Finally my city. Sometimes I walk in the rain just to get my thoughts off my mind. It’s odd how you pass so many people but only be thinking about one in particular.
I wish I lived In nyc and just had so much freedom and space to walk around and do things. You have no idea how trapped I feel here even though I live in a first world country, everything feels way too conservative. It’s like Alabama or something
In the city of dreams... Yet I can't sleep... The nightmares keep their gleam... They're mine to keep... The streets are packed with people... My streets are full of roadblocks... All the detours lead to the same place... Back to my pillow soaked in teardrops... It's not that I'm tired... It's not that I'm exhausted... I just feel like I've lost it... My will to live that burned like fire... The soft thunder knocks on my bedroom window... The cars honk at each other down below... The stars drown in the city's glow... The city of dreams that forgot me long ago... "Raining in New York"
I had a view like that, but then we had to move to shitty Orlando, I used to live in Shanghai, and I had the best view, I could see all of the city from my bedroom
You can't believe you made it. After years of growing up in a middle class home with fridge magnets that tell you stories of this city that is supposed to be magic of its own. You open your eyes to feel tears roll down, this, this is the feeling you've chased your entire life. You see it all: the hope in their eyes, magic on the street, the hustle of the world. You think as you unwind on your bed: "This is beautiful." A slow melody plays in your head, you sip your warm coffee as the earliest rains of the city begin. You look out the window to see tall buildings of a city that never sleeps, but yet you feel so calm. This, This is what you've been waiting for. This is it: It's raining in New York.
I've always wanted to live in a high building or place where I can see the whole city below me especiallh at night time while listening to lofi and thinking about life and sht.
Random human being I used to live in a penthouse in Shanghai, I could see the whole damn city from my bedroom window, but then we moved to shitty Orlando, where everything is so suburban and stuff, I am so annoyed
@@yoyoflamingo5966 wow you are really lucky I have family in China but I only visit them in during summertime. I wish I had the opportunity to live in a fine city in back in China or in Japan :)
Sometimes all we need is a bed 🛌 just like in the picture , near the window. Sound of the rain and a music like this 🎵 so we can hear the sound of our souls. ☮️ peace ☮️
Sitting alone in your room with your head against your headboard thinking of all the memories you can. This type of music with a storm outside your window is all you need to find inner peace. 💖
JaeLynn Morris no doubt. Its nice just to sit back and vibe to this beat. Its raining where i am now and this music is just so warm and inviting. Definitely can relate
amazing track!takes me back 2 years ago where i used to talk to girl for like 5 hours.well were no more together now and i kinda miss her but she is nomore into me. i really feel sad i think i have no one. nevermind gr8 track tho.
Do you ever just listen to music and think of things that never happened? Lofi music- it gives me just a sad nostalgic vibe, as if I’m floating out in space and looking out at all my memories, previous lives, and places I’ve been before, just reaching my hand out to it all as it grows further away from my reach. It makes me sad- sad about nothing and everything at the same time. The range of emotions I feel is almost odd- the first time I ever listened to lofi mixes was when I was alone in my room. My mom and brother were fighting, and I was curled up in bed and crying, going through playlists on youtube with my headphones in. It just gave me such an odd range of emotions- I was sad, but happy, nostalgic feeling, and overall felt an odd sense of calm. It was weird, but I liked it. No one is probably ever going to read this, I’m just a seventh grader writing on a school laptop instead of doing work and reminiscing old times, but it’s still a comfort to write this. When I was younger I kept a lot of diaries and vented to them a lot, but I was never to get everything fully in it without my hand starting to hurt, and me just overall giving up. It’s nice being able to type this all out. I keep up so many personalities, one for school, one for the girl I love, one for home, one with my friends, one for online- it’s so hard to keep track of them I’ve forgotten which one is actually me. Jay and Kira know me as Bee, Strawberry knows me as alec along with everyone else in the writing group, Kristen and Mia know me as a sad memory- It’s stupid that I’m upset over all of this but it just brings a tear to my eye I guess. I look at other kids in the classroom- they all have nice clothes, they’re pretty, nice phones and parents, friends, and a great life at home. I can’t help but to feel envious and it’s gotten to the point where I harshly judge these people against my better will without thinking. ‘She has nice clothes- she must be spoiled’ or ‘look at his mom, taking the time out of her day to pick up her child from school. Kids are so spoiled’ just all little things like that. Intrusive thoughts I can’t help. And although it’s true, a lot of the kids I envy are mean and spoiled, but not all of them can be like that- right? It’s the same thing with my brother- he’s the older one. He’s the handsome one. He has all As, he’s already in college and can graduate early even though it’s just his second year. He’s better looking than me, doesn’t get into trouble, has a girlfriend, and has his life completely together. He’s perfect and I’m the problem child. I’ve always been the crummy daughter who likes to draw instead of studying, who’s failing math and history, the stupid one that ‘has nothing better to do than mope around’. For God’s sake, I can’t even order my own food at a restaurant without tensing up and feeling like crying. School is one of the major things that distracts me from those kinds of things- and now that I’m in middle school I feel myself being judged even more harshly for the things I wear. It’s not even that we’re the lower class- we’re a nice family (or so it seems to others) who can easily afford all the nice things that everyone else in the class is wearing- except for that girl with gucci slides. Yet even so I wear old hand me downs and unstylish clothes. I’m not complaining though! I love wearing the nicely fitting, baggy vintage shirts. They’re my pride and joy. I just feel