loool I never normally get angry at comments but people on this video are so rude. Most of the comments on this video are by people who also have mental health problems and “comparing” or belittling me. AT THE END OF THE VIDEO I SHOW THE ROOM. So first off, it’s not click bait. Secondly, this video in NO WAY glamorises mental health problems. As you can see the room is disgusting and bare, it’s depressing in itself. I wasn’t allowed to have any comforts, and would have to sneak my blanket in. I would come from leave every night and lie in that bed crying from pure loneliness. I felt exiled, but you know what?! I would force myself to think of the next day when I’d be able to go home again. Now if you wanted me to show that, I could’ve. I could’ve show all the times I actually had to be dragged back onto the ward kicking and screaming because of how much I hated it there. But who would that help?? By not showing my lowest parts, I’m therefore romanticising my journey?! If that’s the the case then so be it. Because I’m pretty sure if I showed the lowest points I would probably have upset more people. I know from my point of view I don’t want to see people crying or screaming or self harming. Because that would really upset me. So please think before you comment. Don’t judge me on how I was recovering at the time, I’m now nearly a whole year out of hospital after being in and out every few months since I was 17. I must be doing something right. Remember, I am a person, I have feelings, and I’m very open to constructive criticism, just not pure ignorance If you too, suffer with mental health problems - don’t be ignorant or rude because YOU KNOW first hand how much that hurts.
marieroseeee hi! I noticed you were getting upset at the end, stay strong! You are so beautiful and nice. Ignore all the awful people as best you can. I just found your channel and I’m very happy I did!
For everyone saying "that psych ward isn't like the ones we have here" the pretty bedroom is NOT the psych ward. She shows her psychiatric hospital room at the end of the video
JUST A DISCLAIMER, the FIRST bedroom shown in this video is actually my own bedroom at home! The one at the end of the video is in the psychiatric hospital :) sorry for any confusion! x
marieroseeee marieroseeee so why would you say the whole video is about your psych ward room when it's all just your normal room? lol that desperate for likes to the point you have to do click bate? psych wards never allow cameras and certainly not curtains, something you could hard yourself with and free open windows.
paige scene lol excuse me but if you actually watched the video, you will see the psych room. So it's not click bait when I actually do what I said in the title :)
For people commenting that this isnt a real mental health ward ect, theres different wards with different amounts of security, if youre at high risk you can get moved to a room where theres only a bed and walls, for example. Not everyone needs that. Also, The curtains and bed sheets are made in a special way where they cant suffocate you or be removed from the wall , they also do checks on you randomly every 10 mins even throught the night. she must have been able to sneak her camera in somehow which isnt too hard as ive snuck my phone in a couple of times. mental health hospitals are not how u see them on TV
Esha Chowdhory or she went to a hospital home, where you stay for a couple weeks or months and you have normal privileges and you can have your phone along with going to places out of the home, and you can run away from there and they won’t do anything.
This is a pretty standard UK acute ward to be honest! Some are stricter than others but it generally depends on the trust that runs it. The ones where I live they don't routinely search your stuff but in the next city they do!
It’s not like that here in the states. There ok but very strict and lock down. Some nicer then others and depending what state your in two. Go home passes where taken from most places cause people never came back. Unless you got private insurance or pay slot of money for a all voluntary facility.
I know this video was a while ago and so we're these comments, honestly I'm disgusted with how people have reacted. People actually comparing their conditions to one another, what about supporting each other?? Where's the help and the love at? Most of the comments are saying how they'd rather live in a psych ward like what on earth?!?! How heartless can yall be? It's not a choice, it's not something fun or cool, and it's definitely not a joke!! I'm actually disgusted wow.
my psych rooms had little fake aluminum mirrors and mesh windows so you couldn't break the glass. and we couldn't have any electronics :( it's weird how different it is over here. I'm glad you're recovering.
Oh my god the "waiting room" until I got a bed was terrible and the most bland thing I had ever been in. Not even a clock it windows, it would've driven me mad if I was there for a full day. I would ask what time it was and I would be like, what?? I thought it was 11pm and it was 11am because everything felt so long and tiring. There were aluminum "mirrors" I guess that were foggy and dirty and disgusting
Sheesh people don't listen to her in the video! She explained that was her actual bedroom and then she even shows the one at the ward in the end. She should not even have to put a disclaimer
this brings back memories.... i was in 7 different psych wards, but because im under 18, we werent allowed any phones or cameras, in all apart from 1 i had a bathroom in my room, even in the picu.... the worst was being on 2 to 1 arms length (2 nurses with me at arms length... :/ ) but i have been out of hospital for 6 months now!! :D
omg i was in the picu at one point and it was hell on earth! and I've also been on arms reach and thats horrendous hahah, very proud of you for getting out of the rut that is hospitalisation - its so hard but well done!! xx
How brave are you showing your ward on the internet, I hope everything's okay ! I've had the same sort of issues but never been admitted to a hospital or anything although been close to, I bet it's so scary ! Hope you're okay now though xxx
You’re honesty is so important, I TOTALLY understand that mentality. It’s like you just want some help because you don’t know how to fix what you’re feeling. Please tell someone - you don’t have to suffer in silence and people will help and value you. I’m so sorry you feel this way, please keep going xxxx
I would be careful with telling stuff like that unless you know of a very good mental hospital off the top of your head. The one I was involuntary placed in was bad. Did nothing for 90% of the time. 3 days cost me $9,000 dollars. Now I’m never going to tell authority figures that I wanna die or anything close to it lol. Just that I’m “very sad”
Grace D my room was a little bit better but not much. We had a bigger bed but we only had one shelf for all our clothes. It dosent sound much better but the room was way bigger
i was in 3 priory hospitals and a cygnet hospital, in the cygnet and 2 of the priorys and the nhs hospital i was at, i had a bathroom and all the rooms were massive, but in the nhs one i got bullied :( but i definetly never want to go back!
