I met you last year on tiktok, i saw one of your videos about the sexual intrusive thoughts and i think it was the first time i heard someone else talking about what happens to me since 2016. Your videos have been so important to me, they helped me understand my ocd and myself and gave me hope and strenght to share it with friends and talk about it more, normalize it. Thank you so much for that. (Excuse my english it's not my first language)
Thanks for being so open. As a dad struggling with OCD of pretty much all sub types. It is hard and there are hard moments but you would make a great mother because of the struggles you’ve been through and the amount of patience and honesty that you have acquired due to the struggles you have endured. That’s how I try and look at it anyways. As a single father it’s not easy anyways, having to cope with depression,anxiety and OCD as well only makes it that much harder. Im learning to be thankful for the struggle and it’s people like you that make it easier as well, I was wondering if you knew of any groups where you can speak with likeminded people going through OCD? Any recommendations?
Hey, thanks for your comment. I hope things will get better for you🫶🏼. Here are some support groups accross the uk (in person ones) www.ocduk.org/support-groups/ And here are some that are done over zoom ocdaction.org.uk/online-support-groups/ there is a lot of choice in these ones and they have different sessions for different themes! I hope you find something helpful in here :)
@@audhdbaddie you’re a legend! Thank you so much, I am living in Canada so I’m not sure how that will effect the times I’ll have to look into the time difference either way I’m going to make an effort to join some of the support groups. Have you attended and did you find it helpful?
Yep, abusing someone in my sleep is one of my biggest fear I had. It sounds a little unethical but I got over it when I slept around a bit after a bad breakup lmao. I feel you, its very horrible to see someone with an almost identical psychology. I am so shocked to see a woman like you having the same pocd stuff I have.
I mean at some point you've gotta laugh. I've got some really sad journal entries, both on my physical journal and on my notes. The ones that are angry are the funniest I think lmao because on those I cuss EVERYBODY out Also yeah, I def feel the most connected with OCD people because we're a million times more empathetic because we've had to have all the empathy in the world for ourselves to truly recover. It's because of people such as yourself and other OCD creators that I'm in anyway able to have some sort of hope for the future.
I hope you know how much you have helped me personally with my ocd and journey to recovery. I had notes just describing it and looking back always makes me laugh😭 Even though it’s only been small steps so far, you have been an inspiration and have helped so many people not feel alone with their experiences. You’re truly an angel
hi alina, idk if youve discussed this before bc i just found your channel (and im grateful i did), but how do you deal with disclosing your struggles with ocd (esp the more "taboo" ones) to friends or potential romantic partners? how do you deal with the fear of rejection? i feel guilty for not disclosing the content of my obsessions with others bc i feel like they should know what theyre signing up for, ig.
Hmm honestly i only disclose the content of my ocd to people i REALLY trust. They dont NEED to know, you’re not hiding anything! E.g. a person with schizophrenia doesnt need to disclose their hallucinations, disclosing diagnosis is enough. It doesnt mean they’re lying. Or like a person with a health condition doesnt need to provide you with the small details of their condition. The only reason to disclose the content is if you want to get it off your chest and you have someone that you’re really close to who will listen. Thats the reason i did it, so they could understand WHAT and WHY it was making me so distressed. I dont think theres anything’s wrong with saying what your ocd themes are, but for your own emotional wellbeing i wouldnt say it to anyone who you dont deem trustworthy/understanding. Its not worth the stress of having someone judge you aswell, bc the stress of ocd is already enough
Hello guys, Has anyone experienced that scenes from the past start coming back to them (in my case, scenes with an ex) and then you think about when it happened, in particular it happened to me that I was looking when I went outside to check if I had done something I forgot about . I watched a date of a night out when I was 2 months into a relationship and tried to remember what happened and the scene with my ex came into my head and then I started to wonder when it was before or while I was in relationship (because it was in the same place where I was that night that scene) and it upset me because it would mean that I cheated on my boyfriend, I don't understand how I didn't know about it 2 months ago, at least I don't think I was thinking about other things in that time , now that picture is haunting me, I can't prove to myself when it was, I don't have enough