like I’m constantly being judged for them- hell I’ve already received comments on what I wear. I’m put into a lower class than the other kids because I act different from them. And yeah, there’s definately my friends who are really nice, like Taj, Maddy, and Vanessa, but even so I still think they judge me. The only reason they even hang out with me is because I run up to them everyday. If I disapeared or switched classes, they wouldn’t even notice that I was gone. They would just keep talking and laughing about silly things. We’re teenagers, that’s what we do. Has anyone else ever thought that people our age act stupidly because of the adults that raised us? I always see older generations, usually parents, complaining how their kid is attatched to their phone, etc. For starters, I only go to my phone as a distraction to everything else I’m feeling- and if I could have all the people I talk to right next to me and there with me, I would take that over any phone I could receive. BUt back onto the topics of other kids and not me, the older generation is the one that raised us. Don’t want your kid addicted to their phone? Maybe you should’ve never given them one at such a young age. You don’t like it when your child talks back to you? Give them a spanking. Some of these kids here have never gotten a beating before and it really shows- well of course I don’t wish upon the things I go through onto them, they just need a spanking is all. I think the older generations need to learn to shut up. They call us snowflakes yet if a child states their own opinion that’s goes against their religious beliefs, they absolutely lose their minds. Parents are the snowflakes- they’re the ones that created this mess and don’t bother to pick it up. Instead they whine, whine, whine, and whine. My mom always tells me that I’m a little brat- but part of does disagree. I’ve seen kids outright scream at their parents and not get a single yell back or hit in response, yet if I even have what my mom can consider sass in my tone of voice, she’ll threaten to beat me to no end. It’s dumb, and I want to say something back to her, I want to tell her what other kids do, but I know that will get me the belt right away. It’s stupid. All of it is stupid. But hey, what do you know. You’re just someone who got into my google account and decided to read this sad mess of a child’s mind. I spent thirty minutes writing three pages of me complaining about my life. I hate it. I hate it all. I hate being the problem child, the weirdo of the class (according to Hannah- I don’t understand why she hates me. A lot of people hate me yet never have tried to talk to me once. It makes me really think about what vibes I give off to people to make them hate me. Faith is the same way too, she probably hates me. No- she does hate me. She’s said it to my face and with no reason.) Damn it all. To hell with my homophobic parents- there’s no way I’m ever going to come out as pansexual to them- none the less there’s no way I’m coming out as trans. They would disown me- put me out on the streets. They call being trans a mental illness- and although dysphoria is an actual mental thing that happens to people- I doubt they would listen to me if I tried to explain anything. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling the sudden urge to vomit. I hate this female body and they won’t even let me cut my hair short. There’s no way I’m ever going to pass like Brandon or Charlie or Lee could. They’re all masculine looking, meanwhile I look like a nine year old girl. I can’t name the number on the times I’ve been in the shower and felt the sudden urge to vomit or cry just looking at my body. It’s not that I want to be trans for the purpose of being ‘cute’ or ‘quirky’ like other girls say. If I could wake up the next day a cisgendered male, I would probably cry tears of joy. I can’t count the number of nights I’ve stayed up crying. I can’t really tell anyone about this- and although Lee and Charlie both know about my identity, telling them about my feelings would be too much for them to handle. I’ve vented to Charlie before- he cares. He really does. But I just don’t want to worry him. And there’s no way in hell I’m going to resort to my mom. You know when you tell your parents something upon your own free will about your life and they yell at you for it? My mom would do that if I told her how I feel. She’d probably say ‘oh I’ve had it worse’ or talk about other kids that have worse lives than me. She went through my phone once and read my text messages to my friends and me venting. You know what she did? Complained about being a single mom, how she had it worse, and how she hated me for complaining to other people about what happens at home. She’s trying her best, I know, but I also know that she doesn’t really care. No one does. Corky will insult me right to my face and although he probably doesn’t know it hurts me, I go in my room and cry. I cry a lot. They always ask why I stay in my room all day and ridicule me for it, but’s really because I don’t want to deal with them. I love them. I really do love them a lot- they’re my parents. They just make me feel like shit all the time is all. I’m just a random person in the comment section though- what would you know?
reading your comment reminded me of when i was a kid coping with emotional abuse and an unstable home life. i was scared of coming out to my parents as bisexual. they expressed disappointment in my “masculine” interests and choices of clothing several times before learning to accept it. i was considered less fortunate in a pool of privileged classmates. talking to people was never easy until i learned to stop caring about judgement. i also learned that i’m comfortable being alone and that’s okay, because being alone is far better than sticking around people that don’t genuinely care about my well-being. i’ve been diagnosed with depression and i’ve had suicide on the brain a countless number of times. i’ve even been stupid enough to harm myself in more ways than one. the thing is? i’m alive. when i was your age, i honestly didn’t think i’d live to turn 18. just take it day by day, and no matter how hard it is, try not to compare yourself to others. older generations are oftentimes annoying, but young people are the foundation for change. maybe try to remember that when they get on your nerves lol. (one thing, though: using capital punishment on children doesn’t work. spanking has been proven to be an ineffective method of discipline.) i know i’m just some rando on the internet, but i hope my words helped you or someone else even a little bit.
