My Testimony | Jesus saved me from suicide, addictions, depression & more
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- Опубликовано: 28 окт 2023
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The devil would always try to make you kill your self because he knew God would take YOU and make you who you are today .. This is beautiful. God bless🤍
AMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!!! PRAISES TO THE MOST HIGH JESUS!!!
Quit blaming the devil
amen❤️🩹
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@@Cieloalvee1 For our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12
as a 17-year-old girl I really relate to you, the lust, the p0rn, the stealing, the suicide the drinking the fighting with family. It's all just so awful, I'm trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, learning about the lord, and all he's done for us, I've cut out the stealing and drinking, and I'm going to cut out all the sin in my life, and put him first. Amen
some advice for you sister, don't say "I'm going to cut all sin in my life" replace that "I'm" with "Jesus"!!!!
The most life changing thing that I realized is no one is making me sin. It's a choice and its completely in my hands. While that can be scary, its also the only thing that made me cut all sin out of my life. All it takes is one decision!! The feeling and reward of living with God without guilt is the most freeing thing any person can ever experience on earth. In timothy, it talks about how there are utensils made of clay and utensils made of gold. I decided I'm going to be a tool God can use, but I can't do that without cutting sin out of my life for good.
God will help you...just give Him everything. He created you so He will help and sustain you.
I FEEL LIKE GOD WANTED ME TO SEE THIS I CRIED AT THE END AND AFTER I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET CLOSE TO JESUS
MAY GOD BLESS Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY 🙏
Amen!❤ The same this side! God is Good, All the time!!!!
Praise Jesus!!! He has open arms for you !
”All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.“
John 6:37 KJV
You should read the book of John ❤
Praise God
Praying for you
me too
i honestly cried watching this because we have such similar stories. right now i’m 14 and i already have so much going on. i always fight with my mom physically and verbally, i argue with most of my family, i feel empty most of the time, i’ve had a few attempts, self harm, lust etc. and watching this made me want to get closer with god. i’ve downloaded the bible app recently and i try to read a few pages everyday, and try to stay committed because i really want to be healed.
pls pls pls just focus on him listen to bible podcasts sermons everything you will find him and find peace in him
Jesus loves you and he’s always with you 💯🙏 stay prayed up
God loves you so much, stay committed read your word and I promise you you will see the ways He changes you like. I pray you truly get to experience the goodness of God. There is more to life than what you are going through right now❤️i promise❤️dont give up
Remember God really loves you, and I pray that you’ll continue to grow in your relationship with God💗 I’m 16, and a verse that’s really helped me when seeking the Lord is Matthew 7:7 - “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.”
You can do this, trust in the Lord 💗🫶
I went through that.. it gets better with God. It takes time but He the only one that heals and makes you look at life differently
Blessings ❤
Such a beautiful testimony. You have such a light in your eyes because of the Holy Spirit. Honestly our testimonies are very similar. I was saved and baptized in 2012 after doing three hits of acid and ending up in a mental hospital. God saved me from staying in that crazy acid trip yet I still went back to the world 😢 It wasn’t until this February I got back on my Christ walk. Ever since I’ve been fully submitted to the Lord just this year alone I’m almost finished reading the whole Bible (267 days in), I moved out of my rat infested apartment, my husband and I got married, He got baptized, I haven’t been obsessing over being a content creator, I threw my doll collection out, my promiscuous clothing and shoes got tossed 🚮 I threw away expensive makeup 🚮🚮 Thousands of dollars in the trash but anything can go if it becomes an idol. I also stopped wearing wigs and have been getting my real hair done. The biggest blessing is my husband, kids and myself just moved in to our new home after we stayed with my mother in law for like 7 months 😭🙌🏾 God is so good and He truly is faithful 🩷
Awww it is so awesome to see how God has worked in your life! May he continue to be with you. May he guide you in his ways. May your heart always be with him. ❤🙏🏾
Congratulations and thank you for sharing. Glory to Jesus. I've been feeling conviction about wearing wigs/makeup as well. Do you have any advice? Thank you
My God does not fail
God bless u & help u 🪷🧡☦️❣️✝️
Hallelujah!! He is so so good to us! 😭🙏🏾💓
im very young, not even out of highschool, and im struggling with the same sin you mentioned. pornography, sexual sin, deceitfulness and lies,
i know what im doing is wrong bwcause i know the word of God but i feel extremely stuck,
ill turn to God one day and the next im back in sin,
your testimony truly touched me snd gave me a sense of hope
i thank God in advance for what he’s going to do in my life
I just said a prayer for you. Keep reading His word, pray without ceasing - as He asks. Give it ALL to Him. He will take it and make it into something so beautiful. Trust in Him! HUGS to you
Who the son sets free is free indeed!! I will pray for you!! God bless you🫶🏾
i will pray for you sister, we all are struggling but through Christ theres a way out
You dont clean yourself before you shower.
