★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
I binge watched this series like how she binge ate during this episode... Just kidding. I taught myself self-control (whether watching videos non-stop or binge eating). I fail sometimes but I'm doing good and getting better every day. Consistency is key (best line in the video).
@@feifeijay wow. How did you taught yourself? I tried stop binging and overeating for like 4 months, but I still fail and regret about my existence. Can you tell about your motivation or some tips to stop this circle?
@@iwatchbtsoneshotsnowiamver3414 don't worry. If you want to eat, eat but in moderation. It's okay to binge. My binge periods continue for atleast a week. Haha. But after that I again start eating healthy, but I don't restrict myself.
People in the comments are saying that "oh she didn't have to loose weight, 123lbs is totally fine" yeah, sure, but it's not about her loosing weight... It's about her learning and understanding that healthy lifestyle isn't being skinny, having salads and fruits 24/7 and cutting off fast foods and sweets from your diet. It's a long and painful process but at the end of the day you learn to love yourself and understand what it really is about (hopefully). Also, Alivia I am so grateful I found your channel like 2 years ago when I became interested in stretching. I was around 16 at the time and I had no idea I would stay with you for so long. You motivate me to keep going even when it gets hard and I just wanna lay in my bed, binge eat and watch Netflix. I'm kinda in the same place as you are in those videos but now I can see my mistakes and hopefully stop them before it'll be too late. Lots of love ❤️
@@liarenne9087 she might not like how she looks or something like that, because we aren't her we don't know. Besides, if she isn't happy with her body, that isn't good, so if she is doing what she needs to do to make herself happy with herself, then let her. Its not like she is starving herself or anything, so she is fine.
@@liarenne9087 She had an unhealthy relationship with food and her weight. Instead of wanting to train her body and enjoy what it can do, she tried to lose weight. She has acknowledged it and that is what the series is about.
I feel like them being roommates wasn't great for either of them because their unhealthy beliefs about food were negatively effecting each other. No hate to either of them, that's just something i noticed.
totally agree i had the same type of friendship with my ex best friend and she ended up having anorexia and going to the hospital and i ended up with depression and psychiatry thinking it was my fault she got an ed
as a past, and sometimes present, binge eater, i can tell you its living hell. you don’t eat during the day, feeling tired as hell, and then come home to eat so much food you feel awful and like you’re going to throw up. it’s a continuous pattern of bad coping mechanisms and feeling awful about yourself afterwards. to everyone out there who’s struggling with an eating disorder, it seems like it’ll never end. but one day it will. so keep on pushing through life because you are beautiful and strong. ♡
thank you:( im in the cycle of starving myself and later on binging for a few days then repeating the process. it makes me hate myself and its so hard to imagine that i could get to the point one day where i have a balanced diet
Last summer, I went on a pretty strict diet: I would eat oatmeal I'm the morning, go to the library till the evening and then eat dinner. Between that I wouldn't eat anything and only drink water. Because of this, I naturally lost a lot in only 2 weeks (~4/5 kgs) and I couldn't be happier. Them school began. In the beginning, I did pretty good; breakfast, bread for school and dinner. My weight loss was slower, but it still happened. And then my birthday came. I had deprived myself of sweets for so long that the thought of eating a cheesecake made me nauseous, but I still ate. And I ate and I ate. And that whole week this continues; I binged everything I was and, I'm return, worked out hours a day to burn it off. And I still gained weight. I was afraid I ruined it, so I almost quit. But I didn't. I saw one Instagram post: "a bad day doesn't equal a bad year" and it motivated me. I searched up more on healthy eating (all the good nutrients) and how to snack without feeling guilty. Now (2 months after the beginning) i have lost 6 kgs in a healthy way and allow myself sweets again. If I eat a cookie, so what??? It tastes good and makes me happy and it won't mess up my progress. Sometimes I still feel guilty, but it's starting to lessen and I feel better (and healthier!) Than ever before!
This sounds like you and your mate developed a fully grown eating disorder at this point. I am studying psychology and an eating disorder is not distinguished by how skinny/obese you are or how little you are trying to eat. But how much your mind is occupied thinking about food and weight loss. How much thought and time it consumes. I hope you got professional help. I wish you all the best.
@Snow White no psychology takes in all variables possible. That’s just how diagnosing works. She had/has an eating disorder. Otherwise it would be a reductionist revision of the problem lovely.
@@peachesandcream8851 So from your comment I can tell that you didn’t really read what I was saying. I can also tell that you are either at the very beginning of your studies or you are lying. If otherwise please give me the name of your professor XD That you are suffering from an eating disorder and explaining the situation from your view just shows that you are biased from your own conditioning which is highly unprofessional. I explained what the variables of eating disorders are. I never said that one could just stop. So please inform yourself better the next time. And good luck with your studies and your own mental health.
@@peachesandcream8851 Also professional help is only support ne’er a cure. One is indeed able to cure a mental disorder by themselves, that’s what they to with professional help as well. Eating disorder doesn’t always mean anorexia or underweight. There is a difference between the physical act of disordered eating which can quickly become an obsession of your thoughts influencing occupying nearly all aspects and actions in your life. That’s an eating disorder.
I’m actually shocked to say that when I watched your last episode I haven’t purged since?? I’m recovering from bulimia and I’ve started eating again in healthy amounts and I’m honestly astonished that watching one of your videos would make my mindset flip into something that’s healthier than what it has been in all my previous attempts of recovery. I even had a cupcake last night because I remembered you saying that refusing brings obsession. You have no idea what this means for me, thank you so much for documenting your journey! I find so many points in this series that I was doing that I had no clue how to fix and some that I didn’t even realize I was doing. You’re literally my life saver. Thank you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg, Im so glad ur better just keep on trying! I'm tryna loose weight, not much but a bit to feel more confident. These videos helped me a lot too and especially realising it's not that from one day on ur eating completely healthy but that it's normal to have bad days and binges and you can still reach your goal. Good luck, you can do this!💖💖💖
may quilter but that is the opposite of what she has intended with showing this. She wants people not to make the same bad decisions she made. Please be healthy and eat enough and in moderation.