details, it's killing me, I don't know if it's possible to mix up the dates like that or to remember later things like that. I cant tell him because I'm not sure when it was but I have have the feeling that I'm hiding something, and if I tell him I wont also be sure if that really happend while I was with him or before, that image of kissing comes to my mind, then I wonder what if there was something more, what if I cheated on him and so I endlessly harbor enormous anxiety, unable to calm down, and then I fall into depression because I don't know, everything I'm living is a lie and I need to get married, I don't know what to do, I've had problems with depression and anexity, but I haven't heard of anyone having this problem, now it's been a year since that might out happened, and I don't know what to think, also a scene with my ex come to my mind and I started wondering what if it was when I was in a relationship because it happened that means I cheated but I was sober that time, I dint knoe if it it possible to mix dates, I think it was before him but now I am not sure if I forgot or mixed dates is it possible to happen pls help
Ahh hope it gets easier! Make sure to mention that to your therapist too (if you haven’t) so they can accomodate you and go over things you might have missed/ werent able to take in
How long have you been in ERP? I’m on my second therapist in 2 years but I quit when I feel like “it’s not working”. I have compulsive staring OCD and scrupulouslity/ blasphemous thoughts. I just want to get better I hate OCD I don’t wish it on my worst enemy.
Im sorry to hear youre struggling :(, honestly i did a full course ERP for like 7 months and i feel like it reduced my ocd from like 90% to like 40%. BUUT then my intrusive thoughts got bad again and they were too overwhelming to handle with just exposure! Now that im on meds my ocd is down to like 5% no joke. If you havent tried meds i reccomend giving them a go cos it could really save you. And now if i do have a flare up the thoughts are actually manageable with the erp that ive learned and i can get back to a good place! I couldnt have done it without a combo of the 2
@@audhdbaddie I’m glad to hear you’ve had such a strong reduction! Thank you for that insight I am going to talk w my therapist about trying both at the same time. Have a blessed Saturday girl! 🤍
I had OCD when I was 11 years old, all of a sudden I had unbelievable thoughts, this thought was imaginary, then another thought came that someone tries to abuse me as a child, but it didn't happen, I survived But I do not know what is the time where this incident took place. I only have a few images. Because this thought came when OCD attacked me for the first time, OCD thought it was imaginary, but at this time I am completely recovered, but I want to know about my childhood thought that came to my mind. I want to know whether that thought was real or my memory is false. Because when I was suffering from OCD I had some wrong memory thought, but I know about that thought is wrong, but I don't know about my childhood thought. please help me.i am waiting your response please help me.give me response earliy.
Hi, this sound like false memory ocd 🙃 which is a subtype of ocd. Unfortunately i cant give you any kind of answer that will help you “solve” this. The way to deal with false memory ocd is to accept that you might never know wether the memory is true or not. Trying to figure out if its true is a compulsion (rumination) 🥲
Thank you for being so open with us, I don't speak English very well but I feel the need to tell you how much you help me with this type of content, No one talks about pure ocd and its horrible variables and fewer people with my same age. I feel identified, thank you very very much ❤🩹❤🩹
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I met you last year on tiktok, i saw one of your videos about the sexual intrusive thoughts and i think it was the first time i heard someone else talking about what happens to me since 2016. Your videos have been so important to me, they helped me understand my ocd and myself and gave me hope and strenght to share it with friends and talk about it more, normalize it. Thank you so much for that. (Excuse my english it's not my first language)
Awh im sending u a virtual hug and so much love❤️ i hope things keep getting better🥹
Thank you for being so open. You're saving lives
its the best way to go about it, ocd awareness and open convo is NEEDED 😤❤️❤️
Thanks for being so open. As a dad struggling with OCD of pretty much all sub types. It is hard and there are hard moments but you would make a great mother because of the struggles you’ve been through and the amount of patience and honesty that you have acquired due to the struggles you have endured. That’s how I try and look at it anyways. As a single father it’s not easy anyways, having to cope with depression,anxiety and OCD as well only makes it that much harder. Im learning to be thankful for the struggle and it’s people like you that make it easier as well, I was wondering if you knew of any groups where you can speak with likeminded people going through OCD? Any recommendations?
