Bipolar Courage
Bipolar Courage
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Goodbye to this channel. Moving on, to focus on my creativity.
This video has edited captions to help with clarity, with my rate of speech and Kiwi accent.
My name is Xanthe Wyse.
It's New Year's Eve in New Zealand.
I've been uploading to this channel for 5 years. Some content was recorded 7 years ago. I decided today, with starting a new year, that I would like to move on from uploading this channel.
I skimmed through my journey this past year plus vlogging under Bipolar Courage.
A big milestone for me this month was finishing nearly 6 years of therapy for post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD. Still considered to have impairment from a mental injury but just doing the best I can.
In general, more people have been kind and supportive than cruel and nasty. ...
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Alone but not lonely at Christmas. Seasonal triggers.
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My name is Xanthe Wyse. Felt like wearing makeup today, even though I am not going to work. I had last Christmas alone (other than flatmates around who don't celebrate Christmas). This year, I am expecting to spend Christmas alone, also. I actually find Christmas time to be a bit annoying, with all the extra shoppers etc, so I got what I wanted from the supermarket today. I even found Christmas...
Reviewing completion of years of trauma therapy for PTSD.
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My name is Xanthe. I completed over 5 years of therapy for posttraumatic stress disorder, PTSD, this month. Accident Compensation Corporation, ACC, paid for my therapy, as it's considered to be an injury. Most people with a similar presentation take 12-18 months. I needed a slower approach, with the complexity of comorbid bipolar disorder plus severe PTSD from two main traumas plus grief tangle...
Post-viral bronchial hyperreactivity and exercise. Shortness of breath, coughing.
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My name is Xanthe and I live in New Zealand. I had a nasty flu virus a month ago and the ongoing effects have mainly been bouts of respiratory difficulties. Multiple bouts a day, mainly shortness of breath and hard coughing, which has been very frustrating. Had a particularly bad day yesterday. Mainly triggered by exertion, such as going for my walks (which I usually have no issues with my brea...
Joyful movement. Improvised dance in a cramped room.
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My name is Xanthe. Had a little dance after I took my evening meds. The meds I take for bipolar disorder are pretty sedating but I had some surplus energy as I haven't been able to my usual intensity of exercise past few weeks, recovering from flu. Still got pretty warm though. It's a fun way to exercise. Unfortunately, it's cramped in my room. It's a form of dynamic/active stretching. Winding ...
Recovering from illness; fitness; weight gain with bipolar meds
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Recovering from illness; fitness; weight gain with bipolar meds
Ending therapy for PTSD 6 years on. Autism politics. Meds adjustment. Coping.
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Ending therapy for PTSD 6 years on. Autism politics. Meds adjustment. Coping.
When meds don't sedate as much as they used to. Bipolar hypomania energy.
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When meds don't sedate as much as they used to. Bipolar hypomania energy.
Voice, speaking, diagnoses, mutism, singing hobby.
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Voice, speaking, diagnoses, mutism, singing hobby.
Revenge. Manipulation. Dismissal. Mental health crisis. Liam Payne. Maya Henry.
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Revenge. Manipulation. Dismissal. Mental health crisis. Liam Payne. Maya Henry.
Toxic relationships. Blame & shame culture. Liam Payne, Maya Henry.
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Toxic relationships. Blame & shame culture. Liam Payne, Maya Henry.
Are others to blame for self-inflicted death? Mental health crisis. Liam Payne. Isaiah Trammell.
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Are others to blame for self-inflicted death? Mental health crisis. Liam Payne. Isaiah Trammell.
Deeper singing and speaking voice after menopause. Managing burnout.
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Deeper singing and speaking voice after menopause. Managing burnout.
Self-diagnosis is not valid. Criticism is not hate.
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Self-diagnosis is not valid. Criticism is not hate.
Bipolar 1 vs Bipolar 2 vs major depression. What's the difference?
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Bipolar 1 vs Bipolar 2 vs major depression. What's the difference?
'Do you want to be thin or stable?' Let's talk about bipolar meds.
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'Do you want to be thin or stable?' Let's talk about bipolar meds.
Thank you. I appreciate your supportive comments. Your voice.
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Thank you. I appreciate your supportive comments. Your voice.
Coping skills, authenticity, appreciation of supportive feedback
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Coping skills, authenticity, appreciation of supportive feedback
PTSD triggered. Vulnerable people judged as abusive.
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PTSD triggered. Vulnerable people judged as abusive.
Auditory processing, autism. Impairment vs disability.
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Auditory processing, autism. Impairment vs disability.
"You're a bigot!" (Probably not actually) autistic identity politics is annoying.
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"You're a bigot!" (Probably not actually) autistic identity politics is annoying.
Dinged up. Discouraging setback after accident. High pain threshold.
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Dinged up. Discouraging setback after accident. High pain threshold.
Stigma: bipolar and violence
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Stigma: bipolar and violence
Bipolar disorder is not traits. Generalising stereotypes and stigma.
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Bipolar disorder is not traits. Generalising stereotypes and stigma.
Cyberbullying can result in suicide
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Cyberbullying can result in suicide
Thank you for sticking up for me. Toxic online communities.
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Thank you for sticking up for me. Toxic online communities.
Sound sensitivity from stress. Grief processing.
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Sound sensitivity from stress. Grief processing.
Depression feels like I'm a failure. Low mood, burnout, grief, bipolar, PTSD.
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Depression feels like I'm a failure. Low mood, burnout, grief, bipolar, PTSD.
Does PTSD affect me more than bipolar disorder? Low mood. Grief. Voice.
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Does PTSD affect me more than bipolar disorder? Low mood. Grief. Voice.
Struggling. Stigma persists: "lazy dole-bludger'.
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Struggling. Stigma persists: "lazy dole-bludger'.