I cannot express how similar this experience was to me. I wanted to lose weight so I dieted and went too far and then gave into temptations. I started again new every Monday and starved then failed. Eventually I starved for a period of time lost a lot of weight and then binged the hell out. And I binged so hard all the time and just forgot how to eat normally
Yeah. This is my current situation. It is so depressing. Can't believe im wasting my adolescent years crying about my weight. I had tried to reach for help. Yet, nothing seems to work. " You just need to stop eating too much. " I really hope it is that easy.
Had also a similar one, one day I was just so over it, I ate everything to the point that I didnt have a sense if I’m hungry or not and then because of Ramadan i realized that I don’t need that to be happy and i started to eat what I want when I want but because I allow myself everything I can control it and don’t even want to eat shit all day and stuff myself with food
"Wait until tomorrow when you get on the scale." I used to tell myself something very similar every time I put something in my mouth. This led to crash dieting, mild anorexia, and excessive fasting.
i hope you know that you dont have to call your illness 'mild' (unless you really feel like it was that way), if it hurt you, you're allowed to call it severe 💗💗
me: watching a video about eating healthier and exercising the video's ads: "indulge in the rich creaminess of Lindt Dark Chocolate Lindor Truffles, crafted to perfection"
@@indi5040 ikr I saw one with tons of ice cream with so many unhealthy toppings and I felt such a huge cravin like I want to lose weight and eat healthy but Im like surronded by unhealthy food
Alivia, even though you stumble and mess up throughout your glow-up journey, I am still so inspired watching you venture through these struggles and giving us motivation to continue living a healthy lifestyle! You taught me how to achieve my front walkover and my scorpion, you helped me with cutting out excessive sugar out of my diet, you showed me that anyone can accomplish anything if they have the will to do it! Love you xx
Interesting that she mentions that she CANT workout at night. I absolutely cannot workout in the morning, I have no motivation or muscle energy. I find that I’m much more motivated and limber at the end of the day. 🤷🏼♀️
I run towards the jeep terminal and towards the school gate when my class starts at 5 AM. LOOOOLL. That's how I lose weight naturally. 😂😂 I also ride bike when buying school supplies and when I forgot to buy something I go back again. 😂😂 It's like it's natural for me. Maybe I'm happy doing those things? 😅 I Don't really have skin care routine, I always drink water and wash my face with water now and then. But my skin doesn't have much pimples. I guess it's about habit.
It starts with restriction then it goes to binging and if you don’t stop it next think you know it’s purging and once you get there you are risking your happiness and your life. So don’t get there if you are in this situation, please don’t get there.
Ikr. I weight more than that and i feel totally fine. And i go to the gym and everything. I think weight is not that important. When you gain muscle you weight more that when there is fat in ur body.
god I was so confused because she was talking about Halloween and November and stuff and I'm just like but its still October 4th? And then I realized this was from last year
She has rlly helped me feel more confident. Although this is about weightloss, this video made me more confident and determined to finish the rest if my end of year exams. I already feel like i flunked almost everything but she just lit up that spark of hope that i can do well and im gonna try .Thank you so muchhhh:) Edit:Wow never expected thus many like...:)
At one moment this episode got me to tears. I've been overweight all my life except for when I was a child. Losing weight is a really hard thing to do, especially mentally. The mental struggle to be the boss of yourself and to eat healthier and workout more is really, really, hard.Especially if you're used to eating more and not knowing when to stop. I really like watching your videos Alivia because they motivate me to change every day. I really hope one day I will lose weight to be healthy, be happy and wear the clothes I want to wear. But the biggest goal is for me to feel more confident! Being overweight stops me from being the real me, when in public, with friends or family. I hope one day I can comment again and say I lost weight and that I feel so much happier. One day!
I believe in you! Don't give up. I know it can be a tough toll on you, but the outcome will be worth it. Remember, learn to have a balanced lifestyle.. don't do the crazy "diets." You got this!
I'm crying reading this. I actually was skinny till I was 11/12 but then slowly slowly I started to gain weight & now I'm 19 & I'm overweight. I don't feel confident in front of people & feel hesitant always to express myself. I had tried to lose weight last year. It was going well for a whole month & I even lost weight, only with a few changes in my meal. But then there were family programs so I lost the control and started eating food with much calories & felt guilty & eventually I stopped doing the things I used to do. I felt like I would never be able to lose weight and this makes me feel like shit. Also people here judge u so much that makes it even worse. I just hope I'll be able to lose weight & get a healthy body. Although I don't eat food from outside often still I gained weight maybe cz I eat rice and all so :)
this is so real and authentic, i sit here and when you binge or this and that... i know exactly how you feel. I will keep going, i can do this but sometimes... your videos are the last motivation, i need before almost giving up x
Honestly, how she interacted with her roommate reminds me of pro-ana forums. Obviously, there’s a difference between someone who’s very impacted by diet culture like she is and someone who’s genuinely ill, but the fact that there are so many similarities is so scary.
Finally, someone said it. A lot of people think the toxicity started in season 2 because that’s when she got backlash. But, rewatching these now, they are screaming toxic diet culture disguised as wellness. I’m sure she meant well, but this is not advice to be followed. It didn’t start in season 2. It was here all along, and we were all too young and impressionable to see it.
