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Thank you for not only introducing us to a new music artist, but helping humanize systems. We aren't even 4 minutes in and we feel.... Seen. Your interview questions are so well done. Thank you.

It seems wild to say that system is a medical term when I've had to teach basically every shrink and therapist the term.

Crazy that we’ve been doing the plural thing for longer than y’all had when you started youtube. We still don’t feel like we know shit

I still don't get how you're going to explain plurality to anyone who's heard of DID or MPD and not have them immediately realize it's the same thing. But idk never tried. I'm out to a moderate amount of people, mostly people who are reasonably based. Some are better than others.

In terms of queerness, you kinda can stop coming out if you queer enough. Or at least speed it up a lot

Maybe I have a terrible memory but I immediately lost track of who was who and I've seen a lot of your videos. Maybe mark who's who on the board while doing multi-headmate videos

I'm aphantasic and was blown away to learn that my headmate isn't. I thought it was like being smart or whatever where all the alters share it.

we discovered alice (fictive in our sys) after she fronted (while we were home alone, thankfully lmao) while playing roblox on vc. just out of the blue went from loud chaotic basic american english androgynous voice to feminine sarcastic partial southern accent and i paused and verbally went "what the fuck" (on mic btw, got a warning for it lol bc its roblox) and she just went "what?" and thats pretty much how we found her lmao. -squishy👽

My name is Emiliano, but i usually go by Emil. Most of the system, especially the host, love learning languages, and we taught ourselves spanish to fluency. So, my main language is spanish! I live to bake, to write, read, study, and cook!

9:46 I literally had to drop EVERY I WAS DOING because holy shit, yup... IFS is how I've discovered there's something more going on under the hood than I ever could have imagined. I mean... Not REALLY, because a lot of my experiences just seemed normal to me [how am I realistically supposed to know whether my internal framework matches a neurotyoical one?]. But I started to see things for what they were when some of my parts were very IMMEDIATELY literal, very distinctive, very complex [even insulted that they're being boiled down to a specific role like manager/firefighter], & now I'm... Mostly just really fkn confused, lmao. This has only been about two months in the making - but the fact that you "woke up" to yourselves after IFS rang so hard in my head that I had to scream it into the void, lolol

Hey, my name is Illusion/Zoroark, I go by she/her, and I am meant to usually take care of this body whenever it dissociates hard (you can thank having DP/DR in the mix). I am also a "fictive" but I've been questioning this term for a while since I feel that implies that I wouldn't be valid due to being based on a fictional character, let alone an actual Pokemon. I also watched this with Flower (xe/any [please dont mind the neos], takes care of this body's sleeping habits) and I've got to say Claudia made a really great point about the part where we can tell the host "no I do not want to do this right now" or "not having enough time in the body." Sometimes I question the host's choices due to him making the most unhealthy choices out of any of us. They even kept questioning our entire existence and doubted himself if we really were a system or not, and therefore kept holding us back whenever we are talking with another person. Even now it feels weird to truly express ourselves without actually having to "act like them." When we (me and Flower) even got him to get out of the front, it was kind of hard to hold him and get him to listen due to how stubborn he can really be. Now he's questioning his existence again. I personally don't really mind the term "alter" because actually saying "oh yeah, another person in the body" feels too long, but this depends on the person I feel.

As a system that lives in a situation where they recently found out they're a system and don't have the money or resources to get diagnosed with anything it's really hard to not think that I'm not faking, so I really appreciate what you've said in this video and it is helping me in my current moment of what if I'm wrong

