I hav suffered for a long long time, I did everything I could to not suffer anymore , I was looking for something, for the past 6 months I committed myself to do what ever it takes not suffer any longer…. I ate one meal a day , steak and eggs , only drank water, was celibate, mediated for an hour and a half a day, took a 3 hour walk everyday and continually bring my focus from the mind back to the present moment , I did everything I possibly could to suffer less each day . , I was exhausted wondering why I wasn’t getting the results I broke down and cry for days and my friend told me “ you are the eye of the hurricane Remember who you are!” That saying clicked, triggered my awakening , I saw everything for what it was , I saw thoughts they where external from me. I stayed in this felt presence for twos days and then the mind or conditioning came back,, after that awaking , I knew I wasn’t the thoughts , and I found u on RUclips lol it has felt like an onion layer has fell off. Things are different
Awesome man.... stay tuned this rabbit hole goes deep... but this underlying peace you know now is imperturbable. It will show itself in myriad ways and clarify naturally :) Thanks for stopping by.
Even tho I had that identity shift , I still at moments identify as the mind and the mind still occupy thoughts of suffering, I see it clearly but my reaction is different, it’s like everything is ok reaction and these thoughts need to pass through system…I’m definitely curious bout the underlying peace but I bought your book and Eye am making this awaking my main focus
The paradox is crazy! There's no event to be had, but every moment of awareness is an event. Not sure if that's a good description. The place is silent and still. Sound just is.... motion just is..... but life is contained in this moment.... In this place. ☺
You make it sound so simple, so natural. Yet my thoughts are seeking even though I know I should just be being. For me when I go out early in the morning to greet the day I feel the happening and as I stated before I am in complete calm , little to no thoughts. But it’s short lived when I return to duties. I would love to have that same since of wonder in the duties. I love the oneness,I simply melt into the happening and feel a child like sense of awe and then the smile appears without “me” really knowing it until I return to the thoughts. Please keep these videos coming, they make me feel closer to awakening. ❤️
Ahh the confusion. Finished the book and the Dr Z series , all of them.. the confusion, disorientation, lostness was unexpected… thought I might be in for too much… slowed down after about a week… much better now and things seem to have simplified… 🙏🏽🪶 back at it !!
Dear Angelo, Thank you for putting out all the recent videos. They complement the book so well. On to my frustrations..... I get what you are saying. I drop into the moment. I feel the hell out of body sensations (mostly labeled as anxiety or sadness or anger). I look and see no self. Everything is a construct except now. I see the visual thoughts and hear the auditory ones. I don't experience the in-between thoughts. I inquire. It's still all very conceptual and not experiential. It's probably always referencing thoughts that I can't even see. How do I pick apart the layers of thought and conditioning? Where do I look? The identity is so strong and the seeking doesn't stop. I don't understand. No movement to nonconceptual. Caryn
For you it feels to me like concluding there is no self is still a thought/belief/impression. Perhaps rest in the sense of “I” or “I Am”. If you don’t know what that is, it’s what is reading this right now, it’s who all of that stuff you wrote is happening to. The sense of you/your being. You can keel returning to that until it’s crystal clear that there is just that! All thoughts that appear are referring back to that. Affirming it so to speak. So one can learn to rest fully in and as I Am.
Had mine in the 80's, then had no idea of spirituality, total unbelievable suprise, "I" gone but still here somehow, no need to survive, mind did not know what to say! Still trying to catch up! But you mention many understandings I did not get.
I feel like its like taking layers of clothing off. Each piece of clothing I take off reveals a new me, then another layer comes off and again there is a different me. Until there are no more layers left.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I find it hard being in the world with minimal layers, I am here, there and everywhere but nowhere. Endlessly fluxing is spot on, I like that. Then what?
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I guess that is another layer I need to set free into the ether- the I feel the need to be chasing something layer. Thank you Angelo.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake in one of your video you said we have to start with single poiter(begginer)of body sensations and all other sesnses will subside you were about a sound pointer in that video.. during the day it's a struggle for me to focus unlike when I'm on my own space calmer and observing ( still a struggle but I observe that though)..
@@puseletsofiona1329 well if you’ve had a clear awakening in the past then it can be helpful to work in this way to clarify the non-dual nature of the physical world. If no shift yet I’d recommend working more on the awakening approaches playlist, using self inquiry or one pointed approach
Nothing specific , that’s quite common once identity starts to disentangle from thought constructs. Just recognize it as a passing experience with no specific meaning.
Sometimes I say that the seeker is like a person walking around with a carrot dangling at the end of their own stick chasing their own carrot. Good thing there is no one that is happening to or it could be tragic 🙃
Great as always. It's not special. I try to tell people that some things they call special are not . And the more they call them so the more they distance themselves from them. How can one human be more special than another??
