I relate to so much of what you shared here. The cycle of lack of self control and self sabotage is so tough to break. Love the game and reached Masters but trying to find a balance of being able to play but not let it control my time and emotions. Best of luck to us😭
i like the philosophical concept of League of Legends. I think thats why i enjoy the game so much. So much complexity can emerge from simple rules. There's one simple question, what team will destroy the nexus first? There's only 1 of 2 outcomes of every game, but more possibilities than there are atoms in the universe in a single frame. How do you win games? Stick to fundamentals and wait for the enemy to make a mistake, most people who played for a while say, and I think thats correct. So much complexity can emerge from simple rules. It's pretty much impossible to really predict the outcome of any one action. Enemy draws first blood top lane level 1? maybe this makes jungle path top, then your jungle doesnt get counterganked in a level 3 gank bot, but then enemy jg invades, but then 0 1 0 darius kills him in your own jg and your jg invades his bot. Chaos theory. Every tiny action has a massive domino effect, even a single mouse click could sway the entire final outcome. i think it's really beautiful. That's why i agree with what you said, that you cant get too attached to the outcome, i dont think theres any way to actually predict what will really happen no matter how good you are. i merely admire the complexity of it all, and revel in the fact that i get to be apart of it. ive only been playing for 4 years but i randomly got diamond lll 99 lp with full crit viego one time on my main account. i hope to get back to that elo again and maybe even masters on my main account, but im enlisting in the air force soon because im a NEET so that will probably be way many years later down the line ):
what a beautiful breakdown of how this game is! I think your perspective is very valuable for anyone who is addicted to this game. You are a very intelligent person and possibly also with a very clear mind. Only when you approach the game in this manner then you will see it as what it is and enjoy while not malding. :D It makes me want to get back to it but with with eyes and challenge myself to be better because there’s for sure a correlation of someone’s high rank and their intelligence. Good luck to your career and thank you for commenting!
its all about knowing which is bad for you and which is good for you. some addictions can be good because they help you handle life and others have lots more of consequences, but they dont even feel good to indulge in. its not about the game itself. when it comes to addictions its good to practice harm-reduction and find the addictions with less consequences that help you handle life. some people just need to be addicted. i used to be addicted to the game, but now i just play it because i want to handle life as just watching my body with no activity just kind of feel pointless
I feel like I should have made videos long time ago to read comments like these because it seems like many people are with a much clearer mind and it would have been so helpful 😭
Thank you for sharing your story! I can totally relate and the amount of damage digital media has done to my mental health and development during puberty is enormous. I think the awareness about the addiction is crucial and from there on a healthy protection can be built up. Lots of luck and strength to you
Sounds like you are growing deeper in consciousness I too have definitely struggled. What did help me was playing norms and having fun with different builds. In the past 6-7 hours would go by and because I’m good at things I put my energy into I was locked in the same way. Now I’m able to play for a couple hours. Nowadays people have so much of a meta brain that everything is so competitive and toxic. Just have fun doing random things. And thank you too. Your video is definitely more encouraging to others than you know
im 24 playing league everyday since 14 and im still going, never had a girlfriend, quit college cuz of bad grades, megadepressed but at the end i was strong enough to deal with all the pain that it made me feel, now i dont even know what to do lmao, but im happy cause i know i can comeback anytime i want im just enjoying my loneliness
Proud of you to overcome the pain and depression! I think 24 for me is full of confusion and challenge as well but it does get better if we try to do the right things for ourselves, you will meet someone better and more suitable if you treat yourself right and work on yourself
I recently had a bout like this, and gosh golly did it almost ruin my life. Trying to rank up is so stressful aswell. I found myself being irritated all the time, and when I'd play, I'd always get this really intense chest feeling where my heart felt as if it was going to pop out of my chest. I uninstalled, reinstalled, uninstalled, reinstalled time after time after time again. It's too much. also: 4:27 I just remembered I actually told my wife that if she ever sees me playing league, I'm depressed lol
I am the same! I told my friend online that if you ever see me playing league again, it’s because I am depressed or low key looking for an escape :( having physical symptoms is concerning, I hope I don’t get to that point
I relate to this. Started playing in 2013 and was very addicted by 2015. I honestly just made it a goal to hit to D4 every game and then play ARAM with friends after that. I find it rlly fun to just hit d4 and then quit unless my friends ask me to play ARAM ☻ I find it fun that way but idk maybe its different because it takes me like 10-20 games to hit D4 nowadays
Hey fellow addict! We see functional but if we took a wrong step then it’s worse so let’s check in with ourselves how do we feel every day and make small changes 🤝 we can do this!!
