I can't get you on Pandora. I love your music. You're real! Sorry you've had to suffer so much. You won't sell your soul. You have a beautiful soul from the struggles. Keep going, lady!
I really love when you show off those incredible feet in your videos and I know I'm not the only one who loves it. We love your stinky feet. Show them off some more please..
@Genna Tuelz its a shame you dont see how certain rap artists are just poets with a beat in the background... but sure only classical music or heavy metal or whatever are "true art", get outta here with your soggy knees
I won’t sell my soul for happiness, I won’t even sell it for love. I’ll continue to grow and become stronger... I can make it past all the voices, all the things they say. All the moments I hate. Thank you... I cannot get over this.
I've been listening and watching over and over and crying since the first listen I'm pretty sure my words aren't gonna be enough, i just want to thank you. I discovered your work with The Question (and it helped me escape an abusive relationship). I've found your music and universe captivating ever since. But this... this speaks directly to the deepest parts of my soul and gives me hope that i can make it through all this pain I am so happy you can express all of this i cannot wait for what's next THANK YOU
Harsh and abusive backgrounds unfortunately shape us to be more vulnerable to abusive relationships and manipulation. I made my music for myself in the beginning as a form of therapy, but the fact it has helped people is really beautiful and makes me proud. I'm sorry for what happened to you but we all have what it takes in us to overcome. Eat the pain. Sending love.
thanks for writing that....its the same with me. So many of Zheanis songs make me cry this one especially....the Question, and satanic Prostitute both made me realize i need to publically name and speak out against my abuser in order to heal and Zheanis music helped me find the courage to do that. im so glad her music has helped you too and i hope youre in a safer place now
As someone who grew up without a father and raised by a mother with substance abuse issues, this hits really hard. Thank you for making something so beautiful out of something so painful. I feel it, and I’m sure a lot of others do too. Thank you.
People are always complaining about the Autotune (which I honestly do for the aesthetic and LOL value) but I thought it was time I showed people my actual voice more, doesn't matter if it isn't so good or well trained. Thank you for taking the time.
zheani thanks for the reply back, exactly who cares if it is trained you sound great. Either way love it all with or without keep up making the music you are very talented
@@zheani you could have the best voice sonically in the world but what matters is the emotion, at the end the really valuable part of being trained is to not destroy the voice if you do crazy things, and you have your own emotion ^^
Its raw and it makes it all that much more authentic genuine and beautiful this is one of my favorite songs in the whole world....only someone that's really been thru some shit could understand why this song is so important to ppl like you and me .particularly women like you and I. I can feel your pain in your voice through these lyrics it gives me chills I've been hooked since I discovered it like 4 months ago
Loving this song, Zheani!!! As a woman who comes from a mentally, physically, sexually, emotionally horrific background. This song makes me empowered by the hurt from my past. It helps me realize that even though I went through all that trauma, I don't have to let it define me and who I am now. I am a big fan of your music, and I just started want to thank you for making this song. ❤️ And to any other women out there struggling, just know that you are NOT alone! Many women have been through this. Hold your head up, puff your chest out, and know that you are strong! Know that you are a warrior!!!
Lovely that this is dedicated to your mother, I have met her personally. A beautiful soul. Breaks my heart that so many women and children (and men) go through so much torment because of DV, but we are strong... unbreakable lotuses rising from the muck 🌷💕
On December 5th I ran into the monster that used to abuse and stalk me. I broke down all over again and all the pain hit me again all at once. After almost 7 years of fighting to be okay it really took me back to a dark place. This song helps me to feel stronger and also helps me let the bad out through tears. To anybody out there who's hurting just know you're strong and pain is knowledge and unlocks stronger and wiser parts of us we wouldn't have found without it. ❤
I hope so. That is really sweet. I started speaking about my past purely for myself as a form of therapy, and the fact I get people reach out and tell me they relate and are helped by my music is honestly beautiful, but at the same time heartbreaking. Eat the pain.
No matter what Zheani puts out, it's AWESOME. Such a gift to touch hearts like she does then turn around and throw beats down. She is 100% girl goals. Can't wait to see how far she goes !
Burn the witch vibes but levelled up, love everything you’ve done so far but the rawness and honesty you’ve put out here, that takes a lot of bravery, shadow work and reflection and I’m incredibly proud that you’ve shared your story and your art with the world. It’s going to help a lot of people heal. I feel you girl, I feel ya and thank you
Thank you. I started speaking on my past purely for myself as therapy and I could have never predicted people would be helped by my work. It's both heart warming and heart breaking.
zheani as a survivor. thank you on behalf of survivors everywhere. Thank you for your bravery -- speaking out and not backing down. your truth helps other women in similar situations, like myself
Just want to say that with this you are giving te voice to many many women, man, kids, that have suffered or are suffering any type of abuse. Giving STRENGTH and hope . Thank you so much. Maybe lot of people don't see how as far is this important in this terrifying world we are living.
What a powerful song. Zheani, I have been a huge fan of your work since I discovered you over the past summer. You inspire my inner creativity and motivate me to power through difficult situations. Thank you for sharing this.