Комментарии

  • @neerajmishra450
    @neerajmishra450 23 часа назад

    please respond to this comment ==============================>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I have been diagnosed with bipolar. i was admitted to hospitali.I ran from hospital and i was in a manic phase so i called the police against my family i got involved in fights. My manic experiance have been seeing patterns in unrelated thinngs or everything i had sharper memory increased thinking ability enriching music experiance while listening but soon i had severe cognitive impairment because of this i was on meds cocktail aripiprazole 30 mg valproate 1000mg risperidone 1 mg and one more meds it took me 1 year to recover and then i left the meds due to some reason after recovering later i was giveN meds such as aripiprazole 10mg which made me depressed and then i was on cariprazine 1.5mg which had some cognitive side effects and currently i have started taking lurasidon 20 mg . I am 21 years old i want to have a great future . Please i request you to add me in the telegram and whatsapp group if you are connected to one. PLEASE RESPOND TO THIS MESSAGE YOUR RESPONSE COULD MEAN A LOT TO ME I NEED SOME HELP!!!!!!! HOW LONG PEOPLE TAKE ON AVERAGE BEFORE FINDING THE RIGHT MED FOR THEM?

  • @karla6465
    @karla6465 3 дня назад

    Your soooo cool...U sound so much like me and my best friend...I know its all hard and so difficult to do but like you I am continuing to fight these systems too...and because like you, I have values and these people, systems and institutions need to be accountable...One example... I had my face smashed in from Domestic violence. I got 14 screws, 3 plates in my face never been able to breathe properly again..My face slightly altered, roof of my mouth numb...I get $2000 in compensation..The surgeon who may be able to fix me...and thats a MAYBE gets $13,000...Like wtf!!!

  • @karla6465
    @karla6465 3 дня назад

    I just had my 3rd Assessment i think...Disgusting...would love to talk with you as I advocate for myself and others as well...And we should start our own Advocacy Business together lol Have had a lump sum impairment and the last one I have only received 2 days ago and too scared to open...I feel like shaming the Assessor I had...A GP from Invercargill...Belittled me..Mocked me..Questioned me and dictated to a machine through the assessment...Soooo angry...Its traumatising enuff let alone these $#@!@@# who get paid top dollar to see us...( approx $420.00ph I think)...Plz contact me

  • @karla6465
    @karla6465 4 дня назад

    Mine was disgusting...I hope u did better x

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 3 дня назад

      @@karla6465 was a 3 year battle. Stressful but I won in the end. The actual payout isn't much & the doctor said I should have had the bipolar included as part of the injury in my case. I am still waiting for ACC to provide a breakdown of total costs. They would have spent more on doctors & lawyers.

