This is incredibly validating. Jealousy is an aspect of BPD that is very intense for me and I’ve been so ashamed to admit it. I just finished DBT in January, which has been tremendously helpful, but it’s still an emotion I struggle to understand and to accept...
I know so many BPD people who have jealousy and envy. I never understood why because these people are usually awesome and have little reason to be envious of anyone else! But I guess to them, they don't see how awesome they are. It's heartbreaking.
I can relate, I'm bpd and I sometimes experience extreme jealousy and hatred of other females and I'm not proud of it I feel like a terrible person. I hate the way I look I am terribly self conscious and feel like the ugliest female alive and yet I don't see ugliness in anyone else everyone has attractive aesthetuc qualities and I envy them. I am not by any means a shallow person I see more in a person than their physical appearance but a lot of the time I do find myself getting depressed about my looks and pushing people away (like my on/off partner). My jealousy is ruining my relationship, I constantly accuse my partner of wanting better looking women and won't accept any compliments from him and it's going around in circles. I just refuse to accept that he wants me because I am worthless.
Nicole Macca literally how i feel. I also accuse my partner of wanting to cheat on me because i can’t see someone wanting to be with me. I also get jealous when we’re around other women even if they’re the girlfriend of his friend. I think he compares me to them and wishes i was more like them.
@@brittani9742 OMG that's so me. I ALWAYS tell my husband that. That he wants me to be like all females that are around him. Because I'm not worthy of his love. So freaking depressing.
The self hatred is soooo deep I remember feeling so insecure when I was pregnant and jealous of other girls... I didn't let my fiance shop with me in the fear that he'd see another woman and fantasize about her
Michi, the one thing about those of us who have BPD, is our incredible self-awareness. You have articulated, perfectly, all that I experience. I was diagnosed at 26, but only got the real help I need at age 58, when I got into the BPD program at CAMH, in Toronto, to learn DBT. At 69, I still struggle with everything you talk about in this video. Life has ben a tremendous struggle, but I still chase my dreams and, even, catch them! DBT, when learned at a younger age, can be very successful. For older people, it's more difficult to change. I am much better, though, thanks to DBT. I have great hope for you, Michi, that you will be helped by DBT. You are always going to be a creative, thinking out of the box person, which is great!!! You can and will achieve things most people can only dream about. Shine on! BTW, I have a podcast. If you would like to be my guest, to talk about life, the universe and everything, you are welcome!!! I know people would enjoy hearing your take on things.
This really hits home for me. I've struggled with this as long as I can remember. It's always worse when it comes to my FP. I have found myself questioning who he's talking to, why it's not me and want him all to myself. It is alot better now but it took just over a year to really learn and let go of those jealous thoughts, in doing so it has definitely released the stress I felt around it. I do still get majorly jealous from time to time of a mutual friend that lives near him and can physically see him, hug him and really be with him, I live on the other side of the world so can't do what she can. Having said that I am starting to be able to get a hold of that one and hopefully soon I can bury it. As always it's a great video xxx
I can’t say I’m jealous but more sad..I see people on FB with their families(husband/kids), going on vacations and parties..Some have the career I wanted...I know that I will never be the person or have the life I had imagined or hoped for...
I have felt similar emotions. Example: I go grocery shopping and see ladies who look messy, overweight, their kids with dirty faces and nails, and I think, why do those ladies have husbands and I can't find an overstanding partner? I don't ever feel jealous over looks, just other's "perfect" life. Hope you're having a good day 🌸
I deal with all of this. It's really hard, and people totally don't normally get it. My husband is the best thing that happened to me, but, even with him I still struggle and am sooo hard on myself. Thanks so much for explaining this.
The more I watch about BPD... the less I feel alone. That I’m not the only one like this and other people have the same struggles I do. 😕 It’s comforting in a twisted way. 🤦🏻♀️🙄🥺
I feel this way with my ex. I did things to push him away and eventually he left because I drained him. Then since I cannot be alone, I starting having unsafe sex, smoking bud/cigs non stop, getting drunk and found a new favorite person to deal with my pain. Then on his social media which I stalk daily, multiple times a day, I see he has a new girlfriend, I saw completely red. I became obsessed with checking his page every 1 hour just to torture myself saying “no one will ever love me because I have this, this new girlfriend has everything I don’t, I was too ugly in the first place” etc, it’s exhausting. I’m tired of obsessing over one thing. I am now in a relationship with someone new, I love him and he understands me, but I still have jealously when it comes to my ex and I feel like I’m abandoned by both. Idk if this makes sense but it’s making me crazy.