EvilBeagle really? When I was in one like half of the girls were part of the lgbtq+ community and they treated everyone equally, but yeah you feel like you’re in prison and I personally felt like I was being punished for feeling suicidal.. and ye u weren’t allowed to have electronics only books and ur clothes but they had TVs and activities in the day room- edit: u weren’t allowed to leave until you were discharged but I guess it was only because the maximum stay was a month
I SAW YOU HAVE THE BOOK AM I NORMAL YET IN YOUR SUIT CASE I READ THAT BOOK I LOVE THAT BOOK WITH MY WHOLE HEART HOLY GOD I hope you're okay look after yourself
You can really tell the difference from now to here ( 2 years ago) your whole vibe is different! Your voice sounds different just everything .. very proud of you hunny xoxox
after the other girl replied to me saying that it was click bait i re-watched the full video and relised it wasn't (first room was your home room and then second room was the mental hospital room) sorry, should have watched full video in the first place :) x
That’s really what they look like... my parents didn’t take my self harm very well and told me I’d be sent to a ward and strapped down to a bed and fed through a tube if I didn’t stop. I believed them, and I hid my relapses from them...
ZkeleElla ::/ give or take. The one I went to was not this nice looking but no strapping down unless you started to act insane. And no one will feed you thro a tube unless you are refusing to eat completely. None the less it’s way too expensive for what you get imo
She looked so sad at the end her eyes looked a bit watery and her voice trembled a bit. Seconds before she covered up the camera she looked like she was about to break down and cry. Smh y’all
Oh my gosh, you sweet little darling. You seemed quite upset by the end of the video (being back on the ward perhaps). I hope you've made a good recovery and are feeling better these days and get to be at home! All the best to you
I'm glad you're making the best out of the situation and that you try not to hide what is going on in your live. It sure is interesting and I hope you're doing okay now!
Just got discharged from a mental health hospital myself - and videos like this really helped me. Didnt feel like making videos in hospital - but Im starting now!
More residential type facilities or go home ones on pass here are private insurance only. They don’t do day passes except in state hospitals. The baker act facility’s are a dungeon. I’m glad you where able to have that time to film and be productive somewhat. It’s important and helpful to treatment. I wish they had more of that here. It’s high risk like lock down everywhere here. But it’s all good, I’ve been in a lot of different types and now uninsured keeps me out of them. They feed you drugs and there’s 0 activity’s but a tv and rooms like yours on the ward. They stopped giving go home passes cause everywhere people stopped coming back to hospital. Keep it up though. I’m proud of you. I’m not judging you. Your a strong woman!
What is wrong with you all? Oh my god, do you really believe the room where she was first is the room in the hospital she was? You can see that it’s really personal and if you would watch the whole video you would understand it 😑🤦🏽♀️
Wow, this is crazy to see!! I've been to 3 different hospitals and they're all completely different from yours. The windows stay locked with a key, no mirrors, no chairs, the bathroom is separate from the room out in the hallway, a very small shelf to keep your belongings but you're not allowed to bring your own blanket, cell phone, etc. Any shampoo/conditioner or small necessities you have stay under lock and key at the front desk. You can only use them when permitted. No shoes or clothes with strings allowed. No makeup allowed.
When I was in a place like this, we couldnt wear makeup, couldnt wear any kind of jewelry, no phones or cameras, we got about 30mins-1hr to make a phone call each day on the nurses phones, no hair pins or bobby pins, no wire bras, no lace or strings or belts or shoe laces if there were u either had to cut them off or hand them in if they can be removed. The rooms had 2shelf empty book case looking things in the room, each room had 2beds and each room had a bathroom, toilet and shower, no door knobs or locks of course. I didnt have a roomate for like 3days I was soooo bored when I was in my room cant imagine never having one
Ive been to a few, but one of mine was like this too but then the other was like a shared room with a bed and 3 shelves and security guards outside the room ! I hope your going better x
okay i thought the first room was the hospital room and i was like damn you got studio lights and everything in there hahaha, but nah the second bedroom definitely gives me psych ward room vibes. i hated those rooms, they just feel so bare and bleak, we could bring our own bedding etc to try and give the room some colour but it still always felt cold. we weren't allowed phones/computer/ipad etc either man those times sucked. hope you're doing better nowadays! x
When I was at the psych ward, my bed was plastic, side table was plastic, did have my own bathroom with sink though so that was nice. It was about double the size. Staff was nice but they took my phone and no laces or strings of any kind. So had to cut the ties out of my capris etc.
Forgive me, I'm not too familiar with Apple tech - but I'm relatively sure other laptops have a lot more space. My current laptop was manufactured last year. It's an Acer, and has about 915 GB of space on the hard drive - and I have some pretty huge programs on this thing. How much space does your Macbook have?
Omg this room is so sad ... I was in a psych hospital myself for 2 weeks and my room was amazing. I had all the comfort I needed for those 2 weeks and the room was very colorful. It’s sad that this room is so disgusting. It’s even more depressing to live in a room like that I think !