  • @JimJupiter-h2t
    @JimJupiter-h2t 6 дней назад

    I have a huge belly fetish 😊 im glad im not alone 😂

  • @jennyjenjen9180
    @jennyjenjen9180 10 дней назад

    She knows the severity of it she prob doesn’t want to make the people around her feel uncomfortable talking about it

  • @pedromateus9575
    @pedromateus9575 13 дней назад

    You have had a lot of impact on a lot of people, be sure of that. For me that would be a life goal itself.

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 13 дней назад

      @@pedromateus9575 Thank you. Appreciate your comment.

  • @InnocentChild0_0
    @InnocentChild0_0 13 дней назад

    this is fake bro go to a hospital

  • @jodyaugust4979
    @jodyaugust4979 14 дней назад

    Don't go! Keep going, you've started now so keep going g

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 14 дней назад

      @@jodyaugust4979 I will be over on my hobbies channel, Soar Purpose

  • @jroc2201
    @jroc2201 14 дней назад

    Happy new year 🎊🎆 😊

  • @DavidPeacock-w4z
    @DavidPeacock-w4z 14 дней назад

    Happy new year lass wish you happy things for 25

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 14 дней назад

      thank you. Happy New Year to you too.

  • @lowelljohnson744
    @lowelljohnson744 14 дней назад

    I think a lot of the stuff you've touched upon is very revealing about this whole "Embrace autism as a way of being" narrative (for lack of better term.) And it's the sort of stuff one hears from Ted Talk speakers mostky (well from my humble observation at least.) When you talked about the pro-neurodiversity people who are using the issue of autism to create a personality for themselves, it struck a chord with me but unfortunately my heart also sank as well. It really made me wonder about a potential underlying agenda (financial gain, the speakers' self promotion etc...) I really hope you're wrong about this but i fear you may have hit the nail right on head. Ultimately, if these charlatans really are exploiting autism to promote themselves, it will at the detriment of the neurodivergent factions of society (And the worst is that people will be voting for Christmas like unsuspecting turkeys.)

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 14 дней назад

      @@lowelljohnson744 it's a sociopolitical label so the politics & financial gain seem to be agendas, I think. I am cynical about those who can travel here there & everywhere for speeches as clearly little to no actual impairment. I call them "fraudtistics". Start to handflap, buy a bunch of stim toys & have meltdowns (which aren't even meltdowns) to "unmask" their new found autistic identity. Tend to become popular on social media for evangelising lies. Lies because at times, some will quietly admit that had no issues in childhood & most of adulthood. Career burnout is now called autism.

  • @clovergreene3753
    @clovergreene3753 15 дней назад

    Sorry to hear you’re leaving the channel (have only just discovered it), but good luck with Soar Purpose. Btw, if you don’t mind me saying, I really love your hair. I’m afraid all the meds I’ve had to take for my bipolar over the years has caused me considerable hair loss - a great tragedy for someone who’s always wanted long, thick locks. (Sigh). Anyway, take care and best wishes for the New Year 😊

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 15 дней назад

      @@clovergreene3753 I think my hair has thinned too (probably from postmenopausal mainly). So I am trying to make the most of some length (been growing it out past few years). Long layers make my hair look fuller. I dyed it a few shades darker recently. Was a bit worried it might look harsh but it's actually closer to my colour when younger. I will likely speak on video from time to time on Soar Purpose. I just don't really feel like I have anything to add on this channel that I haven't said before. Happy New Year to you too.

  • @jenlovesthisstuff
    @jenlovesthisstuff 15 дней назад

    Wishing you all the best for 2025 and focusing on your creativity, Xanthe. I hope that will include your writing as well. I bought your 2 books and enjoyed both the content and your unique writing style. HNY xo

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 15 дней назад

      @@jenlovesthisstuff Thank you for reading my books & the feedback. The final book, Soar Purpose, seems to be more hard work than inspiration but I will try to make a go of it in 2025.