This background is seriously breathtaking! Maybe I am extremely overthinking the image, but makes me think of how (social) media makes us think we need to have this epic life with cars, money, women, parties, unusual events etc., but at the end of the day, after seeing all these pictures and videos of highlights, we all go to our normal routine like 99.9% of us people do, and at the end of the day, when going to bed, we should be able to go to bed peaceful in our own mind and body happy with who we are before starting the next day.
Takes me back to those nights when I'm just thinking on my bed and the streetlight is shining through my window. All I do is just remember the past and wonder how a choice may change my future.
Did we all live the same lives? For me the choice was what would’ve happened if I didn’t let me mom influence my happiness. What if I stayed with my dad in nyc.
then music can connect you with your other self from other realities and universes. They had those memories and through music those memories can be shared among all of yous
Looking through these comments, they're all from 1 year ago. I'll say something from this month, because people there need it. If you're in New York during this time, during this virus, please stay safe. We've already lost a lot of people in New York and across the world as well. Stay safe, Stay hydrated, wash your hands, wash your entire body. Stay inside, stay away from people, and just listen to Lo-Fi music by yourself or with your family. Relax, starve this virus out.
8 months late but thank your for this.I live in the Times Square and it’s really bad here.Trying to stay safe and luckily none of my family members have covid.Just hoping this will end soon
@@aaronsantiago7062 Don't worry. There's a vaccine with a 90% success rate coming out. My mom works as a surgeon and says that they're next in line to get it.
to everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus to everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. to everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. when you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. to everyone who is drawing, you got this. you're art is amazing. keep your head up (or down, depends on where your paper is) and remember that you matter. i love you all
I used to live in New York City, I loved it there the freedom to be whoever you want, the odd sense of calmness even in a busy city like New York (especially on rainy days). My family moved out to Long Island, it’s okay here but it’s not the same. Everyone here looks the same, you can’t act or dress how you want without being judged. Here I don’t feel the sense of calmness I did back in the city I feel stressed and unhappy. I miss my friends, I miss my old school, I miss the memories. I miss New York.
It’s so crowded and very impersonal though. you’re literally one in millions and that’s scary for me, as a very anxious person, I’ve always had massive love for the city and it’s aesthetic but those things keep me from going really
ProMrLecoq01 I know this sounds weird but it’s very personal, yeah there’s a lot of people but I found that there’s a stronger sense of community more than any rural town in America could ever be. I knew the person I got coffee from, I knew the manager of the grocery store in nyc I’d shop at. I knew everyone I came in contact with from day to day and made so many friends that way. I had 236 people in my phone book just from talking to people every day and making new friends. When a massive flood hit nyc while I was living there. People went out on bikes to make sure everyone was safe. It’s a wonderful place and I have horrible anxiety but not in nyc that’s only place it disappears for me. Try it sometime you might like it.
Gotta love how those raindrops in the window cast shadows over the bed (and how the lightning sound was actually preceded by a flash in the drawing, beautiful detail).
ive been listening to lofi and scrolling through the comments for almost 2 hours now and its nearly 3am. I find it relaxing to read about other peoples stories and comments, its like peering through a window into someone elses life even if most of the comments are from a year or two ago.
Just trying to have a good usual day, while listening to music, trying to avoid remembering how useless i'm, all the fails, all the shits i'm going through... Have a nice day too !
Another amazing song by bootleg boy thank you for making another raining in .... there always peaceful and pleasant to listen to and some comfort when needed your an artist that I always come back to when I need to think about something or when I'm dealing with something hard but that is life but thank you for making it easier for me your music has helped me through a lot and still does so keep doing what you love. So thank you once again and have a good one to anyone reading this
This is what is keeping me sane throughout this pandemic. I wished I would've discovered this song sooner. I can't explain how safe this song makes me feel. If only people could make me feel the same, because it is definitely a spiritual feeling that I never want to stop feeling.
People always say that the weather is bad when it’s raining. But to be fair I love it more then anything. It’s so soothing and relaxing... lovely background and lovely mix
Always find myself coming back to this playlist. Not only do I live in the New York State (Long Island) but I love listening to this on those cold winter nights where you can taste the ice in the air...