When I was in a psych hospital I had to share my room with 3 other people, all we could have was a bed and bedside table and some of our stuff. The walls and beds were covered with words and pencil scribbles and it was just really depressing lmao. I'm glad you got a nice room
That room looks cozy compared to what I had when I was in ward.. :/ I did not have a room to myself. I had a bed sheet for a blanket and my matters was more of the consistency of a gym mat. Our bathroom would lock if we close it so we always had to get permission to open it (same with going into our rooms) no blinds either just a bed and one shelf. Phones were taken away too, anything metal or “sharp” so no wire bras lol no jewelry etc
What kind of psychiatric ward is this? The ones here are plain and they don't have curtains or anything nice. And you definitely can't film at them here 😂
I've been to 3 mental hospitals and a crisis center. One of the psych hospitals I was in the juvenile wing and the other two I was in the adult wing. I was never allowed any electronics at all. All you are really allowed is basic clothing without strings and no shorts or anything considered provocative. I live in California by the way and have been to them in San Diego and Los Angeles
thanks for sharing I may try inpatient for my depression I'm worried because I have bladder incontinence not sure how they'll handle it I don't wanna be embarrassed
Not in America. The psychiatric hospitals here are fucking DEPLORABLE. All due to the fact that I wanted help, I called the suicide hotline, and said I was feeling suicidal and talked about a possible plan (even though I told the person that I knew deep-down I wasn't going to harm myself that night), they called the cops on me without warning that it could happen and I was forced to stay at my local hospital in an mental treatment facility that felt more like jail (in formal terms, Involuntary EP Admission) than anything. They gave me a shitty room with just a low-budget tv, a word search booklet, a chair, and a shitty bed, NOTHING else. And remember, I was forced to have security lock up all my belongings such as my phone and wallet and if that doesn't sound bad enough, I'm not done yet. The food they give you smells and tastes like shit and they give you something whether you want food or not. Even foods I usually love taste fucking disgusting. And to add on top of that, my room has open windows out into the corridor w/the front desk my my room doesn't even have a lock, and the lights NEVER turn off. And what about the bathroom? Fuck, that shit room made it even worse! No one gets their own bathroom and everyone in the area instead shares one 24/7 unlocked bathroom with one toilet and a shitty sink with a broken soap dispenser, a weird-ass faucet, and NO paper towels nor hand dryers. There was no hand sanitizer available, even at the front desk and plus, one other patient near my room was severely ill mentally and always went around his room and corridor yelling stupid random fucking bullshit and even did it PAST FUCKING 1 AM. When I asked if I could move somewhere away from this thug, they said I had no choice and that until evaluation by a psychiatrist that i'm "safe" enough to be discharged, I'm by law stuck here no matter how miserable it is. I struggle with anxiety in such situations, but despite the fact that the nurses and security claimed to care for my well-being, I could see right through their numerous white lies that they clearly didn't give a flying fuck. I practically got no sleep that night and despite how many times I asked when I would be evaluated, they would only tell me that they don't know. After fighting my way into reading the information, I realized that the psychiatrist could take 24 FUCKING HOURS to come to me. Thankfully, I was evaluated the next day by late-afternoon and lied my ass off about how i felt just to get the fuck out of that shithole of a mental treatment center. The next day after I'm finally discharged, I'm in so much shock that this all happened and then next evening, I realize I'm nauseous and soon enough, I'm barfing non-stop while still tasting the atrocious tastes I remember from the hospital. I think it's fair to say that my experience only fucked my emotions up even more, despite claims that this experience would do the exact opposite
Are you allowed to have electronics in the ward? Like your iPad or can you have an iPod or something? Because when I was in a psych ward we couldn’t have those things... which made it a lot more lonely and sad because I couldn’t do anything but lay on my bed and sleep or cry.
How did you manage to have the nurses let you have you cellphone or computer. I got the FU everytime I had my cellphone packed in my luggage whenever I was admitted to psychiatric hospitals or a psychiatric ward?
I've never been a hospital where I could sneak my phone in, but at the time I dont think i ever tried. I would always be confused with other friends that would message me in the hospital wondering how they kept their phone.
Of course her bedroom isnt her hospital room. There would be no filming and pumpkin carving in a psych ward. Anyway valuables are risky in hospital. Be Wise.! The end of the vid I believe shows the room
When I tried to commit suicide at 14 we had 4 cots in one room and one closet with one shelf a piece.... A bathroom with no door just a tiny cubby where the toilet was.. Like prison practically.... No art supplies, no talking to the other kids unless it was in group. Nothing... Literally... They don't know how to handle mental health where I live... They drove me 2 hours from home in a cop car,was in the er on suicide watch for 13 hours, no food! Just a water. They only fed us dinner... So like... Got there at 5 am, they drew blood and tests every morning at 6, so I was so dehydrated and starving til 9 that night.... I was used to it cause I used to not eat but at dinner time everyday. But like i'd never go back...
Marie you are incredible some of these comments are awful I’m pretty sure aswell as u are people won’t want to you depressed or sucidal! That room is plain and boring and in no way was u glamorising it;some people want to see what they look like! Near at the end you could see she was about to breakdown! You are so strong Marie and I’m glad to see you-2 years later- stronger than ever! Xxxxx❤️❤️❤️
Is never ever gone into any type (including especially, but in this case especially phys) hospital room & the bed has not been made... Okay only going to private hospitals now - I guess you get what you pay for: so I’m unable to work due to physical disabilities (apart from being mostly confined to bed and needing a full-time Carer) I need a wheelchair - but I would give anything to be able to work!. So I don’t get nice new cloths , new iPhones or iPad’s: literally all of my money goes in private health insurance (you would be shocked at the amount of thousands pay each year), along with medical bills plus medication that isn’t covered under a government safety net program. But I know the high quality of medical care when I need (whatever that type of medical care maybe). I don’t know why this is not having a dig at you personally no one in England seems to consider private health insurance...
I had to stay at a psych ward for 2 weeks because I was a danger to myself and others. When I was everything was bolted to the ground and the beds and pillows were very airy. The worst thing was in the shower there wasn’t a shower head so the water blasted out and it hurt so bad but the other people there were really nice
I've been in 4 different mental hospitals 5 different times (in the US). We don't get to have any of that kind of stuff...decorations/cameras/phone/make up/etc and we definitely don't get to leave when we are inpatient. I just end up Baker Acted then I act the way they want me to and say exactly what they want so I can leave asap.
i'm so confused, what hospital was this? i've never been admitted to a psych ward but i know that you're generally not allowed to have like any belongings and they even take away your phone and computer and anything that can access the internet (or at least that's how it was a few years back when my friends were in) and like you have giant studio lights, multiple cameras, a laptop obviously for editing/uploading, and im just ???? i know for a fact that they wouldnt let anyone have any big lights like that because they could be used for a weapon and like there's so many rules for psych hospitals . like you cant even have shoelaces...
