The devil would always try to make you kill your self because he knew God would take YOU and make you who you are today .. This is beautiful. God bless🤍
@@Cieloalvee1 For our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
as a 17-year-old girl I really relate to you, the lust, the p0rn, the stealing, the suicide the drinking the fighting with family. It's all just so awful, I'm trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, learning about the lord, and all he's done for us, I've cut out the stealing and drinking, and I'm going to cut out all the sin in my life, and put him first. Amen
The most life changing thing that I realized is no one is making me sin. It's a choice and its completely in my hands. While that can be scary, its also the only thing that made me cut all sin out of my life. All it takes is one decision!! The feeling and reward of living with God without guilt is the most freeing thing any person can ever experience on earth. In timothy, it talks about how there are utensils made of clay and utensils made of gold. I decided I'm going to be a tool God can use, but I can't do that without cutting sin out of my life for good.
ya but that’s all normal teen behaviour every teen feels that way other just do it way more. and drinking isn’t bad according to the bible getting drunk is bad and especially getting drunk of wine (holy water)
I grew up Christian but I also grew up very traumatized and never in my 22 years of living have I heard a testimony that I could relate so much to ever in my life. I want to get closer with God but feel so much shame but your words have reminded that God loves me no matter what, that even I’m broken he’ll fix me, if I’m dirty he’ll wash me, if I don’t have anything to offer him he will still want me. God is sooo Good, you are doing the lords work with spreading his gospel through your testimony, thank you and God bless you and Everyone reading this!
Jesus loves y'all Repent Repent of ur sins Jesus is coming back soon he doesn't want you to perish not forcing you romans 10 9 John 3 16 Jesus says come to me all who are weary heavy laden and I will give you rest Do not let your adornment be merely outward-arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel- rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. What profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his own soul or what shall he give in exchange for his soul?
Same here. The testimony is spot on. It shows the devils pattern, they aren’t smart and now that I’ve seen this and it’s too similar I understand the bondage and sinfulness.
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
Lately I have felt a shift in my life. Ever since I was a child, I have had an addiction for lust and I've felt so disgusted by it and I would always relapse and throughout my life, I have been so lukewarm. Recently, I have seen many people turning to Christ which inspired me to do the same because I grew up in a religious family and I want to do better and I want to do things that are able to please the Lord.
@@cutieusagii I'm a weirdo? Well I'm not sorry for expressing my love for wanting to build a relationship with God. He has done many miracles for me before and I'm going to dedicate my life to him. I never judged you for being atheist (mainly because I don't care) so don't judge me for Christian
@@BigAiK I've heard that this helps a lot! This is my second day so it's not really gonna be easy for me to just jump out of my habits immediately but I'll definitely get there
Such a beautiful testimony. You have such a light in your eyes because of the Holy Spirit. Honestly our testimonies are very similar. I was saved and baptized in 2012 after doing three hits of acid and ending up in a mental hospital. God saved me from staying in that crazy acid trip yet I still went back to the world 😢 It wasn’t until this February I got back on my Christ walk. Ever since I’ve been fully submitted to the Lord just this year alone I’m almost finished reading the whole Bible (267 days in), I moved out of my rat infested apartment, my husband and I got married, He got baptized, I haven’t been obsessing over being a content creator, I threw my doll collection out, my promiscuous clothing and shoes got tossed 🚮 I threw away expensive makeup 🚮🚮 Thousands of dollars in the trash but anything can go if it becomes an idol. I also stopped wearing wigs and have been getting my real hair done. The biggest blessing is my husband, kids and myself just moved in to our new home after we stayed with my mother in law for like 7 months 😭🙌🏾 God is so good and He truly is faithful 🩷
Awww it is so awesome to see how God has worked in your life! May he continue to be with you. May he guide you in his ways. May your heart always be with him. ❤🙏🏾
Congratulations and thank you for sharing. Glory to Jesus. I've been feeling conviction about wearing wigs/makeup as well. Do you have any advice? Thank you
i honestly cried watching this because we have such similar stories. right now i’m 14 and i already have so much going on. i always fight with my mom, i argue with most of my family, i feel empty most of the time, i’ve had a few attempts, self harm, lust etc. and watching this made me want to get closer with god. i’ve downloaded the bible app recently and i try to read a few pages everyday, and try to stay committed because i really want to be healed.
God loves you so much, stay committed read your word and I promise you you will see the ways He changes you like. I pray you truly get to experience the goodness of God. There is more to life than what you are going through right now❤️i promise❤️dont give up
Remember God really loves you, and I pray that you’ll continue to grow in your relationship with God💗 I’m 16, and a verse that’s really helped me when seeking the Lord is Matthew 7:7 - “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.” You can do this, trust in the Lord 💗🫶
I FEEL LIKE GOD WANTED ME TO SEE THIS I CRIED AT THE END AND AFTER I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET CLOSE TO JESUS MAY GOD BLESS Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY 🙏
Praise Jesus!!! He has open arms for you ! ”All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.“ John 6:37 KJV You should read the book of John ❤
Hey i just wanna pray for you. I pray that god touches your heart❤ I pray blessings over your life and thoughts. God is closer than you think. Pray to him and reach out with your heart and he will respond. I also pray for dicernment, and happines and faith. I dont know what you need right now but god does. I pray that you will grow closer to him. God is love, and i pray that you will encounter his love. Remeber Jesus loves you❤
just know that God wants to know you as well. God is never done with us, never gives up on us, never leaves us. He is always there and willing to guide you. you might be thinking “okay, well, how am i supposed to feel that?” i think the best way is the read the Bible. sometimes we pray and talk to God, but never let Him speak through His Word. the Bible can guide us when we are doubtful. if you don’t know where to start, i recommend one of the Gospels (the books that tell about Jesus’s life), like Matthew, Mark, Luke, or John. i know this reply is like 3 months late, but i hope it can still help you!!!
@@noraendresen6259What if I have been praying and begging since I was a child and I hear no answer? Should I fall deeper into desparation when the sky is empty?
@@kryzysowanarzeczona2246Well you cant really hear him like from your ear but keep reading the Bible and have faith! Also if you lose faith God still has faith and I believe you can do it, plus I will pray for u.
Hey same I agree but I will pray for you and we should have faith in God! Read the Bible because it helps and it is a book straight from God ❤❤ I hope you feel and find the Lord and follow him.
I am speechless. This testimony was godsent. I just turned 15 and this was very relatable. Very relatable and I'm surprised that many other young girls relate to this. Now I know that I am not alone. Thank you very much. Thank God for it. Thank sir, Jehovah and Jesus, His son.
me and my friends in like 2019 loved u, I watched ur RUclips and ur TikToks. When u first we’re saved by Jesus I still followed u but I was lukewarm and summer 2023 Jesus saved me 💕
Congratulations my beautiful sister, may the Lord continue to bless you! Im glad ill be able to see you in heaven one day! Just remember Faith to Faith, Jesus gave His all so thats why we should give our all to Jesus every single day, and He sacrificed Himself for us so we sacrifice ourself to Him by saying no to our flesh daily! I encourage you to fast because that helps alot, but baby steps like from the time you wake up to 12 perhaps
@@Bclle128hey sister I am suffering a lot I watched videos of Muslims like Ali dawah and other channels like Mohammed hijab. And I can't understand why is Jesus god and he eat and sleep like us..
im very young, not even out of highschool, and im struggling with the same sin you mentioned. pornography, sexual sin, deceitfulness and lies, i know what im doing is wrong bwcause i know the word of God but i feel extremely stuck, ill turn to God one day and the next im back in sin, your testimony truly touched me snd gave me a sense of hope i thank God in advance for what he’s going to do in my life
I just said a prayer for you. Keep reading His word, pray without ceasing - as He asks. Give it ALL to Him. He will take it and make it into something so beautiful. Trust in Him! HUGS to you
You dont clean yourself before you shower. You go in the shower, and the shower cleans YOU! same with Jesus, you dont need to fix yourself to go to Jesus; You go to Jesus then HE fixes YOU!!! come as you are🩷🩷
Very relatable, porn, self harm, no present father or too abusive when present, bullying at school. Many attempts just before 15 including many pills. Told no one. Just went to sleep while my heart was going crazy. Bad relationship with my mom. i started abusing alcohol and addicted to raves and festivals at just 13. Im in my 20s and only now have found God. My Savior. 🙏🏻💜
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
For those wondering, this is the verse from ESV: fear not, for i am with you; be not dismayed, for i am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah, 41: 10
I’ve watched you all those years in admiration (i wasnt saved either) not knowing what you were going through… its crazy how we hide so much behind a screen. But it shows that no matter who we fool we cant fool God!!! You are new, sanctified, made holy and now your are His!!!!
