Spice Addict-Andrea
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- Опубликовано: 12 сен 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Andrea, a Spice Addict on Skid Row. Spice is a fairly new street drug which many say is more addictive than anything we've seen before. There are many spice addicts on Skid Row, but the reason you've not seen interviews with them on this channel is because spice addicts are usually out of their minds or passed out cold on the sidewalk. This is a rare talk with a spice addict in a somewhat sober state. Spice is very inexpensive, very popular and very destructive.
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No matter what they go through, they never forget the abuse they go through, what age they were, and who did it to them. Speaks volumes
Some one wrote " Trauma has no age".
Reliving it daily
Because it's like a person will stop developing mentality at the onset of the abuse...
leoeoeoeoe to me it seems to speak volumes, in octave and quantity, to the levels of the pain/ abuse/spiritual dissonance/ confusion experienced at that point in time in life; the chosen coping mechanism drugs (could be any other addition or subtraction of a stimuli) which moves them nearly in every other way out of balance, it still can not delete the memory of the impactful moment that created a space for “spice.” A substance that alters her behavior, speech, appearance, daily life, can not alter that memory and the clarity of its delivery. Also can be said that one thing alone for healing or coping is not likely to be very successful. (FYI I don’t think spice in anyway is healing, that’s just my opinion)
leoeoeoeoe what are you even talking about. You sound delusional. The color of someone skin does not change the color of the blood they bleed. Trauma doesn’t seek certain races.
These interviews really show how the drug addiction pandemic is often a coping mechanism and a reaction to severe abuse and neglect. Protection of children should be a high priority in order to help society.
unfortunately most of the so called elites are pedophiles so child protection is not their agenda..only child exploitation..
Inner tuition I completely agree with you.
@@innertuition7363 yes, pedophilia is a huge huge thing. Sex trafficking is big in the state i live in.... so is most substance use. So, no... our poor children are not a priority.
You couldn't be more correct. Children are not born this way. The world makes them this way. And they grow up to be emotionally unstable, mentally ill adults who are really just children that got lost along the way.
@xisobelx373 It's so crazy that you said that about breeding licenses, but it's so true. The fact that anyone can have a child is absolutely terrifying. With the mental illness, addiction, and just absolute insanity running rampant in this world, I can't even imagine the atrocities some of these children, especially in the foster system, have had to endure. Sterilization should be a thing, too. It's radical, but honestly, so damn needed.
Every addict was once a baby boy or girl. Life hits Everyone differently
YES.
Is this a guy or girl
Very powerful thought and so important to remember.
That is so true!
"We all started out as someone's little angels..."
Not one of these stories starts out with “my mom and dad loved me” and it really shows just how important the nurturing part is in raising children. Almost all start their story with physical, mental and/or sexual abuse.
Well to be fair a lot of heavy drug abusers are also pathological liars and thieves.
@@jdb2722 I know all too well most are truthful about abuse.
I don’t buy a single word this hag has spit out, not even she buys it
The only one was Patrick I believe. His story is so interesting because he has so much support from loved ones, yet simply cannot pull himself out of this destructive cycle.
But I agree... that is SO OFTEN the case. This poor woman... I wonder what she would have become with a loving home 💔
It almost seems like constant war stops families from being solid, people from being educated and sober...we fight wars so we are "liberated" and free to raise children around drugs brought in by war. You think she is on a vicious cycle but she is just living what was brought to her by our country causing endless war.
She still has the grace to answer “yes, dear” when he asks her a question. Like she’s caring for him even in the midst of her pain.
So true 😞
She's carrying. She obviously stopped carry for herself, not for others. It breaks me.
How about how she reads the Bible every day. Thats someone who still cares about humanity
Having faith always out weighs the negativity 🙏🏾🤪💋
Pierre Harris happy valentines
The fact that she said she she was so lonely as a child is so heartbreaking.
i was super lonely too. still am.
I felt that right in the stomach. Poor creature.
heartbreaking
beats4u2 absolutely
beats4u2 loneliness is bad
Trauma is the gateway “drug”
So true!
Couldn't have said it better myself!!!
Bingo
Sad but true
Most underated comment on the internet
It is crazy to me that even with 20+ years of consistent drug use of a drug that is known for melting you brain, she can still remember the exact date and year that she started living on skid row. My heart truly breaks for her and others living on skid row. :(
She sent her child to be raised by the same people who abused her
@@bensmith8682 Damn I just caught that on a second watch. I don't have sympathy for her anymore, she put a child through the same shit she went through.
First time the abuse was mentioned, she said that's why they divorced
@@jmdash22 Yeah, I was thinking "parents" in this instance meant mom and stepdad, maybe.
@@cozymonk same here
I have no words to describe how sad this is. People hurt children and this is how they cope. And then people shame them for not getting help when they probably can’t trust a helping hand ever again.
Yep. There is a greater correlation between substance abuse disorder and child abuse than that of obesity to diabetes
Thank you so much, im on the path to being like this, i live in kansas city too and im trying to turn my life around but i cant quit the pills💔
@@paytonhoyer5913 you have my support. 💜
I was thinking the same while watching this. Now her family is all gone and all she has left are friends... hopefully some that are not also addicted to something? But likely not. And this breaks my heart.
After all the trauma and then coping by herself... still not forgetting the trauma and all the loss... after all that... I'm certain that she also now copes with people shaming or making fun of her. At very least not taking her seriously which can be scarring in and of itself. What's sad is that eventually that kind of stress and trauma breaks a person so deeply that they dissociate some of it away. The blank but somewhat wounded stare she has in the photo really impacted me.
I wish the best for this woman. I hope she finds happiness. I am sending her some from my universe, however I can.
even when they do try and get help the help itself usually isnt even good, shtis sad man
"If I get bit by a bed bug they die immediately" what a gem of a quote.
I believe her
What an unbelievably sad thing to say, but she is proud about it. If it’s true - that the outside of her body kills bedbugs - then just think of what’s going on inside her body.
@@jayneneewing2369 Sounds like "Spice" is 1 part oregano, 2 parts industrial pesticides. it's hard to even imagine that they sell that crap at her local 7/11. It has utterly destroyed this woman's mind and body. The scumbags that sell Spice to her belong in a cage. Moreover, the politicians that run CA wouldn't pull a hair for the people that live there.
@@hardmoney8560 - Every word you wrote about this woman s absolutely correct. But, I’m going to stand up for CA as I was born and raised here. She need help as a little child. Her family was severely screwed up, so none was provided either when she was little, or through the years. But as an adult, had she wanted help, there is help. I speak from my many old years of living here, and watching things go down. She could have help this minute, but she seems way too sick to ask for it. What’s left of her probably once wonderful mind was on it’s way to destruction from the age of five, as she described that’s when the abuse began. And, sh says she has no family connections now, and it’s likely that might a good thing. But where she lives no? There isn’t a person there able to help her, let alone themselves. Then, parenthetically and tragically, there are those who just fall through the cracks. This woman’s family should have been locked up many years ago, but there, possibly, there are many cases where a neighbor might have made a call. However, neighbors often (and this ticks me off) “don’t want to get involved”. Bad people do bad things. This country seems to wish to “just move on”. It is, every bit of it, heartbreaking.
@@jayneneewing2369 The "Just Move On" mentality is why nothing ever really changes here. America is stuck in a perpetual cycle of ignoring things until something else happens.
These series have helped me move from a place of judgement to one of empathy and sorrow. Thank you for helping me grow.
Me too.
Not hard watching this. Fuck. What a lost soul, just been completely fucked over by her own kind (humans) and left to rot. That's why I hate people. They're fuclijg horrible fuck em all.