Melody did you watch until the end of the video? She was allowed leave so the first part of the vlog is her own normal bedroom, then at the end she returns to the psych ward room
I’ve been hospitalized multiple times at multiple hospitals for Depression/Suicidal Thoughts/Attempts and Self Harm (the last time was when I was 15/16 I’m 20 now) and we weren’t even allowed to use the phone alone let alone have a room like that or access to a computer. What type of facility is this? Like a halfway home type of place? So confused and curious lol. Edit: now I’m really confused.. you can LEAVE the hospital and go home? I need explanations lol.
I have really bad anxiety and unwanted thoughts and it's gotten so bad that yesterday I self harmed for the first time, idk how to ask anyone for help because I'm embarrassed about it
Coco Hofer I also used to self harm. I told my parents by texting them at school. I told them I'm in class so they couldn't call me and basically told them what's going on. Just know that this isn't what you are, and you can get through this! Best of wishes!
Did you have anxiety in the end of the video? Because I can defineltly see a chance in your voice. It’s more thin and shaky. I shound like that when I have anxiety or I am about to cry.
I have a lot of the same issues I've been in a short term ward it sucks I'm not aloud to do anything when I'm in there so I can't do videos I cant use my phone i cant even leave the place I've been there 14 times and next time they said that they will put me in a long term ward I said do that and see what happens that made them think I needed to stay longer it sucks when I'm there but I got to a children's hospital for that it makes me mad
i'm confused you have a dog and your camera and a cell phone and a camcorder and jewlery/curtains/shoelaces etc? is that like a private/expensive/heavily monitored psych unit? because psych units do /not/ permit any of those things. *maybe* the dslr but they definitely wouldn't let it be kept in your room
Im surprised they let you have a camera on the ward ..where I live ..you would never be allowed ..just because of the other people ..its a privacy thing ..even though u wouldn't take any pics or video one of the patients ..they don't care they wont take any chances
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loool I never normally get angry at comments but people on this video are so rude. Most of the comments on this video are by people who also have mental health problems and “comparing” or belittling me. AT THE END OF THE VIDEO I SHOW THE ROOM. So first off, it’s not click bait. Secondly, this video in NO WAY glamorises mental health problems. As you can see the room is disgusting and bare, it’s depressing in itself. I wasn’t allowed to have any comforts, and would have to sneak my blanket in. I would come from leave every night and lie in that bed crying from pure loneliness. I felt exiled, but you know what?! I would force myself to think of the next day when I’d be able to go home again. Now if you wanted me to show that, I could’ve. I could’ve show all the times I actually had to be dragged back onto the ward kicking and screaming because of how much I hated it there. But who would that help?? By not showing my lowest parts, I’m therefore romanticising my journey?! If that’s the the case then so be it. Because I’m pretty sure if I showed the lowest points I would probably have upset more people. I know from my point of view I don’t want to see people crying or screaming or self harming. Because that would really upset me. So please think before you comment. Don’t judge me on how I was recovering at the time, I’m now nearly a whole year out of hospital after being in and out every few months since I was 17. I must be doing something right. Remember, I am a person, I have feelings, and I’m very open to constructive criticism, just not pure ignorance If you too, suffer with mental health problems - don’t be ignorant or rude because YOU KNOW first hand how much that hurts.
marieroseeee it’s stupid
Gracee Gavin you’re very kind
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marieroseeee hi! I noticed you were getting upset at the end, stay strong! You are so beautiful and nice. Ignore all the awful people as best you can. I just found your channel and I’m very happy I did!
For everyone saying "that psych ward isn't like the ones we have here" the pretty bedroom is NOT the psych ward. She shows her psychiatric hospital room at the end of the video
JUST A DISCLAIMER, the FIRST bedroom shown in this video is actually my own bedroom at home! The one at the end of the video is in the psychiatric hospital :) sorry for any confusion! x
marieroseeee marieroseeee so why would you say the whole video is about your psych ward room when it's all just your normal room? lol that desperate for likes to the point you have to do click bate? psych wards never allow cameras and certainly not curtains, something you could hard yourself with and free open windows.
paige scene lol excuse me but if you actually watched the video, you will see the psych room. So it's not click bait when I actually do what I said in the title :)
i have depression, anxiety and borderline personality disorder, i struggle alot with self harm too x
marieroseeee i have same.but self harm and i have adhd and pdst but im never gotten committed into a ward
marieroseeee would u recommend me to go to a mental hospital if I have same problems has u.
For people commenting that this isnt a real mental health ward ect, theres different wards with different amounts of security, if youre at high risk you can get moved to a room where theres only a bed and walls,
for example. Not everyone needs that. Also, The curtains and bed sheets are made in a special way where they cant suffocate you or be removed from the wall , they also do checks on you randomly every 10 mins even throught the night. she must have been able to sneak her camera in somehow which isnt too hard as ive snuck my phone in a couple of times. mental health hospitals are not how u see them on TV
Esha Chowdhory or she went to a hospital home, where you stay for a couple weeks or months and you have normal privileges and you can have your phone along with going to places out of the home, and you can run away from there and they won’t do anything.
This is a pretty standard UK acute ward to be honest! Some are stricter than others but it generally depends on the trust that runs it. The ones where I live they don't routinely search your stuff but in the next city they do!
Ye true the ward i stayed on was all plastic furniture or minimal furniture not like maries room
It’s not like that here in the states. There ok but very strict and lock down. Some nicer then others and depending what state your in two. Go home passes where taken from most places cause people never came back. Unless you got private insurance or pay slot of money for a all voluntary facility.
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When I was in the hospital all I got was a bed and a shelf for cloths.