The way we are wired never makes sense... But sometimes you just need to get through without being guilty of such emotions... We are human some of us take time to get over things... Even I feel at times I should not express my irrational fears otherwise people will leave....
I totally relate to this video, of. Being jealous of other women , & people, my ex bf , all my partners all said they broke up w/ me cause I’m insecure & crazy , during my pregnancy, I stalked my baby dad . Was a total nut ball , the constant pushing and pulling & then cutting people off like cold Turkey, the persons either evil or good . But my favorite “ people “ I tend to idolize, & social media isn’t really good for me as a BPD .
This is very relatable, I have been struggling with all of this. Thank you for expressing and explaining the sheer weight of these symptoms. Its difficult to overcome, but not impossible
Finally another video! Yay!!!!!!! Jealousy is definitely one of my least favorite feelings, but at the end of the day,we r safe . Take care,I’ll always support you from China.
Sometimes I can’t even read other people’s writing in my classes with out almost suffocating no one notices but I mean each compliment others get that I never do straight up feels like an arrow through me. Idk I try to chill but lowkey I think envy is one of those emotions that ppl pick up even with the slightest change
i have an extreme problem with jealousy, i get so jealous that i start to hate the person, i make fake accounts and hate on them, stalk them, try to lower their self esteem, copy them and claim its mine, i even made a few people (that i never met irl) leave their social media accounts, i cry, self harm, have suicidal thoughts (i attempted once) im honestly a really horrible person and my parents told me they can barely live with me. fortunately im going to a psychiatrist soon so hopefully they'll help me
Your hair and makeup are soooo pretty! I love how well you explain things. I've always had jealousy issues a lot for so many reasons, and a lot stems from being disabled and feeling like I don't compare to the able-bodied (I've literally had certain guys tell me I couldn't expect to be treated on the same level as an able-bodied girl); and just feel really out of place. Plus, I'm sure you've seen for yourself some of the hate I get from being different with that, and I feel like that bullying aspect, and just dealing with so much cruelness from people, over the years is what honestly makes me very misanthropic a lot, as bad as that sounds. It's really so weird, because some have said I'm pretty or cute or whatnot; and yet, I've received some vicious comments about my appearance specifically (or my disability, basically), and it's just pretty sick, really. It shows me what kind of world we live in. It just makes me really distrustful and whatnot. Then, even when people do compliment me, it makes me wonder if they really mean it or just feel sorry for me with my situation. Honestly, I know BPD, and depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc are mental illnesses, but really.... with how the world is, can you really blame people for getting sick of it and getting tired of watching childish, toxic behavior from so many people? Because I just feel like in so many cases, it's valid. Personally, I just get tired of the world being so superficial, and judgmental, on some much, including with mental illness. Sorry, I just felt like I needed to rant. Lately has just been shitty a lot for me. I would go back to the hospital, but a few years ago, that didn't work out so well. They kept screwing up my meds (and wouldn't believe me or listen to me about it) and took forever just to even try to figure out a vehicle to transport my wheelchair, and by the time they were doing that, I just worked on trying to get the hell out of there from having such a terrible experience with it.
And what you said described so much of how I feel, that it seems like for other people, it's just a lot easier. They don't deal with my health problems or just a lot of what I do. Life is easier for a lot of other people. They're up walking and don't have the weakness and breathing aspect. Then, it always affected my social life, too, and watching everyone get to do what they wanted a lot easier, and it's just bullshit imo. I'm not sure why different situations would happen to anyone, and not just mine, but others, too. It just seems shitty. That's why I'm not a religious person. I can't believe in a god or anything when I see how things are in life.
Alisha you are the strongest person i have ever heard of. you are still despite every trial you have faced and I hope you know that you are an inspiration to me 🖤
Michi Mavros Awww, thank you. That means a lot. 💕 I guess that's the main thing is still trying to hang on to hope, somehow, and trying to move forward, even if everything is stacked against you with a lot. Sometimes, I feel like all we may get is this life. So, might as well try to hang on and try to make it better, but yeah, it does get trying in different situations. I really hope you're doing better with different things. I'm looking forward to your future posts about your experiences with therapy and whatnot. I'm about to start back on that, as well, myself.
