Finally Opening Up About Being Haras$ed by Another YouTuber

I want to sincerely thank everyone for watching this video and for listening to my story. You all have every right to form your own opinions and make your own assumptions about me and about what happened between Cari and me. But also, I hope that you can respect the fact that I have every right to share my own personal experience.
I sat down to film this video yesterday as just a basic "Get Ready With Me" video. That's why it's a bit all over the place. I didn't plan on getting into this topic but also didn't see the point in stopping myself from talking about it while explaining my reasoning for not being able to post consistently on RUclips for the last 3 years.
I chose to post this today and express my feelings to you in order to help myself move on from it, as I have been struggling with this over the last few years. I know that sharing this truth may upset some people, and I’m truly sorry for that. But I’m upset too. This is my real life and this is what happened. The truth hurts sometimes. If truthfully describing what happened comes off as trying to ruin someone’s image/character, that person only has their actions to blame.
I also wish that I could forget this experience and move on with my life as if nothing ever happened as Cari seems to have been able to do. But that’s just not how life works. Being able to forgive and being able to forget are two different things entirely. They don’t go hand in hand. Forgiving someone doesn’t erase what happened, nor does it erase those parts of you that are forever changed as an effect of that person’s actions.
To the people reading this who have also harassed others: I hope you know now that your words and actions are very much real whether you said them in person, or typed them behind the guise of an anonymous account. Your words and actions will stick with you and more importantly, your victim forever. It’s important to me to bring awareness to that fact.
And to the people who have also been a target of harassment: I hope you know now that it had nothing to do with you, and everything to do with them.
It’s part of being human for us to form our own opinions, judge, and make assumptions about others. That’s part of life. But those opinions, judgments, and assumptions aren’t facts. No matter what you do, there are always going to be people who will misunderstand you and that’s okay. You know who you are, and that’s enough
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literally crying right now reading these comments (literally in every sense of the word: snot and all) Just so blown away by the overwhelming amount of support I’ve gotten for sharing my story/feelings regarding the darkest time of my life. It’s been frustrating, to say the least, to witness a false narrative being painted by my abuser while feeling like my only choice was to sit back and watch my experience with that person be swept under the rug because of their large following and like-able online persona. I guess that’s why it feels like such a relief now to be able to speak up and take back some of that control that I’ve gone so long without
It's also extremely heartbreaking to hear how many of you have been victims of bullying/harassment at some point in your lives. And here’s what I have to say to the people who criticize victims of abuse who take years to build up enough courage to speak out against their abusers: Trauma isn’t something you can ever “get over” or forget. Unfortunately, it doesn’t magically “go away” with half-hearted apologies as it does for our abusers. We have to learn to accept it, live with it and heal from it. But for most people, that takes a very long time. If you still can’t understand that, then you should be grateful that you haven’t had to experience it for yourself.
Thank you for again being here and thank you for listening ❤️
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