You go in the shower, and the shower cleans YOU!
same with Jesus, you dont need to fix yourself to go to Jesus;
You go to Jesus then HE fixes YOU!!! come as you are🩷🩷
Ameeeeeeen@@keronJI
me and my friends in like 2019 loved u, I watched ur RUclips and ur TikToks. When u first we’re saved by Jesus I still followed u but I was lukewarm and summer 2023 Jesus saved me 💕
Congratulations my beautiful sister, may the Lord continue to bless you! Im glad ill be able to see you in heaven one day! Just remember Faith to Faith, Jesus gave His all so thats why we should give our all to Jesus every single day, and He sacrificed Himself for us so we sacrifice ourself to Him by saying no to our flesh daily! I encourage you to fast because that helps alot, but baby steps like from the time you wake up to 12 perhaps
@@Bclle128hey sister I am suffering a lot I watched videos of Muslims like Ali dawah and other channels like Mohammed hijab.
And I can't understand why is Jesus god and he eat and sleep like us..
I’m so glad ✝️❤️
Amennnnn❤
@@user-vy3hz2xg6f read the Bible and ask the Lord to reveal himself to you. Jesus is God
I grew up Christian but I also grew up very traumatized and never in my 22 years of living have I heard a testimony that I could relate so much to ever in my life. I want to get closer with God but feel so much shame but your words have reminded that God loves me no matter what, that even I’m broken he’ll fix me, if I’m dirty he’ll wash me, if I don’t have anything to offer him he will still want me. God is sooo Good, you are doing the lords work with spreading his gospel through your testimony, thank you and God bless you and Everyone reading this!
Read the Bible, it really helps!❤
Jesus loves y'all Repent Repent of ur sins Jesus is coming back soon he doesn't want you to perish not forcing you romans 10 9 John 3 16 Jesus says come to me all who are weary heavy laden and I will give you rest Do not let your adornment be merely outward-arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel- rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. What profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his own soul or what shall he give in exchange for his soul?
I felt dirty too. It’s really a bad feeling. God cleans us though when we truly are sorry
Lately I have felt a shift in my life. Ever since I was a child, I have had an addiction for lust and I've felt so disgusted by it and I would always relapse and throughout my life, I have been so lukewarm. Recently, I have seen many people turning to Christ which inspired me to do the same because I grew up in a religious family and I want to do better and I want to do things that are able to please the Lord.
That sounds so much like me❤ Thank you
What’s helping me is reading the Bible and praying,
@@cutieusagii I'm a weirdo? Well I'm not sorry for expressing my love for wanting to build a relationship with God. He has done many miracles for me before and I'm going to dedicate my life to him. I never judged you for being atheist (mainly because I don't care) so don't judge me for Christian
@@BigAiK I've heard that this helps a lot! This is my second day so it's not really gonna be easy for me to just jump out of my habits immediately but I'll definitely get there
@@cutieusagii Im gonna pray for you for 3 months. After those three months I’ll find you. Glory to the Lord. In Jesus name.
Wow , this is truly beautiful . I’m 19 and I struggled with porn for YEARS ever since I was a kid just like you said . A few days ago I cut all of it out , threw away all the vibrators i had and promised I’d never go back . I also started smoking about 2-3 years ago EVERY SINGLE DAY straight. At first it was a good feeling but after a while I started getting intrusive thoughts but I still kept doing it because it was like a routine . A few days ago I also said I was done smoking , but I still had my cart and would hit it from time to time but today I felt like enough was enough . I just can’t do any of it anymore , all my old habits were slowly turning me into a person I never wanted to be . I struggle with intrusive thought horribly , I remember the first day it happened . I was 9, going through a lot ..moving around , seeing my mom in an unhappy relationship . I turn 20 soon and I pray that God delivers me from all I’ve been through and things I’ve done that are sins . I’ve never really been close with God , I’ve always tried but something always stopped me . I cried my heart out today on the floor, asking God to forgive me and accept me . I don’t ever want to go back , I truly want to be a better woman . Thank you for this , this meant everything to me .