Me too
Lacey Morgan same
Angie's Life yeah
Jojo Arehart I know it makes no sense. I know some can let you have make up cause its long term but other then that it don't make sense
Jojo Arehart yeah I know weird
I know this video was a while ago and so we're these comments, honestly I'm disgusted with how people have reacted. People actually comparing their conditions to one another, what about supporting each other?? Where's the help and the love at? Most of the comments are saying how they'd rather live in a psych ward like what on earth?!?! How heartless can yall be? It's not a choice, it's not something fun or cool, and it's definitely not a joke!! I'm actually disgusted wow.
my psych rooms had little fake aluminum mirrors and
mesh windows so you
couldn't break the glass. and we couldn't have any electronics :( it's weird how different it is over here.
I'm glad you're recovering.
Oh my god the "waiting room" until I got a bed was terrible and the most bland thing I had ever been in. Not even a clock it windows, it would've driven me mad if I was there for a full day. I would ask what time it was and I would be like, what?? I thought it was 11pm and it was 11am because everything felt so long and tiring. There were aluminum "mirrors" I guess that were foggy and dirty and disgusting
that psych room looks like my university dorm room
I see no difference
The first one is her bedroom!
@sweetie gurl plays the first room with the pink curtains and stuff is her actual bedroom at home
@sweetie gurl plays the first bedroom was her house she has stated that in the comments
Sheesh people don't listen to her in the video! She explained that was her actual bedroom and then she even shows the one at the ward in the end. She should not even have to put a disclaimer
I'm sat in A&E while watching this waiting for a psych bed so this helps a lot
awh im so sorry to hear that, always here if you want to talk xx
marieroseeee thanks I appreciate it x
this brings back memories.... i was in 7 different psych wards, but because im under 18, we werent allowed any phones or cameras, in all apart from 1 i had a bathroom in my room, even in the picu.... the worst was being on 2 to 1 arms length (2 nurses with me at arms length... :/ ) but i have been out of hospital for 6 months now!! :D
omg i was in the picu at one point and it was hell on earth! and I've also been on arms reach and thats horrendous hahah, very proud of you for getting out of the rut that is hospitalisation - its so hard but well done!! xx
CONGRATS!!!!!
wooooo they let you film in a psych ward, where is this? I live New York, they don't let us have cameras in any hospitals.
yeah we dont allow them where I work (psychiatric hospital) due to HIPPAA....
That was her bedroom. Not her room at the hospital.
@@HurricaneSenpai the end was her room at the hospital
@@Tuggens20 due to what??
It's in the uk
How brave are you showing your ward on the internet, I hope everything's okay ! I've had the same sort of issues but never been admitted to a hospital or anything although been close to, I bet it's so scary ! Hope you're okay now though xxx
Im doing great now, thankyou so much for this comment xxxx
I feel guilty for wishing my mental condition was worse. Sometimes I just want to die but its not to the point where I need to go to a hospital.
You’re honesty is so important, I TOTALLY understand that mentality. It’s like you just want some help because you don’t know how to fix what you’re feeling. Please tell someone - you don’t have to suffer in silence and people will help and value you. I’m so sorry you feel this way, please keep going xxxx
I would be careful with telling stuff like that unless you know of a very good mental hospital off the top of your head. The one I was involuntary placed in was bad. Did nothing for 90% of the time. 3 days cost me $9,000 dollars. Now I’m never going to tell authority figures that I wanna die or anything close to it lol. Just that I’m “very sad”
CrazyTheKureiji im 12 and im going a hospital the Monday.
Thats good
Sims Theatre that must be scary
wait thats a psych hospital room? holy crap thats like a 5 star hotel compared to where i was
oh my gosh same
Grace D really? My room was bigger, had a study and a private bathroom and seating area. Sorry that it wasn't a nice experience x
Grace D my room was a little bit better but not much. We had a bigger bed but we only had one shelf for all our clothes. It dosent sound much better but the room was way bigger
i was in 3 priory hospitals and a cygnet hospital, in the cygnet and 2 of the priorys and the nhs hospital i was at, i had a bathroom and all the rooms were massive, but in the nhs one i got bullied :( but i definetly never want to go back!
Shannon Hultgren Did you pay privately?
You seem so lovely and I think you're growing in to an even stronger person! Lots of love to you xxx
awh thankyou so so much xxxxx
It’s very strange how the American mental health hospitals treat patients verses your guys
better or worse??
marieroseeee worse. Waaayy worse. Like don’t even get me started on the LGBT community gets treated in hospitals.
EvilBeagle really? When I was in one like half of the girls were part of the lgbtq+ community and they treated everyone equally, but yeah you feel like you’re in prison and I personally felt like I was being punished for feeling suicidal.. and ye u weren’t allowed to have electronics only books and ur clothes but they had TVs and activities in the day room- edit: u weren’t allowed to leave until you were discharged but I guess it was only because the maximum stay was a month
Dramatizinglyy if you were gay or transgender you weren’t allowed roommates because you might abuse your roommate
EvilBeagle oh wow now im scared, im bisexual. im going Monday....
I SAW YOU HAVE THE BOOK AM I NORMAL YET IN YOUR SUIT CASE I READ THAT BOOK I LOVE THAT BOOK WITH MY WHOLE HEART HOLY GOD I hope you're okay look after yourself
TELL ME ABOUT IT!!
IM SO HAPPY SOMEONE ELSE HAS FINALLY READ THIS BOOK OH GOD
Roisin Temple the title sounds interesting! what is it about? i may be interested in reading it 😆
K
LilacPastelTrash it's amazing and made me realise I need help with my mental health. Read it a year ago and still haven't opened up 😭
You can really tell the difference from now to here ( 2 years ago) your whole vibe is different! Your voice sounds different just everything .. very proud of you hunny xoxox
how do they let you have curtains and things like that that could be a harm to you...??
jewel duxbury it's click bait
oh that makes sense haha thankss
no its not loool
after the other girl replied to me saying that it was click bait i re-watched the full video and relised it wasn't (first room was your home room and then second room was the mental hospital room) sorry, should have watched full video in the first place :) x
ahh i get it now
That’s really what they look like... my parents didn’t take my self harm very well and told me I’d be sent to a ward and strapped down to a bed and fed through a tube if I didn’t stop. I believed them, and I hid my relapses from them...