Arroosak thanks for video.
It humbles me.
Arroosak I appreciate your post. I’m a recovering addict and seeing this post gives me hope that the world can see the pain and struggle behind the stigma.
The same
You can hear the good wholesome woman she is deep down. My heart breaks for her.
Very true, she still has some “mom” in that voice
the good ones always are the ones suffering most, you either suffer by abuse or become an abuser yourself, there's these 2 options. abuse is never helpful to society in any way
I know! I wish we could see a picture of her before; see what pieces of her old wonderful self she still has. It’s so sad
@@zoeh.2361 it's crazy to see this, she's literally on the verge of death here, I bet she is passed on by now
Wholesome 😵💫
I don’t understand parents who sexually abuse their children...like it’s so disturbing and difficult to fathom.
Vicious cycle, almost all abusers have been abused before
It’s disgusting, people like that don’t deserve children.
I can’t understand Anyone who sexually abuses any child. I can’t fathom pedophilia at all.
@@mizzlay3318 and you probably never will unless it's a culture that you're brought up around
Yabas i’m not sure that even makes a difference, because look at the people who are born into families like that and have been abused since they can remember. Some of them realize what’s been done to them isn’t normal or right, and they don’t understand it.
This series just validates drugs are not necessarily the cause of peoples problems but rather the tool for numbing themselves from much deeper unresolved problems and pain.
No shit Sherlock
Some drugs are good but when people are left to fake stuff that’s why she’s brain dead
It’s about trauma and treating that pain
Sometimes it’s chicken or egg and sometimes it’s cycle of abuse and genetics
Spice is not a good drug either, lmao
You can tell she’s still in there. She remembers specific dates. Specific events. She can still tell a joke. But the spice has made her completely
Unable to control her own body and I’m sure to some extent her own thoughts. This one really hurts to watch
yeah :(
This one really scares me. My best friend started with that stuff. She blew about $10k in a few months. Luckily she was able to stop for good after relapsing once. That was about 6 years ago and she hasn't picked it back up. She has a few lasting problems from it, like a permanent mild stutter and she has a hard time gathering her thoughts sometimes but that's it. This video makes me feel like I'm looking at my best friend but in a different timeline. It's terrifying.
Are we sure spice is all that's wrong here? Seriously? I've never touched the stuff, but I've sure seen people on it. They weren't this bad- at least after they sobered up.
@Micki Moritz what you're looking at is someone who's done way too much spice for way too long. I worked in a smoke shop and saw the old spicers come in. They all look like they've done hard drugs their entire lives. Spice is some gnarly stuff. That's why the store I worked in didn't sell it.
@@EmotionCRAVE Google global truth project and read "the Present" to see the truth about life/death. Nothing is more important than checking it is true, especially pgs 1-4
The thing that I take away from these interviews most strongly is that we really need to love our children. We need to love them and they need to know we love them
Amen
I couldn’t have put it better myself
Whenever someone is asked "how was your childhood?" And they immediately respond "Crappy." With no hesitation... That hits hard. I teared up, and yet I have no real idea what she's been through. I haven't experienced it. But her tone and the context told me all I needed to know
Shut the up dude lmao "I never experienced it but her tone and context told me everything I needed to know" what exactly did you find out?
@@brandfranciscassella5356 mostly that her childhood was crappy. I'm not a bleeding heart or anything this is just sad af
Wish I could heart react this. It hit me hard too
@@brandfranciscassella5356 really you couldn't figure out what he meant by that?
I agree. But yet, as so many of the people in these interviews, when asked " who raised your children?" The answer is " my parents". That's so sad
These videos have changed how I view addicts. It’s not the drugs that have destroyed these people. They were dead on the inside from what family and people they have trusted has done to them. Abuse, molestation, etc has ruined these people and they’ve turned to drugs as a coping mechanism. I hope she gets the help she needs.
Drugs are not the root problem, it's usually the symptoms of the problem if that makes sense
It's too late to help someone like this. You can help her like provide her with somewhere to shower and sleep but the damage is done.
@@chesterdonnelly1212 it's never too late to help someone. People recover everyday from damage incurred by illicit substances.
I'm always so glad to see so many comments as such, where people are finally seeing an addict as an actual human being that has been severely damaged, rather than just some "disgusting" junkie/tweaker/etc.
As a fully recovered addict, it always pains me SO much to see some of these interviews where the people are just so hurt & buried in their struggle. There is just so much pain aching in every vein; I always wish I could do so much more with my testimony of recovery to help them.
An addict is never just a normal, trauma free, happy person that got bored one day, there's always going to be *something* absolutely broken inside of them. It's very unfortunate that the majority of society just looks down on them rather than offering a hand, but I DO also know that sometimes the hand you may offer may just turn you into a vessel they can manipulate in order to get what they want. It's definitely very hard to understand if you do not understand the way the drugs are working inside of them.
I don’t think she’s dead inside. I think she’s suffering. She’s been abused her whole life. She doesn’t know any other life. I can’t even imagine just the physical pain she probably endures every single day let alone her mental anguish.
Almost every woman on this series has been sexually abused by a family member growing up, this says a lot how addiction is not the fault of the addict...
@NPC #40249 I hope you're doing better now or at least on the path of doing better 💗💗💗
Stuti R.
Bring me a hot chick with a sex addiction, yes Sir!!!!!!!!!!
Addiction is not the fault of anybody, but it's the addicts responsibility to get clean...
Says a lot about men..
Men seriously need to do better. It’s really so many women on here that have been sexually abused even as kids and it’s crazy.
This is crushing to watch, God bless her. If a genie granted me three wishes, I would wish for ALL people like Andrea to have a chance to be born again, and live a new life with no suffering or pain, only every joy in life. I know what it's like to grow up with trauma, my childhood was riddled with confusion, unrest, violence, alcoholism exposure and physical abuse. My psychiatrist is an expert in neuroscience and explained how these experiences literally damage the brain. They stop/wildly interfere with development and in my case damage my frontal lobe. I have several diagnosed personality disorders and cannot regulate my emotions without medication. I struggle daily with compulsion and impulse control and so understand all about addiction.
Why am I divulging all this? Because people need educating. NEVER judge an addict. You have NO IDEA what they have been through. Remember this: the brain is an organ, no different than any other in the human body, it can be damaged and therefore it's function can be greatly altered. Please, next time you see someone like Andrea on a bus, or begging on a street corner, give a thought to how they may have ended up there.
Very well said, I so empathize w/those who are on skid row/homeless as I am currently in a homeless shelter and have been through some very devastating things in my lifetime thus far. Thankfully I do not have an additive personality and never fell into a hard drug addiction, but I have done my share of hard drugs...everything except heroin. I don't often pray, but I will pray that this woman gets clean and off the streets and reaches a better/happy place. She is deserving of immeasurably more.
Oh my God, I love that wish and I appreciate your sharing your experiences- and that we really need to think, _think_ about how people got to be where they are. I love your comment.
Remember, these 70-80 years ( for some) is very short compared to eternity.
This sounds eerily like me, only I think I'm lacking the proper diagnoses. I had a similar childhood, and I also struggle with compulsion, impulse control, emotional regulation, and addiction. Thank you for humanizing the unhoused
"If bed bugs bit me they die immediately" sense of humor still intact.
I dont think she was joking lol
Nah bruh. That's just her tripping out from the spice and thinking the bed bugs are real...or they are real and she really thinks the spice metabolites in her system kills them.
Which is actually less scary than if the spice in her system actually does kill the bed bugs. That means her body is one big ass pesticide from the chemicals in her system.