  • @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke
    @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke 15 дней назад

    Great song ❤

  • @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke
    @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke 15 дней назад

    Love that song ❤

  • @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke
    @Faith.is.Awake.notwoke 15 дней назад

    I tried to hang from my arms and heard a lot of cracks 😮 in my arms, shoulders, and back. I would love to do a pull up but it seems impossible 😢

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 15 дней назад

      @@Faith.is.Awake.notwoke I doubt I will be able to do a full pullup. I like the stretches though.

    • @purpletea3807
      @purpletea3807 12 дней назад

      Have you shaken out your joints and stretched well enough beforehand? Even if you're used to it your joints would pop at least a little bit from the accumulated gases inside.

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 12 дней назад

      @@purpletea3807 I sometimes get a few pops of shoulders but it's just like if get a painless click of toe or knee (would be gasses). I am carrying extra weight so gradually built up the strength by stretching most of weight into it over a period of weeks. Surprised at how much difference it makes, just a few seconds at a time, shake out then repeat.

  • @michellesabatinifornaro4859
    @michellesabatinifornaro4859 16 дней назад

    Sharing this is amazing. You are a special person, very brave and amazing insight.

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 16 дней назад

      thank you. It's a bit cringe but I happened to have a recording when I was off meds and in denial of the diagnosis.

  • @裕規四田
    @裕規四田 16 дней назад

    🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

  • @Ghoststories93
    @Ghoststories93 25 дней назад

    She’s hot 😅

  • @LegXacy
    @LegXacy 25 дней назад

    Hey the tissue box stand is a vibe tho lol, a ring light is a great investment, ever tried colour grading your outdoor shots? Videography is a really nice artform to mess around with

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 25 дней назад

      @@LegXacy The ring light comes with a clip for a phone but I hadn't attached it yet. It might work okay with the clip attached as low as possible, to avoid reflections in glasses. When I do my horizontal videos with a camera, I usually just rest the camera on some furniture. Been testing outdoor light for skintones. Still to write up a blog post and perhaps put some of my findings into a video. Thinking of making a DIY colour checker.

    • @LegXacy
      @LegXacy 25 дней назад

      @ that’d be interesting!

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 25 дней назад

      @@LegXacy I already know that cloud, sun overhead & shade are cool light. Near sunset and sunrise are warm light. Interested mainly in the neutral light in between.

  • @ErichRaeder
    @ErichRaeder 29 дней назад

    Xanthe, not sure if this should come as a surprise, on twitter, shellspectrum, myself and other former autism advocates including one who has a PHD decided to call out some neurodiversity activists because they were making extreme claims over teaching basic skills to autistic people be it children or adult as ‘ableist’, ‘racist’, ‘misogyny’ and etc. Interestingly they have now made a stalking campaign because the neurodiversity activists did not like being called out when people saw through their BS

  • @scaryspider365
    @scaryspider365 Месяц назад

    I had to giggle as I often say what I see instead of the word too, often with funny (to me!) results! Thank you for being here for others to see positive health and growth to wellbeing.❤

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage Месяц назад

      @@scaryspider365 thanks. I think I make up words on the spot too at times. I considered not adding anything further to this channel. Decided in the end to mainly focus on mental health maintenance including fitness going forward. My other creative expression channel is @soarpurpose if you want to check that out too.

  • @scaryspider365
    @scaryspider365 Месяц назад

    Well done on persisting so you get results, I am using you for inspo to get my brain to learn not to give up! Thank you for sharing your journey and your courage. Bravo! ❤

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage Месяц назад

      Thank you. I wasn't able to exercise other than gentle stretches for a few weeks with flu. So pleased to be back into it. I mainly exercise for mental health & mobility.

  • @minty7297
    @minty7297 Месяц назад

    You’ll get there

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage Месяц назад

      probably won't ever be able to do dips on them as very wide for me

  • @Brendiiii-jl5if
    @Brendiiii-jl5if Месяц назад

    Watching her behave the way she does is soo disturbing, I feel bad for her boys. And the blind support she receives from her weird stans is just as disturbing.