ZkeleElla ::/ give or take. The one I went to was not this nice looking but no strapping down unless you started to act insane. And no one will feed you thro a tube unless you are refusing to eat completely. None the less it’s way too expensive for what you get imo
I feel really sick rn it's 23:36 at night in the uk and I feel a bit better watching your videos thx love you marie
She looked so sad at the end her eyes looked a bit watery and her voice trembled a bit. Seconds before she covered up the camera she looked like she was about to break down and cry. Smh y’all
Oh my gosh, you sweet little darling. You seemed quite upset by the end of the video (being back on the ward perhaps). I hope you've made a good recovery and are feeling better these days and get to be at home! All the best to you
I'm glad you're making the best out of the situation and that you try not to hide what is going on in your live. It sure is interesting and I hope you're doing okay now!
Just got discharged from a mental health hospital myself - and videos like this really helped me. Didnt feel like making videos in hospital - but Im starting now!
awww love how you are staying strong and everything, well done and you look great
awh thankyou so so much
More residential type facilities or go home ones on pass here are private insurance only. They don’t do day passes except in state hospitals. The baker act facility’s are a dungeon. I’m glad you where able to have that time to film and be productive somewhat. It’s important and helpful to treatment. I wish they had more of that here. It’s high risk like lock down everywhere here. But it’s all good, I’ve been in a lot of different types and now uninsured keeps me out of them. They feed you drugs and there’s 0 activity’s but a tv and rooms like yours on the ward. They stopped giving go home passes cause everywhere people stopped coming back to hospital.
Keep it up though. I’m proud of you. I’m not judging you. Your a strong woman!
You're so brave! Can I just say your makeup looks great, I'm looking forward to the GRWM and pumpkin carving videos xx
thanks megan and they're coming tonight ;) xx
What is wrong with you all? Oh my god, do you really believe the room where she was first is the room in the hospital she was? You can see that it’s really personal and if you would watch the whole video you would understand it 😑🤦🏽♀️
Wow, this is crazy to see!! I've been to 3 different hospitals and they're all completely different from yours. The windows stay locked with a key, no mirrors, no chairs, the bathroom is separate from the room out in the hallway, a very small shelf to keep your belongings but you're not allowed to bring your own blanket, cell phone, etc. Any shampoo/conditioner or small necessities you have stay under lock and key at the front desk. You can only use them when permitted. No shoes or clothes with strings allowed. No makeup allowed.
When I was in a place like this, we couldnt wear makeup, couldnt wear any kind of jewelry, no phones or cameras, we got about 30mins-1hr to make a phone call each day on the nurses phones, no hair pins or bobby pins, no wire bras, no lace or strings or belts or shoe laces if there were u either had to cut them off or hand them in if they can be removed. The rooms had 2shelf empty book case looking things in the room, each room had 2beds and each room had a bathroom, toilet and shower, no door knobs or locks of course. I didnt have a roomate for like 3days I was soooo bored when I was in my room cant imagine never having one
If you don't mind me asking why was your stay in hospital only one day?? I hope you getting better❤️
She's so brave, and gorgeous 💗
your eyes are sooo pretty! also, your skin looks fine💞
Ive been to a few, but one of mine was like this too but then the other was like a shared room with a bed and 3 shelves and security guards outside the room ! I hope your going better x
Sending my love, so proud of you and I keep saying it but it's so true!! Looked gorgeous x
love youuuuuuu xxxxxx
this was really interesting! Loved your makeup too marie
okay i thought the first room was the hospital room and i was like damn you got studio lights and everything in there hahaha, but nah the second bedroom definitely gives me psych ward room vibes. i hated those rooms, they just feel so bare and bleak, we could bring our own bedding etc to try and give the room some colour but it still always felt cold. we weren't allowed phones/computer/ipad etc either man those times sucked. hope you're doing better nowadays! x
When I was at the psych ward, my bed was plastic, side table was plastic, did have my own bathroom with sink though so that was nice. It was about double the size. Staff was nice but they took my phone and no laces or strings of any kind. So had to cut the ties out of my capris etc.
So u can go home for the weekend (I live in a residential too)
Forgive me, I'm not too familiar with Apple tech - but I'm relatively sure other laptops have a lot more space. My current laptop was manufactured last year. It's an Acer, and has about 915 GB of space on the hard drive - and I have some pretty huge programs on this thing. How much space does your Macbook have?
Omg this room is so sad ... I was in a psych hospital myself for 2 weeks and my room was amazing. I had all the comfort I needed for those 2 weeks and the room was very colorful. It’s sad that this room is so disgusting. It’s even more depressing to live in a room like that I think !
When I was in a psych hospital I had to share my room with 3 other people, all we could have was a bed and bedside table and some of our stuff. The walls and beds were covered with words and pencil scribbles and it was just really depressing lmao. I'm glad you got a nice room
great video! i love your room at your house. i hope your doing better now!
That room looks cozy compared to what I had when I was in ward.. :/ I did not have a room to myself. I had a bed sheet for a blanket and my matters was more of the consistency of a gym mat. Our bathroom would lock if we close it so we always had to get permission to open it (same with going into our rooms) no blinds either just a bed and one shelf. Phones were taken away too, anything metal or “sharp” so no wire bras lol no jewelry etc
The bed there is so hard like a rock. I basically hate that bed. Who else?
True. $1200 a night prison cell. I was locked in for 6 days cause of a lying family member.