She wasn't joking, she was stating a perceived fact. Still, plenty of dullards like you give a thumbs up.
Bruh I smoke spice and I have noticed the occasional flea from my cat jumping on me, biting me, and then when I grab it to kill it it's already fucking dead like 👀
@@empyie666 lmao yeaaaa right
She's a perfect example of why you shouldn't judge a person by their appearance. On first impression most people are repulsed by her.. which is, sadly, a natural response. But if you give her the chance to speak, you see that she is a sweetheart. Many people have this idea that drug addicts are bad people. Many of them are, but most of them are good people that have trauma or discomfort they're desperate to escape from. I'm so sorry this has happened to her... she deserves much more in life.
Amen
Also ... Addiction turns many good people into monsters, into totally different people. Addiction makes people do things they would never in a million years have done if not for the substance changing and controlling who they are. If you can successfully treat the addiction, a lot of the time the person you knew and loved is still in there.
Na. We know.
Bless Her x
She looks like a poor sweet lady, i feel sorry, not threatened tbh
All of these addicts are a product of ther childhood /enviorment. Its so critical that children be raised in good healthy enviorments.
Um.. no, not all of them are.
@@Shornandkennyyou're right, Not all of them are products of ther enviorment, but the majority of them are which is why its crucial thr children are raising in loving, stable enviorments.
Are raised in loving, stable enviorments
@@Sam-pi2df Yes that is ideal, but many children raised in loving stable homes grow up to be much worse than a misfortuned addict. I think their adolescent/adult environment is also a big factor. Nonetheless I really REALLY feel for these people and hold no bias.
@Tiffany F. is that just your opinion or is that based on statistics? Be sure to include alchohol addiction.
It's so clear how drug use is mainly just a coping mechanism for trauma. I pray for her and all other people like her 🖤🖤
“I love spice... if I get bitten by bed bugs they die immediately!” I love her humor... I pray you get better
Not a joke, her blood is poisonous
Bullshit. That's not how shit works, it's a joke. That being said, this is extremely sad to me, my highschool drug tested so instead of pot I started smoking that shit freshman year and it fucked me up for 5 years after that. I'm sober now but Christ, I've IV'd damn near every drug out there that should be injected, and some that shouldn't. Nothing has hit me as hard or brought me as low as synthetic cannabinoids. Every single day, I think about going back to heroin, buying a little coke, dropping some acid. I never think of using those synthetics again.
@J. Bar Ehh the withdrawal ain't so bad, just gives you crazy anxiety and makes you willing to do anything to go out and get more but it's just cuz you want more, not cuz you're hurting. No other drug made me want that next hit more. And I never had a seizure from it but plenty of people who I'd give it to ended up seizing in front of me.
Sorry, can I ask is 'spice' a 'speed'? Thank you
@@ilda89 Speed usually refers to amphetamine, similar to what's in ADD meds(Ritalin, Adderall, etc.) Spice used to be a popular brand of "smoke blend" which is basically some organic matter (Damiana leaf, tea, whatever herb they want) sprayed with a solution consisting of some synthetic cannibinoid (jwh-018,am-2201, etc) dissolved in acetone. The part that gets you high is basically thc or some other cannibinoid that's been heavily modified in a lab. So no it's not speed, nor related in anyway. I think those bath salts that used to be sold legally in the same shops that sold spice were modified cathinones, which would make it something like a synthetic speed but I could be mistaken as I've never looked into them much.
“i have a few friends, no family. but i’m happy with that.” i love her so much🥺
The fact that a drug like this was legal and marijuana wasn't is absolutely insane.
well it's because it was a new synthetic drug created to bypass the law. Since it didn't exist before, it couldn't be illegal. But I agree that marijuana and some psychedelics not being legal is insane
@@filip5356 It used to be like you said, but now every possible analogue of as existing drug is banned before anyone will produse it for the first time. There is a lot of drugs that are illegal but they don't exist yet. Read about Federal Analogue Act. Of course it doesn't work as well as it was supposed to but you can't do the same trick that they do with 4MMC for example - 4MMC get banned so tommorow we stsrt selling 3MMC.
@@domestosaw4592 yeah Im not sure how it works in the US. I know in my country you can order for example 1cP-LSD which metabolizes into LSD for research purposes completely legally. But they did ban 1P-LSD and other analogues. I hope they don’t do the same shit. It’s time it’s all fucking legal.
On the other hand, two “shamans” giving people ceremonial ayahuasca and making their life better were compared to Cosa Nostra and Hitler and sent to prison for 9 years. Raping a child wouldn’t get you this much of a sentence in this fucking country :)
If you murdered someone you’d get half of that with a good lawyer and then get out after half of that because of good manners.
@@filip5356 Politics is a stinky thing.
What can you do? The spice must flow.
"What was the first drug you tried?"
"Alcohol."
This woman, with all her trauma, is wiser than many "normal" people who would never consider booze a drug. It absolutely is, and the worst one at that. This interview hit hard.
Alcohol isn't even close to being the worst drug but it definitely affects the most people.
@@lovejotted define "worst". More people have lost their lives or their loved ones to alcohol than any other drug in existence, by orders of magnitude. Alcohol absolutely is the drug that has the furthest-reaching negative effect on humanity, and I'm not sure how that could even be argued against.
@@1withthegroove not as a % of users though. Alcohol is by far the most popular drug in the world so by default it will negatively affect the most people
@@1withthegroove If you read what I said you'd realize I am *agreeing* that it affects the most people.
My point is that there are 100% worse drugs to use. Heroin, fentanyl, spice, bath salts, etc. Those are all worse drugs and IF they were as common as alcohol this world would be even more of a mess.
Was this easier for you to understand?
I literally thought this was a dude till I read this
Next time I see an addict or a homeless guy ima think about how he got there and be more respectful
A lot of the homeless I'll pass by in my local downtown area have been really kind, I've even given some of my snacks to them, but many people treat them like trash or just look at them in disgust. It's really sad because they're human too. I've also met some people at a local homeless shelter, some people become homeless due to expensive medical bills..we never know what people are going through.
I live in an area with a really high homeless/ addict population so growing up here you become accustomed to them and get to a point where you scared of them anymore. I’ve had a barely coherent conversation with a few and bought them coffees when it’s cold (I live in Canada and it gets super cold in the winters) and they actually aren’t horrible people. That’s what I love about this channel is the awareness they bring. Very enlightening tbh
Yea I tend to ignore or be nice to the homeless. I’ve watched too many of these type of videos to justify being disrespectful to them anymore. Some may not be good people but I’m not going through the same hardship so it’s unfair to judge or be mean.
Yea just give them snacks / food / leftovers if you can financially carry that cost. The homeless people on the street aren't going to stab a needle in your arm and rob you. That's the ones sleeping in the elevator of your appartment building or in parking garages. Those I do actively avoid and run from. Everyone else is just human.
Hope so that could be you one day
Drugs aren't the issue, it's the trauma. It's so sad that she is wasting away, but can remember exactly every detail about her abuse. It's just horrible.
Well said. But drugs don't help necessarily.
It’s the manner of dealing with trauma, not the trauma itself.
Drugs are a symptom, not the problem.
Almost everyone has been abused. Not everyone ends up as a junky on the streets. Drugs are an issue. Easy access just makes it worse. The junky wouldn't even clean up to take care of her son. Drugs have fucked up everyone I know. But hey, whatever. Product of our sick society. I can't be judgemental, without revolutionary change for the betterment of our communities, this will keep happening.