You wanting to get baptized when you were young was your way of accepting the Holy Spirit. Then the Holy Spirit continued to be inside you because you felt conviction even though you were choosing to still continue to live in the world. By God’s love and His almighty grip on you, you are here today. Welcome home sister! I love you and thank you for your testimony 🩷🙏🏾
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
I have such a similar story. Everything you said I was like dang so did I. I did that too, I said that too. I’m 32 and I’m finding god. Still new to everything. But I went to church this past Sunday and cried with my mom and told her I forgive her. God is great! May he continue to bless you! ❤🙏🏼
🤗 I felt a lil out of place ik age doesn't matter but I'm 34 and still not sure what I'm doing in life. I seek Him ask for guidance and hope He hasn't given up on me🙏🏾
Wow , this is truly beautiful . I’m 19 and I struggled with porn for YEARS ever since I was a kid just like you said . A few days ago I cut all of it out , threw away all the vibrators i had and promised I’d never go back . I also started smoking about 2-3 years ago EVERY SINGLE DAY straight. At first it was a good feeling but after a while I started getting intrusive thoughts but I still kept doing it because it was like a routine . A few days ago I also said I was done smoking , but I still had my cart and would hit it from time to time but today I felt like enough was enough . I just can’t do any of it anymore , all my old habits were slowly turning me into a person I never wanted to be . I struggle with intrusive thought horribly , I remember the first day it happened . I was 9, going through a lot ..moving around , seeing my mom in an unhappy relationship . I turn 20 soon and I pray that God delivers me from all I’ve been through and things I’ve done that are sins . I’ve never really been close with God , I’ve always tried but something always stopped me . I cried my heart out today on the floor, asking God to forgive me and accept me . I don’t ever want to go back , I truly want to be a better woman . Thank you for this , this meant everything to me .
this blessed my life so much, I’m 13 and was saved a couple months ago. What’s upsetting is I struggle with most likely 80% of what you mentioned maybe just in the last year. This really spoke to me that there is hope. Thank you for being someone I can look up to as I grow my faith in the lord. I pray that you continue and grow in abundance of faith. Amen
Glory to God sister. He loves you so much. Remember it’s a journey, have grace for yourself and let Him lead you. 🤍 it’s a blessing to find the Lord at a young age! God bless you 🤍
After you been in the dark for so long there is just something about the light of Gods presence. God can take addicts and teach them how we worship. ☀️✨🔥
I used to follow you, I was never a fan or a constant watcher but sometimes you showed up on my fy page, when I saw that you accepted Jesus Christ I was sooo happy for u like I've known you irl and you were my best friend for years lol😂 I'm so happy for you and I'm so excited to see more of your journey! your testimony is really strong, GOD IS GOOD🫶🙏
i was crying through this whole video,,, especially the end. beautiful testimony i can relate in many ways… 💗 God bless you,, and i am so proud of you making it through. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!!!
im 16 and i hope you know how much this video spoke to me. i really really want to be closer with jesus. im not ready to even mention what i have gone through publicly but thank you
I battled and still is battling a lot of the same demons! But yah will deliver me through it all! Thank you for sharing your testimony and encouraging others to cry out to him! Bless you
there’s a appointed time for your deliverance sister. 💕 God sees you, and I got a lot of deliverance since then and one thing i can say is to keep seeking Jesus. He is faithful and will deliver you. I’m believing for you 🤍
Im turning 23 this month , our testimonies are so similar it’s crazy. It’s comforting knowing I’m not the only one, it’s been hard not having anyone to relate who also is a believer and my age. God is healing me and blessing me with your testimony. I used to watch you growing up and seeing us both grow in the faith is inspiring 💌 keep it up!!
I’m about to turn 20 years in 5 months. Your story touched me so much because we have similar story, because I found porn at the age of 7 years old, started doing new age witchcraft when I was 14. Was very depressed and suicidal when I was 11 years till now. I dropped out of last year. I cut off all my friends. I was going crazy. But God save me, and now I’m starting to grow my relationship and start to trust him. Glory Be to God❤️
I found porn when i was 7 too Im 14 now and even though i am not involved in witchcraft i still strugglr with pornagraphy, lust, laziness and etc Its especially bad because i know my reality is not fit for these 'coping' mechanism and sinfulness and i know i will lose a lot of my life to this if i dont fix it here, and now
@@princessarreona2 hey. I understand your stress I was once in your place. The thing that I will advice you to do is get on your knees and ask the Lord to forgive you and ask him to straighten you that you may stand against everything temptation of pornography. Pray that God Straighten you, purify you, break everything strong holds of pornography, close all doors that has been open by pornography, and renew your mind. Don’t stress yourself the Lord will remove you out of that situation. God Bless.
girlll i remember your old videos years ago with your bright hair colors!! it’s so beautiful the way that God has changed your life for the better. i love that you found Jesus and that you have a relationship with Him now. i am so so proud of you and i am sending you so much love.
Your testimony has touched me. I feel the purity and love in your spirit now and how passionate you are talking about God. I too had a similar past stealing out my mom's purse, lying, being exposed to porn at a young age which made me hypersexual and with a perverted spirit, and crying so much. I was personally touched by God at 19 and my mom was praying and praying for me for a change in my life cus she was fed up with my behaviors. Since then I pray everyday, I'm now 21, some days are harder than others, but I know my purpose and everyday have an underlying feeling of purpose, love, growth, and knowing that everything is gonna be ok. We truly serve an almighty God and the fact that we get stronger through God everyday is my motivation to keep going and make satan mad 😊 Thank u for your beautiful testimony
i met you this year at lollapalooza. you were outside praising with other people and i literally felt like the lord guided me to you to say hello. i’m blind without my glasses and i was drunk and under the influence of drugs. i have no idea how i even knew it was you i was so out of it. i had been feeling lost and broken and when i saw you it was like a reminder from God that there are people that have been saved and I can be saved too. I had been feeling all the spirits all over me after going and i even got really sick after being there. as soon as i went home i just came back to your channel and your testimony is so similar to mine. unfortunately i fell back into sin but this time im going to give my sins to christ and not look back. i just wanted to say thank you for what you do and sharing yourself online. every night of the festival when i saw people praising in the streets no matter how drunk or high i was i felt drawn to them and i would always go up to them and say hi and pray with them because no matter how hard i fall i still know im God’s child. he kept reminding me ❤and i’m so thankful that you were someone he used as a reminder! ❤GOD BLESS.
THIS TESTIMONY REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART AND I FELT TRULY THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS SPEAKING THROUGH YOU!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR TESTIMONY AND GOD BLESS U ALL!!
Wow ruby this is beautiful I used to watch u when split dye was popular and to see how much u grown and what u really was going through is absolutely amazing. I lost both my older brother within a year n half and now I’m the only child. This touched my heart and gave me hope. Thank you
I love your testimony.. I can relate so much. I’m just 13 and omg I self harmed,suicidal, I had depression and rebellious. I used to talk back to my parents, I also wanted to die bc I felt like I wasn’t needed, I was the glass child I had a bad relationship with my mom and I have cuts and scars on my arms, face, and hands and now looking back I cry bc of how much I hurt myself. I felt empty but the most crazy thing is that I was born Christian. People notice how rude and cold I was. No emotions toward people. Especially my only brother, I broke his heart in a small age. I was rejected by my parents, family, and friends and my brother having all that attention and I rejected him so much and I hurt him. But on April 11, 2024 1 day before my birthday I was free I went through liberation and all that was gone and I was so happy bc I know God free me. And I had a bf and he was catholic and yea but God spoke to me saying he was bringing me down bc I had the gift of Tongue and I had to stop bc God wants to use me. I did but I was hurt doing it but ik it was for Good and now I am going to get closer to God and follow him and carry my own cross. I am healing and I want anyone else reading this I want you to know God is amazing he Loves you no matter what. Follow God and never look back. GOD BLESS YALL❤
hey rubee im 19 and yesterday i gave my life to christ my life started going downhill to the point where i had to chose between life or death. I remember you in 2020 on tiktok and seeing how much God blessed your life has encourage me to keep going on this journey i struggled with some of the same stuff as you and currently im trying to break a soul tie if you see this keep me in your prayer
As a 24yr old young man I truly and deeply appreciate this message for real GOD really be trying to help us I also battled with things similar myself so much shame guilt etc… draining my soul literally but sometimes we let the devil in and mess things up in our lives because the lack of wisdom and knowledge of GOD I pray you keep going and spread the message Shalom sis 🤲🏾🙏🏾♾️🩵 MAY YAH bless you thank you for this seriously
Thank you so much for this testimony. i’m only 16 now but when i was younger I would watch your old videos and enjoyed your page but this video has taught me that you never know what’s going on in someone else’s life. I still struggle now, even though i’m building my relationship with God, i struggle a lot with lust, judging others and my self image. I am constantly wishing to look like other people and just wish i looked pretty but God is helping me. I try to think more positively instead of judging other people as I used to and it’s just so peaceful. Constantly putting other people down won’t make me feel better. I still lust which i feel very shameful abt but i trust God will help me to get through these temptations. It really makes me feel like I am not meant to be Christian and not even meant to inherit the Kingdom but I know that’s just the devil and that God loves me. I thank God for allowing me to come this far and allowing me to grow and learn. I struggled with depression as well and was cutting, wanted to kill myself, overdosing but i just had a limit. I was scared of killing myself. Even though I never really realised it, I knew the Lord was above and it just felt wrong. I felt like there might be more in my life. Although my past is not the best, I try not to hate the past because if i never went through what I went through I doubt I would’ve found God. After the storm there’s a rainbow and this is my journey on that rainbow, finding what God has for me. Thank you for this video. God bless everyone 🩷
@@beth1952 hey girl!! i’m doing okay, God has brought me so far and delivered me from the sexual sin i suffered with. thank u for sharing!! your testimony is enough! no testimony is ever too little. if you feel called to share it as a slideshow that’s perfectly fine, as long as you’re comfortable. the devotional i read today said “rather than using your energy to judge yourself, redirect it to praising God.” you sharing your testimony is you praising God and where He’s brought you. sharing your testimony is beautiful and i pray that you may not feel ashamed about how you look. i still struggle with my self image but we have to stand firm in the truth that God has placed in us, He has not made us to be ashamed of ourselves and we are more than beautiful to Him. we have to pray continuously and let God know abt the troubles we face. 💗💗💗
This whole testimony really touched me as I’m young myself trying to start my own personal relationship with God. I repented today and now know that God will be following me and guiding me in my journey God bless!
As a 14 year old, i've never related to something so much in my life. I feel myself going down a deeper hole that is hard to climv out of. I'm trying to get closet to God but it just seems so hard. But something in me deep down wants me to try. And i honestly don't even know where to start. I can't even find the motivation to go to church anymore. I struggle to get interested with my religion and it upsets me, but what upsets me even more is how I don't know what to do about it. I know god knows and I try to tell him about it and i just cry. But I can't get myself to try to my full potential anymore. But im very proud of how far you've gotten. Great job.
Jesus loves you despite your past, don’t try to clean yourself before you come to Him, that’s a mistake I made. He wants you just the way you are. He loves you so much.