Respect for sharing and good luck to you. I hope that you will decide to and manage to quit, since it seems that you realize yourself that this game is taking more from you than it is giving you.
Thanks for sharing, nice video and I can relate. The one thing I don’t get is, how is it that after all these years you find the game still enyojable? So many new characters have been thrown into it that I’d think the dynamics are now just too complex and hard to mentally compute. The number of moves and characters that you need to memorize to play well is much larger, and so is the time needed to spend playing to achieve a certain performance level at the game. That makes it also harder to master exhaustivelly; to understand the dynamics and strategies for at least most other characters. How do you deal with that? Do you have the same enjoyment playing as, say, 10 years ago?
because I took a break and started playing recently again and I see the game changed for the better I hope I will get bored soon haha at least I’m ok with me getting to gold and then stop because the reward won’t get better if you get higher
@@yappykaki just curious, then why in your opinion has the game changed for the better? Gold is a good landmark to stop indeed. I also think it’s good to remind yourself that there’s really no reward in continuing after that. Then it’ll be just playing for playing. It decreases the incentive. You can still tell you achieved diamond at some point. That’s awesome.
its an incredible game, i've been playing since 2013, i was a young 13 year old and i recognized the greatness of the game and fell in love in season 3. League brings happiness but also suffering. its a love hate relationship,. Breaks really help me stay stable mentally and helps my love for the game.
@@yappykaki If you ever got time to kill, search for Broken By Concept podcasts. They talk about the psychological effects of* playing League of Legends and how to harness discipline and intent to ensure you have a healthy relationship with the game. They go more in-depth on other psychological subjects regarding League of Legends too. Very useful to dissect the hidden obstacles that* every League player encounters, creating a healthy narrative on how to deal with those obstacles.
@@yappykaki I have a lot of good friends that make me want to be with them more than play the game. But yeah, when I'm alone, League is like a routine. When I have a hearthbreak, league is becoming an addiction I have the illusion to control
if u want to play with us league and other games let me know! I have a group and we play league sometimes :) just for fun! we hate the game but we still play it! Also we are watching Arcane too!
Man you got a big future ahead of you, maybe you are using it as an escape, you might want to ask yourself if there’s something missing in your life at the moment and how would you like to change it 💪
I'm not addicted I just playing this game because: I have no true friends I am very lonely person No one cares about me I think i am good and skilled Player that's why i'm playing it I have Old PC model and simply i can't play most of new modern games. Have a nice day.
This game is designed to get you addicted like heroine. I quit cause of vanguard. Best day of my life. I would not introduce this game to my worst enemy. Forced 50% winrate no matter how poorly or great you play. It's 1000% rigged.
omg you are so right! They are like casino designed to make you lose money and time!! But what about those smurf’s who can have high win rate back to their rank in less than 100 games? Oh right they have to duo with another smurf!!! I should probably don’t waste my breath to climb…but I also wanna prove myself that I am good enough to get to certain rank 😭
@@yappykaki i dont have to duo with anyone to get to master in under 100 games. i know league is frustrating and that is because the game is hard and there are people that have played for 10k+ hours and wasted their childhood playing this game that satan himself designed but dont say that the game is rigged lmao (in what way even?)
@@waitwhat4823 The game is rigged because it gives you bad teammates that feed and make the game much harder for you. You make one mistake at a key time and the game is either over, or it gets dragged to 47+ minutes for no reason (and still only have 50% chance to win in this situation). Ive had too many games dragged to 40+ minutes where i have 26+ kills 17 kills 20 kills and very low deaths like 3 deaths or less and its just not worth it man. Even when i win those games. Its not fun to be the only one contributing. While everyone else makes the game harder for me, flaming in chat, going afk, throwing, feeding etc.
@@waitwhat4823 Just did the math, Ive played 31 games, out of those 6 games i genuinely played bad or something happened ok whatever, 26 i am ace every game playing my very best and i STILL lose 8 of those games. Its so bad. So out of 31, I play bad in 6 sure, but the 26 i play my best i still lose 8 with nothing i could do, adding to 14 losses out of 31 games. Which just sucks. This is even worse for the average player who will have even more games that are their own fault. On top of games where they played their best but still lose. Its very demotivating. Especially when those games drag to 40+ minutes for no reason. Just to still lose.