Hey, thanks for your comment. I hope things will get better for you🫶🏼. Here are some support groups accross the uk (in person ones) www.ocduk.org/support-groups/ And here are some that are done over zoom ocdaction.org.uk/online-support-groups/ there is a lot of choice in these ones and they have different sessions for different themes! I hope you find something helpful in here :)
@@audhdbaddie you’re a legend! Thank you so much, I am living in Canada so I’m not sure how that will effect the times I’ll have to look into the time difference either way I’m going to make an effort to join some of the support groups. Have you attended and did you find it helpful?
Yep, abusing someone in my sleep is one of my biggest fear I had. It sounds a little unethical but I got over it when I slept around a bit after a bad breakup lmao. I feel you, its very horrible to see someone with an almost identical psychology. I am so shocked to see a woman like you having the same pocd stuff I have.
I mean at some point you've gotta laugh. I've got some really sad journal entries, both on my physical journal and on my notes. The ones that are angry are the funniest I think lmao because on those I cuss EVERYBODY out
Also yeah, I def feel the most connected with OCD people because we're a million times more empathetic because we've had to have all the empathy in the world for ourselves to truly recover. It's because of people such as yourself and other OCD creators that I'm in anyway able to have some sort of hope for the future.
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The last 3 months have been extremely difficult for me but your videos have massively helped me. You are a very brave soul, thank you so much.
Ahh im sending u so much love, its hard out here but im proud of you for pushing through! And I’m so happy to hear my vids have helped🥹💗
I hope you know how much you have helped me personally with my ocd and journey to recovery. I had notes just describing it and looking back always makes me laugh😭 Even though it’s only been small steps so far, you have been an inspiration and have helped so many people not feel alone with their experiences. You’re truly an angel
Im sending u so much love. Every small step towards recovery from ocd is a BIG victory! This 💩 is so hard😭❤️
Me too ❣️
hi alina, idk if youve discussed this before bc i just found your channel (and im grateful i did), but how do you deal with disclosing your struggles with ocd (esp the more "taboo" ones) to friends or potential romantic partners? how do you deal with the fear of rejection? i feel guilty for not disclosing the content of my obsessions with others bc i feel like they should know what theyre signing up for, ig.
Hmm honestly i only disclose the content of my ocd to people i REALLY trust. They dont NEED to know, you’re not hiding anything! E.g. a person with schizophrenia doesnt need to disclose their hallucinations, disclosing diagnosis is enough. It doesnt mean they’re lying. Or like a person with a health condition doesnt need to provide you with the small details of their condition. The only reason to disclose the content is if you want to get it off your chest and you have someone that you’re really close to who will listen. Thats the reason i did it, so they could understand WHAT and WHY it was making me so distressed. I dont think theres anything’s wrong with saying what your ocd themes are, but for your own emotional wellbeing i wouldnt say it to anyone who you dont deem trustworthy/understanding. Its not worth the stress of having someone judge you aswell, bc the stress of ocd is already enough
Hello guys, Has anyone experienced that scenes from the past start coming back to them (in my case, scenes with an ex) and then you think about when it happened, in particular it happened to me that I was looking when I went outside to check if I had done something I forgot about . I watched a date of a night out when I was 2 months into a relationship and tried to remember what happened and the scene with my ex came into my head and then I started to wonder when it was before or while I was in relationship (because it was in the same place where I was that night that scene) and it upset me because it would mean that I cheated on my boyfriend, I don't understand how I didn't know about it 2 months ago, at least I don't think I was thinking about other things in that time , now that picture is haunting me, I can't prove to myself when it was, I don't have enough details, it's killing me, I don't know if it's possible to mix up the dates like that or to remember later things like that. I cant tell him because I'm not sure when it was but I have have the feeling that I'm hiding something, and if I tell him I wont also be sure if that really happend while I was with him or before, that image of kissing comes to my mind, then I wonder what if there was something more, what if I cheated on him and so I endlessly harbor enormous anxiety, unable to calm down, and then I fall into depression because I don't