@@Kryynism I regularly take illegal drugs.... I have a thriving business, happy staff, home owner, great social life, I foster rescue animals all the time, im a positive influence in my friends lives, pay my taxes, mow my law, grow veggies in my back yard, have solar, chickens for eggs, think carefully about what products I buy based on animal testing or environmental impact. Drugs are NOT a problem in my life. Like with alcohol for most people I use drugs responsibly. I also had a traumatic childhood. Most of the people I know are living much like I am and had childhoods much like myself. I would like to see some research, done without blame or judgement, as to why some can thrive and some fail under the same circumstances. Its too easy to blame the drugs themselves or trauma, something else is going on
I'm sure everybody's noticing the common thread among all these people who are out here on the streets: abuse, neglect, abandonment. It's really the same story. I hope we can get it together as a society so we can stop letting children fall through the cracks this way, as well as helping them more when they are living this way years later.
It's sad. We have victims of the opioid epidemic being branded a felon for merely possessing a substance with no prior record. It's unreal. We need to decriminalize everything, and implement mass rehab programs. Even a lot of the rehabs are contributing to the problem. Whether it's malice, or just shearly unattainable due to it being well over $10,000 in many cases. We really need to dismantle much of what we know about it, and reconstruct everything down to our perception of drugs, and drug addicts.
@Magic Turtle you’re not wrong
And now that they are adults….we abandon them again.
In the richest nation the world has ever known, we could house and feed these people and give them help, and it wouldn’t cost us each more than a Starbucks or two a week, probably much less.
Judging is easier.
entire civilization is build on violence. It's sad that majority of people are so broken they can't stop the circle and perpeture this hell.
You are 100% spot on
These interviews are incredible, every single one of them. Thank you for giving a platform for people that are cast aside by pretty much everyone. This is humanity just as much as anyone else you meet in this world.
It hurts to see her struggle, her Dad ruined her. Nobody deserve that kind of treatment from their own parents.
Her dad? Are u serious, just cause u go threw hell does not mean u belong to it! She's conscious enough to know what she's doing, poor habits= shity life 💯
@@ricardotriana6217 your negativity doesn't belong here. I suggest you be quiet or leave. It costs nothing to be open minded and feel sympathy
@@kateyoung7400 how am i being negative?? Sounds like u scared of alpha males, the reason i said it because i speak from experience and overcoming adversities like this here, but you ppl are too weak minded to get your life back on track, i have all the right to give my experience and opinion, just as u do, but don't try and downplay just cuss i overcame and this poor lady wasn't aware of the dangers of this lifestyle. Pitty will get her no where, proper guidance will 💯
@@suv4088 im here to show u that it's that easy to overcome this lifestyle, stop playing victim to your shitty habits.#innerEngineering
@@ricardotriana6217 lmao you clearly have never been abused at all
How as a parent can you destroy your childs precious life. With such horrible atrocities. I'm sorry this happened to this lovely woman....I pray she gets help...
J9 M Yeah I think it might be a bit late for that
@@xc.50404 As far as the past yes, but there's always hope for future wellness. Even though the odds are & have been against her since birth it seems..
J9 M The brain damage is irreversible though which is sad.
Jonathon Cole that’s completely untrue, although the permanent damage is 100% irreversible it can be managed better which would help her quality of life overall.
As for the addiction, this is completely treatable, there is no such thing as “too far gone” or “too late”.
Her chances of getting sober are just as good as the next persons. She could go on to live a relatively normal, healthy, happy, overall well life. She just needs help to get there.
As a father it truly sickens me to hear about the abuse and neglect these people go through as kids. Just makes me want to love my kids more and do everything I can to be the best dad possible.
god you can tell she's so sweet at heart, ending her sentences with "dear". bless her.
When I die...I am coming back as an Angel to help these people.....It's important for everyone to see these videos...and to see the people around us...they're suffering too. Thanks for sharing.
Seeing things like this makes me so glad that i finally kicked my spice addiction. 8 years clean from 3 nonstop.
Bogdan P huh. Lol
I can't seem to kick mine. Garlic salt is my favorite
Why the hell are y'all smoking spice? Why not smoke weed instead??
@@D.B.Cooper-1971 im not. 8 years clean. But the spice high was a harder trip. A harsher high, riding it was like being the wave that shatters against the shore, and then you were the shore. Like..... It was amazing, but so detrimental. Never do it
God bless you. I am so happy for you!!! I love to hear that it is possible for some to make it out. When I was young I experimented with many drugs. But luckily they didn't have the stuff on the streets they do now . No meth , bath salts, spice even pills were not easy to get. Thank the Lord
Your work has completely humanized a demographic of people who, before I saw your channel, I was prejudiced towards. Thank you for making me a more compassionate person, and thank you for spreading awareness of the serious issues faced by people in these types of situations.
It’s never too late to become educated. Good for you ❤️
@@sav-st4jg goddamn people who say "become educated" are insufferable
@@rennworks-actual Ben is a Biden voter
@@rennworks-actual What is so insufferable about suggesting that people learn?
@@vendetta1429 Pretty sure they're just commenting on "become" as if it's a finish line. Education never ends if you continue to thrive to learn. If that is the case, it's an extremely pedantic thing to feel is insufferable, but I get where they're coming from.
“I like to read my bible” 😭😢 poor thinggg. My soul aches for her soul.
With the twitches in her muscles she gets it’s questionable if at this point she can even read with understanding. I really wish her best and I hope she can read it
Dan Dan shut up Dan
So sad.
You don't actually care. If you actually cared you would go do something about it.
Glitter Kiss it never fails, every time
This hit me in my heart! reminds me of my mom who was addicted to crack for many years , it ruined her and our family! I'm rebuilding a relationship with her now and this lady reminded me of her story, the childhood sexual abuse and the abandonment , I hope she can quit the spice one day, much love to her.
Life is so unfair. Poor woman. She didn’t deserve this, it’s just the way she copes with the cards she was dealt. I hope she finds peace when she moves on to the other dimensions.
ahh the next dimention, without any physics
@THAT 125 GUY what a bully i bet u spit in their faces if it looked better than urs
@Juicy Fruit srry im norwegian
Dementia*
@Freedom Ofspeech Not everyone handles trauma the same way. Not everyone handles addiction the same way. It’s best to keep an open mind and realize that.
I've watched half of these interviews and the common denominator in EVERY interview is sexual abuse/physical abuse/negligence which all contributed to childhood trauma. Your childhood is such a pivotal time in your life. Children are much more aware and developed than we give them credit for. These interviews are the evidence...Prayers for these hurting souls. ♥️
This is a real correlation. Research shows that 80% of those who experienced abuse will become a substance user
@AyannaTV very well said.
Yes, so true. People I've met who struggle the most have dealt with similar situations.... I'm also majoring in psychology in & looked into several studies about trauma, etc. That's why I have a lot of empathy for those who struggle with addictions..they usually go through things no one should ever go through & just want to escape reality. 😢
I'm going to say that they know you wont judge them or will take advantage of your sympathy if they tell you they were molested, i.e. playing the molested card is nothing but a hustle, bad decisions and consequences-rinse and repeat
Its most definetly the root cause for most truama. Alot of ppl dont like to admit it, that their plight is because of some messed up thing someone else did to them
I just keep imagining what a conversation with her 15 years ago would be like.
Max Wind 😂
Like : I’m going to college, going to get married and have kids... right after some spice
That was a woman 🤯
Don't...because thus can happen to anyone
@Jolly Jack Gang After sexual abuse a lot of women try to hide their femininity as best they can & I'm sure it helps some in maintaining her hygiene with the lifestyle she has.