@@WorldKeepsSpinnin At the end of the day league is a team game so (shocker i know) there is a component you cant control. But why do you focus on something you cant change instead focus on things you can improve on and make a little bit of a bigger impact your next game and sway the odds in your favor. But lets just look at your perspective and look at your logic. You say the game is rigged, but if it were rigged it would be for a financial reason for riot, right? But how is it profitable for riot to keep players hardstuck at a certain rank? And if its not a financial reason it is a sadistic reason fs
I relate to so much of what you shared here. The cycle of lack of self control and self sabotage is so tough to break. Love the game and reached Masters but trying to find a balance of being able to play but not let it control my time and emotions. Best of luck to us😭
you already have the self awareness so don’t worry!
i like the philosophical concept of League of Legends. I think thats why i enjoy the game so much. So much complexity can emerge from simple rules. There's one simple question, what team will destroy the nexus first? There's only 1 of 2 outcomes of every game, but more possibilities than there are atoms in the universe in a single frame. How do you win games? Stick to fundamentals and wait for the enemy to make a mistake, most people who played for a while say, and I think thats correct. So much complexity can emerge from simple rules. It's pretty much impossible to really predict the outcome of any one action. Enemy draws first blood top lane level 1? maybe this makes jungle path top, then your jungle doesnt get counterganked in a level 3 gank bot, but then enemy jg invades, but then 0 1 0 darius kills him in your own jg and your jg invades his bot. Chaos theory. Every tiny action has a massive domino effect, even a single mouse click could sway the entire final outcome. i think it's really beautiful. That's why i agree with what you said, that you cant get too attached to the outcome, i dont think theres any way to actually predict what will really happen no matter how good you are. i merely admire the complexity of it all, and revel in the fact that i get to be apart of it. ive only been playing for 4 years but i randomly got diamond lll 99 lp with full crit viego one time on my main account. i hope to get back to that elo again and maybe even masters on my main account, but im enlisting in the air force soon because im a NEET so that will probably be way many years later down the line ):
what a beautiful breakdown of how this game is! I think your perspective is very valuable for anyone who is addicted to this game. You are a very intelligent person and possibly also with a very clear mind. Only when you approach the game in this manner then you will see it as what it is and enjoy while not malding. :D
It makes me want to get back to it but with with eyes and challenge myself to be better because there’s for sure a correlation of someone’s high rank and their intelligence.
Good luck to your career and thank you for commenting!
its all about knowing which is bad for you and which is good for you. some addictions can be good because they help you handle life and others have lots more of consequences, but they dont even feel good to indulge in.
its not about the game itself. when it comes to addictions its good to practice harm-reduction and find the addictions with less consequences that help you handle life. some people just need to be addicted.
i used to be addicted to the game, but now i just play it because i want to handle life as just watching my body with no activity just kind of feel pointless
I feel like I should have made videos long time ago to read comments like these because it seems like many people are with a much clearer mind and it would have been so helpful 😭
Thank you for sharing your story! I can totally relate and the amount of damage digital media has done to my mental health and development during puberty is enormous. I think the awareness about the addiction is crucial and from there on a healthy protection can be built up. Lots of luck and strength to you
some days I do well, some days I ruined it…but I need to trust myself
Sounds like you are growing deeper in consciousness I too have definitely struggled. What did help me was playing norms and having fun with different builds. In the past 6-7 hours would go by and because I’m good at things I put my energy into I was locked in the same way. Now I’m able to play for a couple hours. Nowadays people have so much of a meta brain that everything is so competitive and toxic. Just have fun doing random things. And thank you too. Your video is definitely more encouraging to others than you know
I will say going out in nature meditation and sometimes uninstalling has helped me a lot. Good luck to you on your journey
I think I am unable to enjoy normals unless it’s with friends, I would probably rather do something else for fun
Thank you!! I am doing self check in and make sure I don’t get worse. I think sleeping 3-4 hours during weekday is a big red flag and I must stop it
im 24 playing league everyday since 14 and im still going, never had a girlfriend, quit college cuz of bad grades, megadepressed but at the end i was strong enough to deal with all the pain that it made me feel, now i dont even know what to do lmao, but im happy cause i know i can comeback anytime i want im just enjoying my loneliness
not to say i became a cocaine user
ngl you are so cooked
Proud of you to overcome the pain and depression! I think 24 for me is full of confusion and challenge as well but it does get better if we try to do the right things for ourselves, you will meet someone better and more suitable if you treat yourself right and work on yourself
I don’t recommend this, down the line it will bring you more trouble than relief
I recently had a bout like this, and gosh golly did it almost ruin my life.