You wanting to get baptized when you were young was your way of accepting the Holy Spirit. Then the Holy Spirit continued to be inside you because you felt conviction even though you were choosing to still continue to live in the world. By God’s love and His almighty grip on you, you are here today. Welcome home sister! I love you and thank you for your testimony 🩷🙏🏾
Yes it's a blessing she's home 🐛🦋
As a 14 year old, i've never related to something so much in my life. I feel myself going down a deeper hole that is hard to climv out of. I'm trying to get closet to God but it just seems so hard. But something in me deep down wants me to try. And i honestly don't even know where to start. I can't even find the motivation to go to church anymore. I struggle to get interested with my religion and it upsets me, but what upsets me even more is how I don't know what to do about it. I know god knows and I try to tell him about it and i just cry. But I can't get myself to try to my full potential anymore. But im very proud of how far you've gotten. Great job.
I’ve watched you all those years in admiration (i wasnt saved either) not knowing what you were going through… its crazy how we hide so much behind a screen. But it shows that no matter who we fool we cant fool God!!! You are new, sanctified, made holy and now your are His!!!!
amen! 💙
This is beautiful!! I love to see even just a glimpse of Gods hand in others lives ❤
Exactly❤
Your testimony is very beautiful & truly inspiring... i am 23 years old, just like you & im finding it very hard to manage my relationship with God and my relationship with the world. God has been calling out to me for years & I just keep finding myself hot & cold with my faith. As of lately Ive been starting to feel more conviction which I can actually say im happy about because I know God is speaking to me & I can actually hear him again. The problem is I dont have self control in certain situations, because I myself do not have the power to do it..which pulls me back into cycles that my heart truly doesnt want to be in anymore. Because i know life isnt promised & we are certainly living in the last days, I want to be more serious about my faith & representing the Lord Jesus in everything i do because he is so good & has shown me so much grace and mercy even when I don't deserve it. Thank you for your testimony, I needed to hear it, I pray God starts to surround me with more spirits like yours.. God Bless You, Amen❤️🙏🏽
I am speechless. This testimony was godsent. I just turned 15 and this was very relatable. Very relatable and I'm surprised that many other young girls relate to this. Now I know that I am not alone. Thank you very much. Thank God for it. Thank sir, Jehovah and Jesus, His son.
I have such a similar story. Everything you said I was like dang so did I. I did that too, I said that too. I’m 32 and I’m finding god. Still new to everything. But I went to church this past Sunday and cried with my mom and told her I forgive her. God is great! May he continue to bless you! ❤🙏🏼
Glory to God! I pray He continues to guide you and lead you sister. God bless you 🤍🤍🤍
🤗 I felt a lil out of place ik age doesn't matter but I'm 34 and still not sure what I'm doing in life. I seek Him ask for guidance and hope He hasn't given up on me🙏🏾
@@Ashley-og9tiHe'll never give up on you (2 Peter 3:9)
Very relatable, porn, self harm, no present father or too abusive when present, bullying at school. Many attempts just before 15 including many pills. Told no one. Just went to sleep while my heart was going crazy. Bad relationship with my mom. i started abusing alcohol and addicted to raves and festivals at just 13. Im in my 20s and only now have found God. My Savior. 🙏🏻💜
im so prouddd😔
After you been in the dark for so long there is just something about the light of Gods presence. God can take addicts and teach them how we worship. ☀️✨🔥
Amen
@@patheticmoursel5643 ❤️🔥💯
This girl has been through the unimaginable. God saved her through that. This is so beautiful 💓✝️
I used to follow you, I was never a fan or a constant watcher but sometimes you showed up on my fy page, when I saw that you accepted Jesus Christ I was sooo happy for u like I've known you irl and you were my best friend for years lol😂
I'm so happy for you and I'm so excited to see more of your journey!
your testimony is really strong, GOD IS GOOD🫶🙏
It's all Glory to God ❤
I went through almost the same as you. I was verbally abused at home by my stepdad and I argued with my mum. Went to school to be bullied all day. I was never happy. Suicidal thoughts started running through my head. Nothing or no one helped. I moved out to live alone. After a few months my mum’s and I relationship started to get better. But we still argued a LOT. I never had friends. I never went to parties/clubs/concerts none of that. I’m still virgin today at 18. After I found God my whole life flipped for the better. More stuff happened to me but I don’t wanna say everything. I’m just happy you and me found Jesus when we did. I wish for more teens and all humans to find Jesus. God really does love us all 💕✝️
Just when the devil thought he bagged you.
Urgh, Jesus loved us even at our filthiest, such wonderful love!
