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It's a mind & body disconnect. Mind goes offline. I can make a video about it. Everyone can do it mildly when tired. I did it severely (PTSD symptom when as severe as I had). Now usually more moderately after years of treatment.

@@BipolarCourage Thank you!

@@pedromateus9575 recorded. Will upload soon. I don't usually edit videos as too mentally demanding to.

@@BipolarCourage You're so nice thank you

@@jenlovesthisstuff thank you for your personalised feedback. The books are quite different but Pet Purpose was especially challenging as it's a blend of fiction & memoir (and I forget what I just wrote or said). Diagnoses have turned into a joke with those who got by fine (their own admissions) for decades before claiming autism & ADHD diagnoses. Have seen some admit to exaggerating in assessments. Seems to backfire at times though as they might end up with a more stigmatised diagnosis such as personality disorder. PTSD is now currently being watered down. Seems lots of assessors are also going along with this diluting down of diagnoses. Or people carefully shop around for "affirming" ones (who aren't necessarily clinicians).

I wasn't when recorded the video but have been since.

And btw, please Share your music playlist , I love your musics

@@pedromateus9575 I like going for a dip in the lake in summer but I an not a fan of swimming laps. Plus there's the extra costs. So I go for free exercise like walking.

I joke I am "certifiably crazy"

Thanks for your feedback

Can be either. How about not bossing people around?

yes, a Kiwi. Thanks. I since extended it with my own design.

@@BipolarCourage I might copy you - I do not have tattoos but that is so clever and poignant. I hope you are doing well and thanks for responding.

@@leonbeale5431 tattoos were definitely a mood and trauma thing for me

And eat the damn chocolate!!!! 👏👏👏👏👏

@@emmaburgess7535 I did. Then managed to have a bit of casserole later

talked to my sister. Worked out there's been too much on for me lately (probably made worse by only half of one of my meds until get my script).

@@BipolarCourage good. Talking, eating, sleeping, proper medication. That’s that is required. Onwards. 👏👏👏👏 Sleep well. Walk tomorrow.

@@emmaburgess7535 light sleep again with less meds because I didn't realise I was low on meds until I filled my weekly meds holder. Notification this morning that script has been sent to the pharmacy. I expect is half the issue, combined with overdoing things plus some triggers.

Any form of creative expression is therapeutic

@BipolarCourage I feeling a bit lost in my ability to process emotions in a positive way. I been trying crafts collages,painting etc. Not particularly gifted in those áreas but it is a method. But what I have been craving lately is dance or some form of expression using my body because my emotional pain feels stuck in my body somehow

@@NaturallyGourgeous movement to music helps. Doesn't matter if skilled or gifted or whatever. What matters is if it helps.

Thank you

No, I was actually amused.

Yes, people can do things that are out of character in a mood episode. Might also be something else tangled in (might meet criteria for other diagnosis). Or might have trauma or attachment issues when push loved ones away.

@@BipolarCourage. Thank you for commenting. I appreciate it. I believe you are correct. Perhaps some elements of narcissism can be at play as well. It feels very much like a narcissist discard from research I have done.

@@rockybalboa4593 possibly. Elevated mood with bipolar can seem narcissistic. There's probably multiple things going on.

I love my carbs too much to try keto. But some people say it helps with their various medical issues. I am diagnosed coeliac disease and have been strictly gluten-free for over 15 years.

@@BipolarCourage you are probably addicted to carbs. I thought I would find it too difficult but the positive benefits have made it very easy for me to continue.

@@Jo-ys4bp possibly but we all have a vice of some kind. I don't drink or smoke.

From medical profession?

@@BipolarCourage Yep! Not specifically gaslit or dismissed relating to mood disorders, but being neurodivergent and having experienced those situations while trying to get diagnosed for a new invisible injury (mild TBI/concussion). A neurologist tried convincing me that I'm dissociating and that I don't have lasting neurological damage from the car crash when in fact I'm very self aware and know how I feel when dissociating. Her forcing that opinion on me as truth (during a very vulnerable time) had me convinced it was all psychological and that I was suffering from DP/DR. In turn, I took that diagnosis and formed it into my identity whilst ignoring other possibilities for what my condition was. Quite aggravating. Thanks for sharing your stories online. ❤️✌️

@@hrdcpy I've had so many diagnoses over the years (some I see as pretty pointless) that I don't see any as my entire identity now. As for dismissal, one time I told a GP I had never seen before that I had a bladder infection (I has been told so by a guest doctor when visiting a tropical island). This GP begrudgingly did tests & before results came back, she said "you are a hypercondriac". Then later she phoned me, with an apology and said to collect a script. Tests confirmed that I did have a bladder infection.