I like how she still acknowledged how for her working out at night didnt work but for others it did because personally, working out at night has been helpful for me personally and helping me sleep earlier and waking up earlier to finish schoolwork instead of staying up until 3am every night.
alivia has showed that the glow up diary doesn't only change the way I look but it also change my negative thoughts of my body and motivate me to love myself more and belive in myself . thankyou so much for bringing the glow up diary to us alivia
i've binged watched this entire series in one day so far and uh i've had so much water because every time you say to get up and get a glass of water i have lmao
This reminds me so much of my addiction to alcohol. It's like at some point you start to laugh off your addiction as a quirky personality trait and others will too...until it hits a certain point.
junk food isn’t even all that. the way i limit myself from eating processed food is by not introducing myself to them😂 the less candy bars i know the less i’ll eat them lol
Periodt, i really disliked junk food and candy as kid but because everybpdy liked it and I wanted to fit in i started eating it... worst desicion ever.
I'm probably not the first person to say this but: "it's hard the first time. hard again the second. But it gets easier. after 10 times, it feels like you're unstoppable."
FUUCK that whole part you both go down to the shop "just to look" knowing full damn well. my demon was alcoholism but i see so many relatable things. this hits close to home.
I started slowly, taking out something every week I started off with soda. My family drank lots! Let me tell you you forget about the soda right after supper. I noticed the difference after a couple weeks.
its crazy how people hate that these videos are "triggering "but if people really wanna act like they didnt read the title it clearly says DIARIES NOT GUIDE so ya'll dont have to even click it if you read the title. good luck with everyons journey dont shoot someone elses down because YOU gave in to YOUR cravings. Be strong than that. Much Love to Alivia! Girl your doing great keep it up!!
I have an activity watch that every hour says “move” and whenever i just sit and watch tv, youtube, netflix etc. I get up for 5 minutes and walk, do squats, etc for those 5 minutes. And after i drink a glass of water.
It just came to me that your voice overs give off real strong Michelle Phan vibes ❤️ and I looooove it 👌🏻❤️ so happy you’re continuing your glow up diary videos
When ever I watch your video, I always cry and it hurts so much because I am dealing with the same things. Thank you because now I don’t feel like I am struggling alone in this world.
Just crying... This motivation was really a therapy for me... I was regretting about my habit of binge eating and getting trapped in vicious cycle.. I am so much in love with this girl.... Thanks alivia🥺❤
just know that: whenever you’re hungry, IT’S A GOOD THING !! because it means that your metabolism is high! and to stay high, you have to EAT so that it stays high!!! it’s a really good thing to eat when you’re hungry! and it’s normal
not at all, feeling hungry is from hormone 'ghrelin', it also promotes fat storage. always eating when you're hungry is a good way to gain weight. if you eat a lot of carbs, you get insulin spikes which also promotes fat storage.. so if you eat more times a day, your insulin on average is higher. metabolism is just the breakdown of food to be used as energy, it has less to do with whether you feel hungry or not. if you want to make it faster, you need to eat a proper diet, and become move active. Protein takes longer to burn so you dont need as much of it, and fat gives twice as much energy, so you dont need as much of it. carbs does the opposite.. of course having protein,fat + exercise will help you build more muscle which also increases metabolism.
저스틴 학습 한국어 100% agree apart from the eating when you’re hungry is a good way to lose weight. most ppl listen to their hunger cues and you should listen to your hunger cues e.g. intuitive eating. yes you shouldn’t eat mindlessly but you shouldn’t ignore your body when you’re hungry and go starving
@@kelsey2425 "hunger" cues happen when your body is expecting food, not when your body needs food. if you change your eating habits, the hunger cues change as well, its not static but dynamic. starving, more specifically starvation is a word describing something long term.. not over a few hours or 1-2 days. Skipping breakfast doesnt mean starvation.. We wouldnt have gotten to where we are today as humans if we were never able to go days without eating because the fridge didnt exist, thousands of years ago.
I really did started my healthy life style since i started watching you i lost 3 kilos in holiday and than school starts.... I eat alot but i didnt gain a thing its because i lost it in a good way its just i dont feel good and always tierd .. im backing on track this month and wish me luck 💕
I love that she's not one of those influencers who only give recipes and exercice tips when filming a video about weight loss. She helps us grow a stable and healthy mind set that we need in our life
I absolutely love Alivia but this is not a stable and healthy mindset. I know from experience as it is basically a mirror image of how I was a few years ago too.
this is seriously one of the best series on youtube- i love how honest you are in showing us the real struggles of weight loss and helping all of us by seeing that were not alone in our struggles
This is 100% me and more It makes me feel relieved that im not alone. Idk when this journey will end or will it ever end. Been 5 years trying losing weight but end up gaining more😑😑.
This came at the perfect time I’ve had a bad day and I ate all my feelings I had : 3 big tubs of Pringle s 4 packs of Oreos Box of brownies Bowl of french fires And a jam donuts Sadly I’m not lying Bear in mind I’m barely 5 ft tall
thats the thing about binge eating or having bad eating habits in general. theres only black or only white. no grey. you either eat too much or too little. its fucking awful.
Wow, I thought this was a real time thing, not from a year ago! But wow, that’s so cool! Well done. Your videos make me want to be healthier and happier x
i've had that kind of relationship with friends. you try and motivate each other but when both of you think its healthy and helping each other and genuinely dont realise you're harming each other, it can be bad
Alivia is outdoing herself with the editing omg 🥰 i don’t think she realises how much this series is helping a load of us, I’m hooked, inspired and moved. I relate to her so so much (I’m overweight though, so I’m aiming to look like her). PLEASE CONTINUE TO DO THESE OMG THEY ARE SO SO SO MOTIVATIONAL AND SOMEHOW EDUCATIONAL 🤩
6:45 reminds me of a quote on my NSL teacher’s wall that says “if you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.” (I might be a word or two off there)
Your rant at the end was so uplifting, and you and your roommate are hilarious. I know this video will help a lot of people who are struggling! It’s so well edited ahhh this is amazing
when you truly desire for something, the universe conspires to guide you to the goal. your energy can affect your journey whether it's positive or negative. this isn't the end alivia! :)
★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6
ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.
