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Someone else said this, but the chemical weapon "mace" is not made from the spice mace. The irritating spray's active ingredient is capsaicin, which is to say, hot pepper extract.The name for chemical "mace" presumably alludes to the medieval weapon called a mace, which is usually a spiked club.
CN (Mace) and OC (pepper spray) are two different agents. Mace is a brand name of phenacyl chloride. It stuck. Same way people use "kleenex" as a word for tissue.
I am from Penang, one of the world supplier of nutmeg product. Mace is harmless. People in penang eat raw nutmeg, dip in thick soy sauce plus sugar plus salt. Unripe sour mango also bring eaten the same way. However if you can get "Rojak Buah Sauce" it will be better.
Another fun fact about Nutmeg: You can get high off of it. It's a very strong dissociative if you eat the clove that used to make nutmeg spice. In small amounts it will do nothing but taste like nutmeg, but if you eat an entire clove or two you will feel the effects very strongly. Not pleasant, so don't bother.
I tried it once when I was young and even dumber; one large fresh clove finely grated into milk. I remember it feeling mostly pleasant but occasionally extremely not, very powerful and accompanied by odd and uncomfortable physical sensations. It was disgusting to drink and lasted waaay too long. I didn't persevere.
I did this once and it is very scary, i was up the whole night thinking my heart was about to stop and the next day my mouth was completely dry and i couldn't pee for 2 days, and when i did my pee was brown... i found it to be only frightening without any positive effects
i watch him often and have for a long time; so I am always happy when his really really old episodes come up on my “recommendeds” feed and I both learn about a food and get to admire how his videography style has changed and improved through the years.
@@Nanamowa so you're saying that someone who is literally attempting to describe the properties of something isn't supposed to state the obvious? That seems very counterproductive.
Look, be _very_ careful when eating fruit with which you're unfamiliar. For instance, delicious as it is, the Jamaica Ackee is safe to eat only when fully ripe. And don't ever attempt to eat manchineel. It may look like a small green apple, but you shouldn't even shelter under a manchineel tree when it rains, because you could get a serious rash.
This is the first time i clearly saw the "anatomy" of the nutmeg fruit. Utterly Fascinating. Some interesting history : Until the mid-19th century the small island of Banda (known to early English adventurers as "Run", although it is a different island, -both are now part of the Banda Islands), was the world's only source of nutmeg and mace. Nutmeg was known as a valuable commodity by Muslim sailors from the port of Basra (including the fictional character Sinbad the Sailor in the One Thousand and One Nights). Nutmeg was traded by Arabs during the Middle Ages and sold to the Venetians for high prices, but the traders did not divulge the exact location of their source in the profitable Indian Ocean trade, and no European was able to deduce its location. Source: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mace_(spice)
I love nutmeg. The history, its appearance and its multiple uses as a spice are all so interesting. Thanks for sharing that history, I didn't know it was only from Banda.
@@MaxOakland Can't say how it tastes like...The best part according to me to eat is Nutmeg fruit . Nutmeg fruit is too sour, creates a burning sensation in your mouth (due to the presence of nutmeg oil) but its kinda tasty. 1 nutmeg fruit is enough for you to get hallucinations.....I highly recommend you to taste it....I am a person who eat nutmeg regularly. It is very common in my place.
Thank you for showing me what a fresh nutmeg and mace look like. Many years ago (I'm 55) in my teens, I looked up what mace actually was. In the book I was reading, it was described as being a lacy covering that surrounded the actual nut. When you showed the fresh mace, it made me wonder what the author was looking at for his description. I instinctively knew it was the mace, but the book didn't even say that it was red in colour. It makes me think that maybe the author used second-hand sources.
haha I know what you mean by "magic doesn't normally taste good". I tripped on nutmeg today btw. Unpleasant, everyone said I looked pale and or worried even though I was feeling fine. Some very mild visuals and auditory distortion and echoing. Dissociation was moderate and short term memory messed up. Side effects include; nausea which lead to self-induced vomiting, fast heart rate, "pale or worried looking face", very easy dizziness, weird breathing and anxiety.
i just got curious about the fruit part of the nutmeg and found this video. I perused your channel and I am thrilled that you're still uploading. I will subscribe today. :)
Fruit is the best part to eat....the taste would be magical if we make wine or candy (dry nutmeg fruit and put in a jar full of honey for almost a year) with it....Nutmeg wine is the most sour wine i have ever tasted. A little portion of wine is enough to create hallucinations
You should let the mace soak in a bowl of water for half an hour. It is then easily removed and dried. Mace blades are used in cooking just like the nut, (nutmeg).