I love how eclectic your music is. Life is complicated and your catalogue reflects that. It’s inspiring seeing you turn your pain into something positive.
From one dreamer to another: It's hard to grow up in emotional pain. It drowns and suffocates the victims of abuse. I can't tell you I know how you feel but I can tell you how I grew up was not how any child should have. Thank you for sharing your pain with others Zheani. It truly makes a difference.
made me extremely sad, I can feel how pain pushed you to express it in art. you are not alone, I'm also a survivor of dark things. eventually we grow and leave our past behind and not let it define us. I hope I hear lighter music from you one day when you work through your pain. I painted really dark things, and wore black everything till this year, I'm 29, and I bought 2 floral dressed, they are unbelievably oretty on me, I'm letting go...have a nice day
Zheani, you are a truly a remarkable being and I admire you so much. Your music has been keeping me going since I discovered you back in April/May. I get so pumped whenever I see that you’ve released new content, and am eagerly awaiting your upcoming Zheani Sparkes EP. I don’t usually try to reach out to artists or bother commenting on their videos or posts, but I just wanted to share my sentiments because you are such an inspiration to me. Keep on being your majestic, badass self and following your own path in the music industry. You’ve got something special and authentic that so many other artists these days lack, and I wish you nothing but love, healing, and success in your journey. 😉🥰🔮
Love your work sm, your art has gotten me through the hardest of times. I wouldn't have had the strength to tell the truth of what has happened to me this year without you. Tysm for sharing your life with the world
Comments like this make it worth it. I did it for myself but the fact people are relating and drawing strength is amazing and kind of shocking to me. You got this.
I love this 🧡🖤 Tears sit in the corners of my eyes, and this is just what I needed to let it out. I look back at my past, and all I can do is cry. I love this so much, thank you. I know hope is a fleeting thing, but I’m sure I’ll find a way to make it stay this time...
Stumbled into zheani's music completely by accident and now I can't get them out of my head. Not sure why but her songs reach me on a different level and I love it. I really enjoy the more natural voice in this one, would love to hear more like it
The hope your music gives me is like permeating light I need to make it through this abysmal darkness. Helping me kick opiates by inspiring me to stand my ground. True to yourself. Never stop being you, Zheani 🌒🔮🌘
I kicked opiates in Oct 2016, after being prescribed them for several years. Was on over 800mg of oxy a day and about 50 in fentanyl patches. I was a wreck. Taper yourself slowly, it's the easiest way love. I tried so many times to quit cold Turkey at high doses and only landed myself back into hospital from withdrawl. Withdrawl can, CAN kill you if you're not careful. I tapered myself down slowly till I was on 40mg 3x a day, ripped the patch off, and put in my earphones and blasted music while sitting/laying in bed. First it's the watery eyes, then the aweful yawns, the leg spasms, the restlessness, the profuse sweating, then puking, shitting, sometimes all at once lol. Be prepared to be awake for 3 days or so, constantly telling yourself that yes, yes this could all go away if you take another dose, or you could suffer a few more days, and never feel this again. Take it minute by minute, hour by hour. If needed dont avoud the hospital for some fluids via IV. And if possible get your dr to prescribe you just a couple larazopam ( to stop the anxiety shakes and pains) and then after the 3rd day your body will start to come around. You will still feel sick, like a cold, but a sick that you feel strong enough to overcome. It also helps if you have someone to help you. My mother stayed with me for a week. She changed my bedding when I would soak through it, or missed my puke pail. She sat with me in the bathroom while I hung over the side of the tub throwing up trying to get warm. Its hell, if you've done it before, but once you overcome it, you feel invincible. You will fell reborn. I would be honest with you and say I didnt feel completely normal until 2 or 3 months after, but after the new year hit, I felt like I went from a 40yr old cripple to a fresh 14yr old, i had so much energy, so much mindfulness, so much sorrow for the years i lost to the drugs, but hope knowing I no longer needed them. I hope you find peace! I hope you get off of your drug of choice! Just remember, when your brain starts telling you it can all stop if you just take 1 hit, to tell it to fk itself because every 20min longer you make it, the further you are from ever having the feeling again. Hugs. Sending many hugs your way.
This speaks volumes... I can definitely understand how this feels. It's crazy how similar the lyrics have been applied in my own life. Thank you Zheani you are such a big inspiration to me and my music
Thank you for this. It's like a broken girl anthem to keep fighting. I needed this. Your work moves me. Makes me feel emotions I can't explain. I don't feel alone when I listen to your music. You're amazing.