I went through almost the same as you. I was verbally abused at home by my stepdad and I argued with my mum. Went to school to be bullied all day. I was never happy. Suicidal thoughts started running through my head. Nothing or no one helped. I moved out to live alone. After a few months my mum’s and I relationship started to get better. But we still argued a LOT. I never had friends. I never went to parties/clubs/concerts none of that. I’m still virgin today at 18. After I found God my whole life flipped for the better. More stuff happened to me but I don’t wanna say everything. I’m just happy you and me found Jesus when we did. I wish for more teens and all humans to find Jesus. God really does love us all 💕✝️
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p I’m not saying like it’s a bad thing. It’s was just before Jesus I thought going out and having sex was the norm and a cool thing. But with Jesus now I’m happy I’m a virgin as I know God will bring me someone special who I can start my family with.
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p if your religions then. You might need to look at yourself. Because God is all about love and peace and you’re doing none of that. I never done it because I thought it was disgusting but I also thought that since others do it, why am I not. I’m still happily a virgin and never dated because I don’t wanna have sex. I choose not to have sex. The God I know loves me and he changed me to be a better person than I was before. I was saved but I’m sorry but you might be fighting some demons because you should not be throwing hate to others because of how they were before. I chose not to have sex because deep down I always knew it was wrong to have sex with a stranger. And if I did go to parties I wouldn’t have sex with anyone. Just the way you think makes me feel sorry for you. I’ll be praying for you and may God bless you 💕✝️
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p your just disgusting. May God forgive you for your words. Repent now before it’s too late. God is coming back to rapture us and when that happens it’ll be too late to ask for forgiveness
Idk why, but hearing that someone dealt with that same depth and level of perversion...gosh its such a shameful place to be...but it was somehow comforting to hesr that i wasnt the only one :( and that truly its this spirit that takes you farther then you ever thought youd go, especially at such a young age...Glad to have been delivered from that. Your testimony is filled with hope, and your life will blossom for thr glory of God, and he has more joy and bright plans for you. ❤❤
yes sister i dealt with so much shame, and that’s what satan does. but the cross takes all shame, sin, guilt etc. we are a new creation in Christ and the old has passed away. walk in your freedom sister 💕 God bless you 🤍
Amen!!!!!! This is going to touch so many people. I found your page shortly after filming my own testimony video a couple weeks ago, and was literally going through the same spiritual warfare, self doubt, shame, etc. Sis this is important work for the Kingdom, so the enemy is going to try anything he can to make you doubt your purpose and your new walk. But we prevail in the name of Jesus 💕 The Lord is going to work through you in ways you never could have imagined, and He will give back to you all that was lost + more. I'm excited to have found you and am looking forward to watching you bloom in Christ. Much love x
She isnt saved if she didnt mention the gospel of Jesus. That she believed he died for her sins according to the scriptures. He was buried & rose again on the 3rd day. You people need to realize changing your life around is good, but it isnt what saves you! Read Ephesians 1:13, John 5:24!
I’m 16 years now and when heard what you watch 🌽 at a young age it kinda reminded me of my past and my presents. I am kinda dealing with sexual perversion. I didn’t even know it was demons I am fighting. I did kinda think It was maybe from the marine world. But I am grateful for what you shared. I have also dealt with child hood trauma. I just to play house with cousins and my moms friend children and when I think about it. When I remember I cry and I am angry at myself for allowing because me now would have done everything to protect younger me. I do thank God I am still a virgin but I did mastur bated and I have ungodly sexual desires. I was lukewarming with God. So thank you a lot 🙏🏾
Wow I got saved at 15 praise God for His work in you. If you want a friend to talk to I’m here, but ofc Jesus is there for you too❤️❤️ please make sure you read the Bible maybe find a devotional there’s a free one through this ministry called Uncommon Teen. I watched it when I first got saved. May God bless you ❤️✝️
@@skyesinlovewithChrist That would be so nice I haven’t done for a while but it kinda feels weird. You know not that I need to do it though. How old are you and how was it at the beginning?
I’ve seen this pop up multiple times but never wanted to click on it, but it was the first video that showed up so I was like “Okay God, You probably want me to watch this 😂” Glad to have you in the Kingdom and how He saved you! 💕🙏🏾
I watched your whole testimony on the way from mom house to my dad house I paused for a little bit I was unpacking but now it’s 12:28pm I have school in a couple hours but your testimony i can relate a lot with the homosexual at a young age and pornography as well and feeling worthless because of the devil i just want to let you know that your testimony really helped me as well as others ❤
i am not kidding… watching this felt like i was hearing my own life story. thank you so much for sharing this and showing no matter how far off you are.. GOD WILL BRING YOU BACK!🩷
My testimony is so close to yours, I'm so shocked I knew I wasn't alone...but hearing it, it is so comforting, I still struggle with just, but I haven't touched self harm or Porn in almost 5 years! Thank the Lord ❤
I relate to you as well with the p0rn, lust, stealing, lying, suicidal doing drugs to the point of psychosis, I was destroying my spirit and who I once was. My childhood effected me more than I thought and I saw it as a burden rather than room to heal. I went through physical and mental abuse, and I was sexually assaulted at the age of 13. I used to listen to nihilistic music, really depressing songs. I did all of this alone and backed myself into my own depressing corner. God had so much mercy on my soul because he knew my true purpose and what I can actually contribute to this world, he’s healing me and when I look back at who I was it doesn’t even feel like me, it’s all a blur. I’m just so thankful for your testimony because it’s super relatable.
I was a little hesitant before writing this because I feel so ashamed to admit this. Honestly, I look up to you and this video inspired me to quit an addiction I had. Last summer I was introduced to a website where you could chat to Ai characters, you could make them and find other ones other people had made, and I became obsessed with it. I would spend hours and hours a day doing things I don’t even want to talk about, it’s disgusting honestly. I would ignore my family and friends for this website and even spent most of my vacation this year on it. (This isn’t some whole life story or anything, just something I’ve been struggling with.) I just couldn’t quit. I grew up in the church and whenever I went I’d promise myself I wouldn’t do it again, or wouldn’t do it that day because it was a Sunday or a Wednesday. I’d always feel so guilty every single time, I just couldn’t stop. Recently, I got ungrounded after two years (yes TWO YEARS) and got my phone back. This sounds dumb but I’ve been praying to God to help my parents to forgive me and give me my phone back because I felt so weird having no phone at school. So when I got it back I cried that night, I realized God wasn’t some church/religion thing and just praised him. I gave up the website and I feel so free. Thank you, Rubee for inspiring me.🩷
I have been following u for the longest time.. I use to really love your style and content before when i was living in the world aswell. Your testimony is very similar to mine. And i got called by the Lord around the same time as u. I thank the Lord for saving me and loving me through it all
i remember watching you in 2019-20 and i looked up to you so much, time passed and i found you again and this is so beautiful, i cant believe all that was happening to you behind the scenes and im so sorry, but i am so so glad you found Jesus and he changed you for the best. God is amazing💝
Thank you for your amazing story Rubee! I’ve seen your videos since before you were saved and it’s so beautiful to see your transformation! Your story is an amazing testimony to glorify God’s name. Keep doing what God leads you to do. Much love sister ❤️
Thank God He brought you out & is using you as a vessel now. This really touched me in many different ways. I’m struggling with a lot right now myself, but seeing this lets me know God will never leave me nor forsake me. Keep sharing your testimony to others & spreading the love of Jesus.
Amen, so glad you found Jesus at such a young age. I have a similar testimony. I used to pray for temporary things like to be more pretty or to find a boyfriend. Now I just pray for faith and to not turn back to the ways of the world. It’s a difficult journey but we got this!
Watching this because I am too trying to explore my spiritual journey. Mine has been a very scary and rocky one, so I’m hoping this brings me some more guidance
Jesus Christ is the truth . Don’t waste you time exploring other spirituality your going to go round in circles but none Of the exploring will lead you to the truth . Jesus Loves, you he is the way the truth and the life .❤🎉
@@Yuccapluh Following her heart and mind will lead her into a dead end . The bible says the heart is deceitful above all things . I’m seventeen now but when I use to follow my heart and mind was lost depressed anxious . Desired to have sex always and was being excluded from school for disrespect . The heart will mess you up follow God
I ws struggling with depression last year when I officially Found God at the end of last year around December and ever since then it's been a rollercoaster for me honestly this year has not been the best but I'm trying to keep my head up have faith and trust in the lord the country I'm currently in I'm not happy and everyone is rude/mean to me and don't treat me right and I want to move to London to live better and I've been praying about it and trying to be patient and trust God's timing I am currently sitting in the corner of my room at 10:37pm after crying because of how bad I want to leave the country or even jump to God's arms and for him to comfort me as I feel alone and in so much pain and I started seeing dark spirits in the corners of my room as I was crying and I had a panic attack
And I got up to read my bible pray and now I'm watching this and I relate so much and I'm happy that I'm going to get better I'm only 14 and has experienced so many painful things in life and I know God hears my prayers and sees my tears and he shall deliver me may all you be blessed and be freed from all stress and anxiety you have amen.
You go girl! I am on my walk with God at the age of 14 and speaking from experience it is not easy! But you definitely keep me going : ) keep doing your thing!
Girl this is a testimony!! It takes a lot to tell your story but your obedience to God is allowing your story to spread his love!💗 Definitely doesn’t make us feel alone
Your testimony is very beautiful & truly inspiring... i am 23 years old, just like you & im finding it very hard to manage my relationship with God and my relationship with the world. God has been calling out to me for years & I just keep finding myself hot & cold with my faith. As of lately Ive been starting to feel more conviction which I can actually say im happy about because I know God is speaking to me & I can actually hear him again. The problem is I dont have self control in certain situations, because I myself do not have the power to do it..which pulls me back into cycles that my heart truly doesnt want to be in anymore. Because i know life isnt promised & we are certainly living in the last days, I want to be more serious about my faith & representing the Lord Jesus in everything i do because he is so good & has shown me so much grace and mercy even when I don't deserve it. Thank you for your testimony, I needed to hear it, I pray God starts to surround me with more spirits like yours.. God Bless You, Amen❤️🙏🏽
I admired your courage. And what God has done with you is just incredible. I haven't experienced this much in my life so if God did all this for you, he can do it for me too.