I can relate to a lot of those feelings and I don't even have BPD. I agree that you explain the disorder very well. I have supsected for a long time that my daughter has it and your videos confirm my beliefs. You videos are far better than reading the DSM-5 or any other educational book.
I have bpd but on top of it my mom was always jealous of me and I was never able to be around her and her boyfriends and growing up with that resulted in me being a very jealous person. its weird tho becuz im more jealous of people who are happy and has a good life and I guess I just wanna be happy to but I always destroy myself.
I’m afraid of these feelings. I wanted to trust I wanted to feel secure. But something about my brain won’t let me. It’s okay though. It’s time to rewire and give myself some time to get to know me and my core content. :)
You know what I didn’t like the first videos I watch but o kept watching them and your amazing I got bpd and your videos explain why I’m so fucked up in a funny way thank u ❤️
Your so pretty I love how you can pull off every hair color😍😍😍😍 also thank u for sharing your story and knowledge you change a lot of lives everyday and it takes a really brave person to come on here and use their voice to help others ❤️ thank u🌻
Omg I love your hair in this video it’s so beautiful 😍 I used to have coloured hair I miss it haha thank you for this video it makes me feel like I am not alone in this ❤️
It's so hard being short sometimes (I'm a guy 5 foot 7). Some people actually think that just because you're a certain height, you're predispositioned to be more attracted to things of comparable stature. I especially get it a lot from women. I find larger, more wolf like dogs more attractive because usually, that's just what guys like. Women expect me to be more into pugs and French bulldogs because that's what I should be into according to my height. If I say I like Rams more than priuses, it's because I have a napoleon complex apparently. I've always been attracted to athletic bodies because I've always loved sports. If I show a lot of interest in the 6 foot 2 tennis players and volleyball players, women want to criminalize me for not being interested in the 4 foot eleven gymnasts or equestrians as if I'm betraying the people who I'm "supposed" to be with. Everything is always an inferiority complex with people like us according to others. For me it's not exactly that, it's more internal. I don't care that the guy next to me is taller. I'm only upset that I'm not as tall. Height sucks because it's something you have no control over and people treat you as if you do. I call it the I didn't get what I wanted for Christmas complex. You tell Santa what you want, you wait all year. And you get some random crap you never asked for and people perceive that "gift" as something you were actually interested in.
I know a girl with BPD that cleaved to me as a favorite person, she's inevitably split, and now she's mimicking and idealized my wife. Any of you with BPD have insight into this? What is she scheming?
Ive dated a woman with BPD traits, and she often tried to induce jealousy in me, by triangulation and flirting with my friends, and even strangers. I didnt respond well to that and would just try to ignore that behavior. Eventually she told me that i obviously didnt love her enough because i wasnt posessive. It seems that BPD women love to make their partners jealous as a test.
I love your videos! They are so informative and I see myself in a lot of what you say. It rang true to me about not feeling normal and the jealousy about not feeling like you measure up to people. Love your voice, mannerisms and style. Very enjoyable to watch. I get excited when you have new videos. Thanks so much!
you only have bpd if you surrender yourself to it. i “have bpd” but i have instead of calling myself bpd and going speak to a doctor who only benefits from me limiting myself to a mental disorder, i worked on self love and self sufficiency and controlling my emotions and i dont have bpd anymore. anyone can do this but everybody wants to have something wrong with them that stops them from moving forward because they are scared to. i have been there. you must clear this hurdle in order to find true happiness.
See I saw you and I immediately got jealous cause you look pretty. This happens to me all the time. Everywhere I go, I get jealous how beautiful and sexy other girls are. When I’m with my boyfriend, I just don’t want him to look at other girls. They look pretty and I’m less. I just don’t like seeing pretty sexy girls. It kills me
I have a good friend that I work with we work well together. And then another person came in the picture I was jealous I wanted to hurt that person. But since the increase of one my tablets I relax more
hey Misha i am from Germany and unfortunately my english is not the best i am sorry I also have a borderline personality disorder and was now in therapy for 10 weeks now I watch your videos for a short time now and you've helped me a lot further maybe I can help you with this tip I've learned in the therapy bit further that explains so I should choose an imaginary companion or an old stuffier or your pet anybody no human and that is your loving companion you always when you have time to write or if you are alone or you do not feel good one helps should symbolize the inner voice and give power I have been doing this for some time now and I am safer and knows there is something in me something good that does not make me forget maybe you want to try it out thanks for your great videos best regards patricia :)
patii Wings heeey I actually really like that idea thank you so much!!! I will definitely try that out I really appreciate you sharing that with me take care and stay strong:)
Hey! That sound a LOT like my girlfriend, how could i help her? Like if she is jealous of something like money/getting things easier or other people, what could i say/do to her to make her feel better? Thank you!!