I do really love this community and lofi club, it has the best people ever that i never meet in real life, all these beautiful comments and amazing people
dude i love the lofi community so much 🤧 like every time i see a comment of someone sharing personal experiences or talking about how they are feeling i always expect at least one hateful reply but there never is.. just people looking out for each other ❤️ i love you guys
“She had no idea what the future would hold for any of them, beyond possibilities as infinite as the stars. And really, that was enough.” ― Melissa Landers, Starflight
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Finally RAINING IN NEW YORK, where do you want it to be next time? ☔
Listen to the other RAINING mixes here - bit.ly/2Ulw6u9
Can you please do Los Angeles :)
the bootleg boy raining in Chicago
Mexico lol
Raining in Las Vegas por favor
Hungary please :)
I just want to jump into this vid and stay here forever.
Same here!!
Com Truise maybe that’s what heaven is like where we bend our realities ♥️😓
And stare at window...to see the colourful street lights 💕
Com Truise ME TOOOOO!!!
Your comment brought tears to my eyes and made my heart stop hurting.
Finally my city. Sometimes I walk in the rain just to get my thoughts off my mind. It’s odd how you pass so many people but only be thinking about one in particular.
i hope i could meet you one day
Yo same bro
How's that odd please explain smh or is you trying to be edgy
I wish I lived In nyc and just had so much freedom and space to walk around and do things. You have no idea how trapped I feel here even though I live in a first world country, everything feels way too conservative. It’s like Alabama or something
@@ProMrLecoq01 lol NYC is crowded and dangerous to walk around
In the city of dreams...
Yet I can't sleep...
The nightmares keep their gleam...
They're mine to keep...
The streets are packed with people...
My streets are full of roadblocks...
All the detours lead to the same place...
Back to my pillow soaked in teardrops...
It's not that I'm tired...
It's not that I'm exhausted...
I just feel like I've lost it...
My will to live that burned like fire...
The soft thunder knocks on my bedroom window...
The cars honk at each other down below...
The stars drown in the city's glow...
The city of dreams that forgot me long ago...
"Raining in New York"
Beautiful man🖤✨
wow.... this is really good
Beautifully written. The figurative language there is astounding, and the rhyme scheme is simply suspenseful and good. Thank you.
@@naiyakin This is the best feedback I've ever had. Thank you so much!
damn
*_I needed this._*
These "Raining in Places" videos are the reasons why I live.
Same brother, keep it up. It will be better if u do something for it 🙏
No the reason why YOU live is because you deserves it ..
People who love n cares bout YOU need you.. and this video needs you too to be viewed ..
Same.
Izv Isv grammar...
I could only pray for a bed next to a view like that
ideal bedroom view. Basically heaven
spiderman vibes
I can sleep on the bed
I had a view like that, but then we had to move to shitty Orlando, I used to live in Shanghai, and I had the best view, I could see all of the city from my bedroom
As long as you’re praying to Jesus, keep it up.
You can't believe you made it.
After years of growing up in a middle class home with fridge magnets that tell you stories of this city that is supposed to be magic of its own.
You open your eyes to feel tears roll down, this, this is the feeling you've chased your entire life.
You see it all: the hope in their eyes, magic on the street, the hustle of the world.
You think as you unwind on your bed: "This is beautiful."
A slow melody plays in your head, you sip your warm coffee as the earliest rains of the city begin.
You look out the window to see tall buildings of a city that never sleeps, but yet you feel so calm.
This,
This is what you've been waiting for.
This is it:
It's raining in New York.
I want to like this a billion times
Wow you left me speechless
Thank you❤️
I just love the aesthetics. Keep up the amazing work; it's highly appreciated!
I've always wanted to live in a high building or place where I can see the whole city below me especiallh at night time while listening to lofi and thinking about life and sht.
Random human being I used to live in a penthouse in Shanghai, I could see the whole damn city from my bedroom window, but then we moved to shitty Orlando, where everything is so suburban and stuff, I am so annoyed
T H E S A M E 😭😔👌
@@yoyoflamingo5966 wow you are really lucky I have family in China but I only visit them in during summertime. I wish I had the opportunity to live in a fine city in back in China or in Japan :)
thats not a very fun thing to think about D:
perfect!! 🌧️
This comment is like keanu on the subway. Love your ig profile btw
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Sometimes all we need is a bed 🛌 just like in the picture , near the window. Sound of the rain and a music like this 🎵 so we can hear the sound of our souls.
☮️ peace ☮️
Gangsters-Avenue fuck yeah bro 🔥
Can't agree more bro
thats ideal
totally agree
My room is exactly like this except I'm on the second floor..
Sitting alone in your room with your head against your headboard thinking of all the memories you can. This type of music with a storm outside your window is all you need to find inner peace. 💖
JaeLynn Morris no doubt. Its nice just to sit back and vibe to this beat. Its raining where i am now and this music is just so warm and inviting. Definitely can relate
Amen
it’s an honor to be a part of this mix, thank you bootleg
your track is great!
@@also307 thank u
amazing track!takes me back 2 years ago where i used to talk to girl for like 5 hours.well were no more together now and i kinda miss her but she is nomore into me.
i really feel sad i think i have no one.
nevermind
gr8 track tho.
hi there!! im a huge fan. your track Sweet Dreams really is a true delight. keep uo the good work 💜
Amazing track!
