I just finished watching and I've got tears in my eyes... This video spoke to me so much. The last few days I've been watching many of your uploads, and this one hit hard. I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder from a young age, and in the past few months have just been diagnosed with type 2 bipolar. After being in denial for awhile, it's been a learning curve trying to adjust to what that means. The part about self worth really got to me. It's so hard to assign myself worth just for being a person, and instead I base it on what I do (or don't do). I realize I'm starting to ramble. Thank you so so much for addressing mental health with this video. There's so much stigma, and it's slowly getting better, but we've got a long way to go. Itsy important for people to know that they're not failing as an artist if they can't create every day. 💗💗
Thanks for this. Seeing people younger and my age who are so much better than me and have a bunch of likes and followers makes me want to kms. I used to draw all the time but now it’s become a foreign concept to me.
Thank you for putting this out there... everything you talked about it something I'm struggling with. It helps to hear things from someone elses perspective.
I live with dysthymia, ptsd and anxiety disorder since my early teen years. The older I get more difficult it gets to battle it, because I was too ashamed to get help until I had to, because I did not know what I would do. Art always helped but I’m losing it at the moment, art was always the only thing that made me smile, now it feels like a daunting task
Yes! That's how I feel, too. When I know I'm having a hard time or I'm at risk of having a hard time (like when work gets crazy or I know I have an event coming up that might trigger me), I often order a bunch of my favorite pizzas and snacks, and sometimes stock up on paper plates and disposable silverware. I try to treat myself like I'd treat a grieving friend.
can't do that. just doesn't work. I try to and I cut myself off instantly "stop lying to yourself you little shit" I wish I was as determined to do something as I am to stay miserable
Everything you brought out in this video is exactly how I feel too, thank you for this. Its so hard to be so hard on yourself. This is a wake up call to how I've been handling things, thank you. Time for some change😂
Thank you for this video, there doesn't seem to be a lot addressing this. I'm struggling and people tell me that I should do more art, that I'm good at it, but what they don't understand is that you need strength to draw or paint. You need strength in your hand, which I just don't have when I'm in a low.
Thank you. I really needed to hear this. I’m someone who has to do everything right and perfect before I can be happy with it, and honestly it’s not been the most fun.
Wow, amazing. One year latter, unbeknownst to me, I am rewatching your video and only when scrolling down the comments did I find my old comment and remember that time I first watched this video. I'm feeling better now as we've finally found medication that works and that I tolerate, but I'm still very tired because of other issues. I've been meaning to start drawing again, little things, for fun and to get my hand accustomed again. One year later and this video is still gold 👍 Thank you very much for this.
What an incredibly loving and thoughtful video. I hope you can realize the impact your words are having on people. Sending so much love and gentleness your way. Thank you.
god this is so important, thank you. here i am frustrated that im struggling in my art despite being off my meds for a few months now (money issues), so ty for this
Thank you for this 🙏🏽 I constantly struggle with feeling horrible about not being able to draw a lot and not being creative. There’s a lot of helpful tips and I’ll definitely share this video with my friends!
I find it fascinating that people find the things that are bad into something beautiful. I to suffer from depression, anxiety, and bi polar, i want to try drawing when im sad next time.
thank you so much for making this video. only halfway through and I got tears because you really spoke to what I'm going through. I broke up with my girlfriend 2 weeks ago after a 5 year relationship and have been feeling depressed. I also recently was accepted to animation school (yes, a good thing) but after intensely working at my portfolio day after day (which was insanely hard work but I had momentum) - now it's come to a screeching halt and I have no structure until school stars in the fall. That plus the breakup and everything feels so open and bleak right now. but the things you mentioned, the cliche of the suffering fuelling art made me laugh and also really helped. I am very hard on myself and have been beating myself up without even realizing it, thinking "oh I'm heartbroken shouldn't I be channelling my pain into art" because that's some romanticized version of heartbreak or depression that feels like how things "should be". yet instead drawing has turned into this huge scary thing in my head that I am afraid to even touch now. so I've also been beating myself up for not having the courage to draw at all when I was doing 8 hours of drawing a day just a couple of months ago. but when you mentioned just drawing for yourself, it feels a bit less daunting. I was thinking of starting with life drawing but that feels more overwhelming because it's difficult and requires so much focus. But maybe I will just start in my sketchbook and see what comes out to try and warm up. I know I do need to get back into life drawing and exercises so I can not forget everything I've learned the past few months and so come September school doesn't absolutely destroy me.. but I will try to take it with baby steps. thank you again and sorry this is so long :)
Jeez, I'm Bipolar type 2 as well as an aspiring digital artist. You hit the nail right on the head with all of these feelings I've been feeling alone in. Thank you for this.