Why is nobody talking about her editing skills?
They're awesome !
Dusty Bun it’s amazing!!
💯
Dusty Bun true words, she's real good
She's could be a producer
i love how this is like a netflix series
a m yessss and it’s so good!
Teresa True Netflix is low key going down hill😭
She needs a Netflix series XD
I binge watched this series like how she binge ate during this episode...
Just kidding. I taught myself self-control (whether watching videos non-stop or binge eating). I fail sometimes but I'm doing good and getting better every day. Consistency is key (best line in the video).
@@feifeijay wow. How did you taught yourself? I tried stop binging and overeating for like 4 months, but I still fail and regret about my existence. Can you tell about your motivation or some tips to stop this circle?
someone give this girl a netflix show
Jahnavi Yalamati 👏🏽
YES!
Jahnavi Yalamati OR SOMETHING 🗣🗣🗣❤️
I couldn't agree more with you
please yes i need it
I like how "the cookie" has an important role in these glow up diaries and "the cookie" is mention at LEAST once in all the videos! XD
Exactly 😂
army!!! 💜
Yeah i love it tbh😂
maybe kookie 😁😁
Just ONE COOKIE *PLEEEEAAAAAASE*
I honestly think that them being roommates together was sooo badddd like they showed so many signs of ed’s and talked about it 24/7
ed? wdym
Uh huh
@@zahara5167 Ed stands for eating disorder
@Kendall Kundenzufriedenheit LMFAOSJDJEJRJEKDKKFCK
I feel like I’m watching myself...
same i’m literally eating a cookie
same i'm literally eating m&ms
Smile Love literally SAME
Smile Love lol same except more tears
Smile Love 😂😂😂🤣
I learn to love myself since I met alivia.
Honestly tho. She's so therapitic and knows how to knock some sense into people
@@cmo2174 yess that's right. I'm so having problem in controlling eating habits help me
@@ainnatera6324 it's funny, I have the opposite. I'm trying to gain weight but her vids just inspire me to actually try 😄
Same right here🙋
@@cmo2174 woah! then you should help me.
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH OMG
Me too!!
Me too. Seriously having a good relationship with food is hard. :(
Shabnaz D same now im binging..I don't know what to do. Im gaining all the weight I lost. Im so depressed 😭😭
@@iwatchbtsoneshotsnowiamver3414 don't worry. If you want to eat, eat but in moderation. It's okay to binge. My binge periods continue for atleast a week. Haha. But after that I again start eating healthy, but I don't restrict myself.
I know right! It is so hard to have a good relationship with food
People in the comments are saying that "oh she didn't have to loose weight, 123lbs is totally fine" yeah, sure, but it's not about her loosing weight... It's about her learning and understanding that healthy lifestyle isn't being skinny, having salads and fruits 24/7 and cutting off fast foods and sweets from your diet. It's a long and painful process but at the end of the day you learn to love yourself and understand what it really is about (hopefully).
Also, Alivia
I am so grateful I found your channel like 2 years ago when I became interested in stretching. I was around 16 at the time and I had no idea I would stay with you for so long. You motivate me to keep going even when it gets hard and I just wanna lay in my bed, binge eat and watch Netflix. I'm kinda in the same place as you are in those videos but now I can see my mistakes and hopefully stop them before it'll be too late.
Lots of love ❤️
any process of so far
ikr! also, it doesn't matter how skinny you are, some people simply aren't happy with their body and want to lose weight.
@@liarenne9087 she might not like how she looks or something like that, because we aren't her we don't know. Besides, if she isn't happy with her body, that isn't good, so if she is doing what she needs to do to make herself happy with herself, then let her. Its not like she is starving herself or anything, so she is fine.
lia aesthetic bmi is bullshit and btw she would need to lose 25 pounds before she is underweight. Every bodys different
@@liarenne9087 She had an unhealthy relationship with food and her weight. Instead of wanting to train her body and enjoy what it can do, she tried to lose weight. She has acknowledged it and that is what the series is about.
I feel like them being roommates wasn't great for either of them because their unhealthy beliefs about food were negatively effecting each other. No hate to either of them, that's just something i noticed.
totally agree i had the same type of friendship with my ex best friend and she ended up having anorexia and going to the hospital and i ended up with depression and psychiatry thinking it was my fault she got an ed
Never related to anything more than this
i just replied so u can see how many likes u got
@@hyunjinsamericanhoe1078 that's cute🤣
@@onussi3148 :)
Nice, it’s 10 in the morning here in germany and i can watch this while having my morning coffee🧡
Same
Same im in denmark
Im from Berlin 🙃
Me too/Ich auch😂
It was 9 here in the UK 💓
as a past, and sometimes present, binge eater, i can tell you its living hell. you don’t eat during the day, feeling tired as hell, and then come home to eat so much food you feel awful and like you’re going to throw up. it’s a continuous pattern of bad coping mechanisms and feeling awful about yourself afterwards. to everyone out there who’s struggling with an eating disorder, it seems like it’ll never end. but one day it will. so keep on pushing through life because you are beautiful and strong. ♡
thank you:( im in the cycle of starving myself and later on binging for a few days then repeating the process. it makes me hate myself and its so hard to imagine that i could get to the point one day where i have a balanced diet
jihyo's bread cheeks praying for you darling!! you’ll overcome it, i believe in you! ♡♡
Last summer, I went on a pretty strict diet: I would eat oatmeal I'm the morning, go to the library till the evening and then eat dinner. Between that I wouldn't eat anything and only drink water. Because of this, I naturally lost a lot in only 2 weeks (~4/5 kgs) and I couldn't be happier.
Them school began. In the beginning, I did pretty good; breakfast, bread for school and dinner. My weight loss was slower, but it still happened.