Awesome to find this video! I'm an avid eater of fresh ground nutmeg. Have it each morning with a strong hot chocolate I make (also with a dash of cinnamon). And just read about it on a whim and found out about the fruit being edible. But it took a few minutes of searching online for an image of the fruit (or more info on it) before I chanced upon your video, which was perfect!
Yes I have freshly ground nutmeg everyday in my tea but I also add to it green cardamon which I grind myself and that is my very favorite ... I also had a lot of Ginger some cinnamon and just a small amount of freshly ground clove and then I'm good to go . I can't drink tea anymore without my tea spices .
Guys, its my childhood candy. Our parents slice it and preserve with sugar...Very delicious. Now my parents has left me hundred of nutmeg tree...:) If now the nutmeg price is so expensive like century ago I will be rich like a middle east oil shaik :) :). Manhattan NY island was exchanged with the Nutmeg island of Run because of nutmeg power at that time. And now that nutmeg island is remaining poor
Found it in the dense forest of South India while trekking. Was skeptic to eat or not...thanks for the video, tasted it...not so great flavor, but good to know it's a rare find. Thanks👍
The fact that this nutmeg fruit made your mouth pucker with dryness tells me it is high in alkaloids which means it is probably a powerful healer believe it or not
It's nuts to think that just a couple of hundreds of years ago the entire world's supply of nutmeg grows on only a tiny archipelago in the middle of a big sea (Banda Islands). It's such an endemic species that one european power (the Dutch) could colonize it and effectively held a global monopoly on nutmeg. Luckily some brave Englishman smuggled nutmeg out of the islands and spread it to Penang and thence around the world, breaking the Dutch's monopoly.
Nutmeg and mace to gather makes very strong aroma. Just a little bit of it increase the taste of meat and biriyany. I love them. (I keep them as treasure) it's a little bit expensive in our country
he did discuss it, he just didnt realize it. applying nutmeg to sensitive parts of your body like armpits or genitals is a good way to get a mild high from something that makes you feel shitty if you just eat/smoke it.
Question: once the fruit is mature enough to eat i.e. say the fruit fell from the tree today, how many days we have until the fruit starts to rott? Is there any way to store the fruit without adding any substance like sugar or salt? Main concern is how to transport it without letting it rott?
Thanks for eating something that most of us would never consider eating. It is October 2020 now and on Tik Tok kids are doing a nutmeg challenge that could possibly cause death and most likely cause serious side effects. Crazy huh? Next...
Yeah Tik Tok needs to be sued if they can't get rid of videos like that that can cause harm . But I have to tell you it does sound like kids today are pretty stupid ... sad but true
@@gardensofthegods The word for kids today is "ignorant". Will Roger's said it best. "Everyone is ignorant. Just on different subjects." With a 15 second attention span it is hard to not be ignorant of many things.
Nutmeg only grow on a few very small islands including Penang in Malaysia. This is the spice that Columbus was after. You really shouldn’t eat the outer rind or mace without proper preparation. They’re supposed to be poisonous.
Alright, what Skyler said is mostly true, but I would like to correct one thing about it and elaborate. It's not a dissociative, it's a deliriant. Though the pharmacology could be bit more complicated than that. Myristicin, the main psychoactive ingredient in nutmeg acts as an anticholinergic, so it's similar to if you were to take Jimson Weed (Datura) or a handful of benadryl. I like NMDA receptor antagonistic dissociatives, these include ketamine, phencyclidine (PCP) and Dextromethorphan (DXM), but I do not like anticholinergics. These "psychedelics" are notorious for giving people a bad time. Realistic looking shadow people, spiders, whispering, feeling like your somewhere else, cottonmouth, the list could go on ad infinitum, but essentially boils down to being schizophrenic for however long the trip lasts. The trip is hardly ever go. Now, nutmeg also has safrole in it, most commonly found in Sassafras, and could be used to make MDMA. There is speculation to whether it's metabolized into it in the liver. I remember reading somewhere that myristicin could actually act like a traditional serotonergic psychedelic, but citation is needed. I think I also heard Hamilton Morris talk about it being like that too not too much later. The true pharmacology sort of remains a mystery. It feels like an anticholinergic, however, based on mine, and many others' anecdotal reports.