Non-conceptual. Therein lies the rub. A "seeker" all my adult life, The Gita, western christian mystics, Buddhism, Daoism, Zen then finally Advaita Vedanta. I got it conceptually. Then in my 61st year a seemingly small observation of a transitory event in my garden opened the door. There was no intent on my part right at that moment. It was like an accident, like a stumble on a sidewalk. Maybe the seeking had laid the groundwork, I don't know. The path of knowledge and concepts can lead you to the door, but it seems that, like the Isle of Avalon, you can't find it if you look for it in that way. I rarely talk about it with people I know because I'm aware you can't take people with you all the way to where I find myself (crazy because it's right here and totally ordinary) I love hearing you talk about it but they're just words right? As soon as you've had an idea, you've missed the point.
The words point past the conceptual mind which of course can never get “this.” The pointing can have an effect , just like good inquiry can. Your case is not uncommon, though most of the people i know who have woken up did so through sone sort of inquiry. Of course it’s when inquiry fails to find what you are looking for that reality hits you over the head but the looking appears to be valuable. Basically you have to be prepared to live in a works of paradox bc this is all so paradoxical, and gets more so as insights deepen :). Thanks for your comments.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Angelo, thanks so much for giving the time to respond. Let me elucidate a little. Having arrived at a conceptual grasping that there was no room for a "person" here, the obvious question arose "Why the fuck does it feel like there's a person here?" I work at a school and I started, as a practice, to look at all these growing minds as the same light through different windows. During meditation and not during meditation my attention returned constantly to the question of where the "I" came in. When eventually the realisation happened, I "saw" how all phenomena merely arise from emptiness and go back into emptiness. End of questions. Paradox, yes. I think of it as "dream logic".
I hav suffered for a long long time, I did everything I could to not suffer anymore , I was looking for something, for the past 6 months I committed myself to do what ever it takes not suffer any longer…. I ate one meal a day , steak and eggs , only drank water, was celibate, mediated for an hour and a half a day, took a 3 hour walk everyday and continually bring my focus from the mind back to the present moment , I did everything I possibly could to suffer less each day . , I was exhausted wondering why I wasn’t getting the results I broke down and cry for days and my friend told me “ you are the eye of the hurricane Remember who you are!” That saying clicked, triggered my awakening , I saw everything for what it was , I saw thoughts they where external from me. I stayed in this felt presence for twos days and then the mind or conditioning came back,, after that awaking , I knew I wasn’t the thoughts , and I found u on RUclips lol it has felt like an onion layer has fell off. Things are different
Awesome man.... stay tuned this rabbit hole goes deep... but this underlying peace you know now is imperturbable. It will show itself in myriad ways and clarify naturally :) Thanks for stopping by.
Even tho I had that identity shift , I still at moments identify as the mind and the mind still occupy thoughts of suffering, I see it clearly but my reaction is different, it’s like everything is ok reaction and these thoughts need to pass through system…I’m definitely curious bout the underlying peace but I bought your book and Eye am making this awaking my main focus
@@mattbuchanan6729 how's things now?
The paradox is crazy! There's no event to be had, but every moment of awareness is an event. Not sure if that's a good description. The place is silent and still. Sound just is.... motion just is..... but life is contained in this moment.... In this place. ☺
Well said
You make it sound so simple, so natural. Yet my thoughts are seeking even though I know I should just be being. For me when I go out early in the morning to greet the day I feel the happening and as I stated before I am in complete calm , little to no thoughts. But it’s short lived when I return to duties. I would love to have that same since of wonder in the duties. I love the oneness,I simply melt into the happening and feel a child like sense of awe and then the smile appears without “me” really knowing it until I return to the thoughts. Please keep these videos coming, they make me feel closer to awakening. ❤️
It sounds like you are in good territory ! :)
That background smoke swirl is so cool that I have trouble paying attention to your words. I may have to watch this a few times.
☺️… I decided this playlist will use this and similar backgrounds
Enjoyed that thanks. Not much of a sales job on awakening though!
Angelo, I really love those groovy backgrounds in these early videos!
This is so good. I will listen to these pointings several times.
That's exactly what I do! Listen over and over
Ahh the confusion. Finished the book and the Dr Z series , all of them.. the confusion, disorientation, lostness was unexpected… thought I might be in for too much… slowed down after about a week… much better now and things seem to have simplified… 🙏🏽🪶 back at it !!
Awesome ☺️
Dear Angelo,
Thank you for putting out all the recent videos. They complement the book so well.
On to my frustrations..... I get what you are saying. I drop into the moment. I feel the hell out of body sensations (mostly labeled as anxiety or sadness or anger). I look and see no self. Everything is a construct except now. I see the visual thoughts and hear the auditory ones. I don't experience the in-between thoughts. I inquire. It's still all very conceptual and not experiential. It's probably always referencing thoughts that I can't even see. How do I pick apart the layers of thought and conditioning? Where do I look? The identity is so strong and the seeking doesn't stop. I don't understand. No movement to nonconceptual.