I used to believe that my personal struggles and encounters with things were weird, or irregular especially as a woman to deal with. Recently seeing more Christian women sharing their testimonies has been a great encouragement to me to know I'm not alone in my struggles and past sins. This video is another great encouragement to me and I'm sure many others. You are not alone.
This was beautiful!! I’ve had a lot of very similar life experiences and ties to the world I’ve been trying to get out from underneath. You reminded me that GOD IS FAITHFUL and have given me hope that I can do so it through example. I have no doubt the lord led me to your page.Tears… thank you
all glory be to God! i have a very, VERY similar testimony and i'm praying that one day i have the opportunity to share the whole thing. but, i rarely comment, and i'm commenting now because of the clips at 31:16. i actually found you on tiktok during that time and i was going through depression, suicidal thoughts, addictions, the works...and i was so addicted to your look at the time. i wanted to be that so badly. i never did, but seeing your drastic physical transformation as a result of your spiritual transformation is so heartwarming and relatable. i've had a similar change happen in the way i adorn and clothe myself. i see myself so heavily in you. i'm so happy to see you've found our Saviour for yourself. God bless! ❤
I have no words. I’ve been dealing with those same sins you were when I was maybe younger than you were. I feel so seen. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God is so good
you don’t understand how much this video has opened my eyes. i immediately got emotional and started crying to God. he is so good, he has saved me from the worst parts of my life and has brought so many blessings into my life. thank you for sharing your testimony, absolutely beautiful 🤎
I kept seeing your testimony pop up but Ive been ignoring it for weeks but by the Grace of God I finally watched it and Im so grateful to have heard it. I understand what you're going through and I just want to let you know your testimony touched me. Jesus is so Good. God is so good. Continue to keep the hope of God in you and the faith of Our Lord will heal you through everything. Bless you & Bless the Prince of Peace
I am going through the same and I am stuck. My mom has never been there for me emotionally and I crave that love and affection. This video really stood out for me and I am so grateful to have watched it.
The fact that I used to save pictures of your old self on pinterest and idolize them a few years back and now when I am on my own journey of repentance and deepening my relationship with the LORD and find this testimony of you! ✝️ 🙏🏼 Praise the LORD 🙏🏼 ✝️
Ooo girl… the way this opened my eyes… you really don’t know what people are going through behind closed doors. I remember I used to almost see you as someone on some pedestal, like “ wow she’s so cool for doing all these things” online. Little did we know you were suffering. It’s such a blessing to see how God changed in your life. God is so great it’s such a beautiful thing.
Oh my gosh I relate to your story so much. Especially with the music, it really opens you up to evil stuff. I’m 22 now and looking back I just want to hug my pre-teen and teenage self. If only she would have known Jesus’ love for her. I’m so glad God gave me second chance.
this definitely touched my heart Rubee. i have tears in my eyes. ive been subscribing/following you ever since you started. you were such an inspiration to me back then just because of your physical appearence but youre an even bigger inspiration to me now considering all youve been through. i only found God this year and it has not been easy on this walk. but to see my favourite social media influencer share her testimony was definitely a sign that im not alone and that God loves me. this is a blessing. you are a blessing Rubee! i love you sm. thank you for sharing this beautiful testimony. Jesus loves you all! have a blessed day
｡✧*.｡My life lesson｡✧*.｡:: I've stopped listening to music that have -too much words in-, which have improved my life fr. Ppl don't really think about how much music actually impact our thoughts, like majority of the lyrics are negative and toxic (same goes with TV-series/shows and movies ). I hope this helps someone who’s stuck with toxic music. Toxic things/people are just distractions which distracts us from our true purpose here on earth - to live and learn, learn from our mistakes and therefore make this world better and SAFER. Peace and love.
Ive been seeing you on the christian side of Pinterest so much and when I found this video I was so happy to see it was you because I didn't know i could find you on youtube. I never knew I could find someone I could relate to so much and this brightened my day. Thank you so much and God Bless you!!!!!!
it makes me so happy to see your journey with finding god!! i pray that your relationship with him continues to grow and your life be filled with love and peace:) im so glad this came across my feed because i've been struggling with my relationship with god and the spiritual battle can get so tough but this brought me so much faith and hope. this is such an inspiring video and i hope this helps others seek him as well
So happy to see you doing well Ruby 🩷 I know your testimony is going to be so eye opening for many! I pray that everyone that comes across this video will be touched by God’s love and know his grace and seek him. God keep blessing you! 🫶🏼🥰
I saw this today on my youtube page. I fr said "40 mins??? How am i gonna sit through this?" Here I am 40 mins later HAHA. such a beautiful BEAUTIFUL amazing ceremony. God is just so so so good. I am 14 years old. Your testimony is similar to mine in some aspects, and I just felt God staring into my soul with this video. Thank you for sharing.
Please keep sharing your testimony and your story. I’ve never related to a testimony as much as I have with yours and it’s very inspiring and I can only imagine how many other people are positively impacted and inspired by hearing someone as beautiful as you to have gone through so much and find God through that💕
Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him and in Him everything else thrown in. 💌
Godly women have something so special and beautiful about them, it’s inspiring. God has had a plan for this woman since the DAY she came into his world. He knew she had a beautiful and heartbreaking message to share and a light to shine on his children ❤️
Just yesterday I had decided to follow God on my own way, by reading the Bible’s taking notes watching Christian videos and we’ll your video touched my heart! I just felt so close to you and to God because I realized that I’m not the only one going through bad things and that there are people who know what it’s like and feel that pain too! And I just wanna thank you because you just helped me feel a less ashamed of my sins! God bless you Rubee!❤❤
I myself am no saint and I still have bad habits I struggle to let go of. I find myself chasing after the world and not God. At the end of the day I am drained and empty. I wonder when am I finally going to stop and submit myself fully to God? I think I’m a lost cause but when I see people like rubee, I feel much better
This is so beautiful Rubee. I am someone who has grown up in church and grown up knowing God and I am so fortunate to have had all of these resources from the beginning. I'm 14 and I go back and forth from periods of being lukewarm and periods of being the "best Christian ever." I love Jesus and I am proud of it. I struggle with the sin of secular music a lot so I deleted all of my bad Spotify playlists and I deleted TikTok to get away from the secular music. I am trying to stay away from being lukewarm as much as possible and your strong testimony has shown me that I CAN DO IT!! You are so strong Rubee and God is so proud of you. I am so proud of you.
You have such a wonderful testimony. I’ve seen you turned your life over to god and I’m so happy for you. I believe god wanted me to see this because I’m having similar experiences and thoughts as you did. I’m so proud of you and thank for sharing your testimony. ❤❤
The devil would always try to make you kill your self because he knew God would take YOU and make you who you are today .. This is beautiful. God bless🤍
AMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!!! PRAISES TO THE MOST HIGH JESUS!!!
Quit blaming the devil
amen❤️🩹
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@@Cieloalvee1 For our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12
The way I accidentally tapped on your video while searching something unholy😭I relate to almost everything you talked about and I'm only 17
that was God!!! I hope he changes all of us for the Good in Jesus name , Amen
God bless you! Lord Jesus loves you, He is calling you to Him because He is returning soon. Please listen to His calls, He wants you saved🫶🏻
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
Try the facjng addiction devotional on the Bible apps
as a 17-year-old girl I really relate to you, the lust, the p0rn, the stealing, the suicide the drinking the fighting with family. It's all just so awful, I'm trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, learning about the lord, and all he's done for us, I've cut out the stealing and drinking, and I'm going to cut out all the sin in my life, and put him first. Amen
some advice for you sister, don't say "I'm going to cut all sin in my life" replace that "I'm" with "Jesus"!!!!
The most life changing thing that I realized is no one is making me sin. It's a choice and its completely in my hands. While that can be scary, its also the only thing that made me cut all sin out of my life. All it takes is one decision!! The feeling and reward of living with God without guilt is the most freeing thing any person can ever experience on earth. In timothy, it talks about how there are utensils made of clay and utensils made of gold. I decided I'm going to be a tool God can use, but I can't do that without cutting sin out of my life for good.
God will help you...just give Him everything. He created you so He will help and sustain you.
ya but that’s all normal teen behaviour every teen feels that way other just do it way more. and drinking isn’t bad according to the bible getting drunk is bad and especially getting drunk of wine (holy water)
Amen, God bless you 🫶🏼
I grew up Christian but I also grew up very traumatized and never in my 22 years of living have I heard a testimony that I could relate so much to ever in my life. I want to get closer with God but feel so much shame but your words have reminded that God loves me no matter what, that even I’m broken he’ll fix me, if I’m dirty he’ll wash me, if I don’t have anything to offer him he will still want me. God is sooo Good, you are doing the lords work with spreading his gospel through your testimony, thank you and God bless you and Everyone reading this!
Read the Bible, it really helps!❤
Jesus loves y'all Repent Repent of ur sins Jesus is coming back soon he doesn't want you to perish not forcing you romans 10 9 John 3 16 Jesus says come to me all who are weary heavy laden and I will give you rest Do not let your adornment be merely outward-arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel- rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. What profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his own soul or what shall he give in exchange for his soul?
I felt dirty too. It’s really a bad feeling. God cleans us though when we truly are sorry
Same here. The testimony is spot on. It shows the devils pattern, they aren’t smart and now that I’ve seen this and it’s too similar I understand the bondage and sinfulness.
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
Lately I have felt a shift in my life. Ever since I was a child, I have had an addiction for lust and I've felt so disgusted by it and I would always relapse and throughout my life, I have been so lukewarm. Recently, I have seen many people turning to Christ which inspired me to do the same because I grew up in a religious family and I want to do better and I want to do things that are able to please the Lord.