You don't make "pepper spray" from mace; it's made from oleoresin capsicum, derived from \peppers\ of the Capsicum genus. The incapacitating aerosol called "mace" is a variety of tear gas, and "mace" is just the original \brand name\ for the spray (originally called "chemical mace"). It has nothing to do with the spice called "mace".
Most people will never get to experience tasting that fruit so I'm glad he made this video to demonstrate and share the experience. Obviously it's not a great fruit, otherwise it would most likely be propagated into our cultures and supermarkets but this is interesting as I was curious what it'd taste like.
I am not an expert on fruit, I'm merely documenting my findings. I research everything online before making my videos and came across some faulty information online about mace being in pepper spray. Since I made this 5 years ago I have started to scrutinize the information I find a lot more... especially if its edible.
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Someone else said this, but the chemical weapon "mace" is not made from the spice mace. The irritating spray's active ingredient is capsaicin, which is to say, hot pepper extract.The name for chemical "mace" presumably alludes to the medieval weapon called a mace, which is usually a spiked club.
Yeah, I've always wondered if it's made from the same mace. Thanks.
Mace originally was made with Phenacyl chloride, or CN. However, it is not derived from the nutmeg fruit or seed. But good spotting!
CN (Mace) and OC (pepper spray) are two different agents. Mace is a brand name of phenacyl chloride. It stuck. Same way people use "kleenex" as a word for tissue.
I am from Penang, one of the world supplier of nutmeg product. Mace is harmless. People in penang eat raw nutmeg, dip in thick soy sauce plus sugar plus salt. Unripe sour mango also bring eaten the same way. However if you can get "Rojak Buah Sauce" it will be better.
In the first edition of this, he said that the spice was used to make spiked clubs and he was afraid it would hit him in the head.
Another fun fact about Nutmeg: You can get high off of it. It's a very strong dissociative if you eat the clove that used to make nutmeg spice. In small amounts it will do nothing but taste like nutmeg, but if you eat an entire clove or two you will feel the effects very strongly. Not pleasant, so don't bother.
Seen that in the movie South Central.
I tried it once when I was young and even dumber; one large fresh clove finely grated into milk. I remember it feeling mostly pleasant but occasionally extremely not, very powerful and accompanied by odd and uncomfortable physical sensations. It was disgusting to drink and lasted waaay too long. I didn't persevere.
I did this once and it is very scary, i was up the whole night thinking my heart was about to stop and the next day my mouth was completely dry and i couldn't pee for 2 days, and when i did my pee was brown... i found it to be only frightening without any positive effects
And the not so fun fact is that it damages your liver
it's also toxic
i watch him often and have for a long time; so I am always happy when his really really old episodes come up on my “recommendeds” feed and I both learn about a food and get to admire how his videography style has changed and improved through the years.
really impressed you made 300 more episodes after going blind in the 7th one
His dedication to fruit despite circumstances is very strong
*"It has a faint nutmeg smell"*
Really?!
🤣
what a rude comment. I think his commentary is insightful. There's really no telling whether it has a faint nutmeg scent or any nutmeg smell at all.
@@dedpxl It's nutmeg.
@@Nanamowa so you're saying that someone who is literally attempting to describe the properties of something isn't supposed to state the obvious? That seems very counterproductive.
@@thexbigxgreen So you're taking this simple joke to mean something so serious and blowing it out of proportion? Dude, you need to chill.
We in Malaysia eat nutmeg dried and sugared flesh strips as a snack. It's taste is very addictive.
Look, be _very_ careful when eating fruit with which you're unfamiliar. For instance, delicious as it is, the Jamaica Ackee is safe to eat only when fully ripe. And don't ever attempt to eat manchineel. It may look like a small green apple, but you shouldn't even shelter under a manchineel tree when it rains, because you could get a serious rash.