Thank you for obeying and sharing sis🤍
Just yesterday I had decided to follow God on my own way, by reading the Bible’s taking notes watching Christian videos and we’ll your video touched my heart! I just felt so close to you and to God because I realized that I’m not the only one going through bad things and that there are people who know what it’s like and feel that pain too! And I just wanna thank you because you just helped me feel a less ashamed of my sins! God bless you Rubee!❤❤
i was crying through this whole video,,, especially the end. beautiful testimony i can relate in many ways… 💗 God bless you,, and i am so proud of you making it through. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!!!
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You go girl! I am on my walk with God at the age of 14 and speaking from experience it is not easy! But you definitely keep me going : ) keep doing your thing!
girlll i remember your old videos years ago with your bright hair colors!! it’s so beautiful the way that God has changed your life for the better. i love that you found Jesus and that you have a relationship with Him now. i am so so proud of you and i am sending you so much love.
thank you sister 🥹 that means so much. sending love back 🤍🤍
U were always gorg, but I definitely see a glow in you now! God bless always 🩷
Im turning 23 this month , our testimonies are so similar it’s crazy. It’s comforting knowing I’m not the only one, it’s been hard not having anyone to relate who also is a believer and my age. God is healing me and blessing me with your testimony. I used to watch you growing up and seeing us both grow in the faith is inspiring 💌 keep it up!!
Idk why, but hearing that someone dealt with that same depth and level of perversion...gosh its such a shameful place to be...but it was somehow comforting to hesr that i wasnt the only one :( and that truly its this spirit that takes you farther then you ever thought youd go, especially at such a young age...Glad to have been delivered from that.
Your testimony is filled with hope, and your life will blossom for thr glory of God, and he has more joy and bright plans for you. ❤❤
yes sister i dealt with so much shame, and that’s what satan does. but the cross takes all shame, sin, guilt etc. we are a new creation in Christ and the old has passed away. walk in your freedom sister 💕 God bless you 🤍
@@rubeelana Amen 💗🌷🥺
this blessed my life so much, I’m 13 and was saved a couple months ago. What’s upsetting is I struggle with most likely 80% of what you mentioned maybe just in the last year. This really spoke to me that there is hope. Thank you for being someone I can look up to as I grow my faith in the lord. I pray that you continue and grow in abundance of faith. Amen
Glory to God sister. He loves you so much. Remember it’s a journey, have grace for yourself and let Him lead you. 🤍 it’s a blessing to find the Lord at a young age! God bless you 🤍
@@rubeelana 🤍🤍🤍
I’m 16 years now and when heard what you watch 🌽 at a young age it kinda reminded me of my past and my presents. I am kinda dealing with sexual perversion. I didn’t even know it was demons I am fighting. I did kinda think It was maybe from the marine world. But I am grateful for what you shared. I have also dealt with child hood trauma. I just to play house with cousins and my moms friend children and when I think about it. When I remember I cry and I am angry at myself for allowing because me now would have done everything to protect younger me. I do thank God I am still a virgin but I did mastur bated and I have ungodly sexual desires. I was lukewarming with God. So thank you a lot 🙏🏾
I’m about to turn 20 years in 5 months. Your story touched me so much because we have similar story, because I found porn at the age of 7 years old, started doing new age witchcraft when I was 14. Was very depressed and suicidal when I was 11 years till now. I dropped out of last year. I cut off all my friends. I was going crazy. But God save me, and now I’m starting to grow my relationship and start to trust him. Glory Be to God❤️
I found porn when i was 7 too
Im 14 now and even though i am not involved in witchcraft i still strugglr with pornagraphy, lust, laziness and etc
Its especially bad because i know my reality is not fit for these 'coping' mechanism and sinfulness and i know i will lose a lot of my life to this if i dont fix it here, and now
@@godimprovesme hey. I understand your stress I was once in your place. The thing that I will advice you to do is get on your knees and ask the Lord to forgive you and ask him to straighten you that you may stand against everything temptation of pornography.
Pray that God Straighten you, purify you, break everything strong holds of pornography, close all doors that has been open by pornography, and renew your mind. Don’t stress yourself the Lord will remove you out of that situation. God Bless.
I battled and still is battling a lot of the same demons! But yah will deliver me through it all! Thank you for sharing your testimony and encouraging others to cry out to him! Bless you
there’s a appointed time for your deliverance sister. 💕 God sees you, and I got a lot of deliverance since then and one thing i can say is to keep seeking Jesus. He is faithful and will deliver you. I’m believing for you 🤍
I just wanted to say that I’m 13 and getting baptized soon. This has led me to realize what God really has done for me and how important he is for us. And I thank you for that.
