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It has been 3 years, hope you are doing great

Co-consciousness can be scary if you know it’s co-consciousness. I find it strangely frightening at first then it begins to feel ok like familiar. In some ways it’s almost better to black out completely. It’s certainly less traumatic for me personally. That sounds weird doesn’t it?

Man your channel name really makes the algorithm think you are talking about crypto.

Okay. I really wish these videos weren't older because i've experienced what you're experiencing to an eerie degree which is making me believe there is something deeper going on then just DID. the skinny man in the magical library (our alters are given crystals, and one of our alters holds the opal), a "higherself" that is somehow connected to mermaids/the sea... I feel like you're reading off my experiences and it's a bit overwhelming. I attempted to add you on IG to try and contact you- but i'm experiencing everything you are to an extreme degree and it doesn't make sense that its this similar... like WAY too similar.

sound like christ angel lol

trauma... therapy? what is this of which you speak and how does it work, we are not asking of you to explain your personal experience rather of what to expect for a premise of this so-called therapeutic exercise consists of beyond disgusting past trauma due to my system personally much rather avoid unnecessary flashbacks

ironic we've always imagined our selfs to look individually different from our system even before they recognized us as we are

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I'm really happy to see you all back <3

You’ll figure it out. The Universe has a timing that is not our own. You are amazing. Sending love and light your way.

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aWESOME!!

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Glad to see you back hun <3

New subscriber. I have DID as well. WE need the DID community. Without the DID community we are all just missing persons. That's a deliberate reference to the band, Missing Persons. Dale Bozzio, the lead singer, has DID. If you watch their Words video, that is a male alter who wrote and sang that song. If you watch their Destination Unknown video, that is a little alter that wrote and sang that song. I had to tell the little alter, who is a runaway, that legally she was a woman who left a dangerous situation with "destination unknown". That is when she wrote the song, Destination Unknown. Anyway, hi ; just thought I would throw in an unusual factoid, like one of my alters loves to do.

Interesting! :D And: Welcome back!!! :D

Omg this is literally exactly......I have no words but I know 100% what you are feeling and had/have been feeling and saying. I even said this exact thing this morning. And I couldn’t explain it well and you worded it exactly how I wanted to and made my scattered thoughts so much clearer! I can’t thank you enough because, I was wondering if something was wrong with me as well, because I’ve been watching a few channels that seem so okay and not scared at all,. At they do make me feel better and somewhat accepting at that time because it seems like it will be okay. Then i go through something and I’m not! I didn’t understand that. And I can relate!! This helps me know that this is a process and to see someone going through it as they go through this is helping me on entirely different level as I feel I can relate so much to you because your sharing this as I am going through it. It’s like I love the other channel and am so grateful for them and all they’ve done that helps me, I always didn’t connect 100% because it was like (I realize now) that this is what it’s like for them now and what it can be for me in the future? And it’s helpful, but to find someone record what I’m currently going through for the first time themselves, is like someone walking next to me and I’m not alone? (My analogies such Sorry) and a lot of my confusion or questions are answered!! I hate that I write such long comments to you and I will try to get better to shorten them, it’s just so hard when I watch and you speak to my utter core and helps me understand more clearly what/why I’m feeling like this and experiences. Thank you!!!!

I’m so glad I found your channel......so flipping glad!!! I honestly don’t know what to say because I have so much to say! I can totally relate!!!! I’m going through this right now and without really knowing, well I did, but each new experience that I have, the more it proves I haven’t accepted it yet. The first time I because aware that I was actually co-conscious (and it was just what I assume was co-conscious because I still don’t quite understand it because it’s so new to me and experiencing it is so new to me) just a few days ago.....actually it may have been a week or so ago. Prior to that, I thought I was starting to accept my DID, but then I got locked out of my Facebook but my husband showed me that my entire name had changed (but my picture) and the first name was like “wtf” but the last name 😳😳🤭😬😬🤯. I was shook....had a melt down because I couldn’t excise that way, or deny it the way I had been excuse it away like before. At this point it was just proof for me, because I didn’t accept my diagnosis, this is something I couldn’t rationalize away if it was making me anxious. So, when that happened I knew I had to write it down for me and my therapist had told me to do this. But I’ve noticed it takes to long and often forget so much of what I wanted to say that I decided to use my phone to do a short quick blurb of what happened so I wouldn’t forget. Well it started that way. It became lot more as I started it and then even more after I watched the video. I kind of was okay and yet not about what realizing I was co-conscious and it was scary and then I felt with it kind of, and thought it was okay. Then I lost 9 days and my husband said he thought I had recorded some videos (apparently the alter(s) that I haven’t met or really knew of had told him that on a few days that I have no memory of. I grabbed my phone this morning and I began to sob because they certainly had recorded a bunch and 2 long ones!!!! I can’t bear to watch the long ones because I’m only just now (it’s been 12 hours since I saw this) calming down and not so nauseous and embarrassed and a slew of a bunch of emotions. So now I’m b am to again, realizing I truly haven’t accepted my DID the way I thought I was because it sent me spiraling. But it does signal that I need to put my heart in to this because I feel the more I push this away, the more difficult it has/is becoming on everybody. No one is doing really okay, except maybe Lissa. But I never had a name or thought to name our system because that was/is a confusing thing for me. I’m glad that I’ve watched a few of your videos and then got to this one (I started at the beginning) and realized now that what I’m going through is okay, and I’m not alone in feeling this. The accepting yet not accepting.....I felt lost with that until now. You have no idea how much you’ve helped me!!!! I wish I would have watched this hours ago because today was so hard but now I know that you went through the same thing and you came out okay (I think, i just I have a lot of videos yet to watch and that’s why I assumed that?? If that makes sense?). So thank you so much for calming my panicked state along with most of my fear that I’ve had today. I’m truly grateful ❤️

