I love y'all. It's been a tough week for 2 people I love who suffer from ptsd & depression but you 2 brought me some perspective & some joy. Thank you!!
Thank you so much, Leslie 💜
Poor little Moorhens. Oh, how desperate you must have felt Colin, thanks for sharing - its impossible to know how you felt but however terrible it must have been at the time just please, please, please remember that there is one thing that is special and it is this, you give us all so much, everyone that knows you, everyone that views your great vlogs, your humour, your knowledge, your enthusiasm, you give, just, "yourself". Remember - there are so many that love you to bits and love to look forward to another vlog. And its not "only" that - its all those things that haven't yet happened in your life that you must live for. Perhaps - how can I put it, perhaps we are only borrowing our life, we might bumble through life and rather like a maze of canals we spend our time taking another unforeseen turn and meeting different people, some who touch our senses more than others, some who you will touch and bring a sparkle even though you might not realise it, different experiences, like your "new" doglet Otis who popped into your life, what will the next ten, the next twenty or 30 years bring, well, many happy times and you must experience them all, you have been given your life by another hand and you must use it to the fullest. If another dark period envelopes you please notice that very tiny glow of light so far off, its not some daft bugger with a torch bringing you more ruddy work, its your life being touched by so many people that love you, that need you and you need to hold that in your sight and watch it grow into a sun soaked time of warmth and superness! In a dark time you just need to cry some and realise that there is so much more to do, people who life you might touch and bring them sparkling moments, and the one or two who flippin' well deserve to be pissed off and you are the one guy to piss 'em off! This is old Frank signing off, and I maintain that at my age there is no point in getting older if you can't be a complete nuisance to at least one person every day! So much to do and enjoy, keep on "bumbling" along young lad!! Smiley face here!!
Thanks so much, Frank. x
You are needed. When things get hard, remember how much harder they would be, for the people who love us, if we were no longer there for them. It's easy to forget that we can connect to forces that strengthen us as well as the ones that push us down. I just discovered you two tonight, and I can imagine, Colin, that many people adore you. Their lives would be so much darker, without you in them. Keep finding the sources of light, please.
Thank you, Deanya 💜
Colin, even in your darkest hours, you bring a light and a warmth to the world that no-one else can. At the centre of the black hole of your depression is an eternal sun that is a gift to us all.
Beautiful. Thank you x
Colin you can take all you want. We love you and are honored you want to share your life with us. We're your family
Thanks 💜👍🏻
Nobody knows unless we talk to each other. That one hits real close to home. Thanks for sharing! Peace, boys!
Thanks 👍🏻💜
Collin and Shaun you make my day .I love watching and listening to your videos.You are so in formative about everything.Mental health is something alot of people suffer from.Collin you keep on talking about what ever you want, there are lots of us that love hearing from you no matter what you have to say.I know listening to you talk has helped me .You two and Otis are AWESOME you make my day!!🤗🥰❤️
Thanks Cindy 💜👍🏻
Honestly, watching you both every Friday is something I look forward to all week. I'm currently writing my Masters Dissertation and if I'm honest, I'm really struggling mentally with the pressures it brings. You two are a brief period of lightness for me every Friday, so thank you.
Thanks, Jack. Bets of luck with the dissertation x
For the first time in a long time, someone said it right. I struggle every day. No Reem or ryme. Good family behind me. I'm a grandad 👍. I've done wars. Seen terrible things done terrible things , but it's not that. I just feel down sometimes. I'm not alone ❤️ thank you for sharing your pain. Happy Boating, 👍🍻🏴❤️❤️❤️
Keep it up
Even after over twenty five years together, I still have moments Of feeling like that. It has taken me a while to be able to allow someone to hug me as normally I can't handle being touched. You know you have the most beautiful partner in the world but sometimes the desolation gets so bad it feels no one understands. I eventually come back to the living. Then I'm alright again. I try not to think about the possibility of when it will happen. Knowing it will happen. You and Shawn have helped me so much to have something to grip on to, on the days when I'm home alone. My corgi also helps me through the blues and seems to know when I need attention. I know Kevin would agree with me when I say this. We love you both, and feel blessed to have found your channel.
Your words are absolutely on the mark, Frank 💜
Another great vlog , as for the deep depression and the " let's end it all " I know from personal experience on more than one occasion just how bad it is , you are not in control of your mind, your mind is in control of you and talking about it ( well ,in my case ) makes it worse , glad to see you got through it, stay strong Colin .
Thanks, Bruce x
"A Skinfull" Is from the bota bag . A container made from goat skin that usually held wine .