Trying to rank up is so stressful aswell. I found myself being irritated all the time, and when I'd play, I'd always get this really intense chest feeling where my heart felt as if it was going to pop out of my chest.
I uninstalled, reinstalled, uninstalled, reinstalled time after time after time again. It's too much.
also: 4:27 I just remembered I actually told my wife that if she ever sees me playing league, I'm depressed lol
I am the same! I told my friend online that if you ever see me playing league again, it’s because I am depressed or low key looking for an escape :(
having physical symptoms is concerning, I hope I don’t get to that point
I've been playing the game since I was 14 started at 2014. After a few ranked games I never touched ranked again.
D1v1ne beast #na1
I relate to this. Started playing in 2013 and was very addicted by 2015. I honestly just made it a goal to hit to D4 every game and then play ARAM with friends after that. I find it rlly fun to just hit d4 and then quit unless my friends ask me to play ARAM ☻ I find it fun that way but idk maybe its different because it takes me like 10-20 games to hit D4 nowadays
wow! how do you climb so fast? any tips for me 😭
I play all roles. And only max 4 wins in a row each role. If i play too much, i take a "short break" and then the urge stops to play "one more".
that sounds very smart and there was a time I was able to do the same
Hello i am (trying to be) a functional League of Legenda addict from germany. I really enjoyed youre video! Thanks!
Hey fellow addict! We see functional but if we took a wrong step then it’s worse so let’s check in with ourselves how do we feel every day and make small changes 🤝 we can do this!!
Me to twin me to
weekend is about to start, 😂 I hope I can control myself not to waste it all on league
@yappykaki nah hop on league we got challenger to hit
Respect for sharing and good luck to you. I hope that you will decide to and manage to quit, since it seems that you realize yourself that this game is taking more from you than it is giving you.
I stopped for a while and life was good but now it’s creeping back
This is so relatable.
are you having trouble to stop too?
Thanks for sharing, nice video and I can relate. The one thing I don’t get is, how is it that after all these years you find the game still enyojable? So many new characters have been thrown into it that I’d think the dynamics are now just too complex and hard to mentally compute. The number of moves and characters that you need to memorize to play well is much larger, and so is the time needed to spend playing to achieve a certain performance level at the game. That makes it also harder to master exhaustivelly; to understand the dynamics and strategies for at least most other characters. How do you deal with that? Do you have the same enjoyment playing as, say, 10 years ago?
because I took a break and started playing recently again and I see the game changed for the better
I hope I will get bored soon haha at least I’m ok with me getting to gold and then stop because the reward won’t get better if you get higher
@@yappykaki just curious, then why in your opinion has the game changed for the better?
Gold is a good landmark to stop indeed. I also think it’s good to remind yourself that there’s really no reward in continuing after that. Then it’ll be just playing for playing. It decreases the incentive. You can still tell you achieved diamond at some point. That’s awesome.
Nice vid g
thanks a lot G 🙏
If you enjoy something, just enjoy it :)
it’s true, but the question is always…do I really enjoy it
0:12 video 📹 GAMES 🎮, PREACHING TO YOUR CHOIR
😂😂😂do you also play any video games?
Yes, all the time ⌚
Finally get to see the nami sup
I think I will play some mid or top for now, I need to see if it’s worth it to grind because I think season ends soon
It's fine. You should stay addicted like I am.
we are supposed to help each other to get out of it 😭
its an incredible game, i've been playing since 2013, i was a young 13 year old and i recognized the greatness of the game and fell in love in season 3. League brings happiness but also suffering. its a love hate relationship,. Breaks really help me stay stable mentally and helps my love for the game.
you sound very matured and with good discipline 😭 any tips
@@yappykaki If you ever got time to kill, search for Broken By Concept podcasts. They talk about the psychological effects of* playing League of Legends and how to harness discipline and intent to ensure you have a healthy relationship with the game. They go more in-depth on other psychological subjects regarding League of Legends too. Very useful to dissect the hidden obstacles that* every League player encounters, creating a healthy narrative on how to deal with those obstacles.
I kinda recognize myself in your story
and how do you deal with it?
@@yappykaki I have a lot of good friends that make me want to be with them more than play the game.
But yeah, when I'm alone, League is like a routine.
When I have a hearthbreak, league is becoming an addiction I have the illusion to control
Arent we all?
please no 😭
if u want to play with us league and other games let me know! I have a group and we play league sometimes :) just for fun!
we hate the game but we still play it! Also we are watching Arcane too!
you have such cool group of friends! I am addicted and would rather not getting deeper than I am now 😆 thank you so much for the invite though!!!!
