pregnancy complications, loss, birth & moving / why i was gone
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- Опубликовано: 9 окт 2023
- 2021 was the hardest year of my entire life. grab a tissue.
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i started watching you when i was 14 and depressed in my hometown, now i'm 22 and living away from home with a career and partner- your videos got me through all 8 of those years, i hope you realise the huge positive impact you have had on all of us, i am so grateful for you. i am genuinely so sorry all of this happened to you, you deserve nothing but the best in life ❤️
Through out all the years I have watched you Jordi, I have always looked up to you. You are the best Mother, a fabulous artist, and a wonderful wife. Thank you for sharing such a powerful and personal story with us. I heard a saying once that when the storm comes, it usually happens in 3's. You have had such a wild adventure throughout these past years and have truly evolved into a warrior. My condolences are with you and your loved ones. I have a strong feeling your grandma was by your side holding your hand the entire time. She will forever protect you and your little ones, never missing a moment
Thank you for taking the time and making a video about why you were gone, not that you had to, but thank you anyways❤️you are very brave and we love you, Jordi!
thanks beautiful! it was actually really therapeutic ♥️
Pregnancy, child birth and postpartum can be so wildly traumatic and they aren’t talked about enough. Thank you for using your platform to share your experiences.
In losing my mom I never realized how much hurt you get at every milestone, grief is a lifelong journey and just when you think you’re feeling better it rolls back in to remind you what you lost. Sometimes I walk beside my grief, sometimes it drags me by my hair. Anything you feel is right, there’s no wrong way to grieve. Sending you love and I wish you all the space and peace you need to heal ❤
I’m so sorry. This is so beautifully written. Sending you so much love. ❤
missed your spirit, girl. thank you for sharing so openly about these hard things that have been traumatic for both you and your family. it's great to see you back and doing well
thank you 🥹♥️♥️♥️
Holy SHIT am I in awe of you and your strength. I can only imagine how chaotic and stressful this life period has been for you, but you pushed through it all and came out the other end stronger than ever. I applaud you for that. Your grandma is looking down at you beaming with pride❤️
thank you so much. means a lot to me!
You are the intricate flower grown from a sidewalk, everyone is in awe and fascinated by your beauty and strength. This space was severely lacking with you gone and I'm so greatful you are back. May this chapter be a wonderful one for you 💛
thank you for opening up to us, i’ve been following you for years! you’re so strong and i’m so proud of you for sharing your story with us
aw thank you so much!
i was following you since the age of fourteen i think, and now i'm twenty, and that fact makes me emotional for some reason haha
i am also not an english speaker, so with your videos i kinda learned not only about makeup, but about english terminology for it as well, and i think that improved my english skills a lot
why i'm saying this is because i wanted to thank you for your blog and content and sharing your life with your audience! i stuck with you for quite a long time and you're one of my favourite creators, so it feels amazing and important to learn about your life, and support you through your struggles, so thank you a lot for sharing your story! you are an amazing human being, jordi ❤️
I hope you didn’t feel obligated to make this, you don’t owe us an explanation, we're just so happy to see you. I've been watching your videos since i was around 18 and I'm turning 26 in the next year. You have brought so much joy to my life and genuinely taught me so much and i am grateful every day for you choosing to share your talents and light with us 💕
I haven’t even watched yet but I just needed to tell you that I missed you so so much when you were gone. I’ve never been happier to see someone return to RUclips!!! I actually worried about you!! That may sound silly to some because obviously we don’t know each other personally but I’ve been here so long I feel like you’re one of my kids!!! I just wanna hug you sweet girl. I want you to know that my first precious little granddaughter was stillborn at 28 weeks. The grief was stifling for many years. The next baby was miscarried at 12 weeks. At that time I had just lost my Mom so I didn’t grieve for that Angel the way I did our baby girl, Kaylea. My Mom was dying from brain cancer when she passed away. I lost my Mom and 2 grand babies within about 7 months. My daughter was absolutely miserable with every pregnancy. It’s 100% fine to feel it and say it. We are not all cut out to have perfect pregnancy, birth or post partum. My grand baby would be 19 had she lived. I still think of her often and I’ll always remember holding her, kissing her and rocking her. Sending you all the love and hugs ❤
it doesn’t sound silly to me at all! your support never goes unnoticed & i feel so lucky to have you here. thank you so much extra mama 🥹♥️
@@itslikelymakeup_I added a little bit to the comment and I’m happy to be your extra mama❤❤❤❤❤
This is why I hate renting a house. Your experience confirms for me that landlords of rental houses are the WORST!!!!!