That sounds so much like me❤ Thank you
What’s helping me is reading the Bible and praying,
@@cutieusagii I'm a weirdo? Well I'm not sorry for expressing my love for wanting to build a relationship with God. He has done many miracles for me before and I'm going to dedicate my life to him. I never judged you for being atheist (mainly because I don't care) so don't judge me for Christian
@@BigAiK I've heard that this helps a lot! This is my second day so it's not really gonna be easy for me to just jump out of my habits immediately but I'll definitely get there
@@cutieusagii Im gonna pray for you for 3 months. After those three months I’ll find you. Glory to the Lord. In Jesus name.
Such a beautiful testimony. You have such a light in your eyes because of the Holy Spirit. Honestly our testimonies are very similar. I was saved and baptized in 2012 after doing three hits of acid and ending up in a mental hospital. God saved me from staying in that crazy acid trip yet I still went back to the world 😢 It wasn’t until this February I got back on my Christ walk. Ever since I’ve been fully submitted to the Lord just this year alone I’m almost finished reading the whole Bible (267 days in), I moved out of my rat infested apartment, my husband and I got married, He got baptized, I haven’t been obsessing over being a content creator, I threw my doll collection out, my promiscuous clothing and shoes got tossed 🚮 I threw away expensive makeup 🚮🚮 Thousands of dollars in the trash but anything can go if it becomes an idol. I also stopped wearing wigs and have been getting my real hair done. The biggest blessing is my husband, kids and myself just moved in to our new home after we stayed with my mother in law for like 7 months 😭🙌🏾 God is so good and He truly is faithful 🩷
Awww it is so awesome to see how God has worked in your life! May he continue to be with you. May he guide you in his ways. May your heart always be with him. ❤🙏🏾
Congratulations and thank you for sharing. Glory to Jesus. I've been feeling conviction about wearing wigs/makeup as well. Do you have any advice? Thank you
My God does not fail
God bless u & help u 🪷🧡☦️❣️✝️
Hallelujah!! He is so so good to us! 😭🙏🏾💓
i honestly cried watching this because we have such similar stories. right now i’m 14 and i already have so much going on. i always fight with my mom, i argue with most of my family, i feel empty most of the time, i’ve had a few attempts, self harm, lust etc. and watching this made me want to get closer with god. i’ve downloaded the bible app recently and i try to read a few pages everyday, and try to stay committed because i really want to be healed.
pls pls pls just focus on him listen to bible podcasts sermons everything you will find him and find peace in him
Jesus loves you and he’s always with you 💯🙏 stay prayed up
God loves you so much, stay committed read your word and I promise you you will see the ways He changes you like. I pray you truly get to experience the goodness of God. There is more to life than what you are going through right now❤️i promise❤️dont give up
Remember God really loves you, and I pray that you’ll continue to grow in your relationship with God💗 I’m 16, and a verse that’s really helped me when seeking the Lord is Matthew 7:7 - “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.”
You can do this, trust in the Lord 💗🫶
I went through that.. it gets better with God. It takes time but He the only one that heals and makes you look at life differently
Blessings ❤
I FEEL LIKE GOD WANTED ME TO SEE THIS I CRIED AT THE END AND AFTER I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET CLOSE TO JESUS
MAY GOD BLESS Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY 🙏
Amen!❤ The same this side! God is Good, All the time!!!!
Praise Jesus!!! He has open arms for you !
”All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.“
John 6:37 KJV
You should read the book of John ❤
Praise God
Praying for you
me too
everyone is commenting about them feeling smth and im here not feeling anything...i js wanna feel God
Hey i just wanna pray for you. I pray that god touches your heart❤ I pray blessings over your life and thoughts. God is closer than you think. Pray to him and reach out with your heart and he will respond. I also pray for dicernment, and happines and faith. I dont know what you need right now but god does. I pray that you will grow closer to him. God is love, and i pray that you will encounter his love. Remeber Jesus loves you❤
just know that God wants to know you as well. God is never done with us, never gives up on us, never leaves us. He is always there and willing to guide you. you might be thinking “okay, well, how am i supposed to feel that?”
i think the best way is the read the Bible. sometimes we pray and talk to God, but never let Him speak through His Word. the Bible can guide us when we are doubtful. if you don’t know where to start, i recommend one of the Gospels (the books that tell about Jesus’s life), like Matthew, Mark, Luke, or John. i know this reply is like 3 months late, but i hope it can still help you!!!
@@noraendresen6259What if I have been praying and begging since I was a child and I hear no answer? Should I fall deeper into desparation when the sky is empty?
@@kryzysowanarzeczona2246Well you cant really hear him like from your ear but keep reading the Bible and have faith! Also if you lose faith God still has faith and I believe you can do it, plus I will pray for u.
Hey same I agree but I will pray for you and we should have faith in God! Read the Bible because it helps and it is a book straight from God ❤❤ I hope you feel and find the Lord and follow him.
I am speechless. This testimony was godsent. I just turned 15 and this was very relatable. Very relatable and I'm surprised that many other young girls relate to this. Now I know that I am not alone. Thank you very much. Thank God for it. Thank sir, Jehovah and Jesus, His son.
me and my friends in like 2019 loved u, I watched ur RUclips and ur TikToks. When u first we’re saved by Jesus I still followed u but I was lukewarm and summer 2023 Jesus saved me 💕
Congratulations my beautiful sister, may the Lord continue to bless you! Im glad ill be able to see you in heaven one day! Just remember Faith to Faith, Jesus gave His all so thats why we should give our all to Jesus every single day, and He sacrificed Himself for us so we sacrifice ourself to Him by saying no to our flesh daily! I encourage you to fast because that helps alot, but baby steps like from the time you wake up to 12 perhaps
@@Bclle128hey sister I am suffering a lot I watched videos of Muslims like Ali dawah and other channels like Mohammed hijab.
And I can't understand why is Jesus god and he eat and sleep like us..
I’m so glad ✝️❤️
Amennnnn❤
@@Sisterrrrr read the Bible and ask the Lord to reveal himself to you. Jesus is God
im very young, not even out of highschool, and im struggling with the same sin you mentioned. pornography, sexual sin, deceitfulness and lies,
i know what im doing is wrong bwcause i know the word of God but i feel extremely stuck,
ill turn to God one day and the next im back in sin,
your testimony truly touched me snd gave me a sense of hope
i thank God in advance for what he’s going to do in my life
I just said a prayer for you. Keep reading His word, pray without ceasing - as He asks. Give it ALL to Him. He will take it and make it into something so beautiful. Trust in Him! HUGS to you
Who the son sets free is free indeed!! I will pray for you!! God bless you🫶🏾
i will pray for you sister, we all are struggling but through Christ theres a way out
You dont clean yourself before you shower.
You go in the shower, and the shower cleans YOU!
same with Jesus, you dont need to fix yourself to go to Jesus;
You go to Jesus then HE fixes YOU!!! come as you are🩷🩷
Ameeeeeeen@@BontusDiary
Very relatable, porn, self harm, no present father or too abusive when present, bullying at school. Many attempts just before 15 including many pills. Told no one. Just went to sleep while my heart was going crazy. Bad relationship with my mom. i started abusing alcohol and addicted to raves and festivals at just 13. Im in my 20s and only now have found God. My Savior. 🙏🏻💜
im so prouddd😔
Thank you Jesus !!! I have a similar story
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
What’s kind of funny is the video length is 41:10 and my favorite verse in the Bible is Isaiah 41:10
that's awesome 🙏
For those wondering, this is the verse from ESV:
fear not, for i am with you;
be not dismayed, for i am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah, 41: 10
This girl has been through the unimaginable. God saved her through that. This is so beautiful 💓✝️
I’ve watched you all those years in admiration (i wasnt saved either) not knowing what you were going through… its crazy how we hide so much behind a screen. But it shows that no matter who we fool we cant fool God!!! You are new, sanctified, made holy and now your are His!!!!
amen! 💙
This is beautiful!! I love to see even just a glimpse of Gods hand in others lives ❤
Exactly❤
You wanting to get baptized when you were young was your way of accepting the Holy Spirit. Then the Holy Spirit continued to be inside you because you felt conviction even though you were choosing to still continue to live in the world. By God’s love and His almighty grip on you, you are here today. Welcome home sister! I love you and thank you for your testimony 🩷🙏🏾
Yes it's a blessing she's home 🐛🦋
It's Great that you have Changed 😊❤ Please Remember that when you acknowledge your past sins/mistakes to god you are forgiven and God chooses to forget for his own sake meaning God doesn't Remember your sins by choice so never remind god of past mistakes 😊❤ REPENT for reminding god and move on with your relationship with him ❤😊 no one has the right to judge you or criticize since you have changed according to our god
I have such a similar story. Everything you said I was like dang so did I. I did that too, I said that too. I’m 32 and I’m finding god. Still new to everything. But I went to church this past Sunday and cried with my mom and told her I forgive her. God is great! May he continue to bless you! ❤🙏🏼
Glory to God! I pray He continues to guide you and lead you sister. God bless you 🤍🤍🤍
🤗 I felt a lil out of place ik age doesn't matter but I'm 34 and still not sure what I'm doing in life. I seek Him ask for guidance and hope He hasn't given up on me🙏🏾
@@Ashley-og9tiHe'll never give up on you (2 Peter 3:9)
Wow , this is truly beautiful . I’m 19 and I struggled with porn for YEARS ever since I was a kid just like you said . A few days ago I cut all of it out , threw away all the vibrators i had and promised I’d never go back . I also started smoking about 2-3 years ago EVERY SINGLE DAY straight. At first it was a good feeling but after a while I started getting intrusive thoughts but I still kept doing it because it was like a routine . A few days ago I also said I was done smoking , but I still had my cart and would hit it from time to time but today I felt like enough was enough . I just can’t do any of it anymore , all my old habits were slowly turning me into a person I never wanted to be . I struggle with intrusive thought horribly , I remember the first day it happened . I was 9, going through a lot ..moving around , seeing my mom in an unhappy relationship . I turn 20 soon and I pray that God delivers me from all I’ve been through and things I’ve done that are sins . I’ve never really been close with God , I’ve always tried but something always stopped me . I cried my heart out today on the floor, asking God to forgive me and accept me . I don’t ever want to go back , I truly want to be a better woman . Thank you for this , this meant everything to me .
