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Shell corp started with a family of lawyers stockpiling shells and expanding into oil. Look it up

Golden age was before the probs

Another survivor here, now mum of 3 and grandmother to 2, think of what I would have missed. The beauty is there, all around

what u said that the end hit me bc I've been dealing with that too since my brother died

WELCOME TO THE RENEGADES! WE ARE THE REVOLUTION!

How would you feel if you grew up in the opium epidemic and all your friends turn to heroin and once the opium was gone because of the government and now none of my friends can see true help because all they put them in on his methadone and all my friends from high school are either dead or dead to me I live alone and I'm not happy I wish one day when I can see my friends again but I don't wish it now

If you haven't found Sleep Token yet, I would love to see your reaction to the song "Are You Really Okay?"

You are a beautiful person thank you for this video

I know I’m a year late , I actually just found him . And he literally has a whole album about his medical journey. It’s inspiring and just magical.

When this happens my eyes black out & I get super dizzy 😭 Ive got a doctors appointment soon so I’m hopefully getting tested for POTS bc my heart spikes from 74 Bpm to 130 or 140 bpm after standing 🙃

I feel like you would have such a good reaxtion to Love Music especially part 4 .... Did you do that ?

Love the love at the end <#

4 string mandolin.

I know this is a year ago, but this song have been saving me multiple times. A reminder that I can do better. But i've been in the darkness many times now, all those pills and being judged by my mother and work colleagues.... I got drowned in all my sorrow, in all this I lost my gf and son and dogs aswell, They are better off without me though, but after couple of months now, I've been able to accept this. Still on meds, but I managed to get myself back to work, even tho I hate everything about it and also the so called Colleagues. I need to get the cash in to be able to pay rent and so on. Please everyone, as REN say, remember we're all humans. and we should help eachother instead of hating eachother! <3

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This one makes everyone cry, nothing wrong with that. Its perfectly normal. Try Ren with Back in 74 for a cheerful song, sweetheart.

I'm gratefull too you you didn't edit ❤. Hugs from the Netherlands.

Well i'm gonna try my best and work hard for the singing

Chronic illness and pain destroyed me mentally. Well actually I’m not sure what came first. I always knew I wanted to die from a very young age. Which was when I was trying to self medicate with pills and weed. And in the euphoric cloud I loved and felt “happy” came chronic illness and pain. Pain I can’t even describe and not emotional it was physical pain. So I cut the drugs out a sought help. Undergoing very invasive testing by multiple drs. I was diagnosed with Levator anis syndrome. For 7 years I was told it was all on my head and I needed psychiatric help. So I found a psychiatrist and a colorectal surgeon affiliated with Columbia university. This doctor diagnosed me within ten minutes and had me on her surgeons table in a week. I was terrified and for the first time I didn’t want to die . I did have hope. So I had my first Botox injection deep in my pelvic floor through my rectum. And within 2 weeks the pain was gone the spasms diminished and I felt an ease in my life. Unfortunately Botox is not forever and it paralyzes muscles when administered. It worked for about 8-10 months. And the pain would come back. That’s when I knew this would be forever. And it was at that moment I wanted to die again. Levator syndrome is incurable and can only be treated with extremely invasive therapy called biofeedback therapy which shoots electricity into the muscle group so help the spasms subside. I couldn’t take it anymore it was too much and I found my quality of life was burning like flicking the ash off a lit cigarette. The searing pain returned and then came my next injection . My depression and anxiety were in hyperdrive along with ptsd. So I was given a cocktail of medications to help the symptoms. Ren has shown me the light with the pendulum analogy. When the light shines through I’m ok l. But when the shadow is cast it stays until I’m broken down. As 37 year old man with three kids unable to work(which gave reason to my life) I’m now stuck in bed reading message boards and listening to intense music like Ren. It’s definitely helpful knowing I’m not alone. But I do feel helpless and hopeless…

Keep up the good work you doing. I hope 🙏🏼 🌹

I just gotta say, I've watched a few of your reactions now, and you've shared some of your experiences in those reactions. I know everyone has a different perspective, but for me, it's amazing how strong of a light you radiate in your compassion, sadness, empathy and hope. I'm guessing that's not always how it feels on your inside, but I wanted to share how much hope and light you convey (to me) through your reactions. Thank you <3

This was beautiful

At the end

The Search is a great song, it’s where I found him. HOPE is his album after his breakdown. If you want to go on the ride as he tells his story of his life and journey through his therapy sessions, search “NF Journey”. Honestly, you can’t go wrong. Intro 1-3, Mansion, Therapy Session, just sit down and prepare to cry.

I really want to know where was Patrick, and why was "babe" busy?

The reaction is wonderful. No worries!

You might also like "I Choose Violence" by Jax and "Cocaine and Abel" by Amigo the Devil.

I'm mildly appalled to think that anyone would say that you aren't what you say you are. People can be jerks sometimes.

But what if you have no one..