And then my birthday came. I had deprived myself of sweets for so long that the thought of eating a cheesecake made me nauseous, but I still ate. And I ate and I ate. And that whole week this continues; I binged everything I was and, I'm return, worked out hours a day to burn it off. And I still gained weight.
I was afraid I ruined it, so I almost quit. But I didn't. I saw one Instagram post: "a bad day doesn't equal a bad year" and it motivated me. I searched up more on healthy eating (all the good nutrients) and how to snack without feeling guilty.
Now (2 months after the beginning) i have lost 6 kgs in a healthy way and allow myself sweets again. If I eat a cookie, so what??? It tastes good and makes me happy and it won't mess up my progress. Sometimes I still feel guilty, but it's starting to lessen and I feel better (and healthier!) Than ever before!
Good for you bbg! ❤️
6kg in two months is so much healthier than 4kg in two weeks, I'm so proud of you, keep going.
@@idontevenhaveapla7224 no just no
I did that in middle school.
i went from 150 to 135 in the summer from just straving myself but gained it back or wven more going back to school
This sounds like you and your mate developed a fully grown eating disorder at this point. I am studying psychology and an eating disorder is not distinguished by how skinny/obese you are or how little you are trying to eat. But how much your mind is occupied thinking about food and weight loss. How much thought and time it consumes.
I hope you got professional help. I wish you all the best.
right,im recovering from ed and i feel this way too like it’s an eating disorder series but make it become a motivational vids
@Snow White no psychology takes in all variables possible. That’s just how diagnosing works. She had/has an eating disorder. Otherwise it would be a reductionist revision of the problem lovely.
@Snow White There is ALWAYS a choice even in conditioning.
@@peachesandcream8851 So from your comment I can tell that you didn’t really read what I was saying. I can also tell that you are either at the very beginning of your studies or you are lying. If otherwise please give me the name of your professor XD
That you are suffering from an eating disorder and explaining the situation from your view just shows that you are biased from your own conditioning which is highly unprofessional.
I explained what the variables of eating disorders are. I never said that one could just stop. So please inform yourself better the next time. And good luck with your studies and your own mental health.
@@peachesandcream8851 Also professional help is only support ne’er a cure. One is indeed able to cure a mental disorder by themselves, that’s what they to with professional help as well. Eating disorder doesn’t always mean anorexia or underweight. There is a difference between the physical act of disordered eating which can quickly become an obsession of your thoughts influencing occupying nearly all aspects and actions in your life. That’s an eating disorder.
I’m actually shocked to say that when I watched your last episode I haven’t purged since?? I’m recovering from bulimia and I’ve started eating again in healthy amounts and I’m honestly astonished that watching one of your videos would make my mindset flip into something that’s healthier than what it has been in all my previous attempts of recovery. I even had a cupcake last night because I remembered you saying that refusing brings obsession.
You have no idea what this means for me, thank you so much for documenting your journey! I find so many points in this series that I was doing that I had no clue how to fix and some that I didn’t even realize I was doing. You’re literally my life saver. Thank you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg, Im so glad ur better just keep on trying! I'm tryna loose weight, not much but a bit to feel more confident. These videos helped me a lot too and especially realising it's not that from one day on ur eating completely healthy but that it's normal to have bad days and binges and you can still reach your goal. Good luck, you can do this!💖💖💖
I’m so glad your recovering! Stay healthy!
Dania Mendez amen!
That’s wonderful! Praying for you ✝️
You're doing well girrrrl !!! Stay like this, everything's gonna be okay, I can tell you...
Is she a diet psychologist or what ? She's so good at it. 😂
I know I want to know what she’s studying
Cloud x Ariana same
😅
You live and you learn
She most likely has a good understanding because she was able to reflect on her experiences
These glow up diary videos have helped me so much keep doing what you’re doing because you’re amazing
may quilter but that is the opposite of what she has intended with showing this. She wants people not to make the same bad decisions she made. Please be healthy and eat enough and in moderation.
@@sinahmith I think op meant "keep doing what you're doing" as in dont give up on this journey and keep sharing it to inspire others
may quilter Same!!
SAY IT WITH ME: SHE NEEDS HER OWN NETFLIX SHOW IFREAKINLUVTHIS
Exactly
Yesyes
Lily R what an original comment
@@lolalopez7244 what an original last name
@@luckysstar777 hahahaha
"I want the cookie but I also want to lose weight" every girl's struggle
tbh one cookie won't make you gain weight, so just eat it
ッ Lev Haiba the Girl ッ Yes. It’s all about moderation, of course. But, people (some) seem to not mention that 🤷🏽♀️.
Not every girl like I’m skinny and everyone skinny shamed me so I want to gain weight
I WANNA gain weight 😔 (And also remember you cannot get slim in one day of working out and you can’t get fat just by eating one cookie) :)
Me eating protein cookies: 👁👄👁
I cannot express how similar this experience was to me. I wanted to lose weight so I dieted and went too far and then gave into temptations. I started again new every Monday and starved then failed. Eventually I starved for a period of time lost a lot of weight and then binged the hell out. And I binged so hard all the time and just forgot how to eat normally
Yeah. This is my current situation. It is so depressing. Can't believe im wasting my adolescent years crying about my weight.
I had tried to reach for help. Yet, nothing seems to work.
" You just need to stop eating too much. "
I really hope it is that easy.
I can relate !
Yeah this is how many of us watching live our lives I think.
i relate an unhealthy amount
Had also a similar one, one day I was just so over it, I ate everything to the point that I didnt have a sense if I’m hungry or not and then because of Ramadan i realized that I don’t need that to be happy and i started to eat what I want when I want but because I allow myself everything I can control it and don’t even want to eat shit all day and stuff myself with food
I love how she actually admits to her problems and approaches it differently by learning from her mistakes and taking it positively
"Wait until tomorrow when you get on the scale."