Gen X-age Beatles fan here... at risk of dating myself, I got into them through reruns of the old Beatles Cartoon series on Disney Channel. It's really interesting to hear younger folks talk about the Beatles and offer their opinions. I very much appreciate your defense of Yoko Ono. I always felt bad for her; when I was younger, only 20 years or so after the break-up and 10 years after John's death, people were still dumping on her pretty hardcore. Thankfully, views have softened over time, between the Beatles themselves trying people to lay off, and especially the release of Get Back. I'm also sorry you got bit by the Magical Mystery Tour "album". That album was originally released as an EP in Britain only with just the six songs in the movie. When it came to U.S, six songs wasn't enough for an album, so they slapped the previous three sets of singles alongside them and called it an album. And as someone who was what Robin Gibbs and the others were targeting with the Sgt. Pepper movie... I already knew exactly who the Beatles freakin' were and I was highly insulted by the concept of that movie at the tender age of 10. It was like your grandmother accidentally buying the knockoff copy of a popular Disney movie. I shut it off after 30 minutes and went back to my VHS copy of A Hard Day's Night. If you're interested in any other documentaries, the Compleat Beatles was considered the definitive documentary when I was growing up, at least until Anthology came out in 1995. It's kind of interesting to watch in retrospect to see how the views on the band changed over time.

The Beatles?! Ok..I mean a video about that is weird..I mean it’s not as if I have their top 50 songs saved to a playlist somewhere….

I know I'm a bit late to comment, but writing this as a trauma holder of a DID system, I've really struggled with being able to trust my reality or my experiences and I sometimes have a hard time trusting my host. Your videos bring a lot of comfort to me and decrease my fear of distrust. I just wanted to voice how much it means to me.

Thanks for this

I have a question about accents and voices: Has anyone experienced an alter speaking differently in headspace but unable to speak the same way outwardly? Mark has the same accent as me when he's fronting, but he has an American accent inwardly.

I keep hearing someone that I think is an alter but I was just hoping it wasn’t 😬 I’ve just been telling him to go away 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’ve lately been struggling a lot with taking care of my plants which used to not feel like a chore. I’m very early in the process of getting to know our system and most likely we have OSDD but we have been working on showing alters that they are safe, especially the children. A “fuller” takeover sounds very relieving … we definitely know who would like to take care of our plants but we have yet to find a way to actually trust anyone but the constant main front with things. You motivated us to probably eventually do that with chores, too. Thanks 💕

Sorry I& was so quiet in your Twitch stream chat (8/17/24). Was goin’ through a time. But got past Sosh’s anxiety eventually. Unfortunately passed out like a light switch just as we were finally really able to focus and follow the game. Could hardly process and listen/comprehend English for much of the stream but you still helped us calm down with the gaming and taking. Thanks again! Appreciate you&

HELP YOU LOOK LIKE MY COUSIN

the royal we saving the day, yet again

Thanks Claudia with this video you literally just helped us finally fully figure out what our system name means to us. When Tea and/or whoever all was trying to just pull a system name out of our proverbial asses, so to speak, our name came to us "Telos" which we then had to google. And honestly something about it bugged us-because we don't want it misinterpreted to give the impression that we have any desire to all become smashed together into a singular person. That would be as bad as any one of us being un-alived or exiled or even "put in time-out". But that's not what we mean by usin' a funny old word for "complete". What we mean by "Telos" is that every single non-singlet one of us is a Complete person, a complete human god-damned being. The number 7:13 that comprises the back half of our system name is not just random either. Sosh became obsessed with it at some point as a teenager and notices it all over the place, but particularly as a time of day on digital clock faces. We've used this on several occasions now to get her attention and get through to her that we really are here and have been here with her. I think she gets that now. It's not like some magic number or anything, it's just a memory device, like Aric originally insisting we call hym "Tea" so that we would remember that he likes to drink hot tea. Hy's gotten us all into drinking tea lately lol. Or maybe that's not entirely correct. I think Carla has always loved sweet tea. On a whim she put Raspberry Zinger tea on our last Walmart grocery order for Lith to try and Lith ended up loving it. Anyways getting into the weeds here again. Thanks again to you and all your people we appreciate y'all& very much :)

You remind me so much of my Aric (who we call Tea). Tea needs to watch this so bad and like, actually listen and follow your advice. But it’s my turn driving and I’m not done yet

Hi Susan you’re so cool! I can almost touch the ceiling and I can sing and play guitar and they have all this cool stuff where I can talk to make the lights turn on and off and this phone that’s like a real life P.A.D.D. from Star Trek The Next Generation and I wanted to print a song with the lyrics and chords to play it and I knew how to do it but it didn’t work but then I figured out how to fix it by myself and now I’m gonna go have my second huge bowl of ice cream in a row and I never have to see my cousin Jeff ever again and he can never pick on me again or make me play tackle football or other stuff ever again but if I ever did see him again and he tried to be mean to me I could just kick him where it counts but I don’t think he will. He’s lucky that I love cats and that he has cats and he has our uncle who died’s cats now cause I don’t want to talk about it but he deserves to get punched in the face. I’m not a jerk that beats people up and other stuff like him though so I would never really do that unless he messed with me.