I just found your channel today and it was what I needed so much! You (and I mean everyone but I’ve only met kris, Alana and Alaya) are so calming. Today was a tough one, and I’ve been in denial of my DID diagnosis and accept just small parts. My beginning sounds very similar to yours when I watched Alayas video introducing the system. My car accident brought me to a trauma expert and was diagnosed first with PTSD, and then goes on from there to finally DID. Anyway, I want to thank you and your system. I thought I had a grip on this, which I keep getting hit with new experiences which tell me I’m nowhere near close to accepting and need to....but thank you! Alaya’s voice helped me get out of my hysterics today. I woke up today, and after I talked with my husband, I was made aware that I lost 9 days, realized whoever was fronting, and I noticed 3 only because if the videos they made on my phone. I started to watch them but fell in to a huge panic because I couldn’t watch it. It seemed so frantic and manic, like they were trying to be heard as fast as they could.. like they were fighting to be heard by me?? I couldn’t handle it...but it was so hard to watch and it’s not like what I’ve seen on your channel (but I have only watched 3 so far cuz I’m brand new❤️ but I’m binge watching), and I haven’t seen/heard of anything like that on Chloe’s channel either and I’m terrified. I need to show my therapist as she wanted me to start journaling but it’s so chaotic that I’m...something. Wow, I’m sorry for disclosing so much when I just wanted to say thank you. I guess I felt comfortable with you and before I felt I couldn’t keep my head above water because I don’t know why they recorded that and why it seemed so frantic...but I’ve actually calmed down a great deal and can breath now. So thank you for helping a stranger through one of the worst days I’ve ever had (and I think it’s because my denial is hurting more than helping and now I have to be accepting of all my alters because I think that’s why they are acting out????? Does that sound possible? I guess you’d have to see it to know what I mean and I actually would but because it’s so personal and uncomfortable I don’t think I could ever post it on RUclips because I wouldn’t be comfortable with the anyone in the world could possibly see it🤦🏼‍♀️. So maybe it’s a normal part of the DID journey, but I have no clue. ** Okay, I’m sorry for my ramble. I’ve tied to the edit it but it seems impossible right now and when I try, things get added and now I’ve written a novel🤦🏼‍♀️. Just know how thankful I am and I look forward to watching the rest of your videos!!!! Thank you so much Alana, Alaya and Kris (well everyone in TheEther System)❤️❤️❤️

Hey there!!! Cant wait to see more videos!! I have DID as well! These videos are awesome on hard denial days!

Kris co-consciously begins to translate and allow Alana to speak. In time , she fuller switches in. ✨ first “switch” into Alana

Very encouraging on a number of levels. I am happy to talk to you about the U.K. and Ireland as that’s were I’m from and my brother still lives.

So glad to hear an update. 😊

Oh we can definitely relate! There is SO much up and down and sideways and back when living with others in a shared body... <3 - Hal

Just catching up on your last couple of vids here. Congrats on your shop! You can be proud of yourself for how you handled the all the changes, and im glad you are doing better now. Im in the process of diagnosis of a dissociative disorder vs. cptsd, and your video’s are very helpful.

Nice congratulations on your shop!! :D Very exciting! You guys are such a beautiful system, I'm so proud of you! Happy System Pride day soon, much much love <3

Great News!!! :)

Happy (almost) System Pride Day!

So glad to hear the exciting news!

You’ve worked so hard to get here, and I’m excited to hear how it all flourishes !

About feeling weak, afraid, uncomfortable with your own body etc, have you always felt that way?