Dear Colin , so happy your still here w us . The world would be a much sadder , less funny , place without you.
Your way with words and your sense of humor is a treat for an old okie .✌🏼💚☕
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
Colin, it's very much OK to talk about... whatever you want to talk about... your sincerity overflows and it's great that you have both Shaun and RUclips to help you express yourself.
Your videos make my life MUCH better, so please keep them up.
All best - Peter xxx
Thanks Peter 👍🏻
Well done both - Colin for speaking out and Shaun for supporting.
Been there too, Colin .... mine proved to be chemical imbalance and some pills sorted me, it was a very dark time and all my memories of that time are dark, as if it were winter
Whilst in the darkness Colin, do try to keep talking about it and also try to remember (difficult I know, but) you’ve come through the other side of the tunnel before and discovered life was still worth hanging on to - were here for Shaun also, if he needs to unload a bit --- love and hugs xo
Thank you, Carlie 👍🏻❤️
Really brave of you to share your story. You bring so much joy and happines to a lot of people with your videos.
Thank you so much!
I’d rather listen to you offload than hear about your passing 👍. Great to hear you are feeling better 👍.
Thanks 👍🏻🤯💜
Absolutely.
I understand your dark days more than I'd like to. You are loved, both of you. I learn so much about history from you. Love the places you visit. You are my eyes and window to the world. Just know you are not alone, I am with you in spirit. You keep me lifted up. 💞
Thank you so much!
As someone who has struggled with depression all my life, I can say that the effort to stay in the game is made better by having such wonderful folks like you and Shaun in the world. Thank you for all you do 🤗
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
This is my selfish tiny bit angry comment. All this talk makes me think of Anthony Bourdain. He was my hero. He took me places I'll maybe never get to see and told me things and introduced me to amazing people and a bit about how to navigate the world outside of my bubble. You two do that as well. Every Friday at 4 we get a little bit of adventure and learning and some dirty jokes and bad puns. Bourdain gave up. It got to him. I haven't been able to watch a moment of him since. We al love you and Shaun and Otis and Dillon and the Silver Fox and this lovely thing you've created. Make the thing that comes to your head first be, "Don't quit now- there's magic left to do."
Beautifully put.
I love this. Thank you. It's the magic left to do that keeps me going.
This may seen a little person but Collin the magic is you!!!!
Colin, I admire you for being so courageous in sharing your experiences with us. I lost an older brother to suicide, and I've had my own struggles. The more people share these things, the more of us know that we're not alone, our depression and anxiety are lying to us, and that it really will get better. It's a journey worth the taking. Please keep right on talking with us. Giant squeezy hug coming your way from Boulder! One for Shaun too. The two of you warm my heart and make me smile!
Thanks Jackie 💜👍🏻
Thank you so much for your honesty and openness, Colin. It is never easy to talk about mental health issues. I am so grateful for you!
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
Collin, Thankyou for your honest sharing. Right now, there are many people feeling hopeless as the world seems so crazy, but for those who experience brain chemical depression, it’s a double whammy. You are taking the stigma away from it, and someone will listen to your words and know they are not alone in their experience. Blessings for you and Sean and Otis...love your vlogs!
Thanks Heather ❤️💜
I was so sorry to hear about your recent rough time but I am SO GLAD that you got past it. Feel free to talk to the collective "us" any time you need to. Another great vlog and again so nice to see you both so happy. Take care of yourself and each other.
Cheers Curt 👍🏻
Colin, You were open and honest about how you felt and that took courage to share. I have a lot of time and respect for you! The recording footage is very professional and Otis is a "Star". Colin is a good guy and you all make a great team. The content is brilliant and educational. You have had over 83,000 views and your comments on mental health and sharing are so true, and those words resonate with a lot of us out there. I am so glad your still with us and you make a difference. Talking is good, and the comment about Otis listening is so unconditional. The walks are good for you. Thanks again for sharing and stay safe and healthy. All the best Mike.
Thanks so much, Mike. That really is much appreciated 💜👍🏻
You’re a lovely couple, you really are. Collin, I know that feeling you had, that place you were in. Talk to us, talk to anyone but ultimately always look after your mental health first. Everything good will follow.