actually depression is often caused by trauma, emotional neglect and burnout so there is a reason, but the cure isn't necessarily clear and its not helpful to constantly focus on "fixing" it
I can't draw for myself anymore. I just throw tantrums 5 minutes into the process. I can't draw to practice because of the same reason. I can't do anything anymore. Can't even try to get a therapist so... whoopsie vicious cycle continues yay But thanks for making the first video of this kind that didn't make me extremely pissed off + plus your voice is fucking cool as fuck
What about when you want to do all of these amazing things and feel better and have hope but it just feels impossible? Even right now I'm feeling lower and lower the more I look for positivity, the more I end up feeling upset with the people who have a found a way to feel better. Be it reading, drawing or learning languages I end up comparing myself to them and think, "Well. They've found something to keep them going and look at you. Being weak and unproductive." I shouldn't be hard on myself at all and everyone has a story and a journey to progress through but I want to be... I don't even know anymore 😅. Sorry for the long comment 😢
I know depression means a lot of things, but for me the one big thing it means is pain: emotional pain. Trying to be productive when I'm depressed is like trying to do pushups with a rotator cuff injury; it just makes it worse. But if I rest and let it heal, and then slowly ease back into things, I find I can function again without feeling miserable. For me, if I'm feeling depressed, then slowing down and doing whatever I can find that makes me feel a little bit better *is* being productive. The same way that resting when you're sick or hurt is productive. You're not doing nothing: you're healing. Sometimes nothing makes me feel better, so the best I can do is avoid the things that make me feel worse. To me, that's like when you have a bad stomach bug and you're vomiting so bad you can't eat anything. All you can manage are little sips of water to keep from getting too dehydrated. You know you're not in any shape to do anything, so you just have to focus on waiting for it to pass. Eating. Drinking (water is ideal, but juice or other drinks still count). Brushing teeth. Taking meds (not necessarily psych meds, but things like insulin or allergy meds). Caring for the living things in your charge. Not getting evicted or your utilities cut off. If you've taken care of those things, you've been productive enough. (I know this is like a year late, but your comment just stood out to me. Even if you're not in that place anymore, I hope someone else reading this might find it helpful.)
Making art based on sadness and pain is not the same as making art from depression. Sadness and pain are emotions, and you can create art based on emotions. Depression is just a feeling of emptiness, and I think it's absurd that some people believe you can create meaningful art from that.
Sorry but watching this made me even more anxious. No no no more of speed !!! There are too many "speedy" videos with perfect and beautiful results but to me as an average artist struggling with depression it gives me even more "unworthy"-vibes. It's definately NOT relaxing. But your art is beautiful.
And just for information, I've been fighting depression/anxiety for more than 30 years and appreciate all art. But a quiet, peaceful and relaxing video calms me enormously, speedy/timelapsed videos upset me. Blessings
INCREDIBLY good video about art and depression I have worked inside and around mental health for the past 15 years and I am giving a panel at the end of this month about this exact thing! This has been such a helpful resource I hope you dont mind me adding you to the references and using some of your advice and theories. Please contact me if this will be a problem x
How I draw is my happy side and my sad side, saying, “happy side: hi thunder, sad side: hey rain,” And it’s my body looking at the floor and what I put in the floor is me looking at my happy side the one in the floor is crying, screaming and scratched eyes, thinking about my broken friendships... Bear, the one that got unfriend by putrashamil, if you are reading this, please add me in roblox, I know you, -Rain0030
No word of a lie; I have a lump in my throat after watching this. Thank you.
I just finished watching and I've got tears in my eyes... This video spoke to me so much. The last few days I've been watching many of your uploads, and this one hit hard. I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder from a young age, and in the past few months have just been diagnosed with type 2 bipolar. After being in denial for awhile, it's been a learning curve trying to adjust to what that means. The part about self worth really got to me. It's so hard to assign myself worth just for being a person, and instead I base it on what I do (or don't do). I realize I'm starting to ramble.
Thank you so so much for addressing mental health with this video. There's so much stigma, and it's slowly getting better, but we've got a long way to go. Itsy important for people to know that they're not failing as an artist if they can't create every day. 💗💗
Hey it’s ok your great the way you are and you are worth everything
Thanks for this. Seeing people younger and my age who are so much better than me and have a bunch of likes and followers makes me want to kms. I used to draw all the time but now it’s become a foreign concept to me.
Thank you for putting this out there... everything you talked about it something I'm struggling with. It helps to hear things from someone elses perspective.