Caryn
For you it feels to me like concluding there is no self is still a thought/belief/impression. Perhaps rest in the sense of “I” or “I Am”. If you don’t know what that is, it’s what is reading this right now, it’s who all of that stuff you wrote is happening to. The sense of you/your being. You can keel returning to that until it’s crystal clear that there is just that! All thoughts that appear are referring back to that. Affirming it so to speak. So one can learn to rest fully in and as I Am.
Man I look forward to your releases! Thanks for uploading so often.
Welcome!
Briliant ,,,astoneshing.,,You sayded all everytime
Had mine in the 80's, then had no idea of spirituality, total unbelievable suprise, "I" gone but still here somehow, no need to survive, mind did not know what to say! Still trying to catch up! But you mention many understandings I did not get.
Thanks for sharing.
I feel it!
Thank you,following you 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing the "surprises" - glad number 4 just came to you- it was helpful :)
Welcome
I feel like its like taking layers of clothing off. Each piece of clothing I take off reveals a new me, then another layer comes off and again there is a different me. Until there are no more layers left.
Well said! And the less you there is the more “everything” there is, endlessly fluxing
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I find it hard being in the world with minimal layers, I am here, there and everywhere but nowhere. Endlessly fluxing is spot on, I like that. Then what?
@@Kim-sherie Just this. I can’t find a future moment so then am freed to fully inhabit this one :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I guess that is another layer I need to set free into the ether- the I feel the need to be chasing something layer. Thank you Angelo.
Thanks, great video. Could you make one about false awakenings or pseudo-nirvana. Thank you
I’ve considered it. Don’t want to be offensive to anyone. Tricky to talk about that. We will see
So, there is nothing to be done ... just be .... everything is done by itself .... right?
I try not to endorse any statement as universally true 😂
Perfect👍, everything is possible😉
@@birgit8996 Indeed!
Hi Engelo..which pointer do you recommend for someone who is struggling with breathing and body sensation pointer.
"Exploring sensations" or "non duality moving into the senses"
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake in one of your video you said we have to start with single poiter(begginer)of body sensations and all other sesnses will subside you were about a sound pointer in that video.. during the day it's a struggle for me to focus unlike when I'm on my own space calmer and observing ( still a struggle but I observe that though)..
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I'm just not sure if whether is exploring sensation or non duality
@@puseletsofiona1329 well if you’ve had a clear awakening in the past then it can be helpful to work in this way to clarify the non-dual nature of the physical world. If no shift yet I’d recommend working more on the awakening approaches playlist, using self inquiry or one pointed approach
@@puseletsofiona1329 in the day time you might try it in the visual field
I've been experiencing phenomena during meditation sessions. Its gotten spooky at times. Any recommendations?
Nothing specific , that’s quite common once identity starts to disentangle from thought constructs. Just recognize it as a passing experience with no specific meaning.
The seeker wanted that spiritual trophy. After all he's spiritual guy, he needs his badge
Sometimes I say that the seeker is like a person walking around with a carrot dangling at the end of their own stick chasing their own carrot. Good thing there is no one that is happening to or it could be tragic 🙃
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake that's golden!
🧡🌊🧡
Great as always. It's not special. I try to tell people that some things they call special are not . And the more they call them so the more they distance themselves from them. How can one human be more special than another??
Indeed!
Non-conceptual. Therein lies the rub. A "seeker" all my adult life, The Gita, western christian mystics, Buddhism, Daoism, Zen then finally Advaita Vedanta. I got it conceptually. Then in my 61st year a seemingly small observation of a transitory event in my garden opened the door. There was no intent on my part right at that moment. It was like an accident, like a stumble on a sidewalk. Maybe the seeking had laid the groundwork, I don't know. The path of knowledge and concepts can lead you to the door, but it seems that, like the Isle of Avalon, you can't find it if you look for it in that way. I rarely talk about it with people I know because I'm aware you can't take people with you all the way to where I find myself (crazy because it's right here and totally ordinary) I love hearing you talk about it but they're just words right? As soon as you've had an idea, you've missed the point.
The words point past the conceptual mind which of course can never get “this.” The pointing can have an effect , just like good inquiry can. Your case is not uncommon, though most of the people i know who have woken up did so through sone sort of inquiry. Of course it’s when inquiry fails to find what you are looking for that reality hits you over the head but the looking appears to be valuable. Basically you have to be prepared to live in a works of paradox bc this is all so paradoxical, and gets more so as insights deepen :). Thanks for your comments.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Angelo, thanks so much for giving the time to respond. Let me elucidate a little. Having arrived at a conceptual grasping that there was no room for a "person" here, the obvious question arose "Why the fuck does it feel like there's a person here?" I work at a school and I started, as a practice, to look at all these growing minds as the same light through different windows. During meditation and not during meditation my attention returned constantly to the question of where the "I" came in. When eventually the realisation happened, I "saw" how all phenomena merely arise from emptiness and go back into emptiness. End of questions. Paradox, yes. I think of it as "dream logic".
@@SurrealMcCoy beautiful insight. What a great method of inquiry.