I look at world so much differently now due to this channel, which should be shown in college or high schools showing reality, how to have compassion for others is fundamental learning curve.
Great idea
Yes. It's far too easy to pass off someone else's plights as "poor life choices" from a place of privilege.
Absolutely!! Have been saying this myself because when I was younger we had empathy classes where we'd meet a baby, anything along that i feel could do volumes for people.
“I’m happy that I have a place indoors”
I should stop bitching about small apartment.
Yes me too
Me too 😢
Moon Queen AMEN!!!
She literally just said that 💔💔💔
go outside if you need more space
Spice is such an evil drug its even worse than heroin, I pray for this woman she is in so much pain.
What exactly is spice? I'm guessing it's like synthetic weed or something?
Garrett Strong spice is a leafy plant sprayed with straight chemicals... it really is a addictive drug don’t fuck with it ever
@@harlock321 Spice is synthetic marijuana. Also known as K2. It's called synthetic marijuana, as it produced similar effects from marijuana. However, as the laws started banning the chemical in spice, companies used a little chemistry trick to still sell spice but be legal. They would add a couple extra bonds to the chemical, making it a different drug but with similar effects as the previous chemical. Laws kept on banning them, and now K2 is NOT like marijuana anymore. It now has become one of the most dangerous drugs .
Spice is horrible. Tried it once and my whole body and brain felt like I was on an extreme rollercoaster and I couldn't help but scream. Never touched that again after that. It was a haunting experience.
@@mrsdegaldy650 im glad you never touched it again, please don't xx
This is so sad underneath all the drugs hurt and pain she talks sense. She is the product of everything that is wrong in this world.
Shes the product of her own, many people goes through what she did, but they strived harder in life, I’m not saying drugs are bad but she did this to herself. Stop
@@sexysaurusrex548 she is different were all different we handle different things in our own way she was one of the people that couldn't deal and resorted to different things to deal with her pain
She? Oh shit lol.
Kayla Plays yes that’s what I’m saying.
You took the words out of my mouth .. this is truly heart breaking 😔
You can hear and see her pain. I just want to give her a huge hug.
As someone who was addicted to spice/K2 for 3 full years the addiction is like no other, I've been addicted to pure fentanyl, liquid morphine, meth pretty much everything other than crack and Coke but I legit couldn't go more than 15 to 20 minutes without a hit of K2/spice or I would get severe stomach pains ,horrible thoughts and intense temperature fluctuations. Would wake up every 20-30 min out of a dead sleep and wouldn't be able to go back to sleep unless I got another good hit or two in and don't get me started on the mental health effects because it made me full blown agoraphobic the whole time I was on it and a year after. Still recovering from it and haven't touched it in 5 years doctors say I might never be completely normal again but at least I can function and live a productive life with some family that still loves me!!! Best of luck to anyone currently fighting the struggle you can overcome it too!!!
Sending you so much love and light!🫂 Please keep being strong!
Wow, spice sounds horrible and it must have taken a whole lot of strength to kick each one of those addictions. I’m so overjoyed to read that you’re free of them and with family, well done and good luck in life!
I’m glad for you! Stay strong my friend you are already making it 💞
@@Bombadillio even without an addiction it's some scary fkn shit. I've done lots of weird drugs over the years but the only things that have left me feeling truly fucked, like something was really wrong and i could die, were synthetic cannabinoids. I would smoke salvia again before I smoked k2 again.
I had similar reaction to it also I always said spice is worse than crack but I’ve never smoked crack I’ve seen what spice does to people this on the video isn’t it but cold hot sweats waking up with your bed full of sweat from the toxins of “spice” trying to get out your body it’s literally just like poison, praying for her and others who are battling addiction and child hood trauma to get clean and find help!
It makes me cry that she was a child once and that this is her end result.
Edit: some individuals made it clear, and i agree, that this doesnt have to be her "end result" and that there is still hope for her.
everyone was a child once💀
Nomoreheroes....I was thinking the same :)
Makes me wonder where is she now...
But we were all children at some point
@John Doe pretty certain a hefty dose of karma is coming your way for having such extreme hate in your heart. We've heard this womans reasoning for being so messed up. What's your excuse?
I think after this I’m gonna take a break from watching these. They’re really depressing :(
Yup, it’s too much
Its unbelievable isn't it.
Me too. I was on a binge watch. But it's truly depressing and I felt like I could in some way HELP at first only to feel overwhelmed, angry and sad in the end. Im Trying to understand how this can happen to people in this country? Blessings to you.
Yes
I am in agreement ..I just can't allow this in my life, it serves no purpose in my life bc I can't physically help them, so instead I simply leaves me feeling very sad..we empaths must be careful bc we truly absorb their pain ..god pls send help to these suffering souls, and give this young man protection as he helps in his own way.
The irony of spice is when it first came out it wasn't "too bad" or should I say it wasn't nearly as bad for people. But as they started banning the different chemicals within it, makers started adding different shit in it until it morphed into what we see today.
'Since December 23rd, 2002."
Christ. She remembers the exact date after all that.
Right before Christmas too... :(
I feel like the specificity of her answer was an opportunity for further information. You don't just spew a specific date without specific reason.
@@sawyerblack4688 ohhhh 👀
As a morphine and heroin addict, now sober (for many "sober", because on Methadone)) since September 21st, I can tell: YES, we - addicts, can always remember an EXACT day, sometimes the day of week, we did something about our addiction.
For example, I know very well, when I started doing heroin instead of morphine and WHY. I can remember when I made a decision to go to the hospital to detox from heroin, morphine and oxycodone instead of trying å self-detox, completely DIY at home, like I used to do 4 times before. And the day AND THE EXACT TIME (hour and minutes!), when I did go there and said goodbye to everything outside that detox - trees, a lake which I used to see everyday from the window, while being there, people from the outside, "FREE world", like we used to call them, because we did not even have meetings with our own families and any friends or boy/girlfriends! It was forbidden because of fucking Covid ofcourse!, etc., etc. And I did not even know when I'll be back to this world "outside and free".
And when I've got to methadone program (don't know how its called in English, especially in American version of English, I'm not a native speaker as You, Reader-of-This-Comment, can see, I guess) and took my first dose per orale, not intra vene as everything I've been taking all the time untill then. I can remember this!
I can remember some more situations and its causes from my life. But when I was fucked up, I didn't pay attention to sth I didn't want to remember låter. That's why they're facts I wanted to remember. The other are "drug" or "being fucked up & high" stuff. But look, even we have damaged memory and can rember only things from the past that had a huge impaxt on us or those we want to remember, we can still remember. Not every drug is like completely damaging brain and You end up as a vegetable with no brain, who pees and shits Your own pants. For example, opiates DO NOT have THAT KIND of impact on the brain
And I am so thankful.
But on the video we can see not an opiate but spice addict. And personally I do not know what exactly it is, how does it even work on brain and body (in a "medical" way), what kind of high You have when You take this, or even what is (are) the way(s) to get high with this drug? So I don't know how her brain can possibly be (or can not be) damaged! But as an addict, I know, we can remember everything we want to remember and everything, that had a huge impact on us.
Oh, so many words, I'm sorry. :( So it looks like I have a "waterfall of words" or "waterfall of speaking" (like my mom use to call my speaking :D) in every language I know. :D I am sorry for my bad English if it is bad, I'm not a native but I'm still learning. All my life. ;)
@@satansgirlfriendxd Honestly I took a percocet given to me by my ex due to a foot injury, and I kind of thought in my mind right then and there "I will be an addict if I have access to this" and every time I had access to it after that, I coveted them like a treasured snack. I remember the exact day of the first pill. I'm really glad I have no social skills or money, otherwise I'd be fucked.