He knows what he's doing. He researches fruits beforehand or asks a seller on how it should be eaten.
Hey Wayne thank you so much for that info and I will definitely keep that in mind especially with the first fruit you mentioned
Jiyeon, I got these in Penang, Malaysia from a side of the road fruit stall.
Yes, the proper way to eat the fruit is with sugar.
This is the first time i clearly saw the "anatomy" of the nutmeg fruit. Utterly Fascinating.
Some interesting history :
Until the mid-19th century the small island of Banda (known to early English adventurers as "Run", although it is a different island, -both are now part of the Banda Islands), was the world's only source of nutmeg and mace. Nutmeg was known as a valuable commodity by Muslim sailors from the port of Basra (including the fictional character Sinbad the Sailor in the One Thousand and One Nights). Nutmeg was traded by Arabs during the Middle Ages and sold to the Venetians for high prices, but the traders did not divulge the exact location of their source in the profitable Indian Ocean trade, and no European was able to deduce its location.
Source:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mace_(spice)
I love nutmeg. The history, its appearance and its multiple uses as a spice are all so interesting. Thanks for sharing that history, I didn't know it was only from Banda.
That's pretty cool info thank you
@@WeirdExplorer a pinch of it also tastes great in ice cream ... real ice cream , not chemical ice cream .
I use mace seasoning in my doughnuts! Though ive never seen it fresh, thank you!
what does it taste like?
@@MaxOakland Can't say how it tastes like...The best part according to me to eat is Nutmeg fruit . Nutmeg fruit is too sour, creates a burning sensation in your mouth (due to the presence of nutmeg oil) but its kinda tasty. 1 nutmeg fruit is enough for you to get hallucinations.....I highly recommend you to taste it....I am a person who eat nutmeg regularly. It is very common in my place.
Thank you for showing me what a fresh nutmeg and mace look like.
Many years ago (I'm 55) in my teens, I looked up what mace actually was. In the book I was reading, it was described as being a lacy covering that surrounded the actual nut.
When you showed the fresh mace, it made me wonder what the author was looking at for his description. I instinctively knew it was the mace, but the book didn't even say that it was red in colour. It makes me think that maybe the author used second-hand sources.
Here in Kerala( India) we make pickle and chutney from nutmeg fruit..and also children just eat them with salt and chilli powder..
Wow , that's really great I should be able to find that at my Indian Grocers .
Nice
haha I know what you mean by "magic doesn't normally taste good". I tripped on nutmeg today btw. Unpleasant, everyone said I looked pale and or worried even though I was feeling fine. Some very mild visuals and auditory distortion and echoing. Dissociation was moderate and short term memory messed up. Side effects include; nausea which lead to self-induced vomiting, fast heart rate, "pale or worried looking face", very easy dizziness, weird breathing and anxiety.
You're completely right, thanks for clearing that up.
i just got curious about the fruit part of the nutmeg and found this video. I perused your channel and I am thrilled that you're still uploading. I will subscribe today. :)
Fruit is the best part to eat....the taste would be magical if we make wine or candy (dry nutmeg fruit and put in a jar full of honey for almost a year) with it....Nutmeg wine is the most sour wine i have ever tasted. A little portion of wine is enough to create hallucinations
You should let the mace soak in a bowl of water for half an hour. It is then easily removed and dried. Mace blades are used in cooking just like the nut, (nutmeg).
so funny to go back and watch an old video and the intro is the intro to the song beercan by beck, i was thinking about that song this morning
ah those were the days, when I hadn't a worry in my head about infringing on copyrighted songs.
if you eat it fresh from tree it will taste better. you can try with salt also.
Nutmeg is a delicious and fitting spice on apple-walnut muffins. Just use a pinch though
Such a cool looking plant!!
Awesome to find this video! I'm an avid eater of fresh ground nutmeg. Have it each morning with a strong hot chocolate I make (also with a dash of cinnamon). And just read about it on a whim and found out about the fruit being edible. But it took a few minutes of searching online for an image of the fruit (or more info on it) before I chanced upon your video, which was perfect!
Nice! You can buy candied nutmeg fruit too. Might be available online if you want to try it.