I used to tell myself something very similar every time I put something in my mouth. This led to crash dieting, mild anorexia, and excessive fasting.
i hope you're better now
@@sillycatsayshi I am, thank you
i hope you know that you dont have to call your illness 'mild' (unless you really feel like it was that way), if it hurt you, you're allowed to call it severe 💗💗
The whole “I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel” is why I keep going, because I know it’ll be so worth it as long as I keep going
Natalie yes that is what I tell myself, the hard work will pay off
ella it will, it’ll be amazing ❤️❤️
me: watching a video about eating healthier and exercising
the video's ads: "indulge in the rich creaminess of Lindt Dark Chocolate Lindor Truffles, crafted to perfection"
Grace Brown I always get ads of unhealthy foods on these videos
SAME
Hahah ikr
@@indi5040 ikr I saw one with tons of ice cream with so many unhealthy toppings and I felt such a huge cravin like I want to lose weight and eat healthy but Im like surronded by unhealthy food
Alivia, even though you stumble and mess up throughout your glow-up journey, I am still so inspired watching you venture through these struggles and giving us motivation to continue living a healthy lifestyle! You taught me how to achieve my front walkover and my scorpion, you helped me with cutting out excessive sugar out of my diet, you showed me that anyone can accomplish anything if they have the will to do it! Love you xx
thanks for telling us to drink water i just realised i haven't had any water since 9:00AM it's now 6:15PM and i didn't even realise how thirsty i was
EXACTLY omll
how u make 18 minute video feel like 5 mins will always amaze me
also we need that how to: glo-up diary;)
god !! i went up and checked !! i literally thought its less than 10 min
Exactly! I love watching this!
Interesting that she mentions that she CANT workout at night. I absolutely cannot workout in the morning, I have no motivation or muscle energy. I find that I’m much more motivated and limber at the end of the day. 🤷🏼♀️
bhhh same in the morning i literally have no energy like 0% 😂😭😭
I usually exercise like mid day. Cause I'm not a morning person or night owl. Lol
I run towards the jeep terminal and towards the school gate when my class starts at 5 AM. LOOOOLL. That's how I lose weight naturally. 😂😂 I also ride bike when buying school supplies and when I forgot to buy something I go back again. 😂😂 It's like it's natural for me. Maybe I'm happy doing those things? 😅 I Don't really have skin care routine, I always drink water and wash my face with water now and then. But my skin doesn't have much pimples. I guess it's about habit.
Everybody is different, i literally can't workout after eating anything. Literally.
I work out in the evening at like 6:00pm to 6:30
It starts with restriction then it goes to binging and if you don’t stop it next think you know it’s purging and once you get there you are risking your happiness and your life. So don’t get there if you are in this situation, please don’t get there.
I’m gonna be honest, 123 lbs is so totally fine
Ikr. I weight more than that and i feel totally fine. And i go to the gym and everything. I think weight is not that important. When you gain muscle you weight more that when there is fat in ur body.
Its just different for everybody I guess. She probably didn't feel good at that weight and she wanted to stop binging.
yeah, but some people just might not feel good with themselves. I used to be like this but BTS helped me. :D
Sam what is BTS?
Shasta Holly kpop groupe
god I was so confused because she was talking about Halloween and November and stuff and I'm just like but its still October 4th? And then I realized this was from last year
why did she post it so late?
@@laurenmarsland7599 I think her computer broke or something so she couldn't get her videos back for awhile
@@laurenmarsland7599 she posted late because she completed this journey then edited it and create it into a series
lina
she slowly disappeared off line. The next glow up diaries episode explains it.
@@lina-rp8tr no she just posted it later to show that its a journey silly
She has rlly helped me feel more confident. Although this is about weightloss, this video made me more confident and determined to finish the rest if my end of year exams. I already feel like i flunked almost everything but she just lit up that spark of hope that i can do well and im gonna try .Thank you so muchhhh:)
Edit:Wow never expected thus many like...:)
no_ comment, I feel you there! But listen, you have so much willpower, and I fully believe you can crush these exams! You got this!
SAT? Or smth
@@nada4176 nahh mine is normal school end of years for 9th grade...
Who else lost count how many times they have rewatched the glow up diaries while waiting for a new episode to come out? Just me? ok...
At one moment this episode got me to tears. I've been overweight all my life except for when I was a child. Losing weight is a really hard thing to do, especially mentally. The mental struggle to be the boss of yourself and to eat healthier and workout more is really, really, hard.Especially if you're used to eating more and not knowing when to stop. I really like watching your videos Alivia because they motivate me to change every day. I really hope one day I will lose weight to be healthy, be happy and wear the clothes I want to wear. But the biggest goal is for me to feel more confident! Being overweight stops me from being the real me, when in public, with friends or family. I hope one day I can comment again and say I lost weight and that I feel so much happier. One day!
I believe in you! Don't give up. I know it can be a tough toll on you, but the outcome will be worth it. Remember, learn to have a balanced lifestyle.. don't do the crazy "diets." You got this!
Samantha Rogers Thankyou!!✨
I am waiting for the comment.don't give up!
I'm crying reading this. I actually was skinny till I was 11/12 but then slowly slowly I started to gain weight & now I'm 19 & I'm overweight. I don't feel confident in front of people & feel hesitant always to express myself. I had tried to lose weight last year. It was going well for a whole month & I even lost weight, only with a few changes in my meal. But then there were family programs so I lost the control and started eating food with much calories & felt guilty & eventually I stopped doing the things I used to do. I felt like I would never be able to lose weight and this makes me feel like shit. Also people here judge u so much that makes it even worse. I just hope I'll be able to lose weight & get a healthy body. Although I don't eat food from outside often still I gained weight maybe cz I eat rice and all so :)
You got this! Huge step is reaching out for ressources and help. 💛💛💛 Alivia has motivated me to start a glow up journey too!
this is so real and authentic, i sit here and when you binge or this and that... i know exactly how you feel. I will keep going, i can do this but sometimes... your videos are the last motivation, i need before almost giving up x
Would love for a “how to: glow up diaries journal” love you and keep up the good work. I’m on the road with you Alivia ❤️❤️
Jorja Ruskin me too!