This hits home in some ways...I feel you, I feel the pain deep in my soul, but that means I still have mine and just like you, I won't sell my soul it's not for sale. Some people don't realize how hard it is, and how much strength you have to have to be/do good when you have had so much bad stuff happen to/around you. It can feel like an endless fight, but to anyone out there dealing with that, just know, you CAN get through it and you may feel weak and like you don't matter but I PROMISE you, you are far stronger than you give yourself credit, and you DO matter and if it's not someone currently in your life, just wait, hold on, because they are going to come into your life, whether it's a lover or a friend. And when that happens, you will be so grateful that you didn't give up. I don't know you, but if no one's said this to you lately/ever, you are amazing being exactly who you are, only change to better yourself, you are not alone even when you feel that way, it's ok to be sensitive, it's ok to not be ok, you don't have to fake being happy to please others, the ones that need to be there will the ones that don't, won't and that's ok, trust me and one more thing I love you, not because I have to, but because I rather fill hearts with love and not fear because we need love in this world more than ever.
It makes me angry that I've spent my kid's life trying to protect them from abuse - and luckily, they've been safe so far - but here is a woman nearly the same age who's struggled through stuff just like I and other women of my generation have - and the generation before me, and before that... What gives me hope is this same woman sings in her own voice, tells her story, stands a survivor. To be so young yet so switched-on, raw, and strong... power to truth. Cycles can be broken. This is a beautiful song - thankyou.
Feel like she just brought us together, thanks for this Zheani, it's scary and creepy because you're describing my childhood and ugh that hurts to know more people went through what I did too. I'm a human trafficing victim, I'm in recovery but thank you for this and all your music speaks to something in me I could never ever describe. Like you spoke the words I could never mutter thank you for your work. Its helped through my journey of healing
Hi Zheani, I met you yesterday thanks to your most recent song "I wont sell my Soul", and I just want to tell you that you are not alone friend ... maybe you went through a lot of suffering when you were younger ... but that is already past ... you have the opportunity to look straight ahead and not look down ... you are not alone ... we have all gone through suffering, whether little or much ... in my case, my mother left me 2 years ago ... when I was 12 ... I suffered a lot, but in the end that suffering helped me to be stronger, and to be more able to face the problems that life will put us ... you are not alone ... you have an extraordinary gift ... your voice is beautiful, and you can make a very notorious use of it... you have already done it ... your themes are very sonorous and you really have talent ... I just want you to know that you are not alone ... and don't decay ... life goes on and you have to live it ... of course ... try not to hurt the people around you ... they are by your side for something ... and that something, it's because they love and care about you ... greetings and a hug friend 😁🙋
The darkness that not everybody is unlucky enough to see, you take that and you fuck it balls deep. I love how you express yourself via your sexuality. You're not scared to be vulnerable, that's the real strength - You're hard as nails, inside and out. I love the imagery of impurity in this video and your acceptance of it, and I honestly felt magick through your words and the video. I could say so much about how your music has helped me look monsters in the eye, but I'll just say that I've seen the darkness too. Fucking thank you tbh. Ps: your mom is a badass, guess it runs in the family
Zheani I felt this song so bad “we are not the same I will eat the pain” “Born as a drug addicts daughter” My mom was also beat. “I learned to suffer, and grew up a cutter” “If I was a man I’d be in jail my brother” I’m crying watching this zheani I’m so proud Of you! So fucking proud!!! I followed u before u made any music
Thank you for being around since the early days. I used to keep my mouth shut about my past and accept a lot of bad behaviour. Recently I've changed a lot and put my foot down finally. Thanks for being here and I hope you stick with me for this journey. Everyone has shit in their pasts that can haunt them, but everyone has the potential to over come it.
Such an undeniable power and charisma. I resonate so deeply with your words and your pain. What makes the hardships worth it is knowing that we’re intended to experience this so we will come out on the other side with so much more depth, compassion, fire and emotional strength than those who haven’t gone through horrible things. You are a prime example of that
The hard and sad thing is a lot more people suffer than we realise. I've had close friends shocked and saddened when I started speaking about my life through my music who never realised what I personally went through. I never spoke about it and tried to leave it in the past, but eventually I had to face it. I am feeling stronger every day. Sending you love and strength.
I am a survivor of SRA , this song..... it speaks to me. Zheani thank you for putting into words what I could never emotionally express. I cried through this. I love you so much.
Wow. This is amazing, Zheani. I believe that Marina is a inspiration for you and I can see that, whilst at the same time you being entirely original and groundbreaking. There's nobody else like you.. I believe you are truly a one of a kind, once every generation artist, and while I'm glad you have us, your dedicated, cult followers, I also hope you get the full appreciation you deserve. I've been hooked on you since I first encountered you. I genuinely believe you are a genius. I love you and everything you do. I'm honoured to be a devoted fan of yours. Thank you so, so much for sharing your brilliance with us. All my love, Zheani.
Zheani, You are an amazing woman with an amazing talent and a message that comes straight from your courageous heart, I luv your works of art. Your work is the future of self-awareness, and strength.
Zheani, thank you for that. I won't sell my soul. This song speaks to me on a personal level, my mother is a survivor and I love her because she always wanted to protect me. But the world is cruel and no mother can save her daughter from getting scarred. I was 15. You are great and your message is strong!