know, everything I'm living is a lie and I need to get married, I don't know what to do, I've had problems with depression and anexity, but I haven't heard of anyone having this problem, now it's been a year since that might out happened, and I don't know what to think, also a scene with my ex come to my mind and I started wondering what if it was when I was in a relationship because it happened that means I cheated but I was sober that time, I dint knoe if it it possible to mix dates, I think it was before him but now I am not sure if I forgot or mixed dates is it possible to happen pls help
hey! Thank you so much for helping, youve been a star! :)
I started ERP recently and the third one was really hard bc the first two I just dissociated in session. Its hard but building the tolerance!
Ahh hope it gets easier! Make sure to mention that to your therapist too (if you haven’t) so they can accomodate you and go over things you might have missed/ werent able to take in
How long have you been in ERP? I’m on my second therapist in 2 years but I quit when I feel like “it’s not working”. I have compulsive staring OCD and scrupulouslity/ blasphemous thoughts. I just want to get better I hate OCD I don’t wish it on my worst enemy.
Im sorry to hear youre struggling :(, honestly i did a full course ERP for like 7 months and i feel like it reduced my ocd from like 90% to like 40%. BUUT then my intrusive thoughts got bad again and they were too overwhelming to handle with just exposure! Now that im on meds my ocd is down to like 5% no joke. If you havent tried meds i reccomend giving them a go cos it could really save you. And now if i do have a flare up the thoughts are actually manageable with the erp that ive learned and i can get back to a good place! I couldnt have done it without a combo of the 2
@@audhdbaddie I’m glad to hear you’ve had such a strong reduction! Thank you for that insight I am going to talk w my therapist about trying both at the same time. Have a blessed Saturday girl! 🤍
@keshacoffee ahh no probs, i really hope things start getting better! You too🫶🏼❤️
I had OCD when I was 11 years old, all of a sudden I had unbelievable thoughts, this thought was imaginary, then another thought came that someone tries to abuse me as a child, but it didn't happen, I survived But I do not know what is the time where this incident took place. I only have a few images. Because this thought came when OCD attacked me for the first time, OCD thought it was imaginary, but at this time I am completely recovered, but I want to know about my childhood thought that came to my mind. I want to know whether that thought was real or my memory is false. Because when I was suffering from OCD I had some wrong memory thought, but I know about that thought is wrong, but I don't know about my childhood thought. please help me.i am waiting your response please help me.give me response earliy.
Hi, this sound like false memory ocd 🙃 which is a subtype of ocd. Unfortunately i cant give you any kind of answer that will help you “solve” this. The way to deal with false memory ocd is to accept that you might never know wether the memory is true or not. Trying to figure out if its true is a compulsion (rumination) 🥲
I HAVE to clean my whole house otherwise I can't do any of the things I actually enjoy. This means I never complete any goals. Fun times.
:((( im sorry. I can imagine how hard it is 😭
Do you have instagram channel?
Yeah its in the description :)
i relate to some points, Thanks ❤
Do you still take anafranil
Yeah its been more thn a year now and it has been a lifesaver for me!
Are you british?
Thank you for being so open with us, I don't speak English very well but I feel the need to tell you how much you help me with this type of content,
No one talks about pure ocd and its horrible variables and fewer people with my same age.
I feel identified,
thank you very very much ❤🩹❤🩹