I dont really get jelous i do have alot of insecurities that when i see other people i feel like "man id like to have that," or "be there" or "look like that" i dont think thats a borderline reaction though i think thats thoughts that pass thru everybodies mind but i dont feel any anomosity toward anyone for them getting those things id like to have i genuinely feel happy that they got it like that, id just like to be there too... if that makes sense i questioned at times if jelousy is a normal emotion for borderlines but i feel that learning i was borderline was like half of it when i started digging into meyers briggs 16 personalities i learned i was INFP and its like the other half clicked because we arent only infuenced by our BPD there are other things that make up who we are and how we feel maybe your personality type in meyers briggs are more jelous something to think about
i love this girl and i think she has bpd. She recently just stopped texting me and we love each other. Idk what to do. Should i be friends with her or move on? this is hard . She means alot to me
ah nice makes sense. i'm glad your sharing your emotional experiences rather than hiding them like traditional scorps. iv'e found that astrology and looking through my natal chart really helped to validate many parts of my identity. I have a lot of fun going oh yea that makes sense or no that makes no sense at all. I really recommend going through it if you haven't already it's extremely fascinating. www.astro-seek.com/
Before I even watched this video let me tell you something, you think the world of a chick, take showers and brush your teeth everyday doing the world for a chick. Then she has the nerve to introduce you to her loser new bf who doesn't lift a finger for them, you try to keep the friendship going, and these same chicks have the nerve to rub it in your face how they found the love of their life, and how they're happy to have a friend just like you that listens. You always look upset I just wish you can open up and tell me what's troubling you? Yeah maybe it's not borderline. Maybe these people around us truly are nuts! Man I need to start1 of these channels. This is a good topic!
I'm not sticking around if they're screwing around on me. I'm not "sharing" that. That's a little too "tinder" for me. Sorry, its not hip, its disgusting. Especially if they are gonna flaunt them in front you. Not cool.
You are cute Michi but you also have so much more to offer to others, just look how many you are helping, myself included. Big hugs and lots of love and light lass 💓😊
This is incredibly validating. Jealousy is an aspect of BPD that is very intense for me and I’ve been so ashamed to admit it. I just finished DBT in January, which has been tremendously helpful, but it’s still an emotion I struggle to understand and to accept...
I know so many BPD people who have jealousy and envy. I never understood why because these people are usually awesome and have little reason to be envious of anyone else! But I guess to them, they don't see how awesome they are. It's heartbreaking.
I can relate, I'm bpd and I sometimes experience extreme jealousy and hatred of other females and I'm not proud of it I feel like a terrible person. I hate the way I look I am terribly self conscious and feel like the ugliest female alive and yet I don't see ugliness in anyone else everyone has attractive aesthetuc qualities and I envy them. I am not by any means a shallow person I see more in a person than their physical appearance but a lot of the time I do find myself getting depressed about my looks and pushing people away (like my on/off partner). My jealousy is ruining my relationship, I constantly accuse my partner of wanting better looking women and won't accept any compliments from him and it's going around in circles. I just refuse to accept that he wants me because I am worthless.
Nicole Macca literally how i feel. I also accuse my partner of wanting to cheat on me because i can’t see someone wanting to be with me. I also get jealous when we’re around other women even if they’re the girlfriend of his friend. I think he compares me to them and wishes i was more like them.
Me too :( constantly. I hate it.
Can relate 100%. I'm single now and my ex is getting back together with his ex lol. Surely makes me hate myself even more.
@@brittani9742 OMG that's so me. I ALWAYS tell my husband that. That he wants me to be like all females that are around him. Because I'm not worthy of his love. So freaking depressing.
No one could have described this feeling better holy hell I’ve tried to word to before but that’s exactly it.