It’s so inspiring that you are brave enough to show your emotions through such an artistic and public way. Thank you for sharing, I wish i was as brave. Thank you for everything you do
Hell yeah we need more like her in this industry. Wont sell out no matter what it will bring her. She understands something about this world most don't.
Listening to your lyrics is like *damn, glad this woman has this voice and platform to share her experiences* 'cause it's a sad truth that sooo many have gone through such trauma, myself included. I wish all the best for you and your life. I'm sorry you've had a rough start at life, but here's hoping your future endeavors are healing. Stay creative, and never let the negativity effect your spirit. I guess if I were to have any questions for you, it'd be, do you like popcorn? If so, do you like flavors or plain? If not, what's your favorite snacks?
Wow... this was so powerful and I loved the meaning behind it. Owning up to your demons and making a song about the pain you went through takes a special level of strength, this is probably my favorite song from you so far!! Keep going and don't stop for ANYONE!! ♥♥
I haven’t know what happiness is since dealing with with depression since the age of 12. I just turned 39. All of my childhood memories are no longer happy. But I’ve come to realize that while some of it was good, not all of it was. The veil was lifted and I see it different now. It sucks but it is what it is. Edwin sent me. Thank you for speaking on topics that are sometimes difficult to do. I wish you success with contentment.
Stream "I Won't Sell My Soul" on all streaming platforms;
zheani.lnk.to/IWONTSELLMYSOUL
(Also add it to a bunch of your playlists! Everything helps)
I can't get you on Pandora. I love your music. You're real! Sorry you've had to suffer so much. You won't sell your soul. You have a beautiful soul from the struggles. Keep going, lady!
💗sure
I really love when you show off those incredible feet in your videos and I know I'm not the only one who loves it. We love your stinky feet. Show them off some more please..
Zheani 🖤❤️❤️
If you don't sell your soul, we'll be vulnerable for your words are magical !!!
When the darkness is all around you it means you are the light.
oh, wow. Thank you.
That's beautiful
Sweet quote but dark attracts dark, light attracts light
Lex no silly,
opposites attract.
She is
This is so raw. You're on the rise and I'm so pumped for your future 🤘🏽🤘🏽
Hi!
🧚🏼♀️💙✨🖤
Edwins Generation I promise you she isn’t lol
I love u edwin
@Halle Cienniwa Hi
Zheani is one of the more original artists out there, she's outdone herself here
Kanton Levine I'm not sure if the word "original" fits her
Yeah... nothing like lol peep at all.
This is legit cocorosie
@Genna Tuelz its a shame you dont see how certain rap artists are just poets with a beat in the background... but sure only classical music or heavy metal or whatever are "true art", get outta here with your soggy knees
@@heatherblaire2187 how is she not original then? who the fck is she copying?
Anyone else cry a little when they hear this song? You can hear the pain in her voice. Not to many singers out there can claim that.
I won’t sell my soul for happiness, I won’t even sell it for love. I’ll continue to grow and become stronger... I can make it past all the voices, all the things they say. All the moments I hate. Thank you... I cannot get over this.
You got this. Meaning>Happiness
Do you love me now I love you 👙 👙 👙 💋 💋 💋 kiss kiss kiss
don't fall for this the video is full of satanic imagery and symbolisms, by the end of the song she says she "wants to sell her soul"
@@profesa-rsk ummm yea?? She is a witch and practices magic 🤔😂
@@ZambiZoo thanks for letting people know
The hardest&most inspiring woman in rap.
Thank you for existing, we all needed you and didn't know it.
This song makes me feel an emotion that doesn’t have a name
Gay? You're welcome.
@@quasipsychedelicepiphany. Not exactly what I was going for but I'm happy with that.
Sending love. Feel it, no need to name it.
Deep
Brennan Bellew das tuff. U brave lil mans
When this track hits 1 million views, Zheani you better pop some bottles, girl you deserve this! 🤟🏽
1.3M views now, amazing to see
I've been listening and watching over and over and crying since the first listen
I'm pretty sure my words aren't gonna be enough, i just want to thank you. I discovered your work with The Question (and it helped me escape an abusive relationship). I've found your music and universe captivating ever since. But this... this speaks directly to the deepest parts of my soul and gives me hope that i can make it through all this pain
I am so happy you can express all of this
i cannot wait for what's next
THANK YOU
Harsh and abusive backgrounds unfortunately shape us to be more vulnerable to abusive relationships and manipulation. I made my music for myself in the beginning as a form of therapy, but the fact it has helped people is really beautiful and makes me proud.
I'm sorry for what happened to you but we all have what it takes in us to overcome. Eat the pain. Sending love.
Lea Sonmez 💯 I feel the exact same. This music is so powerful. I am a forever fan now ❤️
Reading this made my throat hurt
There is an end to the pain... much love from another survivor of a lot of hardship. I wish you all the best.
thanks for writing that....its the same with me. So many of Zheanis songs make me cry this one especially....the Question, and satanic Prostitute both made me realize i need to publically name and speak out against my abuser in order to heal and Zheanis music helped me find the courage to do that. im so glad her music has helped you too and i hope youre in a safer place now
As someone who grew up without a father and raised by a mother with substance abuse issues, this hits really hard. Thank you for making something so beautiful out of something so painful. I feel it, and I’m sure a lot of others do too. Thank you.