Omg Jordy, YES! I experienced that numbing with my first daughter during the c section. The epidural paralyzed you from the neck down basically. It was fkn CRAAAAZY‼️ I KNEW I was dying because I couldn’t not feel my lungs or heart. I literally couldn’t speak. I was just crying uncontrollably. And they wouldn’t let my husband stay in the room. OMGGGG when I tell you HORROR and TERROR‼️ plus they have that damn blue screen up so you can’t see anything either. All you can do is trust in whatever/whoever you believe to be a higher power of source for you.
My heart is with you, Jordi. I can’t even imagine going through all that stress during pregnancy and after birth :( so glad u, Casper and Luke are all okay ❤ you’re so strong and inspirational to everyone watching
thank you so much! ♥️
The bowl next to the bed is so real. I understand. I had HG with during my pregnancy with my son. I have been watching you for so many years - since I was a teenage girl. You are my comfort you-tuber. Always.
I am pregnant with my first child. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing your story with us. It means so much.
I had hyperemesis my entire pregnancy, had to use a reglan pump from 7wks all the way through to my C-section at 39wks. Even with that it was still awful... it slowed down the puking to like 4/5x a day, compared to 15x, but still was a nightmare with the complications that came with that much vomiting and previa. I hated every day I was pregnant, but so excited and happy to be pregnant. Thankfully I felt instantly better after the C-section, and had full range of movement that next morning... I'm so sorry for your complications. I get where you're coming from, it's such a mindfuck seeing all the happy, energized, pregnant women online, and you just feel down on your self bc you're not able to do all that stuff and take care of yourself, even though being that sick is totally out of your control. Lots of love 💕 you're not alone in this experience!! Thank you for sharing this 🙏
I love my babies, but pregnancy and having children have been the hardest experiences I’ve had in my life. Between postpartum depression and not being able to be the best person that I could be for my kids and my husband… it’s not for everyone
My mother had Gestational diabetes when having me and struggled endlessly with it. Can understand how overwhelming and serious it can be. Definitely something that needs to be talked about more and sending all my love to you. ❤
I lost my dad two days ago after a month-long back-and-forth similar to what you described, and it is absolute hell. I live 600 miles away so I’ve been living out of a suitcase since 9/9. I never got to have children while he was here and it has been my biggest regret so far. This video was so cathartic to watch - thank you for being open to posting something so personal.
i'm sobbing. you are so amazing
I really appreciate the vulnerability you share with us today. I have been a fan for YEARS and I really did miss you. You were/are such comfort for me. Im so sorry to hear that you had a tough pregnancy and the injustices you were experiencing. You are such a beautiful person, so genuine and authentic and Baby Casper is lucky to have you as his mommy. I am so so glad you are back and I am too excited for all your content. Love youuuu ❤
Paused everything to watch this ❤️ I love you jordi 💞 thank you for sharing your story xx
thank you for sharing 💓 I think we were all worried for you❤️
Jordi, sending you love ❤
We're just happy that you are back ❤
i’m sending you so much love on your healing journey. you’re such a strong human & my heart goes out to you & your family. ❤
So happy everyone is okay n healthy n im so excited ur back ur crazy strong for getting thru all this
Thank you for sharing this Jordi, all the love to you & your family for light, laughter & healing ❤
ohh babes. you're so so strong. my heart is with you with everything you said 💖 i love you sm
this is deep. thank you so much for feeling comfortable sharing. we empathize with you and your family. we’re here for yall❤
So sorry you have been going through it. I'm happy you shared your story and even happier to see you back
WE LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!