She is a human being too people need to remember that.
If you wanna call it that
Weak bro. Grow a spine and stop caring about people who don't care about themselves
Barthj are you just gunma comment trash on everyone’s comments ?
She belongs to the streets now
Brainless idiot.
Everyday I ignore people like this on the street. Now they are being fully seen in front a camera on a set. Unbelievably insightful. Thank you for doing this.
@Zert Teyyy almost everyone ignores people like this , we live in a society like this , imagine if we stopped to talk to every single one of them , most of society is putrified and not fair at all , they are treated just like ghosts , like when you ignore your problems to see if they will go away , this what big majority of people do with them , I do it too most of the time , I am afraid, they can get aggressive, they are humans too , and that is why a lot of people fear them . Sadly .
What the hell am I supposed to do it’s not like all these people are completely innocent. They’ve got nothing to live for and aren’t afraid of doing bad things.
My heart breaks for this poor human being. She went through so much 😭 I can't hold the tears while listening to her.
Omg how awful. I can’t even imagine having the two people who are suppose to protect you from the world be the ones who damage you so insanely. How disgusting of that father. I hope he’s rotting.
Yeah that's tragic
I've heard this form almost every junkie like her before. It's usually a lie....
Kevin Toth how many “junkies” do you talk to?
But she let her son be raised buy them as well... She just continue the cycle instead of ending it. She could have at least given her child a chance and gave him to somebody else.
@@kevintoth5365 it's not usually a lie. There are si many people messed up from their parents and their parents are walking around with good lives. I'm living example. I'm seven years clean off heroin and other drugs.
It hurt me when she said “I was very lonely” at 1:18, no one should have to feel that way especially at that age and that’s absolutely terrible
Some people just aren't social butterfly's or don't get the opportunities to make friends (parents can't afford to put them in sports or programs). I remember in high school 2% of each grade would have people that just keep to themselves and rarely make friends. They are probably the ones that fall for online predators as they are desperate for friendship.
very sad to think about.
Absolutely Horrific. Next time you judge a “junkie” or homeless person think about the Horror they might have experienced in their life.
Edit: i’m pleasantly surprised by the kind and empathetic comments on this video.
You are what you hold yourself to...
If left amongst the waves do you choose to drown or swim?
Don't pitty the weak for their short comings...
This is what sin looks like, as if the devil has taken this soul...
Remember we were given free will...
Don't blame God for the folley of man...
There is no innocence in ignorance...
At what point along this long road is there not a fork given??
Perhaps Sarah Connor said it best, no fate but what you make...
Jonathan Rodriguez I agree completely
Bria Everywhere right. We need to continue to show stories like this.
Yeah a junkie just hit my son's new car 2 weeks after he just got it. Been saving up for 6 + months. He lost out on $1,000. Not to mention missing work etc. But that's okay right? Just glad he wasnt in it. She admitted to the cop she was doing 40 mph in a residential neighborhood. She also had bald tires no ticket or DUI charge or ticket. Poor junkie.
Juggernaut 333 I’m sorry your son went through that! I’m glad he’s okay! I’m definitely not justifying breaking the law or harming others by any means. Fucked up things happen, getting arrested would have been the best thing for her.
It’s so sad, that this well spoken, kind, woman has been so traumatised. What’s worse is that her appearance, voice, and addiction make the first impression overshadow her character. I truly hope that she finds help and happiness.
Wow a lot of sexual abuse stories. How could a father ruin their child’s life like that, so sad
most people that sexually abuse children dont realize that it will impact the rest of their life..esp back when she was a child, REGARDLESS I have no sympathy for sexual abusers, they’re spineless cowards ..so sad
Mothers ruin their children in the same way too
It really does break them mentally at a young age , they don't trust adults , they don't feel safe and to have that trauma and not know how to explain it , know "why" or feel like they can prevent it destroys a mind from the inside out.
It's so much more of a problem than we ever knew. God help us. I swear I'll never trust my son with anyone my goodness
Dont worry hes suffering in hell for every bit of second she suffers
I can barely understand her which is so upsetting because everyone has a story worth hearing...maybe you could add subtitles in the future? Those auto subtitles make no sense tbh.
I hope Andrea gets the help she needs. God bless.
I tried to add subtitles to a previous video, but the option doesn't show up so I'm not sure if the video poster has access to that particular option or not. Some videos you can, and some you can't.
They got rid of the background noise...seems some things she says are mumbled but that can't be translated to subtitles
Ni Nello agreed I think it’s important we hear what she has to say. I was really disappointed that there were no subtitles and the ones youtube provided made no sense!
Yes. My main language is not english and makes it so hard to understand😭
The Sea Angel my main language is English and I cannot understand her. Don’t worry, she sounds like she’s slurring and it’s super hard to understand her. Even when you put close caption on RUclips, it says words that don’t make sense
“If I get bit by bed bugs they die immediately” ....... imagine living like this....... so so so sad...........
Timestamp please my g
@@IIeGxAmazeDII 2:20
I agree, what can you say.... Somebody come up to me and say they hit rock bottom, than I going to show them this... I ts an outcry f..... King nuts that people have to stay outdoor in this condition....
@@IIeGxAmazeDII 2:25
I have to admit this part made me chuckle. Shes so proud. Very heartbreaking
This makes me hurt man… This makes me so grateful for my upbringing. My heart breaks for abuse victims. Thanks for sharing this humbling video.
anyone else just obssed with the photographs he makes
me!
Takes or captures. But not makes. Lol
He is a professional photographer and it shows. And while I respect the heck out of that, coming from a family that does/has won photography awards also, what really gets me is his HEART and SOUL and that he wants to show THAT in the people he interviews, as well. Props and respect all around on all sides of the lens. *
Hauntingly beautiful.
Yup
She has the makings of a comedian, she has such great humor in the mist of her darkness.. in her own sorrows she speaks with concern and makes you giggle a bit all in one! Beautiful soul, very respectful 🖤🖤🖤
Wow i had now idea marjoram could effect ppl in this way in high doses
Markel Dallas
You’re so right. 🙏🏽
She seems like such a lovely woman
@I DO NOT COMPLY with bullshit see idk what spice even is I'm just as clueless as you
I noticed a good sense of humor as well.
This is so damn sad. People have got to start realizing the way they treats their kids and babies affects them for the rest of their lives.
They dont care that is the point.
Sadly, negligence is incentivised. I see everyone having kids and immediately throwing up their hands and giving up. Meanwhile that same stimulus check goes to entertainment, drugs and alcohol 😵🤮🤢😱😙🤬🤬🤬
Amen
@@jondoe170 yes bc predators run this country. These breeders are the suppliers.
It is so often a cycle of generational trauma that is passed down from parent to child, unless someone has to will and opportunity to break the cycle, it just continues to repeat itself. Children without loving caring parents are at the mercy of a very cruel and indifferent system. Honestly there has to be a way to regulate who can bring a child into this world. God bless all the babies out there. It breaks my heart. :(
Spice is no joke. Bought what I thought was weed when I was a teenager. Never did any drug in my life up to that point. Smoked a whole lot of it over two sessions.
Next thing I know, I black out completely and it takes a month to gain back my lucidity and sense of reality.
I still don’t know what happened during that month, only that when I fully gained back my conscious thought, I was on suicide watch in a mental hospital for adolescences, not knowing how I got there.
yeah, I know people that were personally harmed by that stuff. glad the craze is mostly over. hurt a lot of people that would generally just be "potheads" or whatever. spice was also a very blanket term too. it could've been a list of numerous synthetic cannabinoids.