Yeah it's a big problem, im also addicted. Im studying medicine, but i can't study, i always want to play this d@mn game
Man you got a big future ahead of you, maybe you are using it as an escape, you might want to ask yourself if there’s something missing in your life at the moment and how would you like to change it 💪
whats your summoner name
😆 why do you want to know hehe, I would make some league content soon then you will see
@@yappykaki maybe we play some games haha, anyway good video :p
@@yappykaki you are NA im EU tho
I just uninstalled it yesterday. You can too :-)
I never uninstall it because I know I would download it back 🤣
You can block access to a webpage through the notepad program on desktop, look it up. :)
Best of luck, the best solution is really to uninstall.
I'm not addicted
I just playing this game because:
I have no true friends
I am very lonely person
No one cares about me
I think i am good and skilled Player that's why i'm playing it
I have Old PC model and simply i can't play most of new modern games.
Have a nice day.
hahaha same. some people just play because they have little things going
Tomas playing the game is an escape for your situation but it is possible to make a change but first we need to want it!
opgg pls
😆 I would reveal it in the next videos I make hahahah
ill coach you hmu
🥹That would be interesting!
annie is best
Are you Annie Bot?
@@yappykaki whats annie bot. im a human i like annie from legaugeee of legends.
@@snowwhitever2336ANNIE BOT THE CONTENT CREATOR 😭😭😭
@@swuffie im not annie bot cant u tell
@@swuffie learn to watch youtube videos. if you knew youd know who im fighting and im not king for dumb people.
Go out and enjoy life you are not a house plant😂
It’s cold and dark here in Winter 😭 My house plants are also dying and so am I
i bet you main lux
I’m unironically not really good at Lux 🤣 Nowadays I play mostly Nasus and Vladimir but I main adc
I bet u don’t get bit ches 😂
@@Aiu-sama i get men
This game is designed to get you addicted like heroine. I quit cause of vanguard. Best day of my life.
I would not introduce this game to my worst enemy. Forced 50% winrate no matter how poorly or great you play. It's 1000% rigged.
omg you are so right! They are like casino designed to make you lose money and time!!
But what about those smurf’s who can have high win rate back to their rank in less than 100 games? Oh right they have to duo with another smurf!!!
I should probably don’t waste my breath to climb…but I also wanna prove myself that I am good enough to get to certain rank 😭
@@yappykaki i dont have to duo with anyone to get to master in under 100 games. i know league is frustrating and that is because the game is hard and there are people that have played for 10k+ hours and wasted their childhood playing this game that satan himself designed but dont say that the game is rigged lmao (in what way even?)
@@waitwhat4823 The game is rigged because it gives you bad teammates that feed and make the game much harder for you. You make one mistake at a key time and the game is either over, or it gets dragged to 47+ minutes for no reason (and still only have 50% chance to win in this situation). Ive had too many games dragged to 40+ minutes where i have 26+ kills 17 kills 20 kills and very low deaths like 3 deaths or less and its just not worth it man. Even when i win those games. Its not fun to be the only one contributing. While everyone else makes the game harder for me, flaming in chat, going afk, throwing, feeding etc.
@@waitwhat4823 Just did the math, Ive played 31 games, out of those 6 games i genuinely played bad or something happened ok whatever, 26 i am ace every game playing my very best and i STILL lose 8 of those games. Its so bad. So out of 31, I play bad in 6 sure, but the 26 i play my best i still lose 8 with nothing i could do, adding to 14 losses out of 31 games. Which just sucks.
This is even worse for the average player who will have even more games that are their own fault. On top of games where they played their best but still lose. Its very demotivating. Especially when those games drag to 40+ minutes for no reason. Just to still lose.
@@WorldKeepsSpinnin At the end of the day league is a team game so (shocker i know) there is a component you cant control. But why do you focus on something you cant change instead focus on things you can improve on and make a little bit of a bigger impact your next game and sway the odds in your favor.
But lets just look at your perspective and look at your logic. You say the game is rigged, but if it were rigged it would be for a financial reason for riot, right? But how is it profitable for riot to keep players hardstuck at a certain rank? And if its not a financial reason it is a sadistic reason fs
Just go to the gym, find something else
I can’t go to the gym alone I tried and I don’t go or enjoy it ;(
@ join gym classes instead of solo.
Do you have Discord?
I used to have a server when I was still streaming on Twitch, but now I don't really use Discord much :D
If my channel grow big enough, maybe I will re-open a server