What kind of psychiatric ward is this? The ones here are plain and they don't have curtains or anything nice. And you
definitely can't film at them here 😂
if you watch till the end of the video you will see the ward which is plain etc x
Are you under 18? Kids hospitals are usually much more strict
i think i found my new favorite youtuber.
your doing so well hun :) x i was 7 months clean before last week and i just went downhill.
romez in the back @6:14 killed me
Elisa Tladi hahaha same
Your so lucky. The ward I was in wouldnt allow phones. It sucked. I felt so disconnected from the world and my family friends. Its hard
Try an external harddrive, you can get ones with space up to 1TB
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I've been to 3 mental hospitals and a crisis center. One of the psych hospitals I was in the juvenile wing and the other two I was in the adult wing. I was never allowed any electronics at all. All you are really allowed is basic clothing without strings and no shorts or anything considered provocative. I live in California by the way and have been to them in San Diego and Los Angeles
Wonderful video thank you. I've been in hospital also and my room was very similar.
You seem like a lovely person, hope you are doing well xx
thanks for sharing I may try inpatient for my depression I'm worried because I have bladder incontinence not sure how they'll handle it I don't wanna be embarrassed
Why would they let you have your camera, bracelet, scarf, curtains, etc.??
yugenseul They let them have what ever they want to as long as they can't hurt themselves or anyone with them.
you can hurt others and yourself with all those items. Which is why they took all my stuff while i was in the hospital, but alright.
jackie c are you allowed to keep your phone
Not in America. The psychiatric hospitals here are fucking DEPLORABLE. All due to the fact that I wanted help, I called the suicide hotline, and said I was feeling suicidal and talked about a possible plan (even though I told the person that I knew deep-down I wasn't going to harm myself that night), they called the cops on me without warning that it could happen and I was forced to stay at my local hospital in an mental treatment facility that felt more like jail (in formal terms, Involuntary EP Admission) than anything. They gave me a shitty room with just a low-budget tv, a word search booklet, a chair, and a shitty bed, NOTHING else. And remember, I was forced to have security lock up all my belongings such as my phone and wallet and if that doesn't sound bad enough, I'm not done yet. The food they give you smells and tastes like shit and they give you something whether you want food or not. Even foods I usually love taste fucking disgusting. And to add on top of that, my room has open windows out into the corridor w/the front desk my my room doesn't even have a lock, and the lights NEVER turn off. And what about the bathroom? Fuck, that shit room made it even worse! No one gets their own bathroom and everyone in the area instead shares one 24/7 unlocked bathroom with one toilet and a shitty sink with a broken soap dispenser, a weird-ass faucet, and NO paper towels nor hand dryers. There was no hand sanitizer available, even at the front desk and plus, one other patient near my room was severely ill mentally and always went around his room and corridor yelling stupid random fucking bullshit and even did it PAST FUCKING 1 AM. When I asked if I could move somewhere away from this thug, they said I had no choice and that until evaluation by a psychiatrist that i'm "safe" enough to be discharged, I'm by law stuck here no matter how miserable it is. I struggle with anxiety in such situations, but despite the fact that the nurses and security claimed to care for my well-being, I could see right through their numerous white lies that they clearly didn't give a flying fuck. I practically got no sleep that night and despite how many times I asked when I would be evaluated, they would only tell me that they don't know. After fighting my way into reading the information, I realized that the psychiatrist could take 24 FUCKING HOURS to come to me. Thankfully, I was evaluated the next day by late-afternoon and lied my ass off about how i felt just to get the fuck out of that shithole of a mental treatment center. The next day after I'm finally discharged, I'm in so much shock that this all happened and then next evening, I realize I'm nauseous and soon enough, I'm barfing non-stop while still tasting the atrocious tastes I remember from the hospital. I think it's fair to say that my experience only fucked my emotions up even more, despite claims that this experience would do the exact opposite
yugenseul it depends what "level" you're on. Basically the level of risk that you're at and how closely you need to be monitored
Are you allowed to have electronics in the ward? Like your iPad or can you have an iPod or something? Because when I was in a psych ward we couldn’t have those things... which made it a lot more lonely and sad because I couldn’t do anything but lay on my bed and sleep or cry.
How did you manage to have the nurses let you have you cellphone or computer. I got the FU everytime I had my cellphone packed in my luggage whenever I was admitted to psychiatric hospitals or a psychiatric ward?
I've never been a hospital where I could sneak my phone in, but at the time I dont think i ever tried. I would always be confused with other friends that would message me in the hospital wondering how they kept their phone.
Stay strong!!!! Sending all my love to you and I hope everything's alright xxxx
thankyou soso much ashley!! xxxx
Of course her bedroom isnt her hospital room. There would be no filming and pumpkin carving in a psych ward. Anyway valuables are risky in hospital. Be Wise.! The end of the vid I believe shows the room
When I tried to commit suicide at 14 we had 4 cots in one room and one closet with one shelf a piece.... A bathroom with no door just a tiny cubby where the toilet was.. Like prison practically.... No art supplies, no talking to the other kids unless it was in group. Nothing... Literally... They don't know how to handle mental health where I live... They drove me 2 hours from home in a cop car,was in the er on suicide watch for 13 hours, no food! Just a water. They only fed us dinner... So like... Got there at 5 am, they drew blood and tests every morning at 6, so I was so dehydrated and starving til 9 that night.... I was used to it cause I used to not eat but at dinner time everyday. But like i'd never go back...
you are so lucky to have such a nice hospital i hope that your getting better i live your video
Yes I am indeed, thankyou! this was nearly 2 years ago and I’m doing great 🔆
Marie you are incredible some of these comments are awful I’m pretty sure aswell as u are people won’t want to you depressed or sucidal! That room is plain and boring and in no way was u glamorising it;some people want to see what they look like! Near at the end you could see she was about to breakdown! You are so strong Marie and I’m glad to see you-2 years later- stronger than ever! Xxxxx❤️❤️❤️
Is never ever gone into any type (including especially, but in this case especially phys) hospital room & the bed has not been made... Okay only going to private hospitals now - I guess you get what you pay for: so I’m unable to work due to physical disabilities (apart from being mostly confined to bed and needing a full-time Carer) I need a wheelchair - but I would give anything to be able to work!. So I don’t get nice new cloths , new iPhones or iPad’s: literally all of my money goes in private health insurance (you would be shocked at the amount of thousands pay each year), along with medical bills plus medication that isn’t covered under a government safety net program. But I know the high quality of medical care when I need (whatever that type of medical care maybe). I don’t know why this is not having a dig at you personally no one in England seems to consider private health insurance...