We love you,Jordi. Thank you for being so open about these traumatic experiences,you are very very strong and brave. I appreciate you so much💛
You are a fighter girl! Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
Poor thing you really struggled, proud of you for making it through and grateful you are back ❤
Jordi, thank you so much for this. Genuinely have missed you so so so much and I'm so happy you're back
Jordi, that was extremely heart-felt omg 🥺 I am so sorry you and your family had to go through all that!! you are so strong and incredible! love you so much!! 💖❤
*big hug* 💜💜💜
You're incredibly strong! I admire your vulnerability to share the bad times, as well as the good.
You are not alone. I had a traumatic pregnancy in 2020 during the covid lockdowns, with non-stop puking and other complications. It genuinely felt so isolating for me, but I hear so much of myself in your story too. Please know you’re not alone. 🖤 Good things are waiting, and time gives us room for our grief.
Thank you so much for sharing, we're so happy to have you back and with baby Casper! I'm glad you took thr necessary time off to tend to self and family. Social media will be but you have to take care of yourself first! Lots of love ❤️
Thank you for sharing this with us. You are so strong and such a kind human being. Regardless of the hiatus, we love and support you always
I thought about you so much while you were gone, I was so happy when you came back! I'm so sorry this happened to you, thank you for sharing this and your content
I have watched your content for so long and youre such a deep rooted, strong soul. Were here for you no matter what you choose to share and what not to share. We love you
thank you so much for sharing your story, this helps so many women and is so selfless for you to talk about, sending you so much love and healing ❤
🧡 So sorry for your loss. I've dealt with a few years of cumulative grief and even though our situations differ I felt a common bond. Sharing these things do let us feel less alone.
I am sick in bed, listening to you and it feels like a heart to heart with my big sister💗 I am so glad that you feel safe enough to talk about those topics with us and let us in on your emotions :) So happy you are back! xxx
You are a god damn hero. Glad to see you back, and I hope you have nothing but smooth sailing from here.
I've watched you since day 1. I love you. I'm glad you're back and feeling better.
I've watched you for so long, so many years and in so glad you're back. Im sorry for everything you went through but thanks for being back, love you
Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your stories! Your honesty is so heartwarming but also heart-rending. I am so sorry that you have to go through such a volatile period of your life and it is so nice to have you back!
Omg, you poor thing! I just want to give you the biggest hug. That is SO MUCH to go through. I’m glad you survived and are still here with us, brightening our days! Love you, Jordi!! ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for sharing - I had a very similar pregnancy / birth experience (in the same hospital as you too) and it honestly feels so good to have someone put all of my similar emotions and experiences into words and just be able to know that I wasn’t alone in those feelings. I had to grieve what I thought my entire experience was going to be like and I still feel like I’m dealing with some of that grief now, and just know that you are not alone and your feelings are so incredibly valid. Thank you again for sharing and being so vulnerable! Sending so much love and peace your way.
i have watched you for years and it feels so comforting to see you uploading again. i am so sorry about all the trauma you have dealt with over the last few years. as someone who feels 10000x closer to my grandma vs my mom i immediately cried when you talking about your grandma, mine passed away in 2017 and it still feels like it happened yesterday. let yourself feels those emotions whenever they arise, it is still so hard but it definitely gets a bit easier. sending you so much love ♥︎
I can relate on soooo many things, happy to see you again 💖
I dearly appreciate your vulnerability and honesty, we missed you. 💛
jordi i’ve been watching you since 2017 and you’ve never stopped being one of my favourite creators, i’m so happy you’re back and feel you can share these difficult parts of your life with us, and can heal even a small bit by talking about it. i’m sorry you had to go through all that but i’m so glad you and your family are doing well now
Oh my heart breaks for you mama. I’m so glad that you’re ok and that you shared this with us. ❤
omg you poor sweet soul.. that is too much for anyone to go through... you are an absolute BEAST, there isn't anything you and your precious family can't get through!! i am so glad you're back and doing better. many blessings to you all
I've been following your pregnancy journey this entire time online and I am so glad to see you back on RUclips
I’ve been following you for about 4 years. I’m so happy to see you. Your family does not deserve everything that was thrown at you, I’m so sorry for all of that trauma.