Loved the sound and really enjoyed the natural voice without all the auto tune
People are always complaining about the Autotune (which I honestly do for the aesthetic and LOL value) but I thought it was time I showed people my actual voice more, doesn't matter if it isn't so good or well trained. Thank you for taking the time.
@@zheani it's a good voice because it's yours, incredible work tbh.
zheani thanks for the reply back, exactly who cares if it is trained you sound great. Either way love it all with or without keep up making the music you are very talented
@@zheani you could have the best voice sonically in the world but what matters is the emotion, at the end the really valuable part of being trained is to not destroy the voice if you do crazy things, and you have your own emotion ^^
Its raw and it makes it all that much more authentic genuine and beautiful this is one of my favorite songs in the whole world....only someone that's really been thru some shit could understand why this song is so important to ppl like you and me .particularly women like you and I. I can feel your pain in your voice through these lyrics it gives me chills I've been hooked since I discovered it like 4 months ago
Loving this song, Zheani!!! As a woman who comes from a mentally, physically, sexually, emotionally horrific background. This song makes me empowered by the hurt from my past. It helps me realize that even though I went through all that trauma, I don't have to let it define me and who I am now. I am a big fan of your music, and I just started want to thank you for making this song. ❤️
And to any other women out there struggling, just know that you are NOT alone! Many women have been through this. Hold your head up, puff your chest out, and know that you are strong! Know that you are a warrior!!!
Lovely that this is dedicated to your mother, I have met her personally. A beautiful soul. Breaks my heart that so many women and children (and men) go through so much torment because of DV, but we are strong... unbreakable lotuses rising from the muck 🌷💕
I'm so proud of her. Thank you for taking the time to leave this note. sending love
@@zheani you look pretty cool sexy baby
what is DV ? i am not native speaker so i really have no clue what it means
@@chillernokiller1926 domestic violence (also called home and family violence)
@@Gemmagic84 thank you
On December 5th I ran into the monster that used to abuse and stalk me. I broke down all over again and all the pain hit me again all at once. After almost 7 years of fighting to be okay it really took me back to a dark place. This song helps me to feel stronger and also helps me let the bad out through tears. To anybody out there who's hurting just know you're strong and pain is knowledge and unlocks stronger and wiser parts of us we wouldn't have found without it. ❤
Thank you for sharing your courage much love 🙏
@@violetmoon6233 ❤❤❤❤
Pain molds us into better, stronger beings. Take care, sweetie!💜
Strongest person I know.
@Lauren Melberlime yes...
An anthem for the girls who have grown through the pain.
I hope so. That is really sweet. I started speaking about my past purely for myself as a form of therapy, and the fact I get people reach out and tell me they relate and are helped by my music is honestly beautiful, but at the same time heartbreaking. Eat the pain.
@@zheani This triggers the feels
*and boys.
@@Steadybeheady same here. Crazy, was actually reflecting on past things today.
@@zheani im crying now
No matter what Zheani puts out, it's AWESOME. Such a gift to touch hearts like she does then turn around and throw beats down. She is 100% girl goals. Can't wait to see how far she goes !
Burn the witch vibes but levelled up, love everything you’ve done so far but the rawness and honesty you’ve put out here, that takes a lot of bravery, shadow work and reflection and I’m incredibly proud that you’ve shared your story and your art with the world. It’s going to help a lot of people heal. I feel you girl, I feel ya and thank you
Thank you. I started speaking on my past purely for myself as therapy and I could have never predicted people would be helped by my work. It's both heart warming and heart breaking.
zheani Love you 🖤🤍
zheani as a survivor. thank you on behalf of survivors everywhere. Thank you for your bravery -- speaking out and not backing down. your truth helps other women in similar situations, like myself
“Say less.. you used to know better, Zheani say less” 💜
The real ones know.
Just want to say that with this you are giving te voice to many many women, man, kids, that have suffered or are suffering any type of abuse. Giving STRENGTH and hope . Thank you so much. Maybe lot of people don't see how as far is this important in this terrifying world we are living.
This song is really important to me now
I appreciate that. X
mini gargoyle why
I love this song
@@zheani for me too. thank you
❤️
What a powerful song.
Zheani, I have been a huge fan of your work since I discovered you over the past summer.
You inspire my inner creativity and motivate me to power through difficult situations.
Thank you for sharing this.
A powerful and moving track for those who have suffered and moved forwards not allowing their past to define their future
As a musician of 30 years I truly believe that Zheahi’s music is the best stuff I’ve heard in years.
Zheani hitting us with a whole masterpiece
I know right!
Check out my soundcloud
I love you pice one love 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘👄👄👄👄👄👄👄👄👄👄
Jw are you from the States or Australia?
@@jessachi I am from the states!
"I will eat the pain".............. thats raw man
I love how eclectic your music is. Life is complicated and your catalogue reflects that. It’s inspiring seeing you turn your pain into something positive.