You got space in my heart friend
A productive day for you keep the videos coming
I had to stay at a psych ward for 2 weeks because I was a danger to myself and others. When I was everything was bolted to the ground and the beds and pillows were very airy. The worst thing was in the shower there wasn’t a shower head so the water blasted out and it hurt so bad but the other people there were really nice
I've been in 4 different mental hospitals 5 different times (in the US). We don't get to have any of that kind of stuff...decorations/cameras/phone/make up/etc and we definitely don't get to leave when we are inpatient. I just end up Baker Acted then I act the way they want me to and say exactly what they want so I can leave asap.
Phillipa HOGG I think they are talking about the physc ward
i'm so confused, what hospital was this? i've never been admitted to a psych ward but i know that you're generally not allowed to have like any belongings and they even take away your phone and computer and anything that can access the internet (or at least that's how it was a few years back when my friends were in) and like you have giant studio lights, multiple cameras, a laptop obviously for editing/uploading, and im just ???? i know for a fact that they wouldnt let anyone have any big lights like that because they could be used for a weapon and like there's so many rules for psych hospitals . like you cant even have shoelaces...
Melody did you watch until the end of the video? She was allowed leave so the first part of the vlog is her own normal bedroom, then at the end she returns to the psych ward room
you are doing so well
love you girl xxxx
I’ve been hospitalized multiple times at multiple hospitals for Depression/Suicidal Thoughts/Attempts and Self Harm (the last time was when I was 15/16 I’m 20 now) and we weren’t even allowed to use the phone alone let alone have a room like that or access to a computer. What type of facility is this? Like a halfway home type of place? So confused and curious lol. Edit: now I’m really confused.. you can LEAVE the hospital and go home? I need explanations lol.
I have really bad anxiety and unwanted thoughts and it's gotten so bad that yesterday I self harmed for the first time, idk how to ask anyone for help because I'm embarrassed about it
Coco Hofer I also used to self harm. I told my parents by texting them at school. I told them I'm in class so they couldn't call me and basically told them what's going on. Just know that this isn't what you are, and you can get through this! Best of wishes!
That's a really stupid thing to say to someone. It can be really damaging.
paige scene you really are an idiot. She's asking for advice to get help. I think you've been watching to much leafy or onision.
Lychnobite
i watch neither of them 😂😂👏🏼
paige scene sorry. I thought that only people who watch them were judgmental assholes that haven't been through a rough time in their lives.
How come your phsyc ward is so much less hospital like than others? In america you are basically in a prison and you cant leave the ward.
Did you have anxiety in the end of the video? Because I can defineltly see a chance in your voice. It’s more thin and shaky. I shound like that when I have anxiety or I am about to cry.
ugh now I want coffee ☕️
Omg i didn't expect it to look like that!
You are blessed to be able to have and use your phone in the hospital.
towards the end she sounds like she’s going to cry... i bet it’s tough staying there
To be honest I wouldn't go to the mental hospital despite what condition I'm in I'd be more depressed there it would probably drive me real crazy
princess Jasmine she had no choice at one point
I have a lot of the same issues I've been in a short term ward it sucks I'm not aloud to do anything when I'm in there so I can't do videos I cant use my phone i cant even leave the place I've been there 14 times and next time they said that they will put me in a long term ward I said do that and see what happens that made them think I needed to stay longer it sucks when I'm there but I got to a children's hospital for that it makes me mad
I’ve never been in a psych ward with single bed rooms wth kinda luxury
How did you get a phone inside? In America you have to be strip-searched like a prisoner before entering.
Psych ward tour starts at 7:36 for those who are in a hurry and want to see the tour.
you look so pretty!!
awh thankyou soooo much! xxxx
You’re so beautiful! I love your eyes
It's a residential which means u stay there for 6-9 months to a year
really? i was put in a psych ward with absolutely no clothes or belongings, whatsoever.
i'm in a psych ward right now and my room here is cozy as fuck. im already dreading going home again
How did you get a dog and string lights? My hospital would never let me have string lights!
+PyrusPerseus thats my room at the start, the psych hospital is the last one shown
I'm new but why do u only go at night and why were you admitted to one ? X
oh i was on leave at this point, beforehand i had been admitted for 2 months x
+marieroseeee oh okay, thank you for replying! X
Guys the first bedroom is at her house....!
When I was at the hospital all I had was 2 roommates and a bathroom and some cubbies
I wasn’t allowed to have my phone in the psych ward. And I had a roommate
Guys, this is her real room. She says that towards the end.
Hold up- how u get to have a dog and all in a psych ward I mean like I’m in USA so unless ur not that makes since
i'm confused you have a dog and your camera and a cell phone and a camcorder and jewlery/curtains/shoelaces etc? is that like a private/expensive/heavily monitored psych unit? because psych units do /not/ permit any of those things. *maybe* the dslr but they definitely wouldn't let it be kept in your room
Angella Knight watch to the end lol
Im surprised they let you have a camera on the ward ..where I live ..you would never be allowed ..just because of the other people ..its a privacy thing ..even though u wouldn't take any pics or video one of the patients ..they don't care they wont take any chances
I went to Harbor Oaks and holy crap it sucked. I was only 9 years old. I couldn't take my phone or anything.