Thank you for sharing! 🩷
you are such a strong woman and you inspire me like crazy. what a rough year you endured. thank you for sharing your story, i am so happy things turned out okay for you and your family. so so so much love to you jordi 🦋🌼
I have been a subscriber since the beginning and have always loved your content, I missed you while you were gone and am happy you are back. Thank you for sharing this journey with us and for being so vulnerable. ❤❤ I always appreciate that you are so open about your life and experiences.
Oh bless your heart I’ve been watching you for years have missed you! I’m bawling my eyes out for you I tried for years and finally got my daughter last year dont give up❤
I'm so sorry for your troubles, Jordi, & so glad everything's better now 💐
Thank you for letting us know why you were gone, you didn’t need too especially when they are such personal issues and sorry you had to go through such a rough time over these years. I have watched you for years and knew when you weren’t uploading something was going on but never thought you had so much to deal with. Just know you are amazing and can take on everything that is thrown at you. You content always makes me happy and has been helpful for an array of things I’ve been trying whether it be makeup or something else creative. Thank you for being you Jordi❤❤❤
You’re back 🥲💕 we missed you
wow jordi u never fail to amaze me with your rawness
you’re so beautiful and i wish you the best in this lifetime🤎 thank you for sharing love you🫶🏼
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through but I’m thankful there is some happiness in there too ❤
Really enjoyed your openness and your story. I haven’t been able to bring myself to get back on my channels and I’m struggling with guilt. It’s nice to hear I’m not the only one that’s had to check out sometimes.
Thanks for the update.. Casper is sooo cute❤
It’s so awesome that you made this because so many woman shame them selves. I felt ashamed for a long time for needing to be induced both pregnancies both 3 and 4 weeks over due dates. Both my pregnancies were horrendous and both my deliveries were life and death for myself and the second time was an emergency c-section for me and the baby and i had preeclampsia so bad i did have a doctor tell me if i hadn’t come in i would’ve died, gotta love straight up doctors, i love blunt doctors because i have adhd and I need to be told and not have to follow a pussy foot explanation. My birth dad never met his grandchildren, I couldn’t make it to my grandmas funeral, but my children got to spend time with their cousins during my grandfathers funeral and they are nearly the same age so that was the beauty and peace everyone needed at the time.
I’m sending you so much love.
thank you! ♥️
Thank you for sharing your story 💕. I'm so sorry about your grandma and that all of those sad and scary things happened at once. So glad to see a happy, healthy baby💕. Your videos most definitely help other to not feel so alone. 🥰
Oh honey, you don't need to explain but I appreciate your willingness to be vulnerable and share. You were one of the first makeup teachers I had and I still do my eyebrows the way I learned from you literally every day. I got so excited to see you back!!! I've enjoyed the makeup videos. I have to admit I do like knowing what's up, but you never owe your audience or subscribers vulnerability. I'm so glad you're okay and I'm so sorry for the grief and pain you've experienced. Big huge love.
I am so sorry for you! You are so brave and I wish you and your family all the best! I send you a big hug and much love over the ocean!
i’ve been watching you for so long i feel like i personally know you. i remember watching you announce likely makeup and was so excited and proud of you. you’re such a wonderful human being and i’m so so glad that everything ended up working out. i’m so sorry life tried you like that. sending all the love.
I been a supporter since my middle school years and now I’m in my third year of college, your channel been always a comfort watch. I appreciate your willingness to give us an update even though I never felt neglected toward your disappearance as a viewer. Always put yourself and family first, never feel like you have to force yourself to post ❣️ will always watch your videos no matter what ( I’m never on RUclips anymore but I have my favs notification bell on lol )
Sending love and light your way Jordi...what an ordeal. And while you definitely don't ever owe an explanation or details about your life, know that stories like this are also hugely helpful to people because it's clear evidence that, even when times are impossibly tough, it's possible to get through to the other side, and that time will keep moving and things won't stay terrible forever - so thank you! I know I am appreciative of that reminder right now. ❤
My cousin has dealt with these issues through 3 of her pregnancies and they're no joke, I know they've ran her to the point of hopelessness in the past. I'm so happy to see that you are doing well now and able to find the time to be happy and back on RUclips!