  • @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012
    @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012 Месяц назад

    I lost the weight while on meds, it's possible. Slow process, planning ahead with awareness of what I need to eat, not just eating because...fitness is key in combination with new nutrition goals... You will achieve your goals, smart small once you are better. Get well soon x

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage Месяц назад

      @@Ruuuuubeeeenst2012 I have a bit of a chocolate habit. I did manage to get down to 80kg a few years ago but weight went back on after some stressful events including the death of my father. It's always a work in progress.

  • @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012
    @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012 Месяц назад

    Your art is very special, wow!

  • @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012
    @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012 Месяц назад

    It's rough being out of routine, we totally need it to be well

  • @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012
    @Ruuuuubeeeenst2012 Месяц назад

    Hi 🙂 from Ireland

  • @LyndaBlackARtiSt
    @LyndaBlackARtiSt Месяц назад

    Yes, i am going thru bipolar burnout (mental, emotional & physical) right now. it's gonna take a very long time for me to recover - i'm just SO exhausted. Oh!! & me too - I'm an ARtiSt & creating ARt is fUN ♡, but it can be dangerous for me by easily causing burnout !!

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage Месяц назад

      @@LyndaBlackARtiSt yes I can get burnt out doing what I enjoy too

  • @nima_33
    @nima_33 2 месяца назад

    Hi, I really like your channel. I’m was dx with ADHD and Bipolar back in 1997 during an eight week hospitalization (I turned 18 in the hospital). I was hospitalized five times before age 21 and then recently here at 45. I take quetiapine and lamotrigine for Bipolar 1/Migraine w/Aura etc A lot of people think I have Autism, and I just tell them that the 1. ADHD can look like Autism. 2. I have psychotic features and that can include Autism, flat affect, speech disturbance and catatonia/stereotypy. It’s just that my mind has disintegrated finally.

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@nima_33 thanks for your feedback. Apparently bipolar & ADHD are a tough combination. Yes, you are right that diagnoses can look similar. Nothing is actually done about adult autism diagnosis, anyway.

  • @jroc2201
    @jroc2201 2 месяца назад

    Great😊🎉work!!!

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@jroc2201 thanks. Need to try align my spine/hips more. Can see when I watch the video. Doubt I will ever be able to do a full pull up but can support my weight now plus do supported pull-ups & rows.

    • @127twilson
      @127twilson 2 месяца назад

      ​@BipolarCourage You are very close to a full pull-up. You will be able to do one soon if you stay consistent.

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@127twilson I don't think so but can the muscles anyway with supported versions.

  • @pedromateus9575
    @pedromateus9575 2 месяца назад

    You don't sing? a voice would be nice there

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@pedromateus9575 I like to sing. Friend taught me some simple bass parts for 2 songs. I didn't actually know what the songs were at this stage.

  • @benjaminsoro4554
    @benjaminsoro4554 2 месяца назад

    Sound like moldy peaches 😊

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@benjaminsoro4554 so generic that could be anything.

  • @Диванная.илита
    @Диванная.илита 2 месяца назад

    Doggy thinks you have a really big stick

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@Диванная.илита well she hasn't crunched it yet. Her owners say she loves music.

  • @pedromateus9575
    @pedromateus9575 2 месяца назад

    You should go to some dance classes, you got some moves 😄

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      @@pedromateus9575 just making it up as going along

  • @SarahDawesFilms
    @SarahDawesFilms 2 месяца назад

    I can relate to this so much 😂😂😂😂😂😂

  • @nickybrown4266
    @nickybrown4266 2 месяца назад

    Do you live alone?

    • @BipolarCourage
      @BipolarCourage 2 месяца назад

      flatmates. Can't afford to live alone. Probably wouldn't be very good for me anyway.

  • @Hot-Tottie
    @Hot-Tottie 2 месяца назад

    I know exactly how you feel its a really deep... dark empty place. Thank you and keep going😊❤i just realized i maybe bipolar.are you on meds?

  • @keymeter1917
    @keymeter1917 2 месяца назад

    Much appreciated!🥰💜

  • @Beaumirabel
    @Beaumirabel 2 месяца назад

    Great video