The thing about this is to say you are wonderful. Thank you.

I think Ren is wonderful, and I think you are too

He's actually playing The guitar and singing in this video, if you look he has a mic on his neck

That chair with wheels (not a wheel chair) is like the one in a psych ward I was in. If you where a little out of control, you would be strap in it(sometimes for hours) in the day room. If you where a little more out of control you were lock into a padded cell (sometimes for days) on the ward. And if they were really out of control the goon squad (4 or 5 huge men) would show up and haul them away and I would never see them again. If you were suicidal you had to pull your bed out to hallway every night (so nurse station could see you). You would wake up with one of the manices that paced the halls all night, staring at you. It was a nightmare. These places made "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" look like a resort.

Tanya I hope your good massive love from the uk 👍🏻❤

I didn't ask for lyrics posted. So getting MAJOR delayed captions is worse than nothing. Fail😮

Such a beautiful, heartfelt and experienced reaction. Love what you did here, respect 😎👍❤️

not one person in the history of man has survived suicide its an impossibility I think you mean attempted suicide survivor

Lately, I’ve been feeling low and I find myself telling me and everyone around me I’m okay but I’m not.

I really enjoyed your commentary as a physically and mentally ill person since childhood very early childhood and now I’m 51 year-old male from Australia. I was sexually abused by my father for the first seven years of my life. My mother was an alcoholic and prescription drug addict and he stabbed me three times and beaten me with blunt objects until I was 12 which was when I first tried to hang myself from the clothesline so I know a little bit about suicidal ideology. Since I was 12 attempted suicide over 25 times and the only thing that pulls me back from the EDGE each time and my three children and my four granddaughters they keep me grounded they keep me accountable but I will say this other than my children. I have no family or friends that care about me. They abandoned me long ago and have not spoken to me in over 10 years so when you say there are people that care about you all the time it’s not necessarily true. I think the ones that do have people that care about the other ones. I live alone now. My partner left me after 30 years because she couldn’t deal with me being unwell and blamed me for it being sick. Is the hardest thing you can do in life. I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy and not one solace in music and HI REN captures the essence of being human. Our strengths our weaknesses are temptations and our hopes. Having said that I want to extend my heart out to you and to say sorry that you struggle or have struggled with mental health issues and/or physical health issues like myself I have bipolar disorder schizophrenia and dissociative identity disorder a.k.a. multiple personalities panic attacks and eating disorders, I also broke my back and eight places in the army. My heart goes out to you and anyone else like you in same situation. God bless.

I feel like if you listen again and THEN do your final reaction, it will help you process things. I know that helped me a lot.

My wife has attempted suicide several times. One time I was about to go to the store, and I tried to wake her to tell her "I love you", but I couldn't wake her. She had swallowed 72 pills. If I had just left, she would have died before I got back. As it was, she was in a coma for 28 days. She may have been lucky, but I feel that I was the real lucky one.

Sorry I just discovered you. I Have BPD, and have been chasing people away, like? I lost all of my friends one explosion at a time. I LOVE Ren and the the way he isn't afraid to talk about mental illness.

He feels exactly the way I do. That's so comforting. Someone gets it. That's his gift. He can put feelings into words & music. And make you feel less alone which gives you hope.

know this is going to upset me already

Save me by jelly roll

I've seen this video many many times and still burst into tears at the end. I'm so very glad you are still here. My story starts like this. Eleven years ago my younger brother took his life. He and I both from a very young age suffered from chronic depression. When we got older we would call one another every day to talk. We would always say what was on our minds, but he never mentioned wanting to die. Me on the other hand never kept anything from him, and told him so many times I didn't want to be here. I started with depression and anxiety at the age of around ten. I am now 65, and still suffer even more so now because my brother, my rock, and best friend is gone. I have severe PTSD because I feel like if I had known of his intentions, I maybe could have stopped him. I have terrible survivor's guilt. I have connected with Ren's music so much, and it is therapeutic for me. I also relate to his struggle with Lyme Disease. I don't have it, but for twelve years my husband didn't know what was wrong with him. He went from doctor to doctor until one finally diagnosed him with Lyme Disease. Like Ren, for years he was told it was all in his mind, which is why I don't deal with doctors for myself. I have many illnesses that need to be addressed, but I refuse to go to any doctor. Once they make you feel worthless, that's it, I'm done with them. The sad part is that he went so long without a diagnosis that the disease ravaged his entire body, and they said "nothing can be done for him now." He also has Guillain-Barré Syndrome, and Rheumatoid Arthritis, all of which are also autoimmune illnesses. He is now bedridden on Hospice, and I am heartbroken. We have been married since we were fifteen. Fifty years together is a long time, but it's been an epic journey together. Once he's gone I will have no one. It's heartbreaking, but Ren's music is helping me more than anything right now. Thank you very much for listening to me rant, but I hope you will understand how alone I feel. Take very good care of yourself, and many hugs to you.