Do you ever just listen to music and think of things that never happened? Lofi music- it gives me just a sad nostalgic vibe, as if I’m floating out in space and looking out at all my memories, previous lives, and places I’ve been before, just reaching my hand out to it all as it grows further away from my reach. It makes me sad- sad about nothing and everything at the same time.
The range of emotions I feel is almost odd- the first time I ever listened to lofi mixes was when I was alone in my room. My mom and brother were fighting, and I was curled up in bed and crying, going through playlists on youtube with my headphones in. It just gave me such an odd range of emotions- I was sad, but happy, nostalgic feeling, and overall felt an odd sense of calm. It was weird, but I liked it.
No one is probably ever going to read this, I’m just a seventh grader writing on a school laptop instead of doing work and reminiscing old times, but it’s still a comfort to write this. When I was younger I kept a lot of diaries and vented to them a lot, but I was never to get everything fully in it without my hand starting to hurt, and me just overall giving up. It’s nice being able to type this all out.
I keep up so many personalities, one for school, one for the girl I love, one for home, one with my friends, one for online- it’s so hard to keep track of them I’ve forgotten which one is actually me. Jay and Kira know me as Bee, Strawberry knows me as alec along with everyone else in the writing group, Kristen and Mia know me as a sad memory-
It’s stupid that I’m upset over all of this but it just brings a tear to my eye I guess.
I look at other kids in the classroom- they all have nice clothes, they’re pretty, nice phones and parents, friends, and a great life at home. I can’t help but to feel envious and it’s gotten to the point where I harshly judge these people against my better will without thinking. ‘She has nice clothes- she must be spoiled’ or ‘look at his mom, taking the time out of her day to pick up her child from school. Kids are so spoiled’ just all little things like that. Intrusive thoughts I can’t help. And although it’s true, a lot of the kids I envy are mean and spoiled, but not all of them can be like that- right?
It’s the same thing with my brother- he’s the older one. He’s the handsome one. He has all As, he’s already in college and can graduate early even though it’s just his second year. He’s better looking than me, doesn’t get into trouble, has a girlfriend, and has his life completely together. He’s perfect and I’m the problem child. I’ve always been the crummy daughter who likes to draw instead of studying, who’s failing math and history, the stupid one that ‘has nothing better to do than mope around’. For God’s sake, I can’t even order my own food at a restaurant without tensing up and feeling like crying. School is one of the major things that distracts me from those kinds of things- and now that I’m in middle school I feel myself being judged even more harshly for the things I wear.
It’s not even that we’re the lower class- we’re a nice family (or so it seems to others) who can easily afford all the nice things that everyone else in the class is wearing- except for that girl with gucci slides. Yet even so I wear old hand me downs and unstylish clothes. I’m not complaining though! I love wearing the nicely fitting, baggy vintage shirts. They’re my pride and joy. I just feel like I’m constantly being judged for them- hell I’ve already received comments on what I wear. I’m put into a lower class than the other kids because I act different from them. And yeah, there’s definately my friends who are really nice, like Taj, Maddy, and Vanessa, but even so I still think they judge me. The only reason they even hang out with me is because I run up to them everyday. If I disapeared or switched classes, they wouldn’t even notice that I was gone. They would just keep talking and laughing about silly things.
We’re teenagers, that’s what we do.
Has anyone else ever thought that people our age act stupidly because of the adults that raised us? I always see older generations, usually parents, complaining how their kid is attatched to their phone, etc. For starters, I only go to my phone as a distraction to everything else I’m feeling- and if I could have all the people I talk to right next to me and there with me, I would take that over any phone I could receive. BUt back onto the topics of other kids and not me, the older generation is the one that raised us. Don’t want your kid addicted to their phone? Maybe you should’ve never given them one at such a young age. You don’t like it when your child talks back to you? Give them a spanking.
Some of these kids here have never gotten a beating before and it really shows- well of course I don’t wish upon the things I go through onto them, they just need a spanking is all. I think the older generations need to learn to shut up. They call us snowflakes yet if a child states their own opinion that’s goes against their religious beliefs, they absolutely lose their minds. Parents are the snowflakes- they’re the ones that created this mess and don’t bother to pick it up. Instead they whine, whine, whine, and whine.
My mom always tells me that I’m a little brat- but part of does disagree. I’ve seen kids outright scream at their parents and not get a single yell back or hit in response, yet if I even have what my mom can consider sass in my tone of voice, she’ll threaten to beat me to no end. It’s dumb, and I want to say something back to her, I want to tell her what other kids do, but I know that will get me the belt right away. It’s stupid. All of it is stupid.
But hey, what do you know. You’re just someone who got into my google account and decided to read this sad mess of a child’s mind. I spent thirty minutes writing three pages of me complaining about my life. I hate it. I hate it all.
I hate being the problem child, the weirdo of the class (according to Hannah- I don’t understand why she hates me. A lot of people hate me yet never have tried to talk to me once. It makes me really think about what vibes I give off to people to make them hate me. Faith is the same way too, she probably hates me. No- she does hate me. She’s said it to my face and with no reason.) Damn it all.