Hey I am experiencing alot of what you have been going through. It's scary when one realizes it is actually happening after a period (however brief) of stability and then I thinking I don't have this. The eating and stomach issues are tough for me to function. Thanks again for sharing.

Gosh you are telling my story. I am just figuring this out after 42 years!!!! I flip between acceptance and denial about my disorder daily. I can review my life and see the signs but I'm still not 100% on board. I still feel like I'm going to wake up and it's all going to have been a dream. I can't accept that it's been 42 years and I've been blind. I have not seen my own life. It makes me afraid that my amazing husband is going to dip because I'm nutz. It's hard. I want to be a healthy system. I want to be healthy. Period. And I feel like I'm doing this dance that I don't feel like I'm in complete control of. Then I go off on a rant that makes no sense. It's hard to verbalized. Thanks for your vulnerability. Good luck in your endeavors.

It is good, that there is at least some Light!! :)

Kris/Kristin, while you're going through (to the other side) of disordered eating, there is a super good supplement called Berocca that boost the immune system like nothing I've tried. I use it for not getting sick in all my transatlantic travel. www.google.com/search?q=berocca&rlz=1C1GCEU_enUS819US819&oq=berrocca&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j0l5.11426j0j4&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

Just discovered your channel! Added you on facebook from one of our system accounts, and followed from IG as well. <3 - Hunter

I really *LOVE* your new room, it is SO COZY! Yes, very girly I like it and awww I'm glad you got a fish I think pets of any kind are so helpful for healing, love and support. :) I'm glad your back, though i'm sorry you had such a rough time for a while there, and am sorry for what you're going through. Hang in there my friend. Oh yeah, and if you haven't you might want to give "When Things Fall Apart" by Pema Chodron. Just a thought :) Much love <3 I've missed you too <3

This was certainly very interesting to me. That's a new sort of take than anything I've heard before. Thanks for expanding my mind with that, I can totally dig it. Honestly, whatever works for you is what works, everybody is different. I've missed you and I"m glad you're back, but I'm glad that you took time off if and when you needed it, that's wise. One of my own struggles is being authentically me, and working on self-love that sort of stuff. Thanks for updating us. <3 much love

I don’t get it, is Kris the alter ego?

Hi Kris, so beautiful to see how much you want to help everyone, Kristin in particular. It’s really inspiring to me to see this example of self help and authentic self-love. Something I want to emulate in my own recovery. I can certainly empathize with Kristin wanting to be able to handle everything, it’s just human I guess. Also I am so sorry you had to go through the loss and pain of divorce, but again inspired by how much compassion and healthy self-care you are showing through it. Can’t be easy. Kristin, I know how hard it can be to accept our structural dissociation. I only have parts that hijack rather than fully front, and I have difficulty accepting it. Great to see you back no matter what. Be well.

Very interesting. I do not exactly know... But, well _in some Way_ that could be true. _However_ it might "cost" You something.. :/ But that could be actually true for both Ways even, I think.. But even if You _choose_ to do it that Way, in some (difficult) Situations, different Versions of You / Alters might "re-form" again... Simply because "Your Brain has learned _to cope_ this Way"..

Caption meant to say doubted DID not ptsd

I wish You Luck !

This was a wonderful update, im glad youve been taking everything with optimism! I hit a wall where I've been unhappy with my progress and where I am and focusing on the tasks at hand and being kind to myself has been helping me out. I'm sorry to hear how much has been going on but I love hearing you have plans and are working towards your goal and your drive is amazing and I just hope the best for you and that you keep on fighting to thrive!! Have a wonderful day :)

I’d love to see some tutorials on using crystals. I’m new to it lol. Looking forward to getting to know each other ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤

Our system has troubles with confusion between names and who we are; the whole labeling thing. Just one of us perceiving another in a box messes it up for all of us since we have shared memory, and so we sometimes need to take a step back and just stop all that, and just feel each other; to instead listen to our feelings, why they're there etc. As much as I want to badly know and sort what is coming from who, it's exhausting oh my gosh. It's still there regardless if we attach a name or perceived identity to it. So yeah, it was cool hearing you say you have been doing something similar too!

Kristen, although I missed you on RUclips, I am so so happy for you and encouraged. Can’t wait to see where things go. I was just listening to another person with DID who has integrated her alters. I completely agree that all parts of consciousness are one’s own consciousness. And healing is always dynamic. I’m especially interested now that I know I have been dealing with complex-PTSD from a childhood in the war zone that was Belfast in the 70’s. I know that the trauma in my life caused a lot of fragmentation of parts, but not fully formed alters. Look forward to hearing more (and BTW I’m happy to be part of ‘community’ with you whether DID, PTSD or whatever 😊) - Nigel

I’m so glad you are satisfied with the results 💕🙏🏾