@@BipolarCourage That's so aggravating to hear how you've been treated by medical professionals. It makes you wonder why it's like this and what can be done to promote a positive change.

@@hrdcpy most doctors I have seen by have been decent & professional. Some have been terrible. What is scary is the amount of power they can have.

I use external silicon earplugs when I need to for some quiet (although never really quiet & some things then become horrible like brushing teeth). Use music (headphones or earbuds) as an escape if anything is annoying or making me feel anxious.

Ah, you know my name means yellow (or golden).

@@BipolarCourage Yep, I heard you mention in a recent video. 🟡

Yes, it's on Amazon & some major ebook distributors. Can drive a car but it can be unsafe to. From my perspective, I needed to discharge huge amounts of energy & destroying symbolic objects felt therapeutic (even though it scared my family). The novel is a combination of memoir & fiction. I gave the main character the same primary diagnoses as me. (Stomping on a smoke alarm recently was frustration with sleep deprivation. Would have destroyed it it didn't have radioactive stuff). Links to books are on my website (in bio).

Nah just this one for a week. Sealed unit & no off switch & can't remove battery

Who the hell commented this because I didn't. especially two hours ago... @@BipolarCourage

@@fridgebean-bm4yv dunno but it wasn't me

Sorry my brother was on this account@@BipolarCourage

@@fridgebean-bm4yv oh well, glad you figured it out. The annoying alarm is now gone.

Hopefully you will find my channel helpful. I like hypomania & pretty much avoid mania these days with meds, processing trauma, only working part time, time out in nature.

Nope. It was in denial of bipolar 1 diagnosis. Was processing trauma my own way. Didn't get on film just before sedated by psychiatrist. My mother had to care for me. Otherwise would have to be in hospital.

I have had several hours of assessments & evaluations by multiple clinicians. Most of my impairment is from a mental injury of PTSD (avoidance & shutdown presentation). With bipolar disorder (type 1) tangled in. Treated & managed best they can. They set each other off so I can have hyperarousal with mood yet also be mostly shut down. Which is like sticking a lid on a geyser, so extra stress.

Washed my hair. Intend to get out for a walk in a quiet place today. I work up to 2 hours per day so trying to recharge as much as I can. While irritable (reminded of why I quit advocacy).

Managed to clean out most of the scrap paper with random notes & receipt that have been avoiding for months. If there is one positive about mixed mood, it is being ruthless about getting rid of stuff that don't need.

I have spoken about it in other videos. Don't want to go into it here.

No the mania is real. The different parts are improvised (was in denial of bipolar diagnosis & was processing trauma creatively). Didn't get on camera the 48 hours or so before sedated by a psychiatrist as was too busy anxiously destroying stuff to "kill the angel of death". I wrote what the experience was like in my semiautobiographical novel Pet Purpose: Your Unspoken Voice. The psychiatric hospital & mania parts in the second half of the book are nearly full memoir. I had to piece it together later from video footage, photos, journal scribbles.

@@BipolarCourage Hi is your novel Pet Purpose: Your Unspoken Voice on Amazon Kindle? When you were destroying things are you consciously aware of it? Crushing things, stepping on things, throwing things, sledge hammering stuff and so on? Trying to "kill the angel of death" as you said. Can those with Bipolar drive a car? Take care you are very brave. :)

Was actually therapeutic. Processing trauma metaphorically.

It can be really helpful, healing and cathartic.

@@wuijck exactly. It's not destroying other people's stuff randomly. It's a deliberate form of release.

@@BipolarCourage good for you!!

Not keen on religious stuff, having being heavily immersed in it growing up

Channeling Britney's energy

Thank you for your kind feedback. It's nice to know my efforts made a difference.

Thanks. A psychiatrist who since assessed me said I am on the autism spectrum with clinically significant autism spectrum features but considers ms below threshold for ASD. Clinicians still consider my primary diagnoses to be bipolar 1 & PTSD, even after treatment (meds, therapy).

Kinda cringe. I won't get a navel piercing again as it wouldn't heal so hurt when bumped it.

Some viewers have asked if I'm Australian.

Thanks you. It can be a triggering & stressful time of year. I wrote a blog post about how I got through the stress of it, on my own. On soarpurpose.com under blog tab.

Yes the poverty mindset is what they encourage. Would make more sense to be able to save a buffer for emergencies.