To hell with my homophobic parents- there’s no way I’m ever going to come out as pansexual to them- none the less there’s no way I’m coming out as trans. They would disown me- put me out on the streets. They call being trans a mental illness- and although dysphoria is an actual mental thing that happens to people- I doubt they would listen to me if I tried to explain anything.
I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling the sudden urge to vomit. I hate this female body and they won’t even let me cut my hair short. There’s no way I’m ever going to pass like Brandon or Charlie or Lee could. They’re all masculine looking, meanwhile I look like a nine year old girl. I can’t name the number on the times I’ve been in the shower and felt the sudden urge to vomit or cry just looking at my body. It’s not that I want to be trans for the purpose of being ‘cute’ or ‘quirky’ like other girls say. If I could wake up the next day a cisgendered male, I would probably cry tears of joy. I can’t count the number of nights I’ve stayed up crying.
I can’t really tell anyone about this- and although Lee and Charlie both know about my identity, telling them about my feelings would be too much for them to handle. I’ve vented to Charlie before- he cares. He really does. But I just don’t want to worry him.
And there’s no way in hell I’m going to resort to my mom. You know when you tell your parents something upon your own free will about your life and they yell at you for it? My mom would do that if I told her how I feel. She’d probably say ‘oh I’ve had it worse’ or talk about other kids that have worse lives than me. She went through my phone once and read my text messages to my friends and me venting.
You know what she did?
Complained about being a single mom, how she had it worse, and how she hated me for complaining to other people about what happens at home.
She’s trying her best, I know, but I also know that she doesn’t really care. No one does. Corky will insult me right to my face and although he probably doesn’t know it hurts me, I go in my room and cry. I cry a lot.
They always ask why I stay in my room all day and ridicule me for it, but’s really because I don’t want to deal with them. I love them. I really do love them a lot- they’re my parents.
They just make me feel like shit all the time is all. I’m just a random person in the comment section though- what would you know?
Wow ! Your comment really touched my soul, if you want, I’d like to talk to you on Instagram ☺️
@@sonofi0re sure my Instagram is @ g.ghostt
ghost prince it Will be fine
reading your comment reminded me of when i was a kid coping with emotional abuse and an unstable home life. i was scared of coming out to my parents as bisexual. they expressed disappointment in my “masculine” interests and choices of clothing several times before learning to accept it. i was considered less fortunate in a pool of privileged classmates. talking to people was never easy until i learned to stop caring about judgement. i also learned that i’m comfortable being alone and that’s okay, because being alone is far better than sticking around people that don’t genuinely care about my well-being. i’ve been diagnosed with depression and i’ve had suicide on the brain a countless number of times. i’ve even been stupid enough to harm myself in more ways than one. the thing is? i’m alive. when i was your age, i honestly didn’t think i’d live to turn 18. just take it day by day, and no matter how hard it is, try not to compare yourself to others. older generations are oftentimes annoying, but young people are the foundation for change. maybe try to remember that when they get on your nerves lol. (one thing, though: using capital punishment on children doesn’t work. spanking has been proven to be an ineffective method of discipline.) i know i’m just some rando on the internet, but i hope my words helped you or someone else even a little bit.
I live in NYC, and I FINALLY have a view like this ! Work hard, and never give up, and whatever it is that you want, is in the palm of your hands.
This background is seriously breathtaking!
Maybe I am extremely overthinking the image, but makes me think of how (social) media makes us think we need to have this epic life with cars, money, women, parties, unusual events etc., but at the end of the day, after seeing all these pictures and videos of highlights, we all go to our normal routine like 99.9% of us people do, and at the end of the day, when going to bed, we should be able to go to bed peaceful in our own mind and body happy with who we are before starting the next day.
my anxiety says otherwise
Your pfp is beautiful btw. Just a random compliment. Reminds me of James Bond for some reason.
Sitting here crying in my bed looking at the sealing, wishing my life was better.. this channel helps me heaps.. thanks
then take control. your life may be bad now, but it wont stay that way for long. we love you.
How are u? ❤️🦋
Takes me back to those nights when I'm just thinking on my bed and the streetlight is shining through my window. All I do is just remember the past and wonder how a choice may change my future.
I swear we all live similar ass lives lmao
Steven Richard fr this shit hits home
Did we all live the same lives? For me the choice was what would’ve happened if I didn’t let me mom influence my happiness. What if I stayed with my dad in nyc.
You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness
how so?
Gabriel Ramirez has beauty in it in a way its hard to explain but ik what he means
It's a special kind of inspiration..
And you feel everything more deeply.
Lofi is even better with a cup of sadness and the company of the Moonlight.
TΣΣN CRYSTΛL it’s called melancholy
This video is not sad at all. It portrays joy to me
This music remind me about memories that never happen
then music can connect you with your other self from other realities and universes. They had those memories and through music those memories can be shared among all of yous
Theirs a word for that in Welsh, I can't remember what it is right now but Google it if you want to know.