Thanks Jonathan 💜👍🏻
Hi Colin and Shaun, I am just so captivated by your videos and lifestyle. I marvel at your courage to leave everything behind and embrace a big change that you embarked on and are living today. I am nearly half way through your videos but playing them randomly. Stumbled upon this one today. Colin, your courage to be open about your struggles is very commendable. Makes me feel proud of you. I am currently going through a difficult time in my life and your videos are a soothing and a calming experience to make me feel comfortable and in peace.. Thank you so much for being there for us. Soon enough I will become a patreon to give it back. Thank you for the amazing content, clever film-making, wonderful narrative and the historical and geographical twist along the journey. You hand picked music is very symphonic and in tune with everything that you show us as well. Having had a partner(with autism in the family) for 5 years from Littleborough(Rochdale Canal) near Manchester and Yorkshire, made me fall also fall in love with the canals of the North and the boats. That's how I found you here on YT. I literally know that area inside out but you were still able to add more to my knowledge. I will be waiting for you "chaps" to make your way into that canal and also show us a bit of "Hebden Bridge" through your eyes. Thank you once again for all the love, enthusiasm and joy you give us. This was my way of talking to you and it certainly helped me. You are never alone. Hope this feedback helps you back.
It's the only crossing of the Pennines we haven't done yet so maybe soon! 👍🏻💙
Mental health must be talked about. Nothing to be ashamed of. It can happen to anyone sometimes without any warning
100% Agree 👍🏻👍🏻
So glad i found your channel when i need cheering up your channel is the first port of call.My heart goes out to you when you hit that dark place both me and my bf have been there and still struggle with it. You are both awesome ppl love the chemistry you have with each other love Ottis xx
Thank you for putting into words how that feels. Especially the analogy of the fire and jumping out the window, very insightful, very nice, I understand. I've been dealing with PTSD, depression, and suicidal thoughts since the war in 1990. I really feel what you're saying. I understand. And by the way keep putting out the great videos. 👍😁
Thanks so much, Kimberley. Stay strong 👍🏻💜
Shaun and Colin your are the best double act on RUclips...the laughter and humour makes me laugh or giggle...but you are not afraid to talk about Mental health as it...admire you for talking about your struggles...hope that you are feeling stronger....have a good week guys and Ottis
Thank you, Rachel. x
Collin and Shawn thank you so much for all of your vlogs and for the insight into how you feel. I have two nephews on the Autism Spectrum and I am trying to become more aware and sensitive. I’m hoping to be a safe person for them the way Shawn is for you. Also Otis is cuteness overload, what an expressive little guy. Thank you both and safe travels
Thanks! Look after those nephews 💜
It was great to meet all three of you today when we were cycling along the towpath from Fradley Junction.
Thank you for being so lovely and having a quick chat to us after we disturbed your peace!
It made our day(week!) to see you both, we look forward to your vlogs.
Thank for opening up in this video, Colin, it’s particularly close to home at the moment.
Promoting awareness for men’s mental health is so important and you are doing a great job of it.
You have been a real inspiration to my husband who has been struggling for a while now but watching the pair of you( and Otis, of course!) on your adventures helps him escape for a while.
We hope you are completely back to yourself soon and thanks for being you, take care,
Love Em and Terry xxxx
Haha! You didn't disturb us at all! 🤣
Great to see you three! x
Thank you for that bit on depression. It was a good explanation. It is hard to describe and you did a pretty good job of it. The worst is having a panic attack during that kind of mindframe. The only times I almost killed myself was then. Took all my concentration to not. Even had a knife in my hand a few times. I'm much better these days because I'm learning how to control the anxiety better and the depression a bit too. Everyone puts it on the depressed/anxious person to reach out but you feel like shit and super low and it can be really hard to even want to talk, even if you feel a little worthy to share. It's why I tell people if they really want to help suicidal/depressed people, check in occasionally. Help us get out of our headspace or give us a hug. Develop trust and communication and figure out what they need and help them with that.
Thank you so much, hope you’re in a better place ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I'm so sorry these past couple of weeks have been so difficult for you, Colin. I'm also sure this was also really hard for you Shaun. Love to you both! Hang in there and thank you for your honesty. Depression is such a terrible illness. My daughter and husband both struggle with it and I'm amazed by the strength and resilience it takes sometimes to make it from day to day.
Thanks, Elizabeth. Not a lot of people understand how hard it is for those close to us.
Cheers lads, for an amazing show. I ALWAYS, enjoy your vlog, but today, it was simply amazing. Full of sun, fun and chat. However, I for one, was happy to hear you discuss your mental health. Don't ever think we couldn't listen to you, when you want to talk. There are a lot of things I'm NOT good at, but listening, is not one of them, so talk lad, if it helps, talk to your hearts content!!
Thanks Bob 💜👍🏻
So sorry to hear about your recent struggle. It's very refreshing to hear a man talk so open, honest and transparent about depression and suicidal ideations. It's so difficult when brain fog, anxiety and distorted thinking reduces your ability to think rationally. You can't see the woods from the trees. Episodic depression can come outta nowhere and it's crippling. The Samaritans here in Ireland are a great resource too. Thinking of you mate. X
Thanks 👍🏻🤯💜
Thank you for trusting us with your struggle, always remember we care! Talk anytime you need, we will always listen.