From one dreamer to another: It's hard to grow up in emotional pain. It drowns and suffocates the victims of abuse.
I can't tell you I know how you feel but I can tell you how I grew up was not how any child should have.
Thank you for sharing your pain with others Zheani. It truly makes a difference.
I love that drug addicts daughter is in this omg this is such a masterpiece
Couldn't let those lines go.
zheani thank you for not doing so.
YESSS I WAS SO HYPE TO HEAR IT AGAIN!!
Same!
@@zheani It has such a funny double meaning you honestly gave me a solid chuckle 😂😂😂😂😂😂
made me extremely sad, I can feel how pain pushed you to express it in art. you are not alone, I'm also a survivor of dark things. eventually we grow and leave our past behind and not let it define us. I hope I hear lighter music from you one day when you work through your pain. I painted really dark things, and wore black everything till this year, I'm 29, and I bought 2 floral dressed, they are unbelievably oretty on me, I'm letting go...have a nice day
It's a nice journey finding your new self.
Damn. This song makes me want to use art to work through my own trauma. It's so powerful. Eat the pain.
Zheani, you are a truly a remarkable being and I admire you so much. Your music has been keeping me going since I discovered you back in April/May.
I get so pumped whenever I see that you’ve released new content, and am eagerly awaiting your upcoming Zheani Sparkes EP.
I don’t usually try to reach out to artists or bother commenting on their videos or posts, but I just wanted to share my sentiments because you are such an inspiration to me.
Keep on being your majestic, badass self and following your own path in the music industry. You’ve got something special and authentic that so many other artists these days lack, and I wish you nothing but love, healing, and success in your journey. 😉🥰🔮
YES! cant wait to see more from you zheani i know you have so much to show the world! so glad i found you
Much more to come. :)
@@zheani
I always have a freeing sensation when listening to Zheani's music. It takes me into a state of compassion and I know how to move forward
Love your work sm, your art has gotten me through the hardest of times. I wouldn't have had the strength to tell the truth of what has happened to me this year without you. Tysm for sharing your life with the world
Comments like this make it worth it. I did it for myself but the fact people are relating and drawing strength is amazing and kind of shocking to me. You got this.
Thank you for being the voice of us xx
I love this 🧡🖤 Tears sit in the corners of my eyes, and this is just what I needed to let it out. I look back at my past, and all I can do is cry. I love this so much, thank you. I know hope is a fleeting thing, but I’m sure I’ll find a way to make it stay this time...
Stumbled into zheani's music completely by accident and now I can't get them out of my head. Not sure why but her songs reach me on a different level and I love it. I really enjoy the more natural voice in this one, would love to hear more like it
The hope your music gives me is like permeating light I need to make it through this abysmal darkness. Helping me kick opiates by inspiring me to stand my ground. True to yourself. Never stop being you, Zheani 🌒🔮🌘
I kicked opiates in Oct 2016, after being prescribed them for several years. Was on over 800mg of oxy a day and about 50 in fentanyl patches. I was a wreck. Taper yourself slowly, it's the easiest way love. I tried so many times to quit cold Turkey at high doses and only landed myself back into hospital from withdrawl. Withdrawl can, CAN kill you if you're not careful. I tapered myself down slowly till I was on 40mg 3x a day, ripped the patch off, and put in my earphones and blasted music while sitting/laying in bed. First it's the watery eyes, then the aweful yawns, the leg spasms, the restlessness, the profuse sweating, then puking, shitting, sometimes all at once lol. Be prepared to be awake for 3 days or so, constantly telling yourself that yes, yes this could all go away if you take another dose, or you could suffer a few more days, and never feel this again. Take it minute by minute, hour by hour. If needed dont avoud the hospital for some fluids via IV. And if possible get your dr to prescribe you just a couple larazopam ( to stop the anxiety shakes and pains) and then after the 3rd day your body will start to come around. You will still feel sick, like a cold, but a sick that you feel strong enough to overcome. It also helps if you have someone to help you. My mother stayed with me for a week. She changed my bedding when I would soak through it, or missed my puke pail. She sat with me in the bathroom while I hung over the side of the tub throwing up trying to get warm. Its hell, if you've done it before, but once you overcome it, you feel invincible. You will fell reborn. I would be honest with you and say I didnt feel completely normal until 2 or 3 months after, but after the new year hit, I felt like I went from a 40yr old cripple to a fresh 14yr old, i had so much energy, so much mindfulness, so much sorrow for the years i lost to the drugs, but hope knowing I no longer needed them.
I hope you find peace! I hope you get off of your drug of choice! Just remember, when your brain starts telling you it can all stop if you just take 1 hit, to tell it to fk itself because every 20min longer you make it, the further you are from ever having the feeling again. Hugs. Sending many hugs your way.
This speaks volumes... I can definitely understand how this feels. It's crazy how similar the lyrics have been applied in my own life. Thank you Zheani you are such a big inspiration to me and my music
Thank you for this. It's like a broken girl anthem to keep fighting. I needed this. Your work moves me. Makes me feel emotions I can't explain. I don't feel alone when I listen to your music. You're amazing.