It's called dreams
You couldn't describe it a better way
You never fail in bringing the chill beats. Keep up the good work
As someone who was born and raised in NYC, this feels so soothing to listen to.
but the window tho, its not right
Shoutout the Andy’s room wallpaper 🤠
And his Pixar lamp
Looking through these comments, they're all from 1 year ago.
I'll say something from this month, because people there need it.
If you're in New York during this time, during this virus, please stay safe. We've already lost a lot of people in New York and across the world as well. Stay safe, Stay hydrated, wash your hands, wash your entire body. Stay inside, stay away from people, and just listen to Lo-Fi music by yourself or with your family. Relax, starve this virus out.
8 months late but thank your for this.I live in the Times Square and it’s really bad here.Trying to stay safe and luckily none of my family members have covid.Just hoping this will end soon
@@aaronsantiago7062 Don't worry. There's a vaccine with a 90% success rate coming out. My mom works as a surgeon and says that they're next in line to get it.
@@paintitblack4135 🤞🤞🤞🤞
@@paintitblack4135 Nice.
Loving them visuals mate 💜✨
HostileEnvironment blaze it 💕
This is still the best Raining In.... The mix, the picture, it's perfect
It's my favorite, I almost always come here
I live in N.Y. and i can say it is raining for me
Alannah Acevedo it definitely is
3AM is dawning. It is almost time, to celebrate resting those eyes whilst opening your ears.
Now, goodnight all, and may you find bliss.
to everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
to everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
to everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. when you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
to everyone who is drawing, you got this. you're art is amazing. keep your head up (or down, depends on where your paper is) and remember that you matter.
i love you all
Thank you.
Dang..thank you
I used to live in New York City, I loved it there the freedom to be whoever you want, the odd sense of calmness even in a busy city like New York (especially on rainy days). My family moved out to Long Island, it’s okay here but it’s not the same. Everyone here looks the same, you can’t act or dress how you want without being judged. Here I don’t feel the sense of calmness I did back in the city I feel stressed and unhappy. I miss my friends, I miss my old school, I miss the memories. I miss New York.
such a pretty place. would love to visit someday. i’ve heard it’s the place dreamers go and i guess i could call myself one of those.
It’s so crowded and very impersonal though. you’re literally one in millions and that’s scary for me, as a very anxious person, I’ve always had massive love for the city and it’s aesthetic but those things keep me from going really
ProMrLecoq01 I know this sounds weird but it’s very personal, yeah there’s a lot of people but I found that there’s a stronger sense of community more than any rural town in America could ever be. I knew the person I got coffee from, I knew the manager of the grocery store in nyc I’d shop at. I knew everyone I came in contact with from day to day and made so many friends that way. I had 236 people in my phone book just from talking to people every day and making new friends. When a massive flood hit nyc while I was living there. People went out on bikes to make sure everyone was safe. It’s a wonderful place and I have horrible anxiety but not in nyc that’s only place it disappears for me. Try it sometime you might like it.
Mee too
Gotta love how those raindrops in the window cast shadows over the bed (and how the lightning sound was actually preceded by a flash in the drawing, beautiful detail).
Yeah man, walking from Washington square to central park and back at 1am when it’s raining is the most wonderful thing!
I know exactly what you mean and yes it is. This city really never sleeps and that’s what I love about it.
I'm hoping one day I'll stare at one of these pictures so long I teleport into it.
ive been listening to lofi and scrolling through the comments for almost 2 hours now and its nearly 3am. I find it relaxing to read about other peoples stories and comments, its like peering through a window into someone elses life even if most of the comments are from a year or two ago.
That room + the music = relaxation overload !!!
as a new yorker this playlist nails the vibe. i love this city
I love the "Raining In" series so much. It's perfect, every time!
Listening to lofi and reading comments is just a whole nother level of vibe
that little Mario with the white eyes holding a skull gives me the creeps for some reason.
I can't wait to live back in NY again. It's my home. I miss it so much!
I could drown myself in your sound. How have I only just discovered this?
Beautiful video . A crowded city, yet you feel so alone.
Just trying to have a good usual day, while listening to music, trying to avoid remembering how useless i'm, all the fails, all the shits i'm going through...
Have a nice day too !
a lot people think they're useless, while they're not. we all make mistake, and that's okay. have a good day too^-^ you are not alone♡
You are not useless. Cheer up, we all find our ways. ❤🐾🐾
You ain’t useless just rough patch in the road of your legend
Your comment made me feel good. You're not useless. Stay safe and have a nice day
This song on repeat helped me finish my Pilot, thank you.
It’s Andy’s room!! The wallpaper with the clouds on it!!😂
Night rain and an awesome city view makes me ridiculously happy. I can’t believe there’s so many people out there like me.