I'm 17, I go to this christian school and I listened to a sermon last Thursday (Thursdays are the weekly chapel day at our school) and the teacher up there preaching was speaking about how God blesses those poor in spirit. That God blesses those who know and understand they are sinners (the term sinner is often seen offensive, none wants to think about themselves as a sinner. However since we are decedents of Adam and Eve we are born to be sinful or sinners. So technically its not a personal term rather the consequence of the fall of man.) He went on saying that we try to find our identity in what we do, what we look like, our relationships, our achievements, our hobbies, etc. At one point he said something on the lines of "You try to get good grades and that makes you feel purposeful, but then when your A goes to a B, a C, or an F you become anxious and upset. You may think you're upset because school is important and so on, but there's often a piece of yourself that you loose when something like that happens because you have unknowingly attached your identity to this thing that you believe gives you purpose. But it's not until you live through Him--and give the glory to him-- that your life finally has purpose because you're doing what you were actually created to do." Long story short I went and talked to this teacher after chapel and I literally cried in front of him 😀and after I left talking to him I went to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out. I was so overwhelmed by the love I felt from God and this idea of being poor in spirit has made me feel so purposeful. I am still trying to let go of things I attach to my identity such as appearance and friends but I feel every time I let something go, it is hard at first , but I have never felt so free and confident in myself, and that's all from God.
It took me 28 years to find Jesus and I can not thank him enough that he gave me time to find him ❤
God will always love you no matter what ❤❤❤God bless you
May the Lord continue to guide you into truth and built firmly on the strong foundation of Christ away from strange voices. 🔥🔥🔥🔥
I'm 18 yrs old and your testimony really blessed me 🙏 if only people knew half of the stuff us young people go through
Everyone please pray for the devil to be removed from me forever and to never come back. It would mean the world to me if the devil is removed from me forever ❤🎉
The way I accidentally tapped on your video while searching something unholy😭I relate to almost everything you talked about and I'm only 17
that was God!!! I hope he changes all of us for the Good in Jesus name , Amen
everyone is commenting about them feeling smth and im here not feeling anything...i js wanna feel God
Hey i just wanna pray for you. I pray that god touches your heart❤ I pray blessings over your life and thoughts. God is closer than you think. Pray to him and reach out with your heart and he will respond. I also pray for dicernment, and happines and faith. I dont know what you need right now but god does. I pray that you will grow closer to him. God is love, and i pray that you will encounter his love. Remeber Jesus loves you❤
I have been following u for the longest time.. I use to really love your style and content before when i was living in the world aswell. Your testimony is very similar to mine. And i got called by the Lord around the same time as u. I thank the Lord for saving me and loving me through it all
Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him and in Him everything else thrown in. 💌
I watched your whole testimony on the way from mom house to my dad house I paused for a little bit I was unpacking but now it’s 12:28pm I have school in a couple hours but your testimony i can relate a lot with the homosexual at a young age and pornography as well and feeling worthless because of the devil i just want to let you know that your testimony really helped me as well as others ❤
Your testimony has touched me. I feel the purity and love in your spirit now and how passionate you are talking about God. I too had a similar past stealing out my mom's purse, lying, being exposed to porn at a young age which made me hypersexual and with a perverted spirit, and crying so much. I was personally touched by God at 19 and my mom was praying and praying for me for a change in my life cus she was fed up with my behaviors. Since then I pray everyday, I'm now 21, some days are harder than others, but I know my purpose and everyday have an underlying feeling of purpose, love, growth, and knowing that everything is gonna be ok. We truly serve an almighty God and the fact that we get stronger through God everyday is my motivation to keep going and make satan mad 😊 Thank u for your beautiful testimony
What’s kind of funny is the video length is 41:10 and my favorite verse in the Bible is Isaiah 41:10
Wow ruby this is beautiful I used to watch u when split dye was popular and to see how much u grown and what u really was going through is absolutely amazing. I lost both my older brother within a year n half and now I’m the only child. This touched my heart and gave me hope. Thank you
i am a person who is currently going through a lot of your past troubles, this video touched me so much that near the end of the video i just burst into tears, im actually crying while typing this LOL. but genuinely, this video helped me so much, and i know that from now on i am going to start turning towards the lord and his love.❤thank you so much for posting this video!💕