The self hatred is soooo deep
I remember feeling so insecure when I was pregnant and jealous of other girls... I didn't let my fiance shop with me in the fear that he'd see another woman and fantasize about her
Story of my life!!. Even struggle to watch tv or sport with husband...😢
My friend has BPD and she struggles with jealousy. Thank you for this video I'm trying to understand how she feels. 💗
Michi, the one thing about those of us who have BPD, is our incredible self-awareness. You have articulated, perfectly, all that I experience. I was diagnosed at 26, but only got the real help I need at age 58, when I got into the BPD program at CAMH, in Toronto, to learn DBT. At 69, I still struggle with everything you talk about in this video. Life has ben a tremendous struggle, but I still chase my dreams and, even, catch them! DBT, when learned at a younger age, can be very successful. For older people, it's more difficult to change. I am much better, though, thanks to DBT. I have great hope for you, Michi, that you will be helped by DBT. You are always going to be a creative, thinking out of the box person, which is great!!! You can and will achieve things most people can only dream about. Shine on! BTW, I have a podcast. If you would like to be my guest, to talk about life, the universe and everything, you are welcome!!! I know people would enjoy hearing your take on things.
This really hits home for me. I've struggled with this as long as I can remember. It's always worse when it comes to my FP. I have found myself questioning who he's talking to, why it's not me and want him all to myself. It is alot better now but it took just over a year to really learn and let go of those jealous thoughts, in doing so it has definitely released the stress I felt around it. I do still get majorly jealous from time to time of a mutual friend that lives near him and can physically see him, hug him and really be with him, I live on the other side of the world so can't do what she can. Having said that I am starting to be able to get a hold of that one and hopefully soon I can bury it.
As always it's a great video xxx
What's FP
I can’t say I’m jealous but more sad..I see people on FB with their families(husband/kids), going on vacations and parties..Some have the career I wanted...I know that I will never be the person or have the life I had imagined or hoped for...
I see FAKE FAKE FAKE with others in social media and I wonder what makes these ppl tick and if they realize how shallow and vain they appear?
I have felt similar emotions. Example: I go grocery shopping and see ladies who look messy, overweight, their kids with dirty faces and nails, and I think, why do those ladies have husbands and I can't find an overstanding partner? I don't ever feel jealous over looks, just other's "perfect" life. Hope you're having a good day 🌸
@@buebitohonguito4061 you too!!
definitely feel that!
Very good job, Michi. At the heart of BPD are fear of abandonment and unclear self image, so it isn´t surprising that jealousy creeps in.
I deal with all of this. It's really hard, and people totally don't normally get it. My husband is the best thing that happened to me, but, even with him I still struggle and am sooo hard on myself. Thanks so much for explaining this.
The more I watch about BPD... the less I feel alone. That I’m not the only one like this and other people have the same struggles I do. 😕 It’s comforting in a twisted way. 🤦🏻♀️🙄🥺
I feel this way with my ex. I did things to push him away and eventually he left because I drained him. Then since I cannot be alone, I starting having unsafe sex, smoking bud/cigs non stop, getting drunk and found a new favorite person to deal with my pain. Then on his social media which I stalk daily, multiple times a day, I see he has a new girlfriend, I saw completely red. I became obsessed with checking his page every 1 hour just to torture myself saying “no one will ever love me because I have this, this new girlfriend has everything I don’t, I was too ugly in the first place” etc, it’s exhausting. I’m tired of obsessing over one thing. I am now in a relationship with someone new, I love him and he understands me, but I still have jealously when it comes to my ex and I feel like I’m abandoned by both. Idk if this makes sense but it’s making me crazy.
The way we are wired never makes sense... But sometimes you just need to get through without being guilty of such emotions... We are human some of us take time to get over things... Even I feel at times I should not express my irrational fears otherwise people will leave....
I totally relate to this video, of. Being jealous of other women , & people, my ex bf , all my partners all said they broke up w/ me cause I’m insecure & crazy , during my pregnancy, I stalked my baby dad . Was a total nut ball , the constant pushing and pulling & then cutting people off like cold Turkey, the persons either evil or good . But my favorite “ people “ I tend to idolize, & social media isn’t really good for me as a BPD .
When you said we suffer EVERY SINGLE DAY... I felt that 🥺💔 sums it up... Everyday is emotional torture.
"Ray of Fukcin sunshine" yass girl .Thank you for this
This is very relatable, I have been struggling with all of this. Thank you for expressing and explaining the sheer weight of these symptoms. Its difficult to overcome, but not impossible
Mr. Blue i agree thank you so much for watching and the comment hopefully soon we can all overcoming it take care
I love your personality you come across like a really nice person thank you for the video
I have BPD and frequently get dissociative episodes. I would love to hear your side on this as you have a great insight being diagnosed as well.