I'm really glad it helped. ❤️
I live with dysthymia, ptsd and anxiety disorder since my early teen years. The older I get more difficult it gets to battle it, because I was too ashamed to get help until I had to, because I did not know what I would do.
Art always helped but I’m losing it at the moment, art was always the only thing that made me smile, now it feels like a daunting task
Needed to hear this today.
I'm glad I remembered to publish it then! lol
I've noticed being kind to myself during my down times actually motivate me.
Yes! That's how I feel, too. When I know I'm having a hard time or I'm at risk of having a hard time (like when work gets crazy or I know I have an event coming up that might trigger me), I often order a bunch of my favorite pizzas and snacks, and sometimes stock up on paper plates and disposable silverware. I try to treat myself like I'd treat a grieving friend.
can't do that. just doesn't work. I try to and I cut myself off instantly "stop lying to yourself you little shit" I wish I was as determined to do something as I am to stay miserable
Everything you brought out in this video is exactly how I feel too, thank you for this. Its so hard to be so hard on yourself. This is a wake up call to how I've been handling things, thank you. Time for some change😂
I'm so glad it was helpful. 💖
Thank you for this video, there doesn't seem to be a lot addressing this. I'm struggling and people tell me that I should do more art, that I'm good at it, but what they don't understand is that you need strength to draw or paint. You need strength in your hand, which I just don't have when I'm in a low.
Thank you. I really needed to hear this. I’m someone who has to do everything right and perfect before I can be happy with it, and honestly it’s not been the most fun.
Wow, amazing. One year latter, unbeknownst to me, I am rewatching your video and only when scrolling down the comments did I find my old comment and remember that time I first watched this video. I'm feeling better now as we've finally found medication that works and that I tolerate, but I'm still very tired because of other issues. I've been meaning to start drawing again, little things, for fun and to get my hand accustomed again. One year later and this video is still gold 👍 Thank you very much for this.
What an incredibly loving and thoughtful video. I hope you can realize the impact your words are having on people. Sending so much love and gentleness your way. Thank you.
god this is so important, thank you. here i am frustrated that im struggling in my art despite being off my meds for a few months now (money issues), so ty for this
Thank you for this 🙏🏽 I constantly struggle with feeling horrible about not being able to draw a lot and not being creative. There’s a lot of helpful tips and I’ll definitely share this video with my friends!
I'm glad it was helpful! Thanks for sharing with me.
You’re an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your truth.
Thank you
I find it fascinating that people find the things that are bad into something beautiful. I to suffer from depression, anxiety, and bi polar, i want to try drawing when im sad next time.
thank you so much for making this video. only halfway through and I got tears because you really spoke to what I'm going through. I broke up with my girlfriend 2 weeks ago after a 5 year relationship and have been feeling depressed. I also recently was accepted to animation school (yes, a good thing) but after intensely working at my portfolio day after day (which was insanely hard work but I had momentum) - now it's come to a screeching halt and I have no structure until school stars in the fall. That plus the breakup and everything feels so open and bleak right now. but the things you mentioned, the cliche of the suffering fuelling art made me laugh and also really helped. I am very hard on myself and have been beating myself up without even realizing it, thinking "oh I'm heartbroken shouldn't I be channelling my pain into art" because that's some romanticized version of heartbreak or depression that feels like how things "should be". yet instead drawing has turned into this huge scary thing in my head that I am afraid to even touch now. so I've also been beating myself up for not having the courage to draw at all when I was doing 8 hours of drawing a day just a couple of months ago. but when you mentioned just drawing for yourself, it feels a bit less daunting. I was thinking of starting with life drawing but that feels more overwhelming because it's difficult and requires so much focus. But maybe I will just start in my sketchbook and see what comes out to try and warm up. I know I do need to get back into life drawing and exercises so I can not forget everything I've learned the past few months and so come September school doesn't absolutely destroy me.. but I will try to take it with baby steps. thank you again and sorry this is so long :)
This is the exact video I needed. Thank you.
Jeez, I'm Bipolar type 2 as well as an aspiring digital artist. You hit the nail right on the head with all of these feelings I've been feeling alone in. Thank you for this.
as someone with bipolar disorder, having a few tasks i do regulary out of routine really helps :')
tysm for this video!
Thank you. I really needed this.
Setting time for art every day or week, something I am terrible at. This was inspiring as always. Much
This spoke to me so much. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing🙏🏼✨
Thank you for understand and I’ll use this not to be too depressed. Great drawing by the way.
Thank you, I needed this.