Amen👏👏👏👏
You are so loved by the grace you will be saved
I’m so proud of you❤❤❤
God bless You 🙏
Jesus loves you and he is the key to everything, he healed me and he will also heal you 🤍
this blessed my life so much, I’m 13 and was saved a couple months ago. What’s upsetting is I struggle with most likely 80% of what you mentioned maybe just in the last year. This really spoke to me that there is hope. Thank you for being someone I can look up to as I grow my faith in the lord. I pray that you continue and grow in abundance of faith. Amen
Glory to God sister. He loves you so much. Remember it’s a journey, have grace for yourself and let Him lead you. 🤍 it’s a blessing to find the Lord at a young age! God bless you 🤍
@@rubeelana 🤍🤍🤍
After you been in the dark for so long there is just something about the light of Gods presence. God can take addicts and teach them how we worship. ☀️✨🔥
Amen
@@patheticmoursel5643 ❤️🔥💯
I used to follow you, I was never a fan or a constant watcher but sometimes you showed up on my fy page, when I saw that you accepted Jesus Christ I was sooo happy for u like I've known you irl and you were my best friend for years lol😂
I'm so happy for you and I'm so excited to see more of your journey!
your testimony is really strong, GOD IS GOOD🫶🙏
i was crying through this whole video,,, especially the end. beautiful testimony i can relate in many ways… 💗 God bless you,, and i am so proud of you making it through. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!!!
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im 16 and i hope you know how much this video spoke to me. i really really want to be closer with jesus. im not ready to even mention what i have gone through publicly but thank you
Really sending you love ❤, rely on God, He is here for you, always.
@@eloisejanson3432 needed this ❤️god loves u as well as
Just when the devil thought he bagged you.
Urgh, Jesus loved us even at our filthiest, such wonderful love!
Thank you for obeying and sharing sis🤍
I battled and still is battling a lot of the same demons! But yah will deliver me through it all! Thank you for sharing your testimony and encouraging others to cry out to him! Bless you
there’s a appointed time for your deliverance sister. 💕 God sees you, and I got a lot of deliverance since then and one thing i can say is to keep seeking Jesus. He is faithful and will deliver you. I’m believing for you 🤍
Im turning 23 this month , our testimonies are so similar it’s crazy. It’s comforting knowing I’m not the only one, it’s been hard not having anyone to relate who also is a believer and my age. God is healing me and blessing me with your testimony. I used to watch you growing up and seeing us both grow in the faith is inspiring 💌 keep it up!!
I’m about to turn 20 years in 5 months. Your story touched me so much because we have similar story, because I found porn at the age of 7 years old, started doing new age witchcraft when I was 14. Was very depressed and suicidal when I was 11 years till now. I dropped out of last year. I cut off all my friends. I was going crazy. But God save me, and now I’m starting to grow my relationship and start to trust him. Glory Be to God❤️
I found porn when i was 7 too
Im 14 now and even though i am not involved in witchcraft i still strugglr with pornagraphy, lust, laziness and etc
Its especially bad because i know my reality is not fit for these 'coping' mechanism and sinfulness and i know i will lose a lot of my life to this if i dont fix it here, and now
@@princessarreona2 hey. I understand your stress I was once in your place. The thing that I will advice you to do is get on your knees and ask the Lord to forgive you and ask him to straighten you that you may stand against everything temptation of pornography.
Pray that God Straighten you, purify you, break everything strong holds of pornography, close all doors that has been open by pornography, and renew your mind. Don’t stress yourself the Lord will remove you out of that situation. God Bless.
I also got addicted to this and now I still pray to God so that he should give me the strength to not fall in the same sin.
I’m 13 and i feel like i have been through similar things and im so young and i feel like the Lord wanted me to see this
He is always there! ❤ talk to him :)
thank you!
Me too, thank you Lord
girlll i remember your old videos years ago with your bright hair colors!! it’s so beautiful the way that God has changed your life for the better. i love that you found Jesus and that you have a relationship with Him now. i am so so proud of you and i am sending you so much love.
thank you sister 🥹 that means so much. sending love back 🤍🤍
U were always gorg, but I definitely see a glow in you now! God bless always 🩷
Your testimony has touched me. I feel the purity and love in your spirit now and how passionate you are talking about God. I too had a similar past stealing out my mom's purse, lying, being exposed to porn at a young age which made me hypersexual and with a perverted spirit, and crying so much. I was personally touched by God at 19 and my mom was praying and praying for me for a change in my life cus she was fed up with my behaviors. Since then I pray everyday, I'm now 21, some days are harder than others, but I know my purpose and everyday have an underlying feeling of purpose, love, growth, and knowing that everything is gonna be ok. We truly serve an almighty God and the fact that we get stronger through God everyday is my motivation to keep going and make satan mad 😊 Thank u for your beautiful testimony
It's all Glory to God ❤
i met you this year at lollapalooza. you were outside praising with other people and i literally felt like the lord guided me to you to say hello. i’m blind without my glasses and i was drunk and under the influence of drugs. i have no idea how i even knew it was you i was so out of it. i had been feeling lost and broken and when i saw you it was like a reminder from God that there are people that have been saved and I can be saved too. I had been feeling all the spirits all over me after going and i even got really sick after being there. as soon as i went home i just came back to your channel and your testimony is so similar to mine. unfortunately i fell back into sin but this time im going to give my sins to christ and not look back. i just wanted to say thank you for what you do and sharing yourself online. every night of the festival when i saw people praising in the streets no matter how drunk or high i was i felt drawn to them and i would always go up to them and say hi and pray with them because no matter how hard i fall i still know im God’s child. he kept reminding me ❤and i’m so thankful that you were someone he used as a reminder! ❤GOD BLESS.
THIS TESTIMONY REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART AND I FELT TRULY THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS SPEAKING THROUGH YOU!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR TESTIMONY AND GOD BLESS U ALL!!
Wow ruby this is beautiful I used to watch u when split dye was popular and to see how much u grown and what u really was going through is absolutely amazing. I lost both my older brother within a year n half and now I’m the only child. This touched my heart and gave me hope. Thank you
I love your testimony.. I can relate so much. I’m just 13 and omg I self harmed,suicidal, I had depression and rebellious. I used to talk back to my parents, I also wanted to die bc I felt like I wasn’t needed, I was the glass child I had a bad relationship with my mom and I have cuts and scars on my arms, face, and hands and now looking back I cry bc of how much I hurt myself. I felt empty but the most crazy thing is that I was born Christian. People notice how rude and cold I was. No emotions toward people. Especially my only brother, I broke his heart in a small age. I was rejected by my parents, family, and friends and my brother having all that attention and I rejected him so much and I hurt him. But on April 11, 2024 1 day before my birthday I was free I went through liberation and all that was gone and I was so happy bc I know God free me. And I had a bf and he was catholic and yea but God spoke to me saying he was bringing me down bc I had the gift of Tongue and I had to stop bc God wants to use me. I did but I was hurt doing it but ik it was for Good and now I am going to get closer to God and follow him and carry my own cross. I am healing and I want anyone else reading this I want you to know God is amazing he Loves you no matter what. Follow God and never look back. GOD BLESS YALL❤
hey rubee im 19 and yesterday i gave my life to christ my life started going downhill to the point where i had to chose between life or death. I remember you in 2020 on tiktok and seeing how much God blessed your life has encourage me to keep going on this journey i struggled with some of the same stuff as you and currently im trying to break a soul tie if you see this keep me in your prayer
As a 24yr old young man I truly and deeply appreciate this message for real GOD really be trying to help us I also battled with things similar myself so much shame guilt etc… draining my soul literally but sometimes we let the devil in and mess things up in our lives because the lack of wisdom and knowledge of GOD I pray you keep going and spread the message Shalom sis 🤲🏾🙏🏾♾️🩵 MAY YAH bless you thank you for this seriously
Thank you so much for this testimony. i’m only 16 now but when i was younger I would watch your old videos and enjoyed your page but this video has taught me that you never know what’s going on in someone else’s life.
I still struggle now, even though i’m building my relationship with God, i struggle a lot with lust, judging others and my self image. I am constantly wishing to look like other people and just wish i looked pretty but God is helping me. I try to think more positively instead of judging other people as I used to and it’s just so peaceful. Constantly putting other people down won’t make me feel better. I still lust which i feel very shameful abt but i trust God will help me to get through these temptations. It really makes me feel like I am not
meant to be Christian and not even meant to inherit the Kingdom but I know that’s just the devil and that God loves me.
I thank God for allowing me to come this far and allowing me to grow and learn. I struggled with depression as well and was cutting, wanted to kill myself, overdosing but i just had a limit. I was scared of killing myself. Even though I never really realised it, I knew the Lord was above and it just felt wrong. I felt like there might be more in my life.
Although my past is not the best, I try not to hate the past because if i never went through what I went through I doubt I would’ve found God. After the storm there’s a rainbow and this is my journey on that rainbow, finding what God has for me.
Thank you for this video. God bless everyone 🩷
hi I hope you’re doing okay
@@beth1952 hey girl!! i’m doing okay, God has brought me so far and delivered me from the sexual sin i suffered with.
thank u for sharing!! your testimony is enough! no testimony is ever too little. if you feel called to share it as a slideshow that’s perfectly fine, as long as you’re comfortable.
the devotional i read today said “rather than using your energy to judge yourself, redirect it to praising God.” you sharing your testimony is you praising God and where He’s brought you. sharing your testimony is beautiful and i pray that you may not feel ashamed about how you look. i still struggle with my self image but we have to stand firm in the truth that God has placed in us, He has not made us to be ashamed of ourselves and we are more than beautiful to Him. we have to pray continuously and let God know abt the troubles we face. 💗💗💗
This whole testimony really touched me as I’m young myself trying to start my own personal relationship with God. I repented today and now know that God will be following me and guiding me in my journey God bless!