So much pain in this world...Zheani, I wish you nothing but happiness and success and love in your life. You deserve it.
The last frame of her face sinking into the dirt sent shivers down my spine. I love Zheani's hype music but this was a masterpiece.
Please never ever sell out!! THANK YOU FOR NOT SELLING YOUR SOUL TO THE INDUSTRY!! 1We need more like you in the music industry!
🖤 You are so good. Keep up the amazing artistry. And never sell your soul. You don't need to, you are so talented.
This hits home in some ways...I feel you, I feel the pain deep in my soul, but that means I still have mine and just like you, I won't sell my soul it's not for sale. Some people don't realize how hard it is, and how much strength you have to have to be/do good when you have had so much bad stuff happen to/around you. It can feel like an endless fight, but to anyone out there dealing with that, just know, you CAN get through it and you may feel weak and like you don't matter but I PROMISE you, you are far stronger than you give yourself credit, and you DO matter and if it's not someone currently in your life, just wait, hold on, because they are going to come into your life, whether it's a lover or a friend. And when that happens, you will be so grateful that you didn't give up. I don't know you, but if no one's said this to you lately/ever, you are amazing being exactly who you are, only change to better yourself, you are not alone even when you feel that way, it's ok to be sensitive, it's ok to not be ok, you don't have to fake being happy to please others, the ones that need to be there will the ones that don't, won't and that's ok, trust me and one more thing I love you, not because I have to, but because I rather fill hearts with love and not fear because we need love in this world more than ever.
I appreciate this song a lot rn.
I needed this.
Hope you’re okay. Everyone loves you ❤️ keep your head up, we need you!
It makes me angry that I've spent my kid's life trying to protect them from abuse - and luckily, they've been safe so far - but here is a woman nearly the same age who's struggled through stuff just like I and other women of my generation have - and the generation before me, and before that...
What gives me hope is this same woman sings in her own voice, tells her story, stands a survivor. To be so young yet so switched-on, raw, and strong... power to truth. Cycles can be broken. This is a beautiful song - thankyou.
Feel like she just brought us together, thanks for this Zheani, it's scary and creepy because you're describing my childhood and ugh that hurts to know more people went through what I did too. I'm a human trafficing victim, I'm in recovery but thank you for this and all your music speaks to something in me I could never ever describe. Like you spoke the words I could never mutter thank you for your work. Its helped through my journey of healing
I am crying while listening. I haven't cried like this in a while
the rawness in your lyrics is unmatched!!!!!
Hi Zheani, I met you yesterday thanks to your most recent song "I wont sell my Soul", and I just want to tell you that you are not alone friend ... maybe you went through a lot of suffering when you were younger ... but that is already past ... you have the opportunity to look straight ahead and not look down ... you are not alone ... we have all gone through suffering, whether little or much ... in my case, my mother left me 2 years ago ... when I was 12 ... I suffered a lot, but in the end that suffering helped me to be stronger, and to be more able to face the problems that life will put us ... you are not alone ... you have an extraordinary gift ... your voice is beautiful, and you can make a very notorious use of it... you have already done it ... your themes are very sonorous and you really have talent ... I just want you to know that you are not alone ... and don't decay ... life goes on and you have to live it ... of course ... try not to hurt the people around you ... they are by your side for something ... and that something, it's because they love and care about you ... greetings and a hug friend 😁🙋
zheani i love you, im so glad i discovered you and found out about your story. you're a hero
also your music resonates with me like a bow against the strings of a cello. you're sick as fuck
@@bloodcomputer *SHE WON'T SELL HER SOUL...*
The darkness that not everybody is unlucky enough to see, you take that and you fuck it balls deep. I love how you express yourself via your sexuality. You're not scared to be vulnerable, that's the real strength - You're hard as nails, inside and out. I love the imagery of impurity in this video and your acceptance of it, and I honestly felt magick through your words and the video. I could say so much about how your music has helped me look monsters in the eye, but I'll just say that I've seen the darkness too. Fucking thank you tbh. Ps: your mom is a badass, guess it runs in the family
Zheani I felt this song so bad “we are not the same I will eat the pain”
“Born as a drug addicts daughter”
My mom was also beat.
“I learned to suffer, and grew up a cutter”
“If I was a man I’d be in jail my brother”
I’m crying watching this zheani I’m so proud Of you! So fucking proud!!! I followed u before u made any music
Thank you for being around since the early days. I used to keep my mouth shut about my past and accept a lot of bad behaviour. Recently I've changed a lot and put my foot down finally. Thanks for being here and I hope you stick with me for this journey. Everyone has shit in their pasts that can haunt them, but everyone has the potential to over come it.
zheani very true you’re my motivation to be honest. Grew a ton this year went thru tough shit. I’m still trying to overcome it
@@zheani I understand what you mean
I cant stop listening.