I remember seeing you on TikTok during the pandemic! Thank you so much for coming on here and sharing your experience, your testimony helped me realize so much. Thank you for listening to GOD!🥰✨🙏🏾
As a 24yr old young man I truly and deeply appreciate this message for real GOD really be trying to help us I also battled with things similar myself so much shame guilt etc… draining my soul literally but sometimes we let the devil in and mess things up in our lives because the lack of wisdom and knowledge of GOD I pray you keep going and spread the message Shalom sis 🤲🏾🙏🏾♾️🩵 MAY YAH bless you thank you for this seriously
Watching this because I am too trying to explore my spiritual journey. Mine has been a very scary and rocky one, so I’m hoping this brings me some more guidance
Jesus Christ is the truth . Don’t waste you time exploring other spirituality your going to go round in circles but none Of the exploring will lead you to the truth . Jesus Loves, you he is the way the truth and the life .❤🎉
ignore that reply. Follow your heart and mind🤍
@@Yuccapluh follow Jesus he is the way the truth
@@Yuccapluh Following her heart and mind will lead her into a dead end . The bible says the heart is deceitful above all things . I’m seventeen now but when I use to follow my heart and mind was lost depressed anxious . Desired to have sex always and was being excluded from school for disrespect . The heart will mess you up follow God
Same here, we'll get there eventually ❤
I also used to be depressed during my high school years for similar reasons. God really is so merciful and powerful, ain’t nobody a lost cause for Him ☝🏼❤️
I didn't think I would watch the whole video, but here I am. Seeing you so blessed in the lord, I was nearly shedding tears. This life is so, so scary. I have dealt with pornography and masturbation, suicidal thoughts, stealing, lying, deceit, disobedience to my parents and evading Church (I'd go to church and just meander around, not even entering the sanctuary). These things persisted from a young age (I am 16 going on 17), and even when I had thought I drew nearer to the lord, I'd fall back to the cycle. Just a few days ago, my relationship with the lord was so dim; I was literally at square one. I did not attempt to cry out to the lord because I was so, so ashamed. Despite me knowing he has seen all what I had done, I still had the gall to be ashamed. Your story is so uplifting, it shows me that Jesus truly saves ALL. He has given us life and he can take it as quick as that. I am blessed to be in the presence of the Lord and I am blessed that he's still keeping me and my family. I'm dealing with procrastination, laziness, and confusion especially in the academic aspect. I still feel depression and I turn to cheap entertainment to "numb" it. I'm going about with a heavy boulder on my back, struggling to step forward. I tried to read my bible but I did not even know where to begin. Despite knowing nothing but Christianity my whole life, I still feel like a complete imposter. Surrounded by people who think religion is "lame" does no good for me either. Oh but I thank the Lord endlessly and I will never stop giving him my thanks. My whole body is aching with strong emotions from this video alone. My heart longs for Jesus, my heart longs for him and it plans to be that way for life. It is only him that I can trust in this life, it is only him that is keeping me alive. How could I have been so ungrateful? Oh God, thank you for bringing this video into my midst so that my eyes may be opened. Lord jesus I ask that you bless this woman who has supplied us with her testimony and those who have viewed her video in full. I'd continue the prayer but I feel like I should prayer it through speech instead so that I will do. Whoever sees this, just know that you are blessed, you are strong in the Lord in Jesus' Mighty Name.
Amen!!!!!! This is going to touch so many people. I found your page shortly after filming my own testimony video a couple weeks ago, and was literally going through the same spiritual warfare, self doubt, shame, etc. Sis this is important work for the Kingdom, so the enemy is going to try anything he can to make you doubt your purpose and your new walk. But we prevail in the name of Jesus 💕 The Lord is going to work through you in ways you never could have imagined, and He will give back to you all that was lost + more. I'm excited to have found you and am looking forward to watching you bloom in Christ. Much love x
I am so blessed by this 💗 May God continue to shower his love upon you!
this was honestly a BEAUTIFUL testimony. i am so proud of you Rubee. You’ve come a long way sister, and i will continue to pray for you 🩵.
I’m so proud of you❤ your aura is so much lighter God will see us all through our hard times!
I see so much of myself in you as I relate and have been on my religious journey for so long. I’m still taking it day by day but thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s so brave and I’m so happy you found god. ❤
Thank you so much for sharing 🥺 this truly touched me and so many others. Glory to God!
Amen! Thank you so much for your testimony, it made me cry tears of joy! May God continue to bless you on your journey, Rubee.