This is a highlighted comment? please please do a video
She did do a video called BPD and dissacciation
Finally another video! Yay!!!!!!! Jealousy is definitely one of my least favorite feelings, but at the end of the day,we r safe . Take care,I’ll always support you from China.
Sometimes I can’t even read other people’s writing in my classes with out almost suffocating no one notices but I mean each compliment others get that I never do straight up feels like an arrow through me. Idk I try to chill but lowkey I think envy is one of those emotions that ppl pick up even with the slightest change
Probably one of the best descriptions of this disorder..She gives a deep insight on a human level ..love from Northern Ireland..
I thought it was just me!! Thank you for making this video. It was really helpful.
i have an extreme problem with jealousy, i get so jealous that i start to hate the person, i make fake accounts and hate on them, stalk them, try to lower their self esteem, copy them and claim its mine, i even made a few people (that i never met irl) leave their social media accounts, i cry, self harm, have suicidal thoughts (i attempted once) im honestly a really horrible person and my parents told me they can barely live with me. fortunately im going to a psychiatrist soon so hopefully they'll help me
You’re a kid. You dont know any better but get help now before you end up getting worse end up in prison or worse
Your hair and makeup are soooo pretty! I love how well you explain things. I've always had jealousy issues a lot for so many reasons, and a lot stems from being disabled and feeling like I don't compare to the able-bodied (I've literally had certain guys tell me I couldn't expect to be treated on the same level as an able-bodied girl); and just feel really out of place. Plus, I'm sure you've seen for yourself some of the hate I get from being different with that, and I feel like that bullying aspect, and just dealing with so much cruelness from people, over the years is what honestly makes me very misanthropic a lot, as bad as that sounds.
It's really so weird, because some have said I'm pretty or cute or whatnot; and yet, I've received some vicious comments about my appearance specifically (or my disability, basically), and it's just pretty sick, really. It shows me what kind of world we live in. It just makes me really distrustful and whatnot. Then, even when people do compliment me, it makes me wonder if they really mean it or just feel sorry for me with my situation.
Honestly, I know BPD, and depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc are mental illnesses, but really.... with how the world is, can you really blame people for getting sick of it and getting tired of watching childish, toxic behavior from so many people? Because I just feel like in so many cases, it's valid. Personally, I just get tired of the world being so superficial, and judgmental, on some much, including with mental illness.
Sorry, I just felt like I needed to rant. Lately has just been shitty a lot for me. I would go back to the hospital, but a few years ago, that didn't work out so well. They kept screwing up my meds (and wouldn't believe me or listen to me about it) and took forever just to even try to figure out a vehicle to transport my wheelchair, and by the time they were doing that, I just worked on trying to get the hell out of there from having such a terrible experience with it.
And what you said described so much of how I feel, that it seems like for other people, it's just a lot easier. They don't deal with my health problems or just a lot of what I do. Life is easier for a lot of other people. They're up walking and don't have the weakness and breathing aspect. Then, it always affected my social life, too, and watching everyone get to do what they wanted a lot easier, and it's just bullshit imo. I'm not sure why different situations would happen to anyone, and not just mine, but others, too. It just seems shitty. That's why I'm not a religious person. I can't believe in a god or anything when I see how things are in life.
Alisha you are the strongest person i have ever heard of. you are still despite every trial you have faced and I hope you know that you are an inspiration to me 🖤
Michi Mavros Awww, thank you. That means a lot. 💕
I guess that's the main thing is still trying to hang on to hope, somehow, and trying to move forward, even if everything is stacked against you with a lot. Sometimes, I feel like all we may get is this life. So, might as well try to hang on and try to make it better, but yeah, it does get trying in different situations.
I really hope you're doing better with different things. I'm looking forward to your future posts about your experiences with therapy and whatnot. I'm about to start back on that, as well, myself.
110% me. OMG. Feel like noone else has ever understood the feeling til now
christina aguilera was right , i am beautiful no matter what they say . except im the one saying the bad things
I can relate to a lot of those feelings and I don't even have BPD. I agree that you explain the disorder very well. I have supsected for a long time that my daughter has it and your videos confirm my beliefs. You videos are far better than reading the DSM-5 or any other educational book.