Another amazing song by bootleg boy thank you for making another raining in .... there always peaceful and pleasant to listen to and some comfort when needed your an artist that I always come back to when I need to think about something or when I'm dealing with something hard but that is life but thank you for making it easier for me your music has helped me through a lot and still does so keep doing what you love. So thank you once again and have a good one to anyone reading this
This is what is keeping me sane throughout this pandemic. I wished I would've discovered this song sooner. I can't explain how safe this song makes me feel. If only people could make me feel the same, because it is definitely a spiritual feeling that I never want to stop feeling.
I appreciate them raindrop shadows...
this community is the best community
The thumbnail would make a nice wallpaper.
8luvbug yeah
Yeah where can i get this gif and use it as a wallpaper os something somewhere?
@@ProMrLecoq01 check the description, the artist is linked
❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾 much love and peace to our bros our in NY. Stay safe.
I asked this girl to the dance she said yes, and then dipped on me. Perfect timing bootleg. Perfect timing. ❤️
Always love u *brother* 😌
Rein that sucks brother, hang in there
We've all been there at some point, brother.
EDIT: She was joking with me, holy fuck she is going with me. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE NGL
Awwww That's harsh her loss 😜
it's currently midnight and there is just some magic right now.
Favourite series on youtube no doubt ❤️🌃🌌
People always say that the weather is bad when it’s raining. But to be fair I love it more then anything. It’s so soothing and relaxing... lovely background and lovely mix
It’s chill time once again boys
your here for a reason don’t ever give up
enjoy this beautiful music and this amazing vibe
Always find myself coming back to this playlist. Not only do I live in the New York State (Long Island) but I love listening to this on those cold winter nights where you can taste the ice in the air...
I love New York so much ❤️
Me too
I live in it
Alannah Acevedo so jealous
Can everyone agree every picture on the lofi mix videos are all the most beautiful thing ever.... theyre amazing..
😍 i love rain and the city beautiful especially with the music with some headphones on
Sleepless night ahead. Glad I found this. Even when Im awake and my thoughts are spinning - this calms.
That's exactly what I was waiting for ❤️
seriously, why is this background actually the best thing ever
New wallpaper? Lovely mix bro.
Take me here🥺💙 this is what a peaceful life is like
yasssss a new raining compilation. Ugh I love these so much.
OMG that room is my dream room. Would give anything to live like that.
Thank you so much for this. I literally hoped I'd go to sleep listening to something like this and your notification popped up. 2AM never felt so good
view like that minecraft shaders,music,pizza,hot cheetos on friday night perfect just perfect
Do "Raining in L O S A N G E L E S" next please, I love this series
Ahhh finally one in my place, I love it here. NY can be whatever u make it be.
I love the concept, truly a work of art🌃
I do really love this community and lofi club, it has the best people ever that i never meet in real life, all these beautiful comments and amazing people
I like it..that was something I needed 🌙👀
You have no idea how long I've been looking for these vibes.
i Like how The Holy Qura’an just setting there, representing absolutely some extra deep Peaceful vibes
i thought i was the only one who noticed
That's best felling ever
Just laying down in that bed
and rain 🌧️
Making relaxing sounds
The toy story like wallpaper got me nostalgic af
Dude I thought the same! Those clouds in andys room, glad im not alone. Have a lovely day man
tbh the music is fcking good n everything but those videos always give me the ultimate chills
Amazing like always I just wanna say dont stop what you do u make me smile Every time you upload a new dong tysm we well be here to support u :3
Song*
dude i love the lofi community so much 🤧 like every time i see a comment of someone sharing personal experiences or talking about how they are feeling i always expect at least one hateful reply but there never is.. just people looking out for each other ❤️ i love you guys
Love raining ❤❤
Kisses from Brazil
'-'
i love the bed near the window! great for watching the rain and thunder and lightning!
Those are The toy story clouds ☁️ on the wall who else notices them
ok i officially love spencer hunt's music
Raining in São Paulo pls ❤❤
i have never been to the US, yet i feel like NY is, with Tokyo, one of the best cities to listen to lofi. that urban melancholy...
“She had no idea what the future would hold for any of them, beyond possibilities as infinite as the stars.
And really, that was enough.”
― Melissa Landers, Starflight
Ahhhh April, my favourite month is back.. can’t wait to blast these tracks all month in the rain ⛈☔️
If I pass you on the sidewalk and smile know it’s not because I’m happy. It’s because I want *you* to be happy.
I need more "raining in...", maybe one Raining in Misuri or New Castle
Feeling depressed so listens to depressing songs and feels even more depressed
Maybe it helps, you never know :)
Looks like Andy's room with the blue walls and clouds💙☁ love this
bro can you do a rainning in london plzz
doing my homework and listening to this is just such a dream it feels like i'm inside the video and i never wanna leave this new york city night scene
Does anyone else see a quran on the window at the bottom left corner? Im just saying thats a really nice touch and pretty clever.
Yeah I saw that then scrolled down to the comments section to see if anyone else saw it too lol
Yup
haha yessirr
Yeah I noticed it I as like hmm I wonder if anyone else noticed.
Must be nice to have a "Raining in -----" mix for the city you live in, playing it at 12AM in your room. Raining outside.
Hello again my sad brothers and sisters