This testimony is amazing, thank you for sharing this with everyone you have come so far over the years. God bless you, your family and the people that watched this💗
this brought me to tears, i’m so so happy for you love
So happy to see you doing well Ruby 🩷 I know your testimony is going to be so eye opening for many! I pray that everyone that comes across this video will be touched by God’s love and know his grace and seek him. God keep blessing you! 🫶🏼🥰
I was meant to see this ❤
Love you rubee. I’ve watched you since I was middle school, you’re inspiring! You and I are making this new walk with God together. Thank you for posting this💗
Thank you so much for sharing this video girl. It truly spoke to me and made me feel very seen and heard. I pray that you continue this walk and hope one day to be committed to letting go of my past and truly stepping in this walk with you. Thank you again, I’ll probably re watch this again because of how it made my heart feel❤️
Amen sister. Thank you for telling your testimony. I felt so sad throughout the video watching you like that in the pictures/videos while you spoke about all the trauma that you went through but I felt so relieved knowing there was a GREAT ending to all that. absolutely beautiful to watch ❤️ you’re truly glorifying the Lord. I love you sister, praise the Lord. Hallelujah
Girl you made me cry 😭, THANK YOU JESUS 🙏🏾
Hallelujah so beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing sis 💞 May God use your testimony to bring many others to Him!
Amen sister ♡ so happy for you! God bless you always.
God bless you!!! I’m so happy to see you’re doing better!! His is not done with you at all. Keep blessing people with your testimony no matter how hard it is!
He is so so good! Mannnnn! I almost cried listening to your testimony. It’s absolutely beautiful.🙏🏽 May God continue to bless you!♥️
ur soul is so beautiful alot of ppl needed to hear this God bless yuu
Amen sister ! ❤ thank you for sharing your testimony!!! It’s so powerful and I’m happy you are apart of the kingdom !
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story, so many people need to hear this. I feel like in this day and age a lot of young people could resonate with your story. I’m so glad you found Jesus ❤
The courage you have to have to do this is amazing, I really admire it I wish I had courage like this!💪✝️
this was amazing, it literally made me cry. i really resonated with some of the stuff you went through and i’m happy to hear that it’s possible to get through it. i hope you are blessed through ur testimony
You’re so beautiful sister. Keep preaching. God bless you. ❤️
You are beautiful inside and out and I’m so proud of you for everything you have accomplished 💗
this was so beautiful. i remember seeing u on social media and looking up to u , i had no idea you were going through all of this. thank u for sharing your testimony. i’m going through some conflict and confusion and have been seeking God for some time now. i know things are going to be okay no matter what happens. God bless u and ur journey!❤️
Wow that was such a beautiful testimony! Thank you for being transparent and telling your truth! God bless you sis!!! This blessed and touched me!
I kept seeing your testimony pop up but Ive been ignoring it for weeks but by the Grace of God I finally watched it and Im so grateful to have heard it. I understand what you're going through and I just want to let you know your testimony touched me. Jesus is so Good. God is so good. Continue to keep the hope of God in you and the faith of Our Lord will heal you through everything. Bless you & Bless the Prince of Peace
Thank you for sharing this 🙏
It’s crazy how some of us desire looking like others or living a different life. But we don’t know the struggles that come with them.
You're so brave, you have a crown waiting for you in heaven for such boldness and courage to say your story. WOw praise God
This whole testimony really touched me as I’m young myself trying to start my own personal relationship with God. I repented today and now know that God will be following me and guiding me in my journey God bless!
Congratulations sister, i hope youre doing well right now, keep serving God no matter how hard it is!
I’m so glad that you made it through. You are so so so lucky to be here. I love you! It’s such a miracle😢❤
U are a living proof that anyone can turn to Christ even thought your past may be dark ❤
thank you for being so obedient! i didn’t feel like watching this video at first .I was about to scroll but i relate to you in so many ways.I feel like our story’s are so so alike and i actually feel understood for once. THANK YOU JESUS. God bless you girl!
Dudeee, we have similar testimonies. Powerful testimony. Thank you so much for sharing. God bless you sister ❤❤
A beautiful testimony. I resonate with so much that you spoke on. God bless you and all others who have felt so lost. Praise our mighty Father Lord above!