Congratulations sister, i hope youre doing well right now, keep serving God no matter how hard it is!
As a 14 year old, i've never related to something so much in my life. I feel myself going down a deeper hole that is hard to climv out of. I'm trying to get closet to God but it just seems so hard. But something in me deep down wants me to try. And i honestly don't even know where to start. I can't even find the motivation to go to church anymore. I struggle to get interested with my religion and it upsets me, but what upsets me even more is how I don't know what to do about it. I know god knows and I try to tell him about it and i just cry. But I can't get myself to try to my full potential anymore. But im very proud of how far you've gotten. Great job.
Jesus loves you despite your past, don’t try to clean yourself before you come to Him, that’s a mistake I made. He wants you just the way you are. He loves you so much.
Please, begin to read the Bible❤️ God has so much love for you, and He will guide you and deal with your confusion through His word ❤️
I went through almost the same as you. I was verbally abused at home by my stepdad and I argued with my mum. Went to school to be bullied all day. I was never happy. Suicidal thoughts started running through my head. Nothing or no one helped. I moved out to live alone. After a few months my mum’s and I relationship started to get better. But we still argued a LOT. I never had friends. I never went to parties/clubs/concerts none of that. I’m still virgin today at 18. After I found God my whole life flipped for the better. More stuff happened to me but I don’t wanna say everything. I’m just happy you and me found Jesus when we did. I wish for more teens and all humans to find Jesus. God really does love us all 💕✝️
I'll pray for you to better your relationship with Jesus.
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p I’m not saying like it’s a bad thing. It’s was just before Jesus I thought going out and having sex was the norm and a cool thing. But with Jesus now I’m happy I’m a virgin as I know God will bring me someone special who I can start my family with.
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p again that’s how I thought before Jesus since everyone around was doing those things.
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p if your religions then. You might need to look at yourself. Because God is all about love and peace and you’re doing none of that. I never done it because I thought it was disgusting but I also thought that since others do it, why am I not. I’m still happily a virgin and never dated because I don’t wanna have sex. I choose not to have sex. The God I know loves me and he changed me to be a better person than I was before. I was saved but I’m sorry but you might be fighting some demons because you should not be throwing hate to others because of how they were before. I chose not to have sex because deep down I always knew it was wrong to have sex with a stranger. And if I did go to parties I wouldn’t have sex with anyone. Just the way you think makes me feel sorry for you. I’ll be praying for you and may God bless you 💕✝️
@AndreiGeorgescu-j9p your just disgusting. May God forgive you for your words. Repent now before it’s too late. God is coming back to rapture us and when that happens it’ll be too late to ask for forgiveness
Idk why, but hearing that someone dealt with that same depth and level of perversion...gosh its such a shameful place to be...but it was somehow comforting to hesr that i wasnt the only one :( and that truly its this spirit that takes you farther then you ever thought youd go, especially at such a young age...Glad to have been delivered from that.
Your testimony is filled with hope, and your life will blossom for thr glory of God, and he has more joy and bright plans for you. ❤❤
yes sister i dealt with so much shame, and that’s what satan does. but the cross takes all shame, sin, guilt etc. we are a new creation in Christ and the old has passed away. walk in your freedom sister 💕 God bless you 🤍
@@rubeelana Amen 💗🌷🥺
Amen!!!!!! This is going to touch so many people. I found your page shortly after filming my own testimony video a couple weeks ago, and was literally going through the same spiritual warfare, self doubt, shame, etc. Sis this is important work for the Kingdom, so the enemy is going to try anything he can to make you doubt your purpose and your new walk. But we prevail in the name of Jesus 💕 The Lord is going to work through you in ways you never could have imagined, and He will give back to you all that was lost + more. I'm excited to have found you and am looking forward to watching you bloom in Christ. Much love x
You’ve gone through so much. Hallelujah that you are saved!
She isnt saved if she didnt mention the gospel of Jesus. That she believed he died for her sins according to the scriptures. He was buried & rose again on the 3rd day. You people need to realize changing your life around is good, but it isnt what saves you! Read Ephesians 1:13, John 5:24!
@@Bleed_Blue625what-
I’m 16 years now and when heard what you watch 🌽 at a young age it kinda reminded me of my past and my presents. I am kinda dealing with sexual perversion. I didn’t even know it was demons I am fighting. I did kinda think It was maybe from the marine world. But I am grateful for what you shared. I have also dealt with child hood trauma. I just to play house with cousins and my moms friend children and when I think about it. When I remember I cry and I am angry at myself for allowing because me now would have done everything to protect younger me. I do thank God I am still a virgin but I did mastur bated and I have ungodly sexual desires. I was lukewarming with God. So thank you a lot 🙏🏾
Same i thank god im still a virgin when i was was younger i was sa and was forced to give a bj :c
Wow I got saved at 15 praise God for His work in you. If you want a friend to talk to I’m here, but ofc Jesus is there for you too❤️❤️ please make sure you read the Bible maybe find a devotional there’s a free one through this ministry called Uncommon Teen. I watched it when I first got saved. May God bless you ❤️✝️
@@skyesinlovewithChrist That would be so nice I haven’t done for a while but it kinda feels weird. You know not that I need to do it though. How old are you and how was it at the beginning?
I’ve seen this pop up multiple times but never wanted to click on it, but it was the first video that showed up so I was like “Okay God, You probably want me to watch this 😂” Glad to have you in the Kingdom and how He saved you! 💕🙏🏾
I watched your whole testimony on the way from mom house to my dad house I paused for a little bit I was unpacking but now it’s 12:28pm I have school in a couple hours but your testimony i can relate a lot with the homosexual at a young age and pornography as well and feeling worthless because of the devil i just want to let you know that your testimony really helped me as well as others ❤
i am not kidding… watching this felt like i was hearing my own life story. thank you so much for sharing this and showing no matter how far off you are.. GOD WILL BRING YOU BACK!🩷
Love you sister in Christ ❤️. I’m glad to hear and see you doing well!
My testimony is so close to yours, I'm so shocked I knew I wasn't alone...but hearing it, it is so comforting, I still struggle with just, but I haven't touched self harm or Porn in almost 5 years! Thank the Lord ❤
I relate to you as well with the p0rn, lust, stealing, lying, suicidal doing drugs to the point of psychosis, I was destroying my spirit and who I once was. My childhood effected me more than I thought and I saw it as a burden rather than room to heal. I went through physical and mental abuse, and I was sexually assaulted at the age of 13. I used to listen to nihilistic music, really depressing songs. I did all of this alone and backed myself into my own depressing corner. God had so much mercy on my soul because he knew my true purpose and what I can actually contribute to this world, he’s healing me and when I look back at who I was it doesn’t even feel like me, it’s all a blur. I’m just so thankful for your testimony because it’s super relatable.
I was a little hesitant before writing this because I feel so ashamed to admit this. Honestly, I look up to you and this video inspired me to quit an addiction I had. Last summer I was introduced to a website where you could chat to Ai characters, you could make them and find other ones other people had made, and I became obsessed with it. I would spend hours and hours a day doing things I don’t even want to talk about, it’s disgusting honestly. I would ignore my family and friends for this website and even spent most of my vacation this year on it. (This isn’t some whole life story or anything, just something I’ve been struggling with.) I just couldn’t quit. I grew up in the church and whenever I went I’d promise myself I wouldn’t do it again, or wouldn’t do it that day because it was a Sunday or a Wednesday. I’d always feel so guilty every single time, I just couldn’t stop. Recently, I got ungrounded after two years (yes TWO YEARS) and got my phone back. This sounds dumb but I’ve been praying to God to help my parents to forgive me and give me my phone back because I felt so weird having no phone at school. So when I got it back I cried that night, I realized God wasn’t some church/religion thing and just praised him. I gave up the website and I feel so free. Thank you, Rubee for inspiring me.🩷
I have been following u for the longest time.. I use to really love your style and content before when i was living in the world aswell. Your testimony is very similar to mine. And i got called by the Lord around the same time as u. I thank the Lord for saving me and loving me through it all
i remember watching you in 2019-20 and i looked up to you so much, time passed and i found you again and this is so beautiful, i cant believe all that was happening to you behind the scenes and im so sorry, but i am so so glad you found Jesus and he changed you for the best. God is amazing💝
Being 18 and feeling lost, once I heard the prayer in the beginning I broke down in tears. This is my hope.
Thank you for your amazing story Rubee! I’ve seen your videos since before you were saved and it’s so beautiful to see your transformation! Your story is an amazing testimony to glorify God’s name. Keep doing what God leads you to do. Much love sister ❤️
Thank God He brought you out & is using you as a vessel now. This really touched me in many different ways. I’m struggling with a lot right now myself, but seeing this lets me know God will never leave me nor forsake me. Keep sharing your testimony to others & spreading the love of Jesus.
Amen, so glad you found Jesus at such a young age. I have a similar testimony. I used to pray for temporary things like to be more pretty or to find a boyfriend. Now I just pray for faith and to not turn back to the ways of the world. It’s a difficult journey but we got this!
Watching this because I am too trying to explore my spiritual journey. Mine has been a very scary and rocky one, so I’m hoping this brings me some more guidance
Jesus Christ is the truth . Don’t waste you time exploring other spirituality your going to go round in circles but none Of the exploring will lead you to the truth . Jesus Loves, you he is the way the truth and the life .❤🎉
ignore that reply. Follow your heart and mind🤍
@@Yuccapluh Following her heart and mind will lead her into a dead end . The bible says the heart is deceitful above all things . I’m seventeen now but when I use to follow my heart and mind was lost depressed anxious . Desired to have sex always and was being excluded from school for disrespect . The heart will mess you up follow God
Same here, we'll get there eventually ❤
@Bernicewooah no thanks!