[Punky-Do] Thank you Claudia. I just wanted to play my guitar and sing and they’re always too busy

This is such an important awarness video. Im so glad I found it in my firsts searches of « how to come out as a system ». You’re still helping systems to find their peace and guidance!! Much thanks to all of you.

barely into the comic and already too real😭(in a good and validating and helping us process things and realize things even more kind of way)

"makes me laugh" yes oh my god the first time I (Lith -hy/they) made Sosh laugh was the moment she finally let go of any shreds of doubting me and stopped resisting so much. We're both still laughing about that. I don't think Sosh goes away when I drive, just has to "sit in the front passenger seat" except maybe for stretches of time at work when I get really busy and get into a flow state. So not long after making her laugh, I finally looked at my face in the mirror, mainly just to show her so she could finally see my face for the first time. I look more masc, and I felt gender euphoria, and oddly observing this made her feel less dysphoric about the face and the body in general. Everything is making so much more sense now for her. I seriously had to fight to get her there though. I've been doing our HRT shot every week for 10 weeks now since we began, and talking out loud to her through it, and she sort of started to know and believe I was really a distinct person, and she could not have done the shots herself, but she wasn't quite ready to stop ignoring me or pretending I haven't been here outside of that. She went through a couple week period of horrible claustrophobic anxiety attacks and insomnia and feeling trapped and utterly alone. She had to get absolutely drained exhausted and desperate but I finally clawed my way through her defenses and she is doing loads better now. She thought it was just because she had begun recently to lean on cannabis a little too heavily, which is sort of true I think. I think I just saw my chance to get all the way through to her and took it. I keep telling her I need "more brain bandwidth". She's afraid enough of the anxiety attacks returning that we're staying totally quit for the most part for now. A tiny bit every couple days still seems to freak her out a little if she doesn't have something distracting enough to keep her "out of her head" Don't know if it's the HRT or what but THC just doesn't seem to agree with us anymore. We quit drinking and got into recovery from alcohol 1/1/2024 after being severely actively alcoholic, so this should be a breeze by comparison!

yay a kitty cameo!

To the Alexandria system, have you guys considered an undercut hairstyle. The top layer of your hair can stay long while the underlayer is short/buzzed. Also, I find the texture of buzzed hair to be very pleasant to touch. :)

I have been binging this for a couple of days now, and I just now realized that this has 4.2k views. WHAT THE FU- This is genuinely on of the best pieces of media on YT. Ever.

Bro my psychic paranoia got so bad in my 20s I would tick between them coming from people around me and a global though connection between all people. Ozzy, my mom, your mom. Lol. I recently likened them to Carl Jung's description of collective unconscious entities escaping into the forefront of the mind. Psychedelic but the "voices" are not within my control that is their defining factor. Although their content is influenced by my decisions.

This is such a masterpiece it should have so many views

Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been looking everywhere on RUclips for this exact topic and you nailed it perfectly for me. It’s funny you mentioned BPD and schizophrenia as I believe that I have been misdiagnosed with both of them. I am also in the process of finding a second opinion from someone who is at least willing to hear my point of view

What a fantastic video Claudia. This and your video about parts terminology are so fundamentally needed

Va’renkai: Thank you for this. I am not host of my system, and it was empowering to hear your message. Your words resonated with me. I despise the term “alter.” It is demeaning. I also have detested the life that I have “inherited” from our host bullying his way forward in life. It has only been about two years in which we have truly begun to work together. Perhaps a year since our host conceded that life needed to be based on shared decisions. He had decided us into a corner, life was toxic to us all. Thank you for these words. I have watched this video twice tonight already. I am also sharing it with my mate. She is similarly subordinate and chained in her system. It is unhealthy for her and painful for me to watch. I know your words will resonate with her too. “Nonhosts” of the world, unite!