Your testimony…..Wow! I relate to certain parts so much!!🥺 I’m so glad you shared this! All Glory to God❤
hey sister, this really inspired me to share my own testimony and heart for jesus and what he did in my life, thank you for being transparent and showing humility and grace of what you’ve been through. may god continue to work in your life. amennn ❤
Thank you for sharing your testimony ❤️ I followed you somewhere in there along the way for your “old” content. I too have literally been *there* and done *that* (minus musicaly & going viral) and am now seeking the way and the truth through Jesus. It’s beyond words how blessed this feels, from the edm scene to Christ! It’s been a rollercoaster girl but I’m holding on too! ❤️❤️❤️
Sis this is a beautiful testimony! All praise to The Most High for your transformation in Christ!🤲🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾
Hey i’ve never seen your videos until now when this one popped up on my feed. and I am in absolute shock to find out your testimony aligns almost exactly with my own. God knew I needed to watch this so I can be brave enough to share my own. thank you for obeying Him and God bless you 💜
you don’t understand how much this video has opened my eyes. i immediately got emotional and started crying to God. he is so good, he has saved me from the worst parts of my life and has brought so many blessings into my life. thank you for sharing your testimony, absolutely beautiful 🤎
Your testimony is so beautiful and gave me so much hope!!!
Please keep sharing your testimony and your story. I’ve never related to a testimony as much as I have with yours and it’s very inspiring and I can only imagine how many other people are positively impacted and inspired by hearing someone as beautiful as you to have gone through so much and find God through that💕
I love this testimony; it really captures how bad the world is and all the sinful things it allows people to do.
Sort of testimony coming up! --
When I was about 10, I just became very depressed and I was struggling with pornography, cussing, being rebellious, even sneaking to smoke my parent's cigarettes. When I was younger, maybe about 7 or so, I was SA'd by my older brother's high school friend, and some guy that was friends with my step-grandma. Alden and Rubin were their names. When I grew up to be 10, I was just so depressed and done with myself and everyone. I felt empty and completely deprived of joy and everything. I would go to church occasionally, but I never truly built a relationship with God, I only thought of it as a religion. Anyway, I thought I was a real Christian, yk, etc, etc. But every night I would cry myself to sleep. I would be so angry over little things and cry about little things. I never wanted to fix my hygiene or really take care of myself. One night, I was just so angry at everything, myself, my family, friends, and even God. I grabbed a kn!fe from the kitchen and when I took a shower that night I js cut and cut. It sorts of became an addiction and anytime I would be mad or sad I would js cut. I then switched out the kn!fe to a bl@de from a razor and just cut as much until I felt relieved. Keep in mind, I was about 11 by then. 11!!! And I was doing all this. Anyways, this one night I just bawled my eyes out, for no reason. I wasn't feeling sad or mad, I just needed to cry so bad. I was screaming in my head for God to help me and I was cursing to Him, thinking this was all Him. That night, I made a promise to myself that if things didn't get better by the time I was 15, I was just going to k!ll myself. I was ELEVEN. A child. I was conforming to all these sexual desires and even calling myself a lesbian and thought I was attracted to girls. Anyways, I just didn't care anymore, and I think, subconsciously, I had the thought like, since I'm going to d!e anyways, I'm gonna do whatever I want. And so, I was 12 and in 7th grade, me and my friends snuck out and drunk some alc0h0l and thought it was the best thing ever and so much fun. Anyway, I introduced one of them to cigarettes sort of and we did it together. Just through 7th grade, I was a mess, and I didn't care about anything except myself. Over summer, I just was so depressed, and I remember just wanting to go to God so much. I just had a big want to go to Him. So, I did. That day changed my life. I started crying to Him. Pleading to change me, fix me. I knew what I was doing was all wrong, but I didn't have that care in me. I just wanted to be healed. I wanted to feel something. I'm 31 backwards now and I feel so much lighter than before. I'm so glad I didn't stay in that position and actually make it to 15 while still feeling that way. I've been following God and even cut off bad friends. My other friend, who I introduced cigarettes to, and I are in a better friendship and are actually bsfs now. We both turned to God and talk about Him and how to change our sinful acts all the time now. Of course, I'm still in that position of falling back and going to God again, but I'm really trying to stay with Him now. He helped me through so much, I thought I would never heal. I sometimes look at the sc@rs and remember everything, but I don't take it as a sc@r of the past, but rather a remembrance of what I went through and where I ended up. I'm not addicted to anything and I'm actually healthy and more focused on school and tennis. He saved my life. Also, during my hard times, I actually got saved at a church camp I went to, I was feeling God for a bit, but I just went back to my stage once I went home. But now, I bless every day and everyone who's in it. Thank you so much for this testimony and allowing me to talk about mine. May God bless you all!!
Thank you for this testimony. Some parts of yours actually reminded me of mine. I really needed this right now. The Lord is so good and He had such great plans for you, I’m so glad they all got fulfilled by His power. Thank the Lord and by His grace! We love you! Thank you
Amen. So proud of you and praise God for bring you out on top.