I have bpd but on top of it my mom was always jealous of me and I was never able to be around her and her boyfriends and growing up with that resulted in me being a very jealous person. its weird tho becuz im more jealous of people who are happy and has a good life and I guess I just wanna be happy to but I always destroy myself.
"you can be that ray of fucking sunshine"
You're champion! 😘 Brava.
This hits home in a huge way. Damn.
I’m afraid of these feelings. I wanted to trust I wanted to feel secure. But something about my brain won’t let me. It’s okay though. It’s time to rewire and give myself some time to get to know me and my core content. :)
🎶 Blue his house with a blue little window...
I love that you described everything so perfect. Ugh
You know what I didn’t like the first videos I watch but o kept watching them and your amazing I got bpd and your videos explain why I’m so fucked up in a funny way thank u ❤️
Thank you for talking about this. Another "great" thing about having BPD..
BTW. I like you, and you are very beautiful
Your so pretty I love how you can pull off every hair color😍😍😍😍 also thank u for sharing your story and knowledge you change a lot of lives everyday and it takes a really brave person to come on here and use their voice to help others ❤️ thank u🌻
Haha. This is the only thing thats never really been a problem for me. I mean, i feel jealous too, but its never been an issue for me.
I dont know if this is even a borderline issue, or rather a completely separate one.
I love watching your videos
They make me feel like I'm not alone and that its okay
I know these feelings. Can be super heavy... ♡♡
Omg I love your hair in this video it’s so beautiful 😍 I used to have coloured hair I miss it haha thank you for this video it makes me feel like I am not alone in this ❤️
It's so hard being short sometimes (I'm a guy 5 foot 7). Some people actually think that just because you're a certain height, you're predispositioned to be more attracted to things of comparable stature. I especially get it a lot from women. I find larger, more wolf like dogs more attractive because usually, that's just what guys like. Women expect me to be more into pugs and French bulldogs because that's what I should be into according to my height. If I say I like Rams more than priuses, it's because I have a napoleon complex apparently. I've always been attracted to athletic bodies because I've always loved sports. If I show a lot of interest in the 6 foot 2 tennis players and volleyball players, women want to criminalize me for not being interested in the 4 foot eleven gymnasts or equestrians as if I'm betraying the people who I'm "supposed" to be with. Everything is always an inferiority complex with people like us according to others. For me it's not exactly that, it's more internal. I don't care that the guy next to me is taller. I'm only upset that I'm not as tall. Height sucks because it's something you have no control over and people treat you as if you do. I call it the I didn't get what I wanted for Christmas complex. You tell Santa what you want, you wait all year. And you get some random crap you never asked for and people perceive that "gift" as something you were actually interested in.
needed this soooo much! I love you, thank you!
This explains a lot.
I know a girl with BPD that cleaved to me as a favorite person, she's inevitably split, and now she's mimicking and idealized my wife.
Any of you with BPD have insight into this? What is she scheming?
This video made me cry because I can relate a lot
Ive dated a woman with BPD traits, and she often tried to induce jealousy in me, by triangulation and flirting with my friends, and even strangers.
I didnt respond well to that and would just try to ignore that behavior. Eventually she told me that i obviously didnt love her enough because i wasnt posessive.
It seems that BPD women love to make their partners jealous as a test.
I love your videos! They are so informative and I see myself in a lot of what you say. It rang true to me about not feeling normal and the jealousy about not feeling like you measure up to people. Love your voice, mannerisms and style. Very enjoyable to watch. I get excited when you have new videos. Thanks so much!
you only have bpd if you surrender yourself to it. i “have bpd” but i have instead of calling myself bpd and going speak to a doctor who only benefits from me limiting myself to a mental disorder, i worked on self love and self sufficiency and controlling my emotions and i dont have bpd anymore. anyone can do this but everybody wants to have something wrong with them that stops them from moving forward because they are scared to. i have been there. you must clear this hurdle in order to find true happiness.
TheStufftodo i agree!!!
You can't just get rid of bpd... It doesn't go away, it will always be with you, you just learn to manage it better.