I love how Alivia is so REAL with us! I respect her and love her so much💓
Honestly, how she interacted with her roommate reminds me of pro-ana forums. Obviously, there’s a difference between someone who’s very impacted by diet culture like she is and someone who’s genuinely ill, but the fact that there are so many similarities is so scary.
Omg same
oh please.
Finally, someone said it. A lot of people think the toxicity started in season 2 because that’s when she got backlash. But, rewatching these now, they are screaming toxic diet culture disguised as wellness. I’m sure she meant well, but this is not advice to be followed. It didn’t start in season 2. It was here all along, and we were all too young and impressionable to see it.
@@rubinfeuerherz3799its true shut up
FAIL- First Attempt in Learning
True that
The diet mindset is really sad to see. Reminds me of when I was this age and put this exact same pressure/shame on myself.
MY HEART STOPPED THE SECOND I SAW THE NOTIFICATION FOR THIS VIDEO POP UP! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
me too i was like omg but i cant watch it now am in school..
Daniel Orozco Yesss 🤚
I like how she still acknowledged how for her working out at night didnt work but for others it did because personally, working out at night has been helpful for me personally and helping me sleep earlier and waking up earlier to finish schoolwork instead of staying up until 3am every night.
I would be so interested in a “How To: glow up diary journal” video!! Love you, Alivia!
Reilly S she just posted one
Ra Ra alright I just saw it but thank you!
“ failure doesn’t happen , until the moment you decide to give up” .... I’m not a failure ❤️
I really need that quote, thank you
That's true. You're not a failure. I am not a failure.
We are not failures.
❤
alivia has showed that the glow up diary doesn't only change the way I look but it also change my negative thoughts of my body and motivate me to love myself more and belive in myself . thankyou so much for bringing the glow up diary to us alivia
Love how she owns her mistakes👏
Every single episode is like a short film, I love this so much
i've binged watched this entire series in one day so far and uh i've had so much water because every time you say to get up and get a glass of water i have lmao
This reminds me so much of my addiction to alcohol. It's like at some point you start to laugh off your addiction as a quirky personality trait and others will too...until it hits a certain point.
"Am I gonna feel bad tomorrow? "
-YES.
Huhu. If this aint me
It’d be really cool if we could actually have a physical book like that.
that speech at the end made me tear up 😥😥😥
"Weight loss is so hard" while eating snacks IS LITERALLY ME EVERY SINGLE FOOD I EAT. LOL
Risfi Tirta Pratiwi www.bonfire.com/lipdrawings/
Is that Jennie
@@GracielovesStars yup
junk food isn’t even all that. the way i limit myself from eating processed food is by not introducing myself to them😂 the less candy bars i know the less i’ll eat them lol
Periodt, i really disliked junk food and candy as kid but because everybpdy liked it and I wanted to fit in i started eating it... worst desicion ever.
Yes alivia with a 18 minute video come through
I'm probably not the first person to say this but:
"it's hard the first time. hard again the second. But it gets easier. after 10 times, it feels like you're unstoppable."
this whole diary is so interesting. You should make a book.
i honestly think you should start like a podcast series or something,, your voice is so relaxing and calming to listen to!
FUUCK that whole part you both go down to the shop "just to look" knowing full damn well. my demon was alcoholism but i see so many relatable things. this hits close to home.
I am DEFINITELY interested in a how to glow up diary journal and I’m sure many others are too!!!!
I started slowly, taking out something every week
I started off with soda. My family drank lots! Let me tell you you forget about the soda right after supper. I noticed the difference after a couple weeks.
What else?
Alivia means in spanish “relief” 💕
What a beautiful meaning to a name!
the original word is Alivio, but Alivia is the feminine noun
@@catauru in portuguese brazil too
Es alivio, alivia es el verbo a la tercera persona del singular
Estefania Duque literalmente lo aclaré arriba amigui
its crazy how people hate that these videos are "triggering "but if people really wanna act like they didnt read the title it clearly says DIARIES NOT GUIDE so ya'll dont have to even click it if you read the title. good luck with everyons journey dont shoot someone elses down because YOU gave in to YOUR cravings. Be strong than that. Much Love to Alivia! Girl your doing great keep it up!!
I know. Her videos actually show the struggle of self image that a lot of women go through. I am actually glad she made the series.
I have an activity watch that every hour says “move” and whenever i just sit and watch tv, youtube, netflix etc. I get up for 5 minutes and walk, do squats, etc for those 5 minutes. And after i drink a glass of water.
It just came to me that your voice overs give off real strong Michelle Phan vibes ❤️ and I looooove it 👌🏻❤️ so happy you’re continuing your glow up diary videos
I’ve missed her videos soo much. I jumped on this video so quick, I dropped everything and ran when I saw it.
When ever I watch your video, I always cry and it hurts so much because I am dealing with the same things. Thank you because now I don’t feel like I am struggling alone in this world.
PLEASE continue these, this really gives me hope
Just crying... This motivation was really a therapy for me... I was regretting about my habit of binge eating and getting trapped in vicious cycle.. I am so much in love with this girl.... Thanks alivia🥺❤
8:12 Hell yeah, I'm interested in a How To: Glow Up Diary Journal.