U are such a strong person ❤
Started crying after just 30 seconds... this song speaks so much to me at the moment dealing with trauma. Thank you
Thank you for this openness and vulnerability
Such an undeniable power and charisma. I resonate so deeply with your words and your pain. What makes the hardships worth it is knowing that we’re intended to experience this so we will come out on the other side with so much more depth, compassion, fire and emotional strength than those who haven’t gone through horrible things. You are a prime example of that
The hard and sad thing is a lot more people suffer than we realise. I've had close friends shocked and saddened when I started speaking about my life through my music who never realised what I personally went through. I never spoke about it and tried to leave it in the past, but eventually I had to face it.
I am feeling stronger every day. Sending you love and strength.
Hope you start regularly posting content again! 🔥🦋🧚♀️
The evolution is just crazy. Each new song gets better and better
Zheani really throwing some bops at us 🖤💖🖤💖🖤
I am a survivor of SRA , this song..... it speaks to me. Zheani thank you for putting into words what I could never emotionally express. I cried through this. I love you so much.
I love seeing all the support you have in these comments, it's really heart warming seeing you have such an amazing fan base
Wow. This is amazing, Zheani. I believe that Marina is a inspiration for you and I can see that, whilst at the same time you being entirely original and groundbreaking. There's nobody else like you.. I believe you are truly a one of a kind, once every generation artist, and while I'm glad you have us, your dedicated, cult followers, I also hope you get the full appreciation you deserve. I've been hooked on you since I first encountered you. I genuinely believe you are a genius. I love you and everything you do. I'm honoured to be a devoted fan of yours. Thank you so, so much for sharing your brilliance with us. All my love, Zheani.
The song is so beautiful and empowering, and the video is amazing as well!
You shine through all those painful experiences. We see your light Zheani.
Beautiful melody, hard hitting lyrics, intense imagery, inspiring message, all over amazing song
Thank you for this lovely creation! Peace be with you and always eat the pain.
“When you’re going through hell, keep going.”
Im glad I've found an artist who shares her truth despite the negativity people give off
discovered u recently..fell in love with your strong, talented, fairy soul ✨
You are just so creative and powerful I love you Zheani. 💕💕
Definitely going to be slapping this song for a while 👀👌
Zheani, You are an amazing woman with an amazing talent and a message that comes straight from your courageous heart, I luv your works of art. Your work is the future of self-awareness, and strength.
I adore the Drug Addicts Daughter freestyle in here ❤
I love this. I love you for making this.
I LOVE YOU
MEXICO LOVES YOU
YOU ARE ART!!!! 💖💖💖💖
Zheani, thank you for that. I won't sell my soul. This song speaks to me on a personal level, my mother is a survivor and I love her because she always wanted to protect me. But the world is cruel and no mother can save her daughter from getting scarred. I was 15.
You are great and your message is strong!
It’s so inspiring that you are brave enough to show your emotions through such an artistic and public way. Thank you for sharing, I wish i was as brave. Thank you for everything you do
Hell yeah we need more like her in this industry. Wont sell out no matter what it will bring her. She understands something about this world most don't.
Listening to your lyrics is like *damn, glad this woman has this voice and platform to share her experiences* 'cause it's a sad truth that sooo many have gone through such trauma, myself included. I wish all the best for you and your life. I'm sorry you've had a rough start at life, but here's hoping your future endeavors are healing. Stay creative, and never let the negativity effect your spirit.
I guess if I were to have any questions for you, it'd be, do you like popcorn? If so, do you like flavors or plain? If not, what's your favorite snacks?
Wow... this was so powerful and I loved the meaning behind it. Owning up to your demons and making a song about the pain you went through takes a special level of strength, this is probably my favorite song from you so far!! Keep going and don't stop for ANYONE!! ♥♥
This is unlike anything I’ve heard , I didn’t realise I needed to hear this thank you zheani for killing them all 🤟🏼
Havent cried this hard over a song in so long, just made all my emotions come pouring out. You have a very special talent
Why im in tears?
powerful emotion. raw honesty. amazing strength. so incredible. you and your music , intoxicating. thank you.
I hope this gets released on Spotify I love this soo much
I haven’t know what happiness is since dealing with with depression since the age of 12. I just turned 39. All of my childhood memories are no longer happy. But I’ve come to realize that while some of it was good, not all of it was. The veil was lifted and I see it different now. It sucks but it is what it is. Edwin sent me. Thank you for speaking on topics that are sometimes difficult to do. I wish you success with contentment.
I love you omg????? I am so fucking proud of you for doing this. Your amazing and no one can’t compare to u. Love u queen.
It's a really beautifully written song, I love it. It's the kind of music that helps me when I have so much anxiety at night. Thanks.
I love your music so much. This is amazing
Zheani, this is so incredible and raw. Watching you find your voice through your pain is helping me through my own. I’m so glad I found you.
I almost cried
love you thank you
about to hit that 1mill views
. congrats zheani. keep at it love.
Shes doing our country proud AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!!!
New FAVORITE ARTIST! You and your work is beautiful.