Love ur vids. Thanx 🙏
I'm literally taking a break from Twitter because seeing them be amazing just makes me hate myself
How have i found a person that is just like me😭😭😭😭😭😭 every video of yours really hits home 😭
See I saw you and I immediately got jealous cause you look pretty. This happens to me all the time. Everywhere I go, I get jealous how beautiful and sexy other girls are. When I’m with my boyfriend, I just don’t want him to look at other girls. They look pretty and I’m less. I just don’t like seeing pretty sexy girls. It kills me
Beautiful voice ❤️❤️❤️
I hate how hard I relate to every word
I have a good friend that I work with we work well together. And then another person came in the picture I was jealous I wanted to hurt that person. But since the increase of one my tablets I relax more
hey Misha i am from Germany and unfortunately my english is not the best i am sorry
I also have a borderline personality disorder and was now in therapy for 10 weeks now I watch your videos for a short time now and you've helped me a lot further maybe I can help you with this tip I've learned in the therapy bit further that explains so I should choose an imaginary companion or an old stuffier or your pet anybody no human and that is your loving companion you always when you have time to write or if you are alone or you do not feel good one helps should symbolize the inner voice and give power I have been doing this for some time now and I am safer and knows there is something in me something good that does not make me forget maybe you want to try it out
thanks for your great videos
best regards patricia :)
patii Wings heeey I actually really like that idea thank you so much!!! I will definitely try that out I really appreciate you sharing that with me take care and stay strong:)
I think this is why I stay single 😢
Hey! That sound a LOT like my girlfriend, how could i help her? Like if she is jealous of something like money/getting things easier or other people, what could i say/do to her to make her feel better? Thank you!!
I dont really get jelous i do have alot of insecurities that when i see other people i feel like "man id like to have that," or "be there" or "look like that" i dont think thats a borderline reaction though i think thats thoughts that pass thru everybodies mind but i dont feel any anomosity toward anyone for them getting those things id like to have i genuinely feel happy that they got it like that, id just like to be there too... if that makes sense i questioned at times if jelousy is a normal emotion for borderlines but i feel that learning i was borderline was like half of it when i started digging into meyers briggs 16 personalities i learned i was INFP and its like the other half clicked because we arent only infuenced by our BPD there are other things that make up who we are and how we feel maybe your personality type in meyers briggs are more jelous something to think about
Then again im not perfect i dont have the answers they do say no 2 borderlines are the same
could you maybe do a video on bpd and fps?
Whats fp
i love this girl and i think she has bpd. She recently just stopped texting me and we love each other. Idk what to do. Should i be friends with her or move on? this is hard . She means alot to me
Is it common to feel jealousy towards your fp's family? Like absolutely hating when they get more attention than you do??
Whats a fp
I cant go out with my girlfriend because she dances all sexy, in nightclubs and put me on the edge. I feel really like stupid for this
Michi Mavros thanks for blowing me that kiss at the end of the video (I've had a hard day).
can you do a Q&A? I wanna know what your sign is
sarah soubra id love to!! I'm a SCORP hahaha the craziest sign
ah nice makes sense. i'm glad your sharing your emotional experiences rather than hiding them like traditional scorps. iv'e found that astrology and looking through my natal chart really helped to validate many parts of my identity. I have a lot of fun going oh yea that makes sense or no that makes no sense at all. I really recommend going through it if you haven't already it's extremely fascinating. www.astro-seek.com/
I'm a Scorpio too and have bpd! Mines Nov 9th, when's yours??
I'm a virgo august 27 my moon is in cancer, mars in scorpio which I feel directly connects to my bpd
Michi Mavros Scorpios are my favorite people ❤️
Before I even watched this video let me tell you something, you think the world of a chick, take showers and brush your teeth everyday doing the world for a chick. Then she has the nerve to introduce you to her loser new bf who doesn't lift a finger for them, you try to keep the friendship going, and these same chicks have the nerve to rub it in your face how they found the love of their life, and how they're happy to have a friend just like you that listens. You always look upset I just wish you can open up and tell me what's troubling you? Yeah maybe it's not borderline. Maybe these people around us truly are nuts! Man I need to start1 of these channels. This is a good topic!
I'm not sticking around if they're screwing around on me. I'm not "sharing" that. That's a little too "tinder" for me. Sorry, its not hip, its disgusting. Especially if they are gonna flaunt them in front you. Not cool.
U can vent to us whenever u need to Michi!
U get it! ….Also U look like a beautiful Tim burton character💙
youre so damn pretty lol
You are cute Michi but you also have so much more to offer to others, just look how many you are helping, myself included. Big hugs and lots of love and light lass 💓😊