Thanks for the the Otis shots, he has grown into a handsome dog with lovely blond locks.
I especially enjoyed the castle footage more special trips like that will benefit us all.
The castle was awesome! x
Life without you would be sadder, Colin, the pair of you bring a simple pleasure in times of stress. I appreciate that in the depths of depression, the appreciation of strangers is meaningless but when you are feeling chipper, you will know thousands do think about you in a positive way and that's not something most of us can say
Thanks, Paul 💜
Thank you so much for your eloquent honesty. So many people have the same struggle but are incapable of expressing it in a way that others can understand. Sending love your way.
Thanks so much ❤️
Hi Guys! Shout out from St. Paul, Minnesota (U.S.) I'm a retired senior citizen. I was diagnosed with depression in my early twenties. So I've been wrestling with it a long time. It does indeed get better. Colin, I'm glad to see you are vlogging as a way to cope and understand it. Hopefully it helps you as much as it will help others who watch and hear your words. My best to you both and of course Otis!
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
Colin, it breaks my heart to know depression took you to such a terrible, dark place. Thank God you were able to "claw your way back out". As someone else has said, the world is definitely a better place with you (and Shaun) in it. Remember that! Sending love and hugs & big cuddle for Otis. ❤🐶❤
Thanks so much, Kathy
You are just so precious to so many people. Such an energy in you Colin, such talent and skill. I have felt this kind of despondency and the recent struggle happened early spring. Thankfully it has lifted. You and Shaun have been a bit of brightness and wit on a Friday night.
Thanks for being understanding ❤️
When seeing this video, and listening to Colin speak of suicidal thoughts, I can feel an ache in my center. I have been medicated for depression for years, and I remember the feelings without meds. For me it’s a chemical imbalance….and if you can get on the other side of that……wait it out, meds, sleep…wait…. It has always passed. There is love, and people and dogs and sunshine just waiting around the corner. I would hate to turn on this channel and find a world without you and Shaun. Take special care.
Thank you. Please stay strong 💜
Thank you LesaLesa you put this nicely
You two gentlemen are helping more people than you can ever imagine. Entertaining us while you inspire us. The advice "talk to Otis" is spot on.
I agree, a lot of people are struggling and look forward to these vlogs
Thanks, Dave 💜👍🏻💜
Thank you for taking the time to talk about your thoughts Colin. Having been in situations similar many times and masking how you feel is incredibly painful, but talking to and hearing from people who are in the same mindset as you is a great way of helping to find that spark to slowly come out of a dark place. Brought a tear to my eye but makes you realise that no matter how isolated you feel, you are not on your own. You two, Dilon, Otis and your videos over the last couple years have brought so much joy to people and for that we say thank you. Take care and know that everyone watching is here you for!
Thanks so much, Matthew. x
Cheers for having a chat Collin, it's always a delight to hear from both you and Shaun. And we're always here for a chat when you need it. Look after yourself, enjoy the summer on the water, and thank you for pushing through everything and providing us with this content.
Much appreciated
Love listening to you both but especially you Colin when you share very personal stuff.
There is an Irish guy who has just walked the entire country and blogged his journey. Over the years he also walked the Camino, the PCT (west coast of America) and cycled through Africa, all these journeys after his parents died within months of each other. Along his walk in Ireland he spoke of his anxiety and why he takes the trips he does. He also talks to the camera like you do and feels better a few days later. Anxiety and depression is tough but if you can fight those thoughts and remind yourself that people love you ❤️😍👏💪😊😊
I can see why he would find that therapeutic 👍🏻
Thanks for being so open, Colin. Just to let you know that I met up with my old mate Ray Oakhill after 30 years. He used to have his own narrowboat and toured England. Turns out we both love watching Foxes Afloat. There's a lot of people out here that love your vlogs. Please keep them coming .