I appreciate you sharing this with us. I can’t even imagine how hard this must of been for you. I am so sorry. Sorry for the loss of your grandmother. So happy that you and Casper are healthy. I know years ago you had anxiety. How has your mental health been after everything you have been through? Sending you all the love and support. ❤
Goodness, you have been thru it! And then some! ❤❤ when it rains, it pours and it sucks but I’m glad you have made it through! Wishing you the best
hey jordi♥️♥️sending love to you and the family♥️
hi beautiful ♥️ same to you!
Oh god i adore you, i’ve missed you so much
I’m so happy that you and your family are doing well now 💕
I started watching you when I was 15ish now I’m 23 and it’s insane how much of a change you have made in my life. You’re part of the reason why I got so obsessed with clowns (I adopted 4 clown babies from random thrift stores and yard sales) and also what inspired me to be myself. The first makeup tutorial of yours I ever followed was the clown makeup one. My ex then bought me your clown blush for Christmas of 2019. I still have it and cherish it. I just want to say I’m so proud of you and who you have become. I don’t comment too frequently due to anxiety but I love how open and transparent you try to be. Wether on your instagrams or here on RUclips. And please never feel like you owe your fans an explanation for anything, we’re all humans going through extremely different and difficult times so always feel the need to just step back, breathe, and do your own thing. I love and appreciate all that you are Jordi. I wish you and your family nothing but good 🖤🖤🖤
You are truly an incredible and strong person. I've been a fan of you for many years. I appreciate how much you care for your fans and the incredible effort you bring to everything you create. Thank you for this video, and I wish you nothing but love and healing.
I hope you understand how incredible you are! I’m over here stressing and this it is your story. I really wish for you to get nothing but amazing, perfect moments from now on. You’re amazing and I am so so glad you’re all better now💖! Much love
I have been here since I was 16. I am now 21 and was so happy when I saw your post notification again, watching your videos is so soothing and feels like I am having a chat with my big sister
Thank you for letting us know your story Jordi, I had to grab many a tissue. I lost my Grandad this year, it is so devastating and grief is such a rollercoaster to navigate, so proud of you for sharing
I'm really grateful to have gotten to watch you for the past few years. Even when you were gone your videos were a great source of comfort to me. Thank you ❤
Edit: I miss my grandmother too.
Edit: it infuriates me how little they educate or seem to care about the feelings of pregnant women. Makes me want to scream.
I only found you when you returned to posting but I wanted to commend you on your resiliency and strength during such a stressful, terrifying, and tumultuous time in your life. Thank you for sharing your story and having courage to talk about some of the hardest times in your life. I hope you are finding some peace and happiness these days. I really enjoy your content because of your artistry and talent but also your storytelling and your perspective. I was really moved by your story and your experience even though I’m not a mother myself. Thank you for being you! ❤
Oh my Lord Jordi, I am so grateful for you and your strength and perseverance, your world was spin, flipped, and literally turned inside out and you , and your family overcame everything. I'm sorry that your grandma passed, but I know she is smiling down from heaven. I thank Luke and your support chain for being there and giving. You love.
Sending so much love❤️!
Its ok to feel those feelings still. 😢
Happy your here. 😊
I started to follow you in 2017, and I’m so thankful you’re still around! You inspire me to continue to be youthful & authentic as a mother. Sending you major hugs after everything the Universe has thrown at you! My goodness. We love you dude ♥️♥️♥️
sending love and healing towards you
I’ve been a subscriber for approx 6yrs. Thanks for sharing! 💕I’m so glad you’re back, Jordi.
thank you so much! i appreciate you