Her dad abused her but he’s raising her son LOOK INTO THIS someone
Indeed, immediately.
She said a grown son...
She said her patents divorced because of the abuse
We dont know this forsure. Drug addicts make stories up to have a reason for being a waste of space. We don't know.
She couldve meant a step father
This is the kick in the ass I needed to get into social work. These people need people. Badly. I’m so grateful & lucky to have been raised with a good foundation, not perfect but good. Children don’t get to choose, & this is what happens. This woman needs a lot of love & care. Nobody is too far gone
rlkmjh do it! I love being a social worker and I have grown so much...it’s rewarding but hard work...DO IT! It’s the best decision I have ever made
rlkmjh - good luck, I hope you do it. I’m sure they’d be eager for empathetic caring individuals like you to help make a difference.
💕🙏🏼
Please do . Heartbreaking
rlkmjh May God bless your work
Me too. ♥️ BSW student right now.
Imagine "living" like this for 20+ years. Makes me question is it cruel that the human body can be so resilient to keep going on when there's nothing but skin, bone, disease and pain. No doubt her courage and spark has also kept her alive. I pray that in her next life she has nothing but warmth, love and happiness. She's had enough suffering for eternity.
😭😭😭😭
Makes me wonder how old she is...don't remember if she said. BUT I bet she's not even that old and yeah it's a miracle she's still alive
Is it cruel to survive a tragedy?
Is life crude like raw flesh, is life willing to suffer and make suffer?
Sometimes.
But then to survive. And be rejected. Because it hurts the eyes.
That is part of the package.
It took me a minute to see that there was clarity in here.
She heald me you see.
Thank you.
Sorry if i started a little ruff.
I Had to think through it
It's exactly like my father told me when I was a young boy: "The body is strong but the mind is weak". It took me a long time to fully understand that message.
“Next life” 😂😂😂😂
So sad. She seems like a lovely person
I've had a horrible day and come home feeling sorry for myself; watching this video shows me how good I really got it. I bet shes never felt loved or had someone simply say you matter.
She said she was well loved by her mom but still had lonely childhood.
@John Doe You sound like a compassionate person /s
yeah perspective can be live saving or live sobering
Andrea is straight up honest and transparent. Bless her.
I've been a pothead for 20 years. I smoke all day every day. I took one single hit of spice one time and I decided right then I never ever ever ever ever ever wanna do that again. It's NOTHING like smoking marijuana. It made my head feel like it was going to literally explode. It was horrible. It blows my mind that people actually enjoy using it.
I thought that my heart was going to burst, never again. That was also after 20 years of smoking weed most days.
You know how people say: "if this helps just ONE person.." your comment did.
I'm also a pothead and I use to be addicted to k2. It is absolutely nothing like weed. For me it was almost like heroin. It made me nod out and I loved it. That's why I will never do it again and will just stick to this sticky icky
Ohhhh so you smoke it I clicked the video because I didn’t know what spice was
@@lennajanae9278 how tf do you smoke spice? That just sounds weird.
every parent should be forced to see a therapist before leaving the hospital with their baby
My heart breaks for this woman. She couldn't handle the life she was given and it's not her fault.
Spice Queen hahahaha
@@aarondaniele4141smh ur disgusting bro luckily u had a good life and didn’t have to go through any of this like a lot of ppl do 🤦🏾♂️
This is so sad. Sick what a “father” would do to a 6 year old daughter. She is so broken.
A special place in hell for monsters like him..
She is very smart and self aware. She makes a distinction between her sober life and her life under the influence. Her straightforwardness is refreshing. She lives In her truth and is surviving to the best of her ability. I wish I could erase these folks pain and bad memories. Carrying these emotional burdens must be exhausting. God bless her.
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She's definitely smart. I agree.
I didn't know there was a drug called spice, and I clicked on this thinking it was someone that loved oregano too much or something. 😳
Your content is so good. You are bringing awareness to what it's truly like to be underprivileged in our society. I have much appreciation and respect for what you're doing. Everyone needs to watch.
5 seconds into this interview with Andrea and she said 2 words into her narration and knew this would be a tragic and a heartbreaking story ..... totally shocked and saddened.
This is utterly heartbreaking... the people who were supposed to love her and care for her unconditionally destroyed her life
I once knew a Vietnam vet (door gunner) that had the same wild mannerisms as this woman. He was the most genuine and kindest soul I've ever known. Don't judge a book by it's cover. Rest in peace Terry Smith.
Fuck he probably got hooked over there in a foxhole, Vietnam was America’s worst moment our boys died for nothing
@@joshbowers1898 hey man, not just our boys. We killed quite a few people that shouldn’t have been killed as well.
Probably took drugs too tbf.
Huge drugs pandemic among US troops in vietnam. They say 34% of all us soldiers took heroin alone
SMOKIN ON THAT MSITH POACK!!!!!
What a lovely woman. I hope for recovery from her pain. Love to you kind lady x
I tried spice at a party, on accident, one time and it was so damn scary. I had a seizure 99% sure… was so bad. Since then I’ve never been the same. Been spacey, depressed, anxious, and developed ticks almost like turrets. Never smoke if you don’t know what it is. It was 5 months ago now and I still regret it every day. It still affects me every day
5 months ago? That's what you get for going to a party during quarantine 💀
@@deeznuts-zq4jv lmao yeah terrible idea. Wish I didn’t, can’t change it now. :/
deez nuts I hope that was just a bad attempt at a joke. No one deserves that.
@@deeznuts-zq4jv i was gonna say that lmfao
It sent me to hospital. I still remember the fear before I went blacked out.
"I like to read my bible"
ok i think im gonna take a break from these videos. This one really hurts.
im miss young Truly hurts my heart. She deserves an out.
There are many that stab me in the heart. I hope it softens the hearts of some ppl and makes ppl really take a hard look at how blessed most of us are and how we take for granted everyday just how amazing we have it. The trauma most of these ppl have been through is ultimately why they are where there at. It's a coping mechanism, a way to numb the pain. God bless...❤
@David Watson Maybe he'll give it to them, or maybe they'll get off the shit. Which ever comes first, I guess.😐
These videos definitely can’t be watched close together. I hurt for days with some of these stories. :(
I knew a homeless guy who used to hit spice then sing kid friendly bible rap it was the craziest thing ever!!
Has anyone ever loved her? How can anyone abuse a person so horribly that this is the end result?
Michelle Griffin I am actually disturbed that her parents raised her son.
They will burn in Hell,WITH thee rest!! F ng🐖🐷🐽🐷🐖🐷🐖🐷🐖
Michelle Griffin right.. how can you bring someone into this world and treat them this way 😔
HtownItGirlJess How was this even allowed.. She’s fucked up because of her family. How could they possibly get custody of a grandchild when THEY fucked up their own daughter?
If you don’t know how this is a result you’ve never seen someone on spice
Binge listening when I’m working. Love the content man! Subscribed! 👍
This totally breaks my heart. She’s sweet and utterly honest! May God spare her any pain and allow her to recover!! In Jesus name 🙏
Unfortunately mama u need the pain when recovering to deter u from ever doing that to urself again
I was 16-19 in 2010-2013 in East Tennessee where I would smoke Spice daily and use Kratom. I would smoke 3 grams of spice daily for 3 years. It costed exactly 20$ for 3grams of spice but it also depends on type of spice. 20$ for 3grams of Warped, Mindwarped, Chillax, and 20$ for 1 gram of Crazy Camel, Bubonic Chronic, white widow, you had stuff like UpallWeekend, Green Buddha(Made with eucalyptus) Mr.Nice Guy, Flame Strawberry Fields. When it came down to it the fact is it’s bark sprayed with chemicals. Everyday was a different spice and they’d make it illegal to sell and bam next week the same brand is back with a different chemical sprayed on it. I’m not going to lie I loved spice and I had a lot of fun. I miss the taste and smell but it’s absolutely harmful to your health. I wouldn’t smoke it again, I don’t even smoke weed now. The only time I OD on spice was on Mr.Nice Guy which is one I had smoke a million times before and bam all of a sudden I couldn’t walk without Boeing my legs and tilting left or right. My speech and mind were completely fine in every sense, but my body just didn’t work right anymore.
god isn't real.