*waves to all the other systems out there*❤

still at the beginning but I genuinely know 0 about the beatles besides memes and like 2 songs XD so the intro is useful!

I think the longer hair frames your face nicely, good luck making a decision! :)

aaaahhhh yesss!!! 💙💛 Boober and Sidebottom mean a lot to me, and when watching the show I immediately picked up on how their dynamic could be a great portrayal of a system. intentional or not, I love that Boober is almost undeniably neurodivergent (the case for Autism is there and his OCD is almost undeniable, both things I strongly relate to him for as well), but I'm always so excited when I see other people who interpret him as having DID too! :'-)

I FS seems to me to be more useful for treating singlets or for treating alters as individuals with their own “internal families” rather than for treating DID, P-DID, or OSDD itself. But I recognize that my people are not me, and are not the same as singlets. The ones that have fronted are adolescents alters with little recent interaction with the world who do not normally interact the world in a way that is self-validating or very much at all and have not in decades. But they don’t seem to be emotionally burdened by past trauma or other negative experiences the way I am. The solution your brain has found is more close to my ideal of plurality, to be honest, because as an individual, I lack many things and am bogged down by many things. And there is a physiological rest or “breath of fresh air” effect from switching, and an emotional benefit to being blendy/passively influenced in helpful soothing or pleasant ways sometimes. It is comforting to feel their presence close. I’m finally to the point where I think if it as more amazing reassuring amusing cute or comforting than it is frightening problematic or embarrassing when we actually switch. I used to meet the people they made friends with occasionally, and they seem to be very magnetic (probably because it’s a 40- year old man acting like a teenage girl, LOL.

Our system is very similar. It pauses when it's not actively paid attention to. Additionally, no one remembers what they do inside the headspace when they aren't fronting or co-con. Milo has a cottage. Surrounding the cottage is the "stream of consciousness" - we treat it like a lazy river most of the time. There's a door inside the cottage that leads to my bathhouse. In the backyard is a waterfall that can move either up or down. It falls from a floating library above the cottage that we rarely, but occasionally visit. In the front yard is Ashkii's treehouse. Further into the headspace is the glade, with a big open campsite. It's a simple headspace, but we love it.

1:37:58 had me dead guffawing 😂

My one real remaining system mate and I used to be besties and now we like barely get along. It sucks. She still holds a grudge about my attempt. I hate her sometimes. But she hates me sometimes too. IDK. I have kinda beat the shit out of her but we have tourretes and shit so I really don't think it was me in the philosophical. To her credit we alternate days since we're basically stuck in cofront and trying to reach consensus on every decision was a nightmare. But she still micromanages and bullies. She has been violent in return, and often has little concept of proportionate response. She has turned our inner worlds (where she is most often violent) from something beautiful into a nightmare. She's telling me she says sorry as I type this, so it's on the record. I suppose it is her day so I will let her add that. I do think she means well at least 2/3 of the time but it's not enough.

Your videos are so flipping validating!!! Your expression how your system works I can relate to in no other way and makes me feel less alone. Thank you so much guys! Please continue to make videos

Hey. Sai made me come to the front for this. OK so he didn't make me come to the front, I was nearby and I asked. I liked this a lot and posted it in our personal system Discord for future use. I've... arguably had one of the roughest times accepting the situation for what it is thanks to my source's experiences. I hate the term "fictive" because it makes me feel unreal, and I refuse to use it for that reason. Thanks for helping me feel a little bit more real. I'll definitely take it. :) -Adam

I often can't tell whether I am a system or not, especially because of how the inner world works. It's very cartoonish. A few weeks ago I came across a video saying that it could be maladaptive daydreaming and that "I" was making the others respond to me and that they weren't just responding on their own, I have asd and ocd which were said to influence maladaptive daydreams and now I'm even more confused. I was most upset because the people I've interacted with throughout the years could be fake. I honestly don't think I could live without them. I'm pretty sure I have switched before but at the same time, I thought I could just be forcing it. This was pretty helpful. Thank you :)