Yes I have freshly ground nutmeg everyday in my tea but I also add to it green cardamon which I grind myself and that is my very favorite ... I also had a lot of Ginger some cinnamon and just a small amount of freshly ground clove and then I'm good to go .
I can't drink tea anymore without my tea spices .
@@WeirdExplorer I will be looking for that sir thank you I guess I'll probably start looking for it in the Chinese Grocers
The mace spray is entirely unrelated to the mace of nutmeg. You can totally eat the mace, it will not blind you!
Guys, its my childhood candy.
Our parents slice it and preserve with sugar...Very delicious.
Now my parents has left me hundred of nutmeg tree...:)
If now the nutmeg price is so expensive like century ago I will be rich like a middle east oil shaik :) :).
Manhattan NY island was exchanged with the Nutmeg island of Run because of nutmeg power at that time.
And now that nutmeg island is remaining poor
I've had the candied fruit. The mace or nutmeg flavours were a bit overpowering for me.
Found it in the dense forest of South India while trekking. Was skeptic to eat or not...thanks for the video, tasted it...not so great flavor, but good to know it's a rare find. Thanks👍
That does sound more friendly. Mace in English is three kinds of weapons! I don't think any other word has that kind of record.
The fact that this nutmeg fruit made your mouth pucker with dryness tells me it is high in alkaloids which means it is probably a powerful healer believe it or not
It's nuts to think that just a couple of hundreds of years ago the entire world's supply of nutmeg grows on only a tiny archipelago in the middle of a big sea (Banda Islands). It's such an endemic species that one european power (the Dutch) could colonize it and effectively held a global monopoly on nutmeg. Luckily some brave Englishman smuggled nutmeg out of the islands and spread it to Penang and thence around the world, breaking the Dutch's monopoly.
now anyone can buy a shaker of it for a dollar or two. interesting how things develop.
Nostradamus used this to meditate & 'scry' when he made his 'predictions'....
Hmm.. well that makes a lot of sense considering its a psychedelic drug haha
Nutmeg and mace to gather makes very strong aroma. Just a little bit of it increase the taste of meat and biriyany. I love them. (I keep them as treasure) it's a little bit expensive in our country
You're not going to talk about the nutmeg being a psychoactive?
Eat mace in low doses 1-2 tablespoons or less and its a calm stoned type high much weaker than weed but lasts for days.
RandomUglyPerson being high for a few days doesnt sound very good :(
it does if youre a stoner lol
Oooh shit! Time for Google.
he did discuss it, he just didnt realize it. applying nutmeg to sensitive parts of your body like armpits or genitals is a good way to get a mild high from something that makes you feel shitty if you just eat/smoke it.
Question: once the fruit is mature enough to eat i.e. say the fruit fell from the tree today, how many days we have until the fruit starts to rott? Is there any way to store the fruit without adding any substance like sugar or salt? Main concern is how to transport it without letting it rott?
I doubt it can be transported otherwise it'd be for sale in your local market.
What country do you live in ?
So would like to see where you saw that "Mace" is used to make the weapon mace.
Omg we have a nutmeg farm and we never knew these facts.
That is really cool
WOAH JARED IS A BECK FAN?!?!
Thanks for eating something that most of us would never consider eating. It is October 2020 now and on Tik Tok kids are doing a nutmeg challenge that could possibly cause death and most likely cause serious side effects. Crazy huh? Next...
Tiktok is abomination of society, lower your expectations. Next...
Yeah Tik Tok needs to be sued if they can't get rid of videos like that that can cause harm .
But I have to tell you it does sound like kids today are pretty stupid ... sad but true
@@gardensofthegods The word for kids today is "ignorant". Will Roger's said it best. "Everyone is ignorant. Just on different subjects." With a 15 second attention span it is hard to not be ignorant of many things.
What made u decide to try all these fruits?
"Mace" is just a brand name for a pepper spray. It is not made from and does not contain mace the spice.
What's the name of the song at the end of the video?
Was that Beck - Beercan as the intro?
Uh, the mace on nutmeg is not the same thing that makes pepper spray/mace. SMH
lol really hahahah
where did he get the nutmeg fruit from i need some for something
I got it from a street vendor in Penang Malaysia 🇲🇾
Fun to think I've been putting mace in my mashed potatoes all these years. (Muskatblomme sounds much more friendly.)