No. War on drugs will fix the problem
@@thirdrayle the war on drugs has been happening for decades and it's only made things worse. idk if you're trolling or ignorant but either way that statement is dead wrong.
Andrea is a good example of the people that we really need to take care of in our community. She is still our neighbour. Please donate to your local shelter.
I know who we need to take care of and not in the literal sense.. that is child molesters. They all need to be put on death row, no second chances
@@chinadashauthority65 my father was a child molester he molested my sister… a few months before he died he revealed to me he was forced to perform oral sex on his uncle when he was a little boy…
I’m not defending his actions. Just trying to show you that humans aren’t monsters. They are people just like you and me, and that’s what is scary and sad. He was once an inncocent child just like my sister was and I was and you were… till some one took that from him.
It’s easy to say kill all molestors, but realistically there’s more to it than that. Common sense and humility will show, life is complex and cannot be summarized in simple thoughts and ideas
So sad to think she was just a little girl at one stage and not knowing she was going to end up living a life like this, prayers to you❤️ I’m sorry life treated you this way 😥
Gotta hold herself accountable for her own actions. Only herself to blame for ending up like this. Survival of the fittest . natural selection etc. Everyone goes through shit. I had about as tramtic childhood as you can imagine. But I turned out just fine. You can't go on living the life she has and always blame you're upbringing. Another sign of weakness. I know it sounds like im being a Dick, I have compasasion for anyone struggling but if they haven't even tried to better themselves I got pity for em
@@epicpika11 yeah you do sound like a dick. Such a cliche to say i went through shit and i turned out fine so its their fault they turned out like shit. Addiction is a disease you just got lucky you didnt have it or didnt have it as bad as this poor woman. Hopefully one day youll grow up but im not counting my chickens.
@@epicpika11 sadly that's the cold hard truth,she is her own worst enemy.
@@epicpika11some people aren’t aware of accountability so I still feel bad wish these things were taught in school even though they should’nt have to be
Yeah it's mad to think everyone starts out as a baby and then the world does it'd bit.
my dumbass thought she was actually just addicted to spices like curry
How tf was spice legal while weed isn’t. Jesus Christ, I feel for her.
The game was rigged from the start...
ReelableJupiter spice isn’t meant to be smoked . In a smell-good product basically when y burn it , it’s a nice smelling aroma.
@@kialili4350 yeah, thats defenitely what it was made for.
spice, k2, diablo, those are all research chemicals, once one is banned they just tweak the chemical structure of the compound and they're back in the game, until that cerntain one is banned too. the spice from 3 years ago is not that same chemicals of today. it changes constantly.
@@kialili4350 that's just what it's marketed as now. It used to be sold as synthetic weed, but they changed it so they wouldn't have to deal with the backlash. It's really a crazy sad story that this stuff is even legal.
How anybody could do anything to hurt their children is just unreal to me. If you can't put them ahead of yourself you don't deserve them. This woman had her life ruined before she had a chance, so sad to see.
But then she abandoned her kids....making her a piece of shit too
@@honeybadgeroutdoors6345 that's easy to say but how can you love someone else when you don't even love yourself.
@@ericbourgoin1212 it's called being a parent...you think all patents love themselves lol if she was able to have sex and have a kid she can raise it...but she didn't becsuse she's garbage
HoneyBadger Outdoors u think this person u can barely understand is fit to raise a kid? get your head out of your ass
@jcr912 Very well said. I have children, and I have often thought "nobody deserves their children." Children are so innocent & ready to love. It is so awful that so many of them experience so much pain....
The more I watch these interviews the more my eyes are open to how cruel the world can be. I’m blessed in so many ways. Thank you Mark!
💔💔💔💔💔 Wonder how she is doing. She deserves a good life.
“When the bedbugs bite me when I’m on spice, they die immediately.”
I believe it
I guess spice is like human flee medicine
I loved that line. Even after all life has thrown at her, she still has a dead pan sense of humor.
If that’s true, then that’s something. Nothing kills those fuckers.
@@crazeekids9744 HEAT
She is articulate and tells her story without self-pity, blame or hatred - I admire that. I can only wonder what her life would have been without the abuse. As a survivor, I know the soul-crushing effect of sexual abuse. I am always ashamed of my body. I avoid displays of affection. I dress to hide and avoid attention. I avoid anything sexual - touch, display or allusions to sex. My husband still gets a hurt look in his eyes when I move away from a loving or playful touch to the breast or bottom. Harm as a child left me with a lifetime tattoo of pain and shame. I've tried counseling, to love myself, to trust men, and to not be angry at my mother for not preventing it then dismissing it when I was brave enough to share. I can't make it go away or "come to terms" - it affects every fiber of my life. I didn't snuggle or hug my children - telling them you love them isn't the same as demonstrating that love.
Andrea, if you're reading this, thank you for sharing your story and truth. I wish you peace. Please know there are people who understand the pain can be overwhelming at times.
I hear you. I've lived the same story. I'm a product of sexual abuse. My abuser died in 2004. And I've severed my relationship with my mom because of her denial of what I experienced. I've had years of therapy but it didn't 'fix' me at all. Thank God I didn't turn into an abuser myself. Abuse ends here.
@@1purplerose I have recently started Accelerated Resolution Therapy (ART) with my therapist to treat my PTSD. Have you heard of it?
Here's a link:
www.goodtherapy.org/blog/accelerated-resolution-therapy-art-quick-fix-for-ptsd-0301175
CS Torres wow everything u said I can so relate too
for some of us its the story of our lives. this women was sexually abused. me i was shook as a baby and now have brain damage from it. and the only way to cope is by smoking pot. and taking benzos. with my prozac. thanks to my father. so i can relate somewhat to abuse.
I hope you one day find peace, the love of Christ preserve you, and I certainly pray your husband can see ever more clearly your struggle.
How can you look at this person and not see addiction is a medical illness.
It is
It’s not
@@natekelly9729 Hi Nate ...... I'm not trying to troll you or anything, I'd really like to try and understand your point of view. If I understand your response correctly, you don't believe that addiction is a mental illness, is that right? If so, then how do you view addiction? Thanks for your time
Chris Sirhc I view addiction as a choice, as I’ve struggled with it myself. Chronic illnesses are a result of that choice, like low seratonin, toxins in the blood etc. Her body is deteriorating and not because of addiction, but because of the things that she puts in her body. All in all sickness is a byproduct of addiction, put plain and simple addiction is chemical dependency and nothing more.
Nate Kelly it is but it is not always a choice. I got started by trusting my doctor. He prescribed me 40mg OxyContin twice a day at age 17 for back to back shoulder surgeries. He kept me on thhem for 6 months then cut me off out of nowhere. I didn’t understand why I was so sick when I stopped taking them. I had to buy them off the street and it was a downfall from there. Not all addictions are by choice
If was to ever cross paths/meet this woman I would let her know she is loved and do absolutely everything in my power to make her believe it and do anything I could to help her, except help her drug addiction.