Thanks, Andy 💜
Colin, keep talking to us, we're all behind you. Shaun, it must be as bad or worse for you. We're all here for you too xx
Thank you 👍🏻❤️
Hello lovely lads, wonderful video. My heart goes out to you with your experiences. I have worked in mental health services for over 30 years and I wish we could do more for more people. Your openness about your mental health is so important and priceless. So many people and particularly men are unable to talk, probably as there is little encouragement and support to do so. Your message is a game changer. If more men who were suffering felt more able to talk and share because brave people like you had enabled it, the world would be a better place. Research has shown men who have been able to share have been able to keep going, it gives a different path for those blokes who are told to 'man up' and the rest. You are changing the world , one vlog at a time! Foxes Afloat you are national treasure ❤️❤️
Thanks for being able to understand. That means a lot 👍🏻❤️
I love you guys and this channel. Colin, I'm a therapist and life coach now and nearly took my life many years ago in 2004. Depression can be overcome, but it's a very personal journey to unpicking all of the old unreleased emotions and conditioning the mind has got caught up in throughout life. If you ever need to reach out I speak with others for 30 minutes for free and I'd be more than happy to extend that for the happiness you both have brought me. Thank you for your authenticity, it's important to speak up, and speak out. All the very best 🧘♂️
What a lovely gesture, good man xxxx
Thanks, Daniel.
Thank you so much for being so open and honest about your struggles. Please, always remember, you matter to each and every one of us and we'd be lost without you!
Thank you, Joan. That really does mean a lot ❤️
Colin - your searingly honest words on how you were feeling thoroughly shocked me and brought me to tears. All the beauty you showed us of Beeston Castle didn’t fully sink in at the time. I applaud your bravery and honesty and it is so important for people like me to be able to understand ...... later all I could think about was poor Caroline Flack who must have shared those same thoughts but sadly acted on them. You and Shaun have a relationship forged through tough times - the like of which I cannot imagine. When the two of you are laughing away together it’s so hard to imagine the dark times you face. You do SO much good by speaking out as you do and if I could, I’d just like to shake your hand. Beeston Castle has been added to my list of places to visit and when I do go and admire the beautiful views I will think of you. My love to you both and to Otis xx
Thanks, Annette. I just want people to have at least some understanding. Thank you for saying that 👍🏻💜
After recently losing a brother in law to suicide and having suffered anxiety and depression since my early 20s, I've realised no matter how dark my thoughts go I will not let it beat me as the shear devastation he has left behind with his partner and family is something I never truly comprehended before.
Love your videos they calm my mind and make me hopeful that one day I can cruise the cut in our own boat.
I'm sorry to hear about your brother in law. 💜
I am so sorry for your loss and your struggles. Sending huge positive vibes and lots of love to help you cope and get through, lots of love x
Great video guys. As a person who lives in the Rocky Mountains @ 6400 feet above sea level, I smiled as you talked about the mound being 500 feet.
I do like a big mound 🤣
I get that from your outtakes at the end of your videos!
Colin, over 80k people love you and Shaun. Thank you for sharing your truth with us.
Wow, thank you
Your not alone! Suffer with depresion. During the lockdowns your vlogs have been a sort of escape for many of us who coudnt escape. Your helping people escape, showing the beautiful countryside. Lots of love and a hug for Ottis x
Thanks, Patricia ❤️
I forgot to say love you guys you have helped me get through hard times thank you both and otis probably spelt incorrect
Thank you for not ending in your moment of lowness. We of the world would truly miss you, and your creativity of you channel. We all have moments at one level or so. Where we feel not worthy. And it can really bring us down. A good walk into the woods and be one with nature helps bring balanced back in our crying soul. And heals trouble thoughts to a clearer perspective. Take care my brother. Were here for you. And your great look what is in your backyard.. :-)
Thanks so much, Kenneth x
A very honest account of the mental health challenges……. A vlog from Sean’s perspective would be much appreciated. He must go through hell when his greatest love is feeling so low. What are his coping strategies?
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He does, and thank you for recognising that the partner and loved ones suffer too. Shaun isn't comfortable talking about his feelings on camera but we support each other the best we can 💜
Colin, what would Shaun do without you? and we would all miss you so please if you have any bad thoughts talk them through. Being serious now you two make me laugh and are a tonic and long may we enjoy you together. Big hugs x
Thank you Dave 👍🏻❤️
Oh, Colin, thanks for making me cry 1st thing in a morning. Your description of depression as a burning building is the best I've ever heard. Sending virtual hugs to you both (and Otis)
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A perfect combination of real struggles and the joys of a beautiful relationship.
You both are amazing storytellers and I must applaud Sean for being such an amazing partner who laughs even on Colin's worst jokes!
I wish Colin can find an answer to his "low periods", and I want to hug both him and Sean for standing beside him patiently.
I'm sure it can be difficult for him, from my own personal experience. ❤️
Benny. Thanks so much for recognising that Shaun suffers when I suffer. ❤️
Oh, and about my 'worst jokes'... 🤣
@@FoxesAfloat sorry, Shaun not Sean. And I'm just kidding, you have really good jokes :)