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Nutmeg only grow on a few very small islands including Penang in Malaysia. This is the spice that Columbus was after. You really shouldn’t eat the outer rind or mace without proper preparation. They’re supposed to be poisonous.
Central javanese people make a candied nutmeg flesh ,and my parents said it may help you to have a good sleep
I've seen it for sale in Malaysia as well, sold as a traditional candy.
I try chewing on a whole fruit,
AH HA! you tried the fruit before.
Nutmeg is definately altering... just smelling it can make your brain function slightly differently
I ate it. doesn't do anything for me
well I'm having it with rum and egg nog, you aren't wrong. 😛
Nutmeg is a spice but it's interesting watching you eat nutmeg on its own
Freaking wild!
Where u bought those Nutmeg ?
This is episode 7 that came out 7 years ago
Well mace made from mace would not make a very good self defense weapon now would it? 😂
Candied nutmeg fruit taste so good
Alright, what Skyler said is mostly true, but I would like to correct one thing about it and elaborate. It's not a dissociative, it's a deliriant. Though the pharmacology could be bit more complicated than that. Myristicin, the main psychoactive ingredient in nutmeg acts as an anticholinergic, so it's similar to if you were to take Jimson Weed (Datura) or a handful of benadryl. I like NMDA receptor antagonistic dissociatives, these include ketamine, phencyclidine (PCP) and Dextromethorphan (DXM), but I do not like anticholinergics. These "psychedelics" are notorious for giving people a bad time. Realistic looking shadow people, spiders, whispering, feeling like your somewhere else, cottonmouth, the list could go on ad infinitum, but essentially boils down to being schizophrenic for however long the trip lasts. The trip is hardly ever go. Now, nutmeg also has safrole in it, most commonly found in Sassafras, and could be used to make MDMA. There is speculation to whether it's metabolized into it in the liver. I remember reading somewhere that myristicin could actually act like a traditional serotonergic psychedelic, but citation is needed. I think I also heard Hamilton Morris talk about it being like that too not too much later. The true pharmacology sort of remains a mystery. It feels like an anticholinergic, however, based on mine, and many others' anecdotal reports.
The thumbnail in the preview picture looks like you are about to eat a pigs snout. Needless to say I clicked out of curiosity before reading.
You don't make "pepper spray" from mace; it's made from oleoresin capsicum, derived from \peppers\ of the Capsicum genus.
The incapacitating aerosol called "mace" is a variety of tear gas, and "mace" is just the original \brand name\ for the spray (originally called "chemical mace").
It has nothing to do with the spice called "mace".
They are classified as an evergreen
Try it with salt
Hello my name is Jaimie and I’m a fruit fan
Thanks for sharing! Also you have nice finger nails hahaha weird
I think running around screaming is what most people have tuned in for.
I eat this, absolutely spice-y (not spicy but spice-y) not to my liking, but the monkeys love it.
They probably drive you crazy - but I am always jealous of people who live in places with monkeys running around! Ditto for wild parrots!!
Most people will never get to experience tasting that fruit so I'm glad he made this video to demonstrate and share the experience. Obviously it's not a great fruit, otherwise it would most likely be propagated into our cultures and supermarkets but this is interesting as I was curious what it'd taste like.
Nutmeg is used for a legal high.
better candied
I eat this with salt and spice 🤤
his voice was attractive, it got a bit deeper over the years, not that its not attractive now.
Probably due to becoming more relaxed in front of the camera.
NUTMEG ISQUITETATY AND NOTPOISONOUS
If you don't know that Mace the spray has nothing to do with this spice maybe eating fruit you know nothing about is not a good idea.
I am not an expert on fruit, I'm merely documenting my findings. I research everything online before making my videos and came across some faulty information online about mace being in pepper spray. Since I made this 5 years ago I have started to scrutinize the information I find a lot more... especially if its edible.
Thats fake news about that mace being the same as pepper spray. The spice mace has nothing to do with pepper spray, just the same name.
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All plants have magical properties, I think it's just easiest to find ones for social or romantic purposes. Off course context is important too
That looks toxic
Nutmeg- yuck.
This fruit is a curse for our country... Because of Nutmeg we've been Colonialized by the Dutch for over 300 years... 😭