I love how she shows that she's not purfect, and she's not afraid to show her struggles💗
we need more youtubers like this, it shows the real issue of a person's life
I’ve just been rewatching this series and I love how now I can notice some small details and all see how much she’s changed
just know that: whenever you’re hungry, IT’S A GOOD THING !! because it means that your metabolism is high! and to stay high, you have to EAT so that it stays high!!! it’s a really good thing to eat when you’re hungry! and it’s normal
Depends what you are eating though! Some things just don't fill you up :( Check out Stephanie Buttermores All In
Jess ONeill that’s true :)
but I meant if you eat normally (not junk food at every meal)
not at all, feeling hungry is from hormone 'ghrelin', it also promotes fat storage. always eating when you're hungry is a good way to gain weight.
if you eat a lot of carbs, you get insulin spikes which also promotes fat storage.. so if you eat more times a day, your insulin on average is higher.
metabolism is just the breakdown of food to be used as energy, it has less to do with whether you feel hungry or not. if you want to make it faster, you need to eat a proper diet, and become move active.
Protein takes longer to burn so you dont need as much of it, and fat gives twice as much energy, so you dont need as much of it.
carbs does the opposite..
of course having protein,fat + exercise will help you build more muscle which also increases metabolism.
저스틴 학습 한국어 100% agree apart from the eating when you’re hungry is a good way to lose weight. most ppl listen to their hunger cues and you should listen to your hunger cues e.g. intuitive eating. yes you shouldn’t eat mindlessly but you shouldn’t ignore your body when you’re hungry and go starving
@@kelsey2425 "hunger" cues happen when your body is expecting food, not when your body needs food.
if you change your eating habits, the hunger cues change as well, its not static but dynamic.
starving, more specifically starvation is a word describing something long term.. not over a few hours or 1-2 days.
Skipping breakfast doesnt mean starvation..
We wouldnt have gotten to where we are today as humans if we were never able to go days without eating because the fridge didnt exist, thousands of years ago.
Your series is one of the best out on RUclips
I really did started my healthy life style since i started watching you i lost 3 kilos in holiday and than school starts....
I eat alot but i didnt gain a thing its because i lost it in a good way its just i dont feel good and always tierd .. im backing on track this month and wish me luck 💕
I LOVE HOW YOUR REAL WITH US LIKE GIRL WE APPRECIATE IT! ❤️😍
Btw this series has helped so much!!
I love that she's not one of those influencers who only give recipes and exercice tips when filming a video about weight loss. She helps us grow a stable and healthy mind set that we need in our life
I absolutely love Alivia but this is not a stable and healthy mindset. I know from experience as it is basically a mirror image of how I was a few years ago too.
@@hrichards9562 same
_"there's always a little glimmer in darkness."_
best quote ever.
hope your doing well btw your beautiful
When she started cleaning her room I started cleaning mine my room I did aliva inspires me to be a better person then who I am
OMG this girl changed my life.i really learned a lot from you. your videos give me a reason to keep on fighting. Love you!!!!
Since it’s already 6PM in japan, i can watch this while relaxing after an exhausting week of school.. *friday* ❤️
these are so freaking inspiring. like i can’t imagine being this well put together! good job girl! :)
I didn't know how much I needed your series in my life, it came in such a right moment 🥺🖤🖤
Same gurl
These videos are so different to what I normally see on RUclips and I absolutely love them
this is seriously one of the best series on youtube- i love how honest you are in showing us the real struggles of weight loss and helping all of us by seeing that were not alone in our struggles
okay but we love the consistency of the uploads
man, i´ve been watching all your glow up vids, and they opened my eyes, today´s the first day i didn´t purge and i feel so alive, thx
This is 100% me and more
It makes me feel relieved that im not alone.
Idk when this journey will end or will it ever end.
Been 5 years trying losing weight but end up gaining more😑😑.
This came at the perfect time I’ve had a bad day and I ate all my feelings
I had :
3 big tubs of Pringle s
4 packs of Oreos
Box of brownies
Bowl of french fires
And a jam donuts
Sadly I’m not lying
Bear in mind I’m barely 5 ft tall
I either don’t eat a lot or I eat everything
Like you said far right or far left
thats the thing about binge eating or having bad eating habits in general. theres only black or only white. no grey. you either eat too much or too little. its fucking awful.
Honelsty I feel you
That's me every single day sadly
Aww
I’m sorry you feel that way
I’m barely 5 foot too, and when I have bad days I binge
Don’t worry, it will get better ♥️
You are so determined
you are strong 🙋❤
You are everyone's idol
what a legend
Wow, I thought this was a real time thing, not from a year ago! But wow, that’s so cool! Well done. Your videos make me want to be healthier and happier x
to have this kind of relationship with your roomate is strange. like who cares if you ate a cookie girl enjoy college
i've had that kind of relationship with friends. you try and motivate each other but when both of you think its healthy and helping each other and genuinely dont realise you're harming each other, it can be bad
It gets addicting tho
It's called discipline 🙄
i think it's good because if you both have the same goal, it makes it a lot easier to achieve it when you have someone in it with you.
@@imnotacatidontsaymeow1455 exactly
Alivia is outdoing herself with the editing omg 🥰 i don’t think she realises how much this series is helping a load of us, I’m hooked, inspired and moved. I relate to her so so much (I’m overweight though, so I’m aiming to look like her). PLEASE CONTINUE TO DO THESE OMG THEY ARE SO SO SO MOTIVATIONAL AND SOMEHOW EDUCATIONAL 🤩
6:45 reminds me of a quote on my NSL teacher’s wall that says “if you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.” (I might be a word or two off there)
omg .. when she said “the girls in 427” I freaked out because that’s my dorm number!!! 😳
Your rant at the end was so uplifting, and you and your roommate are hilarious. I know this video will help a lot of people who are struggling! It’s so well edited ahhh this is amazing
when you truly desire for something, the universe conspires to guide you to the goal. your energy can affect your journey whether it's positive or negative. this isn't the end alivia! :)