I ws struggling with depression last year when I officially Found God at the end of last year around December and ever since then it's been a rollercoaster for me honestly this year has not been the best but I'm trying to keep my head up have faith and trust in the lord the country I'm currently in I'm not happy and everyone is rude/mean to me and don't treat me right and I want to move to London to live better and I've been praying about it and trying to be patient and trust God's timing I am currently sitting in the corner of my room at 10:37pm after crying because of how bad I want to leave the country or even jump to God's arms and for him to comfort me as I feel alone and in so much pain and I started seeing dark spirits in the corners of my room as I was crying and I had a panic attack
And I got up to read my bible pray and now I'm watching this and I relate so much and I'm happy that I'm going to get better I'm only 14 and has experienced so many painful things in life and I know God hears my prayers and sees my tears and he shall deliver me may all you be blessed and be freed from all stress and anxiety you have amen.
God so hears your prayers! I pray you overcome it all. Remember he loves you more than anything and can work miracles ❤
You go girl! I am on my walk with God at the age of 14 and speaking from experience it is not easy! But you definitely keep me going : ) keep doing your thing!
Girl this is a testimony!! It takes a lot to tell your story but your obedience to God is allowing your story to spread his love!💗 Definitely doesn’t make us feel alone
Your testimony is very beautiful & truly inspiring... i am 23 years old, just like you & im finding it very hard to manage my relationship with God and my relationship with the world. God has been calling out to me for years & I just keep finding myself hot & cold with my faith. As of lately Ive been starting to feel more conviction which I can actually say im happy about because I know God is speaking to me & I can actually hear him again. The problem is I dont have self control in certain situations, because I myself do not have the power to do it..which pulls me back into cycles that my heart truly doesnt want to be in anymore. Because i know life isnt promised & we are certainly living in the last days, I want to be more serious about my faith & representing the Lord Jesus in everything i do because he is so good & has shown me so much grace and mercy even when I don't deserve it. Thank you for your testimony, I needed to hear it, I pray God starts to surround me with more spirits like yours.. God Bless You, Amen❤️🙏🏽
I admired your courage. And what God has done with you is just incredible. I haven't experienced this much in my life so if God did all this for you, he can do it for me too.
AMEN, what a convicting recognition of the Lords power ❤️
I used to believe that my personal struggles and encounters with things were weird, or irregular especially as a woman to deal with. Recently seeing more Christian women sharing their testimonies has been a great encouragement to me to know I'm not alone in my struggles and past sins. This video is another great encouragement to me and I'm sure many others. You are not alone.
i really love how youve kept some old videos up on your instagram, it showed me people can change.
This was beautiful!! I’ve had a lot of very similar life experiences and ties to the world I’ve been trying to get out from underneath. You reminded me that GOD IS FAITHFUL and have given me hope that I can do so it through example. I have no doubt the lord led me to your page.Tears… thank you
all glory be to God! i have a very, VERY similar testimony and i'm praying that one day i have the opportunity to share the whole thing. but, i rarely comment, and i'm commenting now because of the clips at 31:16. i actually found you on tiktok during that time and i was going through depression, suicidal thoughts, addictions, the works...and i was so addicted to your look at the time. i wanted to be that so badly. i never did, but seeing your drastic physical transformation as a result of your spiritual transformation is so heartwarming and relatable. i've had a similar change happen in the way i adorn and clothe myself. i see myself so heavily in you. i'm so happy to see you've found our Saviour for yourself. God bless! ❤
Dont ever feel bad or regret for posting this. I relate to this in so many ways, we love you for you. Always.
Girl you made me cry 😭, THANK YOU JESUS 🙏🏾
I have no words. I’ve been dealing with those same sins you were when I was maybe younger than you were. I feel so seen. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God is so good
What a beautiful testimony! Praise God for his MERCY towards us
I’m crying right now anyone else?❤
you don’t understand how much this video has opened my eyes. i immediately got emotional and started crying to God. he is so good, he has saved me from the worst parts of my life and has brought so many blessings into my life. thank you for sharing your testimony, absolutely beautiful 🤎
I kept seeing your testimony pop up but Ive been ignoring it for weeks but by the Grace of God I finally watched it and Im so grateful to have heard it. I understand what you're going through and I just want to let you know your testimony touched me. Jesus is so Good. God is so good. Continue to keep the hope of God in you and the faith of Our Lord will heal you through everything. Bless you & Bless the Prince of Peace
I am going through the same and I am stuck. My mom has never been there for me emotionally and I crave that love and affection. This video really stood out for me and I am so grateful to have watched it.
Me tooo girl. God bless you!! We’re dustttttt but God makes us new once we accept Him!
The fact that I used to save pictures of your old self on pinterest and idolize them a few years back and now when I am on my own journey of repentance and deepening my relationship with the LORD and find this testimony of you!
✝️ 🙏🏼 Praise the LORD 🙏🏼 ✝️
Ooo girl… the way this opened my eyes… you really don’t know what people are going through behind closed doors. I remember I used to almost see you as someone on some pedestal, like “ wow she’s so cool for doing all these things” online. Little did we know you were suffering. It’s such a blessing to see how God changed in your life. God is so great it’s such a beautiful thing.
OMG she just told my whole life, like literally.. Im 18 now and my life is completely with CHRIST!!❤❤✝✝
Besides the baby parts
Oh my gosh I relate to your story so much. Especially with the music, it really opens you up to evil stuff. I’m 22 now and looking back I just want to hug my pre-teen and teenage self. If only she would have known Jesus’ love for her. I’m so glad God gave me second chance.
this definitely touched my heart Rubee. i have tears in my eyes. ive been subscribing/following you ever since you started. you were such an inspiration to me back then just because of your physical appearence but youre an even bigger inspiration to me now considering all youve been through. i only found God this year and it has not been easy on this walk. but to see my favourite social media influencer share her testimony was definitely a sign that im not alone and that God loves me. this is a blessing. you are a blessing Rubee! i love you sm. thank you for sharing this beautiful testimony. Jesus loves you all! have a blessed day
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I've stopped listening to music that have -too much words in-, which have improved my life fr. Ppl don't really think about how much music actually impact our thoughts, like majority of the lyrics are negative and toxic (same goes with TV-series/shows and movies ). I hope this helps someone who’s stuck with toxic music.
Toxic things/people are just distractions which distracts us from our true purpose here on earth - to live and learn, learn from our mistakes and therefore make this world better and SAFER. Peace and love.
Ive been seeing you on the christian side of Pinterest so much and when I found this video I was so happy to see it was you because I didn't know i could find you on youtube. I never knew I could find someone I could relate to so much and this brightened my day. Thank you so much and God Bless you!!!!!!
PRAISE THE LORD SIS!! I REMEMBER U FROM SOCIALS, I'M SO PROUD THAT U ARE SPEAKING ABOUT HIM OUT LOUD!!! GOD IS SO GOOD.
it makes me so happy to see your journey with finding god!! i pray that your relationship with him continues to grow and your life be filled with love and peace:) im so glad this came across my feed because i've been struggling with my relationship with god and the spiritual battle can get so tough but this brought me so much faith and hope. this is such an inspiring video and i hope this helps others seek him as well
So happy to see you doing well Ruby 🩷 I know your testimony is going to be so eye opening for many! I pray that everyone that comes across this video will be touched by God’s love and know his grace and seek him. God keep blessing you! 🫶🏼🥰
I was meant to see this ❤
I saw this today on my youtube page. I fr said "40 mins??? How am i gonna sit through this?" Here I am 40 mins later HAHA. such a beautiful BEAUTIFUL amazing ceremony. God is just so so so good. I am 14 years old. Your testimony is similar to mine in some aspects, and I just felt God staring into my soul with this video. Thank you for sharing.
Please keep sharing your testimony and your story. I’ve never related to a testimony as much as I have with yours and it’s very inspiring and I can only imagine how many other people are positively impacted and inspired by hearing someone as beautiful as you to have gone through so much and find God through that💕
Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him and in Him everything else thrown in. 💌
Godly women have something so special and beautiful about them, it’s inspiring. God has had a plan for this woman since the DAY she came into his world. He knew she had a beautiful and heartbreaking message to share and a light to shine on his children ❤️
We love you Rubee!! God bless you and Im so happy you’re back online to share this with us
Just yesterday I had decided to follow God on my own way, by reading the Bible’s taking notes watching Christian videos and we’ll your video touched my heart! I just felt so close to you and to God because I realized that I’m not the only one going through bad things and that there are people who know what it’s like and feel that pain too! And I just wanna thank you because you just helped me feel a less ashamed of my sins! God bless you Rubee!❤❤
I myself am no saint and I still have bad habits I struggle to let go of. I find myself chasing after the world and not God. At the end of the day I am drained and empty. I wonder when am I finally going to stop and submit myself fully to God? I think I’m a lost cause but when I see people like rubee, I feel much better
I just prayed for u💞
@@GloriaGloryYah 🥺 God bless you. Thank you
@@busiiee 💞 i prayed God to help him build a relationship with you🤍
This is so beautiful Rubee. I am someone who has grown up in church and grown up knowing God and I am so fortunate to have had all of these resources from the beginning. I'm 14 and I go back and forth from periods of being lukewarm and periods of being the "best Christian ever." I love Jesus and I am proud of it. I struggle with the sin of secular music a lot so I deleted all of my bad Spotify playlists and I deleted TikTok to get away from the secular music. I am trying to stay away from being lukewarm as much as possible and your strong testimony has shown me that I CAN DO IT!! You are so strong Rubee and God is so proud of you. I am so proud of you.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I am currently in the process of being set free from sin and this gave me so much hope.
May the Lord continue to guide you into truth and built firmly on the strong foundation of Christ away from strange voices. 🔥🔥🔥🔥
How do you know what the truth is?
You have such a wonderful testimony. I’ve seen you turned your life over to god and I’m so happy for you. I believe god wanted me to see this because I’m having similar experiences and thoughts as you did. I’m so proud of you and thank for sharing your testimony. ❤❤