I needed this today even years later. ❤️
actually depression is often caused by trauma, emotional neglect and burnout so there is a reason, but the cure isn't necessarily clear and its not helpful to constantly focus on "fixing" it
Was waiting for someone to say this.
very inspiring and relevant
Less than three!!!
I just found this video and OMG... This hit home... Ty so much for this video! I am so glad I found this! ♥️
exactly what i needed to hear thank you
Thank you I needed this
thank you for making me feel valid.
Bro that happens to me I just wanna know how to draw depressing pictures
Feeling like it today so wanna watch it 🥺
Thank you.
This was great thank you
Hope you can feel better soon
Thank you
Ahhh I love you!
You're welcome!
This helped me so much I watched it twice!
Thank you ❤
Hey it’s ok I feel you, being stuck inside doesn’t help either
I can't draw for myself anymore. I just throw tantrums 5 minutes into the process.
I can't draw to practice because of the same reason. I can't do anything anymore. Can't even try to get a therapist so... whoopsie vicious cycle continues yay
But thanks for making the first video of this kind that didn't make me extremely pissed off + plus your voice is fucking cool as fuck
Thanks for this ❤️
What about when you want to do all of these amazing things and feel better and have hope but it just feels impossible? Even right now I'm feeling lower and lower the more I look for positivity, the more I end up feeling upset with the people who have a found a way to feel better. Be it reading, drawing or learning languages I end up comparing myself to them and think, "Well. They've found something to keep them going and look at you. Being weak and unproductive." I shouldn't be hard on myself at all and everyone has a story and a journey to progress through but I want to be... I don't even know anymore 😅. Sorry for the long comment 😢
I know depression means a lot of things, but for me the one big thing it means is pain: emotional pain. Trying to be productive when I'm depressed is like trying to do pushups with a rotator cuff injury; it just makes it worse. But if I rest and let it heal, and then slowly ease back into things, I find I can function again without feeling miserable.
For me, if I'm feeling depressed, then slowing down and doing whatever I can find that makes me feel a little bit better *is* being productive. The same way that resting when you're sick or hurt is productive. You're not doing nothing: you're healing.
Sometimes nothing makes me feel better, so the best I can do is avoid the things that make me feel worse. To me, that's like when you have a bad stomach bug and you're vomiting so bad you can't eat anything. All you can manage are little sips of water to keep from getting too dehydrated. You know you're not in any shape to do anything, so you just have to focus on waiting for it to pass.
Eating. Drinking (water is ideal, but juice or other drinks still count). Brushing teeth. Taking meds (not necessarily psych meds, but things like insulin or allergy meds). Caring for the living things in your charge. Not getting evicted or your utilities cut off. If you've taken care of those things, you've been productive enough.
(I know this is like a year late, but your comment just stood out to me. Even if you're not in that place anymore, I hope someone else reading this might find it helpful.)
Making art based on sadness and pain is not the same as making art from depression.
Sadness and pain are emotions, and you can create art based on emotions.
Depression is just a feeling of emptiness, and I think it's absurd that some people believe you can create meaningful art from that.
Yes, well said!
You have a great voice.
also i hope ur doing well these days!
Thanks for making this video! I am going through some challenging times! Art is always my way I process and work through things!
Yeah, the toxicity of measuring our worth in terms of how skilled we are at something -its dreadful!
Sorry but watching this made me even more anxious. No no no more of speed !!! There are too many "speedy" videos with perfect and beautiful results but to me as an average artist struggling with depression it gives me even more "unworthy"-vibes. It's definately NOT relaxing. But your art is beautiful.
And just for information, I've been fighting depression/anxiety for more than 30 years and appreciate all art. But a quiet, peaceful and relaxing video calms me enormously, speedy/timelapsed videos upset me. Blessings
Thank you for that feedback. I will keep that in mind for future. All the best.
Do something else? Girl I don't even have friends or family or a favorite game if I stopped now I may kill me self .
Also love your art keep it.
Can I just something......look at my name
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@@JaceyChase hoi!
INCREDIBLY good video about art and depression I have worked inside and around mental health for the past 15 years and I am giving a panel at the end of this month about this exact thing! This has been such a helpful resource I hope you dont mind me adding you to the references and using some of your advice and theories. Please contact me if this will be a problem x
How I draw is my happy side and my sad side, saying, “happy side: hi thunder, sad side: hey rain,”
And it’s my body looking at the floor and what I put in the floor is me looking at my happy side the one in the floor is crying, screaming and scratched eyes, thinking about my broken friendships...
Bear, the one that got unfriend by putrashamil, if you are reading this, please add me in roblox, I know you,
-Rain0030
Thanks for this 🥰